So I'd signed the Akashic records and I've been told that I could
look into people's souls if I wanted to, if it was for the greater good.
So I've never abused it apart from stalking ex-boyfriends, joking.
My guest today is Nicky Alan, who really needs no introduction, I don't think.
And so thank you so much for coming on the show today, Nicki.
I really appreciate having you here.
Seriously, I appreciate you being on my screen right now, okay?
Because it's 10:00 AM here in the UK and I'm looking at the most handsome man ever
on the planet thinking, how lucky am I?
I don't, do you know, I'd be luckier if I was actually in Australia
because it's blinking freezing here.
But look, come on guys,
when you watch this, you must just have to keep going back saying,
is he actually talking right now?
Looking into those
Oh my God.
my day.
Thank you for having me.
I think if I could go redder, I probably would, but thank you.
Thank you.
Oh, really?
You've got a nice kind of like little tan going on there, but nothing too bad.
Obviously you've got to be safe in the uh Australian Outback and stuff.
Oh no, you're not the Outback, are you?
No
yeah, that's, I actually, I grew up in the Outback but,
oh, see, look, I'm
that's a whole nother story.
The psychic vibes are coming through already.
I grew up in the bush, in Western Australia.
Oh, wow.
How fascinating is that?
I should be interviewing you.
You you could book me in later if you like.
That'd be a good idea.
I just gotta work out Zoom first.
I gotta work it out.
Every time I'm a like a guest, the hosts are magnificent.
They've got it all sorted and it's all this fandangled stuff.
It looks a bit like, I dunno, something I you find on airplane is things
flashing and all sorts of things.
And I, I'm so rubbish at technical stuff.
And the problem is because of what happened to me, and I had
this new life I had to deal with.
I now gotta do loads of social media.
I haven't got a clue.
I haven't.
I've just worked out how to do YouTube and it's press this
button, do this affiliate things.
I'm like, I just don't know what I'm doing.
I just haven't got a clue.
And I just just wobble along.
I'm the most unprofessional person ever.
You're doing okay.
Your YouTube channel is going just fine.
Trust me
Yeah, I
what you're doing.
lovely.
Exactly.
This is, I've got such a lovely community on there.
There's a real good, I call 'em up at the tribe and it's
grown magnificently recently.
I'm so pleased.
As soon as the book launched, everything's gone woof.
It's gone massive.
To the extent where I'm now getting interviewed all over the
world and now I'm in Australia.
Woohoo.
So yeah, it's been magnificent.
Absolutely.
I'm so pleased.
And YouTube, I just want that to grow and grow now because I did
work it for a number of years.
I think it's in Me, Myself, and I, when they got me to go onto, oh, YouTube
and I worked it, it didn't really go anywhere and I thought, well it
doesn't feel right, took a step back and then suddenly it just went bang.
So it's lovely because when I was a child I used to, it is almost like
a, prophecy of what I was gonna do.
As a child, there was like this chrome side on our oven, and even
as a littl'un six, seven years old,
I just used to sit and talk in front of it.
Like I was pretending I'd been interviewed.
So even then I was like chatting away to this unseen camera.
I just, I love it.
I love being able to reach people this way and teach them and show
them the afterlife heaven and everything that is to do with that.
The angel realms.
And it's just gives me so much joy to reach so many people.
People moan about social media, but for me it's a beautiful gift of
reaching people, especially in their darkest times, cause I used to do it.
I used to do it as a police officer and now I'm doing it
as well what could you call me?
Psychic medium.
Spiritual advisor.
Spiritual tutor.
Pick author.
Author, pick a title.
Also is the emails you get, the love you get from, from all over the world I
was saying I was feeling a bit poorly.
A couple of days ago.
A bit exhausted and from my M.E (Myalgic Encephalomyelitis).
And I've got just a flurry of emails, are you okay?
Have you tried this?
I've had people send me health supplements and it's just so lovely
and I have got a big following in Australia as well, which I'm so proud of.
And I'd just love to come over there at some point.
I will at some point.
It's one of my ticky boxes.
I'm doing Florida this year and United States.
So the next stop has gotta be Oz.
Cause I dive as well.
So when I can dive, I'm gonna be in there.
The barrier reef.
The lot.
You have to.
And I'm really glad to hear that you're well enough that you can
do that kind of traveling as well, which is, that's pretty exciting.
I was saying to you before reading your book, I'm up to the part where it's still
debilitating your illness and hearing you say that you're gonna be traveling or, and
actually getting on a plane, go overseas, that obviously means that you've improved
quite a bit, which is good to hear.
I Absolutely.
I think that for people that don't know the book, oh, hang on a minute.
Oh look, it's here.
This one you're talking about that one.
Me, myself, and I,
Yeah.
I'm up to chapter 20.
That one.
Obviously I was suicidal most days because at the end of the day
the prognosis was I was gonna be in bed for the rest of my life.
And during that five years, it was the most tortuous hell on earth.
However, it's the most enlightening as well because of all the
angel and spirit phenomena that took place and in visitation.
And I, and me being quite, skeptical of things now and then, and I was
thinking, was I really seeing that?
But my dogs were going wild.
And it wasn't until I surrendered and thought I've
got to now grieve my old life.
Which was amazing.
Absolutely amazing.
And adapt and think what can I do now?
And obviously, you've, oh no, read the fake.
Oh no, I can't tell you.
It's a spoiler alert.
I can't tell you that bit.
But hence to say I end up, obviously being able to get out of bed.
What happens is though, with this, it's like, for instance, the Orlando
Conference I'm doing I will have to have many days rest before and
many after, and it is called pacing.
When you have to, everybody knows this, who's got M.E., chronic
fatigue syndrome, more fibromyalgia.
You have to pace yourself cuz you can't live like a normal person.
So it's just adapting and listening to your body.
And when it says that's enough, then you just literally stop what
you're doing and you have to sleep.
And the thing is with that is you lose lots of friends over it because
you're always canceling or saying, I, I can't do this, I can't do that.
But it's all about mindset.
And this is another thing I try and get across.
Not only are we not alone in both books, I show people literally that we are never
ever alone whether we believe it or not.
And I think I dip into that in Me, Myself and I, because
I thought they'd abandoned me.
I thought, where are you?
Hang a minute.
I'm part of a bloodline that goes back hundreds of years
where we've served you lot.
I, it was a bit more colorful than that, darling.
There were a few F bombs in there.
I'm not gonna.
Where are you, which the F-bombs are in the book.
I was so raw with it, I just thought I'm gonna chuck it all in.
And I was like, you've just left me.
But I ended up realizing that my energy was so dense and so
low and I'd done it myself.
I created that blockage myself and just cut them out.
They were all still there and in the end they're like, ah, do you know what?
We've had enough of her bleeding.
Let's just go and stand in her bedroom.
And so it most probably will be the last time I ever have, like my guides
physically standing in the room and angels physically standing in the room.
And my Dad, who is in the spirit world, and I sat talking to him for five minutes
and he was like, just a solid man.
I don't think that's ever gonna happen again.
But I think they thought I was in such crisis that they're like, oh wait, on a
minute, she might just take herself over.
We can't have that because she's got so much more work to do down here.
So we need to intervene and do some pretty miraculous stuff.
And so even now, sometimes I, when I talk about the books and talk
and look back in my journals, I think, I can't believe it happened.
But it really did.
And as I said, when anything come into my bedroom, whether it was
an angel spirit guide, one of my loved ones, the dogs would go crazy.
I've got two little Shitzu's and they would go mental
looking at whatever was there.
So they backed it up, because I was always worried, oh, am I making up?
Cause I'm so desperate and I'm making up cause I'm on so many drugs.
Medication drugs.
And it wasn't, it was magnificent.
It was just pure magic.
And they were just showing me that nobody's ever alone.
We think we are.
And when we go through the dark traumas of our life, especially with grief
and loss, we just think there's nobody there helping us because they've taken
someone away we love, and they've gone off to a different place and I
hate the world and God would never do that, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
But they are, they're all standing in the wings, just waiting for
you to go, do you know what?
I need your help now because I've got nothing left.
I dunno what else to do.
So I need you.
And that's when you start experiencing the true magic of it.
And you don't have to be a medium for that.
You don't have to be someone that's connected all the time.
It can happen to anybody.
And I have so many stories of people that either have, signs or physically
their husband in a spirit will come in to say, it's okay, love.
I'm okay.
Angel visitations.
It happens everywhere.
But the weird thing is it's still, there's still a stigma attached to it.
There's still a Oh yeah.
Okay.
Because there's people that don't wanna face the fact that we are eternal souls.
And I think what they get scared of, and I think this is the biggest
fear, is that, oh I don't wanna lose my husband when I go up there.
I don't wanna lose my dog.
I don't want an eternal soul, I just wanna keep this life.
But when they get up there, they realize that this is just a tiny little speck.
Of a completely infinitive existence.
And in my next book, I'm writing at the moment, which is what happens
when we die I literally describe what happens from physical death or even
just before physical death, right the way through to when we incarnate again.
Because they've given me, when I, you obviously, you have loads of
wonderful stories of near-death experience on your channel and
I'm like, oh, that's really good.
But I've realized that I have the death experiences without dying.
Do you know what I mean?
Perhaps my soul died when I was in bed for five years.
Bloody hell.
But it's just, I can go up there whenever I want.
And the one time that I saw it and I thought, wow, this is incredible.
Cause that's when I started getting interested in it because for people
that don't know me, I don't read books.
I don't, I haven't studied anything.
Everything I've learned and what I've been taught comes from them through meditation,
dream state, or physical visitation.
And then they'll back it up with another sign to show me that they really were
there, and so my uncle died in Spain and I thought, do you know what?
I wanna know where he is.
Cuz Auntie was so distraught.
She's over in Spain and he's, his passed over.
There was a lot of illness before and I thought I wanna have a look where he is.
Now.
Ages ago I'd been, I didn't even know what I was doing.
It was only until,
only,
so I dunno why they picked me, Rod.
I really dunno.
Why, because I do, I see things and then I say to someone, do you know what that is?
And they go, Are you kidding me?
And this was the Akashic Records, right?
The Akashic Records.
And I went, oh, I had to sign a book called Akashic or something.
And I was in this like Hall of Learning, he said, and his name was Meta something.
He went, oh my God, you're in the Halls of Learning.
You signed the Akashic.
He goes they're all symbols.
When he goes, that's Aramaic.
And he said, and you're with Archangel Metatron, the scribe of God.
And I'm like, was I?
And they and people go, oh my God, she's got no clue.
How advanced she is and where, what planes she can go to, what
celestial layer she can go to.
So I'd signed the Akashic records and I've been told that I could
look into people's souls if I wanted to, if it was for the greater good.
So I've never abused it apart from stalking ex-boyfriends, joking.
And and so I, I basically thought I'm gonna see where my uncle's gone.
And they took me from literally the physical part in the transition, and
they showed the people around him.
And it was lovely because I didn't know these older generations.
So I said to my auntie, oh, who's so-and-so?
She goes, oh my God, that's his mom-in-law.
That's my mom.
Who's this?
Oh that's my nan and that's his nan.
And I was like, oh, great.
So they were all there for him.
And then he literally there was this massive energy, which like a milky
white color and the name Azrael come up, which I've never heard of.
And so then they then take him his soul up, which was just like loads of
glitter and orbs with all different types of sentient knowledge in
each of these orbs within the soul.
And then he gets taken to a temple.
And funnily enough, I recognized his temple when I was in Thailand.
They have a thing called a spirit hut.
Which is where they put their bodies for the souls to go up.
It's like a portal in these spirit huts.
And this is what they were like and when I found them in Thailand went, that's
what it looks like when you go up there.
That's the huts they put you in.
People think.
Yeah.
All right Nick.
Okay.
And so he's then put out his soul is then unfurled in a plinth and
Archangel Azrael hands over the soul to someone called Jeremiel.
So I don't know any of this.
I'm like Jeremiel, I remember that.
Google it later.
And he comes in with this big black square hat and black robes and he
almost puts his hands on his shoulders and then it all goes a bit and it's
humming and buzzing and all weirdness.
And I said, what's going on?
This?
It's his life review.
Okay.
So he had his life review.
And then I found out later on that you see who you feel most comfortable with.
So if you were religious the image that Jeremiel will show you is Jesus.
If you are a Muslim, it would be Mohammed.
Okay?
So they sh he will change the image that you are familiar with, that you recognize
as a higher power deity, if you'd like.
And then after that, there was all this green energy around him, which was healing
the soul, dealing with any transitions.
And after the life review if there is too much trauma, I was told you'd get
taken to the celestial gardens where the Seraphim are, and they pour this
translucent water, which turns out to be the Fountain of Life, fountain
of youth, whatever you wanna call it.
And it heals the soul.
Ready for you to go into the reality layer, which I go to this
place called the Crystal Palace and there's all different layers and they
create it for humans to understand.
So they give images so that I can create a map.
So I've drawn this massive map of Heaven and there's a place called the
Reality Layer, and it has got huge gates, but I think they just do that.
Oh yeah, there's sort of pearl gates there, just so you
understand it, human being.
And you walk through and it literally is like walking through a town.
You're literally walking in and there's people going, Hey, hi.
And these are all spirit peoples.
This is heaven that I'm walking through.
And so I walk along and then they say what happens is then is that the family,
that right there at the beginning will gather Ron up my uncle and take him
to their area in the reality layer.
And then they show me it's so funny of all the things he could
be doing, they then create, you can then create your own reality.
So if you like the times I've seen people doing their hobbies,
and then I say to their, the audience member, he's doing this.
She goes, oh my god.
He loved yachting or whatever.
So he was, then he had his red Ferrari t-shirt on.
That was his favorite.
And he was down the bar having a beer.
And I said, is that all you're gonna do?
I said, you've got people here that have died years ago.
Have a bit of respect.
Pretend you missed them.
He goes, no, we're all right.
I know they're there.
I'm just gonna have a beer and then I'll pop in and see 'em after.
They're just getting the house ready for me.
I said, you are so lazy.
You are so lazy drinking beer while they're all running around for you.
And then he had all these women, oh, come on, Ron.
Come.
And they were all like, Totally spoiling him like a little child.
And it turns out that he was like that.
His mum really spoiled him as a kid.
So when I said this, oh yeah, that's typical of her, to spoil him, he'll be
looked after, he won't do anything there.
And funnily enough before I had a chance to speak to my auntie, she had dreamt
of him and she phoned up in the morning.
I went, oh my goodness, Nicky, I can't believe it.
I've just seen Ron.
He's having a beer, wearing a red T-shirt.
And I thought, yes.
I said, thank you very much synchronicity.
And obviously backing up what I'd seen.
And then I showed her where he was and what he was doing,
and she went, oh my goodness.
I said, so we've both come to the conclusion he's still drinking beer in
a bar wearing his red Ferrari t-shirt.
And it was just and from then I became so obsessed with going
up there and learning different things from the different layers.
I went into this haven which was the omnipresence, which is, I
suppose you could call it God, the source of the universe.
I've been to all different places, and the beauty of it is that they will
always back it up when I come back down here with some sign or synchronicity
to prove that I've been up there.
So I don't, again, I don't abuse it too much, but most of the
time I'll go on meditation or I'll just sit for 10 minutes.
I'm so lucky because I live right by the ocean, so I just sit there on a rock and
I just take myself up there and see who's about, I'll have a cup of tea with my Nan,
I'll go walking with one of my old dogs.
It's just, and this is what I'm trying to show people, that anybody can do
that if they raise their vibration and regularly heighten the levels of their
consciousness through meditation or mindfulness, they can do it themselves.
And that's why I've created a lot of guided meditations, one of them being
visiting your loved ones in heaven.
Because I get emails going, oh my goodness, I've just spent like my whole
day with my daughter and then I come back and I was only out for half an hour.
And that's how it works.
You can all do it.
So she regularly now sees her daughter in meditation.
And what the wonderful thing is as well is that they also tell you
things that are going to happen.
So when I was up there with my nan, the same nan that you are
talking about, go on the Facebook thingy of all the things to say.
Do you know what I mean?
I've seen all this big glow in the hall.
My nan's shuffling in, go on the Facebook thingy.
I'm like, you've come all the way from heaven to say that.
Don't believe it, but you'll see why it's amazing.
And yeah, so it's just a magical place that I want to show everybody.
Everybody's open to it.
Everybody's open to go to the angel realms, to sit with arch Angels, to go to
the halls of learning, to understand more.
And this is what I'm trying to do now.
And my dad said to me, and I, you would've read that in Turkey.
He said, you're gonna work in a completely different way, a profound way.
It's nothing like you've done before.
Cause I thought I was here just to prove the afterlife through mediumship
and demonstrations and he's right.
It's a whole deeper level now, of looking into the soul's existence and learning
from the Crystal Palace, cuz I'm lucky enough to be able to go up there whenever
I want and bring stuff back down again.
And that's what I love about it.
I just love that I can do that.
And so rather than, people say, I need a reading.
I need a reading.
No, you need to get into your soul.
Get into your personal power, meditate more and be more aware of yourself,
of who you are, what you need, and you can connect in yourself.
This is what I'm trying to educate people with to lighten their energy.
Cuz let's face it, the last few years have been a nightmare worldwide, haven't they?
With Covid?
The political scene, the financial scene every, I dunno what it's like over there,
but it's just rubbish here to be honest
Very similar.
That kinda thing, and so we need to find an escape.
We need to find a layer to disappear off to.
I don't even watch the news anymore, darling.
Do you?
I just depresses me.
Do you know what I mean?
Like real life is nah, you can have that.
I'm just gonna go back up there and talk to Archangel Michael.
But I do, if I'm walking along, like I've got this meeting place, I go and I
decide which area I'm gonna walk around, and then perhaps Michael will come in
or somebody will come in and then I end up having a conversation or whatever.
I know it sounds a bit human, but it's easiest way to say it in layman's terms.
And then I come out and then, perhaps I'll take the dogs down to the park and someone
will go, Michael, come here Michael.
And you think, yes.
So that's what I mean.
When they back it up, they will always have a circumstance happen here, a
synchronicity happen here to back up exactly what's happening there.
And so going back to my nan, the wonderful thing is she said, what was it?
oh, oh.
She said oh, Carrie is gonna have another fall, that boy, and that's my nephew.
And so a week later he just literally slipped in a toilet and
ended up getting really severe concussion rushed to hospital.
And so you even get them talking of the future.
So if you have a doubt, if it's your imagination going up there,
they all say things and tell you about things that are coming up.
out.
And then when that happened, I was like, oh my God.
She goes, you'll be all right though.
You know what?
He's he's always falling over.
My nephew, bless him.
And so she said, he'll be all right.
Don't worry.
But that's happening.
She did it for my mum with breast cancer.
And so you just know it's coming and I what's gonna happen?
Is she going up or is she.
No she's all right.
She'll be all right.
And my mum was full makeup, sitting there wanting a glass of wine after
she just had a breast removed.
I was my mum all over.
That sounds like you actually.
What?
What you would do.
Sounds
Like me.
I dunno about the makeup.
But yeah, I think I could have a nice glass of wine if that happened.
She smoked like a chimney and drank like a fish.
My mother, bless her heart.
Formidable lady.
But even, it's even my dad cuz I go back well with fourth
generation as far as we know.
And there were seven sons.
After seven sons, which is like the main spiritual port of mediums.
We've got the biggest energy or whatever to go up there
You mean with people who have psychic abilities?
It goes a long way back in your family.
yeah.
Yeah, everybody's a medium, psychic or healer.
My brother's a full-time working medium.
My sister's a healer.
She's psychic as well, but she is more, I dunno, she dips into it
and comes back out of it again.
But all my family are, so I grew up with Tea leaves in teapots tarot cards, and
I just thought it was the norm, really.
My granddad was formidable.
I was the one that broke the seventh son, seventh son legacy.
But yeah he could send his soul anywhere, my granddad.
He used to help Scotland Yard with murder cases and things like that under the, cuz
it was back in the fifties and sixties.
And they didn't want people to know.
So he did it quite secretly.
But he was just, he was incredible.
My, my cousin went missing.
She ran off with someone, she was a bit wild child.
And so they all come in and said, oh dad, no, to my granddad, where is she?
Where is she?
So he went, hang on a minute.
And the thing is we're all East End London.
I'm Essex, but they're all East End, so we are not all Oh, I can
sense this coming through now.
We're not those sort of people.
He was like, a bit of a, orright he says hang on a minute, I'll have a look.
So he's just closed his eyes and he is literally, he could send his soul and
astrally plane wherever he wanted to.
So he could have dual consciousness, he could remain conscious plus, yeah.
Yeah.
And he literally floated around looking for a energy.
When I say it, it sounds so unbelievable, but it's true.
It's true as a day is long.
And he said she's in flat.
I can't remember flat number five.
It's a blue door at the end of the corridor.
Go now because he's out.
My uncle's get in the car and it's about 70 miles away, 80 miles away.
They're roaring up there.
And on the say of my granddad they literally go to this block
of flats, go to the end room, which is this door, kick it in.
And she's sitting there like that, thinking, how the hell did they find me?
And then they just dragged her out cause she was with the wrong man.
It was just a wrong'un this bloke.
And yeah, my, and they just, she came back and that they all had a go at her.
And it's does anybody realize that granddad's just disappeared off and found
my cousin in a random place in Essex and we got her back and it's oh my God.
It was all completely normal.
My, my aunt used to sit there automatic write say this is gonna
happen and that's gonna happen.
And my granddad had a Victorian scry mirror, which I've got.
Crystal balls, everything.
They were all old school psychics and they were absolutely brilliant.
Absolutely brilliant.
And I miss that because it seems that as soon as someone's got a psychic ability,
they're on here saying, yay, pay me money.
I'm psychic.
And there's some amazing psychic mediums out there and it's the people like that
give us a bit of a bad name cuz there's still a modern day witch hunt going on.
Let's face it, we are still in the back pages of a magazine with a little advert.
Do you know what I mean?
It's such a shame when we can bring so much completion to someone's
soul when they're grieving and even, it's like in America.
I dunno if this happens in Australia, they even help the police out there.
Do they, does that happen there, do you know?
I think it's a little more under the radar like it is in the uk.
I, it seemed, in my impression, and it's definitely not one that's based on a great
amount of knowledge, but my impression is in the States it's a little more
official in the way that they help that
Yeah, it's, yeah,
persons cases and that sort of thing.
I'm not so sure about it here, though.
yeah.
It's a shame that we are not used for that really, because I've seen quite
a few programs over in the US and they literally are deemed as an expert witness,
which I think he's fantastic, because I can't remember the lady's name, but I
watch her, I can't remember her name now.
And she just, it's just located so many like dead bodies.
And missing people, but, and it's just like, why don't you use this?
And I always phone and I had I remember once I was doing a circle,
I, in my, I call it my old life of my psychic mediumship, which was me,
like all over the place on television and just about to tour Australia.
I was just about to tour Australia, absolutely gutted
just before the road accident.
And so excited to go as well.
And basically I was doing a circle and I go in and I just check where
everybody is so my soul can go around and check where their souls are, just
to make sure they're all doing okay.
But then this girl come up to me and she was soaking with this long straggly hair.
Do you know like the ring,
like the ring?
Oh yeah.
removed
It's a
I'm
film.
Yeah.
no.
I'm like, oh my God, the demon come in.
That's it.
I know I've never seen anything bad in my life apart from when I've done
paranormal investigations, but she was like, oh, you are super scary.
Are you right?
And she wasn't all right.
And I saw the name Nicole and I thought that was her first name, Nicole.
And she was just looking at me soaking where obviously passed over.
And I could tell by her face that she was lost.
Nobody had found her.
So this was in the October, right?
And oh, you would've think you would've read about this actually.
Did you?
I think I've put it in rise and fall, haven't
yeah.
I remember this one.
Yep.
okay.
Other people haven't read the book.
And literally she and I came back round and I had, and I knew where
she was, it was near Ipswich, which is like just north of Essex here.
And so I said, oh my God, someone's been murdered.
You're gonna hear about it.
So I'm thinking, I'm being a, don't worry, I've got it.
Like you're gonna find out about this in the next couple of days and you're all
gonna go, oh, Nicky, aren't you amazing?
you.
So I'm, I've described her with a long black hair and she's in a ditch or this
kind of like little stream somewhere and there's an industrial estate just
behind it and it's near Ipswitch.
Nothing.
Week after week, nothing.
And I'm like, oh my God.
And I thought I'd feel so embarrassed cuz I'm supposed to be teaching
all of these beautiful students.
I've got it totally wrong.
Do you know what I mean?
And it wasn't until six weeks later that I get a phone call to say, oh my goodness,
get on the telly now there's someone being found called Paula Nicol.
I'm like, Oh my God, I thought it was her first name and she's got the long
dark hair and she was found exactly where I said she was bedraggled, in this
stream next to an industrial estate.
And she was the first of many of a serial killer that was
killing prostitutes at the time.
So then they all started coming to me, giving me information
and I was phoning it in.
But the weird thing is, only a few years back I was the major
investigation detective taking the calls from the psychics.
So I knew exactly what was gonna happen.
It'd be, yeah, right love, thanks a lot.
Go in the bloody bin.
Do you know what I mean?
But then luckily I knew a couple of the cops that were on there and I
knew the senior investigating officer.
And so I said to her, the next two victim's gonna be found near Kirk Soen.
And I said, and there's a big green Electric box next to
the one you've just found.
She goes, how'd you know that?
And I'm like, oh my God, how many times I gotta tell you?
Because they remember me as a police officer.
Lots of people knew I was psychic as well.
But then to come out of it and be the other side, it was really
frustrating because I could have implemented that, which I did in
my police career a number of times.
And they all came to me and there was nothing really I could do.
I, I described and got a full profile of the person that had
done it, even down to what his house and his address looked like.
But they did never came back to me, unfortunately.
But the beauty of that was because I'd connected with them.
I think lots of murder victims come to me, because obviously that's what I
dealt with when I was a police officer.
And they come, they came to me and then they obviously went off to their family
members, these ladies that were killed.
Cuz then I got random phone calls and I didn't know who they were.
There was a bloke called, I think it was Paul or something from Scotland.
And I was talking to him.
I went, oh my goodness.
Your sister is one of the girls, who was murdered.
And and then I, and then the family just found me randomly to
give messages from their girls.
It was just incredible how it worked out.
So it was really nice to do that part of it, frustrating that nobody
wants to listen to you when you've got information that they should
really stand up and listen to.
And that's just from feelings, that you're feeling in the vibration of the universe.
If you could get hold of something that belonged to them or go to the crime
scene, imagine what we could do then.
But it's just one of those things.
I don't think it's ever gonna transpire unless I've moved over
to the states and I could become a professional one with the police.
They wouldn't have me.
I'm too unprofessional.
I was so unprofessional.
I wasn't unprofessional.
I was cheeky and naughty in the police, I just I hated doing things
like nicking people for speeding.
And parking tickets.
And I'm like no.
So they got me out of uniform as quick as possible and
started put me on crime squads.
They're like, just let her loose with the bad people.
Just don't put her in a uniform.
Get her out.
I was in my element with the naughty people because I was a naughty person.
But not badly, just cheeky and hard to manage because I was very headstrong.
And I think I was a good cop.
Yeah.
And it certainly helped having psychic hunches and visions
and stuff as I was going along.
You must had a good did you have a good case solve rate, compared
to your non psychic colleagues?
It's, it is hard really, because we all worked as a team on
the major investigation team.
We all worked as a team.
I'm not gonna lie though, there's one particular murder that I got the motive
for, and again, I'm sure I put this in the book as well, where Oh, bless her heart.
Tina, she was murdered by her husband and nobody, but nobody knew that
she'd basically gone back for lunch.
He'd phoned her and said, oh, do you wanna come back for lunch during a work day?
And that was it.
And the next thing she was found in a rug, burned in a car.
Basically the car was set alight and it was a nightmare because the thing
is that I need to be professional and you have to watch what you say for
court purposes and all the rest of it.
But on the same token, I'm seeing what's really going on.
It didn't happen all the time, but I went to the scene where the car
was found burnt out and I just said, Tina, just help me or get your family
members to help me and show me what I need to do to help you to get justice.
Because we had an inkling, it was the husband Richard, but he had an alibi.
He was all covered and he was just, We just couldn't get anything on him, even
though he just feel felt a bit off.
So I remember doing a interview where I had to interview the nephew.
This is how low people go on this planet, and it just, oh my goodness.
So the nephew, right?
So I walk into the interview room and if you can imagine, I've got to
be, keep my mouth shut, get down, put the tape on, what time of day
it is, who's present, blah blah.
And then I'm looking at him and the problem is I can see him rolling his
auntie up and she'd just been strangled with a dressing gown belt by the husband.
So I'm seeing this in my head and I'm going,
phhhhh
but I'm trying to concentrate and I can't because all I, every time I
look at him, I know that he turned up as soon as she was murdered, offered
money to then go and burn the car out.
He wrapped his own auntie up for some insurance money for 700 pounds.
And as
In the end I couldn't stand it.
And, my partner at the time, my crime, my detective partner Nick,
he's going to me you all right?
And I'm like, yeah, I'm fine.
I'm fine.
So I'm desperately trying to get this vision out, so I'm trying to get him to
do all the talking, my colleague, and thank God this boy themed some sort of
seizure, so we have to stop the interview.
And I'm like, thank God for that.
What'd you do with it though?
You can't go to, a judge and say, can we have a warrant, please?
Because our detective is psychic and she's saying.
You can't do that, can he?
You gotta get the evidence.
So I'm like, oh my God.
He definitely did.
But luckily, as I say, it was a team effort.
So the team found him on CCTV at the local train station, and he'd been stupid
enough to leave his train ticket outside his front door that he threw away.
So it was sewn up that he possibly was in the area, but it was circumstantial
and we still didn't have a motive or who murdered Tina, the girl.
And so anyway, had another inquiry again with Nick, my colleague.
We knocked on the door and it was just, we were just visiting
the friends of the family, right?
Friends of Tina and the husband.
And it was just to sit and have a cup of tea and see if we could get any
background information because obviously they'd known them, all their lives.
So I've gone in there, sat down, and then it's all quite pleasant.
We're having a cup of tea.
I nearly snorted the tea out on my nose because the daughter comes
downstairs and she's what, 15, 16.
And as I look at her, I'm seeing pictures of her doing naughty
things with Richard, the husband.
husband.
There's the
thinking, oh my God no.
I can't be seeing this.
Every time I look at her, I just wanna go to her.
Oh my God, you're sleeping with the husband.
But I think it can't be right.
She's a young schoolgirl and they're friends of the family.
It's like family.
It's like incest, almost like her uncle, I'm like, it can't be right.
Can't be right.
So I can't look at her.
I'm trying to stay focused.
Anyway, we come out the house and went, oh my god, Nick, I can't believe it.
I said, she's sleeping with Richard, the husband.
That's the motive here.
He's got rid of his wife, so I can be with her now.
No.
How can you prove it?
I said, I don't know.
So I go back to the police station.
And it started, then the old tingles on the scalp and the back of my neck.
And I'm thinking, oh, hello, what's going on here?
And then the vision was I had to go into the exhibit room and get this
notepad that was taken from his van.
Husband's van.
And so I got the notepad, I made photocopies of it, took it back
to the house and went through it when I got home after work.
And then it's typical.
Do you know like you have the movies where the detectives have got a glass
of wine and they're doing their work.
I'd never do that, but I had to do it on this case.
Do you know what I mean?
They carry on working.
What is wrong with them?
Go to a bar, have a life.
have
But no, they sitting there aren't they?
With a glass of wine trying to work out the case.
Anyway, I'm going through the pages and it was like a torch
light was under the page, right?
And it had like numbers and letters and so at the time I was
with a partner who had children.
And I said, come here Chelsea.
I said, what does this mean?
She went, duh.
She goes, that's Love Marry, or Avoid game.
So I'm like.
She goes, if you look, if it's a secret one, you'll see the two names in random
pages and they're working out and apparently the numbers in the alphabet
of the letters all add up and, it's just a love game basically for school kids.
And so when I look through the notepad, I can see her name and her working
out her numbers, and on another page, his name, it's all in her handwriting.
So following day, go in and say we need to approach her
with this because this is gold.
This is gonna, either blow it open or we got one step closer.
So we went and got her.
I got her in the back of the car and I said, so I said, what's this?
I said, you're in love with him, aren't you love?
And she went, no.
I went no.
I said, no, you are with this man and this proves it because you wanna know if
you're gonna just love him or marry him.
And then she just broke down.
It was perfect.
And she said, oh my God.
I always said to him that he can't divorce Tina because
they're friends of the family.
I couldn't deal with the guilt of it so I could never be with him.
And so she said it all and he basically killed his own wife
so he could be with this girl.
Oh my goodness.
And we got the motive for the murder and he got I think got minimum 41
years life, maximum life sentence.
And so I was, so yes, I got the motive for it.
But then obviously there's all the investigation team are getting all
the other exhibits and everything together to, get the case solidified.
But I can definitely say without a doubt that I got the motive for that
murder and we managed to arrest him cuz that girl made a statement to say, yeah
I've been sleeping with him, had an affair with him for however
long it was, and he got rid of her because he wanted to be with me.
So it's a good one, isn't it?
It's a good one.
It's like a, it could be a plot for a TV cop show easily.
I know.
Because I, when I I had a lot of celebrity friends, friends, there
were people that obviously loved me because I could tell them what show
to go to and what agent to go to.
And I was at a celebrity party and I actually said this to a producer
there and said, you know what?
This would make the best show ever, you know my kind of character.
And someone even emailed me an actress a couple of weeks ago and
said, this is gonna be a show.
If it is, can I play you?
I said, yeah, you can be really slim.
Nothing like me.
You can be all slim and gorgeous.
And and I said I said this to them, to this producer and said
it would make, he goes, oh my God, that makes such a good series.
Then spooky enough, a series did start about a year later, but it
was a man, it was a Swedish actor and he was like a psychic cop.
But it was a bit dark and it was, and I thought, I wonder if it was him
that got that idea and done it or not.
It was just perhaps coincidence, but I thought it would make
for great, wouldn't it?
If he got a really down to earth, loud, bubbly, vivacious cop and
then suddenly getting help, with murder investigation inquiries.
It would just be amazing.
Whatever.
I think I would love a series like that because the thing is I
think that, most paranormal, most supernatural what, whatever you're
talking about that they put on the telly, it's all scary, isn't it?
It's all hauntings.
And when spirits attack and Do you want us here?
Do you want us to leave?
And it's no, we need to have more educational series and I'm crossing
my fingers because there was a series that was coming up that, that
didn't get funding, but it's just got funding for Netflix called Intuition.
And it's just been worked on now.
And that is gonna be lovely because it's going to show the
lighter side of everything.
It's gonna be educational, but it's not gonna be all scary hauntings
and all that kind of stuff.
But yeah I would like to see better stuff, wouldn't you on the telly, being
a bit more ethereal and a bit more respectful of it, and actually looking
at it with, a proper observational eye rather than, oh, you're just a rip off.
You are just, and taking the mickey out of people.
So I did a show, I think you have it over there.
Come dine with me.
with me.
You have, do you have that over there?
Yeah, we do.
Yep.
Yeah.
And I even then I thought it was gonna be respectful, big learning curve.
I actually write about this in my book as well, don't I, that I went on there
and I spent the whole night showing them how to do a paranormal
investigation cuz it was my friend's house and it was really old cottage.
And so we got a bit of phenomenon there.
And then I gave them all readings and a couple of them ended up crying their eyes
out because their mums come through la.
But then I didn't have editing rights and I was so naive
cause it was my first TV show.
And so when it came out, the narrator is literally ripping me to pieces and
just taking the mickey and they even get the people who had the readings
go, oh, no, it's a load of rubbish.
They were the ones crying their eyes out saying, it's my mom.
It's my mom.
I can't believe you talking to my mom.
But, and I, it got, I got really, it was almost like I was the jester.
I get the psychic in, and I was quite disappointed with that.
But then
they weren't ready for it,
No.
Exactly.
And we did angels and that was beautiful.
How people's lives were saved or changed by angels basically
intervening with their lives.
And that was beautiful.
That was a lovely show, and I wish that carried on.
But the person who was in charge of that Sky Channel didn't want any more,
paranormal or, ethereal, celestial, whatever you wanna call it, programs.
He rather, he wanted my fat cat rather than angels.
Why's that cat?
Or whatever.
I dunno.
Do you know what I mean?
But it's not all about the television, but, I do like to have that
option only to bring, and if it's.
Meant, for the greater good to just keep spreading the love and
knowledge because we so need it.
We so need it.
And even
I've even watched like the dynamics change of the demographic of who come
to me or who emails my emails, me or who watches things, on my channels.
And it's so many more men.
more men
It never used to be, they used to be dragged along by their wives.
Bingo, come on, we're going and see Nicky Alan.
They're like, oh god.
And they'd walk along.
But there's a lot more men and I think everybody's trying to reach for something
because they're not getting it here on the earth plane, if that makes sense.
So they're looking for something else to try and explain perhaps
why there's so much crisis or escape it, as I said earlier.
And so I, yeah, there's lots more people coming in, younger people as
well that are coming in and interested in this type of, spirituality.
It's so easy to do.
People say to me, Oh, how do you live spiritually?
It's not like a training session or you have to, like a diet.
I naturally acknowledge the angel realms, the spirit world
most probably every half hour.
Not intentional, but I just go, I'm so lucky.
Or if I need a parking space.
I did that yesterday.
I was running late and I'm like, please, can you just get me a parking space?
Please.
And there always is one, they're so good at that.
And it's funny, if I don't order it, there isn't a parking space.
I think, ah, I forgot to order it with the angels.
And I said that once with the window open and this bloke looked at me like
she needs to go in the nutty bin.
There's something wrong with our,
something wrong with.
and it's just meditating and just being open, plugging
into the source you came from.
I have a friend of mine, Jules, who's very spiritual and she got me into the
idea of there's the parking princess.
And then occasionally I'll remember, and nine times outta 10 it works.
And, but then when you forget, it's oh, I didn't book it early enough.
Damn it.
But that's what I say.
And even things like if I need to, as I say, I ordered again, I
can't remember which book it's in.
I think it's in me, myself, and I, where I ordered this bungalow,
which is I needed it all one level.
Cause obviously I can't do stairs.
I needed it right next to the beach.
So literally I can hear the sea now.
It's really rough.
And there's a park there and everything.
And so I ordered that for the dogs to go across.
I can't even remember what I was gonna say.
Oh yeah.
And so I basically, if it looks a bit dodgy, the sky looks a bit dodgy.
I go, Archangel Arial, she's the archangel of the planet, animal
kingdom, that kind of thing.
And I said, can you just not make it rain just for half an hour so
that I can sit and the dogs can have a run around in the park.
It worked.
I've even done a TikTok video on it and you, YouTube.
Cause I went, I was sitting in the car, excuse me, I was sitting in the car
went there, bright sunshine, right?
And then got in the car and as I turned up on the driveway, it just started to rain.
Got them in and it pelted down for the rest of the day.
It literally was a slot.
And I'm like, that's really weird that I I really think I did that.
I think I did control the weather.
I think what it is really is that, cause I, and then I thought that I didn't
control the weather at all, did I?
So I think what they do is that if you send a thought up to whatever source
it is, and this was Ariel, right?
I feel that they then nudge you and say Walk now.
Walk the dog now.
And so you walk cuz they know there's gonna be that half an hour of sunshine.
And I think that's how it works.
And it's the same as like synchronicity, so it's either like
your spirit loved one or a guide, or a guides or an angel or something.
If you walk along go into the shop now.
Go into the shop now and you walk into the shop and it's your, your husband's
favorite song or something, so I think they just inspire you to do things.
It's so weird.
There's a Robin just landed there.
Oh, I wish I could turn the camera around.
I think it's just gone.
Did you, I dunno if you'll see that go through there
no, it's a bit blurry,
but yeah, so it's just beautiful how they nudge you in the right direction, and
they push you go there next, and then you hear the song again in a different shop.
Or they like, oh, just do this first and then get into the car.
Because when you get into the car, you'll turn it on and that'll be
another song your husband loved, and I think that's how it works.
It's rather than them magic in everything, it's them nudging us
and putting us where we need to be exposed to that synchronicity.
That's how I feel that it works and I just love it.
And when I, when it's like I do my prism living course, which is
a spiritual awareness course and it's also tools for how to clear
the shadow side of yourself out.
It's all the tools that I learned being in five years in bed and to
watch people like, I think, yeah, okay.
I'll have session one.
And then they go through that and then session two.
And they're like oh my goodness, this happened.
And they have their first synchronicity, like a major one, and
it, they absolutely are like, wow.
I'm like, welcome to my world.
Everybody can have this.
Just work it.
Just send out the thought.
Just ask for a sign, meditate, do what you need to do.
Go walking in nature, and you'll get ideas and they'll come to a beautiful fruition.
And to watch them open and awaken is just such a joy.
These people come to me broken, or they've come, they're in grief or
they hate themselves, or they've got issues, addictions, and they go through
the calls and they find themselves and then they suddenly find that they
have access to all of these realms and it's just, ah, I just am so lucky.
I just love what I do.
And to see people suddenly think, wow, there's something in this.
And then they become these sponges, these spiritual sponges that then send
me, oh, have you've seen this person?
Have you seen that person on?
Because they're literally grabbing all this ethereal knowledge, all this esoteric
knowledge from everybody they can.
And that's what I aim to do, is spread that so that we can
cope with this human experience.
Because it does get tough, doesn't it?
Really tough.
See what led you, for instance, what led you look at me, I'm
becoming the bleeding nose now.
What led you to do this to bring knowledge of all of these wonderful
stories, all these guests you have on, what made you feel that pull to do that?
It wasn't anything.
Okay, I, what I did was I saw another interview like this and
I thought, I've gotta do that.
That was really it.
I just knew as soon as I saw it that I've gotta do that.
Now, prior to that, I had an interest.
So somewhere in the last sort of year and a half, for some reason I got
fascinated with out-of-body experiences.
So I started to read, and then I found about the work that Robert
Monroe has done with the Monroe Institute and so on and so forth.
And then, was successful one time and that sort of then I thought,
okay it's one thing to read and hear people talk about it, but you really
gotta have some experience yourself.
And once you've had that, then a lot of doubt fades, right?
But until that's there, there's always some doubt.
And then I thought there's just not enough people that talk about it.
Obviously there are a lot of people that talk about it.
Cause once you start to look, you go there's loads of
people talking about it, but.
I thought as soon as I saw that, I thought that's what I need to do.
Which is very different to what, my usual sort of line of work in marketing.
Here I am and I thought that I was gonna do it completely under the radar.
I wasn't.
I was just gonna interview people and say, okay, talk to the camera and then I'll
do the edit later, and then that's it.
Nobody's gonna know.
But
That's what I'm trying.
You just know.
you just know.
So I know from that there was a source that said we need him to educate
people and to bring, because all of the people, it's amazing the comfort
they get from watching your videos
because there's all of, all of the things that people talk of, it's not one, it's
thousands of people and you go to other channels, it's thousands of people.
So these people are going, ah, this is really real.
My dad really ask is in heaven, I really can do this.
My soul really can travel, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
And so I feel that someone nudged you to do that, and you
just knew you had to do it.
And it's like me, I don't have to do anything really because
I've got a police pension.
I could live very well not with many luxuries, but I could.
But I am driven, it's like a drug.
I cannot not do something for humankind.
I cannot not connect with them and say, this is what I know.
It's just I have to do it.
I have to do it.
And it's the same with you.
So you are a light worker in your own right, because you are showing
people the reality of our souls.
And the other thing is I didn't realize as well that I thought people
would be more aware than they were.
But I've been, I'm so aware of previous lives.
I remember when I was four or five looking up, or every single night, I
would dream, I'd come out of my body and every night I would be standing
at the bottom of my stairs and there was a portal at the top of the stairs,
which I knew led to the spirit world.
But I'd used to walk a few steps and then come back again because they'd say no,
you can't come through this door yet.
And then I used to fly, and I used to go into the back garden and think,
why can't I fly when I'm awake?
And it really used to really, and I used to say, mommy, why
can't I fly when I'm awake?
She's I dunno, I asked your dad because it's on my dad's side
of the family and all the woo.
And my auntie would explain it to me and I just couldn't understand
why I couldn't fly when I was awake cuz I did it all the time.
And then I found that after my dad died in a road accident, two days
after he died, I was only nine.
He went past me, said, it's okay Nick, I'm all right.
And I was furious.
So I ran back to the house and I was like, how dare you mommy?
How dare you say, my daddy's dead.
I've just seen him.
And it was like, everybody's the family are there all, silent silently
talking and having their tea.
And I've just kicked off like little.
And so my granddad pulled me aside and he goes, darling, I'm just
gonna have to tell you're special.
You're gonna see people that have passed over.
You're gonna see things from heaven.
You're gonna see angels and things that are not of this world, but it's okay.
And I'm like okay, then that's absolutely fine.
And it went from there, really.
But I thought everybody could do that.
And I, I used to see things that would happen the following day.
And again, it was,
and now I realize that everybody else is a muggle and I'm,
I
and I should be a hogwarts and not a mud blood either.
I can tell you,
tell.
oh God, wouldn't you just love it if there was a real Hogwarts?
Do you like Harry Potter?
her?
I do.
My wife is an absolute insane fan.
She must have watched each of the movies up at least 20 times each.
For sure.
I literally decide if I, especially if I'm on a bad day and I've got really
bad pain and I'm exhausted, you are.
You learn to know that your mind says, nothing's happening today.
Love.
Nothing is happening and you get a block emotionally, physically, where you cannot
do a thing apart from just lay there.
I still get those days and I think
I think,
Harry Potter Fest.
And I'm on it.
And I start the first one and then I just watch the whole lot.
Sounds really sad, didn't it?
But I don't care.
I love it.
And when I was in, when I actually got to Florida, right when I went to the Harry
Potter place and went to Hogwarts, I just stood there and cried like a baby.
Do you know the moving pictures?
I was like, it's even Dawn French.
I'm like, oh my God.
And I just cried like a baby.
And one of the, one of the people you know like that, Hey, how you doing?
He goes, are you okay?
I went, I'm just really happy to be here because this is Hogwarts.
And she's yeah, she needs to go in the nut bin.
The times are people have gone.
Yeah, okay.
And I, oh my goodness.
I went to Olivanders to get my wand.
It was Dumbledore's.
Get in.
I literally was more excited, I was like throwing kids out the way
so I could get through the queue.
Not really, it's my, I want my wand.
Get out the way child.
Absolutely love it cuz it's the magic of it, isn't it?
And I, we have the Arthur Finley College, I dunno if you've ever heard of it.
It's like a psychic development place in the near Stanford airport here in Essex.
And people come from all over the world to study.
It's all different courses there.
And I call that Hogwarts, but it's nothing like the real Hogwarts.
What a shame.
But, oh God, I love it.
Could you imagine going on a train to just pure magic?
So to a certain essence, I think that's why I love doing what I do, because I'm
showing people a bit magic, a bit of escapism a bit, but it's actually reality.
It's just a different, it's a parallel reality.
Yeah.
And that's why I love it so much.
And people say to me, how do you stay so positive when you've
got such a disabling condition?
Because my mind's, my mind I've sorted my mind out.
I've sorted how I want to choose to live my life.
And my guide once said to me, what is wrong with you humans?
Julianas.
He said, why is it that you all choose to drag yourself through a desert when
you can actually consciously put yourself in Oasis with every part of your life?
Why do you have to martyr yourself and walk through the desert without any
water, any food, sustenance and suffer?
He goes, I just, he goes, I just don't know sometimes.
And he is right.
You know, we choose, oh, I'm gonna be rubbish today.
Then you'll be rubbish, won't you?
But then if you think, yes, I'm gonna be really good today.
I'm gonna be happy.
I'm gonna play my favorite song.
I'm gonna burn my favorite essential oils.
I'm gonna do whatever I do that I love.
And then your day is completely different.
And we can all choose that.
We can.
We all have the choice to live a happy or sad life.
And then lots of people say, it's all right for you.
This has happened to me.
That's happened to me.
Exactly.
It's happened.
So it depends on how you deal with it as to how you get away from it, heal from
it, and what you've learned from it.
What did you learn from that situation, and so we all have to naturally grieve.
Loss is part of our life down here.
Part of our human experience and the older our soul is, the
harder the experiences become.
Because when we get up there, this is all in my new book.
When you get up there, it's like my mom, oh my goodness.
She was just literally no filter, my mom.
She was worse than me, believe it or not.
And when I went up there and spoke to her, she's I said, you alright?
She goes, yeah, it's all right.
She goes, it's all cuz you, you see everybody you're really excited
for like the first day or so she goes, and then it's a bit boring.
So I said, what do you mean, It's a bit boring?.
She goes you can do what you want.
So she goes, so yeah, gets a bit boring.
I'm like, oh my God.
So she goes, I like coming down here to see all the drama.
And I'm like, okay.
And it's true.
And I've seen it where you've been, it's normally they say it's three
generations before you reincarnate so that you are not bumping into someone
that you know on the earth plane.
That's something how they set when you incarnate.
And she, so what they do is when I went up there and said how does it all work?
When I went into the halls of learning, it's like we do get bored.
Everything is a utopia.
With our soulmates, with our soul cluster, we can create whatever reality we want.
There's no challenges, there's no pain, there's no hurt, there's nothing.
And so when it's our time to reincarnate, I think we get really sick sense
of humor because we go in, right?
And our guide's there, our soul guide's there.
That's with Metatron.
Right, what do you wanna experience this time around?
Right!
What should we do this time?
Let's have a really tough one, shall we?
You can leave me, you can turn up there and this'll happen.
And we crave human experience and challenge and obstacles.
The older we get.
So a young soul for instance, so much you've got loads of money and everything's
easy for them and they, oh, this just happened and I opened a company here.
Now I'm multimillionaire.
They're the old young souls that still crave the material.
Whereas as you get older, the older souls crave a human experience.
So they're the sort of people that, give up their whole lives to open
an animal shelter and they just wear the clothes that have got on
their back and they don't care, and they're just giving themselves to the
planet or to, to the animal kingdom.
And they're the old souls.
You always know an old soul because their life is rubbish.
Mine's been rubbish.
My life has been so rubbish.
It's unbelievable until the awakening, the proper awakening during those five years.
And and people say, oh, so you are saying that it's my fault
that I've had a hard life?
I said, no.
But if you look at the bigger picture of an eternal soul, you've chosen one
tiny little incarnation and you've added some obstacles in it and some
pain in there so that you can experience it, cuz when you get back up there,
It's back to per perfect like utopia.
So that's why.
But some, most people can't handle it when I say that though, they
will not accept which I get.
They will not accept that they've chosen, what they're going through.
But we do.
And people get angry with it.
How dare you say that?
I didn't ask for my mum to die when I was five.
No, I didn't ask my dad to die when I was nine, but apparently
we agreed it when we was up there.
And he's even confirmed it.
He's even confirmed it when he has been up there and said, yeah, it was part of me.
He goes, I did have he said, I did have a subparagraph.
I'm right, what are you talking about?
He said, I actually did have the choice this time, which I must have
put in there at some point in the life plan to come down, but be completely
disabled, completely paralyzed.
And he goes, Nick, I couldn't do that cause I couldn't dance.
My dad was real right darling, beautifully handsome.
He reminds me of you.
He had this beautiful blue eyes, dark hair, and everybody loved my dad.
And my mum was this most beautiful, she was a model and she was like,
in her years, she'd done modeling.
She was beautifully lady and everybody was quite jealous of them.
Perfect couple, and he said, I couldn't come down here and be a veggie.
And I said, you can't call them that.
He goes, no, I don't care.
I didn't, I couldn't come down and be that.
He said to stay up here, love.
He goes, I'm sorry, but you know what?
I see him more now than I most really would've back, if he was alive now?
It's just, he's always there for me.
He's always there and it's like things like I think it's in Rise and Fall as
well where I say about the TV going off.
And it started in November and the TV kept going off in the lounge.
Now my partner, he was skeptical to begin with and used to take the
Mickey out on me, but over the years he's oh no, it's totally right.
I'm never ever gonna argue with it again.
So he's saying to me, maybe the TV keeps turning cause there's an internal alarm.
I said there's quite a few alarms then because it goes like between
three and a half past three.
So he goes, oh, there's an electrical fault.
There's an electrical fault.
And I went, there isn't.
I said, I'm telling you it's my dad, but he won't tell me what it's about.
This went on for three months.
And then he basically, Darren goes, no, there's definitely a fault with the telly.
We'll have to get a new telly.
And as he said it, the TV on the bedroom came on as well, which is
fantastic cause it's like a TV bed.
That was one of my luxuries because I thought if I'm gonna spend a load
of time in bed, I'm having a TV bed.
So it rises up, at the bottom of the bed.
So you have to press the button for it to rise up, press the sound tube for that to
come on and press the TV to turn it on.
Then press the sky button.
So that's all different remotes that you got to press, and it
just came up and turned on and everything turned on the sound.
He's whoa.
He said, that's good.
That's the, and I went, exactly.
So both TVs were playing.
Three o'clock in the morning.
And then after three nights of that I was like, do you know
what this is getting a joke.
So I just walked into the lounge and went, what do you want me to do for God's sake?
I'm so tired.
What is it?
You won't tell me?
And then my phone come on and there was a TikTok thing playing.
I'm like, oh hell no.
I don't wanna do that.
No.
But I did go on it because the TV wouldn't stop.
So the day I did my first video, the TV stopped.
And so it was him.
And for some reason, he wanted me to go on TikTok.
And I suppose it's just to reach a different genre of people if you like.
I prefer YouTube.
I love YouTube because you have the most beautiful community, don't you?
And they're so supportive and wonderful, and I think they're great.
And as right at the beginning when we said about me having a big boost,
I'm so pleased for that because I can put more attention on YouTube
now because TikTok I find, I dunno if you do anything on there, or put
anything on there, but I find it very.
There's a lot of negativeness in that app.
There's a lot of people that are the keyboard warriors.
I call them, oh, I wake up and I'll just create hate everywhere.
Yeah,
in the mornings.
I no, go on.
it ex it exists on different platforms.
I think it's, it's on all the platforms and I suppose
Oh,
I feel like I've only got so, so many resources to spread around and
there's way more eyeballs on YouTube.
Absolutely, yeah.
That's where I'm gonna concentrate on mine because they are beautiful
people and they really, they respect what you do, don't they?
And they've got ultimate respect and listen to what you have to say.
No, I love it here.
I do love it and I love doing these interviews as well, cuz
most of the time, most especially regular hosts, they're just go.
Okay, record.
And off you go, Nikki.
And then they're like, yeah, I'll have a cup of tea, go out and do my shopping.
Come back and go, yep, okay.
I'm just gonna go and do, I just talk for England and Australia and America.
For the world basically.
I remember when I was training in the police and people said, oh my God,
we've gotta do this exercise tomorrow.
And you had to talk about the most ridiculous things for 10 minutes.
So it just gave you communicative skills and, confidence in
speaking in front of a crowd.
And I had to talk 10 minutes on the inside of a ping pong ball.
Piece of cake.
And another one was a gorilla's armpit.
That would be more interesting at least.
No.
But it's e it's easy.
I just, I'm just a natural talker.
Yeah.
As I said to you, looking in the oven reflection, I can just talk for
England, which is good because you need good communicators if they're gonna.
Not sell, but if you are going to talk about the things that we do in respect
of heaven after life, incarnation, all that you have to have a bit of humor.
You have to be down to earth, not be too spooky dooky people, the people
that wear like cobwebby stuff and have all like weird stuff going on and all
this weird stuff in the background.
You're like, really?
Just keep it real.
And that's what I like to do.
And that came about keeping it real.
That was just, people watching me saying, you really keep it real.
Didn't, I said, yeah, I don't do airs and graces.
This is it.
This is how it happens.
And I suppose I've had more credibility over the years because
I was a police officer before as well, because some, there are
some, oh, I can feel your energy.
I'm not that person at all.
So by being down to Earth, I think it, it makes you more credible, when you're
actually talking about this stuff.
But then again, how could you, I, what do you think after reading
Rise and Fall, how could, I dunno how skeptic could get around all
of those stories I've got in there.
What do you think?
Yeah.
I think that you just, I went in there full believer already, but you you
can't not read something like that and go, just can't make that stuff up.
You just can't possibly make it up.
Yeah.
And that's why that's so glad I did my Soul Journal.
I'm actually just in the, I'm just, funny enough, she's from Australia,
Trish, oh my God, she's amazing.
I've got I've found her again through synchronicity, a graphic designer and
I'm gonna create my own soul journal because, If it wasn't for me doing the
Soul journals, I never would've had book one, me, myself and I, because that was
me when I could write, writing my feelings out and writing what I was going through.
And I thought it was a bit too, to begin with.
There are lots of people said, no, we are in the same boat.
We get it.
There's millions of us.
Exactly the same as you, Nicky.
So that was okay.
And then the second one, again, I've literally just got a whole box full
of my journals and I just went through them and marked, that's a good story.
I've got hun thousands most probably that I could do about another six
books with all the stories I've got.
And so soul journals are just so precious to me, writing out your
meditations, your dreams, your feelings, your emotions, writing to perhaps
people you're grieving and writing out all your spiritual experiences.
And thank goodness I did that because.
Because half of the stories I forgot.
But then they're all written time and dated at the time.
I suppose that goes back to me being a police officer time and dating
everything as I put it in there.
And so it's good to, literally record everything and then be
able to put it into a book.
It's just amazing.
I've got, see the thing is I've got so many books here and it's just
getting the time and the energy to write them on top of everything else.
I've just got so many to do, so many.
But they'll all come, they'll all come as I go along.
It's just finding the time.
I need an extra day put in.
But I think all during that the angels aren't gonna be able to pull that one off.
I want an eight day.
You've inspired me to keep a diary more regularly.
I've started with just dreams, like trying to remember dreams.
Cuz one thing I noticed was that the more that you tried to remember them and write
them down, the better you get at it.
And if you can acquire a habit for it.
I think it's really very useful.
I'm conscious of the time, Nicky.
Oh, is
What I wanted to do was to ask what's the best way for people to, to follow
your work and get in contact with you if they want to these days?
Yeah.
My website is, it's nickyalan.co.uk, so I work in my dad's name.
In his memory it says a l a n, nickyalan.co.uk, which is my
website, which has got everything there in including the shop
and all my contact details.
I also am on YouTube, obviously, please come and join me on YouTube.
I do lots of questions for people and readings and all sorts of things on there.
Just TikTok, any of the, Instagram or all of those kind of sites, if you need
to speak to me though, but I'm gonna tell you now though, that because of my
condition at the moment, I haven't got the energy to do one-to-one readings.
So I get, normally after I, something like this goes out, I get hundreds
of people say, can I have a reading?
I can refer you to my brother who's an amazing medium.
But I haven't got the energy to dedicate an hour to just one person
a few times a day at the moment.
I need to spread it out.
So just to let you know, don't email me about asking for a reading unless
you want my brother's details.
But apart from that, there's any questions you have or anything that
you know you want need to know.
Then it's nickyalan333@gmail.com.
But to be honest with you, the website has got absolutely everything.
That's got all of the information you'll possibly need.
And as I say, come join us on YouTube.
Let's create a big ethereal party with all that's wonderful people on it.
And have loads of followers.
I'm gonna say thank you so much for coming on the channel Nicky.
I knew that this was gonna be fun and I wish I could like,
talk for a whole lot longer.
Hopefully we can organize you to come back for a live stream as
I'd love to,
Yeah.
I'm, I've been running a couple of those, so we'll organize that.
Do you have any, any kind of a message that you want people
to hear before we wrap it up?
I think the main message I wanna do is whatever situation you're in
that's causing you pain or trauma,
the major thing that you need to get hold of is your mindset.
Because if your mindset can be as positive as it can and as strong as it
can, then your experience what you're going through is gonna be so much easier.
Be kind to yourself, love yourself, and do everything you
can to be as positive as you can.
And I know that's hard.
I know that's hard.
I've been there and done it and got the sweatshirt and the matching earrings.
But what I will say is the more you can be focused on your mind and be more positive,
the easier your life will be during here.
And if you can't manage it, people like me and Rod and other people
will show you the way forward.
Just keep watching all of these brilliant inspirers on here.
Just keep watching them because they'll fill you with so much
hope, knowledge, and comfort.
And that's all I wanna say.
But if you can't do that or you don't wanna do that, work on your mind because
it will take you to places you've never been if you just allow them in.
People say, how do you allow them in?
Walk in nature, send your thoughts up to them.
Meditate.
You don't even have to sit there.
And meditation can be you walking, gardening, swimming.
Any way that you can get your mind quiet and just allow positive
things in, it's gonna be a whole lot easier on this life term.
This time round.
That's what I got to say.
thank you so much for coming on, Nikki.
I can't wait to do this
Thanks
for having me, sweetheart.
I can't wait either.
All right, now don't go away.