{"type":"rich","version":"1.0","provider_name":"Transistor","provider_url":"https://transistor.fm","author_name":"The Terrible Creative","title":"Still Terrible - A Confession About Fear, Failure, and the Middle of the Story","html":"","width":"100%","height":180,"duration":3372,"description":"In this episode, I talk about the question that has been following me around like a stray dog with abandonment issues:\n\n“What am I doing wrong?”\n\nA late-night Zoom call.\nA missed phone call that might have cost me a job.\nFabric mocking me at 2 AM.\nPostponing Christmas.\nPretending patience is a virtue when really it’s just a financial liability.\n\nThis one is not a framework or a lesson.\nIt is a confession.\nA pressure valve.\nA look at the part of the creative journey nobody posts about because it is messy and embarrassing and makes you question whether you even belong in the room.\n\nWe get into:\nSaying yes to work you should have said no to\nAnxiety disguised as professionalism\nThe career panic nobody warns you about\nThe gap between what we preach and what we actually do\nWhat our kids see when we are barely holding it together\nThe tension between craft, performance, and being human\nIf you have ever wondered whether you are behind, off-track, or quietly failing your way through your creative life, this episode is for you.\n\nMusic Provided by:\nhttps://www.epidemicsound.com\nSupport the Show\nIf the podcast means something to you, or if it helps you feel a little less alone in this creative circus, you can support the show here:\n\nhttps://www.terriblephotographer.com/support\n\nYour support keeps the lights on, the episodes coming, and the midnight fabric-styling breakdowns to a minimum. Thank you for being part of this.","thumbnail_url":"https://img.transistorcdn.com/qsOnUwMbUF-PHJZ7RwOm0Uh1mXJoqDwCz1nHN0z7r7Q/rs:fill:0:0:1/w:400/h:400/q:60/mb:500000/aHR0cHM6Ly9pbWct/dXBsb2FkLXByb2R1/Y3Rpb24udHJhbnNp/c3Rvci5mbS8wMTIy/MjM3Yzk2YTUzZDE5/ZjNiODE0Y2MxOTgz/MGRiNC5qcGc.webp","thumbnail_width":300,"thumbnail_height":300}