{"type":"rich","version":"1.0","provider_name":"Transistor","provider_url":"https://transistor.fm","author_name":"Behind the Blonde","title":"No Resolutions: Choosing Clarity and Collecting Data","html":"<iframe width=\"100%\" height=\"180\" frameborder=\"no\" scrolling=\"no\" seamless src=\"https://share.transistor.fm/e/84f7705f\"></iframe>","width":"100%","height":180,"duration":686,"description":"This episode talks about using our “hiccups” as personal data instead of evidence we failed. It’s about discomfort without shame. It’s about choosing clarity again- not perfectly but honestly. Almost 5 years ago I gave up alcohol and nicotine. What I didn’t realize for a long time was that I had quietly anchored myself to marijuana. I told myself it was helping me relax, helping me unwind. Until it wasn’t. After 4 months without it I decided to smoke over Christmas break while my kids were away. I wanted to escape- be less visible, less “on”. What followed was anxiety, self-doubt and a very familiar reminder:This is the only time doubt is allowed into my brain- and doubt is dangerous for me. This New year lets reframe. No resolutions. No punishment. Just choice by choice. Day by day. Happy fucking New Year.","thumbnail_url":"https://img.transistorcdn.com/1fD8U3oQAW0j8a9uj1SYeeUAK2PLfw5d548GXVGRLko/rs:fill:0:0:1/w:400/h:400/q:60/mb:500000/aHR0cHM6Ly9pbWct/dXBsb2FkLXByb2R1/Y3Rpb24udHJhbnNp/c3Rvci5mbS9mMWI4/OWUwYTcxYjRiY2U2/MjJlZTRlOGU1Y2Y5/OTFhMy5qcGVn.webp","thumbnail_width":300,"thumbnail_height":300}