{"type":"rich","version":"1.0","provider_name":"Transistor","provider_url":"https://transistor.fm","author_name":"Every Mother Matters With Sharon Ow","title":"1: My Personal Story","html":"","width":"100%","height":180,"duration":677,"description":"Transcript For Ep1:Welcome to Every Mother Matters. I'm Sharon and in this episode, I will be sharing with you my personal story.  I knew very little about my parents because the older generation like my parents did not talk much about the past.I knew that my mother was given away because she was born in the year of the tiger, which was seen as an un auspicious sign to her biological parents.  Her adopted parents wanted to send her to attend school but she refused. During the second world war when my father was a teenager, he was given the chance to study Japanese or to work for the Japanese. He hated them and did not want to learn their language. So, he chose to work. The first time when I knew that my father loved me was when my friend told me that my father was always looking lovingly at me when I was already in my 20s.  When I was young, most of the time he was out for work. In his eyes, I should be happy because he was providing for the family and my only job was to study. I always felt that I was the extra one in the family since there was no room in my mother’s heart for a daughter.  I was a very lonely, quiet and obedient girl.  There was almost no communication with my mother as she did not like girl. No one talk to me.  Growing up was tough emotionally because my voice was never being heard or respected. No one trusted me when I talked about my mother’s behaviour when my brothers were not home.  I learned to be silent.  They thought that my mother loved me too much and I was the spoiled one. My brother said that if what I said was true about my mother, then why should I still be eating the food my mother cooked and stepped on the floor which was cleaned by my mother.   Many years later after I did energy therapy I suddenly realised that anything I ate  was so tasty. I was so disassociated with food and I realised that my brother's words actually caused the loss of my taste bud for years and I did not realise it.  As my mother was in her 50s when she was...","thumbnail_url":"https://img.transistorcdn.com/f0JzX7VckE-PAtW02lq64v7k4p8zLSEOOqJvPB5YuAU/rs:fill:0:0:1/w:400/h:400/q:60/mb:500000/aHR0cHM6Ly9pbWct/dXBsb2FkLXByb2R1/Y3Rpb24udHJhbnNp/c3Rvci5mbS9zaG93/LzEyODc2LzE1OTYy/NDgwMDctYXJ0d29y/ay5qcGc.webp","thumbnail_width":300,"thumbnail_height":300}