{"type":"rich","version":"1.0","provider_name":"Transistor","provider_url":"https://transistor.fm","author_name":"Becoming Lucy","title":"I WROTE A SUICIDE NOTE… THEN CHOSE TO LIVE | Sobriety, Addiction & Choosing Life","html":"","width":"100%","height":180,"duration":5606,"description":"⚠️ Content warning: This episode contains discussions of alcohol addiction, medication dependency, suicidal thoughts, mental health and recovery. Please listen with care.\n\n⸻\n\nWhat if the life you think you can’t imagine… is actually the one that saves you?\n\nFor years, Racheal believed alcohol was part of who she was. It was there for every celebration, every social event and every difficult moment. As her drinking escalated, she also became reliant on sleeping tablets, unable to imagine life without either.\n\nThen she hit rock bottom.\n\nAfter writing a suicide note, Racheal woke up the next morning and made a decision that would change everything.\n\nToday, she’s proudly sober, has lost seven stone, completed a marathon and discovered a version of herself she never believed was possible.\n\nIn this honest and deeply moving conversation, Racheal opens up about growing up, working as a holiday rep, the hidden reality of alcohol addiction and relying on sleeping tablets, the impact addiction had on her mental and physical health, and the moment she realised she had to choose life.\n\nTogether, we explore the powerful link between addiction and mental health, the fear of losing your identity when alcohol has become part of your life, learning to manage triggers and cravings, rebuilding relationships, and why sobriety became the greatest act of self-discovery she has ever experienced.\n\nWhether you’re sober, sober curious, supporting someone with addiction, or simply searching for hope during a difficult chapter, Racheal’s story is a powerful reminder that transformation is possible, and that it’s never too late to become the person you’re meant to be.\n\nBecause sometimes, the bravest thing you can do… is choose yourself.\n\nIn this episode, we cover:\n\n✨ Racheal’s life before alcohol took over\n🍹 How drinking slowly became part of her identity\n💊 Her reliance on sleeping tablets and how she couldn’t switch off without them\n💔 The moment she hit rock bottom and wrote a suicide note\n🧠...","thumbnail_url":"https://img.transistorcdn.com/GuSfZ5U_EMZfpa4Gn3hDD4e3-WqB3IQdq7dcFX40AuE/rs:fill:0:0:1/w:400/h:400/q:60/mb:500000/aHR0cHM6Ly9pbWct/dXBsb2FkLXByb2R1/Y3Rpb24udHJhbnNp/c3Rvci5mbS8xNDBm/ZTMyYTkzYTQ1ZWQ2/YTczN2ZkNWFmZDNi/ZDJkMS5wbmc.webp","thumbnail_width":300,"thumbnail_height":300}