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well

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hello all you beautiful people

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you know what time it is

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ladies and gents

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guys and dolls and everyone in between

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gather round

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get you something real nice to sip on

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and comfy to slip on

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because it's time

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for smut club

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here's your hosts chelsea and hannah

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[Applause]

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without

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ray j where would the kardashians be the

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answer is nowhere so

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that is the energy we are bringing into

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this episode of smut club welcome i'm

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hannah

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i'm chelsea honestly i don't even know

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if the intro to the show has already

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happened because you really just jumped

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in and there may be some editing so

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hello

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hey everyone thank you for joining us um

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we were having

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a really existential debate on where the

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kardashians would be without ray jay's

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involvement yeah um

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and chelsea's husband decided to hit

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play and so now or record or whatever

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the [ __ ] here we are i really don't have

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an answer except i do feel like ray j

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just not gonna get enough credit for the

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enemy

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on their lives he doesn't he deserves a

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lot more than he's gotten although i do

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also think of moisha who is it his

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stepsister real sister i think it's it

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is his sister i just remember

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she is his sister's sister sorry oh no i

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just remember

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when militia was on punk'd

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and she did not handle that

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no she didn't

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no she that was not a good look on her

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like some people like i feel like punch

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was really the make or break like are

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they gonna take it in stride or are they

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gonna show out she showed

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she really did um

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much like the book we're gonna review

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today so here's the thing guys hannah

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and i

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need a lot of alcohol for this episode

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hannah's wine glass is missing um i

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can't do anymore i can't i i literally

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pounded the glass that i had in

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preparation for this and it's gonna have

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to just do for what's gonna hap happen

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you know i respect your moderation and

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knowing your body's limits thank you i

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poured myself more

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before we started but i also didn't

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pound mine before we started so i 100

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different approaches i am regretting not

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pounding mine but i also there's still

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time well here's the thing hannah i had

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a speech impediment as a small child we

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know i struggle with the word wolf

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wolf

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and i recognize i slur easily so i have

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more i have to take more of a paste

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approach and just drink continuously

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throughout the episode because like you

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compound beforehand and be fine

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throughout it if i pound beforehand

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i'm just gonna sound like

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this and then my words are gonna slur

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i don't want them to slur well i also

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have to drive eventually so

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that's also part of it

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i wasn't i think that is also a wise

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decision i wasn't even thinking of

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driving i was just thinking of trying to

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sound like a competent human while we

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recorded this episode however no one in

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this book that we're going to review

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today is competent but we haven't even

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told you what book it is yet because

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yeah like we were like whoo this one is

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gonna be a book to get through so

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we are doing a joint review of

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rock by j.a huss

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it is worth just stating straight out

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the gate

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this entire book was inspired by

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constantine by something corporate

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um like and their lead singer andrew

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mcmahon yes and

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the nine and a half minute

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piano rock ballad that is constantine

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i'm a big something corporate fan i'm a

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big jax mannequin fan

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but also i'd say like constantine was

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never the song i gravitated towards

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well all of that and i said this earlier

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i feel like the only reason and again

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like don't at me about this but i feel

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like the only reason that

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constantine was

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popular as it was

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was literally because andrew mcmahon

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refused to play it and the reason that

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he refused to play it y'all is not

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because he was like this is my deeply

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personal ballad that i can never play

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it's because it was too long and it was

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too much to play live it was just gonna

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mess up the set

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it feels like we have a lot of feelings

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all right so also what i pounded before

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we started is starting to hit so

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rock by j house rock is our main

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character other names that he goes by

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are rowan kyle which does not roll off

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the tongue i want to be very clear

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and rk so definitely doesn't roll off no

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so we've got rock row and kyle or rk um

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he is the lead singer and front man for

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wildly popular band son of a jack yep

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and so in the

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prologue he is describing laying in bed

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with this girl named missy

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talking about how much he loves her

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and it's very short but he's like i just

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love her so much like she's gonna be my

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one and only forever i'm gonna marry

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and then the final sentence of the

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prologue is so why did i kill her

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that's how i feel like almost every

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in this book it ends in a way that that

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is the music that i had going on in my

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head um and i i mean so

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a lot of the books that we have reviewed

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light on the plot

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like it's mostly banging

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for that is the first rule as previously

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established is that we talk about smut

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but in this one it's like j.a huss was

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like how much plot can i put into this

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there's it's less that there's plot and

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more that it's just like

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the mystery of what's gonna happen in

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the next chapter like the tension of

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was really driving the plot more than

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a plot because i also feel like at the

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end of this book you're like wow we

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wrapped that up real quickly and yet i

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feel like a lot of things are left

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completely unanswered here yeah we've

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got a lot that is unresolved in this so

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i guess instead of warning you of what's

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to come we can just hop in and it's also

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worth knowing all right we got rock row

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and kyle rk he's gonna answer to all

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he really uses the names depending on

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who he's with so like the people he grew

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up with he is rowan kyle the people who

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know him as a superstar

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rock god know him as rock close personal

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friends call him rk yes and it's also

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worth noting he is a recovering addict

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which kills me y'all it uh we'll get

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we'll be yeah there's a lot there just

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kills but what we kind of know going in

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is that he's in recovery

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opiates opiates and had his bandmates

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had forced him into rehab last year and

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there's there's more to unpack there

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so in the first chapter he goes home

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to some small town in colorado

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what we know at this juncture is eight

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weeks ago there was a car crash that

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killed his entire band

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except for the drummer his drummer

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kenner um who he has not been in contact

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and we know his throat was injured in

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this house so he's not in in

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in rehab for substances he's in rehab

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yeah i thought it was a like a hybrid he

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fracture and because

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of his sub his history of substance use

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i just finished reading it this morning

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[ __ ] when i got here like i don't know

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in chelsea's driveway

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he has by his report

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eight months clean from opiates

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and so he's not in rehab for substances

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rehab for like physical therapy type

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rehab for the injuries he sustained in

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this accident they are not nearly clear

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enough about this i've read this book

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twice

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too many times honestly you're not wrong

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i feel like most of hannah and i's text

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threads have been

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damn we are still rereading this one

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um because also in

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like with the backstory that we like

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have to have going into this

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the the girl from the prologue missy is

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a twin yes her name is also melissa so

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she goes by both melissa and missy which

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is in case you weren't confused enough

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by rowan kyle rk rock well and so then

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to make it even more confusing missy

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identical identical twin and her twin's

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name is mel so you you like you think

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melanie yeah

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right so you have melissa and melanie

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who you think could both be nicknamed

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mel because it is the first three

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letters of both of their first names

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mel and melissa who are identical twins

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five years ago on prom night on prom

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a trauma we gonna come back to

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again and again

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more than you want to more than i want

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to more than anyone wants to yes so he

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in the first chapter he comes home to

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this small town in colorado for the

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first time in five years the first time

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since melissa's funeral he comes home

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and he gets to his house and his so it's

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the house that like he had grown up and

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yeah and his dad passed away last year

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yeah and he did not go home for the

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future yes he did not go home for the

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funeral and the house was left to rowan

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kyle rk rock

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and

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the his dad also had a bar called floats

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which was left to

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rk's brother

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tj

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toby john which also doesn't roll off

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the tongue no like who named them

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somebody drunk right so

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rock is released to his home

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that he inherited from his father his

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father is no longer living and

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rock's brother tj inherited floats which

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is the family bar essentially yes and rk

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has been essentially like

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not house arrest but county arrest so

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he's not allowed to leave the county

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where his hometown is in

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for the time being yes there's an

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investigation because of the death of

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his bandmates and so

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he has been told he can't leave the

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county until the investigation is over

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so like he gets to his house and then

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melissa not melissa

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mel i'm gonna they are so confusing this

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entire book lord help us all so melanie

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shows up at his house and is on just

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like full of angst like comes out super

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[ __ ] honestly i feel like most of

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their their interactions i'm like

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neither of you

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all right if we're just like going full

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gottman theory

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like if we're going for like couples

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counseling i'm like we have all four

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horsemen we really do have all four

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horsemen

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man that joke is going to be for a

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select few but the ones who get it will

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love it

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um

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but like i feel like one of the things

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that john and julie gottman talk a lot

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about is how you engage in conflict is

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representative of how that conflict is

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going to potentially resolve because if

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you come out swinging it's going to be

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way harder to resolve conflict right

346
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it's just going to escalate yes and i

347
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feel like that's just like what happens

348
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this entire book yeah is i'm like no one

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is wanting to come into these

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conversations to just have like normal

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conversations

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so no one's here to resolve anything

353
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right it's like melanie just like shows

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up and is full of all of this angst

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um and it's like i have a lot i've been

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wanting to say to you all this time yeah

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and

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rock like flips out when he first gets

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home and takes a sledgehammer to some

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like concrete blocks that are in the

361
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garage or something

362
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and so mel finds him on his knees in the

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garage

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and he has just let out this like

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guttural scream which is unwise because

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of his phase 3 larynx fracture i got

367
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really stuck on that i was like is that

368
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a thing i had to look it up

369
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it is a thing and i was like

370
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ok ok

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i guess i mean what the [ __ ]

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it's soft tissue damage it can't be a

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fracture fractures are for bones

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whatever

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that's i shouldn't guess that's not

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gonna be the largest plot hole we

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experienced today but it is an important

378
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one so

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melanie

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lays in

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to

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rk

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rock rock i

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why do i keep wanting to call him rook

385
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that's not even his name lord help us

386
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rock that's just i'm gonna i'm i'm

387
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choosing one of his three names because

388
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i'm not gonna say row and kyle each time

389
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yeah and so melanie lashes out at him

390
00:15:06,880 --> 00:15:10,560
and then honestly i don't really

391
00:15:08,240 --> 00:15:13,040
remember but like then he goes to floats

392
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so he goes to his brother's

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bar well we're missing something

394
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important so

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she

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follows him into the house and she's

397
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like you're gonna talk to me and he

398
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like makes motions that he can't because

399
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of his throat and

400
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then they like hate [ __ ] on the floor

401
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and it

402
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right

403
00:15:31,920 --> 00:15:34,959
probably i'm pretty sure i can't

404
00:15:33,600 --> 00:15:36,639
remember if that was that one or the

405
00:15:34,959 --> 00:15:38,000
next time that they interacted but i

406
00:15:36,639 --> 00:15:41,040
think you're right i'm pretty sure it's

407
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the first time and he's like i hate you

408
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because you're not her

409
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like right after she i think that might

410
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be slightly in the future because never

411
00:15:47,199 --> 00:15:51,120
mind okay

412
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yeah that's but that's gonna happen real

413
00:15:51,120 --> 00:15:55,199
soon though so it's pretty much the same

414
00:15:53,279 --> 00:15:56,560
my bad so he does go to floats trying to

415
00:15:55,199 --> 00:15:59,040
find drugs

416
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for pain

417
00:15:59,040 --> 00:16:03,199
but also like to say hi to his brother

418
00:16:00,880 --> 00:16:05,600
and his brother much like mel also a

419
00:16:03,199 --> 00:16:07,279
dick just like such a dick completely

420
00:16:05,600 --> 00:16:09,519
lays into him i'm not a fan of tj this

421
00:16:07,279 --> 00:16:11,199
entire time he's an [ __ ] this entire

422
00:16:09,519 --> 00:16:14,320
book so then

423
00:16:11,199 --> 00:16:15,839
like rk had gone to his brother's bar to

424
00:16:14,320 --> 00:16:17,680
see him and they're like you're just

425
00:16:15,839 --> 00:16:19,680
here for drugs

426
00:16:17,680 --> 00:16:21,279
and then he goes to the liquor store

427
00:16:19,680 --> 00:16:23,440
instead because that's what you want to

428
00:16:21,279 --> 00:16:25,120
have happen yeah but honestly at the

429
00:16:23,440 --> 00:16:26,399
liquor store he gets the best referral

430
00:16:25,120 --> 00:16:28,720
because the kid working at the liquor

431
00:16:26,399 --> 00:16:31,279
store is like my was it his uncle yeah

432
00:16:28,720 --> 00:16:34,480
he's like my uncle's an ent in the next

433
00:16:31,279 --> 00:16:36,880
town over and he can help you with your

434
00:16:34,480 --> 00:16:39,600
throat issues and

435
00:16:36,880 --> 00:16:40,320
rk's like thumbs up thanks buddy right

436
00:16:39,600 --> 00:16:42,320
so

437
00:16:40,320 --> 00:16:43,759
i mean how many of us go to the liquor

438
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store and leave with a referral for a

439
00:16:43,759 --> 00:16:47,839
new ent

440
00:16:45,120 --> 00:16:50,480
and the guy does also offer him weed

441
00:16:47,839 --> 00:16:52,720
but rk's like i i can't smoke i can't

442
00:16:50,480 --> 00:16:54,639
smoke my throat yes

443
00:16:52,720 --> 00:16:57,519
um so then within all this we learned

444
00:16:54,639 --> 00:17:01,199
more about the band and the band mates

445
00:16:57,519 --> 00:17:02,639
so kenner is the drummer kenner survived

446
00:17:01,199 --> 00:17:04,240
and

447
00:17:02,639 --> 00:17:07,120
our

448
00:17:04,240 --> 00:17:11,520
yes had a lot of injuries but rk and

449
00:17:07,120 --> 00:17:13,360
kenner are the og to the band and then

450
00:17:11,520 --> 00:17:16,640
after they had decided they wanted to

451
00:17:13,360 --> 00:17:19,280
start a band then you had ian moe

452
00:17:16,640 --> 00:17:21,120
and elias yes and elias

453
00:17:19,280 --> 00:17:24,160
join um

454
00:17:21,120 --> 00:17:26,079
but what we currently know is that elias

455
00:17:24,160 --> 00:17:27,349
ian and mo

456
00:17:26,079 --> 00:17:30,080
are dead

457
00:17:27,349 --> 00:17:32,720
[Laughter]

458
00:17:30,080 --> 00:17:35,600
and rk believes that he was driving and

459
00:17:32,720 --> 00:17:37,919
drove his car off a

460
00:17:35,600 --> 00:17:38,960
cliff or something and killed the three

461
00:17:37,919 --> 00:17:42,160
of them

462
00:17:38,960 --> 00:17:44,799
and injured himself and kenner so he has

463
00:17:42,160 --> 00:17:46,880
all this trauma because he's like

464
00:17:44,799 --> 00:17:49,280
melissa died on

465
00:17:46,880 --> 00:17:51,600
prom night because of me in a car crash

466
00:17:49,280 --> 00:17:53,520
and now all of my band mates have died

467
00:17:51,600 --> 00:17:54,880
because of me in a car crash five years

468
00:17:53,520 --> 00:17:56,480
later

469
00:17:54,880 --> 00:17:58,080
um

470
00:17:56,480 --> 00:18:00,640
so when

471
00:17:58,080 --> 00:18:03,440
rk gets home from the liquor store

472
00:18:00,640 --> 00:18:05,120
melanie is in his bed

473
00:18:03,440 --> 00:18:08,000
yep and

474
00:18:05,120 --> 00:18:10,000
then he screams for her to get out of

475
00:18:08,000 --> 00:18:12,080
the house and then she

476
00:18:10,000 --> 00:18:13,760
like while he screams like get out she's

477
00:18:12,080 --> 00:18:17,039
like stripping

478
00:18:13,760 --> 00:18:19,520
and is like why don't you feel me up

479
00:18:17,039 --> 00:18:22,480
instead and then rk is like oh she

480
00:18:19,520 --> 00:18:24,480
sounds so much like her dead sister who

481
00:18:22,480 --> 00:18:27,520
i was in love with

482
00:18:24,480 --> 00:18:29,679
so i'm just gonna get into this instead

483
00:18:27,520 --> 00:18:32,160
and then that yeah nigeria is when they

484
00:18:29,679 --> 00:18:34,000
hate [ __ ] and then when she's like i

485
00:18:32,160 --> 00:18:35,760
hate you for leaving and he's like i

486
00:18:34,000 --> 00:18:37,280
hate you for not being the one that i

487
00:18:35,760 --> 00:18:39,679
want

488
00:18:37,280 --> 00:18:42,880
right so then she puts it pushes him off

489
00:18:39,679 --> 00:18:45,120
of her and it's very clear that she

490
00:18:42,880 --> 00:18:47,600
comes during this but it's not clear if

491
00:18:45,120 --> 00:18:49,600
he comes and in the second reread i was

492
00:18:47,600 --> 00:18:52,000
like does he not

493
00:18:49,600 --> 00:18:54,400
does he not i got the impression he did

494
00:18:52,000 --> 00:18:56,799
not like me too yeah no i definitely got

495
00:18:54,400 --> 00:18:59,440
the impression that like they were

496
00:18:56,799 --> 00:19:02,400
mid-hate [ __ ] she finished they got into

497
00:18:59,440 --> 00:19:04,240
a fight while his dick was inside of her

498
00:19:02,400 --> 00:19:07,039
right and then she pushes him off and

499
00:19:04,240 --> 00:19:09,600
leaves like slaps him across the face

500
00:19:07,039 --> 00:19:12,240
yeah like kicks him off of her

501
00:19:09,600 --> 00:19:14,880
and although i mean to be fair

502
00:19:12,240 --> 00:19:17,120
yeah like if i had a identical twin

503
00:19:14,880 --> 00:19:19,039
sister and i were [ __ ] a dude and he

504
00:19:17,120 --> 00:19:20,799
was like i hate you for not being the

505
00:19:19,039 --> 00:19:23,360
sister i want

506
00:19:20,799 --> 00:19:24,400
i would probably not respond great to

507
00:19:23,360 --> 00:19:26,720
that either

508
00:19:24,400 --> 00:19:28,320
no he had poor timing if he wanted to

509
00:19:26,720 --> 00:19:30,720
finish he should have saved that for

510
00:19:28,320 --> 00:19:30,720
later

511
00:19:30,880 --> 00:19:36,960
he has only himself to blame here

512
00:19:34,000 --> 00:19:40,080
so then he calls his manager jace

513
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um jace is like a tiny sprite of a human

514
00:19:40,080 --> 00:19:44,080
that

515
00:19:40,880 --> 00:19:46,640
very fast yeah like

516
00:19:44,080 --> 00:19:49,679
kicks but takes names i don't know like

517
00:19:46,640 --> 00:19:51,600
she's they all love her um but then

518
00:19:49,679 --> 00:19:52,880
jace is like i have to report that

519
00:19:51,600 --> 00:19:54,960
you're home if you don't want the

520
00:19:52,880 --> 00:19:56,480
sheriff issuing a warrant for your

521
00:19:54,960 --> 00:19:58,160
arrest

522
00:19:56,480 --> 00:19:59,679
and then but like we don't really know

523
00:19:58,160 --> 00:20:00,559
we don't understand all of these threats

524
00:19:59,679 --> 00:20:01,679
and we don't really understand what's

525
00:20:00,559 --> 00:20:03,600
happening and we're not

526
00:20:01,679 --> 00:20:05,760
arrested right then we know kenner has

527
00:20:03,600 --> 00:20:08,400
woken up but kenner doesn't remember

528
00:20:05,760 --> 00:20:09,600
anything yeah so ken what happened is

529
00:20:08,400 --> 00:20:11,600
texting

530
00:20:09,600 --> 00:20:13,280
rock and he's like

531
00:20:11,600 --> 00:20:16,480
what the [ __ ] is happening don't leave

532
00:20:13,280 --> 00:20:18,799
me here he tries to call him and rock is

533
00:20:16,480 --> 00:20:20,400
like i can't talk

534
00:20:18,799 --> 00:20:22,159
right now

535
00:20:20,400 --> 00:20:24,400
like physically

536
00:20:22,159 --> 00:20:26,640
yes he's like my throat is broken and

537
00:20:24,400 --> 00:20:28,480
kenner's like please come see me and

538
00:20:26,640 --> 00:20:30,480
then jace calls and is like no more

539
00:20:28,480 --> 00:20:32,480
communication with kenner yeah she's

540
00:20:30,480 --> 00:20:35,039
like tanner's confused and he needs time

541
00:20:32,480 --> 00:20:37,039
to recover so no more communication

542
00:20:35,039 --> 00:20:38,400
um which we don't think anything of

543
00:20:37,039 --> 00:20:39,919
right now but then like in the future

544
00:20:38,400 --> 00:20:41,919
you're like that's a little weird so

545
00:20:39,919 --> 00:20:45,919
then the next chapter starts and it's

546
00:20:41,919 --> 00:20:45,919
just this like super hard pivot where

547
00:20:46,000 --> 00:20:50,960
rk wakes up to knocking on his car

548
00:20:48,880 --> 00:20:52,799
window because he's sleeping in his

549
00:20:50,960 --> 00:20:55,840
running car

550
00:20:52,799 --> 00:20:59,679
on a monday morning in the parking lot

551
00:20:55,840 --> 00:21:00,559
for the ent doctor that the liquor store

552
00:20:59,679 --> 00:21:03,520
kid

553
00:21:00,559 --> 00:21:05,679
referred him to yeah and all this

554
00:21:03,520 --> 00:21:08,000
happens on a saturday night so he's lost

555
00:21:05,679 --> 00:21:10,480
all of sunday

556
00:21:08,000 --> 00:21:12,320
and the ent is like i don't have a ton

557
00:21:10,480 --> 00:21:14,080
of appointments this morning like do you

558
00:21:12,320 --> 00:21:16,799
want to come in like let me take a look

559
00:21:14,080 --> 00:21:17,600
at you rock and so he does he goes in

560
00:21:16,799 --> 00:21:19,520
and

561
00:21:17,600 --> 00:21:21,360
the guy

562
00:21:19,520 --> 00:21:23,760
does an evaluation he's like you've

563
00:21:21,360 --> 00:21:25,600
clearly exacerbated your injury were you

564
00:21:23,760 --> 00:21:26,960
doing a lot of yelling and he was like

565
00:21:25,600 --> 00:21:28,880
maybe a little bit

566
00:21:26,960 --> 00:21:32,200
and he was like we'll cut that [ __ ] out

567
00:21:28,880 --> 00:21:34,640
and gives him a prescription for

568
00:21:32,200 --> 00:21:38,720
anti-inflammatories and opiates and he's

569
00:21:34,640 --> 00:21:41,440
like i am not here to dictate whether or

570
00:21:38,720 --> 00:21:42,880
not you can manage your pain

571
00:21:41,440 --> 00:21:45,039
um

572
00:21:42,880 --> 00:21:46,960
but please don't fill this unless you

573
00:21:45,039 --> 00:21:49,440
need to and then he's also like and

574
00:21:46,960 --> 00:21:52,799
here's a referral for a licensed

575
00:21:49,440 --> 00:21:55,520
therapist she's upstairs a licensed

576
00:21:52,799 --> 00:21:58,480
psychologist she's her credentials are

577
00:21:55,520 --> 00:22:00,559
lp phd lp

578
00:21:58,480 --> 00:22:02,159
so yes licensed psychologist although i

579
00:22:00,559 --> 00:22:04,640
have a lot of questions about her ethics

580
00:22:02,159 --> 00:22:07,360
that we'll come to in the future so

581
00:22:04,640 --> 00:22:09,280
yes he gets this referral then he

582
00:22:07,360 --> 00:22:11,280
goes to the pharmacy picks it up gets

583
00:22:09,280 --> 00:22:13,520
home he does not fill the opiates he

584
00:22:11,280 --> 00:22:16,320
only fills the anti-inflammatories

585
00:22:13,520 --> 00:22:19,919
valid good good point way to give him

586
00:22:16,320 --> 00:22:20,880
credit i'm trying to do something why i

587
00:22:19,919 --> 00:22:23,360
don't know

588
00:22:20,880 --> 00:22:25,280
i don't know anymore honestly that's

589
00:22:23,360 --> 00:22:26,480
okay so he gets home from filling the

590
00:22:25,280 --> 00:22:29,520
anti-inflammatory

591
00:22:26,480 --> 00:22:31,679
not the opiate prescription um once

592
00:22:29,520 --> 00:22:33,039
again to find mel

593
00:22:31,679 --> 00:22:34,880
in his bed

594
00:22:33,039 --> 00:22:36,559
and so sleeping yeah she's like

595
00:22:34,880 --> 00:22:38,320
completely sleeping in his bed and so

596
00:22:36,559 --> 00:22:39,840
he's like well i guess i'm gonna go take

597
00:22:38,320 --> 00:22:42,080
a shower and then when he gets out of

598
00:22:39,840 --> 00:22:43,600
the shower she's gone she's gone but

599
00:22:42,080 --> 00:22:44,880
then he starts to notice like a lot of

600
00:22:43,600 --> 00:22:47,440
her belongings

601
00:22:44,880 --> 00:22:48,799
throughout his house so then he decides

602
00:22:47,440 --> 00:22:52,080
he's gonna go over to her house to

603
00:22:48,799 --> 00:22:55,520
confront her yes um

604
00:22:52,080 --> 00:22:56,320
but then we go to a flashback

605
00:22:55,520 --> 00:22:59,039
where

606
00:22:56,320 --> 00:23:00,799
we learn that

607
00:22:59,039 --> 00:23:03,919
mel and missy

608
00:23:00,799 --> 00:23:06,799
with their twin status

609
00:23:03,919 --> 00:23:10,880
um mel would frequently

610
00:23:06,799 --> 00:23:13,679
pretend to be missy yeah so mel tried to

611
00:23:10,880 --> 00:23:15,440
convince rock that she was missy to go

612
00:23:13,679 --> 00:23:17,360
on some kind of like

613
00:23:15,440 --> 00:23:20,960
weekend trip with him

614
00:23:17,360 --> 00:23:23,919
and missy shows up while rock is kissing

615
00:23:20,960 --> 00:23:25,520
mel and he's like wait a minute who

616
00:23:23,919 --> 00:23:27,039
what the [ __ ] is happening like you are

617
00:23:25,520 --> 00:23:27,919
not missy

618
00:23:27,039 --> 00:23:30,559
and

619
00:23:27,919 --> 00:23:32,640
she's like it was worth a try and like

620
00:23:30,559 --> 00:23:35,120
leaves and he's like what the [ __ ] is

621
00:23:32,640 --> 00:23:37,360
happening right now

622
00:23:35,120 --> 00:23:39,120
and we learned that like she's done this

623
00:23:37,360 --> 00:23:40,880
a lot there have been times where they

624
00:23:39,120 --> 00:23:43,600
look where they have like cottoned onto

625
00:23:40,880 --> 00:23:46,159
it quickly there have been times where

626
00:23:43,600 --> 00:23:48,320
you just never really know which twin it

627
00:23:46,159 --> 00:23:51,600
was so we have that flashback just like

628
00:23:48,320 --> 00:23:53,840
suddenly learning like

629
00:23:51,600 --> 00:23:56,320
melissa would pretend to be missy on an

630
00:23:53,840 --> 00:23:58,400
ongoing basis melanie would pretend to

631
00:23:56,320 --> 00:24:00,159
be missy what did i say

632
00:23:58,400 --> 00:24:02,880
melissa melissa would pretend to be

633
00:24:00,159 --> 00:24:04,559
messy melissa is missing whatever what

634
00:24:02,880 --> 00:24:07,360
the [ __ ] is this book

635
00:24:04,559 --> 00:24:08,720
they are the same they're both mel god

636
00:24:07,360 --> 00:24:10,880
damn it

637
00:24:08,720 --> 00:24:13,120
like i'm like they could have named

638
00:24:10,880 --> 00:24:14,720
these characters in such an easier

639
00:24:13,120 --> 00:24:18,400
capacity

640
00:24:14,720 --> 00:24:20,480
yes come on i apologize damn it

641
00:24:18,400 --> 00:24:22,880
melanie

642
00:24:20,480 --> 00:24:26,799
was pretending to be melissa

643
00:24:22,880 --> 00:24:28,559
yes mel was pretending to be missy yes

644
00:24:26,799 --> 00:24:30,720
and we we don't know how often she did

645
00:24:28,559 --> 00:24:32,080
it but for all intents and purposes it

646
00:24:30,720 --> 00:24:33,679
seems as though she pretended to be her

647
00:24:32,080 --> 00:24:34,880
twin a lot

648
00:24:33,679 --> 00:24:37,120
yes

649
00:24:34,880 --> 00:24:38,240
and then we flash back to the present

650
00:24:37,120 --> 00:24:41,440
and

651
00:24:38,240 --> 00:24:42,640
i don't know what happens it's a lot

652
00:24:41,440 --> 00:24:44,320
so

653
00:24:42,640 --> 00:24:46,240
back to the present

654
00:24:44,320 --> 00:24:48,640
um

655
00:24:46,240 --> 00:24:51,120
rook not why do i keep calling him rook

656
00:24:48,640 --> 00:24:52,960
that's not even a name in this book

657
00:24:51,120 --> 00:24:54,080
i don't know why this is a thing for me

658
00:24:52,960 --> 00:24:56,720
rock

659
00:24:54,080 --> 00:24:58,799
just like goes to floats

660
00:24:56,720 --> 00:25:00,320
um but like when he walks in like all

661
00:24:58,799 --> 00:25:02,960
eyes are kind of on him like the band

662
00:25:00,320 --> 00:25:06,159
like announces he's there

663
00:25:02,960 --> 00:25:08,159
yeah well because um melanie is on stage

664
00:25:06,159 --> 00:25:10,000
singing and playing

665
00:25:08,159 --> 00:25:11,840
with the band

666
00:25:10,000 --> 00:25:13,600
and he's there because he wants to get

667
00:25:11,840 --> 00:25:15,360
something to eat

668
00:25:13,600 --> 00:25:18,320
and

669
00:25:15,360 --> 00:25:20,159
so he's feels all awkward and then tj

670
00:25:18,320 --> 00:25:22,240
suddenly is being really nice to him

671
00:25:20,159 --> 00:25:24,080
yeah like tj's like i'm sorry i was such

672
00:25:22,240 --> 00:25:26,799
a dick last night in my head i'm like

673
00:25:24,080 --> 00:25:28,320
you were a dick last night uh yeah

674
00:25:26,799 --> 00:25:30,559
like you couldn't even say hello you

675
00:25:28,320 --> 00:25:32,880
haven't seen your brother in five years

676
00:25:30,559 --> 00:25:34,799
and you can't even say hello okay lay

677
00:25:32,880 --> 00:25:36,720
into him yeah okay

678
00:25:34,799 --> 00:25:38,159
um so he sees some friends from

679
00:25:36,720 --> 00:25:40,400
childhood

680
00:25:38,159 --> 00:25:42,720
sean and gretchen who

681
00:25:40,400 --> 00:25:44,159
can [ __ ] all the way we will we'll get

682
00:25:42,720 --> 00:25:46,400
to gretchen in the future but it's also

683
00:25:44,159 --> 00:25:48,480
like they're like childhood friends that

684
00:25:46,400 --> 00:25:50,480
he hasn't been close to but it just

685
00:25:48,480 --> 00:25:52,159
seemed weird when they were like we all

686
00:25:50,480 --> 00:25:53,919
tried to come and visit you when you

687
00:25:52,159 --> 00:25:55,919
were in the hospital but like they

688
00:25:53,919 --> 00:25:57,760
wouldn't let us in and you're like none

689
00:25:55,919 --> 00:25:58,720
of you seem that

690
00:25:57,760 --> 00:25:59,440
close

691
00:25:58,720 --> 00:26:01,440
like

692
00:25:59,440 --> 00:26:03,120
at no point is he reaching out trying to

693
00:26:01,440 --> 00:26:04,640
engage with any of them the only time

694
00:26:03,120 --> 00:26:06,559
that he ever engages with him is if he

695
00:26:04,640 --> 00:26:08,720
happens to be in person in the same

696
00:26:06,559 --> 00:26:10,159
space right so i'm very confused as like

697
00:26:08,720 --> 00:26:12,400
why they like talk about them as if

698
00:26:10,159 --> 00:26:13,760
they're like these like besties for life

699
00:26:12,400 --> 00:26:15,520
yes yeah

700
00:26:13,760 --> 00:26:17,919
um so

701
00:26:15,520 --> 00:26:20,400
rk gets his take out

702
00:26:17,919 --> 00:26:23,200
to go he picks it up and then falls

703
00:26:20,400 --> 00:26:24,400
asleep and then wakes up

704
00:26:23,200 --> 00:26:26,640
to find

705
00:26:24,400 --> 00:26:27,760
melanie in his room

706
00:26:26,640 --> 00:26:29,840
again

707
00:26:27,760 --> 00:26:32,159
and then she's like i moved into your

708
00:26:29,840 --> 00:26:34,880
house from across the street from my

709
00:26:32,159 --> 00:26:37,440
house when your dad got sick

710
00:26:34,880 --> 00:26:39,840
two years ago to take care of taking

711
00:26:37,440 --> 00:26:41,279
care of is dying and you're like wait

712
00:26:39,840 --> 00:26:43,279
what

713
00:26:41,279 --> 00:26:45,200
so you've just been living

714
00:26:43,279 --> 00:26:48,400
in this house

715
00:26:45,200 --> 00:26:50,000
and then rk like loses it and screams at

716
00:26:48,400 --> 00:26:53,360
her and then

717
00:26:50,000 --> 00:26:56,080
is kissing her and then

718
00:26:53,360 --> 00:26:58,000
melanie is like if you close your eyes

719
00:26:56,080 --> 00:27:00,080
i'm her

720
00:26:58,000 --> 00:27:01,039
which is gross and weird

721
00:27:00,080 --> 00:27:02,240
like

722
00:27:01,039 --> 00:27:04,159
and then

723
00:27:02,240 --> 00:27:07,039
she started to like suck his dick and

724
00:27:04,159 --> 00:27:09,039
then he's like no i can't do this yeah

725
00:27:07,039 --> 00:27:11,120
he's like if melissa is looking down on

726
00:27:09,039 --> 00:27:13,039
me right now i do not want her to see

727
00:27:11,120 --> 00:27:15,840
this right and he's like sorry like

728
00:27:13,039 --> 00:27:18,080
you're not the one i love but then

729
00:27:15,840 --> 00:27:21,279
plot twist she's like

730
00:27:18,080 --> 00:27:22,159
i am the one you love i'm not mel

731
00:27:21,279 --> 00:27:25,679
i'm

732
00:27:22,159 --> 00:27:27,440
missy and he's like [ __ ] all the way off

733
00:27:25,679 --> 00:27:28,880
no you're not get out of my house and

734
00:27:27,440 --> 00:27:31,360
kicks her out while she's naked

735
00:27:28,880 --> 00:27:31,360
basically

736
00:27:31,600 --> 00:27:35,919
what a day that was

737
00:27:33,600 --> 00:27:37,600
all around like honestly like if we like

738
00:27:35,919 --> 00:27:39,679
if we we could keep going but like we

739
00:27:37,600 --> 00:27:41,120
could stop and just process that

740
00:27:39,679 --> 00:27:44,000
there

741
00:27:41,120 --> 00:27:45,279
what is even happening nothing and

742
00:27:44,000 --> 00:27:47,520
everything

743
00:27:45,279 --> 00:27:49,520
like his brother is being a dick not

744
00:27:47,520 --> 00:27:51,360
being a dick he runs into some old

745
00:27:49,520 --> 00:27:54,320
friends he gets them take out he goes

746
00:27:51,360 --> 00:27:56,960
home his ex is like i've been living

747
00:27:54,320 --> 00:27:59,200
in your house for the last two years

748
00:27:56,960 --> 00:28:00,320
because i was taking care of your dying

749
00:27:59,200 --> 00:28:03,679
father

750
00:28:00,320 --> 00:28:07,679
also i'm not melanie i'm melissa i'm

751
00:28:03,679 --> 00:28:09,679
missy i'm the twin you are in love with

752
00:28:07,679 --> 00:28:11,840
yep and she keeps saying it over and

753
00:28:09,679 --> 00:28:13,120
over and he's like get the [ __ ] out this

754
00:28:11,840 --> 00:28:14,240
is the most [ __ ] up thing you've ever

755
00:28:13,120 --> 00:28:16,880
done to me

756
00:28:14,240 --> 00:28:18,960
i hate you you've always lied to me and

757
00:28:16,880 --> 00:28:21,600
she's like no seriously

758
00:28:18,960 --> 00:28:22,880
come on now like it's me

759
00:28:21,600 --> 00:28:25,520
and he's like

760
00:28:22,880 --> 00:28:25,520
no it's not

761
00:28:25,760 --> 00:28:28,720
which also like

762
00:28:28,799 --> 00:28:33,600
it's he's been home for a minute they've

763
00:28:30,960 --> 00:28:35,840
already engaged in some sexual stuff

764
00:28:33,600 --> 00:28:38,559
yeah

765
00:28:35,840 --> 00:28:42,080
and all of the comments she made

766
00:28:38,559 --> 00:28:44,640
were saying that she's melanie that

767
00:28:42,080 --> 00:28:45,760
yeah and that melissa's dead

768
00:28:44,640 --> 00:28:48,720
yeah

769
00:28:45,760 --> 00:28:51,360
okay so [ __ ] it so he passes out

770
00:28:48,720 --> 00:28:53,840
whatever we we uh we can't figure out

771
00:28:51,360 --> 00:28:54,960
the mysteries of this book he he passes

772
00:28:53,840 --> 00:28:57,200
out wakes up the next morning like

773
00:28:54,960 --> 00:29:00,399
someone trying to like kick in his front

774
00:28:57,200 --> 00:29:04,000
door and it finds it to be jace his

775
00:29:00,399 --> 00:29:05,679
manager who then tj and tj but then like

776
00:29:04,000 --> 00:29:08,240
they're making comments like we told her

777
00:29:05,679 --> 00:29:09,760
not to say a word to you

778
00:29:08,240 --> 00:29:11,440
like i think jay showed up and said that

779
00:29:09,760 --> 00:29:13,760
and like yeah showed up like she's a

780
00:29:11,440 --> 00:29:15,360
lion [ __ ] and it's like what

781
00:29:13,760 --> 00:29:16,960
right and then all of the random

782
00:29:15,360 --> 00:29:19,200
hometown friends

783
00:29:16,960 --> 00:29:22,960
show up show up including gretchen and

784
00:29:19,200 --> 00:29:22,960
yeah including gretchen who

785
00:29:23,600 --> 00:29:30,480
she's in school to be an lmft and she

786
00:29:28,000 --> 00:29:32,880
licensed marriage and family therapist

787
00:29:30,480 --> 00:29:32,880
thank you

788
00:29:33,360 --> 00:29:39,600
but you know what she's not no she's not

789
00:29:36,320 --> 00:29:42,320
an lmft yet she's still in school and

790
00:29:39,600 --> 00:29:44,799
hasn't done any sort of

791
00:29:42,320 --> 00:29:46,320
residency program or associate license

792
00:29:44,799 --> 00:29:48,320
program or whatever the [ __ ] you call it

793
00:29:46,320 --> 00:29:51,360
in whatever state you live in but all

794
00:29:48,320 --> 00:29:53,039
i'm saying is she is not equipped to be

795
00:29:51,360 --> 00:29:54,480
a fully licensed therapist and she

796
00:29:53,039 --> 00:29:56,399
shouldn't be touching any of this

797
00:29:54,480 --> 00:29:58,880
because they're her personal friends for

798
00:29:56,399 --> 00:30:00,880
[ __ ] sake

799
00:29:58,880 --> 00:30:02,399
yeah honestly i love when personal

800
00:30:00,880 --> 00:30:04,640
friends come to me and ask for [ __ ] and

801
00:30:02,399 --> 00:30:06,399
then i'm like i'm so sorry

802
00:30:04,640 --> 00:30:09,360
that would be an ethical violation

803
00:30:06,399 --> 00:30:10,960
unfortunately ethically i can't help you

804
00:30:09,360 --> 00:30:12,960
but i can provide you with some

805
00:30:10,960 --> 00:30:15,120
referrals thanks bye

806
00:30:12,960 --> 00:30:16,880
right or i'm gonna sit there and eat my

807
00:30:15,120 --> 00:30:18,399
popcorn and tell them exactly what i

808
00:30:16,880 --> 00:30:20,000
think i'd be like thank god this is in

809
00:30:18,399 --> 00:30:20,880
therapy so i can tell you my exact

810
00:30:20,000 --> 00:30:23,039
thoughts

811
00:30:20,880 --> 00:30:25,200
but then yes so like everyone shows up

812
00:30:23,039 --> 00:30:28,799
and then everyone is like no mel was

813
00:30:25,200 --> 00:30:32,559
telling the truth she's not mel she is

814
00:30:28,799 --> 00:30:36,640
in fact missy yeah and he's like

815
00:30:32,559 --> 00:30:40,159
she has fooled everyone like this is not

816
00:30:36,640 --> 00:30:42,720
missy this is melanie i don't believe it

817
00:30:40,159 --> 00:30:44,960
and then he's like maybe i do

818
00:30:42,720 --> 00:30:46,880
and she's like please give us a chance

819
00:30:44,960 --> 00:30:49,760
and he's like okay

820
00:30:46,880 --> 00:30:52,399
let's do it because i'm gonna prove that

821
00:30:49,760 --> 00:30:54,640
you are melanie

822
00:30:52,399 --> 00:30:56,720
none of it makes any sense y'all

823
00:30:54,640 --> 00:30:58,880
like no matter which way you slice it we

824
00:30:56,720 --> 00:31:01,120
can't make it better because then after

825
00:30:58,880 --> 00:31:02,480
this whole revelation the next scene

826
00:31:01,120 --> 00:31:06,320
starts

827
00:31:02,480 --> 00:31:09,279
rk is back in his car waking up in the

828
00:31:06,320 --> 00:31:11,919
[ __ ] ent parking lot

829
00:31:09,279 --> 00:31:14,080
wearing rock climbing gear wearing rock

830
00:31:11,919 --> 00:31:15,840
climbing gear and then

831
00:31:14,080 --> 00:31:17,519
the ent like looks at him and he's like

832
00:31:15,840 --> 00:31:20,880
yeah you're fine but you really need to

833
00:31:17,519 --> 00:31:23,760
go up and upstairs and see margie

834
00:31:20,880 --> 00:31:24,720
the licensed psychologist

835
00:31:23,760 --> 00:31:26,320
um

836
00:31:24,720 --> 00:31:27,840
and but it's like it's one of those

837
00:31:26,320 --> 00:31:30,080
things where he's like we've never met

838
00:31:27,840 --> 00:31:32,320
before like i've never seen her before

839
00:31:30,080 --> 00:31:34,960
and then she is sitting there being like

840
00:31:32,320 --> 00:31:38,000
we went over this years ago

841
00:31:34,960 --> 00:31:39,320
mel died and then tells him he has

842
00:31:38,000 --> 00:31:42,640
selective

843
00:31:39,320 --> 00:31:44,159
dissociative amnesia

844
00:31:42,640 --> 00:31:46,799
which

845
00:31:44,159 --> 00:31:48,880
ah

846
00:31:46,799 --> 00:31:51,120
it's just not that's not gonna be the

847
00:31:48,880 --> 00:31:52,559
first poor diagnosis given in the well

848
00:31:51,120 --> 00:31:53,519
no it is the first it's not gonna be the

849
00:31:52,559 --> 00:31:56,320
last

850
00:31:53,519 --> 00:31:58,880
diagnosis it's not gonna be the last

851
00:31:56,320 --> 00:32:02,240
because and then she keeps saying he's

852
00:31:58,880 --> 00:32:05,440
experiencing dissociative fugue states

853
00:32:02,240 --> 00:32:07,840
where he apparently goes rock climbing

854
00:32:05,440 --> 00:32:09,200
well we'll learn more about those but it

855
00:32:07,840 --> 00:32:11,360
is one of those where you're like this

856
00:32:09,200 --> 00:32:13,440
isn't a thing like he blacks out and

857
00:32:11,360 --> 00:32:15,039
wakes up in rock climbing here because

858
00:32:13,440 --> 00:32:16,880
she does tell him she's like there's

859
00:32:15,039 --> 00:32:20,159
pictures all over facebook of you rock

860
00:32:16,880 --> 00:32:21,919
climbing with your fans and so like she

861
00:32:20,159 --> 00:32:23,200
like pulls about all of these pictures

862
00:32:21,919 --> 00:32:25,039
and shows them

863
00:32:23,200 --> 00:32:28,000
but then

864
00:32:25,039 --> 00:32:30,159
he's like wait do i only black out from

865
00:32:28,000 --> 00:32:32,880
mel's memories when i try and remember

866
00:32:30,159 --> 00:32:37,399
what happened on prom night

867
00:32:32,880 --> 00:32:37,399
who knows it's a mystery

868
00:32:39,070 --> 00:32:43,070
[Laughter]

869
00:32:49,279 --> 00:32:52,480
that is where i'm at right now props for

870
00:32:51,600 --> 00:32:54,000
that

871
00:32:52,480 --> 00:32:56,640
and we're nowhere near done so you

872
00:32:54,000 --> 00:32:59,039
better keep going

873
00:32:56,640 --> 00:32:59,840
we buckling in for this

874
00:32:59,039 --> 00:33:02,159
so

875
00:32:59,840 --> 00:33:02,159
um

876
00:33:03,039 --> 00:33:07,519
he leaves the therapist after she's like

877
00:33:06,000 --> 00:33:09,600
telling him he has selective

878
00:33:07,519 --> 00:33:11,840
dissociative amnesia

879
00:33:09,600 --> 00:33:14,000
and then gets back to his house and all

880
00:33:11,840 --> 00:33:16,320
of the friends are there again all of

881
00:33:14,000 --> 00:33:18,159
these like childhood friends

882
00:33:16,320 --> 00:33:20,480
and then everyone is like once again

883
00:33:18,159 --> 00:33:22,840
saying no mel really

884
00:33:20,480 --> 00:33:24,799
was pretending to be missy because

885
00:33:22,840 --> 00:33:27,039
gretchen

886
00:33:24,799 --> 00:33:28,320
had a master plan

887
00:33:27,039 --> 00:33:30,640
the

888
00:33:28,320 --> 00:33:33,919
the girl who's in school to potentially

889
00:33:30,640 --> 00:33:36,559
be a therapist had a plan to prote have

890
00:33:33,919 --> 00:33:38,159
missy pretend to be mel yeah to like

891
00:33:36,559 --> 00:33:40,480
stage some kind of intervention or

892
00:33:38,159 --> 00:33:43,279
something to see if he would remember

893
00:33:40,480 --> 00:33:45,840
he clearly did not

894
00:33:43,279 --> 00:33:47,919
nope he failed that test

895
00:33:45,840 --> 00:33:50,080
he failed that test

896
00:33:47,919 --> 00:33:51,440
real bad yeah

897
00:33:50,080 --> 00:33:53,120
um

898
00:33:51,440 --> 00:33:56,000
so

899
00:33:53,120 --> 00:33:57,440
then he goes to sit alone with his piano

900
00:33:56,000 --> 00:33:59,919
and ponder his thoughts and starts

901
00:33:57,440 --> 00:34:01,600
playing this nine-minute piano ballad

902
00:33:59,919 --> 00:34:04,799
allah constantine

903
00:34:01,600 --> 00:34:06,559
um that he had performed at

904
00:34:04,799 --> 00:34:09,359
mel's funeral

905
00:34:06,559 --> 00:34:14,560
aka missy's funeral missy's funeral that

906
00:34:09,359 --> 00:34:14,560
he wrote for his dead childhood love

907
00:34:14,720 --> 00:34:18,800
whichever one she was

908
00:34:16,879 --> 00:34:20,960
whatever

909
00:34:18,800 --> 00:34:20,960
we

910
00:34:23,040 --> 00:34:27,599
playing this nine-minute ballad he looks

911
00:34:25,359 --> 00:34:29,760
out the window and missy's just standing

912
00:34:27,599 --> 00:34:31,359
there sobbing

913
00:34:29,760 --> 00:34:33,679
watching him

914
00:34:31,359 --> 00:34:35,200
and so then he like opens the door and

915
00:34:33,679 --> 00:34:36,879
brings her in when he's done playing and

916
00:34:35,200 --> 00:34:38,800
then he's like wait he's like did you

917
00:34:36,879 --> 00:34:41,119
tell your sister to break up with me on

918
00:34:38,800 --> 00:34:42,879
prom night if it wasn't you did you tell

919
00:34:41,119 --> 00:34:44,560
your sister to break up with me on prom

920
00:34:42,879 --> 00:34:45,440
night and she's like

921
00:34:44,560 --> 00:34:47,200
no

922
00:34:45,440 --> 00:34:49,839
okay but she says no but then she's also

923
00:34:47,200 --> 00:34:52,800
like i didn't but we were going

924
00:34:49,839 --> 00:34:55,359
different places yeah like her tone is

925
00:34:52,800 --> 00:34:58,079
very much like i might not have been the

926
00:34:55,359 --> 00:35:01,119
one to initially pull the trigger but

927
00:34:58,079 --> 00:35:04,800
like the trigger was there and my finger

928
00:35:01,119 --> 00:35:07,760
was on it yes like my sister just

929
00:35:04,800 --> 00:35:09,599
tripped and pulled the trigger but like

930
00:35:07,760 --> 00:35:11,200
i had it fully locked and loaded

931
00:35:09,599 --> 00:35:12,880
beforehand

932
00:35:11,200 --> 00:35:17,839
so she's like we were going different

933
00:35:12,880 --> 00:35:17,839
places but then starts trying to explain

934
00:35:17,920 --> 00:35:23,520
mel's behavior

935
00:35:19,760 --> 00:35:26,720
yeah um well and she also says like

936
00:35:23,520 --> 00:35:30,240
so apparently rock never wanted to be

937
00:35:26,720 --> 00:35:33,839
a rock star he wanted to go to school

938
00:35:30,240 --> 00:35:36,560
for music and just do music and live a

939
00:35:33,839 --> 00:35:39,280
quiet life she wanted to be a rock star

940
00:35:36,560 --> 00:35:40,560
she did not want to go to school and so

941
00:35:39,280 --> 00:35:42,800
that's why they were going different

942
00:35:40,560 --> 00:35:44,800
directions

943
00:35:42,800 --> 00:35:46,079
also i don't think we ever mentioned

944
00:35:44,800 --> 00:35:47,760
they are

945
00:35:46,079 --> 00:35:50,560
across the street neighbors and their

946
00:35:47,760 --> 00:35:52,560
dads were best friends and we're also in

947
00:35:50,560 --> 00:35:55,280
a rock band together who were like a

948
00:35:52,560 --> 00:35:58,560
one-hit wonder kind of fan but they

949
00:35:55,280 --> 00:36:00,640
continued to write and sell their songs

950
00:35:58,560 --> 00:36:02,400
to other bands

951
00:36:00,640 --> 00:36:04,440
but none of that matters in light of

952
00:36:02,400 --> 00:36:07,520
mel's childhood

953
00:36:04,440 --> 00:36:10,480
schizophrenia jesus christ

954
00:36:07,520 --> 00:36:12,880
and so you have missy being like

955
00:36:10,480 --> 00:36:15,599
mel was your girlfriend at least half

956
00:36:12,880 --> 00:36:18,079
the time she was sick

957
00:36:15,599 --> 00:36:20,720
and he's like [ __ ]

958
00:36:18,079 --> 00:36:21,680
off and she's like no seriously she was

959
00:36:20,720 --> 00:36:23,599
sick

960
00:36:21,680 --> 00:36:25,920
it was this childhood schizophrenia and

961
00:36:23,599 --> 00:36:27,920
she starts describing like the first

962
00:36:25,920 --> 00:36:30,560
time they switched places they were six

963
00:36:27,920 --> 00:36:34,079
years old and melanie woke up one day

964
00:36:30,560 --> 00:36:35,920
and said i'm missy you're melanie

965
00:36:34,079 --> 00:36:37,680
let's see if we can fool the adults and

966
00:36:35,920 --> 00:36:39,359
like made it a game

967
00:36:37,680 --> 00:36:40,960
and

968
00:36:39,359 --> 00:36:43,839
melissa

969
00:36:40,960 --> 00:36:44,640
felt like it was just a game

970
00:36:43,839 --> 00:36:46,720
like

971
00:36:44,640 --> 00:36:48,960
this is so bad that chelsea is just

972
00:36:46,720 --> 00:36:52,160
dying like she's just coughing because

973
00:36:48,960 --> 00:36:52,160
she is ready to die

974
00:36:52,640 --> 00:36:58,320
that's so unnecessarily dramatic

975
00:36:56,079 --> 00:37:00,320
i have a tickle in my throat that i

976
00:36:58,320 --> 00:37:03,440
can't seem to get rid of no matter how

977
00:37:00,320 --> 00:37:05,760
hard do i have a layering structure

978
00:37:03,440 --> 00:37:07,760
i do i'm pretty much rk this book was

979
00:37:05,760 --> 00:37:10,000
based off of my life

980
00:37:07,760 --> 00:37:13,040
and andrew mcmahon

981
00:37:10,000 --> 00:37:15,359
right me and something corporate

982
00:37:13,040 --> 00:37:16,880
inspired this book

983
00:37:15,359 --> 00:37:20,480
so

984
00:37:16,880 --> 00:37:22,400
she is like explaining essentially

985
00:37:20,480 --> 00:37:23,599
sociopathic behavior

986
00:37:22,400 --> 00:37:26,079
from

987
00:37:23,599 --> 00:37:27,920
melanie well but also don't forget

988
00:37:26,079 --> 00:37:29,040
she like starts telling him this stuff

989
00:37:27,920 --> 00:37:31,680
and she's like no she had childhood

990
00:37:29,040 --> 00:37:32,960
schizophrenia then he gets all pissed

991
00:37:31,680 --> 00:37:34,320
and he leaves

992
00:37:32,960 --> 00:37:37,280
and goes to like the next town over to

993
00:37:34,320 --> 00:37:40,079
go to a bar oh right right right and so

994
00:37:37,280 --> 00:37:41,040
he just like wanted to go sulk alone so

995
00:37:40,079 --> 00:37:44,640
i want to

996
00:37:41,040 --> 00:37:44,640
pause for a moment because

997
00:37:44,800 --> 00:37:49,760
we are not describing the symptoms of

998
00:37:47,119 --> 00:37:52,160
childhood schizophrenia

999
00:37:49,760 --> 00:37:54,640
not at all anyone who has ever

1000
00:37:52,160 --> 00:37:56,400
heard of the dsm can probably tell you

1001
00:37:54,640 --> 00:37:58,720
this is not what childhood schizophrenia

1002
00:37:56,400 --> 00:38:00,520
looks like no first of all childhood

1003
00:37:58,720 --> 00:38:03,400
schizophrenia is

1004
00:38:00,520 --> 00:38:06,640
extremely rare

1005
00:38:03,400 --> 00:38:08,960
extremely rare and when it happens it is

1006
00:38:06,640 --> 00:38:11,040
not like

1007
00:38:08,960 --> 00:38:13,040
literal sociopathic

1008
00:38:11,040 --> 00:38:15,040
behavior yes like the way they're

1009
00:38:13,040 --> 00:38:17,359
describing it in this book is like a

1010
00:38:15,040 --> 00:38:19,920
manipulative six-year-old who

1011
00:38:17,359 --> 00:38:22,560
intentionally takes over her her twins

1012
00:38:19,920 --> 00:38:25,040
personality yeah and then just continues

1013
00:38:22,560 --> 00:38:27,119
to do it for the next 12 years

1014
00:38:25,040 --> 00:38:29,839
that is not childhood schizophrenia

1015
00:38:27,119 --> 00:38:33,040
childhood schizophrenia is like you know

1016
00:38:29,839 --> 00:38:35,119
having hallucinations

1017
00:38:33,040 --> 00:38:36,800
yeah i i i

1018
00:38:35,119 --> 00:38:38,160
think we can leave it there oh my

1019
00:38:36,800 --> 00:38:40,480
childhood schizophrenia because it

1020
00:38:38,160 --> 00:38:43,119
really does hurt it's me

1021
00:38:40,480 --> 00:38:44,800
hey there smud puppies

1022
00:38:43,119 --> 00:38:47,520
we'll get you right back to the show in

1023
00:38:44,800 --> 00:38:49,280
just a moment but first

1024
00:38:47,520 --> 00:38:50,800
do you like us

1025
00:38:49,280 --> 00:38:52,160
maybe even

1026
00:38:50,800 --> 00:38:54,720
love us

1027
00:38:52,160 --> 00:38:56,480
because we sure love you

1028
00:38:54,720 --> 00:38:58,480
and if you do love us

1029
00:38:56,480 --> 00:39:00,400
don't tease us

1030
00:38:58,480 --> 00:39:02,800
tell us in those ratings and reviews

1031
00:39:00,400 --> 00:39:05,359
wherever you're listening right now

1032
00:39:02,800 --> 00:39:07,520
maybe even send us over to a special

1033
00:39:05,359 --> 00:39:09,520
sexy someone that would enjoy getting

1034
00:39:07,520 --> 00:39:11,359
smutty with us

1035
00:39:09,520 --> 00:39:12,240
because you know the first rule of smug

1036
00:39:11,359 --> 00:39:15,440
club

1037
00:39:12,240 --> 00:39:16,480
is to talk about smut club

1038
00:39:15,440 --> 00:39:18,400
all right

1039
00:39:16,480 --> 00:39:21,680
i won't keep you any longer

1040
00:39:18,400 --> 00:39:21,680
let's get back to the show

1041
00:39:24,020 --> 00:39:27,839
[Music]

1042
00:39:26,880 --> 00:39:30,079
so

1043
00:39:27,839 --> 00:39:31,920
rk goes to out of town to another bar so

1044
00:39:30,079 --> 00:39:33,359
he can sulk alone but then like everyone

1045
00:39:31,920 --> 00:39:36,560
shows up at the bar to make sure he's

1046
00:39:33,359 --> 00:39:38,640
okay tj gretchen and missy all show up

1047
00:39:36,560 --> 00:39:39,920
yes and then missy's like i just want

1048
00:39:38,640 --> 00:39:41,440
the car ride back to the house to

1049
00:39:39,920 --> 00:39:44,640
explain can you just give me the car

1050
00:39:41,440 --> 00:39:46,560
ride home which is three hours

1051
00:39:44,640 --> 00:39:48,960
damn was it really three hours yeah he

1052
00:39:46,560 --> 00:39:50,720
drove a long ass way i i knew it was out

1053
00:39:48,960 --> 00:39:52,560
of the county i don't think i realized

1054
00:39:50,720 --> 00:39:54,800
it was that far

1055
00:39:52,560 --> 00:39:56,000
yeah whatever that was a weird matter

1056
00:39:54,800 --> 00:39:58,079
and so

1057
00:39:56,000 --> 00:40:00,400
technically this drive is where they

1058
00:39:58,079 --> 00:40:02,000
start to explain

1059
00:40:00,400 --> 00:40:04,000
that like

1060
00:40:02,000 --> 00:40:05,680
the that mel started

1061
00:40:04,000 --> 00:40:07,119
taking over missy's life when she was

1062
00:40:05,680 --> 00:40:10,480
like six

1063
00:40:07,119 --> 00:40:12,640
um but then we also learn that

1064
00:40:10,480 --> 00:40:14,160
on prom night

1065
00:40:12,640 --> 00:40:17,280
mel

1066
00:40:14,160 --> 00:40:19,839
pushed missy and locked her into the

1067
00:40:17,280 --> 00:40:21,839
like back like their basement bathroom

1068
00:40:19,839 --> 00:40:23,520
yeah like knocked her out like didn't

1069
00:40:21,839 --> 00:40:25,760
just push her but like

1070
00:40:23,520 --> 00:40:28,160
pushed her she hit her head and i think

1071
00:40:25,760 --> 00:40:30,079
i wrote punched not pushed well it

1072
00:40:28,160 --> 00:40:31,359
doesn't mean it's a very small font

1073
00:40:30,079 --> 00:40:32,640
ultimately

1074
00:40:31,359 --> 00:40:34,720
it doesn't matter

1075
00:40:32,640 --> 00:40:37,280
in the grand scheme of things

1076
00:40:34,720 --> 00:40:40,800
it doesn't matter regardless it does not

1077
00:40:37,280 --> 00:40:43,680
missy was knocked out melanie locked her

1078
00:40:40,800 --> 00:40:47,440
up in the basement

1079
00:40:43,680 --> 00:40:50,880
their dads both rk's dad and

1080
00:40:47,440 --> 00:40:52,880
mel and missy's dad were away

1081
00:40:50,880 --> 00:40:55,200
out of town and so

1082
00:40:52,880 --> 00:40:57,119
missy wakes up she's banging on the door

1083
00:40:55,200 --> 00:40:58,800
trying to get out screaming but nobody

1084
00:40:57,119 --> 00:41:02,400
can hear her

1085
00:40:58,800 --> 00:41:03,839
and melanie put on missy's prom dress

1086
00:41:02,400 --> 00:41:07,599
and all of her

1087
00:41:03,839 --> 00:41:08,560
jewelry and stuff um to go to prom with

1088
00:41:07,599 --> 00:41:10,480
rock

1089
00:41:08,560 --> 00:41:14,319
and like we also learned that like

1090
00:41:10,480 --> 00:41:16,240
missy didn't [ __ ] with mel like taking

1091
00:41:14,319 --> 00:41:18,000
over her life like she like cut all of

1092
00:41:16,240 --> 00:41:19,200
her hair off

1093
00:41:18,000 --> 00:41:22,000
and then

1094
00:41:19,200 --> 00:41:23,920
mel pitched to fit until their dad took

1095
00:41:22,000 --> 00:41:25,839
both of them to the salon

1096
00:41:23,920 --> 00:41:28,079
and then like they had matching haircuts

1097
00:41:25,839 --> 00:41:29,040
again yeah so there's just like a lot of

1098
00:41:28,079 --> 00:41:31,119
like

1099
00:41:29,040 --> 00:41:33,200
okay essentially i mean we've probably

1100
00:41:31,119 --> 00:41:34,400
explained this enough mel's a psychopath

1101
00:41:33,200 --> 00:41:36,720
we understand

1102
00:41:34,400 --> 00:41:39,119
but we also don't we also don't know if

1103
00:41:36,720 --> 00:41:42,480
his current girlfriend

1104
00:41:39,119 --> 00:41:44,560
love interest is mel or melissa right

1105
00:41:42,480 --> 00:41:47,280
um so then

1106
00:41:44,560 --> 00:41:49,920
what oh so then the next morning

1107
00:41:47,280 --> 00:41:53,359
missy gets up for work and she is a

1108
00:41:49,920 --> 00:41:56,000
server at floats tj smart for brunch on

1109
00:41:53,359 --> 00:41:58,480
the weekends so the night before rock

1110
00:41:56,000 --> 00:42:00,560
agreed to let her stay at his house so

1111
00:41:58,480 --> 00:42:02,640
she sleeps in his bed and he sleeps on

1112
00:42:00,560 --> 00:42:04,079
the couch so she gets up for work at

1113
00:42:02,640 --> 00:42:06,400
like five o'clock in the morning goes

1114
00:42:04,079 --> 00:42:07,680
into the kitchen and he wakes up and

1115
00:42:06,400 --> 00:42:08,960
she's like you should come with me and

1116
00:42:07,680 --> 00:42:11,680
he's like

1117
00:42:08,960 --> 00:42:13,599
no and she's like no seriously like come

1118
00:42:11,680 --> 00:42:15,200
with me well so she's like come with me

1119
00:42:13,599 --> 00:42:16,400
and then when he finally caves he's like

1120
00:42:15,200 --> 00:42:17,760
okay well i need to like go find some

1121
00:42:16,400 --> 00:42:20,480
new clothes and i think this is one of

1122
00:42:17,760 --> 00:42:22,800
my favorite scenes in the entire book

1123
00:42:20,480 --> 00:42:25,359
because he goes to change clothes and

1124
00:42:22,800 --> 00:42:27,440
his manager jace had sent all of his

1125
00:42:25,359 --> 00:42:29,920
stuff and so he's like going through the

1126
00:42:27,440 --> 00:42:32,319
boxes and sees one labeled gear and it's

1127
00:42:29,920 --> 00:42:33,839
rock climbing gear then he's like i

1128
00:42:32,319 --> 00:42:36,800
don't want

1129
00:42:33,839 --> 00:42:39,200
missy looking into this so he tapes the

1130
00:42:36,800 --> 00:42:42,800
box back up and puts a label on it that

1131
00:42:39,200 --> 00:42:44,960
just says secret yeah and i'm like i'm

1132
00:42:42,800 --> 00:42:47,119
sorry has anyone ever seen a box labeled

1133
00:42:44,960 --> 00:42:49,760
secret and not been like that's the one

1134
00:42:47,119 --> 00:42:52,400
i am immediately [ __ ] up that's the

1135
00:42:49,760 --> 00:42:53,920
one that you write like bathroom or

1136
00:42:52,400 --> 00:42:55,599
clothes or something on that you don't

1137
00:42:53,920 --> 00:42:57,520
want people going into what you don't

1138
00:42:55,599 --> 00:42:59,680
write is secret or kitchen because

1139
00:42:57,520 --> 00:43:01,599
people are going to go into [ __ ]

1140
00:42:59,680 --> 00:43:02,800
that says kitchen because i need kitchen

1141
00:43:01,599 --> 00:43:04,800
stuff

1142
00:43:02,800 --> 00:43:06,079
or a secret because i want to know

1143
00:43:04,800 --> 00:43:08,720
what's in there

1144
00:43:06,079 --> 00:43:11,200
yeah all i'm saying is if you really

1145
00:43:08,720 --> 00:43:13,839
wanted it to be a secret you screwed the

1146
00:43:11,200 --> 00:43:14,960
pooch on this one that is not how you go

1147
00:43:13,839 --> 00:43:18,079
about

1148
00:43:14,960 --> 00:43:20,000
like also he labeled it secret rk so

1149
00:43:18,079 --> 00:43:21,440
it's not even someone else's secret it

1150
00:43:20,000 --> 00:43:24,400
is clearly

1151
00:43:21,440 --> 00:43:27,280
only his secret

1152
00:43:24,400 --> 00:43:29,359
i'm like i i feel like we really missed

1153
00:43:27,280 --> 00:43:30,319
an opportunity here but

1154
00:43:29,359 --> 00:43:31,280
whatever

1155
00:43:30,319 --> 00:43:34,079
so

1156
00:43:31,280 --> 00:43:35,599
they they go to brunch at floats and i

1157
00:43:34,079 --> 00:43:38,160
don't know his relationship with his

1158
00:43:35,599 --> 00:43:40,079
brother tj is really weird i never

1159
00:43:38,160 --> 00:43:40,960
really get it but a waitress comes up to

1160
00:43:40,079 --> 00:43:43,440
him

1161
00:43:40,960 --> 00:43:45,200
and has a ticket stub for a show from

1162
00:43:43,440 --> 00:43:47,920
boston from the previous year and is

1163
00:43:45,200 --> 00:43:49,839
like oh my gosh could you please sign

1164
00:43:47,920 --> 00:43:52,079
this ticket stub i was at this show and

1165
00:43:49,839 --> 00:43:54,640
it would mean a lot to me and

1166
00:43:52,079 --> 00:43:56,640
the tj sees this happening and it's his

1167
00:43:54,640 --> 00:43:58,079
waitress and he's like no i've told all

1168
00:43:56,640 --> 00:43:59,680
of the staff not to harass my brother

1169
00:43:58,079 --> 00:44:01,040
not to bother him and get like super

1170
00:43:59,680 --> 00:44:03,280
pissed at the waitress right and her

1171
00:44:01,040 --> 00:44:04,319
name is alice he's like alice get away

1172
00:44:03,280 --> 00:44:06,160
from him

1173
00:44:04,319 --> 00:44:08,560
yes and so

1174
00:44:06,160 --> 00:44:11,200
rk is like okay i was just trying to be

1175
00:44:08,560 --> 00:44:13,040
play i'm gonna bounce now like i

1176
00:44:11,200 --> 00:44:14,000
do not care yeah

1177
00:44:13,040 --> 00:44:16,240
um

1178
00:44:14,000 --> 00:44:18,400
and then they get home from brunch i

1179
00:44:16,240 --> 00:44:21,200
don't know am i missing something there

1180
00:44:18,400 --> 00:44:23,119
i mean he goes out to help the guys who

1181
00:44:21,200 --> 00:44:24,800
are working the dock because floats is

1182
00:44:23,119 --> 00:44:27,680
on the lake

1183
00:44:24,800 --> 00:44:30,400
um and so he goes out to help the guys

1184
00:44:27,680 --> 00:44:31,920
who are working the dock and to get

1185
00:44:30,400 --> 00:44:32,880
prepared for

1186
00:44:31,920 --> 00:44:35,599
the

1187
00:44:32,880 --> 00:44:37,680
music festival season i'm still not

1188
00:44:35,599 --> 00:44:39,280
quite sure what's happening yeah

1189
00:44:37,680 --> 00:44:40,240
something like that

1190
00:44:39,280 --> 00:44:42,400
a

1191
00:44:40,240 --> 00:44:44,720
a pre-festival

1192
00:44:42,400 --> 00:44:47,119
party yeah then there's i don't know if

1193
00:44:44,720 --> 00:44:49,520
it's like a music festival i'm still not

1194
00:44:47,119 --> 00:44:51,200
really fully understanding again but it

1195
00:44:49,520 --> 00:44:53,760
doesn't matter it does not matter

1196
00:44:51,200 --> 00:44:55,040
ryoko's not rook dammit

1197
00:44:53,760 --> 00:44:57,680
holy [ __ ]

1198
00:44:55,040 --> 00:45:00,079
rock goes um and is helping and then

1199
00:44:57,680 --> 00:45:01,599
miss e is done with her brunch shift and

1200
00:45:00,079 --> 00:45:02,400
they go back to the house yeah and then

1201
00:45:01,599 --> 00:45:05,040
they

1202
00:45:02,400 --> 00:45:07,200
shower together and then they reminisce

1203
00:45:05,040 --> 00:45:09,200
and then they go back to floats yeah but

1204
00:45:07,200 --> 00:45:12,240
they don't bang and

1205
00:45:09,200 --> 00:45:14,319
they're just in the shower like bathing

1206
00:45:12,240 --> 00:45:15,760
each other and then

1207
00:45:14,319 --> 00:45:18,560
she's like you should come to floats

1208
00:45:15,760 --> 00:45:19,920
tonight i'm playing and he's like bet

1209
00:45:18,560 --> 00:45:22,720
let's do this

1210
00:45:19,920 --> 00:45:24,000
and then like at floats that night

1211
00:45:22,720 --> 00:45:25,680
also they have not had these

1212
00:45:24,000 --> 00:45:27,680
conversations like he's saying to people

1213
00:45:25,680 --> 00:45:30,079
he's like i'm i'm here to support my

1214
00:45:27,680 --> 00:45:31,040
future wife and like

1215
00:45:30,079 --> 00:45:33,119
then

1216
00:45:31,040 --> 00:45:34,560
does he pull her into the break room is

1217
00:45:33,119 --> 00:45:36,000
that what it is

1218
00:45:34,560 --> 00:45:39,200
does that happen then i think it does

1219
00:45:36,000 --> 00:45:41,040
happen then so he watches her on stage

1220
00:45:39,200 --> 00:45:44,000
there's a lot of security there's a lot

1221
00:45:41,040 --> 00:45:46,480
of sheriff's deputies and people around

1222
00:45:44,000 --> 00:45:48,400
for security he's like you guys there's

1223
00:45:46,480 --> 00:45:50,400
like 35 people who live in this town you

1224
00:45:48,400 --> 00:45:52,160
can probably calm down

1225
00:45:50,400 --> 00:45:53,520
but and we never understand why there

1226
00:45:52,160 --> 00:45:56,079
are so many of them

1227
00:45:53,520 --> 00:45:58,400
well later i guess we do but presently

1228
00:45:56,079 --> 00:45:59,839
we do not and so he's watching her on

1229
00:45:58,400 --> 00:46:01,839
stage and he's like holy [ __ ] that's the

1230
00:45:59,839 --> 00:46:03,280
hottest thing i've ever seen and he's

1231
00:46:01,839 --> 00:46:07,280
drinking

1232
00:46:03,280 --> 00:46:09,920
um a lot and then he pulls her

1233
00:46:07,280 --> 00:46:14,119
away and she takes him into the employee

1234
00:46:09,920 --> 00:46:14,119
break room and they bang

1235
00:46:14,400 --> 00:46:17,200
and then

1236
00:46:15,440 --> 00:46:20,000
he tells her he loves her and comes

1237
00:46:17,200 --> 00:46:21,920
inside of her yep and he is like how

1238
00:46:20,000 --> 00:46:24,160
could i have ever doubted that this was

1239
00:46:21,920 --> 00:46:25,040
missy obviously this is missy i'm also

1240
00:46:24,160 --> 00:46:27,680
like

1241
00:46:25,040 --> 00:46:29,760
was it just having your dick in her that

1242
00:46:27,680 --> 00:46:31,280
made you convinced well and the thing is

1243
00:46:29,760 --> 00:46:34,000
they never had sex when they were

1244
00:46:31,280 --> 00:46:36,240
teenagers he never banged her

1245
00:46:34,000 --> 00:46:38,800
before so their first bang was that hate

1246
00:46:36,240 --> 00:46:40,560
[ __ ] when he got home

1247
00:46:38,800 --> 00:46:43,360
where she was pretending to be her dead

1248
00:46:40,560 --> 00:46:45,440
twin yeah yeah there's a lot here

1249
00:46:43,360 --> 00:46:46,480
[Laughter]

1250
00:46:45,440 --> 00:46:47,920
so

1251
00:46:46,480 --> 00:46:50,319
anyway he

1252
00:46:47,920 --> 00:46:52,480
they [ __ ] he comes inside her tells her

1253
00:46:50,319 --> 00:46:54,839
he loves her but unfortunately the next

1254
00:46:52,480 --> 00:46:56,800
morning yet again he wakes up in the ent

1255
00:46:54,839 --> 00:46:59,920
parking lot

1256
00:46:56,800 --> 00:47:02,000
yes and once again he's wearing rock

1257
00:46:59,920 --> 00:47:03,920
climbing gear he lost a whole day so

1258
00:47:02,000 --> 00:47:07,040
this that was saturday night it's now

1259
00:47:03,920 --> 00:47:09,119
monday morning he lost all of sunday

1260
00:47:07,040 --> 00:47:11,359
and then the ent was like i'm not seeing

1261
00:47:09,119 --> 00:47:12,720
you go straight to the therapist or

1262
00:47:11,359 --> 00:47:15,520
something like that so he goes and he's

1263
00:47:12,720 --> 00:47:17,359
talking to the therapist and then margie

1264
00:47:15,520 --> 00:47:20,319
is a psychologist none of it she is

1265
00:47:17,359 --> 00:47:21,359
having not a single bit of it she's over

1266
00:47:20,319 --> 00:47:22,960
it

1267
00:47:21,359 --> 00:47:25,359
well and here's the frustrating thing

1268
00:47:22,960 --> 00:47:27,359
she's over it but in a way we're like

1269
00:47:25,359 --> 00:47:29,280
she knows all of the details and he

1270
00:47:27,359 --> 00:47:31,040
doesn't and i'm like hey maybe if you

1271
00:47:29,280 --> 00:47:33,760
just like clued him in on some [ __ ] this

1272
00:47:31,040 --> 00:47:36,000
would be a lot easier but she does not

1273
00:47:33,760 --> 00:47:36,880
but she starts like talking about the

1274
00:47:36,000 --> 00:47:39,680
night

1275
00:47:36,880 --> 00:47:41,200
that mel died and she's like no we

1276
00:47:39,680 --> 00:47:43,760
talked about this the night that mel

1277
00:47:41,200 --> 00:47:45,599
died like we talked and then

1278
00:47:43,760 --> 00:47:47,760
he like she's like why do you think you

1279
00:47:45,599 --> 00:47:49,520
survived the crash and she didn't do you

1280
00:47:47,760 --> 00:47:51,280
remember it and he's like i don't and

1281
00:47:49,520 --> 00:47:53,359
she's like well then

1282
00:47:51,280 --> 00:47:56,640
you need to go to the library and look

1283
00:47:53,359 --> 00:47:58,319
up the articles right like she's like

1284
00:47:56,640 --> 00:48:00,240
you're not trying hard enough you need

1285
00:47:58,319 --> 00:48:02,800
to be an active participant in your

1286
00:48:00,240 --> 00:48:04,480
recovery you need to go

1287
00:48:02,800 --> 00:48:06,480
figure this out i'm not having this

1288
00:48:04,480 --> 00:48:08,400
conversation again

1289
00:48:06,480 --> 00:48:10,480
you are not allowed to come back here

1290
00:48:08,400 --> 00:48:12,079
without enough but like also kind of

1291
00:48:10,480 --> 00:48:13,280
[ __ ] her yes like he is showing up

1292
00:48:12,079 --> 00:48:15,359
without an appointment but at the same

1293
00:48:13,280 --> 00:48:16,880
time i was like you know all of these

1294
00:48:15,359 --> 00:48:19,359
details and you just keep telling him

1295
00:48:16,880 --> 00:48:23,200
like you need to go answer the trolls

1296
00:48:19,359 --> 00:48:25,200
riddles three and like get your answers

1297
00:48:23,200 --> 00:48:26,720
and i'm just like we are not setting him

1298
00:48:25,200 --> 00:48:28,880
up for success while getting really

1299
00:48:26,720 --> 00:48:31,520
pissed off at him for not doing this

1300
00:48:28,880 --> 00:48:32,880
lord of the rings the man is ill

1301
00:48:31,520 --> 00:48:35,440
you just told him he's having

1302
00:48:32,880 --> 00:48:37,359
dissociative fugue states and we're not

1303
00:48:35,440 --> 00:48:39,119
going to help him or give him any haldol

1304
00:48:37,359 --> 00:48:41,440
like jesus christ we're going to send

1305
00:48:39,119 --> 00:48:43,040
him to the [ __ ] library

1306
00:48:41,440 --> 00:48:44,559
well and so here's my thing he goes to

1307
00:48:43,040 --> 00:48:46,240
the library and he's talking to the

1308
00:48:44,559 --> 00:48:48,000
librarian is like hey i'd really love to

1309
00:48:46,240 --> 00:48:50,640
see the news articles from like the days

1310
00:48:48,000 --> 00:48:53,280
because the library is closed that day

1311
00:48:50,640 --> 00:48:54,880
but the librarian is there prepping for

1312
00:48:53,280 --> 00:48:56,480
some reading programs honestly i could

1313
00:48:54,880 --> 00:48:59,440
not have even told you the library was

1314
00:48:56,480 --> 00:49:00,960
closed i did not give a [ __ ] well so i

1315
00:48:59,440 --> 00:49:03,200
remember that because he's like

1316
00:49:00,960 --> 00:49:05,200
smooshing his face into the window to

1317
00:49:03,200 --> 00:49:07,920
try to see if he can get in and the

1318
00:49:05,200 --> 00:49:10,079
librarian is like oh hello margie said

1319
00:49:07,920 --> 00:49:12,000
you would stop by

1320
00:49:10,079 --> 00:49:13,599
no i honestly i remember that part

1321
00:49:12,000 --> 00:49:15,359
because i remember thinking

1322
00:49:13,599 --> 00:49:16,559
when he goes into the library and starts

1323
00:49:15,359 --> 00:49:18,319
looking through everything then the

1324
00:49:16,559 --> 00:49:19,760
librarian comes up to him and it's like

1325
00:49:18,319 --> 00:49:21,839
hey just want to let you know margie

1326
00:49:19,760 --> 00:49:24,559
called and checked in with the sheriff

1327
00:49:21,839 --> 00:49:26,960
for you and i'm like so his therapist is

1328
00:49:24,559 --> 00:49:29,680
just calling everyone in town with

1329
00:49:26,960 --> 00:49:31,520
updates which is quite literally not how

1330
00:49:29,680 --> 00:49:34,960
hippo works no

1331
00:49:31,520 --> 00:49:36,559
at all not even a little bit and so

1332
00:49:34,960 --> 00:49:38,079
i don't know that really rubbed me the

1333
00:49:36,559 --> 00:49:40,000
wrong way because i'm like this book is

1334
00:49:38,079 --> 00:49:42,880
not painting therapist in a positive

1335
00:49:40,000 --> 00:49:44,880
light and we try really hard to not be

1336
00:49:42,880 --> 00:49:46,960
these people but also

1337
00:49:44,880 --> 00:49:48,800
she's not actively treating him the man

1338
00:49:46,960 --> 00:49:50,000
has clearly not signed an informed

1339
00:49:48,800 --> 00:49:52,720
consent

1340
00:49:50,000 --> 00:49:54,400
he's just shown up at her office twice

1341
00:49:52,720 --> 00:49:56,960
and she's been like i know secrets about

1342
00:49:54,400 --> 00:49:58,880
your past go find him

1343
00:49:56,960 --> 00:50:00,400
and then he's like can i have some help

1344
00:49:58,880 --> 00:50:02,960
and she's like don't come back without

1345
00:50:00,400 --> 00:50:05,359
an appointment and a trip to the library

1346
00:50:02,960 --> 00:50:06,400
and i'm still so confused by it she's

1347
00:50:05,359 --> 00:50:07,680
like

1348
00:50:06,400 --> 00:50:09,280
um

1349
00:50:07,680 --> 00:50:12,640
i could

1350
00:50:09,280 --> 00:50:13,920
help you right now but instead i would

1351
00:50:12,640 --> 00:50:15,920
like to encourage you to go on a

1352
00:50:13,920 --> 00:50:17,440
scavenger hunt

1353
00:50:15,920 --> 00:50:19,760
so he

1354
00:50:17,440 --> 00:50:20,559
is looking at this news article

1355
00:50:19,760 --> 00:50:22,800
and

1356
00:50:20,559 --> 00:50:25,760
like and he keeps in his head every time

1357
00:50:22,800 --> 00:50:28,640
he reads it it says melissa vetty died

1358
00:50:25,760 --> 00:50:29,680
from and it's like blurry and he can't

1359
00:50:28,640 --> 00:50:31,839
read it

1360
00:50:29,680 --> 00:50:33,680
yeah and so he has to ask the librarian

1361
00:50:31,839 --> 00:50:35,760
he's like what does this say and she's

1362
00:50:33,680 --> 00:50:38,800
like it says melanie

1363
00:50:35,760 --> 00:50:41,119
yeah and which gives the impression that

1364
00:50:38,800 --> 00:50:42,960
apparently christ and everybody in this

1365
00:50:41,119 --> 00:50:45,200
county knows

1366
00:50:42,960 --> 00:50:47,440
that this poor man

1367
00:50:45,200 --> 00:50:50,800
is experiencing some kind of weird

1368
00:50:47,440 --> 00:50:53,280
trauma response delusion situation

1369
00:50:50,800 --> 00:50:55,599
and is just chilling about it

1370
00:50:53,280 --> 00:50:57,839
like everyone is in on this weird town

1371
00:50:55,599 --> 00:50:59,760
secret but nice but it also feels like

1372
00:50:57,839 --> 00:51:01,359
they're very quick to get pissed off at

1373
00:50:59,760 --> 00:51:02,800
him and i'm like i don't know what you

1374
00:51:01,359 --> 00:51:04,800
want from this man but you are not

1375
00:51:02,800 --> 00:51:06,880
setting him up for success

1376
00:51:04,800 --> 00:51:08,480
so he leaves the library she gives him a

1377
00:51:06,880 --> 00:51:10,160
printout of the article because he's

1378
00:51:08,480 --> 00:51:11,760
like i can't read this right now it's a

1379
00:51:10,160 --> 00:51:14,160
very important piece

1380
00:51:11,760 --> 00:51:16,400
and then he drives back to his house and

1381
00:51:14,160 --> 00:51:19,599
the sheriff is there yeah and the

1382
00:51:16,400 --> 00:51:21,200
sheriff is like pissed that he'd escaped

1383
00:51:19,599 --> 00:51:23,200
their

1384
00:51:21,200 --> 00:51:25,680
lookouts i don't know yeah apparently

1385
00:51:23,200 --> 00:51:27,119
the sheriffs have been like chilling on

1386
00:51:25,680 --> 00:51:29,680
their street

1387
00:51:27,119 --> 00:51:31,520
to keep an eye out and he somehow is

1388
00:51:29,680 --> 00:51:33,920
getting past them and they're like how

1389
00:51:31,520 --> 00:51:35,599
did you get to your car at floats

1390
00:51:33,920 --> 00:51:36,640
because gretchen had given him a ride

1391
00:51:35,599 --> 00:51:38,400
home

1392
00:51:36,640 --> 00:51:39,760
yeah cause i'd had so much to drink

1393
00:51:38,400 --> 00:51:40,720
right is fair

1394
00:51:39,760 --> 00:51:43,359
and then

1395
00:51:40,720 --> 00:51:46,000
rk is like i rappelled off the cliff

1396
00:51:43,359 --> 00:51:48,000
behind my house that i'd installed some

1397
00:51:46,000 --> 00:51:49,440
anchors in my second day home and you're

1398
00:51:48,000 --> 00:51:51,040
like what the [ __ ]

1399
00:51:49,440 --> 00:51:53,440
and he's like in my heart i knew it to

1400
00:51:51,040 --> 00:51:55,520
be true yeah he's like i had no idea how

1401
00:51:53,440 --> 00:51:58,000
i knew that happened but i knew in my

1402
00:51:55,520 --> 00:51:59,839
heart it was true and i'm like this

1403
00:51:58,000 --> 00:52:02,319
feels like something you should know if

1404
00:51:59,839 --> 00:52:04,480
you're installing anchors into a cliff

1405
00:52:02,319 --> 00:52:06,559
feels unsafe so you can repel

1406
00:52:04,480 --> 00:52:07,359
down it so he rappelled down the rock

1407
00:52:06,559 --> 00:52:09,839
face

1408
00:52:07,359 --> 00:52:14,160
hiked to his vehicle in town and then

1409
00:52:09,839 --> 00:52:15,920
drove to the ent slash therapist office

1410
00:52:14,160 --> 00:52:17,280
and fell asleep in his truck in the

1411
00:52:15,920 --> 00:52:19,040
parking lot

1412
00:52:17,280 --> 00:52:21,680
but doesn't remember the entire day

1413
00:52:19,040 --> 00:52:24,079
chelsea literally just twitched

1414
00:52:21,680 --> 00:52:25,920
she literally just twitched it

1415
00:52:24,079 --> 00:52:28,960
i really i don't think i realized but

1416
00:52:25,920 --> 00:52:30,960
you're not wrong at all

1417
00:52:28,960 --> 00:52:32,559
well so then like the sheriff is laying

1418
00:52:30,960 --> 00:52:35,200
into him

1419
00:52:32,559 --> 00:52:38,079
and then while he was out

1420
00:52:35,200 --> 00:52:39,680
missy found his rock climbing gear

1421
00:52:38,079 --> 00:52:41,200
yeah she's like the [ __ ] is this and

1422
00:52:39,680 --> 00:52:42,720
then he's like now's a good time to tell

1423
00:52:41,200 --> 00:52:44,800
you i've been blacking out and rock

1424
00:52:42,720 --> 00:52:47,119
climbing when i do and he's like

1425
00:52:44,800 --> 00:52:49,280
suddenly i know the names of all of

1426
00:52:47,119 --> 00:52:51,119
these pieces of equipment

1427
00:52:49,280 --> 00:52:53,599
okay

1428
00:52:51,119 --> 00:52:56,319
right and then

1429
00:52:53,599 --> 00:52:58,400
so from there we suddenly jump to like

1430
00:52:56,319 --> 00:53:00,880
them talking about the news article that

1431
00:52:58,400 --> 00:53:02,240
he brought home and so he like says he

1432
00:53:00,880 --> 00:53:04,319
read an article

1433
00:53:02,240 --> 00:53:08,480
and this is where we actually find out

1434
00:53:04,319 --> 00:53:11,680
mel died by suicide yes and it was not a

1435
00:53:08,480 --> 00:53:14,160
car it was not a car accident so rock

1436
00:53:11,680 --> 00:53:17,040
was not responsible for her death she

1437
00:53:14,160 --> 00:53:20,000
died by suicide and he finally remembers

1438
00:53:17,040 --> 00:53:22,160
her jumping from the cliff yes and

1439
00:53:20,000 --> 00:53:24,000
there's a lot of detail is this where he

1440
00:53:22,160 --> 00:53:26,319
has the whole flashback i could not

1441
00:53:24,000 --> 00:53:28,480
[ __ ] tell you i skimmed it well

1442
00:53:26,319 --> 00:53:30,160
regardless he has a whole flashback at

1443
00:53:28,480 --> 00:53:32,319
some point i'm gonna assume it's here

1444
00:53:30,160 --> 00:53:34,960
where he remembers

1445
00:53:32,319 --> 00:53:37,119
driving like he remembers prom she

1446
00:53:34,960 --> 00:53:39,280
didn't want to dance with him she was

1447
00:53:37,119 --> 00:53:42,400
being really weird all night

1448
00:53:39,280 --> 00:53:45,200
and he was like what is going on and she

1449
00:53:42,400 --> 00:53:48,079
is basically breaking up with him and

1450
00:53:45,200 --> 00:53:49,760
he's like what is happening she's like

1451
00:53:48,079 --> 00:53:51,760
i'm not sleeping with you tonight and

1452
00:53:49,760 --> 00:53:53,200
he's like i've been waiting for this for

1453
00:53:51,760 --> 00:53:55,119
years you think that that's going to

1454
00:53:53,200 --> 00:53:56,960
make a difference to me like i just want

1455
00:53:55,119 --> 00:53:59,280
to spend time with you like

1456
00:53:56,960 --> 00:54:01,280
why are you being like this and she

1457
00:53:59,280 --> 00:54:03,760
grabs the wheel while they're on this

1458
00:54:01,280 --> 00:54:05,599
very treacherous road and

1459
00:54:03,760 --> 00:54:06,960
nearly takes them off and he's like what

1460
00:54:05,599 --> 00:54:09,440
the [ __ ] is wrong with you and she's

1461
00:54:06,960 --> 00:54:10,640
like pull over pull over i want to drive

1462
00:54:09,440 --> 00:54:12,480
pull over

1463
00:54:10,640 --> 00:54:14,640
he she's like you're drunk he's like i

1464
00:54:12,480 --> 00:54:17,119
had literally two drinks over six hours

1465
00:54:14,640 --> 00:54:19,520
can you calm the [ __ ] down and the

1466
00:54:17,119 --> 00:54:22,000
answer is no she cannot she's like i

1467
00:54:19,520 --> 00:54:24,160
will do it again unless you pull over

1468
00:54:22,000 --> 00:54:28,559
and so he pulls over at this little

1469
00:54:24,160 --> 00:54:30,319
turnout like turn-off point on the road

1470
00:54:28,559 --> 00:54:32,800
and

1471
00:54:30,319 --> 00:54:34,319
she gets out and he's suddenly like

1472
00:54:32,800 --> 00:54:38,079
you're not

1473
00:54:34,319 --> 00:54:40,079
missy you're melanie and she's like no

1474
00:54:38,079 --> 00:54:41,680
i'm melanie i'm melanie

1475
00:54:40,079 --> 00:54:45,359
and

1476
00:54:41,680 --> 00:54:45,359
oh yeah no i'm missy i miss you

1477
00:54:45,920 --> 00:54:51,599
and then he she gets up onto

1478
00:54:49,520 --> 00:54:53,839
the guard rail like standing on the

1479
00:54:51,599 --> 00:54:54,720
guard rail where there's like 150 foot

1480
00:54:53,839 --> 00:54:57,280
drop

1481
00:54:54,720 --> 00:54:58,079
and a cop pulls up and is coming towards

1482
00:54:57,280 --> 00:55:00,000
them

1483
00:54:58,079 --> 00:55:02,319
and she's like

1484
00:55:00,000 --> 00:55:04,960
she's like he's like this is obviously

1485
00:55:02,319 --> 00:55:07,200
melanie like please get down please get

1486
00:55:04,960 --> 00:55:08,880
down and she's like say my name i'm

1487
00:55:07,200 --> 00:55:10,720
missy i'm missy

1488
00:55:08,880 --> 00:55:13,920
won't you feel terrible

1489
00:55:10,720 --> 00:55:16,079
when you realize that i was missy and

1490
00:55:13,920 --> 00:55:20,480
he's like was

1491
00:55:16,079 --> 00:55:22,799
um excuse me past tense pardon me um and

1492
00:55:20,480 --> 00:55:24,640
so he's like missy okay just please come

1493
00:55:22,799 --> 00:55:26,400
down like he's trying to talk her down

1494
00:55:24,640 --> 00:55:28,240
off this guardrail

1495
00:55:26,400 --> 00:55:29,040
and she's like

1496
00:55:28,240 --> 00:55:32,720
um

1497
00:55:29,040 --> 00:55:36,240
basically you did this you killed me

1498
00:55:32,720 --> 00:55:36,240
i'm missy and then jumps

1499
00:55:38,520 --> 00:55:43,680
[Laughter]

1500
00:55:41,359 --> 00:55:46,559
it's not funny i mean it is funny but

1501
00:55:43,680 --> 00:55:48,480
it's i mean come on y'all what it's also

1502
00:55:46,559 --> 00:55:50,559
like damn this whole book

1503
00:55:48,480 --> 00:55:54,319
so

1504
00:55:50,559 --> 00:55:56,240
then flashback to the present yeah

1505
00:55:54,319 --> 00:55:59,760
and he

1506
00:55:56,240 --> 00:56:00,880
is asking missy to like come out to l.a

1507
00:55:59,760 --> 00:56:02,319
with him

1508
00:56:00,880 --> 00:56:03,359
yeah and it's been this weird thing

1509
00:56:02,319 --> 00:56:05,119
because like she was the one who had the

1510
00:56:03,359 --> 00:56:06,799
dream of being a rock star

1511
00:56:05,119 --> 00:56:08,480
and

1512
00:56:06,799 --> 00:56:10,640
he was the one who went and lived that

1513
00:56:08,480 --> 00:56:11,920
dream and

1514
00:56:10,640 --> 00:56:13,200
but then like you can't tell you're like

1515
00:56:11,920 --> 00:56:14,559
does she want that life does she not

1516
00:56:13,200 --> 00:56:16,240
want that life what does she want

1517
00:56:14,559 --> 00:56:18,240
because honestly then they just had a

1518
00:56:16,240 --> 00:56:20,319
weird fight i don't like it nor do i

1519
00:56:18,240 --> 00:56:23,760
care to get it and then she was like you

1520
00:56:20,319 --> 00:56:25,280
need to go finish the funeral song

1521
00:56:23,760 --> 00:56:27,599
yeah which is like i'm not coming with

1522
00:56:25,280 --> 00:56:29,040
you to la like that's not you're just

1523
00:56:27,599 --> 00:56:30,559
running away

1524
00:56:29,040 --> 00:56:34,160
i'm not doing that

1525
00:56:30,559 --> 00:56:36,720
but so the nine-minute song that he had

1526
00:56:34,160 --> 00:56:39,040
performed at mel's funeral

1527
00:56:36,720 --> 00:56:41,280
had previously been leaked

1528
00:56:39,040 --> 00:56:43,599
yeah um which we then find out his dad

1529
00:56:41,280 --> 00:56:45,280
was the one who had recorded it and

1530
00:56:43,599 --> 00:56:47,119
leaked it but it's one of those songs

1531
00:56:45,280 --> 00:56:48,240
that he'd never played again and

1532
00:56:47,119 --> 00:56:49,520
everyone was always chanting and

1533
00:56:48,240 --> 00:56:52,640
everyone was always wanting him to

1534
00:56:49,520 --> 00:56:53,920
perform the song right because it never

1535
00:56:52,640 --> 00:56:57,280
had a name

1536
00:56:53,920 --> 00:56:59,920
um and melanie or melanie [ __ ] a

1537
00:56:57,280 --> 00:57:02,000
missy was like you need to finish it i

1538
00:56:59,920 --> 00:57:03,119
think it's really important blah blah

1539
00:57:02,000 --> 00:57:04,880
blah blah

1540
00:57:03,119 --> 00:57:07,680
um and so

1541
00:57:04,880 --> 00:57:09,599
sh he's like i i don't the piano's out

1542
00:57:07,680 --> 00:57:13,520
of tune i can't do it and she's like

1543
00:57:09,599 --> 00:57:15,599
well lucky for you this whole recording

1544
00:57:13,520 --> 00:57:18,559
studio in your dad's basement did you

1545
00:57:15,599 --> 00:57:21,359
forget about your dad's recording studio

1546
00:57:18,559 --> 00:57:24,480
so he had he had and she had fully

1547
00:57:21,359 --> 00:57:26,720
stocked it with food and stuff for him

1548
00:57:24,480 --> 00:57:28,880
to go down there not what you stock a

1549
00:57:26,720 --> 00:57:31,359
music studio in a house with when you

1550
00:57:28,880 --> 00:57:33,760
just have a kitchen just walk upstairs

1551
00:57:31,359 --> 00:57:34,960
all i'm saying is then he's like i

1552
00:57:33,760 --> 00:57:36,960
wouldn't like

1553
00:57:34,960 --> 00:57:40,319
he just like doesn't sleep and has a

1554
00:57:36,960 --> 00:57:42,079
manic episode and finishes the song and

1555
00:57:40,319 --> 00:57:44,400
then you realize he's like been up for

1556
00:57:42,079 --> 00:57:46,240
like two days

1557
00:57:44,400 --> 00:57:48,880
um so then he's like you need to come

1558
00:57:46,240 --> 00:57:50,799
hear the song and then plays it for her

1559
00:57:48,880 --> 00:57:52,559
and then he's like no well like i want

1560
00:57:50,799 --> 00:57:53,920
to record another version with kenner in

1561
00:57:52,559 --> 00:57:55,760
the future but like you're the only one

1562
00:57:53,920 --> 00:57:58,640
who will ever hear this version

1563
00:57:55,760 --> 00:58:01,200
and then deletes it i'm like what is

1564
00:57:58,640 --> 00:58:03,359
even the point of this this side thing

1565
00:58:01,200 --> 00:58:04,319
that's going on so then we move forward

1566
00:58:03,359 --> 00:58:08,480
to

1567
00:58:04,319 --> 00:58:09,920
the pre-season party for whatever has

1568
00:58:08,480 --> 00:58:12,079
been going on the preseason parties that

1569
00:58:09,920 --> 00:58:13,440
flipped and it's a ticketed event and

1570
00:58:12,079 --> 00:58:15,520
barack is kind of like why is it a

1571
00:58:13,440 --> 00:58:17,599
ticketed event why is it a big deal and

1572
00:58:15,520 --> 00:58:19,200
then missy kind of discloses it so they

1573
00:58:17,599 --> 00:58:21,040
could have a roster for the sake of

1574
00:58:19,200 --> 00:58:24,799
security because there are threats being

1575
00:58:21,040 --> 00:58:26,720
made against rock to know like who is

1576
00:58:24,799 --> 00:58:28,960
there like who's coming in

1577
00:58:26,720 --> 00:58:31,200
and this is just for

1578
00:58:28,960 --> 00:58:32,880
the bands who are going to be performing

1579
00:58:31,200 --> 00:58:35,200
at this festival

1580
00:58:32,880 --> 00:58:37,839
and like the people who are working it

1581
00:58:35,200 --> 00:58:39,680
and the staff and that's it

1582
00:58:37,839 --> 00:58:42,079
it's supposed to be there

1583
00:58:39,680 --> 00:58:44,799
correct and then

1584
00:58:42,079 --> 00:58:46,640
rock is trying to ask his brother

1585
00:58:44,799 --> 00:58:48,319
tj about kenner

1586
00:58:46,640 --> 00:58:50,480
and realizing like his brother kind of

1587
00:58:48,319 --> 00:58:52,079
keeps pushing it off and then rock kind

1588
00:58:50,480 --> 00:58:53,760
of starts to realize he's like wait i'm

1589
00:58:52,079 --> 00:58:55,599
not the one who's not willing to talk

1590
00:58:53,760 --> 00:58:57,599
about my accident with my bandmates like

1591
00:58:55,599 --> 00:58:59,599
no one else is willing to talk about

1592
00:58:57,599 --> 00:59:00,960
yeah tj's like we'll talk about it

1593
00:58:59,599 --> 00:59:03,680
tomorrow we'll talk about it tomorrow

1594
00:59:00,960 --> 00:59:05,280
not tonight man like just enjoy yourself

1595
00:59:03,680 --> 00:59:07,440
not tonight

1596
00:59:05,280 --> 00:59:09,760
and this is a wednesday

1597
00:59:07,440 --> 00:59:12,319
which does wind up being relevant

1598
00:59:09,760 --> 00:59:16,160
because then

1599
00:59:12,319 --> 00:59:19,040
he takes missy home and they bang again

1600
00:59:16,160 --> 00:59:19,040
no no

1601
00:59:19,119 --> 00:59:24,400
oh oh i forgot yeah so as the party goes

1602
00:59:22,240 --> 00:59:26,400
on and he's drinking more he like goes

1603
00:59:24,400 --> 00:59:28,559
to the bathroom and comes out and runs

1604
00:59:26,400 --> 00:59:30,480
into a waitress the same waitress who

1605
00:59:28,559 --> 00:59:33,440
had asked him to sign her ticket stub

1606
00:59:30,480 --> 00:59:36,240
from the show in boston alice alice and

1607
00:59:33,440 --> 00:59:39,280
she's like a huge fan and has all of the

1608
00:59:36,240 --> 00:59:41,200
most recent episodes of like metal notes

1609
00:59:39,280 --> 00:59:43,839
magazine but all of the recent articles

1610
00:59:41,200 --> 00:59:45,599
are like where is rock like yeah he's

1611
00:59:43,839 --> 00:59:47,760
been on the cover for like three months

1612
00:59:45,599 --> 00:59:49,359
and he's like what the hell yes and he

1613
00:59:47,760 --> 00:59:51,200
like has no idea what's going on and

1614
00:59:49,359 --> 00:59:53,760
then she also pulls out like a bunch of

1615
00:59:51,200 --> 00:59:55,520
ticket stubs as well yeah then alice the

1616
00:59:53,760 --> 00:59:56,720
waitress is like asking for these

1617
00:59:55,520 --> 00:59:59,040
autographs and she's looking at me and

1618
00:59:56,720 --> 01:00:01,040
she's like do you even remember me don't

1619
00:59:59,040 --> 01:00:02,880
you remember don't you remember

1620
01:00:01,040 --> 01:00:04,240
and then tj shows up and he's like what

1621
01:00:02,880 --> 01:00:06,079
the [ __ ] alice we've talked about this

1622
01:00:04,240 --> 01:00:07,839
like stop fangirling over my brother

1623
01:00:06,079 --> 01:00:13,839
you're fired

1624
01:00:07,839 --> 01:00:15,440
um so then tj drives rock and missy home

1625
01:00:13,839 --> 01:00:16,640
that night he was their designated

1626
01:00:15,440 --> 01:00:18,799
driver

1627
01:00:16,640 --> 01:00:21,520
but then missy starts like asking him

1628
01:00:18,799 --> 01:00:24,160
about his rock climbing triggers and

1629
01:00:21,520 --> 01:00:25,920
blackouts and whatever right she's like

1630
01:00:24,160 --> 01:00:28,079
are you gonna black out tonight you do

1631
01:00:25,920 --> 01:00:29,920
it every time you drink and he's like no

1632
01:00:28,079 --> 01:00:32,000
i don't think it's related to drinking i

1633
01:00:29,920 --> 01:00:33,599
drank a lot when i was in la

1634
01:00:32,000 --> 01:00:36,400
and she's like you never blacked out in

1635
01:00:33,599 --> 01:00:38,319
l.a and he's like no

1636
01:00:36,400 --> 01:00:41,119
i'm lying about that he doesn't say that

1637
01:00:38,319 --> 01:00:43,280
out loud but he's like that's not true

1638
01:00:41,119 --> 01:00:45,440
but he's like no

1639
01:00:43,280 --> 01:00:49,040
of course not

1640
01:00:45,440 --> 01:00:51,440
so then tj takes them home and they bone

1641
01:00:49,040 --> 01:00:54,559
but then the next day

1642
01:00:51,440 --> 01:00:56,400
rock wakes up in in a hospital yes and

1643
01:00:54,559 --> 01:00:58,640
this very nice nurse

1644
01:00:56,400 --> 01:00:59,760
whose name is also alice this elderly

1645
01:00:58,640 --> 01:01:01,280
woman

1646
01:00:59,760 --> 01:01:03,440
is like who

1647
01:01:01,280 --> 01:01:05,599
seems to not have any [ __ ] to give

1648
01:01:03,440 --> 01:01:08,000
about hipaa yeah

1649
01:01:05,599 --> 01:01:09,839
hipaa is not a thing in this book it is

1650
01:01:08,000 --> 01:01:11,920
not fair this is the world where hipaa

1651
01:01:09,839 --> 01:01:15,040
does not exist she's like i looked up

1652
01:01:11,920 --> 01:01:17,440
all the information on your friend

1653
01:01:15,040 --> 01:01:19,520
kenner here's what i know well until

1654
01:01:17,440 --> 01:01:22,640
like he was here and then he was

1655
01:01:19,520 --> 01:01:24,799
transferred to a high security facility

1656
01:01:22,640 --> 01:01:26,240
because of the threats being made and

1657
01:01:24,799 --> 01:01:28,400
then he was kind of like

1658
01:01:26,240 --> 01:01:30,480
like rock is like wait what threats and

1659
01:01:28,400 --> 01:01:32,079
then alice is like oh wait

1660
01:01:30,480 --> 01:01:34,079
you don't remember i thought you'd

1661
01:01:32,079 --> 01:01:35,440
remembered everything

1662
01:01:34,079 --> 01:01:36,960
i didn't know you hadn't remembered or i

1663
01:01:35,440 --> 01:01:38,880
wouldn't have said anything so i can't

1664
01:01:36,960 --> 01:01:41,200
say anything more and then you're like

1665
01:01:38,880 --> 01:01:43,040
why the [ __ ] yeah she's like he was

1666
01:01:41,200 --> 01:01:44,960
life-flighted from big bear in

1667
01:01:43,040 --> 01:01:47,200
california and he's like

1668
01:01:44,960 --> 01:01:50,640
california what the [ __ ] are you talking

1669
01:01:47,200 --> 01:01:53,440
about all right but then alice the nurse

1670
01:01:50,640 --> 01:01:56,319
does tell him that someone had smashed

1671
01:01:53,440 --> 01:01:59,760
his throat in with a blunt object

1672
01:01:56,319 --> 01:02:02,240
and his bandmates were shot and killed

1673
01:01:59,760 --> 01:02:04,000
they were not killed in a car accident

1674
01:02:02,240 --> 01:02:07,760
yes and kenner

1675
01:02:04,000 --> 01:02:10,559
was also shot a few times and his arms

1676
01:02:07,760 --> 01:02:13,039
were broken also with a blunt object

1677
01:02:10,559 --> 01:02:15,039
yes but then the nurse is like saying to

1678
01:02:13,039 --> 01:02:17,680
rock she's like you know who it was but

1679
01:02:15,039 --> 01:02:18,880
you made yourself forget so like then

1680
01:02:17,680 --> 01:02:21,039
suddenly you're like oh [ __ ] the

1681
01:02:18,880 --> 01:02:22,960
killer's still out there he didn't

1682
01:02:21,039 --> 01:02:24,640
know like you like this book has gone

1683
01:02:22,960 --> 01:02:26,319
from him being responsible for the death

1684
01:02:24,640 --> 01:02:28,720
of like everyone to him being

1685
01:02:26,319 --> 01:02:30,480
responsible for the death of no one but

1686
01:02:28,720 --> 01:02:32,559
people still treating him like a social

1687
01:02:30,480 --> 01:02:34,559
pariah for

1688
01:02:32,559 --> 01:02:35,920
causing everyone's death yes i don't

1689
01:02:34,559 --> 01:02:37,760
know maybe that's how i interpreted that

1690
01:02:35,920 --> 01:02:39,680
but i do feel like i'm like everyone's

1691
01:02:37,760 --> 01:02:40,960
kind of addicted to him considering it

1692
01:02:39,680 --> 01:02:43,920
seems as though he hasn't really done

1693
01:02:40,960 --> 01:02:46,319
much of anything yes and then he is

1694
01:02:43,920 --> 01:02:49,039
walking out of the hospital and he's

1695
01:02:46,319 --> 01:02:50,559
like holy [ __ ] i'm bait

1696
01:02:49,039 --> 01:02:52,400
that's why all these cops have been

1697
01:02:50,559 --> 01:02:55,280
following me that's why all the extra

1698
01:02:52,400 --> 01:02:58,559
security i'm bait to see if the killer

1699
01:02:55,280 --> 01:03:00,960
is gonna show back up i'm bait yep and

1700
01:02:58,559 --> 01:03:03,839
so then he drives home yeah so he

1701
01:03:00,960 --> 01:03:06,640
realizes he's bait and then he

1702
01:03:03,839 --> 01:03:08,799
gets home and then

1703
01:03:06,640 --> 01:03:10,319
does he read the articles about him i

1704
01:03:08,799 --> 01:03:12,559
don't know i honestly doesn't matter

1705
01:03:10,319 --> 01:03:14,559
yeah he does he does read the articles

1706
01:03:12,559 --> 01:03:15,680
but they're not super helpful yeah they

1707
01:03:14,559 --> 01:03:17,440
aren't super helpful he's just like

1708
01:03:15,680 --> 01:03:20,640
getting more questions and answers like

1709
01:03:17,440 --> 01:03:22,160
we are reading this book and then

1710
01:03:20,640 --> 01:03:25,520
he gets home

1711
01:03:22,160 --> 01:03:29,119
and realizes melissa

1712
01:03:25,520 --> 01:03:31,599
missy is gone she is missing

1713
01:03:29,119 --> 01:03:35,039
missing missing actually gone and like

1714
01:03:31,599 --> 01:03:37,520
everybody's there tj the brother jace

1715
01:03:35,039 --> 01:03:39,520
the manager gretchen the friend all the

1716
01:03:37,520 --> 01:03:42,559
cops everybody is there

1717
01:03:39,520 --> 01:03:45,839
and tj punches him in the face and is

1718
01:03:42,559 --> 01:03:47,920
like where is she you did this just like

1719
01:03:45,839 --> 01:03:50,400
you killed your band i know that you did

1720
01:03:47,920 --> 01:03:52,640
this where is she tell me where she is i

1721
01:03:50,400 --> 01:03:53,760
really don't [ __ ] with dj the same time

1722
01:03:52,640 --> 01:03:55,920
dick

1723
01:03:53,760 --> 01:03:58,319
and he also this isn't really relevant

1724
01:03:55,920 --> 01:03:59,440
but apparently he was in the military

1725
01:03:58,319 --> 01:04:02,559
and

1726
01:03:59,440 --> 01:04:04,880
was deployed several times and like

1727
01:04:02,559 --> 01:04:05,760
is like an ultra badass or something i

1728
01:04:04,880 --> 01:04:06,559
don't know

1729
01:04:05,760 --> 01:04:08,240
so

1730
01:04:06,559 --> 01:04:10,839
and apparently he's gonna run for mayor

1731
01:04:08,240 --> 01:04:13,680
at some point in the future

1732
01:04:10,839 --> 01:04:16,079
whatever yeah so he's not gonna be a

1733
01:04:13,680 --> 01:04:17,920
good mayor if he lacks impulse control

1734
01:04:16,079 --> 01:04:20,799
of this capacity but

1735
01:04:17,920 --> 01:04:22,720
so he like is all upset with rock and

1736
01:04:20,799 --> 01:04:23,920
being like she's the reason like you're

1737
01:04:22,720 --> 01:04:26,079
the reason she's gone and you're the

1738
01:04:23,920 --> 01:04:28,880
reason she's missing and then he pulls

1739
01:04:26,079 --> 01:04:31,039
rock into the vetti house so like

1740
01:04:28,880 --> 01:04:32,079
missy's how she grew up in across the

1741
01:04:31,039 --> 01:04:34,319
street

1742
01:04:32,079 --> 01:04:38,319
from rock's house and there's like a

1743
01:04:34,319 --> 01:04:41,200
full stalker murder wall with tons of

1744
01:04:38,319 --> 01:04:43,839
photos of them and it says like

1745
01:04:41,200 --> 01:04:46,160
lying [ __ ] and spray paint on the wall

1746
01:04:43,839 --> 01:04:50,000
there's all these creepy

1747
01:04:46,160 --> 01:04:51,520
like long distance photos of mel or

1748
01:04:50,000 --> 01:04:54,160
missy

1749
01:04:51,520 --> 01:04:57,359
changing and naked in the shower and all

1750
01:04:54,160 --> 01:05:00,079
of this stuff and he is like i didn't do

1751
01:04:57,359 --> 01:05:01,760
this i got this wasn't

1752
01:05:00,079 --> 01:05:03,440
this wasn't me

1753
01:05:01,760 --> 01:05:06,000
and tj's like

1754
01:05:03,440 --> 01:05:09,119
you're a [ __ ] face it was you where the

1755
01:05:06,000 --> 01:05:12,480
[ __ ] is she and

1756
01:05:09,119 --> 01:05:14,960
rock is like where is kenner well no so

1757
01:05:12,480 --> 01:05:16,640
then the sheriffs are like hey tj we

1758
01:05:14,960 --> 01:05:18,960
were on him this entire time he's at the

1759
01:05:16,640 --> 01:05:21,920
hospital it was not him we have been on

1760
01:05:18,960 --> 01:05:24,480
him this entire time right and so then

1761
01:05:21,920 --> 01:05:26,400
tj's like well who hates you enough to

1762
01:05:24,480 --> 01:05:28,480
kidnap your girlfriend

1763
01:05:26,400 --> 01:05:29,760
and then rock is like whoever killed my

1764
01:05:28,480 --> 01:05:31,680
band mates

1765
01:05:29,760 --> 01:05:34,240
but then tj's like

1766
01:05:31,680 --> 01:05:36,079
you killed your bandmates

1767
01:05:34,240 --> 01:05:37,680
and i'm like really i don't think he

1768
01:05:36,079 --> 01:05:39,680
[ __ ] did i don't think you're giving

1769
01:05:37,680 --> 01:05:42,000
your brother any credit he smashed his

1770
01:05:39,680 --> 01:05:44,960
own throat with a blunt object of course

1771
01:05:42,000 --> 01:05:46,880
as we all have so then they're like hey

1772
01:05:44,960 --> 01:05:49,200
kenner is actually across the street

1773
01:05:46,880 --> 01:05:51,359
waiting for you to talk

1774
01:05:49,200 --> 01:05:53,599
right back at like rock's house he's

1775
01:05:51,359 --> 01:05:56,480
waiting kenner also knows who did it but

1776
01:05:53,599 --> 01:05:57,520
he won't talk until he talks to you

1777
01:05:56,480 --> 01:05:59,680
so

1778
01:05:57,520 --> 01:06:02,240
rock goes over to his house he sees

1779
01:05:59,680 --> 01:06:03,839
kenner they have a little moment of well

1780
01:06:02,240 --> 01:06:05,599
and then they're also like we need to go

1781
01:06:03,839 --> 01:06:07,520
someplace private in your house to talk

1782
01:06:05,599 --> 01:06:10,319
because they found like the sheriff's

1783
01:06:07,520 --> 01:06:12,000
found cameras in every room of your

1784
01:06:10,319 --> 01:06:13,359
house she's been watching you this whole

1785
01:06:12,000 --> 01:06:14,400
time yeah and you're like she's like

1786
01:06:13,359 --> 01:06:15,680
you're just hearing like she's been

1787
01:06:14,400 --> 01:06:17,839
watching this whole time and like your

1788
01:06:15,680 --> 01:06:19,039
girlfriend is dead if we do this wrong

1789
01:06:17,839 --> 01:06:20,640
but you're like

1790
01:06:19,039 --> 01:06:22,799
who is she

1791
01:06:20,640 --> 01:06:24,559
who is she we really still don't know

1792
01:06:22,799 --> 01:06:26,319
and so

1793
01:06:24,559 --> 01:06:29,599
then they're like we we don't have much

1794
01:06:26,319 --> 01:06:30,319
time or she'll kill her like she killed

1795
01:06:29,599 --> 01:06:31,200
us

1796
01:06:30,319 --> 01:06:33,599
yeah

1797
01:06:31,200 --> 01:06:36,079
so then rock kicks everybody out of the

1798
01:06:33,599 --> 01:06:38,960
house and then go down into the basement

1799
01:06:36,079 --> 01:06:42,640
recording area so they can talk

1800
01:06:38,960 --> 01:06:45,920
and kenner shows him all these photos of

1801
01:06:42,640 --> 01:06:47,599
him with this very beautiful gorgeous

1802
01:06:45,920 --> 01:06:49,280
blonde girl

1803
01:06:47,599 --> 01:06:51,520
rock climbing

1804
01:06:49,280 --> 01:06:54,799
and spending all this time with her and

1805
01:06:51,520 --> 01:06:56,160
he's like hold the [ __ ] phone

1806
01:06:54,799 --> 01:06:58,400
what

1807
01:06:56,160 --> 01:07:01,119
well and so what we learn and what we

1808
01:06:58,400 --> 01:07:03,039
realize is like oh this hot blonde who

1809
01:07:01,119 --> 01:07:07,280
he's rock climbing with and all of these

1810
01:07:03,039 --> 01:07:08,160
photos is alice the waitress

1811
01:07:07,280 --> 01:07:10,319
no

1812
01:07:08,160 --> 01:07:11,599
[ __ ] no one and by no one i mean

1813
01:07:10,319 --> 01:07:13,039
everyone

1814
01:07:11,599 --> 01:07:15,200
saw that coming so like in this

1815
01:07:13,039 --> 01:07:16,799
flashback and everything that's like

1816
01:07:15,200 --> 01:07:19,680
kind of being pieced together

1817
01:07:16,799 --> 01:07:21,359
alice had like they had met i think she

1818
01:07:19,680 --> 01:07:22,880
had initially met kenner rock climbing

1819
01:07:21,359 --> 01:07:24,640
and built trust and like has tried to

1820
01:07:22,880 --> 01:07:26,720
meet the other people in the band

1821
01:07:24,640 --> 01:07:28,799
and then alice was the one who actually

1822
01:07:26,720 --> 01:07:31,039
started giving rock

1823
01:07:28,799 --> 01:07:32,799
opiates and pills and like it kept

1824
01:07:31,039 --> 01:07:36,160
escalating then everyone else and the

1825
01:07:32,799 --> 01:07:38,319
heroine to heroin that's concluded

1826
01:07:36,160 --> 01:07:41,280
heroin have a great day so then everyone

1827
01:07:38,319 --> 01:07:43,599
in the band was like alice is bad news

1828
01:07:41,280 --> 01:07:48,240
bears and we should do something about

1829
01:07:43,599 --> 01:07:50,640
that so then the band forced rock into

1830
01:07:48,240 --> 01:07:54,000
rehab essentially to like protect him

1831
01:07:50,640 --> 01:07:56,559
and get him away from alice this crazy

1832
01:07:54,000 --> 01:07:59,680
chick this crazy chick but then

1833
01:07:56,559 --> 01:08:02,079
alice showed up in big bear and just

1834
01:07:59,680 --> 01:08:04,319
killed the entire band

1835
01:08:02,079 --> 01:08:06,720
yeah am i missing something i feel like

1836
01:08:04,319 --> 01:08:08,799
that's about how it went yeah so we have

1837
01:08:06,720 --> 01:08:11,039
like a little bit of a flashback where

1838
01:08:08,799 --> 01:08:12,400
rock starts to remember what happened

1839
01:08:11,039 --> 01:08:14,160
and it's like

1840
01:08:12,400 --> 01:08:16,960
the doorbell rang

1841
01:08:14,160 --> 01:08:18,560
mo answered the door and is immediately

1842
01:08:16,960 --> 01:08:20,560
like shot in the head

1843
01:08:18,560 --> 01:08:23,600
one of the other guys is like covered in

1844
01:08:20,560 --> 01:08:25,520
his blood and stuff and then he gets

1845
01:08:23,600 --> 01:08:26,960
shot and then she shoots somebody else

1846
01:08:25,520 --> 01:08:28,080
and everybody's just in shock like

1847
01:08:26,960 --> 01:08:29,279
standing there like what the [ __ ] is

1848
01:08:28,080 --> 01:08:32,080
happening

1849
01:08:29,279 --> 01:08:35,679
and then um

1850
01:08:32,080 --> 01:08:39,359
rock remembers that he

1851
01:08:35,679 --> 01:08:41,600
um tried to stop her it didn't work she

1852
01:08:39,359 --> 01:08:43,199
tried to shoot kenner she did shoot him

1853
01:08:41,600 --> 01:08:46,080
a couple of times

1854
01:08:43,199 --> 01:08:47,759
and then she turned to rock and went to

1855
01:08:46,080 --> 01:08:51,040
shoot him in the head but she was out of

1856
01:08:47,759 --> 01:08:53,440
bullets and so it was empty

1857
01:08:51,040 --> 01:08:55,440
so that's when she pulled out the baton

1858
01:08:53,440 --> 01:08:57,120
and beat him in the throat with it and

1859
01:08:55,440 --> 01:08:59,600
then turned around and beat kenner with

1860
01:08:57,120 --> 01:09:02,080
it because he was dying rock thought he

1861
01:08:59,600 --> 01:09:05,199
was dead because he'd already been shot

1862
01:09:02,080 --> 01:09:08,319
but he started screaming when his arms

1863
01:09:05,199 --> 01:09:10,480
were just horribly crushed and so he's

1864
01:09:08,319 --> 01:09:11,600
like at least he's alive

1865
01:09:10,480 --> 01:09:12,560
and then

1866
01:09:11,600 --> 01:09:14,960
um

1867
01:09:12,560 --> 01:09:17,600
they start hearing sirens alice turns

1868
01:09:14,960 --> 01:09:21,839
around stomps on his throat one last

1869
01:09:17,600 --> 01:09:21,839
time he blacks out and she disappears

1870
01:09:22,960 --> 01:09:26,719
this is so much

1871
01:09:24,960 --> 01:09:27,600
oh my god

1872
01:09:26,719 --> 01:09:29,600
so

1873
01:09:27,600 --> 01:09:31,279
then

1874
01:09:29,600 --> 01:09:33,600
back to the present we're piecing all of

1875
01:09:31,279 --> 01:09:36,799
this together and then we find out alex

1876
01:09:33,600 --> 01:09:39,279
has been like cryptically texting kenner

1877
01:09:36,799 --> 01:09:41,679
over the past few days essentially like

1878
01:09:39,279 --> 01:09:44,159
a poem or lyrics or something

1879
01:09:41,679 --> 01:09:47,199
of her it sounded like she was writing

1880
01:09:44,159 --> 01:09:48,319
her own [ __ ] haikus

1881
01:09:47,199 --> 01:09:49,759
there was nothing i was like i don't

1882
01:09:48,319 --> 01:09:52,560
think these are lyrics i think this is

1883
01:09:49,759 --> 01:09:53,440
just like her own doing but then

1884
01:09:52,560 --> 01:09:56,000
as

1885
01:09:53,440 --> 01:09:58,880
rock is reading through the

1886
01:09:56,000 --> 01:10:01,760
haiku's poems whatever lyrics that she

1887
01:09:58,880 --> 01:10:02,400
had been texting kenner he realizes

1888
01:10:01,760 --> 01:10:06,000
that

1889
01:10:02,400 --> 01:10:09,440
she has that alice has kidnapped missy

1890
01:10:06,000 --> 01:10:12,880
and taken her to the place of missy and

1891
01:10:09,440 --> 01:10:15,679
rock's first kiss which is a waterfall

1892
01:10:12,880 --> 01:10:17,679
that is about two miles away from his

1893
01:10:15,679 --> 01:10:19,199
home with a cliff

1894
01:10:17,679 --> 01:10:21,440
obviously yes

1895
01:10:19,199 --> 01:10:25,360
there you can't have a waterfall without

1896
01:10:21,440 --> 01:10:27,120
a cliff you know correct um so i mean

1897
01:10:25,360 --> 01:10:28,719
great news guys that second day he was

1898
01:10:27,120 --> 01:10:31,199
home and i think what might have been a

1899
01:10:28,719 --> 01:10:32,000
fugue state he and he installed those

1900
01:10:31,199 --> 01:10:34,080
like

1901
01:10:32,000 --> 01:10:34,800
anchor bolts for

1902
01:10:34,080 --> 01:10:37,199
for

1903
01:10:34,800 --> 01:10:38,400
rock climbing and repelling so he's like

1904
01:10:37,199 --> 01:10:42,159
all right

1905
01:10:38,400 --> 01:10:44,880
kenner let's grab our [ __ ] guns and

1906
01:10:42,159 --> 01:10:47,360
repel down this mountain

1907
01:10:44,880 --> 01:10:49,760
and it goes saved by women woman not

1908
01:10:47,360 --> 01:10:52,880
women no he doesn't want the other one

1909
01:10:49,760 --> 01:10:54,800
so then tj shows up and is banging on

1910
01:10:52,880 --> 01:10:56,239
the door of the basement and he's like

1911
01:10:54,800 --> 01:10:58,400
what the [ __ ] are you guys doing where

1912
01:10:56,239 --> 01:10:59,440
the [ __ ] are you like we don't have time

1913
01:10:58,400 --> 01:11:01,280
for this

1914
01:10:59,440 --> 01:11:04,239
missy is in danger

1915
01:11:01,280 --> 01:11:06,719
blah blah blah and rock is like listen

1916
01:11:04,239 --> 01:11:09,199
he is starting to remember he needs 10

1917
01:11:06,719 --> 01:11:11,360
minutes i don't remember he remembers we

1918
01:11:09,199 --> 01:11:13,840
need 10 minutes so that he can have a

1919
01:11:11,360 --> 01:11:15,679
moment and get himself together so he

1920
01:11:13,840 --> 01:11:18,960
can tell us what the [ __ ] is going on

1921
01:11:15,679 --> 01:11:20,960
and tj is like bet 10 minutes i'm timing

1922
01:11:18,960 --> 01:11:23,280
you don't [ __ ] with me

1923
01:11:20,960 --> 01:11:25,040
and rock is like 10 minutes will be

1924
01:11:23,280 --> 01:11:27,679
enough time to gather our rock climbing

1925
01:11:25,040 --> 01:11:30,960
gear and our rifles and rappelled down

1926
01:11:27,679 --> 01:11:33,199
the mountain and so they do

1927
01:11:30,960 --> 01:11:37,040
yeah so then you just like run into the

1928
01:11:33,199 --> 01:11:37,040
woods with their weapon i just like

1929
01:11:37,120 --> 01:11:39,679
so

1930
01:11:38,400 --> 01:11:42,400
no that's that's the right response

1931
01:11:39,679 --> 01:11:44,080
hannah take it

1932
01:11:42,400 --> 01:11:45,600
y'all i have to sneeze and it's one of

1933
01:11:44,080 --> 01:11:47,920
those where like i don't know if it's

1934
01:11:45,600 --> 01:11:49,120
gonna be better or worse if i like do

1935
01:11:47,920 --> 01:11:50,320
you have those moments rick i didn't

1936
01:11:49,120 --> 01:11:52,840
sneeze but it's ultimately so

1937
01:11:50,320 --> 01:11:55,520
unfulfilling yes okay i'm having one of

1938
01:11:52,840 --> 01:11:58,080
those so

1939
01:11:55,520 --> 01:11:59,199
they get to the waterfall yeah

1940
01:11:58,080 --> 01:12:01,360
and

1941
01:11:59,199 --> 01:12:03,520
they find like they they look up and

1942
01:12:01,360 --> 01:12:04,960
like a hundred feet up there's a

1943
01:12:03,520 --> 01:12:06,719
portaledge

1944
01:12:04,960 --> 01:12:10,719
tent

1945
01:12:06,719 --> 01:12:13,840
because alice is a pro ass rock climber

1946
01:12:10,719 --> 01:12:17,760
doing all of this on her own while also

1947
01:12:13,840 --> 01:12:21,040
carrying a body of a grown ass woman

1948
01:12:17,760 --> 01:12:22,880
yeah so somehow she gets an unconscious

1949
01:12:21,040 --> 01:12:24,880
i'm assuming missy

1950
01:12:22,880 --> 01:12:28,400
up the mountain into this or up the

1951
01:12:24,880 --> 01:12:30,239
cliff into this portalage tent so rock

1952
01:12:28,400 --> 01:12:33,120
they start to hear

1953
01:12:30,239 --> 01:12:35,600
the cops and tj and all these people on

1954
01:12:33,120 --> 01:12:37,199
dirt bikes and stuff in the woods and

1955
01:12:35,600 --> 01:12:38,880
they're like we gotta do this fast

1956
01:12:37,199 --> 01:12:40,960
because if they show up

1957
01:12:38,880 --> 01:12:42,960
like alice is gonna just kill missy like

1958
01:12:40,960 --> 01:12:44,800
this is gonna be real [ __ ] so we gotta

1959
01:12:42,960 --> 01:12:47,600
do this fast kenner

1960
01:12:44,800 --> 01:12:49,280
you stay in the woods stay

1961
01:12:47,600 --> 01:12:50,719
like i need you to cover me i'm going to

1962
01:12:49,280 --> 01:12:52,239
go out there

1963
01:12:50,719 --> 01:12:56,000
and so

1964
01:12:52,239 --> 01:12:59,280
he goes out y'all just like

1965
01:12:56,000 --> 01:12:59,280
do you even want to hear the end

1966
01:13:00,000 --> 01:13:03,360
yeah so let's see how we can best

1967
01:13:01,920 --> 01:13:04,880
summarize this in the quickest way we

1968
01:13:03,360 --> 01:13:06,560
can summarize it

1969
01:13:04,880 --> 01:13:08,960
um alice

1970
01:13:06,560 --> 01:13:10,719
finally sees that rock has gotten there

1971
01:13:08,960 --> 01:13:13,840
she cuts one of the tethers to the

1972
01:13:10,719 --> 01:13:15,679
portal edge tent yeah um rock's trying

1973
01:13:13,840 --> 01:13:17,440
to talk her down like i'm here for you i

1974
01:13:15,679 --> 01:13:19,440
love but then he's like you

1975
01:13:17,440 --> 01:13:21,199
she insists that he needs to climb up

1976
01:13:19,440 --> 01:13:22,640
then he's like a free climb of a hundred

1977
01:13:21,199 --> 01:13:24,960
feet up is a little bit dangerous i'm

1978
01:13:22,640 --> 01:13:27,440
like no [ __ ] my guy

1979
01:13:24,960 --> 01:13:30,080
and so go into a fugue then it'll be

1980
01:13:27,440 --> 01:13:32,320
fine apparently he's at his best with

1981
01:13:30,080 --> 01:13:34,320
rock climbing when he does not remember

1982
01:13:32,320 --> 01:13:35,840
these instances and just wakes up in

1983
01:13:34,320 --> 01:13:38,560
rock climbing gear

1984
01:13:35,840 --> 01:13:39,520
so he climbs up

1985
01:13:38,560 --> 01:13:41,440
and then

1986
01:13:39,520 --> 01:13:44,880
honestly i don't remember i don't really

1987
01:13:41,440 --> 01:13:47,040
care to remember somehow he gets alice

1988
01:13:44,880 --> 01:13:49,199
out of the tent

1989
01:13:47,040 --> 01:13:50,560
well i think she was already out i think

1990
01:13:49,199 --> 01:13:51,600
she's actually like trying to cut the

1991
01:13:50,560 --> 01:13:53,600
tether

1992
01:13:51,600 --> 01:13:56,000
yeah and then he managed to like get the

1993
01:13:53,600 --> 01:13:59,679
upper hand so like she falls a hundred

1994
01:13:56,000 --> 01:14:02,159
feet well no so so they start struggling

1995
01:13:59,679 --> 01:14:04,800
honestly hannah i don't care i just

1996
01:14:02,159 --> 01:14:06,719
listened to this so he shoots at her she

1997
01:14:04,800 --> 01:14:08,159
shoots at him it's a whole thing they

1998
01:14:06,719 --> 01:14:10,159
both drop their

1999
01:14:08,159 --> 01:14:11,840
guns she tries to come at him with the

2000
01:14:10,159 --> 01:14:14,400
knife that she's using to cut the tent

2001
01:14:11,840 --> 01:14:16,880
down and then her head explodes on the

2002
01:14:14,400 --> 01:14:18,320
side of the mountain because kenner

2003
01:14:16,880 --> 01:14:20,480
shot her

2004
01:14:18,320 --> 01:14:22,159
from the ground you're not wrong i think

2005
01:14:20,480 --> 01:14:23,760
i was thinking of then when her body

2006
01:14:22,159 --> 01:14:26,080
fell to the ground and then kenner went

2007
01:14:23,760 --> 01:14:27,199
back up to her body and then shot her in

2008
01:14:26,080 --> 01:14:28,400
the face

2009
01:14:27,199 --> 01:14:31,199
multiple times

2010
01:14:28,400 --> 01:14:33,280
so many times he was real mad so kenner

2011
01:14:31,199 --> 01:14:35,280
is like cut her body down cut her body

2012
01:14:33,280 --> 01:14:38,080
down it's weighing down the tent like

2013
01:14:35,280 --> 01:14:40,840
blah blah blah so

2014
01:14:38,080 --> 01:14:43,840
rock does that and then

2015
01:14:40,840 --> 01:14:45,679
yeah then he saves melissa yeah he gets

2016
01:14:43,840 --> 01:14:48,159
her strapped to him no one gives a [ __ ]

2017
01:14:45,679 --> 01:14:50,239
about the details like there's so many

2018
01:14:48,159 --> 01:14:52,640
details i'm like and honestly the

2019
01:14:50,239 --> 01:14:55,440
details get a little too heavy into rock

2020
01:14:52,640 --> 01:14:57,600
climbing gear where i'm like i

2021
01:14:55,440 --> 01:15:00,320
don't care to envision this further than

2022
01:14:57,600 --> 01:15:01,679
i currently am i learned the the word

2023
01:15:00,320 --> 01:15:04,239
portalage

2024
01:15:01,679 --> 01:15:06,320
and i didn't want to

2025
01:15:04,239 --> 01:15:08,960
honestly i've always thought portalic

2026
01:15:06,320 --> 01:15:11,199
like tens were super dope

2027
01:15:08,960 --> 01:15:12,640
i mean it's super cool

2028
01:15:11,199 --> 01:15:14,400
i would be interested to be very scared

2029
01:15:12,640 --> 01:15:16,080
to stay and i wouldn't want to do that

2030
01:15:14,400 --> 01:15:18,080
no that wasn't the terminology that

2031
01:15:16,080 --> 01:15:19,760
bothered me so that just makes me think

2032
01:15:18,080 --> 01:15:20,560
of

2033
01:15:19,760 --> 01:15:23,199
so

2034
01:15:20,560 --> 01:15:25,440
at work recently one of my co-workers

2035
01:15:23,199 --> 01:15:26,960
showed up wearing two different shoes

2036
01:15:25,440 --> 01:15:29,520
okay

2037
01:15:26,960 --> 01:15:31,040
they were they were like knee-high boots

2038
01:15:29,520 --> 01:15:32,560
and she apparently had a different

2039
01:15:31,040 --> 01:15:35,120
knee-high boots different knee-high

2040
01:15:32,560 --> 01:15:37,120
boots she had gotten dressed in the dark

2041
01:15:35,120 --> 01:15:39,199
and one of them was like a solid black

2042
01:15:37,120 --> 01:15:40,800
and one of them was black and then had

2043
01:15:39,199 --> 01:15:44,239
like a brown

2044
01:15:40,800 --> 01:15:46,480
cuff at the top yep very different boots

2045
01:15:44,239 --> 01:15:48,480
like the build of the boots totally

2046
01:15:46,480 --> 01:15:50,800
different she didn't notice until a

2047
01:15:48,480 --> 01:15:52,880
patient pointed it out to her and she

2048
01:15:50,800 --> 01:15:54,960
was like [ __ ]

2049
01:15:52,880 --> 01:15:57,360
okay so she just had to go through the

2050
01:15:54,960 --> 01:15:59,679
whole day wearing two different shoes

2051
01:15:57,360 --> 01:16:02,080
and she and i were in the nurse's

2052
01:15:59,679 --> 01:16:03,440
station talking to the nurses

2053
01:16:02,080 --> 01:16:05,440
and she's like i just feel like a

2054
01:16:03,440 --> 01:16:06,640
[ __ ] idiot wearing two different

2055
01:16:05,440 --> 01:16:08,640
shoes

2056
01:16:06,640 --> 01:16:09,760
and one of the medical assistants was

2057
01:16:08,640 --> 01:16:11,199
like no

2058
01:16:09,760 --> 01:16:12,960
listen

2059
01:16:11,199 --> 01:16:14,560
listen okay

2060
01:16:12,960 --> 01:16:16,800
like

2061
01:16:14,560 --> 01:16:18,640
this is a statement it's like an

2062
01:16:16,800 --> 01:16:21,520
asymmetrical top you know what i'm

2063
01:16:18,640 --> 01:16:25,760
saying like you are starting a trend and

2064
01:16:21,520 --> 01:16:28,880
she is hyping my co-worker up so hard

2065
01:16:25,760 --> 01:16:31,440
she's like this is like you do you like

2066
01:16:28,880 --> 01:16:33,679
nobody cares like this is awesome you do

2067
01:16:31,440 --> 01:16:36,640
your thing and then she's like i mean i

2068
01:16:33,679 --> 01:16:36,640
wouldn't do that

2069
01:16:38,480 --> 01:16:43,520
that's how i feel about portal instance

2070
01:16:40,560 --> 01:16:45,360
like i will hype it all day i wouldn't

2071
01:16:43,520 --> 01:16:48,480
do that

2072
01:16:45,360 --> 01:16:51,679
no such a story i'm sorry

2073
01:16:48,480 --> 01:16:51,679
it's just what i thought of

2074
01:16:52,080 --> 01:16:54,480
i was like i think for the longest time

2075
01:16:53,600 --> 01:16:55,840
i was like where is this going to

2076
01:16:54,480 --> 01:16:58,000
connect we're just getting stuck then

2077
01:16:55,840 --> 01:16:59,600
honestly like it felt like the punchline

2078
01:16:58,000 --> 01:17:01,440
landed and i was like i still don't know

2079
01:16:59,600 --> 01:17:02,880
where this connected and i was like oh

2080
01:17:01,440 --> 01:17:05,440
portal

2081
01:17:02,880 --> 01:17:06,719
i forgot i forgot about them along this

2082
01:17:05,440 --> 01:17:09,040
journey i just want to see how many

2083
01:17:06,719 --> 01:17:11,440
times we can say the word portalage

2084
01:17:09,040 --> 01:17:14,480
it's so many syllables yeah so

2085
01:17:11,440 --> 01:17:18,080
essentially rock saves missy

2086
01:17:14,480 --> 01:17:20,000
from the edge portal portal into portal

2087
01:17:18,080 --> 01:17:21,600
um

2088
01:17:20,000 --> 01:17:25,120
they make it

2089
01:17:21,600 --> 01:17:26,880
down the mountain without dying or being

2090
01:17:25,120 --> 01:17:29,280
crashed into rocks he makes her like a

2091
01:17:26,880 --> 01:17:31,120
makeshift harness

2092
01:17:29,280 --> 01:17:34,640
because he's a pro rock climber that he

2093
01:17:31,120 --> 01:17:36,960
didn't remember being um yep and then

2094
01:17:34,640 --> 01:17:38,239
they live and then the epilogue he's

2095
01:17:36,960 --> 01:17:39,440
like

2096
01:17:38,239 --> 01:17:41,360
i

2097
01:17:39,440 --> 01:17:43,520
so the epilogue they

2098
01:17:41,360 --> 01:17:44,960
go to the opening festival like two or

2099
01:17:43,520 --> 01:17:48,400
three days later

2100
01:17:44,960 --> 01:17:50,320
and kenner plays and tj plays and missy

2101
01:17:48,400 --> 01:17:52,640
plays and rock plays

2102
01:17:50,320 --> 01:17:55,920
the song

2103
01:17:52,640 --> 01:17:59,120
right oh i was it the song i never i

2104
01:17:55,920 --> 01:18:01,360
play something i don't [ __ ] yes so

2105
01:17:59,120 --> 01:18:03,760
missy had already been like headlining

2106
01:18:01,360 --> 01:18:07,679
this festival

2107
01:18:03,760 --> 01:18:10,080
and then as a surprise yep rock and

2108
01:18:07,679 --> 01:18:11,440
kenner and tj all came out and then

2109
01:18:10,080 --> 01:18:13,679
kenner was really nervous because he's

2110
01:18:11,440 --> 01:18:16,159
like what if i suck and then rock was

2111
01:18:13,679 --> 01:18:18,400
like it doesn't matter just us being out

2112
01:18:16,159 --> 01:18:20,400
here saying we survived saying like they

2113
01:18:18,400 --> 01:18:22,320
won't get us down like that's the win in

2114
01:18:20,400 --> 01:18:24,080
itself so like right he's like i could

2115
01:18:22,320 --> 01:18:26,560
sound horrible because of my broken

2116
01:18:24,080 --> 01:18:29,600
throat you could sound horrible

2117
01:18:26,560 --> 01:18:32,000
because of your broken hands trying to

2118
01:18:29,600 --> 01:18:34,960
be a drummer but like people will still

2119
01:18:32,000 --> 01:18:36,640
love us because we are out here trying

2120
01:18:34,960 --> 01:18:39,760
right and so

2121
01:18:36,640 --> 01:18:40,560
they go on the stage and they perform

2122
01:18:39,760 --> 01:18:43,040
i

2123
01:18:40,560 --> 01:18:44,960
was not under the impression it was the

2124
01:18:43,040 --> 01:18:46,880
nine minute song

2125
01:18:44,960 --> 01:18:49,280
but i did it doesn't matter it doesn't

2126
01:18:46,880 --> 01:18:51,360
really matter nor does it really clarify

2127
01:18:49,280 --> 01:18:52,560
um but then in the

2128
01:18:51,360 --> 01:18:55,600
they go

2129
01:18:52,560 --> 01:18:58,159
back to the studio in the basement of

2130
01:18:55,600 --> 01:18:59,760
rock's house and it's like him and missy

2131
01:18:58,159 --> 01:19:02,000
and then he's like

2132
01:18:59,760 --> 01:19:04,640
did you think that version was the final

2133
01:19:02,000 --> 01:19:06,400
version of the song that's not your song

2134
01:19:04,640 --> 01:19:08,080
i wrote you a different song and she's

2135
01:19:06,400 --> 01:19:09,040
like when did you write me a different

2136
01:19:08,080 --> 01:19:10,880
song

2137
01:19:09,040 --> 01:19:12,640
and he's like today while i was on stage

2138
01:19:10,880 --> 01:19:13,840
it just came to me it's a different song

2139
01:19:12,640 --> 01:19:16,960
and she's like oh well like what's the

2140
01:19:13,840 --> 01:19:19,040
name of this song the [ __ ] me song

2141
01:19:16,960 --> 01:19:21,120
and he's like the the will you be with

2142
01:19:19,040 --> 01:19:23,440
me forever song the will you marry me

2143
01:19:21,120 --> 01:19:24,960
song and she's like

2144
01:19:23,440 --> 01:19:27,679
what

2145
01:19:24,960 --> 01:19:30,320
what and then he's like so what's your

2146
01:19:27,679 --> 01:19:32,480
response and she's like the the yes

2147
01:19:30,320 --> 01:19:35,440
song i don't know some [ __ ] absolutely

2148
01:19:32,480 --> 01:19:37,040
song something stupid that's how it ends

2149
01:19:35,440 --> 01:19:40,000
and here's the thing y'all there are so

2150
01:19:37,040 --> 01:19:41,840
many reviews on the line on goodreads

2151
01:19:40,000 --> 01:19:44,080
that are like

2152
01:19:41,840 --> 01:19:46,159
this is such an epic love story and i'm

2153
01:19:44,080 --> 01:19:48,560
like i'm still not convinced it's not

2154
01:19:46,159 --> 01:19:51,600
the evil twin if i'm being completely

2155
01:19:48,560 --> 01:19:54,239
honest i think this might still be mel

2156
01:19:51,600 --> 01:19:56,640
in her final power move that would be

2157
01:19:54,239 --> 01:19:59,520
very verity

2158
01:19:56,640 --> 01:20:01,679
oh verity yes that would be a verity

2159
01:19:59,520 --> 01:20:04,320
move we we should review that at some

2160
01:20:01,679 --> 01:20:06,320
point it would be very calling hoover it

2161
01:20:04,320 --> 01:20:09,199
would be very colleen hoover too and we

2162
01:20:06,320 --> 01:20:12,000
do love colleen hoover

2163
01:20:09,199 --> 01:20:13,600
but yes the the way this ended was one

2164
01:20:12,000 --> 01:20:15,440
of those where i'm like

2165
01:20:13,600 --> 01:20:17,440
what

2166
01:20:15,440 --> 01:20:20,639
i feel as though

2167
01:20:17,440 --> 01:20:22,400
we tried to wrap up everything but like

2168
01:20:20,639 --> 01:20:24,000
here's the thing they make casual

2169
01:20:22,400 --> 01:20:26,000
reference to the fuke states he was

2170
01:20:24,000 --> 01:20:27,920
having when he was living in california

2171
01:20:26,000 --> 01:20:30,080
and i'm like so no one is [ __ ]

2172
01:20:27,920 --> 01:20:33,760
concerned about this kid

2173
01:20:30,080 --> 01:20:34,960
having regular fugue right this 23 year

2174
01:20:33,760 --> 01:20:36,719
old

2175
01:20:34,960 --> 01:20:37,600
kid

2176
01:20:36,719 --> 01:20:39,360
like

2177
01:20:37,600 --> 01:20:40,719
this should be a bigger

2178
01:20:39,360 --> 01:20:42,320
concern

2179
01:20:40,719 --> 01:20:45,520
i'm concerned

2180
01:20:42,320 --> 01:20:49,280
and then for for missy to be like

2181
01:20:45,520 --> 01:20:49,280
you are husband material

2182
01:20:49,360 --> 01:20:54,880
like they went from zero to reconciled

2183
01:20:52,960 --> 01:20:57,120
so fast yeah

2184
01:20:54,880 --> 01:20:59,360
like it really felt as if they had very

2185
01:20:57,120 --> 01:21:01,440
few conversations she just has a bomb

2186
01:20:59,360 --> 01:21:03,679
ass [ __ ] like he got in it and was like

2187
01:21:01,440 --> 01:21:06,719
i need to lock that down and that was it

2188
01:21:03,679 --> 01:21:08,560
okay so here's my question

2189
01:21:06,719 --> 01:21:11,600
what's our rating scale

2190
01:21:08,560 --> 01:21:14,480
twins how many twins no

2191
01:21:11,600 --> 01:21:16,560
no twins i can't how many fugue states

2192
01:21:14,480 --> 01:21:19,520
how many puke states

2193
01:21:16,560 --> 01:21:22,960
how many carabiners how many how many

2194
01:21:19,520 --> 01:21:26,080
hipaa violations yes

2195
01:21:22,960 --> 01:21:28,080
how many hipaa violations

2196
01:21:26,080 --> 01:21:29,840
like other people don't care about hipaa

2197
01:21:28,080 --> 01:21:31,040
violations we should choose something

2198
01:21:29,840 --> 01:21:33,120
more

2199
01:21:31,040 --> 01:21:36,159
more general

2200
01:21:33,120 --> 01:21:38,320
more inclusive yeah um well the other

2201
01:21:36,159 --> 01:21:40,800
thing that bothers me about this is if

2202
01:21:38,320 --> 01:21:43,360
he is truly a person in recovery from

2203
01:21:40,800 --> 01:21:45,440
opiates the amount that he's drinking is

2204
01:21:43,360 --> 01:21:47,280
highly concerned okay i felt that the

2205
01:21:45,440 --> 01:21:49,360
entire time but then i also feel like

2206
01:21:47,280 --> 01:21:50,960
throughout the book we realized

2207
01:21:49,360 --> 01:21:53,120
they were never concerned about the

2208
01:21:50,960 --> 01:21:55,600
opiate use they just wanted him away

2209
01:21:53,120 --> 01:21:57,360
from crazy alice right so i don't know

2210
01:21:55,600 --> 01:21:59,360
if he was an addict so much as he was

2211
01:21:57,360 --> 01:22:02,880
casually using opiates and then

2212
01:21:59,360 --> 01:22:05,120
physically dependent regardless he like

2213
01:22:02,880 --> 01:22:08,960
oh

2214
01:22:05,120 --> 01:22:11,280
i just okay so why don't we rate it by

2215
01:22:08,960 --> 01:22:12,719
the number of carabiners yes i do think

2216
01:22:11,280 --> 01:22:15,520
that is the same

2217
01:22:12,719 --> 01:22:18,320
out of how many

2218
01:22:15,520 --> 01:22:22,320
well they're small

2219
01:22:18,320 --> 01:22:22,320
out of ten but they hold a lot of weight

2220
01:22:22,840 --> 01:22:27,600
oh that's terrible so out of ten

2221
01:22:28,480 --> 01:22:34,400
i'm so ready to be done with this i

2222
01:22:30,480 --> 01:22:34,400
can't um yeah i'm gonna go

2223
01:22:35,360 --> 01:22:42,320
four carabiners that's generous

2224
01:22:39,679 --> 01:22:43,520
i was gonna say three

2225
01:22:42,320 --> 01:22:45,360
i think i was

2226
01:22:43,520 --> 01:22:47,920
i think i was at like three point two

2227
01:22:45,360 --> 01:22:49,679
five and politely rounding up

2228
01:22:47,920 --> 01:22:50,719
so i think we really gave it the same

2229
01:22:49,679 --> 01:22:53,199
review

2230
01:22:50,719 --> 01:22:55,040
oh just settle on three

2231
01:22:53,199 --> 01:22:57,280
um

2232
01:22:55,040 --> 01:22:57,280
so

2233
01:22:57,600 --> 01:23:03,520
i love to review books that we hate

2234
01:23:01,040 --> 01:23:05,679
i also love to review books that we love

2235
01:23:03,520 --> 01:23:08,239
so we do need we need to sprinkle in

2236
01:23:05,679 --> 01:23:10,800
more that we enjoy because this was not

2237
01:23:08,239 --> 01:23:13,520
enjoyable this was painful even on my

2238
01:23:10,800 --> 01:23:16,400
first read-through i am not gonna lie i

2239
01:23:13,520 --> 01:23:18,000
committed one of the worst sins that a

2240
01:23:16,400 --> 01:23:20,960
reader can commit

2241
01:23:18,000 --> 01:23:22,960
about like halfway through i was like i

2242
01:23:20,960 --> 01:23:24,960
cannot and read like the last two

2243
01:23:22,960 --> 01:23:28,080
chapters

2244
01:23:24,960 --> 01:23:29,440
i know yeah i know i know i know what

2245
01:23:28,080 --> 01:23:31,440
because i was like

2246
01:23:29,440 --> 01:23:34,880
you mean to tell me i sat through the

2247
01:23:31,440 --> 01:23:38,320
full version of this [ __ ] twice

2248
01:23:34,880 --> 01:23:41,760
and i had the option to sneak to the the

2249
01:23:38,320 --> 01:23:43,679
audacity no the audacity was you telling

2250
01:23:41,760 --> 01:23:46,080
me to read this [ __ ] book

2251
01:23:43,679 --> 01:23:48,400
i think i said

2252
01:23:46,080 --> 01:23:50,639
you want a train wreck

2253
01:23:48,400 --> 01:23:53,600
like i don't think i ever went into this

2254
01:23:50,639 --> 01:23:56,080
book giving it like a favorable review

2255
01:23:53,600 --> 01:23:57,679
but that said we do have several like

2256
01:23:56,080 --> 01:23:59,280
several books that we've recently talked

2257
01:23:57,679 --> 01:24:00,960
about that we want to review that are

2258
01:23:59,280 --> 01:24:04,400
super fun that

2259
01:24:00,960 --> 01:24:07,679
do not crush our souls the way this one

2260
01:24:04,400 --> 01:24:09,360
did so join us for those as well um you

2261
01:24:07,679 --> 01:24:10,560
should also read this and let us know

2262
01:24:09,360 --> 01:24:13,600
your thoughts because maybe we're

2263
01:24:10,560 --> 01:24:16,719
missing something maybe we're just

2264
01:24:13,600 --> 01:24:19,040
judgmental [ __ ] in fact not maybe we

2265
01:24:16,719 --> 01:24:22,080
are judgmental [ __ ] i will say in

2266
01:24:19,040 --> 01:24:24,719
all fairness this book has everything

2267
01:24:22,080 --> 01:24:26,400
you know like it has everything we have

2268
01:24:24,719 --> 01:24:28,400
identical twins we have childhood

2269
01:24:26,400 --> 01:24:30,960
schizophrenia we have dissociative fugue

2270
01:24:28,400 --> 01:24:32,719
states we have rock stars rock climbing

2271
01:24:30,960 --> 01:24:36,800
we have rock stars climbing we have

2272
01:24:32,719 --> 01:24:41,920
stalkers we do we have murderers we have

2273
01:24:36,800 --> 01:24:41,920
county-wide conspiracy we do like

2274
01:24:42,480 --> 01:24:47,920
we really cover so much ground in this

2275
01:24:44,880 --> 01:24:51,840
book yeah and yet cover no ground in

2276
01:24:47,920 --> 01:24:54,320
this book if anything we lose ground

2277
01:24:51,840 --> 01:24:56,480
yeah i'm giving up ground every time i

2278
01:24:54,320 --> 01:24:59,679
read this one i'm like we are falling

2279
01:24:56,480 --> 01:25:01,360
further behind yeah um but

2280
01:24:59,679 --> 01:25:02,560
read it form your own opinions let us

2281
01:25:01,360 --> 01:25:04,239
know what they are we'd love to hear

2282
01:25:02,560 --> 01:25:05,920
them so thanks so much for joining us

2283
01:25:04,239 --> 01:25:07,600
and can't wait to catch you next time

2284
01:25:05,920 --> 01:25:10,639
thanks y'all bye

2285
01:25:07,600 --> 01:25:13,280
next week on smart club

2286
01:25:10,639 --> 01:25:16,400
they decide they need to eat all she has

2287
01:25:13,280 --> 01:25:18,880
is pizza rolls and there there's a lot

2288
01:25:16,400 --> 01:25:20,560
of detail about these pizza rolls and

2289
01:25:18,880 --> 01:25:21,679
for some reason that really stuck with

2290
01:25:20,560 --> 01:25:22,719
me

2291
01:25:21,679 --> 01:25:25,360
like

2292
01:25:22,719 --> 01:25:27,840
he's he's making he's organizing them on

2293
01:25:25,360 --> 01:25:29,360
the cookie cheek like yeah yeah and then

2294
01:25:27,840 --> 01:25:32,080
it's like

2295
01:25:29,360 --> 01:25:34,000
like so descriptive of like taking a

2296
01:25:32,080 --> 01:25:35,760
bite of the pizza roll i'm like okay

2297
01:25:34,000 --> 01:25:37,760
jesus christ like we've all had a pizza

2298
01:25:35,760 --> 01:25:39,600
roll like everybody has been high at

2299
01:25:37,760 --> 01:25:41,520
some point in college and eating a pizza

2300
01:25:39,600 --> 01:25:43,840
roll we understand the experience not

2301
01:25:41,520 --> 01:25:46,639
just college

2302
01:25:43,840 --> 01:25:48,719
i was trying to be discreet you're like

2303
01:25:46,639 --> 01:25:50,400
no chelsea this book is all predicated

2304
01:25:48,719 --> 01:25:52,239
on what happened in college for them so

2305
01:25:50,400 --> 01:25:53,440
that's what we're focusing on for all of

2306
01:25:52,239 --> 01:25:56,400
us too

2307
01:25:53,440 --> 01:25:57,520
no one has ever smoking weed outside

2308
01:25:56,400 --> 01:26:01,520
smoking

2309
01:25:57,520 --> 01:26:04,239
broken i hate myself for that

2310
01:26:01,520 --> 01:26:07,120
holy [ __ ] i said it i was like that is

2311
01:26:04,239 --> 01:26:08,719
not damn it that is we're doing really

2312
01:26:07,120 --> 01:26:11,679
well with our words today and i feel

2313
01:26:08,719 --> 01:26:11,679
like it blows well

2314
01:26:12,960 --> 01:26:17,920
well that's it for this week's mud [ __ ]

2315
01:26:16,000 --> 01:26:20,880
we hope it was good for you

2316
01:26:17,920 --> 01:26:22,800
because it sure was great for us

2317
01:26:20,880 --> 01:26:24,960
if you're digging what we're doing it

2318
01:26:22,800 --> 01:26:27,040
would mean a lot if you take a minute to

2319
01:26:24,960 --> 01:26:28,880
rate and review the show wherever you're

2320
01:26:27,040 --> 01:26:31,520
listening right now

2321
01:26:28,880 --> 01:26:32,880
maybe tell that sexy someone to let us

2322
01:26:31,520 --> 01:26:34,320
in here

2323
01:26:32,880 --> 01:26:37,199
we love you

2324
01:26:34,320 --> 01:26:38,560
we appreciate you and we'll see you next

2325
01:26:37,199 --> 01:26:41,220
week

2326
01:26:38,560 --> 01:26:46,379
stay spotty

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01:26:41,220 --> 01:26:46,379
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