WEBVTT NOTE This file was generated by Descript 00:00:02.220 --> 00:00:03.210 Welcome. 00:00:03.630 --> 00:00:06.180 All you mystics and magic makers. 00:00:06.690 --> 00:00:11.970 Welcome to the free spirits, witches, weirdos and all the other 00:00:11.970 --> 00:00:15.150 bold and colorful folk out there. 00:00:15.840 --> 00:00:17.670 And I'm so glad you're here. 00:00:18.600 --> 00:00:21.120 This is the She Who Is Seeking Podcast. 00:00:21.600 --> 00:00:22.680 And today.... 00:00:23.259 --> 00:00:29.460 PURPOSE . Ah, The urgency of purpose and being. 00:00:30.960 --> 00:00:35.160 For me, this is a "midlife brilliance" type moment. 00:00:35.760 --> 00:00:40.110 That is overriding "the midlife crisis part. 00:00:41.160 --> 00:00:43.080 But that took a little bit of work. 00:00:44.610 --> 00:00:46.050 I never thought that would happen. 00:00:46.050 --> 00:00:50.100 I didn't think that a midlife crisis was in my future. 00:00:50.880 --> 00:00:53.090 But here we are, I guess. 00:00:53.670 --> 00:01:00.090 And actually I reached it because I thought, "Oh shit. 00:01:00.540 --> 00:01:02.190 I can literally die. 00:01:02.670 --> 00:01:04.080 At any point. 00:01:05.069 --> 00:01:05.790 At any moment. 00:01:07.020 --> 00:01:11.670 And what do I have to show for it besides the fact that I've impacted 00:01:11.700 --> 00:01:14.590 like my little small intimate circle?" 00:01:16.130 --> 00:01:24.660 That made me sort of wake up a little bit and jump to some sort of action. 00:01:26.730 --> 00:01:33.690 Part of my human design basically states that I will never know the 00:01:33.690 --> 00:01:35.970 impact that I've had on people's lives. 00:01:36.390 --> 00:01:40.500 And I've come to accept that for the most part, but I mean, come on! 00:01:42.270 --> 00:01:48.300 I feel like if life could just throw me a bone and I knew that I was on the best 00:01:48.300 --> 00:01:51.420 track possible, it would be so helpful. 00:01:53.310 --> 00:01:57.900 I'd feel like I could really hone in and dig into the work 00:01:57.900 --> 00:01:59.760 without having that sneaky. 00:02:00.240 --> 00:02:04.770 "Is this even worth it" kind of feeling or the whole, like, 00:02:05.220 --> 00:02:06.570 "am I even doing this right? 00:02:08.190 --> 00:02:14.580 " Well, I guess this is why it feels so important to help others because 00:02:15.750 --> 00:02:19.170 I have kind of gone through that, and come out on the other side. 00:02:19.590 --> 00:02:24.900 And I feel like I can help peoples so that they are not stuck in this form of 00:02:24.930 --> 00:02:28.890 stagnation and floundering and suffering. 00:02:29.730 --> 00:02:37.110 And I have to say, that I have some pretty extreme experienced in this field. 00:02:38.430 --> 00:02:42.840 And I've come to learn, that part of my gift. 00:02:44.610 --> 00:02:49.050 It's even just the gift of seeing that there is a gift. 00:02:49.830 --> 00:02:52.350 Um, most things, sorry. 00:02:52.380 --> 00:02:56.250 Yes, that is a ice maker and a siren. 00:02:56.850 --> 00:03:00.240 But I'm going to keep going because before I stopped a bunch of times, because 00:03:00.240 --> 00:03:05.610 there was dog noises and cat noises and somebody bumped into the wall outside. 00:03:06.060 --> 00:03:09.480 And there were people walking by laughing and it's been. 00:03:10.080 --> 00:03:11.250 Up until that stuff. 00:03:11.490 --> 00:03:12.900 So I'm going to just roll with it. 00:03:13.320 --> 00:03:16.290 And hopefully it's a little bit amusing to you. 00:03:17.700 --> 00:03:18.540 And if not, I'm sorry. 00:03:21.360 --> 00:03:24.600 ) I feel like because I endured. 00:03:24.900 --> 00:03:31.800 So much kind of bologna or malarkey. 00:03:31.980 --> 00:03:33.150 I like that word right now. 00:03:33.660 --> 00:03:36.625 I think it fits, I don't really know exactly what malarky's meaning is - turns 00:03:36.625 --> 00:03:44.820 out its rubbish-, but I think it's like kind of like baloney, That I have this 00:03:44.850 --> 00:03:50.760 ability to come out on the other side with empathy and care and connection. 00:03:51.480 --> 00:03:57.150 And I have been told that I have a gift of sharing. 00:03:58.110 --> 00:04:04.060 And a lot of times when I get into flow, I just sort of channel spirit and share 00:04:04.110 --> 00:04:06.960 and it does seem like it's pretty useful. 00:04:07.050 --> 00:04:11.100 I think it's coming through me from a higher place. 00:04:11.670 --> 00:04:13.530 So if it sounds brilliant. 00:04:13.590 --> 00:04:13.980 [Oh my God. 00:04:14.040 --> 00:04:15.270 Literally everything. 00:04:16.140 --> 00:04:16.860 It's making. 00:04:17.100 --> 00:04:17.850 Nice right now. 00:04:18.480 --> 00:04:21.900 I am so sorry, but again, I'm going to roll with it because 00:04:21.900 --> 00:04:24.750 it's been, like at this point. 00:04:25.560 --> 00:04:26.580 I'm gonna just be honest. 00:04:27.150 --> 00:04:28.920 It's 5 43. 00:04:29.400 --> 00:04:32.430 And I started this hat. 00:04:33.900 --> 00:04:34.650 I don't know. 00:04:35.400 --> 00:04:39.510 One 30 or two, and I've kind of tried over and over again. 00:04:40.020 --> 00:04:41.850 And kept having to come back to it. 00:04:42.660 --> 00:04:44.490 Anyway, this is a lot of digression. 00:04:44.700 --> 00:04:47.820 I usually try to stay a little more focused, but you know, 00:04:47.850 --> 00:04:48.780 we're just going to roll with it] 00:04:50.250 --> 00:05:02.220 So,Yeah, I do you have the gift of just being able to be in the icky parts, 00:05:02.430 --> 00:05:05.340 the gritty grubby parts of growth. 00:05:06.030 --> 00:05:12.300 And I don't know, I just think it doesn't scare me as much, as 00:05:12.300 --> 00:05:13.710 it may scare their people. 00:05:14.010 --> 00:05:15.660 And that is just because I'm used to it. 00:05:15.780 --> 00:05:19.590 Not because I'm overly brave or anything,I've just been through a lot. 00:05:20.520 --> 00:05:22.260 So I'm not perfect. 00:05:22.560 --> 00:05:25.950 I never have been, it's not my goal to be perfect. 00:05:26.760 --> 00:05:32.370 Um, but I would say that it, if anything, it's been a steady incline. 00:05:32.400 --> 00:05:36.360 I have an, I don't love this term and I'm sure you don't either, but it does 00:05:36.360 --> 00:05:37.770 kind of sum up what I'm talking about. 00:05:38.910 --> 00:05:41.880 A steady incline of leveling up. 00:05:42.630 --> 00:05:48.300 And that's mostly not due to the fact that I'm so fricking amazing, but if 00:05:48.300 --> 00:05:50.100 you do think I am amazing, thank you. 00:05:50.100 --> 00:05:51.150 You have good taste. 00:05:51.180 --> 00:05:51.870 I appreciate it. 00:05:52.320 --> 00:05:55.080 But rather it's mostly due to the fact that. 00:05:55.830 --> 00:06:02.370 ..The agreement, apparently, that I have in this life, was to start at the bottom. 00:06:03.690 --> 00:06:04.680 And rise up. 00:06:05.700 --> 00:06:10.380 To start to steadily learn and grow and share and be honest. 00:06:10.770 --> 00:06:15.660 And I have gained an incredible amount of skills over the last few years. 00:06:16.200 --> 00:06:20.040 And worked with some incredible, talented and powerful people. 00:06:20.100 --> 00:06:21.730 And I'm looking at you AYG. 00:06:22.200 --> 00:06:25.080 But there is no substitute for the journey. 00:06:26.460 --> 00:06:30.930 And I originally was going to tag her in this, but I'm just being too silly. 00:06:30.960 --> 00:06:32.130 I probably will not do it. 00:06:32.970 --> 00:06:34.500 Um, When. 00:06:35.370 --> 00:06:38.940 You have traveled as I have. 00:06:39.420 --> 00:06:46.380 To the underworld over and over, and made friends...like personal friends, 00:06:47.280 --> 00:06:52.260 like first name basis, with the ferryman and the gatekeepers of the underworld. 00:06:52.830 --> 00:06:56.010 Well, you do tend to learn a few things. 00:06:56.040 --> 00:07:00.750 Some of which are navigating difficult and uncertain waters. 00:07:01.930 --> 00:07:05.820 Openingfrom dark places. 00:07:06.210 --> 00:07:10.590 Just being able to be open and present, even in dark places. 00:07:11.160 --> 00:07:13.800 And finding that little crack of light. 00:07:14.250 --> 00:07:20.970 To navigate your safe return from the underworld back to this place of living. 00:07:21.780 --> 00:07:23.100 And I was going to say. 00:07:23.130 --> 00:07:33.720 Safe return, but like, honestly, I think that it maybe makes it feel a little 00:07:33.720 --> 00:07:38.850 safer and tamer and easier than it feels. 00:07:39.630 --> 00:07:42.870 Like it makes it seem that a little tamer. 00:07:43.380 --> 00:07:44.310 I think, you know what I mean? 00:07:46.560 --> 00:07:52.980 But it has been a return over and over again to a higher and 00:07:52.980 --> 00:07:55.080 fully realized version of myself. 00:07:55.110 --> 00:07:58.050 And that is what I'm calling the leveling up. 00:07:58.800 --> 00:08:02.970 The other thing that I've realized is there's this certain level of fear. 00:08:03.540 --> 00:08:10.140 And anxiety associated with the majority of the big moments in life. 00:08:10.860 --> 00:08:14.370 And actually I've noticed that with a lot of things. 00:08:15.390 --> 00:08:19.380 And, hence the wanting to help others. 00:08:20.460 --> 00:08:26.520 And to help my community, the ones that feel adrift, unmanifested 00:08:26.520 --> 00:08:28.470 ,hopeless, aimless, overwhelmed. 00:08:29.970 --> 00:08:34.410 And I want to be able to help them regulate their nervous 00:08:34.410 --> 00:08:37.950 systems and overcome all the crippling, panic, and fear. 00:08:38.670 --> 00:08:41.340 At a younger age, if possible. 00:08:42.000 --> 00:08:47.400 And if you are my age or older, some of us still are doing the work. 00:08:48.240 --> 00:08:51.060 But how amazing would it have been? 00:08:51.930 --> 00:08:59.550 If you had had something that could make the learning easier?Or some sort 00:08:59.550 --> 00:09:02.370 of a roadmap or a support system. 00:09:04.080 --> 00:09:09.180 If only I would have known this when I was younger. 00:09:09.630 --> 00:09:10.140 I think. 00:09:11.520 --> 00:09:18.480 It just really could have helped me to get where I want to go. 00:09:18.960 --> 00:09:23.840 And where, you know, I still basically am goin sg, sooner. 00:09:26.250 --> 00:09:31.620 So if I had only done this and that all the way back then. 00:09:32.640 --> 00:09:34.200 When I knew there was a call. 00:09:34.860 --> 00:09:40.380 When I literally heard the call of spirit and was answering with, "I know, right?". 00:09:41.670 --> 00:09:48.480 I did do the work, but not in this big way that was out and open. 00:09:49.650 --> 00:09:54.540 I was a professional at being covert, cagey, hidden, 00:09:54.540 --> 00:09:56.460 quiet-working in the background. 00:09:57.330 --> 00:10:00.330 And I have talked about that before and probably will again, 00:10:00.330 --> 00:10:02.090 because seriously it was my M.O. 00:10:03.980 --> 00:10:10.710 But now I know that I'm in this really strange place of new trust. 00:10:11.760 --> 00:10:18.750 Where I trust in listening to the voice that says it's safe to be heard 00:10:18.870 --> 00:10:20.650 and it's safe to me to be listened to. 00:10:22.380 --> 00:10:25.530 I feel that it's safe now, but I haven't always, and that is the point. 00:10:26.160 --> 00:10:30.690 And that's the thing about that, Witch Wound or a persecution 00:10:30.690 --> 00:10:36.450 complex, or even just protecting yourself against fear or shame. 00:10:37.050 --> 00:10:42.060 It might make you feel safer for a time, but dammit, that crap catches up with you. 00:10:42.690 --> 00:10:47.130 Especially if one is open to the fact that they have a mission or 00:10:47.130 --> 00:10:49.260 calling or purpose or destiny. 00:10:49.890 --> 00:10:51.570 You just have to act on it. 00:10:52.230 --> 00:10:55.560 And it's clear that you can take steps to counteract it. 00:10:55.560 --> 00:10:57.240 And a lot of us even know what those things are. 00:10:57.750 --> 00:11:00.360 But for me, it came down to- 00:11:01.800 --> 00:11:03.300 What is more uncomfortable? 00:11:03.720 --> 00:11:06.990 Stretching out of the comfort zone, and allowing space 00:11:06.990 --> 00:11:08.490 for something new to happen? 00:11:09.030 --> 00:11:10.020 Or staying the same. 00:11:12.300 --> 00:11:17.550 So I decided to share these things with you from this perspective, this 00:11:17.610 --> 00:11:20.400 personal lens, and I know it's risky. 00:11:21.030 --> 00:11:24.900 Because it can be seen as a weakness and doesn't every person 00:11:24.900 --> 00:11:26.850 peddling, any wisdom need to be. 00:11:27.270 --> 00:11:28.890 Strong and detached. 00:11:28.920 --> 00:11:33.450 And on the other side of it, So I am taking a gamble and I'm 00:11:33.450 --> 00:11:36.090 saying, no, it's not realistic. 00:11:36.600 --> 00:11:38.910 It's not realistic to pretend to be perfect. 00:11:38.940 --> 00:11:41.580 It's not realistic to pretend that you have all the answers. 00:11:42.790 --> 00:11:48.880 So, yes, we can pretend that we have the answers if we want to, but I don't. 00:11:48.970 --> 00:11:56.350 I'm completely done with trying to have all the answers trying to be perfect. 00:11:56.410 --> 00:11:59.380 That was never really a goal of mine, anyway, I'm not one of those, or at 00:11:59.380 --> 00:12:00.850 least I haven't been for a long time. 00:12:01.570 --> 00:12:05.890 But I am done with the whole package of putting on airs. 00:12:06.370 --> 00:12:08.920 And I just want to keep it raw with you. 00:12:09.550 --> 00:12:13.720 Sometimes I do know the answers, sometimes I don't. 00:12:14.230 --> 00:12:17.140 It can be both on the same day, or in the same conversation, 00:12:17.170 --> 00:12:18.520 or even in the same sentence. 00:12:19.420 --> 00:12:23.110 I'm in touch with my humanity and all of its stickiness. 00:12:23.710 --> 00:12:27.310 And I am okay with letting you see that. 00:12:29.350 --> 00:12:36.700 And I don't need, nor, want people to have to look up to me or put me on a pedestal. 00:12:38.740 --> 00:12:41.770 Not that you would anyway, but you, I think, you know what I'm saying? 00:12:42.100 --> 00:12:44.050 Up there, you have to worry about falling off. 00:12:44.320 --> 00:12:45.460 Or being knocked off. 00:12:45.940 --> 00:12:49.450 And I'd rather be rooted in the experience. 00:12:50.140 --> 00:12:55.120 Down with the plants where I can lay on the ground and get comfy closing my eyes. 00:12:55.630 --> 00:12:57.190 Feeling the breeze. 00:12:57.740 --> 00:13:01.570 Where I am earthy and supported and have dirt under my nails. 00:13:02.680 --> 00:13:04.300 And I want you there with me. 00:13:04.750 --> 00:13:09.130 And it can still be real and have value. 00:13:09.910 --> 00:13:16.390 And I can still be a medley of knowledge, baggage, experience, wisdom 00:13:16.390 --> 00:13:19.300 and weirdness, because it's true. 00:13:19.420 --> 00:13:20.830 I am that package. 00:13:21.190 --> 00:13:25.690 And this is a side note, but I often find it really funny because a lot of 00:13:25.750 --> 00:13:30.220 spiritual teachers or mentors or people that do work similar to me, tend to be. 00:13:30.670 --> 00:13:35.350 Very like serious and speaking like that really like beautiful, 00:13:35.350 --> 00:13:37.390 calm voice, which is great. 00:13:37.390 --> 00:13:39.520 And I love that and I have some of those. 00:13:39.910 --> 00:13:45.410 Wisdom keepers in my inner sanctum, and in my life. 00:13:45.460 --> 00:13:48.520 I respect them, but I am not that person. 00:13:49.120 --> 00:13:53.230 I can have a lot of knowledge that is important. 00:13:54.070 --> 00:13:58.450 And it can be helpful, but also I'm a little bit goofy and weird and, you 00:13:58.450 --> 00:14:03.220 know, I just am, and, so, I don't know. 00:14:03.670 --> 00:14:05.560 I'm amusing, but also helpful. 00:14:05.800 --> 00:14:06.640 So there you go. 00:14:09.220 --> 00:14:14.560 And I am at this point in my life, utterly confident in my ability to be of 00:14:14.560 --> 00:14:17.650 service to those who find their way to me. 00:14:17.680 --> 00:14:23.950 And I will always share what I figured out the way to get through something. 00:14:25.330 --> 00:14:27.610 What I know what I've learned. 00:14:27.640 --> 00:14:29.950 Maybe it's the right answer. 00:14:29.950 --> 00:14:31.570 Maybe there's no right answer. 00:14:31.570 --> 00:14:33.100 Maybe it's just one possible way. 00:14:33.670 --> 00:14:38.620 But there's usually a lot of possible ways and sometimes you 00:14:38.620 --> 00:14:41.530 just need somebody to hold space for you while you figured that out. 00:14:42.790 --> 00:14:49.240 Sometimes the hardest part is probably staying connected to your why. 00:14:50.470 --> 00:14:52.720 Why do you want to keep going? 00:14:53.260 --> 00:14:54.760 Where are you headed? 00:14:55.720 --> 00:15:00.490 How do you get back on the horse when that butt hole keeps bucking you off? 00:15:01.030 --> 00:15:01.870 I will tell you. 00:15:02.320 --> 00:15:05.280 Because I am super well-versed in the experience. 00:15:05.740 --> 00:15:09.520 And hopefully you laughed at the word butthole ,because I did. 00:15:12.250 --> 00:15:13.740 Oh, my God, I'm not high. 00:15:14.630 --> 00:15:19.720 I mean, I have had Schisandra,and pomegranate. 00:15:20.050 --> 00:15:21.370 But those are not drugs. 00:15:21.400 --> 00:15:22.330 So I don't know. 00:15:22.360 --> 00:15:23.200 I'm just a goofy today. 00:15:23.290 --> 00:15:23.650 Whatever. 00:15:27.430 --> 00:15:27.940 I don't know. 00:15:28.000 --> 00:15:30.670 Part of it is being plugged into community. 00:15:31.510 --> 00:15:33.730 One that wants the best for you. 00:15:33.760 --> 00:15:35.380 And will give you a boost. 00:15:35.620 --> 00:15:37.420 To get back on that horse. 00:15:37.900 --> 00:15:41.350 Or maybe introduce you to a nicer horse. 00:15:42.550 --> 00:15:44.380 And you're safer than you think. 00:15:44.710 --> 00:15:46.180 To do the things you want to do. 00:15:46.750 --> 00:15:51.190 You have more power to affect the changes you want to see in the world, 00:15:51.970 --> 00:15:54.070 and you are giving yourself credit for. 00:15:56.110 --> 00:15:59.440 You can be both confident that you know what you're doing and 00:15:59.440 --> 00:16:03.430 ready to do it ,while at the same time, be shaking in your boots. 00:16:04.180 --> 00:16:05.440 Ask me how I know that. 00:16:07.000 --> 00:16:08.950 I think you can figure out how I know that. 00:16:10.270 --> 00:16:10.810 So. 00:16:11.500 --> 00:16:12.790 Slow down. 00:16:13.330 --> 00:16:14.500 And take a breath. 00:16:15.400 --> 00:16:18.310 And allow yourself to feel' your why'? 00:16:20.080 --> 00:16:22.690 Remember that your are safe. 00:16:23.500 --> 00:16:26.980 Think of all the other people who want you to feel great. 00:16:27.730 --> 00:16:29.290 And want the best for you. 00:16:31.270 --> 00:16:39.760 And, honestly, this was not my original intention, but if you need more smart 00:16:39.760 --> 00:16:41.950 and lovely people in your corner. 00:16:42.430 --> 00:16:48.260 You could come over to the "Super Secret Magic Club", over on shewhoisseeking.com. 00:16:49.150 --> 00:16:52.930 And there's a waiting list where you can sign up for my little 00:16:52.930 --> 00:16:58.180 supportive community, which is led by me where we can do serious work. 00:16:58.480 --> 00:17:01.540 But in a light and fun way. 00:17:02.170 --> 00:17:09.760 And it is going to be a great container of love and fun and support and wisdom. 00:17:10.660 --> 00:17:13.330 And sharing that feels like a tea party. 00:17:13.450 --> 00:17:16.870 And also I will encourage you to have tea. 00:17:18.730 --> 00:17:23.290 And it is a place where you can cultivate and practice. 00:17:24.520 --> 00:17:29.830 Putting all of the knowledge and gifts that you have together. 00:17:30.460 --> 00:17:36.850 Into the fabric of your days, where you can just learn to weave them together. 00:17:37.440 --> 00:17:43.180 BecauseSo many of us are doing a lot of work, right? 00:17:43.240 --> 00:17:48.250 At any given time, and learning all sorts of new information. 00:17:49.420 --> 00:17:52.360 But sometimes it's hard to ground it into a practice. 00:17:53.830 --> 00:17:59.320 So that was, I guess, A little ad for my thing, but going on. 00:17:59.660 --> 00:18:04.480 This week, interestingly, I encountered a lot of signs. 00:18:05.110 --> 00:18:09.850 When I was out walking at the park, I saw a rattlesnake. 00:18:10.870 --> 00:18:15.790 And I know that there's quite a few snakes out there right now because 00:18:16.030 --> 00:18:21.070 I'm recording this at the tail end of August and Southern California. 00:18:21.100 --> 00:18:28.780 And it's ho t, but, a lot of times the rattlesnakes, you 00:18:28.780 --> 00:18:30.310 know, they don't want to be seen. 00:18:30.360 --> 00:18:35.380 They are hiding somewhere, off the beaten path. 00:18:36.550 --> 00:18:39.190 And you don't see them very often. 00:18:39.220 --> 00:18:43.960 So, it did seem somewhat remarkable to me. 00:18:45.670 --> 00:18:48.160 So I did let that medicine in. 00:18:49.090 --> 00:18:56.350 And the snake is an animal that is close to the earth energies. 00:18:57.070 --> 00:19:05.200 And it represents life force in that, definitely that deep chi type life force. 00:19:05.950 --> 00:19:15.400 And it also is the unconscious drives and primal instincts that rule a lot 00:19:15.400 --> 00:19:21.250 of creative forces , as well as just like, straight up life-energy forces. 00:19:21.910 --> 00:19:25.900 And I was reminded to investigate. 00:19:26.530 --> 00:19:29.620 How it is that I stay recharged. 00:19:30.310 --> 00:19:32.590 And where my energy comes from. 00:19:34.060 --> 00:19:40.990 Because that is one of the things that, seeing that type of medicine 00:19:41.020 --> 00:19:43.270 out in the world is asking you to do. 00:19:44.890 --> 00:19:46.810 And then another. 00:19:47.590 --> 00:19:51.940 Thing I encountered was this ginormous bumblebee. 00:19:52.690 --> 00:19:57.820 And this was not like a little honeybee, but I tend to think, 00:19:58.750 --> 00:20:03.100 when I think of rattlesnake, I also think of just snakes on the whole. 00:20:03.640 --> 00:20:08.920 And when I think of a bumblebee or a carpenter bee or whatever, I 00:20:08.920 --> 00:20:12.040 also think of the bee as a whole. 00:20:14.110 --> 00:20:16.420 But bees are hardworking. 00:20:16.870 --> 00:20:18.760 They're community focused. 00:20:19.150 --> 00:20:23.950 They enjoy the sweetness and life force and flowers and the sun. 00:20:24.400 --> 00:20:25.750 Working together. 00:20:26.440 --> 00:20:27.250 They have. 00:20:28.600 --> 00:20:29.920 This nectar. 00:20:30.460 --> 00:20:35.080 Of their labor that is sustaining and long lasting. 00:20:35.830 --> 00:20:40.130 And side note, did you know that they have found honey in Egypttian 00:20:40.150 --> 00:20:42.970 tombs that is still liquid. 00:20:43.510 --> 00:20:44.470 Isn't that wild? 00:20:45.850 --> 00:20:48.490 I just thought it was very interesting. 00:20:48.550 --> 00:20:48.850 Okay. 00:20:49.210 --> 00:20:53.340 I'm going on...and then I also saw a dragon fly. 00:20:54.800 --> 00:21:05.830 I saw this dragon fly and it really did feel like it was a messenger from spirit. 00:21:06.580 --> 00:21:10.000 And a reminder of my spirit guides in general. 00:21:10.570 --> 00:21:14.590 And they're known to reveal the path. 00:21:15.640 --> 00:21:17.890 Your path and your magic. 00:21:18.760 --> 00:21:23.830 And they remind you to keep your eyes open to deceptions, deceits, 00:21:24.190 --> 00:21:26.500 false illusions, and false hopes. 00:21:27.520 --> 00:21:31.150 And they're also about transformation and adaptability. 00:21:32.170 --> 00:21:36.280 So, between the signs from the universe. 00:21:36.820 --> 00:21:43.090 And the wisdom I brought back out from meditation, and also the 00:21:43.090 --> 00:21:49.540 compassionate brilliance of one of my amazing witchy elder friends. 00:21:50.140 --> 00:21:52.750 ..I just really had my eyes opened. 00:21:53.410 --> 00:21:55.540 And my focus was recalibrated. 00:21:56.110 --> 00:21:58.090 And the busy work fell away. 00:21:58.900 --> 00:22:05.530 And I had these incorrect destinations that came off of the itinerary. 00:22:05.530 --> 00:22:06.760 They just dropped away. 00:22:07.420 --> 00:22:10.060 And my boundaries, which have been pretty good lately. 00:22:10.660 --> 00:22:12.100 Became even better. 00:22:13.000 --> 00:22:16.540 And we'll continue to get stronger. 00:22:17.830 --> 00:22:19.570 And to keep out more. 00:22:21.400 --> 00:22:23.560 And I just. 00:22:24.640 --> 00:22:31.840 Realized that, there are people who say that they don't have time for meditation 00:22:31.840 --> 00:22:34.450 or for nature or self care or ritual. 00:22:35.380 --> 00:22:40.450 But to me, these things are what brings my life together. 00:22:41.080 --> 00:22:46.390 And it keeps me in my magic and it connects me to what's important. 00:22:48.520 --> 00:22:54.490 At one point, I realized that I just wanted my life, and my spiritual 00:22:54.520 --> 00:23:00.460 work, and my life's purpose, to all be centered around the same tenants. 00:23:00.490 --> 00:23:03.280 I just wanted it to basically all be the same thing. 00:23:05.410 --> 00:23:10.000 I wanted to be able to go deep and live in a place where I carved out 00:23:10.000 --> 00:23:16.000 for myself, a life that felt magic, nourishing, uplifting, inspirational. 00:23:16.750 --> 00:23:20.290 And what I've worked towards, is bringing that together. 00:23:21.160 --> 00:23:25.720 Building it up, strengthening it , and defining it for myself so that I could 00:23:25.720 --> 00:23:29.740 bring it out into the world for others. 00:23:32.230 --> 00:23:35.110 The things that I love the most, are connecting with 00:23:35.140 --> 00:23:37.150 nature and all of its glory. 00:23:37.900 --> 00:23:39.280 And connecting with people. 00:23:40.540 --> 00:23:46.250 And so, that's kind of just like what I have been building my life around. 00:23:46.250 --> 00:23:46.650 [Sorry. 00:23:47.610 --> 00:23:52.990 That's the dog.] 00:23:52.990 --> 00:24:01.000 Before I used to do individual coaching, but I've put that on 00:24:01.000 --> 00:24:09.250 hold because I just have felt this calling to be more connectedto a 00:24:09.250 --> 00:24:11.560 bigger community in a deep way. 00:24:12.190 --> 00:24:18.640 So I've really just been working on building that Super Secret Magic 00:24:18.640 --> 00:24:24.040 Club to be that small intimate group that safe and supportive. 00:24:24.640 --> 00:24:30.700 And that gets you dialed into your own truth, and pointed at the spaciousness and 00:24:30.700 --> 00:24:50.200 pleasures, dialed into your true north and just really connected to your pleasure. 00:24:50.950 --> 00:24:56.080 And knowing what action steps to take, and having a place where you 00:24:56.080 --> 00:25:01.240 can cultivate a practice that puts all of the knowledge and gifts that 00:25:01.240 --> 00:25:08.530 we're all always picking up, together and woven into the fabric of our body 00:25:08.530 --> 00:25:11.080 and woven into the fabric of our days. 00:25:12.350 --> 00:25:20.860 I Just really realized that I have too much I want to share, to have to go back 00:25:20.860 --> 00:25:29.320 and forth between being in my magic and then all the Muggle work that is required 00:25:29.320 --> 00:25:38.350 of some people, and, you know, I used to do that, but, I just want to stay in 00:25:38.350 --> 00:25:44.140 this magic so I can bring forth messages easily and connect with people easily. 00:25:44.650 --> 00:25:48.820 And I tend to attract these multi passionate brainy people. 00:25:49.480 --> 00:25:54.610 Who really need help connecting to their divine nature. 00:25:54.670 --> 00:25:59.380 And in fact, I know some of the people I'm thinking of, some of you, are 00:25:59.380 --> 00:26:06.940 definitely that . You're that brainiac, very intelligent, reads every book 00:26:06.940 --> 00:26:10.120 there is,takes a ton of courses. 00:26:10.450 --> 00:26:15.430 Knows the things, with their thinking mind... 00:26:16.210 --> 00:26:18.070 but that's the thing... 00:26:19.360 --> 00:26:22.420 reading the books, isn't always enough. 00:26:22.780 --> 00:26:25.010 Learning the material , isn't always enough. 00:26:26.540 --> 00:26:33.050 The way that we reap the real benefits of our knowledge is to put it into practice. 00:26:34.040 --> 00:26:40.370 So my strength has really always been taking that more amorphous 00:26:40.400 --> 00:26:45.950 complicated topic or construct and breaking it down into tangible 00:26:45.950 --> 00:26:48.500 physical representations of the work. 00:26:48.980 --> 00:26:55.340 It's like this energetic binding between the concept, and then something that 00:26:55.340 --> 00:27:01.130 we can actually do in our lives that we can bring the magic, basically through 00:27:01.130 --> 00:27:03.530 the ether, into our body, into our life. 00:27:04.520 --> 00:27:11.720 And when we do that, then things can become embodied. 00:27:12.110 --> 00:27:20.210 That practice can be part of the energy that we bring, and it can 00:27:20.210 --> 00:27:22.340 become part of our embodied self. 00:27:23.120 --> 00:27:27.590 And so, it's one of the things that I love doing. 00:27:28.010 --> 00:27:33.170 And if you just want to like keep showing up here, it's the kind of thing that 00:27:33.170 --> 00:27:39.009 I love talking about and bits of that bleed through all the time, don't think 00:27:39.009 --> 00:27:43.149 that I'm only bringing this up because of the fact that I have a little group. 00:27:43.569 --> 00:27:46.749 But it's basically to help you get to know a little bit more about 00:27:46.749 --> 00:27:52.359 me, and the way that I picture energy and what I do in my work. 00:27:53.589 --> 00:27:58.969 But if you want to, if you would like to consider grounding your 00:27:59.889 --> 00:28:04.989 earthy magic, then you could join our group of mystics and seekers. 00:28:05.559 --> 00:28:07.179 At the Super Secret Magic Club. 00:28:07.269 --> 00:28:08.169 And I love saying that. 00:28:08.589 --> 00:28:11.469 And that is at shewhoisseeking.com. 00:28:12.399 --> 00:28:16.689 And like I said, there's going to be a little wait list you can join 00:28:16.689 --> 00:28:17.769 that and I would love to have you. 00:28:18.489 --> 00:28:25.389 And I would love to thank you for spending your precious time with me today. 00:28:26.439 --> 00:28:32.589 And if you want to leave a message, you can do it at the following phone number. 00:28:33.219 --> 00:28:38.529 Which is OK-seeking-0 [zero]. 00:28:39.969 --> 00:28:47.079 That's area code {6 5 7} 3 3 5-4 6 4 0, which spells out. 00:28:48.759 --> 00:28:50.989 OK-Seeking-0 {zero}. 00:28:53.559 --> 00:28:57.849 Again, area code 6 5 7 -3 3 5 -4 6 4 0. 00:28:58.689 --> 00:29:02.289 And I'd love to hear what you've gotten out of the podcast, what your 00:29:02.289 --> 00:29:04.059 thoughts are, what you have to say. 00:29:04.659 --> 00:29:09.339 And I would love to continue the conversation with you. 00:29:09.819 --> 00:29:11.559 Also, you can find me on Instagram. 00:29:12.039 --> 00:29:17.549 And over there also I'm @shewhoisseeking. 00:29:18.579 --> 00:29:23.459 And like I said, if you want to check out my website, that is shewhoisseeking.com. 00:29:24.219 --> 00:29:28.299 And I'm so grateful that you were here with me today. 00:29:28.869 --> 00:29:30.789 You sat through. 00:29:31.809 --> 00:29:33.159 My goofiness. 00:29:33.819 --> 00:29:39.129 And my silliness and my dog walking around, and my cat giving himself a bath 00:29:39.129 --> 00:29:43.809 right here, and the Ticki ticki ticki of Stella's nails as she walks around. 00:29:44.319 --> 00:29:47.679 Um, But, you know, Actually, this is like real life. 00:29:48.219 --> 00:29:57.759 This is a peek into "still being in your purpose and also having fun." 00:29:58.599 --> 00:30:00.339 And that's just like how I like to roll. 00:30:01.069 --> 00:30:08.589 If you think anybody would like this podcast, please, it would mean so 00:30:08.589 --> 00:30:12.069 much to me if you share it with a friend or on social media, or leave a 00:30:12.099 --> 00:30:14.209 five star review on apple podcasts. 00:30:14.229 --> 00:30:18.549 As you know, from listening to other podcasts, that really is the way that 00:30:19.029 --> 00:30:24.279 people are able to find your podcasts because they will not promote your 00:30:24.279 --> 00:30:28.989 podcast or share it until you have quite a few good reviews on there. 00:30:29.919 --> 00:30:33.459 And so thank you again, thank you so much. 00:30:33.489 --> 00:30:37.359 And the music is the beautiful song. 00:30:37.689 --> 00:30:38.829 'Snake river." 00:30:39.319 --> 00:30:41.109 By Siren and the Sea. 00:30:41.769 --> 00:30:45.759 And I probably shouldn't do this cause I was so goofy. 00:30:46.269 --> 00:30:49.749 She's a very serious practitioner. 00:30:51.459 --> 00:30:52.479 She's not a goofball. 00:30:52.809 --> 00:30:58.299 But if you are interested in working with,like, a bad-ass hardcore 00:30:58.329 --> 00:31:03.349 professional, magical practitioner, who is mammothly talented...she's 00:31:04.059 --> 00:31:05.379 a witch...she's a mentor. 00:31:05.379 --> 00:31:06.549 She's amazing. 00:31:07.269 --> 00:31:09.989 And I mentioned her earlier as AYG. 00:31:10.689 --> 00:31:12.789 Her name is Amanda Gates Garcia. 00:31:12.849 --> 00:31:21.309 And you can book sessions with her at the website, Oracle of Los angeles.com. 00:31:22.179 --> 00:31:24.399 Oracleoflosangeles.com. 00:31:25.869 --> 00:31:27.579 Also, she has a great book. 00:31:28.059 --> 00:31:31.679 Which is " Memoir Of a Witch by Amanda Yates Garcia. 00:31:32.159 --> 00:31:35.759 It's a beautiful cover, and a great book. 00:31:36.509 --> 00:31:41.699 And tell her that Meena sent you and, that you are ready to be a BOSS 00:31:41.749 --> 00:31:43.289 and youre there to work with her. 00:31:45.329 --> 00:31:50.189 Well, I love you guys so much and maybe next time I'll be goofy. 00:31:50.189 --> 00:31:51.149 Maybe it will be serious. 00:31:51.149 --> 00:31:51.839 You never know. 00:31:52.259 --> 00:31:52.739 I don't know. 00:31:53.129 --> 00:31:53.639 We'll just see. 00:31:53.879 --> 00:31:54.239 Okay. 00:31:54.569 --> 00:31:55.409 Bye, I love you. 00:31:55.739 --> 00:31:56.549 And. 00:31:57.239 --> 00:31:58.739 Victory to the goddess. 00:32:00.629 --> 00:32:01.139 Bye 00:32:04.049 --> 00:32:07.349 And I thought I would explain why I'm leaving the goofiness 00:32:07.349 --> 00:32:09.179 in, which is basically... 00:32:10.049 --> 00:32:13.589 it's getting late and my kids are going to come home and I won't be able to 00:32:13.589 --> 00:32:16.719 get it all edited out or re-recorded. 00:32:16.859 --> 00:32:23.079 And I thought, why not just let people know that this is part of the real you. 00:32:23.759 --> 00:32:24.809 Which is goofy. 00:32:25.319 --> 00:32:29.879 And not perfect,and, kind of silly. 00:32:31.079 --> 00:32:32.879 And kind of informative. 00:32:34.739 --> 00:32:35.129 But yeah. 00:32:35.579 --> 00:32:39.869 I would rather have the podcast come out on time. 00:32:40.949 --> 00:32:47.309 And be goofy rather than....ya know...it would be really late, like a 00:32:47.309 --> 00:32:51.809 few days late if I don't let it roll. 00:32:51.869 --> 00:32:52.259 Okay. 00:32:53.099 --> 00:32:53.879 You're probably gone. 00:32:54.209 --> 00:32:56.269 Probably nobody's heard this, but if you did and you think 00:32:56.269 --> 00:32:57.389 it's funny, you can let me know. 00:32:57.929 --> 00:33:08.699 At the phone line which is OK-seeking-0 [zero.] I need 00:33:08.699 --> 00:33:09.989 to come up with like a jingle. 00:33:10.979 --> 00:33:16.799 I probably really sound like I'm on something, but I promise you, I am not. 00:33:19.199 --> 00:33:22.319 Um, Not that it would be a problem if i was, i guess, but 00:33:22.319 --> 00:33:23.969 i'm not ,okay, love you, bye!