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Okay, welcome to the Warrior Saint.

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I'm Hari Nam Singh Khalsa and I have Puri Piyari Singh with me

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What we're basically doing is we're inviting you into our private conversations So you can
do a little eavesdropping on our private conversation and see what's in there for you.

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So uh

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Anyhow, welcome aboard my good friend and Maybe you'd like to let us know a little bit
about yourself

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So people can get a flavor of, who you are and.

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where you are and what got you to where you are.

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Yeah, of course.

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So as I said, I'm Gurpiare.

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I am 30 years old, to be exact.

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And uh I was born in this very uh like uh kind of industrial city in the south of
Argentina, which is Comodoro Rivadavia.

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uh If any of our listeners ever read Stephen King, it's kind of like being born in one of
Stephen King's towns and like one of his main places in his books.

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uh

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kind of a very remote place, very harsh, very tough place.

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But it's also beautiful in its own way.

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I have learned to love it throughout the years.

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I studied English here in my city for a number of years.

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I studied at uh a language institute, which is the Winlands Institute of Cultures and
Languages.

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And I have been teaching English since I was about

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18 years old.

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started teaching at a very early age and uh I've also done other things related to
translation and writing and uh other jobs related to that.

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my main uh thing professionally for about 12 years has been mostly language and teaching
English to people, both teenagers and adults for the most part.

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So that makes you about 30.

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Yeah, yeah, sorry.

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Exactly.

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Okay, right.

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And you're still in Commodore?

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I am here for now, but next year I am going back to the city of Cordoba in the center, the
very center of the country.

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And why are you doing that?

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It's because...

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artistically speaking, I'm a big lover of the arts in general, not just writing, but I'm
also a musician.

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do acting as well.

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And, I already lived in Cordoba for a couple of years and the place is just loaded with
that kind of stuff.

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has a thriving artistic scene.

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Probably the only bigger one in the, in the entire country would be Buenos Aires and, uh

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It's not only that, Cordoba also has a lot of people I love, you know, I have family
there.

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I have a lot of friends there.

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get acquaintances, colleagues.

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And, although I love my own city, I, I think that, you know, sort of going back there and
reconnecting with all of that would be a good move personally and career wise as well.

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And when you say career-wise, you mean as a translator?

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writer.

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Ah, yeah, because that's the other thing.

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you know, you're, you're, that's, that's kind of like your real ambition is to eventually
be spending most of your time writing.

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Yes, that would be the ideal, yeah.

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Are you gonna give up being a translator when you do that?

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I don't know if I would give it up because I like translating.

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uh Right now I am working with a colleague on a translation for a novel actually that we
got commissions to do this and I actually enjoy the job.

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I like working with language and it also gives me a chance you know to connect with other
writers as well with the work of other people so I wouldn't be against continuing to do

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that sort of thing as well as being a writer.

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And what type of books are you writing?

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Right now I am working on a horror story compilation in fact

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Yeah, well, um I'm scared just thinking about it.

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uh

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So what got you interested in that?

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you know, I know, actually, I know this, you've shared with this before, you know, so
you're a fairly highly educated person.

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But by the way, you know, we, in the past, we've spent time together and you have
translated for me in both Cordoba and in...

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uh

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In Commodore, yeah.

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Commodore, Commodore, I think the first time in Commodore, and they are, I can attest,
they're very different places.

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Commodore is kind of one of these like at the edge of the world civilizations.

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And I found the people there uh very strong people, but understandably so, just the
elements.

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And I think it's kind of oil country too.

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So, know, people go in there.

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know, mining for gold, so to speak, and trying to find their fortune in the edge of the
world and probably sacrificing some things to do that.

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Because as you say, they don't have a lot of the comforts either in the weather or the
culture there that they would get maybe from where they were from.

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So I found the people there to be very hardened people.

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Yes.

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but kind, but survive more like a survivor type of mentality.

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And then of course, Cordoba was a revelation to me.

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I really enjoyed that place a lot, like unlimited cultural opportunities, a beautiful
place actually, beautiful part of the country and a livable place.

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and a lot of youthful energy there.

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I thought it was a very positive place to be.

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I mean, it's the kind of place I could see myself living in a place like Cordoba.

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I could not see myself living in a place like, what's the name of the other?

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always, Commodore, I always forget its name.

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I I love to go back to visit, but living there.

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Oh boy, that would be challenging.

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but you know, you were my translator, of course, Spanish is sufficient.

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I can speak Spanish, my Spanish, but I act stupid so that I get, I act like I'm stupid.

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So I have the pleasure to work with a translator like you and...

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have kind of like a comedy act team working.

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But it works.

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That chemistry works for me, but actually I'm perfectly fine teaching in Spanish when
asked to do that.

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So, that was a gratuitous fortune that I got to spend time around you.

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And then, you know, at times you've shared with me about what you like writing about, what
got you...

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Because that's not everybody's cup of tea.

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What got you interested in writing about horror?

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People would look at a guy like me and be going, am I even doing hanging around guys
writing horror novels?

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They have this preconception of how it's all going to be.

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But why don't you let people know?

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And I'm forgetting we're in a conversation, so we don't know there's other people
listening to this.

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remind me, remind me.

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uh

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how you got your interest in horror writing.

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Well, it's kind of funny.

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There is a long history to that.

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You know, I was actually very easily scared as a child.

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um I was like, I couldn't contend with things like blood or gore or anything like that.

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Like it would terrify like the lights out of me.

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um But also at the same time, always

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Even as a young child, had an interest in monsters for whatever reason, know, like freaky
creatures and that sort of thing.

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uh I have one particular memory that is strictly related to that, which is that I was very
young.

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think I was like in primary school, six, seven years old or something like that.

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And we still had DVD clubs here in my city.

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So one of my uncles rented the original Ridley Scott Alien movie, the one with Sigourney
Weaver, you probably know it.

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And I came walking into the room just as they were watching the scene where the alien
comes out of John Hurt's chest.

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yeah, isn't that uh the name of the movie was Aliens, no?

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Alien.

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Yeah, exactly.

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And

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Yeah, I remember that scene.

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I remember that scene.

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Yeah, yeah, yeah.

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And you know, like the thing is that, you I was seven years old, I come into the room and
I see this monster popping out of a guy's chest.

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And I had no idea that I was watching was fiction.

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Like it was perfectly real to me, you know?

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So I just ran crying into the room and my mom had to come and explain to me that, like
it's a fictional thing.

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It's not a real monster.

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It's actually a puppet that someone is controlling.

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And when she explained that to me, I was like, what do you mean it's fake?

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How do they, how do they do that?

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You know, like how do they manage to make that?

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And that sort of sparked an interest in, in the, like the mechanics of scaring people in a
way.

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mostly because

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On the one hand I find it psychologically interesting, know, like how How you can get
someone just sort of sucked into an atmosphere and get them tense like that and also it's

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kind of the the fictional equivalent of going on a roller coaster ride, you know, it's
exciting and People like excitement

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But horror is not actually the only thing I write.

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Like right now I'm focusing on a horror book, but it's not the only thing that I like
writing.

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Yeah, but I'm, you know, and we'll get to the other stuff you're writing because I know
it's not the only thing, but I have a particular fascination with your fascination with

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horror.

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And because, um you know, it's interesting because it's like, like, like what you were
saying, I'm kind of like you were talking about, and I'll talk about it in a second when I

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was young.

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Yay!

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Okay, because I relate to that.

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really relate to what you're saying.

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So when you're saying you're seven or eight years old, and I think there's people who have
to be listening in on this conversation on his podcast, right?

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That ah these kinds, these kinds of books and movies actually are wildly popular and they
always have been.

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And it's always like kind of curious, like, like what is the

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attraction there because you would think that like the last thing in the world that people
would want to voluntarily experience is terror.

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Like they're signing on volunteer.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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Please terrorize me.

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Scare me.

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Okay.

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So, so, you know, of course when you're younger or even as an adult, I think very few
people like, um, like, uh,

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have enough care or self-awareness to actually think much about why am I attracted to
something that I'm hoping will evoke some form of uh terror or fright?

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Because that's generally associated with emotional experiences that people seemingly would
do anything to avoid.

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Yeah.

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And now they're like actually paying money in the hope that somebody is actually, and if
it's a good book or a good movie, you know, in parentheses, it's good.

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It will have the ability to actually evoke that terror.

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And the most famous, like you're talking about aliens with Sigourney Weaver, right?

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So I remember that scene.

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That's a very famous scene, but that's the scene that

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you know, people like literally jumping out of their seats, right?

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And for good reason.

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mean, they would, okay, and if it was like happening at a restaurant in Midtown Manhattan,
they would have a heart attack, you know?

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So, uh and most people wouldn't want to have a heart attack, right?

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So, ah what do you think the attraction is for that?

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And we were not getting like totally, you know, into philosophical or psychological, like,

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Just on a very simple level, what do you think the attraction is?

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Why would people be seeking out an emotional experience that you would think that they
would do anything to avoid?

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I think that um there is a component of thrill-seeking there.

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There is that.

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Because um people, if they want to get scared, they want to do it in a way that feels
safe.

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Because you go watch a horror movie, or you read a Stephen King novel or whatever, and it
unsettles you, or it...

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it causes discomfort in you, but it does show in a way where you know you are not actually
threatened by the experience, which is different from, for example, going out and climbing

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the Everest, which is also a thrill seeking behavior, but it's certainly much more
threatening to your physical integrity to do that.

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Right.

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So I think there's a component of thrill seeking and also

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On a more profound level, although I don't really know if this applies to most people, but
on a more profound level, I would also argue that horror as a genre of fiction is often

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transgressive in a way that other forms of art struggle to be.

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And I think that there is an appeal to that.

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It's certainly an appeal for me.

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mean by transgressive?

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Well, I'm going to give you an example.

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uh recently, this very year, this great movie by Ryan Coogler came out.

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It's called Sinners.

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is name of the movie.

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And the movie starts as a kind of historical drama about, you know, racial discrimination
in the South in the early 20th century, you know,

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It has a lot to do with uh black American history and the development of the blues and how
blues was a coping mechanism for black people and a way to create community.

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And then a bunch of vampires show up in the middle of the movie.

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ah And somehow Ryan Coogler actually manages to tie in the appearance of the vampires with
concepts like

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uh cultural assimilation like the main vampire in the movie is essentially a stand-in and
a symbol for cultural assimilation for the sake of survival for the idea of leaving behind

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your roots in order to survive in a culture that is not your own and the vampire kind of
represents that.

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And the movie gets into all of these really fascinating historical and cultural points

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without moralizing about it because it doesn't moralize about it, it just kind of exposes
you to these ideas and then goes, hey, this is a nice thing to think about, right?

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And I found it very rich on multiple levels because yeah, there is vampires and there's
blood and there's people eating other people and whatever, but that's not the core of the

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movie.

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That is just basically

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a little spice on top of the meal, which is actually all of the social cultural stuff
that's going on in the film.

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That is the actual uh big meal there.

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You

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Okay, so that's an example of being transgressive.

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I would say so.

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I would say so.

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You know, it's interesting you kind of got me hooked on this.

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And I'm hoping our future conversations will be like this is like, we can just find
ourselves in a place as tourists and accommodate ourselves to that place, you know, and

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visit it, take a visit there.

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I actually hope that our conversations go to some kind of uh sensitive areas,
controversial areas.

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And I'd like to actually, like any good conversation, because I love, mean, there's
nothing in life to me.

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You know, I've done everything, I really have.

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But at 73, which I am, I've actually run out of things that I wanted to do because I
honestly could say I've done everything I've ever wanted to do plus, and

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There's really very little out there that either I haven't done and it's still interesting
to do, you know?

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And so I'm hoping that, you know, we're kind of situated in different uh places in life,
as far as time and space.

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And so, you know, to me, as I said, I, of all the, it's really odd, because it would sound
like it's boring, but to me,

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of all the things I've done in my life, the thing that probably gives me more pleasure
than anything, it doesn't matter including sex or whatever you wanna call it, the thing I

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get the most, actually the thing I get the most pure pleasure from in anything in life is
a good conversation.

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I can say that without any hesitation.

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It's like, and you know what?

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It's like, give you an example, I mean, you know me, I mean, I love food, I'm a real
foodie.

212
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oh

213
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And nothing actually tops having a great conversation in a great restaurant and having
great food.

214
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There's nothing even close.

215
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mean, that's like pure nonstop pleasure, getting the opportunity to speak with a really
interesting person and engage very deeply with that person, learn something from it, share

216
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something.

217
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and also share great food at the same time.

218
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That's like the best thing in the world.

219
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actually, you know what got me into, I'm diverging from the horror, which I wanna go back
to, but it reminds me kind of uh circling back to how we are where we are today.

220
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Now, I saw a movie.

221
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because you're talking about movies here.

222
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I saw a and I think it was, I don't know the exact year, but it was in the early 80s,
which, you know, now that's like 40 years ago.

223
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I can't believe it.

224
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You know, I can't believe that, you know, things I was doing, it's like 40 years later.

225
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How did that happen?

226
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So it's 40 years ago and there was a popular movie.

227
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It was an already kind of movie.

228
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Mm-hmm.

229
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I believe the name of the movie was My Conversation with Andre.

230
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And it was, the entire movie was a conversation between uh two men, uh middle-aged men, in
a Manhattan, nice Manhattan restaurant.

231
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You know, the kind of, when I say a nice restaurant, to me, you know what a nice
restaurant is to me?

232
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It's not even the food.

233
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uh A nice restaurant.

234
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is a restaurant that lets you spend the evening there speaking and is not looking to kick
you out of your table.

235
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that's a nice restaurant.

236
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There is no pressure like we gotta get out of here.

237
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They need that table for the next customer.

238
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A nice restaurant is, you're comfortable just, that's actually your evening entertainment.

239
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It's not like what you do before you go to the movies.

240
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That is your night's entertainment, is.

241
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hanging with interesting people for the evening at that place.

242
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And you're spending, it's more expensive because you're paying for the privilege of
sitting in a very nice place with usually very beautiful furniture and beautiful, it's

243
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very, everybody, it's a certain ambiance, okay, and the food is in accoutrement.

244
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And, but actually it's, the whole thing is really about the conversation.

245
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And so there was this movie called, I think it was My Conversation with Andre is that uh
it was like a, between like a very sophisticated, um a self, not like arrogant, arrogant,

246
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but a person a little full with themselves, very successful.

247
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highly educated and comes off as being like, you know, above people, but not in like a
super arrogant way, but a little condescending.

248
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And Andre, who happened to have dinner with this guy is actually not very sophisticated,
not really highly educated, but...

249
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educated enough where he was probably like an accountant who made a decent living.

250
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So he had an education, he had a job, he was a nine to five person, and he on the surface
would seem to be not nearly as interesting as the guy who he was sitting opposite to who

251
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had traveled the world and had very interesting stories and seemed to be living like the
but as it turned out in the movie, ah

252
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This guy Andre, who seemed to be very simple and unsophisticated, actually had a certain
type of wisdom that the other person didn't have.

253
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And the other person, who seemed like they had everything, by the end of the movie, was
really caught off guard in how uh unfulfilling their life was.

254
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And it was an interesting conversation between two men, and it took...

255
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It was interesting because the conversation was organic.

256
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It started off like one guy just sharing all the great experiences and the great life he
has and the other guy not even knowing what to say because he felt he had very little to

257
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share.

258
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But by the end of dinner and you're going through like the appetizer, the main dish, the
dessert, right?

259
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And by the time dessert is the whole thing kind of shifted is that the guy who seemingly
had everything was feeling inadequate.

260
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And the guy who seemed like he had nothing seemed to have a very kind of uh realistic
understanding about life.

261
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And the other guy could recognize this.

262
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And I don't know what it was, but I really connected with the movie and I was really into
their conversation.

263
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And it got me into, later in life, unabashedly, me listening into conversations of other
people in restaurants.

264
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And without any shame, without any shame, because I just, had this kind of interest in
kind of like what was going on in these conversations, uh how people lie to each other,

265
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you know, the games they play, the interesting stories.

266
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And I got to the point that I was fine uh inviting people into my conversations so that
they can either participate or just listen.

267
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I didn't have anything to hide.

268
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So, uh

269
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So anyhow, as I diverge...

270
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Uh, yeah, a good conversation is something that's going to give me pleasure and I'm going
to learn something.

271
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And, ah and I like having conversations with people who don't have a lot in common with me
because, uh, they may know something.

272
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I don't know if I, if I'm around people like myself, or I feel like I like myself, it's,
it's nice, but I'm not going to learn anything new.

273
00:27:51,466 --> 00:27:55,929
So, I normally don't talk to, I'm coming full circle here.

274
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I, I normally don't have the pleasure of.

275
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uh

276
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uh speaking and listening about uh horror movies, because there's nobody in my day-to-day
life who would talk about things like this other than you.

277
00:28:11,681 --> 00:28:19,423
ah But it's an interesting thing, because on some level, we all can relate to these
things.

278
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I'm very, I think, you know me, I'm really interested in what make people tick.

279
00:28:27,408 --> 00:28:28,185
Yeah.

280
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on a psychological, theoretical thing, but what's behind people's, why do they do what
they do?

281
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uh so we know that horror books and horror movies and all these things are very popular.

282
00:28:47,545 --> 00:28:55,073
Now, the two things that came to mind when you started talking about this was,

283
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One is that you kind of related it to thrill seeking.

284
00:29:03,866 --> 00:29:10,366
That you brought up thrill seeking, which I, it was interesting.

285
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Now you bring up two parts of my life when I was younger.

286
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The second part, like when I was in my 30s and 40s.

287
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I was, and even into my late 20s, I'd say from my middle 20s to my middle 40s, I'd say I
was a thrill seeker.

288
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I climbed many mountains.

289
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I was an alpinist.

290
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I climbed all the tall mountains in the United States.

291
00:29:40,545 --> 00:29:45,448
uh I uh like motorcycles.

292
00:29:46,069 --> 00:29:49,191
And I liked bungee jumping.

293
00:29:49,191 --> 00:29:50,492
And I jumped out of planes.

294
00:29:50,492 --> 00:29:51,933
I jumped out of, you know, I.

295
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parachutes, parachutists, and the people around me thought I was crazy.

296
00:29:59,001 --> 00:30:12,979
But I just find interesting this parallel between horror movies and thrill seeking, and I
never thought about it before, but they must share some common ground in your mind for you

297
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to have brought it into the conversation.

298
00:30:15,060 --> 00:30:19,943
Because people generally don't speak about them in the same breath, but you did.

299
00:30:20,386 --> 00:30:28,866
And so where do you think the parallel is between, and again, what exactly is thrill
seeking?

300
00:30:28,866 --> 00:30:30,265
So to me.

301
00:30:32,606 --> 00:30:38,033
And you could call gambling thrill seeking.

302
00:30:38,403 --> 00:30:39,594
That's true.

303
00:30:39,594 --> 00:30:40,576
Yes.

304
00:30:41,441 --> 00:30:57,877
And because people are looking for some kind of experience, but I think that, and it'll
come into other conversations of ours, is that, think that, and it was interesting, the

305
00:30:57,877 --> 00:31:02,328
other thing you said about people doing something that's safe.

306
00:31:02,468 --> 00:31:04,659
So it's almost like,

307
00:31:05,109 --> 00:31:12,005
And even the thrill seeking is like they're not jumping out of a plane without a
parachute, they're jumping out of a plane with a parachute.

308
00:31:12,184 --> 00:31:12,967
Right.

309
00:31:13,597 --> 00:31:14,801
Okay, okay.

310
00:31:14,801 --> 00:31:19,803
So if they jumped out of a plane without a parachute, that would be real thrill seeking.

311
00:31:21,272 --> 00:31:23,510
The last real sickening you would ever do.

312
00:31:23,510 --> 00:31:24,149
Right.

313
00:31:24,149 --> 00:31:26,801
but that would be the ultimate thrill seeking, right?

314
00:31:26,801 --> 00:31:29,552
I mean, if you actually jumped out of a plane with, okay.

315
00:31:29,552 --> 00:31:45,251
so, um and then you can see that people who get into like gambling, they start getting,
they start gambling more and more to get the same uh thrill because it's almost like they

316
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wanna be scared.

317
00:31:47,542 --> 00:31:51,164
And so it's almost like,

318
00:31:52,436 --> 00:31:54,057
without overanalyzing it too much.

319
00:31:54,057 --> 00:32:03,704
It's almost like people want to get close to death, but they're too scared to die.

320
00:32:04,285 --> 00:32:13,851
But they're not too scared to kind of try to get close to the fire without getting into
the fire itself.

321
00:32:13,932 --> 00:32:19,476
But that there is something about them that's...

322
00:32:19,476 --> 00:32:20,376
uh

323
00:32:20,690 --> 00:32:43,907
intrigued with the idea of uh annihilation and the only thing that they think is available
to them in life is some high risk uh activity that will put them in contact with this, but

324
00:32:43,907 --> 00:32:49,528
with some guardrails hoping that they're not actually going to annihilate.

325
00:32:50,298 --> 00:33:03,259
And the horror stuff, think is like, like you said, I don't think it's exactly the same,
it's like, you really get down to like, what actually is the terror?

326
00:33:03,259 --> 00:33:19,081
What is the, I mean, I'm talking like, not the movie, like, or the book, but what is the
feeling, like what is the terror of, even if they're knowing they're somehow protected?

327
00:33:19,081 --> 00:33:32,138
But in the end, ah which always brings in like religious and spiritual uh concepts is that
ah ultimately people are afraid of dying.

328
00:33:32,398 --> 00:33:43,714
And so the most successful horror movies are not only, it's not only that people are gonna
die, but they're gonna die in some horrific way.

329
00:33:43,714 --> 00:33:49,197
But they almost have to be shocked.

330
00:33:50,303 --> 00:34:01,108
to like some disturbing point to actually feel that kind of fear, but they wanna feel the
fear that they're paying to get into the theater to feel that.

331
00:34:01,108 --> 00:34:04,329
it's, this is super interesting.

332
00:34:04,329 --> 00:34:11,973
yeah, so the two interesting things from my past is that, yes, I don't do that really
anymore.

333
00:34:11,973 --> 00:34:13,013
I don't do that anymore.

334
00:34:13,013 --> 00:34:17,727
But there was a couple of decades that I...

335
00:34:17,727 --> 00:34:32,347
sort out experiences that would basically put me into like a death threatening, mean, I,
you know, I'm volunteering to jump out of a plane.

336
00:34:32,347 --> 00:34:41,107
No, I'm volunteering, nobody's forcing me to climb a mountain on a rope in 20 below zero
weather.

337
00:34:41,247 --> 00:34:43,747
I'm choosing to do that, okay?

338
00:34:43,747 --> 00:34:45,867
But for what purpose, you know?

339
00:34:45,867 --> 00:34:47,127
So,

340
00:34:48,060 --> 00:34:56,172
So I did, but I think that the other thing you said is that when I was seven and eight, I
really liked the horror movies myself.

341
00:34:56,172 --> 00:34:59,573
And those were the only movies I had any interest in.

342
00:34:59,613 --> 00:35:03,834
And I remember having babysitters come over.

343
00:35:04,675 --> 00:35:08,356
And of course I was like, said my parents would be out.

344
00:35:08,576 --> 00:35:12,577
you know, I was the spoiled seven or eight year old son.

345
00:35:12,577 --> 00:35:16,808
You know, they're paying for a babysitter to basically watch over me.

346
00:35:16,808 --> 00:35:20,441
but it's still my house and I get to choose what's on the TV.

347
00:35:20,441 --> 00:35:23,813
So I get to choose horror movies, right?

348
00:35:23,813 --> 00:35:30,908
And I still remember the very first horror movie I ever saw.

349
00:35:31,369 --> 00:35:34,090
And it really fascinated me.

350
00:35:34,511 --> 00:35:44,558
And back then, the difference between the horror movies now and the horror movies back
then is that it was much more difficult for them.

351
00:35:44,690 --> 00:35:48,792
to create like a believable scene.

352
00:35:49,592 --> 00:36:02,078
you, you, know what, the best, best analogy is like pro wrestling, you know, to me, is
that, okay, okay, so everybody knows that it's not real.

353
00:36:02,078 --> 00:36:07,700
It's real, it is what it is, but everybody knows that the outcome is already decided.

354
00:36:07,801 --> 00:36:09,061
It's fixed.

355
00:36:09,240 --> 00:36:10,082
yes.

356
00:36:11,067 --> 00:36:23,924
Yeah, but the people observing it, the people who are putting on the show, they're the
actors, and the people who are in the theater or the stadium or the arena are willingly

357
00:36:23,924 --> 00:36:28,707
allowing themselves to believe something they know doesn't exist.

358
00:36:29,828 --> 00:36:39,245
because they, okay, and they're getting better and better at making that possible because
it looks more more real.

359
00:36:39,505 --> 00:36:44,214
Okay, and it's that way in wrestling and it's that way in movies.

360
00:36:44,214 --> 00:36:48,951
Okay, so I remember seeing the attack of the 50 foot woman.

361
00:36:49,415 --> 00:36:51,629
Oh, that's an old school one!

362
00:36:51,629 --> 00:36:52,699
Right, right!

363
00:36:52,699 --> 00:36:58,275
That's right, well yeah, because I'm old.

364
00:36:58,275 --> 00:37:07,235
And I remember being seven or eight and willingly letting myself believe that this was
actually true.

365
00:37:08,236 --> 00:37:14,862
You know, I was giving them permission to convince me that this was actually something
that could actually happen.

366
00:37:15,463 --> 00:37:25,773
And I remember that, and actually I remember it was every Saturday night, and there was a
TV series in black and white back then, right?

367
00:37:25,773 --> 00:37:28,174
It was called Chiller Theater.

368
00:37:29,016 --> 00:37:29,963
Right?

369
00:37:30,527 --> 00:37:36,892
And every Saturday night they'd have Dad or the Blob or these old classics.

370
00:37:36,892 --> 00:37:40,119
uh

371
00:37:40,119 --> 00:37:41,949
movies, that sort of thing.

372
00:37:43,740 --> 00:37:49,545
And as a young kid, these things gave me, ah you know, nightmares.

373
00:37:49,868 --> 00:37:50,802
Right.

374
00:37:51,307 --> 00:37:54,768
Yeah, but I was willing, I was like signing on for that.

375
00:37:55,688 --> 00:37:57,149
So it's really interesting.

376
00:37:57,149 --> 00:38:07,627
It's like, at seven and eight years old, why am I signing on to something that's gonna
have me uh have a nightmare?

377
00:38:07,627 --> 00:38:11,743
I'm not trying to like overly analyze myself, but it's like super interesting.

378
00:38:11,743 --> 00:38:19,975
It's like, like, uh you know, it's like kind of like you said, like the human nature is
like.

379
00:38:20,779 --> 00:38:30,384
You know, why would, I mean, you know, it's funny because you read in like the real news
about, you know, terror attacks.

380
00:38:30,465 --> 00:38:36,388
And that's the thing that people are justifiably very spooked out about.

381
00:38:36,388 --> 00:38:48,715
It's like, I'm in an airport, there's gonna be a bomb, and they're really, I could be
anywhere, and you know, yeah, but they'll pay money to go to a theater to watch somebody

382
00:38:48,715 --> 00:38:49,775
else get blown.

383
00:38:50,567 --> 00:38:52,735
Yeah, yeah, no, that's proof.

384
00:38:52,884 --> 00:39:07,732
Or they'll be on a plane and they're needing a drink because they're kind of scared that
somehow the plane, I'm flying in this little object, 50,000 feet above the air and there's

385
00:39:07,732 --> 00:39:12,814
no protection and this plane could go, one engine and the whole thing could go down,
right?

386
00:39:13,234 --> 00:39:20,598
But they'll pay money to watch a movie where somebody else's plane goes down.

387
00:39:20,658 --> 00:39:22,749
So it's kind of very odd.

388
00:39:22,895 --> 00:39:27,498
And watching that will trigger their own fears.

389
00:39:28,359 --> 00:39:42,417
And it's just so interesting about, to me, it's kind of going back to you saying like,
where you got your interests, but I got my interest in that about the same age you did.

390
00:39:43,840 --> 00:39:49,214
Well, you know, it's like uh I have worked with children as a teacher.

391
00:39:49,214 --> 00:39:56,038
I have worked a lot with kids throughout the years, both younger children and teenagers,
early teenagers.

392
00:39:56,859 --> 00:40:06,285
And my experience has always been that for the most part, children love to get scared.

393
00:40:06,866 --> 00:40:13,270
And it's funny and it's also kind of weird because like uh

394
00:40:13,270 --> 00:40:19,054
You get all of these little munchkin kids, you know, who are like seven, eight years old.

395
00:40:19,495 --> 00:40:28,363
And, uh you know, like, for example, I do narrations of stories, you know, I like narrate
horror stories that are events and things like that.

396
00:40:28,363 --> 00:40:39,061
And working at the Institute multiple times, I have kids coming up to me, like a little
eight year old boy, like pulling on my shirt going like, hey, mister, when are you going

397
00:40:39,061 --> 00:40:40,933
to read us a post story?

398
00:40:40,933 --> 00:40:41,934
Or when are you going to tell us?

399
00:40:41,934 --> 00:40:42,537
uh

400
00:40:42,537 --> 00:40:49,362
like the Mask of the Red Death by Edgar Allan Poe, whatever, and this is like an eight
year old making this request, right?

401
00:40:49,362 --> 00:41:09,246
um And it's funny because, you know, you could argue, you could argue that children
haven't yet developed, you know, the sense of

402
00:41:09,524 --> 00:41:24,500
gravity that is often associated with things like death and horror and gore and whatever
like like they like it doesn't have that much weight in their mind because they haven't

403
00:41:24,500 --> 00:41:28,032
been faced with those things in a more tangible manner.

404
00:41:28,032 --> 00:41:38,196
ah But then as you say, you got adults who are arguably more conscious of the world and
how it works and all of the

405
00:41:38,196 --> 00:41:41,938
like the already scary things that happen in it.

406
00:41:42,679 --> 00:41:49,284
And as you say, they still want to go to a theater and pay to see Hereditary and get, you
know, the crap scare out of them.

407
00:41:49,284 --> 00:41:58,550
So, I like, I don't know, I think it goes beyond any kind of uh rationality.

408
00:41:58,550 --> 00:42:06,886
Like, I don't think there is an explicitly rational or psychological explanation for
probably even

409
00:42:06,886 --> 00:42:18,459
mental health professional came up here and and discuss this they could give us some sort
of more empirical reason for this but to me it comes down to the fact that as you say as

410
00:42:18,459 --> 00:42:33,163
you say people want to have intense experiences they crave that they crave that because
it's sort of a way of fighting against the dullness of mundane life

411
00:42:33,843 --> 00:42:39,268
But they want to do that in a way that doesn't actually threaten them.

412
00:42:39,268 --> 00:42:42,590
Like it's all a theater, very much.

413
00:42:43,667 --> 00:42:45,058
Yeah, but you know what?

414
00:42:45,058 --> 00:42:52,566
By the way, by the way, I mean, you could probably predict this and I already know what
I'm going to do tonight, okay?

415
00:42:52,566 --> 00:42:56,059
But you know who my favorite author was as a kid.

416
00:42:57,447 --> 00:43:01,871
your favorite author as a kid- i don't remember sir you guys-

417
00:43:01,871 --> 00:43:03,265
school, my favorite author.

418
00:43:07,327 --> 00:43:08,335
By far.

419
00:43:09,725 --> 00:43:10,402
Who was it?

420
00:43:10,402 --> 00:43:12,032
No, I don't recollect.

421
00:43:12,401 --> 00:43:14,022
Edgar Allen Poe.

422
00:43:14,613 --> 00:43:16,198
you're a poll fan, right?

423
00:43:16,198 --> 00:43:17,691
Right, right, right.

424
00:43:17,797 --> 00:43:24,117
Absolutely Edgar Allan Poe and I remember The Raven, know, Nevermore, Nevermore, all that.

425
00:43:25,017 --> 00:43:39,257
And I'd be reading it and I felt like I was in a world by myself because I'd be telling
friends or family about how great this was and people thought I was a very strange kid.

426
00:43:40,477 --> 00:43:45,517
And then of course when I was an adult I learned and...

427
00:43:45,873 --> 00:43:58,961
was not surprised that Edgar Allan Poe was absolutely insane and that he suffered from
mental illness and uh alcoholism and all that.

428
00:43:58,961 --> 00:44:05,744
But that's not a surprise either, you know, but he's very talented.

429
00:44:06,145 --> 00:44:12,038
And it's kind of interesting that I was reading Edgar Allan Poe when I was in second and
third grade.

430
00:44:12,368 --> 00:44:25,777
And I actually haven't picked it up since, but tonight I'm gonna go back and read it,
because this conversation's kind of really kind of picked my interest in kind like the

431
00:44:25,777 --> 00:44:35,483
connection between, you know, people's kind of desire for that kind of feeling, like
what's behind that.

432
00:44:35,663 --> 00:44:36,023
And...

433
00:44:36,023 --> 00:44:37,484
uh

434
00:44:37,684 --> 00:44:48,404
Without you know me I don't like to overanalyze things psychologically theoretically but
but I I just want to like to get to some bottom line understanding of things and I think

435
00:44:48,404 --> 00:44:52,084
that's a really interesting why why.

436
00:44:52,084 --> 00:44:55,844
I remember one time you know I've got a sister you know.

437
00:44:56,344 --> 00:45:00,864
And I this is back when I was in like college or law school.

438
00:45:02,438 --> 00:45:08,491
And she came home one night and she, we were still living at home during the college
breaks.

439
00:45:08,531 --> 00:45:12,573
And she looked seriously freaked out.

440
00:45:12,574 --> 00:45:14,815
Like seriously freaked out.

441
00:45:15,395 --> 00:45:18,557
And ah I mean like shaking.

442
00:45:19,077 --> 00:45:30,183
And I, you know, I wouldn't consider myself a very wise person at that stage of my life,
but I could see that she was emotionally disturbed by something.

443
00:45:30,183 --> 00:45:31,664
And she was crying.

444
00:45:32,466 --> 00:45:33,576
So I'm going, what happened?

445
00:45:33,576 --> 00:45:38,718
She said, well, I just went with my friend to see the Texas Chainsaw Massacre.

446
00:45:39,699 --> 00:45:40,979
Which was a...

447
00:45:41,960 --> 00:45:44,861
And it really...

448
00:45:44,861 --> 00:45:49,523
But it's not like she left the movie, she sat through the whole thing.

449
00:45:49,823 --> 00:45:52,004
So at some point she just...

450
00:45:52,204 --> 00:45:54,325
I mean, that's kind like the odd thing.

451
00:45:54,325 --> 00:46:02,118
And I even remember saying to her, well, if it was as bad as that, why did you stay till
the end?

452
00:46:03,412 --> 00:46:16,232
Okay, and it was kind of like the answer was something at that stage in my life I couldn't
wrap my head around was that she basically was saying that she couldn't, that she didn't

453
00:46:16,232 --> 00:46:17,672
have the ability.

454
00:46:18,352 --> 00:46:27,032
And so that kind of like, yeah, yeah, but I didn't have the self control to going, this is
really not good.

455
00:46:27,032 --> 00:46:28,632
This is not affecting me badly.

456
00:46:28,632 --> 00:46:32,734
I gotta leave the theater for my own mental health.

457
00:46:32,734 --> 00:46:38,007
but she couldn't leave and by the end of the movie she's a mess.

458
00:46:38,108 --> 00:46:45,733
And chose to be a mess, just, or didn't have the self-discipline to get up and leave.

459
00:46:45,834 --> 00:46:57,282
so uh it's kind of just interesting the hole that this has over people and why they would
subject themselves voluntarily to something.

460
00:46:57,282 --> 00:47:00,814
I mean, if it was in real life, I mean, it was kind of like.

461
00:47:00,884 --> 00:47:09,224
happening on a nearby neighborhood corner that somebody was tearing somebody's head off
with chainsaw.

462
00:47:09,544 --> 00:47:17,124
People wouldn't be putting a chair down and eating popcorn to watch it, or maybe they
would.

463
00:47:18,125 --> 00:47:23,385
Yeah, but people are very strange.

464
00:47:23,667 --> 00:47:41,623
You know, um like this is what you're saying here, um because I hate to be
self-referential, but you know, in my case nowadays, I mostly don't watch horror movies

465
00:47:41,623 --> 00:47:47,978
for the thrill of it, because I've been kind of desensitized to them.

466
00:47:47,978 --> 00:47:50,110
Like it's very hard.

467
00:47:50,366 --> 00:47:53,748
uh to disturb me nowadays.

468
00:47:54,088 --> 00:48:02,013
can probably count the examples in one hand of the movies that have come out in the last
10 years that can actually disturb me for real.

469
00:48:02,013 --> 00:48:15,645
uh Nowadays, I mostly watch horror movies because I like engaging with all of the artistic
trickery that goes into them.

470
00:48:15,645 --> 00:48:16,556
Uh-huh.

471
00:48:17,860 --> 00:48:26,776
I like looking at all the little resources, all of the little things they pull to actually
create an atmosphere of fear.

472
00:48:26,776 --> 00:48:33,261
uh I love movies that use practical effects in particular instead of digital.

473
00:48:33,261 --> 00:48:36,463
love big monster puppets.

474
00:48:36,463 --> 00:48:37,864
I love that sort of thing.

475
00:48:37,864 --> 00:48:46,300
uh And I also do that because for my own work as a writer,

476
00:48:46,921 --> 00:48:51,122
I watch them not only as entertainment, also as a source of knowledge.

477
00:48:51,122 --> 00:48:54,093
I like to learn from them.

478
00:48:54,353 --> 00:48:58,574
So for me, it's not really any more like a thrill-seeking thing.

479
00:48:58,574 --> 00:49:07,916
It used to be when I was a kid, a teenager, but now for me, it's more about the artistic
appreciation.

480
00:49:07,916 --> 00:49:15,938
I guess I kind of tend to watch horror movies in the same way that another person watches
like a documentary, I guess.

481
00:49:17,043 --> 00:49:31,583
Well, do you think that's common among the people who are well known in that field that at
a certain point they're just interested in what they can create rather than necessarily

482
00:49:31,583 --> 00:49:35,683
intending they're wanting to scare people?

483
00:49:36,383 --> 00:49:44,363
Or more is it that they get kind of desensitized to it and now they're into the art making
of

484
00:49:44,990 --> 00:49:52,330
I think there is a good chunk of horror fans who are in the more of the art making aspect
of it.

485
00:49:52,610 --> 00:50:10,190
I've been to many forums, subreddits, I've been to events and a lot of people are kind of
intrigued with the mechanics of horror and there is a lot of artistry that goes into

486
00:50:10,190 --> 00:50:12,478
making an actually good horror movie.

487
00:50:12,478 --> 00:50:19,318
Like there is this film by this guy called Ari Aster that came out a few years ago.

488
00:50:19,318 --> 00:50:20,858
It's called Hereditary.

489
00:50:20,858 --> 00:50:22,958
It's a very intense horror movie.

490
00:50:22,958 --> 00:50:25,338
There's barely any gore or anything like that, actually.

491
00:50:25,338 --> 00:50:34,438
It doesn't have a lot of violence, but it's a very like a constant oppressive atmosphere
throughout the whole entire thing.

492
00:50:34,478 --> 00:50:39,718
And he does a lot of things that are interesting as far as cinematography goes.

493
00:50:39,718 --> 00:50:41,326
He plays a lot with

494
00:50:41,326 --> 00:50:56,800
angles he plays a lot with the ways that lighting is set and it's all done with the
express purpose of disturbing the viewer but there is a lot of work behind that like it's

495
00:50:56,800 --> 00:51:06,577
it almost reminds me you know stanley cubrick the guy who made the shining right so it's
it's that same kind of meticulous

496
00:51:06,577 --> 00:51:11,918
was just in, like two weeks ago, I was actually in the hotel that he filmed at.

497
00:51:12,335 --> 00:51:13,163
You kidding me?

498
00:51:13,163 --> 00:51:15,387
You went to the Overlook Hotel?

499
00:51:16,228 --> 00:51:18,591
No, it's there's no such thing as the Overlook Hotel.

500
00:51:18,591 --> 00:51:20,602
It's the Timberline Lodge.

501
00:51:21,984 --> 00:51:24,246
Yeah, it was just in that two weeks ago.

502
00:51:25,031 --> 00:51:26,834
There you go, and how was it?

503
00:51:26,834 --> 00:51:29,295
Oh, I've been there many times.

504
00:51:29,295 --> 00:51:30,656
It's in Oregon.

505
00:51:30,696 --> 00:51:33,958
you know, spent a lot of my life in Oregon.

506
00:51:33,958 --> 00:51:37,020
So uh it's a beautiful place.

507
00:51:37,020 --> 00:51:38,640
It's up on Mount Hood.

508
00:51:38,981 --> 00:51:40,942
And you get this fantastic view.

509
00:51:40,942 --> 00:51:42,343
I'll send you pictures.

510
00:51:42,343 --> 00:51:48,906
uh I'll send you pictures of the real Overlook Hotel and the views from it.

511
00:51:50,459 --> 00:51:51,910
Yeah, it's really beautiful place.

512
00:51:51,910 --> 00:51:55,352
And you know, I can understand why that was with Jack Nicholson, right?

513
00:51:55,352 --> 00:51:58,052
So that's, uh yeah.

514
00:51:58,052 --> 00:52:02,564
So yeah, I've been up there many, many times.

515
00:52:02,564 --> 00:52:04,406
So it's a real beautiful place.

516
00:52:04,406 --> 00:52:06,018
Yeah, I think so.

517
00:52:06,018 --> 00:52:12,423
So about horror, it doesn't necessarily have to be in the next conversation, but it's some
conversation.

518
00:52:13,083 --> 00:52:27,807
and you're the expert in this more than me, is that it's a really fascinating subject
about horror and people seeking out terror voluntarily.

519
00:52:27,987 --> 00:52:42,191
And so I'm kind of interested in maybe a future conversation, really kind of understanding
whether

520
00:52:43,057 --> 00:52:46,589
And you're saying it's human nature for people to seek this out.

521
00:52:46,589 --> 00:52:53,673
Okay, so let's assume that not everybody, but large numbers of people seek this out.

522
00:52:54,593 --> 00:53:01,457
And the question is, like anything, I mean, you can talk about anything in life, okay?

523
00:53:01,457 --> 00:53:12,453
ah The things that doctors recommend and things doctors don't recommend, do whatever, but
any human activity, it's kind of like,

524
00:53:12,611 --> 00:53:14,132
Is it therapeutic?

525
00:53:14,132 --> 00:53:18,193
Is it on some level naturally therapeutic?

526
00:53:18,193 --> 00:53:20,414
Is it actually helpful?

527
00:53:20,975 --> 00:53:24,276
Or is it inherently dangerous?

528
00:53:24,636 --> 00:53:28,077
Or is it some combination of the both?

529
00:53:28,077 --> 00:53:36,941
But if it's a combination of both, what type of self uh restraint and self discipline
would be involved?

530
00:53:36,941 --> 00:53:41,487
ah Because I think those are really interesting issues because

531
00:53:41,487 --> 00:53:47,879
Ultimately, issue is what's the effect of this on human beings?

532
00:53:48,927 --> 00:54:04,587
I would argue that for a good number of people who seek out this kind of thing, there is
an element of catharsis to watching a horror movie or experiencing a horror narrative

533
00:54:04,587 --> 00:54:18,447
because most of the time, or yeah, I would argue that most of the time, even if people die
unhorribly throughout the narrative,

534
00:54:19,630 --> 00:54:24,132
there is generally someone who makes it at the end.

535
00:54:24,512 --> 00:54:35,577
is usually like uh in slasher films like the Texas Chainsaw Massacre which you mentioned
or the Friday the 13th movies or the Nightmare on Elm Street ones there is this cliche

536
00:54:35,577 --> 00:54:44,507
which is the idea of the final girl is what it's called like that's how they know the
final girl which is like usually a lady who gets to the end of the movie

537
00:54:44,507 --> 00:54:53,183
and actually manages to defeat the monster by using her smarts and her, you know,
relentless will to survive.

538
00:54:53,264 --> 00:55:07,074
And that's what usually the cathartic component of this kind of story comes into play,
which is having someone who actually survives the horrific situation and manages to

539
00:55:07,074 --> 00:55:10,076
triumph over the monster.

540
00:55:10,101 --> 00:55:16,935
regardless of the circumstances and that has a very big cathartic component for audiences.

541
00:55:18,255 --> 00:55:31,129
No, one reason I'm asking, you know, from some of our time together is that you've not
only been a translated for me and me giving public addresses and classes, but probably

542
00:55:31,129 --> 00:55:39,151
even more importantly, you've been a translated for me and giving personal consultations
with people about stuff going on in their life.

543
00:55:39,151 --> 00:55:45,593
And so the interesting thing is, you know that I'll use anything.

544
00:55:46,190 --> 00:56:01,104
at my disposal at any given moment, even if it doesn't seem at times appropriate or
doesn't seem logical, but somehow I go, hey, how about throwing this in here?

545
00:56:01,104 --> 00:56:13,347
And I guess the interesting thing for me to learn from you, and it doesn't have to be
today, but in the future, maybe you give us some thought, is that

546
00:56:14,509 --> 00:56:36,172
If there is something that consciously or unconsciously has led you to this and is somehow
been helpful to you or others, there may be an instance that I, if I was as tied into it

547
00:56:36,172 --> 00:56:42,647
and knowledgeable about it as somebody like you, that maybe even I would.

548
00:56:42,833 --> 00:56:50,113
actually have somebody dip into that because it would be in their interest to do that.

549
00:56:50,113 --> 00:56:55,093
And I'd be like the last person in the world they think would recommend that.

550
00:56:55,253 --> 00:57:01,453
But, you know, it doesn't matter because there's always something for every situation.

551
00:57:01,813 --> 00:57:12,313
And the thing is, is that, I mean, I guess this is where all these conversations will go
in time, is that ultimately,

552
00:57:13,275 --> 00:57:27,356
To me, this is my personal opinion, the only thing of value that we do in the world is
things that will be of help to other people.

553
00:57:27,356 --> 00:57:37,543
And I'm not saying that I don't deserve to have a pleasure in my life because I do.

554
00:57:38,805 --> 00:57:41,306
But that doesn't give my life meaning.

555
00:57:43,118 --> 00:57:46,691
The fact that I'm going out, I'm gonna enjoy the beach today, that's great.

556
00:57:46,691 --> 00:57:54,037
I'm not gonna deny myself the pleasure, you know, of running into the ocean and seeing the
seagulls.

557
00:57:54,037 --> 00:57:54,878
fine.

558
00:57:54,878 --> 00:58:04,875
Okay, ah and I do that for myself and my pleasure, and that's fine, but it doesn't add any
tremendous meaning to my life.

559
00:58:04,875 --> 00:58:11,111
The meaning to my life comes from anything I do that basically adds value to other
people's lives.

560
00:58:11,111 --> 00:58:12,591
That's what I've learned.

561
00:58:13,944 --> 00:58:16,865
And that can happen in one of a million ways, okay?

562
00:58:16,865 --> 00:58:21,297
So the thing is, that uh I'm fine with anything.

563
00:58:21,297 --> 00:58:26,769
I'm fine with horror movies, okay?

564
00:58:27,470 --> 00:58:35,573
And I'm fine with putting people in contact with the Texas Chainsaw Massacre, if
necessary.

565
00:58:36,433 --> 00:58:43,820
If in some way for some particular person, that would be helpful, okay?

566
00:58:43,820 --> 00:58:58,030
And I'm not excluding that possibility because I'm pleading ignorance here is that one the
things I got out of this conversation, which is always the bottom line for me is like, ah

567
00:58:58,030 --> 00:59:04,775
I'm really interested in human nature and I'm interested in playing in the game of human
nature, okay?

568
00:59:04,775 --> 00:59:13,040
And so I think we've, we're not talking so much about horror as we are human nature and
that's

569
00:59:13,040 --> 00:59:18,780
that's an element of human nature that people don't usually talk about this openly.

570
00:59:19,380 --> 00:59:23,460
And I think it's an interesting subject to talk about.

571
00:59:23,460 --> 00:59:30,980
And you can see even in my own life, mean, as a kid I was reading Edgar Allan Poe and
watching the attack of the 50 foot woman.

572
00:59:31,480 --> 00:59:34,740
And so it's not like it's not in the fabric of my life.

573
00:59:34,740 --> 00:59:37,340
Of course it's in the fabric of my life.

574
00:59:37,440 --> 00:59:39,879
But it's interesting to understand, okay.

575
00:59:40,441 --> 00:59:49,796
how can I take that experience and knowledge to basically help other people in their life?

576
00:59:49,836 --> 01:00:03,723
that's, and so basically if it has any therapeutic value to it, okay, I'm not like crazy
for the word therapeutic, that's kind of another thing, but let's just say, if somehow

577
01:00:04,424 --> 01:00:10,187
putting some particular person in contact with that experience,

578
01:00:10,607 --> 01:00:15,847
will help them move forward in their life, I'm more than open to doing that.

579
01:00:15,847 --> 01:00:28,107
But if putting people in contact with that is 100 % of the time unhealthy mentally and
emotionally, then I won't do that.

580
01:00:28,227 --> 01:00:29,307
Oh, I won't do that.

581
01:00:29,307 --> 01:00:36,427
But I'm more interested in what the possibilities are than just closing the door on
something.

582
01:00:37,047 --> 01:00:40,103
I have an open mind about

583
01:00:40,917 --> 01:00:53,362
It's not anything I've done recently, but you kind of really picked my interest in this,
picked my interest in why I was attracted to it as a child, why I was a thrill seeker as a

584
01:00:53,362 --> 01:00:54,672
young adult.

585
01:00:54,672 --> 01:01:00,355
How that ties into my life today, that's a value.

586
01:01:00,355 --> 01:01:09,838
and what I can do with that information to be of help to other people in some way, but I'd
have to have...

587
01:01:10,318 --> 01:01:18,398
deeper understanding of it and you're a person who does, you know, so you're a very good
resource for this.

588
01:01:19,198 --> 01:01:20,898
So, anyhow, we'll continue.

589
01:01:20,898 --> 01:01:27,618
You know, we're going to try to keep these things to an hour because we could talk for
five hours, obviously, on these things.

590
01:01:28,418 --> 01:01:29,638
It's too interesting.

591
01:01:29,638 --> 01:01:38,498
You see why tech gets so much pleasure out of these conversations, but this was like one
of the best conversations I've had in a long time.

592
01:01:38,558 --> 01:01:42,040
So I really am grateful.

593
01:01:42,640 --> 01:01:45,432
I mean, normally I don't talk about this shit, you know?

594
01:01:45,432 --> 01:01:48,433
And so it's great.

595
01:01:48,433 --> 01:01:50,841
And I'm hoping this is what it'll be.

596
01:01:50,841 --> 01:02:01,710
You know, we can talk once a week and we can forget that we even have an audience and we
can talk about whatever we want to talk about because it's all good.

597
01:02:01,991 --> 01:02:03,762
I mean, there's nothing that's not good.

598
01:02:03,762 --> 01:02:04,972
It's all good.

599
01:02:05,313 --> 01:02:07,754
And it's all good if we can like...

600
01:02:07,754 --> 01:02:08,614
uh

601
01:02:09,294 --> 01:02:14,194
come out of it with a better understanding of ourselves and the people around us.

602
01:02:14,314 --> 01:02:16,194
And so we can be of help.

603
01:02:16,194 --> 01:02:18,594
So it doesn't matter why it gets us there.

604
01:02:18,814 --> 01:02:25,874
I remember when you originally told me about your love for writing horror books and things
like this kind of thing.

605
01:02:25,874 --> 01:02:28,874
And my only reaction to that was, that's interesting.

606
01:02:28,874 --> 01:02:30,634
I want to find out more about that.

607
01:02:30,634 --> 01:02:30,974
That's all.

608
01:02:30,974 --> 01:02:36,438
was like 100 % my reaction is that, wow, that's, I don't know anybody.

609
01:02:36,438 --> 01:02:37,769
I know people doing a lot of stuff.

610
01:02:37,769 --> 01:02:43,503
You're the first person I personally have met who is dedicated to it like that.

611
01:02:43,503 --> 01:02:51,208
So you're my doorway to understanding something that uh I wouldn't know about otherwise.

612
01:02:51,809 --> 01:03:00,314
And um maybe even out of it, you'll even get to love it more and have even a deeper
understanding of it.

613
01:03:00,675 --> 01:03:03,136
So um it's all good.

614
01:03:03,136 --> 01:03:03,667
It's all good.

615
01:03:03,667 --> 01:03:05,958
know, um

616
01:03:06,232 --> 01:03:09,767
We'll talk about whatever we're gonna talk about.

617
01:03:10,509 --> 01:03:19,592
I know this next week I got a lot of stuff on my table that's gonna be worth talking
about, that's usually what we'll be talking about, what's just going on in our lives.

618
01:03:19,592 --> 01:03:22,366
And today was about horror.

619
01:03:23,550 --> 01:03:25,232
yeah, excellent.

620
01:03:25,232 --> 01:03:35,592
But I will say just wrapping up that thanks, thanks to everyone who took the time to sit
in on our conversation.

621
01:03:35,592 --> 01:03:41,220
And we hope it was entertaining and informative and we're hoping to.

622
01:03:41,344 --> 01:03:46,209
talk about all kinds of things that you wouldn't expect us to talk about.

623
01:03:46,209 --> 01:03:54,856
And we really appreciate you spending this time with us, and we'll see you soon.

624
01:03:55,545 --> 01:03:59,583
We'll see everyone soon and thank you everyone for being here with us.