{"type":"rich","version":"1.0","provider_name":"Transistor","provider_url":"https://transistor.fm","author_name":"White Coat Black Sheep","title":"I'm Not Ruined: Marcus Garcia on Trauma, Addiction & Coming Back to Life","html":"","width":"100%","height":180,"duration":5224,"description":"Intro\nDr. Civelli sits down with Marcus John Garcia III, a hospice liaison based in Kern County, for a raw and unfiltered conversation. Marcus shares his story publicly for the first time — being molested as a child, years of active addiction including a meth habit during COVID, and the long process of rebuilding through faith, fatherhood, and fitness. The conversation shifts into clinical territory as well, covering peptides, GLP-1s, growth hormone, and tesamorelin.\n\nTopics Covered\nGrowing up in Las Vegas and the \"melting pot\" culture that made it easy to lose himself\nChildhood trauma: being molested at five years old, and how it shaped his understanding of intimacy and trust\nHis work as a hospice liaison in Kern County and what death and dying have taught him about people\nWhy he believes no one is born \"bad\" — trauma and learned behavior\nSabotaging relationships out of fear, and learning to let people in\nA period of confusion and identity questions following his childhood trauma\nWhy judgment of people struggling with addiction misses the point\nFaith, trust, and leaning on something bigger than himself\nTurning criticism and hate into motivation\nBecoming a father, and the difference between imitating a father figure and being present\nA season of active addiction — cocaine, ecstasy, and meth — that intensified during COVID lockdowns\nLosing significant weight during his lowest point, then rebuilding through bodybuilding (Classic Physique)\nMoving to Tehachapi for clarity, and losing his grandmother to cancer while she was on hospice\nLessons on lasting marriage from three generations of his family\nWhy he stopped counting sober days and instead focuses on today\nPeptides, GLP-1 medications, and working in the regulatory gray area around them\nGrowth hormone and tesamorelin — benefits, risks, and why bloodwork and a coach matter\nEmerging research linking retatrutide to reduced cancer risk\nHis closing message: you are not alone, and it's okay to still be healing\nConnect...","thumbnail_url":"https://img.transistorcdn.com/r7Fg59MgUhATCba7AaSRKVP-0dmWKpcE4ZsKXb08Qjs/rs:fill:0:0:1/w:400/h:400/q:60/mb:500000/aHR0cHM6Ly9pbWct/dXBsb2FkLXByb2R1/Y3Rpb24udHJhbnNp/c3Rvci5mbS9mOGVl/NmI3Yzg5ZDdlOGIz/NDcyYTdmZjY4ZDIw/N2E3NC5qcGc.webp","thumbnail_width":300,"thumbnail_height":300}