1 00:00:00,049 --> 00:00:04,669 So I'd signed the Akashic records and I've been told that I could 2 00:00:04,674 --> 00:00:08,300 look into people's souls if I wanted to, if it was for the greater good. 3 00:00:08,300 --> 00:00:12,530 So I've never abused it apart from stalking ex-boyfriends, joking. 4 00:00:15,730 --> 00:00:20,200 My guest today is Nicky Alan, who really needs no introduction, I don't think. 5 00:00:20,380 --> 00:00:24,180 And so thank you so much for coming on the show today, Nicki. 6 00:00:24,180 --> 00:00:25,320 I really appreciate having you here. 7 00:00:26,085 --> 00:00:30,285 Seriously, I appreciate you being on my screen right now, okay? 8 00:00:30,285 --> 00:00:34,785 Because it's 10:00 AM here in the UK and I'm looking at the most handsome man ever 9 00:00:34,785 --> 00:00:37,905 on the planet thinking, how lucky am I? 10 00:00:38,345 --> 00:00:41,685 I don't, do you know, I'd be luckier if I was actually in Australia 11 00:00:41,685 --> 00:00:43,515 because it's blinking freezing here. 12 00:00:44,145 --> 00:00:46,155 But look, come on guys, 13 00:00:46,155 --> 00:00:49,215 when you watch this, you must just have to keep going back saying, 14 00:00:49,275 --> 00:00:50,805 is he actually talking right now? 15 00:00:50,810 --> 00:00:51,945 Looking into those 16 00:00:52,245 --> 00:00:53,145 Oh my God. 17 00:00:53,520 --> 00:00:54,120 my day. 18 00:00:54,120 --> 00:00:55,080 Thank you for having me. 19 00:00:55,875 --> 00:00:59,010 I think if I could go redder, I probably would, but thank you. 20 00:00:59,100 --> 00:00:59,550 Thank you. 21 00:00:59,565 --> 00:00:59,985 Oh, really? 22 00:01:00,525 --> 00:01:03,705 You've got a nice kind of like little tan going on there, but nothing too bad. 23 00:01:03,705 --> 00:01:07,695 Obviously you've got to be safe in the uh Australian Outback and stuff. 24 00:01:07,700 --> 00:01:08,745 Oh no, you're not the Outback, are you? 25 00:01:08,795 --> 00:01:09,005 No 26 00:01:09,420 --> 00:01:12,255 yeah, that's, I actually, I grew up in the Outback but, 27 00:01:12,360 --> 00:01:13,380 oh, see, look, I'm 28 00:01:13,665 --> 00:01:14,685 that's a whole nother story. 29 00:01:14,940 --> 00:01:16,930 The psychic vibes are coming through already. 30 00:01:17,230 --> 00:01:19,810 I grew up in the bush, in Western Australia. 31 00:01:20,575 --> 00:01:21,355 Oh, wow. 32 00:01:21,355 --> 00:01:22,765 How fascinating is that? 33 00:01:22,855 --> 00:01:24,025 I should be interviewing you. 34 00:01:24,160 --> 00:01:26,220 You you could book me in later if you like. 35 00:01:26,520 --> 00:01:27,510 That'd be a good idea. 36 00:01:27,570 --> 00:01:29,430 I just gotta work out Zoom first. 37 00:01:30,010 --> 00:01:30,900 I gotta work it out. 38 00:01:31,210 --> 00:01:34,880 Every time I'm a like a guest, the hosts are magnificent. 39 00:01:34,885 --> 00:01:37,630 They've got it all sorted and it's all this fandangled stuff. 40 00:01:37,690 --> 00:01:40,600 It looks a bit like, I dunno, something I you find on airplane is things 41 00:01:40,680 --> 00:01:42,190 flashing and all sorts of things. 42 00:01:42,490 --> 00:01:44,830 And I, I'm so rubbish at technical stuff. 43 00:01:44,830 --> 00:01:48,030 And the problem is because of what happened to me, and I had 44 00:01:48,030 --> 00:01:49,800 this new life I had to deal with. 45 00:01:49,800 --> 00:01:51,480 I now gotta do loads of social media. 46 00:01:51,750 --> 00:01:52,970 I haven't got a clue. 47 00:01:53,370 --> 00:01:53,670 I haven't. 48 00:01:53,870 --> 00:01:56,905 I've just worked out how to do YouTube and it's press this 49 00:01:56,905 --> 00:01:59,095 button, do this affiliate things. 50 00:01:59,095 --> 00:02:01,135 I'm like, I just don't know what I'm doing. 51 00:02:01,135 --> 00:02:02,335 I just haven't got a clue. 52 00:02:02,385 --> 00:02:04,135 And I just just wobble along. 53 00:02:04,355 --> 00:02:06,275 I'm the most unprofessional person ever. 54 00:02:06,290 --> 00:02:07,220 You're doing okay. 55 00:02:07,270 --> 00:02:09,200 Your YouTube channel is going just fine. 56 00:02:09,200 --> 00:02:09,740 Trust me 57 00:02:09,795 --> 00:02:10,415 Yeah, I 58 00:02:10,515 --> 00:02:11,055 what you're doing. 59 00:02:11,135 --> 00:02:11,695 lovely. 60 00:02:11,905 --> 00:02:12,575 Exactly. 61 00:02:12,625 --> 00:02:15,385 This is, I've got such a lovely community on there. 62 00:02:15,385 --> 00:02:18,329 There's a real good, I call 'em up at the tribe and it's 63 00:02:18,329 --> 00:02:20,370 grown magnificently recently. 64 00:02:20,370 --> 00:02:21,209 I'm so pleased. 65 00:02:21,519 --> 00:02:24,610 As soon as the book launched, everything's gone woof. 66 00:02:24,700 --> 00:02:25,690 It's gone massive. 67 00:02:25,999 --> 00:02:28,070 To the extent where I'm now getting interviewed all over the 68 00:02:28,070 --> 00:02:29,540 world and now I'm in Australia. 69 00:02:29,830 --> 00:02:30,439 Woohoo. 70 00:02:31,199 --> 00:02:32,850 So yeah, it's been magnificent. 71 00:02:32,850 --> 00:02:33,239 Absolutely. 72 00:02:33,239 --> 00:02:34,379 I'm so pleased. 73 00:02:34,379 --> 00:02:37,324 And YouTube, I just want that to grow and grow now because I did 74 00:02:37,329 --> 00:02:39,549 work it for a number of years. 75 00:02:39,549 --> 00:02:43,719 I think it's in Me, Myself, and I, when they got me to go onto, oh, YouTube 76 00:02:44,079 --> 00:02:46,619 and I worked it, it didn't really go anywhere and I thought, well it 77 00:02:46,679 --> 00:02:50,319 doesn't feel right, took a step back and then suddenly it just went bang. 78 00:02:50,619 --> 00:02:55,264 So it's lovely because when I was a child I used to, it is almost like 79 00:02:55,264 --> 00:02:57,064 a, prophecy of what I was gonna do. 80 00:02:57,304 --> 00:03:01,924 As a child, there was like this chrome side on our oven, and even 81 00:03:01,924 --> 00:03:03,994 as a littl'un six, seven years old, 82 00:03:03,999 --> 00:03:06,004 I just used to sit and talk in front of it. 83 00:03:06,004 --> 00:03:07,864 Like I was pretending I'd been interviewed. 84 00:03:08,165 --> 00:03:12,314 So even then I was like chatting away to this unseen camera. 85 00:03:12,314 --> 00:03:13,244 I just, I love it. 86 00:03:13,244 --> 00:03:17,344 I love being able to reach people this way and teach them and show 87 00:03:17,344 --> 00:03:21,394 them the afterlife heaven and everything that is to do with that. 88 00:03:21,394 --> 00:03:22,624 The angel realms. 89 00:03:22,984 --> 00:03:25,834 And it's just gives me so much joy to reach so many people. 90 00:03:25,834 --> 00:03:29,284 People moan about social media, but for me it's a beautiful gift of 91 00:03:29,284 --> 00:03:33,964 reaching people, especially in their darkest times, cause I used to do it. 92 00:03:34,294 --> 00:03:36,784 I used to do it as a police officer and now I'm doing it 93 00:03:36,864 --> 00:03:38,844 as well what could you call me? 94 00:03:38,844 --> 00:03:39,474 Psychic medium. 95 00:03:39,834 --> 00:03:40,584 Spiritual advisor. 96 00:03:40,584 --> 00:03:41,784 Spiritual tutor. 97 00:03:42,624 --> 00:03:43,674 Pick author. 98 00:03:43,734 --> 00:03:45,654 Author, pick a title. 99 00:03:46,544 --> 00:03:50,379 Also is the emails you get, the love you get from, from all over the world I 100 00:03:50,379 --> 00:03:52,419 was saying I was feeling a bit poorly. 101 00:03:52,419 --> 00:03:53,289 A couple of days ago. 102 00:03:53,349 --> 00:03:57,369 A bit exhausted and from my M.E (Myalgic Encephalomyelitis). 103 00:03:57,369 --> 00:03:59,739 And I've got just a flurry of emails, are you okay? 104 00:03:59,744 --> 00:04:00,759 Have you tried this? 105 00:04:00,969 --> 00:04:04,969 I've had people send me health supplements and it's just so lovely 106 00:04:04,969 --> 00:04:09,799 and I have got a big following in Australia as well, which I'm so proud of. 107 00:04:09,799 --> 00:04:12,259 And I'd just love to come over there at some point. 108 00:04:12,259 --> 00:04:13,279 I will at some point. 109 00:04:13,279 --> 00:04:14,689 It's one of my ticky boxes. 110 00:04:14,959 --> 00:04:18,104 I'm doing Florida this year and United States. 111 00:04:18,109 --> 00:04:20,194 So the next stop has gotta be Oz. 112 00:04:20,534 --> 00:04:21,554 Cause I dive as well. 113 00:04:21,559 --> 00:04:24,104 So when I can dive, I'm gonna be in there. 114 00:04:24,464 --> 00:04:25,334 The barrier reef. 115 00:04:25,334 --> 00:04:26,084 The lot. 116 00:04:26,384 --> 00:04:26,824 You have to. 117 00:04:26,923 --> 00:04:29,023 And I'm really glad to hear that you're well enough that you can 118 00:04:29,023 --> 00:04:31,723 do that kind of traveling as well, which is, that's pretty exciting. 119 00:04:31,723 --> 00:04:35,803 I was saying to you before reading your book, I'm up to the part where it's still 120 00:04:35,803 --> 00:04:40,628 debilitating your illness and hearing you say that you're gonna be traveling or, and 121 00:04:40,628 --> 00:04:44,788 actually getting on a plane, go overseas, that obviously means that you've improved 122 00:04:44,848 --> 00:04:46,048 quite a bit, which is good to hear. 123 00:04:46,148 --> 00:04:47,428 I Absolutely. 124 00:04:47,428 --> 00:04:49,888 I think that for people that don't know the book, oh, hang on a minute. 125 00:04:50,218 --> 00:04:51,148 Oh look, it's here. 126 00:04:51,418 --> 00:04:52,588 This one you're talking about that one. 127 00:04:52,588 --> 00:04:53,548 Me, myself, and I, 128 00:04:53,968 --> 00:04:54,178 Yeah. 129 00:04:54,178 --> 00:04:55,258 I'm up to chapter 20. 130 00:04:55,308 --> 00:04:55,968 That one. 131 00:04:56,018 --> 00:04:59,018 Obviously I was suicidal most days because at the end of the day 132 00:04:59,018 --> 00:05:01,718 the prognosis was I was gonna be in bed for the rest of my life. 133 00:05:02,078 --> 00:05:05,378 And during that five years, it was the most tortuous hell on earth. 134 00:05:05,768 --> 00:05:08,168 However, it's the most enlightening as well because of all the 135 00:05:08,168 --> 00:05:12,021 angel and spirit phenomena that took place and in visitation. 136 00:05:12,291 --> 00:05:15,351 And I, and me being quite, skeptical of things now and then, and I was 137 00:05:15,356 --> 00:05:17,091 thinking, was I really seeing that? 138 00:05:17,091 --> 00:05:18,561 But my dogs were going wild. 139 00:05:19,041 --> 00:05:21,651 And it wasn't until I surrendered and thought I've 140 00:05:21,651 --> 00:05:23,571 got to now grieve my old life. 141 00:05:23,601 --> 00:05:24,921 Which was amazing. 142 00:05:24,981 --> 00:05:26,451 Absolutely amazing. 143 00:05:26,811 --> 00:05:29,846 And adapt and think what can I do now? 144 00:05:30,146 --> 00:05:32,546 And obviously, you've, oh no, read the fake. 145 00:05:32,576 --> 00:05:33,476 Oh no, I can't tell you. 146 00:05:33,476 --> 00:05:34,496 It's a spoiler alert. 147 00:05:34,556 --> 00:05:35,636 I can't tell you that bit. 148 00:05:35,876 --> 00:05:40,036 But hence to say I end up, obviously being able to get out of bed. 149 00:05:40,336 --> 00:05:43,486 What happens is though, with this, it's like, for instance, the Orlando 150 00:05:43,486 --> 00:05:48,236 Conference I'm doing I will have to have many days rest before and 151 00:05:48,236 --> 00:05:50,306 many after, and it is called pacing. 152 00:05:50,306 --> 00:05:52,736 When you have to, everybody knows this, who's got M.E., chronic 153 00:05:52,736 --> 00:05:54,386 fatigue syndrome, more fibromyalgia. 154 00:05:54,596 --> 00:05:58,586 You have to pace yourself cuz you can't live like a normal person. 155 00:05:58,886 --> 00:06:01,346 So it's just adapting and listening to your body. 156 00:06:02,186 --> 00:06:05,876 And when it says that's enough, then you just literally stop what 157 00:06:06,096 --> 00:06:07,256 you're doing and you have to sleep. 158 00:06:07,256 --> 00:06:10,046 And the thing is with that is you lose lots of friends over it because 159 00:06:10,046 --> 00:06:13,196 you're always canceling or saying, I, I can't do this, I can't do that. 160 00:06:13,556 --> 00:06:14,906 But it's all about mindset. 161 00:06:14,906 --> 00:06:16,796 And this is another thing I try and get across. 162 00:06:16,796 --> 00:06:22,816 Not only are we not alone in both books, I show people literally that we are never 163 00:06:22,816 --> 00:06:24,856 ever alone whether we believe it or not. 164 00:06:24,946 --> 00:06:28,116 And I think I dip into that in Me, Myself and I, because 165 00:06:28,686 --> 00:06:30,336 I thought they'd abandoned me. 166 00:06:31,041 --> 00:06:31,911 I thought, where are you? 167 00:06:32,061 --> 00:06:32,391 Hang a minute. 168 00:06:32,421 --> 00:06:35,781 I'm part of a bloodline that goes back hundreds of years 169 00:06:35,781 --> 00:06:37,291 where we've served you lot. 170 00:06:37,741 --> 00:06:40,341 I, it was a bit more colorful than that, darling. 171 00:06:40,341 --> 00:06:42,141 There were a few F bombs in there. 172 00:06:42,141 --> 00:06:42,531 I'm not gonna. 173 00:06:42,831 --> 00:06:45,141 Where are you, which the F-bombs are in the book. 174 00:06:45,141 --> 00:06:47,541 I was so raw with it, I just thought I'm gonna chuck it all in. 175 00:06:47,991 --> 00:06:49,651 And I was like, you've just left me. 176 00:06:49,651 --> 00:06:52,986 But I ended up realizing that my energy was so dense and so 177 00:06:52,986 --> 00:06:55,296 low and I'd done it myself. 178 00:06:55,296 --> 00:06:58,086 I created that blockage myself and just cut them out. 179 00:06:58,086 --> 00:07:01,506 They were all still there and in the end they're like, ah, do you know what? 180 00:07:01,506 --> 00:07:02,856 We've had enough of her bleeding. 181 00:07:02,886 --> 00:07:04,806 Let's just go and stand in her bedroom. 182 00:07:05,136 --> 00:07:09,366 And so it most probably will be the last time I ever have, like my guides 183 00:07:09,386 --> 00:07:14,846 physically standing in the room and angels physically standing in the room. 184 00:07:15,056 --> 00:07:19,076 And my Dad, who is in the spirit world, and I sat talking to him for five minutes 185 00:07:19,076 --> 00:07:20,786 and he was like, just a solid man. 186 00:07:21,086 --> 00:07:22,526 I don't think that's ever gonna happen again. 187 00:07:22,526 --> 00:07:26,756 But I think they thought I was in such crisis that they're like, oh wait, on a 188 00:07:26,756 --> 00:07:29,556 minute, she might just take herself over. 189 00:07:29,556 --> 00:07:32,496 We can't have that because she's got so much more work to do down here. 190 00:07:32,496 --> 00:07:36,186 So we need to intervene and do some pretty miraculous stuff. 191 00:07:36,306 --> 00:07:40,686 And so even now, sometimes I, when I talk about the books and talk 192 00:07:40,736 --> 00:07:44,356 and look back in my journals, I think, I can't believe it happened. 193 00:07:44,946 --> 00:07:45,816 But it really did. 194 00:07:45,816 --> 00:07:48,656 And as I said, when anything come into my bedroom, whether it was 195 00:07:48,656 --> 00:07:52,796 an angel spirit guide, one of my loved ones, the dogs would go crazy. 196 00:07:52,796 --> 00:07:55,616 I've got two little Shitzu's and they would go mental 197 00:07:55,616 --> 00:07:56,996 looking at whatever was there. 198 00:07:57,001 --> 00:08:00,776 So they backed it up, because I was always worried, oh, am I making up? 199 00:08:00,776 --> 00:08:03,626 Cause I'm so desperate and I'm making up cause I'm on so many drugs. 200 00:08:03,866 --> 00:08:05,156 Medication drugs. 201 00:08:05,546 --> 00:08:07,916 And it wasn't, it was magnificent. 202 00:08:07,921 --> 00:08:09,036 It was just pure magic. 203 00:08:09,036 --> 00:08:11,236 And they were just showing me that nobody's ever alone. 204 00:08:11,236 --> 00:08:12,286 We think we are. 205 00:08:12,586 --> 00:08:15,796 And when we go through the dark traumas of our life, especially with grief 206 00:08:15,796 --> 00:08:19,156 and loss, we just think there's nobody there helping us because they've taken 207 00:08:19,156 --> 00:08:22,646 someone away we love, and they've gone off to a different place and I 208 00:08:22,646 --> 00:08:25,796 hate the world and God would never do that, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. 209 00:08:26,146 --> 00:08:29,086 But they are, they're all standing in the wings, just waiting for 210 00:08:29,086 --> 00:08:29,956 you to go, do you know what? 211 00:08:30,466 --> 00:08:32,926 I need your help now because I've got nothing left. 212 00:08:33,271 --> 00:08:34,531 I dunno what else to do. 213 00:08:34,741 --> 00:08:35,551 So I need you. 214 00:08:35,551 --> 00:08:38,281 And that's when you start experiencing the true magic of it. 215 00:08:38,281 --> 00:08:40,201 And you don't have to be a medium for that. 216 00:08:40,541 --> 00:08:43,231 You don't have to be someone that's connected all the time. 217 00:08:43,501 --> 00:08:44,851 It can happen to anybody. 218 00:08:44,851 --> 00:08:49,736 And I have so many stories of people that either have, signs or physically 219 00:08:49,736 --> 00:08:52,316 their husband in a spirit will come in to say, it's okay, love. 220 00:08:52,316 --> 00:08:52,976 I'm okay. 221 00:08:53,276 --> 00:08:54,686 Angel visitations. 222 00:08:54,686 --> 00:08:55,886 It happens everywhere. 223 00:08:56,426 --> 00:09:01,226 But the weird thing is it's still, there's still a stigma attached to it. 224 00:09:01,231 --> 00:09:03,296 There's still a Oh yeah. 225 00:09:03,296 --> 00:09:03,686 Okay. 226 00:09:03,686 --> 00:09:07,496 Because there's people that don't wanna face the fact that we are eternal souls. 227 00:09:08,096 --> 00:09:10,946 And I think what they get scared of, and I think this is the biggest 228 00:09:10,946 --> 00:09:13,276 fear, is that, oh I don't wanna lose my husband when I go up there. 229 00:09:13,276 --> 00:09:14,206 I don't wanna lose my dog. 230 00:09:14,206 --> 00:09:16,586 I don't want an eternal soul, I just wanna keep this life. 231 00:09:17,086 --> 00:09:20,746 But when they get up there, they realize that this is just a tiny little speck. 232 00:09:21,241 --> 00:09:24,951 Of a completely infinitive existence. 233 00:09:25,331 --> 00:09:28,601 And in my next book, I'm writing at the moment, which is what happens 234 00:09:28,606 --> 00:09:33,381 when we die I literally describe what happens from physical death or even 235 00:09:33,381 --> 00:09:37,721 just before physical death, right the way through to when we incarnate again. 236 00:09:38,491 --> 00:09:41,871 Because they've given me, when I, you obviously, you have loads of 237 00:09:41,901 --> 00:09:45,771 wonderful stories of near-death experience on your channel and 238 00:09:45,826 --> 00:09:47,026 I'm like, oh, that's really good. 239 00:09:47,026 --> 00:09:50,506 But I've realized that I have the death experiences without dying. 240 00:09:51,196 --> 00:09:51,676 Do you know what I mean? 241 00:09:51,706 --> 00:09:54,436 Perhaps my soul died when I was in bed for five years. 242 00:09:54,436 --> 00:09:54,916 Bloody hell. 243 00:09:54,976 --> 00:09:58,096 But it's just, I can go up there whenever I want. 244 00:09:58,146 --> 00:10:01,196 And the one time that I saw it and I thought, wow, this is incredible. 245 00:10:01,201 --> 00:10:04,606 Cause that's when I started getting interested in it because for people 246 00:10:04,611 --> 00:10:06,406 that don't know me, I don't read books. 247 00:10:06,406 --> 00:10:08,296 I don't, I haven't studied anything. 248 00:10:08,626 --> 00:10:12,736 Everything I've learned and what I've been taught comes from them through meditation, 249 00:10:12,736 --> 00:10:15,766 dream state, or physical visitation. 250 00:10:16,006 --> 00:10:19,336 And then they'll back it up with another sign to show me that they really were 251 00:10:19,336 --> 00:10:23,476 there, and so my uncle died in Spain and I thought, do you know what? 252 00:10:23,476 --> 00:10:24,316 I wanna know where he is. 253 00:10:24,346 --> 00:10:25,666 Cuz Auntie was so distraught. 254 00:10:25,696 --> 00:10:28,696 She's over in Spain and he's, his passed over. 255 00:10:28,696 --> 00:10:31,526 There was a lot of illness before and I thought I wanna have a look where he is. 256 00:10:32,066 --> 00:10:32,246 Now. 257 00:10:32,246 --> 00:10:35,216 Ages ago I'd been, I didn't even know what I was doing. 258 00:10:35,216 --> 00:10:36,236 It was only until, 259 00:10:36,271 --> 00:10:36,431 only, 260 00:10:37,256 --> 00:10:39,506 so I dunno why they picked me, Rod. 261 00:10:39,506 --> 00:10:40,416 I really dunno. 262 00:10:40,421 --> 00:10:44,276 Why, because I do, I see things and then I say to someone, do you know what that is? 263 00:10:44,276 --> 00:10:46,676 And they go, Are you kidding me? 264 00:10:46,916 --> 00:10:49,886 And this was the Akashic Records, right? 265 00:10:49,886 --> 00:10:50,966 The Akashic Records. 266 00:10:51,026 --> 00:10:54,116 And I went, oh, I had to sign a book called Akashic or something. 267 00:10:54,116 --> 00:10:57,836 And I was in this like Hall of Learning, he said, and his name was Meta something. 268 00:10:57,836 --> 00:11:00,656 He went, oh my God, you're in the Halls of Learning. 269 00:11:00,656 --> 00:11:01,606 You signed the Akashic. 270 00:11:01,736 --> 00:11:02,846 He goes they're all symbols. 271 00:11:02,846 --> 00:11:04,146 When he goes, that's Aramaic. 272 00:11:04,526 --> 00:11:07,616 And he said, and you're with Archangel Metatron, the scribe of God. 273 00:11:07,616 --> 00:11:08,576 And I'm like, was I? 274 00:11:09,116 --> 00:11:11,426 And they and people go, oh my God, she's got no clue. 275 00:11:12,291 --> 00:11:14,901 How advanced she is and where, what planes she can go to, what 276 00:11:14,901 --> 00:11:16,431 celestial layer she can go to. 277 00:11:16,671 --> 00:11:21,291 So I'd signed the Akashic records and I've been told that I could 278 00:11:21,296 --> 00:11:24,921 look into people's souls if I wanted to, if it was for the greater good. 279 00:11:24,921 --> 00:11:29,151 So I've never abused it apart from stalking ex-boyfriends, joking. 280 00:11:29,451 --> 00:11:33,341 And and so I, I basically thought I'm gonna see where my uncle's gone. 281 00:11:33,341 --> 00:11:37,511 And they took me from literally the physical part in the transition, and 282 00:11:37,511 --> 00:11:39,251 they showed the people around him. 283 00:11:39,311 --> 00:11:42,641 And it was lovely because I didn't know these older generations. 284 00:11:42,641 --> 00:11:44,391 So I said to my auntie, oh, who's so-and-so? 285 00:11:44,411 --> 00:11:46,451 She goes, oh my God, that's his mom-in-law. 286 00:11:46,721 --> 00:11:47,681 That's my mom. 287 00:11:47,861 --> 00:11:48,551 Who's this? 288 00:11:48,551 --> 00:11:50,351 Oh that's my nan and that's his nan. 289 00:11:50,351 --> 00:11:51,431 And I was like, oh, great. 290 00:11:51,436 --> 00:11:53,171 So they were all there for him. 291 00:11:53,531 --> 00:11:57,151 And then he literally there was this massive energy, which like a milky 292 00:11:57,151 --> 00:12:01,861 white color and the name Azrael come up, which I've never heard of. 293 00:12:02,161 --> 00:12:05,841 And so then they then take him his soul up, which was just like loads of 294 00:12:05,841 --> 00:12:09,771 glitter and orbs with all different types of sentient knowledge in 295 00:12:09,771 --> 00:12:11,661 each of these orbs within the soul. 296 00:12:11,781 --> 00:12:14,511 And then he gets taken to a temple. 297 00:12:14,871 --> 00:12:19,311 And funnily enough, I recognized his temple when I was in Thailand. 298 00:12:19,316 --> 00:12:21,731 They have a thing called a spirit hut. 299 00:12:22,416 --> 00:12:25,686 Which is where they put their bodies for the souls to go up. 300 00:12:25,686 --> 00:12:27,386 It's like a portal in these spirit huts. 301 00:12:27,606 --> 00:12:30,936 And this is what they were like and when I found them in Thailand went, that's 302 00:12:30,941 --> 00:12:32,556 what it looks like when you go up there. 303 00:12:32,596 --> 00:12:34,186 That's the huts they put you in. 304 00:12:34,516 --> 00:12:34,996 People think. 305 00:12:34,996 --> 00:12:35,176 Yeah. 306 00:12:35,181 --> 00:12:35,596 All right Nick. 307 00:12:35,601 --> 00:12:35,896 Okay. 308 00:12:36,646 --> 00:12:40,756 And so he's then put out his soul is then unfurled in a plinth and 309 00:12:40,946 --> 00:12:45,676 Archangel Azrael hands over the soul to someone called Jeremiel. 310 00:12:45,696 --> 00:12:46,836 So I don't know any of this. 311 00:12:46,836 --> 00:12:48,486 I'm like Jeremiel, I remember that. 312 00:12:48,486 --> 00:12:49,416 Google it later. 313 00:12:49,806 --> 00:12:54,326 And he comes in with this big black square hat and black robes and he 314 00:12:54,336 --> 00:12:58,596 almost puts his hands on his shoulders and then it all goes a bit and it's 315 00:12:58,596 --> 00:13:00,336 humming and buzzing and all weirdness. 316 00:13:00,336 --> 00:13:01,206 And I said, what's going on? 317 00:13:01,206 --> 00:13:01,356 This? 318 00:13:01,356 --> 00:13:02,436 It's his life review. 319 00:13:02,736 --> 00:13:03,366 Okay. 320 00:13:03,706 --> 00:13:04,806 So he had his life review. 321 00:13:05,256 --> 00:13:10,596 And then I found out later on that you see who you feel most comfortable with. 322 00:13:10,596 --> 00:13:15,746 So if you were religious the image that Jeremiel will show you is Jesus. 323 00:13:16,196 --> 00:13:18,416 If you are a Muslim, it would be Mohammed. 324 00:13:18,746 --> 00:13:19,046 Okay? 325 00:13:19,046 --> 00:13:24,386 So they sh he will change the image that you are familiar with, that you recognize 326 00:13:24,386 --> 00:13:26,066 as a higher power deity, if you'd like. 327 00:13:26,666 --> 00:13:31,466 And then after that, there was all this green energy around him, which was healing 328 00:13:31,466 --> 00:13:33,746 the soul, dealing with any transitions. 329 00:13:33,986 --> 00:13:37,436 And after the life review if there is too much trauma, I was told you'd get 330 00:13:37,436 --> 00:13:41,786 taken to the celestial gardens where the Seraphim are, and they pour this 331 00:13:41,786 --> 00:13:45,866 translucent water, which turns out to be the Fountain of Life, fountain 332 00:13:45,866 --> 00:13:46,976 of youth, whatever you wanna call it. 333 00:13:47,096 --> 00:13:48,826 And it heals the soul. 334 00:13:49,181 --> 00:13:53,821 Ready for you to go into the reality layer, which I go to this 335 00:13:53,821 --> 00:13:56,731 place called the Crystal Palace and there's all different layers and they 336 00:13:56,741 --> 00:13:58,961 create it for humans to understand. 337 00:13:58,961 --> 00:14:01,271 So they give images so that I can create a map. 338 00:14:01,276 --> 00:14:04,421 So I've drawn this massive map of Heaven and there's a place called the 339 00:14:04,421 --> 00:14:08,561 Reality Layer, and it has got huge gates, but I think they just do that. 340 00:14:08,621 --> 00:14:10,751 Oh yeah, there's sort of pearl gates there, just so you 341 00:14:10,751 --> 00:14:11,981 understand it, human being. 342 00:14:12,371 --> 00:14:15,911 And you walk through and it literally is like walking through a town. 343 00:14:16,601 --> 00:14:19,751 You're literally walking in and there's people going, Hey, hi. 344 00:14:19,961 --> 00:14:21,191 And these are all spirit peoples. 345 00:14:21,191 --> 00:14:22,931 This is heaven that I'm walking through. 346 00:14:23,531 --> 00:14:28,841 And so I walk along and then they say what happens is then is that the family, 347 00:14:28,841 --> 00:14:33,491 that right there at the beginning will gather Ron up my uncle and take him 348 00:14:33,491 --> 00:14:36,431 to their area in the reality layer. 349 00:14:37,091 --> 00:14:40,451 And then they show me it's so funny of all the things he could 350 00:14:40,451 --> 00:14:43,781 be doing, they then create, you can then create your own reality. 351 00:14:44,421 --> 00:14:48,051 So if you like the times I've seen people doing their hobbies, 352 00:14:48,051 --> 00:14:50,751 and then I say to their, the audience member, he's doing this. 353 00:14:50,751 --> 00:14:51,471 She goes, oh my god. 354 00:14:51,521 --> 00:14:52,806 He loved yachting or whatever. 355 00:14:53,076 --> 00:14:56,296 So he was, then he had his red Ferrari t-shirt on. 356 00:14:56,296 --> 00:14:57,346 That was his favorite. 357 00:14:58,006 --> 00:15:00,796 And he was down the bar having a beer. 358 00:15:01,096 --> 00:15:02,956 And I said, is that all you're gonna do? 359 00:15:02,956 --> 00:15:05,266 I said, you've got people here that have died years ago. 360 00:15:05,266 --> 00:15:06,256 Have a bit of respect. 361 00:15:06,256 --> 00:15:07,276 Pretend you missed them. 362 00:15:07,576 --> 00:15:08,806 He goes, no, we're all right. 363 00:15:08,926 --> 00:15:09,586 I know they're there. 364 00:15:09,586 --> 00:15:11,896 I'm just gonna have a beer and then I'll pop in and see 'em after. 365 00:15:11,896 --> 00:15:13,396 They're just getting the house ready for me. 366 00:15:13,606 --> 00:15:15,316 I said, you are so lazy. 367 00:15:15,496 --> 00:15:18,796 You are so lazy drinking beer while they're all running around for you. 368 00:15:18,856 --> 00:15:21,766 And then he had all these women, oh, come on, Ron. 369 00:15:21,766 --> 00:15:22,066 Come. 370 00:15:22,066 --> 00:15:25,836 And they were all like, Totally spoiling him like a little child. 371 00:15:25,866 --> 00:15:27,606 And it turns out that he was like that. 372 00:15:27,606 --> 00:15:29,316 His mum really spoiled him as a kid. 373 00:15:29,766 --> 00:15:33,726 So when I said this, oh yeah, that's typical of her, to spoil him, he'll be 374 00:15:33,731 --> 00:15:35,406 looked after, he won't do anything there. 375 00:15:35,796 --> 00:15:39,626 And funnily enough before I had a chance to speak to my auntie, she had dreamt 376 00:15:39,626 --> 00:15:41,576 of him and she phoned up in the morning. 377 00:15:41,816 --> 00:15:43,706 I went, oh my goodness, Nicky, I can't believe it. 378 00:15:43,711 --> 00:15:44,726 I've just seen Ron. 379 00:15:44,726 --> 00:15:47,576 He's having a beer, wearing a red T-shirt. 380 00:15:47,606 --> 00:15:48,836 And I thought, yes. 381 00:15:49,466 --> 00:15:51,756 I said, thank you very much synchronicity. 382 00:15:51,836 --> 00:15:53,726 And obviously backing up what I'd seen. 383 00:15:53,846 --> 00:15:56,906 And then I showed her where he was and what he was doing, 384 00:15:56,911 --> 00:15:57,956 and she went, oh my goodness. 385 00:15:58,016 --> 00:16:01,406 I said, so we've both come to the conclusion he's still drinking beer in 386 00:16:01,406 --> 00:16:03,476 a bar wearing his red Ferrari t-shirt. 387 00:16:03,926 --> 00:16:08,406 And it was just and from then I became so obsessed with going 388 00:16:08,406 --> 00:16:11,406 up there and learning different things from the different layers. 389 00:16:11,411 --> 00:16:15,360 I went into this haven which was the omnipresence, which is, I 390 00:16:15,360 --> 00:16:17,820 suppose you could call it God, the source of the universe. 391 00:16:17,910 --> 00:16:21,540 I've been to all different places, and the beauty of it is that they will 392 00:16:21,540 --> 00:16:26,250 always back it up when I come back down here with some sign or synchronicity 393 00:16:26,470 --> 00:16:28,210 to prove that I've been up there. 394 00:16:28,630 --> 00:16:31,840 So I don't, again, I don't abuse it too much, but most of the 395 00:16:31,840 --> 00:16:34,815 time I'll go on meditation or I'll just sit for 10 minutes. 396 00:16:34,815 --> 00:16:40,095 I'm so lucky because I live right by the ocean, so I just sit there on a rock and 397 00:16:40,095 --> 00:16:43,965 I just take myself up there and see who's about, I'll have a cup of tea with my Nan, 398 00:16:44,365 --> 00:16:46,400 I'll go walking with one of my old dogs. 399 00:16:46,430 --> 00:16:50,510 It's just, and this is what I'm trying to show people, that anybody can do 400 00:16:50,510 --> 00:16:54,800 that if they raise their vibration and regularly heighten the levels of their 401 00:16:54,800 --> 00:16:59,630 consciousness through meditation or mindfulness, they can do it themselves. 402 00:16:59,780 --> 00:17:03,020 And that's why I've created a lot of guided meditations, one of them being 403 00:17:03,020 --> 00:17:04,460 visiting your loved ones in heaven. 404 00:17:04,465 --> 00:17:08,320 Because I get emails going, oh my goodness, I've just spent like my whole 405 00:17:08,320 --> 00:17:11,620 day with my daughter and then I come back and I was only out for half an hour. 406 00:17:11,620 --> 00:17:12,610 And that's how it works. 407 00:17:12,610 --> 00:17:13,570 You can all do it. 408 00:17:13,990 --> 00:17:17,050 So she regularly now sees her daughter in meditation. 409 00:17:17,320 --> 00:17:21,170 And what the wonderful thing is as well is that they also tell you 410 00:17:21,170 --> 00:17:22,670 things that are going to happen. 411 00:17:23,495 --> 00:17:26,795 So when I was up there with my nan, the same nan that you are 412 00:17:26,795 --> 00:17:30,115 talking about, go on the Facebook thingy of all the things to say. 413 00:17:30,245 --> 00:17:30,695 Do you know what I mean? 414 00:17:30,695 --> 00:17:32,615 I've seen all this big glow in the hall. 415 00:17:32,795 --> 00:17:35,615 My nan's shuffling in, go on the Facebook thingy. 416 00:17:35,615 --> 00:17:38,315 I'm like, you've come all the way from heaven to say that. 417 00:17:39,035 --> 00:17:41,835 Don't believe it, but you'll see why it's amazing. 418 00:17:42,135 --> 00:17:48,185 And yeah, so it's just a magical place that I want to show everybody. 419 00:17:48,425 --> 00:17:49,655 Everybody's open to it. 420 00:17:49,655 --> 00:17:54,035 Everybody's open to go to the angel realms, to sit with arch Angels, to go to 421 00:17:54,035 --> 00:17:56,195 the halls of learning, to understand more. 422 00:17:56,315 --> 00:17:58,085 And this is what I'm trying to do now. 423 00:17:58,115 --> 00:18:01,715 And my dad said to me, and I, you would've read that in Turkey. 424 00:18:01,895 --> 00:18:05,135 He said, you're gonna work in a completely different way, a profound way. 425 00:18:05,135 --> 00:18:06,755 It's nothing like you've done before. 426 00:18:07,085 --> 00:18:11,305 Cause I thought I was here just to prove the afterlife through mediumship 427 00:18:11,305 --> 00:18:13,235 and demonstrations and he's right. 428 00:18:13,355 --> 00:18:18,460 It's a whole deeper level now, of looking into the soul's existence and learning 429 00:18:18,465 --> 00:18:21,730 from the Crystal Palace, cuz I'm lucky enough to be able to go up there whenever 430 00:18:21,730 --> 00:18:24,400 I want and bring stuff back down again. 431 00:18:24,610 --> 00:18:25,960 And that's what I love about it. 432 00:18:25,965 --> 00:18:27,340 I just love that I can do that. 433 00:18:27,340 --> 00:18:29,870 And so rather than, people say, I need a reading. 434 00:18:29,875 --> 00:18:30,380 I need a reading. 435 00:18:30,380 --> 00:18:33,500 No, you need to get into your soul. 436 00:18:33,850 --> 00:18:37,930 Get into your personal power, meditate more and be more aware of yourself, 437 00:18:37,930 --> 00:18:41,650 of who you are, what you need, and you can connect in yourself. 438 00:18:41,650 --> 00:18:45,160 This is what I'm trying to educate people with to lighten their energy. 439 00:18:45,190 --> 00:18:49,600 Cuz let's face it, the last few years have been a nightmare worldwide, haven't they? 440 00:18:49,600 --> 00:18:50,470 With Covid? 441 00:18:50,470 --> 00:18:54,310 The political scene, the financial scene every, I dunno what it's like over there, 442 00:18:54,310 --> 00:18:56,260 but it's just rubbish here to be honest 443 00:18:56,310 --> 00:18:56,830 Very similar. 444 00:18:57,160 --> 00:19:00,460 That kinda thing, and so we need to find an escape. 445 00:19:00,460 --> 00:19:03,430 We need to find a layer to disappear off to. 446 00:19:03,610 --> 00:19:05,410 I don't even watch the news anymore, darling. 447 00:19:05,410 --> 00:19:05,950 Do you? 448 00:19:06,370 --> 00:19:07,540 I just depresses me. 449 00:19:07,840 --> 00:19:08,560 Do you know what I mean? 450 00:19:08,680 --> 00:19:10,790 Like real life is nah, you can have that. 451 00:19:10,790 --> 00:19:13,760 I'm just gonna go back up there and talk to Archangel Michael. 452 00:19:14,060 --> 00:19:17,810 But I do, if I'm walking along, like I've got this meeting place, I go and I 453 00:19:17,810 --> 00:19:22,340 decide which area I'm gonna walk around, and then perhaps Michael will come in 454 00:19:22,370 --> 00:19:25,520 or somebody will come in and then I end up having a conversation or whatever. 455 00:19:25,520 --> 00:19:28,970 I know it sounds a bit human, but it's easiest way to say it in layman's terms. 456 00:19:29,270 --> 00:19:34,320 And then I come out and then, perhaps I'll take the dogs down to the park and someone 457 00:19:34,320 --> 00:19:36,540 will go, Michael, come here Michael. 458 00:19:36,630 --> 00:19:38,010 And you think, yes. 459 00:19:38,110 --> 00:19:38,890 So that's what I mean. 460 00:19:38,895 --> 00:19:42,730 When they back it up, they will always have a circumstance happen here, a 461 00:19:43,100 --> 00:19:46,450 synchronicity happen here to back up exactly what's happening there. 462 00:19:46,720 --> 00:19:50,170 And so going back to my nan, the wonderful thing is she said, what was it? 463 00:19:50,170 --> 00:19:50,560 oh, oh. 464 00:19:50,560 --> 00:19:54,980 She said oh, Carrie is gonna have another fall, that boy, and that's my nephew. 465 00:19:55,460 --> 00:19:59,120 And so a week later he just literally slipped in a toilet and 466 00:19:59,125 --> 00:20:01,940 ended up getting really severe concussion rushed to hospital. 467 00:20:02,330 --> 00:20:05,450 And so you even get them talking of the future. 468 00:20:05,450 --> 00:20:08,695 So if you have a doubt, if it's your imagination going up there, 469 00:20:08,935 --> 00:20:12,295 they all say things and tell you about things that are coming up. 470 00:20:12,415 --> 00:20:12,655 out. 471 00:20:13,585 --> 00:20:15,355 And then when that happened, I was like, oh my God. 472 00:20:15,355 --> 00:20:16,525 She goes, you'll be all right though. 473 00:20:16,525 --> 00:20:16,885 You know what? 474 00:20:16,885 --> 00:20:18,030 He's he's always falling over. 475 00:20:18,030 --> 00:20:18,990 My nephew, bless him. 476 00:20:19,380 --> 00:20:20,830 And so she said, he'll be all right. 477 00:20:20,835 --> 00:20:21,370 Don't worry. 478 00:20:21,375 --> 00:20:22,420 But that's happening. 479 00:20:22,420 --> 00:20:24,370 She did it for my mum with breast cancer. 480 00:20:24,640 --> 00:20:27,510 And so you just know it's coming and I what's gonna happen? 481 00:20:27,510 --> 00:20:28,500 Is she going up or is she. 482 00:20:28,500 --> 00:20:29,310 No she's all right. 483 00:20:29,310 --> 00:20:30,000 She'll be all right. 484 00:20:30,000 --> 00:20:33,960 And my mum was full makeup, sitting there wanting a glass of wine after 485 00:20:33,960 --> 00:20:35,370 she just had a breast removed. 486 00:20:36,240 --> 00:20:37,580 I was my mum all over. 487 00:20:37,880 --> 00:20:39,370 That sounds like you actually. 488 00:20:39,520 --> 00:20:40,010 What? 489 00:20:40,150 --> 00:20:40,580 What you would do. 490 00:20:40,580 --> 00:20:40,780 Sounds 491 00:20:40,890 --> 00:20:41,395 Like me. 492 00:20:41,695 --> 00:20:42,985 I dunno about the makeup. 493 00:20:43,075 --> 00:20:45,865 But yeah, I think I could have a nice glass of wine if that happened. 494 00:20:45,925 --> 00:20:48,025 She smoked like a chimney and drank like a fish. 495 00:20:48,025 --> 00:20:49,795 My mother, bless her heart. 496 00:20:50,305 --> 00:20:51,145 Formidable lady. 497 00:20:51,415 --> 00:20:52,125 Formidable lady. 498 00:20:52,315 --> 00:20:55,335 But even, it's even my dad cuz I go back well with fourth 499 00:20:55,335 --> 00:20:57,015 generation as far as we know. 500 00:20:57,525 --> 00:20:58,755 And there were seven sons. 501 00:20:58,755 --> 00:21:01,755 After seven sons, which is like the main spiritual port of mediums. 502 00:21:01,755 --> 00:21:04,155 We've got the biggest energy or whatever to go up there 503 00:21:04,590 --> 00:21:06,690 You mean with people who have psychic abilities? 504 00:21:06,695 --> 00:21:07,850 It goes a long way back in your family. 505 00:21:07,905 --> 00:21:08,395 yeah. 506 00:21:08,585 --> 00:21:10,595 Yeah, everybody's a medium, psychic or healer. 507 00:21:10,595 --> 00:21:12,485 My brother's a full-time working medium. 508 00:21:12,515 --> 00:21:13,685 My sister's a healer. 509 00:21:13,715 --> 00:21:17,550 She's psychic as well, but she is more, I dunno, she dips into it 510 00:21:17,550 --> 00:21:19,050 and comes back out of it again. 511 00:21:19,050 --> 00:21:25,220 But all my family are, so I grew up with Tea leaves in teapots tarot cards, and 512 00:21:25,220 --> 00:21:27,620 I just thought it was the norm, really. 513 00:21:27,870 --> 00:21:29,400 My granddad was formidable. 514 00:21:29,400 --> 00:21:33,125 I was the one that broke the seventh son, seventh son legacy. 515 00:21:33,575 --> 00:21:36,255 But yeah he could send his soul anywhere, my granddad. 516 00:21:36,255 --> 00:21:40,465 He used to help Scotland Yard with murder cases and things like that under the, cuz 517 00:21:40,465 --> 00:21:42,055 it was back in the fifties and sixties. 518 00:21:42,355 --> 00:21:43,555 And they didn't want people to know. 519 00:21:43,555 --> 00:21:44,965 So he did it quite secretly. 520 00:21:45,335 --> 00:21:47,135 But he was just, he was incredible. 521 00:21:47,135 --> 00:21:48,545 My, my cousin went missing. 522 00:21:48,545 --> 00:21:51,090 She ran off with someone, she was a bit wild child. 523 00:21:51,630 --> 00:21:55,880 And so they all come in and said, oh dad, no, to my granddad, where is she? 524 00:21:55,880 --> 00:21:56,420 Where is she? 525 00:21:56,420 --> 00:21:57,830 So he went, hang on a minute. 526 00:21:57,890 --> 00:22:00,380 And the thing is we're all East End London. 527 00:22:00,380 --> 00:22:03,710 I'm Essex, but they're all East End, so we are not all Oh, I can 528 00:22:03,710 --> 00:22:05,190 sense this coming through now. 529 00:22:05,190 --> 00:22:06,450 We're not those sort of people. 530 00:22:06,450 --> 00:22:10,795 He was like, a bit of a, orright he says hang on a minute, I'll have a look. 531 00:22:11,155 --> 00:22:16,075 So he's just closed his eyes and he is literally, he could send his soul and 532 00:22:16,145 --> 00:22:17,730 astrally plane wherever he wanted to. 533 00:22:18,150 --> 00:22:22,250 So he could have dual consciousness, he could remain conscious plus, yeah. 534 00:22:22,430 --> 00:22:22,820 Yeah. 535 00:22:22,955 --> 00:22:26,165 And he literally floated around looking for a energy. 536 00:22:26,990 --> 00:22:30,050 When I say it, it sounds so unbelievable, but it's true. 537 00:22:30,050 --> 00:22:31,580 It's true as a day is long. 538 00:22:32,060 --> 00:22:33,590 And he said she's in flat. 539 00:22:33,890 --> 00:22:35,270 I can't remember flat number five. 540 00:22:35,270 --> 00:22:36,650 It's a blue door at the end of the corridor. 541 00:22:36,680 --> 00:22:38,090 Go now because he's out. 542 00:22:38,490 --> 00:22:43,680 My uncle's get in the car and it's about 70 miles away, 80 miles away. 543 00:22:44,160 --> 00:22:45,420 They're roaring up there. 544 00:22:45,510 --> 00:22:49,980 And on the say of my granddad they literally go to this block 545 00:22:49,980 --> 00:22:53,520 of flats, go to the end room, which is this door, kick it in. 546 00:22:53,520 --> 00:22:57,640 And she's sitting there like that, thinking, how the hell did they find me? 547 00:22:57,940 --> 00:23:00,810 And then they just dragged her out cause she was with the wrong man. 548 00:23:00,810 --> 00:23:02,250 It was just a wrong'un this bloke. 549 00:23:02,730 --> 00:23:06,335 And yeah, my, and they just, she came back and that they all had a go at her. 550 00:23:06,595 --> 00:23:11,010 And it's does anybody realize that granddad's just disappeared off and found 551 00:23:11,220 --> 00:23:15,940 my cousin in a random place in Essex and we got her back and it's oh my God. 552 00:23:16,490 --> 00:23:17,750 It was all completely normal. 553 00:23:17,750 --> 00:23:21,440 My, my aunt used to sit there automatic write say this is gonna 554 00:23:21,445 --> 00:23:22,850 happen and that's gonna happen. 555 00:23:23,210 --> 00:23:27,110 And my granddad had a Victorian scry mirror, which I've got. 556 00:23:27,115 --> 00:23:29,300 Crystal balls, everything. 557 00:23:29,510 --> 00:23:33,445 They were all old school psychics and they were absolutely brilliant. 558 00:23:33,565 --> 00:23:34,675 Absolutely brilliant. 559 00:23:34,675 --> 00:23:39,415 And I miss that because it seems that as soon as someone's got a psychic ability, 560 00:23:39,415 --> 00:23:41,605 they're on here saying, yay, pay me money. 561 00:23:41,605 --> 00:23:42,415 I'm psychic. 562 00:23:42,775 --> 00:23:46,435 And there's some amazing psychic mediums out there and it's the people like that 563 00:23:46,435 --> 00:23:50,125 give us a bit of a bad name cuz there's still a modern day witch hunt going on. 564 00:23:50,125 --> 00:23:55,735 Let's face it, we are still in the back pages of a magazine with a little advert. 565 00:23:55,735 --> 00:23:56,365 Do you know what I mean? 566 00:23:56,365 --> 00:24:00,775 It's such a shame when we can bring so much completion to someone's 567 00:24:00,780 --> 00:24:04,105 soul when they're grieving and even, it's like in America. 568 00:24:04,105 --> 00:24:06,990 I dunno if this happens in Australia, they even help the police out there. 569 00:24:06,990 --> 00:24:08,760 Do they, does that happen there, do you know? 570 00:24:09,570 --> 00:24:13,080 I think it's a little more under the radar like it is in the uk. 571 00:24:13,080 --> 00:24:18,120 I, it seemed, in my impression, and it's definitely not one that's based on a great 572 00:24:18,120 --> 00:24:20,670 amount of knowledge, but my impression is in the States it's a little more 573 00:24:20,670 --> 00:24:23,570 official in the way that they help that 574 00:24:23,740 --> 00:24:25,310 Yeah, it's, yeah, 575 00:24:25,400 --> 00:24:26,870 persons cases and that sort of thing. 576 00:24:26,870 --> 00:24:28,220 I'm not so sure about it here, though. 577 00:24:28,790 --> 00:24:29,280 yeah. 578 00:24:29,280 --> 00:24:32,090 It's a shame that we are not used for that really, because I've seen quite 579 00:24:32,090 --> 00:24:37,370 a few programs over in the US and they literally are deemed as an expert witness, 580 00:24:37,760 --> 00:24:41,905 which I think he's fantastic, because I can't remember the lady's name, but I 581 00:24:41,905 --> 00:24:43,165 watch her, I can't remember her name now. 582 00:24:43,375 --> 00:24:46,555 And she just, it's just located so many like dead bodies. 583 00:24:47,220 --> 00:24:50,770 And missing people, but, and it's just like, why don't you use this? 584 00:24:50,770 --> 00:24:54,340 And I always phone and I had I remember once I was doing a circle, 585 00:24:54,345 --> 00:24:58,120 I, in my, I call it my old life of my psychic mediumship, which was me, 586 00:24:58,120 --> 00:25:02,980 like all over the place on television and just about to tour Australia. 587 00:25:03,190 --> 00:25:06,430 I was just about to tour Australia, absolutely gutted 588 00:25:06,580 --> 00:25:07,930 just before the road accident. 589 00:25:08,410 --> 00:25:10,500 And so excited to go as well. 590 00:25:10,920 --> 00:25:16,500 And basically I was doing a circle and I go in and I just check where 591 00:25:16,505 --> 00:25:20,400 everybody is so my soul can go around and check where their souls are, just 592 00:25:20,400 --> 00:25:22,170 to make sure they're all doing okay. 593 00:25:22,410 --> 00:25:26,520 But then this girl come up to me and she was soaking with this long straggly hair. 594 00:25:26,790 --> 00:25:27,900 Do you know like the ring, 595 00:25:28,010 --> 00:25:28,530 like the ring? 596 00:25:28,940 --> 00:25:29,450 Oh yeah. 597 00:25:29,820 --> 00:25:30,300 removed 598 00:25:30,320 --> 00:25:30,890 It's a 599 00:25:31,140 --> 00:25:31,260 I'm 600 00:25:31,320 --> 00:25:31,650 film. 601 00:25:31,800 --> 00:25:32,220 Yeah. 602 00:25:32,235 --> 00:25:32,415 no. 603 00:25:32,575 --> 00:25:34,365 I'm like, oh my God, the demon come in. 604 00:25:34,425 --> 00:25:34,845 That's it. 605 00:25:34,875 --> 00:25:37,905 I know I've never seen anything bad in my life apart from when I've done 606 00:25:37,905 --> 00:25:42,165 paranormal investigations, but she was like, oh, you are super scary. 607 00:25:42,165 --> 00:25:43,005 Are you right? 608 00:25:43,010 --> 00:25:44,175 And she wasn't all right. 609 00:25:44,505 --> 00:25:48,675 And I saw the name Nicole and I thought that was her first name, Nicole. 610 00:25:49,065 --> 00:25:52,780 And she was just looking at me soaking where obviously passed over. 611 00:25:53,200 --> 00:25:55,540 And I could tell by her face that she was lost. 612 00:25:55,570 --> 00:25:56,620 Nobody had found her. 613 00:25:57,070 --> 00:26:00,820 So this was in the October, right? 614 00:26:01,390 --> 00:26:03,920 And oh, you would've think you would've read about this actually. 615 00:26:03,950 --> 00:26:04,280 Did you? 616 00:26:04,280 --> 00:26:05,960 I think I've put it in rise and fall, haven't 617 00:26:06,075 --> 00:26:06,565 yeah. 618 00:26:06,605 --> 00:26:07,445 I remember this one. 619 00:26:07,445 --> 00:26:07,715 Yep. 620 00:26:07,865 --> 00:26:08,105 Yep. 621 00:26:08,495 --> 00:26:08,945 okay. 622 00:26:08,945 --> 00:26:09,925 Other people haven't read the book. 623 00:26:10,430 --> 00:26:14,555 And literally she and I came back round and I had, and I knew where 624 00:26:14,555 --> 00:26:18,375 she was, it was near Ipswich, which is like just north of Essex here. 625 00:26:18,855 --> 00:26:21,255 And so I said, oh my God, someone's been murdered. 626 00:26:21,255 --> 00:26:22,155 You're gonna hear about it. 627 00:26:22,155 --> 00:26:24,525 So I'm thinking, I'm being a, don't worry, I've got it. 628 00:26:24,615 --> 00:26:27,255 Like you're gonna find out about this in the next couple of days and you're all 629 00:26:27,285 --> 00:26:29,445 gonna go, oh, Nicky, aren't you amazing? 630 00:26:29,710 --> 00:26:29,790 you. 631 00:26:30,090 --> 00:26:34,380 So I'm, I've described her with a long black hair and she's in a ditch or this 632 00:26:34,380 --> 00:26:37,560 kind of like little stream somewhere and there's an industrial estate just 633 00:26:37,560 --> 00:26:40,590 behind it and it's near Ipswitch. 634 00:26:40,770 --> 00:26:41,430 Nothing. 635 00:26:41,430 --> 00:26:43,170 Week after week, nothing. 636 00:26:43,170 --> 00:26:44,460 And I'm like, oh my God. 637 00:26:44,940 --> 00:26:47,910 And I thought I'd feel so embarrassed cuz I'm supposed to be teaching 638 00:26:47,915 --> 00:26:49,140 all of these beautiful students. 639 00:26:49,140 --> 00:26:50,340 I've got it totally wrong. 640 00:26:50,670 --> 00:26:51,360 Do you know what I mean? 641 00:26:51,360 --> 00:26:59,070 And it wasn't until six weeks later that I get a phone call to say, oh my goodness, 642 00:26:59,075 --> 00:27:02,565 get on the telly now there's someone being found called Paula Nicol. 643 00:27:02,585 --> 00:27:06,770 I'm like, Oh my God, I thought it was her first name and she's got the long 644 00:27:06,770 --> 00:27:11,390 dark hair and she was found exactly where I said she was bedraggled, in this 645 00:27:11,390 --> 00:27:13,580 stream next to an industrial estate. 646 00:27:13,790 --> 00:27:17,090 And she was the first of many of a serial killer that was 647 00:27:17,090 --> 00:27:18,770 killing prostitutes at the time. 648 00:27:19,070 --> 00:27:22,460 So then they all started coming to me, giving me information 649 00:27:22,760 --> 00:27:24,290 and I was phoning it in. 650 00:27:24,320 --> 00:27:28,130 But the weird thing is, only a few years back I was the major 651 00:27:28,130 --> 00:27:31,970 investigation detective taking the calls from the psychics. 652 00:27:32,120 --> 00:27:33,890 So I knew exactly what was gonna happen. 653 00:27:33,890 --> 00:27:35,330 It'd be, yeah, right love, thanks a lot. 654 00:27:35,330 --> 00:27:36,380 Go in the bloody bin. 655 00:27:36,440 --> 00:27:37,310 Do you know what I mean? 656 00:27:37,365 --> 00:27:40,695 But then luckily I knew a couple of the cops that were on there and I 657 00:27:40,695 --> 00:27:43,375 knew the senior investigating officer. 658 00:27:43,795 --> 00:27:48,215 And so I said to her, the next two victim's gonna be found near Kirk Soen. 659 00:27:48,455 --> 00:27:51,255 And I said, and there's a big green Electric box next to 660 00:27:51,255 --> 00:27:51,945 the one you've just found. 661 00:27:51,945 --> 00:27:52,995 She goes, how'd you know that? 662 00:27:53,115 --> 00:27:55,065 And I'm like, oh my God, how many times I gotta tell you? 663 00:27:55,275 --> 00:27:57,705 Because they remember me as a police officer. 664 00:27:57,765 --> 00:27:59,535 Lots of people knew I was psychic as well. 665 00:27:59,805 --> 00:28:01,965 But then to come out of it and be the other side, it was really 666 00:28:01,970 --> 00:28:05,475 frustrating because I could have implemented that, which I did in 667 00:28:05,475 --> 00:28:07,515 my police career a number of times. 668 00:28:07,915 --> 00:28:10,640 And they all came to me and there was nothing really I could do. 669 00:28:10,670 --> 00:28:13,215 I, I described and got a full profile of the person that had 670 00:28:13,215 --> 00:28:16,655 done it, even down to what his house and his address looked like. 671 00:28:16,965 --> 00:28:19,220 But they did never came back to me, unfortunately. 672 00:28:19,280 --> 00:28:22,490 But the beauty of that was because I'd connected with them. 673 00:28:22,730 --> 00:28:25,700 I think lots of murder victims come to me, because obviously that's what I 674 00:28:25,700 --> 00:28:27,470 dealt with when I was a police officer. 675 00:28:28,130 --> 00:28:32,470 And they come, they came to me and then they obviously went off to their family 676 00:28:32,475 --> 00:28:34,450 members, these ladies that were killed. 677 00:28:34,450 --> 00:28:36,820 Cuz then I got random phone calls and I didn't know who they were. 678 00:28:36,980 --> 00:28:40,875 There was a bloke called, I think it was Paul or something from Scotland. 679 00:28:41,145 --> 00:28:41,925 And I was talking to him. 680 00:28:41,925 --> 00:28:43,695 I went, oh my goodness. 681 00:28:44,240 --> 00:28:47,010 Your sister is one of the girls, who was murdered. 682 00:28:47,250 --> 00:28:52,030 And and then I, and then the family just found me randomly to 683 00:28:52,030 --> 00:28:54,070 give messages from their girls. 684 00:28:54,070 --> 00:28:56,560 It was just incredible how it worked out. 685 00:28:56,830 --> 00:29:00,660 So it was really nice to do that part of it, frustrating that nobody 686 00:29:00,660 --> 00:29:03,120 wants to listen to you when you've got information that they should 687 00:29:03,120 --> 00:29:04,440 really stand up and listen to. 688 00:29:05,010 --> 00:29:09,870 And that's just from feelings, that you're feeling in the vibration of the universe. 689 00:29:09,870 --> 00:29:12,630 If you could get hold of something that belonged to them or go to the crime 690 00:29:12,630 --> 00:29:14,970 scene, imagine what we could do then. 691 00:29:15,720 --> 00:29:17,640 But it's just one of those things. 692 00:29:17,640 --> 00:29:20,640 I don't think it's ever gonna transpire unless I've moved over 693 00:29:20,640 --> 00:29:24,260 to the states and I could become a professional one with the police. 694 00:29:24,560 --> 00:29:25,490 They wouldn't have me. 695 00:29:25,550 --> 00:29:26,840 I'm too unprofessional. 696 00:29:27,000 --> 00:29:28,080 I was so unprofessional. 697 00:29:28,080 --> 00:29:29,160 I wasn't unprofessional. 698 00:29:29,160 --> 00:29:33,370 I was cheeky and naughty in the police, I just I hated doing things 699 00:29:33,370 --> 00:29:35,320 like nicking people for speeding. 700 00:29:35,725 --> 00:29:36,895 And parking tickets. 701 00:29:36,895 --> 00:29:37,350 And I'm like no. 702 00:29:37,590 --> 00:29:40,500 So they got me out of uniform as quick as possible and 703 00:29:40,500 --> 00:29:42,150 started put me on crime squads. 704 00:29:42,360 --> 00:29:44,760 They're like, just let her loose with the bad people. 705 00:29:44,760 --> 00:29:46,200 Just don't put her in a uniform. 706 00:29:46,200 --> 00:29:46,740 Get her out. 707 00:29:47,040 --> 00:29:50,430 I was in my element with the naughty people because I was a naughty person. 708 00:29:50,910 --> 00:29:55,380 But not badly, just cheeky and hard to manage because I was very headstrong. 709 00:29:55,810 --> 00:29:57,010 And I think I was a good cop. 710 00:29:57,010 --> 00:29:57,190 Yeah. 711 00:29:57,190 --> 00:30:00,560 And it certainly helped having psychic hunches and visions 712 00:30:00,565 --> 00:30:02,090 and stuff as I was going along. 713 00:30:02,690 --> 00:30:06,246 You must had a good did you have a good case solve rate, compared 714 00:30:06,251 --> 00:30:08,186 to your non psychic colleagues? 715 00:30:08,546 --> 00:30:11,731 It's, it is hard really, because we all worked as a team on 716 00:30:11,731 --> 00:30:13,261 the major investigation team. 717 00:30:13,261 --> 00:30:14,581 We all worked as a team. 718 00:30:14,626 --> 00:30:17,726 I'm not gonna lie though, there's one particular murder that I got the motive 719 00:30:17,726 --> 00:30:22,636 for, and again, I'm sure I put this in the book as well, where Oh, bless her heart. 720 00:30:22,636 --> 00:30:26,781 Tina, she was murdered by her husband and nobody, but nobody knew that 721 00:30:26,781 --> 00:30:28,611 she'd basically gone back for lunch. 722 00:30:28,611 --> 00:30:31,821 He'd phoned her and said, oh, do you wanna come back for lunch during a work day? 723 00:30:31,821 --> 00:30:32,481 And that was it. 724 00:30:32,751 --> 00:30:36,741 And the next thing she was found in a rug, burned in a car. 725 00:30:37,071 --> 00:30:41,811 Basically the car was set alight and it was a nightmare because the thing 726 00:30:41,811 --> 00:30:46,281 is that I need to be professional and you have to watch what you say for 727 00:30:46,281 --> 00:30:48,201 court purposes and all the rest of it. 728 00:30:48,531 --> 00:30:51,441 But on the same token, I'm seeing what's really going on. 729 00:30:51,441 --> 00:30:55,461 It didn't happen all the time, but I went to the scene where the car 730 00:30:55,466 --> 00:31:00,171 was found burnt out and I just said, Tina, just help me or get your family 731 00:31:00,171 --> 00:31:04,491 members to help me and show me what I need to do to help you to get justice. 732 00:31:04,761 --> 00:31:09,871 Because we had an inkling, it was the husband Richard, but he had an alibi. 733 00:31:09,871 --> 00:31:14,581 He was all covered and he was just, We just couldn't get anything on him, even 734 00:31:14,581 --> 00:31:16,051 though he just feel felt a bit off. 735 00:31:16,471 --> 00:31:21,361 So I remember doing a interview where I had to interview the nephew. 736 00:31:21,931 --> 00:31:25,741 This is how low people go on this planet, and it just, oh my goodness. 737 00:31:26,131 --> 00:31:27,331 So the nephew, right? 738 00:31:27,331 --> 00:31:31,171 So I walk into the interview room and if you can imagine, I've got to 739 00:31:31,171 --> 00:31:34,851 be, keep my mouth shut, get down, put the tape on, what time of day 740 00:31:34,851 --> 00:31:36,541 it is, who's present, blah blah. 741 00:31:36,561 --> 00:31:42,291 And then I'm looking at him and the problem is I can see him rolling his 742 00:31:42,291 --> 00:31:47,031 auntie up and she'd just been strangled with a dressing gown belt by the husband. 743 00:31:47,421 --> 00:31:49,521 So I'm seeing this in my head and I'm going, 744 00:31:49,801 --> 00:31:50,241 phhhhh 745 00:31:50,721 --> 00:31:53,691 but I'm trying to concentrate and I can't because all I, every time I 746 00:31:53,691 --> 00:31:58,531 look at him, I know that he turned up as soon as she was murdered, offered 747 00:31:58,546 --> 00:32:01,061 money to then go and burn the car out. 748 00:32:01,361 --> 00:32:06,011 He wrapped his own auntie up for some insurance money for 700 pounds. 749 00:32:06,311 --> 00:32:07,141 And as 750 00:32:07,181 --> 00:32:08,471 In the end I couldn't stand it. 751 00:32:08,471 --> 00:32:11,941 And, my partner at the time, my crime, my detective partner Nick, 752 00:32:11,941 --> 00:32:12,791 he's going to me you all right? 753 00:32:12,811 --> 00:32:14,611 And I'm like, yeah, I'm fine. 754 00:32:14,611 --> 00:32:15,001 I'm fine. 755 00:32:15,001 --> 00:32:18,241 So I'm desperately trying to get this vision out, so I'm trying to get him to 756 00:32:18,241 --> 00:32:23,641 do all the talking, my colleague, and thank God this boy themed some sort of 757 00:32:23,641 --> 00:32:25,441 seizure, so we have to stop the interview. 758 00:32:25,441 --> 00:32:26,671 And I'm like, thank God for that. 759 00:32:26,721 --> 00:32:27,711 What'd you do with it though? 760 00:32:27,751 --> 00:32:31,151 You can't go to, a judge and say, can we have a warrant, please? 761 00:32:31,151 --> 00:32:34,091 Because our detective is psychic and she's saying. 762 00:32:34,291 --> 00:32:35,571 You can't do that, can he? 763 00:32:35,571 --> 00:32:36,641 You gotta get the evidence. 764 00:32:37,091 --> 00:32:38,111 So I'm like, oh my God. 765 00:32:38,111 --> 00:32:38,741 He definitely did. 766 00:32:38,741 --> 00:32:41,111 But luckily, as I say, it was a team effort. 767 00:32:41,116 --> 00:32:48,491 So the team found him on CCTV at the local train station, and he'd been stupid 768 00:32:48,491 --> 00:32:53,081 enough to leave his train ticket outside his front door that he threw away. 769 00:32:53,201 --> 00:32:57,851 So it was sewn up that he possibly was in the area, but it was circumstantial 770 00:32:57,851 --> 00:33:01,901 and we still didn't have a motive or who murdered Tina, the girl. 771 00:33:02,711 --> 00:33:06,911 And so anyway, had another inquiry again with Nick, my colleague. 772 00:33:06,941 --> 00:33:09,491 We knocked on the door and it was just, we were just visiting 773 00:33:09,551 --> 00:33:11,041 the friends of the family, right? 774 00:33:11,041 --> 00:33:13,051 Friends of Tina and the husband. 775 00:33:13,831 --> 00:33:16,771 And it was just to sit and have a cup of tea and see if we could get any 776 00:33:16,771 --> 00:33:20,726 background information because obviously they'd known them, all their lives. 777 00:33:21,086 --> 00:33:25,316 So I've gone in there, sat down, and then it's all quite pleasant. 778 00:33:25,316 --> 00:33:26,036 We're having a cup of tea. 779 00:33:26,066 --> 00:33:29,366 I nearly snorted the tea out on my nose because the daughter comes 780 00:33:29,366 --> 00:33:32,576 downstairs and she's what, 15, 16. 781 00:33:32,696 --> 00:33:35,876 And as I look at her, I'm seeing pictures of her doing naughty 782 00:33:35,876 --> 00:33:38,696 things with Richard, the husband. 783 00:33:38,881 --> 00:33:39,081 husband. 784 00:33:40,011 --> 00:33:40,801 There's the 785 00:33:40,811 --> 00:33:42,191 thinking, oh my God no. 786 00:33:42,191 --> 00:33:43,031 I can't be seeing this. 787 00:33:43,031 --> 00:33:44,801 Every time I look at her, I just wanna go to her. 788 00:33:44,801 --> 00:33:46,841 Oh my God, you're sleeping with the husband. 789 00:33:47,141 --> 00:33:48,371 But I think it can't be right. 790 00:33:48,376 --> 00:33:51,941 She's a young schoolgirl and they're friends of the family. 791 00:33:51,941 --> 00:33:52,781 It's like family. 792 00:33:52,781 --> 00:33:55,806 It's like incest, almost like her uncle, I'm like, it can't be right. 793 00:33:55,806 --> 00:33:56,646 Can't be right. 794 00:33:56,706 --> 00:33:58,386 So I can't look at her. 795 00:33:59,046 --> 00:34:00,741 I'm trying to stay focused. 796 00:34:01,251 --> 00:34:03,951 Anyway, we come out the house and went, oh my god, Nick, I can't believe it. 797 00:34:03,951 --> 00:34:08,701 I said, she's sleeping with Richard, the husband. 798 00:34:08,881 --> 00:34:09,781 That's the motive here. 799 00:34:10,241 --> 00:34:12,371 He's got rid of his wife, so I can be with her now. 800 00:34:12,431 --> 00:34:12,791 No. 801 00:34:12,846 --> 00:34:13,416 How can you prove it? 802 00:34:13,416 --> 00:34:14,316 I said, I don't know. 803 00:34:14,316 --> 00:34:16,086 So I go back to the police station. 804 00:34:16,536 --> 00:34:20,336 And it started, then the old tingles on the scalp and the back of my neck. 805 00:34:20,341 --> 00:34:22,526 And I'm thinking, oh, hello, what's going on here? 806 00:34:22,826 --> 00:34:27,266 And then the vision was I had to go into the exhibit room and get this 807 00:34:27,266 --> 00:34:29,486 notepad that was taken from his van. 808 00:34:29,491 --> 00:34:30,356 Husband's van. 809 00:34:31,211 --> 00:34:35,171 And so I got the notepad, I made photocopies of it, took it back 810 00:34:35,171 --> 00:34:39,701 to the house and went through it when I got home after work. 811 00:34:39,821 --> 00:34:40,631 And then it's typical. 812 00:34:40,631 --> 00:34:43,541 Do you know like you have the movies where the detectives have got a glass 813 00:34:43,541 --> 00:34:44,801 of wine and they're doing their work. 814 00:34:44,831 --> 00:34:47,381 I'd never do that, but I had to do it on this case. 815 00:34:47,531 --> 00:34:47,951 Do you know what I mean? 816 00:34:47,951 --> 00:34:49,151 They carry on working. 817 00:34:49,271 --> 00:34:50,081 What is wrong with them? 818 00:34:50,081 --> 00:34:51,401 Go to a bar, have a life. 819 00:34:51,536 --> 00:34:51,686 have 820 00:34:52,571 --> 00:34:54,071 But no, they sitting there aren't they? 821 00:34:54,221 --> 00:34:56,411 With a glass of wine trying to work out the case. 822 00:34:56,411 --> 00:34:59,691 Anyway, I'm going through the pages and it was like a torch 823 00:34:59,711 --> 00:35:02,411 light was under the page, right? 824 00:35:02,411 --> 00:35:07,776 And it had like numbers and letters and so at the time I was 825 00:35:07,781 --> 00:35:09,336 with a partner who had children. 826 00:35:09,951 --> 00:35:11,241 And I said, come here Chelsea. 827 00:35:11,241 --> 00:35:12,021 I said, what does this mean? 828 00:35:12,021 --> 00:35:13,011 She went, duh. 829 00:35:13,281 --> 00:35:15,831 She goes, that's Love Marry, or Avoid game. 830 00:35:15,831 --> 00:35:16,401 So I'm like. 831 00:35:16,451 --> 00:35:21,341 She goes, if you look, if it's a secret one, you'll see the two names in random 832 00:35:21,341 --> 00:35:25,091 pages and they're working out and apparently the numbers in the alphabet 833 00:35:25,091 --> 00:35:29,281 of the letters all add up and, it's just a love game basically for school kids. 834 00:35:29,791 --> 00:35:34,111 And so when I look through the notepad, I can see her name and her working 835 00:35:34,111 --> 00:35:38,521 out her numbers, and on another page, his name, it's all in her handwriting. 836 00:35:39,481 --> 00:35:41,916 So following day, go in and say we need to approach her 837 00:35:41,916 --> 00:35:43,626 with this because this is gold. 838 00:35:43,686 --> 00:35:46,906 This is gonna, either blow it open or we got one step closer. 839 00:35:47,296 --> 00:35:48,206 So we went and got her. 840 00:35:48,206 --> 00:35:52,026 I got her in the back of the car and I said, so I said, what's this? 841 00:35:52,026 --> 00:35:53,766 I said, you're in love with him, aren't you love? 842 00:35:54,441 --> 00:35:55,011 And she went, no. 843 00:35:55,011 --> 00:35:55,581 I went no. 844 00:35:55,611 --> 00:35:59,391 I said, no, you are with this man and this proves it because you wanna know if 845 00:35:59,631 --> 00:36:01,011 you're gonna just love him or marry him. 846 00:36:01,161 --> 00:36:02,781 And then she just broke down. 847 00:36:02,781 --> 00:36:04,041 It was perfect. 848 00:36:04,671 --> 00:36:05,721 And she said, oh my God. 849 00:36:05,726 --> 00:36:08,841 I always said to him that he can't divorce Tina because 850 00:36:08,896 --> 00:36:09,976 they're friends of the family. 851 00:36:09,981 --> 00:36:12,976 I couldn't deal with the guilt of it so I could never be with him. 852 00:36:13,516 --> 00:36:17,536 And so she said it all and he basically killed his own wife 853 00:36:17,746 --> 00:36:19,331 so he could be with this girl. 854 00:36:19,331 --> 00:36:21,281 Oh my goodness. 855 00:36:21,281 --> 00:36:25,466 And we got the motive for the murder and he got I think got minimum 41 856 00:36:25,466 --> 00:36:27,476 years life, maximum life sentence. 857 00:36:27,866 --> 00:36:31,016 And so I was, so yes, I got the motive for it. 858 00:36:31,016 --> 00:36:35,006 But then obviously there's all the investigation team are getting all 859 00:36:35,006 --> 00:36:38,586 the other exhibits and everything together to, get the case solidified. 860 00:36:38,916 --> 00:36:41,856 But I can definitely say without a doubt that I got the motive for that 861 00:36:41,856 --> 00:36:46,356 murder and we managed to arrest him cuz that girl made a statement to say, yeah 862 00:36:46,701 --> 00:36:49,701 I've been sleeping with him, had an affair with him for however 863 00:36:49,701 --> 00:36:52,971 long it was, and he got rid of her because he wanted to be with me. 864 00:36:53,271 --> 00:36:54,621 So it's a good one, isn't it? 865 00:36:55,411 --> 00:36:56,191 It's a good one. 866 00:36:56,211 --> 00:36:59,351 It's like a, it could be a plot for a TV cop show easily. 867 00:36:59,681 --> 00:37:00,171 I know. 868 00:37:00,231 --> 00:37:03,491 Because I, when I I had a lot of celebrity friends, friends, there 869 00:37:03,491 --> 00:37:06,701 were people that obviously loved me because I could tell them what show 870 00:37:06,701 --> 00:37:08,831 to go to and what agent to go to. 871 00:37:09,101 --> 00:37:12,821 And I was at a celebrity party and I actually said this to a producer 872 00:37:12,821 --> 00:37:13,871 there and said, you know what? 873 00:37:13,871 --> 00:37:18,321 This would make the best show ever, you know my kind of character. 874 00:37:18,621 --> 00:37:21,441 And someone even emailed me an actress a couple of weeks ago and 875 00:37:21,441 --> 00:37:22,761 said, this is gonna be a show. 876 00:37:22,761 --> 00:37:23,991 If it is, can I play you? 877 00:37:24,741 --> 00:37:26,151 I said, yeah, you can be really slim. 878 00:37:26,181 --> 00:37:26,901 Nothing like me. 879 00:37:26,901 --> 00:37:28,161 You can be all slim and gorgeous. 880 00:37:28,791 --> 00:37:32,941 And and I said I said this to them, to this producer and said 881 00:37:32,941 --> 00:37:35,491 it would make, he goes, oh my God, that makes such a good series. 882 00:37:35,731 --> 00:37:39,961 Then spooky enough, a series did start about a year later, but it 883 00:37:39,966 --> 00:37:44,671 was a man, it was a Swedish actor and he was like a psychic cop. 884 00:37:44,671 --> 00:37:49,951 But it was a bit dark and it was, and I thought, I wonder if it was him 885 00:37:49,956 --> 00:37:51,691 that got that idea and done it or not. 886 00:37:51,691 --> 00:37:54,061 It was just perhaps coincidence, but I thought it would make 887 00:37:54,061 --> 00:37:54,931 for great, wouldn't it? 888 00:37:54,931 --> 00:38:00,061 If he got a really down to earth, loud, bubbly, vivacious cop and 889 00:38:00,061 --> 00:38:04,346 then suddenly getting help, with murder investigation inquiries. 890 00:38:04,346 --> 00:38:05,666 It would just be amazing. 891 00:38:05,666 --> 00:38:05,996 Whatever. 892 00:38:05,996 --> 00:38:08,756 I think I would love a series like that because the thing is I 893 00:38:08,761 --> 00:38:12,911 think that, most paranormal, most supernatural what, whatever you're 894 00:38:12,911 --> 00:38:16,661 talking about that they put on the telly, it's all scary, isn't it? 895 00:38:16,661 --> 00:38:17,951 It's all hauntings. 896 00:38:18,041 --> 00:38:21,311 And when spirits attack and Do you want us here? 897 00:38:21,371 --> 00:38:22,151 Do you want us to leave? 898 00:38:22,421 --> 00:38:27,716 And it's no, we need to have more educational series and I'm crossing 899 00:38:27,716 --> 00:38:31,256 my fingers because there was a series that was coming up that, that 900 00:38:31,256 --> 00:38:34,646 didn't get funding, but it's just got funding for Netflix called Intuition. 901 00:38:35,006 --> 00:38:36,896 And it's just been worked on now. 902 00:38:36,896 --> 00:38:40,856 And that is gonna be lovely because it's going to show the 903 00:38:40,856 --> 00:38:42,176 lighter side of everything. 904 00:38:42,176 --> 00:38:45,926 It's gonna be educational, but it's not gonna be all scary hauntings 905 00:38:45,931 --> 00:38:47,156 and all that kind of stuff. 906 00:38:47,206 --> 00:38:50,856 But yeah I would like to see better stuff, wouldn't you on the telly, being 907 00:38:50,856 --> 00:38:55,176 a bit more ethereal and a bit more respectful of it, and actually looking 908 00:38:55,176 --> 00:39:00,316 at it with, a proper observational eye rather than, oh, you're just a rip off. 909 00:39:00,316 --> 00:39:02,626 You are just, and taking the mickey out of people. 910 00:39:02,786 --> 00:39:05,486 So I did a show, I think you have it over there. 911 00:39:05,486 --> 00:39:06,716 Come dine with me. 912 00:39:06,841 --> 00:39:07,241 with me. 913 00:39:07,826 --> 00:39:09,026 You have, do you have that over there? 914 00:39:09,911 --> 00:39:10,391 Yeah, we do. 915 00:39:10,391 --> 00:39:10,691 Yep. 916 00:39:11,201 --> 00:39:11,591 Yeah. 917 00:39:11,591 --> 00:39:15,491 And I even then I thought it was gonna be respectful, big learning curve. 918 00:39:15,491 --> 00:39:18,991 I actually write about this in my book as well, don't I, that I went on there 919 00:39:18,991 --> 00:39:21,631 and I spent the whole night showing them how to do a paranormal 920 00:39:21,636 --> 00:39:25,641 investigation cuz it was my friend's house and it was really old cottage. 921 00:39:26,371 --> 00:39:27,691 And so we got a bit of phenomenon there. 922 00:39:27,691 --> 00:39:31,441 And then I gave them all readings and a couple of them ended up crying their eyes 923 00:39:31,441 --> 00:39:33,046 out because their mums come through la. 924 00:39:33,386 --> 00:39:36,116 But then I didn't have editing rights and I was so naive 925 00:39:36,116 --> 00:39:37,616 cause it was my first TV show. 926 00:39:38,246 --> 00:39:43,316 And so when it came out, the narrator is literally ripping me to pieces and 927 00:39:43,316 --> 00:39:48,146 just taking the mickey and they even get the people who had the readings 928 00:39:48,146 --> 00:39:49,616 go, oh, no, it's a load of rubbish. 929 00:39:49,826 --> 00:39:52,766 They were the ones crying their eyes out saying, it's my mom. 930 00:39:52,766 --> 00:39:53,456 It's my mom. 931 00:39:53,461 --> 00:39:54,776 I can't believe you talking to my mom. 932 00:39:55,076 --> 00:39:58,751 But, and I, it got, I got really, it was almost like I was the jester. 933 00:39:58,961 --> 00:40:01,925 I get the psychic in, and I was quite disappointed with that. 934 00:40:02,375 --> 00:40:02,885 But then 935 00:40:02,885 --> 00:40:03,725 they weren't ready for it, 936 00:40:04,370 --> 00:40:04,760 No. 937 00:40:04,760 --> 00:40:05,750 Exactly. 938 00:40:05,780 --> 00:40:07,785 And we did angels and that was beautiful. 939 00:40:07,785 --> 00:40:11,885 How people's lives were saved or changed by angels basically 940 00:40:12,315 --> 00:40:12,965 intervening with their lives. 941 00:40:13,235 --> 00:40:14,255 And that was beautiful. 942 00:40:14,260 --> 00:40:16,505 That was a lovely show, and I wish that carried on. 943 00:40:16,510 --> 00:40:21,575 But the person who was in charge of that Sky Channel didn't want any more, 944 00:40:21,805 --> 00:40:25,800 paranormal or, ethereal, celestial, whatever you wanna call it, programs. 945 00:40:25,950 --> 00:40:29,730 He rather, he wanted my fat cat rather than angels. 946 00:40:30,030 --> 00:40:31,450 Why's that cat? 947 00:40:31,450 --> 00:40:31,850 Or whatever. 948 00:40:31,850 --> 00:40:32,450 I dunno. 949 00:40:32,450 --> 00:40:33,290 Do you know what I mean? 950 00:40:33,790 --> 00:40:38,570 But it's not all about the television, but, I do like to have that 951 00:40:38,570 --> 00:40:41,120 option only to bring, and if it's. 952 00:40:41,510 --> 00:40:45,880 Meant, for the greater good to just keep spreading the love and 953 00:40:46,180 --> 00:40:49,030 knowledge because we so need it. 954 00:40:49,780 --> 00:40:50,710 We so need it. 955 00:40:50,980 --> 00:40:51,790 And even 956 00:40:51,795 --> 00:40:56,170 I've even watched like the dynamics change of the demographic of who come 957 00:40:56,170 --> 00:41:00,190 to me or who emails my emails, me or who watches things, on my channels. 958 00:41:00,550 --> 00:41:01,900 And it's so many more men. 959 00:41:01,900 --> 00:41:02,410 more men 960 00:41:03,310 --> 00:41:06,400 It never used to be, they used to be dragged along by their wives. 961 00:41:06,400 --> 00:41:08,895 Bingo, come on, we're going and see Nicky Alan. 962 00:41:08,915 --> 00:41:09,815 They're like, oh god. 963 00:41:09,935 --> 00:41:10,775 And they'd walk along. 964 00:41:11,145 --> 00:41:14,685 But there's a lot more men and I think everybody's trying to reach for something 965 00:41:14,685 --> 00:41:18,405 because they're not getting it here on the earth plane, if that makes sense. 966 00:41:18,405 --> 00:41:22,305 So they're looking for something else to try and explain perhaps 967 00:41:22,305 --> 00:41:25,635 why there's so much crisis or escape it, as I said earlier. 968 00:41:26,075 --> 00:41:30,095 And so I, yeah, there's lots more people coming in, younger people as 969 00:41:30,095 --> 00:41:35,265 well that are coming in and interested in this type of, spirituality. 970 00:41:35,265 --> 00:41:36,255 It's so easy to do. 971 00:41:36,255 --> 00:41:39,045 People say to me, Oh, how do you live spiritually? 972 00:41:39,045 --> 00:41:43,450 It's not like a training session or you have to, like a diet. 973 00:41:43,670 --> 00:41:46,295 I naturally acknowledge the angel realms, the spirit world 974 00:41:46,300 --> 00:41:47,975 most probably every half hour. 975 00:41:48,135 --> 00:41:50,890 Not intentional, but I just go, I'm so lucky. 976 00:41:51,130 --> 00:41:53,290 Or if I need a parking space. 977 00:41:54,160 --> 00:41:55,180 I did that yesterday. 978 00:41:55,480 --> 00:41:58,230 I was running late and I'm like, please, can you just get me a parking space? 979 00:41:58,230 --> 00:41:58,650 Please. 980 00:41:58,650 --> 00:42:00,810 And there always is one, they're so good at that. 981 00:42:01,390 --> 00:42:05,075 And it's funny, if I don't order it, there isn't a parking space. 982 00:42:05,075 --> 00:42:06,935 I think, ah, I forgot to order it with the angels. 983 00:42:06,935 --> 00:42:09,745 And I said that once with the window open and this bloke looked at me like 984 00:42:10,055 --> 00:42:12,215 she needs to go in the nutty bin. 985 00:42:12,485 --> 00:42:13,565 There's something wrong with our, 986 00:42:13,640 --> 00:42:14,015 something wrong with. 987 00:42:14,315 --> 00:42:17,275 and it's just meditating and just being open, plugging 988 00:42:17,280 --> 00:42:18,965 into the source you came from. 989 00:42:19,165 --> 00:42:24,150 I have a friend of mine, Jules, who's very spiritual and she got me into the 990 00:42:24,150 --> 00:42:25,795 idea of there's the parking princess. 991 00:42:26,635 --> 00:42:30,655 And then occasionally I'll remember, and nine times outta 10 it works. 992 00:42:31,375 --> 00:42:33,715 And, but then when you forget, it's oh, I didn't book it early enough. 993 00:42:33,715 --> 00:42:33,985 Damn it. 994 00:42:34,960 --> 00:42:36,070 But that's what I say. 995 00:42:36,130 --> 00:42:40,210 And even things like if I need to, as I say, I ordered again, I 996 00:42:40,210 --> 00:42:41,410 can't remember which book it's in. 997 00:42:41,530 --> 00:42:44,800 I think it's in me, myself, and I, where I ordered this bungalow, 998 00:42:45,040 --> 00:42:46,570 which is I needed it all one level. 999 00:42:46,570 --> 00:42:47,860 Cause obviously I can't do stairs. 1000 00:42:47,860 --> 00:42:49,240 I needed it right next to the beach. 1001 00:42:49,240 --> 00:42:50,980 So literally I can hear the sea now. 1002 00:42:50,985 --> 00:42:51,820 It's really rough. 1003 00:42:52,310 --> 00:42:53,960 And there's a park there and everything. 1004 00:42:54,290 --> 00:42:57,110 And so I ordered that for the dogs to go across. 1005 00:42:57,110 --> 00:42:57,920 I can't even remember what I was gonna say. 1006 00:42:57,950 --> 00:42:58,400 Oh yeah. 1007 00:42:58,610 --> 00:43:02,920 And so I basically, if it looks a bit dodgy, the sky looks a bit dodgy. 1008 00:43:02,920 --> 00:43:06,120 I go, Archangel Arial, she's the archangel of the planet, animal 1009 00:43:06,125 --> 00:43:07,470 kingdom, that kind of thing. 1010 00:43:07,770 --> 00:43:11,280 And I said, can you just not make it rain just for half an hour so 1011 00:43:11,280 --> 00:43:14,030 that I can sit and the dogs can have a run around in the park. 1012 00:43:14,080 --> 00:43:14,580 It worked. 1013 00:43:14,580 --> 00:43:17,100 I've even done a TikTok video on it and you, YouTube. 1014 00:43:17,100 --> 00:43:21,690 Cause I went, I was sitting in the car, excuse me, I was sitting in the car 1015 00:43:22,200 --> 00:43:24,960 went there, bright sunshine, right? 1016 00:43:24,965 --> 00:43:28,980 And then got in the car and as I turned up on the driveway, it just started to rain. 1017 00:43:29,040 --> 00:43:32,790 Got them in and it pelted down for the rest of the day. 1018 00:43:32,790 --> 00:43:34,470 It literally was a slot. 1019 00:43:34,950 --> 00:43:39,030 And I'm like, that's really weird that I I really think I did that. 1020 00:43:39,090 --> 00:43:40,650 I think I did control the weather. 1021 00:43:40,950 --> 00:43:44,730 I think what it is really is that, cause I, and then I thought that I didn't 1022 00:43:44,730 --> 00:43:45,900 control the weather at all, did I? 1023 00:43:46,170 --> 00:43:50,635 So I think what they do is that if you send a thought up to whatever source 1024 00:43:50,635 --> 00:43:52,555 it is, and this was Ariel, right? 1025 00:43:53,065 --> 00:43:56,815 I feel that they then nudge you and say Walk now. 1026 00:43:56,875 --> 00:43:57,625 Walk the dog now. 1027 00:43:58,420 --> 00:44:03,040 And so you walk cuz they know there's gonna be that half an hour of sunshine. 1028 00:44:03,040 --> 00:44:04,180 And I think that's how it works. 1029 00:44:04,180 --> 00:44:07,455 And it's the same as like synchronicity, so it's either like 1030 00:44:07,455 --> 00:44:10,635 your spirit loved one or a guide, or a guides or an angel or something. 1031 00:44:10,635 --> 00:44:11,985 If you walk along go into the shop now. 1032 00:44:11,985 --> 00:44:15,405 Go into the shop now and you walk into the shop and it's your, your husband's 1033 00:44:15,405 --> 00:44:19,945 favorite song or something, so I think they just inspire you to do things. 1034 00:44:19,945 --> 00:44:20,575 It's so weird. 1035 00:44:20,575 --> 00:44:22,105 There's a Robin just landed there. 1036 00:44:23,095 --> 00:44:25,075 Oh, I wish I could turn the camera around. 1037 00:44:25,375 --> 00:44:25,995 I think it's just gone. 1038 00:44:25,995 --> 00:44:28,065 Did you, I dunno if you'll see that go through there 1039 00:44:28,490 --> 00:44:29,480 no, it's a bit blurry, 1040 00:44:30,295 --> 00:44:36,895 but yeah, so it's just beautiful how they nudge you in the right direction, and 1041 00:44:36,900 --> 00:44:40,125 they push you go there next, and then you hear the song again in a different shop. 1042 00:44:40,495 --> 00:44:43,970 Or they like, oh, just do this first and then get into the car. 1043 00:44:44,375 --> 00:44:46,205 Because when you get into the car, you'll turn it on and that'll be 1044 00:44:46,205 --> 00:44:48,925 another song your husband loved, and I think that's how it works. 1045 00:44:48,925 --> 00:44:52,825 It's rather than them magic in everything, it's them nudging us 1046 00:44:52,825 --> 00:44:55,945 and putting us where we need to be exposed to that synchronicity. 1047 00:44:56,855 --> 00:44:59,405 That's how I feel that it works and I just love it. 1048 00:44:59,410 --> 00:45:03,150 And when I, when it's like I do my prism living course, which is 1049 00:45:03,150 --> 00:45:06,900 a spiritual awareness course and it's also tools for how to clear 1050 00:45:06,900 --> 00:45:08,640 the shadow side of yourself out. 1051 00:45:08,700 --> 00:45:12,590 It's all the tools that I learned being in five years in bed and to 1052 00:45:12,620 --> 00:45:14,570 watch people like, I think, yeah, okay. 1053 00:45:14,570 --> 00:45:15,650 I'll have session one. 1054 00:45:15,890 --> 00:45:17,500 And then they go through that and then session two. 1055 00:45:17,500 --> 00:45:19,390 And they're like oh my goodness, this happened. 1056 00:45:19,390 --> 00:45:22,360 And they have their first synchronicity, like a major one, and 1057 00:45:22,360 --> 00:45:24,150 it, they absolutely are like, wow. 1058 00:45:24,650 --> 00:45:26,380 I'm like, welcome to my world. 1059 00:45:26,500 --> 00:45:28,240 Everybody can have this. 1060 00:45:28,510 --> 00:45:29,590 Just work it. 1061 00:45:29,770 --> 00:45:31,000 Just send out the thought. 1062 00:45:31,000 --> 00:45:34,150 Just ask for a sign, meditate, do what you need to do. 1063 00:45:34,150 --> 00:45:38,710 Go walking in nature, and you'll get ideas and they'll come to a beautiful fruition. 1064 00:45:39,010 --> 00:45:44,380 And to watch them open and awaken is just such a joy. 1065 00:45:44,380 --> 00:45:48,220 These people come to me broken, or they've come, they're in grief or 1066 00:45:48,220 --> 00:45:51,940 they hate themselves, or they've got issues, addictions, and they go through 1067 00:45:51,940 --> 00:45:55,885 the calls and they find themselves and then they suddenly find that they 1068 00:45:55,885 --> 00:46:01,255 have access to all of these realms and it's just, ah, I just am so lucky. 1069 00:46:01,255 --> 00:46:02,875 I just love what I do. 1070 00:46:02,935 --> 00:46:07,825 And to see people suddenly think, wow, there's something in this. 1071 00:46:07,830 --> 00:46:12,715 And then they become these sponges, these spiritual sponges that then send 1072 00:46:12,715 --> 00:46:14,095 me, oh, have you've seen this person? 1073 00:46:14,095 --> 00:46:15,295 Have you seen that person on? 1074 00:46:15,295 --> 00:46:19,345 Because they're literally grabbing all this ethereal knowledge, all this esoteric 1075 00:46:19,345 --> 00:46:21,025 knowledge from everybody they can. 1076 00:46:21,145 --> 00:46:25,045 And that's what I aim to do, is spread that so that we can 1077 00:46:25,045 --> 00:46:27,475 cope with this human experience. 1078 00:46:27,475 --> 00:46:30,745 Because it does get tough, doesn't it? 1079 00:46:31,415 --> 00:46:32,370 Really tough. 1080 00:46:32,670 --> 00:46:35,850 See what led you, for instance, what led you look at me, I'm 1081 00:46:35,850 --> 00:46:37,080 becoming the bleeding nose now. 1082 00:46:37,290 --> 00:46:42,060 What led you to do this to bring knowledge of all of these wonderful 1083 00:46:42,060 --> 00:46:46,320 stories, all these guests you have on, what made you feel that pull to do that? 1084 00:46:46,620 --> 00:46:47,730 It wasn't anything. 1085 00:46:48,030 --> 00:46:52,375 Okay, I, what I did was I saw another interview like this and 1086 00:46:52,375 --> 00:46:53,275 I thought, I've gotta do that. 1087 00:46:53,405 --> 00:46:54,095 That was really it. 1088 00:46:54,185 --> 00:46:56,945 I just knew as soon as I saw it that I've gotta do that. 1089 00:46:57,305 --> 00:46:58,895 Now, prior to that, I had an interest. 1090 00:46:58,895 --> 00:47:03,545 So somewhere in the last sort of year and a half, for some reason I got 1091 00:47:03,545 --> 00:47:05,735 fascinated with out-of-body experiences. 1092 00:47:05,740 --> 00:47:09,060 So I started to read, and then I found about the work that Robert 1093 00:47:09,060 --> 00:47:11,955 Monroe has done with the Monroe Institute and so on and so forth. 1094 00:47:12,435 --> 00:47:15,830 And then, was successful one time and that sort of then I thought, 1095 00:47:15,830 --> 00:47:19,150 okay it's one thing to read and hear people talk about it, but you really 1096 00:47:19,150 --> 00:47:22,750 gotta have some experience yourself. 1097 00:47:22,780 --> 00:47:26,980 And once you've had that, then a lot of doubt fades, right? 1098 00:47:26,980 --> 00:47:29,110 But until that's there, there's always some doubt. 1099 00:47:29,650 --> 00:47:32,105 And then I thought there's just not enough people that talk about it. 1100 00:47:32,855 --> 00:47:34,445 Obviously there are a lot of people that talk about it. 1101 00:47:34,450 --> 00:47:35,975 Cause once you start to look, you go there's loads of 1102 00:47:35,975 --> 00:47:37,715 people talking about it, but. 1103 00:47:38,010 --> 00:47:41,010 I thought as soon as I saw that, I thought that's what I need to do. 1104 00:47:41,130 --> 00:47:45,250 Which is very different to what, my usual sort of line of work in marketing. 1105 00:47:45,720 --> 00:47:49,480 Here I am and I thought that I was gonna do it completely under the radar. 1106 00:47:49,600 --> 00:47:49,990 I wasn't. 1107 00:47:49,990 --> 00:47:52,900 I was just gonna interview people and say, okay, talk to the camera and then I'll 1108 00:47:52,900 --> 00:47:54,520 do the edit later, and then that's it. 1109 00:47:54,520 --> 00:47:55,270 Nobody's gonna know. 1110 00:47:56,080 --> 00:47:56,170 But 1111 00:47:56,230 --> 00:47:57,190 That's what I'm trying. 1112 00:47:57,195 --> 00:47:58,030 You just know. 1113 00:47:58,070 --> 00:47:58,480 you just know. 1114 00:47:59,095 --> 00:48:04,045 So I know from that there was a source that said we need him to educate 1115 00:48:04,045 --> 00:48:08,495 people and to bring, because all of the people, it's amazing the comfort 1116 00:48:08,495 --> 00:48:10,895 they get from watching your videos 1117 00:48:11,135 --> 00:48:15,185 because there's all of, all of the things that people talk of, it's not one, it's 1118 00:48:15,185 --> 00:48:18,365 thousands of people and you go to other channels, it's thousands of people. 1119 00:48:18,365 --> 00:48:20,705 So these people are going, ah, this is really real. 1120 00:48:20,705 --> 00:48:22,955 My dad really ask is in heaven, I really can do this. 1121 00:48:22,955 --> 00:48:24,995 My soul really can travel, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. 1122 00:48:25,085 --> 00:48:28,355 And so I feel that someone nudged you to do that, and you 1123 00:48:28,355 --> 00:48:29,555 just knew you had to do it. 1124 00:48:29,645 --> 00:48:33,130 And it's like me, I don't have to do anything really because 1125 00:48:33,130 --> 00:48:34,360 I've got a police pension. 1126 00:48:34,360 --> 00:48:38,270 I could live very well not with many luxuries, but I could. 1127 00:48:38,275 --> 00:48:40,250 But I am driven, it's like a drug. 1128 00:48:40,760 --> 00:48:43,940 I cannot not do something for humankind. 1129 00:48:43,970 --> 00:48:47,472 I cannot not connect with them and say, this is what I know. 1130 00:48:47,532 --> 00:48:49,002 It's just I have to do it. 1131 00:48:49,437 --> 00:48:50,337 I have to do it. 1132 00:48:50,607 --> 00:48:51,717 And it's the same with you. 1133 00:48:51,717 --> 00:48:55,377 So you are a light worker in your own right, because you are showing 1134 00:48:55,377 --> 00:48:57,957 people the reality of our souls. 1135 00:48:58,287 --> 00:49:01,417 And the other thing is I didn't realize as well that I thought people 1136 00:49:01,417 --> 00:49:02,887 would be more aware than they were. 1137 00:49:02,887 --> 00:49:05,617 But I've been, I'm so aware of previous lives. 1138 00:49:05,622 --> 00:49:10,477 I remember when I was four or five looking up, or every single night, I 1139 00:49:10,477 --> 00:49:14,717 would dream, I'd come out of my body and every night I would be standing 1140 00:49:14,722 --> 00:49:17,887 at the bottom of my stairs and there was a portal at the top of the stairs, 1141 00:49:18,037 --> 00:49:19,927 which I knew led to the spirit world. 1142 00:49:20,227 --> 00:49:23,767 But I'd used to walk a few steps and then come back again because they'd say no, 1143 00:49:23,767 --> 00:49:25,387 you can't come through this door yet. 1144 00:49:25,867 --> 00:49:29,287 And then I used to fly, and I used to go into the back garden and think, 1145 00:49:29,287 --> 00:49:31,027 why can't I fly when I'm awake? 1146 00:49:31,897 --> 00:49:34,387 And it really used to really, and I used to say, mommy, why 1147 00:49:34,387 --> 00:49:35,647 can't I fly when I'm awake? 1148 00:49:35,647 --> 00:49:38,017 She's I dunno, I asked your dad because it's on my dad's side 1149 00:49:38,017 --> 00:49:39,397 of the family and all the woo. 1150 00:49:39,967 --> 00:49:43,817 And my auntie would explain it to me and I just couldn't understand 1151 00:49:43,817 --> 00:49:47,117 why I couldn't fly when I was awake cuz I did it all the time. 1152 00:49:47,657 --> 00:49:52,147 And then I found that after my dad died in a road accident, two days 1153 00:49:52,147 --> 00:49:53,917 after he died, I was only nine. 1154 00:49:54,307 --> 00:49:56,887 He went past me, said, it's okay Nick, I'm all right. 1155 00:49:56,887 --> 00:49:58,837 And I was furious. 1156 00:49:59,407 --> 00:50:03,157 So I ran back to the house and I was like, how dare you mommy? 1157 00:50:03,162 --> 00:50:05,017 How dare you say, my daddy's dead. 1158 00:50:05,227 --> 00:50:06,337 I've just seen him. 1159 00:50:06,337 --> 00:50:09,952 And it was like, everybody's the family are there all, silent silently 1160 00:50:10,072 --> 00:50:11,152 talking and having their tea. 1161 00:50:11,152 --> 00:50:12,712 And I've just kicked off like little. 1162 00:50:13,722 --> 00:50:17,272 And so my granddad pulled me aside and he goes, darling, I'm just 1163 00:50:17,272 --> 00:50:18,592 gonna have to tell you're special. 1164 00:50:18,592 --> 00:50:20,992 You're gonna see people that have passed over. 1165 00:50:20,992 --> 00:50:22,342 You're gonna see things from heaven. 1166 00:50:22,342 --> 00:50:26,092 You're gonna see angels and things that are not of this world, but it's okay. 1167 00:50:26,902 --> 00:50:29,022 And I'm like okay, then that's absolutely fine. 1168 00:50:29,322 --> 00:50:31,332 And it went from there, really. 1169 00:50:31,782 --> 00:50:33,642 But I thought everybody could do that. 1170 00:50:33,642 --> 00:50:36,162 And I, I used to see things that would happen the following day. 1171 00:50:36,672 --> 00:50:37,842 And again, it was, 1172 00:50:37,892 --> 00:50:41,622 and now I realize that everybody else is a muggle and I'm, 1173 00:50:41,912 --> 00:50:42,202 I 1174 00:50:42,502 --> 00:50:45,992 and I should be a hogwarts and not a mud blood either. 1175 00:50:45,992 --> 00:50:46,862 I can tell you, 1176 00:50:46,892 --> 00:50:47,382 tell. 1177 00:50:47,682 --> 00:50:50,052 oh God, wouldn't you just love it if there was a real Hogwarts? 1178 00:50:50,052 --> 00:50:51,222 Do you like Harry Potter? 1179 00:50:51,447 --> 00:50:51,507 her? 1180 00:50:51,687 --> 00:50:52,077 I do. 1181 00:50:52,077 --> 00:50:55,407 My wife is an absolute insane fan. 1182 00:50:55,407 --> 00:51:00,177 She must have watched each of the movies up at least 20 times each. 1183 00:51:00,177 --> 00:51:00,687 For sure. 1184 00:51:01,647 --> 00:51:05,187 I literally decide if I, especially if I'm on a bad day and I've got really 1185 00:51:05,187 --> 00:51:07,437 bad pain and I'm exhausted, you are. 1186 00:51:07,437 --> 00:51:10,917 You learn to know that your mind says, nothing's happening today. 1187 00:51:10,917 --> 00:51:11,307 Love. 1188 00:51:11,367 --> 00:51:15,417 Nothing is happening and you get a block emotionally, physically, where you cannot 1189 00:51:15,417 --> 00:51:17,097 do a thing apart from just lay there. 1190 00:51:17,097 --> 00:51:19,437 I still get those days and I think 1191 00:51:19,597 --> 00:51:19,957 I think, 1192 00:51:20,257 --> 00:51:21,637 Harry Potter Fest. 1193 00:51:21,997 --> 00:51:22,777 And I'm on it. 1194 00:51:22,777 --> 00:51:25,927 And I start the first one and then I just watch the whole lot. 1195 00:51:25,927 --> 00:51:26,977 Sounds really sad, didn't it? 1196 00:51:26,977 --> 00:51:27,667 But I don't care. 1197 00:51:27,727 --> 00:51:28,297 I love it. 1198 00:51:28,507 --> 00:51:31,927 And when I was in, when I actually got to Florida, right when I went to the Harry 1199 00:51:31,927 --> 00:51:36,367 Potter place and went to Hogwarts, I just stood there and cried like a baby. 1200 00:51:36,607 --> 00:51:38,197 Do you know the moving pictures? 1201 00:51:38,197 --> 00:51:40,157 I was like, it's even Dawn French. 1202 00:51:40,162 --> 00:51:41,447 I'm like, oh my God. 1203 00:51:41,807 --> 00:51:43,667 And I just cried like a baby. 1204 00:51:43,667 --> 00:51:47,807 And one of the, one of the people you know like that, Hey, how you doing? 1205 00:51:48,057 --> 00:51:49,137 He goes, are you okay? 1206 00:51:49,137 --> 00:51:52,887 I went, I'm just really happy to be here because this is Hogwarts. 1207 00:51:52,907 --> 00:51:54,662 And she's yeah, she needs to go in the nut bin. 1208 00:51:54,912 --> 00:51:57,017 The times are people have gone. 1209 00:51:57,017 --> 00:51:57,777 Yeah, okay. 1210 00:51:58,037 --> 00:51:59,667 And I, oh my goodness. 1211 00:51:59,667 --> 00:52:02,077 I went to Olivanders to get my wand. 1212 00:52:02,097 --> 00:52:03,367 It was Dumbledore's. 1213 00:52:03,567 --> 00:52:04,557 Get in. 1214 00:52:04,857 --> 00:52:07,827 I literally was more excited, I was like throwing kids out the way 1215 00:52:07,827 --> 00:52:09,187 so I could get through the queue. 1216 00:52:09,957 --> 00:52:12,587 Not really, it's my, I want my wand. 1217 00:52:12,587 --> 00:52:13,897 Get out the way child. 1218 00:52:14,197 --> 00:52:17,827 Absolutely love it cuz it's the magic of it, isn't it? 1219 00:52:17,877 --> 00:52:20,718 And I, we have the Arthur Finley College, I dunno if you've ever heard of it. 1220 00:52:20,748 --> 00:52:26,018 It's like a psychic development place in the near Stanford airport here in Essex. 1221 00:52:26,348 --> 00:52:28,508 And people come from all over the world to study. 1222 00:52:28,508 --> 00:52:29,828 It's all different courses there. 1223 00:52:30,218 --> 00:52:33,908 And I call that Hogwarts, but it's nothing like the real Hogwarts. 1224 00:52:33,908 --> 00:52:34,808 What a shame. 1225 00:52:35,228 --> 00:52:37,178 But, oh God, I love it. 1226 00:52:37,208 --> 00:52:41,158 Could you imagine going on a train to just pure magic? 1227 00:52:41,488 --> 00:52:45,568 So to a certain essence, I think that's why I love doing what I do, because I'm 1228 00:52:45,568 --> 00:52:50,158 showing people a bit magic, a bit of escapism a bit, but it's actually reality. 1229 00:52:50,968 --> 00:52:53,598 It's just a different, it's a parallel reality. 1230 00:52:54,048 --> 00:52:54,318 Yeah. 1231 00:52:54,318 --> 00:52:55,788 And that's why I love it so much. 1232 00:52:55,788 --> 00:52:57,978 And people say to me, how do you stay so positive when you've 1233 00:52:57,978 --> 00:52:59,598 got such a disabling condition? 1234 00:52:59,898 --> 00:53:02,808 Because my mind's, my mind I've sorted my mind out. 1235 00:53:02,808 --> 00:53:06,138 I've sorted how I want to choose to live my life. 1236 00:53:06,138 --> 00:53:09,588 And my guide once said to me, what is wrong with you humans? 1237 00:53:09,588 --> 00:53:10,338 Julianas. 1238 00:53:10,788 --> 00:53:16,038 He said, why is it that you all choose to drag yourself through a desert when 1239 00:53:16,038 --> 00:53:20,448 you can actually consciously put yourself in Oasis with every part of your life? 1240 00:53:20,748 --> 00:53:24,538 Why do you have to martyr yourself and walk through the desert without any 1241 00:53:24,543 --> 00:53:26,778 water, any food, sustenance and suffer? 1242 00:53:26,828 --> 00:53:29,428 He goes, I just, he goes, I just don't know sometimes. 1243 00:53:29,788 --> 00:53:30,538 And he is right. 1244 00:53:30,598 --> 00:53:32,938 You know, we choose, oh, I'm gonna be rubbish today. 1245 00:53:32,988 --> 00:53:34,458 Then you'll be rubbish, won't you? 1246 00:53:35,088 --> 00:53:37,848 But then if you think, yes, I'm gonna be really good today. 1247 00:53:37,853 --> 00:53:39,138 I'm gonna be happy. 1248 00:53:39,143 --> 00:53:40,608 I'm gonna play my favorite song. 1249 00:53:40,608 --> 00:53:42,493 I'm gonna burn my favorite essential oils. 1250 00:53:42,743 --> 00:53:44,453 I'm gonna do whatever I do that I love. 1251 00:53:44,813 --> 00:53:47,063 And then your day is completely different. 1252 00:53:47,303 --> 00:53:48,953 And we can all choose that. 1253 00:53:49,043 --> 00:53:49,373 We can. 1254 00:53:49,373 --> 00:53:52,463 We all have the choice to live a happy or sad life. 1255 00:53:52,463 --> 00:53:54,143 And then lots of people say, it's all right for you. 1256 00:53:54,443 --> 00:53:55,373 This has happened to me. 1257 00:53:55,373 --> 00:53:56,243 That's happened to me. 1258 00:53:56,303 --> 00:53:56,933 Exactly. 1259 00:53:56,933 --> 00:53:58,043 It's happened. 1260 00:53:58,283 --> 00:54:02,963 So it depends on how you deal with it as to how you get away from it, heal from 1261 00:54:02,963 --> 00:54:04,793 it, and what you've learned from it. 1262 00:54:05,033 --> 00:54:09,533 What did you learn from that situation, and so we all have to naturally grieve. 1263 00:54:09,538 --> 00:54:11,513 Loss is part of our life down here. 1264 00:54:11,513 --> 00:54:15,053 Part of our human experience and the older our soul is, the 1265 00:54:15,383 --> 00:54:16,943 harder the experiences become. 1266 00:54:16,943 --> 00:54:19,238 Because when we get up there, this is all in my new book. 1267 00:54:19,508 --> 00:54:23,808 When you get up there, it's like my mom, oh my goodness. 1268 00:54:23,813 --> 00:54:26,978 She was just literally no filter, my mom. 1269 00:54:27,098 --> 00:54:28,748 She was worse than me, believe it or not. 1270 00:54:29,258 --> 00:54:32,888 And when I went up there and spoke to her, she's I said, you alright? 1271 00:54:32,888 --> 00:54:34,108 She goes, yeah, it's all right. 1272 00:54:34,108 --> 00:54:37,283 She goes, it's all cuz you, you see everybody you're really excited 1273 00:54:37,283 --> 00:54:40,043 for like the first day or so she goes, and then it's a bit boring. 1274 00:54:40,313 --> 00:54:41,993 So I said, what do you mean, It's a bit boring?. 1275 00:54:42,203 --> 00:54:43,428 She goes you can do what you want. 1276 00:54:43,518 --> 00:54:45,558 So she goes, so yeah, gets a bit boring. 1277 00:54:45,563 --> 00:54:46,908 I'm like, oh my God. 1278 00:54:47,148 --> 00:54:49,698 So she goes, I like coming down here to see all the drama. 1279 00:54:50,328 --> 00:54:51,348 And I'm like, okay. 1280 00:54:51,378 --> 00:54:52,098 And it's true. 1281 00:54:52,098 --> 00:54:56,208 And I've seen it where you've been, it's normally they say it's three 1282 00:54:56,208 --> 00:55:00,883 generations before you reincarnate so that you are not bumping into someone 1283 00:55:00,883 --> 00:55:02,133 that you know on the earth plane. 1284 00:55:02,133 --> 00:55:03,933 That's something how they set when you incarnate. 1285 00:55:04,473 --> 00:55:08,558 And she, so what they do is when I went up there and said how does it all work? 1286 00:55:08,563 --> 00:55:12,068 When I went into the halls of learning, it's like we do get bored. 1287 00:55:12,098 --> 00:55:14,408 Everything is a utopia. 1288 00:55:14,413 --> 00:55:19,028 With our soulmates, with our soul cluster, we can create whatever reality we want. 1289 00:55:19,028 --> 00:55:22,268 There's no challenges, there's no pain, there's no hurt, there's nothing. 1290 00:55:22,718 --> 00:55:26,548 And so when it's our time to reincarnate, I think we get really sick sense 1291 00:55:26,563 --> 00:55:28,898 of humor because we go in, right? 1292 00:55:28,898 --> 00:55:30,858 And our guide's there, our soul guide's there. 1293 00:55:30,888 --> 00:55:32,388 That's with Metatron. 1294 00:55:32,628 --> 00:55:34,728 Right, what do you wanna experience this time around? 1295 00:55:35,118 --> 00:55:35,688 Right! 1296 00:55:35,988 --> 00:55:37,398 What should we do this time? 1297 00:55:37,398 --> 00:55:39,288 Let's have a really tough one, shall we? 1298 00:55:39,498 --> 00:55:42,288 You can leave me, you can turn up there and this'll happen. 1299 00:55:42,618 --> 00:55:46,458 And we crave human experience and challenge and obstacles. 1300 00:55:46,458 --> 00:55:47,328 The older we get. 1301 00:55:47,913 --> 00:55:51,933 So a young soul for instance, so much you've got loads of money and everything's 1302 00:55:51,933 --> 00:55:54,843 easy for them and they, oh, this just happened and I opened a company here. 1303 00:55:54,843 --> 00:55:55,863 Now I'm multimillionaire. 1304 00:55:56,043 --> 00:55:58,893 They're the old young souls that still crave the material. 1305 00:55:59,163 --> 00:56:04,113 Whereas as you get older, the older souls crave a human experience. 1306 00:56:04,533 --> 00:56:07,478 So they're the sort of people that, give up their whole lives to open 1307 00:56:07,483 --> 00:56:10,808 an animal shelter and they just wear the clothes that have got on 1308 00:56:10,808 --> 00:56:13,908 their back and they don't care, and they're just giving themselves to the 1309 00:56:13,913 --> 00:56:15,828 planet or to, to the animal kingdom. 1310 00:56:16,488 --> 00:56:17,658 And they're the old souls. 1311 00:56:17,898 --> 00:56:20,238 You always know an old soul because their life is rubbish. 1312 00:56:20,238 --> 00:56:21,378 Mine's been rubbish. 1313 00:56:21,378 --> 00:56:22,938 My life has been so rubbish. 1314 00:56:22,938 --> 00:56:28,728 It's unbelievable until the awakening, the proper awakening during those five years. 1315 00:56:29,088 --> 00:56:32,183 And and people say, oh, so you are saying that it's my fault 1316 00:56:32,183 --> 00:56:33,233 that I've had a hard life? 1317 00:56:33,238 --> 00:56:33,743 I said, no. 1318 00:56:33,923 --> 00:56:37,853 But if you look at the bigger picture of an eternal soul, you've chosen one 1319 00:56:37,858 --> 00:56:41,903 tiny little incarnation and you've added some obstacles in it and some 1320 00:56:41,903 --> 00:56:45,263 pain in there so that you can experience it, cuz when you get back up there, 1321 00:56:45,608 --> 00:56:48,458 It's back to per perfect like utopia. 1322 00:56:48,698 --> 00:56:49,778 So that's why. 1323 00:56:49,888 --> 00:56:52,988 But some, most people can't handle it when I say that though, they 1324 00:56:52,988 --> 00:56:55,098 will not accept which I get. 1325 00:56:55,098 --> 00:56:58,093 They will not accept that they've chosen, what they're going through. 1326 00:56:58,443 --> 00:56:59,453 But we do. 1327 00:56:59,453 --> 00:57:00,623 And people get angry with it. 1328 00:57:00,623 --> 00:57:01,583 How dare you say that? 1329 00:57:01,583 --> 00:57:03,713 I didn't ask for my mum to die when I was five. 1330 00:57:04,073 --> 00:57:06,773 No, I didn't ask my dad to die when I was nine, but apparently 1331 00:57:06,803 --> 00:57:08,453 we agreed it when we was up there. 1332 00:57:08,693 --> 00:57:10,043 And he's even confirmed it. 1333 00:57:10,343 --> 00:57:12,863 He's even confirmed it when he has been up there and said, yeah, it was part of me. 1334 00:57:13,043 --> 00:57:16,363 He goes, I did have he said, I did have a subparagraph. 1335 00:57:16,368 --> 00:57:17,413 I'm right, what are you talking about? 1336 00:57:17,743 --> 00:57:20,863 He said, I actually did have the choice this time, which I must have 1337 00:57:20,863 --> 00:57:26,263 put in there at some point in the life plan to come down, but be completely 1338 00:57:26,473 --> 00:57:28,303 disabled, completely paralyzed. 1339 00:57:28,308 --> 00:57:30,403 And he goes, Nick, I couldn't do that cause I couldn't dance. 1340 00:57:30,403 --> 00:57:33,913 My dad was real right darling, beautifully handsome. 1341 00:57:34,093 --> 00:57:34,983 He reminds me of you. 1342 00:57:34,983 --> 00:57:37,963 He had this beautiful blue eyes, dark hair, and everybody loved my dad. 1343 00:57:38,443 --> 00:57:42,393 And my mum was this most beautiful, she was a model and she was like, 1344 00:57:42,513 --> 00:57:43,743 in her years, she'd done modeling. 1345 00:57:43,743 --> 00:57:47,313 She was beautifully lady and everybody was quite jealous of them. 1346 00:57:47,673 --> 00:57:50,903 Perfect couple, and he said, I couldn't come down here and be a veggie. 1347 00:57:51,533 --> 00:57:52,703 And I said, you can't call them that. 1348 00:57:52,708 --> 00:57:53,903 He goes, no, I don't care. 1349 00:57:53,903 --> 00:57:55,613 I didn't, I couldn't come down and be that. 1350 00:57:55,883 --> 00:57:57,113 He said to stay up here, love. 1351 00:57:57,113 --> 00:57:58,613 He goes, I'm sorry, but you know what? 1352 00:57:58,613 --> 00:58:02,113 I see him more now than I most really would've back, if he was alive now? 1353 00:58:02,503 --> 00:58:04,843 It's just, he's always there for me. 1354 00:58:04,963 --> 00:58:09,103 He's always there and it's like things like I think it's in Rise and Fall as 1355 00:58:09,103 --> 00:58:11,473 well where I say about the TV going off. 1356 00:58:11,833 --> 00:58:15,373 And it started in November and the TV kept going off in the lounge. 1357 00:58:15,373 --> 00:58:19,033 Now my partner, he was skeptical to begin with and used to take the 1358 00:58:19,033 --> 00:58:22,503 Mickey out on me, but over the years he's oh no, it's totally right. 1359 00:58:22,563 --> 00:58:24,273 I'm never ever gonna argue with it again. 1360 00:58:24,513 --> 00:58:29,313 So he's saying to me, maybe the TV keeps turning cause there's an internal alarm. 1361 00:58:29,318 --> 00:58:32,283 I said there's quite a few alarms then because it goes like between 1362 00:58:32,283 --> 00:58:33,423 three and a half past three. 1363 00:58:33,773 --> 00:58:36,033 So he goes, oh, there's an electrical fault. 1364 00:58:36,063 --> 00:58:37,203 There's an electrical fault. 1365 00:58:37,233 --> 00:58:38,313 And I went, there isn't. 1366 00:58:38,313 --> 00:58:41,163 I said, I'm telling you it's my dad, but he won't tell me what it's about. 1367 00:58:41,343 --> 00:58:42,783 This went on for three months. 1368 00:58:43,203 --> 00:58:47,423 And then he basically, Darren goes, no, there's definitely a fault with the telly. 1369 00:58:47,423 --> 00:58:48,293 We'll have to get a new telly. 1370 00:58:48,293 --> 00:58:52,053 And as he said it, the TV on the bedroom came on as well, which is 1371 00:58:52,053 --> 00:58:54,633 fantastic cause it's like a TV bed. 1372 00:58:54,693 --> 00:58:57,393 That was one of my luxuries because I thought if I'm gonna spend a load 1373 00:58:57,393 --> 00:58:59,793 of time in bed, I'm having a TV bed. 1374 00:59:00,183 --> 00:59:02,223 So it rises up, at the bottom of the bed. 1375 00:59:02,403 --> 00:59:08,253 So you have to press the button for it to rise up, press the sound tube for that to 1376 00:59:08,253 --> 00:59:11,343 come on and press the TV to turn it on. 1377 00:59:11,343 --> 00:59:12,963 Then press the sky button. 1378 00:59:13,443 --> 00:59:16,173 So that's all different remotes that you got to press, and it 1379 00:59:16,173 --> 00:59:19,563 just came up and turned on and everything turned on the sound. 1380 00:59:19,568 --> 00:59:20,333 He's whoa. 1381 00:59:20,663 --> 00:59:21,503 He said, that's good. 1382 00:59:21,503 --> 00:59:22,703 That's the, and I went, exactly. 1383 00:59:22,703 --> 00:59:24,683 So both TVs were playing. 1384 00:59:24,983 --> 00:59:26,033 Three o'clock in the morning. 1385 00:59:26,813 --> 00:59:29,333 And then after three nights of that I was like, do you know 1386 00:59:29,333 --> 00:59:30,443 what this is getting a joke. 1387 00:59:30,443 --> 00:59:34,643 So I just walked into the lounge and went, what do you want me to do for God's sake? 1388 00:59:34,643 --> 00:59:35,663 I'm so tired. 1389 00:59:35,663 --> 00:59:36,233 What is it? 1390 00:59:36,233 --> 00:59:37,223 You won't tell me? 1391 00:59:37,313 --> 00:59:41,183 And then my phone come on and there was a TikTok thing playing. 1392 00:59:41,183 --> 00:59:42,263 I'm like, oh hell no. 1393 00:59:42,293 --> 00:59:43,343 I don't wanna do that. 1394 00:59:43,343 --> 00:59:43,348 No. 1395 00:59:43,708 --> 00:59:47,758 But I did go on it because the TV wouldn't stop. 1396 00:59:47,758 --> 00:59:51,538 So the day I did my first video, the TV stopped. 1397 00:59:52,318 --> 00:59:53,338 And so it was him. 1398 00:59:53,338 --> 00:59:55,048 And for some reason, he wanted me to go on TikTok. 1399 00:59:55,048 --> 00:59:59,068 And I suppose it's just to reach a different genre of people if you like. 1400 00:59:59,698 --> 01:00:01,168 I prefer YouTube. 1401 01:00:01,168 --> 01:00:04,858 I love YouTube because you have the most beautiful community, don't you? 1402 01:00:04,888 --> 01:00:08,548 And they're so supportive and wonderful, and I think they're great. 1403 01:00:08,578 --> 01:00:12,328 And as right at the beginning when we said about me having a big boost, 1404 01:00:12,333 --> 01:00:15,358 I'm so pleased for that because I can put more attention on YouTube 1405 01:00:15,358 --> 01:00:19,208 now because TikTok I find, I dunno if you do anything on there, or put 1406 01:00:19,208 --> 01:00:20,998 anything on there, but I find it very. 1407 01:00:21,493 --> 01:00:23,548 There's a lot of negativeness in that app. 1408 01:00:23,608 --> 01:00:25,408 There's a lot of people that are the keyboard warriors. 1409 01:00:25,408 --> 01:00:29,008 I call them, oh, I wake up and I'll just create hate everywhere. 1410 01:00:29,308 --> 01:00:29,908 Yeah, 1411 01:00:29,923 --> 01:00:30,613 in the mornings. 1412 01:00:30,613 --> 01:00:31,573 I no, go on. 1413 01:00:31,653 --> 01:00:34,168 it ex it exists on different platforms. 1414 01:00:34,168 --> 01:00:37,298 I think it's, it's on all the platforms and I suppose 1415 01:00:37,553 --> 01:00:37,793 Oh, 1416 01:00:38,348 --> 01:00:41,703 I feel like I've only got so, so many resources to spread around and 1417 01:00:42,093 --> 01:00:43,893 there's way more eyeballs on YouTube. 1418 01:00:44,283 --> 01:00:45,663 Absolutely, yeah. 1419 01:00:45,668 --> 01:00:48,479 That's where I'm gonna concentrate on mine because they are beautiful 1420 01:00:48,484 --> 01:00:52,429 people and they really, they respect what you do, don't they? 1421 01:00:52,429 --> 01:00:55,309 And they've got ultimate respect and listen to what you have to say. 1422 01:00:55,359 --> 01:00:56,349 No, I love it here. 1423 01:00:56,709 --> 01:01:00,069 I do love it and I love doing these interviews as well, cuz 1424 01:01:00,069 --> 01:01:04,139 most of the time, most especially regular hosts, they're just go. 1425 01:01:04,464 --> 01:01:05,784 Okay, record. 1426 01:01:05,844 --> 01:01:07,944 And off you go, Nikki. 1427 01:01:07,974 --> 01:01:11,064 And then they're like, yeah, I'll have a cup of tea, go out and do my shopping. 1428 01:01:11,064 --> 01:01:12,264 Come back and go, yep, okay. 1429 01:01:12,264 --> 01:01:17,147 I'm just gonna go and do, I just talk for England and Australia and America. 1430 01:01:17,177 --> 01:01:18,467 For the world basically. 1431 01:01:18,827 --> 01:01:22,302 I remember when I was training in the police and people said, oh my God, 1432 01:01:22,302 --> 01:01:24,252 we've gotta do this exercise tomorrow. 1433 01:01:24,612 --> 01:01:28,602 And you had to talk about the most ridiculous things for 10 minutes. 1434 01:01:28,602 --> 01:01:32,180 So it just gave you communicative skills and, confidence in 1435 01:01:32,185 --> 01:01:33,500 speaking in front of a crowd. 1436 01:01:33,740 --> 01:01:38,030 And I had to talk 10 minutes on the inside of a ping pong ball. 1437 01:01:38,330 --> 01:01:39,070 Piece of cake. 1438 01:01:39,370 --> 01:01:41,525 And another one was a gorilla's armpit. 1439 01:01:41,825 --> 01:01:43,415 That would be more interesting at least. 1440 01:01:43,830 --> 01:01:44,100 No. 1441 01:01:44,100 --> 01:01:45,090 But it's e it's easy. 1442 01:01:45,095 --> 01:01:46,920 I just, I'm just a natural talker. 1443 01:01:47,220 --> 01:01:47,430 Yeah. 1444 01:01:47,430 --> 01:01:51,000 As I said to you, looking in the oven reflection, I can just talk for 1445 01:01:51,000 --> 01:01:55,160 England, which is good because you need good communicators if they're gonna. 1446 01:01:55,715 --> 01:02:01,025 Not sell, but if you are going to talk about the things that we do in respect 1447 01:02:01,025 --> 01:02:04,965 of heaven after life, incarnation, all that you have to have a bit of humor. 1448 01:02:04,965 --> 01:02:08,835 You have to be down to earth, not be too spooky dooky people, the people 1449 01:02:08,835 --> 01:02:13,625 that wear like cobwebby stuff and have all like weird stuff going on and all 1450 01:02:13,625 --> 01:02:14,975 this weird stuff in the background. 1451 01:02:14,975 --> 01:02:15,755 You're like, really? 1452 01:02:16,205 --> 01:02:17,345 Just keep it real. 1453 01:02:17,375 --> 01:02:18,365 And that's what I like to do. 1454 01:02:18,365 --> 01:02:20,105 And that came about keeping it real. 1455 01:02:20,315 --> 01:02:22,810 That was just, people watching me saying, you really keep it real. 1456 01:02:22,815 --> 01:02:24,970 Didn't, I said, yeah, I don't do airs and graces. 1457 01:02:25,180 --> 01:02:25,990 This is it. 1458 01:02:26,140 --> 01:02:27,550 This is how it happens. 1459 01:02:27,670 --> 01:02:31,630 And I suppose I've had more credibility over the years because 1460 01:02:31,630 --> 01:02:35,300 I was a police officer before as well, because some, there are 1461 01:02:35,305 --> 01:02:38,465 some, oh, I can feel your energy. 1462 01:02:38,465 --> 01:02:39,785 I'm not that person at all. 1463 01:02:40,115 --> 01:02:43,685 So by being down to Earth, I think it, it makes you more credible, when you're 1464 01:02:44,055 --> 01:02:45,275 actually talking about this stuff. 1465 01:02:45,725 --> 01:02:49,535 But then again, how could you, I, what do you think after reading 1466 01:02:49,535 --> 01:02:54,785 Rise and Fall, how could, I dunno how skeptic could get around all 1467 01:02:54,785 --> 01:02:56,375 of those stories I've got in there. 1468 01:02:56,435 --> 01:02:57,065 What do you think? 1469 01:02:57,365 --> 01:02:57,855 Yeah. 1470 01:02:57,855 --> 01:03:02,785 I think that you just, I went in there full believer already, but you you 1471 01:03:02,785 --> 01:03:06,770 can't not read something like that and go, just can't make that stuff up. 1472 01:03:07,495 --> 01:03:08,870 You just can't possibly make it up. 1473 01:03:08,875 --> 01:03:09,200 Yeah. 1474 01:03:09,680 --> 01:03:10,040 Yeah. 1475 01:03:10,460 --> 01:03:14,060 And that's why that's so glad I did my Soul Journal. 1476 01:03:14,060 --> 01:03:17,810 I'm actually just in the, I'm just, funny enough, she's from Australia, 1477 01:03:17,815 --> 01:03:19,940 Trish, oh my God, she's amazing. 1478 01:03:20,300 --> 01:03:24,440 I've got I've found her again through synchronicity, a graphic designer and 1479 01:03:24,445 --> 01:03:28,295 I'm gonna create my own soul journal because, If it wasn't for me doing the 1480 01:03:28,295 --> 01:03:32,075 Soul journals, I never would've had book one, me, myself and I, because that was 1481 01:03:32,075 --> 01:03:37,475 me when I could write, writing my feelings out and writing what I was going through. 1482 01:03:37,795 --> 01:03:40,885 And I thought it was a bit too, to begin with. 1483 01:03:41,155 --> 01:03:43,195 There are lots of people said, no, we are in the same boat. 1484 01:03:43,285 --> 01:03:44,005 We get it. 1485 01:03:44,065 --> 01:03:45,200 There's millions of us. 1486 01:03:45,230 --> 01:03:46,610 Exactly the same as you, Nicky. 1487 01:03:46,610 --> 01:03:48,230 So that was okay. 1488 01:03:48,590 --> 01:03:52,430 And then the second one, again, I've literally just got a whole box full 1489 01:03:52,430 --> 01:03:56,870 of my journals and I just went through them and marked, that's a good story. 1490 01:03:56,870 --> 01:04:00,979 I've got hun thousands most probably that I could do about another six 1491 01:04:00,984 --> 01:04:02,659 books with all the stories I've got. 1492 01:04:02,969 --> 01:04:07,379 And so soul journals are just so precious to me, writing out your 1493 01:04:07,379 --> 01:04:10,709 meditations, your dreams, your feelings, your emotions, writing to perhaps 1494 01:04:10,714 --> 01:04:14,619 people you're grieving and writing out all your spiritual experiences. 1495 01:04:14,619 --> 01:04:16,749 And thank goodness I did that because. 1496 01:04:17,659 --> 01:04:20,019 Because half of the stories I forgot. 1497 01:04:20,419 --> 01:04:23,749 But then they're all written time and dated at the time. 1498 01:04:23,749 --> 01:04:26,389 I suppose that goes back to me being a police officer time and dating 1499 01:04:26,389 --> 01:04:27,739 everything as I put it in there. 1500 01:04:28,169 --> 01:04:30,949 And so it's good to, literally record everything and then be 1501 01:04:30,949 --> 01:04:32,419 able to put it into a book. 1502 01:04:32,449 --> 01:04:33,409 It's just amazing. 1503 01:04:33,409 --> 01:04:37,699 I've got, see the thing is I've got so many books here and it's just 1504 01:04:37,699 --> 01:04:40,789 getting the time and the energy to write them on top of everything else. 1505 01:04:41,569 --> 01:04:44,149 I've just got so many to do, so many. 1506 01:04:44,154 --> 01:04:47,019 But they'll all come, they'll all come as I go along. 1507 01:04:47,019 --> 01:04:48,159 It's just finding the time. 1508 01:04:48,159 --> 01:04:49,689 I need an extra day put in. 1509 01:04:49,719 --> 01:04:53,639 But I think all during that the angels aren't gonna be able to pull that one off. 1510 01:04:53,939 --> 01:04:54,829 I want an eight day. 1511 01:04:55,129 --> 01:04:57,499 You've inspired me to keep a diary more regularly. 1512 01:04:57,499 --> 01:05:00,139 I've started with just dreams, like trying to remember dreams. 1513 01:05:00,139 --> 01:05:03,139 Cuz one thing I noticed was that the more that you tried to remember them and write 1514 01:05:03,144 --> 01:05:04,549 them down, the better you get at it. 1515 01:05:05,069 --> 01:05:06,564 And if you can acquire a habit for it. 1516 01:05:06,564 --> 01:05:08,029 I think it's really very useful. 1517 01:05:08,549 --> 01:05:11,129 I'm conscious of the time, Nicky. 1518 01:05:11,234 --> 01:05:11,564 Oh, is 1519 01:05:11,704 --> 01:05:16,654 What I wanted to do was to ask what's the best way for people to, to follow 1520 01:05:16,654 --> 01:05:20,644 your work and get in contact with you if they want to these days? 1521 01:05:20,899 --> 01:05:21,109 Yeah. 1522 01:05:21,169 --> 01:05:25,124 My website is, it's nickyalan.co.uk, so I work in my dad's name. 1523 01:05:25,124 --> 01:05:30,284 In his memory it says a l a n, nickyalan.co.uk, which is my 1524 01:05:30,284 --> 01:05:33,404 website, which has got everything there in including the shop 1525 01:05:33,404 --> 01:05:35,064 and all my contact details. 1526 01:05:35,514 --> 01:05:39,504 I also am on YouTube, obviously, please come and join me on YouTube. 1527 01:05:39,504 --> 01:05:44,364 I do lots of questions for people and readings and all sorts of things on there. 1528 01:05:44,844 --> 01:05:49,094 Just TikTok, any of the, Instagram or all of those kind of sites, if you need 1529 01:05:49,094 --> 01:05:52,904 to speak to me though, but I'm gonna tell you now though, that because of my 1530 01:05:52,904 --> 01:05:56,924 condition at the moment, I haven't got the energy to do one-to-one readings. 1531 01:05:57,134 --> 01:06:00,704 So I get, normally after I, something like this goes out, I get hundreds 1532 01:06:00,709 --> 01:06:02,174 of people say, can I have a reading? 1533 01:06:02,444 --> 01:06:05,354 I can refer you to my brother who's an amazing medium. 1534 01:06:05,584 --> 01:06:09,304 But I haven't got the energy to dedicate an hour to just one person 1535 01:06:09,574 --> 01:06:11,194 a few times a day at the moment. 1536 01:06:11,194 --> 01:06:12,454 I need to spread it out. 1537 01:06:12,454 --> 01:06:15,454 So just to let you know, don't email me about asking for a reading unless 1538 01:06:15,454 --> 01:06:16,744 you want my brother's details. 1539 01:06:17,114 --> 01:06:19,964 But apart from that, there's any questions you have or anything that 1540 01:06:19,964 --> 01:06:21,374 you know you want need to know. 1541 01:06:21,644 --> 01:06:25,004 Then it's nickyalan333@gmail.com. 1542 01:06:25,214 --> 01:06:27,824 But to be honest with you, the website has got absolutely everything. 1543 01:06:27,934 --> 01:06:30,274 That's got all of the information you'll possibly need. 1544 01:06:30,279 --> 01:06:32,284 And as I say, come join us on YouTube. 1545 01:06:32,554 --> 01:06:36,894 Let's create a big ethereal party with all that's wonderful people on it. 1546 01:06:36,894 --> 01:06:37,954 And have loads of followers. 1547 01:06:37,954 --> 01:06:40,514 I'm gonna say thank you so much for coming on the channel Nicky. 1548 01:06:40,514 --> 01:06:44,064 I knew that this was gonna be fun and I wish I could like, 1549 01:06:44,064 --> 01:06:45,294 talk for a whole lot longer. 1550 01:06:45,664 --> 01:06:49,114 Hopefully we can organize you to come back for a live stream as 1551 01:06:49,114 --> 01:06:50,014 I'd love to, 1552 01:06:50,044 --> 01:06:51,094 Yeah. 1553 01:06:51,099 --> 01:06:54,964 I'm, I've been running a couple of those, so we'll organize that. 1554 01:06:55,214 --> 01:06:58,374 Do you have any, any kind of a message that you want people 1555 01:06:58,374 --> 01:07:00,384 to hear before we wrap it up? 1556 01:07:00,384 --> 01:07:04,634 I think the main message I wanna do is whatever situation you're in 1557 01:07:05,024 --> 01:07:06,884 that's causing you pain or trauma, 1558 01:07:06,944 --> 01:07:10,964 the major thing that you need to get hold of is your mindset. 1559 01:07:11,474 --> 01:07:15,254 Because if your mindset can be as positive as it can and as strong as it 1560 01:07:15,254 --> 01:07:19,214 can, then your experience what you're going through is gonna be so much easier. 1561 01:07:19,484 --> 01:07:22,364 Be kind to yourself, love yourself, and do everything you 1562 01:07:22,369 --> 01:07:24,344 can to be as positive as you can. 1563 01:07:24,344 --> 01:07:25,694 And I know that's hard. 1564 01:07:26,024 --> 01:07:26,774 I know that's hard. 1565 01:07:26,774 --> 01:07:29,744 I've been there and done it and got the sweatshirt and the matching earrings. 1566 01:07:30,014 --> 01:07:35,434 But what I will say is the more you can be focused on your mind and be more positive, 1567 01:07:35,434 --> 01:07:38,074 the easier your life will be during here. 1568 01:07:38,104 --> 01:07:42,154 And if you can't manage it, people like me and Rod and other people 1569 01:07:42,394 --> 01:07:43,744 will show you the way forward. 1570 01:07:44,254 --> 01:07:48,214 Just keep watching all of these brilliant inspirers on here. 1571 01:07:48,219 --> 01:07:50,854 Just keep watching them because they'll fill you with so much 1572 01:07:50,854 --> 01:07:53,374 hope, knowledge, and comfort. 1573 01:07:53,434 --> 01:07:54,814 And that's all I wanna say. 1574 01:07:55,084 --> 01:07:59,824 But if you can't do that or you don't wanna do that, work on your mind because 1575 01:07:59,824 --> 01:08:03,714 it will take you to places you've never been if you just allow them in. 1576 01:08:03,714 --> 01:08:04,974 People say, how do you allow them in? 1577 01:08:05,214 --> 01:08:07,644 Walk in nature, send your thoughts up to them. 1578 01:08:08,314 --> 01:08:08,554 Meditate. 1579 01:08:08,884 --> 01:08:10,084 You don't even have to sit there. 1580 01:08:10,084 --> 01:08:13,144 And meditation can be you walking, gardening, swimming. 1581 01:08:13,474 --> 01:08:17,074 Any way that you can get your mind quiet and just allow positive 1582 01:08:17,079 --> 01:08:19,864 things in, it's gonna be a whole lot easier on this life term. 1583 01:08:19,864 --> 01:08:20,764 This time round. 1584 01:08:21,064 --> 01:08:22,434 That's what I got to say. 1585 01:08:22,734 --> 01:08:24,584 thank you so much for coming on, Nikki. 1586 01:08:24,974 --> 01:08:25,634 I can't wait to do this 1587 01:08:25,634 --> 01:08:25,824 Thanks 1588 01:08:25,824 --> 01:08:26,754 for having me, sweetheart. 1589 01:08:27,104 --> 01:08:28,114 I can't wait either. 1590 01:08:28,414 --> 01:08:29,404 All right, now don't go away.