Joe: I really found that I look around.
That the romantic love I say is this ideal.
The animal.
The anima is the ideal you carry within yourself.
Did you put on two different entities?
Out there.
And you, you not with that.
Pretty soon you see through the projection.
And then what happens?
Uh, that's Joseph Campbell from an interview.
He did.
I want to pretend to be an expert on what the animal is.
But I.
Took note of this because it resonated with me.
And I can see that I've done this.
Throughout my adult life.
It's project something.
On to a woman in my case.
And then basically have a relationship with that projection.
And there's an incredible high that comes from doing that.
And they become perfected in your mind.
And.
Quite often.
I can take photos of women when I'm in this state.
Sitting in a cafe and it will be particularly attractive.
Photo of them.
And quite often they get some kind of high out of it too.
But as Joseph Campbell says pretty soon.
You say through the projection?
And then what happens?
Well, in my case, What happens is I tend to end the relationship.
And often women are left, hurt.
And confused.
About what went wrong.
And it reminds me.
Well, the Jody Mitchell quote.
About monogamy.
And how.
If all you ever have is short-term relationships.
And casual dating.
Then basically just dating yourself over and over again.
And telling the same stories.
And revealing the same small parts of yourself.
And having the same fun.
Whereas to really go deep with someone.
And commit.
And really get into the complexities of getting to know someone.
Is to have a much deeper experience.
But I think that moves you.
Past romantic love.
And chemistry.
And all the hedonism.
That's inherent in all those chemicals floating around.
I think that moves you to something that maybe feels a lot more ordinary.
A lot of the time.
That's slow.
Layering process of really getting to know one person.
And sitting here now I can see that.
That is an ideal for me.
The problem I have is whenever I made a new person.
I tend to project my animal.
Onto them.
And have their same relation shit over and over again.
Trying to get out of that trap.
And move on to.
Hopefully something.
More profound.