{"type":"rich","version":"1.0","provider_name":"Transistor","provider_url":"https://transistor.fm","author_name":"Fascinated By Design","title":"Episode 1: Welcome to My Fascinating Experiment","html":"","width":"100%","height":180,"duration":2848,"description":"Welcome to My Fascinating ExperimentThis episode opens with a brief reflection I added after the fact — about what I noticed when I went back and listened to the first two episodes, and what I'm committing to doing differently. It's unscripted. It felt more honest than pretending it wasn't there.I've had a vision for about ten years that I wasn't ready to share.Until now.This is the origin episode — the one where I tell you who I am, why I'm here, and what this podcast is actually about. Not the professional biography. The real story: the shame, the experiments, the spiritual awakening I didn't see coming, and the vision that's been quietly building underneath all of it.In This EpisodeI grew up as a highly sensitive person in an environment where I learned early that my job — everyone's job — was to keep a particular family member regulated. That meant not being too loud, having too many feelings, or taking up too much space. I turned perfectionism and striving into a survival strategy. It got me a PhD. It didn't touch the shame underneath.I share how I discovered that the only way through fear is straight through it — and how I tested that theory at a weekly karaoke night, and eventually at a community theater audition I had no business going to and absolutely needed to do. Not to prove anything. As a gift to a younger version of myself who never got to walk out onto that stage.I talk about the spontaneous spiritual awakening that shattered my worldview as a confirmed atheist and scientist — the sunset in Arkansas where the boundary of my personal energy body dissolved, the synchronicities I couldn't explain, and the slow, uncomfortable rebuild that followed. Physics. Ram Dass. Ancient wisdom traditions. Eventually, Human Design.And I share the vision behind everything — a three-phase framework that starts with loving yourself unconditionally, moves into loving another consciously, and extends outward into loving all of humanity. Not as a sequence. As a...","thumbnail_url":"https://img.transistorcdn.com/kX1d9xeTVVUon1SnIO9C_IQa7BGJj2NeZcg-XavbyZU/rs:fill:0:0:1/w:400/h:400/q:60/mb:500000/aHR0cHM6Ly9pbWct/dXBsb2FkLXByb2R1/Y3Rpb24udHJhbnNp/c3Rvci5mbS9kZDBh/MjBlY2RlMDY0N2U0/N2YxMmVlMjE2ODQ2/M2MzMS5qcGc.webp","thumbnail_width":300,"thumbnail_height":300}