{"type":"rich","version":"1.0","provider_name":"Transistor","provider_url":"https://transistor.fm","author_name":"Holding Patterns","title":"10. The Cost of Constant Change | A Solo Episode on Anxiety & Letting an Identity Go","html":"","width":"100%","height":180,"duration":2451,"description":"For episode 10, I'm bringing you another solo episode. This isn't an episode about what I've learned, it's an episode about what it sounds like while I'm still learning it. It's a little messy and unpolished, because I'm still in the middle of this Holding Pattern, and I wanted to document it before I had all the answers.\nI spend a lot of time talking about anxiety; how it shows up in my life, when it tends to appear, and what changes when I stop asking, \"How do I make this go away?\" and start asking, \"Why is it here?\"\nFrom there, I dive into the specific Holding Pattern I'm currently in and how it feels different from the ones I've experienced before. This one is less about not knowing what's next and more about not recognizing who I'm becoming. To help make sense of it all, I reference Lawrence Yeo's article, Travel Is No Cure for the Mind, and connect his \"box\" analogy to what I'm experiencing in my own life.\nIt's a vulnerable episode, but my hope is that if you're feeling anything like I am right now, it helps you feel a little less alone in the uncertainty.Turns out it's a lot easier to interview people about their Holding Patterns than to share your own. But I guess that's what practicing what you preach looks like._______________________________________________\nHolding Patterns Instagram Here! (https://www.instagram.com/holdingpatternspod?igsh=MXB1ajk3ZHhwdjYxMg%3D%3D)\nCover art by Remy Arnold (https://www.instagram.com/remyarnoldxo?igsh=dWx3aWJsMmZheWNx)\nMusic by penguinmusic - Better Day from Pixabay","thumbnail_url":"https://img.transistorcdn.com/gzSuZaQKCE_1J6Vl0-5y437s6Mbq3Am3G2qUFbmjEWo/rs:fill:0:0:1/w:400/h:400/q:60/mb:500000/aHR0cHM6Ly9pbWct/dXBsb2FkLXByb2R1/Y3Rpb24udHJhbnNp/c3Rvci5mbS83ODQx/ODZjYTQyMzI1OGY0/N2VmMjVjYjQyZThh/NjhlYi5wbmc.webp","thumbnail_width":300,"thumbnail_height":300}