{"type":"rich","version":"1.0","provider_name":"Transistor","provider_url":"https://transistor.fm","author_name":"And Sons","title":"125 | John Mark Lohner: Shame and The Gospel","html":"","width":"100%","height":180,"duration":2663,"description":"\"Do Not Be Ashamed\" by Wendell Berry\n\nYou will be walking some night\nin the comfortable dark of your yard\nand suddenly a great light will shine\nround about you, and behind you\nwill be a wall you never saw before.\nIt will be clear to you suddenly\nthat you were about to escape,\nand that you are guilty: you misread\nthe complex instructions, you are not\na member, you lost your card\nor never had one. And you will know\nthat they have been there all along,\ntheir eyes on your letters and books,\ntheir hands in your pockets,\ntheir ears wired to your bed.\nThough you have done nothing shameful,\nthey will want you to be ashamed.\nThey will want you to kneel and weep\nand say you should have been like them.\nAnd once you say you are ashamed,\nreading the page they hold out to you,\nthen such light as you have made\nin your history will leave you.\nThey will no longer need to pursue you.\nYou will pursue them, begging forgiveness.\nThey will not forgive you.\nThere is no power against them.\nIt is only candor that is aloof from them,\nonly an inward clarity, unashamed,\nthat they cannot reach. Be ready.\nWhen their light has picked you out\nand their questions are asked, say to them:\n\"I am not ashamed.\" A sure horizon\nwill come around you. The heron will begin\nhis evening flight from the hilltop.","thumbnail_url":"https://img.transistorcdn.com/AwmMze9gpvb_RtZ3mvkTAIutAwNaK2m5If0ljM5lxHk/rs:fill:0:0:1/w:400/h:400/q:60/mb:500000/aHR0cHM6Ly9pbWct/dXBsb2FkLXByb2R1/Y3Rpb24udHJhbnNp/c3Rvci5mbS9hODUx/ZGFlOWNjYjQ4MzQ2/NDYyMDBhOGU2MmRk/NmQ3My5qcGc.webp","thumbnail_width":300,"thumbnail_height":300}