Hello and welcome back to my podcast.
Working towards our purpose. So it's been a minute.
Welcome back for me as well. I think it's probably been like
six plus months since I released an episode
and actually it's probably been longer than that. But bringing it back
and feeling inspired and
kind of going through some changes in my life
and feeling like it's the right time to bring this back.
So it's going to be a little bit different. I think I'm going to
have far less guest interviews and more sort of
shorter episodes that are kind of me talking about different sorts of
topics that I want to cover. Not gonna put a super
goal on it right now. Ideally it would be great if it was weekly.
Um, but, you know, just gonna kind of start and, and see where it goes.
Um, but I do want it to be a little bit different in the fact
that it's gonna be shorter, it's gonna be mostly me, and it's also
gonna be unedited and not as like perfect
as the last one was. I used to spend a lot of time editing the
previous podcast, the previous version of this podcast. Um, and
this one's just gonna be a little bit more unfiltered.
So hopefully that, you know, works out and
we'll both kind of see how it, what it turns into.
It's definitely a little bit more nerve wracking for me, a little more,
you know, overthinking. And that's kind of the point of this, is to not
overthink it and to just do it. So with that being
said, I want to talk about the topic that I got today and
then at the end I'll talk about maybe what's going to
be going forward with this podcast and what to expect. So
that being said, today I want to talk about music.
So music is for me, something that I've done a
pretty good portion of my life. Started playing guitar in
high school and kind of never stopped being
more and more and more involved in music. And
I've always been really quiet about it. So part of
this episode and some changes that I'm making going forward
is that I want to talk about doing music more. I want to talk about
me doing music more and sharing what I do. I had
a conversation with a close friend
recently and he kind of encouraged me to
share more of what I do. And
taking his advice and he, yeah, we'll get into
that. But yeah, so some changes
happening in my life. Gonna be leaving a job that I've been doing
for a little bit now. I'M kind of
ending a business that I had trying to get into
something new. Don't quite know what it is yet, but feel
very motivated and encouraged to move in that direction.
So I'm taking that inspiration and kind of running with it.
Um, don't have another job lined up and
kind of worried about that, but also kind of
trusting and, you know,
thinking that it will work itself out and I will be able
to figure it out regardless. So kind
of taking a step of trust in this pivot of my
life. But I've noticed that there's, you know, my job
specifically that I'm just ending now was leading
to a lot of unhappiness in my life. And it was something that at one
time worked, but it's not now, and I need to change
that. So kind of backtracking again. But
again, the point of this episode and
what I want to talk about is music. And for me, that
is one thing in my life that I am confident in
and that I know that I want to do. And I know when I'm
making music and writing and creating and recording,
it's something that I feel is true to me and
I feel alive when I'm doing that. I feel like I'm
using my time in the way that I want to be using it.
I feel just a greater
sense of purpose when I'm. When I'm able to create something that I like.
And. And I, for the longest time in my life, just kind of ignored it
and had other jobs and, you know, didn't have time for it. And when I
worked a full time job, I almost stopped doing music
completely and didn't give myself a lot of time at all to do it.
But the past few years I've been really prioritizing it and really
been taking it seriously and not
thinking like, okay, this thing that I do that
takes a lot of time doesn't make me any money and
kind of not using that as a valid excuse anymore because
it brings me much greater things other than
money, like happiness and again, sense of purpose.
And now it's something that I'm like trying to share with other people and
slowly but surely kind of putting it out there and can turn
into something that I never imagined. So, um,
that is one thing that I am sure about in my life. And I
do know that I want music to be in my life and
taking it as a serious part of my life, even though it doesn't pay me.
Um, so I know that it's
something that is important to me and
therefore I'm valuing it and I'm. And I'm putting more time and energy
into, into it. And I've been thinking a lot about how
I want to live my life. And I'm
reading like three really good books right now at the same time.
And they kind of all are touching on this subject of like making
your dreams and goals realities. And
in order to do that, getting really specific on what that looks like. And
I've done some exercises and some writing
and envisioning and really thinking about like, how I want to spend
my time. Ideally thinking about nothing else other
than like how I would choose to live my life and
really thinking about that and trying
to incorporate any of that into my life now. And
you know, if money wasn't an option, if I didn't have, you know, to.
If I could do anything with my time, music would definitely be able to big
part of it. So that's what I'm doing now. That's what I've been doing
for the past two or three years. Two
years. And so this year I was really thinking about that
too. And at the beginning of the year, I
finished an album at the end of last year and released it. And
at the beginning of this year I was thinking about like, how I want to
approach music for 2025. And
I came up with this idea of
writing, recording and releasing a song each month, for every month.
So then by the end of the year I'd have 12 songs, which is, you
know, kind of a full length album. Well, it is a full length
album, but kind of just spaced out in
single format. And the idea behind that was that
last year I had this like collection of songs. And then I got to like
October and I was like, oh, I should do something with these. I should put
them together, I should record them. And then I kind of like rushed to put
them together and record them and
mix them and master them and everything. And I kind of did
that process once and I was like, okay, well if I am still writing
that many songs, but I'm doing it now at a monthly rate instead
of a yearly rate, then theoretically I could be 12 times
better at recording, writing, mixing, mastering. So that
was kind of the idea to just repetitively kind of keep doing
the process over and over and over again each month. And so
far it's worked out really good. And I've had my
sixth song. My June song comes out on
Monday, June 30th, which is the. Probably the
same day I'm going to release this episode. And yeah, I'VE just
been really happy with the process so far. I feel like they're coming out better
and better. I feel like my writing is getting better. I feel like my mixing
is getting better. And, yeah,
it's something that I am now trying to share
with the advice from a close friend. And,
you know, I've decided that music is this important thing for me. And
I think out of fear, I don't want to share it. I don't want to
be judged by it. I don't want people to perceive me in a
certain way. But these are all limiting fears that I. I have.
And if I do really care about this thing that I'm doing,
I think it's doing it a disservice and doing myself a disservice by
not sharing it or telling everybody that I'm doing it. So,
yeah, the topic of this episode is just really like, talking about that and saying,
hey, I make music and release it. And
yeah, that's a scary thing for me. It's difficult
to say that for some reason and
still getting used to it. But I'm trying to make less
decisions based out of fear these days. And that was
one I was keeping to myself for a while, and I don't want
to do that anymore. So. So,
yeah, I think really thinking about, like,
putting my mind to something and accomplishing it.
And yeah, I think a goal,
you know, I talked about, like, thinking about goals. I. A goal that I have
for music specifically for myself in the future would be to
have. I had a goal. I kind
of changed it a little bit at first. It started out as 15,000
listeners on Spotify, and then it ended up as a hundred thousand.
And that's not because I
want the credentials of social
acceptance, but more so that I. I would like to be able to reach
people with the music that I'm creating because I
would hope to make connections and have it resonate with other people.
And another goal, too, would be also to eventually get some
source of income from my music. And with a hundred thousand
listeners on Spotify, you can make. Well, it kind of changes every day,
but a couple hundred bucks a month, I think, and
that would be kind of cool to make a couple hundred bucks off of something
that I'm doing anyways. So, you know, I'm not, like,
totally tied to that goal, but I'm putting it out there in the universe and
trying to work towards that. And I think
the way that I can contribute to working towards that is not
only constantly creating music, but also starting to tell
people and that's always been the hardest part for me is
trying to just say, hey, I'm doing this, here it is.
So this is my episode of being like, hey, I'm doing this, here it is.
So yeah, that, that was kind of what I wanted to say in this
episode. It's probably a little bit chaotic.
Like I said, I'm not used to this like non editing sort
of stream of conscious type podcast,
but I want to get used to it and I want to get better at
it and thinking about how I'm getting better at making music,
I can think of podcasting in the same way and that if I can keep
doing this, maybe make it a weekly habit just then six
months from now I'll be able to do this, no problem. And so
yeah, thanks for bearing with me through this. If it was a little clunky
or all over the place, but it is something that I
would like to do because podcasting was
again another source of encouragement
and energy and fulfillment and purpose for me. Just like music is when I was
interviewing people and I really felt good about doing the
podcast and the only reason I stopped was scheduling
conflicts. Like it was really hard to get people booked. Everybody's busy
and that was one aspect. But then the other aspect was I was also busy
myself and it became just too much
work for me and I was getting burnt out because I wasn't getting
anything in return. So this go around I'm gonna try to
make it a little bit easier on me by not editing but by not having
guests most of the time and just keeping it a little bit
shorter in an efforts to keep it more sustainable for me.
And yeah, so going forward, I think I want to talk about
certain topics that I'm working towards.
Things like reaching goals and setting goals
and reaching your dreams and actually dreaming and figuring
out what you want and figuring out what I want. It's kind of going to
be following my next journey on
to figuring out what it is that I want to
do with my time in my life. And maybe in another episode I'll
get a little more specific on that.
But yeah, I just want this to be a place where I can also share
things that I've learned. I do a lot of reading and I read a
lot of life changing, amazing books and
would love to be able to share that with somebody that wants to listen. So
there'll be a lot of that going forward. And yeah,
I think really finding, like I
said earlier, just, just finding this new energy and inspiration going
forward and I think it's coming from choosing myself
and choosing to not stay in a job that I
don't feel I'm being. Being treated well in and kind of standing up for
myself and being like, you know what? This isn't worth it for me anymore. You
know, And I can't keep doing this to myself. I'm gonna leave, and
I'm gonna let. It's. I'm gonna let the rest of it figure itself out.
And kind of trusting and having that. That faith
and. Yeah, that's kind of where I'm at.
And also don't know how to wrap these episodes up, but
this will. This is me trying to wrap it up.
And, yeah, I will see you on another
episode real soon. It.