{"type":"rich","version":"1.0","provider_name":"Transistor","provider_url":"https://transistor.fm","author_name":"The Paudcast ","title":"I Thought I Was The Problem","html":"<iframe width=\"100%\" height=\"180\" frameborder=\"no\" scrolling=\"no\" seamless src=\"https://share.transistor.fm/e/152cbd29\"></iframe>","width":"100%","height":180,"duration":972,"description":"For most of my life I thought I was the problem.The one who struggled with things others seemed to manage easily. The one who built workarounds just to function. The one who kept gaining momentum and then without fail blowing it up.What I didn't know was that my brain was working on hard mode. Every single day.In this episode I'm getting into something I've never spoken about publicly before my ADHD diagnosis. What life looked like before I understood what was going on, the coping mechanisms I leaned on without realising that's what I was doing, and what changed when I finally got some answers.This isn't a medical episode. It's just my story.But if you've ever wondered why you keep falling off track despite genuinely wanting it you might hear something in here that hits closer to home than you expected.","thumbnail_url":"https://img.transistorcdn.com/SANa-m1JDdzT4oyS8M8NphsWxj4i6rYKxgOkQNKj8Tg/rs:fill:0:0:1/w:400/h:400/q:60/mb:500000/aHR0cHM6Ly9pbWct/dXBsb2FkLXByb2R1/Y3Rpb24udHJhbnNp/c3Rvci5mbS84ZmI4/NWIwY2NiMWUxNDFi/MmMyZmQ3ZDA4YWE2/MzVkZi5wbmc.webp","thumbnail_width":300,"thumbnail_height":300}