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ladies and gentlemen

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Guys and Dolls and everyone in between

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gather round

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something real nice to sip on and comfy

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to slip on

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cause it's time for smut Club

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here's your hosts Chelsea and Anna

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hey everybody I'm Hannah

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and I'm Chelsea welcome to smut Club

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where we talk about smut

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which is some of it's good some of it

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most fits bad yeah

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we we literally we the last episode we

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reviewed we were like we're talking

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about it and we're like

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have we ever given a book like a solid

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like 10 out of 10 or 5 out of 5 or

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anything no not on the podcast I know we

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have on Goodreads yeah like you and I

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like I have rated on Goodreads I think

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ugly Love by Colleen Hoover I rated five

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out of five which did you know if I read

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that one did you read the wall of

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Winnipeg of Me Okay so the wall of

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Winnipeg of me I feel like that's the

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big one that like most people know

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there's a dude named Aiden we love the

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name Aiden in a romance novel

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it's the whole book is Aiden and Vanessa

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wait for it is Vanessa's best friend

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Diana right

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there's another football player who like

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um and one of the other players Zach

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um and it's like the girl who works at

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the front desk in that book so it's the

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girl from the best thing or whatever

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one and like I Zach is one of my

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did we start talking because I gave it a

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5 out of 5. okay okay okay I got it I

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you yeah read more Mariana's part of

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needs apparently

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because there are no Saints by Sophie

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Lark which is what we are reviewing

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today and I will tell you I found this

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these are all of my top really dark

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for you blah blah blah and I was like

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dark green I I like that I'll try it I'm

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so I it's been a real struggle for me

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book because it it just is something

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vomited all over him about all of it and

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I I don't know like you okay baby like

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please talk to someone else about this

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you're like this is what you have

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Chelsea for basically basically like

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what's the point of this [ __ ] podcast

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if I still have to listen to these

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stupid books so anyway

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um I thought you had the podcast Outlet

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so I didn't have to be exactly

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you know at least like so we record the

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Matt gets a reprieve yeah Vance just

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sits here and listens to every single

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episode and then edits them and the look

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I'm like I'm so sorry honey yeah and

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so so this is what you read it sure is

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and I like I saw a tick tock that I

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actually think I sent to Hannah recently

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like how women will just sit there

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straight face reading like the most

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aggressive sex scene yeah and especially

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like when you're reading it on your

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phone or on your your Kindle or

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something like no one's seeing the cover

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of these books no one has any idea

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um life coaching clients was like yeah

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my goal was to read 18 books this year

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my goal was to read 200 and then I got

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pregnant so I bumped it down to 150 and

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I've read like 125 so far and he's like

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oh any recommendations and I was like

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truly not absolutely not like

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about me that I've read

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right I did do a review for a book that

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I read recently I think it was the one

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I audibly said uh at the End of This

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and honestly that's the perfect

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if we don't sit here and discuss a

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single book for like two right hours

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but it's an extended reaction video but

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no on Goodreads I always try and leave

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one sentence reviews yeah me too I'm

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like it's I'm like that's all that needs

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to be said that's all that needs to be

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done you get a one sentence review two

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if I'm feeling spicy sure but like

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there are no Saints it's just buckle up

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okay and if we're sensitive maybe don't

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listen although if you're a sensitive

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person you probably haven't made it past

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blood play if you're a sensitive person

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appreciate it is a safe space for you as

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safe as we can make it while also making

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so so this book has two points of view

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um we start out with uh Cole Blackwell

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classic character name in these books

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um he's an artist he's at a show if you

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actually my six pound partially hairless

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Craig's living his best life he is on

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one today and I don't know what it is

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I'm here for it I there he had no catnip

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this is oh natural yeah this is just his

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resting state and we love him for it we

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really sorry if that's okay oh I wasn't

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it was more than I forgot about our

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audience sorry if it's distracting as

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background just correct no Hannah's used

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to it at this point I was not

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apologizing to her I was like that's

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fine okay so two points of views Cole

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what kind of like an art show like a a

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gallery opening oh he's like that kind

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of artist not like a musical no he is an

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ever said you know but it helped I got

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it that way yeah he primarily does

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sculpture and some painting

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um and his rival Alistair Shaw is also

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um Cole is super haughty very annoyed

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that Alistair is even talking to him he

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exclusively calls him Shaw just to piss

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him off you meant hottie

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h-a-u I did not like he's a super hottie

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no like he is super hotty not he is a

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super hottie classic mix-up

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so Cole is super annoyed by Shaw he's

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like you are literally the worst you're

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so [ __ ] stupid get away from me

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and he is like Ugh like literally not a

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fan her she clearly bites her

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fingernails she's like looking a little

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unkempt she's like shoving food in her

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mouth she's obviously a starving artist

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like I am not into any of that

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over her white dress and he's like ah

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she's gonna like run away now or cry or

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freak out or whatever and the girl just

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bit grabs another glass of wine and goes

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to the bathroom and comes out he's like

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or something she comes out of the

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bathroom and she's basically like

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tie-dyed her dress and wine and

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huh respect yeah he's like that's kind

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um so Shaw sees him watching this girl

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and starts to mock him for being

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attracted to her and Cole is like you

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literally don't know what you're talking

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about why are you the most annoying

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like I hate your face

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but he doesn't say any of that he's very

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like cold and reserved

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it's very cold and reserved

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um sorry so Shaw is a serial killer

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Shaw is a serial killer and so

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apparently so maybe you shouldn't be

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rude to him no but but Cole is gonna be

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rude to him because Cole is also a

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serial killer so they're aware of each

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other but they don't get along

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so serial killer artists in the same

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Community yes and what are the odds so

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Shaw's like do you see my my latest work

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referring to a body that was found

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recently really severely mutilated it

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um and Cole is like you are a hack

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in everything you do you're the worst

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um

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calls like your art and your killings

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are derivative basically yes like he he

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literally calls him Ted Bundy he's like

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can you not be original Ted Bundy why

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are you like this

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oh

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um

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yeah so Shaw exclusively kills women

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Cole exclusively kills men

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um and he knows that he's better than

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Shaw and everything

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um and always literally

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um but this this show tonight is a

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competition he knows that his piece is

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better than Shaw's but he has made some

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enemies in the art community so he winds

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up losing

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um to Shaw

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so he's very annoyed but he also is like

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I don't actually care I know that I'm

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better than him and it doesn't matter so

301
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the next day an article comes out from

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the art critic that really doesn't like

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him

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um it basically just slamming his whole

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piece and and praising Shaw and so he's

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like

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I think he's gonna die so he goes like

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stalks him a little bit lures him back

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to his Studio because no one has ever

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been inside his studio

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um he makes his own equipment it's all

312
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very hush-hush and very secretive and so

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um this art critic is like hell yeah I

314
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want to see your your studio that sounds

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oh not sure I was gonna die the art

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critic he's gonna die the art critic's

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gonna die so he goes and

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Cole kills him and then he strips the

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bones and decides to use them in his new

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piece and so he strips the bones shapes

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them a little bit dips them in gold and

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makes

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makes a statue an art installation out

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of this guy's [ __ ] bones and then

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shows it

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that is ballsy on like that's like next

327
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level and then he sells it for three

328
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quarters of a million dollars and he has

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this like sick satisfaction that it's

330
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going to be

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um displayed like in the lobby of a tech

332
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firm he's like like

333
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oh my God

334
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I feel like that's the sort of thing

335
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that like 10 years later there's like a

336
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news art like a news headline that you

337
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see that's like human remains found in

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art installation uh whatever exactly

339
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um so Shaw's really jealous

340
00:14:25,440 --> 00:14:30,540
again Cole's like I don't care about you

341
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so you can feel however you want just go

342
00:14:30,540 --> 00:14:34,500
away

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so then we cut to our female lead her

344
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name is Mara Eldritch

345
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um she's a tie-dye wine girl yes okay um

346
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so she's a struggling artist

347
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um she's working three jobs and she's

348
00:14:43,079 --> 00:14:47,279
very stressed all the time very busy she

349
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lives with seven other artists who are

350
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also struggling in this like dilapidated

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Victorian house in San Francisco that's

352
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falling down

353
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um but she loved her art and she's like

354
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things are gonna get better I don't know

355
00:14:57,720 --> 00:15:01,980
how

356
00:14:58,500 --> 00:15:03,600
and I don't know in it like what sort of

357
00:15:01,980 --> 00:15:05,220
fairy godmother is gonna happen to me

358
00:15:03,600 --> 00:15:07,920
but things are going to get better I

359
00:15:05,220 --> 00:15:09,899
just have to keep pushing so she

360
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promises her roommate Aaron that she's

361
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gonna go meet her at an art show

362
00:15:13,260 --> 00:15:18,600
um she rushes over there she sees the

363
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piece that Cole created with the bones

364
00:15:18,600 --> 00:15:24,839
and she's really like taken by it she's

365
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she thinks it's amazing

366
00:15:24,839 --> 00:15:29,040
um

367
00:15:25,560 --> 00:15:32,100
and then Shaw approaches her and starts

368
00:15:29,040 --> 00:15:35,720
chatting her up but her roommate Aaron

369
00:15:32,100 --> 00:15:38,820
uh had dibs

370
00:15:35,720 --> 00:15:41,579
will [ __ ] anything that moves at these

371
00:15:38,820 --> 00:15:45,120
parties and her roommate was like I feel

372
00:15:41,579 --> 00:15:48,120
like it's my turn for that because yeah

373
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so I'm gonna be making the move

374
00:15:48,120 --> 00:15:54,779
so got the speed my friend so she slips

375
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away when her roommate comes up and she

376
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starts walking home

377
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and all of a sudden she hears this sound

378
00:15:58,560 --> 00:16:03,060
behind her and she turns around and she

379
00:16:00,839 --> 00:16:05,880
just it's she says it's described as

380
00:16:03,060 --> 00:16:07,860
like this Charging Bull basically like

381
00:16:05,880 --> 00:16:11,399
coming at her

382
00:16:07,860 --> 00:16:13,320
um and so she gets hit in the head like

383
00:16:11,399 --> 00:16:17,160
taken down to the ground there's a hood

384
00:16:13,320 --> 00:16:21,540
over her head and then she wakes up

385
00:16:17,160 --> 00:16:24,000
um in a trunk naked bound and gagged and

386
00:16:21,540 --> 00:16:25,560
with the hood over her head still and

387
00:16:24,000 --> 00:16:26,880
she can't get out of the trunk she's

388
00:16:25,560 --> 00:16:29,040
like trying to figure out a way out

389
00:16:26,880 --> 00:16:30,839
nothing's working

390
00:16:29,040 --> 00:16:33,540
um and a man finally comes around and

391
00:16:30,839 --> 00:16:36,420
pulls her out of the trunk

392
00:16:33,540 --> 00:16:39,420
um and just drops her on the ground so

393
00:16:36,420 --> 00:16:41,759
she's like hogtied so her arms and legs

394
00:16:39,420 --> 00:16:45,240
are like up behind her so she can't do

395
00:16:41,759 --> 00:16:48,360
anything to protect her face or anything

396
00:16:45,240 --> 00:16:49,980
um he doesn't recognize the voice

397
00:16:48,360 --> 00:16:51,420
um but he's like telling her not to

398
00:16:49,980 --> 00:16:53,279
struggle

399
00:16:51,420 --> 00:16:54,899
um but she's like what the [ __ ] is

400
00:16:53,279 --> 00:16:57,000
happening right now

401
00:16:54,899 --> 00:17:01,680
and then

402
00:16:57,000 --> 00:17:04,140
he um he pierces her nipples what yeah

403
00:17:01,680 --> 00:17:07,199
so my notes say he pierces her nipples

404
00:17:04,140 --> 00:17:08,459
dot dot dot the [ __ ] question mark

405
00:17:07,199 --> 00:17:11,760
um

406
00:17:08,459 --> 00:17:13,500
yeah so she's like naked in this like

407
00:17:11,760 --> 00:17:16,140
BDSM

408
00:17:13,500 --> 00:17:19,020
strappy leather but she's she's naked

409
00:17:16,140 --> 00:17:21,360
and then he pierces her nipples and

410
00:17:19,020 --> 00:17:23,839
slits her wrists and leaves her there in

411
00:17:21,360 --> 00:17:23,839
the woods

412
00:17:24,900 --> 00:17:27,740
so quick

413
00:17:27,780 --> 00:17:32,100
yeah when you said hog tie it reminded

414
00:17:30,059 --> 00:17:33,540
me of a story

415
00:17:32,100 --> 00:17:35,460
what

416
00:17:33,540 --> 00:17:36,960
why is it that whenever I say like I

417
00:17:35,460 --> 00:17:39,780
have a question or this reminds me of

418
00:17:36,960 --> 00:17:43,200
something you cringe no it's because

419
00:17:39,780 --> 00:17:45,360
it's not that it's that I just described

420
00:17:43,200 --> 00:17:47,340
this one being hogtied and having her

421
00:17:45,360 --> 00:17:49,799
nipples pierced and her wristlet against

422
00:17:47,340 --> 00:17:52,860
her will and so I'm like what sort of

423
00:17:49,799 --> 00:17:55,500
story goes with that okay that is valid

424
00:17:52,860 --> 00:17:57,419
when you say that that's what it is

425
00:17:55,500 --> 00:17:59,400
the story is entirely based on the word

426
00:17:57,419 --> 00:18:01,380
hog tie okay

427
00:17:59,400 --> 00:18:02,700
when I used to work crisis

428
00:18:01,380 --> 00:18:04,860
Nashville

429
00:18:02,700 --> 00:18:06,480
we had police bring a woman in for an

430
00:18:04,860 --> 00:18:12,660
assessment one night

431
00:18:06,480 --> 00:18:14,580
and she went [ __ ] off like she like

432
00:18:12,660 --> 00:18:16,140
went into the bathroom to give her like

433
00:18:14,580 --> 00:18:17,039
UDS sample

434
00:18:16,140 --> 00:18:19,440
um

435
00:18:17,039 --> 00:18:22,320
like she's in there forever when they

436
00:18:19,440 --> 00:18:24,120
walk in she's like shattered the tops of

437
00:18:22,320 --> 00:18:27,000
like the toilet seat like taking the

438
00:18:24,120 --> 00:18:29,160
toilet Lids off cracked him nice um

439
00:18:27,000 --> 00:18:31,740
clogged the sinks with like a wet paper

440
00:18:29,160 --> 00:18:33,419
towel like it's just like destroying

441
00:18:31,740 --> 00:18:34,919
property left and right

442
00:18:33,419 --> 00:18:37,679
foreign

443
00:18:34,919 --> 00:18:39,780
so while we are working on hospitalizing

444
00:18:37,679 --> 00:18:41,400
this woman because

445
00:18:39,780 --> 00:18:43,320
she was not going to jail for this she

446
00:18:41,400 --> 00:18:45,059
was not mentally well right she was

447
00:18:43,320 --> 00:18:47,039
being hospitalized

448
00:18:45,059 --> 00:18:48,900
um but she was still acting a fool and

449
00:18:47,039 --> 00:18:52,620
so police are there they're assisting us

450
00:18:48,900 --> 00:18:54,720
with like managing and maintaining her

451
00:18:52,620 --> 00:18:56,700
um and it got to the point that like she

452
00:18:54,720 --> 00:18:57,840
was hogtied in our lobby

453
00:18:56,700 --> 00:19:00,000
like

454
00:18:57,840 --> 00:19:04,380
while we are calling hospitals this

455
00:19:00,000 --> 00:19:07,679
woman is hogtied in the lobby and the

456
00:19:04,380 --> 00:19:09,480
overnight supervisor Keisha has no [ __ ]

457
00:19:07,679 --> 00:19:12,299
to give I love this woman with every

458
00:19:09,480 --> 00:19:16,320
fiber of my being like

459
00:19:12,299 --> 00:19:18,720
she is a absolute queen and I just

460
00:19:16,320 --> 00:19:20,460
remember this woman because I was like

461
00:19:18,720 --> 00:19:22,320
out on a call I come in and I'm like

462
00:19:20,460 --> 00:19:23,940
what the hell is going on this woman is

463
00:19:22,320 --> 00:19:25,919
hogtied police are just like sitting

464
00:19:23,940 --> 00:19:28,260
there cops are just hanging out right

465
00:19:25,919 --> 00:19:30,360
this woman is like yelling to Keisha

466
00:19:28,260 --> 00:19:32,580
who's like at her desk trying to call

467
00:19:30,360 --> 00:19:35,039
hospitals and she's like Miss Keisha

468
00:19:32,580 --> 00:19:36,840
can I have a snack

469
00:19:35,039 --> 00:19:40,100
I think he's just like how are you gonna

470
00:19:36,840 --> 00:19:40,100
eat a snack when your hands are tied

471
00:19:40,140 --> 00:19:44,039
later she's like

472
00:19:41,820 --> 00:19:45,299
Miss can I make a phone call she's like

473
00:19:44,039 --> 00:19:46,860
how are you gonna make a phone call when

474
00:19:45,299 --> 00:19:49,320
you're here

475
00:19:46,860 --> 00:19:52,860
and so whenever I hear the word hog tie

476
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I have this very Vivid mental image of

477
00:19:52,860 --> 00:19:58,679
this woman who's being a long time

478
00:19:55,740 --> 00:20:00,360
because we could like yeah and we had no

479
00:19:58,679 --> 00:20:02,100
other action she was gonna hurt herself

480
00:20:00,360 --> 00:20:05,340
she was gonna hurt us we're trying to

481
00:20:02,100 --> 00:20:09,000
hospitalizer that's where we need like

482
00:20:05,340 --> 00:20:11,400
the like a blow dart with Haldol okay

483
00:20:09,000 --> 00:20:13,679
the number of times I recommended that

484
00:20:11,400 --> 00:20:15,900
right I was like guys I will go get

485
00:20:13,679 --> 00:20:17,880
trained I will take classes I will make

486
00:20:15,900 --> 00:20:19,260
sure I do not hit you while you are

487
00:20:17,880 --> 00:20:21,960
restraining them

488
00:20:19,260 --> 00:20:23,520
they're like generous offers Chelsea I

489
00:20:21,960 --> 00:20:25,919
don't know if our liability insurance

490
00:20:23,520 --> 00:20:28,140
covers

491
00:20:25,919 --> 00:20:30,840
blow dirt alcohol and I was like but it

492
00:20:28,140 --> 00:20:32,960
should and it could have we asked I was

493
00:20:30,840 --> 00:20:35,640
like we need a better plan

494
00:20:32,960 --> 00:20:37,860
okay she was not with me so anyway

495
00:20:35,640 --> 00:20:40,500
getting back into this like super dark

496
00:20:37,860 --> 00:20:43,500
situation that's not nearly as fun as my

497
00:20:40,500 --> 00:20:45,960
hog tie no it's super [ __ ] so she her

498
00:20:43,500 --> 00:20:47,640
wrists are slit and she's tied up in the

499
00:20:45,960 --> 00:20:48,539
woods

500
00:20:47,640 --> 00:20:51,179
um

501
00:20:48,539 --> 00:20:53,940
and the was she was she already wearing

502
00:20:51,179 --> 00:20:55,559
the no the outfit they changed her into

503
00:20:53,940 --> 00:20:58,559
that oh yeah she was wearing like a

504
00:20:55,559 --> 00:21:01,500
little velvet dress okay that's gone and

505
00:20:58,559 --> 00:21:03,840
she's wearing this leather thing okay

506
00:21:01,500 --> 00:21:05,520
so we then switched to Cole's point of

507
00:21:03,840 --> 00:21:08,220
view again he is dumping the rest of the

508
00:21:05,520 --> 00:21:10,440
critic's body in an abandoned mine which

509
00:21:08,220 --> 00:21:12,780
is one of his usual dumping grounds and

510
00:21:10,440 --> 00:21:14,460
he has like a bleach and chemicals he

511
00:21:12,780 --> 00:21:16,260
uses so nothing's ever going to be

512
00:21:14,460 --> 00:21:17,039
traced back to him

513
00:21:16,260 --> 00:21:19,500
um

514
00:21:17,039 --> 00:21:21,480
he you know Cole's not worried about

515
00:21:19,500 --> 00:21:23,220
getting caught he's very arrogant he's

516
00:21:21,480 --> 00:21:25,860
like none of this matters I'm I'm

517
00:21:23,220 --> 00:21:29,179
untouchable basically so he starts

518
00:21:25,860 --> 00:21:32,400
walking back through the woods and he

519
00:21:29,179 --> 00:21:33,659
sees a lump in the path and he's like

520
00:21:32,400 --> 00:21:37,260
the [ __ ] is that

521
00:21:33,659 --> 00:21:40,200
that is a girl who was not here when I

522
00:21:37,260 --> 00:21:43,200
walked out here what the [ __ ] is that so

523
00:21:40,200 --> 00:21:46,140
he realizes that

524
00:21:43,200 --> 00:21:49,500
um Shaw left this girl

525
00:21:46,140 --> 00:21:53,820
for him to find because he thought that

526
00:21:49,500 --> 00:21:55,740
he was attracted to her before so Shaw's

527
00:21:53,820 --> 00:21:59,760
whole thing is that he believes that

528
00:21:55,740 --> 00:22:05,039
coal is just as impulsive and

529
00:21:59,760 --> 00:22:07,440
um uh like uncontrolled as Shaw is

530
00:22:05,039 --> 00:22:10,440
um and Cole is like I am that's not who

531
00:22:07,440 --> 00:22:12,299
I am at all so this was was Shaw's

532
00:22:10,440 --> 00:22:14,580
attempt to get him basically to

533
00:22:12,299 --> 00:22:17,039
collaborate on a kill and like prove

534
00:22:14,580 --> 00:22:19,140
that he's just as impulsive

535
00:22:17,039 --> 00:22:21,299
um by using this girl that he just

536
00:22:19,140 --> 00:22:22,559
happened to see Cole watching during

537
00:22:21,299 --> 00:22:24,120
this party

538
00:22:22,559 --> 00:22:26,400
so

539
00:22:24,120 --> 00:22:28,260
Cole is poor girl someone poured wine

540
00:22:26,400 --> 00:22:31,500
all over her dress she tie-dyes it and

541
00:22:28,260 --> 00:22:33,659
makes them the most out of it and so

542
00:22:31,500 --> 00:22:34,919
now she's the target for two serial

543
00:22:33,659 --> 00:22:38,100
killers

544
00:22:34,919 --> 00:22:41,820
it's not ideal it's not so

545
00:22:38,100 --> 00:22:43,919
um she is clearly bleeding he sees her

546
00:22:41,820 --> 00:22:46,919
in this BDSM get up

547
00:22:43,919 --> 00:22:48,780
um he is livid that Shaw did this so

548
00:22:46,919 --> 00:22:51,600
close to his Dumping Ground because he

549
00:22:48,780 --> 00:22:53,820
realizes he can't use it anymore

550
00:22:51,600 --> 00:22:56,340
um his the mind he was using was like

551
00:22:53,820 --> 00:22:57,840
half a mile or or three quarters of a

552
00:22:56,340 --> 00:22:59,340
mile away

553
00:22:57,840 --> 00:23:00,840
um from where the girl is and he's like

554
00:22:59,340 --> 00:23:02,820
well I can't [ __ ] use that anymore

555
00:23:00,840 --> 00:23:04,740
[ __ ]

556
00:23:02,820 --> 00:23:06,419
um so that's what he's upset about

557
00:23:04,740 --> 00:23:06,960
and

558
00:23:06,419 --> 00:23:11,700
um

559
00:23:06,960 --> 00:23:15,960
so he he realizes what what Shaw is

560
00:23:11,700 --> 00:23:18,120
doing so he's like so how do I the only

561
00:23:15,960 --> 00:23:21,179
way to win here right so he thinks I'm

562
00:23:18,120 --> 00:23:23,880
gonna finish killing her

563
00:23:21,179 --> 00:23:26,460
or I could try to save her

564
00:23:23,880 --> 00:23:28,679
but either way that is that's playing

565
00:23:26,460 --> 00:23:29,700
his game the only way to win here is not

566
00:23:28,679 --> 00:23:32,220
to play

567
00:23:29,700 --> 00:23:33,600
so he leaves her there

568
00:23:32,220 --> 00:23:37,880
he just

569
00:23:33,600 --> 00:23:42,600
steps right over her and keeps walking

570
00:23:37,880 --> 00:23:44,760
oh yeah so we're back to Mara

571
00:23:42,600 --> 00:23:48,240
um so she knows that she's bleeding out

572
00:23:44,760 --> 00:23:49,679
but she starts to hear footsteps

573
00:23:48,240 --> 00:23:51,720
um and she's very clear that these

574
00:23:49,679 --> 00:23:53,700
footsteps sound different than the

575
00:23:51,720 --> 00:23:57,059
footsteps of the man who brought her out

576
00:23:53,700 --> 00:23:59,700
the footsteps of the first guy were very

577
00:23:57,059 --> 00:24:02,760
heavy and kind of lumbering and these

578
00:23:59,700 --> 00:24:06,299
sound very like light and

579
00:24:02,760 --> 00:24:08,400
um whatever fairy feet fairy feet sure

580
00:24:06,299 --> 00:24:12,020
fluffy feet

581
00:24:08,400 --> 00:24:12,020
um fluffy I don't know

582
00:24:12,059 --> 00:24:15,440
um I feel like that's

583
00:24:15,900 --> 00:24:21,000
never mind that's Happy Feet I was like

584
00:24:19,740 --> 00:24:23,880
isn't that something to do with the

585
00:24:21,000 --> 00:24:25,200
penguin like like the penguin movie yeah

586
00:24:23,880 --> 00:24:26,340
that's something to do with the penguin

587
00:24:25,200 --> 00:24:27,840
anyway

588
00:24:26,340 --> 00:24:31,919
so

589
00:24:27,840 --> 00:24:34,140
um she thinks that she is hallucinating

590
00:24:31,919 --> 00:24:34,860
because she's like nobody else is out

591
00:24:34,140 --> 00:24:36,960
here

592
00:24:34,860 --> 00:24:38,940
I'm in the middle of nowhere

593
00:24:36,960 --> 00:24:41,700
if it's not the guy who dumped me here

594
00:24:38,940 --> 00:24:43,860
who the [ __ ] else is gonna be out here

595
00:24:41,700 --> 00:24:46,400
um and then she sees the most beautiful

596
00:24:43,860 --> 00:24:48,900
man ever on the face of the planet

597
00:24:46,400 --> 00:24:52,380
standing over her and she's like oh my

598
00:24:48,900 --> 00:24:53,840
God it's death he's here

599
00:24:52,380 --> 00:24:56,100
hey

600
00:24:53,840 --> 00:24:57,539
she's still gagged so it's not like she

601
00:24:56,100 --> 00:25:02,100
can say anything

602
00:24:57,539 --> 00:25:05,460
uh it was an internal hey basically

603
00:25:02,100 --> 00:25:10,080
um and then he starts to step over her

604
00:25:05,460 --> 00:25:11,640
and she is [ __ ] pissed and she's like

605
00:25:10,080 --> 00:25:13,440
trying to scream around the gag like

606
00:25:11,640 --> 00:25:15,179
getting him to come back and he just

607
00:25:13,440 --> 00:25:18,659
like leaves her there

608
00:25:15,179 --> 00:25:20,179
so she's like great that was 100 my last

609
00:25:18,659 --> 00:25:23,640
chance of getting out of this [ __ ]

610
00:25:20,179 --> 00:25:27,600
so what do I do here she realizes that

611
00:25:23,640 --> 00:25:30,900
her arms are very like slick now because

612
00:25:27,600 --> 00:25:33,419
of all the blood and so dare we say

613
00:25:30,900 --> 00:25:34,559
slippery I almost said slippery I knew

614
00:25:33,419 --> 00:25:37,500
you were trying not to and I just wanted

615
00:25:34,559 --> 00:25:39,419
to be an [ __ ] well I appreciate that

616
00:25:37,500 --> 00:25:45,659
it's what our friendship is founded on

617
00:25:39,419 --> 00:25:48,000
it is so she gets out of the zip ties

618
00:25:45,659 --> 00:25:51,000
um and is able to get the vines off her

619
00:25:48,000 --> 00:25:53,400
feet as well and she has some trouble

620
00:25:51,000 --> 00:25:56,279
standing she's lost a lot of blood but

621
00:25:53,400 --> 00:25:59,100
she uses the duct tape that was over her

622
00:25:56,279 --> 00:26:01,500
mouth to bind her arm that's bleeding

623
00:25:59,100 --> 00:26:03,480
the worst she is very resourceful she's

624
00:26:01,500 --> 00:26:05,340
very resourceful she's like I am not

625
00:26:03,480 --> 00:26:07,260
[ __ ] dying out here

626
00:26:05,340 --> 00:26:09,720
and so then she takes off through the

627
00:26:07,260 --> 00:26:11,039
woods she's like this is not ideal I

628
00:26:09,720 --> 00:26:12,120
don't even know where I'm going I don't

629
00:26:11,039 --> 00:26:14,159
know if I'm going in the right direction

630
00:26:12,120 --> 00:26:17,460
but this seems right so I'm just gonna

631
00:26:14,159 --> 00:26:19,320
keep going and hope for the best and she

632
00:26:17,460 --> 00:26:21,299
falls and she's like maybe I should just

633
00:26:19,320 --> 00:26:23,580
[ __ ] stay here because this [ __ ]

634
00:26:21,299 --> 00:26:25,440
sucks but then she hears her mom's voice

635
00:26:23,580 --> 00:26:27,120
in her head calling her a little [ __ ]

636
00:26:25,440 --> 00:26:30,840
and like all this other stuff and she's

637
00:26:27,120 --> 00:26:33,480
like she's like you know what

638
00:26:30,840 --> 00:26:36,059
um I'm not dying here I'm not doing it

639
00:26:33,480 --> 00:26:38,760
I'm not [ __ ] doing it and so she

640
00:26:36,059 --> 00:26:40,940
keeps going until she stumbles into a

641
00:26:38,760 --> 00:26:40,940
road

642
00:26:41,100 --> 00:26:47,400
and that's where that chapter ends so

643
00:26:45,120 --> 00:26:49,080
we're back to Cole so he's been watching

644
00:26:47,400 --> 00:26:51,179
the news for information about the girl

645
00:26:49,080 --> 00:26:53,460
or the art critic but there's been

646
00:26:51,179 --> 00:26:55,740
nothing so he decides to break into

647
00:26:53,460 --> 00:26:58,740
Shaw's house because he can't go back to

648
00:26:55,740 --> 00:27:01,440
the mine he wants to see if Shaw

649
00:26:58,740 --> 00:27:03,539
disposed of the body there

650
00:27:01,440 --> 00:27:07,620
um the girl's body but he's like I can't

651
00:27:03,539 --> 00:27:08,460
go back there obviously so

652
00:27:07,620 --> 00:27:10,740
um

653
00:27:08,460 --> 00:27:12,600
he goes to Shaw's and just starts

654
00:27:10,740 --> 00:27:14,760
rummaging through his stuff knowing full

655
00:27:12,600 --> 00:27:17,460
well that there were cameras in there he

656
00:27:14,760 --> 00:27:20,100
was like hey buddy like touching

657
00:27:17,460 --> 00:27:23,039
everything like touching all of his

658
00:27:20,100 --> 00:27:25,860
stuff like let's play yeah it's not your

659
00:27:23,039 --> 00:27:29,279
game but let's play exactly so then he

660
00:27:25,860 --> 00:27:31,140
pours himself a glass of wine and Shaw

661
00:27:29,279 --> 00:27:34,380
comes into his own house and Cole is

662
00:27:31,140 --> 00:27:36,659
like would you like some wine

663
00:27:34,380 --> 00:27:38,520
some of your wine that I just took from

664
00:27:36,659 --> 00:27:42,179
your [ __ ] stuff

665
00:27:38,520 --> 00:27:45,980
um and so Shaw is like so what did you

666
00:27:42,179 --> 00:27:49,140
do to the girl like before you died

667
00:27:45,980 --> 00:27:51,059
yeah he's like tell me all about it like

668
00:27:49,140 --> 00:27:52,380
what did you do before you dumped her in

669
00:27:51,059 --> 00:27:55,140
the mine

670
00:27:52,380 --> 00:27:57,539
um and Cole is like he doesn't know that

671
00:27:55,140 --> 00:27:59,340
I left her there

672
00:27:57,539 --> 00:28:01,200
so does that mean he didn't go back to

673
00:27:59,340 --> 00:28:03,659
check or does that mean she was gone

674
00:28:01,200 --> 00:28:06,179
when he went back to check that's a big

675
00:28:03,659 --> 00:28:07,559
yikes but I can't ask him

676
00:28:06,179 --> 00:28:09,480
so

677
00:28:07,559 --> 00:28:11,760
um Shaw also very clearly has a pretty

678
00:28:09,480 --> 00:28:14,460
significant hatred for women

679
00:28:11,760 --> 00:28:17,580
um and he he did [ __ ]

680
00:28:14,460 --> 00:28:20,279
uh Mara's roommate Aaron

681
00:28:17,580 --> 00:28:25,279
um and stole her ID so he shows the ID

682
00:28:20,279 --> 00:28:25,279
to Cole and he notices the address

683
00:28:25,380 --> 00:28:29,100
um he is adamant that he didn't touch

684
00:28:26,880 --> 00:28:31,320
the girl he's like I don't kill women

685
00:28:29,100 --> 00:28:33,120
I didn't touch her

686
00:28:31,320 --> 00:28:35,880
um and then he tells Shaw if they're

687
00:28:33,120 --> 00:28:37,980
ever alone in the same room again

688
00:28:35,880 --> 00:28:39,840
um only one will leave breathing he's

689
00:28:37,980 --> 00:28:42,179
like I'm so [ __ ] done with you you're

690
00:28:39,840 --> 00:28:45,240
just stupid and I hate you this feels

691
00:28:42,179 --> 00:28:47,460
like it escalated it did yeah

692
00:28:45,240 --> 00:28:49,320
this has been going on for years and we

693
00:28:47,460 --> 00:28:51,240
find out more detail about that I think

694
00:28:49,320 --> 00:28:53,940
actually in the second book

695
00:28:51,240 --> 00:28:56,580
um I forgot to mention this is a duet

696
00:28:53,940 --> 00:28:58,320
um so we find out more detail about the

697
00:28:56,580 --> 00:29:00,179
Rivalry and how it escalates in the

698
00:28:58,320 --> 00:29:02,159
second book

699
00:29:00,179 --> 00:29:03,539
um so he decides he's gonna go to the

700
00:29:02,159 --> 00:29:06,480
girl's house because he saw the

701
00:29:03,539 --> 00:29:07,799
roommate's ID saw the address he decides

702
00:29:06,480 --> 00:29:10,260
he's going to go to the house

703
00:29:07,799 --> 00:29:12,419
and he watches as people start to leave

704
00:29:10,260 --> 00:29:15,299
for the day and then

705
00:29:12,419 --> 00:29:18,720
um wouldn't you know it the girl steps

706
00:29:15,299 --> 00:29:22,380
out of the house and he is like

707
00:29:18,720 --> 00:29:25,679
my notes say he's flummoxed

708
00:29:22,380 --> 00:29:27,960
that's a good vocab word it is and he is

709
00:29:25,679 --> 00:29:31,020
he is like what the [ __ ] is happening is

710
00:29:27,960 --> 00:29:34,620
this a ghost right now

711
00:29:31,020 --> 00:29:36,120
um and so he follows her to a cafe where

712
00:29:34,620 --> 00:29:37,500
she's waiting tables like nothing

713
00:29:36,120 --> 00:29:40,559
happened

714
00:29:37,500 --> 00:29:42,600
she's just going about her brunt shift I

715
00:29:40,559 --> 00:29:44,399
love her yeah she is living her best

716
00:29:42,600 --> 00:29:46,320
life she didn't give a single [ __ ] she's

717
00:29:44,399 --> 00:29:48,179
like okay she's like you know [ __ ]

718
00:29:46,320 --> 00:29:50,760
happens here we are yep

719
00:29:48,179 --> 00:29:54,720
back on that ground I got bills to pay

720
00:29:50,760 --> 00:29:56,460
no didn't kill me so here we go

721
00:29:54,720 --> 00:29:57,720
so

722
00:29:56,460 --> 00:30:01,260
um

723
00:29:57,720 --> 00:30:04,980
he knows that she saw his face but he

724
00:30:01,260 --> 00:30:07,320
doesn't know if she saw Shaw's face so

725
00:30:04,980 --> 00:30:11,640
he's like this

726
00:30:07,320 --> 00:30:14,220
is a conundrum and he's super pissed

727
00:30:11,640 --> 00:30:17,779
that he doesn't know how she survived

728
00:30:14,220 --> 00:30:19,860
he's like how like she was lit half dead

729
00:30:17,779 --> 00:30:22,140
there's no way she made it out of the

730
00:30:19,860 --> 00:30:24,000
woods by herself who helped her I don't

731
00:30:22,140 --> 00:30:26,039
understand

732
00:30:24,000 --> 00:30:28,140
and then also he has this weird thought

733
00:30:26,039 --> 00:30:30,000
that he wishes he had taken a photo of

734
00:30:28,140 --> 00:30:32,100
her all tied up like that because he was

735
00:30:30,000 --> 00:30:33,960
super into it but he's starting to lose

736
00:30:32,100 --> 00:30:36,419
the details now

737
00:30:33,960 --> 00:30:38,760
and I'm not going to give you poor baby

738
00:30:36,419 --> 00:30:41,100
the description because he's gets very

739
00:30:38,760 --> 00:30:43,140
descriptive of that and it's not my

740
00:30:41,100 --> 00:30:44,880
favorite thing

741
00:30:43,140 --> 00:30:47,520
um so we're back tomorrow

742
00:30:44,880 --> 00:30:50,520
this is I guess a few days previous she

743
00:30:47,520 --> 00:30:52,740
wakes up in a hospital bed

744
00:30:50,520 --> 00:30:54,299
um strapped down they think that she

745
00:30:52,740 --> 00:30:58,500
tried to kill herself

746
00:30:54,299 --> 00:31:02,220
and she's like are you [ __ ] stupid do

747
00:30:58,500 --> 00:31:04,679
you not see the the marks on my wrists

748
00:31:02,220 --> 00:31:06,659
and on my ankles do you not see that he

749
00:31:04,679 --> 00:31:10,740
pierced my [ __ ] nipples like are you

750
00:31:06,659 --> 00:31:11,460
kidding me right now and they're like

751
00:31:10,740 --> 00:31:12,960
um

752
00:31:11,460 --> 00:31:15,600
nah

753
00:31:12,960 --> 00:31:18,120
you've got some old self-harm scars so

754
00:31:15,600 --> 00:31:21,120
did the guy do that too and she's like

755
00:31:18,120 --> 00:31:23,880
uh obviously not

756
00:31:21,120 --> 00:31:26,279
um and the the cops like you into some

757
00:31:23,880 --> 00:31:29,880
kinky sex stuff went a little too far

758
00:31:26,279 --> 00:31:32,340
and she's like well he slipped my wrist

759
00:31:29,880 --> 00:31:34,399
and left me to bleed out in the woods so

760
00:31:32,340 --> 00:31:39,059
yes I would say things went too far

761
00:31:34,399 --> 00:31:39,960
officer like she is not pleased

762
00:31:39,059 --> 00:31:42,600
um

763
00:31:39,960 --> 00:31:44,940
so she doesn't tell them about the angel

764
00:31:42,600 --> 00:31:46,799
of death hallucination she had because

765
00:31:44,940 --> 00:31:48,179
she figures they already think she's

766
00:31:46,799 --> 00:31:51,419
insane and she doesn't want to make it

767
00:31:48,179 --> 00:31:53,220
worse so she's released after four days

768
00:31:51,419 --> 00:31:55,380
um and she only tells one of her

769
00:31:53,220 --> 00:31:56,760
roommates if she tells Aaron what

770
00:31:55,380 --> 00:31:58,200
happened but she doesn't tell anybody

771
00:31:56,760 --> 00:31:59,880
else

772
00:31:58,200 --> 00:32:01,679
um she doesn't she says she doesn't want

773
00:31:59,880 --> 00:32:03,960
to talk about it anymore she's like I

774
00:32:01,679 --> 00:32:05,520
can't do this Aaron I don't I I don't

775
00:32:03,960 --> 00:32:07,200
want to say anymore but

776
00:32:05,520 --> 00:32:08,940
tell me about what happened with you and

777
00:32:07,200 --> 00:32:11,520
Shaw

778
00:32:08,940 --> 00:32:13,740
and Aaron is like oh yeah we hooked up

779
00:32:11,520 --> 00:32:15,240
but I haven't heard from him

780
00:32:13,740 --> 00:32:17,220
um and Mara's like I'm sure we'll see

781
00:32:15,240 --> 00:32:19,500
him again soon because they they're all

782
00:32:17,220 --> 00:32:22,140
in the art scene so it's a very small

783
00:32:19,500 --> 00:32:22,980
sort of insular Community

784
00:32:22,140 --> 00:32:26,279
um

785
00:32:22,980 --> 00:32:28,860
so and solar is also a good book I'm

786
00:32:26,279 --> 00:32:30,840
really killing it today

787
00:32:28,860 --> 00:32:33,539
with my vocab maybe not with the rest

788
00:32:30,840 --> 00:32:35,940
but you're like

789
00:32:33,539 --> 00:32:37,460
much like these serial killers

790
00:32:35,940 --> 00:32:39,720
[Music]

791
00:32:37,460 --> 00:32:42,299
you're bringing good vocab words I'm

792
00:32:39,720 --> 00:32:44,760
bringing bad puns and diapers I'm

793
00:32:42,299 --> 00:32:45,720
appreciating it I mean it's a good

794
00:32:44,760 --> 00:32:48,779
balance

795
00:32:45,720 --> 00:32:51,000
so even though she is like

796
00:32:48,779 --> 00:32:52,919
showing up to work and she's just like

797
00:32:51,000 --> 00:32:55,080
doing her thing

798
00:32:52,919 --> 00:32:56,700
she's not doing great she's having a lot

799
00:32:55,080 --> 00:32:58,620
of nightmares

800
00:32:56,700 --> 00:33:01,620
um and some general hyper vigilance

801
00:32:58,620 --> 00:33:03,000
clearly some acute stress disorder

802
00:33:01,620 --> 00:33:05,179
um that needs treatment so it doesn't

803
00:33:03,000 --> 00:33:07,740
become post-traumatic stress disorder

804
00:33:05,179 --> 00:33:09,419
but she doesn't have any money or health

805
00:33:07,740 --> 00:33:12,120
insurance I love that you clarified that

806
00:33:09,419 --> 00:33:15,480
for everyone thank you yeah

807
00:33:12,120 --> 00:33:17,760
um and so after a few weeks things start

808
00:33:15,480 --> 00:33:20,220
seem to be getting better

809
00:33:17,760 --> 00:33:22,980
um she got her waitressing job her

810
00:33:20,220 --> 00:33:23,640
bartending job and her job

811
00:33:22,980 --> 00:33:26,159
um

812
00:33:23,640 --> 00:33:27,179
uh walking dogs she got all of her jobs

813
00:33:26,159 --> 00:33:28,860
back

814
00:33:27,179 --> 00:33:31,019
and her roommates help her out with

815
00:33:28,860 --> 00:33:32,519
money because she couldn't work for like

816
00:33:31,019 --> 00:33:35,640
a week

817
00:33:32,519 --> 00:33:37,080
um and so she is still having all of

818
00:33:35,640 --> 00:33:38,580
these really really bad nightmares but

819
00:33:37,080 --> 00:33:40,620
it's getting easier for her to fake it

820
00:33:38,580 --> 00:33:41,460
during the day

821
00:33:40,620 --> 00:33:45,000
um

822
00:33:41,460 --> 00:33:47,640
so we switched to Cole's point of view

823
00:33:45,000 --> 00:33:49,860
um he is stalking Mara online now

824
00:33:47,640 --> 00:33:51,179
um she's not into like self-promotion

825
00:33:49,860 --> 00:33:54,179
she doesn't

826
00:33:51,179 --> 00:33:56,460
um like post a lot of like long rambling

827
00:33:54,179 --> 00:33:59,279
things about herself

828
00:33:56,460 --> 00:34:00,240
um but a lot of her friends use her as a

829
00:33:59,279 --> 00:34:01,559
model

830
00:34:00,240 --> 00:34:04,019
um that's like a common thing for

831
00:34:01,559 --> 00:34:06,899
artists to do for each other and so he

832
00:34:04,019 --> 00:34:07,919
finds lots of lots and lots of photos of

833
00:34:06,899 --> 00:34:10,020
her

834
00:34:07,919 --> 00:34:11,460
um but doesn't really get to know her

835
00:34:10,020 --> 00:34:13,560
too well there

836
00:34:11,460 --> 00:34:18,139
and then he sees that she posted about

837
00:34:13,560 --> 00:34:18,139
needing Studio space and he's like

838
00:34:19,619 --> 00:34:24,260
I think I may have a plan

839
00:34:26,520 --> 00:34:29,599
yeah hey

840
00:34:29,820 --> 00:34:36,300
what

841
00:34:31,399 --> 00:34:39,179
that was all it was just that smell

842
00:34:36,300 --> 00:34:41,820
just that sound I think I had more

843
00:34:39,179 --> 00:34:44,159
thoughts and then I think they

844
00:34:41,820 --> 00:34:46,320
what I went with was better

845
00:34:44,159 --> 00:34:48,780
encapsulating all of those thoughts

846
00:34:46,320 --> 00:34:50,580
that's fair yeah

847
00:34:48,780 --> 00:34:53,280
um so

848
00:34:50,580 --> 00:34:55,320
he like in this chapter and in his

849
00:34:53,280 --> 00:34:57,000
internal thoughts he's think he Compares

850
00:34:55,320 --> 00:34:59,339
himself to a god he's like I control

851
00:34:57,000 --> 00:35:00,180
everything in my world

852
00:34:59,339 --> 00:35:03,060
um

853
00:35:00,180 --> 00:35:06,240
and but he says um

854
00:35:03,060 --> 00:35:08,760
you know I'm a God but even Zeus was

855
00:35:06,240 --> 00:35:10,859
fascinated by Mortals occasionally so

856
00:35:08,760 --> 00:35:13,619
he's like becoming obsessed with this

857
00:35:10,859 --> 00:35:16,320
girl but he's comparing himself to Zeus

858
00:35:13,619 --> 00:35:18,900
it's just weird

859
00:35:16,320 --> 00:35:21,000
um so what cluster B diagnoses are we

860
00:35:18,900 --> 00:35:24,480
going with for him anti-social buddy

861
00:35:21,000 --> 00:35:27,480
yeah and a little narcissist with some

862
00:35:24,480 --> 00:35:29,400
narcissistic traits for sure yeah so he

863
00:35:27,480 --> 00:35:31,079
then breaks into her room when he knows

864
00:35:29,400 --> 00:35:32,700
that she's out walking dogs and it's

865
00:35:31,079 --> 00:35:34,500
gonna be a few hours before she gets

866
00:35:32,700 --> 00:35:36,060
back and he finds her sketches

867
00:35:34,500 --> 00:35:37,740
everywhere

868
00:35:36,060 --> 00:35:40,560
um and

869
00:35:37,740 --> 00:35:43,140
um he's really intrigued by all the

870
00:35:40,560 --> 00:35:45,839
talent that he sees he just starts kind

871
00:35:43,140 --> 00:35:48,060
of rummaging through her stuff sees you

872
00:35:45,839 --> 00:35:49,020
know she's reading Dracula

873
00:35:48,060 --> 00:35:52,260
um

874
00:35:49,020 --> 00:35:53,220
and he lays in her bed and really likes

875
00:35:52,260 --> 00:35:55,500
her scent

876
00:35:53,220 --> 00:35:59,220
and then he is like getting off on the

877
00:35:55,500 --> 00:36:02,460
idea that maybe when she lays down next

878
00:35:59,220 --> 00:36:06,000
time she'll smell him and either be

879
00:36:02,460 --> 00:36:08,540
afraid or also turned on and then he

880
00:36:06,000 --> 00:36:08,540
finds

881
00:36:08,820 --> 00:36:14,760
he finds what he assumes are panties

882
00:36:11,460 --> 00:36:17,339
from the night before on the floor

883
00:36:14,760 --> 00:36:19,260
and so if I see masturbate into them

884
00:36:17,339 --> 00:36:21,780
yeah he smells them and then he

885
00:36:19,260 --> 00:36:23,760
masturbates into them

886
00:36:21,780 --> 00:36:26,700
um and

887
00:36:23,760 --> 00:36:28,440
he also licks them it's really cringy

888
00:36:26,700 --> 00:36:31,560
it's just

889
00:36:28,440 --> 00:36:33,900
it's it is what it is so then he just

890
00:36:31,560 --> 00:36:35,820
drops them back on the floor

891
00:36:33,900 --> 00:36:36,660
he's like I'm just gonna leave these

892
00:36:35,820 --> 00:36:38,700
here

893
00:36:36,660 --> 00:36:40,740
and so he's looking around her room she

894
00:36:38,700 --> 00:36:43,260
lives in the Attic of this house and he

895
00:36:40,740 --> 00:36:45,420
realizes that the house behind hers has

896
00:36:43,260 --> 00:36:49,260
a window that looks directly into her

897
00:36:45,420 --> 00:36:52,400
room and he's like I am going to go call

898
00:36:49,260 --> 00:36:52,400
my real estate agent

899
00:36:52,640 --> 00:36:58,079
foreign so we're back tomorrow

900
00:36:55,800 --> 00:36:59,880
she's late for a date with a guy she's

901
00:36:58,079 --> 00:37:01,920
been seeing on and off for a couple of

902
00:36:59,880 --> 00:37:04,200
months and she doesn't really like him

903
00:37:01,920 --> 00:37:06,599
very much at all but she's like whenever

904
00:37:04,200 --> 00:37:08,700
like he fills the time it's convenient

905
00:37:06,599 --> 00:37:10,800
enough so she's rushing around to get

906
00:37:08,700 --> 00:37:12,960
dressed she finds she grabs the

907
00:37:10,800 --> 00:37:15,240
underwear off the floor and then she

908
00:37:12,960 --> 00:37:17,880
realizes that they're wet and she's like

909
00:37:15,240 --> 00:37:20,640
am I did I just start my period

910
00:37:17,880 --> 00:37:22,859
and then she's like oh my god what the

911
00:37:20,640 --> 00:37:24,960
[ __ ] is that and so she starts to like

912
00:37:22,859 --> 00:37:26,940
freak out a little bit and then she

913
00:37:24,960 --> 00:37:29,820
starts to try to rationalize like maybe

914
00:37:26,940 --> 00:37:32,760
maybe it's something else maybe one of

915
00:37:29,820 --> 00:37:34,619
my roommate's friends got up here or

916
00:37:32,760 --> 00:37:36,420
something

917
00:37:34,619 --> 00:37:38,880
um but

918
00:37:36,420 --> 00:37:40,079
she can't tell if if anybody's been in

919
00:37:38,880 --> 00:37:42,119
the room otherwise

920
00:37:40,079 --> 00:37:44,940
so then she just leaves without

921
00:37:42,119 --> 00:37:47,940
underwear on she's like whatever I only

922
00:37:44,940 --> 00:37:49,500
own one pair well so she hasn't done

923
00:37:47,940 --> 00:37:51,300
laundry in a really long time and that

924
00:37:49,500 --> 00:37:54,300
becomes relevant later

925
00:37:51,300 --> 00:37:57,000
so she goes without underwear she meets

926
00:37:54,300 --> 00:37:58,560
her date he is a dick but she just rolls

927
00:37:57,000 --> 00:38:00,119
with it she's like I honestly don't even

928
00:37:58,560 --> 00:38:02,099
care if you're gonna buy me dinner I

929
00:38:00,119 --> 00:38:06,240
don't even give a [ __ ]

930
00:38:02,099 --> 00:38:08,280
um and we've all been there amen did I

931
00:38:06,240 --> 00:38:11,220
ever tell you about my cousin who

932
00:38:08,280 --> 00:38:13,260
when she was single and was dating and

933
00:38:11,220 --> 00:38:14,880
was very much on a tight budget she used

934
00:38:13,260 --> 00:38:18,540
to strategically plan

935
00:38:14,880 --> 00:38:20,579
her tindered fumble whatever app

936
00:38:18,540 --> 00:38:22,140
matching dates to be every other night

937
00:38:20,579 --> 00:38:23,940
and then she would make sure she brought

938
00:38:22,140 --> 00:38:26,520
home her leftovers

939
00:38:23,940 --> 00:38:28,200
that's brilliant for the off night yeah

940
00:38:26,520 --> 00:38:29,760
so she's like I never have to buy myself

941
00:38:28,200 --> 00:38:33,599
dinner

942
00:38:29,760 --> 00:38:36,720
and I was like work it you know good for

943
00:38:33,599 --> 00:38:38,700
you girl that's a great plan yeah it's a

944
00:38:36,720 --> 00:38:39,540
hello strategy

945
00:38:38,700 --> 00:38:41,940
um

946
00:38:39,540 --> 00:38:44,339
so he didn't even notice that she was

947
00:38:41,940 --> 00:38:45,540
missing for five days

948
00:38:44,339 --> 00:38:48,420
um because they really only get together

949
00:38:45,540 --> 00:38:50,760
like once a week or so

950
00:38:48,420 --> 00:38:52,500
um he touches her ear

951
00:38:50,760 --> 00:38:55,920
um when he's trying to push her hair

952
00:38:52,500 --> 00:38:58,680
behind her ear and she flips the [ __ ]

953
00:38:55,920 --> 00:39:01,320
out she hates having her ears touched

954
00:38:58,680 --> 00:39:02,640
and she like has told him that multiple

955
00:39:01,320 --> 00:39:04,320
times

956
00:39:02,640 --> 00:39:07,020
um and then he's a real [ __ ] about it

957
00:39:04,320 --> 00:39:08,760
but then he apologizes later

958
00:39:07,020 --> 00:39:11,280
um and touches her thigh and he's like

959
00:39:08,760 --> 00:39:12,900
is this okay and she's thinking this is

960
00:39:11,280 --> 00:39:15,180
the first time someone's really touched

961
00:39:12,900 --> 00:39:17,940
me since someone tried to kill me this

962
00:39:15,180 --> 00:39:20,280
is we're gonna see how this goes

963
00:39:17,940 --> 00:39:23,460
so

964
00:39:20,280 --> 00:39:25,680
um he asks her if it's okay when he

965
00:39:23,460 --> 00:39:27,359
touches her thigh and she just kind of

966
00:39:25,680 --> 00:39:28,440
nods or whatever

967
00:39:27,359 --> 00:39:30,960
um

968
00:39:28,440 --> 00:39:33,119
she just Smiles through it and he keeps

969
00:39:30,960 --> 00:39:35,460
going until he realizes she's not

970
00:39:33,119 --> 00:39:37,560
wearing any underwear and he thinks that

971
00:39:35,460 --> 00:39:39,300
she did that for him and starts like

972
00:39:37,560 --> 00:39:41,280
playing with her under the under the

973
00:39:39,300 --> 00:39:44,460
table and doesn't seem to notice that

974
00:39:41,280 --> 00:39:47,820
she is like quietly losing her [ __ ]

975
00:39:44,460 --> 00:39:50,220
so she finally fully Freaks and says she

976
00:39:47,820 --> 00:39:52,740
has to leave and he's real pissy about

977
00:39:50,220 --> 00:39:56,099
it but she really doesn't care so she

978
00:39:52,740 --> 00:39:59,520
gets home and pulls her mattress out of

979
00:39:56,099 --> 00:40:01,260
her bedroom onto her balcony

980
00:39:59,520 --> 00:40:04,200
um to sleep because it's too hot in her

981
00:40:01,260 --> 00:40:05,700
room so she just kind of lays down and

982
00:40:04,200 --> 00:40:09,660
decides she's gonna put on some music

983
00:40:05,700 --> 00:40:12,599
and just finish the night

984
00:40:09,660 --> 00:40:15,200
um back to Cole

985
00:40:12,599 --> 00:40:15,200
I know

986
00:40:16,140 --> 00:40:18,800
tell me

987
00:40:19,740 --> 00:40:23,240
you look flummoxed

988
00:40:24,119 --> 00:40:29,040
you know I was thinking like

989
00:40:27,540 --> 00:40:30,480
I don't know what I was thinking

990
00:40:29,040 --> 00:40:33,780
actually

991
00:40:30,480 --> 00:40:36,359
I have a lot of thoughts and that's how

992
00:40:33,780 --> 00:40:38,339
I felt reading this whole book like the

993
00:40:36,359 --> 00:40:42,079
entire well the duet the whole time

994
00:40:38,339 --> 00:40:42,079
reading it I had a lot of thoughts

995
00:40:42,839 --> 00:40:48,359
okay so she pulls her mattress out to

996
00:40:45,119 --> 00:40:51,119
her balcony yep okay now we're at Cole's

997
00:40:48,359 --> 00:40:54,119
point of view okay so he finds that the

998
00:40:51,119 --> 00:40:56,160
house behind Mara's is on Airbnb and

999
00:40:54,119 --> 00:40:58,260
convinces the guy to cancel all of his

1000
00:40:56,160 --> 00:41:02,960
guests for the rest of the month and

1001
00:40:58,260 --> 00:41:02,960
pays for the month to to rent the house

1002
00:41:03,599 --> 00:41:07,800
um so

1003
00:41:05,220 --> 00:41:10,320
here is a dick

1004
00:41:07,800 --> 00:41:12,240
and he's like I don't understand why

1005
00:41:10,320 --> 00:41:15,000
this girl fought so hard to survive her

1006
00:41:12,240 --> 00:41:17,099
life is absolute garbage like look at it

1007
00:41:15,000 --> 00:41:18,960
none of it's good

1008
00:41:17,099 --> 00:41:24,119
um

1009
00:41:18,960 --> 00:41:27,839
and so then he goes and sets up like a

1010
00:41:24,119 --> 00:41:29,160
a what's that a telescope what's the

1011
00:41:27,839 --> 00:41:31,560
thing called

1012
00:41:29,160 --> 00:41:33,119
um I just want everyone to know Hannah

1013
00:41:31,560 --> 00:41:35,040
trying to figure out the word for

1014
00:41:33,119 --> 00:41:37,740
telescope and the hand motions

1015
00:41:35,040 --> 00:41:41,220
accompanying them it was she was it was

1016
00:41:37,740 --> 00:41:43,560
very much like a shake weight motion

1017
00:41:41,220 --> 00:41:46,020
um it was

1018
00:41:43,560 --> 00:41:48,119
thank you for sharing are Shake Weights

1019
00:41:46,020 --> 00:41:50,579
still a thing I don't know

1020
00:41:48,119 --> 00:41:52,800
I wonder if they were discontinued or if

1021
00:41:50,579 --> 00:41:55,800
they haven't bought them

1022
00:41:52,800 --> 00:41:57,900
a lot of people did they buy them to use

1023
00:41:55,800 --> 00:42:00,000
them or buy them as gag gifts is

1024
00:41:57,900 --> 00:42:01,079
probably their real question here that's

1025
00:42:00,000 --> 00:42:04,740
fair

1026
00:42:01,079 --> 00:42:08,280
but a lot of people did indeed I'm

1027
00:42:04,740 --> 00:42:09,720
there was a season there was yeah

1028
00:42:08,280 --> 00:42:14,280
well yeah I feel like they were in like

1029
00:42:09,720 --> 00:42:15,480
an SNL skit or something sure yeah so

1030
00:42:14,280 --> 00:42:18,000
yeah

1031
00:42:15,480 --> 00:42:19,520
for everything a season

1032
00:42:18,000 --> 00:42:22,020
yes

1033
00:42:19,520 --> 00:42:23,760
including literally just thinking that

1034
00:42:22,020 --> 00:42:24,359
okay

1035
00:42:23,760 --> 00:42:28,020
um

1036
00:42:24,359 --> 00:42:31,920
so he sets up a telescope

1037
00:42:28,020 --> 00:42:35,040
um and watches her put the panties on it

1038
00:42:31,920 --> 00:42:36,960
he came in and he is super turned on by

1039
00:42:35,040 --> 00:42:39,740
that and decides to follow her on this

1040
00:42:36,960 --> 00:42:44,280
date that she's on and watches her date

1041
00:42:39,740 --> 00:42:46,619
and is very confused by his reaction

1042
00:42:44,280 --> 00:42:48,960
um he's never felt jealousy before and

1043
00:42:46,619 --> 00:42:50,280
so he's like what is this wait I'm

1044
00:42:48,960 --> 00:42:52,200
confused because she didn't put the

1045
00:42:50,280 --> 00:42:53,460
underwear on or she put them on and then

1046
00:42:52,200 --> 00:42:55,260
she realized they were wet and then she

1047
00:42:53,460 --> 00:42:56,700
took them off so he watches that he's

1048
00:42:55,260 --> 00:42:59,520
watching the whole thing and he gets

1049
00:42:56,700 --> 00:43:02,040
turned on by how freaked out she is

1050
00:42:59,520 --> 00:43:03,599
um he does not understand jealousy but

1051
00:43:02,040 --> 00:43:05,640
he is pretty sure that's what he's

1052
00:43:03,599 --> 00:43:08,880
feeling he's like the [ __ ]

1053
00:43:05,640 --> 00:43:10,619
um so then he is super pleased when she

1054
00:43:08,880 --> 00:43:12,900
leaves

1055
00:43:10,619 --> 00:43:15,180
um so he follows her home watches her

1056
00:43:12,900 --> 00:43:17,760
pull her mattress outside

1057
00:43:15,180 --> 00:43:19,440
um and rain starts falling and he

1058
00:43:17,760 --> 00:43:22,319
expects that she's gonna like jump up

1059
00:43:19,440 --> 00:43:24,300
and pull her mattress back inside

1060
00:43:22,319 --> 00:43:27,000
but instead

1061
00:43:24,300 --> 00:43:29,700
um she gets naked and he watches her lay

1062
00:43:27,000 --> 00:43:31,079
on her mattress outside naked in the

1063
00:43:29,700 --> 00:43:33,240
rain

1064
00:43:31,079 --> 00:43:35,160
um listening to music

1065
00:43:33,240 --> 00:43:37,740
um and he reads her lips because she's

1066
00:43:35,160 --> 00:43:39,900
like singing along to the song and

1067
00:43:37,740 --> 00:43:42,240
Googles it so he can also listen to the

1068
00:43:39,900 --> 00:43:45,780
same song and then she starts touching

1069
00:43:42,240 --> 00:43:47,819
herself so he does too obviously

1070
00:43:45,780 --> 00:43:50,640
um and he doesn't understand why he is

1071
00:43:47,819 --> 00:43:53,220
so freaking fascinated by her this isn't

1072
00:43:50,640 --> 00:43:54,720
so unsettling yeah it's not gonna get

1073
00:43:53,220 --> 00:43:58,079
better

1074
00:43:54,720 --> 00:44:00,359
so she's freaking out about Studio space

1075
00:43:58,079 --> 00:44:03,000
the studio space that she was using she

1076
00:44:00,359 --> 00:44:05,099
can't use anymore but then she gets this

1077
00:44:03,000 --> 00:44:07,140
uh email from someone that she doesn't

1078
00:44:05,099 --> 00:44:08,160
know offering her this really incredible

1079
00:44:07,140 --> 00:44:11,099
deal

1080
00:44:08,160 --> 00:44:13,260
and she's like honestly I probably did

1081
00:44:11,099 --> 00:44:15,060
apply for this like young artist Grant

1082
00:44:13,260 --> 00:44:16,920
or whatever but and I just don't

1083
00:44:15,060 --> 00:44:18,660
remember because she was so frantically

1084
00:44:16,920 --> 00:44:20,940
looking for space

1085
00:44:18,660 --> 00:44:23,760
um and then you know she somebody tried

1086
00:44:20,940 --> 00:44:28,380
to kill her so she's had a lot going on

1087
00:44:23,760 --> 00:44:31,319
yeah so wait around justifies justify a

1088
00:44:28,380 --> 00:44:33,300
girl exactly so she's super excited and

1089
00:44:31,319 --> 00:44:35,160
goes the place is perfect there's no

1090
00:44:33,300 --> 00:44:36,839
deposit it's very affordable gorgeous

1091
00:44:35,160 --> 00:44:38,940
wonderful light all these great things

1092
00:44:36,839 --> 00:44:41,040
and she's like

1093
00:44:38,940 --> 00:44:42,599
you know what maybe this is my good

1094
00:44:41,040 --> 00:44:44,160
thing for all the [ __ ] I've been going

1095
00:44:42,599 --> 00:44:47,900
through like maybe things are finally

1096
00:44:44,160 --> 00:44:47,900
looking up this is pretty amazing

1097
00:44:48,300 --> 00:44:56,280
um and she's told that there is also a

1098
00:44:54,000 --> 00:44:59,160
um Grant available

1099
00:44:56,280 --> 00:44:59,819
um from the artist Guild and

1100
00:44:59,160 --> 00:45:02,640
um

1101
00:44:59,819 --> 00:45:04,319
that she is eligible for and she's

1102
00:45:02,640 --> 00:45:07,319
really really excited it's a lot of

1103
00:45:04,319 --> 00:45:08,700
pressure so she she's working on a

1104
00:45:07,319 --> 00:45:10,800
collage or something when the guild

1105
00:45:08,700 --> 00:45:13,500
members show up

1106
00:45:10,800 --> 00:45:15,240
um and they're coming to like view her

1107
00:45:13,500 --> 00:45:17,819
piece to decide if she's going to be in

1108
00:45:15,240 --> 00:45:19,680
this special show and get this grant

1109
00:45:17,819 --> 00:45:22,380
whatever

1110
00:45:19,680 --> 00:45:24,780
um and she recognizes Cole as the man

1111
00:45:22,380 --> 00:45:28,079
who left her to die who is apparently on

1112
00:45:24,780 --> 00:45:31,200
the board for the guild oh plot twist

1113
00:45:28,079 --> 00:45:31,920
um so she is flipping the [ __ ] out

1114
00:45:31,200 --> 00:45:34,500
um

1115
00:45:31,920 --> 00:45:37,800
she knows she can't start screaming

1116
00:45:34,500 --> 00:45:39,180
at him right now so she's like the [ __ ]

1117
00:45:37,800 --> 00:45:40,500
do I do

1118
00:45:39,180 --> 00:45:44,640
um I'm really not trying to look like a

1119
00:45:40,500 --> 00:45:48,180
crazy person so she very is struggling

1120
00:45:44,640 --> 00:45:49,440
through her interview with the board and

1121
00:45:48,180 --> 00:45:52,319
then

1122
00:45:49,440 --> 00:45:54,780
um she Cole just stares at her the whole

1123
00:45:52,319 --> 00:45:58,140
time so then they all file out and then

1124
00:45:54,780 --> 00:45:59,359
finally she snaps and chases him out of

1125
00:45:58,140 --> 00:46:03,900
the room

1126
00:45:59,359 --> 00:46:08,640
so coal is ecstatic at how freaked out

1127
00:46:03,900 --> 00:46:10,920
Mara is he is loving her discomfort and

1128
00:46:08,640 --> 00:46:12,660
um is glad that he has cameras in her

1129
00:46:10,920 --> 00:46:14,460
studio so he can watch it back for

1130
00:46:12,660 --> 00:46:18,119
himself later to watch how freaked out

1131
00:46:14,460 --> 00:46:20,940
she is yeah it gets worse so

1132
00:46:18,119 --> 00:46:22,500
um she comes out and I don't know how to

1133
00:46:20,940 --> 00:46:23,819
feel about the fact that like every

1134
00:46:22,500 --> 00:46:25,500
single time I'm like holy [ __ ] you're

1135
00:46:23,819 --> 00:46:27,480
like it's not gonna get better and then

1136
00:46:25,500 --> 00:46:30,119
I'm like [ __ ] hell and you're like it

1137
00:46:27,480 --> 00:46:32,240
gets worse like every single thing that

1138
00:46:30,119 --> 00:46:36,780
I'm like oh you're like I know right

1139
00:46:32,240 --> 00:46:40,619
Buckle in like reading this I was like

1140
00:46:36,780 --> 00:46:42,180
am I doing like why am I doing this but

1141
00:46:40,619 --> 00:46:44,339
I just kept reading and I Can't Tell You

1142
00:46:42,180 --> 00:46:47,520
Why actually I can't tell you why that's

1143
00:46:44,339 --> 00:46:49,740
a lie so I was doing a a virtual

1144
00:46:47,520 --> 00:46:51,839
training

1145
00:46:49,740 --> 00:46:53,940
and so I was sitting at home all day

1146
00:46:51,839 --> 00:46:56,839
wait was this when you did your virtual

1147
00:46:53,940 --> 00:47:00,420
ethics training no no

1148
00:46:56,839 --> 00:47:02,400
this was a different training and I

1149
00:47:00,420 --> 00:47:04,560
didn't have to have my camera on and so

1150
00:47:02,400 --> 00:47:06,720
I was like what am I gonna read so this

1151
00:47:04,560 --> 00:47:08,700
is a book that I chose randomly to read

1152
00:47:06,720 --> 00:47:13,200
during this training that I just had on

1153
00:47:08,700 --> 00:47:15,180
in the background and I was like

1154
00:47:13,200 --> 00:47:18,359
what's happening

1155
00:47:15,180 --> 00:47:20,940
and I couldn't stop it I don't know I

1156
00:47:18,359 --> 00:47:24,180
can't explain it to you but I did it and

1157
00:47:20,940 --> 00:47:26,819
now you're gonna experience it also

1158
00:47:24,180 --> 00:47:28,920
um you know what I do appreciate is that

1159
00:47:26,819 --> 00:47:31,920
it's like I read it so you don't have to

1160
00:47:28,920 --> 00:47:33,839
this really is that that is

1161
00:47:31,920 --> 00:47:35,640
this is definitely that well and here's

1162
00:47:33,839 --> 00:47:37,980
the thing I feel like I read a Sophie

1163
00:47:35,640 --> 00:47:40,440
Lark book

1164
00:47:37,980 --> 00:47:42,060
maybe I'm getting my authors confused

1165
00:47:40,440 --> 00:47:45,020
she has some other stuff that's really

1166
00:47:42,060 --> 00:47:45,020
actually pretty good

1167
00:47:49,099 --> 00:47:54,060
yes I just read that one yes I read

1168
00:47:52,140 --> 00:47:56,220
brutal Prince

1169
00:47:54,060 --> 00:47:58,500
and it was fine but I also think it was

1170
00:47:56,220 --> 00:48:00,119
forgettable because I just as as you

1171
00:47:58,500 --> 00:48:03,060
just heard I went

1172
00:48:00,119 --> 00:48:05,160
was that the name and earlier you you

1173
00:48:03,060 --> 00:48:07,140
heard me be like so the wall of Winnipeg

1174
00:48:05,160 --> 00:48:08,220
and me hands down wait for it let me

1175
00:48:07,140 --> 00:48:09,300
tell you about all the characters and

1176
00:48:08,220 --> 00:48:10,920
how they love each other and how they

1177
00:48:09,300 --> 00:48:13,020
all interact and how adorable it is and

1178
00:48:10,920 --> 00:48:14,400
how much I love it all yeah and this one

1179
00:48:13,020 --> 00:48:17,400
I'm like

1180
00:48:14,400 --> 00:48:20,339
I'm like 80 confident that wasn't like

1181
00:48:17,400 --> 00:48:23,160
yeah I could not tell you what that book

1182
00:48:20,339 --> 00:48:24,480
was about nor am I asking to be I mean I

1183
00:48:23,160 --> 00:48:26,460
could tell you but you don't want to

1184
00:48:24,480 --> 00:48:28,260
know it doesn't matter yeah like I read

1185
00:48:26,460 --> 00:48:30,180
it and I already

1186
00:48:28,260 --> 00:48:33,800
forgot it this is a book that I will

1187
00:48:30,180 --> 00:48:33,800
remember but not fondly

1188
00:48:33,839 --> 00:48:39,960
fair enough okay so he's really excited

1189
00:48:37,140 --> 00:48:42,660
um has cameras in the studio so he can

1190
00:48:39,960 --> 00:48:45,359
watch the playback of her losing her

1191
00:48:42,660 --> 00:48:47,160
[ __ ] yes okay so he agrees to talk with

1192
00:48:45,359 --> 00:48:50,280
her when she comes out and just she's

1193
00:48:47,160 --> 00:48:52,200
like can I speak with you Mr Blackwell

1194
00:48:50,280 --> 00:48:54,839
so then as soon as they get into an

1195
00:48:52,200 --> 00:48:56,760
empty Studio she's like accuses him of

1196
00:48:54,839 --> 00:48:58,800
kidnapping her

1197
00:48:56,760 --> 00:49:00,359
um and cutting her and he's like what

1198
00:48:58,800 --> 00:49:02,460
are you talking about

1199
00:49:00,359 --> 00:49:04,680
that wasn't me

1200
00:49:02,460 --> 00:49:05,579
um and he realizes that she does not

1201
00:49:04,680 --> 00:49:07,619
know

1202
00:49:05,579 --> 00:49:13,140
who did it

1203
00:49:07,619 --> 00:49:15,900
um so she didn't see Shaw's face

1204
00:49:13,140 --> 00:49:18,780
um but he knows that she that he

1205
00:49:15,900 --> 00:49:20,940
realizes that she knows that Cole was in

1206
00:49:18,780 --> 00:49:22,440
the woods but she doesn't know who

1207
00:49:20,940 --> 00:49:24,240
actually kidnapped her this question

1208
00:49:22,440 --> 00:49:26,700
does not matter at all but it's just for

1209
00:49:24,240 --> 00:49:29,460
my own understanding not even my own

1210
00:49:26,700 --> 00:49:32,480
understanding I understand plenty

1211
00:49:29,460 --> 00:49:32,480
we wish we could understand

1212
00:49:37,500 --> 00:49:44,400
Haw his name is Aleister Shaw

1213
00:49:41,400 --> 00:49:46,740
which is a weird name so Hannah and I

1214
00:49:44,400 --> 00:49:48,540
used to work for the same company and we

1215
00:49:46,740 --> 00:49:49,940
had a co-worker whose first name was

1216
00:49:48,540 --> 00:49:52,920
shot

1217
00:49:49,940 --> 00:49:55,079
we adore Shaw

1218
00:49:52,920 --> 00:49:56,040
I he will probably never listen to this

1219
00:49:55,079 --> 00:49:59,460
podcast

1220
00:49:56,040 --> 00:50:01,680
probably not if he randomly hears this I

1221
00:49:59,460 --> 00:50:04,380
would absolutely crack up

1222
00:50:01,680 --> 00:50:07,319
um but like we love him and whenever I

1223
00:50:04,380 --> 00:50:11,099
think of Shaw I think of

1224
00:50:07,319 --> 00:50:12,180
our friend Shaw not a weird serial

1225
00:50:11,099 --> 00:50:13,859
killer

1226
00:50:12,180 --> 00:50:17,040
like

1227
00:50:13,859 --> 00:50:19,619
Shaw's from Pakistan like

1228
00:50:17,040 --> 00:50:21,180
every time you'd see him like his hair

1229
00:50:19,619 --> 00:50:23,040
would be different he had this he has

1230
00:50:21,180 --> 00:50:25,680
this like incredible mustache that like

1231
00:50:23,040 --> 00:50:27,660
he can grow overnight so like I swear

1232
00:50:25,680 --> 00:50:29,460
we'd be like see him one day on like a

1233
00:50:27,660 --> 00:50:31,020
work meeting link and he'd have no

1234
00:50:29,460 --> 00:50:32,940
facial hair and the next day I'm like

1235
00:50:31,020 --> 00:50:34,980
where the hell did that full ass

1236
00:50:32,940 --> 00:50:36,240
beautiful mustache come from my guy yeah

1237
00:50:34,980 --> 00:50:39,359
and so

1238
00:50:36,240 --> 00:50:43,280
every time you say shop I think of our

1239
00:50:39,359 --> 00:50:46,740
speak of our shop our mustache Shaw our

1240
00:50:43,280 --> 00:50:48,839
mustachioed friend who like we always

1241
00:50:46,740 --> 00:50:51,480
also used to laugh when we were working

1242
00:50:48,839 --> 00:50:53,280
because we would be on links like when

1243
00:50:51,480 --> 00:50:55,500
we were all like peers on the same level

1244
00:50:53,280 --> 00:50:57,059
and Shaw would be wearing like a

1245
00:50:55,500 --> 00:50:58,859
sweatshirt or his like shirt would be

1246
00:50:57,059 --> 00:51:02,220
like unbuttoned like a couple like not

1247
00:50:58,859 --> 00:51:03,599
like weirdly just like yeah and then

1248
00:51:02,220 --> 00:51:05,460
whenever we had a meeting with our boss

1249
00:51:03,599 --> 00:51:07,020
like we'd like literally be like okay

1250
00:51:05,460 --> 00:51:08,819
we're getting off of this Google meet

1251
00:51:07,020 --> 00:51:11,460
link to hop onto this Google meet link

1252
00:51:08,819 --> 00:51:13,920
and we hop on and shot a shirt it's like

1253
00:51:11,460 --> 00:51:16,079
fully buttoned all the way up top so we

1254
00:51:13,920 --> 00:51:17,819
started calling it top button we're like

1255
00:51:16,079 --> 00:51:20,359
oh we're like we're top button

1256
00:51:17,819 --> 00:51:20,359
professional

1257
00:51:20,640 --> 00:51:25,920
that's the the quick turnaround is you

1258
00:51:23,700 --> 00:51:27,900
just do all the buttons and so this is

1259
00:51:25,920 --> 00:51:29,760
what I'm thinking about and now we're

1260
00:51:27,900 --> 00:51:32,400
professional with our mustache well

1261
00:51:29,760 --> 00:51:34,500
nothing professional is going on between

1262
00:51:32,400 --> 00:51:36,780
Cole and Mara

1263
00:51:34,500 --> 00:51:38,579
um can we keep talking about our shot I

1264
00:51:36,780 --> 00:51:40,800
think she's like I don't want to hear it

1265
00:51:38,579 --> 00:51:43,260
anymore I think I might like that better

1266
00:51:40,800 --> 00:51:46,319
I'm sure that you would but we're we're

1267
00:51:43,260 --> 00:51:48,480
in it now so

1268
00:51:46,319 --> 00:51:50,099
um she threatens to go to the cops and

1269
00:51:48,480 --> 00:51:51,720
he's like you're just gonna look more

1270
00:51:50,099 --> 00:51:54,660
insane and you're gonna lose your studio

1271
00:51:51,720 --> 00:51:56,040
space and any chance at this grant is

1272
00:51:54,660 --> 00:51:57,780
that really what you want to do you want

1273
00:51:56,040 --> 00:51:59,520
to kill your kill your career is that

1274
00:51:57,780 --> 00:52:03,540
what you want

1275
00:51:59,520 --> 00:52:07,140
um and so uh he

1276
00:52:03,540 --> 00:52:09,900
she pulls up her shirt sleeve and shows

1277
00:52:07,140 --> 00:52:11,460
the scar from where her wrist was cut

1278
00:52:09,900 --> 00:52:12,359
um and she is like

1279
00:52:11,460 --> 00:52:16,260
um

1280
00:52:12,359 --> 00:52:20,220
uh he points out the the scars from her

1281
00:52:16,260 --> 00:52:23,760
self-harm and he is he he says that she

1282
00:52:20,220 --> 00:52:24,500
is a walking Beacon for predators

1283
00:52:23,760 --> 00:52:27,720
um

1284
00:52:24,500 --> 00:52:30,180
and said she probably had an alcoholic

1285
00:52:27,720 --> 00:52:32,760
father who never loved her

1286
00:52:30,180 --> 00:52:35,040
um and she's like actually that was an

1287
00:52:32,760 --> 00:52:37,280
alcoholic mother and a shitty stepfather

1288
00:52:35,040 --> 00:52:39,859
thank you for playing

1289
00:52:37,280 --> 00:52:42,780
and um

1290
00:52:39,859 --> 00:52:44,400
uh he she continues to threaten there's

1291
00:52:42,780 --> 00:52:47,640
like this whole exchange and he's like

1292
00:52:44,400 --> 00:52:50,520
go ahead honey no one will believe you

1293
00:52:47,640 --> 00:52:53,520
you go do whatever you want

1294
00:52:50,520 --> 00:52:55,380
um so he she asks she's like why are you

1295
00:52:53,520 --> 00:52:57,780
doing this to me like I don't understand

1296
00:52:55,380 --> 00:52:59,880
why would you offer me studio space why

1297
00:52:57,780 --> 00:53:01,920
are you doing this and he's like because

1298
00:52:59,880 --> 00:53:04,980
I want to

1299
00:53:01,920 --> 00:53:07,859
so we're back to Mara's point of view

1300
00:53:04,980 --> 00:53:09,660
she is losing her ever loving [ __ ] she's

1301
00:53:07,859 --> 00:53:12,720
like smacking herself in the face like

1302
00:53:09,660 --> 00:53:14,579
trying to like calm down and she doesn't

1303
00:53:12,720 --> 00:53:17,040
know she she doesn't know what's real

1304
00:53:14,579 --> 00:53:18,900
she's like maybe I saw his face at a

1305
00:53:17,040 --> 00:53:20,819
party and I really did hallucinate him

1306
00:53:18,900 --> 00:53:23,220
in the woods and then she's like no no

1307
00:53:20,819 --> 00:53:26,040
he was there I know that he was there he

1308
00:53:23,220 --> 00:53:28,079
was trust your gut here Queen where are

1309
00:53:26,040 --> 00:53:29,940
our instincts

1310
00:53:28,079 --> 00:53:31,740
um so then she starts thinking about all

1311
00:53:29,940 --> 00:53:33,559
of the emotional and verbal abuse that

1312
00:53:31,740 --> 00:53:38,220
she suffered from her mother as a child

1313
00:53:33,559 --> 00:53:40,020
and she is like no I am not she she has

1314
00:53:38,220 --> 00:53:43,079
like urges to self-harm and she's like

1315
00:53:40,020 --> 00:53:46,440
nope I don't do that anymore and so she

1316
00:53:43,079 --> 00:53:51,300
goes Ham on this canvas and just starts

1317
00:53:46,440 --> 00:53:53,579
painting like mad and it's her basically

1318
00:53:51,300 --> 00:53:55,260
a self-portrait of her bound and gagged

1319
00:53:53,579 --> 00:53:57,900
and bleeding

1320
00:53:55,260 --> 00:53:59,240
um and uh she's basically in a days and

1321
00:53:57,900 --> 00:54:02,220
paints all night

1322
00:53:59,240 --> 00:54:04,200
so Cole is watching all of this so he's

1323
00:54:02,220 --> 00:54:06,599
watching her in her studio

1324
00:54:04,200 --> 00:54:08,880
um his assistant comes in and he's like

1325
00:54:06,599 --> 00:54:10,140
yeah Mara won the Grant and she's like

1326
00:54:08,880 --> 00:54:14,040
don't you need to talk to the rest of

1327
00:54:10,140 --> 00:54:16,800
the guild and he's like no I do not Mara

1328
00:54:14,040 --> 00:54:17,819
one thank you and

1329
00:54:16,800 --> 00:54:20,339
um

1330
00:54:17,819 --> 00:54:21,839
there's a random reference that he had a

1331
00:54:20,339 --> 00:54:23,940
really shitty father but a very very

1332
00:54:21,839 --> 00:54:25,680
wealthy family

1333
00:54:23,940 --> 00:54:28,500
um he doesn't understand why he's so

1334
00:54:25,680 --> 00:54:31,500
excited he's just he really doesn't he

1335
00:54:28,500 --> 00:54:33,000
he can't comprehend human emotion

1336
00:54:31,500 --> 00:54:34,200
um so he just watches her paint all

1337
00:54:33,000 --> 00:54:36,540
night

1338
00:54:34,200 --> 00:54:39,119
so then in the mara in the morning Mara

1339
00:54:36,540 --> 00:54:42,119
is cleaning up and

1340
00:54:39,119 --> 00:54:43,440
um starts to walk out for her brunch

1341
00:54:42,119 --> 00:54:46,440
shift

1342
00:54:43,440 --> 00:54:46,440
and

1343
00:54:46,859 --> 00:54:51,660
um she sees that there's a camera in her

1344
00:54:49,920 --> 00:54:53,579
Studio she's like

1345
00:54:51,660 --> 00:54:56,700
she's like

1346
00:54:53,579 --> 00:54:58,140
um yeah she's gonna spray paint them I

1347
00:54:56,700 --> 00:54:59,880
don't like that

1348
00:54:58,140 --> 00:55:01,440
so

1349
00:54:59,880 --> 00:55:04,800
um she

1350
00:55:01,440 --> 00:55:07,440
is she gonna spray paint them no no but

1351
00:55:04,800 --> 00:55:10,440
she runs into Cole's assistant

1352
00:55:07,440 --> 00:55:12,660
um whose name I think is Sonia I

1353
00:55:10,440 --> 00:55:16,800
literally could not bring myself to give

1354
00:55:12,660 --> 00:55:20,400
any shits about his assistant's name but

1355
00:55:16,800 --> 00:55:21,720
um she tells Mara that she got the grant

1356
00:55:20,400 --> 00:55:23,640
gives her the check for two thousand

1357
00:55:21,720 --> 00:55:25,800
dollars Mars like oh my God you're my

1358
00:55:23,640 --> 00:55:28,500
fairy Godmother you're amazing

1359
00:55:25,800 --> 00:55:30,780
um so does more connect the dots on why

1360
00:55:28,500 --> 00:55:33,780
she got the grant no she's even more

1361
00:55:30,780 --> 00:55:35,579
confused so she goes home she tells her

1362
00:55:33,780 --> 00:55:37,980
roommates about the money

1363
00:55:35,579 --> 00:55:39,359
um but decides not to tell them that

1364
00:55:37,980 --> 00:55:40,980
Cole was there the night she was

1365
00:55:39,359 --> 00:55:45,359
attacked

1366
00:55:40,980 --> 00:55:47,220
um and she uh they're like so why is he

1367
00:55:45,359 --> 00:55:49,200
helping you are you are you banging him

1368
00:55:47,220 --> 00:55:51,960
and she's like no I don't I really don't

1369
00:55:49,200 --> 00:55:54,599
know why I don't know I don't know she's

1370
00:55:51,960 --> 00:55:56,819
like but I do know

1371
00:55:54,599 --> 00:55:58,500
so then Cole shows up at the restaurant

1372
00:55:56,819 --> 00:56:01,380
where she works

1373
00:55:58,500 --> 00:56:03,540
um and waits for her shift to end

1374
00:56:01,380 --> 00:56:05,760
um demanding to eat with her

1375
00:56:03,540 --> 00:56:08,640
um she is furious and very very

1376
00:56:05,760 --> 00:56:13,020
skeptical about what's going on rightly

1377
00:56:08,640 --> 00:56:15,540
so her boss is shipping them from the

1378
00:56:13,020 --> 00:56:18,300
jump he is like look at this handsome

1379
00:56:15,540 --> 00:56:20,640
man he is here for you we love to see it

1380
00:56:18,300 --> 00:56:22,260
this is great and he is basically a

1381
00:56:20,640 --> 00:56:23,880
father figure to her and she's like can

1382
00:56:22,260 --> 00:56:26,700
you please shut the [ __ ] up right now

1383
00:56:23,880 --> 00:56:28,859
Arthur like can you not

1384
00:56:26,700 --> 00:56:33,599
um Arthur is not picking up the The

1385
00:56:28,859 --> 00:56:35,099
Vibes though so I had a boss not I mean

1386
00:56:33,599 --> 00:56:37,559
obviously it wasn't a serial killer

1387
00:56:35,099 --> 00:56:39,780
situation but I had a boss who like

1388
00:56:37,559 --> 00:56:40,980
never quite picked up the vibe but was

1389
00:56:39,780 --> 00:56:42,599
very much like

1390
00:56:40,980 --> 00:56:44,640
Father Figure situation when I was like

1391
00:56:42,599 --> 00:56:46,319
living in Texas and my parents were not

1392
00:56:44,640 --> 00:56:48,359
living in Texas and I was younger and

1393
00:56:46,319 --> 00:56:50,280
like I was in like holidays with him and

1394
00:56:48,359 --> 00:56:53,339
his family like kind of energy and I

1395
00:56:50,280 --> 00:56:55,680
told him I was like casually dating or

1396
00:56:53,339 --> 00:56:57,859
like casually talking this dude once

1397
00:56:55,680 --> 00:57:00,240
he added him on Facebook

1398
00:56:57,859 --> 00:57:02,460
and then I'd have a whole ass

1399
00:57:00,240 --> 00:57:03,180
conversation with this kid where he's

1400
00:57:02,460 --> 00:57:05,819
like

1401
00:57:03,180 --> 00:57:09,420
so I think we might be in different

1402
00:57:05,819 --> 00:57:10,500
places oh and I was like what are you

1403
00:57:09,420 --> 00:57:12,720
talking about he's like well like you're

1404
00:57:10,500 --> 00:57:14,579
like your boss is adding me on Facebook

1405
00:57:12,720 --> 00:57:17,700
and I was like

1406
00:57:14,579 --> 00:57:19,859
he what I was like

1407
00:57:17,700 --> 00:57:21,660
well we need to have a conversation

1408
00:57:19,859 --> 00:57:22,800
about I was like not you and me have a

1409
00:57:21,660 --> 00:57:25,079
conversation about that me and my boss

1410
00:57:22,800 --> 00:57:27,000
have a conversation about that because I

1411
00:57:25,079 --> 00:57:29,579
I told him I was casually talking to

1412
00:57:27,000 --> 00:57:31,680
someone and he did not read that Vibe

1413
00:57:29,579 --> 00:57:34,800
correctly that

1414
00:57:31,680 --> 00:57:37,800
he should add you on

1415
00:57:34,800 --> 00:57:41,640
social media we're now in a very awkward

1416
00:57:37,800 --> 00:57:43,140
place yes yeah yeah a lot I mean the

1417
00:57:41,640 --> 00:57:46,980
dude's not my husband that's not the way

1418
00:57:43,140 --> 00:57:48,480
that I'm marrying but still damn okay so

1419
00:57:46,980 --> 00:57:51,119
so

1420
00:57:48,480 --> 00:57:53,160
um they eat together he says that he

1421
00:57:51,119 --> 00:57:55,380
wants her to be his Protege and she's

1422
00:57:53,160 --> 00:57:56,819
like does that are you are you asking me

1423
00:57:55,380 --> 00:57:58,020
to have sex with you like I don't

1424
00:57:56,819 --> 00:58:00,660
understand what's happening right now

1425
00:57:58,020 --> 00:58:02,940
and he's like do I look like a man who

1426
00:58:00,660 --> 00:58:05,940
needs to bribe women for sex honey like

1427
00:58:02,940 --> 00:58:07,680
no that's not what this is and he says

1428
00:58:05,940 --> 00:58:09,839
that he'll be her mentor and she'll do

1429
00:58:07,680 --> 00:58:11,520
everything he says

1430
00:58:09,839 --> 00:58:13,140
um he says that he wants to know

1431
00:58:11,520 --> 00:58:16,740
everything about her so they're still

1432
00:58:13,140 --> 00:58:19,380
eating they're hanging out I guess

1433
00:58:16,740 --> 00:58:21,180
um she explains that her father died and

1434
00:58:19,380 --> 00:58:22,859
they didn't have much money so food was

1435
00:58:21,180 --> 00:58:25,020
very scarce that's why she eats the way

1436
00:58:22,859 --> 00:58:28,079
that she does like he he's like struck

1437
00:58:25,020 --> 00:58:30,660
with how much passion she has for food

1438
00:58:28,079 --> 00:58:33,480
um so then she says her mother remarried

1439
00:58:30,660 --> 00:58:35,400
um mom is a parasite dad stepdad's a

1440
00:58:33,480 --> 00:58:37,740
psycho she hasn't spoken to either of

1441
00:58:35,400 --> 00:58:39,540
them in several years

1442
00:58:37,740 --> 00:58:41,640
um when I think of eating with gusto I

1443
00:58:39,540 --> 00:58:43,559
think of friends when

1444
00:58:41,640 --> 00:58:46,920
Rachel

1445
00:58:43,559 --> 00:58:48,599
is talking to Ross about how quickly he

1446
00:58:46,920 --> 00:58:51,900
eats and he's like I grew up with Monica

1447
00:58:48,599 --> 00:58:54,140
if you didn't eat fast you didn't eat at

1448
00:58:51,900 --> 00:58:54,140
all

1449
00:58:55,220 --> 00:58:58,500
yeah that's basically what's happening

1450
00:58:57,480 --> 00:59:00,660
okay

1451
00:58:58,500 --> 00:59:01,799
um so she doesn't know

1452
00:59:00,660 --> 00:59:03,599
um

1453
00:59:01,799 --> 00:59:05,640
how he got so much information out of

1454
00:59:03,599 --> 00:59:08,280
her she's kind of freaked out by that

1455
00:59:05,640 --> 00:59:10,799
um but she felt like he just listened

1456
00:59:08,280 --> 00:59:12,780
like he didn't judge or ask questions or

1457
00:59:10,799 --> 00:59:15,299
say like oh it's gonna be okay or oh but

1458
00:59:12,780 --> 00:59:17,160
that's your mom he just listened

1459
00:59:15,299 --> 00:59:18,299
um so then she's like I'm just gonna go

1460
00:59:17,160 --> 00:59:19,559
back to painting because I don't know

1461
00:59:18,299 --> 00:59:23,040
what the [ __ ] is happening in my life

1462
00:59:19,559 --> 00:59:25,619
right now so I've had enough of it so

1463
00:59:23,040 --> 00:59:28,020
Kohl's Mara Obsession continues

1464
00:59:25,619 --> 00:59:31,319
um he goes to her studio

1465
00:59:28,020 --> 00:59:35,760
um and she is really really mad and he

1466
00:59:31,319 --> 00:59:38,819
goes her asking if she wants to hurt him

1467
00:59:35,760 --> 00:59:43,460
and um she says no the evil men always

1468
00:59:38,819 --> 00:59:43,460
try to make you break as bad as them

1469
00:59:47,700 --> 00:59:54,299
but first

1470
00:59:49,260 --> 00:59:56,400
do you like us maybe even love us cause

1471
00:59:54,299 --> 01:00:00,720
we sure love you

1472
00:59:56,400 --> 01:00:02,160
and if you do love us don't tease us now

1473
01:00:00,720 --> 01:00:04,559
listen those ratings and reviews

1474
01:00:02,160 --> 01:00:07,140
wherever you're listening right now

1475
01:00:04,559 --> 01:00:09,359
maybe even send us over to a special

1476
01:00:07,140 --> 01:00:10,600
sexy someone that would enjoy getting

1477
01:00:09,359 --> 01:00:12,059
smutty with us

1478
01:00:10,600 --> 01:00:15,420
[Music]

1479
01:00:12,059 --> 01:00:17,220
first rule of smug Club is to talk about

1480
01:00:15,420 --> 01:00:19,859
SMUD Club

1481
01:00:17,220 --> 01:00:23,660
all right I won't keep you any longer

1482
01:00:19,859 --> 01:00:23,660
let's get back to the show

1483
01:00:25,780 --> 01:00:29,819
[Music]

1484
01:00:28,319 --> 01:00:31,380
okay

1485
01:00:29,819 --> 01:00:34,200
I feel like I missed something and

1486
01:00:31,380 --> 01:00:35,940
honestly I don't know if I care that I

1487
01:00:34,200 --> 01:00:37,559
missed it because I feel like they just

1488
01:00:35,940 --> 01:00:40,200
had like a nice dinner and she was like

1489
01:00:37,559 --> 01:00:43,020
oh look at him listening well so he

1490
01:00:40,200 --> 01:00:45,420
comes into her studio and tries to touch

1491
01:00:43,020 --> 01:00:48,299
her paint like he tries to touch her

1492
01:00:45,420 --> 01:00:50,280
painting and like make changes to it I

1493
01:00:48,299 --> 01:00:52,859
didn't explain that very well and she's

1494
01:00:50,280 --> 01:00:56,040
like don't [ __ ] touch my [ __ ] she's

1495
01:00:52,859 --> 01:00:58,079
like don't touch my [ __ ] no that would

1496
01:00:56,040 --> 01:00:59,700
be super offensive I get it now yeah

1497
01:00:58,079 --> 01:01:00,559
yeah so he

1498
01:00:59,700 --> 01:01:03,599
um

1499
01:01:00,559 --> 01:01:06,000
realizes that she still thinks it was

1500
01:01:03,599 --> 01:01:07,799
him that kidnapped her and slit her

1501
01:01:06,000 --> 01:01:11,099
wrist and yet she's alone in a room

1502
01:01:07,799 --> 01:01:13,020
standing up to him and so this is a

1503
01:01:11,099 --> 01:01:14,700
direct quote she's more Twisted than I

1504
01:01:13,020 --> 01:01:17,280
ever dared dream

1505
01:01:14,700 --> 01:01:19,319
he's like look at how [ __ ] up she is I

1506
01:01:17,280 --> 01:01:22,980
can't believe how into that I am

1507
01:01:19,319 --> 01:01:26,040
so lucky am I right

1508
01:01:22,980 --> 01:01:28,680
so she decides to

1509
01:01:26,040 --> 01:01:31,319
um walk to the show for her new painting

1510
01:01:28,680 --> 01:01:33,900
rather than riding with Cole like he

1511
01:01:31,319 --> 01:01:36,540
demanded and he sent her a dress she's

1512
01:01:33,900 --> 01:01:38,099
like not wearing it she's like I'm just

1513
01:01:36,540 --> 01:01:38,940
not doing this I'm not playing this game

1514
01:01:38,099 --> 01:01:40,619
with you

1515
01:01:38,940 --> 01:01:44,160
so

1516
01:01:40,619 --> 01:01:45,660
um she uh wants her painting to be the

1517
01:01:44,160 --> 01:01:47,220
centerpiece she's like I'm not showing

1518
01:01:45,660 --> 01:01:49,619
up on Cole's arm and have everybody

1519
01:01:47,220 --> 01:01:52,140
distracted by him showing up with a

1520
01:01:49,619 --> 01:01:53,520
woman for the first time ever my

1521
01:01:52,140 --> 01:01:55,680
painting needs to be the thing that's

1522
01:01:53,520 --> 01:01:57,839
the most important here

1523
01:01:55,680 --> 01:02:00,059
um so she realizes she's getting to know

1524
01:01:57,839 --> 01:02:02,099
him and all of the different masks that

1525
01:02:00,059 --> 01:02:06,180
he wears to charm people and get what he

1526
01:02:02,099 --> 01:02:07,859
wants and she wonders if maybe he uses a

1527
01:02:06,180 --> 01:02:09,839
mask with her too

1528
01:02:07,859 --> 01:02:11,460
um like the coldness and all that maybe

1529
01:02:09,839 --> 01:02:13,980
that's a mask

1530
01:02:11,460 --> 01:02:15,960
and her painting was basically a

1531
01:02:13,980 --> 01:02:17,640
self-portrait of a woman restrained and

1532
01:02:15,960 --> 01:02:21,180
shot through

1533
01:02:17,640 --> 01:02:23,099
um with arrows and knives and um like

1534
01:02:21,180 --> 01:02:25,260
her head is caved in it's a very it's a

1535
01:02:23,099 --> 01:02:27,540
very violent art

1536
01:02:25,260 --> 01:02:30,780
um and she called it the mercy of men I

1537
01:02:27,540 --> 01:02:32,700
was like that is really [ __ ] dark

1538
01:02:30,780 --> 01:02:36,420
so

1539
01:02:32,700 --> 01:02:39,900
I apologize to everyone who's listening

1540
01:02:36,420 --> 01:02:42,059
um because I feel like what you you

1541
01:02:39,900 --> 01:02:44,400
aren't getting from us and what you

1542
01:02:42,059 --> 01:02:46,859
aren't getting from me

1543
01:02:44,400 --> 01:02:49,559
is all of my facial expressions there's

1544
01:02:46,859 --> 01:02:51,960
so many there's so many and I really

1545
01:02:49,559 --> 01:02:54,420
feel like my facial expressions are

1546
01:02:51,960 --> 01:02:57,299
their own Journey here

1547
01:02:54,420 --> 01:03:02,220
but like I so instead I'm just like

1548
01:02:57,299 --> 01:03:05,640
sitting in silence making a lot of faces

1549
01:03:02,220 --> 01:03:07,200
that's okay it's okay I understand I

1550
01:03:05,640 --> 01:03:09,599
really do

1551
01:03:07,200 --> 01:03:11,880
um I really do uh so we're back to

1552
01:03:09,599 --> 01:03:13,740
Cole's point of view he is livid that

1553
01:03:11,880 --> 01:03:16,200
she didn't wait for him like absolutely

1554
01:03:13,740 --> 01:03:18,720
[ __ ] raging

1555
01:03:16,200 --> 01:03:19,559
um he shows up and

1556
01:03:18,720 --> 01:03:21,660
um

1557
01:03:19,559 --> 01:03:23,220
he's concerned that Shaw is going to

1558
01:03:21,660 --> 01:03:24,660
show up at the show and realize that

1559
01:03:23,220 --> 01:03:28,079
she's alive because he doesn't think

1560
01:03:24,660 --> 01:03:29,819
Shaw knows yet so he

1561
01:03:28,079 --> 01:03:33,299
um he just wants to be with her all the

1562
01:03:29,819 --> 01:03:35,520
time like watching from afar isn't

1563
01:03:33,299 --> 01:03:37,260
enough anymore fully a man obsessed at

1564
01:03:35,520 --> 01:03:39,180
this point yeah so he gets to the

1565
01:03:37,260 --> 01:03:40,799
gallery storms up to her to confront her

1566
01:03:39,180 --> 01:03:43,380
and

1567
01:03:40,799 --> 01:03:44,700
um she turns to him and said says I

1568
01:03:43,380 --> 01:03:46,680
missed you too sweetheart and just

1569
01:03:44,700 --> 01:03:48,900
kisses him full-on on the mouth

1570
01:03:46,680 --> 01:03:50,339
he's like who the [ __ ] do you think you

1571
01:03:48,900 --> 01:03:52,440
are not listening to me when I tell you

1572
01:03:50,339 --> 01:03:55,619
to do some [ __ ] and she's like miss you

1573
01:03:52,440 --> 01:03:59,040
too babe and they make out

1574
01:03:55,619 --> 01:04:00,839
so he kisses her back so hard she bleeds

1575
01:03:59,040 --> 01:04:05,700
um and they work the room it's the whole

1576
01:04:00,839 --> 01:04:09,240
thing she pulls him into a an empty

1577
01:04:05,700 --> 01:04:11,220
office because she is so turned on

1578
01:04:09,240 --> 01:04:14,579
in the moment

1579
01:04:11,220 --> 01:04:17,280
so she decides to give him a BJ but then

1580
01:04:14,579 --> 01:04:19,619
it turns out the office wasn't empty so

1581
01:04:17,280 --> 01:04:22,619
there is somebody in there and Cole

1582
01:04:19,619 --> 01:04:23,520
offers for Mara to suck off this random

1583
01:04:22,619 --> 01:04:25,140
guy

1584
01:04:23,520 --> 01:04:27,660
first

1585
01:04:25,140 --> 01:04:28,700
as an appetizer

1586
01:04:27,660 --> 01:04:34,200
um

1587
01:04:28,700 --> 01:04:36,420
yeah is is the appetizer freezing yours

1588
01:04:34,200 --> 01:04:38,579
or Sophia Larks or Sophie Larks not

1589
01:04:36,420 --> 01:04:40,799
Sophia Sophie larks

1590
01:04:38,579 --> 01:04:42,960
I don't think that's exactly like

1591
01:04:40,799 --> 01:04:44,940
verbatim I can't remember if you caught

1592
01:04:42,960 --> 01:04:48,480
it a warm-up or an appetizer but it was

1593
01:04:44,940 --> 01:04:48,480
something like exactly

1594
01:04:49,260 --> 01:04:55,200
it was something like that

1595
01:04:51,720 --> 01:04:57,000
um so Mara is she gets up off the floor

1596
01:04:55,200 --> 01:04:59,040
and she's like you know what I was

1597
01:04:57,000 --> 01:05:02,940
genuinely attracted to you but you don't

1598
01:04:59,040 --> 01:05:03,900
own me so we're done here yes I feel

1599
01:05:02,940 --> 01:05:06,660
like

1600
01:05:03,900 --> 01:05:08,460
I can't keep like I'm not rooting for

1601
01:05:06,660 --> 01:05:09,900
him no but I feel like all of like

1602
01:05:08,460 --> 01:05:11,280
they're like these moments I'm like you

1603
01:05:09,900 --> 01:05:13,319
just keep shooting yourself at the foot

1604
01:05:11,280 --> 01:05:15,660
my guy like is this close yeah that's

1605
01:05:13,319 --> 01:05:17,339
close so she walks out and grabs a

1606
01:05:15,660 --> 01:05:19,319
tattoo artist who's like a friend of a

1607
01:05:17,339 --> 01:05:21,420
friend that she's met before that

1608
01:05:19,319 --> 01:05:22,619
actually did a tattoo she has on her

1609
01:05:21,420 --> 01:05:25,079
ribs

1610
01:05:22,619 --> 01:05:28,260
um and she's like you're coming with me

1611
01:05:25,079 --> 01:05:31,140
and pulls him out so Cole

1612
01:05:28,260 --> 01:05:33,000
has once again livid when he sees Maro

1613
01:05:31,140 --> 01:05:34,799
leaving with another guy

1614
01:05:33,000 --> 01:05:37,319
um he gets caught up talking to someone

1615
01:05:34,799 --> 01:05:38,160
but then the motion sensors go off in

1616
01:05:37,319 --> 01:05:41,400
her

1617
01:05:38,160 --> 01:05:42,839
um studio and he's like oh thank God she

1618
01:05:41,400 --> 01:05:44,880
ditched the guy she went back to work

1619
01:05:42,839 --> 01:05:46,859
this is great but he pulls up the feed

1620
01:05:44,880 --> 01:05:48,900
because he wants to see her and sees

1621
01:05:46,859 --> 01:05:51,480
that she brought the guy with her to her

1622
01:05:48,900 --> 01:05:52,260
studio and so

1623
01:05:51,480 --> 01:05:55,200
um

1624
01:05:52,260 --> 01:05:57,299
she starts blowing him they have some

1625
01:05:55,200 --> 01:05:59,819
super like super intense [ __ ] session

1626
01:05:57,299 --> 01:06:01,680
they get covered in paint like they

1627
01:05:59,819 --> 01:06:04,200
knock paint over on the floor they knock

1628
01:06:01,680 --> 01:06:08,339
paint over everywhere and then they wind

1629
01:06:04,200 --> 01:06:10,140
up on a blank canvas [ __ ] and

1630
01:06:08,339 --> 01:06:13,440
um and she sells it for a quarter of a

1631
01:06:10,140 --> 01:06:16,020
million dollars not quite so coal is

1632
01:06:13,440 --> 01:06:18,720
furious and also turned on

1633
01:06:16,020 --> 01:06:21,240
um and but then he sees Mara like turn

1634
01:06:18,720 --> 01:06:25,079
and look up at the camera and so he's

1635
01:06:21,240 --> 01:06:27,480
like oh she knows God damn it like he's

1636
01:06:25,079 --> 01:06:29,280
like she's just [ __ ] up his eyes she

1637
01:06:27,480 --> 01:06:30,839
did all of this on purpose so I would

1638
01:06:29,280 --> 01:06:33,420
watch

1639
01:06:30,839 --> 01:06:35,280
um and that is exactly he decides she's

1640
01:06:33,420 --> 01:06:37,079
even more eventual and [ __ ] up and

1641
01:06:35,280 --> 01:06:39,599
perfect than he thought

1642
01:06:37,079 --> 01:06:41,700
so he jerks it and then he's like you

1643
01:06:39,599 --> 01:06:45,559
know what no more of this the next time

1644
01:06:41,700 --> 01:06:45,559
I come it will be on Mara's face

1645
01:06:48,839 --> 01:06:54,299
I'm not not inside her on her [ __ ]

1646
01:06:52,680 --> 01:06:57,920
face on her face

1647
01:06:54,299 --> 01:06:57,920
um so one of my co-workers

1648
01:07:00,180 --> 01:07:04,619
my Segways are fantastic they're on

1649
01:07:03,420 --> 01:07:06,839
point today

1650
01:07:04,619 --> 01:07:09,059
one of my co-workers recently did a

1651
01:07:06,839 --> 01:07:11,099
presentation on like considerations and

1652
01:07:09,059 --> 01:07:13,440
Sex Therapy

1653
01:07:11,099 --> 01:07:15,660
and one of the things that she was

1654
01:07:13,440 --> 01:07:18,720
talking about was

1655
01:07:15,660 --> 01:07:21,299
porn and expectations created through

1656
01:07:18,720 --> 01:07:22,920
porn and like fantasy right and how she

1657
01:07:21,299 --> 01:07:25,500
had a counseling client who was like

1658
01:07:22,920 --> 01:07:27,180
yeah I'm gonna can't wait to come on my

1659
01:07:25,500 --> 01:07:29,339
girlfriend's face

1660
01:07:27,180 --> 01:07:31,140
and she was like has she consented to

1661
01:07:29,339 --> 01:07:35,700
that and he's like they love it in porn

1662
01:07:31,140 --> 01:07:37,740
and she was like yeah so

1663
01:07:35,700 --> 01:07:40,020
maybe she doesn't watch the same porn as

1664
01:07:37,740 --> 01:07:41,160
you bro like has she consented to that

1665
01:07:40,020 --> 01:07:43,020
he's like no but they always love it

1666
01:07:41,160 --> 01:07:45,000
like what like and he like truly didn't

1667
01:07:43,020 --> 01:07:46,220
understand and to be fair I don't think

1668
01:07:45,000 --> 01:07:48,359
Cole

1669
01:07:46,220 --> 01:07:50,520
yeah he doesn't care he doesn't have a

1670
01:07:48,359 --> 01:07:52,680
moral compass but that's what I

1671
01:07:50,520 --> 01:07:55,799
thought of consent does not matter to

1672
01:07:52,680 --> 01:08:00,059
Cole he doesn't care at all not even a

1673
01:07:55,799 --> 01:08:02,760
little bit it matters to me and to me

1674
01:08:00,059 --> 01:08:03,720
so the next morning he gets to this the

1675
01:08:02,760 --> 01:08:06,180
office

1676
01:08:03,720 --> 01:08:09,480
um in his in the studio super early and

1677
01:08:06,180 --> 01:08:11,160
he smells Mara in the room and he finds

1678
01:08:09,480 --> 01:08:13,020
that she hung the canvas she [ __ ] on

1679
01:08:11,160 --> 01:08:15,359
in his office like took down the art

1680
01:08:13,020 --> 01:08:17,759
that he had hanging and hung that [ __ ]

1681
01:08:15,359 --> 01:08:18,540
above his desk

1682
01:08:17,759 --> 01:08:21,299
um

1683
01:08:18,540 --> 01:08:22,620
kind of the ultimate power right

1684
01:08:21,299 --> 01:08:24,359
so

1685
01:08:22,620 --> 01:08:27,359
he is

1686
01:08:24,359 --> 01:08:29,460
thrilled by how seriously by how

1687
01:08:27,359 --> 01:08:31,440
spiteful she is like he's excited about

1688
01:08:29,460 --> 01:08:33,420
it and then he has a moment where he

1689
01:08:31,440 --> 01:08:35,400
sits and thinks about it and he's like

1690
01:08:33,420 --> 01:08:38,279
getting excited about how he's gonna

1691
01:08:35,400 --> 01:08:40,620
punish her and then he sees she titled

1692
01:08:38,279 --> 01:08:43,020
it best night of my life and he's like

1693
01:08:40,620 --> 01:08:44,880
instant regret Like That Could Have Been

1694
01:08:43,020 --> 01:08:47,880
Me like

1695
01:08:44,880 --> 01:08:49,380
and I'm an [ __ ] yeah yeah and so now

1696
01:08:47,880 --> 01:08:53,100
it's not

1697
01:08:49,380 --> 01:08:56,940
so he then smashes he loses his absolute

1698
01:08:53,100 --> 01:08:59,940
[ __ ] he is like focused on her

1699
01:08:56,940 --> 01:09:02,040
submitting like he was cruel hoping that

1700
01:08:59,940 --> 01:09:03,480
she would submit but she didn't so he's

1701
01:09:02,040 --> 01:09:06,420
like obviously cruelty is not working

1702
01:09:03,480 --> 01:09:08,580
for me he loses his [ __ ] destroys a

1703
01:09:06,420 --> 01:09:10,980
Priceless work of art

1704
01:09:08,580 --> 01:09:13,319
um with a golf club

1705
01:09:10,980 --> 01:09:15,719
um and this is a direct quote from the

1706
01:09:13,319 --> 01:09:17,339
end of that chapter he says um I loved

1707
01:09:15,719 --> 01:09:19,500
that piece but sometimes you have to

1708
01:09:17,339 --> 01:09:23,719
kill what you love

1709
01:09:19,500 --> 01:09:23,719
so I find

1710
01:09:24,120 --> 01:09:28,859
you and I pull very different direct

1711
01:09:25,920 --> 01:09:32,960
quotes when we're outlining books like

1712
01:09:28,859 --> 01:09:32,960
I'm I'm pulling like

1713
01:09:33,239 --> 01:09:39,000
I'm gonna come on your face you dirty

1714
01:09:35,640 --> 01:09:39,900
little [ __ ] [ __ ] like you you little like

1715
01:09:39,000 --> 01:09:43,739
like

1716
01:09:39,900 --> 01:09:46,679
I was like he sucked her [ __ ] like a

1717
01:09:43,739 --> 01:09:49,020
nipple for milk like these are the

1718
01:09:46,679 --> 01:09:52,440
quotes and then I feel like I'm like

1719
01:09:49,020 --> 01:09:54,420
here's seem oddly poetic well that one

1720
01:09:52,440 --> 01:09:57,179
just stood out to me I don't know why

1721
01:09:54,420 --> 01:09:59,400
but anyway you know like I mean it it

1722
01:09:57,179 --> 01:10:02,820
was like the first time where we're like

1723
01:09:59,400 --> 01:10:05,460
oh he might actually kill her because up

1724
01:10:02,820 --> 01:10:07,199
to this point he's been like obsessed

1725
01:10:05,460 --> 01:10:10,920
with her there hasn't been any violence

1726
01:10:07,199 --> 01:10:14,460
from him towards her yours feels like

1727
01:10:10,920 --> 01:10:16,440
do you have your um Kindle set where it

1728
01:10:14,460 --> 01:10:18,239
will show you like what like the common

1729
01:10:16,440 --> 01:10:20,280
underlines that like other people do so

1730
01:10:18,239 --> 01:10:22,380
it'll be like 208 people have underlined

1731
01:10:20,280 --> 01:10:24,000
this passage like that feels like a

1732
01:10:22,380 --> 01:10:25,800
quote that like a lot of people would

1733
01:10:24,000 --> 01:10:28,199
underline yeah I think I just pull

1734
01:10:25,800 --> 01:10:30,239
quotes and I'm like because this [ __ ]

1735
01:10:28,199 --> 01:10:32,280
and and you're like this one really

1736
01:10:30,239 --> 01:10:35,820
stood out to me

1737
01:10:32,280 --> 01:10:37,560
I'm like it did I'm like well yeah that

1738
01:10:35,820 --> 01:10:39,300
tracks so then

1739
01:10:37,560 --> 01:10:42,060
um Mara we're back tomorrow she feels

1740
01:10:39,300 --> 01:10:44,219
guilty that she used tattoo guy

1741
01:10:42,060 --> 01:10:45,840
um and also really nervous about what

1742
01:10:44,219 --> 01:10:49,500
Cole is gonna do because she realizes

1743
01:10:45,840 --> 01:10:51,900
he's gonna retaliate so the next morning

1744
01:10:49,500 --> 01:10:53,520
um she finds out that another body was

1745
01:10:51,900 --> 01:10:55,860
found

1746
01:10:53,520 --> 01:10:58,320
um seriously mutilated with a tattoo in

1747
01:10:55,860 --> 01:11:01,260
the same place as Mara's

1748
01:10:58,320 --> 01:11:03,360
um and her head was missing like they

1749
01:11:01,260 --> 01:11:05,100
have the same body type it she really

1750
01:11:03,360 --> 01:11:07,860
starts to freak out and then she

1751
01:11:05,100 --> 01:11:10,860
realizes that the body was found about

1752
01:11:07,860 --> 01:11:14,840
an hour after Mara left the party with a

1753
01:11:10,860 --> 01:11:18,300
tattoo artist so she's like oh [ __ ] like

1754
01:11:14,840 --> 01:11:20,640
did he do that while I was [ __ ] this

1755
01:11:18,300 --> 01:11:23,520
other guy

1756
01:11:20,640 --> 01:11:25,380
um and so then she throws up

1757
01:11:23,520 --> 01:11:27,120
um I mean I get it

1758
01:11:25,380 --> 01:11:29,100
yeah

1759
01:11:27,120 --> 01:11:30,960
um so we're back to Cole he finds out

1760
01:11:29,100 --> 01:11:34,020
about the new body but he just misses it

1761
01:11:30,960 --> 01:11:37,980
because it's Shaw's work and it's trash

1762
01:11:34,020 --> 01:11:41,460
um and so uh his feelings are so

1763
01:11:37,980 --> 01:11:43,020
derivative so derivative

1764
01:11:41,460 --> 01:11:43,860
um so she's not at home she's not at

1765
01:11:43,020 --> 01:11:45,300
work

1766
01:11:43,860 --> 01:11:46,500
um and he decides he's gonna put a

1767
01:11:45,300 --> 01:11:50,400
tracker on her phone because he can't

1768
01:11:46,500 --> 01:11:53,340
find her and so then he goes to the uh

1769
01:11:50,400 --> 01:11:55,620
to her social media finds tattoo guy and

1770
01:11:53,340 --> 01:11:56,580
goes and finds tattoo guy and confronts

1771
01:11:55,620 --> 01:11:58,800
him

1772
01:11:56,580 --> 01:12:01,199
and the guy is like listen man I didn't

1773
01:11:58,800 --> 01:12:02,280
know she had a boyfriend and Cole is

1774
01:12:01,199 --> 01:12:04,440
like

1775
01:12:02,280 --> 01:12:07,140
um I am not a [ __ ] boyfriend she's my

1776
01:12:04,440 --> 01:12:08,280
goddamn property you will not ever touch

1777
01:12:07,140 --> 01:12:11,699
her again

1778
01:12:08,280 --> 01:12:13,980
and tattoo guys like I don't even have

1779
01:12:11,699 --> 01:12:16,440
her number bro she wouldn't give me her

1780
01:12:13,980 --> 01:12:18,960
number like

1781
01:12:16,440 --> 01:12:21,540
I did a tattoo for her one time can you

1782
01:12:18,960 --> 01:12:23,699
please stop and Cole is like I just

1783
01:12:21,540 --> 01:12:25,320
thought I was having some good sex he's

1784
01:12:23,699 --> 01:12:27,659
like literally like I just thought it

1785
01:12:25,320 --> 01:12:30,120
was hot man what the [ __ ]

1786
01:12:27,659 --> 01:12:32,820
so Cole is like go get your tattoo gun

1787
01:12:30,120 --> 01:12:35,340
right the [ __ ] now and the guy's like

1788
01:12:32,820 --> 01:12:37,080
okay oh I'm sorry yeah you won't like

1789
01:12:35,340 --> 01:12:38,880
this so we switched tomorrow's point of

1790
01:12:37,080 --> 01:12:40,620
view she's in her Studio late at night

1791
01:12:38,880 --> 01:12:42,060
she knows she can't hide from Cole so

1792
01:12:40,620 --> 01:12:43,679
she's just like he's never gonna cool

1793
01:12:42,060 --> 01:12:45,420
off like it's not like if I give him a

1794
01:12:43,679 --> 01:12:47,040
couple days he's gonna be fine so I'm

1795
01:12:45,420 --> 01:12:49,679
just gonna we're just gonna go with it

1796
01:12:47,040 --> 01:12:51,719
um so she's painting her next piece in

1797
01:12:49,679 --> 01:12:53,400
her series that she's doing and it's the

1798
01:12:51,719 --> 01:12:55,320
devil

1799
01:12:53,400 --> 01:12:58,080
um Cole shows up scares the absolute

1800
01:12:55,320 --> 01:12:59,460
[ __ ] out of her and handcuffs her to a

1801
01:12:58,080 --> 01:13:01,920
beam

1802
01:12:59,460 --> 01:13:03,540
um and then pulls out a tattoo gun and

1803
01:13:01,920 --> 01:13:06,179
says that she can't have another man's

1804
01:13:03,540 --> 01:13:08,699
mark on her body

1805
01:13:06,179 --> 01:13:10,739
um because she belongs to him so he

1806
01:13:08,699 --> 01:13:13,620
starts tattooing her ribs

1807
01:13:10,739 --> 01:13:16,739
which he exposed along with her tits as

1808
01:13:13,620 --> 01:13:19,140
he ripped her [ __ ] shirt off

1809
01:13:16,739 --> 01:13:20,760
and so she freezes like she had been

1810
01:13:19,140 --> 01:13:22,620
struggling really hard but as soon as he

1811
01:13:20,760 --> 01:13:24,900
like put the needle on her skin she

1812
01:13:22,620 --> 01:13:27,440
froze and

1813
01:13:24,900 --> 01:13:27,440
um then

1814
01:13:27,780 --> 01:13:31,620
he starts playing with her [ __ ] and

1815
01:13:29,580 --> 01:13:34,679
[ __ ] and she is really trying not to be

1816
01:13:31,620 --> 01:13:36,840
into it but she really really is and he

1817
01:13:34,679 --> 01:13:40,320
demands that she admit that she belongs

1818
01:13:36,840 --> 01:13:42,360
to him and she will not do it

1819
01:13:40,320 --> 01:13:44,520
um so she comes super hard as he's

1820
01:13:42,360 --> 01:13:46,080
finishing covering up the snake with a

1821
01:13:44,520 --> 01:13:47,820
bunch of flowers

1822
01:13:46,080 --> 01:13:49,920
um so the snake is like peeking through

1823
01:13:47,820 --> 01:13:52,860
let's see also a skill tattoo artist

1824
01:13:49,920 --> 01:13:55,679
apparently yeah that was another reason

1825
01:13:52,860 --> 01:13:59,460
I couldn't get there with this book so

1826
01:13:55,679 --> 01:14:01,860
yes that's why the lack of realism

1827
01:13:59,460 --> 01:14:05,400
you're like how would it how would this

1828
01:14:01,860 --> 01:14:07,080
tattoo be rated on Ink Master exactly

1829
01:14:05,400 --> 01:14:08,820
um so the snake is still peeking through

1830
01:14:07,080 --> 01:14:10,560
in some spots whatever so then he

1831
01:14:08,820 --> 01:14:14,159
releases her and demands that she tattoo

1832
01:14:10,560 --> 01:14:16,679
him and he she's like no I'm not a

1833
01:14:14,159 --> 01:14:19,260
tattoo artist what the [ __ ] and he is

1834
01:14:16,679 --> 01:14:21,719
like I literally don't care what you

1835
01:14:19,260 --> 01:14:24,600
want you will do what I say right now

1836
01:14:21,719 --> 01:14:26,460
and so she does she tattoos two snakes

1837
01:14:24,600 --> 01:14:28,500
coiled around each other on his back one

1838
01:14:26,460 --> 01:14:29,340
black one white

1839
01:14:28,500 --> 01:14:32,219
um

1840
01:14:29,340 --> 01:14:35,460
yeah so then the next morning

1841
01:14:32,219 --> 01:14:37,140
I don't know tattoos

1842
01:14:35,460 --> 01:14:38,640
they really are apparently they took

1843
01:14:37,140 --> 01:14:41,219
several hours which of course they would

1844
01:14:38,640 --> 01:14:44,040
if they were done well

1845
01:14:41,219 --> 01:14:45,120
um which I doubt yeah I I accept highly

1846
01:14:44,040 --> 01:14:48,360
doubt that if you don't know how to

1847
01:14:45,120 --> 01:14:50,940
tattoo but you're like going the right

1848
01:14:48,360 --> 01:14:53,400
depth right and we're free handing all

1849
01:14:50,940 --> 01:14:55,920
of this on skin skin is not the same as

1850
01:14:53,400 --> 01:14:59,100
paper or canvas it's very different

1851
01:14:55,920 --> 01:15:00,480
but whatever so it's morning Cole's

1852
01:14:59,100 --> 01:15:03,060
point of view

1853
01:15:00,480 --> 01:15:05,400
Cole asked him to walk with her

1854
01:15:03,060 --> 01:15:07,500
um he is just fascinated by how she sees

1855
01:15:05,400 --> 01:15:12,239
Beauty everywhere

1856
01:15:07,500 --> 01:15:14,159
um and she starts talking about how her

1857
01:15:12,239 --> 01:15:15,719
um it comes up organically but it

1858
01:15:14,159 --> 01:15:17,880
doesn't matter her stepdad used to make

1859
01:15:15,719 --> 01:15:20,100
her stand with her nose against a wall

1860
01:15:17,880 --> 01:15:22,500
for hours and if she moved the hour

1861
01:15:20,100 --> 01:15:26,040
would start over and so he would leave

1862
01:15:22,500 --> 01:15:28,500
her there for hours and hours and hours

1863
01:15:26,040 --> 01:15:30,420
um and Cole feels

1864
01:15:28,500 --> 01:15:33,300
something he feels like really angry

1865
01:15:30,420 --> 01:15:34,500
about that and he doesn't understand

1866
01:15:33,300 --> 01:15:36,360
um

1867
01:15:34,500 --> 01:15:38,520
they're back they walk back to the

1868
01:15:36,360 --> 01:15:41,159
studio they keep talking about their

1869
01:15:38,520 --> 01:15:43,260
parents Mars mom's a monster Cole's dad

1870
01:15:41,159 --> 01:15:44,100
also a monster

1871
01:15:43,260 --> 01:15:46,739
um

1872
01:15:44,100 --> 01:15:48,480
and if you tell me they realize they're

1873
01:15:46,739 --> 01:15:51,960
siblings I will get up and walk out

1874
01:15:48,480 --> 01:15:54,360
right now no I was no no no

1875
01:15:51,960 --> 01:15:56,400
no no no no no no we're not that far we

1876
01:15:54,360 --> 01:15:59,520
don't go that far

1877
01:15:56,400 --> 01:16:01,980
um so Cole like doesn't believe in love

1878
01:15:59,520 --> 01:16:04,020
they're doing all this other stuff

1879
01:16:01,980 --> 01:16:05,460
um she goes to leave he's like where are

1880
01:16:04,020 --> 01:16:07,620
you going we're having this this

1881
01:16:05,460 --> 01:16:11,100
conversation and she's like I have to go

1882
01:16:07,620 --> 01:16:13,620
to work I'm going to a bartending shift

1883
01:16:11,100 --> 01:16:15,540
and so he's like great I'll come with

1884
01:16:13,620 --> 01:16:18,600
you and so he sits in the corner and

1885
01:16:15,540 --> 01:16:20,699
watches her 10 bar all night and then um

1886
01:16:18,600 --> 01:16:23,219
some guys start hassling her and one

1887
01:16:20,699 --> 01:16:25,440
smacks her ass and so Cole beats the

1888
01:16:23,219 --> 01:16:27,060
ever loving [ __ ] out of everybody starts

1889
01:16:25,440 --> 01:16:30,480
slicing people up with a broken bottle

1890
01:16:27,060 --> 01:16:32,640
and she's like so we gotta go like we

1891
01:16:30,480 --> 01:16:34,860
gotta get the [ __ ] out of here so she

1892
01:16:32,640 --> 01:16:37,679
pulls him out

1893
01:16:34,860 --> 01:16:40,920
um and she realizes that she probably

1894
01:16:37,679 --> 01:16:43,440
just lost her job and she is really mad

1895
01:16:40,920 --> 01:16:45,239
she needed that money and Cole is like

1896
01:16:43,440 --> 01:16:46,739
you don't need that money your painting

1897
01:16:45,239 --> 01:16:50,460
just sold for twenty two thousand

1898
01:16:46,739 --> 01:16:52,800
dollars so no you don't need the money

1899
01:16:50,460 --> 01:16:55,620
um so then he tells her to come to a

1900
01:16:52,800 --> 01:16:58,080
Halloween party with him and

1901
01:16:55,620 --> 01:17:01,260
um she's like is this like a date and

1902
01:16:58,080 --> 01:17:04,020
he's like no and she goes okay

1903
01:17:01,260 --> 01:17:06,840
well I'm gonna be Medusa

1904
01:17:04,020 --> 01:17:07,739
for Halloween so I guess I'll see you

1905
01:17:06,840 --> 01:17:09,780
there

1906
01:17:07,739 --> 01:17:12,780
okay so

1907
01:17:09,780 --> 01:17:14,820
um it's all a mess Cole is then cleaning

1908
01:17:12,780 --> 01:17:16,560
up his Studio like his private Studio

1909
01:17:14,820 --> 01:17:18,060
not the public one where he runs other

1910
01:17:16,560 --> 01:17:20,219
space

1911
01:17:18,060 --> 01:17:21,360
um and he thinks about bringing Mara

1912
01:17:20,219 --> 01:17:23,400
there

1913
01:17:21,360 --> 01:17:25,440
um he drags a table to the center and

1914
01:17:23,400 --> 01:17:27,179
like imagines laying her out on it and

1915
01:17:25,440 --> 01:17:29,159
thinking of all the tools that he'll

1916
01:17:27,179 --> 01:17:31,380
need and he's like I'm gonna have to get

1917
01:17:29,159 --> 01:17:33,719
all new everything because and I'm gonna

1918
01:17:31,380 --> 01:17:36,239
have to design some special tools for

1919
01:17:33,719 --> 01:17:38,699
her because no common drills and saws

1920
01:17:36,239 --> 01:17:40,679
are gonna be enough for my angel or

1921
01:17:38,699 --> 01:17:43,980
whatever the [ __ ]

1922
01:17:40,679 --> 01:17:45,960
um it's gross and weird and creepy

1923
01:17:43,980 --> 01:17:48,900
so they go to the party

1924
01:17:45,960 --> 01:17:51,719
coal dresses as a Greek warrior who's

1925
01:17:48,900 --> 01:17:55,620
turned to stone so he like to go with

1926
01:17:51,719 --> 01:17:57,420
Medusa and they dance and make out she's

1927
01:17:55,620 --> 01:17:59,400
ready to bang him

1928
01:17:57,420 --> 01:18:01,739
um and they go to leave the party and

1929
01:17:59,400 --> 01:18:03,179
Shaw shows up and sees her

1930
01:18:01,739 --> 01:18:05,219
um I was wondering when he was gonna

1931
01:18:03,179 --> 01:18:07,140
return yeah and he gets really weirdly

1932
01:18:05,219 --> 01:18:08,340
excited so she doesn't know that Cole is

1933
01:18:07,140 --> 01:18:10,320
the one or that Shaw is the one that

1934
01:18:08,340 --> 01:18:12,000
kidnapped her so he's like getting

1935
01:18:10,320 --> 01:18:13,560
really weird and she does not understand

1936
01:18:12,000 --> 01:18:17,340
that

1937
01:18:13,560 --> 01:18:20,460
um and Cole says she means nothing to me

1938
01:18:17,340 --> 01:18:22,500
um tell Shaw to stay away from her she

1939
01:18:20,460 --> 01:18:24,480
she's Furious

1940
01:18:22,500 --> 01:18:26,640
um and he's like you he you don't

1941
01:18:24,480 --> 01:18:29,100
understand he's dangerous like Don't Go

1942
01:18:26,640 --> 01:18:30,239
Near him and she's like like you're

1943
01:18:29,100 --> 01:18:33,600
dangerous

1944
01:18:30,239 --> 01:18:39,480
and Cole is like listen Okay Shaw does

1945
01:18:33,600 --> 01:18:44,040
what I do badly okay so yes like me and

1946
01:18:39,480 --> 01:18:46,980
so Mara realizes that he could kill her

1947
01:18:44,040 --> 01:18:49,320
at any time like whenever the [ __ ] he

1948
01:18:46,980 --> 01:18:51,780
wants but he just walks away and leaves

1949
01:18:49,320 --> 01:18:54,360
her on the street

1950
01:18:51,780 --> 01:18:56,520
um so he continues to watch her

1951
01:18:54,360 --> 01:18:57,960
um and then he sees a figure under her

1952
01:18:56,520 --> 01:18:59,760
window

1953
01:18:57,960 --> 01:19:02,580
um outside her apartment and is like oh

1954
01:18:59,760 --> 01:19:04,739
[ __ ] I bet that Shaw follows him Shaw

1955
01:19:02,580 --> 01:19:08,480
winds up luring him into an abandoned

1956
01:19:04,739 --> 01:19:11,159
building where he finds a woman dead

1957
01:19:08,480 --> 01:19:13,500
strung up with snakes and stuff in her

1958
01:19:11,159 --> 01:19:15,780
hair to look like Medusa

1959
01:19:13,500 --> 01:19:18,300
um and then as

1960
01:19:15,780 --> 01:19:20,699
Cole is walking around he hears the cops

1961
01:19:18,300 --> 01:19:24,060
show up and he's like great love this

1962
01:19:20,699 --> 01:19:26,100
journey for me so he realizes Shaw lured

1963
01:19:24,060 --> 01:19:29,780
him to this building with a fresh kill

1964
01:19:26,100 --> 01:19:29,780
called the cops so he runs

1965
01:19:29,940 --> 01:19:35,100
um and

1966
01:19:31,620 --> 01:19:36,900
um he makes it home and realizes that

1967
01:19:35,100 --> 01:19:38,520
killing Shaw is going to be a really big

1968
01:19:36,900 --> 01:19:41,820
challenge

1969
01:19:38,520 --> 01:19:44,760
um and that Shaw's only goal will be to

1970
01:19:41,820 --> 01:19:47,460
kill Mara and so Cole's like well I

1971
01:19:44,760 --> 01:19:49,320
can't protect Mara and kill Shaw that

1972
01:19:47,460 --> 01:19:53,040
shit's not gonna work

1973
01:19:49,320 --> 01:19:55,080
um so he decides that Mara belongs to

1974
01:19:53,040 --> 01:19:56,699
him and so does her death so Shaw

1975
01:19:55,080 --> 01:19:58,940
doesn't get to kill her he's gonna kill

1976
01:19:56,699 --> 01:19:58,940
her

1977
01:19:59,159 --> 01:20:05,719
um so then I I feel like that that might

1978
01:20:02,159 --> 01:20:08,699
be faulty logic a little bit yeah

1979
01:20:05,719 --> 01:20:11,400
so Mara is at a laundromat finally doing

1980
01:20:08,699 --> 01:20:13,320
laundry for the first time in like two

1981
01:20:11,400 --> 01:20:14,580
months and

1982
01:20:13,320 --> 01:20:17,280
um things are finally starting to fall

1983
01:20:14,580 --> 01:20:18,960
into place she realizes that Cole's been

1984
01:20:17,280 --> 01:20:21,540
stalking her

1985
01:20:18,960 --> 01:20:23,340
um she realizes that he's also watching

1986
01:20:21,540 --> 01:20:26,040
out for Shaw

1987
01:20:23,340 --> 01:20:28,260
um figures out the whole scheme about

1988
01:20:26,040 --> 01:20:30,120
Shaw kidnapped her left her for coal

1989
01:20:28,260 --> 01:20:33,179
because he had

1990
01:20:30,120 --> 01:20:35,219
said to her you were given to me at one

1991
01:20:33,179 --> 01:20:37,080
point when she says like I'm not yours

1992
01:20:35,219 --> 01:20:41,400
I'm not yours he's like you were

1993
01:20:37,080 --> 01:20:43,800
literally given to me you are mine

1994
01:20:41,400 --> 01:20:48,179
so then Cole shows up at the laundromat

1995
01:20:43,800 --> 01:20:50,520
and um fingers her against a dryer

1996
01:20:48,179 --> 01:20:54,780
um telling her that it's time for her to

1997
01:20:50,520 --> 01:20:56,699
come home to to him and she says no that

1998
01:20:54,780 --> 01:20:58,380
she wants to see his Studio he's like

1999
01:20:56,699 --> 01:21:00,120
fine you just have to be [ __ ]

2000
01:20:58,380 --> 01:21:01,620
difficult whatever yes find the studio

2001
01:21:00,120 --> 01:21:03,840
tomorrow night

2002
01:21:01,620 --> 01:21:06,000
so he is ready for Mara

2003
01:21:03,840 --> 01:21:07,280
um we're back to his point of view

2004
01:21:06,000 --> 01:21:09,840
um he

2005
01:21:07,280 --> 01:21:11,340
Mara shows up and he tells her that he

2006
01:21:09,840 --> 01:21:12,840
hasn't made anything since his last

2007
01:21:11,340 --> 01:21:15,000
piece but he's starting something new

2008
01:21:12,840 --> 01:21:17,280
and she's going to help him it's a lot

2009
01:21:15,000 --> 01:21:19,020
of like like alluding to the fact that

2010
01:21:17,280 --> 01:21:20,640
he's gonna kill her tonight

2011
01:21:19,020 --> 01:21:21,179
so

2012
01:21:20,640 --> 01:21:23,159
um

2013
01:21:21,179 --> 01:21:25,920
she follows him through to the main

2014
01:21:23,159 --> 01:21:28,920
Studio he shows her some other stuff

2015
01:21:25,920 --> 01:21:30,300
um and he she sees the table set out

2016
01:21:28,920 --> 01:21:33,420
with all of these apparent [ __ ]

2017
01:21:30,300 --> 01:21:35,340
torture devices and he she tells him

2018
01:21:33,420 --> 01:21:37,080
that she knows that Shaw left her for

2019
01:21:35,340 --> 01:21:38,400
him to find

2020
01:21:37,080 --> 01:21:40,260
um tells him that she doesn't believe

2021
01:21:38,400 --> 01:21:42,000
that he'll hurt her

2022
01:21:40,260 --> 01:21:43,980
um and he's like how much do you believe

2023
01:21:42,000 --> 01:21:48,000
that are you willing to bet your life on

2024
01:21:43,980 --> 01:21:51,060
it and she's like yup and gets naked and

2025
01:21:48,000 --> 01:21:53,699
gets onto the table voluntarily and Cole

2026
01:21:51,060 --> 01:21:56,360
is like I have to admit I was not

2027
01:21:53,699 --> 01:21:56,360
expecting that

2028
01:21:56,520 --> 01:22:01,800
so she's trying not to panic he tells

2029
01:21:59,159 --> 01:22:03,900
her that he knows everything about her

2030
01:22:01,800 --> 01:22:06,360
and that he watched the video of her

2031
01:22:03,900 --> 01:22:07,980
[ __ ] that guy over and over and over

2032
01:22:06,360 --> 01:22:10,580
and over and over again to learn what

2033
01:22:07,980 --> 01:22:10,580
she likes

2034
01:22:10,860 --> 01:22:18,020
um I made a special vibrator to mimic

2035
01:22:13,260 --> 01:22:18,020
the dryer from the laundromat

2036
01:22:19,199 --> 01:22:27,300
so she has some super intense orgasms

2037
01:22:22,460 --> 01:22:32,540
he is all so he's like an artist like a

2038
01:22:27,300 --> 01:22:32,540
sculpture wrist a Sculptor

2039
01:22:33,480 --> 01:22:39,060
there we go

2040
01:22:35,120 --> 01:22:40,620
he's a sculptor tattoo artist an

2041
01:22:39,060 --> 01:22:42,780
engineer

2042
01:22:40,620 --> 01:22:45,179
he's mechanical engineer apparently yeah

2043
01:22:42,780 --> 01:22:47,520
ends up he's a talents are multinational

2044
01:22:45,179 --> 01:22:50,219
so I have a lot of detail about this sex

2045
01:22:47,520 --> 01:22:52,560
scene because it is so [ __ ]

2046
01:22:50,219 --> 01:22:55,380
um there's a lot happening

2047
01:22:52,560 --> 01:22:57,540
um he flips her over and starts spanking

2048
01:22:55,380 --> 01:23:01,080
her at one point after she's had a bunch

2049
01:22:57,540 --> 01:23:03,179
of orgasms with the dryer vibrator

2050
01:23:01,080 --> 01:23:05,460
um and she told him like I don't like

2051
01:23:03,179 --> 01:23:06,420
that don't do it and he continues to do

2052
01:23:05,460 --> 01:23:08,580
it

2053
01:23:06,420 --> 01:23:11,100
she reveals her stepdad used to do that

2054
01:23:08,580 --> 01:23:12,840
to her a lot and then he starts being

2055
01:23:11,100 --> 01:23:15,000
super sweet

2056
01:23:12,840 --> 01:23:16,440
um and like trying to care for her a

2057
01:23:15,000 --> 01:23:19,140
little bit and then just straight up

2058
01:23:16,440 --> 01:23:21,960
[ __ ] her ass without warning

2059
01:23:19,140 --> 01:23:24,300
um it's just so much like this it goes

2060
01:23:21,960 --> 01:23:27,000
on and on and on so finally she realizes

2061
01:23:24,300 --> 01:23:29,640
that she's not tied down anymore that he

2062
01:23:27,000 --> 01:23:32,159
like laid down beside her and released

2063
01:23:29,640 --> 01:23:34,620
her wrists and so then

2064
01:23:32,159 --> 01:23:36,480
um she gets on top for a little bit

2065
01:23:34,620 --> 01:23:38,280
um brings his hands up to her neck to

2066
01:23:36,480 --> 01:23:41,340
squeeze and then she blacks out and

2067
01:23:38,280 --> 01:23:46,380
she's like if this is how I die I feel

2068
01:23:41,340 --> 01:23:46,380
like I'm cool with it no so

2069
01:23:46,860 --> 01:23:51,780
coal washes her up and he just has this

2070
01:23:49,920 --> 01:23:54,420
overwhelming desire to care for her and

2071
01:23:51,780 --> 01:23:55,950
like whatever he feeds her they put on

2072
01:23:54,420 --> 01:24:05,820
Labyrinth

2073
01:23:55,950 --> 01:24:07,980
[Laughter]

2074
01:24:05,820 --> 01:24:11,780
I'm sorry oh my God I don't know why

2075
01:24:07,980 --> 01:24:11,780
that that's the part that is

2076
01:24:15,199 --> 01:24:18,199
yeah yeah

2077
01:24:18,659 --> 01:24:21,260
yeah

2078
01:24:22,580 --> 01:24:27,540
that actually becomes relevant in the

2079
01:24:25,020 --> 01:24:28,679
second book like I didn't have the

2080
01:24:27,540 --> 01:24:30,900
detail

2081
01:24:28,679 --> 01:24:32,100
when I outlined it at first but then I

2082
01:24:30,900 --> 01:24:34,020
was like oh if we do the second book

2083
01:24:32,100 --> 01:24:38,600
you'll you'll want to know Hannah about

2084
01:24:34,020 --> 01:24:38,600
Labyrinth Anna don't tell me

2085
01:24:38,880 --> 01:24:45,000
do we have to do this we absolutely

2086
01:24:42,179 --> 01:24:47,480
don't we absolutely do not have to do

2087
01:24:45,000 --> 01:24:50,640
the second book it's gonna say

2088
01:24:47,480 --> 01:24:54,260
who hurt you and why do you hurt me by

2089
01:24:50,640 --> 01:24:58,340
making Sophie Lark hurt me

2090
01:24:54,260 --> 01:24:58,340
Sophie Lark hurt me

2091
01:25:00,300 --> 01:25:05,280
Labyrinth

2092
01:25:02,460 --> 01:25:08,820
yeah okay so he doesn't know when he

2093
01:25:05,280 --> 01:25:11,159
decided not to kill her but he's like

2094
01:25:08,820 --> 01:25:13,500
I don't I don't want to like I want to

2095
01:25:11,159 --> 01:25:15,239
keep her around for a long time

2096
01:25:13,500 --> 01:25:17,820
so

2097
01:25:15,239 --> 01:25:19,500
now we're at Mara's point of view coal

2098
01:25:17,820 --> 01:25:21,179
drops her off the next morning and she

2099
01:25:19,500 --> 01:25:22,739
kind of stumbles up to her room it's

2100
01:25:21,179 --> 01:25:25,140
locked from the inside which is really

2101
01:25:22,739 --> 01:25:26,280
weird but she's able to like Jimmy it

2102
01:25:25,140 --> 01:25:29,580
open

2103
01:25:26,280 --> 01:25:32,400
inside she finds her roommate Erin dead

2104
01:25:29,580 --> 01:25:35,640
on her bed apparently drowned

2105
01:25:32,400 --> 01:25:38,280
um covered in flowers and

2106
01:25:35,640 --> 01:25:40,560
um she staged like a painting there I

2107
01:25:38,280 --> 01:25:43,020
think it's like Ophelia or whatever

2108
01:25:40,560 --> 01:25:44,580
um and so she the six other roommates

2109
01:25:43,020 --> 01:25:47,219
are all freaking out she's screaming

2110
01:25:44,580 --> 01:25:49,380
they call the cops Cole calls when the

2111
01:25:47,219 --> 01:25:51,060
cops show up and because he's obviously

2112
01:25:49,380 --> 01:25:52,920
he's watching her

2113
01:25:51,060 --> 01:25:54,600
and

2114
01:25:52,920 --> 01:25:58,320
um she

2115
01:25:54,600 --> 01:26:00,840
she tells him what happened and he says

2116
01:25:58,320 --> 01:26:03,000
do not say anything to the police just

2117
01:26:00,840 --> 01:26:05,460
keep your mouth shut do not talk to the

2118
01:26:03,000 --> 01:26:07,860
cops and she disagrees she's like this

2119
01:26:05,460 --> 01:26:09,659
was Shaw I know it was Shaw he's gonna

2120
01:26:07,860 --> 01:26:14,340
keep hurting women this is not okay

2121
01:26:09,659 --> 01:26:16,199
Aaron deserves Justice blah blah blah so

2122
01:26:14,340 --> 01:26:19,800
um she talks to the cops

2123
01:26:16,199 --> 01:26:22,080
um but Shaw has an alibi and no one will

2124
01:26:19,800 --> 01:26:23,820
believe her just like when she said that

2125
01:26:22,080 --> 01:26:25,920
she was kidnapped the first time nobody

2126
01:26:23,820 --> 01:26:27,960
believes her Cole shows up and he's

2127
01:26:25,920 --> 01:26:30,420
really really angry but he gets her out

2128
01:26:27,960 --> 01:26:32,940
of of interrogation

2129
01:26:30,420 --> 01:26:35,280
and he takes her out to um out of the

2130
01:26:32,940 --> 01:26:36,780
station and says that she is moving in

2131
01:26:35,280 --> 01:26:40,020
with him

2132
01:26:36,780 --> 01:26:42,360
um right now because he can't keep her

2133
01:26:40,020 --> 01:26:44,460
safe by continuing to follow her he's

2134
01:26:42,360 --> 01:26:46,380
going to take care of Shaw she just

2135
01:26:44,460 --> 01:26:49,020
needs to stay safe

2136
01:26:46,380 --> 01:26:51,960
um and she uh agrees with that

2137
01:26:49,020 --> 01:26:54,840
assessment and that is the end of the

2138
01:26:51,960 --> 01:26:58,880
book stop that is that's where it ends

2139
01:26:54,840 --> 01:26:58,880
if she agrees to move in with him yep

2140
01:27:02,179 --> 01:27:08,880
I wish you guys can see Chelsea's face

2141
01:27:05,760 --> 01:27:11,460
just crumpled I don't even know what the

2142
01:27:08,880 --> 01:27:15,020
emotion was behind it but your whole

2143
01:27:11,460 --> 01:27:15,020
face just crumpled

2144
01:27:15,780 --> 01:27:18,440
hmm

2145
01:27:22,920 --> 01:27:33,179
I want alcohol so badly

2146
01:27:27,620 --> 01:27:36,120
and this [ __ ] kid I'm pregnant with

2147
01:27:33,179 --> 01:27:38,400
for him I won't but

2148
01:27:36,120 --> 01:27:40,920
it's but that book makes me want to

2149
01:27:38,400 --> 01:27:43,820
drink I know

2150
01:27:40,920 --> 01:27:43,820
I really do

2151
01:27:43,980 --> 01:27:48,480
um

2152
01:27:46,020 --> 01:27:50,460
so what what's our rate I don't even

2153
01:27:48,480 --> 01:27:52,679
want to rate it

2154
01:27:50,460 --> 01:27:56,699
like paint brushes

2155
01:27:52,679 --> 01:27:58,920
yeah that that feels safe

2156
01:27:56,699 --> 01:28:00,540
that's what we need right now we need to

2157
01:27:58,920 --> 01:28:05,159
feel safe

2158
01:28:00,540 --> 01:28:09,060
let's talk about coping skills yeah and

2159
01:28:05,159 --> 01:28:11,460
emotional regulation yeah maybe

2160
01:28:09,060 --> 01:28:13,199
um a nice warm bath

2161
01:28:11,460 --> 01:28:16,139
um it doesn't matter what the rating

2162
01:28:13,199 --> 01:28:20,600
scale is it's just one of that thing out

2163
01:28:16,139 --> 01:28:20,600
of it an infinite number of that thing

2164
01:28:20,699 --> 01:28:27,179
human bones sculptures

2165
01:28:24,420 --> 01:28:30,780
how many human femurs

2166
01:28:27,179 --> 01:28:33,900
are there are there 106 bones in the

2167
01:28:30,780 --> 01:28:37,380
human body I thought there were 206.

2168
01:28:33,900 --> 01:28:42,000
is that how many I'm gonna look it up

2169
01:28:37,380 --> 01:28:43,980
how many bones I don't know I dropped a

2170
01:28:42,000 --> 01:28:47,100
human anatomy in college you were right

2171
01:28:43,980 --> 01:28:49,860
it is 206. no I got oh six you you got

2172
01:28:47,100 --> 01:28:51,780
the the two with our powers combined

2173
01:28:49,860 --> 01:28:54,480
um I remember

2174
01:28:51,780 --> 01:28:57,900
I saw a card once that was like the

2175
01:28:54,480 --> 01:29:01,380
human body has 206 bones when I'm with

2176
01:28:57,900 --> 01:29:01,380
you I have 207.

2177
01:29:02,820 --> 01:29:07,080
which is a great line well if we're

2178
01:29:05,040 --> 01:29:09,120
gonna do it out of 206 bones the answer

2179
01:29:07,080 --> 01:29:10,980
is the answer is still one and honestly

2180
01:29:09,120 --> 01:29:13,320
I think that's why I liked I was like no

2181
01:29:10,980 --> 01:29:16,739
no it's like out of 10 paint brushes one

2182
01:29:13,320 --> 01:29:18,000
is too many yeah um it's one it is like

2183
01:29:16,739 --> 01:29:22,280
one

2184
01:29:18,000 --> 01:29:22,280
pinky toe bone

2185
01:29:22,440 --> 01:29:28,020
is it your pinky toe or your big toe

2186
01:29:25,920 --> 01:29:30,000
that if you don't have it you lose your

2187
01:29:28,020 --> 01:29:32,400
balance I don't know I would imagine

2188
01:29:30,000 --> 01:29:34,560
either would be a challenge

2189
01:29:32,400 --> 01:29:36,540
I think it's your big toe

2190
01:29:34,560 --> 01:29:38,880
without your big toe you lose balance

2191
01:29:36,540 --> 01:29:40,380
yeah you that would be hard to stabilize

2192
01:29:38,880 --> 01:29:44,940
that's fair

2193
01:29:40,380 --> 01:29:48,780
um yeah so one out of 206

2194
01:29:44,940 --> 01:29:48,780
gold flaked

2195
01:29:49,159 --> 01:29:54,659
human bones yeah so the thing about this

2196
01:29:53,460 --> 01:29:57,900
book

2197
01:29:54,659 --> 01:29:59,100
um was that I was rooting for no one and

2198
01:29:57,900 --> 01:30:03,179
I

2199
01:29:59,100 --> 01:30:05,699
hated it like the story parts of the

2200
01:30:03,179 --> 01:30:08,580
story I was like okay I'm into the story

2201
01:30:05,699 --> 01:30:10,860
actually like the premise of it is

2202
01:30:08,580 --> 01:30:13,020
really interesting but the detail was

2203
01:30:10,860 --> 01:30:17,280
like I

2204
01:30:13,020 --> 01:30:20,600
a full body cringe all the time and the

2205
01:30:17,280 --> 01:30:20,600
second book doesn't get better

2206
01:30:21,179 --> 01:30:24,900
I don't even know why I read this I'm

2207
01:30:22,980 --> 01:30:26,639
going to kindly and respectfully ask

2208
01:30:24,900 --> 01:30:29,100
that we don't

2209
01:30:26,639 --> 01:30:31,739
and I'm gonna honor that request because

2210
01:30:29,100 --> 01:30:33,239
consent matters and I'm gonna honor that

2211
01:30:31,739 --> 01:30:35,219
with you

2212
01:30:33,239 --> 01:30:37,260
thank you because then we'd have to like

2213
01:30:35,219 --> 01:30:40,340
it end up like

2214
01:30:37,260 --> 01:30:45,620
two out of 412 bones

2215
01:30:40,340 --> 01:30:45,620
and that is too low of a rating

2216
01:30:46,080 --> 01:30:49,500
um

2217
01:30:46,620 --> 01:30:52,139
yeah so whatever y'all do for self-care

2218
01:30:49,500 --> 01:30:54,239
yeah you should you should go do that

2219
01:30:52,139 --> 01:30:55,980
you should prioritize that should do

2220
01:30:54,239 --> 01:30:58,260
those things I'm gonna go sit in a dark

2221
01:30:55,980 --> 01:30:59,639
room and think about my life choices for

2222
01:30:58,260 --> 01:31:01,560
a little bit

2223
01:30:59,639 --> 01:31:03,659
um yeah I'm gonna drive home and

2224
01:31:01,560 --> 01:31:05,460
probably Listen to I don't know like a

2225
01:31:03,659 --> 01:31:09,860
Kendall Ryan book or something that is

2226
01:31:05,460 --> 01:31:09,860
just the exact polar opposite of that

2227
01:31:11,219 --> 01:31:16,620
whatever whatever you need whatever

2228
01:31:13,860 --> 01:31:18,179
helps regulate you

2229
01:31:16,620 --> 01:31:20,040
well I'm also going to delete the

2230
01:31:18,179 --> 01:31:22,199
outline I have for the second book so

2231
01:31:20,040 --> 01:31:24,719
that I don't ever accidentally look at

2232
01:31:22,199 --> 01:31:28,040
it if we're not gonna do it I don't even

2233
01:31:24,719 --> 01:31:28,040
want to accidentally look at it

2234
01:31:29,159 --> 01:31:31,980
I think that's a really fair assessment

2235
01:31:30,659 --> 01:31:35,400
okay

2236
01:31:31,980 --> 01:31:38,520
um thank you for joining us on

2237
01:31:35,400 --> 01:31:40,920
on such a roller coaster on such a

2238
01:31:38,520 --> 01:31:42,659
journey I'm so sorry y'all I'm so so

2239
01:31:40,920 --> 01:31:44,400
sorry y'all I really am

2240
01:31:42,659 --> 01:31:46,560
um

2241
01:31:44,400 --> 01:31:48,060
and I I think the crazy part was like

2242
01:31:46,560 --> 01:31:49,920
watching you like go through your

2243
01:31:48,060 --> 01:31:51,719
outline I was like I can tell Hannah's

2244
01:31:49,920 --> 01:31:53,760
skimming some parts of this I really do

2245
01:31:51,719 --> 01:31:55,800
it gets weirder and it gets worse it

2246
01:31:53,760 --> 01:31:59,520
really does a lot

2247
01:31:55,800 --> 01:32:02,400
so go prioritize your self-care go

2248
01:31:59,520 --> 01:32:03,960
prioritize whatever you need to do to

2249
01:32:02,400 --> 01:32:04,980
emotionally regulate yourself after that

2250
01:32:03,960 --> 01:32:06,420
one

2251
01:32:04,980 --> 01:32:09,020
um and let us know what you do for

2252
01:32:06,420 --> 01:32:11,940
yourself care and

2253
01:32:09,020 --> 01:32:13,199
I'd say your thoughts on the book but I

2254
01:32:11,940 --> 01:32:15,659
I don't even feel like I want to

2255
01:32:13,199 --> 01:32:18,000
recommend like reading it and trying it

2256
01:32:15,659 --> 01:32:20,040
um so yeah just you let us know what

2257
01:32:18,000 --> 01:32:22,320
your self-care looks like smut [ __ ] I

2258
01:32:20,040 --> 01:32:24,840
will tell you what I took away from this

2259
01:32:22,320 --> 01:32:27,179
book is that I should not get book

2260
01:32:24,840 --> 01:32:30,060
recommendations off of tick tock that's

2261
01:32:27,179 --> 01:32:32,040
what I got from this book primarily

2262
01:32:30,060 --> 01:32:34,199
um but I appreciate y'all learning that

2263
01:32:32,040 --> 01:32:36,420
lesson with me but I I think this book

2264
01:32:34,199 --> 01:32:38,219
was exactly what was advert like they're

2265
01:32:36,420 --> 01:32:40,620
like you want you want some [ __ ] dark

2266
01:32:38,219 --> 01:32:42,060
[ __ ] here you go and you're like yeah

2267
01:32:40,620 --> 01:32:45,360
I'll go with some dark [ __ ] and then

2268
01:32:42,060 --> 01:32:48,659
you're like oh this was darker than

2269
01:32:45,360 --> 01:32:50,940
that's not what I meant yeah yeah so now

2270
01:32:48,659 --> 01:32:53,639
that we all learned our lesson I

2271
01:32:50,940 --> 01:32:58,699
appreciate y'all and we will see you

2272
01:32:53,639 --> 01:32:58,699
next time [ __ ] we're sorry and goodbye

2273
01:33:01,920 --> 01:33:07,020
we hope it was good for you cause it

2274
01:33:04,739 --> 01:33:09,179
sure was great for us

2275
01:33:07,020 --> 01:33:11,040
you're digging what we're doing it would

2276
01:33:09,179 --> 01:33:13,139
mean a lot if you'd take a minute to

2277
01:33:11,040 --> 01:33:15,060
rate and review the show wherever you're

2278
01:33:13,139 --> 01:33:17,580
listening right now

2279
01:33:15,060 --> 01:33:18,780
if you tell that sexy someone to Linda

2280
01:33:17,580 --> 01:33:20,280
senir

2281
01:33:18,780 --> 01:33:22,020
we love you

2282
01:33:20,280 --> 01:33:24,480
we appreciate you

2283
01:33:22,020 --> 01:33:27,090
we'll see you next week

2284
01:33:24,480 --> 01:33:32,260
stay spotty

2285
01:33:27,090 --> 01:33:32,260
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