The Terrible Photographer

You ever buy a twenty-two-dollar airport sandwich and convinced yourself it was worth it?
That’s what this week’s episode is about — except the sandwich is a photography competition.

In Gold Star, Patrick unpacks his love-hate relationship with the American Photographic Artists’ Untitled competition — and what it reveals about the creative world’s obsession with approval. From spreadsheets of judges to award-show absurdities like the Oscars and Grammys, this episode digs into why artists still crave validation from systems they don’t even believe in.

It’s funny, frustrated, and a little too honest — a meditation on why we keep chasing the gold stars that will never love us back.
Featuring a clip from Jim Carrey’s Golden Globes speech, a story about Patrick’s first Houston Addy Award, and a Light Leak that challenges you to make something that doesn’t need anyone’s permission to exist.

You’ll hear about:
  • Why creative competitions feel like overpriced validation
  • The psychology of approval and the decay of validation
  • What Jim Carrey can teach us about artistic hunger
  • How to stop mistaking opportunity for illusion
  • Why the real reward is the right to keep doing the work
Mentioned in this episode:
  • American Photographic Artists (APA Untitled Competition)
  • Jim Carrey’s 2016 Golden Globes speech
  • The Addy Awards (American Advertising Federation)
  • Rick Rubin, Diane Arbus, Van Gogh, Tom Sachs
Light Leak: The Paradox of the Work
What if you stopped making work for judges, algorithms, and invisible audiences — and started making the thing that’s too honest to explain?

What is The Terrible Photographer?

The Terrible Photographer is a storytelling podcast for photographers, designers, and creative humans trying to stay honest in a world that rewards pretending