1 00:00:13,040 --> 00:00:16,160 Hello and welcome back to my podcast. 2 00:00:16,720 --> 00:00:20,080 Working towards our purpose. So it's been a minute. 3 00:00:20,880 --> 00:00:24,600 Welcome back for me as well. I think it's probably been like 4 00:00:24,600 --> 00:00:27,280 six plus months since I released an episode 5 00:00:28,880 --> 00:00:32,700 and actually it's probably been longer than that. But bringing it back 6 00:00:33,020 --> 00:00:35,980 and feeling inspired and 7 00:00:36,780 --> 00:00:40,220 kind of going through some changes in my life 8 00:00:40,300 --> 00:00:43,660 and feeling like it's the right time to bring this back. 9 00:00:43,820 --> 00:00:47,660 So it's going to be a little bit different. I think I'm going to 10 00:00:47,660 --> 00:00:51,380 have far less guest interviews and more sort of 11 00:00:51,380 --> 00:00:55,220 shorter episodes that are kind of me talking about different sorts of 12 00:00:55,220 --> 00:00:58,830 topics that I want to cover. Not gonna put a super 13 00:00:58,830 --> 00:01:02,390 goal on it right now. Ideally it would be great if it was weekly. 14 00:01:02,710 --> 00:01:06,390 Um, but, you know, just gonna kind of start and, and see where it goes. 15 00:01:06,710 --> 00:01:10,110 Um, but I do want it to be a little bit different in the fact 16 00:01:10,110 --> 00:01:13,629 that it's gonna be shorter, it's gonna be mostly me, and it's also 17 00:01:13,629 --> 00:01:17,190 gonna be unedited and not as like perfect 18 00:01:17,270 --> 00:01:21,070 as the last one was. I used to spend a lot of time editing the 19 00:01:21,070 --> 00:01:24,910 previous podcast, the previous version of this podcast. Um, and 20 00:01:24,910 --> 00:01:28,150 this one's just gonna be a little bit more unfiltered. 21 00:01:29,190 --> 00:01:33,030 So hopefully that, you know, works out and 22 00:01:33,750 --> 00:01:37,510 we'll both kind of see how it, what it turns into. 23 00:01:37,590 --> 00:01:41,270 It's definitely a little bit more nerve wracking for me, a little more, 24 00:01:41,910 --> 00:01:45,630 you know, overthinking. And that's kind of the point of this, is to not 25 00:01:45,630 --> 00:01:49,390 overthink it and to just do it. So with that being 26 00:01:49,390 --> 00:01:52,950 said, I want to talk about the topic that I got today and 27 00:01:52,950 --> 00:01:56,710 then at the end I'll talk about maybe what's going to 28 00:01:56,710 --> 00:02:00,390 be going forward with this podcast and what to expect. So 29 00:02:00,390 --> 00:02:03,150 that being said, today I want to talk about music. 30 00:02:04,830 --> 00:02:08,550 So music is for me, something that I've done a 31 00:02:08,550 --> 00:02:12,270 pretty good portion of my life. Started playing guitar in 32 00:02:12,270 --> 00:02:15,950 high school and kind of never stopped being 33 00:02:16,030 --> 00:02:18,190 more and more and more involved in music. And 34 00:02:19,870 --> 00:02:23,230 I've always been really quiet about it. So part of 35 00:02:23,860 --> 00:02:27,620 this episode and some changes that I'm making going forward 36 00:02:28,180 --> 00:02:31,980 is that I want to talk about doing music more. I want to talk about 37 00:02:31,980 --> 00:02:35,580 me doing music more and sharing what I do. I had 38 00:02:35,580 --> 00:02:39,060 a conversation with a close friend 39 00:02:39,140 --> 00:02:42,020 recently and he kind of encouraged me to 40 00:02:43,380 --> 00:02:45,780 share more of what I do. And 41 00:02:46,900 --> 00:02:50,610 taking his advice and he, yeah, we'll get into 42 00:02:50,610 --> 00:02:54,170 that. But yeah, so some changes 43 00:02:54,170 --> 00:02:58,010 happening in my life. Gonna be leaving a job that I've been doing 44 00:02:58,010 --> 00:03:01,530 for a little bit now. I'M kind of 45 00:03:01,530 --> 00:03:05,090 ending a business that I had trying to get into 46 00:03:05,090 --> 00:03:08,770 something new. Don't quite know what it is yet, but feel 47 00:03:08,770 --> 00:03:12,050 very motivated and encouraged to move in that direction. 48 00:03:13,090 --> 00:03:16,940 So I'm taking that inspiration and kind of running with it. 49 00:03:17,260 --> 00:03:20,940 Um, don't have another job lined up and 50 00:03:21,500 --> 00:03:24,780 kind of worried about that, but also kind of 51 00:03:24,780 --> 00:03:27,980 trusting and, you know, 52 00:03:28,220 --> 00:03:31,860 thinking that it will work itself out and I will be able 53 00:03:31,860 --> 00:03:35,620 to figure it out regardless. So kind 54 00:03:35,620 --> 00:03:39,460 of taking a step of trust in this pivot of my 55 00:03:39,460 --> 00:03:43,050 life. But I've noticed that there's, you know, my job 56 00:03:43,050 --> 00:03:46,770 specifically that I'm just ending now was leading 57 00:03:46,770 --> 00:03:50,210 to a lot of unhappiness in my life. And it was something that at one 58 00:03:50,210 --> 00:03:53,970 time worked, but it's not now, and I need to change 59 00:03:53,970 --> 00:03:57,290 that. So kind of backtracking again. But 60 00:03:58,570 --> 00:04:01,370 again, the point of this episode and 61 00:04:02,890 --> 00:04:06,490 what I want to talk about is music. And for me, that 62 00:04:06,490 --> 00:04:10,130 is one thing in my life that I am confident in 63 00:04:10,130 --> 00:04:13,620 and that I know that I want to do. And I know when I'm 64 00:04:14,100 --> 00:04:17,380 making music and writing and creating and recording, 65 00:04:18,260 --> 00:04:21,900 it's something that I feel is true to me and 66 00:04:21,900 --> 00:04:25,220 I feel alive when I'm doing that. I feel like I'm 67 00:04:25,700 --> 00:04:29,220 using my time in the way that I want to be using it. 68 00:04:29,860 --> 00:04:33,660 I feel just a greater 69 00:04:33,660 --> 00:04:37,220 sense of purpose when I'm. When I'm able to create something that I like. 70 00:04:38,100 --> 00:04:41,900 And. And I, for the longest time in my life, just kind of ignored it 71 00:04:41,900 --> 00:04:45,460 and had other jobs and, you know, didn't have time for it. And when I 72 00:04:45,460 --> 00:04:48,940 worked a full time job, I almost stopped doing music 73 00:04:48,940 --> 00:04:52,620 completely and didn't give myself a lot of time at all to do it. 74 00:04:53,580 --> 00:04:57,340 But the past few years I've been really prioritizing it and really 75 00:04:57,340 --> 00:05:01,020 been taking it seriously and not 76 00:05:01,260 --> 00:05:04,980 thinking like, okay, this thing that I do that 77 00:05:04,980 --> 00:05:07,900 takes a lot of time doesn't make me any money and 78 00:05:08,620 --> 00:05:11,820 kind of not using that as a valid excuse anymore because 79 00:05:12,380 --> 00:05:16,220 it brings me much greater things other than 80 00:05:16,220 --> 00:05:18,700 money, like happiness and again, sense of purpose. 81 00:05:19,820 --> 00:05:23,100 And now it's something that I'm like trying to share with other people and 82 00:05:23,900 --> 00:05:27,700 slowly but surely kind of putting it out there and can turn 83 00:05:27,700 --> 00:05:31,260 into something that I never imagined. So, um, 84 00:05:32,060 --> 00:05:35,780 that is one thing that I am sure about in my life. And I 85 00:05:35,780 --> 00:05:39,100 do know that I want music to be in my life and 86 00:05:39,820 --> 00:05:42,860 taking it as a serious part of my life, even though it doesn't pay me. 87 00:05:43,020 --> 00:05:46,860 Um, so I know that it's 88 00:05:48,060 --> 00:05:51,100 something that is important to me and 89 00:05:52,700 --> 00:05:56,540 therefore I'm valuing it and I'm. And I'm putting more time and energy 90 00:05:57,020 --> 00:06:00,820 into, into it. And I've been thinking a lot about how 91 00:06:00,820 --> 00:06:04,580 I want to live my life. And I'm 92 00:06:04,580 --> 00:06:08,420 reading like three really good books right now at the same time. 93 00:06:08,420 --> 00:06:12,100 And they kind of all are touching on this subject of like making 94 00:06:12,420 --> 00:06:16,180 your dreams and goals realities. And 95 00:06:16,500 --> 00:06:20,180 in order to do that, getting really specific on what that looks like. And 96 00:06:21,060 --> 00:06:24,500 I've done some exercises and some writing 97 00:06:24,580 --> 00:06:28,180 and envisioning and really thinking about like, how I want to spend 98 00:06:28,500 --> 00:06:32,260 my time. Ideally thinking about nothing else other 99 00:06:32,260 --> 00:06:35,620 than like how I would choose to live my life and 100 00:06:36,900 --> 00:06:40,740 really thinking about that and trying 101 00:06:40,740 --> 00:06:44,420 to incorporate any of that into my life now. And 102 00:06:44,580 --> 00:06:48,420 you know, if money wasn't an option, if I didn't have, you know, to. 103 00:06:48,980 --> 00:06:52,190 If I could do anything with my time, music would definitely be able to big 104 00:06:52,190 --> 00:06:55,990 part of it. So that's what I'm doing now. That's what I've been doing 105 00:06:55,990 --> 00:06:59,630 for the past two or three years. Two 106 00:06:59,630 --> 00:07:03,430 years. And so this year I was really thinking about that 107 00:07:03,430 --> 00:07:07,230 too. And at the beginning of the year, I 108 00:07:07,230 --> 00:07:10,870 finished an album at the end of last year and released it. And 109 00:07:11,110 --> 00:07:14,870 at the beginning of this year I was thinking about like, how I want to 110 00:07:14,950 --> 00:07:18,670 approach music for 2025. And 111 00:07:18,670 --> 00:07:21,300 I came up with this idea of 112 00:07:22,260 --> 00:07:26,100 writing, recording and releasing a song each month, for every month. 113 00:07:26,260 --> 00:07:30,060 So then by the end of the year I'd have 12 songs, which is, you 114 00:07:30,060 --> 00:07:33,660 know, kind of a full length album. Well, it is a full length 115 00:07:33,660 --> 00:07:37,060 album, but kind of just spaced out in 116 00:07:37,700 --> 00:07:40,580 single format. And the idea behind that was that 117 00:07:41,780 --> 00:07:45,380 last year I had this like collection of songs. And then I got to like 118 00:07:45,380 --> 00:07:47,900 October and I was like, oh, I should do something with these. I should put 119 00:07:47,900 --> 00:07:51,230 them together, I should record them. And then I kind of like rushed to put 120 00:07:51,230 --> 00:07:55,030 them together and record them and 121 00:07:55,030 --> 00:07:58,790 mix them and master them and everything. And I kind of did 122 00:07:58,790 --> 00:08:02,550 that process once and I was like, okay, well if I am still writing 123 00:08:02,550 --> 00:08:06,310 that many songs, but I'm doing it now at a monthly rate instead 124 00:08:06,310 --> 00:08:09,830 of a yearly rate, then theoretically I could be 12 times 125 00:08:09,830 --> 00:08:13,630 better at recording, writing, mixing, mastering. So that 126 00:08:13,630 --> 00:08:17,450 was kind of the idea to just repetitively kind of keep doing 127 00:08:17,450 --> 00:08:21,170 the process over and over and over again each month. And so 128 00:08:21,170 --> 00:08:24,930 far it's worked out really good. And I've had my 129 00:08:24,930 --> 00:08:28,410 sixth song. My June song comes out on 130 00:08:28,650 --> 00:08:32,370 Monday, June 30th, which is the. Probably the 131 00:08:32,370 --> 00:08:36,130 same day I'm going to release this episode. And yeah, I'VE just 132 00:08:36,130 --> 00:08:38,690 been really happy with the process so far. I feel like they're coming out better 133 00:08:38,690 --> 00:08:41,960 and better. I feel like my writing is getting better. I feel like my mixing 134 00:08:41,960 --> 00:08:45,440 is getting better. And, yeah, 135 00:08:45,440 --> 00:08:48,880 it's something that I am now trying to share 136 00:08:49,520 --> 00:08:53,200 with the advice from a close friend. And, 137 00:08:53,840 --> 00:08:57,040 you know, I've decided that music is this important thing for me. And 138 00:08:58,640 --> 00:09:01,640 I think out of fear, I don't want to share it. I don't want to 139 00:09:01,640 --> 00:09:05,440 be judged by it. I don't want people to perceive me in a 140 00:09:05,440 --> 00:09:08,790 certain way. But these are all limiting fears that I. I have. 141 00:09:08,950 --> 00:09:12,710 And if I do really care about this thing that I'm doing, 142 00:09:13,030 --> 00:09:16,830 I think it's doing it a disservice and doing myself a disservice by 143 00:09:16,830 --> 00:09:20,070 not sharing it or telling everybody that I'm doing it. So, 144 00:09:21,030 --> 00:09:24,710 yeah, the topic of this episode is just really like, talking about that and saying, 145 00:09:24,790 --> 00:09:28,550 hey, I make music and release it. And 146 00:09:29,910 --> 00:09:33,510 yeah, that's a scary thing for me. It's difficult 147 00:09:33,750 --> 00:09:36,630 to say that for some reason and 148 00:09:38,020 --> 00:09:41,460 still getting used to it. But I'm trying to make less 149 00:09:41,460 --> 00:09:45,300 decisions based out of fear these days. And that was 150 00:09:45,300 --> 00:09:49,140 one I was keeping to myself for a while, and I don't want 151 00:09:49,140 --> 00:09:52,860 to do that anymore. So. So, 152 00:09:52,860 --> 00:09:56,180 yeah, I think really thinking about, like, 153 00:09:56,980 --> 00:10:00,500 putting my mind to something and accomplishing it. 154 00:10:00,660 --> 00:10:04,260 And yeah, I think a goal, 155 00:10:04,260 --> 00:10:07,780 you know, I talked about, like, thinking about goals. I. A goal that I have 156 00:10:08,020 --> 00:10:11,700 for music specifically for myself in the future would be to 157 00:10:11,700 --> 00:10:15,460 have. I had a goal. I kind 158 00:10:15,460 --> 00:10:19,180 of changed it a little bit at first. It started out as 15,000 159 00:10:19,180 --> 00:10:22,740 listeners on Spotify, and then it ended up as a hundred thousand. 160 00:10:23,300 --> 00:10:25,540 And that's not because I 161 00:10:26,820 --> 00:10:30,020 want the credentials of social 162 00:10:30,260 --> 00:10:34,040 acceptance, but more so that I. I would like to be able to reach 163 00:10:34,600 --> 00:10:38,440 people with the music that I'm creating because I 164 00:10:38,440 --> 00:10:41,400 would hope to make connections and have it resonate with other people. 165 00:10:41,960 --> 00:10:45,640 And another goal, too, would be also to eventually get some 166 00:10:45,720 --> 00:10:49,480 source of income from my music. And with a hundred thousand 167 00:10:49,480 --> 00:10:53,240 listeners on Spotify, you can make. Well, it kind of changes every day, 168 00:10:53,240 --> 00:10:56,920 but a couple hundred bucks a month, I think, and 169 00:10:57,160 --> 00:11:00,040 that would be kind of cool to make a couple hundred bucks off of something 170 00:11:00,040 --> 00:11:03,460 that I'm doing anyways. So, you know, I'm not, like, 171 00:11:03,700 --> 00:11:06,420 totally tied to that goal, but I'm putting it out there in the universe and 172 00:11:06,500 --> 00:11:10,020 trying to work towards that. And I think 173 00:11:10,420 --> 00:11:14,100 the way that I can contribute to working towards that is not 174 00:11:14,100 --> 00:11:17,860 only constantly creating music, but also starting to tell 175 00:11:17,860 --> 00:11:20,340 people and that's always been the hardest part for me is 176 00:11:22,020 --> 00:11:25,540 trying to just say, hey, I'm doing this, here it is. 177 00:11:26,260 --> 00:11:29,860 So this is my episode of being like, hey, I'm doing this, here it is. 178 00:11:31,850 --> 00:11:35,370 So yeah, that, that was kind of what I wanted to say in this 179 00:11:35,370 --> 00:11:38,810 episode. It's probably a little bit chaotic. 180 00:11:38,970 --> 00:11:42,730 Like I said, I'm not used to this like non editing sort 181 00:11:42,730 --> 00:11:45,610 of stream of conscious type podcast, 182 00:11:46,490 --> 00:11:48,370 but I want to get used to it and I want to get better at 183 00:11:48,370 --> 00:11:52,010 it and thinking about how I'm getting better at making music, 184 00:11:52,250 --> 00:11:54,970 I can think of podcasting in the same way and that if I can keep 185 00:11:54,970 --> 00:11:58,810 doing this, maybe make it a weekly habit just then six 186 00:11:58,810 --> 00:12:02,530 months from now I'll be able to do this, no problem. And so 187 00:12:02,530 --> 00:12:06,250 yeah, thanks for bearing with me through this. If it was a little clunky 188 00:12:06,810 --> 00:12:10,650 or all over the place, but it is something that I 189 00:12:10,730 --> 00:12:14,330 would like to do because podcasting was 190 00:12:14,650 --> 00:12:18,330 again another source of encouragement 191 00:12:18,330 --> 00:12:21,970 and energy and fulfillment and purpose for me. Just like music is when I was 192 00:12:21,970 --> 00:12:25,750 interviewing people and I really felt good about doing the 193 00:12:25,750 --> 00:12:29,190 podcast and the only reason I stopped was scheduling 194 00:12:29,190 --> 00:12:32,670 conflicts. Like it was really hard to get people booked. Everybody's busy 195 00:12:32,750 --> 00:12:36,230 and that was one aspect. But then the other aspect was I was also busy 196 00:12:36,230 --> 00:12:39,910 myself and it became just too much 197 00:12:39,910 --> 00:12:43,510 work for me and I was getting burnt out because I wasn't getting 198 00:12:43,510 --> 00:12:47,310 anything in return. So this go around I'm gonna try to 199 00:12:47,310 --> 00:12:50,950 make it a little bit easier on me by not editing but by not having 200 00:12:50,950 --> 00:12:54,510 guests most of the time and just keeping it a little bit 201 00:12:54,510 --> 00:12:57,670 shorter in an efforts to keep it more sustainable for me. 202 00:12:58,950 --> 00:13:02,390 And yeah, so going forward, I think I want to talk about 203 00:13:03,590 --> 00:13:06,630 certain topics that I'm working towards. 204 00:13:07,110 --> 00:13:10,870 Things like reaching goals and setting goals 205 00:13:10,950 --> 00:13:14,750 and reaching your dreams and actually dreaming and figuring 206 00:13:14,750 --> 00:13:18,150 out what you want and figuring out what I want. It's kind of going to 207 00:13:18,150 --> 00:13:21,990 be following my next journey on 208 00:13:21,990 --> 00:13:25,830 to figuring out what it is that I want to 209 00:13:25,830 --> 00:13:29,670 do with my time in my life. And maybe in another episode I'll 210 00:13:29,670 --> 00:13:31,830 get a little more specific on that. 211 00:13:33,350 --> 00:13:35,870 But yeah, I just want this to be a place where I can also share 212 00:13:35,870 --> 00:13:39,670 things that I've learned. I do a lot of reading and I read a 213 00:13:39,670 --> 00:13:42,630 lot of life changing, amazing books and 214 00:13:43,670 --> 00:13:46,790 would love to be able to share that with somebody that wants to listen. So 215 00:13:47,810 --> 00:13:51,170 there'll be a lot of that going forward. And yeah, 216 00:13:52,370 --> 00:13:56,130 I think really finding, like I 217 00:13:56,130 --> 00:13:59,890 said earlier, just, just finding this new energy and inspiration going 218 00:13:59,890 --> 00:14:03,650 forward and I think it's coming from choosing myself 219 00:14:03,890 --> 00:14:07,530 and choosing to not stay in a job that I 220 00:14:07,530 --> 00:14:11,250 don't feel I'm being. Being treated well in and kind of standing up for 221 00:14:11,250 --> 00:14:14,610 myself and being like, you know what? This isn't worth it for me anymore. You 222 00:14:14,610 --> 00:14:18,250 know, And I can't keep doing this to myself. I'm gonna leave, and 223 00:14:18,410 --> 00:14:22,170 I'm gonna let. It's. I'm gonna let the rest of it figure itself out. 224 00:14:22,170 --> 00:14:25,530 And kind of trusting and having that. That faith 225 00:14:25,850 --> 00:14:29,610 and. Yeah, that's kind of where I'm at. 226 00:14:30,250 --> 00:14:34,050 And also don't know how to wrap these episodes up, but 227 00:14:34,050 --> 00:14:37,130 this will. This is me trying to wrap it up. 228 00:14:37,610 --> 00:14:41,210 And, yeah, I will see you on another 229 00:14:41,210 --> 00:14:43,100 episode real soon. It.