{"type":"rich","version":"1.0","provider_name":"Transistor","provider_url":"https://transistor.fm","author_name":"How's Your Ma Podcast","title":"How's Your Ma: Episode 9 (Jackie support and survival pt2)","html":"","width":"100%","height":180,"duration":3924,"description":"In this raw and deeply moving second part of Jackie's story, Orla, Leanne and Jackie pick up where they left off — and what follows is one of the most honest and courageous conversations the pod has had.Jackie takes us through the moment she discovered she was pregnant with Abby, and the immediate unravelling of Tony's mask — from \"that's what we always wanted\" to \"I don't believe you're pregnant\" within days. What should have been a time of joy became another chapter of coercive control, fear, and isolation, compounded by the devastating news at Jackie's 20-week scan that her baby had a serious heart condition. Abby was born with a complex congenital heart defect — her organs on the wrong side, her heart with only two chambers and a large hole between them — and was rushed straight to Crumlin Children's Hospital from birth. Jackie describes the terror of bringing a medically fragile baby home with a 50% chance of not making it to her first birthday, learning CPR at the hospital door, and doing it all largely alone while living in fear of Abby's father.As Abby grew, so did the abuse — escalating to the night Tony picked Jackie up and threw her across the room in front of Abby, telling her he would have her killed. That was Jackie's light bulb moment. She talks about the court process, the safety orders that were just pieces of paper to him, the guards who didn't take her seriously, and the slow, painful road to finally getting out. She also opens up about eventually finding support through Aoibhneas domestic violence services, being diagnosed with PTSD, and what it felt like to finally have her experience validated.Jackie also speaks about her mother — learning at her deathbed that she likely had autism, and the grief and guilt that came a year later when everything finally made sense. And she speaks about her father, whom she cared for despite everything, and who told her she wasn't his.This is an episode about survival — not just Jackie's, but Abby's. Today,...","thumbnail_url":"https://img.transistorcdn.com/FUVDSkfVPC0QV4Qius2XwJXiLtOKT4vb9TebidaGyrI/rs:fill:0:0:1/w:400/h:400/q:60/mb:500000/aHR0cHM6Ly9pbWct/dXBsb2FkLXByb2R1/Y3Rpb24udHJhbnNp/c3Rvci5mbS9mZGQ1/YmQ5MjYyMGQwMjhi/YTM0MTRiNDY1OTY1/MDIxMi5qcGVn.webp","thumbnail_width":300,"thumbnail_height":300}