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well hello All You Beautiful

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People you know what time it

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is ladies and gents Guys and Dolls and

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everyone in

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between gather around get you something

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real nice to sip on and comfy to slip

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on cuz it's time for smut Club here's

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your hosts Chelsey and

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Hannah hi everybody and welcome to smut

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club I'm Hannah and I'm Chelsea and this

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is the podcast where we daydrink and

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review trashy romance novels and my dog

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tries to sit in our laps and hits the

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mic so it's really Pleasant for

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everyone's

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ears nice we love this and now my dog is

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looking at me and my husband hband my

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husband wants him to go

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upstairs before we record and our dog

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Vance I think Brandon is just here to

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stay I he'll he might follow you at some

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point but for now if you hear the Tip

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Tap of little doggy feet please just

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ignore his little nails are so long we

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need to get them to the groomer this

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week but all that said that's not what

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anyone else is here for no not not here

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to talk about me taking my dog to the

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groomer

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that's a whole

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story all right I'm sorry

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I'm our groomer oh so we're telling the

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story yeah it's worth telling Hannah

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okay well I didn't know our groomer is a

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home groomer the very F like her website

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is like black and neon pink and like

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very like it is a statement but she's

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like 5 minutes from our house and it's

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$30 nice well starts at 30 and then you

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know there's add-ons over time course um

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but I was cracking up because the very

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first time we took him there she's like

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just come in through the garage and I'm

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like what a I'm like hey Vance I need

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you to come with me he like where are we

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going like we're taking brand to the

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groomer and we showed up and he's

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like this just looks like someone's

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house and I was like it is you have the

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skills of observation um you get it she

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was wearing I didn't even know they made

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grooming smoks it when we walked in I

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was like this woman looks like she is

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ready for dog groming porn like she is I

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don't I'm realizing I'm not describing

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things well cuz I'm too excited to

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describe them well she was wearing a

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like mid to high

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thigh like

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skintight smok like a grooming smok okay

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um that was like super low cut and her

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boobs were spilling out of it and I was

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like no part of this outfit looks as

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though

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you are ready to to bathe a dog right we

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we just look like we're ready to show up

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at someone's house and say I'm ready to

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bathe your dog and then the sex starts

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is like right and pant and I left and we

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were

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like well we'll we'll see how it goes

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and there's a Entrance Road by their

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house Called Wanda woods and we're like

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that sounds like a porn star name does

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and then that's what we named our Roomba

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so our Roomba is named Wanda and

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everyone's like why and I was like oh no

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cuz our dog groomer lives off a road and

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look like a it was a whole thing that

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day

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like there's so much back it really made

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sense in the time but now we're like 3

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years deep and I have to explain why our

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Roomba is named after our I guess a road

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by our dog grer who's not a porn star

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that you know of that I know of right

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she could be she could be

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so I got a massage a couple of weeks ago

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and it was this place that I I found

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online and looked decent enough the time

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was right I was like cool let's go so I

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went and it was somebody's house off of

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a dirt road that was barely passable in

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the middle of the woods I live in the

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middle of nowhere anyway I was going to

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say for as someone who lives in the

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middle of nowhere did this feel like an

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accessible level of nowhere or were you

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like this is I should we'll see if I

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make it correct I called her because I

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was like this doesn't look right and she

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was like no it's not you're you're right

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it's not right the GPS doesn't know

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where my house is so she had to give me

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directions to her house and then she was

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like is your car going to be okay on a

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rough road and I was like oh yeah barely

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pass so I pull up and this woman comes

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out it's like a lob cabin meets sford

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and Sun Vibes there's like [ __ ]

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everywhere this woman comes out with no

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shoes

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on and in this dirt

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driveway and I was like I might be

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sacrificed like she was like this older

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lady with like long white hair I might

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be sacrif in the middle of the woods I

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like so how was the massage it was

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awesome

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actually it was great right yeah but I

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will never go back there oh it wasn't

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that good no it wasn't that good I did

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like her but also yikes yeah you're like

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I don't like you enough to

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offset yeah the you're like the tension

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that this drive is you're like I'm

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trying to get rid of tension I'm try to

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add tension okay it's Cabin in the Woods

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vibes I have a lot of thoughts on that

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we could talk a lot about Cabin in the

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Woods the Trope if you will that's a

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different podcast yeah that's a

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different podcast that's a different may

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maybe it's not a different podcast I'm

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going to challenge

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myself oh no there's the um Megan Quinn

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romcom with the agitators in Canada and

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they're all in the woods and her car

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breaks down and she like shows up at

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their door and then they

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all they're like we're hockey players

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and she's like prove it like they play

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with like a an umbrella yeah

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yeah so it is this podcast it is did you

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just hit your own glasses I did hit my

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own glasses in my moment of being like I

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feel so smart this is our podcast I hit

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myself in the face and I really thought

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we were just gonna move on but

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I'm Vance looks at me all the time and

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he's like way to keep me humble

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babe but I also think that's kind of our

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our friendship like not in a shitty way

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no like just in like a we feel safe

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enough

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to lightly poke fun at the other person

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yeah well because neither of us take

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ourselves too seriously and so it's like

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no have you seen I definitely

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can't I'm like I dress my pets up for

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our holiday cards each year yeah you do

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I don't think I'm my husband literally

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told me my the personality of my know is

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Jewish yesterday so like

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no yeah everyone's going to need that

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the cont the context of that because so

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before we hit record I was telling

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Chelsea for some reason last night when

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I was with hanging out with my husband

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that I thought of the time that I passed

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out at

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school and you like in Middle School

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yeah I was like 13 I think it was like

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8th grade um I woke up as I was coming

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to to Consciousness a teacher was there

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with me apparently she had like carried

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me to the nurse's office and she told me

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that um I was actually very beautiful um

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and she started describing all of my

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features and told me that I have

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beautiful Alabaster skin and my lips

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were well proportioned and I have great

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um cheekbones and that my eyes are

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really beautiful and my nose has

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personality and so as I was telling my

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husband this story last night I asked

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him I'm like what what what personality

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does my nose have cuz there are lots of

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different ones and he just went Jewish

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and didn't add anything else after it he

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just left it at

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Jewish was there more that needed to be

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said no for anybody who's watching the

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video or has seen a photo of me nothing

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no nothing else needs to be added I

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would also like to know that Hannah once

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told me a story that I'm just about to

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tell one of you

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I don't know what it is cuz I've shared

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a lot of stories so here we go well so

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Hannah and her husband work together and

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that's how they met and when her husband

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told another coworker that he was dating

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Hannah when Matt was like yeah I'm

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dating Hannah one of their co-workers

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was like isn't she

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Jewish and you're not I am not you just

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have a nose with a lot of personality I

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have a schnos

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yeah none of that's relevant to anything

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that we're doing today

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got I I I wouldn't have even described

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her nose as a nose of personality I

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literally never thought about her nose

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in my life

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before for what it's worth only some of

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us have noses with personality thank you

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well no what I was going to all right

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let me give a little bit more context

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for everything damn it we're going to

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get to this book eventually okay so when

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I was 17 I worked as a personal

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assistant to the sewing expert for the

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Home Shopping Network she she'd had a

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ton of like elective you know you just

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you work the entertainment industry you

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have some elective surgeries to make

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sure you're looking young and fresh

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right and I told her I was like hey I

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have like just casually in conversation

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day I was like oh yeah I was like my I

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was like I have one connected Earl and

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one dangly earlobe and she was like

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Chelsea you could get that fixed and no

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one would have to know my head I was

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like but why would I like why it's not

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hurting like there's no issues with my

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ears I'm just noting that like this is

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what my ears look like it's a unique

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thing it's a unique my ears have

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personality they do um but I was

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thinking of the you could get that fixed

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and no one would have to notice people

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would notice because so we had a friend

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who once again never thought of her nose

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just thought it was a really normal nose

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during the pandemic when we were all

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under mask mandates she got a nose job

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and so she comes out the other side and

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planning like I think it just worked out

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that way but like the first time like

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she like took the mask off and I was

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like something is different what it like

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it took me a while to realize it like

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didn't even occur to me but I just get

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thinking like no one would have to know

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and then I was like I don't I don't know

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if you would be able to get a nose job

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without people noticing it no there's

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too much personality people would notice

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people would notice but for what it's

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worth I have spent hours looking at you

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and never noticed anything about your

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earlobes if that

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helps it does okay thank you happy to

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help i h no well so like my earlobes are

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like I have one connected and one dangly

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cuz you get them from your parents and I

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forget which parent has which but my one

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has one and one has the other um my like

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my toes are like lowkey like partially

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webbed between a few of them like it

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doesn't go the The Crack doesn't go all

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the way between the toes okay so like it

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looks partially webbed between never

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noticed either right here's the thing

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these aren't big I'm not going to pay

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anyone to adjust these things I accepted

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and my fingers are slightly crooked to

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the point that I can hold my fingers

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together and I can see Hannah between my

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fingers when I hold them together I

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never broke this finger it's just always

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been like that and I once went to flip

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off one of my friends in grad school and

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my middle finger is also crooked and it

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was like pointing to the side and he's

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like are you flipping off me or that

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dude over there cuz your finger's

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pointing like an air I was like [ __ ] you

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what a burn oh it was such a good burn U

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but the best burn was one day I home for

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the holidays hanging out with my dad

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Chelsea who do we know like weird

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earlobes they don't match yeah Dad

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that's me no no no no no no it's not you

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like weird fingers to and like web toes

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I like still me dad you're still

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describing your daughter and he's like

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no no no no that couldn't possibly be

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you I would remember that and I'm like

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you can deny it all you want still

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sitting here

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letting you know it is me your Earls

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have

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personality I mean why would you notice

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them right like the only time that

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anyone ever really noticed them was when

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I was a kid and like when you have like

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the cute little Bob and they were like

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cutting it to be like an inch below my

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earlobes and couldn't figure out why it

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was

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crooked yeah okay what sorry this is

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this is a a book review podcast we're

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here where we are going to review the

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book so Hannah

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it's all you I'm

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sorry no I'm I'm enjoying it um we are

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reviewing the dirty curve today by Megan

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Brandy um so I really enjoy this book

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it's a little bit of a comfort read for

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me okay it's very like

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um there's an there's it's mostly plot

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but none of it is like so intense or

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like like trauma heavy that it is it

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evokes a lot of emotion does that make

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sense yeah but still enjoyable it's just

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an easy read yes it's a very easy read

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so um it's told from two perspectives so

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we open with Tobias he is a baseball

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player um and he is failing a couple of

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his classes specifically Anatomy sports

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college romance sports college romance

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there is something about Just Sports

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College romances in general that I find

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deeply comforting so deeply comforting

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like I but also in that way where like

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you've read one you've read them all and

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like you keep reading them and they just

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keep changing the names yep but there's

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something so comforting well and this

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one has like just enough of a Twist

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where it it like keeps you in it but not

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so much that you're like this is a step

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too far like you know what I mean I

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don't it takes too much energy to follow

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because I I just want to know the

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twist we'll get there so um Tobias has

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been told that he has to do mandatory

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tutoring he is very unhappy about it so

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he's on his way to his uh coach's office

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to talk to him about it and he um is

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thinking about how he is known as the

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Playboy pitcher and people are

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constantly like commenting on his sex

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life and girls are all over him and you

362
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know like classic [ __ ] like that so

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on the way to the coach's office he

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overhears a girl in the coach's office

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saying that she is not going to do it

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assign him to somebody else I'm not

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interested I'm not doing it and the

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coach is like yes the [ __ ] you are this

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is your this is literally your [ __ ]

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job you're going to do what I tell you

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and she is very clearly upset and she

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runs out of the office and doesn't even

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look at Tobias I started calling him

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Toby honestly I don't remember if they

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call him that in the book but you're

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it's a safe space to call him Toby I am

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going to call him Toby and we'll get to

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the nickname I gave the girl Which is

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less

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sensical which shouldn't be surprising

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to anybody you wri this outline when you

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were a few is she big mad when she's

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leaving the coach's office

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Hannah yeah she's big mad you're

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correct and for those who are wondering

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um Chelsea made our our vodka lemonades

387
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today and did a little bit of a heavy

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pour so we'll see where we get and how

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it looks by the end um but the great

390
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news is my face gets more pink the more

391
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I drink I feel my face getting pink

392
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actually like I can feel the heat in it

393
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right now so that's really fun on that

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beautiful Alabaster

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skin and you know what this morning I

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was like I'm looking a little pale I'm

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going to put just like a little bit of

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Cream Blush on cuz I don't want to be

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give like full ghost and now I realize I

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didn't need it so um anyway so she runs

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straight past Toby she's so upset that

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the coach is like yeah you're going to

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do your job yeah so the coach is like

404
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she's going to do it you know and then

405
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tells him that she gets paid double for

406
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every hour she works with him um and you

407
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know he's like okay um well fine

408
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whatever I don't really give a [ __ ] and

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then um he goes home and bangs some

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chick and he's just like bored with his

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life at this point he's like there my

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life has no meaning outside of baseball

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I don't care about school I'm just

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trying to get drafted I don't give a

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[ __ ] so we switched to the girl's point

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of view her name is Meyer and I chose to

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call her lemons like Meer

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lemons I get it honestly I was thinking

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is Myers also an ice cream

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probably are you thinking of

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Briars I was like I feel like it's not

422
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quite right yeah no I'm

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think I we also like I'm only a

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fusive prade for this we can't I mean

425
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I'm going

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to I'm going to use VOD cinate as a

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scapegoat

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correct um and this lemonade was not

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made with Myer lemons for the record I'm

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assuming or Bri

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lemonade you know milk milk lemonade cuz

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it was like neon green in the picture so

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I don't think it was made with Myer

434
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lemons I and squeezed all of those

435
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totally kidding well so the funniest

436
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part was I accidentally dropped part of

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the lemonade powder packet on the

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counter and then it's just like white

439
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powder but then when it reacts with

440
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water it turns so I'm like I have like a

441
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Clorox wipe on her counter and I'm

442
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wiping I'm like should I be consuming

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lemonade that turns this color on

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contact this color that is not found in

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nature I was like [ __ ] it we're here

446
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yeah we are okay so she's going to get

447
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double out to double pay I was going to

448
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say double that's what coach tells Toby

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so we switched to Myer's point of view

450
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yeah we switch to Myers's point of view

451
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she is pissed that she has to uh work

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with him and gets an email from him

453
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that's like basically so you're going to

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do all my work right good deal here it

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is thanks k

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bye um and she just chooses not to

457
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respond to it she's like I'm not going

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to give this my energy thanks though um

459
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and her bestie is there um giving her

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lots of love and support this bestie her

461
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name is Bianca she's kind of like

462
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constantly in in the background but

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doesn't give too much to the plot um she

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the next book I don't that's how most of

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these series go you know I don't know

466
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cuz I didn't read it but maybe um like

467
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but I'm not betting against you correct

468
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yeah so yeah literally I just started

469
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calling her lemon

470
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so lemon says that um uh Bianca is the

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only one who stuck by her when [ __ ] got

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real when things got really hard in her

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life and then there's this moment where

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Meyer goes into her bedroom and she just

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says hi baby girl and then the chapter

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ends so we don't know who the [ __ ] she's

477
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talking to so does she have a child she

478
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sure does but it's like does she who

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could it

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be whatever so Toby goes to the library

481
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to meet with tutor girl because he put

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like in the email um um that he expects

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to see her at the library at such and

484
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such time and she should have all his

485
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work done by when when she shows up so

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he goes and she's not there and so he is

487
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pissed and goes to the tutoring center

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um and they refuse to give her to give

489
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him Meyer's number um so he calls coach

490
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and um coach gives him the number and

491
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she just won't respond

492
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to any of his texts because all of them

493
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are like why aren't you here where's my

494
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work it's supposed to be done what's

495
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even the point of

496
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view so coach is like I'll take care of

497
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it and so we switch back to

498
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Meyer um she does have a baby the baby

499
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is sick um and she sees tons of texts

500
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and phone calls from Toby um but she is

501
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like I'm just not I just can't like yeah

502
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she's got to kid at this point so she

503
00:22:00,279 --> 00:22:04,640
goes to respond to him but then

504
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accidentally answers a phone call from

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the

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coach and he tells her that um when Toby

507
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wants something she better do it um and

508
00:22:12,480 --> 00:22:17,039
he threatens her job and is like do you

509
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do you like working do you like having

510
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money to eat then you're going to do

511
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what I say um and so she just starts

512
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crying and hangs up the

513
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phone so um 2 weeks later coach tells

514
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Toby that he can't play because he's

515
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failing two classes um he hasn't called

516
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Myer he still doesn't know her name by

517
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the way he just calls her tutor girl he

518
00:22:41,679 --> 00:22:44,919
just knows the girl who ran out of

519
00:22:43,240 --> 00:22:47,559
coach's office is supposed to be doing

520
00:22:44,919 --> 00:22:51,120
all this [ __ ] for me right and so he

521
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hasn't called her so Toby gets super

522
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annoyed that he can't play um and is

523
00:22:53,440 --> 00:23:01,159
like I'll get it done whatever text the

524
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tutor um and uh she just says sends him

525
00:23:01,159 --> 00:23:09,000
her office hours she's like no here are

526
00:23:04,919 --> 00:23:11,360
my office hours um so he threatens to

527
00:23:09,000 --> 00:23:14,159
call Coach if she doesn't show up when

528
00:23:11,360 --> 00:23:17,919
he says um and she finally agrees to

529
00:23:14,159 --> 00:23:21,679
show up so um bestie is watching the

530
00:23:17,919 --> 00:23:24,000
baby Toby's irritated she won't look at

531
00:23:21,679 --> 00:23:25,640
him she like won't make eye contact

532
00:23:24,000 --> 00:23:28,520
won't look at him at all and it's just

533
00:23:25,640 --> 00:23:30,720
all business um and is not showing any

534
00:23:28,520 --> 00:23:34,360
interest in him at all which he finds to

535
00:23:30,720 --> 00:23:37,760
be unacceptable just the narcissism is

536
00:23:34,360 --> 00:23:40,799
just it's there um is that something

537
00:23:37,760 --> 00:23:44,520
that is going to like be worked through

538
00:23:40,799 --> 00:23:46,799
or is that just like he's just okay yeah

539
00:23:44,520 --> 00:23:48,400
so he you never know I feel like that is

540
00:23:46,799 --> 00:23:51,159
one of those things that like some books

541
00:23:48,400 --> 00:23:53,159
are like wow he's a dick they're like oh

542
00:23:51,159 --> 00:23:55,880
we're really just committing to

543
00:23:53,159 --> 00:23:59,400
accepting the dickish Behavior no so he

544
00:23:55,880 --> 00:24:01,880
really does turn it around so um I had a

545
00:23:59,400 --> 00:24:03,679
patient recently ask me because I was

546
00:24:01,880 --> 00:24:06,720
walking with

547
00:24:03,679 --> 00:24:08,400
purpose um he was like are you on your

548
00:24:06,720 --> 00:24:10,799
way to Humble a man because that's what

549
00:24:08,400 --> 00:24:10,799
that look

550
00:24:11,480 --> 00:24:16,559
says you

551
00:24:13,400 --> 00:24:21,679
know and Meer is on her way to Humble a

552
00:24:16,559 --> 00:24:25,760
man so um before that he asks if she's

553
00:24:21,679 --> 00:24:27,520
on drugs because she's looking really

554
00:24:25,760 --> 00:24:30,919
messy she's got like a stain on her

555
00:24:27,520 --> 00:24:33,919
shirt and stuff and um I feel this in my

556
00:24:30,919 --> 00:24:35,720
soul he's like I know you do and

557
00:24:33,919 --> 00:24:38,600
honestly part of why I wanted to review

558
00:24:35,720 --> 00:24:41,000
this is because very much later there's

559
00:24:38,600 --> 00:24:44,919
a kink in here that I'm

560
00:24:41,000 --> 00:24:46,880
like um but I can't identify with it so

561
00:24:44,919 --> 00:24:51,320
oh good you

562
00:24:46,880 --> 00:24:55,279
could you could so we'll get there but

563
00:24:51,320 --> 00:24:56,760
um he is um he like ask if she's on

564
00:24:55,279 --> 00:24:58,279
drugs and she's

565
00:24:56,760 --> 00:25:02,640
like

566
00:24:58,279 --> 00:25:05,960
yep super high thank you for asking like

567
00:25:02,640 --> 00:25:07,520
what the [ __ ] so um he just continues to

568
00:25:05,960 --> 00:25:11,559
make more and more demands on her time

569
00:25:07,520 --> 00:25:13,240
and she is like I can't meet before noon

570
00:25:11,559 --> 00:25:14,799
like what part of this do you not

571
00:25:13,240 --> 00:25:16,520
understand and he's like you're just

572
00:25:14,799 --> 00:25:17,679
going to have to [ __ ] figure it out

573
00:25:16,520 --> 00:25:20,640
sucks to

574
00:25:17,679 --> 00:25:22,880
suck but in his mind he's like well she

575
00:25:20,640 --> 00:25:24,360
gets paid double for me though so why

576
00:25:22,880 --> 00:25:26,840
like why wouldn't she want to spend more

577
00:25:24,360 --> 00:25:29,520
time because she's getting paid extra

578
00:25:26,840 --> 00:25:33,799
yes in the world rves around him correct

579
00:25:29,520 --> 00:25:36,159
yeah um so he just continues like they

580
00:25:33,799 --> 00:25:38,600
continue to meet and she like she

581
00:25:36,159 --> 00:25:41,520
continues to show no interest in him as

582
00:25:38,600 --> 00:25:45,279
a person at all and he really is not a

583
00:25:41,520 --> 00:25:48,600
fan of that um so he buys her a coffee

584
00:25:45,279 --> 00:25:49,919
because he's like maybe like we'll have

585
00:25:48,600 --> 00:25:52,799
a

586
00:25:49,919 --> 00:25:55,640
conversation um and he's just really

587
00:25:52,799 --> 00:25:58,000
agitated that nothing he's doing is like

588
00:25:55,640 --> 00:26:00,320
permeating right she's just all business

589
00:25:58,000 --> 00:26:03,919
all the time so

590
00:26:00,320 --> 00:26:07,919
um she he's like well athletes take

591
00:26:03,919 --> 00:26:10,679
priority and she gets super mad she's

592
00:26:07,919 --> 00:26:12,760
like yeah athletes take priority your

593
00:26:10,679 --> 00:26:15,799
coach has made that abundantly [ __ ]

594
00:26:12,760 --> 00:26:18,559
clear like my time doesn't mean anything

595
00:26:15,799 --> 00:26:20,760
and he's like coach has done coach

596
00:26:18,559 --> 00:26:22,520
basically saved my life like coach

597
00:26:20,760 --> 00:26:25,240
literally gave this to me why are you

598
00:26:22,520 --> 00:26:29,080
like this about him he is a great man

599
00:26:25,240 --> 00:26:30,760
and she's like sure he is whatever and

600
00:26:29,080 --> 00:26:33,279
there's a lot of weird tension that we

601
00:26:30,760 --> 00:26:37,320
don't really understand yet I have a

602
00:26:33,279 --> 00:26:39,320
hypothesis as to can I tell you my

603
00:26:37,320 --> 00:26:41,960
hypothesis please do I was going to say

604
00:26:39,320 --> 00:26:43,559
What's the hypothesis coaches the baby's

605
00:26:41,960 --> 00:26:45,520
daddy

606
00:26:43,559 --> 00:26:47,480
possibly

607
00:26:45,520 --> 00:26:50,480
okay like I realized there's still a lot

608
00:26:47,480 --> 00:26:52,320
of book to get through but I'm like I

609
00:26:50,480 --> 00:26:53,960
can neither confirm nor deny okay fair

610
00:26:52,320 --> 00:26:57,159
enough

611
00:26:53,960 --> 00:26:58,600
so lemon gets a call from coach to show

612
00:26:57,159 --> 00:27:01,960
up at his office so she goes to meet

613
00:26:58,600 --> 00:27:04,640
with him and he rearranged her schedule

614
00:27:01,960 --> 00:27:07,240
and took away some of her students to

615
00:27:04,640 --> 00:27:09,679
spend more time with Toby um and she's

616
00:27:07,240 --> 00:27:12,840
really upset because she actually gets

617
00:27:09,679 --> 00:27:16,279
paid by the student not by the hour and

618
00:27:12,840 --> 00:27:20,200
he is taking away 25% of her income by

619
00:27:16,279 --> 00:27:22,720
restructuring this um and he is like I

620
00:27:20,200 --> 00:27:25,520
don't really give a [ __ ] and in her mind

621
00:27:22,720 --> 00:27:27,600
she's like I just really wish that he

622
00:27:25,520 --> 00:27:29,720
would look at me like he used to but

623
00:27:27,600 --> 00:27:33,039
there is none of that there none of it

624
00:27:29,720 --> 00:27:36,000
at all so I feel like I'm

625
00:27:33,039 --> 00:27:37,960
right I feel like you might be right

626
00:27:36,000 --> 00:27:40,039
too but I'm not going to say it too

627
00:27:37,960 --> 00:27:43,320
loudly cuz there's still more book

628
00:27:40,039 --> 00:27:47,039
Chelsea so much more so um it's been two

629
00:27:43,320 --> 00:27:50,679
weeks of tutoring um she continues to be

630
00:27:47,039 --> 00:27:53,720
super professional and he asks her to

631
00:27:50,679 --> 00:27:56,880
dinner Toby Toby asks her to dinner not

632
00:27:53,720 --> 00:27:59,120
the coach correct and um she's like no

633
00:27:56,880 --> 00:28:02,840
I'm not doing that so he chases her out

634
00:27:59,120 --> 00:28:04,399
of the library and she is like can you

635
00:28:02,840 --> 00:28:06,279
please step away from me because there

636
00:28:04,399 --> 00:28:07,960
are plenty of people here you're going

637
00:28:06,279 --> 00:28:09,760
to start some kind of weird rumor and

638
00:28:07,960 --> 00:28:14,720
I'm not interested in that like step

639
00:28:09,760 --> 00:28:18,720
away from me and he gets more mad um and

640
00:28:14,720 --> 00:28:23,159
she finally is like what's my name

641
00:28:18,720 --> 00:28:24,720
Toby and he's like uh wait we're this

642
00:28:23,159 --> 00:28:27,000
far in and he still doesn't know her

643
00:28:24,720 --> 00:28:30,480
name it's been like 4 weeks and he

644
00:28:27,000 --> 00:28:31,799
doesn't know her name so she's like yeah

645
00:28:30,480 --> 00:28:33,640
like you're into it you want to take me

646
00:28:31,799 --> 00:28:36,480
to dinner that's great what's my [ __ ]

647
00:28:33,640 --> 00:28:40,279
name and he's

648
00:28:36,480 --> 00:28:41,799
like I'm sure you have one like so is he

649
00:28:40,279 --> 00:28:43,159
into her romantically or is he still

650
00:28:41,799 --> 00:28:45,480
just like trying to

651
00:28:43,159 --> 00:28:48,080
like get her to interact with him like a

652
00:28:45,480 --> 00:28:52,039
human it's more like a weird curiosity

653
00:28:48,080 --> 00:28:54,399
thing okay like he's like what I can't

654
00:28:52,039 --> 00:28:56,279
read anything about her she doesn't seem

655
00:28:54,399 --> 00:28:58,679
to be interested in me she's not lusting

656
00:28:56,279 --> 00:29:01,799
after me like most girls

657
00:28:58,679 --> 00:29:04,799
what is her deal I don't get it

658
00:29:01,799 --> 00:29:08,320
so she just walks away from him at that

659
00:29:04,799 --> 00:29:11,679
point he's like I don't know your name

660
00:29:08,320 --> 00:29:14,399
and I am just realizing that and he's

661
00:29:11,679 --> 00:29:16,440
like super horny about it and he doesn't

662
00:29:14,399 --> 00:29:19,159
understand any of it super horny about

663
00:29:16,440 --> 00:29:22,919
it super horny about it I don't know

664
00:29:19,159 --> 00:29:27,120
what descriptor I thought we were about

665
00:29:22,919 --> 00:29:29,159
to use but horny wasn't wasn't the one

666
00:29:27,120 --> 00:29:32,679
that thought we were going to land on

667
00:29:29,159 --> 00:29:36,919
right well my notes say he's super hard

668
00:29:32,679 --> 00:29:38,480
so whatever so Toby is continuing to

669
00:29:36,919 --> 00:29:40,120
really struggle he's not getting any of

670
00:29:38,480 --> 00:29:42,120
the information as Meer is trying to

671
00:29:40,120 --> 00:29:44,039
tutor him and so she takes him to the

672
00:29:42,120 --> 00:29:45,559
baseball diamond to help him learn she

673
00:29:44,039 --> 00:29:46,799
does some weird thing with like the

674
00:29:45,559 --> 00:29:49,880
chambers of the heart or something I

675
00:29:46,799 --> 00:29:51,200
don't know um so they start playing a

676
00:29:49,880 --> 00:29:53,399
little and they start having a lot of

677
00:29:51,200 --> 00:29:56,039
fun and she finally takes off her hoodie

678
00:29:53,399 --> 00:29:58,039
cuz at this point she's been in leggings

679
00:29:56,039 --> 00:29:59,640
and super huge hoodies every time

680
00:29:58,039 --> 00:30:03,200
they've gotten together and he realizes

681
00:29:59,640 --> 00:30:06,880
she has a rock and bod yeah says uh Toby

682
00:30:03,200 --> 00:30:10,399
decides she's a goddess that's a direct

683
00:30:06,880 --> 00:30:15,080
quote um and then all of a sudden she's

684
00:30:10,399 --> 00:30:17,000
like I gotta go um and she he's like can

685
00:30:15,080 --> 00:30:19,320
you like look at me though that'd be

686
00:30:17,000 --> 00:30:21,799
really cool she doesn't give him any

687
00:30:19,320 --> 00:30:25,519
kind of reaction and just dips

688
00:30:21,799 --> 00:30:27,840
out so Toby's at a bar after the game

689
00:30:25,519 --> 00:30:29,679
and um he's just not in to any of the

690
00:30:27,840 --> 00:30:31,320
girls who are throwing themselves at him

691
00:30:29,679 --> 00:30:34,440
and he walks outside just to get some

692
00:30:31,320 --> 00:30:36,519
air and he sees lemon walking alone it's

693
00:30:34,440 --> 00:30:40,720
like really late at night and she's just

694
00:30:36,519 --> 00:30:42,679
walking by herself um and he's like

695
00:30:40,720 --> 00:30:45,679
worried about her like why are you doing

696
00:30:42,679 --> 00:30:47,600
that this isn't safe and so he catches

697
00:30:45,679 --> 00:30:49,399
up to her and starts walking her

698
00:30:47,600 --> 00:30:52,559
wherever she's going and she's like it'd

699
00:30:49,399 --> 00:30:55,960
be cooler if you left me the [ __ ] alone

700
00:30:52,559 --> 00:30:57,480
I do this all the time like go away um

701
00:30:55,960 --> 00:31:01,000
but he walks her all the way back to

702
00:30:57,480 --> 00:31:03,320
campus um and he's like trying to mess

703
00:31:01,000 --> 00:31:05,639
with her to get a reaction and again

704
00:31:03,320 --> 00:31:07,440
direct quote uh pretty sure you were

705
00:31:05,639 --> 00:31:10,760
calling me Daddy and telling me not to

706
00:31:07,440 --> 00:31:12,480
stop last night and she says back Oh

707
00:31:10,760 --> 00:31:15,320
Daddy I could never forget our night

708
00:31:12,480 --> 00:31:17,000
together believe me I tried and he's

709
00:31:15,320 --> 00:31:19,880
like

710
00:31:17,000 --> 00:31:22,919
what super confused by the whole

711
00:31:19,880 --> 00:31:26,600
interaction so he leaves her she makes

712
00:31:22,919 --> 00:31:30,360
it where she's going safely um so then

713
00:31:26,600 --> 00:31:33,440
he starts going out to the bar to every

714
00:31:30,360 --> 00:31:34,960
night to see if she's walking by herself

715
00:31:33,440 --> 00:31:37,080
and he knows that she wouldn't like

716
00:31:34,960 --> 00:31:39,080
welcome him walking her so he just

717
00:31:37,080 --> 00:31:41,679
starts following her to make sure that

718
00:31:39,080 --> 00:31:44,000
she's safe but doesn't approach her

719
00:31:41,679 --> 00:31:47,279
which gives this really weird

720
00:31:44,000 --> 00:31:49,880
like protective energy but also stalker

721
00:31:47,279 --> 00:31:52,960
energy that's really difficult to like

722
00:31:49,880 --> 00:31:55,200
reconcile yeah that's one of those where

723
00:31:52,960 --> 00:31:56,720
it's like the whole like if you're into

724
00:31:55,200 --> 00:31:59,000
them it's sweet if you're not into them

725
00:31:56,720 --> 00:32:01,679
it's like really really unsettling yeah

726
00:31:59,000 --> 00:32:03,840
like a he liked me so much he knew I was

727
00:32:01,679 --> 00:32:05,320
like walking home and so he was like how

728
00:32:03,840 --> 00:32:07,639
sweet is that versus if you don't like

729
00:32:05,320 --> 00:32:09,279
him you're like yikes he was hiding in

730
00:32:07,639 --> 00:32:13,519
the shadows watching me walk home every

731
00:32:09,279 --> 00:32:15,320
night this is not okay right so um

732
00:32:13,519 --> 00:32:18,159
eventually he talks her into going to

733
00:32:15,320 --> 00:32:20,559
dinner with him they go get pizza it's

734
00:32:18,159 --> 00:32:24,200
really sweet she reads to him and he

735
00:32:20,559 --> 00:32:27,159
starts to realize like oh no like I'm

736
00:32:24,200 --> 00:32:30,240
into her like up to this point it's been

737
00:32:27,159 --> 00:32:32,639
this weird curiosity and like I just

738
00:32:30,240 --> 00:32:34,720
want to get laid sort of thing but then

739
00:32:32,639 --> 00:32:37,919
at this point when she's reading to him

740
00:32:34,720 --> 00:32:40,399
he's like oh no like I really like her

741
00:32:37,919 --> 00:32:44,120
as a person so that's when it sort of

742
00:32:40,399 --> 00:32:46,080
turns for her so Toby has an away game

743
00:32:44,120 --> 00:32:48,600
and he is really concerned that he's not

744
00:32:46,080 --> 00:32:52,519
going to be there to walk her home to

745
00:32:48,600 --> 00:32:55,960
like follow her home so he calls

746
00:32:52,519 --> 00:32:58,639
her um to make sure that she's okay um

747
00:32:55,960 --> 00:33:00,960
and she is like like I am in a tutoring

748
00:32:58,639 --> 00:33:04,760
session like I thought this was

749
00:33:00,960 --> 00:33:06,880
important I'm fine I'm tutoring bye and

750
00:33:04,760 --> 00:33:08,799
he realizes that he's really jealous

751
00:33:06,880 --> 00:33:11,440
like who is she tutoring is it one of

752
00:33:08,799 --> 00:33:14,399
the football players is he cute like

753
00:33:11,440 --> 00:33:17,679
what what's happening

754
00:33:14,399 --> 00:33:20,240
um so it's a whole thing so then there's

755
00:33:17,679 --> 00:33:23,559
like a whole studying Montage of super

756
00:33:20,240 --> 00:33:25,799
cute moments with them together um and

757
00:33:23,559 --> 00:33:29,519
he starts to get to her and she tells

758
00:33:25,799 --> 00:33:32,200
her best friend um and she's like I

759
00:33:29,519 --> 00:33:35,600
really like him but I can't like I can't

760
00:33:32,200 --> 00:33:38,360
go for it um but we don't know why like

761
00:33:35,600 --> 00:33:42,320
what's holding her back from all of that

762
00:33:38,360 --> 00:33:45,080
I think I do I bet you do but we already

763
00:33:42,320 --> 00:33:49,679
heard my guesses so we'll just we

764
00:33:45,080 --> 00:33:52,000
did we'll just continue and see if all

765
00:33:49,679 --> 00:33:54,720
of my hypothesis that you've already

766
00:33:52,000 --> 00:33:58,720
confirmed should have been

767
00:33:54,720 --> 00:34:01,600
confirmed okay um so again more St more

768
00:33:58,720 --> 00:34:05,080
tutoring really sweet times um Toby

769
00:34:01,600 --> 00:34:07,200
decides to go to her other job which is

770
00:34:05,080 --> 00:34:09,000
at a diner so all these times she's

771
00:34:07,200 --> 00:34:12,240
walking home late he realizes she's

772
00:34:09,000 --> 00:34:15,520
wearing a a uniform so goes to the diner

773
00:34:12,240 --> 00:34:17,040
where she works and drives her home and

774
00:34:15,520 --> 00:34:18,679
tells her about all the times that he

775
00:34:17,040 --> 00:34:22,079
followed her back to campus to make sure

776
00:34:18,679 --> 00:34:23,800
that she was safe um and she's like that

777
00:34:22,079 --> 00:34:27,280
is kind of sweet like thank you for

778
00:34:23,800 --> 00:34:29,359
making sure that I was okay um and then

779
00:34:27,280 --> 00:34:30,639
all of a sudden like totally like

780
00:34:29,359 --> 00:34:32,399
they're having this really sweet moment

781
00:34:30,639 --> 00:34:34,800
and then all of a sudden she like leaps

782
00:34:32,399 --> 00:34:37,679
out of the car and he's like what are

783
00:34:34,800 --> 00:34:40,520
you okay like what is happening and she

784
00:34:37,679 --> 00:34:42,359
like Sprints across the street and her

785
00:34:40,520 --> 00:34:45,159
bestie is there telling her that she

786
00:34:42,359 --> 00:34:48,720
can't find Bailey's Mimi and Toby's like

787
00:34:45,159 --> 00:34:52,599
what the what the [ __ ] is that

788
00:34:48,720 --> 00:34:55,879
situation um and lemon like climbs in

789
00:34:52,599 --> 00:35:00,119
the black back seat and reemerges with a

790
00:34:55,879 --> 00:35:03,320
baby um and hold on hold on hold

791
00:35:00,119 --> 00:35:05,560
on I'm very confused by how this was

792
00:35:03,320 --> 00:35:07,800
just worded

793
00:35:05,560 --> 00:35:10,480
yeah why you're nodding like yeah you

794
00:35:07,800 --> 00:35:12,280
should be confused by how this because

795
00:35:10,480 --> 00:35:15,480
the chapter is

796
00:35:12,280 --> 00:35:17,240
confusing so did Bianca they were in the

797
00:35:15,480 --> 00:35:20,119
parking lot

798
00:35:17,240 --> 00:35:21,720
yeah of her apartment he was driving her

799
00:35:20,119 --> 00:35:24,720
home

800
00:35:21,720 --> 00:35:26,240
so Bianca was somewhere with the baby

801
00:35:24,720 --> 00:35:27,480
and just also happened to be in the

802
00:35:26,240 --> 00:35:29,599
parking lot

803
00:35:27,480 --> 00:35:31,920
she was getting in the car with the baby

804
00:35:29,599 --> 00:35:33,079
so the baby was in the car Bianca was

805
00:35:31,920 --> 00:35:35,839
going to the store I think that's the

806
00:35:33,079 --> 00:35:37,359
part that I it was like she leaped out

807
00:35:35,839 --> 00:35:38,800
Bianca standing there they're looking

808
00:35:37,359 --> 00:35:39,839
for this suddenly there's a b she

809
00:35:38,800 --> 00:35:41,960
reaches in the backseat and there's a

810
00:35:39,839 --> 00:35:44,520
baby I'm like what whose's back seat

811
00:35:41,960 --> 00:35:44,520
Bianca

812
00:35:45,000 --> 00:35:49,839
Bianca bian was like I was trying to go

813
00:35:47,400 --> 00:35:52,520
to the store process this for a second

814
00:35:49,839 --> 00:35:57,079
and then there's a baby the baby was in

815
00:35:52,520 --> 00:35:59,440
Toby's back seat I like I get bean is

816
00:35:57,079 --> 00:36:01,920
back Bianca's back seat okay so Bailey

817
00:35:59,440 --> 00:36:03,520
is the baby's name Bailey is the baby um

818
00:36:01,920 --> 00:36:07,440
and so Toby is

819
00:36:03,520 --> 00:36:10,359
like oh no like I get it now and he

820
00:36:07,440 --> 00:36:12,520
feels like a total heal for all the

821
00:36:10,359 --> 00:36:15,240
times that he demanded that she meet him

822
00:36:12,520 --> 00:36:17,400
at a certain time and like whatever but

823
00:36:15,240 --> 00:36:19,760
then he remembers that coach told him

824
00:36:17,400 --> 00:36:22,400
that she gets paid extra for meeting

825
00:36:19,760 --> 00:36:25,000
with him and so he's like I'm just going

826
00:36:22,400 --> 00:36:27,280
to fall behind so that she can get paid

827
00:36:25,000 --> 00:36:29,359
more even though he doesn't she doesn't

828
00:36:27,280 --> 00:36:32,040
actually get paid more right he thinks

829
00:36:29,359 --> 00:36:34,119
he's doing her a favor and so he

830
00:36:32,040 --> 00:36:36,480
intentionally stops doing his work and

831
00:36:34,119 --> 00:36:40,839
falls behind so that coach will demand

832
00:36:36,480 --> 00:36:43,920
he meet with her more um oh no

833
00:36:40,839 --> 00:36:47,040
so Toby I know he's really trying to

834
00:36:43,920 --> 00:36:48,000
help it's so sweet in theory so sweet in

835
00:36:47,040 --> 00:36:51,680
the not going to work how you think it

836
00:36:48,000 --> 00:36:53,800
will my my guy no so then the next day

837
00:36:51,680 --> 00:36:55,680
Meer wakes up early and she has a text

838
00:36:53,800 --> 00:36:57,400
from Toby offering to do their tutoring

839
00:36:55,680 --> 00:36:59,480
session that Sunday

840
00:36:57,400 --> 00:37:00,800
via Zoom so that she doesn't have to

841
00:36:59,480 --> 00:37:01,599
leave the house and she can stay with

842
00:37:00,800 --> 00:37:05,200
her

843
00:37:01,599 --> 00:37:07,480
baby um and she declines and he's like

844
00:37:05,200 --> 00:37:13,359
well but can I call you later would that

845
00:37:07,480 --> 00:37:15,079
be okay um and she forgets that he asked

846
00:37:13,359 --> 00:37:18,359
that and switches shifts at the diner so

847
00:37:15,079 --> 00:37:20,839
she doesn't answer when he calls and um

848
00:37:18,359 --> 00:37:22,800
he kind of freaks out and she gets home

849
00:37:20,839 --> 00:37:24,440
and he's there at her apartment with

850
00:37:22,800 --> 00:37:25,839
pizza he was like well I was really

851
00:37:24,440 --> 00:37:28,480
worried you didn't answer and I was

852
00:37:25,839 --> 00:37:32,560
worried you maybe didn't eat so like I

853
00:37:28,480 --> 00:37:34,839
brought you some dinner like a um he's

854
00:37:32,560 --> 00:37:37,599
had a lot of growth very quickly a lot

855
00:37:34,839 --> 00:37:40,240
of growth he has had a lot of growth um

856
00:37:37,599 --> 00:37:42,200
and then he says he doesn't even try to

857
00:37:40,240 --> 00:37:45,640
go in he's like I just brought this for

858
00:37:42,200 --> 00:37:50,400
you and I will see you on Sunday and

859
00:37:45,640 --> 00:37:53,280
she's like o o okay um she doesn't

860
00:37:50,400 --> 00:37:55,560
realize that he said I'll see you here

861
00:37:53,280 --> 00:37:57,880
on Sunday and so he shows up to her

862
00:37:55,560 --> 00:38:01,240
apartment for their Tut ing session

863
00:37:57,880 --> 00:38:02,319
trying to make it easier for her so the

864
00:38:01,240 --> 00:38:04,560
baby is

865
00:38:02,319 --> 00:38:07,079
sleeping they go out to the patio to

866
00:38:04,560 --> 00:38:09,200
study and all his work is already done

867
00:38:07,079 --> 00:38:12,240
and she's like why are we having this

868
00:38:09,200 --> 00:38:15,079
session and he's

869
00:38:12,240 --> 00:38:17,240
like and his mind he's like getting you

870
00:38:15,079 --> 00:38:20,440
paid babe and she's like you're

871
00:38:17,240 --> 00:38:24,720
literally wasting my Sunday

872
00:38:20,440 --> 00:38:28,040
morning bless it yeah um so then the

873
00:38:24,720 --> 00:38:30,440
baby wakes up and um he's

874
00:38:28,040 --> 00:38:31,640
like trying to give her some space

875
00:38:30,440 --> 00:38:34,280
because she's like well I have to feed

876
00:38:31,640 --> 00:38:35,839
her and he's like have you eaten let me

877
00:38:34,280 --> 00:38:37,520
cook for you I'm going to go back to my

878
00:38:35,839 --> 00:38:39,480
apartment and make us some food and I'll

879
00:38:37,520 --> 00:38:42,160
bring it back and she's

880
00:38:39,480 --> 00:38:44,960
like okay like why are you being so nice

881
00:38:42,160 --> 00:38:46,440
to me this is really [ __ ] weird but

882
00:38:44,960 --> 00:38:47,640
he's trying to be respectful of her

883
00:38:46,440 --> 00:38:52,119
space and

884
00:38:47,640 --> 00:38:54,680
everything so they eat and the baby Toby

885
00:38:52,119 --> 00:38:58,920
notices has bright blue eyes just like

886
00:38:54,680 --> 00:39:01,520
his and he's like a that's really sweet

887
00:38:58,920 --> 00:39:03,400
um and he holds her as she falls asleep

888
00:39:01,520 --> 00:39:07,520
and he's like this is actually really

889
00:39:03,400 --> 00:39:09,319
nice like this is really cute um and so

890
00:39:07,520 --> 00:39:10,920
nothing like some baby cuddles nothing

891
00:39:09,319 --> 00:39:12,839
like some baby cuddles and then they

892
00:39:10,920 --> 00:39:15,640
wake up and start screaming and it no

893
00:39:12,839 --> 00:39:17,640
longer feels that way well that's why I

894
00:39:15,640 --> 00:39:19,560
like other people's babies cuz I can get

895
00:39:17,640 --> 00:39:22,160
the cuddles and then hand them back when

896
00:39:19,560 --> 00:39:24,400
they start to scream or smell I too like

897
00:39:22,160 --> 00:39:27,520
other

898
00:39:24,400 --> 00:39:32,000
people's but do you like yours oh I love

899
00:39:27,520 --> 00:39:35,160
mine obsess with mine took a while it

900
00:39:32,000 --> 00:39:37,520
did take a minute it it took a minute it

901
00:39:35,160 --> 00:39:41,560
did take a minute yeah but we're there

902
00:39:37,520 --> 00:39:44,359
now no I think it's like I I think and I

903
00:39:41,560 --> 00:39:46,400
we've talked about this before but it's

904
00:39:44,359 --> 00:39:47,839
weird because and like this was my

905
00:39:46,400 --> 00:39:49,920
journey and I feel like some people

906
00:39:47,839 --> 00:39:51,319
they're like they have a baby and the

907
00:39:49,920 --> 00:39:52,880
first moment that they look at that baby

908
00:39:51,319 --> 00:39:57,240
they're like my world is complete what

909
00:39:52,880 --> 00:40:00,079
was I doing before I had this child like

910
00:39:57,240 --> 00:40:02,040
my entire access has

911
00:40:00,079 --> 00:40:03,000
shifted and I was sitting there and I

912
00:40:02,040 --> 00:40:06,200
was just like looking at him and I'm

913
00:40:03,000 --> 00:40:07,280
like I'm sure you'll be cool but I don't

914
00:40:06,200 --> 00:40:10,079
know

915
00:40:07,280 --> 00:40:14,680
you like right now you're just kind of

916
00:40:10,079 --> 00:40:17,960
like a tiny lump yeah who needs a lot

917
00:40:14,680 --> 00:40:21,160
yeah and there's no interaction you know

918
00:40:17,960 --> 00:40:23,000
like there's not like there's no nothing

919
00:40:21,160 --> 00:40:24,760
and I'm yeah and I'm not saying like you

920
00:40:23,000 --> 00:40:26,599
have a kid for the sake of being like I

921
00:40:24,760 --> 00:40:29,760
have a kid for the way my baby makes

922
00:40:26,599 --> 00:40:34,000
feel like no but it's just weird when

923
00:40:29,760 --> 00:40:39,760
you're like like I think I felt

924
00:40:34,000 --> 00:40:42,440
more indebted to my baby MH and like

925
00:40:39,760 --> 00:40:46,800
obligated to care for my baby more than

926
00:40:42,440 --> 00:40:49,720
I was like I'm a mom this is like

927
00:40:46,800 --> 00:40:52,000
[ __ ] I a friend from Nashville she

928
00:40:49,720 --> 00:40:54,480
like dm' me when I posted a photo of

929
00:40:52,000 --> 00:40:56,359
Ford like in the first like month or two

930
00:40:54,480 --> 00:40:58,880
of having him and she's like isn't me

931
00:40:56,359 --> 00:41:00,240
mommy just like the best thing ever it

932
00:40:58,880 --> 00:41:01,960
was within the first month cuz I

933
00:41:00,240 --> 00:41:03,880
remember just sitting there and like I

934
00:41:01,960 --> 00:41:05,560
think I'd like spit up in my hair and I

935
00:41:03,880 --> 00:41:07,200
was just so sleep and I was like reading

936
00:41:05,560 --> 00:41:09,960
her message and I and I wanted to

937
00:41:07,200 --> 00:41:12,560
respond and be like is this

938
00:41:09,960 --> 00:41:14,640
sarcasm and I realized I'm like oh no

939
00:41:12,560 --> 00:41:17,560
you are one of those people who like

940
00:41:14,640 --> 00:41:19,040
feels this way and and I love that but I

941
00:41:17,560 --> 00:41:23,200
also think

942
00:41:19,040 --> 00:41:25,280
like I felt like I was wrong for not

943
00:41:23,200 --> 00:41:26,800
feeling that way right I was like oh no

944
00:41:25,280 --> 00:41:29,280
like am I a psychopath that I don't

945
00:41:26,800 --> 00:41:31,319
automatically love my baby and like like

946
00:41:29,280 --> 00:41:33,640
all of these poster people like this gu

947
00:41:31,319 --> 00:41:35,560
like and I just walked in like 2 days

948
00:41:33,640 --> 00:41:37,560
after my wife had our baby and she's

949
00:41:35,560 --> 00:41:39,040
sitting there sobbing holding her and

950
00:41:37,560 --> 00:41:41,800
being like we could have done this

951
00:41:39,040 --> 00:41:44,040
sooner I could have loved her sooner and

952
00:41:41,800 --> 00:41:44,040
I'm

953
00:41:44,240 --> 00:41:50,280
like my life was really [ __ ] awesome

954
00:41:47,359 --> 00:41:50,280
before I had a

955
00:41:50,720 --> 00:41:55,359
baby like not

956
00:41:53,040 --> 00:41:56,960
a no I get what you mean it sounds so

957
00:41:55,359 --> 00:41:58,599
shitty but I also

958
00:41:56,960 --> 00:42:01,400
this it needs to be a more normalized

959
00:41:58,599 --> 00:42:05,160
conversation yeah that like life can be

960
00:42:01,400 --> 00:42:08,119
awesome and complete without babies yes

961
00:42:05,160 --> 00:42:11,880
and if you choose to have one to like

962
00:42:08,119 --> 00:42:13,880
add to the team that's great if you want

963
00:42:11,880 --> 00:42:15,960
to add a baby to your team absolutely

964
00:42:13,880 --> 00:42:18,280
let no man stop you but if you're on the

965
00:42:15,960 --> 00:42:20,480
fence about adding a baby to your team

966
00:42:18,280 --> 00:42:22,640
don't do it there's no take backs

967
00:42:20,480 --> 00:42:25,160
correct you can't return the baby to

968
00:42:22,640 --> 00:42:27,599
Sears no no the hospital literally makes

969
00:42:25,160 --> 00:42:29,960
you sign a piece of papers saying no

970
00:42:27,599 --> 00:42:32,400
takeback well that like I think that was

971
00:42:29,960 --> 00:42:34,119
like the the weirdest [ __ ] for me

972
00:42:32,400 --> 00:42:36,640
especially my husband and I were having

973
00:42:34,119 --> 00:42:38,400
this conversation recently um where he's

974
00:42:36,640 --> 00:42:40,920
he was like yeah he's like you know like

975
00:42:38,400 --> 00:42:42,640
being young dating married he's like no

976
00:42:40,920 --> 00:42:44,960
one ever like pressured me he's like

977
00:42:42,640 --> 00:42:46,760
like truly no our familyes never like so

978
00:42:44,960 --> 00:42:48,680
when are we getting great like never

979
00:42:46,760 --> 00:42:51,559
getting the grandkid pressure anything

980
00:42:48,680 --> 00:42:54,400
like that mind you both of our parents

981
00:42:51,559 --> 00:42:56,000
have grandkids from our other siblings

982
00:42:54,400 --> 00:43:00,200
so there was a little less pressure on

983
00:42:56,000 --> 00:43:02,480
us in um but Vance was like I feel like

984
00:43:00,200 --> 00:43:04,319
since we've had Ford people have really

985
00:43:02,480 --> 00:43:08,359
started being like so when are you

986
00:43:04,319 --> 00:43:13,599
having your next one right oh when's the

987
00:43:08,359 --> 00:43:15,960
right no ma'am so my dad put it in his

988
00:43:13,599 --> 00:43:17,559
speech at our wedding party like can't

989
00:43:15,960 --> 00:43:19,880
wait to start seeing

990
00:43:17,559 --> 00:43:23,000
grandkids and I was

991
00:43:19,880 --> 00:43:26,280
like you're going to have

992
00:43:23,000 --> 00:43:28,640
to and then you're like are you sure you

993
00:43:26,280 --> 00:43:31,359
can't because you already are and you're

994
00:43:28,640 --> 00:43:34,720
doing it with style and grace so much

995
00:43:31,359 --> 00:43:38,040
style and grace my dad's great so then a

996
00:43:34,720 --> 00:43:39,800
couple weeks ago we were at my niece

997
00:43:38,040 --> 00:43:43,520
niece and nephew cuz they're born really

998
00:43:39,800 --> 00:43:46,760
close together um their birthday party

999
00:43:43,520 --> 00:43:50,319
with my husband and his family and his

1000
00:43:46,760 --> 00:43:55,079
uncle leans over and is like why don't

1001
00:43:50,319 --> 00:43:57,760
you guys have any yet is it you or is it

1002
00:43:55,079 --> 00:44:02,160
him so not just

1003
00:43:57,760 --> 00:44:04,319
like holy [ __ ] balls yeah and I was like

1004
00:44:02,160 --> 00:44:06,280
it's me and he went you're still the

1005
00:44:04,319 --> 00:44:08,720
best thing that's ever happened to him

1006
00:44:06,280 --> 00:44:12,800
and I was like I

1007
00:44:08,720 --> 00:44:15,240
know it was like what a weird and sweet

1008
00:44:12,800 --> 00:44:19,440
interaction he's so

1009
00:44:15,240 --> 00:44:21,760
old like and it's I mean I we just are

1010
00:44:19,440 --> 00:44:25,000
choosing not to but I was just like it's

1011
00:44:21,760 --> 00:44:26,520
me because he may not understand that

1012
00:44:25,000 --> 00:44:28,160
like we're just you you know I didn't

1013
00:44:26,520 --> 00:44:31,400
want to get into that so I was just like

1014
00:44:28,160 --> 00:44:34,480
it's me well but I and I also think when

1015
00:44:31,400 --> 00:44:37,400
you like are just trying to say like we

1016
00:44:34,480 --> 00:44:40,480
we don't want CH like this is a choice

1017
00:44:37,400 --> 00:44:42,160
right people are so quick to invalidate

1018
00:44:40,480 --> 00:44:44,359
and minimize your choice oh you'll

1019
00:44:42,160 --> 00:44:46,240
change your mind oh you're young yeah

1020
00:44:44,359 --> 00:44:50,599
you'll change your mind like I'm not

1021
00:44:46,240 --> 00:44:53,480
that young my guy like I told Matt like

1022
00:44:50,599 --> 00:44:55,119
recently I was like so listen babe cuz I

1023
00:44:53,480 --> 00:44:56,559
just had a birthday as did you happy

1024
00:44:55,119 --> 00:44:59,240
birthday yeah I realiz that we didn't

1025
00:44:56,559 --> 00:45:01,839
text each other happy birthday we didn't

1026
00:44:59,240 --> 00:45:04,319
I realized that on my sister's birthday

1027
00:45:01,839 --> 00:45:06,400
which was the 19th I was like oh

1028
00:45:04,319 --> 00:45:08,800
Chelsea's birthday was the

1029
00:45:06,400 --> 00:45:10,520
nth no the funny thing was on my

1030
00:45:08,800 --> 00:45:11,480
birthday I was like Hannah's birthday

1031
00:45:10,520 --> 00:45:14,400
was

1032
00:45:11,480 --> 00:45:16,640
yesterday and you know it just left me

1033
00:45:14,400 --> 00:45:18,440
and no one was upset what a beautiful

1034
00:45:16,640 --> 00:45:20,559
thing in Friendship what an excellent

1035
00:45:18,440 --> 00:45:23,520
friendship we have you're like we have

1036
00:45:20,559 --> 00:45:25,640
full robust lives we do we show up and

1037
00:45:23,520 --> 00:45:27,599
enjoy ourselves when we have the time

1038
00:45:25,640 --> 00:45:30,520
and outside of that there's no

1039
00:45:27,599 --> 00:45:32,640
expectation no one is offended no not a

1040
00:45:30,520 --> 00:45:34,280
single person is offended not at all but

1041
00:45:32,640 --> 00:45:37,400
I told Matt and I was like well I just

1042
00:45:34,280 --> 00:45:39,760
turned 32 and I was like so listen if I

1043
00:45:37,400 --> 00:45:41,319
get to be 35 and there are no kids I'm

1044
00:45:39,760 --> 00:45:44,559
getting my tubes tied just for the

1045
00:45:41,319 --> 00:45:46,800
record cuz I cannot imagine a worse life

1046
00:45:44,559 --> 00:45:51,319
like already the idea of pregnancy makes

1047
00:45:46,800 --> 00:45:54,720
me kind of terrified and nauseous um and

1048
00:45:51,319 --> 00:45:56,880
so like the idea of pregnancy after 35

1049
00:45:54,720 --> 00:45:59,359
is like not

1050
00:45:56,880 --> 00:46:00,720
geriatric pregnancies correct like

1051
00:45:59,359 --> 00:46:03,319
that's not something I want to do I

1052
00:46:00,720 --> 00:46:07,599
don't want to be have advanced maternal

1053
00:46:03,319 --> 00:46:09,280
age like yikes well I think that's a an

1054
00:46:07,599 --> 00:46:10,480
interesting conversation as well right

1055
00:46:09,280 --> 00:46:13,680
because you

1056
00:46:10,480 --> 00:46:15,880
have people like I have girls who were

1057
00:46:13,680 --> 00:46:18,720
in my youth group when I worked in youth

1058
00:46:15,880 --> 00:46:20,559
ministry who have three kids now they

1059
00:46:18,720 --> 00:46:21,760
were students when I was in grad school

1060
00:46:20,559 --> 00:46:23,520
high school students when I was in grad

1061
00:46:21,760 --> 00:46:25,200
school I've been out of grad school for

1062
00:46:23,520 --> 00:46:26,520
a decade it makes sense right like these

1063
00:46:25,200 --> 00:46:27,680
things happen

1064
00:46:26,520 --> 00:46:30,760
but it's also one of those where I'm

1065
00:46:27,680 --> 00:46:33,440
like okay so I feel like you either have

1066
00:46:30,760 --> 00:46:36,880
the energy to chase after all of the

1067
00:46:33,440 --> 00:46:40,839
kids but like you're you're eating a lot

1068
00:46:36,880 --> 00:46:43,400
of like boxed mac and cheese and like

1069
00:46:40,839 --> 00:46:45,000
M things just aren't as stable or you

1070
00:46:43,400 --> 00:46:46,760
wait until you're a little bit older and

1071
00:46:45,000 --> 00:46:48,839
more established to have children and

1072
00:46:46,760 --> 00:46:51,280
then I'm like I

1073
00:46:48,839 --> 00:46:56,720
don't but but now I don't have all of

1074
00:46:51,280 --> 00:46:59,839
this energy to trace you forever mhm mhm

1075
00:46:56,720 --> 00:47:02,440
yeah it's a conundrum yeah so my

1076
00:46:59,839 --> 00:47:03,640
aunt U my aunt got married at 38 I think

1077
00:47:02,440 --> 00:47:05,839
when they came back from their honeymoon

1078
00:47:03,640 --> 00:47:06,800
they were already pregnant and then

1079
00:47:05,839 --> 00:47:07,800
right after they had their daughter they

1080
00:47:06,800 --> 00:47:09,280
got pregnant again because she got

1081
00:47:07,800 --> 00:47:11,240
married at 38 and they wanted to have

1082
00:47:09,280 --> 00:47:15,240
kids and then they had twins so at like

1083
00:47:11,240 --> 00:47:15,240
40 years old she had three under

1084
00:47:15,319 --> 00:47:22,240
three the most impressive thing the most

1085
00:47:18,680 --> 00:47:24,640
terrifying thing and that like oh my God

1086
00:47:22,240 --> 00:47:27,319
no yeah cuz my mom had me when she was

1087
00:47:24,640 --> 00:47:31,200
37 and my sister when she was 40 mhm

1088
00:47:27,319 --> 00:47:33,079
yeah like yikes I don't know it's just a

1089
00:47:31,200 --> 00:47:35,520
different world yeah I don't want to do

1090
00:47:33,079 --> 00:47:40,000
that I have no desire I was like I feel

1091
00:47:35,520 --> 00:47:40,000
like I was like getting

1092
00:47:40,119 --> 00:47:44,480
pregnant at

1093
00:47:42,160 --> 00:47:47,200
30 Fel I was like this feels like the

1094
00:47:44,480 --> 00:47:49,240
right the right time yeah if there is

1095
00:47:47,200 --> 00:47:51,960
such a thing right I'm like we're

1096
00:47:49,240 --> 00:47:54,119
established we're not stress like

1097
00:47:51,960 --> 00:47:56,440
financially there like we're in a good

1098
00:47:54,119 --> 00:47:59,319
place but also that like

1099
00:47:56,440 --> 00:48:02,839
I'm like I I I don't think

1100
00:47:59,319 --> 00:48:04,559
I I I don't know if I want more now and

1101
00:48:02,839 --> 00:48:06,440
that is also another weird inv

1102
00:48:04,559 --> 00:48:08,040
validating thing when people are like

1103
00:48:06,440 --> 00:48:11,680
whenever I'm like yeah you know I really

1104
00:48:08,040 --> 00:48:13,400
love my one kid and they're like but

1105
00:48:11,680 --> 00:48:15,520
don't you want them to have siblings and

1106
00:48:13,400 --> 00:48:17,440
they're like once you get to like a year

1107
00:48:15,520 --> 00:48:20,680
and a half you'll change your

1108
00:48:17,440 --> 00:48:22,839
mind I don't owe my son more kids for

1109
00:48:20,680 --> 00:48:25,680
the record right like and I've had

1110
00:48:22,839 --> 00:48:27,440
people be oh like he'll like you know

1111
00:48:25,680 --> 00:48:29,359
like my husband was an only child and

1112
00:48:27,440 --> 00:48:31,119
his mom said she was like we Vance

1113
00:48:29,359 --> 00:48:32,440
really wanted a sibling growing up but

1114
00:48:31,119 --> 00:48:34,760
like you didn't owe Vance a sibling and

1115
00:48:32,440 --> 00:48:37,319
look he didn't get a sibling right

1116
00:48:34,760 --> 00:48:40,040
except for the older ones but I'm like

1117
00:48:37,319 --> 00:48:42,760
but he has great friends who may as well

1118
00:48:40,040 --> 00:48:44,800
be siblings that he's had his whole life

1119
00:48:42,760 --> 00:48:46,119
1,000 I'm like it's fine yeah I think I

1120
00:48:44,800 --> 00:48:47,599
like felt in my head I was like oh no

1121
00:48:46,119 --> 00:48:49,240
will my child be okay in the world if

1122
00:48:47,599 --> 00:48:50,880
they're an only child I'm like right

1123
00:48:49,240 --> 00:48:53,040
yeah there are a lot of only children

1124
00:48:50,880 --> 00:48:56,640
they're going to be fine like I I think

1125
00:48:53,040 --> 00:48:58,119
I told you a friend of mine um she she

1126
00:48:56,640 --> 00:49:00,119
actually got her tubes tied like last

1127
00:48:58,119 --> 00:49:01,880
week or two weeks ago um and she was

1128
00:49:00,119 --> 00:49:04,720
really anxious about it and everything

1129
00:49:01,880 --> 00:49:08,480
and she's doing okay poor thing she was

1130
00:49:04,720 --> 00:49:12,480
like yeah so this really does hurt I was

1131
00:49:08,480 --> 00:49:14,799
like yeah I know um but people were like

1132
00:49:12,480 --> 00:49:16,880
invalidating her decision to do that and

1133
00:49:14,799 --> 00:49:21,280
it was just really gross that's so

1134
00:49:16,880 --> 00:49:22,400
shitty yeah so anyway no one invalidated

1135
00:49:21,280 --> 00:49:24,760
Myer's

1136
00:49:22,400 --> 00:49:27,280
decision no one invalidated Myer's

1137
00:49:24,760 --> 00:49:30,319
decision she invalidated Myers well we

1138
00:49:27,280 --> 00:49:32,559
don't maybe they did maybe I don't know

1139
00:49:30,319 --> 00:49:35,599
um but um

1140
00:49:32,559 --> 00:49:40,400
she he wants her to go to her game go to

1141
00:49:35,599 --> 00:49:42,200
his game and she can't um and you know

1142
00:49:40,400 --> 00:49:44,520
she watches it though and text him

1143
00:49:42,200 --> 00:49:46,680
congratulations and he's already on her

1144
00:49:44,520 --> 00:49:48,839
way on his way over to her place with

1145
00:49:46,680 --> 00:49:50,359
popcorn like it's those kinds of things

1146
00:49:48,839 --> 00:49:51,319
where he's like showing up for her

1147
00:49:50,359 --> 00:49:55,200
without

1148
00:49:51,319 --> 00:49:56,359
expectation um and so they fall asleep

1149
00:49:55,200 --> 00:49:58,680
together

1150
00:49:56,359 --> 00:50:00,359
you know while he they're hanging out

1151
00:49:58,680 --> 00:50:02,280
and she wakes up to the baby crying but

1152
00:50:00,359 --> 00:50:05,480
he has already like gotten up to get the

1153
00:50:02,280 --> 00:50:07,079
baby and like brings her to Meer so Meer

1154
00:50:05,480 --> 00:50:09,400
can feed her and they fall back asleep

1155
00:50:07,079 --> 00:50:12,119
and it's just this really sweet moment

1156
00:50:09,400 --> 00:50:13,880
um that would be really gross if he

1157
00:50:12,119 --> 00:50:14,799
hadn't already had all this interaction

1158
00:50:13,880 --> 00:50:17,520
with the

1159
00:50:14,799 --> 00:50:19,400
baby cuz like I would be like don't

1160
00:50:17,520 --> 00:50:21,319
touch my [ __ ] kid if this this was

1161
00:50:19,400 --> 00:50:22,520
some Rando that I was tutoring you know

1162
00:50:21,319 --> 00:50:25,680
what I

1163
00:50:22,520 --> 00:50:28,200
mean well yeah Hannah I think think

1164
00:50:25,680 --> 00:50:30,760
that's been the whole book been like

1165
00:50:28,200 --> 00:50:33,000
building this but even still at first

1166
00:50:30,760 --> 00:50:34,480
when I read it I was like I don't know

1167
00:50:33,000 --> 00:50:36,839
that I would be okay with him just like

1168
00:50:34,480 --> 00:50:39,359
going into my baby's room but then I had

1169
00:50:36,839 --> 00:50:42,359
to like I was like okay well I guess she

1170
00:50:39,359 --> 00:50:44,440
is so that's what

1171
00:50:42,359 --> 00:50:47,160
matters I mean I think there's been a

1172
00:50:44,440 --> 00:50:48,960
lot of buildup and trust and like build

1173
00:50:47,160 --> 00:50:51,359
relationship building like it's not like

1174
00:50:48,960 --> 00:50:53,400
it's their first tutoring session right

1175
00:50:51,359 --> 00:50:55,960
and he's like oh your baby's

1176
00:50:53,400 --> 00:51:01,160
crying babies love me

1177
00:50:55,960 --> 00:51:03,000
like allow me like no but anyway so all

1178
00:51:01,160 --> 00:51:06,559
this really lots of Sweetness from all

1179
00:51:03,000 --> 00:51:10,799
of that and so then Coach demands that

1180
00:51:06,559 --> 00:51:12,799
uh Meer go on uh an away game with them

1181
00:51:10,799 --> 00:51:15,440
and apparently like Toby worked it out

1182
00:51:12,799 --> 00:51:17,720
she gets paid like hella bank for all of

1183
00:51:15,440 --> 00:51:19,559
this he shows up with a rental so that

1184
00:51:17,720 --> 00:51:22,000
she can take the baby instead of paying

1185
00:51:19,559 --> 00:51:25,040
someone to watch the baby for a few days

1186
00:51:22,000 --> 00:51:26,000
um so she gets even more money from that

1187
00:51:25,040 --> 00:51:28,920
and

1188
00:51:26,000 --> 00:51:31,400
um Toby's very sweet with the baby like

1189
00:51:28,920 --> 00:51:33,880
buys her like a little baseball like a

1190
00:51:31,400 --> 00:51:36,720
squishy and like all this other stuff um

1191
00:51:33,880 --> 00:51:39,280
so they have adjoining rooms um they're

1192
00:51:36,720 --> 00:51:41,119
hanging out together it's really great

1193
00:51:39,280 --> 00:51:44,599
um and he's like waiting for her to make

1194
00:51:41,119 --> 00:51:46,440
a move but she doesn't and he's like

1195
00:51:44,599 --> 00:51:48,440
come on he's like I'm trying so hard to

1196
00:51:46,440 --> 00:51:51,280
be really respectful and show you that

1197
00:51:48,440 --> 00:51:52,880
like I'm worth it that I'm willing to

1198
00:51:51,280 --> 00:51:54,559
wait and that I really care about you

1199
00:51:52,880 --> 00:51:56,240
but like I want you to make the first

1200
00:51:54,559 --> 00:52:01,240
move and you're not and I'm like what am

1201
00:51:56,240 --> 00:52:03,079
I like so she asks to shower in his room

1202
00:52:01,240 --> 00:52:07,160
so they don't wake the baby and he's

1203
00:52:03,079 --> 00:52:11,160
like yeah of course and he is like my

1204
00:52:07,160 --> 00:52:11,160
notes say that he starts feeding the

1205
00:52:11,640 --> 00:52:18,559
geese I love the hand

1206
00:52:13,960 --> 00:52:21,520
motion attached to it yeah I'm really

1207
00:52:18,559 --> 00:52:25,040
sorry okay and then he's like what am I

1208
00:52:21,520 --> 00:52:27,680
doing like no no no like her baby's in

1209
00:52:25,040 --> 00:52:29,839
the other room she's like maybe not into

1210
00:52:27,680 --> 00:52:32,720
me like that like I need to like slow my

1211
00:52:29,839 --> 00:52:35,280
[ __ ] roll and so she finally gets out

1212
00:52:32,720 --> 00:52:38,559
of the shower and he's like are you into

1213
00:52:35,280 --> 00:52:41,640
me and she's like I can't answer that

1214
00:52:38,559 --> 00:52:44,960
have a great night and like goes to bed

1215
00:52:41,640 --> 00:52:46,680
separately so he takes them to meet his

1216
00:52:44,960 --> 00:52:49,520
parents like her and the baby cuz

1217
00:52:46,680 --> 00:52:52,480
they're near his hometown and mom is

1218
00:52:49,520 --> 00:52:54,520
like going off about how like when are

1219
00:52:52,480 --> 00:52:56,200
you going to stop playing a child's game

1220
00:52:54,520 --> 00:52:59,319
and like you're not like all this other

1221
00:52:56,200 --> 00:53:01,520
[ __ ] about baseball about baseball okay

1222
00:52:59,319 --> 00:53:04,200
so then he is just like I'm just going

1223
00:53:01,520 --> 00:53:05,200
to take the baby outside thank you and

1224
00:53:04,200 --> 00:53:08,000
like goes

1225
00:53:05,200 --> 00:53:09,920
outside and lemon stands up for Toby

1226
00:53:08,000 --> 00:53:12,400
hard like she's really upset she's like

1227
00:53:09,920 --> 00:53:13,880
do you understand what he does do you

1228
00:53:12,400 --> 00:53:18,559
understand how hard it is and the time

1229
00:53:13,880 --> 00:53:20,599
and the hours he puts in and um he hears

1230
00:53:18,559 --> 00:53:23,839
it cuz he comes back in and here's the

1231
00:53:20,599 --> 00:53:25,520
tail end um and so then he's like you

1232
00:53:23,839 --> 00:53:27,359
have to come to my game like please come

1233
00:53:25,520 --> 00:53:31,319
to my game me like it would mean so much

1234
00:53:27,359 --> 00:53:33,240
to me and she's like of course so she

1235
00:53:31,319 --> 00:53:35,040
gets the baby ready gets herself ready

1236
00:53:33,240 --> 00:53:37,119
and then his mom shows up and is like

1237
00:53:35,040 --> 00:53:38,839
you know what you helped me realize like

1238
00:53:37,119 --> 00:53:40,559
I really regret the way that I raised

1239
00:53:38,839 --> 00:53:42,440
him and like comparing him to his older

1240
00:53:40,559 --> 00:53:44,760
brother and all this other [ __ ] and

1241
00:53:42,440 --> 00:53:47,960
Meer is like would you like to go to his

1242
00:53:44,760 --> 00:53:51,440
game and gives him the ticket or gives

1243
00:53:47,960 --> 00:53:55,599
mom the ticket to go to his game and so

1244
00:53:51,440 --> 00:53:58,000
he which is sweet but not what he right

1245
00:53:55,599 --> 00:54:00,200
was hoping for so he's freaking out cuz

1246
00:53:58,000 --> 00:54:02,839
she's not there but then he sees his mom

1247
00:54:00,200 --> 00:54:04,400
and is like oh my God cuz Mom's never

1248
00:54:02,839 --> 00:54:09,359
come to any of his games so it's a

1249
00:54:04,400 --> 00:54:10,599
really sweet moment um and so then um he

1250
00:54:09,359 --> 00:54:14,559
at least it was

1251
00:54:10,599 --> 00:54:16,200
sweet yes like I was like I was like

1252
00:54:14,559 --> 00:54:19,520
emotionally preparing myself for you to

1253
00:54:16,200 --> 00:54:21,280
tell me that like heartbroken yeah he

1254
00:54:19,520 --> 00:54:22,880
was pissed and there was a fight or like

1255
00:54:21,280 --> 00:54:25,280
something said he like saw his mom and

1256
00:54:22,880 --> 00:54:26,599
like connected the dots and realized

1257
00:54:25,280 --> 00:54:27,720
right see that's what we were saying

1258
00:54:26,599 --> 00:54:30,799
earlier there's just something about

1259
00:54:27,720 --> 00:54:35,880
like the drama never fully sends it

1260
00:54:30,799 --> 00:54:38,680
Comfort not really um and so he like um

1261
00:54:35,880 --> 00:54:41,520
they get back he backs her into a wall

1262
00:54:38,680 --> 00:54:45,240
and like kisses her um or is about to

1263
00:54:41,520 --> 00:54:48,640
and Coach calls him and so he has to

1264
00:54:45,240 --> 00:54:50,599
leave um and they they win because they

1265
00:54:48,640 --> 00:54:53,079
have a second game they win and then he

1266
00:54:50,599 --> 00:54:55,240
has an interview with a a very Saucy

1267
00:54:53,079 --> 00:55:00,280
reporter who's like very clearly really

1268
00:54:55,240 --> 00:55:02,520
flirting with him and into it um and he

1269
00:55:00,280 --> 00:55:07,319
is like well I have somebody waiting at

1270
00:55:02,520 --> 00:55:11,880
at home so I got to go and she's like me

1271
00:55:07,319 --> 00:55:11,880
like oh okay um

1272
00:55:12,160 --> 00:55:17,640
wait lemon is like me like is watching

1273
00:55:15,119 --> 00:55:19,680
the interview and okay I thought you

1274
00:55:17,640 --> 00:55:21,680
were we switched to lemon's point of

1275
00:55:19,680 --> 00:55:23,119
view I'm sorry you're like yeah he's

1276
00:55:21,680 --> 00:55:24,039
talking to the host who's clearly into

1277
00:55:23,119 --> 00:55:26,400
him and he's like I've got someone at

1278
00:55:24,039 --> 00:55:29,880
home and she's like me and I'm like wait

1279
00:55:26,400 --> 00:55:33,680
what the reporter sorry I was like I was

1280
00:55:29,880 --> 00:55:34,880
like bold assumption to no you're

1281
00:55:33,680 --> 00:55:37,280
interviewing someone he's like I've got

1282
00:55:34,880 --> 00:55:39,119
someone at home and she's like it must

1283
00:55:37,280 --> 00:55:43,200
be me it's our first time meeting he's

1284
00:55:39,119 --> 00:55:46,280
clearly down he's into me um so then um

1285
00:55:43,200 --> 00:55:49,760
Meyer runs into the coach in the hotel

1286
00:55:46,280 --> 00:55:53,000
um and he's looking for Toby and he

1287
00:55:49,760 --> 00:55:55,039
insinuates that he went out to a bar and

1288
00:55:53,000 --> 00:55:56,839
she's like did he because in the

1289
00:55:55,039 --> 00:55:58,480
interview he made it very clear he was

1290
00:55:56,839 --> 00:55:59,680
like going straight back cuz he wanted

1291
00:55:58,480 --> 00:56:03,520
to get back to

1292
00:55:59,680 --> 00:56:07,400
her so um but it's been 4 hours since

1293
00:56:03,520 --> 00:56:10,640
then oh and she locks the door to the

1294
00:56:07,400 --> 00:56:13,400
adjoining room and then Hears A Woman's

1295
00:56:10,640 --> 00:56:16,920
laughter like under the door and she's

1296
00:56:13,400 --> 00:56:18,559
like I was very stupid like I really

1297
00:56:16,920 --> 00:56:19,599
thought that he was coming back for me

1298
00:56:18,559 --> 00:56:23,599
and he

1299
00:56:19,599 --> 00:56:25,839
wasn't so we switch to Toby he wakes up

1300
00:56:23,599 --> 00:56:29,359
apparently very hung over in coach's

1301
00:56:25,839 --> 00:56:31,359
room and is has no idea how he got there

1302
00:56:29,359 --> 00:56:33,799
he was like I literally was on my way

1303
00:56:31,359 --> 00:56:36,039
back to Meyer and it's morning and she

1304
00:56:33,799 --> 00:56:38,000
doesn't know where I am and she doesn't

1305
00:56:36,039 --> 00:56:41,000
like I didn't go home like this is bad

1306
00:56:38,000 --> 00:56:45,160
this is really bad and so coach says

1307
00:56:41,000 --> 00:56:48,079
that he called uh drunk and Toby like

1308
00:56:45,160 --> 00:56:50,760
coach had to go pick Toby up and so he's

1309
00:56:48,079 --> 00:56:52,599
freaking out coach gives him or tries to

1310
00:56:50,760 --> 00:56:55,079
give him some pills he's like these will

1311
00:56:52,599 --> 00:56:56,440
help with the hangover yeah these will

1312
00:56:55,079 --> 00:56:58,240
help with your hangover and it's meant

1313
00:56:56,440 --> 00:57:01,240
to be like it's ibuprofen or something

1314
00:56:58,240 --> 00:57:04,039
like that um but he doesn't take it and

1315
00:57:01,240 --> 00:57:05,839
he gets back to his room and lemon is

1316
00:57:04,039 --> 00:57:08,359
walking out with like all her bags

1317
00:57:05,839 --> 00:57:11,400
packed and the baby um and he tries to

1318
00:57:08,359 --> 00:57:13,039
explain and she's like I never should

1319
00:57:11,400 --> 00:57:15,640
have expected anything from you we

1320
00:57:13,039 --> 00:57:17,920
didn't have anything like we never had

1321
00:57:15,640 --> 00:57:20,039
any agreement or there was no

1322
00:57:17,920 --> 00:57:21,760
expectation and I'm really sorry that I

1323
00:57:20,039 --> 00:57:26,039
had expectations of you I should have

1324
00:57:21,760 --> 00:57:29,839
known better like apologies um not like

1325
00:57:26,039 --> 00:57:33,359
passive aggressive no it's actual like

1326
00:57:29,839 --> 00:57:37,160
resigned like acceptance really um and

1327
00:57:33,359 --> 00:57:39,400
he has worse yeah it's very sad like you

1328
00:57:37,160 --> 00:57:41,160
know and then he has no idea what she's

1329
00:57:39,400 --> 00:57:43,480
talking about and then his door opens

1330
00:57:41,160 --> 00:57:46,480
and his teammate walks out with the

1331
00:57:43,480 --> 00:57:48,640
reporter oh so his teammate had taken

1332
00:57:46,480 --> 00:57:50,720
his key and gone into the room and Meyer

1333
00:57:48,640 --> 00:57:53,280
thought that and my was standing there

1334
00:57:50,720 --> 00:57:56,839
with him and like watched the teammate

1335
00:57:53,280 --> 00:57:59,480
and reporter walk out right okay um and

1336
00:57:56,839 --> 00:58:02,039
so then um he kisses her and they make

1337
00:57:59,480 --> 00:58:05,400
out super hardcore and she agrees to

1338
00:58:02,039 --> 00:58:08,559
come to his game it's all very sweet so

1339
00:58:05,400 --> 00:58:13,599
um blah blah

1340
00:58:08,559 --> 00:58:17,680
blah oh so then later um Toby sees a

1341
00:58:13,599 --> 00:58:19,480
picture of him and Meyer making out with

1342
00:58:17,680 --> 00:58:22,920
the baby like at their feet in her

1343
00:58:19,480 --> 00:58:25,480
little carrier um in the school paper so

1344
00:58:22,920 --> 00:58:27,920
the reporter had taken a picture and

1345
00:58:25,480 --> 00:58:29,760
published it and he is very upset he's

1346
00:58:27,920 --> 00:58:33,760
like I got to tell Meer in person this

1347
00:58:29,760 --> 00:58:36,520
is really bad um why is it really bad

1348
00:58:33,760 --> 00:58:38,960
because she doesn't want she's been very

1349
00:58:36,520 --> 00:58:41,280
clear that she's like I can't be with

1350
00:58:38,960 --> 00:58:44,680
you I don't want that kind of attention

1351
00:58:41,280 --> 00:58:47,599
like I don't I'm not interested in it so

1352
00:58:44,680 --> 00:58:50,039
um he goes to see her but she's gone and

1353
00:58:47,599 --> 00:58:51,640
she texts him and says she won't be home

1354
00:58:50,039 --> 00:58:53,559
that night she'll be home the next day

1355
00:58:51,640 --> 00:58:55,880
she'll call him later and he's kind of

1356
00:58:53,559 --> 00:58:57,760
concerned but he's like whatever his

1357
00:58:55,880 --> 00:59:00,480
friends invite him to a junior college

1358
00:58:57,760 --> 00:59:03,160
baseball game so he decides to go and he

1359
00:59:00,480 --> 00:59:08,200
sees lemon there with another dude like

1360
00:59:03,160 --> 00:59:12,440
across the field and he gets big

1361
00:59:08,200 --> 00:59:15,119
mad um you know I get it yeah I'd

1362
00:59:12,440 --> 00:59:16,960
probably get big mad yeah he's big mad

1363
00:59:15,119 --> 00:59:20,079
so he punches the guy in the face which

1364
00:59:16,960 --> 00:59:21,520
may have been a step too far oh well

1365
00:59:20,079 --> 00:59:24,160
that's bigger mad than you would have

1366
00:59:21,520 --> 00:59:26,200
gotten that's big big mad that's a

1367
00:59:24,160 --> 00:59:29,520
double big double big that's a big ma

1368
00:59:26,200 --> 00:59:30,880
yeah Big Mac mad I hated that but I I

1369
00:59:29,520 --> 00:59:33,960
said it we

1370
00:59:30,880 --> 00:59:35,720
committed um so then yeah he punches him

1371
00:59:33,960 --> 00:59:39,799
in the face and she's like this is my

1372
00:59:35,720 --> 00:59:41,640
brother you [ __ ] and he's like my bad

1373
00:59:39,799 --> 00:59:46,240
maybe I should have asked before I

1374
00:59:41,640 --> 00:59:47,960
started throwing bows yeah um so they go

1375
00:59:46,240 --> 00:59:50,079
back to lemon's apartment with the

1376
00:59:47,960 --> 00:59:52,079
brother and they're all hanging out

1377
00:59:50,079 --> 00:59:54,880
they're having a great time and then

1378
00:59:52,079 --> 00:59:56,319
Bianca and bro are like we'll watch the

1379
00:59:54,880 --> 00:59:58,280
baby you guys go out and have a good

1380
00:59:56,319 --> 01:00:00,760
time like go have a good time we got the

1381
00:59:58,280 --> 01:00:02,760
baby so they go to a party and he's like

1382
01:00:00,760 --> 01:00:05,400
very weirdly possessive and jealous the

1383
01:00:02,760 --> 01:00:07,240
whole time like in a way that she's into

1384
01:00:05,400 --> 01:00:10,079
or in a way that's like annoying her or

1385
01:00:07,240 --> 01:00:13,680
in a neutral way she's into it but to me

1386
01:00:10,079 --> 01:00:16,559
it was like o a little bit red flaggy

1387
01:00:13,680 --> 01:00:18,520
but like most of these are like that

1388
01:00:16,559 --> 01:00:21,760
where it's like a little bit red flaggy

1389
01:00:18,520 --> 01:00:24,960
but you get into it and it's not

1390
01:00:21,760 --> 01:00:26,760
I quite frankly I don't know if if I've

1391
01:00:24,960 --> 01:00:29,520
read a

1392
01:00:26,760 --> 01:00:32,559
single romance novel that doesn't have

1393
01:00:29,520 --> 01:00:35,079
some element that you're like that's a

1394
01:00:32,559 --> 01:00:39,319
red flat

1395
01:00:35,079 --> 01:00:41,400
like yeah yeah yeah but I mean that cuz

1396
01:00:39,319 --> 01:00:44,559
like that's every dude in a romance

1397
01:00:41,400 --> 01:00:49,559
novel mhm I've never read a romance

1398
01:00:44,559 --> 01:00:51,640
novel about a me a Meek pacifist right

1399
01:00:49,559 --> 01:00:54,599
someone who's well adjusted and healthy

1400
01:00:51,640 --> 01:00:57,400
no not at all yeah that doesn't equal

1401
01:00:54,599 --> 01:01:00,520
great sex it doesn't appar trauma

1402
01:00:57,400 --> 01:01:02,119
apparently equals trauma bonds equal

1403
01:01:00,520 --> 01:01:04,839
great

1404
01:01:02,119 --> 01:01:10,559
sex oh

1405
01:01:04,839 --> 01:01:10,559
no I hated that I said it and I hated

1406
01:01:10,760 --> 01:01:15,760
it it doesn't for the record you don't

1407
01:01:13,960 --> 01:01:17,799
have to be traumatized your partner

1408
01:01:15,760 --> 01:01:19,680
doesn't have to be traumatized for you

1409
01:01:17,799 --> 01:01:21,880
have a really great sex life it can be

1410
01:01:19,680 --> 01:01:23,920
great and fulfilling um without

1411
01:01:21,880 --> 01:01:25,720
emotional turmoil correct but it's

1412
01:01:23,920 --> 01:01:27,280
because like she knows all the athletes

1413
01:01:25,720 --> 01:01:28,760
because she tutors them so they're all

1414
01:01:27,280 --> 01:01:31,520
coming up and they're like what's up

1415
01:01:28,760 --> 01:01:35,000
babe like all very platonically but he's

1416
01:01:31,520 --> 01:01:37,000
like yet another dude yet another dude

1417
01:01:35,000 --> 01:01:40,280
he's like I hate it they're all coming

1418
01:01:37,000 --> 01:01:42,119
after my goddess right so she steps out

1419
01:01:40,280 --> 01:01:45,559
to call home to check on the baby and

1420
01:01:42,119 --> 01:01:47,559
Coach shows up and he is extremely nasty

1421
01:01:45,559 --> 01:01:49,520
to her and says that they had a deal

1422
01:01:47,559 --> 01:01:52,880
that she stay away from his athletes he

1423
01:01:49,520 --> 01:01:54,559
threatens to withdraw her from school um

1424
01:01:52,880 --> 01:01:56,200
and then he tells her about the article

1425
01:01:54,559 --> 01:02:02,000
on the school website cuz Toby has yet

1426
01:01:56,200 --> 01:02:04,680
to do it so um he tells her that Toby is

1427
01:02:02,000 --> 01:02:08,200
being pulled from her schedule to end it

1428
01:02:04,680 --> 01:02:10,400
with him and that's it and so she makes

1429
01:02:08,200 --> 01:02:13,319
out with Toby some more after coach

1430
01:02:10,400 --> 01:02:15,799
leaves and then he takes her home so

1431
01:02:13,319 --> 01:02:18,960
like coach you can't have it both ways

1432
01:02:15,799 --> 01:02:21,319
you took all the ways you took away part

1433
01:02:18,960 --> 01:02:23,880
of her case load right so that she could

1434
01:02:21,319 --> 01:02:26,319
spend more time with him and now he's

1435
01:02:23,880 --> 01:02:29,279
like well hated that situation so don't

1436
01:02:26,319 --> 01:02:33,599
do that anymore no not like that right I

1437
01:02:29,279 --> 01:02:37,559
meant it differently so Toby is texting

1438
01:02:33,599 --> 01:02:39,520
her and he's like going by her job cuz

1439
01:02:37,559 --> 01:02:41,520
she says she's at work she's not there

1440
01:02:39,520 --> 01:02:44,640
wait wait wait

1441
01:02:41,520 --> 01:02:46,599
wait coach left they made out more he

1442
01:02:44,640 --> 01:02:48,200
takes her home he takes her home this is

1443
01:02:46,599 --> 01:02:50,400
like the next day or two days later the

1444
01:02:48,200 --> 01:02:52,720
next day so was she pissed about the

1445
01:02:50,400 --> 01:02:54,559
article if she made out with M was she

1446
01:02:52,720 --> 01:02:57,720
just like oh okay here's a fact she's

1447
01:02:54,559 --> 01:02:59,680
more like scared about it scared because

1448
01:02:57,720 --> 01:03:03,799
coach is like making all these threats

1449
01:02:59,680 --> 01:03:06,079
right so Toby is texting her trying to

1450
01:03:03,799 --> 01:03:10,559
go see her she's brushing him off like

1451
01:03:06,079 --> 01:03:13,240
very clearly ghosting him and um she

1452
01:03:10,559 --> 01:03:15,599
he's like okay well she's like I'm going

1453
01:03:13,240 --> 01:03:18,720
to go see my brother like obviously

1454
01:03:15,599 --> 01:03:21,480
avoiding him and he's like well I could

1455
01:03:18,720 --> 01:03:23,359
stop by like you're supposed to be home

1456
01:03:21,480 --> 01:03:27,039
and she's really not responding and he's

1457
01:03:23,359 --> 01:03:29,000
kind of freaking out because um he has

1458
01:03:27,039 --> 01:03:32,319
an away game and he's like trying to see

1459
01:03:29,000 --> 01:03:34,240
her before he leaves Hees Town um and

1460
01:03:32,319 --> 01:03:37,359
she knows what she's doing and she feels

1461
01:03:34,240 --> 01:03:39,880
awful about it but um Toby shows up

1462
01:03:37,359 --> 01:03:44,359
while she's tutoring someone else and so

1463
01:03:39,880 --> 01:03:47,200
she runs and he's like

1464
01:03:44,359 --> 01:03:51,359
what the [ __ ] is happening but she's

1465
01:03:47,200 --> 01:03:53,400
like in obvious avoidance mode so I

1466
01:03:51,359 --> 01:03:56,640
obviously haven't read this one yet but

1467
01:03:53,400 --> 01:03:58,480
I have some guesses but when he he shows

1468
01:03:56,640 --> 01:04:01,319
up to another tutoring session and she

1469
01:03:58,480 --> 01:04:03,760
runs in my head she's just sitting in

1470
01:04:01,319 --> 01:04:06,200
the library with someone and Toby walks

1471
01:04:03,760 --> 01:04:08,319
up and without saying a word she just

1472
01:04:06,200 --> 01:04:09,839
literally picks up and like takes off

1473
01:04:08,319 --> 01:04:12,240
and like that is what happens like

1474
01:04:09,839 --> 01:04:14,359
leaves her stuff level of like I don't

1475
01:04:12,240 --> 01:04:18,400
remember if she in my head she just like

1476
01:04:14,359 --> 01:04:21,240
sees him and like rabbits yeah yeah okay

1477
01:04:18,400 --> 01:04:22,880
yeah that's definitely the energy so she

1478
01:04:21,240 --> 01:04:25,480
gets away from him and then she has an

1479
01:04:22,880 --> 01:04:28,400
email of an acceptance letter to UF so

1480
01:04:25,480 --> 01:04:32,079
they're in California I think oh so she

1481
01:04:28,400 --> 01:04:34,520
has this acceptance of a transfer to UF

1482
01:04:32,079 --> 01:04:36,760
has this been a thing so she's been

1483
01:04:34,520 --> 01:04:39,599
thinking about like maybe I could try to

1484
01:04:36,760 --> 01:04:41,640
leave but she feels like she can't but

1485
01:04:39,599 --> 01:04:44,720
she still is like taking steps to be

1486
01:04:41,640 --> 01:04:47,480
like maybe I could so she has this

1487
01:04:44,720 --> 01:04:51,319
acceptance letter and she's like oh it's

1488
01:04:47,480 --> 01:04:54,279
all real now okay so Toby is waiting for

1489
01:04:51,319 --> 01:04:55,880
her when she gets home I'm also here's

1490
01:04:54,279 --> 01:04:58,200
the unfortunate

1491
01:04:55,880 --> 01:05:02,160
thing just like not a

1492
01:04:58,200 --> 01:05:04,319
UF fan I'm not like a huge like school

1493
01:05:02,160 --> 01:05:06,119
raw

1494
01:05:04,319 --> 01:05:09,839
ra I just feel like I have a lot of

1495
01:05:06,119 --> 01:05:14,279
allegiance to FSU that's fair yeah yeah

1496
01:05:09,839 --> 01:05:19,039
feel like UF was like the the

1497
01:05:14,279 --> 01:05:23,079
default over hype yeah

1498
01:05:19,039 --> 01:05:25,440
like mhm like people who went there

1499
01:05:23,079 --> 01:05:28,359
cared a lot more that they went there oh

1500
01:05:25,440 --> 01:05:31,240
yeah yeah yeah my brother-in-law works

1501
01:05:28,359 --> 01:05:33,799
there oh I didn't know that yeah on like

1502
01:05:31,240 --> 01:05:36,559
their um maintenance team or whatever

1503
01:05:33,799 --> 01:05:39,160
yeah he could give a [ __ ] less but he's

1504
01:05:36,559 --> 01:05:41,880
excited because if he works there my

1505
01:05:39,160 --> 01:05:43,880
nephews could go for free oh hell yeah

1506
01:05:41,880 --> 01:05:46,079
so he's like leaning into that here's

1507
01:05:43,880 --> 01:05:48,119
the thing if I were offered free

1508
01:05:46,079 --> 01:05:52,920
acceptance like I'm not saying I

1509
01:05:48,119 --> 01:05:55,880
wouldn't go right to be clear I would go

1510
01:05:52,920 --> 01:05:56,559
yeah I never applied

1511
01:05:55,880 --> 01:06:00,520
me

1512
01:05:56,559 --> 01:06:02,680
either I did apply to UCF for a doctoral

1513
01:06:00,520 --> 01:06:05,640
program but then decided not to

1514
01:06:02,680 --> 01:06:07,799
go I went Chicago School of Professional

1515
01:06:05,640 --> 01:06:11,000
Psychology for their International

1516
01:06:07,799 --> 01:06:13,119
psychology program huh and then very

1517
01:06:11,000 --> 01:06:14,200
quickly got into their program and one

1518
01:06:13,119 --> 01:06:15,920
that was when all of my health issues

1519
01:06:14,200 --> 01:06:17,480
were going on so I was like this is not

1520
01:06:15,920 --> 01:06:19,240
the season to be in my doctorate and I

1521
01:06:17,480 --> 01:06:21,720
like dropped out of my PhD program 3

1522
01:06:19,240 --> 01:06:26,680
weeks in um

1523
01:06:21,720 --> 01:06:29,119
but moreover my BL my brain just went

1524
01:06:26,680 --> 01:06:31,279
completely oh I just got into it and

1525
01:06:29,119 --> 01:06:34,440
realized it

1526
01:06:31,279 --> 01:06:36,920
wasn't what I like I was like this is a

1527
01:06:34,440 --> 01:06:38,720
great program and I like see where the

1528
01:06:36,920 --> 01:06:40,279
benefit of this is but it's not for what

1529
01:06:38,720 --> 01:06:43,200
I want and yeah I was like I don't

1530
01:06:40,279 --> 01:06:45,160
actually think like if I wanted to Pivot

1531
01:06:43,200 --> 01:06:48,680
into this Arena this would be a really

1532
01:06:45,160 --> 01:06:52,359
great and cool thing like but that is

1533
01:06:48,680 --> 01:06:56,119
not where I think I am in this season

1534
01:06:52,359 --> 01:07:00,400
understandable yeah yeah but no I uh I

1535
01:06:56,119 --> 01:07:02,680
didn't apply to so fun fact undergrad

1536
01:07:00,400 --> 01:07:04,200
and grad school I applied to one school

1537
01:07:02,680 --> 01:07:07,559
and I went to the one school I applied

1538
01:07:04,200 --> 01:07:10,480
for for both of them

1539
01:07:07,559 --> 01:07:13,160
nice but all and I'm not shooting on my

1540
01:07:10,480 --> 01:07:15,640
education at all like so so hear me when

1541
01:07:13,160 --> 01:07:18,319
I say that I will also say I did not

1542
01:07:15,640 --> 01:07:20,640
apply to schools that I felt like were

1543
01:07:18,319 --> 01:07:23,319
really outside of like it's not like I

1544
01:07:20,640 --> 01:07:25,440
was like ooh I'm reaching I'm I'm

1545
01:07:23,319 --> 01:07:28,640
applying for Brown and I'll see if I

1546
01:07:25,440 --> 01:07:31,119
make it into the IES like I was

1547
01:07:28,640 --> 01:07:33,599
like this is what I want to do this

1548
01:07:31,119 --> 01:07:36,279
school has a great program for it yep I

1549
01:07:33,599 --> 01:07:38,880
meet the requirements I'm going to apply

1550
01:07:36,279 --> 01:07:40,839
to this option and I just applied to one

1551
01:07:38,880 --> 01:07:44,680
for each of them I think I did two for

1552
01:07:40,839 --> 01:07:47,640
each oh damn you you blew that up I did

1553
01:07:44,680 --> 01:07:50,880
I went for it yeah it really did it all

1554
01:07:47,640 --> 01:07:53,480
worked out in the end here we are where

1555
01:07:50,880 --> 01:07:55,000
did you do undergrad uh North Georgia

1556
01:07:53,480 --> 01:07:57,839
College

1557
01:07:55,000 --> 01:08:01,279
I knew that it's un now changed name

1558
01:07:57,839 --> 01:08:05,720
because then you worked at un mhm yeah

1559
01:08:01,279 --> 01:08:09,520
yeah um Weir works at yeah all that

1560
01:08:05,720 --> 01:08:14,960
stuff yeah yeah um so any who okay so

1561
01:08:09,520 --> 01:08:17,520
all that said he's she runs yes so then

1562
01:08:14,960 --> 01:08:19,359
he and she has the UF acceptance letter

1563
01:08:17,520 --> 01:08:21,480
right yeah so then he's waiting for her

1564
01:08:19,359 --> 01:08:23,560
outside her apartment when she gets home

1565
01:08:21,480 --> 01:08:25,600
he's like been waiting for her um and

1566
01:08:23,560 --> 01:08:27,359
he's like when can I see you how can I

1567
01:08:25,600 --> 01:08:29,520
support you like I want to be here for

1568
01:08:27,359 --> 01:08:32,719
you and she's like listen you're not my

1569
01:08:29,520 --> 01:08:35,799
student anymore and like CL door he

1570
01:08:32,719 --> 01:08:38,480
didn't know so she closes the door um

1571
01:08:35,799 --> 01:08:40,359
and he goes to coach and has an absolute

1572
01:08:38,480 --> 01:08:42,080
mental breakdown about it and is like

1573
01:08:40,359 --> 01:08:44,600
put me back on her schedule cuz he's

1574
01:08:42,080 --> 01:08:46,839
like something was growing between us I

1575
01:08:44,600 --> 01:08:48,480
know that it was she's pretending that

1576
01:08:46,839 --> 01:08:50,759
she was just my tutor but I know she

1577
01:08:48,480 --> 01:08:52,880
wasn't like if I can get back on her

1578
01:08:50,759 --> 01:08:55,759
schedule and like she has to see me like

1579
01:08:52,880 --> 01:08:57,920
it'll work out and um he punches his

1580
01:08:55,759 --> 01:09:00,560
coach in the face because coach is like

1581
01:08:57,920 --> 01:09:07,199
I'm not doing it like she whatever

1582
01:09:00,560 --> 01:09:10,960
whatever so um he is spiraling like big

1583
01:09:07,199 --> 01:09:14,480
time spiraling he winds up punching his

1584
01:09:10,960 --> 01:09:17,159
catcher in the face at a game he gets

1585
01:09:14,480 --> 01:09:20,520
ejected he puts hands on an ump like

1586
01:09:17,159 --> 01:09:22,640
it's a whole thing um and he just is

1587
01:09:20,520 --> 01:09:27,199
melting down Meyer is watching all of

1588
01:09:22,640 --> 01:09:29,880
this on TV and she is thinking that she

1589
01:09:27,199 --> 01:09:31,799
can protect him if she just holds strong

1590
01:09:29,880 --> 01:09:33,880
and transfers and doesn't talk to him

1591
01:09:31,799 --> 01:09:38,080
anymore like that he'll level out he'll

1592
01:09:33,880 --> 01:09:41,679
be okay um and so he

1593
01:09:38,080 --> 01:09:43,480
is hammered he just gets super drunk cuz

1594
01:09:41,679 --> 01:09:45,440
he's like I don't understand like after

1595
01:09:43,480 --> 01:09:47,199
the game that like that night or yeah

1596
01:09:45,440 --> 01:09:49,279
okay so he's like building a bond with

1597
01:09:47,199 --> 01:09:52,040
this baby and with this girl and he like

1598
01:09:49,279 --> 01:09:54,120
loves both of them and he's like I don't

1599
01:09:52,040 --> 01:09:55,600
understand so he gets very drunk and

1600
01:09:54,120 --> 01:09:57,880
goes to the batting cages and

1601
01:09:55,600 --> 01:09:59,280
essentially and y'all like think through

1602
01:09:57,880 --> 01:10:02,360
this for a moment if you've ever been to

1603
01:09:59,280 --> 01:10:05,600
batting cages he just lets the ball

1604
01:10:02,360 --> 01:10:08,520
machine Pelt him over and over again cuz

1605
01:10:05,600 --> 01:10:10,560
he is like so drunk initially he's like

1606
01:10:08,520 --> 01:10:12,920
hitting them but then he's like I don't

1607
01:10:10,560 --> 01:10:15,239
give a [ __ ] and just like stands there

1608
01:10:12,920 --> 01:10:18,360
and lets the ball like there's angst

1609
01:10:15,239 --> 01:10:19,840
here that like there's not enough trauma

1610
01:10:18,360 --> 01:10:23,040
background that I feel like there should

1611
01:10:19,840 --> 01:10:26,800
be this level of angst like that can do

1612
01:10:23,040 --> 01:10:28,800
like leg damage damage that's not like

1613
01:10:26,800 --> 01:10:32,000
me throwing a baseball at you and having

1614
01:10:28,800 --> 01:10:33,520
it hit you in the chest yeah which I

1615
01:10:32,000 --> 01:10:35,920
think it goes without saying that would

1616
01:10:33,520 --> 01:10:40,040
still be bad no it

1617
01:10:35,920 --> 01:10:42,840
wouldn't we don't need to fear for our

1618
01:10:40,040 --> 01:10:45,199
lives you might need to cover your face

1619
01:10:42,840 --> 01:10:47,960
because I'll probably miss right well

1620
01:10:45,199 --> 01:10:50,880
but also like my nose has enough

1621
01:10:47,960 --> 01:10:52,239
personality it's been broken enough she

1622
01:10:50,880 --> 01:10:53,719
doesn't need assistance you don't want

1623
01:10:52,239 --> 01:10:56,199
to add some of the Owen Wilson

1624
01:10:53,719 --> 01:10:59,120
personality no I've got enough of a bump

1625
01:10:56,199 --> 01:11:02,000
anyway is Owen Wilson Jewish I don't

1626
01:10:59,120 --> 01:11:04,520
know does he just have the nose for it

1627
01:11:02,000 --> 01:11:06,679
his nose has

1628
01:11:04,520 --> 01:11:08,920
personality what personality would my

1629
01:11:06,679 --> 01:11:13,560
nose have je

1630
01:11:08,920 --> 01:11:15,400
Jewish Jesus Christ so um all that's

1631
01:11:13,560 --> 01:11:19,679
happening he goes to practice

1632
01:11:15,400 --> 01:11:22,960
hungover and his buddy is like uh you

1633
01:11:19,679 --> 01:11:24,520
look like uh when I took Molly and when

1634
01:11:22,960 --> 01:11:27,400
I did that

1635
01:11:24,520 --> 01:11:30,360
coach gave me some pills to flush my

1636
01:11:27,400 --> 01:11:32,280
system and I kept some of them do you

1637
01:11:30,360 --> 01:11:33,600
want them and like hold his hand out and

1638
01:11:32,280 --> 01:11:35,640
they're the same pills that the coach

1639
01:11:33,600 --> 01:11:38,040
tried to give him at their away game and

1640
01:11:35,640 --> 01:11:40,159
Toby's like hold the [ __ ] phone cuz

1641
01:11:38,040 --> 01:11:42,400
he knows that he did not get that drunk

1642
01:11:40,159 --> 01:11:46,360
when they were at this away

1643
01:11:42,400 --> 01:11:48,360
game and so um yeah to's like I know I

1644
01:11:46,360 --> 01:11:50,840
did not put myself in a situation where

1645
01:11:48,360 --> 01:11:52,760
I would pass out like that right cuz I

1646
01:11:50,840 --> 01:11:54,480
was looking forward to spending time

1647
01:11:52,760 --> 01:11:56,760
with Meer and baile so like I wouldn't

1648
01:11:54,480 --> 01:11:58,600
have done that and but he couldn't

1649
01:11:56,760 --> 01:12:01,199
remember and he had no reason to

1650
01:11:58,600 --> 01:12:03,639
distrust coach so he just leaves

1651
01:12:01,199 --> 01:12:06,520
practice he's like [ __ ] you guys I'm

1652
01:12:03,639 --> 01:12:09,520
going home and leaves I get it also the

1653
01:12:06,520 --> 01:12:12,280
ice has melted and this is yeah mine was

1654
01:12:09,520 --> 01:12:14,520
also melt but it's not considering how

1655
01:12:12,280 --> 01:12:17,560
much vodka was in it when we started

1656
01:12:14,520 --> 01:12:20,159
it's not that bad no it really isn't it

1657
01:12:17,560 --> 01:12:22,360
a way that I'm like God damn this is

1658
01:12:20,159 --> 01:12:25,480
drinkable in a way that I feel like is

1659
01:12:22,360 --> 01:12:25,480
more dangerous now

1660
01:12:25,719 --> 01:12:31,920
mhm yeah we're we're doing great I could

1661
01:12:28,520 --> 01:12:34,920
take a much bigger gulp then which is

1662
01:12:31,920 --> 01:12:34,920
dangerous

1663
01:12:35,239 --> 01:12:41,040
so all right you know icing

1664
01:12:38,960 --> 01:12:43,360
people

1665
01:12:41,040 --> 01:12:46,400
yeah when I don't know if you've ever

1666
01:12:43,360 --> 01:12:50,000
seen my husband get iced I have never

1667
01:12:46,400 --> 01:12:52,960
seen someone down to smernoff faster I

1668
01:12:50,000 --> 01:12:54,080
don't know how he does it like like

1669
01:12:52,960 --> 01:12:55,520
physically

1670
01:12:54,080 --> 01:12:58,120
like he will take a

1671
01:12:55,520 --> 01:13:00,679
knee I've recorded a video and by the

1672
01:12:58,120 --> 01:13:03,440
time I hit record I like he was already

1673
01:13:00,679 --> 01:13:05,639
done drinking this the smir like he'll

1674
01:13:03,440 --> 01:13:07,360
down it in like 3 seconds I'm like how

1675
01:13:05,639 --> 01:13:08,159
do you he's like I just open my throat

1676
01:13:07,360 --> 01:13:12,600
and I'm

1677
01:13:08,159 --> 01:13:16,120
like what what do you you just open your

1678
01:13:12,600 --> 01:13:20,120
throat which is funny because I feel

1679
01:13:16,120 --> 01:13:22,360
like like teas lemonades things like

1680
01:13:20,120 --> 01:13:24,440
that I can just like TW

1681
01:13:22,360 --> 01:13:26,760
ch I can tuug

1682
01:13:24,440 --> 01:13:29,600
[Laughter]

1683
01:13:26,760 --> 01:13:31,120
itug I'm not even I'm not even drunk

1684
01:13:29,600 --> 01:13:33,360
that's the best part about this like I

1685
01:13:31,120 --> 01:13:35,840
can just like chug and chug and chug and

1686
01:13:33,360 --> 01:13:37,400
like really take those down and then as

1687
01:13:35,840 --> 01:13:38,880
soon I don't know if it's a carbonation

1688
01:13:37,400 --> 01:13:40,719
is that what it is when it's like a soda

1689
01:13:38,880 --> 01:13:42,600
or something like yeah cuz I feel the

1690
01:13:40,719 --> 01:13:44,080
same way as when that's what made me

1691
01:13:42,600 --> 01:13:46,159
think of it when you were just like I

1692
01:13:44,080 --> 01:13:48,639
could take bigger gulps I'm like no I

1693
01:13:46,159 --> 01:13:51,480
could drink this I could down this in

1694
01:13:48,639 --> 01:13:53,080
three sips but knowing how much vodka I

1695
01:13:51,480 --> 01:13:55,159
accidentally poured in this not going to

1696
01:13:53,080 --> 01:13:59,159
do that that yeah you shall

1697
01:13:55,159 --> 01:14:00,600
not okay so he leaves practice y so

1698
01:13:59,159 --> 01:14:02,800
coach shows up at Myers's apartment

1699
01:14:00,600 --> 01:14:05,440
looking for him he's not there and then

1700
01:14:02,800 --> 01:14:08,000
Coach is like you need to [ __ ] fix it

1701
01:14:05,440 --> 01:14:11,199
and it's like dude you broke it like

1702
01:14:08,000 --> 01:14:13,360
what are you talking about so um and

1703
01:14:11,199 --> 01:14:15,679
he's like I will destroy you you [ __ ]

1704
01:14:13,360 --> 01:14:18,360
fix it and she's like

1705
01:14:15,679 --> 01:14:20,040
okay so Toby is not willing to do any

1706
01:14:18,360 --> 01:14:22,159
school workor not willing to talk about

1707
01:14:20,040 --> 01:14:24,199
anything he only wants to talk about

1708
01:14:22,159 --> 01:14:26,480
them and like what happened so she runs

1709
01:14:24,199 --> 01:14:28,480
from him again and goes back to her

1710
01:14:26,480 --> 01:14:33,040
apartment so she called him to try and

1711
01:14:28,480 --> 01:14:36,600
fix it mm him I'm cuz he's failing again

1712
01:14:33,040 --> 01:14:39,560
so coach is like fix it and she's like

1713
01:14:36,600 --> 01:14:41,760
okay so not fix it he like ran off fix

1714
01:14:39,560 --> 01:14:43,520
that he's failing again right and like

1715
01:14:41,760 --> 01:14:47,520
get his head back on

1716
01:14:43,520 --> 01:14:49,840
right so then um he's like begging her

1717
01:14:47,520 --> 01:14:51,560
he's like tell me you don't love me tell

1718
01:14:49,840 --> 01:14:53,080
me you don't love me and I will leave

1719
01:14:51,560 --> 01:14:55,040
like they haven't even had sex at this

1720
01:14:53,080 --> 01:14:57,600
point they've like made out twice but

1721
01:14:55,040 --> 01:15:01,679
he's like I'm in love with you tell me

1722
01:14:57,600 --> 01:15:03,719
you don't love me like and I will leave

1723
01:15:01,679 --> 01:15:06,800
um and she can't do it so they have lots

1724
01:15:03,719 --> 01:15:11,520
of Declarations of Love they finally

1725
01:15:06,800 --> 01:15:15,159
bang um and this is the this is it this

1726
01:15:11,520 --> 01:15:17,560
is the moment so she's still

1727
01:15:15,159 --> 01:15:21,199
breastfeeding oh I have a feeling this

1728
01:15:17,560 --> 01:15:22,800
might be it yeah and he doesn't in this

1729
01:15:21,199 --> 01:15:26,199
interaction which is good cuz it's their

1730
01:15:22,800 --> 01:15:28,320
first and that may be a bit much but he

1731
01:15:26,199 --> 01:15:31,520
is like talking about how he can't wait

1732
01:15:28,320 --> 01:15:31,520
to suckle her

1733
01:15:32,800 --> 01:15:37,040
later that I'm like I'm not trying to

1734
01:15:35,120 --> 01:15:39,679
Kink shame but that doesn't feel sexy to

1735
01:15:37,040 --> 01:15:40,840
me like nipple play for sure like get

1736
01:15:39,679 --> 01:15:43,679
into it

1737
01:15:40,840 --> 01:15:48,159
but actual

1738
01:15:43,679 --> 01:15:50,719
suckling it's a it's a weird thing my

1739
01:15:48,159 --> 01:15:53,920
relationship with my boobs right since

1740
01:15:50,719 --> 01:15:56,760
I've had my son has been a

1741
01:15:53,920 --> 01:15:59,600
Journey like very much so because if

1742
01:15:56,760 --> 01:16:04,400
you're like cool I'm into if you're into

1743
01:15:59,600 --> 01:16:05,760
any sort of like boob nipple play at all

1744
01:16:04,400 --> 01:16:07,280
right like you're like well there's

1745
01:16:05,760 --> 01:16:08,639
licking and there's sucking and there's

1746
01:16:07,280 --> 01:16:10,560
touching and there's things like that

1747
01:16:08,639 --> 01:16:15,480
right where you're like you're not

1748
01:16:10,560 --> 01:16:18,239
trying to produce milk right it's just a

1749
01:16:15,480 --> 01:16:20,560
yeah but if there's a sucking sensation

1750
01:16:18,239 --> 01:16:21,360
on your boob for a second like we're

1751
01:16:20,560 --> 01:16:24,239
like I think there were like those

1752
01:16:21,360 --> 01:16:26,639
moments was like no don't touch my boobs

1753
01:16:24,239 --> 01:16:29,080
no like right just figuring out what

1754
01:16:26,639 --> 01:16:33,320
that yeah is but also like if you are

1755
01:16:29,080 --> 01:16:34,880
into boob play at all you kind of and

1756
01:16:33,320 --> 01:16:37,159
other people feel feel free to weigh in

1757
01:16:34,880 --> 01:16:40,480
on this I've had one kid I I don't know

1758
01:16:37,159 --> 01:16:42,920
a ton I also like I'm not an over

1759
01:16:40,480 --> 01:16:45,840
producer I

1760
01:16:42,920 --> 01:16:48,800
just right I'm a small breasted human

1761
01:16:45,840 --> 01:16:51,320
naturally right but I'm like I feel like

1762
01:16:48,800 --> 01:16:54,159
if you're into boobs at all you really

1763
01:16:51,320 --> 01:16:56,040
can't avoid some semblance

1764
01:16:54,159 --> 01:17:00,400
of

1765
01:16:56,040 --> 01:17:02,840
accidental right but he means like he

1766
01:17:00,400 --> 01:17:05,600
wants to like that's the purpose of it

1767
01:17:02,840 --> 01:17:07,239
like he wants to get it like he wants to

1768
01:17:05,600 --> 01:17:09,719
like have the

1769
01:17:07,239 --> 01:17:11,120
milk I think there's a I guess my

1770
01:17:09,719 --> 01:17:13,360
follow-up question as someone who hasn't

1771
01:17:11,120 --> 01:17:16,840
read this book would be

1772
01:17:13,360 --> 01:17:19,639
like is he looking for like a full 6 o

1773
01:17:16,840 --> 01:17:22,199
serving or is this like like is he

1774
01:17:19,639 --> 01:17:23,520
wanting a full bottles word that is not

1775
01:17:22,199 --> 01:17:26,400
or is this just like

1776
01:17:23,520 --> 01:17:28,320
you know I'm into boobs you have great

1777
01:17:26,400 --> 01:17:30,719
ones I'd love to suckle those and if a

1778
01:17:28,320 --> 01:17:32,440
little bit of milk comes out it's

1779
01:17:30,719 --> 01:17:34,239
something I'd be curious to tr that's

1780
01:17:32,440 --> 01:17:36,320
more of the energy maybe that's more of

1781
01:17:34,239 --> 01:17:38,360
the energy but when I was reading it the

1782
01:17:36,320 --> 01:17:40,560
first time I remember being like H I

1783
01:17:38,360 --> 01:17:44,080
feel like if you see the word suckle

1784
01:17:40,560 --> 01:17:47,320
yeah you're like right like I've noticed

1785
01:17:44,080 --> 01:17:50,560
the word suckle a lot in reference

1786
01:17:47,320 --> 01:17:53,760
to giving a lady a [ __ ] as you like

1787
01:17:50,560 --> 01:17:55,880
to say like suckling the [ __ ] and I'm

1788
01:17:53,760 --> 01:17:59,199
like I don't I don't love the word

1789
01:17:55,880 --> 01:18:01,679
suckle I don't know I was also reading a

1790
01:17:59,199 --> 01:18:03,800
book and she a guy was going down on her

1791
01:18:01,679 --> 01:18:06,920
and she was like he gives great head I'm

1792
01:18:03,800 --> 01:18:10,840
like yes head

1793
01:18:06,920 --> 01:18:14,560
[ __ ] going down these are not these

1794
01:18:10,840 --> 01:18:17,360
are interchangeable yes gender

1795
01:18:14,560 --> 01:18:19,840
specific whatever yeah even rihan you

1796
01:18:17,360 --> 01:18:22,480
sent me RNA and her day drinking with

1797
01:18:19,840 --> 01:18:23,520
Seth Meers clip talked about ladies love

1798
01:18:22,480 --> 01:18:25,880
blowj

1799
01:18:23,520 --> 01:18:26,639
she did say that yep I was like thank

1800
01:18:25,880 --> 01:18:28,920
you

1801
01:18:26,639 --> 01:18:30,639
Rihanna thank you for your ministry cuz

1802
01:18:28,920 --> 01:18:33,880
I have people out here making fun of me

1803
01:18:30,639 --> 01:18:36,320
cuz I said everybody gets a

1804
01:18:33,880 --> 01:18:38,760
[ __ ] we love to be validated

1805
01:18:36,320 --> 01:18:40,960
especially by Rihanna there are worse

1806
01:18:38,760 --> 01:18:45,320
people to be validated by twoo

1807
01:18:40,960 --> 01:18:47,480
true okay so where so they have sex

1808
01:18:45,320 --> 01:18:51,600
we're almost done SE so they have se he

1809
01:18:47,480 --> 01:18:54,320
wants to he he's curious

1810
01:18:51,600 --> 01:18:57,520
about Boo which have had their milk come

1811
01:18:54,320 --> 01:19:01,199
in correct which fair enough whatever

1812
01:18:57,520 --> 01:19:03,480
yeah so then they sleep together they

1813
01:19:01,199 --> 01:19:05,480
fall asleep and he wakes up early he's

1814
01:19:03,480 --> 01:19:08,920
trying to find his clothes and he sees

1815
01:19:05,480 --> 01:19:11,520
her ID which has the last name Reed on

1816
01:19:08,920 --> 01:19:14,560
it which is the same last name as his

1817
01:19:11,520 --> 01:19:17,480
coach and so he is

1818
01:19:14,560 --> 01:19:20,679
like she's coach's daughter that

1819
01:19:17,480 --> 01:19:22,920
explains everything like that explains

1820
01:19:20,679 --> 01:19:26,880
why he's so controlling and that

1821
01:19:22,920 --> 01:19:32,960
explains like why you know he's whatever

1822
01:19:26,880 --> 01:19:32,960
I'm sorry I'm sorry hold the [ __ ]

1823
01:19:33,760 --> 01:19:40,800
phone he declared his love and didn't

1824
01:19:37,080 --> 01:19:43,280
know her last name

1825
01:19:40,800 --> 01:19:45,320
correct to be fair he didn't know her

1826
01:19:43,280 --> 01:19:46,880
name at all for the first four weeks

1827
01:19:45,320 --> 01:19:54,840
they were interacting wasn't declaring

1828
01:19:46,880 --> 01:19:54,840
his love I know all like really

1829
01:19:55,400 --> 01:20:03,600
yeah yeah Toby is he

1830
01:19:59,880 --> 01:20:06,639
struggles okay yeah I just fully hit my

1831
01:20:03,600 --> 01:20:08,800
mic with my boobs I'm so sorry after she

1832
01:20:06,639 --> 01:20:11,880
said I'm not a big breasted human she

1833
01:20:08,800 --> 01:20:15,719
just nailed I'm still not a Bre Bre

1834
01:20:11,880 --> 01:20:18,000
bested brag bested person I say as I

1835
01:20:15,719 --> 01:20:21,840
grab my boobs we're fine we're we're

1836
01:20:18,000 --> 01:20:24,719
doing great here this is on video so he

1837
01:20:21,840 --> 01:20:27,679
goes to confront coach um about drugging

1838
01:20:24,719 --> 01:20:30,280
him and about Meer being his daughter he

1839
01:20:27,679 --> 01:20:32,320
is extremely angry that he hasn't helped

1840
01:20:30,280 --> 01:20:33,880
Meyer cuz she's very clearly struggling

1841
01:20:32,320 --> 01:20:39,239
financially

1842
01:20:33,880 --> 01:20:43,040
um and so coach reveals he's like Hey

1843
01:20:39,239 --> 01:20:45,159
listen um you slept with her do you

1844
01:20:43,040 --> 01:20:47,080
remember that before you guys got

1845
01:20:45,159 --> 01:20:50,000
together just now like you slept with

1846
01:20:47,080 --> 01:20:52,120
her do you remember that he has no

1847
01:20:50,000 --> 01:20:53,760
recollection of that he's coach is like

1848
01:20:52,120 --> 01:20:55,760
yep out a party already found you guys

1849
01:20:53,760 --> 01:20:57,800
together she was one of your your

1850
01:20:55,760 --> 01:21:00,120
leftovers that I had to take care of for

1851
01:20:57,800 --> 01:21:02,800
you cuz that's what I do like and you

1852
01:21:00,120 --> 01:21:05,679
don't even [ __ ] remember her and Toby

1853
01:21:02,800 --> 01:21:07,760
is like his brain is out of control

1854
01:21:05,679 --> 01:21:11,639
because he's like hold

1855
01:21:07,760 --> 01:21:13,199
on I'm like am I not good enough to love

1856
01:21:11,639 --> 01:21:15,679
your daughter is that why you've been

1857
01:21:13,199 --> 01:21:18,440
trying to keep her from me like I don't

1858
01:21:15,679 --> 01:21:20,719
understand like and then he's like oh my

1859
01:21:18,440 --> 01:21:23,159
God Bailey's my kid like Bailey's my

1860
01:21:20,719 --> 01:21:26,639
biological daughter like holy [ __ ] and

1861
01:21:23,159 --> 01:21:28,679
he is like losing his [ __ ] and then his

1862
01:21:26,639 --> 01:21:32,719
coach is like you will finish this

1863
01:21:28,679 --> 01:21:35,760
season you will get a a huge contract to

1864
01:21:32,719 --> 01:21:37,600
go professional that is what you will do

1865
01:21:35,760 --> 01:21:41,360
like I've had enough of this I'm over it

1866
01:21:37,600 --> 01:21:43,840
get the [ __ ] away from me so what it's

1867
01:21:41,360 --> 01:21:45,400
like this very weird interaction where

1868
01:21:43,840 --> 01:21:48,360
the coach isn't giving him any

1869
01:21:45,400 --> 01:21:50,360
information like Toby's making all these

1870
01:21:48,360 --> 01:21:52,000
Connections in his mind and he's like

1871
01:21:50,360 --> 01:21:54,960
trying to figure out what the hell is

1872
01:21:52,000 --> 01:21:57,960
going on and Coach is giving him nothing

1873
01:21:54,960 --> 01:22:00,280
uhuh and he's like wait a minute no I

1874
01:21:57,960 --> 01:22:02,880
would have remembered if I was with her

1875
01:22:00,280 --> 01:22:05,600
like I love her I would remember that

1876
01:22:02,880 --> 01:22:08,880
and the coach is like would you would

1877
01:22:05,600 --> 01:22:13,040
you get away from me it's the whole

1878
01:22:08,880 --> 01:22:16,880
thing so then he goes back to Meyer and

1879
01:22:13,040 --> 01:22:19,560
is like I can forgive you for keeping

1880
01:22:16,880 --> 01:22:21,760
Bailey from me like I can forgive you I

1881
01:22:19,560 --> 01:22:26,960
understand I loved her before I knew she

1882
01:22:21,760 --> 01:22:30,760
was mine like I get it like oh damn yeah

1883
01:22:26,960 --> 01:22:33,600
yeah and he is like I I have loved you

1884
01:22:30,760 --> 01:22:36,159
for a long time like your dad can't stop

1885
01:22:33,600 --> 01:22:38,920
us from being together like I'm I'm here

1886
01:22:36,159 --> 01:22:41,920
for it and she's

1887
01:22:38,920 --> 01:22:45,719
like what are you talking about it's not

1888
01:22:41,920 --> 01:22:48,000
her dad no she's like please slow down

1889
01:22:45,719 --> 01:22:51,320
like you are not you're not Bailey's

1890
01:22:48,000 --> 01:22:53,400
father and like pulls out custody papers

1891
01:22:51,320 --> 01:22:55,679
so that's what the coach has been

1892
01:22:53,400 --> 01:22:58,199
holding over her head this whole time is

1893
01:22:55,679 --> 01:22:59,199
he is saying that he will take the baby

1894
01:22:58,199 --> 01:23:02,080
from

1895
01:22:59,199 --> 01:23:04,159
her if she doesn't do what he says

1896
01:23:02,080 --> 01:23:05,199
because she wants a divorce and he won't

1897
01:23:04,159 --> 01:23:08,040
give it to

1898
01:23:05,199 --> 01:23:12,679
her it's like this very disgusting

1899
01:23:08,040 --> 01:23:14,920
convoluted thing where apparently she he

1900
01:23:12,679 --> 01:23:17,080
made her sign a contract that she

1901
01:23:14,920 --> 01:23:20,719
wouldn't tell anyone about the two of

1902
01:23:17,080 --> 01:23:22,840
them having sex um or get into a

1903
01:23:20,719 --> 01:23:25,880
relationship with one of his athletes

1904
01:23:22,840 --> 01:23:29,880
and or she surrenders All rights to the

1905
01:23:25,880 --> 01:23:31,679
baby which doesn't sound legal but she's

1906
01:23:29,880 --> 01:23:34,199
also 20 years old and probably doesn't

1907
01:23:31,679 --> 01:23:36,320
know [ __ ] about [ __ ] what sort of napkin

1908
01:23:34,199 --> 01:23:38,760
contract right like I'm like I don't

1909
01:23:36,320 --> 01:23:41,360
feel like this is going to hold up in

1910
01:23:38,760 --> 01:23:43,159
court the way this man thinks it is well

1911
01:23:41,360 --> 01:23:44,920
or the way Meyer thinks it is which is

1912
01:23:43,159 --> 01:23:47,800
what's important cuz I have a feeling

1913
01:23:44,920 --> 01:23:49,639
coach knows it's not watertight but like

1914
01:23:47,800 --> 01:23:51,960
she again she's 20 years old and scared

1915
01:23:49,639 --> 01:23:55,239
out of her mind like she's not she

1916
01:23:51,960 --> 01:23:56,040
doesn't get it and so um when did they

1917
01:23:55,239 --> 01:23:58,239
get

1918
01:23:56,040 --> 01:24:02,440
married so we're about to have a

1919
01:23:58,239 --> 01:24:06,960
flashback yeah so he's freaking out and

1920
01:24:02,440 --> 01:24:08,719
um so then Toby is like can you please

1921
01:24:06,960 --> 01:24:11,280
tell me how we met the first time like

1922
01:24:08,719 --> 01:24:14,480
is that true so there's a flashback

1923
01:24:11,280 --> 01:24:17,120
they're at a party Meyer is there alone

1924
01:24:14,480 --> 01:24:19,840
and Toby spots her and like follows her

1925
01:24:17,120 --> 01:24:21,719
out um they talk and it's really sweet

1926
01:24:19,840 --> 01:24:23,000
and it's a very nice interaction but

1927
01:24:21,719 --> 01:24:26,040
he's BL

1928
01:24:23,000 --> 01:24:29,159
and that's pretty clear so she tells him

1929
01:24:26,040 --> 01:24:30,880
that um she's pregnant and she's scared

1930
01:24:29,159 --> 01:24:32,639
and he's like well let me make you feel

1931
01:24:30,880 --> 01:24:34,400
better cuz he's super drunk and like

1932
01:24:32,639 --> 01:24:36,159
doesn't know what's going on and she's

1933
01:24:34,400 --> 01:24:38,360
acting out because the coach is being a

1934
01:24:36,159 --> 01:24:41,679
real douchebag and

1935
01:24:38,360 --> 01:24:45,880
so um they [ __ ] in the like basically in

1936
01:24:41,679 --> 01:24:47,480
the yard of the baseball house and um

1937
01:24:45,880 --> 01:24:49,679
he's like I really want to see you again

1938
01:24:47,480 --> 01:24:52,520
like let's make that happen but then the

1939
01:24:49,679 --> 01:24:54,480
coach shows up and takes Meyer home and

1940
01:24:52,520 --> 01:24:57,040
starts making promises about the future

1941
01:24:54,480 --> 01:24:59,440
he's like baby let's just get married

1942
01:24:57,040 --> 01:25:01,080
like it doesn't have to be like this I

1943
01:24:59,440 --> 01:25:03,239
you know I didn't mean it when I told

1944
01:25:01,080 --> 01:25:05,000
you to have an abortion like I want to

1945
01:25:03,239 --> 01:25:07,600
be there for you like all this other

1946
01:25:05,000 --> 01:25:10,639
stuff right okay so they were not

1947
01:25:07,600 --> 01:25:13,960
married before she got pregnant she got

1948
01:25:10,639 --> 01:25:17,360
pregnant yeah coach married her

1949
01:25:13,960 --> 01:25:20,679
essentially to to hold it over her head

1950
01:25:17,360 --> 01:25:22,800
use it as like a manipulative tactic

1951
01:25:20,679 --> 01:25:25,920
right okay so

1952
01:25:22,800 --> 01:25:28,440
um Toby then goes to his parents who are

1953
01:25:25,920 --> 01:25:31,760
now very supportive of his whole thing

1954
01:25:28,440 --> 01:25:35,520
um and uh Meyer quits tutoring tells the

1955
01:25:31,760 --> 01:25:38,239
coach that she's transferring to UF and

1956
01:25:35,520 --> 01:25:39,760
he's like I'm not going to design sign

1957
01:25:38,239 --> 01:25:41,199
any divorce papers like you're stuck

1958
01:25:39,760 --> 01:25:42,719
with this for life and she's like I

1959
01:25:41,199 --> 01:25:45,960
don't care I just want to get away from

1960
01:25:42,719 --> 01:25:48,719
you so she and um Toby are not

1961
01:25:45,960 --> 01:25:50,679
interacting at all anymore because Toby

1962
01:25:48,719 --> 01:25:52,960
understands that like she's really

1963
01:25:50,679 --> 01:25:55,760
afraid of that the coach is going to

1964
01:25:52,960 --> 01:25:57,840
take the baby so they have all these

1965
01:25:55,760 --> 01:25:59,719
sweet moments from afar but they're no

1966
01:25:57,840 --> 01:26:03,360
longer speaking or

1967
01:25:59,719 --> 01:26:05,239
interacting so she moves to Florida but

1968
01:26:03,360 --> 01:26:08,840
before she starts school she goes on

1969
01:26:05,239 --> 01:26:12,199
vacation with Bianca in Hawaii and um

1970
01:26:08,840 --> 01:26:14,600
Toby shows up on the beach and he is

1971
01:26:12,199 --> 01:26:17,960
like hey I had my agent drop these

1972
01:26:14,600 --> 01:26:20,880
custody and divorce papers there are a

1973
01:26:17,960 --> 01:26:23,320
lot of questions about how and why and

1974
01:26:20,880 --> 01:26:25,880
what for but of them are

1975
01:26:23,320 --> 01:26:27,760
answered we just know he shows up with

1976
01:26:25,880 --> 01:26:31,119
his agent like a white knight and like

1977
01:26:27,760 --> 01:26:35,159
everything's going to be okay and so um

1978
01:26:31,119 --> 01:26:38,600
my notes say lemon is free yay lemon

1979
01:26:35,159 --> 01:26:41,760
so that's it like it's done so then

1980
01:26:38,600 --> 01:26:44,560
epilog two years later Toby's at the

1981
01:26:41,760 --> 01:26:47,600
World Series he wins yay everything is

1982
01:26:44,560 --> 01:26:50,199
great and then Toby is extremely happy

1983
01:26:47,600 --> 01:26:53,920
he's adopted baby Bailey so like she's

1984
01:26:50,199 --> 01:26:56,920
legally his now and um lemon tells him

1985
01:26:53,920 --> 01:26:59,360
that she is pregnant like on the field

1986
01:26:56,920 --> 01:27:02,360
after the game yay lemon they live

1987
01:26:59,360 --> 01:27:02,360
happily ever after the

1988
01:27:02,719 --> 01:27:06,480
end

1989
01:27:04,320 --> 01:27:08,560
it's it's not going to be that easy for

1990
01:27:06,480 --> 01:27:10,639
him to get custody

1991
01:27:08,560 --> 01:27:13,000
no but I think that's not that that's

1992
01:27:10,639 --> 01:27:15,560
like the the the biggest plot that's not

1993
01:27:13,000 --> 01:27:17,800
the CR Crux of it no it's not the crust

1994
01:27:15,560 --> 01:27:21,119
of it it's not the crust either Double

1995
01:27:17,800 --> 01:27:24,119
Stuffed it's neither the crust nor the

1996
01:27:21,119 --> 01:27:24,119
Crux

1997
01:27:26,920 --> 01:27:32,239
does pizza still do their stuffed crust

1998
01:27:29,840 --> 01:27:35,440
I'm sure they do I feel like stuffed

1999
01:27:32,239 --> 01:27:37,440
crust used to be huge it did like no one

2000
01:27:35,440 --> 01:27:40,119
really gives a [ __ ] about stuffed crust

2001
01:27:37,440 --> 01:27:41,480
anymore Matt is still into it like all

2002
01:27:40,119 --> 01:27:43,000
the time for some reason that doesn't

2003
01:27:41,480 --> 01:27:44,719
surprise me that your husband is still

2004
01:27:43,000 --> 01:27:47,000
into stuff's crust it's very on brand

2005
01:27:44,719 --> 01:27:49,679
for him it is yeah I'm comfortable with

2006
01:27:47,000 --> 01:27:52,920
it yeah

2007
01:27:49,679 --> 01:27:55,360
whatever listen

2008
01:27:52,920 --> 01:27:58,920
Matt gives the energy of someone who

2009
01:27:55,360 --> 01:28:00,159
likes what he likes correct he's like I

2010
01:27:58,920 --> 01:28:03,239
don't need to try everything brand new

2011
01:28:00,159 --> 01:28:05,920
in 2023 nope whether it be the Insane

2012
01:28:03,239 --> 01:28:09,360
Clown posy or stuffed

2013
01:28:05,920 --> 01:28:11,920
crust he knows what he

2014
01:28:09,360 --> 01:28:13,639
likes I did recently I like said

2015
01:28:11,920 --> 01:28:16,440
something came up about Insane Clown

2016
01:28:13,639 --> 01:28:17,560
posy and I was like brought up Matt and

2017
01:28:16,440 --> 01:28:19,600
Vance was like oh yeah I think he is

2018
01:28:17,560 --> 01:28:24,040
really into I was like oh no I can

2019
01:28:19,600 --> 01:28:24,040
confirm seven ICP

2020
01:28:24,920 --> 01:28:29,440
tattoos

2021
01:28:26,600 --> 01:28:31,800
tattoos I thought you about to say shows

2022
01:28:29,440 --> 01:28:33,320
no seven

2023
01:28:31,800 --> 01:28:35,119
tattoos

2024
01:28:33,320 --> 01:28:39,320
visible uh

2025
01:28:35,119 --> 01:28:42,880
yeah yeah like not not

2026
01:28:39,320 --> 01:28:46,239
visible like visible for me not for you

2027
01:28:42,880 --> 01:28:47,520
uh no like just visible for everyone be

2028
01:28:46,239 --> 01:28:49,600
everyone shallel see I don't have

2029
01:28:47,520 --> 01:28:52,920
special glasses that allow me to see my

2030
01:28:49,600 --> 01:28:56,719
f he's got the great malinko on on his

2031
01:28:52,920 --> 01:29:02,119
calves um he's got

2032
01:28:56,719 --> 01:29:04,960
several on his in clown POS no negative

2033
01:29:02,119 --> 01:29:07,080
okay I was wondering I saw you do that

2034
01:29:04,960 --> 01:29:09,400
with a lot of apprehension like do I

2035
01:29:07,080 --> 01:29:11,600
want to know this about you I am wearing

2036
01:29:09,400 --> 01:29:13,480
a knotfest t-shirt for slip knot but I'm

2037
01:29:11,600 --> 01:29:15,000
not into the Insane Clown posy it

2038
01:29:13,480 --> 01:29:18,360
wouldn't FAS me if you were into Insane

2039
01:29:15,000 --> 01:29:19,920
Clown posy no mm- I'm like for the

2040
01:29:18,360 --> 01:29:21,679
record I think it was just more of like

2041
01:29:19,920 --> 01:29:24,880
a oh is this something I don't know

2042
01:29:21,679 --> 01:29:27,000
about more than I was like are you into

2043
01:29:24,880 --> 01:29:28,679
this I I was not trying to come off

2044
01:29:27,000 --> 01:29:30,360
judgmental for the record you were not

2045
01:29:28,679 --> 01:29:32,679
you you weren't I now I feel like I have

2046
01:29:30,360 --> 01:29:35,119
to I made an assumption because I would

2047
01:29:32,679 --> 01:29:37,239
be but like oh no Chelsea if you were

2048
01:29:35,119 --> 01:29:40,480
into a sing clown posy I would judge you

2049
01:29:37,239 --> 01:29:42,239
I'd have thoughts about it no so I know

2050
01:29:40,480 --> 01:29:44,920
a lot more about the insane clown posy

2051
01:29:42,239 --> 01:29:47,280
than I want to um okay that's fair but

2052
01:29:44,920 --> 01:29:49,639
like actually I have a lot of respect

2053
01:29:47,280 --> 01:29:51,679
for them I'm not into their music but as

2054
01:29:49,639 --> 01:29:54,320
people surprisingly I have a lot of

2055
01:29:51,679 --> 01:29:56,719
respect respect for them like they did a

2056
01:29:54,320 --> 01:29:57,400
huge lawsuit through the ACLU against

2057
01:29:56,719 --> 01:30:01,199
the

2058
01:29:57,400 --> 01:30:03,800
FBI um that was huge they have a lot

2059
01:30:01,199 --> 01:30:08,320
like most of their music within the last

2060
01:30:03,800 --> 01:30:11,520
like 15 or 20 years has been very like

2061
01:30:08,320 --> 01:30:14,320
anti-racist it's been like Pro

2062
01:30:11,520 --> 01:30:17,400
lgbtq it's very surprising like you

2063
01:30:14,320 --> 01:30:19,560
wouldn't think that but it is and even

2064
01:30:17,400 --> 01:30:21,440
like their early stuff that was like a

2065
01:30:19,560 --> 01:30:22,560
little bit homophobic and stuff like

2066
01:30:21,440 --> 01:30:24,920
that

2067
01:30:22,560 --> 01:30:28,320
violent Jay has come out and been like

2068
01:30:24,920 --> 01:30:31,440
yeah I [ __ ] up I didn't know I didn't

2069
01:30:28,320 --> 01:30:33,159
get it and you know since I've had kids

2070
01:30:31,440 --> 01:30:36,119
and had to look at my kids and be like

2071
01:30:33,159 --> 01:30:39,600
yeah I said that I understand now like

2072
01:30:36,119 --> 01:30:42,080
what I did was wrong and it's very like

2073
01:30:39,600 --> 01:30:43,679
opposite to a lot of people who like

2074
01:30:42,080 --> 01:30:46,679
when they

2075
01:30:43,679 --> 01:30:49,639
apologize for stuff in the past more

2076
01:30:46,679 --> 01:30:51,920
plating and like yeah I'm sorry I did it

2077
01:30:49,639 --> 01:30:54,800
right said he's like oh no yeah like

2078
01:30:51,920 --> 01:30:57,320
[ __ ] that up like I didn't know I know

2079
01:30:54,800 --> 01:30:59,960
now I'm going to own it and it's very

2080
01:30:57,320 --> 01:31:01,760
like I can respect it

2081
01:30:59,960 --> 01:31:03,560
and I feel like we've had a lot of

2082
01:31:01,760 --> 01:31:04,480
conversations about this recently I feel

2083
01:31:03,560 --> 01:31:05,280
like you and I have talked about it I

2084
01:31:04,480 --> 01:31:07,800
think I've just talked to a lot of

2085
01:31:05,280 --> 01:31:10,639
people about it but I get really

2086
01:31:07,800 --> 01:31:13,679
frustrated with cancel culture cuz I

2087
01:31:10,639 --> 01:31:15,480
feel like cancel culture has no room for

2088
01:31:13,679 --> 01:31:18,000
that right no room for growth there's no

2089
01:31:15,480 --> 01:31:20,080
room for personal growth MH like and

2090
01:31:18,000 --> 01:31:22,520
here's the thing if someone is held

2091
01:31:20,080 --> 01:31:24,320
accountable and continues to

2092
01:31:22,520 --> 01:31:25,600
engag the same behaviors that's a very

2093
01:31:24,320 --> 01:31:27,480
different situation than someone who's

2094
01:31:25,600 --> 01:31:30,159
like I'm so sorry now that I know better

2095
01:31:27,480 --> 01:31:32,840
I will do better moving forward

2096
01:31:30,159 --> 01:31:34,000
and we're all growing and learning and I

2097
01:31:32,840 --> 01:31:36,040
and I didn't

2098
01:31:34,000 --> 01:31:41,040
know um but I feel like there's just

2099
01:31:36,040 --> 01:31:44,239
like not room to not have it right right

2100
01:31:41,040 --> 01:31:47,159
like there there's no room but also like

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who decides what's right it's very like

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yes confusing and like it's a lot but

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the way ICP has handled it has been

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really great and you know Shaggy too

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01:31:58,360 --> 01:32:06,320
dope um has uh is in recovery he's doing

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01:32:02,679 --> 01:32:09,920
great that's really cool I now know at

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least 400% more about ICP than I knew

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five minutes ago well technically jug

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01:32:12,840 --> 01:32:20,960
and the Insane Clown posi um are

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01:32:15,520 --> 01:32:22,400
classified as a a gang by the FBI and so

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um they're

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anybody who had jug or ICP tattoos or

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bumper stickers or whatever were

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automatically basically had less rights

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because they were immediately seen as

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gang members or gang affiliated um so

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people it had a lot of like far-reaching

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consequences so that's why the ACLU got

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involved there's a great there's a great

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documentary about it if you're

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01:32:45,360 --> 01:32:49,520
interested oh yeah that actually does

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01:32:48,280 --> 01:32:52,719
sound really interesting it was they

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marched on Washington it was the whole

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01:32:52,719 --> 01:32:58,679
thing wow yeah I'll I don't remember the

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01:32:56,560 --> 01:33:01,480
title of the thing but I'll find out and

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01:32:58,679 --> 01:33:03,159
I'll send it to you yes yeah maybe we'll

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01:33:01,480 --> 01:33:05,280
add it to the show notes if we find it

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01:33:03,159 --> 01:33:07,119
in a timely manner yeah maybe we won't

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01:33:05,280 --> 01:33:08,920
if we don't find it in a timely manner

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01:33:07,119 --> 01:33:11,320
also you know what if there's something

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we forget in the show notes Google

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exists it does oh we love that and we're

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01:33:14,760 --> 01:33:18,800
just Googling stuff we are and then

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01:33:16,800 --> 01:33:21,600
adding it to the show notes well no I

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01:33:18,800 --> 01:33:23,159
when I was really pregnant um my parents

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for coming into town and my mom's like

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01:33:23,159 --> 01:33:26,639
yeah like we're going to be here in case

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01:33:24,600 --> 01:33:28,199
you go into lab blah blah blah she's

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01:33:26,639 --> 01:33:30,239
like can you send me the address of the

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01:33:28,199 --> 01:33:31,560
hospital and I was like this is the name

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01:33:30,239 --> 01:33:34,440
of the hospital she said can you send me

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01:33:31,560 --> 01:33:35,920
the the address I was like I also only

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01:33:34,440 --> 01:33:37,600
know the name I don't know the address

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01:33:35,920 --> 01:33:39,840
offand so we both have the same amount

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01:33:37,600 --> 01:33:41,679
of information Google I'm happy to

2146
01:33:39,840 --> 01:33:44,159
Google it and send it to you but I do

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01:33:41,679 --> 01:33:47,280
want us to

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01:33:44,159 --> 01:33:49,679
recognize you also are able to Google M

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and I was like so pregnant at that point

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01:33:49,679 --> 01:33:54,119
and I had so little patience I probably

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01:33:51,880 --> 01:33:57,080
was not the kindest and how I said it

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01:33:54,119 --> 01:33:58,840
like can you send me the address we both

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01:33:57,080 --> 01:34:00,600
know the name of the hospital we have

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01:33:58,840 --> 01:34:03,760
the same amount of information [ __ ]

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01:34:00,600 --> 01:34:06,280
figure it out you're a grown woman

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01:34:03,760 --> 01:34:08,360
believe in the me that believes in

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01:34:06,280 --> 01:34:12,080
you yes that's what Vance always says to

2158
01:34:08,360 --> 01:34:14,280
me all right um rating

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01:34:12,080 --> 01:34:19,119
scale yeah we can do baseballs that

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01:34:14,280 --> 01:34:22,480
let's basb easy um I'm going to say like

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01:34:19,119 --> 01:34:24,760
should we do like G

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01:34:22,480 --> 01:34:27,920
study test

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01:34:24,760 --> 01:34:30,880
guides no no we should do baseballs yeah

2164
01:34:27,920 --> 01:34:33,000
we should definitely basball gr no talk

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01:34:30,880 --> 01:34:34,520
about a trauma response um well see

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01:34:33,000 --> 01:34:36,280
that's also part of why I only applied

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01:34:34,520 --> 01:34:39,080
to one grad school they didn't require

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01:34:36,280 --> 01:34:41,719
the gr so you never took it I never took

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01:34:39,080 --> 01:34:43,199
the G that's horeshit in fact I when I

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01:34:41,719 --> 01:34:45,320
start I took it twice when I started at

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01:34:43,199 --> 01:34:47,000
my grad school I wasn't sure I liked it

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01:34:45,320 --> 01:34:48,320
and so I was like well looks like I'll

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01:34:47,000 --> 01:34:51,119
have to reapply to a school that

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01:34:48,320 --> 01:34:52,239
requires the gr so here is what happened

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01:34:51,119 --> 01:34:56,239
to me

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01:34:52,239 --> 01:35:00,000
I took it when the like the very first

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01:34:56,239 --> 01:35:03,159
time that they switched to a new scoring

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01:35:00,000 --> 01:35:05,840
scale so I took it and then showed my

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01:35:03,159 --> 01:35:08,840
results to a professor who didn't

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01:35:05,840 --> 01:35:11,639
understand that there was a new [ __ ]

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01:35:08,840 --> 01:35:14,040
grading scale and he was like Hannah

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01:35:11,639 --> 01:35:16,520
these are really bad like you need to

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01:35:14,040 --> 01:35:19,480
retake it and I was like oh my God like

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01:35:16,520 --> 01:35:21,840
I studied so hard like oh [ __ ] so I took

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01:35:19,480 --> 01:35:24,480
it again and the scores were like

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01:35:21,840 --> 01:35:27,760
marginally different like not enough and

2187
01:35:24,480 --> 01:35:31,480
then I was like [ __ ] me

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01:35:27,760 --> 01:35:34,840
twice you just did I

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01:35:31,480 --> 01:35:39,560
did my scores were great both [ __ ]

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01:35:34,840 --> 01:35:42,679
times incredible awful oh I hate that so

2191
01:35:39,560 --> 01:35:43,840
much for you you have a look of Glee

2192
01:35:42,679 --> 01:35:46,159
your face like that's like one of those

2193
01:35:43,840 --> 01:35:48,159
like hilarious like oh [ __ ] in the

2194
01:35:46,159 --> 01:35:49,480
moment it was not hilarious but now yes

2195
01:35:48,159 --> 01:35:51,760
that's something like in retrospect

2196
01:35:49,480 --> 01:35:54,199
you're like I can laugh about it I

2197
01:35:51,760 --> 01:35:58,400
couldn't then 10 years out I can laugh

2198
01:35:54,199 --> 01:35:58,400
so baseballs baseballs

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01:35:58,639 --> 01:36:03,760
um three and a half out of five it's

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01:36:01,880 --> 01:36:06,719
very comforting that's higher than I

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01:36:03,760 --> 01:36:09,000
anticipated it's enjoy like the I don't

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01:36:06,719 --> 01:36:11,080
think I did it justice like because I

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01:36:09,000 --> 01:36:13,480
had to leave out a lot of the very sweet

2204
01:36:11,080 --> 01:36:15,920
and cute like baby moments and like

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01:36:13,480 --> 01:36:19,600
moments between because it's a longer

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01:36:15,920 --> 01:36:22,639
book but like it's enjoyable very much

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01:36:19,600 --> 01:36:25,080
so yeah so I would say three and a half

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01:36:22,639 --> 01:36:27,199
maybe out of six five or six I don't

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01:36:25,080 --> 01:36:28,520
know we'll just stick with five three

2210
01:36:27,199 --> 01:36:31,800
and a half out of five I was going to

2211
01:36:28,520 --> 01:36:33,239
say we could do four out of six we could

2212
01:36:31,800 --> 01:36:35,880
it's

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01:36:33,239 --> 01:36:38,600
negligible we'll do four out of

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01:36:35,880 --> 01:36:41,480
six we'll do four out of six four out of

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01:36:38,600 --> 01:36:43,360
six baseballs final off let us know what

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01:36:41,480 --> 01:36:45,719
you think let us know what you would

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01:36:52,800 --> 01:36:56,760
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