Combative Calm

This episode isn’t your usual holiday meditation filled with cheerful tunes and sparkly sentiments.
Instead, it’s for those who feel the weight of the season pressing down on them.
If you’re mourning someone you’ve loved, someone who’s slipping away, or even a version of yourself that feels lost, this meditation is for you.

It’s also for anyone carrying the collective heaviness of the world right now.
Together, we’ll explore breathwork, grounding techniques, and a deep visualization that invites you to face your grief head-on.

This isn’t about fixing or glossing over it: it’s about acknowledging it, giving it a space in your heart, and simply being with those heavy emotions that linger, despite all the pressure to be jolly.

I share Rumi’s poem “The Guest House,” which is central to this practice. 
It’s a reminder that grief is a visitor, not a punishment or a mark of failure. 

Together, we’ll explore breathwork, grounding techniques, and a deep visualization that encourages you to face your grief openly. This isn’t about fixing things or pretending they’re better than they are. It’s about acknowledging your feelings, making space for them in your heart, and simply being present with those heavy emotions that linger, even when there’s pressure to feel cheerful.

If the holidays feel especially overwhelming, hollow, or sharp for you, I invite you to take a moment with me.
Let’s breathe together, sit with what hurts, and remember that you don’t have to shine brightly to get through this season.
If you can find just 15 minutes, you have enough time to uncover a little softness amidst the heaviness.

What is Combative Calm?

This isn’t your sugary, sweet, diabetes-inducing healing podcast.
This is Combative Calm—where nervous system regulation meets rage rituals, somatic releases, and spicy affirmations laced with f-bombs to unfck your trauma responses.

Hosted by Sarai Speer—a trauma-informed yoga + meditation teacher, somatic healer, and high-energy bitch who tells it like it is—this show delivers real tools, not toxic positivity.

It’s trauma-informed, nervous system-rooted healing for the emotionally constipated, burnout-curious, high-functioning humans who are done pretending they’re fine.

It’s time to regulate your shit.