1 01:00:00,000 --> 01:00:02,958 (upbeat music) 2 01:00:05,375 --> 01:00:06,083 All right, we're back. 3 01:00:06,125 --> 01:00:06,583 We're back. 4 01:00:06,875 --> 01:00:07,541 I mean, I'm not 5 01:00:07,541 --> 01:00:08,583 suggesting you have a lot of ways 6 01:00:08,583 --> 01:00:09,833 to improve, I think you're perfect. 7 01:00:09,875 --> 01:00:10,541 Yeah, no, no, no. 8 01:00:10,541 --> 01:00:11,541 That's never been me. 9 01:00:12,791 --> 01:00:13,083 Yeah. 10 01:00:13,083 --> 01:00:13,666 Is that bad? 11 01:00:14,875 --> 01:00:16,125 No, I don't, it's you. 12 01:00:16,125 --> 01:00:16,750 What are you even at? 13 01:00:16,833 --> 01:00:18,708 I'm a little shocked at it. 14 01:00:18,708 --> 01:00:19,875 I'd be curious how many 15 01:00:19,875 --> 01:00:21,041 other people are like that, 16 01:00:21,041 --> 01:00:21,250 because-- 17 01:00:21,666 --> 01:00:22,750 I'm terrible at texting. 18 01:00:23,125 --> 01:00:24,291 Last year was more like, I 19 01:00:24,291 --> 01:00:25,083 need to be more positive. 20 01:00:25,625 --> 01:00:25,916 Yeah. 21 01:00:26,375 --> 01:00:27,708 You know, I don't think that worked. 22 01:00:28,708 --> 01:00:31,541 I, for better or for 23 01:00:31,541 --> 01:00:32,958 worse, probably for worse. 24 01:00:33,208 --> 01:00:35,208 That almost innately bothers me. 25 01:00:36,083 --> 01:00:36,125 (laughing) 26 01:00:36,375 --> 01:00:38,291 My life arc has always provided me 27 01:00:38,291 --> 01:00:39,250 opportunities to improve. 28 01:00:39,666 --> 01:00:42,250 Uh oh, I didn't mean to do that. 29 01:00:42,500 --> 01:00:43,041 Bombshell. 30 01:00:43,375 --> 01:00:45,708 On KIKX 102.7. 31 01:00:46,291 --> 01:00:48,250 101.3 KDWV. 32 01:00:48,541 --> 01:00:49,916 First of all, how dare you say something 33 01:00:49,916 --> 01:00:50,958 a bit negative about me? 34 01:00:52,083 --> 01:00:52,125 (laughing) 35 01:00:52,416 --> 01:00:55,791 Excuse me, sense of fashion's way off. 36 01:00:56,375 --> 01:00:57,250 Hey, just a little curiosity, 37 01:00:57,458 --> 01:00:58,625 what's that really blinking light? 38 01:00:59,291 --> 01:01:00,041 Welcome to the Mr. and 39 01:01:00,041 --> 01:01:00,958 Mrs. English podcast. 40 01:01:01,500 --> 01:01:01,791 I'm Megan. 41 01:01:02,250 --> 01:01:02,750 And I'm Sean. 42 01:01:03,041 --> 01:01:04,083 We're here to talk about 43 01:01:04,083 --> 01:01:05,708 the wild ride of raising kids 44 01:01:05,708 --> 01:01:06,708 and growing careers, 45 01:01:07,041 --> 01:01:08,000 keeping life together 46 01:01:08,000 --> 01:01:09,250 in the middle of all the chaos. 47 01:01:10,083 --> 01:01:11,958 So buckle up, because we're all 48 01:01:11,958 --> 01:01:13,250 in this crazy journey together. 49 01:01:15,000 --> 01:01:15,791 I think we're good. 50 01:01:16,208 --> 01:01:16,916 I think we're good. 51 01:01:17,291 --> 01:01:17,375 I mean-- 52 01:01:17,375 --> 01:01:18,791 We're back into it two weeks in a row. 53 01:01:19,208 --> 01:01:19,916 Two weeks. 54 01:01:20,500 --> 01:01:21,208 Quite the record. 55 01:01:21,708 --> 01:01:21,916 Yeah. 56 01:01:22,500 --> 01:01:23,791 Well, I need to put it up on our website 57 01:01:23,958 --> 01:01:26,250 and get these things from Transistor. 58 01:01:26,250 --> 01:01:28,000 That's the web thing 59 01:01:28,000 --> 01:01:29,000 that we used to host, 60 01:01:29,541 --> 01:01:31,041 actually posting the podcast. 61 01:01:31,083 --> 01:01:31,458 Got it. 62 01:01:31,958 --> 01:01:34,375 And it gives you fake little medals 63 01:01:34,958 --> 01:01:35,458 that you can download. 64 01:01:35,875 --> 01:01:39,041 We just got our one year medal. 65 01:01:40,500 --> 01:01:40,750 Oh yay. 66 01:01:40,750 --> 01:01:41,041 We don't want to 67 01:01:41,041 --> 01:01:41,958 actually send you anything. 68 01:01:42,916 --> 01:01:43,833 You have to download it. 69 01:01:44,166 --> 01:01:45,625 I mean, the best prize is 70 01:01:45,625 --> 01:01:46,708 you always have to download. 71 01:01:46,791 --> 01:01:47,625 Yeah, that's right. 72 01:01:48,083 --> 01:01:48,375 That's right. 73 01:01:49,583 --> 01:01:50,125 It's like-- 74 01:01:50,625 --> 01:01:51,666 It's been a year or so. 75 01:01:52,041 --> 01:01:52,833 We talked about that 76 01:01:52,833 --> 01:01:53,625 last time a little bit, 77 01:01:53,708 --> 01:01:54,458 but it's crazy to think 78 01:01:54,458 --> 01:01:55,291 we've done this for a year. 79 01:01:55,875 --> 01:01:56,458 That is crazy. 80 01:01:56,916 --> 01:01:59,708 Yeah, we did 47 episodes out of 52 weeks. 81 01:02:00,791 --> 01:02:01,500 That's so cool. 82 01:02:01,750 --> 01:02:02,500 Although now I'm curious, 83 01:02:02,666 --> 01:02:04,375 which ones did we not do? 84 01:02:04,666 --> 01:02:05,000 I don't-- 85 01:02:05,500 --> 01:02:06,625 Did we do abbreviated versions 86 01:02:06,625 --> 01:02:07,500 like when we were on 87 01:02:07,500 --> 01:02:08,500 vacation this summer? 88 01:02:08,916 --> 01:02:10,666 We may have missed one or two on a 89 01:02:10,666 --> 01:02:11,791 vacation here or there. 90 01:02:12,583 --> 01:02:13,625 I think what happened 91 01:02:13,625 --> 01:02:15,458 was the year anniversary 92 01:02:15,666 --> 01:02:17,000 came when I created it, 93 01:02:17,333 --> 01:02:19,083 not when we first posted one. 94 01:02:19,166 --> 01:02:19,708 Got it. 95 01:02:19,708 --> 01:02:20,416 So I think our first 96 01:02:20,416 --> 01:02:22,833 one was until January 6th. 97 01:02:22,833 --> 01:02:24,083 This week would be ours. 98 01:02:24,500 --> 01:02:26,333 But we're still two probably short, 99 01:02:26,333 --> 01:02:28,208 which I know we skipped one or two. 100 01:02:29,041 --> 01:02:30,875 We have one in the 101 01:02:30,875 --> 01:02:33,000 backlog for a rainy day. 102 01:02:33,750 --> 01:02:34,875 That was never posted. 103 01:02:35,208 --> 01:02:36,166 Yeah, and it might've 104 01:02:36,166 --> 01:02:37,125 been the best one ever, but-- 105 01:02:37,333 --> 01:02:37,875 It may have. 106 01:02:38,291 --> 01:02:39,375 I remember thinking, 107 01:02:39,708 --> 01:02:40,833 hey, we're really clicking. 108 01:02:41,625 --> 01:02:41,916 Oh really? 109 01:02:42,250 --> 01:02:42,500 Mm-hmm. 110 01:02:43,291 --> 01:02:44,833 How often does that happen out of 47? 111 01:02:45,833 --> 01:02:47,125 It was quite a few. 112 01:02:47,541 --> 01:02:48,333 It was quite a few. 113 01:02:48,333 --> 01:02:49,791 There were a few where it was like, 114 01:02:50,416 --> 01:02:51,625 I'm trying to think of 115 01:02:51,625 --> 01:02:53,000 the transition in my head 116 01:02:53,000 --> 01:02:54,083 while we're talking. 117 01:02:54,083 --> 01:02:55,000 It's never good when we're trying to 118 01:02:55,000 --> 01:02:55,875 transition something. 119 01:02:56,375 --> 01:02:58,125 Usually we always try to 120 01:02:58,125 --> 01:03:00,083 have some idea we're going into. 121 01:03:01,416 --> 01:03:02,583 And we never get, the good 122 01:03:02,583 --> 01:03:03,750 ones, we never get to those. 123 01:03:04,250 --> 01:03:04,500 You know? 124 01:03:04,500 --> 01:03:04,833 Yeah. 125 01:03:04,833 --> 01:03:06,041 I feel like at least. 126 01:03:06,041 --> 01:03:06,291 Yeah. 127 01:03:07,666 --> 01:03:08,958 But who knows, maybe 128 01:03:08,958 --> 01:03:09,958 others would discern. 129 01:03:10,583 --> 01:03:10,916 I know. 130 01:03:11,458 --> 01:03:13,458 Well, we'll have to do like a, you know, 131 01:03:13,666 --> 01:03:14,875 pull the listeners or 132 01:03:14,875 --> 01:03:15,833 something, you know? 133 01:03:15,875 --> 01:03:16,166 Yeah. 134 01:03:16,166 --> 01:03:17,125 Thumbs up, thumbs down. 135 01:03:17,208 --> 01:03:17,958 I was really saying, I 136 01:03:17,958 --> 01:03:18,916 really like to get like 137 01:03:19,166 --> 01:03:20,083 a couple segments in 138 01:03:20,083 --> 01:03:21,000 this where it's like, 139 01:03:21,000 --> 01:03:23,375 we get to like things that we look 140 01:03:23,375 --> 01:03:24,291 forward to every week. 141 01:03:24,291 --> 01:03:25,291 Like people are like, oh, okay. 142 01:03:25,291 --> 01:03:26,500 They do this, you know, 143 01:03:26,500 --> 01:03:28,333 like everything else is lame, 144 01:03:28,333 --> 01:03:30,500 but I do love their I'm peeved segment. 145 01:03:30,500 --> 01:03:31,208 You know what I mean? 146 01:03:31,208 --> 01:03:31,333 Yes, yes. 147 01:03:31,583 --> 01:03:33,083 Like here's what peeved me this week. 148 01:03:33,083 --> 01:03:34,000 Cause there's, there's 149 01:03:34,000 --> 01:03:35,500 never a shortage of that. 150 01:03:35,791 --> 01:03:36,208 No. 151 01:03:36,791 --> 01:03:37,291 And it's nice. 152 01:03:37,625 --> 01:03:40,833 It's probably a little, you know, 153 01:03:41,250 --> 01:03:43,000 therapeutic for us to get it out. 154 01:03:43,500 --> 01:03:44,250 For sure. 155 01:03:44,625 --> 01:03:44,833 Yeah. 156 01:03:45,041 --> 01:03:47,000 Cause we, we, I mean. 157 01:03:47,500 --> 01:03:48,375 Even with you and I. 158 01:03:49,833 --> 01:03:50,333 You know what? 159 01:03:50,333 --> 01:03:51,583 You peeved me this week. 160 01:03:51,583 --> 01:03:52,541 Are you peeved me today? 161 01:03:53,541 --> 01:03:54,416 You peeved me. 162 01:03:55,291 --> 01:03:55,541 Yeah. 163 01:03:56,458 --> 01:03:57,333 We can, we can give 164 01:03:57,333 --> 01:03:59,083 like real time, you know, 165 01:03:59,333 --> 01:04:01,125 conflict resolution examples. 166 01:04:01,708 --> 01:04:01,958 Yeah. 167 01:04:01,958 --> 01:04:03,625 That'd be funny if we had like, you know, 168 01:04:04,333 --> 01:04:05,375 we don't argue much 169 01:04:05,375 --> 01:04:10,041 about much honestly at all, 170 01:04:10,041 --> 01:04:11,583 but it would be funny one time to be 171 01:04:11,583 --> 01:04:12,083 like, you know what? 172 01:04:12,333 --> 01:04:13,291 Let's take this to the 173 01:04:13,291 --> 01:04:14,541 booth, to the studio. 174 01:04:15,666 --> 01:04:16,166 (laughing) 175 01:04:16,958 --> 01:04:18,958 This is a real time talk through. 176 01:04:19,208 --> 01:04:19,625 Uh huh. 177 01:04:20,083 --> 01:04:20,291 Yeah. 178 01:04:22,083 --> 01:04:23,291 Things like, I really, 179 01:04:23,291 --> 01:04:24,583 we probably never published that. 180 01:04:24,583 --> 01:04:26,708 Cause I would be like, oh, that might, 181 01:04:27,000 --> 01:04:28,875 that might not like come across me. 182 01:04:28,875 --> 01:04:30,000 I don't like how I am 183 01:04:30,000 --> 01:04:31,041 painted in that one. 184 01:04:31,291 --> 01:04:31,916 You know, like. 185 01:04:31,916 --> 01:04:32,375 That's what I was thinking too. 186 01:04:32,625 --> 01:04:33,416 That's what I was thinking too. 187 01:04:34,083 --> 01:04:36,666 I really am more stubborn than I thought. 188 01:04:37,083 --> 01:04:37,333 Yeah. 189 01:04:37,958 --> 01:04:38,000 Oh. 190 01:04:38,000 --> 01:04:38,208 Yeah. 191 01:04:38,750 --> 01:04:39,541 Hey, just out of curiosity, 192 01:04:39,791 --> 01:04:40,958 what's that really blinking light? 193 01:04:42,000 --> 01:04:42,625 All right, we're back. 194 01:04:42,875 --> 01:04:43,333 We're back. 195 01:04:43,833 --> 01:04:44,875 Some technical difficulties. 196 01:04:45,125 --> 01:04:46,041 Maybe we'll see. 197 01:04:46,125 --> 01:04:47,708 We'll see what this looks like. 198 01:04:47,958 --> 01:04:48,875 If the video was horrible 199 01:04:48,875 --> 01:04:50,250 for the last two minutes, 200 01:04:50,250 --> 01:04:51,541 we hopefully it's better now. 201 01:04:51,583 --> 01:04:51,958 I know. 202 01:04:52,166 --> 01:04:53,416 This was the first time. 203 01:04:53,416 --> 01:04:54,375 So in 48 episodes, 204 01:04:54,625 --> 01:04:56,041 the first time we've ever had a take two. 205 01:04:56,083 --> 01:04:57,000 Yeah, we used to take two. 206 01:04:57,000 --> 01:04:58,291 Nobody's ever seen this, I don't think, 207 01:04:58,291 --> 01:04:59,791 but we actually have a 208 01:04:59,791 --> 01:05:01,375 clicker and we just take two. 209 01:05:02,458 --> 01:05:02,875 (laughing) 210 01:05:03,583 --> 01:05:04,416 We're so official. 211 01:05:05,125 --> 01:05:05,833 Very official. 212 01:05:06,250 --> 01:05:07,000 So all right. 213 01:05:07,000 --> 01:05:08,583 Well, hopefully that's better than. 214 01:05:09,208 --> 01:05:09,291 Hopefully. 215 01:05:09,541 --> 01:05:10,125 We'll see what happens. 216 01:05:10,750 --> 01:05:11,416 I now am a little nervous 217 01:05:11,416 --> 01:05:12,875 cause I recorded morning 218 01:05:12,875 --> 01:05:14,083 cereal right before this. 219 01:05:14,416 --> 01:05:14,750 I know. 220 01:05:15,333 --> 01:05:16,250 I actually saw it doing 221 01:05:16,250 --> 01:05:18,041 that too at the end of it. 222 01:05:18,583 --> 01:05:18,708 Okay. 223 01:05:19,291 --> 01:05:19,875 And there was a morning 224 01:05:19,875 --> 01:05:21,041 cereal episode last week 225 01:05:21,041 --> 01:05:21,708 that was like, 226 01:05:24,208 --> 01:05:25,083 It was. 227 01:05:25,083 --> 01:05:26,250 It was like, yeah. 228 01:05:27,166 --> 01:05:28,291 Frozen faces of Sean. 229 01:05:28,541 --> 01:05:29,833 Yeah, video was fine. 230 01:05:29,833 --> 01:05:30,541 Did you see that one? 231 01:05:30,958 --> 01:05:31,958 I was sitting next to you 232 01:05:31,958 --> 01:05:32,958 while you were editing it. 233 01:05:32,958 --> 01:05:33,375 Oh yeah. 234 01:05:33,875 --> 01:05:35,250 You didn't watch it any last week. 235 01:05:35,250 --> 01:05:36,041 You took the week off too. 236 01:05:37,250 --> 01:05:39,416 I did, but I did see it while editing. 237 01:05:40,166 --> 01:05:40,375 Yeah. 238 01:05:41,041 --> 01:05:41,833 All right, well, we'll 239 01:05:41,833 --> 01:05:42,708 just keep going with it. 240 01:05:42,916 --> 01:05:43,125 So, 241 01:05:44,458 --> 01:05:47,000 anyways, you know, we kind of left off 242 01:05:47,000 --> 01:05:48,208 last week with just, 243 01:05:49,458 --> 01:05:50,125 last year was a good 244 01:05:50,125 --> 01:05:51,333 year to get over with 245 01:05:52,000 --> 01:05:54,166 and we're moving into a new year, 2026. 246 01:05:54,666 --> 01:05:54,875 Yep. 247 01:05:56,333 --> 01:05:58,083 You know, with high hopes and whatnot, 248 01:05:58,083 --> 01:05:59,250 which everybody doesn't. 249 01:05:59,250 --> 01:06:00,750 For me, this is a time of year 250 01:06:00,750 --> 01:06:02,291 that's always like fresh starts. 251 01:06:03,125 --> 01:06:04,000 I think a lot of 252 01:06:04,000 --> 01:06:06,125 people say, do it that way. 253 01:06:06,125 --> 01:06:08,083 That's why resolutions are around, 254 01:06:08,083 --> 01:06:09,333 use resolutions like this 255 01:06:09,333 --> 01:06:10,541 year, I'm not going to do this. 256 01:06:10,541 --> 01:06:12,541 Or, you know, I'm going to start flossing 257 01:06:12,666 --> 01:06:13,375 or whatever it might be. 258 01:06:13,375 --> 01:06:13,875 Right, right. 259 01:06:15,500 --> 01:06:15,958 You know, but it's 260 01:06:15,958 --> 01:06:17,541 always like a new start. 261 01:06:18,250 --> 01:06:20,333 And for me, I always, maybe more so. 262 01:06:20,333 --> 01:06:20,916 I mean, is that how 263 01:06:20,916 --> 01:06:22,500 you look at them or not? 264 01:06:22,708 --> 01:06:23,916 Cause I'm getting the 265 01:06:23,916 --> 01:06:25,625 feeling over the last day or two 266 01:06:25,625 --> 01:06:27,833 that it's just another day to you. 267 01:06:27,833 --> 01:06:29,000 It's not like, oh yeah, fresh start. 268 01:06:29,875 --> 01:06:30,750 Yeah, no, it's not. 269 01:06:30,750 --> 01:06:31,666 No, I don't have that 270 01:06:31,666 --> 01:06:33,208 feeling of like, oh, fresh start. 271 01:06:33,458 --> 01:06:34,791 I never did in New Year's 272 01:06:34,791 --> 01:06:36,250 resolution until you're like, 273 01:06:36,250 --> 01:06:37,958 Hey, what's your New Year's resolution 274 01:06:38,166 --> 01:06:39,333 when we were dating 275 01:06:39,333 --> 01:06:40,375 or married or whatever. 276 01:06:40,875 --> 01:06:41,250 I just, 277 01:06:42,041 --> 01:06:42,333 crazy. 278 01:06:42,625 --> 01:06:43,916 You have to be in the 279 01:06:43,916 --> 01:06:44,833 minority there, right? 280 01:06:46,083 --> 01:06:46,541 I don't know. 281 01:06:47,000 --> 01:06:48,250 I have no idea. 282 01:06:48,666 --> 01:06:49,875 I've got to find out from people 283 01:06:49,875 --> 01:06:51,208 if that's like a minority thing. 284 01:06:51,208 --> 01:06:55,041 Cause I figured that the, so the new, 285 01:06:56,583 --> 01:06:58,208 is New Year's special to you at all? 286 01:07:00,416 --> 01:07:01,208 You know what? 287 01:07:01,250 --> 01:07:03,375 It's, I always have mixed 288 01:07:03,375 --> 01:07:05,000 emotions around New Year's. 289 01:07:05,000 --> 01:07:06,791 Like I always think it's 290 01:07:06,791 --> 01:07:08,958 kind of sad, kind of exciting. 291 01:07:09,500 --> 01:07:12,500 Like, but overall it's one 292 01:07:12,500 --> 01:07:13,916 of my least favorite holidays. 293 01:07:14,583 --> 01:07:14,833 Yeah. 294 01:07:15,416 --> 01:07:19,500 I don't get excited about it, per se. 295 01:07:20,000 --> 01:07:21,500 Like I get excited about 296 01:07:21,500 --> 01:07:22,750 the fun things that we do. 297 01:07:22,750 --> 01:07:24,000 You know, we do family game 298 01:07:24,000 --> 01:07:25,166 night and stuff like that, 299 01:07:25,500 --> 01:07:27,125 but I don't, I'm not like, 300 01:07:27,125 --> 01:07:29,541 yes, a new year, fresh start. 301 01:07:29,541 --> 01:07:31,625 Like that, that is not my thought. 302 01:07:31,666 --> 01:07:32,333 I wonder if that's, 303 01:07:32,791 --> 01:07:33,458 I wonder if that just has 304 01:07:33,458 --> 01:07:34,500 something to do with the fact 305 01:07:34,583 --> 01:07:35,916 that you've always had life 306 01:07:35,916 --> 01:07:37,541 together for the most part. 307 01:07:37,541 --> 01:07:38,000 You know what I mean? 308 01:07:38,375 --> 01:07:40,000 Whereas other people like me, 309 01:07:42,125 --> 01:07:44,000 really before I met you mostly, 310 01:07:44,333 --> 01:07:46,166 but I mean, I had tough years 311 01:07:46,791 --> 01:07:47,333 where I was like just 312 01:07:47,333 --> 01:07:48,750 trying to figure out who I was. 313 01:07:49,416 --> 01:07:51,083 You know, trying to, you 314 01:07:51,083 --> 01:07:52,708 know, claw myself out of, 315 01:07:52,708 --> 01:07:55,500 you know, holes I dug and, you know. 316 01:07:56,625 --> 01:07:58,750 And when you're in that, 317 01:07:59,000 --> 01:08:00,250 sometimes it's like, okay, 318 01:08:01,000 --> 01:08:02,125 I'm glad this year's done. 319 01:08:02,458 --> 01:08:03,166 Because next year's 320 01:08:03,166 --> 01:08:04,125 going to be a great year. 321 01:08:04,333 --> 01:08:06,583 Cause this year, like you said, 322 01:08:06,583 --> 01:08:07,083 this year is one of the 323 01:08:07,083 --> 01:08:07,791 toughest of your life. 324 01:08:07,833 --> 01:08:08,041 It's probably the 325 01:08:08,041 --> 01:08:09,375 toughest of our life together, 326 01:08:10,333 --> 01:08:11,250 but I would not say it 327 01:08:11,250 --> 01:08:12,666 was the toughest of my life 328 01:08:13,291 --> 01:08:13,708 altogether. 329 01:08:14,250 --> 01:08:14,458 Right. 330 01:08:14,875 --> 01:08:15,375 You know what I mean? 331 01:08:15,750 --> 01:08:17,833 It was toughest from a family standpoint, 332 01:08:18,291 --> 01:08:19,166 you know, and things like 333 01:08:19,166 --> 01:08:21,000 that and what we deal with here. 334 01:08:21,500 --> 01:08:22,125 But I've had way 335 01:08:22,125 --> 01:08:25,416 tougher years in my life. 336 01:08:25,791 --> 01:08:27,083 And that's why for me, it's like, 337 01:08:27,958 --> 01:08:29,666 I was, it kind of blew my 338 01:08:29,666 --> 01:08:30,750 mind a little bit that you're not 339 01:08:31,458 --> 01:08:32,833 like, yeah, it's a whole new year. 340 01:08:32,833 --> 01:08:33,833 Like this year I'm going to do this. 341 01:08:33,833 --> 01:08:34,458 I'm going to do this. 342 01:08:34,833 --> 01:08:35,708 Like most people are like, 343 01:08:35,958 --> 01:08:37,041 I'm going to get in shape this year. 344 01:08:37,625 --> 01:08:38,541 I'm going to stop drinking or 345 01:08:38,541 --> 01:08:40,166 smoking or whatever this year. 346 01:08:40,166 --> 01:08:40,750 Right, right. 347 01:08:41,208 --> 01:08:42,416 And I guess for people 348 01:08:42,416 --> 01:08:46,458 that are pretty happy with 349 01:08:46,458 --> 01:08:50,291 themselves, it's not that way, I guess. 350 01:08:50,500 --> 01:08:51,750 I mean, is that not, you 351 01:08:51,750 --> 01:08:52,583 don't think of ways to, 352 01:08:53,333 --> 01:08:54,291 I mean, I'm not suggesting 353 01:08:54,291 --> 01:08:55,166 you have a lot of ways to 354 01:08:55,166 --> 01:08:55,541 improve. 355 01:08:55,541 --> 01:08:56,250 I think you're perfect. 356 01:08:56,291 --> 01:08:57,000 No, no, no, no. 357 01:08:57,000 --> 01:08:58,416 That's not what you're suggesting at all. 358 01:08:58,458 --> 01:08:59,791 But I just, most people 359 01:08:59,791 --> 01:09:00,583 are like, you know what? 360 01:09:00,583 --> 01:09:01,791 This is what I'd like to, I 361 01:09:01,791 --> 01:09:02,958 need to be better at this. 362 01:09:02,958 --> 01:09:04,250 I'm going to do that this year. 363 01:09:04,250 --> 01:09:05,666 And I know, cause you said 364 01:09:05,666 --> 01:09:06,708 you've never thought of a new 365 01:09:06,708 --> 01:09:07,375 year's resolution. 366 01:09:07,500 --> 01:09:07,791 You've never really 367 01:09:07,791 --> 01:09:09,791 thought of your life that way 368 01:09:09,791 --> 01:09:11,083 or yourself that way. 369 01:09:11,500 --> 01:09:13,500 Yeah, I don't, and it's 370 01:09:13,500 --> 01:09:14,458 not that there aren't things 371 01:09:14,458 --> 01:09:16,000 that I know I need to improve on. 372 01:09:16,541 --> 01:09:19,000 I just don't necessarily think like, 373 01:09:19,000 --> 01:09:20,166 oh, new year, first 374 01:09:20,166 --> 01:09:21,416 start, let's do this now. 375 01:09:21,708 --> 01:09:23,833 I am this person and I'm 376 01:09:23,833 --> 01:09:25,041 going to be the person who loves 377 01:09:25,125 --> 01:09:26,875 to eat salad and work out. 378 01:09:27,291 --> 01:09:29,666 Like, I don't know. 379 01:09:29,666 --> 01:09:30,250 I don't know if I'm 380 01:09:30,250 --> 01:09:32,625 just more of a realist. 381 01:09:32,625 --> 01:09:33,500 Cause I'm like, ooh, that 382 01:09:33,500 --> 01:09:34,458 would be a drastic change. 383 01:09:36,666 --> 01:09:38,791 And there have been times when I'm not 384 01:09:38,791 --> 01:09:39,666 going to go on that, 385 01:09:39,958 --> 01:09:42,458 but I just know I've never 386 01:09:42,458 --> 01:09:43,916 been like, yep, fresh start. 387 01:09:43,916 --> 01:09:44,958 Let's just be different now. 388 01:09:46,000 --> 01:09:47,041 That's never been me. 389 01:09:48,208 --> 01:09:48,500 Yeah. 390 01:09:48,500 --> 01:09:49,041 Is that bad? 391 01:09:50,250 --> 01:09:51,625 No, I don't, it's you. 392 01:09:52,291 --> 01:09:54,166 I'm a little shocked at it. 393 01:09:54,166 --> 01:09:55,291 I'd be curious how many 394 01:09:55,291 --> 01:09:56,541 other people are like that. 395 01:09:56,541 --> 01:09:58,125 Cause I mean, honestly, 396 01:09:58,125 --> 01:09:59,333 I'm a little shocked at that. 397 01:09:59,583 --> 01:10:03,958 That for me, I always 398 01:10:03,958 --> 01:10:05,000 feel like I'm on a journey 399 01:10:05,000 --> 01:10:06,000 of self-improvement 400 01:10:06,000 --> 01:10:07,666 through life at all times. 401 01:10:07,666 --> 01:10:08,500 I can always be better. 402 01:10:09,541 --> 01:10:12,250 And what better time than January one, 403 01:10:12,250 --> 01:10:13,041 beginning of a new year 404 01:10:13,041 --> 01:10:14,416 when everybody's like, 405 01:10:14,416 --> 01:10:17,000 it's a new year, you can do any, 406 01:10:17,416 --> 01:10:18,583 the world's a new place, 407 01:10:19,166 --> 01:10:19,708 this is gonna be the 408 01:10:19,708 --> 01:10:20,625 best year of our lives. 409 01:10:21,083 --> 01:10:21,875 It's always just like a 410 01:10:21,875 --> 01:10:23,583 good day one starting point 411 01:10:23,625 --> 01:10:28,208 versus March 8th is 412 01:10:28,208 --> 01:10:29,541 when I'm going to do it. 413 01:10:29,583 --> 01:10:30,041 You know what I mean? 414 01:10:30,500 --> 01:10:32,500 Like, that's like a weird, you know, 415 01:10:32,500 --> 01:10:33,375 but usually there's 416 01:10:33,375 --> 01:10:34,583 something that most people 417 01:10:34,583 --> 01:10:36,333 in from my 418 01:10:36,333 --> 01:10:37,416 perspective are like, you know, 419 01:10:37,416 --> 01:10:38,166 I could be better at 420 01:10:38,166 --> 01:10:40,291 this and why not try? 421 01:10:40,291 --> 01:10:41,500 This is a good time to try that. 422 01:10:41,958 --> 01:10:42,166 Yeah. 423 01:10:42,375 --> 01:10:43,291 And it's not that I 424 01:10:43,291 --> 01:10:44,500 don't think that, right? 425 01:10:44,500 --> 01:10:47,000 Like I just don't use the 426 01:10:47,000 --> 01:10:48,041 new year as one of them. 427 01:10:48,375 --> 01:10:51,416 And a lot of people do, I have no idea. 428 01:10:52,250 --> 01:10:53,958 The percentage of people like me 429 01:10:53,958 --> 01:10:55,916 versus the percentage of people like you, 430 01:10:55,916 --> 01:10:57,291 I would imagine there's more people. 431 01:10:57,625 --> 01:10:58,125 I mean, new year's 432 01:10:58,125 --> 01:10:59,500 resolutions, that's a thing. 433 01:10:59,541 --> 01:11:00,541 People talk about it. 434 01:11:01,041 --> 01:11:01,625 They always say gym 435 01:11:01,625 --> 01:11:02,958 memberships are the highest. 436 01:11:06,166 --> 01:11:08,541 And so clearly there are so many people 437 01:11:08,666 --> 01:11:10,708 that turn over that new leaf 438 01:11:10,708 --> 01:11:12,916 or try to turn over that new leaf. 439 01:11:13,750 --> 01:11:15,000 I don't, I think I'm partly 440 01:11:15,000 --> 01:11:16,916 just jaded because I'm like, 441 01:11:17,541 --> 01:11:19,083 yeah, but by January 7th, 442 01:11:19,083 --> 01:11:20,416 they're not doing it anymore. 443 01:11:21,041 --> 01:11:24,833 So that new thing that you wanted to do, 444 01:11:24,833 --> 01:11:26,791 like most people don't keep doing it. 445 01:11:28,416 --> 01:11:29,875 When I said I'm gonna start flossing, 446 01:11:29,875 --> 01:11:31,791 I flossed every day since then. 447 01:11:32,041 --> 01:11:32,250 You flossed? Yeah. 448 01:11:33,875 --> 01:11:36,250 So I hear you on that. 449 01:11:37,333 --> 01:11:38,041 And there's probably 450 01:11:38,041 --> 01:11:38,791 been new year's things 451 01:11:38,791 --> 01:11:39,416 that I'm like, I'm 452 01:11:39,416 --> 01:11:40,375 gonna be better at this. 453 01:11:40,375 --> 01:11:41,166 And then I haven't been 454 01:11:41,166 --> 01:11:42,500 as good as I want to be, 455 01:11:42,875 --> 01:11:44,125 but I've been better overall. 456 01:11:44,875 --> 01:11:45,208 Yeah. 457 01:11:45,375 --> 01:11:45,916 You know what I mean? 458 01:11:47,041 --> 01:11:48,500 It's not like I've ever been like, 459 01:11:49,000 --> 01:11:51,208 this year I'm gonna do this every day 460 01:11:51,208 --> 01:11:53,000 or I'm never gonna do this ever again. 461 01:11:53,666 --> 01:11:55,625 And then on January 7th, 462 01:11:55,625 --> 01:11:57,000 it was already out the door. 463 01:11:57,250 --> 01:11:57,458 Right. 464 01:11:57,958 --> 01:11:59,166 I just think I'm a little more 465 01:11:59,166 --> 01:12:00,583 disciplined than that. 466 01:12:00,625 --> 01:12:00,916 Yeah. 467 01:12:01,166 --> 01:12:04,291 And maybe the general 468 01:12:04,291 --> 01:12:06,125 population isn't as disciplined 469 01:12:06,375 --> 01:12:06,958 as that. 470 01:12:07,500 --> 01:12:08,666 And that's where you're 471 01:12:08,666 --> 01:12:11,541 taking your negativity 472 01:12:12,000 --> 01:12:14,166 towards that. 473 01:12:14,541 --> 01:12:16,166 That's insightful. 474 01:12:16,791 --> 01:12:17,000 Yeah. 475 01:12:18,500 --> 01:12:20,083 And again, I wanna reiterate, 476 01:12:20,083 --> 01:12:21,083 it is not that there 477 01:12:21,083 --> 01:12:22,916 aren't things that I can work, 478 01:12:23,250 --> 01:12:26,458 that I don't start over here. 479 01:12:27,291 --> 01:12:28,125 There are things I 480 01:12:28,125 --> 01:12:29,458 know I need to work on, 481 01:12:30,333 --> 01:12:31,250 but I don't necessarily 482 01:12:31,250 --> 01:12:33,000 look at that as January 1st. 483 01:12:33,000 --> 01:12:35,416 It's like, oh, it's 484 01:12:35,416 --> 01:12:36,708 finally getting through my head. 485 01:12:36,708 --> 01:12:37,875 I need to be less stubborn. 486 01:12:38,166 --> 01:12:39,875 Or, oh, it's getting through my head. 487 01:12:39,875 --> 01:12:42,250 I need to respond faster on texts. 488 01:12:42,708 --> 01:12:43,791 I'm terrible at texting. 489 01:12:44,375 --> 01:12:45,833 I know I need to get better, 490 01:12:45,833 --> 01:12:46,666 but it's not like January 491 01:12:46,666 --> 01:12:48,500 1st, I'm gonna start that. 492 01:12:48,750 --> 01:12:49,083 Yeah. 493 01:12:49,083 --> 01:12:50,000 And I think those are things, 494 01:12:50,000 --> 01:12:50,666 I think everybody does 495 01:12:50,666 --> 01:12:51,458 that throughout the year. 496 01:12:51,625 --> 01:12:52,958 Oh, okay, this is 497 01:12:52,958 --> 01:12:53,958 bubbled up to the surface 498 01:12:53,958 --> 01:12:56,250 and I'm having a bit of an epiphany here. 499 01:12:56,250 --> 01:12:57,041 I'm bad at this, I 500 01:12:57,041 --> 01:12:57,958 need to be better at this. 501 01:12:58,625 --> 01:13:00,083 And if it's July 3rd, 502 01:13:00,083 --> 01:13:01,000 it's not like, you know what? 503 01:13:02,250 --> 01:13:02,875 That's a perfect 504 01:13:02,875 --> 01:13:04,708 thing for next New Year's 505 01:13:04,708 --> 01:13:05,750 for me to work on. 506 01:13:05,750 --> 01:13:06,250 You know what I mean? 507 01:13:06,500 --> 01:13:07,458 Most people are like, yeah, 508 01:13:07,458 --> 01:13:08,500 I should probably start doing that now. 509 01:13:10,250 --> 01:13:11,625 Most of the things I need to work on 510 01:13:11,625 --> 01:13:13,041 are like a now thing, right? 511 01:13:13,375 --> 01:13:14,958 But I think there's a lot, 512 01:13:15,250 --> 01:13:16,833 the way I look at it is there's a lot of, 513 01:13:17,041 --> 01:13:20,166 those are smaller goal type things 514 01:13:20,291 --> 01:13:21,625 of just trying to be 515 01:13:21,625 --> 01:13:23,833 better at being a person. 516 01:13:24,416 --> 01:13:25,125 But then I think people 517 01:13:25,125 --> 01:13:26,375 have like those overall 518 01:13:26,500 --> 01:13:27,666 overarching ones too, 519 01:13:27,666 --> 01:13:28,500 they're like, you know what? 520 01:13:30,708 --> 01:13:32,666 In a perfect world, I wanna be more of 521 01:13:32,666 --> 01:13:33,500 this kind of person. 522 01:13:33,958 --> 01:13:34,875 And for me to get to that 523 01:13:34,875 --> 01:13:36,208 point, I need to be doing this. 524 01:13:36,708 --> 01:13:37,166 You know what I mean? 525 01:13:37,375 --> 01:13:38,125 And a lot of people are 526 01:13:38,125 --> 01:13:38,916 like, for working out. 527 01:13:39,125 --> 01:13:41,083 It's like, okay, I'm 528 01:13:41,083 --> 01:13:41,958 gonna get through the holidays 529 01:13:42,333 --> 01:13:43,000 where I'm gonna eat a ton 530 01:13:43,125 --> 01:13:44,916 and it's a really good starting point 531 01:13:45,791 --> 01:13:47,250 to start January 1st, new 532 01:13:47,250 --> 01:13:48,208 year, I'm gonna do that then. 533 01:13:48,333 --> 01:13:48,833 I think that's why a 534 01:13:48,833 --> 01:13:50,000 lot of people do that, 535 01:13:51,250 --> 01:13:53,125 or drinking or whatever it might be. 536 01:13:53,125 --> 01:13:54,500 I'm gonna cut back on that or whatever, 537 01:13:54,500 --> 01:13:54,958 you know what I mean? 538 01:13:56,875 --> 01:13:59,083 But it's a more holistic, 539 01:14:00,666 --> 01:14:01,916 just always wanted to be 540 01:14:01,916 --> 01:14:03,000 more of this kind of a person 541 01:14:03,000 --> 01:14:04,916 or do this in general and 542 01:14:04,916 --> 01:14:06,333 this is a good time to do it. 543 01:14:06,333 --> 01:14:07,791 Because it doesn't affect my life 544 01:14:07,791 --> 01:14:08,541 if I didn't do it 545 01:14:08,541 --> 01:14:09,958 yesterday, if I don't do it tomorrow. 546 01:14:11,666 --> 01:14:13,791 Like some of the maybe smaller things 547 01:14:13,791 --> 01:14:15,041 that you're talking about are, 548 01:14:15,666 --> 01:14:17,125 like if you're a bad texter, 549 01:14:17,833 --> 01:14:19,041 it doesn't do any good in 550 01:14:19,041 --> 01:14:20,541 September to wait to January. 551 01:14:20,541 --> 01:14:21,041 It's like, I'm gonna just 552 01:14:21,041 --> 01:14:22,416 start texting people back now. 553 01:14:22,416 --> 01:14:22,708 Exactly. 554 01:14:23,541 --> 01:14:24,041 You know what I mean? 555 01:14:24,583 --> 01:14:26,375 But if you're gonna stop smoking, 556 01:14:27,500 --> 01:14:28,125 you know what I mean? 557 01:14:28,125 --> 01:14:29,458 I mean, like, yeah, I mean, 558 01:14:29,458 --> 01:14:30,416 from a medical standpoint, 559 01:14:30,416 --> 01:14:30,916 probably better start, 560 01:14:31,250 --> 01:14:32,125 stop smoking tomorrow. 561 01:14:32,833 --> 01:14:33,541 But it's like, you know what? 562 01:14:34,416 --> 01:14:36,250 2026 is gonna be the year I stop smoking. 563 01:14:36,625 --> 01:14:36,875 Yeah. 564 01:14:37,458 --> 01:14:37,916 You know what I mean? 565 01:14:38,791 --> 01:14:40,125 Maybe people do, maybe they don't, 566 01:14:40,125 --> 01:14:41,375 but that's so interesting. 567 01:14:41,583 --> 01:14:42,708 Like, I just, I mean, that's totally, 568 01:14:43,000 --> 01:14:44,166 I learned something about it here. 569 01:14:44,666 --> 01:14:45,750 Because we don't do that. 570 01:14:45,750 --> 01:14:49,500 It's never really a big, like, 571 01:14:50,416 --> 01:14:50,958 because I've asked you, 572 01:14:50,958 --> 01:14:51,583 what are your resolutions? 573 01:14:51,791 --> 01:14:52,708 You never have any. 574 01:14:53,500 --> 01:14:53,750 No. 575 01:14:54,250 --> 01:14:55,083 And I'm always surprised 576 01:14:55,083 --> 01:14:56,375 because in the back of my mind, I'm like, 577 01:14:56,375 --> 01:14:57,625 oh, well, I guess she's perfect. 578 01:14:58,333 --> 01:14:58,375 (laughs) 579 01:14:58,833 --> 01:15:01,041 No, and that's not it at all. 580 01:15:01,291 --> 01:15:03,125 It's, I think part of it is, 581 01:15:03,791 --> 01:15:05,000 and this goes back to maybe 582 01:15:05,000 --> 01:15:07,375 what you were saying of like, 583 01:15:09,125 --> 01:15:13,666 because of your upbringing, 584 01:15:14,000 --> 01:15:15,500 not necessarily upbringing, but like, 585 01:15:16,125 --> 01:15:17,500 how you are, your life arc, 586 01:15:17,500 --> 01:15:19,125 yeah, your life arc, right? 587 01:15:19,375 --> 01:15:21,583 Like, I think you feel like 588 01:15:21,583 --> 01:15:24,083 you have to reinvent yourself 589 01:15:24,250 --> 01:15:25,416 and you're, you know. 590 01:15:25,833 --> 01:15:26,458 No, that's not right. 591 01:15:26,458 --> 01:15:27,750 I'm not reinventing myself ever. 592 01:15:28,375 --> 01:15:29,833 I am way-- How do I, yeah. 593 01:15:29,833 --> 01:15:32,291 How do I say, like, I don't know, 594 01:15:32,291 --> 01:15:33,958 you are more, you've always 595 01:15:33,958 --> 01:15:35,250 been more about new starts. 596 01:15:35,500 --> 01:15:36,041 Maybe when I was 597 01:15:36,041 --> 01:15:37,416 younger, it was a reinvention 598 01:15:37,416 --> 01:15:38,000 because it was like, I 599 01:15:38,000 --> 01:15:38,875 don't like who I was. 600 01:15:38,875 --> 01:15:41,125 I don't like people who think who I was. 601 01:15:41,333 --> 01:15:42,208 You know what I mean? Yeah, yeah. 602 01:15:42,500 --> 01:15:43,458 Maybe way back then, now 603 01:15:43,458 --> 01:15:44,666 it's not like that at all. 604 01:15:44,666 --> 01:15:46,458 I mean, like, my new year's resolution, 605 01:15:46,708 --> 01:15:47,958 I keep using it four 606 01:15:47,958 --> 01:15:49,083 years ago, is like flossing. 607 01:15:49,125 --> 01:15:49,625 Flossing. 608 01:15:49,666 --> 01:15:50,708 It's not like I'm like, 609 01:15:51,125 --> 01:15:54,333 I need to major life change this. 610 01:15:54,541 --> 01:15:55,916 Right, yeah. 611 01:15:55,958 --> 01:15:57,416 For me, like, okay, flossing. 612 01:15:57,416 --> 01:15:58,125 I don't even know 613 01:15:58,125 --> 01:15:59,083 that I had one last year. 614 01:15:59,083 --> 01:16:00,041 Last year, it was more like, 615 01:16:00,041 --> 01:16:01,000 I need to be more positive. 616 01:16:01,625 --> 01:16:01,833 Yeah. 617 01:16:02,166 --> 01:16:03,625 I don't think that worked. 618 01:16:05,125 --> 01:16:06,041 January 7th, I think 619 01:16:06,041 --> 01:16:07,000 that would stop, too. 620 01:16:07,750 --> 01:16:09,208 Someone on the road cut you off 621 01:16:09,208 --> 01:16:10,791 and that one went way down. 622 01:16:10,958 --> 01:16:11,500 It's just two and 623 01:16:11,500 --> 01:16:12,541 eight, I can't stop that. 624 01:16:13,625 --> 01:16:14,958 Yeah, because you can't change, I think, 625 01:16:14,958 --> 01:16:16,291 personality things, like. 626 01:16:16,541 --> 01:16:17,833 Right, but most people aren't like that. 627 01:16:18,166 --> 01:16:19,458 I'm gonna be, well, I 628 01:16:19,458 --> 01:16:19,875 guess you could say, 629 01:16:19,875 --> 01:16:21,000 I'm gonna be more outgoing this year. 630 01:16:21,208 --> 01:16:22,541 Even though I'm an introvert, I just need 631 01:16:22,541 --> 01:16:23,083 to be more outgoing. 632 01:16:23,083 --> 01:16:25,041 I need to try harder at making 633 01:16:25,041 --> 01:16:26,041 connections with people. 634 01:16:26,041 --> 01:16:26,250 Yeah. 635 01:16:26,833 --> 01:16:27,541 Right? Yeah. 636 01:16:27,583 --> 01:16:28,791 Say that. You can. 637 01:16:28,833 --> 01:16:30,458 I'm gonna, this year, I'm gonna, 638 01:16:30,458 --> 01:16:31,875 I'm gonna eat a little bit better. 639 01:16:31,875 --> 01:16:35,000 I'm gonna start doing a, what's that? 640 01:16:35,000 --> 01:16:36,333 Like a cleanse or a fast. 641 01:16:36,666 --> 01:16:38,416 I'm gonna fast every month, you know, 642 01:16:38,416 --> 01:16:38,833 or something like 643 01:16:38,833 --> 01:16:39,500 that, you know what I mean? 644 01:16:39,875 --> 01:16:40,833 Those are good times to 645 01:16:40,833 --> 01:16:43,083 reinvent that part of yourself. 646 01:16:43,083 --> 01:16:44,625 It's like, it's gonna make me healthier. 647 01:16:44,625 --> 01:16:44,833 Yeah. 648 01:16:45,625 --> 01:16:47,166 Now I'm holding myself to something, 649 01:16:47,166 --> 01:16:48,166 I've got a start date, 650 01:16:48,166 --> 01:16:49,333 people like start dates 651 01:16:49,625 --> 01:16:50,458 for those kind of things. 652 01:16:50,500 --> 01:16:50,666 Yeah. 653 01:16:51,333 --> 01:16:52,666 So, anyways, we're kind of 654 01:16:52,666 --> 01:16:54,083 beating the dead horse here, 655 01:16:54,083 --> 01:16:55,125 I think, to some degree, but. 656 01:16:56,083 --> 01:16:57,041 I'm shocked at that. 657 01:16:57,041 --> 01:16:58,000 I'm sure we'll talk about 658 01:16:58,000 --> 01:16:59,916 that more after or off of this. 659 01:17:00,208 --> 01:17:01,916 (laughing) That's shocking to me. 660 01:17:02,291 --> 01:17:04,250 And maybe you hit the nail on the head, 661 01:17:04,250 --> 01:17:05,708 or we both did here, where 662 01:17:05,708 --> 01:17:08,333 it's more of an issue of, 663 01:17:10,208 --> 01:17:11,375 just our life arcs. 664 01:17:11,916 --> 01:17:13,291 Like you've just been happy with the 665 01:17:13,291 --> 01:17:14,291 person that you are, 666 01:17:14,583 --> 01:17:15,750 and you don't really need 667 01:17:15,750 --> 01:17:17,166 to, quote unquote, reinvent 668 01:17:17,416 --> 01:17:19,041 or add this, and the little thing, 669 01:17:19,041 --> 01:17:20,333 the little tweaks that you 670 01:17:20,333 --> 01:17:21,416 need to make to yourself, 671 01:17:21,416 --> 01:17:22,791 like you just do it during the year. 672 01:17:23,916 --> 01:17:28,083 Which I would be so interested to hear 673 01:17:28,083 --> 01:17:29,208 how many people are like that. 674 01:17:29,875 --> 01:17:32,416 Versus people like me who are like, 675 01:17:32,416 --> 01:17:35,541 hey, I even like it in the office. 676 01:17:37,083 --> 01:17:37,125 Oh yeah. 677 01:17:39,000 --> 01:17:41,041 Because I file all the bills, you know? 678 01:17:41,083 --> 01:17:41,583 Yep, yep. 679 01:17:41,666 --> 01:17:42,833 All 12 months are in there, 680 01:17:42,833 --> 01:17:43,625 and at the end of the year, 681 01:17:44,041 --> 01:17:45,375 they all get stapled together. 682 01:17:46,125 --> 01:17:49,375 I pull them all out, all the gas bills, 683 01:17:49,375 --> 01:17:51,916 the electricity bills, cell phones, 684 01:17:51,916 --> 01:17:54,166 all those, they all get put in a folder, 685 01:17:54,958 --> 01:17:56,875 and we hold on to them for three years, 686 01:17:57,708 --> 01:17:59,625 because that's maybe 687 01:17:59,625 --> 01:18:00,708 what the tax man wants. 688 01:18:01,166 --> 01:18:01,375 (laughing) 689 01:18:01,375 --> 01:18:01,875 Right, right. 690 01:18:02,208 --> 01:18:02,875 And I get rid of the 691 01:18:02,875 --> 01:18:04,083 other three year one upstairs, 692 01:18:04,083 --> 01:18:06,041 it cycles out, and it gets recycled. 693 01:18:06,625 --> 01:18:07,666 Yep, yep. 694 01:18:07,708 --> 01:18:08,875 But I love the cleaning. 695 01:18:09,583 --> 01:18:10,083 You love that. 696 01:18:10,083 --> 01:18:11,958 And that part of it too, you know? 697 01:18:12,125 --> 01:18:13,541 That's like cleansing for you. 698 01:18:13,583 --> 01:18:14,291 Oh, I love it. 699 01:18:14,500 --> 01:18:15,916 That is a personality thing for me. 700 01:18:15,958 --> 01:18:16,750 It is, yeah. 701 01:18:16,750 --> 01:18:19,458 You are a hyper-organized person, 702 01:18:20,333 --> 01:18:24,000 and you like the process. 703 01:18:24,291 --> 01:18:26,500 Not only do you need things organized, 704 01:18:27,041 --> 01:18:29,083 you like the process of organization. 705 01:18:29,666 --> 01:18:31,583 That out with the old, in with the new. 706 01:18:31,583 --> 01:18:32,666 And I think that's part 707 01:18:32,666 --> 01:18:34,416 of that personality trait 708 01:18:35,458 --> 01:18:37,916 is one reason why you gravitate 709 01:18:37,916 --> 01:18:39,166 toward New Year's resolutions. 710 01:18:40,583 --> 01:18:44,041 I, for better or for worse, 711 01:18:44,333 --> 01:18:46,916 probably for worse, am not like that 712 01:18:46,916 --> 01:18:48,333 when it comes to like, oh sweet, 713 01:18:48,333 --> 01:18:49,583 I get to clean out my office, 714 01:18:49,583 --> 01:18:51,416 I get to throw this away, this 715 01:18:51,416 --> 01:18:52,958 is from an old year, you know? 716 01:18:55,333 --> 01:18:56,750 No, I, hmm. 717 01:18:57,416 --> 01:18:58,041 Yeah, you're just, 718 01:18:59,166 --> 01:19:02,041 I just, I'm the steady Eddie, right? 719 01:19:02,041 --> 01:19:03,708 Like I'm just like floating along. 720 01:19:05,083 --> 01:19:06,000 Yeah, that's, 721 01:19:07,375 --> 01:19:09,166 that almost innately bothers me. 722 01:19:09,583 --> 01:19:10,458 (laughing) It's weird, I'm sure 723 01:19:10,458 --> 01:19:11,791 people are reading through this 724 01:19:11,916 --> 01:19:13,000 right now, but I mean, that 725 01:19:13,000 --> 01:19:15,166 almost innately bothers me 726 01:19:15,208 --> 01:19:17,708 that someone isn't looking for that 727 01:19:19,375 --> 01:19:21,875 self-improvement on a consistent basis, 728 01:19:21,875 --> 01:19:22,750 that you could be that 729 01:19:22,750 --> 01:19:24,000 happy with who you are 730 01:19:24,000 --> 01:19:24,875 and how you are, 731 01:19:25,291 --> 01:19:27,208 mentally, physically, everything. 732 01:19:27,458 --> 01:19:27,916 You know what I mean? 733 01:19:30,208 --> 01:19:31,500 That, and it's not a resolution, 734 01:19:32,458 --> 01:19:33,375 cause I'm not like, 735 01:19:33,625 --> 01:19:35,291 here's my resolution this year everybody. 736 01:19:35,541 --> 01:19:36,041 I'm not big on 737 01:19:36,041 --> 01:19:37,708 resolutions, I don't care about that, 738 01:19:37,708 --> 01:19:39,208 but a new year is always a 739 01:19:39,208 --> 01:19:41,583 good starting point to like, 740 01:19:41,583 --> 01:19:44,125 hey, you know, last year was a tough, 741 01:19:44,125 --> 01:19:44,750 like I'm usually pretty 742 01:19:44,750 --> 01:19:45,750 good about working out, 743 01:19:45,750 --> 01:19:47,458 last year it fell off for a 744 01:19:47,458 --> 01:19:48,416 million different reasons. 745 01:19:48,708 --> 01:19:49,458 It started strong and 746 01:19:49,458 --> 01:19:50,875 then it kind of fell off, 747 01:19:50,875 --> 01:19:51,541 you know, it's summer 748 01:19:51,541 --> 01:19:52,250 for whatever reason, 749 01:19:52,541 --> 01:19:54,333 but, you know, it's always like, 750 01:19:54,333 --> 01:19:54,875 you know, I just need to be 751 01:19:54,875 --> 01:19:56,166 better about that, you know? 752 01:19:56,166 --> 01:19:56,625 I'm gonna try to make 753 01:19:56,625 --> 01:19:57,250 it through a whole year. 754 01:19:57,583 --> 01:19:58,833 You know, it's almost like, you know, 755 01:19:59,375 --> 01:20:00,750 it's almost like daring yourself 756 01:20:00,875 --> 01:20:01,666 or setting a challenge 757 01:20:01,666 --> 01:20:03,416 for yourself to be better. 758 01:20:03,708 --> 01:20:04,000 Yeah. 759 01:20:04,875 --> 01:20:07,000 And that's just, my life 760 01:20:07,000 --> 01:20:08,416 arc has always provided me 761 01:20:08,458 --> 01:20:09,458 opportunities to improve. 762 01:20:10,500 --> 01:20:12,250 And I'm just shocked that there's others 763 01:20:12,500 --> 01:20:14,041 that don't view it that way. 764 01:20:14,750 --> 01:20:15,750 I mean, it's innately 765 01:20:15,750 --> 01:20:16,875 bothering me right now. 766 01:20:17,916 --> 01:20:18,541 (laughing) 767 01:20:18,583 --> 01:20:21,208 Uh oh, I didn't mean to do that. 768 01:20:21,625 --> 01:20:23,416 No, I know, that's crazy though, so. 769 01:20:23,416 --> 01:20:26,166 Anyways, wow, well, 770 01:20:26,166 --> 01:20:26,916 I'm sorry, I told you, 771 01:20:26,916 --> 01:20:28,333 it's like, I got a good question for you. 772 01:20:28,583 --> 01:20:29,500 We'll see how that goes. 773 01:20:29,916 --> 01:20:30,500 Well, that went. 774 01:20:31,333 --> 01:20:32,208 That was the question. 775 01:20:32,583 --> 01:20:33,916 There it is, that was the big one. 776 01:20:33,916 --> 01:20:36,916 I feel like I didn't answer it correctly, 777 01:20:37,166 --> 01:20:38,541 although I answered it honestly. 778 01:20:39,291 --> 01:20:41,000 No, there's no right or wrong on that. 779 01:20:43,916 --> 01:20:46,458 You know, I mean, like, what I... 780 01:20:49,916 --> 01:20:51,833 I would be curious if 781 01:20:51,833 --> 01:20:52,958 there was like a psychologist 782 01:20:53,250 --> 01:20:54,291 sitting here and how 783 01:20:54,291 --> 01:20:55,541 they would explore that. 784 01:20:56,041 --> 01:20:56,500 You know what I mean? 785 01:20:57,000 --> 01:20:57,333 Yeah. 786 01:20:57,375 --> 01:20:58,416 That part of it. 787 01:20:58,833 --> 01:21:00,000 Because, you know, 788 01:21:00,000 --> 01:21:00,916 we've talked through things, 789 01:21:01,375 --> 01:21:02,583 and now this is a little bit of pivot, 790 01:21:02,583 --> 01:21:04,458 but like, you know, as a couple, 791 01:21:05,250 --> 01:21:06,333 you have to be able to talk 792 01:21:06,333 --> 01:21:07,708 about things that are like, 793 01:21:07,708 --> 01:21:12,750 hey, here's something that, you know, 794 01:21:13,000 --> 01:21:13,625 if you could do this 795 01:21:13,625 --> 01:21:14,500 differently, it'd be better. 796 01:21:14,875 --> 01:21:15,333 Yeah, yeah. 797 01:21:15,375 --> 01:21:16,208 You know, we've been honest 798 01:21:16,208 --> 01:21:17,041 with each other on that one. 799 01:21:17,208 --> 01:21:18,250 I have to drag it out 800 01:21:18,250 --> 01:21:19,125 of you a lot of the time, 801 01:21:19,125 --> 01:21:20,666 so I'm like, tell me, 802 01:21:21,000 --> 01:21:21,500 you know what I mean? 803 01:21:21,500 --> 01:21:22,583 I'm a dumb male. 804 01:21:22,583 --> 01:21:23,166 Like, sometimes you have 805 01:21:23,166 --> 01:21:24,125 to hit me over the head, 806 01:21:24,666 --> 01:21:26,875 you know, and just tell me. 807 01:21:26,875 --> 01:21:27,083 Yeah. 808 01:21:27,750 --> 01:21:28,708 And then I'll do it, 100%, 809 01:21:29,041 --> 01:21:31,208 and me being the way that I am, 810 01:21:31,208 --> 01:21:32,666 I'm fairly open, you 811 01:21:32,666 --> 01:21:33,500 know, emotions on the sleeve. 812 01:21:33,833 --> 01:21:35,083 I usually tell you, like, 813 01:21:35,083 --> 01:21:36,625 hey, here's what I need, 814 01:21:36,875 --> 01:21:37,875 you know, like, this is the 815 01:21:37,875 --> 01:21:39,166 way this is coming across. 816 01:21:39,166 --> 01:21:39,958 This is how this is. 817 01:21:42,000 --> 01:21:43,625 So, I mean, I'm rambling here a bit, 818 01:21:44,041 --> 01:21:45,875 but, and I'm talking too much, 819 01:21:46,083 --> 01:21:47,083 but the long and the 820 01:21:47,083 --> 01:21:48,291 short of it there feel, 821 01:21:48,666 --> 01:21:51,750 to me, is like, generally when 822 01:21:53,791 --> 01:21:55,208 we have some of those conversations, 823 01:21:56,333 --> 01:22:00,083 you don't like to hear that 824 01:22:00,083 --> 01:22:01,250 there are ways to improve. 825 01:22:02,000 --> 01:22:03,791 Like, there is a lot of 826 01:22:03,791 --> 01:22:05,083 pushback there at times, 827 01:22:05,083 --> 01:22:06,750 and so this is just kind of 828 01:22:06,750 --> 01:22:08,625 a bigger window into that, 829 01:22:09,041 --> 01:22:10,583 like, oh, now I 830 01:22:10,583 --> 01:22:12,083 understand even more so why, 831 01:22:12,833 --> 01:22:13,791 anytime there ever is, 832 01:22:13,791 --> 01:22:15,666 like, hey, if you could maybe, 833 01:22:15,875 --> 01:22:16,791 you know, do this, and like, 834 01:22:16,791 --> 01:22:18,291 where I'm always like the opposite way, 835 01:22:18,291 --> 01:22:20,083 like, I'm an idiot, like, you know, 836 01:22:20,083 --> 01:22:20,833 like if I mess up, just 837 01:22:20,833 --> 01:22:22,083 tell me, I will change it. 838 01:22:22,708 --> 01:22:23,125 You know what I mean? 839 01:22:23,125 --> 01:22:24,833 Like, I'm okay not being perfect, 840 01:22:25,791 --> 01:22:26,791 and I think this is where that 841 01:22:26,791 --> 01:22:28,166 psychologist thing comes in. 842 01:22:30,208 --> 01:22:31,416 You have to be perfect, 843 01:22:31,875 --> 01:22:34,250 and this is what I'm saying, 844 01:22:34,250 --> 01:22:34,750 I really don't have to 845 01:22:34,750 --> 01:22:35,500 dive into this at all, 846 01:22:35,750 --> 01:22:37,083 but when I tell you there's 847 01:22:37,083 --> 01:22:39,083 ways, you don't like that. 848 01:22:39,500 --> 01:22:40,000 That means you're not 849 01:22:40,000 --> 01:22:42,166 doing everything perfect, 850 01:22:42,750 --> 01:22:44,083 or a New Year's resolution. 851 01:22:45,291 --> 01:22:47,625 How could I possibly improve? 852 01:22:47,875 --> 01:22:48,625 That would mean I'm 853 01:22:48,625 --> 01:22:49,541 not perfect right now, 854 01:22:49,750 --> 01:22:50,500 and I'm not suggesting 855 01:22:50,500 --> 01:22:51,500 you think you're perfect. 856 01:22:51,500 --> 01:22:52,083 I know you're not. 857 01:22:52,375 --> 01:22:53,916 That's not your personality. 858 01:22:56,375 --> 01:22:57,666 But the little girl 859 01:22:57,666 --> 01:22:59,041 inside you needs that. 860 01:22:59,041 --> 01:22:59,541 Does that make sense? 861 01:23:00,041 --> 01:23:00,583 Yeah, yeah. 862 01:23:01,083 --> 01:23:03,583 I think there's, you know, and going, 863 01:23:04,083 --> 01:23:05,666 I am a perfectionist, 100%. 864 01:23:06,125 --> 01:23:09,208 Like, if I could be 865 01:23:09,208 --> 01:23:10,958 perfect, I would pick that, 866 01:23:10,958 --> 01:23:12,875 you know, is like my wish, right? 867 01:23:15,125 --> 01:23:16,416 And I know I'm not. 868 01:23:19,125 --> 01:23:19,750 But I don't know if this 869 01:23:19,750 --> 01:23:21,041 goes back to like when I was, 870 01:23:21,041 --> 01:23:22,291 I don't know what it was, you know, 871 01:23:22,291 --> 01:23:24,041 like early dating and stuff like that. 872 01:23:24,041 --> 01:23:24,541 I always read like, 873 01:23:24,541 --> 01:23:25,500 you can't change people, 874 01:23:25,541 --> 01:23:26,458 so don't even try, just 875 01:23:26,458 --> 01:23:27,708 accept them for who they are, 876 01:23:27,708 --> 01:23:29,916 you know, and so I've always been like, 877 01:23:30,375 --> 01:23:30,958 you know what, whoever 878 01:23:30,958 --> 01:23:32,291 you are, that's fantastic. 879 01:23:32,583 --> 01:23:33,666 You don't need to hear from me. 880 01:23:33,666 --> 01:23:35,000 You know better than I do 881 01:23:35,000 --> 01:23:36,333 what you need to work on. 882 01:23:36,708 --> 01:23:37,125 You know, so that's 883 01:23:37,125 --> 01:23:39,083 always my kind of philosophy, 884 01:23:40,000 --> 01:23:40,708 only because I know 885 01:23:40,708 --> 01:23:42,208 exactly what I need to work on. 886 01:23:42,958 --> 01:23:44,208 You know, and so it's like, 887 01:23:45,666 --> 01:23:47,000 you're usually not telling me something 888 01:23:47,000 --> 01:23:48,458 that I don't know already. 889 01:23:49,125 --> 01:23:49,833 But do you think most 890 01:23:49,833 --> 01:23:51,000 people are that self-aware? 891 01:23:52,375 --> 01:23:53,041 I mean, I guess maybe 892 01:23:53,041 --> 01:23:53,958 you are more self-aware 893 01:23:53,958 --> 01:23:55,000 than a lot of people are. 894 01:23:55,458 --> 01:23:56,333 If you know exactly 895 01:23:56,333 --> 01:23:57,708 everything you need to work on, 896 01:23:57,708 --> 01:23:58,791 that's very self-aware. 897 01:23:58,833 --> 01:23:59,458 I don't know 898 01:23:59,458 --> 01:24:00,458 everything I need to work on. 899 01:24:00,500 --> 01:24:01,333 That's what you just said though. 900 01:24:01,833 --> 01:24:03,833 Well, I know many of the 901 01:24:03,833 --> 01:24:05,125 things I need to work on. 902 01:24:05,166 --> 01:24:07,750 Okay, okay, that's a different thing. 903 01:24:07,750 --> 01:24:10,250 I do, I'm like, if you 904 01:24:10,250 --> 01:24:11,250 tell me I'm stubborn, 905 01:24:12,416 --> 01:24:15,750 and I know that, thanks, 906 01:24:16,416 --> 01:24:18,166 like I am aware of that, 907 01:24:18,166 --> 01:24:21,125 you know, so I think that's part of it, 908 01:24:21,125 --> 01:24:24,500 of like, oh, I know where I am not. 909 01:24:26,166 --> 01:24:27,333 Let alone, I am not even 910 01:24:27,333 --> 01:24:29,708 good, let alone perfect, you know? 911 01:24:29,750 --> 01:24:30,625 That's not true at all. 912 01:24:30,625 --> 01:24:31,500 I feel like, now I feel 913 01:24:31,500 --> 01:24:32,625 like you're backpedaling here, 914 01:24:32,625 --> 01:24:33,166 and I'm not trying to 915 01:24:33,166 --> 01:24:34,041 come down on you at all here. 916 01:24:34,333 --> 01:24:35,833 That was just an open door, 917 01:24:35,833 --> 01:24:36,541 and we can cut as much 918 01:24:36,541 --> 01:24:37,416 of this as we need to, 919 01:24:37,416 --> 01:24:38,375 because it's kind of a 920 01:24:38,375 --> 01:24:39,583 real conversation here. 921 01:24:41,333 --> 01:24:42,791 And I'm not trying to put you under, 922 01:24:42,791 --> 01:24:43,500 you can put me under, 923 01:24:43,500 --> 01:24:44,458 you can swap it and put 924 01:24:44,458 --> 01:24:45,166 me under the microscope 925 01:24:45,250 --> 01:24:45,958 somehow here too, 926 01:24:46,291 --> 01:24:46,833 because there's lots of 927 01:24:46,833 --> 01:24:48,291 ways to do that as well. 928 01:24:49,500 --> 01:24:50,750 But I mean, even like you just said, 929 01:24:51,166 --> 01:24:53,000 like I'm well aware that I'm stubborn, 930 01:24:53,625 --> 01:24:54,291 as though it's something 931 01:24:54,291 --> 01:24:56,875 you would, a bad trait, right? 932 01:24:56,875 --> 01:24:57,625 And most people are like, 933 01:24:57,625 --> 01:24:58,708 well, if I have a bad trait, 934 01:24:58,708 --> 01:25:00,458 I think I'd like to improve that. 935 01:25:01,041 --> 01:25:01,500 You know what I mean? 936 01:25:02,500 --> 01:25:04,125 But the way you're saying it now, 937 01:25:04,375 --> 01:25:05,625 to me, the way I'm hearing it, 938 01:25:05,625 --> 01:25:06,541 the way it's coming across 939 01:25:06,541 --> 01:25:08,458 is, this is the way I am. 940 01:25:08,458 --> 01:25:09,250 People don't change. 941 01:25:09,250 --> 01:25:10,416 I mean, like, I understand that, 942 01:25:10,416 --> 01:25:11,000 thank you for telling me 943 01:25:11,000 --> 01:25:12,041 that, but I already know that. 944 01:25:12,375 --> 01:25:13,916 There's nothing in there of like, 945 01:25:14,208 --> 01:25:15,916 and gosh dang, I've got to 946 01:25:15,916 --> 01:25:18,125 get, I've got to change that. 947 01:25:18,375 --> 01:25:20,375 It's my worst trait, I gotta get over it, 948 01:25:20,375 --> 01:25:21,541 I gotta work through that somehow, 949 01:25:22,041 --> 01:25:23,708 which is how I would approach. 950 01:25:24,000 --> 01:25:24,750 If someone were to tell 951 01:25:24,750 --> 01:25:25,500 me something like that, 952 01:25:25,500 --> 01:25:26,541 that's how I would approach it. 953 01:25:26,541 --> 01:25:28,250 Not saying I can change it fully, 954 01:25:29,041 --> 01:25:30,666 but I can sure work on it, right? 955 01:25:30,750 --> 01:25:31,708 Right, right, and I'm 956 01:25:31,708 --> 01:25:33,333 not saying that either. 957 01:25:33,541 --> 01:25:34,333 It's not that, just 958 01:25:34,333 --> 01:25:36,083 because I know that something is, 959 01:25:36,541 --> 01:25:37,750 like I have a bad trait, 960 01:25:37,750 --> 01:25:39,416 that I don't try to work on it. 961 01:25:39,875 --> 01:25:41,666 That's not what I'm saying at all. 962 01:25:41,916 --> 01:25:43,541 I know I need to work on it. 963 01:25:43,541 --> 01:25:45,333 It may never be perfect. 964 01:25:45,333 --> 01:25:46,458 It may never even be good, 965 01:25:46,458 --> 01:25:47,041 but it's something 966 01:25:47,041 --> 01:25:49,291 that's on my mind to work on. 967 01:25:51,125 --> 01:25:53,000 And if you have a trait like that, 968 01:25:53,000 --> 01:25:54,000 oftentimes I'm like, 969 01:25:54,000 --> 01:25:55,791 you know better than I do 970 01:25:55,791 --> 01:25:57,250 what you need to work on, like, 971 01:25:58,458 --> 01:26:02,916 and so I don't feel the need to mention 972 01:26:02,916 --> 01:26:03,875 it most of the time. 973 01:26:06,625 --> 01:26:08,000 Yeah, but sometimes to me, 974 01:26:08,291 --> 01:26:08,916 and that's where we're 975 01:26:08,916 --> 01:26:09,708 different, that's okay. 976 01:26:10,583 --> 01:26:12,875 But if I'm continuously doing something, 977 01:26:12,875 --> 01:26:14,541 like you should be like, hey, Sean, 978 01:26:16,875 --> 01:26:17,500 apparently you should 979 01:26:17,500 --> 01:26:18,458 know this better than me. 980 01:26:20,250 --> 01:26:21,333 But you're not 981 01:26:21,333 --> 01:26:22,750 improving on whatever that is, 982 01:26:22,750 --> 01:26:23,250 you know what I mean? 983 01:26:24,125 --> 01:26:25,250 Which is kind of the 984 01:26:25,250 --> 01:26:28,291 offhand, but it's true to you, 985 01:26:28,291 --> 01:26:30,708 because we've had lots of conversations 986 01:26:30,916 --> 01:26:33,125 like with situations 987 01:26:33,125 --> 01:26:34,291 that are uncomfortable. 988 01:26:35,166 --> 01:26:38,875 You lay down, right? 989 01:26:39,666 --> 01:26:40,208 Because there's a 990 01:26:40,208 --> 01:26:41,166 long time we talked about 991 01:26:42,000 --> 01:26:42,958 you being the doormat, 992 01:26:43,166 --> 01:26:43,875 you know what I mean? 993 01:26:44,125 --> 01:26:45,166 Like not standing up. 994 01:26:45,583 --> 01:26:46,416 I dislike conflict. 995 01:26:47,500 --> 01:26:48,916 I can't stand it. 996 01:26:49,333 --> 01:26:51,000 And I'll never be good at it. 997 01:26:51,000 --> 01:26:51,250 Yeah. 998 01:26:52,000 --> 01:26:52,625 But it's something 999 01:26:52,625 --> 01:26:54,875 that I have to deal with. 1000 01:26:55,458 --> 01:26:56,000 But that's even the 1001 01:26:56,000 --> 01:26:57,041 lowest level of conflict, 1002 01:26:57,041 --> 01:26:58,000 like with a spouse that 1003 01:26:58,000 --> 01:27:00,125 you've known for two decades plus, 1004 01:27:00,125 --> 01:27:01,458 be like, hey, you are not 1005 01:27:01,458 --> 01:27:02,625 getting better at this, Sean, 1006 01:27:02,625 --> 01:27:04,000 you've got to get better at that. 1007 01:27:04,000 --> 01:27:04,458 You know what I mean? 1008 01:27:04,708 --> 01:27:06,208 Like you should be able to say that. 1009 01:27:07,166 --> 01:27:08,166 That's just such an 1010 01:27:08,166 --> 01:27:11,708 interesting look into you 1011 01:27:13,458 --> 01:27:14,375 from my perspective, 1012 01:27:14,916 --> 01:27:15,625 you know what I mean? 1013 01:27:15,625 --> 01:27:18,333 Because that's one of the 1014 01:27:18,333 --> 01:27:21,500 things in our relationship, 1015 01:27:21,500 --> 01:27:22,416 one of the few things that 1016 01:27:22,416 --> 01:27:23,208 we've ever struggled with 1017 01:27:23,208 --> 01:27:25,208 is standing up for us and our family. 1018 01:27:25,875 --> 01:27:26,500 You know, to people that 1019 01:27:26,500 --> 01:27:27,916 are outside of our family, 1020 01:27:27,916 --> 01:27:29,500 whether it's other 1021 01:27:29,500 --> 01:27:31,291 family, whether it's friends, 1022 01:27:31,291 --> 01:27:36,541 whether whatever it is, standing up. 1023 01:27:36,750 --> 01:27:38,083 That's really tough for you to do. 1024 01:27:38,500 --> 01:27:39,708 Oh, it's terrible. 1025 01:27:40,833 --> 01:27:41,833 And again, it's not 1026 01:27:41,833 --> 01:27:44,375 something that comes natural to me 1027 01:27:44,375 --> 01:27:45,041 at all. 1028 01:27:46,125 --> 01:27:49,041 You know, and that is 1029 01:27:49,041 --> 01:27:50,083 something that like, 1030 01:27:50,916 --> 01:27:51,583 again, the conflict 1031 01:27:51,583 --> 01:27:52,791 resolution is one of those things 1032 01:27:52,791 --> 01:27:55,166 where it's like, I'm not gonna, you know, 1033 01:27:55,166 --> 01:27:56,791 be like, today I'm going to get better 1034 01:27:56,958 --> 01:27:58,291 at conflict resolution. 1035 01:27:58,291 --> 01:27:59,666 And that wouldn't necessarily be a, 1036 01:27:59,958 --> 01:28:00,958 because that would mean 1037 01:28:00,958 --> 01:28:02,333 you have to incite conflict, 1038 01:28:02,333 --> 01:28:02,833 I think, to... 1039 01:28:03,916 --> 01:28:06,458 No, but it would be like, this year, 1040 01:28:06,458 --> 01:28:07,166 I'm just gonna try 1041 01:28:07,166 --> 01:28:08,500 better to stand up for myself. 1042 01:28:09,000 --> 01:28:10,500 It's not like I'm gonna go search it up, 1043 01:28:10,500 --> 01:28:12,000 but if it comes up this 1044 01:28:12,000 --> 01:28:13,791 year, I'm gonna try to stand, 1045 01:28:13,791 --> 01:28:15,416 I'm gonna try to, I 1046 01:28:15,416 --> 01:28:16,291 don't wanna say this enough. 1047 01:28:16,750 --> 01:28:17,875 This, that would have 1048 01:28:17,875 --> 01:28:18,750 been, what is it called? 1049 01:28:19,916 --> 01:28:20,666 Passive aggressive. Passive aggressive. 1050 01:28:20,958 --> 01:28:22,083 Like, I'm gonna try to grow a backbone. 1051 01:28:23,416 --> 01:28:25,125 So that's what I was gonna say. 1052 01:28:25,125 --> 01:28:26,250 And that is, and that's one of the things 1053 01:28:26,250 --> 01:28:27,166 I struggle with, right? 1054 01:28:27,708 --> 01:28:29,166 I didn't realize I was passive aggressive 1055 01:28:29,708 --> 01:28:31,708 till I was told I was. 1056 01:28:31,708 --> 01:28:32,625 I'm like, okay, I win. 1057 01:28:32,625 --> 01:28:33,250 And then I kind of 1058 01:28:33,250 --> 01:28:35,083 tried to unpack why that is. 1059 01:28:35,083 --> 01:28:36,083 And I kind of now 1060 01:28:36,083 --> 01:28:38,708 understand why I'm passive aggressive 1061 01:28:39,250 --> 01:28:40,000 and I try to work, I 1062 01:28:40,000 --> 01:28:40,833 do try to work on it. 1063 01:28:40,916 --> 01:28:42,916 And now, one out of 10 1064 01:28:42,916 --> 01:28:44,333 times, I hear myself say it. 1065 01:28:45,000 --> 01:28:46,375 Not enough, obviously. 1066 01:28:47,083 --> 01:28:48,000 One out of 10 is terrible. 1067 01:28:48,750 --> 01:28:50,541 But that's my point though. 1068 01:28:50,916 --> 01:28:52,916 Your point would be, and same with me, 1069 01:28:52,916 --> 01:28:53,541 if I was gonna say that, 1070 01:28:53,833 --> 01:28:55,833 I'm going to try this year 1071 01:28:55,833 --> 01:28:56,708 not to be passive aggressive. 1072 01:28:57,208 --> 01:28:58,000 Maybe that would be my New Year's 1073 01:28:58,000 --> 01:28:58,833 resolution for this year. 1074 01:28:59,041 --> 01:29:00,208 I'm gonna try to do away 1075 01:29:00,208 --> 01:29:01,041 with passive aggressiveness. 1076 01:29:01,416 --> 01:29:04,875 And on a self-improvement journey, to me, 1077 01:29:05,250 --> 01:29:07,708 that's like, okay, well, if 1078 01:29:07,708 --> 01:29:09,625 I improve that 10% this year, 1079 01:29:10,666 --> 01:29:11,541 that makes me a better person. 1080 01:29:12,250 --> 01:29:13,000 So why not try? 1081 01:29:13,750 --> 01:29:14,250 You know what I mean? 1082 01:29:14,500 --> 01:29:15,625 Why not try? 1083 01:29:16,000 --> 01:29:18,000 Because that makes your life better. 1084 01:29:18,000 --> 01:29:19,041 That makes our kids' life better. 1085 01:29:19,041 --> 01:29:19,541 That makes our friends 1086 01:29:19,541 --> 01:29:20,583 and family's lives better 1087 01:29:21,208 --> 01:29:23,291 if I incrementally 1088 01:29:23,291 --> 01:29:25,500 just try to better myself. 1089 01:29:26,458 --> 01:29:28,750 And that's the life arc that I'm on. 1090 01:29:30,416 --> 01:29:32,500 And so that's where I come up with that. 1091 01:29:34,041 --> 01:29:37,166 Wow, really real here on-- 1092 01:29:37,666 --> 01:29:38,000 Bombshell. 1093 01:29:38,375 --> 01:29:40,708 On KIKX 102.7. 1094 01:29:41,583 --> 01:29:42,250 What is the one? 1095 01:29:43,291 --> 01:29:44,500 On Love Actually. 1096 01:29:45,250 --> 01:29:46,333 He's like, oh. 1097 01:29:46,416 --> 01:29:48,791 I don't know that line specifically. 1098 01:29:49,083 --> 01:29:49,541 Where he says 1099 01:29:49,541 --> 01:29:51,083 something bad about Billy Mack. 1100 01:29:51,708 --> 01:29:53,166 And he's like, coincidentally, 1101 01:29:53,166 --> 01:29:54,666 Billy Mack's in the, whatever. 1102 01:29:55,583 --> 01:29:57,208 That's the worst Christmas song, yeah. 1103 01:29:57,208 --> 01:29:59,041 I know, maybe it was when he's like, 1104 01:29:59,833 --> 01:30:01,333 oh, can I be honest with you? 1105 01:30:01,333 --> 01:30:02,458 And he's like, oh, please do. 1106 01:30:02,458 --> 01:30:03,625 That doesn't happen very often. 1107 01:30:04,000 --> 01:30:05,041 Often you're right. 1108 01:30:05,041 --> 01:30:07,791 It was like, yeah, KIKX, yeah. 1109 01:30:07,875 --> 01:30:08,500 So I just threw it in 1110 01:30:08,500 --> 01:30:10,000 my old hometown, Winter, 1111 01:30:10,000 --> 01:30:11,041 I know, by heart. 1112 01:30:12,291 --> 01:30:13,708 (laughing) This is KIKX? 1113 01:30:13,750 --> 01:30:15,083 Kicks, 102.7. 1114 01:30:15,500 --> 01:30:15,750 Wow. 1115 01:30:16,083 --> 01:30:16,666 KIKX. 1116 01:30:16,916 --> 01:30:18,666 101.3 KDWB. 1117 01:30:19,000 --> 01:30:21,166 Yeah, that's a lot of, K-B. 1118 01:30:21,541 --> 01:30:21,958 K-D. 1119 01:30:22,416 --> 01:30:23,500 KDWB? 1120 01:30:23,500 --> 01:30:23,833 Yeah. 1121 01:30:23,833 --> 01:30:25,666 Oh, so it's only for KIKX, yeah. 1122 01:30:25,750 --> 01:30:26,041 Yeah. 1123 01:30:26,041 --> 01:30:27,708 You get a lot more syllables than yours. 1124 01:30:28,833 --> 01:30:29,291 syllables. 1125 01:30:29,750 --> 01:30:31,416 I had a lot of syllables, yeah. 1126 01:30:31,625 --> 01:30:33,958 101.3 KDWB. 1127 01:30:34,250 --> 01:30:35,583 Interesting, interesting. 1128 01:30:35,791 --> 01:30:36,625 Well, let's pivot a 1129 01:30:36,625 --> 01:30:37,500 little bit on that one. 1130 01:30:37,500 --> 01:30:38,250 And we can cut as much 1131 01:30:38,250 --> 01:30:39,000 of that out as you want, 1132 01:30:39,000 --> 01:30:39,583 because I know we got kind 1133 01:30:39,583 --> 01:30:40,958 of real in that a little bit. 1134 01:30:40,958 --> 01:30:41,750 And I don't want to feel like 1135 01:30:41,750 --> 01:30:43,500 it was on you too much there, 1136 01:30:43,500 --> 01:30:44,000 because we could have 1137 01:30:44,000 --> 01:30:45,000 turned that on me, like, 1138 01:30:46,125 --> 01:30:46,875 and I don't want, I mean, 1139 01:30:46,875 --> 01:30:48,166 we don't even dive into it, 1140 01:30:48,166 --> 01:30:49,291 but we could have turned it on me. 1141 01:30:49,291 --> 01:30:50,083 I mean, there's lots of, 1142 01:30:50,083 --> 01:30:52,541 we all have little kids inside of us. 1143 01:30:52,583 --> 01:30:52,791 Yeah. 1144 01:30:53,583 --> 01:30:54,666 When we talk about it, you know, 1145 01:30:54,666 --> 01:30:56,833 we can't believe that we're, you know, 1146 01:30:56,833 --> 01:30:58,916 in our mid to late 40s, 1147 01:30:59,625 --> 01:31:00,500 because we still feel like kids. 1148 01:31:01,000 --> 01:31:02,333 We still feel like we're in our 20s. 1149 01:31:02,625 --> 01:31:02,833 Yeah. 1150 01:31:03,166 --> 01:31:06,583 But ultimately, we are kids 1151 01:31:06,958 --> 01:31:08,250 that are just kind of grown up. 1152 01:31:08,250 --> 01:31:10,583 But I mean, we've built 1153 01:31:10,583 --> 01:31:12,500 these defenses and, you know, 1154 01:31:12,500 --> 01:31:13,375 we've built a lot of 1155 01:31:13,375 --> 01:31:14,875 things over time, you know, 1156 01:31:15,166 --> 01:31:17,333 around just that delicate, 1157 01:31:17,333 --> 01:31:19,041 innocent little kid, right? 1158 01:31:19,041 --> 01:31:20,500 We've built careers about it. 1159 01:31:20,500 --> 01:31:23,958 We've built education around it. 1160 01:31:23,958 --> 01:31:26,000 We beat social norms around it. 1161 01:31:26,000 --> 01:31:26,666 You know, so we've built 1162 01:31:26,666 --> 01:31:28,208 up just all this stuff, 1163 01:31:28,208 --> 01:31:31,625 but if you just knock all that down 1164 01:31:31,833 --> 01:31:33,125 to get into the center of it, 1165 01:31:33,125 --> 01:31:34,541 we're still just those little kids. 1166 01:31:35,250 --> 01:31:37,375 Yeah. You know, I wasn't trying to 1167 01:31:37,375 --> 01:31:38,458 pick on you at all in there, 1168 01:31:38,625 --> 01:31:39,541 but you know, you're 1169 01:31:39,541 --> 01:31:40,458 wanting to be perfect 1170 01:31:40,875 --> 01:31:42,083 is kind of in the middle 1171 01:31:42,083 --> 01:31:43,125 of yours to some degree, 1172 01:31:43,125 --> 01:31:44,166 maybe, might be in there. 1173 01:31:44,500 --> 01:31:45,291 And I'm not even trying to, 1174 01:31:45,458 --> 01:31:46,291 but like in the middle of 1175 01:31:46,291 --> 01:31:49,875 mine is a lot of, you know, 1176 01:31:49,875 --> 01:31:50,500 there's a lot of things 1177 01:31:50,500 --> 01:31:51,416 that I've struggled with too 1178 01:31:51,500 --> 01:31:54,000 that ultimately manifest themselves 1179 01:31:54,291 --> 01:31:55,041 in our everyday lives, 1180 01:31:55,041 --> 01:31:56,958 even as adults, right? 1181 01:31:57,375 --> 01:32:01,208 Like embarrassment or feeling adequate 1182 01:32:01,875 --> 01:32:04,833 or feeling, you know, 1183 01:32:05,750 --> 01:32:06,625 I want to say love's not 1184 01:32:06,625 --> 01:32:09,916 the word, but appreciated, 1185 01:32:11,458 --> 01:32:12,875 feeling adequate, you know, with the 1186 01:32:12,875 --> 01:32:14,416 people that, you know, 1187 01:32:14,708 --> 01:32:15,333 that's mine. 1188 01:32:15,333 --> 01:32:15,791 Cause the second, 1189 01:32:16,125 --> 01:32:16,666 it even happened 1190 01:32:16,666 --> 01:32:17,833 earlier today or some point, 1191 01:32:17,833 --> 01:32:18,500 I was like, I just feel 1192 01:32:18,500 --> 01:32:20,375 like maybe it wasn't today, 1193 01:32:20,583 --> 01:32:22,208 but you know, but if I don't, 1194 01:32:22,208 --> 01:32:23,375 if I don't feel that like 1195 01:32:23,375 --> 01:32:24,541 sense of like, oh my gosh, 1196 01:32:25,666 --> 01:32:28,958 like I feel right 1197 01:32:28,958 --> 01:32:29,625 now, like I'm not needed 1198 01:32:30,000 --> 01:32:33,125 or appreciated or something like that. 1199 01:32:33,541 --> 01:32:33,958 I mean, it's one of 1200 01:32:33,958 --> 01:32:34,541 those things that take, 1201 01:32:34,541 --> 01:32:35,166 it's like embarrassment. 1202 01:32:35,166 --> 01:32:35,916 It takes you straight 1203 01:32:35,916 --> 01:32:37,000 back to that little kid. 1204 01:32:37,208 --> 01:32:37,583 Oh yeah. 1205 01:32:37,666 --> 01:32:38,166 You know what I mean? 1206 01:32:38,166 --> 01:32:39,208 And I know a lot of the things, 1207 01:32:39,208 --> 01:32:42,208 a lot of my negative qualities, 1208 01:32:42,208 --> 01:32:43,125 when I come from that, 1209 01:32:43,375 --> 01:32:44,916 that's one of its deepest roots. 1210 01:32:45,416 --> 01:32:46,125 So I'm not, I wasn't 1211 01:32:46,125 --> 01:32:47,041 trying to pick on you at all. 1212 01:32:47,041 --> 01:32:47,541 I'm willing to put 1213 01:32:47,541 --> 01:32:48,750 myself out there for that too. 1214 01:32:49,125 --> 01:32:49,375 Yeah. 1215 01:32:49,791 --> 01:32:50,833 Well, and I think most of our 1216 01:32:50,833 --> 01:32:53,625 negative traits or qualities 1217 01:32:53,625 --> 01:32:55,791 in general come from 1218 01:32:55,791 --> 01:32:57,833 that child, you know, 1219 01:32:57,833 --> 01:32:59,291 like whoever we were as a child, 1220 01:32:59,416 --> 01:33:00,833 it comes from that. 1221 01:33:01,666 --> 01:33:03,791 And it's just, everyone was a 1222 01:33:03,791 --> 01:33:05,041 little bit different, right? 1223 01:33:05,458 --> 01:33:09,250 Like some of it truly is personality, 1224 01:33:09,500 --> 01:33:11,083 but then you compound 1225 01:33:11,083 --> 01:33:14,333 that and your nurture, 1226 01:33:14,916 --> 01:33:16,916 yeah, your nurture around 1227 01:33:16,916 --> 01:33:20,125 you either helps diffuse that 1228 01:33:20,708 --> 01:33:22,833 or it augments that bad 1229 01:33:22,833 --> 01:33:23,875 thing, you know, like. 1230 01:33:24,666 --> 01:33:25,541 It's always a balance of 1231 01:33:25,541 --> 01:33:27,125 nature versus nurture, right? 1232 01:33:27,375 --> 01:33:28,208 Nature usually gives it to you 1233 01:33:28,250 --> 01:33:28,833 and then depends on 1234 01:33:28,833 --> 01:33:30,166 how that was nurtured. 1235 01:33:30,416 --> 01:33:32,458 To your point, better, for the better, 1236 01:33:32,458 --> 01:33:33,791 and for the worse, potentially. 1237 01:33:34,875 --> 01:33:36,541 Right, totally true, totally true. 1238 01:33:37,083 --> 01:33:40,583 And it's just, it's so 1239 01:33:40,583 --> 01:33:42,041 interesting just to see like, 1240 01:33:42,083 --> 01:33:44,583 that's why, I love that we, 1241 01:33:45,083 --> 01:33:45,541 I don't know if we'll 1242 01:33:45,541 --> 01:33:46,291 keep it in or not, you know, 1243 01:33:46,291 --> 01:33:48,333 but I love that for one, for the first 1244 01:33:48,333 --> 01:33:49,500 time in 48 episodes, 1245 01:33:49,500 --> 01:33:50,416 this was like one of our 1246 01:33:50,416 --> 01:33:51,791 most real ones of like, 1247 01:33:52,583 --> 01:33:53,791 we're little kids inside. 1248 01:33:53,791 --> 01:33:55,750 I know everybody, we all try to peacock. 1249 01:33:56,416 --> 01:33:57,250 Oh, totally. 1250 01:33:57,291 --> 01:33:57,791 You know what I mean? 1251 01:33:58,208 --> 01:33:59,166 I love that term, by the way. 1252 01:33:59,208 --> 01:34:00,166 Yeah, it's the best term. 1253 01:34:00,166 --> 01:34:01,958 Everybody peacocks, shows their feathers, 1254 01:34:01,958 --> 01:34:03,083 puts their best foot forward, 1255 01:34:03,083 --> 01:34:03,875 that's what Facebook's 1256 01:34:03,875 --> 01:34:04,500 all about, all these, 1257 01:34:04,500 --> 01:34:04,833 you know what I mean? 1258 01:34:04,833 --> 01:34:05,041 Yeah. 1259 01:34:05,583 --> 01:34:09,583 And that's why when 1260 01:34:09,583 --> 01:34:10,416 you have a best friend, 1261 01:34:10,666 --> 01:34:12,166 or a best friend, or a 1262 01:34:12,166 --> 01:34:13,416 great spouse in good marriage, 1263 01:34:14,083 --> 01:34:15,625 when you're exposed to those things 1264 01:34:16,000 --> 01:34:18,166 and you know that you 1265 01:34:18,166 --> 01:34:19,083 can put those feathers down 1266 01:34:19,083 --> 01:34:20,125 and put those feathers away, 1267 01:34:21,125 --> 01:34:22,333 and as ugly as you might 1268 01:34:22,333 --> 01:34:23,916 be, or as simple as, you know, 1269 01:34:24,250 --> 01:34:25,208 behind those feathers, maybe 1270 01:34:25,208 --> 01:34:26,625 that's where that little kid is. 1271 01:34:28,291 --> 01:34:29,875 It's not perfect, that's a work. 1272 01:34:31,500 --> 01:34:32,500 For me at least, it's 1273 01:34:32,500 --> 01:34:34,333 always a work in progress. 1274 01:34:35,208 --> 01:34:37,208 I'm not a horrible person, I 1275 01:34:37,208 --> 01:34:38,708 don't have major blind spots, 1276 01:34:39,416 --> 01:34:40,666 but I can definitely 1277 01:34:40,666 --> 01:34:42,000 still improve on things, 1278 01:34:42,416 --> 01:34:42,875 you know what I mean? 1279 01:34:43,791 --> 01:34:46,083 And it's just interesting, 1280 01:34:47,541 --> 01:34:48,083 when people start 1281 01:34:48,083 --> 01:34:49,416 peeling back those layers 1282 01:34:49,416 --> 01:34:51,916 and being more real about what we are, 1283 01:34:53,291 --> 01:34:55,041 for me, it's just that next step, okay, 1284 01:34:55,041 --> 01:34:56,375 what are we gonna do to improve that, 1285 01:34:56,375 --> 01:34:56,875 you know what I mean? 1286 01:34:57,166 --> 01:34:58,291 And that's why I was so surprised, 1287 01:34:58,291 --> 01:34:59,166 because with you it was almost like, 1288 01:34:59,166 --> 01:35:00,333 you know what, it is what it is. 1289 01:35:00,333 --> 01:35:02,541 Why even try to change it? 1290 01:35:02,541 --> 01:35:04,500 Because people are who they are, right? 1291 01:35:04,708 --> 01:35:05,458 Why try? 1292 01:35:05,458 --> 01:35:06,083 That's what I heard you 1293 01:35:06,083 --> 01:35:07,750 say, and that's why innately, 1294 01:35:07,916 --> 01:35:09,416 for me, I'm like, that bothers me, 1295 01:35:09,416 --> 01:35:09,833 because it's like, 1296 01:35:10,291 --> 01:35:11,666 I'm constantly looking, 1297 01:35:11,666 --> 01:35:12,166 I'll let you talk. 1298 01:35:12,583 --> 01:35:13,500 Yeah, no, I was gonna 1299 01:35:13,500 --> 01:35:14,333 say, that's actually not, 1300 01:35:14,708 --> 01:35:16,625 if that's how it came out, I'm sorry, 1301 01:35:16,625 --> 01:35:17,833 that's not actually what I meant, 1302 01:35:17,833 --> 01:35:23,125 it was more or less around, you know, 1303 01:35:23,125 --> 01:35:25,000 it's like, I have a lot of 1304 01:35:25,000 --> 01:35:25,958 things to work on myself, 1305 01:35:26,291 --> 01:35:27,791 who am I to tell you, and 1306 01:35:27,791 --> 01:35:30,375 what you need to work on? 1307 01:35:31,375 --> 01:35:33,750 I mean, part of that is just like, 1308 01:35:34,833 --> 01:35:38,666 hey, I can't get frustrated with you, 1309 01:35:39,000 --> 01:35:40,458 because, we'll bring up a 1310 01:35:40,458 --> 01:35:41,916 real example today, right? 1311 01:35:41,916 --> 01:35:43,750 When you were really busy, 1312 01:35:43,750 --> 01:35:44,916 and you're moving 1313 01:35:44,916 --> 01:35:46,375 around the house quickly 1314 01:35:46,375 --> 01:35:47,583 to get all your things 1315 01:35:47,583 --> 01:35:48,541 done and all your to do, 1316 01:35:48,833 --> 01:35:49,958 okay, usually that's 1317 01:35:49,958 --> 01:35:51,458 me doing that, right? 1318 01:35:51,916 --> 01:35:53,958 Because I'm, I don't know, 1319 01:35:53,958 --> 01:35:55,291 I'm always kind of manic, 1320 01:35:55,916 --> 01:35:59,791 I don't know, but, it's like, I'm not, 1321 01:36:00,416 --> 01:36:01,416 I wasn't gonna say 1322 01:36:01,416 --> 01:36:02,833 anything to you about it, 1323 01:36:02,833 --> 01:36:04,666 because I was like, that's 1324 01:36:04,666 --> 01:36:05,708 something I need to work on, 1325 01:36:06,416 --> 01:36:06,791 you know, and it 1326 01:36:06,791 --> 01:36:08,000 wasn't until you were like, 1327 01:36:08,000 --> 01:36:09,125 what's going on, are you 1328 01:36:09,125 --> 01:36:10,916 okay, you seem stressed, 1329 01:36:11,125 --> 01:36:12,208 what's happening, and 1330 01:36:12,208 --> 01:36:13,333 you start asking questions 1331 01:36:13,333 --> 01:36:15,000 that I said anything, I 1332 01:36:15,000 --> 01:36:16,291 had no intention of doing it, 1333 01:36:16,291 --> 01:36:16,958 because I was like, 1334 01:36:17,250 --> 01:36:18,250 something I struggle with, 1335 01:36:18,500 --> 01:36:21,000 how can I tell you to not do it, 1336 01:36:21,000 --> 01:36:21,500 when it's still 1337 01:36:21,500 --> 01:36:22,666 something I struggle with, 1338 01:36:22,666 --> 01:36:24,083 and I need to get better at, 1339 01:36:24,666 --> 01:36:25,458 who am I to critique 1340 01:36:25,458 --> 01:36:27,041 you on that, you know? 1341 01:36:27,333 --> 01:36:28,458 And that a lot of times 1342 01:36:28,458 --> 01:36:29,458 is my thought process. 1343 01:36:30,208 --> 01:36:31,041 Yeah, well first of all, 1344 01:36:31,041 --> 01:36:31,750 how dare you say 1345 01:36:31,750 --> 01:36:33,000 something a bit negative about me? 1346 01:36:33,916 --> 01:36:34,583 (laughs) I'm just kidding. 1347 01:36:37,000 --> 01:36:38,333 No, totally fair point there, 1348 01:36:39,750 --> 01:36:41,166 I would just suggest that 1349 01:36:41,166 --> 01:36:42,708 there's a handful of people 1350 01:36:42,708 --> 01:36:44,500 that you have the right to 1351 01:36:44,500 --> 01:36:46,083 say that to in life, right? 1352 01:36:46,583 --> 01:36:47,625 We're not gonna go to the soccer field 1353 01:36:47,625 --> 01:36:48,375 and say that to people. 1354 01:36:49,125 --> 01:36:49,250 No. 1355 01:36:49,708 --> 01:36:50,416 Right, we're not gonna 1356 01:36:50,416 --> 01:36:51,291 stand out on the street 1357 01:36:51,291 --> 01:36:52,750 and be like, excuse me, 1358 01:36:54,125 --> 01:36:56,333 sense of fashion's way off, you know? 1359 01:36:57,500 --> 01:36:58,500 (laughs) That is not working. 1360 01:36:58,500 --> 01:37:00,416 As fun as it would be to go to the mall 1361 01:37:00,666 --> 01:37:02,166 and just rip everybody apart, 1362 01:37:02,625 --> 01:37:04,000 you know, that's not the suggestion here, 1363 01:37:04,000 --> 01:37:06,500 you know, there's 10 people in a life 1364 01:37:07,583 --> 01:37:08,875 that your life touches close enough 1365 01:37:08,875 --> 01:37:09,291 that you should be 1366 01:37:09,291 --> 01:37:09,833 able to say that to you, 1367 01:37:09,833 --> 01:37:10,500 and I'm one of them, 1368 01:37:10,833 --> 01:37:12,041 our kids are some of them, 1369 01:37:12,500 --> 01:37:14,416 and your direct family is some of them. 1370 01:37:14,583 --> 01:37:15,541 I mean, if you can't 1371 01:37:15,541 --> 01:37:16,833 have a real conversation 1372 01:37:16,833 --> 01:37:19,500 with those people, how 1373 01:37:19,500 --> 01:37:20,708 real is that relationship? 1374 01:37:21,416 --> 01:37:22,166 That's my field. 1375 01:37:23,000 --> 01:37:24,416 And I get it. 1376 01:37:24,791 --> 01:37:27,041 Now, again, that's deep because it's, 1377 01:37:28,958 --> 01:37:31,833 you were raised a certain way that, 1378 01:37:33,291 --> 01:37:35,500 you know, what is the, 1379 01:37:37,125 --> 01:37:39,000 what's that one, they 1380 01:37:39,000 --> 01:37:40,000 made a movie about it 1381 01:37:40,250 --> 01:37:41,625 where everybody's perfect on the street. 1382 01:37:42,708 --> 01:37:45,416 Oh, oh, oh, Stepford Wives or whatever. 1383 01:37:45,458 --> 01:37:46,791 Yeah, yeah, so it's a 1384 01:37:46,791 --> 01:37:48,333 little bit like Stepford Wives 1385 01:37:48,416 --> 01:37:49,125 but the step for 1386 01:37:49,125 --> 01:37:50,708 children, the step for child. 1387 01:37:50,750 --> 01:37:53,416 Like you're, this isn't me 1388 01:37:53,416 --> 01:37:54,666 getting into your upbringing 1389 01:37:55,166 --> 01:37:57,916 and pointing any fingers there, 1390 01:37:57,916 --> 01:38:01,000 but I'm just saying the outcome there is 1391 01:38:02,708 --> 01:38:03,875 you were not raised in a 1392 01:38:03,875 --> 01:38:06,583 way that that was normal 1393 01:38:07,083 --> 01:38:08,916 to say like, hey, this is, 1394 01:38:10,041 --> 01:38:11,125 that you could open up 1395 01:38:11,125 --> 01:38:13,000 that in that kind of a way 1396 01:38:13,250 --> 01:38:14,083 because you don't do it now 1397 01:38:14,083 --> 01:38:14,875 and you won't even, you 1398 01:38:14,875 --> 01:38:15,833 still won't do it with them. 1399 01:38:16,041 --> 01:38:16,541 You didn't do it 1400 01:38:16,541 --> 01:38:17,625 then, you won't do it now, 1401 01:38:18,041 --> 01:38:20,041 and you're even applying that to me. 1402 01:38:20,500 --> 01:38:23,375 Now, on the other hand, I 1403 01:38:23,375 --> 01:38:25,083 was so far the other way 1404 01:38:26,500 --> 01:38:30,666 that, you know, I was 1405 01:38:30,666 --> 01:38:32,083 brought up in a different way 1406 01:38:32,166 --> 01:38:36,833 where we did voice issues and opinions, 1407 01:38:39,375 --> 01:38:41,208 you know, and now I've 1408 01:38:41,208 --> 01:38:43,250 had to adjust as an adult 1409 01:38:44,500 --> 01:38:45,416 what the appropriate 1410 01:38:45,416 --> 01:38:47,166 manner to do that is. 1411 01:38:47,416 --> 01:38:47,583 Yeah. 1412 01:38:49,416 --> 01:38:53,625 Because sometimes I can over share that 1413 01:38:54,708 --> 01:38:55,666 or share it in a way 1414 01:38:55,666 --> 01:38:58,666 that's not as respectful 1415 01:38:58,666 --> 01:39:00,958 as it should be or as, not 1416 01:39:00,958 --> 01:39:02,208 respectful is the wrong word, 1417 01:39:02,208 --> 01:39:04,500 it's not as delicate as it should be. 1418 01:39:04,500 --> 01:39:05,208 Yeah. You know what I mean? 1419 01:39:05,416 --> 01:39:06,500 But that, to your point, 1420 01:39:07,333 --> 01:39:08,375 both of them are things 1421 01:39:08,375 --> 01:39:09,666 that we should be able to do, 1422 01:39:09,666 --> 01:39:11,416 I think in a healthy relationship, 1423 01:39:12,166 --> 01:39:12,875 but because of that 1424 01:39:12,875 --> 01:39:14,458 nature versus nurture thing, 1425 01:39:14,458 --> 01:39:15,416 both of us have come 1426 01:39:15,416 --> 01:39:17,000 to this point in time 1427 01:39:20,000 --> 01:39:20,791 and are able to do 1428 01:39:20,791 --> 01:39:23,083 that or unable to do that 1429 01:39:23,333 --> 01:39:26,958 in our own ways because of that life art 1430 01:39:27,166 --> 01:39:28,375 that has got us to this point. 1431 01:39:28,750 --> 01:39:29,625 Whether that's right or 1432 01:39:29,625 --> 01:39:31,000 wrong, that's where we're at, 1433 01:39:31,250 --> 01:39:32,000 and that's where I get 1434 01:39:32,000 --> 01:39:33,208 back to the resolution thing 1435 01:39:33,208 --> 01:39:34,833 where it's like, if we 1436 01:39:34,833 --> 01:39:36,041 understand those things, 1437 01:39:36,750 --> 01:39:38,583 well, maybe January 1st is just an 1438 01:39:38,583 --> 01:39:39,750 arbitrary day to say, 1439 01:39:39,750 --> 01:39:41,458 you know what, I'm gonna be better 1440 01:39:41,458 --> 01:39:42,916 about just being a little bit more open 1441 01:39:43,291 --> 01:39:45,291 or I'm not gonna be passive aggressive 1442 01:39:46,083 --> 01:39:48,083 or I'll try not to be manic 1443 01:39:48,083 --> 01:39:50,666 and bleed out everybody else, 1444 01:39:51,041 --> 01:39:52,416 the stress that I'm feeling. 1445 01:39:52,750 --> 01:39:54,125 Yeah. You know? 1446 01:39:55,166 --> 01:39:56,750 So, and maybe January 1447 01:39:56,750 --> 01:39:58,666 4th's a good day to do it. 1448 01:40:00,125 --> 01:40:02,291 (laughs) You know? Yeah. 1449 01:40:03,041 --> 01:40:05,291 So anyways, well, that was 1450 01:40:05,291 --> 01:40:06,250 an interesting conversation, 1451 01:40:06,416 --> 01:40:07,250 if nothing else. 1452 01:40:07,500 --> 01:40:08,791 I feel like I've offended you, 1453 01:40:08,791 --> 01:40:09,708 I can just see it in 1454 01:40:09,708 --> 01:40:10,750 your face, you're like, 1455 01:40:11,625 --> 01:40:13,125 you look like a deer in the headlights. 1456 01:40:14,375 --> 01:40:15,791 I feel like I've let you down. 1457 01:40:16,416 --> 01:40:18,291 Like, I'm surprised that 1458 01:40:18,291 --> 01:40:21,250 this is a revelation to you. 1459 01:40:21,250 --> 01:40:22,000 I mean, we've been 1460 01:40:22,000 --> 01:40:24,958 together for almost 21 years 1461 01:40:26,166 --> 01:40:27,791 and I've done like three resolutions, 1462 01:40:28,500 --> 01:40:30,083 one of which was flossing 1463 01:40:30,208 --> 01:40:31,583 and I've only missed a 1464 01:40:31,583 --> 01:40:33,083 handful of days in the last year 1465 01:40:33,333 --> 01:40:34,875 since I made the resolution thing. 1466 01:40:34,875 --> 01:40:35,750 Yeah, it's not like it's big things, 1467 01:40:35,750 --> 01:40:37,208 but it's not the resolution thing, 1468 01:40:37,208 --> 01:40:39,166 it's more or less just 1469 01:40:39,166 --> 01:40:40,541 always on a constant growth 1470 01:40:40,541 --> 01:40:42,000 of becoming a better person. 1471 01:40:42,541 --> 01:40:43,333 Yeah. You know what I mean? 1472 01:40:43,583 --> 01:40:46,500 And I'm not suggesting you're not wanting 1473 01:40:46,500 --> 01:40:47,541 to become a better person, 1474 01:40:47,541 --> 01:40:48,333 I'm not suggesting you 1475 01:40:48,333 --> 01:40:49,208 think you're perfect already 1476 01:40:49,208 --> 01:40:52,000 or whatnot, it's just the puzzle pieces 1477 01:40:52,000 --> 01:40:54,333 are falling together a little bit more 1478 01:40:54,333 --> 01:40:56,416 for me to see a clearer picture of why 1479 01:40:58,958 --> 01:41:01,125 some of the things that we've discussed 1480 01:41:01,375 --> 01:41:03,291 throughout our entire relationship 1481 01:41:05,750 --> 01:41:08,500 have been slow moving, right? 1482 01:41:09,416 --> 01:41:09,541 (laughs) 1483 01:41:09,583 --> 01:41:10,541 No, there's never been, 1484 01:41:11,041 --> 01:41:12,083 I'm trying to be delicate 1485 01:41:12,083 --> 01:41:13,125 on how to say certain things 1486 01:41:13,208 --> 01:41:13,833 that I'm not trying to 1487 01:41:13,833 --> 01:41:14,458 be offensive or anything, 1488 01:41:14,833 --> 01:41:19,708 but it is, I think it just painted 1489 01:41:20,958 --> 01:41:21,958 a fuller picture for me 1490 01:41:21,958 --> 01:41:23,041 today, which is interesting. 1491 01:41:24,000 --> 01:41:25,583 Not that I didn't know those things, 1492 01:41:25,583 --> 01:41:26,875 but it painted, I think it 1493 01:41:26,875 --> 01:41:28,208 was more of an epiphany to me 1494 01:41:28,208 --> 01:41:31,833 of like, oh, that's interesting. 1495 01:41:32,916 --> 01:41:33,083 Yeah. 1496 01:41:33,750 --> 01:41:34,458 That's a little bit 1497 01:41:34,458 --> 01:41:36,375 more why this or why that, 1498 01:41:36,375 --> 01:41:37,500 you know what I mean? Yeah. 1499 01:41:37,583 --> 01:41:41,541 And I think it's what I've come to find 1500 01:41:42,291 --> 01:41:43,416 in this conversation is 1501 01:41:43,416 --> 01:41:46,000 I think it's a lot deeper 1502 01:41:46,000 --> 01:41:48,791 of a conversation that has 1503 01:41:48,791 --> 01:41:49,875 to be had to get to those 1504 01:41:52,708 --> 01:41:58,041 real moments of self-improvement. 1505 01:41:59,166 --> 01:41:59,375 Yeah. 1506 01:42:00,333 --> 01:42:01,208 Discussions with you. 1507 01:42:02,083 --> 01:42:02,250 Yeah. 1508 01:42:02,916 --> 01:42:03,333 You know what I mean? 1509 01:42:03,500 --> 01:42:04,875 That comes from much, 1510 01:42:04,875 --> 01:42:07,875 much deeper space in you. 1511 01:42:08,125 --> 01:42:09,125 That gets way, that's 1512 01:42:09,125 --> 01:42:10,125 way behind the feathers, 1513 01:42:10,250 --> 01:42:11,750 that gets close to the little Megan. 1514 01:42:13,041 --> 01:42:13,375 Whereas 1515 01:42:13,375 --> 01:42:15,750 self-improvement for me is not as close 1516 01:42:15,750 --> 01:42:20,833 to little Sean as other topics might be. 1517 01:42:20,833 --> 01:42:22,541 And I think that's where my epiphany was. 1518 01:42:22,916 --> 01:42:23,166 Interesting. 1519 01:42:23,875 --> 01:42:24,458 That makes sense. 1520 01:42:24,750 --> 01:42:25,875 Yeah, I think so. 1521 01:42:28,250 --> 01:42:30,166 I don't know, I am super curious though. 1522 01:42:30,875 --> 01:42:35,625 Like who is more like you versus me on 1523 01:42:35,625 --> 01:42:36,666 the resolution thing? 1524 01:42:36,666 --> 01:42:38,083 I am curious to be like-- 1525 01:42:38,125 --> 01:42:38,875 Oh, out there? 1526 01:42:39,125 --> 01:42:39,541 Out there. 1527 01:42:41,166 --> 01:42:43,000 Like, gonna have to do 1528 01:42:43,000 --> 01:42:44,291 some scouting on the-- 1529 01:42:45,208 --> 01:42:48,291 Well, just be open on it. 1530 01:42:48,291 --> 01:42:49,625 I'm not a huge resolution guy, 1531 01:42:49,625 --> 01:42:50,583 I just like the beginning of New Year. 1532 01:42:50,583 --> 01:42:51,875 It's always a new fresh start. 1533 01:42:52,541 --> 01:42:53,916 It just feels that way. 1534 01:42:54,583 --> 01:42:56,791 Like, you know, I just try to 1535 01:42:56,791 --> 01:42:57,833 be a better person this year. 1536 01:42:58,208 --> 01:43:01,083 I was never like, here's my 1537 01:43:01,083 --> 01:43:02,166 list of New Year's resolutions 1538 01:43:02,166 --> 01:43:03,583 and I'm gonna do every one of them. 1539 01:43:03,875 --> 01:43:05,000 I've never liked that. 1540 01:43:05,583 --> 01:43:06,500 It's just like, it's a 1541 01:43:06,500 --> 01:43:07,791 fresh start, it's a new year. 1542 01:43:08,291 --> 01:43:09,583 The opportunities are 1543 01:43:09,583 --> 01:43:10,583 endless to some degree. 1544 01:43:11,208 --> 01:43:11,666 And I'm not trying to 1545 01:43:11,666 --> 01:43:12,875 be naive about that, 1546 01:43:13,333 --> 01:43:13,958 you know what I mean? 1547 01:43:13,958 --> 01:43:14,791 But it's just like, it's gonna be, 1548 01:43:15,416 --> 01:43:16,916 why can't this be the best year? 1549 01:43:17,958 --> 01:43:18,875 Is how I feel. 1550 01:43:19,125 --> 01:43:22,291 Whereas I think you're just steady Eddie. 1551 01:43:22,916 --> 01:43:24,125 We just turned another date. 1552 01:43:24,125 --> 01:43:25,458 It's no big deal, it's a new calendar. 1553 01:43:26,000 --> 01:43:27,333 Steady Eddie, steady Eddie. 1554 01:43:27,333 --> 01:43:28,958 And I'm like, no, this could 1555 01:43:28,958 --> 01:43:30,250 be the best year of our lives. 1556 01:43:31,500 --> 01:43:33,583 And that's a different way to look at it. 1557 01:43:33,666 --> 01:43:34,000 Yeah. 1558 01:43:35,791 --> 01:43:37,333 And I'm like, let's just 1559 01:43:37,333 --> 01:43:38,541 hope it's better than last year. 1560 01:43:39,416 --> 01:43:40,125 Well, coming off last 1561 01:43:40,125 --> 01:43:40,833 year, it's gotta be. 1562 01:43:41,916 --> 01:43:42,958 We've had a couple of years 1563 01:43:42,958 --> 01:43:44,166 in there where you're like, 1564 01:43:44,666 --> 01:43:46,458 oh, that was a rough year. 1565 01:43:46,458 --> 01:43:47,875 Oh, that one was a great year. 1566 01:43:48,541 --> 01:43:49,750 Sometimes you do have those 1567 01:43:49,750 --> 01:43:50,500 where you look back and 1568 01:43:50,500 --> 01:43:52,541 you're like, that one, 2015. 1569 01:43:53,416 --> 01:43:54,916 I don't know if 2015 was a 1570 01:43:54,916 --> 01:43:55,875 great year, but you know. 1571 01:43:56,083 --> 01:43:56,333 Yeah. 1572 01:43:57,500 --> 01:43:59,291 It's like, you do have those, 1573 01:43:59,291 --> 01:44:01,041 some that are awesome and some that are. 1574 01:44:01,166 --> 01:44:02,250 Yeah, but as you look back at your life, 1575 01:44:02,291 --> 01:44:02,833 you're like, oh, there's 1576 01:44:02,833 --> 01:44:03,750 good and bad years, right? 1577 01:44:04,416 --> 01:44:04,666 Absolutely. 1578 01:44:05,000 --> 01:44:06,625 So I mean, it's just a 1579 01:44:06,625 --> 01:44:08,791 frame of reference of like, 1580 01:44:08,791 --> 01:44:09,250 you know what? 1581 01:44:09,250 --> 01:44:09,458 Yeah. 1582 01:44:10,458 --> 01:44:11,875 Hopefully this will be a great year. 1583 01:44:12,041 --> 01:44:12,208 Yeah. 1584 01:44:12,583 --> 01:44:13,041 You know what I mean? 1585 01:44:13,500 --> 01:44:13,791 Mm-hmm. 1586 01:44:14,166 --> 01:44:16,458 I mean, if you want to, we could go to, 1587 01:44:16,458 --> 01:44:19,791 you know, we could go to a calendar year. 1588 01:44:19,791 --> 01:44:20,708 Instead of a calendar year, 1589 01:44:20,708 --> 01:44:22,291 we could do a fiscal year in for you. 1590 01:44:22,291 --> 01:44:23,208 That'd make you feel better. 1591 01:44:23,208 --> 01:44:24,583 So we could start, you know, 1592 01:44:25,416 --> 01:44:27,666 April 1st, April Fool's Day. 1593 01:44:27,666 --> 01:44:28,916 That feels very apropos. 1594 01:44:29,541 --> 01:44:29,875 (laughs) 1595 01:44:31,500 --> 01:44:32,208 Oh my gosh. 1596 01:44:32,458 --> 01:44:33,916 In that year for us, 1597 01:44:33,916 --> 01:44:34,458 it would be incredible. 1598 01:44:35,083 --> 01:44:35,791 It would be amazing. 1599 01:44:35,791 --> 01:44:37,666 It's a fiscal year, not a calendar year. 1600 01:44:37,958 --> 01:44:38,083 It's a fiscal year. 1601 01:44:38,083 --> 01:44:38,583 Oh my gosh. 1602 01:44:39,375 --> 01:44:40,666 We have people watching this going, 1603 01:44:40,666 --> 01:44:41,791 what is a fiscal year? 1604 01:44:41,791 --> 01:44:42,250 No, they don't. 1605 01:44:42,583 --> 01:44:43,666 We have a smart audience. 1606 01:44:45,958 --> 01:44:47,250 A lot of finance people out there. 1607 01:44:47,250 --> 01:44:47,500 Yeah. 1608 01:44:47,791 --> 01:44:48,708 What is a fiscal year? 1609 01:44:49,000 --> 01:44:50,416 Yeah, that's right. 1610 01:44:50,416 --> 01:44:51,250 We're a fiscal year. 1611 01:44:51,250 --> 01:44:51,916 We're doing fiscal 1612 01:44:51,916 --> 01:44:52,833 New Year's resolutions. 1613 01:44:53,833 --> 01:44:55,166 That would be hilarious. 1614 01:44:56,750 --> 01:44:58,000 (laughs) Yeah, I think mine's more of 1615 01:44:58,000 --> 01:44:59,125 just that continuous journey, 1616 01:44:59,500 --> 01:45:01,666 whether it's on one one or 1617 01:45:01,666 --> 01:45:04,416 whether it's on eight six. 1618 01:45:04,750 --> 01:45:06,083 I don't know, I picked a random date. 1619 01:45:06,416 --> 01:45:07,375 I don't know that it is 1620 01:45:07,375 --> 01:45:08,833 even after this discussion. 1621 01:45:09,666 --> 01:45:10,416 I think you're just kind 1622 01:45:10,416 --> 01:45:11,791 of, you are what you are 1623 01:45:12,000 --> 01:45:13,958 is how it kind of came to me. 1624 01:45:14,833 --> 01:45:14,875 No. 1625 01:45:15,125 --> 01:45:18,541 Yeah, no, that's not how I see it at all. 1626 01:45:19,166 --> 01:45:21,625 Like it really is like 1627 01:45:21,625 --> 01:45:24,458 just getting better every day, 1628 01:45:25,000 --> 01:45:26,375 like better than I was yesterday. 1629 01:45:27,708 --> 01:45:30,083 I think that's more my mentality is like, 1630 01:45:30,625 --> 01:45:31,625 and life hands me 1631 01:45:31,625 --> 01:45:33,416 things as it does everybody 1632 01:45:34,208 --> 01:45:37,666 that naturally helps me work on things 1633 01:45:37,666 --> 01:45:38,875 that I'm not very good at. 1634 01:45:40,750 --> 01:45:41,041 You know? 1635 01:45:43,500 --> 01:45:43,875 Yeah. 1636 01:45:44,375 --> 01:45:46,541 You don't believe me at all. 1637 01:45:47,875 --> 01:45:49,791 I don't know what to say to it. 1638 01:45:50,833 --> 01:45:51,583 Well, let's stop recording 1639 01:45:51,583 --> 01:45:52,833 and we can continue the conversation. 1640 01:45:53,458 --> 01:45:54,041 This is interesting. 1641 01:45:54,500 --> 01:45:54,750 Yeah. 1642 01:45:55,083 --> 01:45:55,333 Interesting. 1643 01:45:57,166 --> 01:45:58,333 We're starting to get long. 1644 01:45:58,916 --> 01:45:59,583 So let's wrap. 1645 01:46:00,291 --> 01:46:00,958 Got it. 1646 01:46:01,041 --> 01:46:02,375 Unless you wanted to say something else. 1647 01:46:02,708 --> 01:46:02,958 No. 1648 01:46:03,500 --> 01:46:03,708 Sure. 1649 01:46:04,416 --> 01:46:05,125 Yeah, I think I've dug 1650 01:46:05,125 --> 01:46:06,416 myself quite the hole here. 1651 01:46:06,625 --> 01:46:07,666 So I don't know that I'm 1652 01:46:07,666 --> 01:46:08,500 gonna say anything else. 1653 01:46:08,500 --> 01:46:08,875 We don't have flashing 1654 01:46:08,875 --> 01:46:10,250 lights or anything this time. 1655 01:46:10,458 --> 01:46:11,875 So we're gonna have to 1656 01:46:11,875 --> 01:46:13,000 rerecord another one. 1657 01:46:13,000 --> 01:46:14,083 We'll put this one on ice. 1658 01:46:15,166 --> 01:46:16,500 We'll put the other one out. 1659 01:46:16,750 --> 01:46:17,750 We'll put the other one out 1660 01:46:17,750 --> 01:46:18,833 when we're sitting in Sadie. 1661 01:46:19,250 --> 01:46:19,458 Yeah. 1662 01:46:21,250 --> 01:46:23,541 Well, then should we think of a word, 1663 01:46:23,708 --> 01:46:25,708 sum up with the last week? 1664 01:46:26,500 --> 01:46:27,000 Yeah. 1665 01:46:29,000 --> 01:46:29,416 We should. 1666 01:46:31,625 --> 01:46:31,875 Pressure. 1667 01:46:34,125 --> 01:46:35,000 All right, ready? 1668 01:46:35,458 --> 01:46:35,791 Yeah. 1669 01:46:35,833 --> 01:46:38,375 One, two, three. 1670 01:46:39,625 --> 01:46:40,500 Prepare. Lego. 1671 01:46:40,916 --> 01:46:43,125 Oh, I love yours. 1672 01:46:44,916 --> 01:46:45,541 I love yours. 1673 01:46:45,541 --> 01:46:46,333 Okay, you have to 1674 01:46:46,333 --> 01:46:47,333 explain why we picked Lego. 1675 01:46:47,666 --> 01:46:48,916 Well, we just did a lot of Legos. 1676 01:46:48,916 --> 01:46:49,708 I was gonna say I had two. 1677 01:46:50,666 --> 01:46:51,875 But your prepare is 1678 01:46:51,875 --> 01:46:52,791 really where mine was. 1679 01:46:52,916 --> 01:46:56,500 It's just like, we had fun doing Legos. 1680 01:46:56,750 --> 01:46:58,083 We had fun over the holidays. 1681 01:46:58,458 --> 01:47:00,125 Over New Year's was great relaxation. 1682 01:47:00,541 --> 01:47:01,125 It went fast. 1683 01:47:02,291 --> 01:47:02,500 Always. 1684 01:47:02,541 --> 01:47:03,250 All that was fun. 1685 01:47:03,666 --> 01:47:05,791 But beneath that surface, that pressure 1686 01:47:06,333 --> 01:47:06,875 that I was talking 1687 01:47:06,875 --> 01:47:07,875 about, it's been building. 1688 01:47:09,000 --> 01:47:10,000 And come next week, I 1689 01:47:10,000 --> 01:47:11,125 mean, we're back on it. 1690 01:47:12,083 --> 01:47:13,541 That's the thing with vacations, right? 1691 01:47:13,541 --> 01:47:14,041 They're fantastic, 1692 01:47:14,291 --> 01:47:15,500 but you gotta come back. 1693 01:47:15,750 --> 01:47:16,166 That's reality. 1694 01:47:16,791 --> 01:47:17,208 I know. 1695 01:47:17,208 --> 01:47:17,708 I know. 1696 01:47:17,750 --> 01:47:18,416 We should just retire. 1697 01:47:19,250 --> 01:47:20,000 Let's just do that. 1698 01:47:20,625 --> 01:47:21,416 We're announcing here. 1699 01:47:21,875 --> 01:47:22,041 Yeah. 1700 01:47:23,041 --> 01:47:23,916 An announcement to make. 1701 01:47:24,666 --> 01:47:24,875 Mm. 1702 01:47:25,166 --> 01:47:25,541 Yeah, I know. 1703 01:47:26,083 --> 01:47:27,750 It goes to the string colors. 1704 01:47:28,083 --> 01:47:29,291 Yeah, that's exactly right. 1705 01:47:30,125 --> 01:47:32,041 No, because even though 1706 01:47:32,041 --> 01:47:34,416 we, I mean, we do fun things, 1707 01:47:34,416 --> 01:47:35,583 but it's still a very 1708 01:47:35,583 --> 01:47:38,000 relaxing time, right? 1709 01:47:38,291 --> 01:47:39,333 We do Legos. 1710 01:47:39,333 --> 01:47:40,375 Like, for me, that's super 1711 01:47:40,375 --> 01:47:42,500 relaxing to do Legos, puzzles. 1712 01:47:42,500 --> 01:47:44,375 It's all that same thing, right? 1713 01:47:46,500 --> 01:47:49,875 But I need that time to prepare 1714 01:47:50,291 --> 01:47:53,375 for just running at a full-out sprint 1715 01:47:53,583 --> 01:47:56,458 for the next, you know, five, six months. 1716 01:47:56,708 --> 01:47:56,916 Yeah. 1717 01:47:58,958 --> 01:48:02,000 And so not only is it like the new year 1718 01:48:02,166 --> 01:48:03,708 and preparing, it's that, 1719 01:48:03,708 --> 01:48:06,208 okay, I need to mentally 1720 01:48:06,833 --> 01:48:09,458 like recharge my battery so that I'm 1721 01:48:09,458 --> 01:48:10,500 ready to go for the next. 1722 01:48:11,791 --> 01:48:13,875 I don't think you got it this time. 1723 01:48:15,166 --> 01:48:18,125 I don't feel like you let it down. 1724 01:48:18,125 --> 01:48:18,791 We can't get too into 1725 01:48:18,791 --> 01:48:20,000 that for so long as it is, 1726 01:48:20,000 --> 01:48:21,041 but I don't feel like you 1727 01:48:21,041 --> 01:48:22,208 had that let down this time. 1728 01:48:22,666 --> 01:48:24,333 Like that decompression. 1729 01:48:24,666 --> 01:48:26,541 Oh, I think I did. 1730 01:48:26,583 --> 01:48:27,000 Did you? 1731 01:48:27,000 --> 01:48:27,708 Yeah. Okay. 1732 01:48:28,041 --> 01:48:28,250 Yeah. 1733 01:48:29,166 --> 01:48:30,791 So I'm pretty sure I did. 1734 01:48:31,250 --> 01:48:32,625 I'm pretty sure I did. 1735 01:48:33,125 --> 01:48:34,375 You'll check in with yourself later. 1736 01:48:35,000 --> 01:48:36,083 I'll ask myself later. 1737 01:48:36,375 --> 01:48:37,833 Oh no, if I'm sleeping till 1738 01:48:37,833 --> 01:48:40,166 like 8, 8.30 in the morning, 1739 01:48:40,541 --> 01:48:41,916 like, no, I think I'm okay. 1740 01:48:42,666 --> 01:48:43,541 (laughs) No, I'm good. 1741 01:48:43,583 --> 01:48:44,583 I think I'm nice and chill. 1742 01:48:44,958 --> 01:48:45,708 Good, good, good. 1743 01:48:45,958 --> 01:48:47,250 So, yeah. 1744 01:48:47,791 --> 01:48:48,000 Awesome. 1745 01:48:49,000 --> 01:48:50,458 Well, wrap it up. 1746 01:48:50,458 --> 01:48:51,625 We will wrap it up. 1747 01:48:51,916 --> 01:48:52,500 You wanna sign off? 1748 01:48:52,916 --> 01:48:53,708 You can sign off. 1749 01:48:53,708 --> 01:48:54,625 You're a better sign off. 1750 01:48:55,416 --> 01:48:56,291 I don't have a sign off. 1751 01:48:56,291 --> 01:48:56,666 That's why I was gonna 1752 01:48:56,666 --> 01:48:57,416 wait and see what you did. 1753 01:48:58,458 --> 01:49:00,291 Well, I have to stick with my chow chow. 1754 01:49:00,750 --> 01:49:02,333 I know, but we know, I don't have like a, 1755 01:49:03,083 --> 01:49:03,750 we'll see you on the 1756 01:49:03,750 --> 01:49:05,791 flip side and until then, 1757 01:49:06,291 --> 01:49:06,791 chow chow. 1758 01:49:07,625 --> 01:49:08,583 And I say see ya, right? 1759 01:49:09,833 --> 01:49:11,375 We'll see ya on the flip side. 1760 01:49:11,750 --> 01:49:12,708 Yeah, we don't have 1761 01:49:12,708 --> 01:49:13,791 a, that's the sign off. 1762 01:49:13,791 --> 01:49:14,708 I'm talking about that we don't have. 1763 01:49:14,750 --> 01:49:15,458 That we don't have. 1764 01:49:15,500 --> 01:49:16,291 Yeah. And have it. 1765 01:49:16,583 --> 01:49:16,833 Never. 1766 01:49:17,583 --> 01:49:17,791 Yeah. 1767 01:49:18,541 --> 01:49:18,875 We don't have a calling card. 1768 01:49:18,875 --> 01:49:19,625 It's just really bad. 1769 01:49:20,583 --> 01:49:21,208 The whole way through. 1770 01:49:21,500 --> 01:49:22,333 There's just like-- 1771 01:49:22,333 --> 01:49:22,875 It like peters out of there. 1772 01:49:22,916 --> 01:49:24,500 You should have, yeah, just peters out. 1773 01:49:24,625 --> 01:49:25,000 Just loose. 1774 01:49:26,458 --> 01:49:27,875 Or we just go to the striped colors. 1775 01:49:28,833 --> 01:49:32,083 All right, I think that's it. 1776 01:49:32,083 --> 01:49:33,333 All right, chow chow. 1777 01:49:33,625 --> 01:49:34,125 We'll see ya. 1778 01:49:35,500 --> 01:49:36,000 All right. 1779 01:49:36,291 --> 01:49:36,750 That's pretty fun. 1780 01:59:59,916 --> 02:00:01,333 (upbeat music) 1781 02:00:02,083 --> 02:00:02,833 All right, we're back. 1782 02:00:02,875 --> 02:00:03,291 We're back. 1783 02:00:03,583 --> 02:00:04,250 I mean, I'm not 1784 02:00:04,250 --> 02:00:05,333 suggesting you have a lot of ways 1785 02:00:05,333 --> 02:00:06,541 to improve, I think you're perfect. 1786 02:00:06,583 --> 02:00:08,375 Yeah, no, no, no, that's never been me. 1787 02:00:09,500 --> 02:00:10,333 Yeah. Is that bad? 1788 02:00:11,541 --> 02:00:13,458 No, I don't, it's you. Really bad? 1789 02:00:13,541 --> 02:00:15,416 I'm a little shocked at it. 1790 02:00:15,416 --> 02:00:16,583 I'd be curious how many 1791 02:00:16,583 --> 02:00:17,791 other people are like that, 1792 02:00:17,791 --> 02:00:17,958 because-- 1793 02:00:18,375 --> 02:00:19,458 I'm terrible at texting. 1794 02:00:19,875 --> 02:00:20,958 Last year was more like, I 1795 02:00:20,958 --> 02:00:21,791 need to be more positive. 1796 02:00:22,416 --> 02:00:22,666 Yeah. 1797 02:00:23,041 --> 02:00:24,375 Yeah, I don't think that worked. 1798 02:00:25,041 --> 02:00:28,208 I, for better or for 1799 02:00:28,208 --> 02:00:29,708 worse, probably for worse, 1800 02:00:29,958 --> 02:00:32,208 that almost innately bothered me. 1801 02:00:32,208 --> 02:00:32,333 (laughing) 1802 02:00:33,041 --> 02:00:35,000 My life arc has always provided me 1803 02:00:35,000 --> 02:00:36,000 opportunities to improve. 1804 02:00:36,375 --> 02:00:38,958 Uh oh, I didn't mean to do that. 1805 02:00:39,291 --> 02:00:39,750 Bombshell. 1806 02:00:40,250 --> 02:00:42,416 On KIKX, 102.7. 1807 02:00:43,083 --> 02:00:44,958 101.3 KDWV. 1808 02:00:45,291 --> 02:00:46,625 First of all, how dare you say something 1809 02:00:46,625 --> 02:00:47,666 a bit negative about me? 1810 02:00:48,791 --> 02:00:52,541 (laughing) Excuse me, since the fashion's way up. 1811 02:00:53,041 --> 02:00:54,125 Hey, just out of curiosity, 1812 02:00:54,125 --> 02:00:55,333 what's that really blinking light? 1813 02:00:55,916 --> 02:00:57,541 (upbeat music) 1814 02:10:00,541 --> 02:10:02,208 All right, we're back. We're back. I 1815 02:10:02,208 --> 02:10:03,583 mean, I'm not suggesting you have a lot 1816 02:10:03,583 --> 02:10:04,375 of ways to improve. I 1817 02:10:04,375 --> 02:10:05,041 think you're perfect. 1818 02:10:05,041 --> 02:10:06,875 Yeah, no, no, no. That's never been me. 1819 02:10:07,958 --> 02:10:08,791 Yeah. Is that bad? 1820 02:10:10,000 --> 02:10:11,958 No, I don't. It's you. Really? Not? 1821 02:10:12,041 --> 02:10:14,375 I'm a little shocked at it. I'd be 1822 02:10:14,375 --> 02:10:15,208 curious how many other 1823 02:10:15,208 --> 02:10:16,375 people are like that because... 1824 02:10:16,750 --> 02:10:18,875 I'm terrible at texting. Last year was 1825 02:10:18,875 --> 02:10:20,333 more like I need to be more positive. 1826 02:10:20,708 --> 02:10:22,166 Yeah. You know, I 1827 02:10:22,166 --> 02:10:22,875 don't think that worked. 1828 02:10:23,500 --> 02:10:23,875 I... 1829 02:10:25,666 --> 02:10:27,833 For better or for worse, probably for 1830 02:10:27,833 --> 02:10:30,333 worse. That almost innately bothers me. 1831 02:10:31,500 --> 02:10:33,458 My life arc has always provided me 1832 02:10:33,458 --> 02:10:34,833 opportunities to improve. 1833 02:10:34,833 --> 02:10:37,458 Uh oh. I didn't mean to do that. 1834 02:10:37,666 --> 02:10:43,583 Bombshell. On KIKX 102.7. 101.3 KDWB. 1835 02:10:43,750 --> 02:10:45,041 First of all, how dare you say something 1836 02:10:45,041 --> 02:10:46,208 a bit negative about me? 1837 02:10:47,541 --> 02:10:48,166 Excuse me. 1838 02:10:49,833 --> 02:10:51,916 Since the fashion's way off. Hey, just 1839 02:10:51,916 --> 02:10:52,750 out of curiosity. What's 1840 02:10:52,750 --> 02:10:53,791 that really blinking light? 1841 02:11:19,333 --> 02:11:21,458 You look like a deer in the headlights. 1842 02:11:22,166 --> 02:11:23,833 I feel like I've let you down. 1843 02:14:58,458 --> 02:14:59,166 It's crazy to think 1844 02:14:59,166 --> 02:15:00,000 we've done this for a year. 1845 02:15:00,625 --> 02:15:01,166 That is crazy. 1846 02:15:01,625 --> 02:15:04,416 Yeah, we did 47 episodes out of 52 weeks. 1847 02:15:05,000 --> 02:15:06,291 Hey, we're really clickin'. 1848 02:15:06,666 --> 02:15:07,125 Oh really? 1849 02:15:07,791 --> 02:15:08,625 Hey, just out of curiosity, 1850 02:15:08,833 --> 02:15:10,041 what's that really blinking light? 1851 02:15:10,625 --> 02:15:11,458 All right, we're back. 1852 02:15:11,458 --> 02:15:12,083 We're back. 1853 02:15:12,083 --> 02:15:13,375 We actually have a 1854 02:15:13,375 --> 02:15:14,916 clicker, and we just take two. 1855 02:15:15,416 --> 02:15:16,041 I mean, I'm not 1856 02:15:16,041 --> 02:15:17,083 suggesting you have a lot of ways 1857 02:15:17,083 --> 02:15:18,333 to improve, I think you're perfect. 1858 02:15:18,375 --> 02:15:20,125 Yeah, no, no, no, that's never been me. 1859 02:15:21,291 --> 02:15:22,125 Yeah. Is that bad? 1860 02:15:23,333 --> 02:15:24,500 No, I don't, it's 1861 02:15:24,500 --> 02:15:25,250 you. Really, you're not? 1862 02:15:25,333 --> 02:15:27,166 I'm a little shocked at it. 1863 02:15:27,416 --> 02:15:28,375 I'd be curious how many 1864 02:15:28,375 --> 02:15:29,583 other people are like that, 1865 02:15:29,583 --> 02:15:31,375 because-- I'm terrible at texting. 1866 02:15:31,875 --> 02:15:32,541 That's a perfect 1867 02:15:32,541 --> 02:15:34,416 thing for next New Year's 1868 02:15:34,416 --> 02:15:35,416 for me to work on. 1869 02:15:35,416 --> 02:15:36,500 Last year was more like, I 1870 02:15:36,500 --> 02:15:37,375 need to be more positive. 1871 02:15:37,958 --> 02:15:38,833 Yeah. Yeah. 1872 02:15:39,208 --> 02:15:39,958 I don't think that worked. 1873 02:15:40,625 --> 02:15:43,791 I, for better or for 1874 02:15:43,791 --> 02:15:45,375 worse, probably for worse, 1875 02:15:45,375 --> 02:15:46,875 and I'm the steady Eddie, right? 1876 02:15:46,875 --> 02:15:48,500 Like, I'm just like, floatin' along. 1877 02:15:49,541 --> 02:15:50,500 That almost innately 1878 02:15:50,500 --> 02:15:52,416 bothers me, which is weird. 1879 02:15:52,791 --> 02:15:54,666 My life arc has always provided me 1880 02:15:54,666 --> 02:15:55,750 opportunities to improve, 1881 02:15:56,750 --> 02:15:58,541 and I'm just shocked that there's others 1882 02:15:58,708 --> 02:16:00,416 that don't view it that way. 1883 02:16:01,125 --> 02:16:02,041 I mean, it's innately 1884 02:16:02,041 --> 02:16:03,208 bothering me right now. 1885 02:16:03,500 --> 02:16:06,083 Uh-oh, I didn't mean to do that. 1886 02:16:06,458 --> 02:16:07,208 But do you think most 1887 02:16:07,208 --> 02:16:08,375 people are that self-aware? 1888 02:16:08,750 --> 02:16:10,416 We can cut as much of this as we need to, 1889 02:16:10,416 --> 02:16:11,333 because it's kind of a 1890 02:16:11,333 --> 02:16:12,541 real conversation here. 1891 02:16:12,875 --> 02:16:16,041 Bombshell. On KIKX, 102.7. 1892 02:16:16,708 --> 02:16:18,625 101.3 KDWB. 1893 02:16:18,916 --> 02:16:20,375 We all try to peacock. 1894 02:16:20,916 --> 02:16:22,208 First of all, how dare you say something 1895 02:16:22,208 --> 02:16:23,208 a bit negative about me? 1896 02:16:24,875 --> 02:16:25,416 Excuse me. 1897 02:16:26,916 --> 02:16:28,166 Since the fashion's way off. 1898 02:16:29,000 --> 02:16:30,541 You look like a deer in the headlights. 1899 02:16:31,875 --> 02:16:33,083 I feel like I've let you down. 1900 02:16:33,625 --> 02:16:35,666 You don't believe me at all. 1901 02:16:37,291 --> 02:16:38,958 I don't know what to say to it. 1902 02:16:38,958 --> 02:16:40,500 That's the thing with vacations, right? 1903 02:16:40,500 --> 02:16:41,000 They're fantastic, 1904 02:16:41,250 --> 02:16:42,375 but you gotta come back. 1905 02:16:42,416 --> 02:16:43,375 Back to reality. 1906 02:36:31,375 --> 02:36:32,041 I think we're good. 1907 02:36:32,416 --> 02:36:33,125 I think we're good. 1908 02:36:33,458 --> 02:36:33,625 I mean-- 1909 02:36:33,625 --> 02:36:35,000 We're back into it two weeks in a row. 1910 02:36:35,458 --> 02:36:36,125 Two weeks. 1911 02:36:36,625 --> 02:36:37,416 Quite the record. 1912 02:36:37,875 --> 02:36:38,125 Yeah. 1913 02:36:38,875 --> 02:36:40,125 Well, I need to put it up on our website. 1914 02:36:40,125 --> 02:36:40,541 I would get these 1915 02:36:40,541 --> 02:36:42,416 things from like Transistor. 1916 02:36:42,416 --> 02:36:44,833 That's the web thing that we used to 1917 02:36:44,833 --> 02:36:47,041 host, actually posting the podcast. 1918 02:36:47,333 --> 02:36:47,666 Got it. 1919 02:36:47,958 --> 02:36:50,708 And it gives you like fake little medals 1920 02:36:50,708 --> 02:36:51,750 that you can download. 1921 02:36:52,166 --> 02:36:55,250 We just got our like one year medal. 1922 02:36:56,708 --> 02:36:56,958 Oh, yay. 1923 02:36:56,958 --> 02:36:57,250 We don't want to 1924 02:36:57,250 --> 02:36:58,166 actually send you anything. 1925 02:36:59,125 --> 02:37:00,125 You have to download it. 1926 02:37:00,166 --> 02:37:01,708 I mean, the best prizes 1927 02:37:01,708 --> 02:37:02,791 you always have to download. 1928 02:37:03,166 --> 02:37:03,875 Yeah, that's right. 1929 02:37:04,250 --> 02:37:04,625 That's right. 1930 02:37:05,166 --> 02:37:06,291 It's like-- 1931 02:37:06,875 --> 02:37:07,875 It's been a year or so. 1932 02:37:08,125 --> 02:37:09,666 We talked about that last time a little 1933 02:37:09,666 --> 02:37:10,583 bit, but it's crazy to 1934 02:37:10,583 --> 02:37:11,208 think we've done this for 1935 02:37:11,208 --> 02:37:11,500 a year. 1936 02:37:12,041 --> 02:37:12,625 That is crazy. 1937 02:37:13,208 --> 02:37:15,916 Yeah, we did 47 episodes out of 52 weeks. 1938 02:37:17,083 --> 02:37:17,833 That's so cool. 1939 02:37:17,833 --> 02:37:18,875 Although now I'm curious, 1940 02:37:18,875 --> 02:37:20,583 which ones did we not do? 1941 02:37:21,750 --> 02:37:23,250 Do we do abbreviated versions like when 1942 02:37:23,250 --> 02:37:24,750 we were on vacation this summer? 1943 02:37:25,083 --> 02:37:26,875 We may have missed one or two on a 1944 02:37:26,875 --> 02:37:28,000 vacation here or there. 1945 02:37:28,708 --> 02:37:31,250 I think what happened was the year 1946 02:37:31,250 --> 02:37:32,291 anniversary came when I 1947 02:37:32,291 --> 02:37:34,416 created it, not when we first 1948 02:37:34,416 --> 02:37:35,208 posted one. 1949 02:37:35,416 --> 02:37:36,000 Got it. 1950 02:37:36,000 --> 02:37:37,375 I think our first one was until like 1951 02:37:37,375 --> 02:37:39,125 January like six, like 1952 02:37:39,125 --> 02:37:40,250 this week would be ours. 1953 02:37:40,625 --> 02:37:42,500 But we're still like two probably short, 1954 02:37:42,500 --> 02:37:44,416 which I know we skipped one or two. 1955 02:37:45,208 --> 02:37:46,166 We have one in the 1956 02:37:46,166 --> 02:37:49,250 backlog for a rainy day. 1957 02:37:49,916 --> 02:37:51,083 That was never posted. 1958 02:37:51,500 --> 02:37:52,375 Yeah, and it might have 1959 02:37:52,375 --> 02:37:53,333 been the best one ever, but-- 1960 02:37:53,333 --> 02:37:54,125 It may have. 1961 02:37:54,541 --> 02:37:55,916 I remember thinking like, 1962 02:37:55,916 --> 02:37:57,041 hey, we're really clicking. 1963 02:37:57,666 --> 02:37:58,125 Oh, really? 1964 02:37:58,458 --> 02:38:01,083 How often does that happen out of 47? 1965 02:38:02,125 --> 02:38:03,291 It was quite a few. 1966 02:38:03,750 --> 02:38:03,958 Yeah. 1967 02:38:03,958 --> 02:38:04,541 It was quite a few. 1968 02:38:04,541 --> 02:38:05,125 There were fewer. 1969 02:38:05,375 --> 02:38:07,958 It was like, I'm trying to think of the 1970 02:38:07,958 --> 02:38:09,166 transition in my head 1971 02:38:09,166 --> 02:38:10,333 while we're talking. 1972 02:38:10,333 --> 02:38:11,250 It's never good when we're trying to 1973 02:38:11,250 --> 02:38:12,083 transition something. 1974 02:38:12,291 --> 02:38:14,333 Usually we always try to 1975 02:38:14,333 --> 02:38:16,291 have some idea we're going into. 1976 02:38:17,583 --> 02:38:19,041 And we never get the good ones. 1977 02:38:19,041 --> 02:38:19,916 We never get to those. 1978 02:38:20,416 --> 02:38:22,000 I feel like at least. 1979 02:38:22,375 --> 02:38:22,583 Yeah. 1980 02:38:23,833 --> 02:38:24,333 But who knows? 1981 02:38:24,958 --> 02:38:26,125 Maybe others would desert. 1982 02:38:26,583 --> 02:38:27,166 I know. 1983 02:38:27,666 --> 02:38:30,375 We'll have to do like a poll the 1984 02:38:30,375 --> 02:38:31,500 listeners or something. 1985 02:38:32,291 --> 02:38:33,375 Thumbs up, thumbs down. 1986 02:38:33,375 --> 02:38:34,833 I was really saying, I really like to get 1987 02:38:34,833 --> 02:38:36,833 like a couple segments in this where it's 1988 02:38:36,833 --> 02:38:39,583 like we get to like things that we look 1989 02:38:39,583 --> 02:38:40,541 forward to every week. 1990 02:38:40,541 --> 02:38:41,458 People are like, oh, OK. 1991 02:38:41,458 --> 02:38:41,958 They do this. 1992 02:38:42,583 --> 02:38:44,666 You know, like everything else is lame, 1993 02:38:44,666 --> 02:38:46,583 but I do love their I'm peeved segment. 1994 02:38:46,875 --> 02:38:47,416 You know what I mean? 1995 02:38:47,833 --> 02:38:49,375 Here's what peeved me this week because 1996 02:38:49,375 --> 02:38:51,541 there's never a shortage of that. 1997 02:38:52,291 --> 02:38:52,500 No. 1998 02:38:53,083 --> 02:38:53,500 And it's nice. 1999 02:38:54,083 --> 02:38:57,833 Probably a little, you know, therapeutic 2000 02:38:57,833 --> 02:38:59,250 for us to get it out. 2001 02:38:59,833 --> 02:39:00,458 For sure. 2002 02:39:00,875 --> 02:39:01,083 Yeah. 2003 02:39:01,333 --> 02:39:03,208 Because we I mean. 2004 02:39:03,666 --> 02:39:06,541 Even with you and I like, you know what? 2005 02:39:06,541 --> 02:39:07,750 You peeved me this week. 2006 02:39:07,750 --> 02:39:08,791 Are you peeved me today? 2007 02:39:09,875 --> 02:39:10,583 You peeved me. 2008 02:39:11,458 --> 02:39:11,750 Yeah. 2009 02:39:12,708 --> 02:39:15,083 We can we can give like real time, you 2010 02:39:15,083 --> 02:39:17,291 know, conflict resolution examples. 2011 02:39:17,916 --> 02:39:17,958 Yeah. 2012 02:39:18,041 --> 02:39:19,458 Would that be funny if we had like we 2013 02:39:19,458 --> 02:39:21,125 don't we don't argue 2014 02:39:21,125 --> 02:39:26,000 much about much honestly at 2015 02:39:26,000 --> 02:39:27,791 all, but it would be funny one time to be 2016 02:39:27,791 --> 02:39:28,291 like, you know what? 2017 02:39:28,500 --> 02:39:29,500 Let's take this to the 2018 02:39:29,500 --> 02:39:30,791 booth, to the studio. 2019 02:39:31,666 --> 02:39:33,125 We're going to. 2020 02:39:33,125 --> 02:39:35,125 This is a real time talk through. 2021 02:39:35,583 --> 02:39:35,791 Uh huh. 2022 02:39:36,333 --> 02:39:36,500 Yeah. 2023 02:39:38,250 --> 02:39:40,083 Things like I really would probably never 2024 02:39:40,083 --> 02:39:41,833 publish that because I would be like, oh, 2025 02:39:41,833 --> 02:39:46,000 I that might not like I don't like how I 2026 02:39:46,000 --> 02:39:47,291 am painted in that one. 2027 02:39:47,625 --> 02:39:51,166 You know, like I really am 2028 02:39:51,166 --> 02:39:52,791 more stubborn than I thought. 2029 02:39:53,500 --> 02:39:53,708 Yeah. 2030 02:39:54,458 --> 02:39:54,625 Yeah. 2031 02:39:54,916 --> 02:39:55,958 Hey, just sort of curiosity. 2032 02:39:55,958 --> 02:39:57,250 What's that really blinking light? 2033 02:39:58,291 --> 02:39:58,500 All right. 2034 02:39:58,500 --> 02:39:58,875 We're back. 2035 02:39:59,166 --> 02:39:59,541 We're back. 2036 02:40:00,125 --> 02:40:01,083 Some technical difficulties. 2037 02:40:01,375 --> 02:40:02,291 Maybe we'll see. 2038 02:40:02,291 --> 02:40:02,916 We'll see. 2039 02:40:02,916 --> 02:40:03,916 We'll see what this looks like. 2040 02:40:04,166 --> 02:40:05,083 The video was horrible 2041 02:40:05,083 --> 02:40:06,458 for the last two minutes. 2042 02:40:06,458 --> 02:40:07,625 We hopefully it's better now. 2043 02:40:07,875 --> 02:40:08,125 I know. 2044 02:40:08,375 --> 02:40:09,541 This was the first time. 2045 02:40:09,541 --> 02:40:11,333 So in 48 episodes, the first time we've 2046 02:40:11,333 --> 02:40:12,125 ever had to take two. 2047 02:40:12,375 --> 02:40:12,500 Yeah. 2048 02:40:12,500 --> 02:40:13,208 We used to take two. 2049 02:40:13,208 --> 02:40:14,083 Nobody's ever seen this. 2050 02:40:14,083 --> 02:40:14,583 I don't think. 2051 02:40:16,208 --> 02:40:17,875 We just take two. 2052 02:40:18,208 --> 02:40:20,625 We're so official. 2053 02:40:21,500 --> 02:40:22,000 Very official. 2054 02:40:22,458 --> 02:40:23,166 So all right. 2055 02:40:23,166 --> 02:40:24,750 Well, hopefully that's better than. 2056 02:40:25,416 --> 02:40:25,541 Hopefully. 2057 02:40:25,791 --> 02:40:26,333 Let's see what happens. 2058 02:40:26,958 --> 02:40:27,916 I now am a little nervous because I 2059 02:40:27,916 --> 02:40:29,041 recorded morning 2060 02:40:29,041 --> 02:40:30,291 cereal right before this. 2061 02:40:30,625 --> 02:40:30,958 I know. 2062 02:40:31,333 --> 02:40:32,375 And I actually saw it doing 2063 02:40:32,375 --> 02:40:34,333 that then too at the end of it. 2064 02:40:34,916 --> 02:40:35,083 Okay. 2065 02:40:35,458 --> 02:40:35,541 So. 2066 02:40:35,541 --> 02:40:36,583 And there was a morning cereal episode 2067 02:40:36,583 --> 02:40:37,875 last week that was like. 2068 02:40:39,250 --> 02:40:41,291 It was. 2069 02:40:41,291 --> 02:40:42,500 It was like, yeah. 2070 02:40:43,458 --> 02:40:44,666 Frozen faces of Sean. 2071 02:40:44,666 --> 02:40:44,875 It was. 2072 02:40:46,041 --> 02:40:46,750 Did you see that one? 2073 02:40:47,375 --> 02:40:48,083 I was sitting next to 2074 02:40:48,083 --> 02:40:48,875 you while you were editing. 2075 02:40:49,166 --> 02:40:49,541 Oh yeah. 2076 02:40:50,041 --> 02:40:51,458 You didn't watch anything last week. 2077 02:40:51,458 --> 02:40:52,541 You took the week off to you. 2078 02:40:53,375 --> 02:40:53,708 I did. 2079 02:40:54,000 --> 02:40:55,666 But I did see it while editing. 2080 02:40:56,416 --> 02:40:57,541 All right. 2081 02:40:57,541 --> 02:40:58,958 Well, we'll just keep going with it. 2082 02:40:59,125 --> 02:41:03,208 So anyways, you know, we kind of left off 2083 02:41:03,208 --> 02:41:04,500 last week with just. 2084 02:41:05,625 --> 02:41:07,166 Last year was a good year to get over 2085 02:41:07,166 --> 02:41:08,791 with and we're moving 2086 02:41:08,791 --> 02:41:10,375 into a new year, 2026. 2087 02:41:10,875 --> 02:41:11,083 Yep. 2088 02:41:12,625 --> 02:41:13,875 With high hopes and 2089 02:41:13,875 --> 02:41:15,000 whatnot, which everybody does. 2090 02:41:15,458 --> 02:41:17,166 For me, this is a time of year that's 2091 02:41:17,166 --> 02:41:18,500 always like fresh starts. 2092 02:41:19,333 --> 02:41:20,250 I think I think a lot of 2093 02:41:20,250 --> 02:41:22,333 people say do it that way. 2094 02:41:22,333 --> 02:41:24,083 That's why resolutions are around. 2095 02:41:24,291 --> 02:41:25,875 I was resolutions like this year. 2096 02:41:25,875 --> 02:41:27,791 I'm not going to do this or, you know, 2097 02:41:27,791 --> 02:41:28,250 I'm going to start 2098 02:41:28,250 --> 02:41:29,416 flossing or whatever it might 2099 02:41:29,416 --> 02:41:29,791 be. 2100 02:41:29,791 --> 02:41:30,000 Right. 2101 02:41:30,291 --> 02:41:30,500 Right. 2102 02:41:31,708 --> 02:41:32,166 You know, but it's 2103 02:41:32,166 --> 02:41:33,791 always like a new start. 2104 02:41:34,458 --> 02:41:36,541 And for me, I always maybe more so. 2105 02:41:36,541 --> 02:41:37,125 I mean, is that how 2106 02:41:37,125 --> 02:41:38,875 you look at them or not? 2107 02:41:39,000 --> 02:41:41,166 Because I'm getting the feeling over the 2108 02:41:41,166 --> 02:41:42,000 last day or two that 2109 02:41:42,000 --> 02:41:43,666 it's just another day 2110 02:41:43,666 --> 02:41:44,083 to you. 2111 02:41:44,083 --> 02:41:45,250 It's not like, oh yeah, fresh start. 2112 02:41:46,000 --> 02:41:46,958 Yeah, no, it's not. 2113 02:41:46,958 --> 02:41:47,875 No, I don't have that 2114 02:41:47,875 --> 02:41:49,625 feeling of like, oh, first start. 2115 02:41:49,625 --> 02:41:51,500 I never did in New Year's resolution 2116 02:41:51,500 --> 02:41:52,625 until you're like, hey, 2117 02:41:52,625 --> 02:41:54,166 what's your New Year's resolution 2118 02:41:54,250 --> 02:41:55,583 when we were dating 2119 02:41:55,583 --> 02:41:56,583 or married or whatever. 2120 02:41:57,250 --> 02:41:58,500 I just crazy. 2121 02:41:58,791 --> 02:42:00,083 You have to be in the 2122 02:42:00,083 --> 02:42:01,041 minority there, right? 2123 02:42:02,250 --> 02:42:02,791 I don't know. 2124 02:42:03,208 --> 02:42:04,500 I have no idea. 2125 02:42:04,958 --> 02:42:06,291 I've got to find out from people if 2126 02:42:06,291 --> 02:42:07,416 that's like a minority thing. 2127 02:42:07,458 --> 02:42:12,958 Because I figured that the so the new is 2128 02:42:12,958 --> 02:42:15,000 New Year's special to you at all. 2129 02:42:16,708 --> 02:42:17,416 You know what? 2130 02:42:17,416 --> 02:42:19,583 It's I always have mixed 2131 02:42:19,583 --> 02:42:21,208 emotions around New Year's. 2132 02:42:21,208 --> 02:42:23,750 Like I always think it's kind of sad, 2133 02:42:24,416 --> 02:42:25,958 kind of exciting, like, 2134 02:42:27,208 --> 02:42:28,833 but overall, it's one of 2135 02:42:28,833 --> 02:42:30,125 my least favorite holidays. 2136 02:42:30,791 --> 02:42:31,041 Yeah. 2137 02:42:31,541 --> 02:42:31,791 Yeah. 2138 02:42:31,791 --> 02:42:33,583 I don't get excited about it. 2139 02:42:34,416 --> 02:42:34,791 Yeah. 2140 02:42:35,125 --> 02:42:37,875 I get excited about the 2141 02:42:37,875 --> 02:42:39,000 fun things that we do. 2142 02:42:39,000 --> 02:42:40,208 We do family game 2143 02:42:40,208 --> 02:42:41,416 night and stuff like that. 2144 02:42:41,833 --> 02:42:44,750 But I don't I'm not like, yes, a new 2145 02:42:44,750 --> 02:42:46,166 year, fresh start like that. 2146 02:42:46,166 --> 02:42:47,750 That is not my thought. 2147 02:42:47,958 --> 02:42:49,500 I wonder if that's I wonder if that just 2148 02:42:49,500 --> 02:42:50,250 has something to do 2149 02:42:50,250 --> 02:42:51,416 with the fact that you've 2150 02:42:51,416 --> 02:42:52,125 always had life 2151 02:42:52,125 --> 02:42:53,791 together for the most part. 2152 02:42:53,791 --> 02:42:54,416 You know what I mean? 2153 02:42:54,416 --> 02:42:58,500 Whereas other people like me, really 2154 02:42:58,500 --> 02:43:00,166 before I met you mostly, 2155 02:43:00,500 --> 02:43:01,750 but I mean, I had tough 2156 02:43:01,791 --> 02:43:03,791 years where it was like just trying to 2157 02:43:03,791 --> 02:43:05,625 figure out who I was, you 2158 02:43:05,625 --> 02:43:08,458 know, trying to claw myself 2159 02:43:08,458 --> 02:43:13,000 out of holes I dug and, you know, and 2160 02:43:13,000 --> 02:43:14,958 when you're in that, 2161 02:43:15,208 --> 02:43:16,458 sometimes it's like, okay, 2162 02:43:17,208 --> 02:43:19,125 I'm glad this year is done, because next 2163 02:43:19,125 --> 02:43:20,541 year is going to be a great year. 2164 02:43:20,541 --> 02:43:22,875 Because this year, like you said, this 2165 02:43:22,875 --> 02:43:23,333 year is one of the 2166 02:43:23,333 --> 02:43:24,166 toughest of your life, probably 2167 02:43:24,166 --> 02:43:25,500 the toughest of our life together. 2168 02:43:26,583 --> 02:43:27,791 But I would not say it was the toughest 2169 02:43:27,791 --> 02:43:29,958 of my life altogether. 2170 02:43:30,416 --> 02:43:30,708 Right. 2171 02:43:30,875 --> 02:43:31,583 You know what I mean? 2172 02:43:32,000 --> 02:43:34,041 It was toughest from a family standpoint. 2173 02:43:34,500 --> 02:43:34,666 Yeah. 2174 02:43:34,750 --> 02:43:35,416 You know, and things like 2175 02:43:35,416 --> 02:43:37,208 that and what we deal with here. 2176 02:43:37,208 --> 02:43:39,250 But I've had way tougher years. 2177 02:43:39,500 --> 02:43:39,708 Yeah. 2178 02:43:40,375 --> 02:43:41,625 In my in my life. 2179 02:43:42,041 --> 02:43:44,333 And that's why for me, it's like, I was 2180 02:43:44,333 --> 02:43:46,166 it kind of blew my mind 2181 02:43:46,166 --> 02:43:46,750 a little bit that you're 2182 02:43:46,750 --> 02:43:49,000 not like, yeah, it's a whole new year. 2183 02:43:49,000 --> 02:43:49,625 Like this year, I'm gonna 2184 02:43:49,625 --> 02:43:50,666 do this, I'm gonna do this. 2185 02:43:51,041 --> 02:43:52,291 Like most people are like, I'm 2186 02:43:52,291 --> 02:43:53,291 gonna get in shape this year. 2187 02:43:53,708 --> 02:43:54,750 I'm gonna stop drinking or 2188 02:43:54,750 --> 02:43:56,333 smoking or whatever this year. 2189 02:43:56,333 --> 02:43:56,625 Right. 2190 02:43:56,875 --> 02:43:57,041 Right. 2191 02:43:58,500 --> 02:44:02,625 And for people that are pretty happy with 2192 02:44:02,625 --> 02:44:06,500 themselves, it's not that way, I guess. 2193 02:44:06,666 --> 02:44:08,416 I mean, is that not you don't think of 2194 02:44:08,416 --> 02:44:10,166 ways to I mean, I'm not 2195 02:44:10,166 --> 02:44:11,000 suggesting you have a lot 2196 02:44:11,000 --> 02:44:11,791 of ways to improve. 2197 02:44:11,791 --> 02:44:12,583 I think you're perfect. 2198 02:44:12,583 --> 02:44:13,583 No, no, no, no, that's not 2199 02:44:13,583 --> 02:44:14,750 what you're suggesting at all. 2200 02:44:14,750 --> 02:44:16,541 But I just most people are like, you know 2201 02:44:16,541 --> 02:44:17,208 what, this is what 2202 02:44:17,208 --> 02:44:18,541 I'd like to I need to be 2203 02:44:18,541 --> 02:44:19,208 better at this. 2204 02:44:19,208 --> 02:44:20,291 I'm gonna do that this year. 2205 02:44:20,500 --> 02:44:22,208 And I know, because you said you've never 2206 02:44:22,208 --> 02:44:22,916 thought of a New 2207 02:44:22,916 --> 02:44:23,750 Year's resolution, you never 2208 02:44:23,750 --> 02:44:25,458 really thought of your life 2209 02:44:25,458 --> 02:44:27,375 that way or yourself that way. 2210 02:44:27,583 --> 02:44:28,583 Yeah, I don't. 2211 02:44:29,416 --> 02:44:30,666 And it's not that there aren't things 2212 02:44:30,666 --> 02:44:32,208 that I know I need to improve on. 2213 02:44:32,750 --> 02:44:35,458 I just don't necessarily think like, oh, 2214 02:44:35,708 --> 02:44:37,291 New Year, fresh start, let's do this. 2215 02:44:37,500 --> 02:44:39,083 Now, I am this person. 2216 02:44:39,291 --> 02:44:42,083 I'm gonna be the person who loves to eat 2217 02:44:42,083 --> 02:44:45,500 salad and workout like, I 2218 02:44:45,500 --> 02:44:46,208 don't know, I don't know 2219 02:44:46,208 --> 02:44:49,208 if I'm just more of a realist because I'm 2220 02:44:49,208 --> 02:44:49,750 like, whoa, that 2221 02:44:49,750 --> 02:44:50,666 would be a drastic change. 2222 02:44:51,208 --> 02:44:54,166 Like, you know, and there have been times 2223 02:44:54,166 --> 02:44:55,958 whatever, I'm not gonna go on that. 2224 02:44:56,083 --> 02:44:59,250 But I just know I've never been like, 2225 02:44:59,250 --> 02:45:00,291 yep, fresh start, let's 2226 02:45:00,291 --> 02:45:01,166 just be different now. 2227 02:45:02,333 --> 02:45:03,250 That's never been me. 2228 02:45:04,458 --> 02:45:04,750 Yeah. 2229 02:45:04,750 --> 02:45:05,208 Is that bad? 2230 02:45:06,458 --> 02:45:07,375 No, I don't. 2231 02:45:07,375 --> 02:45:07,875 It's you. 2232 02:45:08,458 --> 02:45:10,375 I'm a little shocked at it. 2233 02:45:10,375 --> 02:45:12,000 I'd be curious how many other people are 2234 02:45:12,000 --> 02:45:13,666 like that because I 2235 02:45:13,666 --> 02:45:14,708 mean, honestly, I'm a little 2236 02:45:14,708 --> 02:45:15,791 shocked at that. 2237 02:45:17,125 --> 02:45:21,000 For me, I always feel like I'm on a 2238 02:45:21,000 --> 02:45:21,958 journey of self improvement 2239 02:45:21,958 --> 02:45:23,833 through life at all times. 2240 02:45:23,833 --> 02:45:24,708 I can always be better. 2241 02:45:26,708 --> 02:45:28,500 What better time than January 1, 2242 02:45:28,500 --> 02:45:29,250 beginning of a new year 2243 02:45:29,250 --> 02:45:30,791 when everybody's like, it's 2244 02:45:30,791 --> 02:45:31,583 a new year. 2245 02:45:32,458 --> 02:45:33,208 You can do anything. 2246 02:45:33,625 --> 02:45:34,791 The world's a new place. 2247 02:45:35,291 --> 02:45:36,833 It doesn't be the best year of our lives. 2248 02:45:37,333 --> 02:45:39,000 It's always just like a good day one 2249 02:45:39,000 --> 02:45:40,458 starting point versus, 2250 02:45:41,041 --> 02:45:44,916 you know, March 8th is when 2251 02:45:44,916 --> 02:45:45,833 I'm gonna do it. 2252 02:45:45,833 --> 02:45:46,250 You know what I mean? 2253 02:45:46,666 --> 02:45:48,875 Like, it's like a weird, you know, but 2254 02:45:48,875 --> 02:45:49,875 usually there's something 2255 02:45:49,875 --> 02:45:52,375 that most people from my 2256 02:45:52,375 --> 02:45:53,833 perspective are like, you know, I could 2257 02:45:53,833 --> 02:45:56,500 be better at this and why not try? 2258 02:45:56,500 --> 02:45:57,666 This is a good time to try that. 2259 02:45:58,083 --> 02:45:58,291 Yeah. 2260 02:45:58,583 --> 02:45:59,500 And it's not that I 2261 02:45:59,500 --> 02:46:00,708 don't think that, right? 2262 02:46:01,625 --> 02:46:03,166 I just don't use the 2263 02:46:03,166 --> 02:46:04,250 new year as one of them. 2264 02:46:04,958 --> 02:46:06,375 A lot of people do. 2265 02:46:06,375 --> 02:46:07,583 I have no idea. 2266 02:46:08,500 --> 02:46:10,458 The percentage of people like me versus 2267 02:46:10,458 --> 02:46:11,458 the percentage of people 2268 02:46:11,458 --> 02:46:12,791 like you, I would imagine 2269 02:46:12,791 --> 02:46:13,500 there's more people. 2270 02:46:13,833 --> 02:46:14,333 I mean, New Year's 2271 02:46:14,333 --> 02:46:15,541 resolutions, that's a thing. 2272 02:46:15,791 --> 02:46:16,958 People talk about it. 2273 02:46:16,958 --> 02:46:17,833 They always say gym 2274 02:46:17,833 --> 02:46:19,083 memberships are the highest. 2275 02:46:22,375 --> 02:46:24,750 And so clearly there are so many people 2276 02:46:24,750 --> 02:46:26,625 that turn over that new 2277 02:46:26,625 --> 02:46:28,250 leaf or try to turn over 2278 02:46:28,250 --> 02:46:29,166 that new leaf. 2279 02:46:29,958 --> 02:46:32,666 I think I'm partly just jaded because I'm 2280 02:46:32,666 --> 02:46:34,333 like, yeah, but by 2281 02:46:34,333 --> 02:46:35,666 January 7th, they're not 2282 02:46:35,833 --> 02:46:36,625 doing it anymore. 2283 02:46:37,291 --> 02:46:40,833 So that new thing that you wanted to do, 2284 02:46:41,041 --> 02:46:43,083 like most people don't keep doing it. 2285 02:46:44,583 --> 02:46:45,541 Well, when I say I'm gonna start 2286 02:46:45,541 --> 02:46:47,958 flossing, I flossed every day since then. 2287 02:46:50,250 --> 02:46:52,458 So I hear you on that. 2288 02:46:54,000 --> 02:46:55,000 There's probably been New Year's things 2289 02:46:55,000 --> 02:46:55,625 that I'm like, I'm 2290 02:46:55,625 --> 02:46:56,583 gonna be better at this. 2291 02:46:56,583 --> 02:46:58,208 And then I haven't been as good as I want 2292 02:46:58,208 --> 02:47:00,375 to be, but I've been better overall. 2293 02:47:01,125 --> 02:47:01,333 Yeah. 2294 02:47:01,666 --> 02:47:02,166 You know what I mean? 2295 02:47:03,291 --> 02:47:05,416 It's not like I've ever been like, this 2296 02:47:05,416 --> 02:47:06,750 year I'm gonna do this 2297 02:47:06,750 --> 02:47:08,166 every day or I'm never gonna 2298 02:47:08,166 --> 02:47:09,250 do this ever again. 2299 02:47:09,875 --> 02:47:11,791 And then on January 7th, 2300 02:47:11,791 --> 02:47:13,166 it was already out the door. 2301 02:47:13,500 --> 02:47:13,708 Right. 2302 02:47:14,375 --> 02:47:15,375 I just think I'm a little more 2303 02:47:15,375 --> 02:47:16,500 disciplined than that. 2304 02:47:17,416 --> 02:47:21,791 And maybe the general population isn't as 2305 02:47:21,791 --> 02:47:23,166 disciplined as that. 2306 02:47:23,750 --> 02:47:25,666 And that's where you're taking your 2307 02:47:25,666 --> 02:47:30,375 negativity towards that. 2308 02:47:30,541 --> 02:47:32,458 That was just as insightful. 2309 02:47:33,041 --> 02:47:33,250 Yeah. 2310 02:47:34,625 --> 02:47:36,875 And again, I want to reiterate, it is not 2311 02:47:36,875 --> 02:47:39,083 that there aren't things that I can work, 2312 02:47:39,458 --> 02:47:42,625 that I don't start over here. 2313 02:47:43,750 --> 02:47:45,666 Here are things I know I need to work on, 2314 02:47:46,500 --> 02:47:47,500 but I don't necessarily 2315 02:47:47,500 --> 02:47:48,541 look at that as January 2316 02:47:48,583 --> 02:47:49,250 1st. 2317 02:47:49,250 --> 02:47:51,625 It's like, oh, it's 2318 02:47:51,625 --> 02:47:52,916 finally getting through my head. 2319 02:47:52,916 --> 02:47:55,041 I need to be less stubborn or, oh, it's 2320 02:47:55,041 --> 02:47:56,041 getting through my head. 2321 02:47:56,041 --> 02:47:58,458 I need to respond faster on texts. 2322 02:47:58,916 --> 02:48:00,041 I'm terrible at texting. 2323 02:48:00,583 --> 02:48:02,041 I know I need to get better, 2324 02:48:02,041 --> 02:48:03,458 but it's not like January 1st. 2325 02:48:03,458 --> 02:48:04,666 I'm gonna start that. 2326 02:48:05,000 --> 02:48:05,333 Yeah. 2327 02:48:05,333 --> 02:48:06,416 And I think those are things, I think 2328 02:48:06,416 --> 02:48:07,041 everybody does that 2329 02:48:07,041 --> 02:48:08,500 throughout the year, like, oh, okay, 2330 02:48:08,500 --> 02:48:10,583 this is bubbled up to the surface and I'm 2331 02:48:10,583 --> 02:48:12,250 like having a bit of an epiphany here. 2332 02:48:12,291 --> 02:48:13,208 They're like, I'm bad at this. 2333 02:48:13,208 --> 02:48:14,208 I need to be better at this. 2334 02:48:14,875 --> 02:48:16,291 And if it's July 3rd, 2335 02:48:16,291 --> 02:48:17,166 it's not like, you know what? 2336 02:48:18,666 --> 02:48:20,625 That's a perfect thing for next New 2337 02:48:20,625 --> 02:48:22,000 Year's for me to work on. 2338 02:48:22,000 --> 02:48:22,458 You know what I mean? 2339 02:48:22,666 --> 02:48:23,833 Most people are like, yeah, I should 2340 02:48:23,833 --> 02:48:24,750 probably start doing that now. 2341 02:48:26,500 --> 02:48:28,000 Most of the things I need to work on are 2342 02:48:28,000 --> 02:48:29,250 like a now thing, right? 2343 02:48:29,583 --> 02:48:31,333 But if like, I think there's a lot of, 2344 02:48:31,541 --> 02:48:32,500 the way I look at it is 2345 02:48:32,500 --> 02:48:33,208 there's a lot of, I mean, 2346 02:48:33,208 --> 02:48:36,416 those are like smaller goal type things 2347 02:48:36,416 --> 02:48:37,416 of just, you know, just 2348 02:48:37,416 --> 02:48:39,125 trying to be better at 2349 02:48:39,416 --> 02:48:40,000 being a person. 2350 02:48:40,666 --> 02:48:41,916 But then I think people have like those 2351 02:48:41,916 --> 02:48:43,916 overall overarching ones too. 2352 02:48:43,916 --> 02:48:44,708 They're like, you know what? 2353 02:48:47,000 --> 02:48:48,875 In a perfect world, I want to be more of 2354 02:48:48,875 --> 02:48:49,666 this kind of person. 2355 02:48:50,208 --> 02:48:51,041 And for me to get to that 2356 02:48:51,041 --> 02:48:52,458 point, I need to be doing this. 2357 02:48:52,916 --> 02:48:53,375 You know what I mean? 2358 02:48:53,541 --> 02:48:55,166 And a lot of people like for working out, 2359 02:48:55,166 --> 02:48:55,750 you know, it's like, 2360 02:48:56,708 --> 02:48:57,583 okay, I'm gonna get through 2361 02:48:57,583 --> 02:48:59,208 the holidays where I'm gonna eat a ton 2362 02:48:59,208 --> 02:49:00,166 and it's a really good 2363 02:49:00,166 --> 02:49:02,000 starting point, you know, 2364 02:49:02,000 --> 02:49:03,791 to start January 1st, new year. 2365 02:49:03,791 --> 02:49:04,375 I'm gonna do that then. 2366 02:49:04,541 --> 02:49:05,875 I think that's why a lot of people do 2367 02:49:05,875 --> 02:49:07,666 that, you know, or 2368 02:49:07,666 --> 02:49:08,875 drinking or whatever it might 2369 02:49:08,875 --> 02:49:09,291 be. 2370 02:49:09,875 --> 02:49:10,791 They're like, I'm gonna do that on that or whatever. 2371 02:49:10,791 --> 02:49:11,166 You know what I mean? 2372 02:49:11,916 --> 02:49:12,083 Yeah. 2373 02:49:13,166 --> 02:49:15,291 But it's like, it's a more holistic, 2374 02:49:16,291 --> 02:49:17,916 like, just always wanted 2375 02:49:17,916 --> 02:49:18,833 to be more of this kind 2376 02:49:18,833 --> 02:49:21,000 of a person or do this in general. 2377 02:49:21,000 --> 02:49:22,625 And this is a good time to do it because 2378 02:49:22,625 --> 02:49:24,000 it doesn't affect my life 2379 02:49:24,000 --> 02:49:25,041 if I didn't do it yesterday, 2380 02:49:25,041 --> 02:49:26,125 if I don't do it tomorrow. 2381 02:49:28,000 --> 02:49:30,000 Like some of the maybe smaller things 2382 02:49:30,000 --> 02:49:30,541 that you're talking 2383 02:49:30,541 --> 02:49:32,458 about are, you know, like if 2384 02:49:32,458 --> 02:49:34,583 you're a bad texter, it doesn't do any 2385 02:49:34,583 --> 02:49:36,750 good in September to wait to January. 2386 02:49:36,750 --> 02:49:37,125 It's like, I'm gonna 2387 02:49:37,125 --> 02:49:38,416 start texting people back now. 2388 02:49:38,916 --> 02:49:39,291 Exactly. 2389 02:49:39,875 --> 02:49:40,291 You know what I mean? 2390 02:49:40,916 --> 02:49:42,041 But if you're gonna stop 2391 02:49:42,041 --> 02:49:44,333 smoking, you know what I mean? 2392 02:49:44,333 --> 02:49:45,916 I mean, like, yeah, I mean, from a 2393 02:49:45,916 --> 02:49:46,666 medical standpoint, I 2394 02:49:46,666 --> 02:49:47,875 probably better start stop smoking 2395 02:49:48,000 --> 02:49:48,291 tomorrow. 2396 02:49:48,625 --> 02:49:48,875 Right. 2397 02:49:49,125 --> 02:49:49,791 But it's like, you know what? 2398 02:49:51,000 --> 02:49:51,375 2026 is gonna be the 2399 02:49:51,375 --> 02:49:52,458 year I stopped smoking. 2400 02:49:52,833 --> 02:49:53,041 Yeah. 2401 02:49:53,666 --> 02:49:54,125 You know what I mean? 2402 02:49:54,375 --> 02:49:56,375 And maybe people do, maybe they don't. 2403 02:49:56,708 --> 02:49:57,583 That's so interesting. 2404 02:49:57,791 --> 02:49:59,250 Like, I just, I mean, that's totally, I 2405 02:49:59,250 --> 02:50:00,458 learned something about it here. 2406 02:50:00,708 --> 02:50:01,958 Because we don't do that. 2407 02:50:01,958 --> 02:50:04,583 It's never, it's never really a big, 2408 02:50:05,500 --> 02:50:07,000 like, because I've asked 2409 02:50:07,000 --> 02:50:07,791 you, what are your resolutions? 2410 02:50:08,083 --> 02:50:08,958 You never have any. 2411 02:50:09,750 --> 02:50:10,000 No. 2412 02:50:10,500 --> 02:50:11,708 And I'm always surprised because in the 2413 02:50:11,708 --> 02:50:12,416 back of my mind, I'm 2414 02:50:12,416 --> 02:50:13,500 like, oh, well, I guess she's 2415 02:50:13,500 --> 02:50:13,833 perfect. 2416 02:50:14,375 --> 02:50:15,125 No. 2417 02:50:15,666 --> 02:50:17,250 And that's not it at all. 2418 02:50:17,500 --> 02:50:20,500 It's, I think part of it is, and this 2419 02:50:20,500 --> 02:50:21,416 goes back to maybe what 2420 02:50:21,416 --> 02:50:23,541 you were saying of like, 2421 02:50:25,375 --> 02:50:30,291 because of your upbringing, not 2422 02:50:30,291 --> 02:50:31,291 necessarily upbringing, but 2423 02:50:31,291 --> 02:50:33,625 like, how you are, your life, 2424 02:50:33,708 --> 02:50:35,333 yeah, your life arc, right? 2425 02:50:36,625 --> 02:50:39,208 I think you feel like you have to 2426 02:50:39,208 --> 02:50:41,625 reinvent yourself and you're, you know. 2427 02:50:41,916 --> 02:50:42,625 No, that's not right. 2428 02:50:42,625 --> 02:50:44,000 I'm not reinventing myself ever. 2429 02:50:44,583 --> 02:50:45,333 I am who I am. 2430 02:50:45,333 --> 02:50:48,000 How do I, yeah, how do I say like, I 2431 02:50:48,000 --> 02:50:49,208 don't know, you are 2432 02:50:49,208 --> 02:50:50,583 more, you've always been more 2433 02:50:50,583 --> 02:50:51,500 about new starts. 2434 02:50:51,708 --> 02:50:53,083 Maybe when I was younger, it was a 2435 02:50:53,083 --> 02:50:53,958 reinvention because it was 2436 02:50:53,958 --> 02:50:55,083 like, I don't like who I was. 2437 02:50:55,083 --> 02:50:57,375 I don't like to think who I was. 2438 02:50:57,583 --> 02:50:57,791 Yeah. 2439 02:50:58,250 --> 02:50:58,458 Yeah. 2440 02:50:58,708 --> 02:50:59,500 Maybe way back then. 2441 02:50:59,500 --> 02:51:00,666 Now it's not like that at all. 2442 02:51:00,875 --> 02:51:02,958 Yeah. I mean, like, my New Year's resolution, I 2443 02:51:02,958 --> 02:51:04,291 keep using it four years 2444 02:51:04,291 --> 02:51:05,291 ago, it was like flossing. 2445 02:51:06,000 --> 02:51:07,625 It's not like I'm like, I 2446 02:51:07,625 --> 02:51:10,500 need to major life change this. 2447 02:51:10,875 --> 02:51:11,041 Right. 2448 02:51:11,916 --> 02:51:12,125 Yeah. 2449 02:51:12,166 --> 02:51:13,583 For me, like, okay, flossing. 2450 02:51:13,583 --> 02:51:14,375 I don't even know 2451 02:51:14,375 --> 02:51:15,333 that I had one last year. 2452 02:51:15,333 --> 02:51:16,375 Last year was more like, I 2453 02:51:16,375 --> 02:51:17,208 need to be more positive. 2454 02:51:17,791 --> 02:51:18,041 Yeah. 2455 02:51:18,750 --> 02:51:19,875 I don't think that worked. 2456 02:51:21,416 --> 02:51:22,250 January 7th, I think 2457 02:51:22,250 --> 02:51:23,083 that one stopped too. 2458 02:51:24,041 --> 02:51:25,125 Someone on the road cut you 2459 02:51:25,125 --> 02:51:27,000 off and that one went way down. 2460 02:51:27,000 --> 02:51:28,083 That's just two and eight. 2461 02:51:28,083 --> 02:51:28,750 I can't stop that. 2462 02:51:29,541 --> 02:51:30,041 Yeah. 2463 02:51:30,041 --> 02:51:30,958 Because you can't change, I 2464 02:51:30,958 --> 02:51:32,166 think, personality things. 2465 02:51:32,666 --> 02:51:32,958 Right. 2466 02:51:32,958 --> 02:51:34,000 But most people aren't like that. 2467 02:51:34,416 --> 02:51:35,916 I'm going to be, well, I guess you could 2468 02:51:35,916 --> 02:51:36,458 say, I'm going to be more 2469 02:51:36,458 --> 02:51:37,541 outgoing this year, even 2470 02:51:37,541 --> 02:51:38,166 though I'm an introvert. 2471 02:51:38,375 --> 02:51:39,916 I just need to be more, I need to try 2472 02:51:39,916 --> 02:51:42,250 harder at making connections with people. 2473 02:51:42,458 --> 02:51:42,666 Yeah. 2474 02:51:43,166 --> 02:51:43,375 Right. 2475 02:51:43,666 --> 02:51:43,833 Yeah. 2476 02:51:43,833 --> 02:51:44,291 Say that. 2477 02:51:44,541 --> 02:51:44,916 You can. 2478 02:51:45,625 --> 02:51:47,083 This year, I'm going to 2479 02:51:47,083 --> 02:51:48,083 eat a little bit better. 2480 02:51:48,083 --> 02:51:51,250 I'm going to start doing a, what's that? 2481 02:51:51,375 --> 02:51:52,416 Like a cleanse or a fast. 2482 02:51:52,583 --> 02:51:54,583 I'm going to fast every month, you know, 2483 02:51:54,583 --> 02:51:55,333 or something like that. 2484 02:51:55,333 --> 02:51:55,708 You know what I mean? 2485 02:51:55,791 --> 02:51:57,625 Like, those are good times to reinvent 2486 02:51:57,625 --> 02:51:59,375 that part of yourself. 2487 02:51:59,375 --> 02:52:00,083 It's like, it's going 2488 02:52:00,083 --> 02:52:00,833 to make me healthier. 2489 02:52:00,833 --> 02:52:01,041 Yeah. 2490 02:52:02,041 --> 02:52:03,375 I'm holding myself to something. 2491 02:52:03,375 --> 02:52:04,416 I've got a start date. 2492 02:52:04,416 --> 02:52:05,541 People like start dates 2493 02:52:05,541 --> 02:52:06,583 for those kind of things. 2494 02:52:06,833 --> 02:52:07,000 Yeah. 2495 02:52:07,416 --> 02:52:09,208 So anyways, we're kind of beating the 2496 02:52:09,208 --> 02:52:10,375 dead horse here, I 2497 02:52:10,375 --> 02:52:12,541 think, to some degree, but I'm 2498 02:52:12,541 --> 02:52:13,291 shocked at that. 2499 02:52:13,291 --> 02:52:15,333 I'm sure we'll talk about that more after 2500 02:52:15,333 --> 02:52:16,083 or off of this 2501 02:52:16,083 --> 02:52:18,291 because it's shocking to me. 2502 02:52:18,500 --> 02:52:20,500 And maybe you hit the nail on the head, 2503 02:52:20,500 --> 02:52:21,625 or we both did here, 2504 02:52:21,625 --> 02:52:23,958 where it's more of an issue 2505 02:52:23,958 --> 02:52:27,416 of just our life arcs. 2506 02:52:27,666 --> 02:52:29,500 Like, you've just been happy with the 2507 02:52:29,500 --> 02:52:30,791 person that you are and 2508 02:52:30,791 --> 02:52:32,541 you don't really need to 2509 02:52:32,625 --> 02:52:34,875 "reinvent" or add this and the little 2510 02:52:34,875 --> 02:52:37,666 tweaks that you need to make to yourself. 2511 02:52:37,666 --> 02:52:39,000 Like you just do it during the year. 2512 02:52:40,125 --> 02:52:44,333 Which I would be so interested to hear 2513 02:52:44,333 --> 02:52:45,083 how many people are like 2514 02:52:45,083 --> 02:52:47,958 that versus people like 2515 02:52:47,958 --> 02:52:51,125 me who are like, "Hey, I even like it in 2516 02:52:51,125 --> 02:52:53,625 the office because I 2517 02:52:53,625 --> 02:52:55,250 get to take all, because 2518 02:52:55,250 --> 02:52:56,333 I file all the bills." 2519 02:52:56,625 --> 02:52:59,250 All 12 months are in there, and at the 2520 02:52:59,250 --> 02:53:00,375 end of the year, they 2521 02:53:00,375 --> 02:53:01,625 all get stapled together. 2522 02:53:02,375 --> 02:53:05,625 I pull them all out, all the gas bills, 2523 02:53:05,625 --> 02:53:07,666 electricity bills, cell 2524 02:53:07,666 --> 02:53:08,916 phones, all those, they all get 2525 02:53:09,166 --> 02:53:11,958 put in a folder and we hold on to them 2526 02:53:11,958 --> 02:53:13,041 for three years 2527 02:53:13,041 --> 02:53:16,125 because that's maybe what the 2528 02:53:16,125 --> 02:53:17,000 tax man wants. 2529 02:53:17,375 --> 02:53:19,833 And I get rid of the other three-year one 2530 02:53:19,833 --> 02:53:20,625 upstairs, it cycles 2531 02:53:20,625 --> 02:53:22,291 out and it gets recycled. 2532 02:53:23,958 --> 02:53:25,083 I love the cleaning 2533 02:53:25,083 --> 02:53:27,458 and that part of it too. 2534 02:53:28,208 --> 02:53:29,791 That's like cleansing for you. 2535 02:53:29,791 --> 02:53:30,500 I love it. 2536 02:53:30,500 --> 02:53:32,125 That is a personality thing for me. 2537 02:53:32,125 --> 02:53:32,958 It is, yeah. 2538 02:53:32,958 --> 02:53:34,708 You are a hyper-organized 2539 02:53:34,708 --> 02:53:40,208 person and you like the process. 2540 02:53:40,500 --> 02:53:42,708 Not only do you need things organized, 2541 02:53:43,291 --> 02:53:45,500 you like the process of organization. 2542 02:53:46,000 --> 02:53:47,791 That out with the old, in with the new. 2543 02:53:47,833 --> 02:53:49,166 And I think that's part of that 2544 02:53:49,166 --> 02:53:52,375 personality trait is one 2545 02:53:52,375 --> 02:53:54,333 reason why you gravitate toward 2546 02:53:54,333 --> 02:53:55,125 New Year's resolutions. 2547 02:53:57,208 --> 02:54:01,125 I, for better or for worse, probably for 2548 02:54:01,125 --> 02:54:03,166 worse, am not like that 2549 02:54:03,166 --> 02:54:04,125 when it comes to like, "Oh 2550 02:54:04,291 --> 02:54:05,791 sweet, I get to clean out my office. 2551 02:54:05,791 --> 02:54:07,500 I get to throw this away. 2552 02:54:07,500 --> 02:54:08,708 This is from an old year." 2553 02:54:11,041 --> 02:54:11,625 No. 2554 02:54:12,125 --> 02:54:12,458 I, no. 2555 02:54:13,583 --> 02:54:14,291 Yeah, you're just... 2556 02:54:15,250 --> 02:54:15,833 I just... 2557 02:54:15,833 --> 02:54:15,875 I'm the steady Eddie. 2558 02:54:15,875 --> 02:54:18,291 You're the steady Eddie. I'm the steady Eddie, right? 2559 02:54:18,291 --> 02:54:20,125 I'm just like floating along. 2560 02:54:21,250 --> 02:54:21,541 Yeah. 2561 02:54:22,000 --> 02:54:22,208 That's... 2562 02:54:22,375 --> 02:54:22,541 So good. 2563 02:54:23,500 --> 02:54:25,375 That almost innately bothers me. 2564 02:54:25,791 --> 02:54:26,416 It's weird. 2565 02:54:26,416 --> 02:54:27,000 I'm sure people are 2566 02:54:27,000 --> 02:54:28,583 reading through this right now. 2567 02:54:29,166 --> 02:54:31,750 That almost innately bothers me that 2568 02:54:31,750 --> 02:54:33,666 someone isn't looking for 2569 02:54:33,666 --> 02:54:37,125 that self-improvement on 2570 02:54:37,125 --> 02:54:38,125 a consistent basis. 2571 02:54:38,125 --> 02:54:40,041 That you could be that happy with who you 2572 02:54:40,041 --> 02:54:41,125 are and how you are, 2573 02:54:41,500 --> 02:54:42,500 mentally, physically, 2574 02:54:43,041 --> 02:54:43,416 everything. 2575 02:54:43,666 --> 02:54:44,083 You know what I mean? 2576 02:54:46,416 --> 02:54:46,500 That... 2577 02:54:46,833 --> 02:54:48,958 And it's not a resolution, because I'm 2578 02:54:48,958 --> 02:54:50,250 not like, "Here's my 2579 02:54:50,250 --> 02:54:51,666 resolution this year, everybody." 2580 02:54:51,666 --> 02:54:52,750 I'm not big on resolutions. 2581 02:54:53,416 --> 02:54:54,666 I don't care about that, but a new year 2582 02:54:54,666 --> 02:54:55,875 is always a good 2583 02:54:55,875 --> 02:54:58,041 starting point to like, "Hey, 2584 02:54:59,458 --> 02:55:00,291 last year was a tough... 2585 02:55:00,291 --> 02:55:00,958 I'm usually pretty 2586 02:55:00,958 --> 02:55:01,791 good about working out. 2587 02:55:02,000 --> 02:55:03,666 Last year it fell off for a 2588 02:55:03,666 --> 02:55:04,583 million different reasons. 2589 02:55:04,916 --> 02:55:06,250 It started strong and then kind of fell 2590 02:55:06,250 --> 02:55:08,000 off at summer for 2591 02:55:08,000 --> 02:55:10,333 whatever reason, but it's always 2592 02:55:10,333 --> 02:55:10,958 like, "I just need to 2593 02:55:10,958 --> 02:55:11,791 be better about that. 2594 02:55:12,125 --> 02:55:12,833 I'm going to try to make 2595 02:55:12,833 --> 02:55:13,541 it through a whole year." 2596 02:55:14,000 --> 02:55:17,125 It's almost like daring yourself or 2597 02:55:17,125 --> 02:55:18,208 setting a challenge for 2598 02:55:18,208 --> 02:55:19,625 yourself to be better. 2599 02:55:20,166 --> 02:55:20,375 Yeah. 2600 02:55:21,083 --> 02:55:21,583 And that's just... 2601 02:55:22,875 --> 02:55:24,625 My life arc has always provided me 2602 02:55:24,625 --> 02:55:25,666 opportunities to improve. 2603 02:55:26,250 --> 02:55:28,458 And I'm just shocked that there's others 2604 02:55:28,458 --> 02:55:30,333 that don't view it that way. 2605 02:55:31,041 --> 02:55:31,958 I mean, it's innately 2606 02:55:31,958 --> 02:55:33,083 bothering me right now. 2607 02:55:34,875 --> 02:55:35,166 Uh-oh. 2608 02:55:35,833 --> 02:55:37,375 I didn't mean to do that. 2609 02:55:37,791 --> 02:55:38,375 No, I know. 2610 02:55:38,375 --> 02:55:39,083 That's crazy though. 2611 02:55:39,458 --> 02:55:40,708 So anyways, wow. 2612 02:55:41,541 --> 02:55:41,916 Wow. 2613 02:55:42,208 --> 02:55:42,666 Well, I'm sorry. 2614 02:55:42,666 --> 02:55:43,583 I told you, I got a 2615 02:55:43,583 --> 02:55:44,625 good question for you. 2616 02:55:44,625 --> 02:55:45,750 We'll see how that goes. 2617 02:55:46,166 --> 02:55:46,666 Well, that went. 2618 02:55:47,166 --> 02:55:48,250 That was the question. 2619 02:55:48,833 --> 02:55:49,333 There it is. 2620 02:55:49,333 --> 02:55:50,250 That was the big one. 2621 02:55:50,250 --> 02:55:53,041 I feel like I didn't answer it correctly, 2622 02:55:53,416 --> 02:55:54,708 although I answered it honestly. 2623 02:55:55,291 --> 02:55:57,125 No, there's no right or wrong on that. 2624 02:56:00,083 --> 02:56:01,291 You know, I mean, like... 2625 02:56:06,000 --> 02:56:08,583 I would be curious if there's a 2626 02:56:08,583 --> 02:56:10,291 psychologist sitting here and 2627 02:56:10,291 --> 02:56:11,833 how they would explore that. 2628 02:56:12,250 --> 02:56:12,791 You know what I mean? 2629 02:56:13,291 --> 02:56:13,583 Yeah. 2630 02:56:13,583 --> 02:56:14,666 That part of it. 2631 02:56:15,291 --> 02:56:17,666 Because we've talked through things, and 2632 02:56:17,666 --> 02:56:18,416 now this is a little bit 2633 02:56:18,416 --> 02:56:20,625 of pivot, but as a couple, 2634 02:56:21,500 --> 02:56:23,291 you have to be able to talk about things 2635 02:56:23,291 --> 02:56:24,125 that are like, "Hey, 2636 02:56:25,750 --> 02:56:27,166 here's something that... 2637 02:56:29,083 --> 02:56:29,833 If you could do this 2638 02:56:29,833 --> 02:56:30,666 differently, it'd be better." 2639 02:56:31,916 --> 02:56:32,541 We've been honest with 2640 02:56:32,541 --> 02:56:33,291 each other on that one. 2641 02:56:33,375 --> 02:56:34,458 I have to drag it out 2642 02:56:34,458 --> 02:56:35,416 of you a lot of the time. 2643 02:56:35,416 --> 02:56:36,916 So I'm like, "Tell me." 2644 02:56:37,250 --> 02:56:37,708 You know what I mean? 2645 02:56:37,708 --> 02:56:38,625 I'm a dumb male. 2646 02:56:38,875 --> 02:56:39,958 Like, sometimes you have to hit me over 2647 02:56:39,958 --> 02:56:43,083 the head, you know, and just tell me. 2648 02:56:43,083 --> 02:56:44,833 And then I'll do it 100%. 2649 02:56:45,583 --> 02:56:47,500 And me being the way that I am, I'm 2650 02:56:47,500 --> 02:56:49,166 fairly open, you know, 2651 02:56:49,166 --> 02:56:49,750 emotions on the sleeve. 2652 02:56:50,083 --> 02:56:51,375 I usually tell you, like, 2653 02:56:51,375 --> 02:56:52,833 "Hey, here's what I need." 2654 02:56:53,041 --> 02:56:54,000 You know, like, "This is 2655 02:56:54,000 --> 02:56:55,333 the way this is coming across. 2656 02:56:55,333 --> 02:56:56,125 This is how this is." 2657 02:56:58,208 --> 02:57:00,500 So, I mean, I'm rambling here a bit, and 2658 02:57:00,500 --> 02:57:02,041 I'm talking too much. 2659 02:57:02,458 --> 02:57:03,958 But the long and the short of it there 2660 02:57:03,958 --> 02:57:05,875 feel, to me, is like, 2661 02:57:06,541 --> 02:57:10,500 generally when we have some 2662 02:57:10,500 --> 02:57:15,208 of those conversations, you don't like to 2663 02:57:15,208 --> 02:57:17,500 hear that there are ways to improve. 2664 02:57:18,208 --> 02:57:20,000 Like, there is a lot of 2665 02:57:20,000 --> 02:57:21,375 pushback there at times. 2666 02:57:21,375 --> 02:57:23,458 And so this is just kind of a bigger 2667 02:57:23,458 --> 02:57:25,500 window into that, like, 2668 02:57:25,500 --> 02:57:27,250 "Oh, now I understand even 2669 02:57:27,250 --> 02:57:28,291 more so why." 2670 02:57:29,166 --> 02:57:30,500 Anytime there ever is, like, "Hey, if you 2671 02:57:30,500 --> 02:57:32,666 could maybe, you know, do this." 2672 02:57:32,666 --> 02:57:33,875 And like, where I'm always like the 2673 02:57:33,875 --> 02:57:35,583 opposite way, like, "I'm an idiot. 2674 02:57:35,916 --> 02:57:36,500 Like, you know, like, if 2675 02:57:36,500 --> 02:57:37,375 I mess up, just tell me. 2676 02:57:37,375 --> 02:57:38,291 I will change it." 2677 02:57:38,791 --> 02:57:39,333 You know what I mean? 2678 02:57:39,333 --> 02:57:41,083 Like, I'm okay not being perfect. 2679 02:57:42,000 --> 02:57:43,000 And I think this is where that 2680 02:57:43,000 --> 02:57:44,333 psychologist thing comes in. 2681 02:57:46,541 --> 02:57:47,625 You have to be perfect. 2682 02:57:48,333 --> 02:57:50,458 And this is what I'm saying. 2683 02:57:50,458 --> 02:57:50,958 I really don't have to 2684 02:57:50,958 --> 02:57:51,916 dive into this at all. 2685 02:57:51,916 --> 02:57:53,333 But when I tell you there's 2686 02:57:53,333 --> 02:57:55,291 ways, you don't like that. 2687 02:57:55,625 --> 02:57:56,250 That means you're not 2688 02:57:56,250 --> 02:57:58,375 doing everything perfect. 2689 02:58:05,500 --> 02:58:06,708 And I'm not suggesting 2690 02:58:06,708 --> 02:58:07,750 you think you're perfect. 2691 02:58:07,750 --> 02:58:08,666 I know you're doing it. 2692 02:58:08,666 --> 02:58:10,166 That's not your personality. 2693 02:58:12,500 --> 02:58:13,875 But the little girl 2694 02:58:13,875 --> 02:58:15,250 inside you needs that. 2695 02:58:15,250 --> 02:58:15,750 Does that make sense? 2696 02:58:16,166 --> 02:58:16,791 Yeah, yeah. 2697 02:58:17,375 --> 02:58:20,500 I think there's, you know, in going, "I 2698 02:58:20,500 --> 02:58:22,125 am a perfectionist, 100%." 2699 02:58:22,625 --> 02:58:24,666 Like, if I could be perfect, I would pick that, you know, as like my wish, right? 2700 02:58:24,708 --> 02:58:32,625 And I know I'm not. 2701 02:58:35,166 --> 02:58:36,541 But I don't know if this goes back to 2702 02:58:36,541 --> 02:58:37,375 like when I was, I 2703 02:58:37,375 --> 02:58:38,291 don't know what it was, you 2704 02:58:38,291 --> 02:58:38,916 know, like early 2705 02:58:38,916 --> 02:58:40,250 dating and stuff like that. 2706 02:58:40,250 --> 02:58:41,375 I always read like, "You can't change 2707 02:58:41,375 --> 02:58:42,541 people, so don't even try. 2708 02:58:42,541 --> 02:58:43,291 Just accept them for 2709 02:58:43,291 --> 02:58:44,291 who they are," you know? 2710 02:58:44,291 --> 02:58:45,625 And so I've always 2711 02:58:45,625 --> 02:58:46,916 been like, "You know what? 2712 02:58:47,125 --> 02:58:48,458 Whoever you are, that's fantastic. 2713 02:58:48,791 --> 02:58:49,875 You don't need to hear from me. 2714 02:58:49,875 --> 02:58:50,666 You know better than I do what you need to work on." 2715 02:58:50,666 --> 02:58:52,583 You know, so that's always my kind of philosophy. And I think that's what I'm saying. I do what you need to work on. 2716 02:58:52,958 --> 02:58:54,666 You know, so that's always my kind of 2717 02:58:54,666 --> 02:58:56,750 philosophy, only because I 2718 02:58:56,750 --> 02:58:57,875 know exactly what I need to 2719 02:58:57,875 --> 02:58:59,500 work on, you know? 2720 02:58:59,500 --> 02:59:02,666 And so it's like, you're usually not 2721 02:59:02,666 --> 02:59:03,208 telling me something 2722 02:59:03,208 --> 02:59:04,666 that I don't know already. 2723 02:59:05,291 --> 02:59:06,041 But do you think most 2724 02:59:06,041 --> 02:59:07,208 people are that self-aware? 2725 02:59:08,583 --> 02:59:09,833 I mean, I guess maybe you are more 2726 02:59:09,833 --> 02:59:11,208 self-aware than a lot of people are. 2727 02:59:11,583 --> 02:59:13,416 If you know exactly everything you need 2728 02:59:13,416 --> 02:59:15,000 to work on, that's very self-aware. 2729 02:59:15,000 --> 02:59:15,666 Well, I don't know 2730 02:59:15,666 --> 02:59:16,666 everything I need to work on. 2731 02:59:16,666 --> 02:59:17,541 That's what you just said, though. 2732 02:59:18,166 --> 02:59:20,041 Well, I know many of the 2733 02:59:20,041 --> 02:59:21,458 things I need to work on. 2734 02:59:21,625 --> 02:59:22,208 Okay, okay. 2735 02:59:22,416 --> 02:59:24,083 I mean, that's a different thing. 2736 02:59:24,083 --> 02:59:24,500 I do. 2737 02:59:24,500 --> 02:59:27,458 I'm like, if you tell me I'm stubborn, 2738 02:59:28,583 --> 02:59:32,000 and I know that, thanks. 2739 02:59:33,166 --> 02:59:34,750 I am aware of that, you know? 2740 02:59:34,750 --> 02:59:38,000 So I think that's part of it, of like, 2741 02:59:38,250 --> 02:59:40,666 "Oh, I know where I am not. 2742 02:59:42,166 --> 02:59:44,791 I am not even good, let alone perfect." 2743 02:59:45,458 --> 02:59:45,958 You know? 2744 02:59:45,958 --> 02:59:46,875 That's not true at all. 2745 02:59:47,208 --> 02:59:48,833 Now I feel like you're backpedaling here, 2746 02:59:48,833 --> 02:59:49,958 and I'm not trying to come down on you at 2747 02:59:49,958 --> 02:59:50,291 all here. 2748 02:59:50,500 --> 02:59:52,291 That was just an open door, and we can 2749 02:59:52,291 --> 02:59:53,125 cut as much of this as 2750 02:59:53,125 --> 02:59:54,166 we need to, because it's 2751 02:59:54,166 --> 02:59:55,833 kind of a real conversation here. 2752 02:59:57,583 --> 02:59:59,083 And I'm not trying to put you under it. 2753 02:59:59,083 --> 02:59:59,750 You can put me under it. 2754 02:59:59,750 --> 03:00:01,000 We can swap it and put me under the 2755 03:00:01,000 --> 03:00:01,958 microscope somehow here, 2756 03:00:01,958 --> 03:00:03,041 too, because there's lots of 2757 03:00:03,041 --> 03:00:04,500 ways to do that as well. 2758 03:00:05,708 --> 03:00:08,250 But I mean, even like you just said, I'm 2759 03:00:08,250 --> 03:00:08,916 well aware that I'm 2760 03:00:08,916 --> 03:00:10,458 stubborn, as though it's something 2761 03:00:10,458 --> 03:00:13,083 you would...a bad trait, right? 2762 03:00:13,083 --> 03:00:14,208 And most people are like, "Well, if I 2763 03:00:14,208 --> 03:00:15,333 have a bad trait, I think 2764 03:00:15,333 --> 03:00:16,625 I'd like to improve that." 2765 03:00:17,291 --> 03:00:17,708 You know what I mean? 2766 03:00:18,625 --> 03:00:21,000 But the way you're saying it now, to me, 2767 03:00:21,000 --> 03:00:21,833 the way I'm hearing it, 2768 03:00:21,833 --> 03:00:22,750 the way it's coming across, 2769 03:00:23,166 --> 03:00:24,666 is just the way I am. 2770 03:00:24,666 --> 03:00:25,458 People don't change. 2771 03:00:25,458 --> 03:00:26,625 I mean, like, I understand that. 2772 03:00:26,625 --> 03:00:27,208 Thank you for telling me 2773 03:00:27,208 --> 03:00:28,250 that, but I already know that. 2774 03:00:28,625 --> 03:00:30,875 There's nothing in there of like, "Gosh 2775 03:00:30,875 --> 03:00:32,083 dang, I've got to 2776 03:00:32,083 --> 03:00:34,500 get...I've got to change that. 2777 03:00:34,500 --> 03:00:35,625 It's my worst trait. 2778 03:00:35,625 --> 03:00:36,583 I've got to get over it. 2779 03:00:36,583 --> 03:00:37,791 I've got to work through that somehow," 2780 03:00:38,083 --> 03:00:39,583 which is how I would 2781 03:00:39,583 --> 03:00:40,791 approach...if someone were 2782 03:00:40,791 --> 03:00:41,875 to tell me something like that, that's 2783 03:00:41,875 --> 03:00:42,750 how I would approach it. 2784 03:00:42,833 --> 03:00:45,458 That's how I can change it fully, but I 2785 03:00:45,458 --> 03:00:46,583 can sure work on it. 2786 03:00:46,958 --> 03:00:47,666 Right, right. 2787 03:00:47,666 --> 03:00:49,500 And I'm not saying that either. 2788 03:00:49,750 --> 03:00:51,541 It's not that...just because I know that 2789 03:00:51,541 --> 03:00:53,166 something is...like I have 2790 03:00:53,166 --> 03:00:54,541 a bad trait, that I don't 2791 03:00:54,541 --> 03:00:55,625 try to work on it. 2792 03:00:56,291 --> 03:00:57,875 That's not what I'm saying at all. 2793 03:00:58,083 --> 03:00:59,833 I know I need to work on it. 2794 03:00:59,833 --> 03:01:01,541 It may never be perfect. 2795 03:01:01,541 --> 03:01:03,000 It may never even be good, but it's 2796 03:01:03,000 --> 03:01:05,541 something that's on my mind to work on. 2797 03:01:07,250 --> 03:01:09,208 And if you have a trait like that, 2798 03:01:09,208 --> 03:01:10,875 oftentimes I'm like, "You 2799 03:01:10,875 --> 03:01:12,083 know better than I do what 2800 03:01:12,125 --> 03:01:13,250 you need to work on." 2801 03:01:14,916 --> 03:01:19,166 And so I don't feel the need to mention 2802 03:01:19,166 --> 03:01:20,041 it most of the time. 2803 03:01:22,833 --> 03:01:24,875 Yeah, but sometimes to me, and that's 2804 03:01:24,875 --> 03:01:25,916 where we're different, that's okay. 2805 03:01:27,083 --> 03:01:28,916 But if I'm continuously doing something, 2806 03:01:29,333 --> 03:01:30,125 you should be like, 2807 03:01:30,125 --> 03:01:33,541 "Hey, Sean, apparently you 2808 03:01:33,541 --> 03:01:34,666 should know this better than me." 2809 03:01:36,541 --> 03:01:37,541 But you're not 2810 03:01:37,541 --> 03:01:39,000 improving on whatever that is. 2811 03:01:39,000 --> 03:01:39,416 You know what I mean? 2812 03:01:40,458 --> 03:01:43,708 Which is kind of the offhand, but it's 2813 03:01:43,708 --> 03:01:46,083 true to you because we've 2814 03:01:46,083 --> 03:01:46,958 had lots of conversations 2815 03:01:46,958 --> 03:01:50,500 with situations that are uncomfortable. 2816 03:01:51,166 --> 03:01:55,083 You lay down, right? 2817 03:01:55,916 --> 03:01:57,041 Because there's a long time we talked 2818 03:01:57,041 --> 03:01:59,166 about you being the doormat. 2819 03:01:59,583 --> 03:02:00,083 You know what I mean? 2820 03:02:00,416 --> 03:02:01,375 Like not standing up. 2821 03:02:01,791 --> 03:02:02,625 I dislike conflict. 2822 03:02:03,750 --> 03:02:05,083 I can't stand it. 2823 03:02:05,666 --> 03:02:07,250 And I'll never be good at it. 2824 03:02:08,333 --> 03:02:08,833 But it's something 2825 03:02:08,833 --> 03:02:11,083 that I have to deal with. 2826 03:02:11,416 --> 03:02:12,875 But that's even the lowest level of 2827 03:02:12,875 --> 03:02:13,791 conflict, like with a 2828 03:02:13,791 --> 03:02:15,416 spouse that you've known for two 2829 03:02:15,416 --> 03:02:16,333 decades plus. 2830 03:02:16,333 --> 03:02:17,666 Be like, "Hey, you are not 2831 03:02:17,666 --> 03:02:18,833 getting better at this, Sean. 2832 03:02:18,833 --> 03:02:20,208 You've got to get better at that." 2833 03:02:20,208 --> 03:02:20,625 You know what I mean? 2834 03:02:20,916 --> 03:02:22,458 Like you should be able to say that. 2835 03:02:23,625 --> 03:02:26,375 That's just such an interesting look into 2836 03:02:26,375 --> 03:02:30,625 you from my perspective. 2837 03:02:32,958 --> 03:02:35,291 Because that's one of the things we've... 2838 03:02:36,291 --> 03:02:37,000 That's one of the things in our 2839 03:02:37,000 --> 03:02:38,625 relationship, one of the few things that 2840 03:02:38,625 --> 03:02:39,208 we've ever struggled 2841 03:02:39,208 --> 03:02:40,083 with is standing up 2842 03:02:40,083 --> 03:02:41,458 for us and our family. 2843 03:02:42,083 --> 03:02:42,833 You want to get to people that are 2844 03:02:42,833 --> 03:02:44,083 outside of our family, 2845 03:02:44,083 --> 03:02:46,250 whether it's other family, 2846 03:02:46,625 --> 03:02:47,458 whether it's friends, 2847 03:02:47,458 --> 03:02:48,916 whether whatever it is. 2848 03:02:50,791 --> 03:02:52,750 Standing up. 2849 03:02:52,750 --> 03:02:54,333 That's really tough for you to do. 2850 03:02:54,750 --> 03:02:55,958 Oh, it's terrible. 2851 03:02:57,000 --> 03:02:59,625 And again, it's not something that comes 2852 03:02:59,625 --> 03:03:01,166 natural to me at all. 2853 03:03:05,041 --> 03:03:07,541 That is something that, again, the 2854 03:03:07,541 --> 03:03:08,541 conflict resolution is one 2855 03:03:08,541 --> 03:03:09,375 of those things where it's 2856 03:03:09,375 --> 03:03:12,125 like, "I'm not going to be like, "Today 2857 03:03:12,125 --> 03:03:13,000 I'm going to get better 2858 03:03:13,000 --> 03:03:14,500 at conflict resolution." 2859 03:03:14,500 --> 03:03:15,958 And that wouldn't necessarily be a... 2860 03:03:16,208 --> 03:03:17,583 Because that would mean you have to 2861 03:03:17,583 --> 03:03:19,083 incite conflict, I think, to... 2862 03:03:20,125 --> 03:03:22,833 No, but it would be like, "This year I'm 2863 03:03:22,833 --> 03:03:23,708 just going to try better 2864 03:03:23,708 --> 03:03:24,708 to stand up for myself." 2865 03:03:25,166 --> 03:03:25,750 It's not like I'm 2866 03:03:25,750 --> 03:03:26,708 going to go search it up. 2867 03:03:26,708 --> 03:03:28,250 But if it comes up, "This 2868 03:03:28,250 --> 03:03:30,000 year I'm going to try to stand... 2869 03:03:30,000 --> 03:03:30,541 I'm going to try to... 2870 03:03:31,583 --> 03:03:32,500 I don't want to say this enough. 2871 03:03:33,000 --> 03:03:35,000 That would have been, what is it called? 2872 03:03:36,083 --> 03:03:36,416 Passive aggressive. 2873 03:03:36,416 --> 03:03:36,833 Passive aggressive. 2874 03:03:37,166 --> 03:03:38,291 I'm going to try to grow a backbone. 2875 03:03:39,708 --> 03:03:41,333 So that's what I was going to say. 2876 03:03:41,333 --> 03:03:42,375 And that's one of the 2877 03:03:42,375 --> 03:03:43,416 things I struggle with, right? 2878 03:03:43,916 --> 03:03:45,375 I didn't realize I was passive aggressive 2879 03:03:45,375 --> 03:03:47,916 until I was told I was. 2880 03:03:47,916 --> 03:03:48,791 I'm like, "Okay, I win." 2881 03:03:48,791 --> 03:03:49,500 And then I kind of 2882 03:03:49,500 --> 03:03:51,083 tried to unpack why that is. 2883 03:03:51,291 --> 03:03:52,666 And I kind of now understand 2884 03:03:52,666 --> 03:03:54,958 why I'm passive aggressive. 2885 03:03:55,458 --> 03:03:56,125 And I try to work... 2886 03:03:56,125 --> 03:03:57,041 I do try to work on it. 2887 03:03:57,041 --> 03:03:59,083 And now, one out of 10 2888 03:03:59,083 --> 03:04:00,666 times, I hear myself say it. 2889 03:04:01,708 --> 03:04:02,666 Not enough, obviously. 2890 03:04:03,291 --> 03:04:04,208 One out of 10 is terrible. 2891 03:04:04,958 --> 03:04:06,750 But that's my point though. 2892 03:04:07,125 --> 03:04:09,166 Your point would be, and same with me if 2893 03:04:09,166 --> 03:04:09,541 I was going to say 2894 03:04:09,541 --> 03:04:10,958 that, "I'm going to try 2895 03:04:11,625 --> 03:04:12,916 this year not to be passive aggressive. 2896 03:04:13,375 --> 03:04:14,250 Maybe that would be my New Year's 2897 03:04:14,250 --> 03:04:15,000 resolution for this year. 2898 03:04:15,291 --> 03:04:16,416 I'm going to try to do away 2899 03:04:16,416 --> 03:04:17,291 with passive aggressiveness." 2900 03:04:17,708 --> 03:04:21,125 And on a self-improvement journey, to me, 2901 03:04:21,458 --> 03:04:22,291 that's like, "Okay, 2902 03:04:22,833 --> 03:04:24,708 well, if I improve that 2903 03:04:24,708 --> 03:04:27,000 10% this year, that 2904 03:04:27,000 --> 03:04:27,708 makes me a better person. 2905 03:04:28,500 --> 03:04:29,166 So why not try?" 2906 03:04:30,000 --> 03:04:30,458 You know what I mean? 2907 03:04:30,708 --> 03:04:31,833 Why not try? 2908 03:04:32,083 --> 03:04:34,250 Because that makes your life better. 2909 03:04:34,250 --> 03:04:35,291 That makes our kids' life better. 2910 03:04:35,291 --> 03:04:36,416 It was our friends and family's lives 2911 03:04:36,416 --> 03:04:39,500 better if I incrementally 2912 03:04:39,500 --> 03:04:41,708 just try to better myself. 2913 03:04:42,083 --> 03:04:42,500 You know what I mean? 2914 03:04:42,875 --> 03:04:45,000 And that's the life arc that I'm on. 2915 03:04:46,666 --> 03:04:48,708 And so that's where I come up with that. 2916 03:04:50,666 --> 03:04:50,833 Wow. 2917 03:04:51,083 --> 03:04:51,291 What? 2918 03:04:51,416 --> 03:04:51,833 Wow. 2919 03:04:52,125 --> 03:04:53,625 Really, really here on... 2920 03:04:53,833 --> 03:04:54,208 Bombshell. 2921 03:04:54,833 --> 03:04:56,875 On KIKX102.7. 2922 03:04:57,625 --> 03:04:57,791 What is the one? 2923 03:04:57,791 --> 03:04:58,458 KIKX. What is the one? 2924 03:04:59,666 --> 03:05:00,708 On Love Actually. 2925 03:05:01,458 --> 03:05:02,541 He's like, "Oh." 2926 03:05:02,541 --> 03:05:05,000 Oh, I don't know that line specifically. 2927 03:05:05,291 --> 03:05:05,750 Where he says 2928 03:05:05,750 --> 03:05:07,333 something bad about Billy Mack. 2929 03:05:07,875 --> 03:05:08,666 Oh, and he goes, "Oh, wow." 2930 03:05:08,666 --> 03:05:09,458 And he's like, "Coincidentally, Billy 2931 03:05:09,458 --> 03:05:10,875 Mack's in the... whatever." 2932 03:05:11,750 --> 03:05:13,125 It's the worst Christmas song. 2933 03:05:13,375 --> 03:05:13,416 Yeah, yeah. 2934 03:05:13,416 --> 03:05:16,250 Oh, no, maybe it was when he's like, "Oh, 2935 03:05:16,250 --> 03:05:17,458 can I be honest with you?" 2936 03:05:17,458 --> 03:05:18,666 And he's like, "Oh, please do. 2937 03:05:18,666 --> 03:05:19,875 That doesn't happen very often. 2938 03:05:20,125 --> 03:05:20,708 You're on... 2939 03:05:20,708 --> 03:05:21,208 You're right. 2940 03:05:21,208 --> 03:05:22,041 It was like, "Yeah. 2941 03:05:22,875 --> 03:05:23,666 KIKX." 2942 03:05:23,958 --> 03:05:24,125 Yeah. 2943 03:05:24,125 --> 03:05:25,666 So I just threw it in my old hometown, 2944 03:05:26,000 --> 03:05:27,208 which I know by heart. 2945 03:05:28,708 --> 03:05:30,000 This is KIKX. 2946 03:05:30,000 --> 03:05:31,375 KIKX102.7. 2947 03:05:31,708 --> 03:05:31,750 Wow. 2948 03:05:32,125 --> 03:05:32,916 KIKX. 2949 03:05:32,916 --> 03:05:35,000 101.3 KDWB. 2950 03:05:35,458 --> 03:05:35,625 Yeah. 2951 03:05:35,958 --> 03:05:37,458 That's a lot of K-B. 2952 03:05:37,750 --> 03:05:38,375 K-D. 2953 03:05:38,708 --> 03:05:39,791 K-D-W-B. 2954 03:05:39,791 --> 03:05:40,041 Yeah. 2955 03:05:40,041 --> 03:05:41,916 Oh, so it's only for KIKX, yeah. 2956 03:05:41,916 --> 03:05:42,250 Yeah. 2957 03:05:42,250 --> 03:05:43,875 You get a lot more syllables than yours. 2958 03:05:45,083 --> 03:05:45,500 syllables. 2959 03:05:46,125 --> 03:05:47,625 I had a lot of syllables, yeah. 2960 03:05:47,833 --> 03:05:50,166 101.3 KDWB. 2961 03:05:50,583 --> 03:05:50,791 Interesting. 2962 03:05:51,375 --> 03:05:51,583 Interesting. 2963 03:05:52,083 --> 03:05:53,416 Well, let's pivot a little bit on that 2964 03:05:53,416 --> 03:05:54,291 one, and we can cut as 2965 03:05:54,291 --> 03:05:55,000 much of that out as you 2966 03:05:55,000 --> 03:05:55,958 want to, because I know we got kind of 2967 03:05:55,958 --> 03:05:56,666 real in that a little bit. 2968 03:05:56,708 --> 03:05:57,375 Yeah. 2969 03:05:57,375 --> 03:05:58,583 I don't want to feel like it was on you 2970 03:05:58,583 --> 03:05:59,833 too much there, because 2971 03:05:59,833 --> 03:06:00,458 we could have turned that 2972 03:06:00,458 --> 03:06:00,833 on me. 2973 03:06:02,458 --> 03:06:03,500 And I don't want to, I mean, we don't 2974 03:06:03,500 --> 03:06:04,458 even dive into it, but 2975 03:06:04,458 --> 03:06:04,958 we could have turned it 2976 03:06:04,958 --> 03:06:05,541 on me. 2977 03:06:05,541 --> 03:06:07,125 I mean, there's lots of ... We all have 2978 03:06:07,125 --> 03:06:08,791 little kids inside of us. 2979 03:06:08,791 --> 03:06:09,000 Yeah. 2980 03:06:09,708 --> 03:06:11,583 When we talk about it, we can't believe 2981 03:06:11,583 --> 03:06:14,041 that we're in our mid to 2982 03:06:14,041 --> 03:06:16,166 late 40s, because we still 2983 03:06:16,166 --> 03:06:16,750 feel like kids. 2984 03:06:17,166 --> 03:06:18,541 We still feel like we're in our 20s. 2985 03:06:19,000 --> 03:06:19,041 Yeah. 2986 03:06:19,375 --> 03:06:22,833 But ultimately, we are kids 2987 03:06:22,833 --> 03:06:24,291 that are just kind of grown up. 2988 03:06:24,708 --> 03:06:25,000 It's true. 2989 03:06:25,916 --> 03:06:28,916 We've built these defenses, and we've 2990 03:06:28,916 --> 03:06:29,833 built a lot of things 2991 03:06:29,833 --> 03:06:32,208 over time around just that 2992 03:06:33,208 --> 03:06:35,250 delicate, innocent little kid, right? 2993 03:06:35,250 --> 03:06:36,750 We've built careers about it. 2994 03:06:37,458 --> 03:06:40,125 We've built education around it. 2995 03:06:40,125 --> 03:06:42,416 We beat social norms around it. 2996 03:06:42,416 --> 03:06:44,416 So we've built up just all this stuff, 2997 03:06:44,416 --> 03:06:47,000 but if you just knock 2998 03:06:47,000 --> 03:06:48,625 all that down to get into 2999 03:06:48,625 --> 03:06:49,625 the center of it, we're just 3000 03:06:49,625 --> 03:06:50,833 still just those little kids. 3001 03:06:52,291 --> 03:06:54,458 I wasn't trying to pick on you at all in 3002 03:06:54,458 --> 03:06:55,666 there, but you're 3003 03:06:55,666 --> 03:06:57,541 wanting to be perfect is 3004 03:06:57,541 --> 03:06:58,291 kind of in the middle 3005 03:06:58,291 --> 03:06:59,458 of yours to some degree. 3006 03:06:59,541 --> 03:07:00,416 Maybe, might be in there. 3007 03:07:00,750 --> 03:07:02,166 And I'm not even trying to ... But in the 3008 03:07:02,166 --> 03:07:02,916 middle of mine, 3009 03:07:04,583 --> 03:07:06,833 there's a lot of things that 3010 03:07:06,833 --> 03:07:08,916 I've struggled with too that ultimately 3011 03:07:08,916 --> 03:07:10,583 manifest themselves in 3012 03:07:10,583 --> 03:07:11,500 our everyday lives, even as 3013 03:07:11,541 --> 03:07:12,000 adults. 3014 03:07:12,375 --> 03:07:12,541 Yeah. 3015 03:07:13,000 --> 03:07:13,166 Right? 3016 03:07:13,791 --> 03:07:17,458 Like embarrassment or feeling adequate. 3017 03:07:18,208 --> 03:07:22,208 Or feeling ... I don't want to say that. 3018 03:07:22,208 --> 03:07:24,333 I want to say love's not the word, but 3019 03:07:24,333 --> 03:07:29,083 appreciated, feeling adequate with the 3020 03:07:29,083 --> 03:07:31,166 people that ... That's 3021 03:07:31,166 --> 03:07:32,625 mine because the second ... It even 3022 03:07:32,625 --> 03:07:33,958 happened earlier today at some point. 3023 03:07:34,208 --> 03:07:36,541 I just feel like maybe it wasn't today, 3024 03:07:37,250 --> 03:07:39,083 but if I don't feel 3025 03:07:39,083 --> 03:07:40,458 that sense of like, "Oh my 3026 03:07:40,458 --> 03:07:46,083 gosh, I feel right now like I'm not 3027 03:07:46,083 --> 03:07:48,291 needed or appreciated 3028 03:07:48,291 --> 03:07:49,333 or something like that." 3029 03:07:49,708 --> 03:07:50,500 I mean, it's one of those things that 3030 03:07:50,500 --> 03:07:51,333 take ... It's like embarrassment. 3031 03:07:51,333 --> 03:07:52,166 It takes you straight 3032 03:07:52,166 --> 03:07:53,208 back to that little kid. 3033 03:07:53,500 --> 03:07:53,875 Oh yeah. 3034 03:07:53,875 --> 03:07:54,416 You know what I mean? 3035 03:07:54,416 --> 03:07:55,750 And I know a lot of the things, a lot of 3036 03:07:55,750 --> 03:07:58,250 my negative qualities 3037 03:07:58,250 --> 03:07:59,375 were not coming from that. 3038 03:08:00,000 --> 03:08:01,083 That's one of its deepest roots. 3039 03:08:01,625 --> 03:08:03,291 So I wasn't trying to pick on you at all. 3040 03:08:03,291 --> 03:08:03,750 I'm willing to put 3041 03:08:03,750 --> 03:08:05,000 myself out there for that too. 3042 03:08:05,416 --> 03:08:05,625 Yeah. 3043 03:08:06,000 --> 03:08:07,541 Well, and I think most of our negative 3044 03:08:07,541 --> 03:08:10,125 traits or qualities in 3045 03:08:10,125 --> 03:08:12,916 general come from that child. 3046 03:08:13,666 --> 03:08:13,875 Yeah. 3047 03:08:14,041 --> 03:08:15,166 Like whoever we were as a 3048 03:08:15,166 --> 03:08:17,041 child, it comes from that. 3049 03:08:17,916 --> 03:08:18,875 And it's just everyone 3050 03:08:18,875 --> 03:08:20,875 was a little bit different. 3051 03:08:22,375 --> 03:08:26,375 Some of it truly is personality, but then 3052 03:08:26,375 --> 03:08:33,083 you compound that and your nurture around 3053 03:08:33,208 --> 03:08:37,083 you either helps diffuse that or it 3054 03:08:37,083 --> 03:08:39,333 augments that bad thing. 3055 03:08:40,958 --> 03:08:41,541 It's always a balance 3056 03:08:41,541 --> 03:08:42,791 of nature versus nurture. 3057 03:08:43,375 --> 03:08:44,583 Nature usually gives it to you and then 3058 03:08:44,583 --> 03:08:46,041 depends on how that was nurtured. 3059 03:08:46,083 --> 03:08:48,666 To your point, better, for the better, 3060 03:08:48,666 --> 03:08:50,166 for the worse, potentially. 3061 03:08:51,291 --> 03:08:52,166 Totally true. 3062 03:08:52,416 --> 03:08:52,750 Totally true. 3063 03:08:53,291 --> 03:08:58,541 And it's so interesting just to see that. 3064 03:08:59,541 --> 03:09:01,458 That's why I love that we ... I don't 3065 03:09:01,458 --> 03:09:02,083 know if we'll keep it in 3066 03:09:02,083 --> 03:09:02,958 or not, but I love that 3067 03:09:03,000 --> 03:09:05,916 for the first time in 48 episodes, this 3068 03:09:05,916 --> 03:09:07,125 was one of our most real 3069 03:09:07,125 --> 03:09:09,208 ones of like, we're little 3070 03:09:09,208 --> 03:09:10,000 kids inside. 3071 03:09:10,000 --> 03:09:11,958 I know everybody, we all try to peacock. 3072 03:09:12,500 --> 03:09:13,500 Oh totally. 3073 03:09:13,500 --> 03:09:14,041 You know what I mean? 3074 03:09:14,291 --> 03:09:15,416 I love that term by the way. 3075 03:09:15,541 --> 03:09:16,416 Yeah, it's the best term. 3076 03:09:16,416 --> 03:09:18,166 Everybody peacocks, shows their feathers, 3077 03:09:18,166 --> 03:09:19,375 puts their best foot forward. 3078 03:09:19,375 --> 03:09:20,416 That's what Facebook's all about. 3079 03:09:20,666 --> 03:09:21,125 You know what I mean? 3080 03:09:21,708 --> 03:09:21,833 Yeah. 3081 03:09:21,833 --> 03:09:26,250 And that's why when you have a best 3082 03:09:26,250 --> 03:09:27,875 friend or a best friend 3083 03:09:27,875 --> 03:09:29,250 or a great spouse and good 3084 03:09:29,416 --> 03:09:31,500 marriage, when you're exposed to those 3085 03:09:31,500 --> 03:09:33,791 things and you know that 3086 03:09:33,791 --> 03:09:35,000 you can put those feathers 3087 03:09:35,000 --> 03:09:37,541 down and put those feathers away and as 3088 03:09:37,541 --> 03:09:38,875 ugly as you might be or 3089 03:09:38,875 --> 03:09:40,958 as simple as behind those 3090 03:09:40,958 --> 03:09:41,791 feathers, maybe that's 3091 03:09:41,791 --> 03:09:42,875 where that little kid is. 3092 03:09:44,625 --> 03:09:45,291 It's not perfect. 3093 03:09:45,291 --> 03:09:46,083 That's a work. 3094 03:09:47,666 --> 03:09:48,666 For me at least, it's 3095 03:09:48,666 --> 03:09:50,541 always a work in progress. 3096 03:09:51,458 --> 03:09:52,500 I'm not a horrible person. 3097 03:09:53,083 --> 03:09:56,291 I don't have major blind spots, but I can 3098 03:09:56,291 --> 03:09:58,208 definitely still improve on things. 3099 03:09:58,666 --> 03:09:59,041 You know what I mean? 3100 03:10:01,625 --> 03:10:04,291 It's just interesting when people start 3101 03:10:04,291 --> 03:10:05,666 peeling back those layers 3102 03:10:05,666 --> 03:10:07,458 and being more real about 3103 03:10:07,500 --> 03:10:08,083 what we are. 3104 03:10:09,458 --> 03:10:11,000 For me, it's just that next step. 3105 03:10:11,000 --> 03:10:11,541 Okay, what are we going 3106 03:10:11,541 --> 03:10:12,583 to do to improve that? 3107 03:10:12,583 --> 03:10:13,083 You know what I mean? 3108 03:10:13,625 --> 03:10:14,541 That's why I was so surprised because 3109 03:10:14,541 --> 03:10:15,125 with you it's almost 3110 03:10:15,125 --> 03:10:15,583 like, "You know what? 3111 03:10:15,583 --> 03:10:16,541 It is what it is. 3112 03:10:16,541 --> 03:10:18,708 Why even try to change it?" 3113 03:10:18,708 --> 03:10:20,375 Because people are who they are. 3114 03:10:20,958 --> 03:10:21,666 Why try? 3115 03:10:21,666 --> 03:10:22,666 That's what I heard you say and that's 3116 03:10:22,666 --> 03:10:24,583 why innately for me, 3117 03:10:24,583 --> 03:10:25,833 that bothers me because it's 3118 03:10:25,833 --> 03:10:27,458 like I'm constantly 3119 03:10:27,458 --> 03:10:28,375 looking at all that you talk. 3120 03:10:28,791 --> 03:10:29,458 Yeah, no. 3121 03:10:29,458 --> 03:10:30,541 I was going to say that's actually not 3122 03:10:30,541 --> 03:10:32,833 ... If that's how it came out, I'm sorry. 3123 03:10:32,833 --> 03:10:34,083 That's not actually what I meant. 3124 03:10:34,083 --> 03:10:39,916 It was more or less around ... It's like 3125 03:10:39,916 --> 03:10:42,500 I have a lot of things to work on myself. 3126 03:10:42,500 --> 03:10:43,791 Who am I to tell you 3127 03:10:43,791 --> 03:10:46,625 what you need to work on? 3128 03:10:47,833 --> 03:10:52,875 Part of that is just like, "Hey, I can't 3129 03:10:52,875 --> 03:10:54,791 get frustrated with you 3130 03:10:54,791 --> 03:10:56,458 because ..." We'll bring 3131 03:10:56,458 --> 03:10:58,666 up a real example today when you were 3132 03:10:58,666 --> 03:11:00,458 really busy and you're 3133 03:11:00,458 --> 03:11:02,541 moving around the house quickly 3134 03:11:02,666 --> 03:11:03,791 to get all your things 3135 03:11:03,791 --> 03:11:04,708 done and all your to-do. 3136 03:11:05,125 --> 03:11:07,458 Usually that's me doing that 3137 03:11:07,458 --> 03:11:10,166 because I'm ... I don't know. 3138 03:11:10,166 --> 03:11:11,500 I'm always kind of manic. 3139 03:11:12,041 --> 03:11:12,583 I don't know. 3140 03:11:15,041 --> 03:11:17,333 It's like I'm not ... I wasn't going to 3141 03:11:17,333 --> 03:11:18,458 say anything to you 3142 03:11:18,458 --> 03:11:19,833 about it because I was like, 3143 03:11:20,750 --> 03:11:22,000 "That's something I need to work on." 3144 03:11:22,625 --> 03:11:23,833 It wasn't until you were 3145 03:11:23,833 --> 03:11:25,083 like, "What's going on? 3146 03:11:25,083 --> 03:11:25,875 Are you okay? 3147 03:11:26,166 --> 03:11:27,125 You seem stressed. 3148 03:11:27,500 --> 03:11:28,375 What's happening?" 3149 03:11:28,375 --> 03:11:29,000 You start asking 3150 03:11:29,000 --> 03:11:31,125 questions that I said anything. 3151 03:11:31,125 --> 03:11:32,833 I had no intention of doing it because I 3152 03:11:32,833 --> 03:11:33,541 was like, "It's 3153 03:11:33,541 --> 03:11:34,500 something I struggle with. 3154 03:11:34,708 --> 03:11:37,541 How can I tell you to not do it when it's 3155 03:11:37,541 --> 03:11:38,166 still something I 3156 03:11:38,166 --> 03:11:39,500 struggle with and I need 3157 03:11:39,500 --> 03:11:40,416 to get better at? 3158 03:11:40,958 --> 03:11:42,833 Who am I to critique you on that?" 3159 03:11:43,291 --> 03:11:44,666 That a lot of times 3160 03:11:44,666 --> 03:11:45,666 is my thought process. 3161 03:11:46,541 --> 03:11:46,750 Yeah. 3162 03:11:46,750 --> 03:11:47,958 Well, first of all, how dare you say 3163 03:11:47,958 --> 03:11:49,250 something a bit negative about me? 3164 03:11:50,291 --> 03:11:50,791 I'm just kidding. 3165 03:11:53,166 --> 03:11:54,500 No, totally fair point there. 3166 03:11:56,000 --> 03:11:58,250 I would just suggest that there's a 3167 03:11:58,250 --> 03:11:59,291 handful of people that you 3168 03:11:59,291 --> 03:12:01,041 have the right to say that 3169 03:12:01,041 --> 03:12:01,750 to in life. 3170 03:12:02,833 --> 03:12:03,833 We're not going to go to the soccer field 3171 03:12:03,833 --> 03:12:04,583 and say that to people. 3172 03:12:05,333 --> 03:12:05,500 No. 3173 03:12:06,000 --> 03:12:07,125 We're not going to stand out in the 3174 03:12:07,125 --> 03:12:09,083 street and be like, "Excuse me." 3175 03:12:10,625 --> 03:12:11,916 Sense of fashion is way off. 3176 03:12:13,666 --> 03:12:14,791 That is not working. 3177 03:12:14,791 --> 03:12:16,666 As fun as it would be to go to the mall 3178 03:12:16,666 --> 03:12:17,958 and just rip everybody 3179 03:12:17,958 --> 03:12:19,416 apart, that's not the 3180 03:12:19,416 --> 03:12:20,125 suggestion here. 3181 03:12:21,416 --> 03:12:24,000 There's 10 people in a life that your 3182 03:12:24,000 --> 03:12:24,833 life touches close 3183 03:12:24,833 --> 03:12:25,583 enough that you should be able 3184 03:12:25,583 --> 03:12:26,041 to say that to. 3185 03:12:26,041 --> 03:12:26,750 I'm one of them. 3186 03:12:27,166 --> 03:12:29,250 Our kids are some of them and your direct 3187 03:12:29,250 --> 03:12:30,583 family is some of them. 3188 03:12:31,333 --> 03:12:33,041 If you can't have a real conversation 3189 03:12:33,041 --> 03:12:35,708 with those people, how 3190 03:12:35,708 --> 03:12:37,083 real is that relationship? 3191 03:12:37,791 --> 03:12:38,458 That's my feel. 3192 03:12:39,875 --> 03:12:40,541 I get it. 3193 03:12:41,083 --> 03:12:45,416 Now, again, that's deep because you were 3194 03:12:45,416 --> 03:12:48,041 raised a certain way that 3195 03:12:48,041 --> 03:12:55,208 ... What's that one ... They 3196 03:12:55,208 --> 03:12:56,958 made a movie about it where everybody's 3197 03:12:56,958 --> 03:12:57,833 perfect on the street. 3198 03:12:58,833 --> 03:13:00,416 Oh, oh, oh. 3199 03:13:00,458 --> 03:13:01,541 Stepford wives or whatever. 3200 03:13:01,875 --> 03:13:02,041 Yeah. 3201 03:13:02,875 --> 03:13:04,333 It's a little bit like the Stepford 3202 03:13:04,333 --> 03:13:05,333 wives, but the Stepford 3203 03:13:05,333 --> 03:13:06,791 children, the Stepford child. 3204 03:13:09,208 --> 03:13:10,250 This isn't me getting into your 3205 03:13:10,250 --> 03:13:11,791 upbringing and pointing any 3206 03:13:11,791 --> 03:13:14,458 fingers there, but I'm just 3207 03:13:14,458 --> 03:13:19,458 saying the outcome there is you were not 3208 03:13:19,458 --> 03:13:21,541 raised in a way that 3209 03:13:21,541 --> 03:13:23,958 that was normal to say like, 3210 03:13:24,458 --> 03:13:28,333 "This is ... " That you could open up in 3211 03:13:28,333 --> 03:13:29,166 that kind of a way 3212 03:13:29,166 --> 03:13:30,083 because you don't do it 3213 03:13:30,083 --> 03:13:32,000 now and you still won't do it with them. 3214 03:13:32,291 --> 03:13:33,500 You didn't do it then, you won't do it 3215 03:13:33,500 --> 03:13:36,291 now and you're even applying that to me. 3216 03:13:36,916 --> 03:13:40,541 Now, on the other hand, I was so far the 3217 03:13:40,541 --> 03:13:46,875 other way that I was 3218 03:13:46,875 --> 03:13:48,083 brought up in a different way 3219 03:13:48,083 --> 03:13:52,916 where we did voice issues and opinions 3220 03:13:52,916 --> 03:13:57,750 and now I've had to 3221 03:13:57,750 --> 03:14:01,250 adjust as an adult what the 3222 03:14:01,250 --> 03:14:05,833 appropriate manner to do that is because 3223 03:14:05,833 --> 03:14:09,416 sometimes I can over share 3224 03:14:09,416 --> 03:14:11,750 that or share it in a way 3225 03:14:11,791 --> 03:14:15,666 that's not as respectful as it should be 3226 03:14:15,666 --> 03:14:18,458 or as not respectful as the wrong word. 3227 03:14:18,458 --> 03:14:20,666 It's not as delicate as it should be. 3228 03:14:21,083 --> 03:14:21,416 What do you mean? 3229 03:14:21,625 --> 03:14:24,375 But that to your point, both of them are 3230 03:14:24,375 --> 03:14:25,125 things that we should be 3231 03:14:25,125 --> 03:14:26,541 able to do, I think in a 3232 03:14:26,541 --> 03:14:29,083 healthy relationship, but because of that 3233 03:14:29,083 --> 03:14:30,083 nature versus nurture 3234 03:14:30,083 --> 03:14:31,250 thing, both of us have 3235 03:14:31,250 --> 03:14:37,000 come to this point in time, able to do 3236 03:14:37,000 --> 03:14:38,916 that or unable to do 3237 03:14:38,916 --> 03:14:41,916 that in our own ways because 3238 03:14:41,916 --> 03:14:43,541 of that life arc that 3239 03:14:43,541 --> 03:14:44,541 has got us to this point. 3240 03:14:45,000 --> 03:14:46,583 Whether that's right or wrong, that's 3241 03:14:46,583 --> 03:14:47,625 where we're at and 3242 03:14:47,625 --> 03:14:48,625 that's where I get back to the 3243 03:14:48,625 --> 03:14:51,041 resolution thing where it's like if we 3244 03:14:51,041 --> 03:14:52,250 understand those things, 3245 03:14:53,041 --> 03:14:54,625 well, maybe January 1st is just 3246 03:14:54,625 --> 03:14:56,375 an arbitrary day to say, "You know what? 3247 03:14:56,916 --> 03:14:58,375 I'm going to be better about just being a 3248 03:14:58,375 --> 03:14:59,125 little bit more open 3249 03:14:59,125 --> 03:15:00,708 or I'm not going to be 3250 03:15:00,750 --> 03:15:03,833 passive aggressive or I'll try not to be 3251 03:15:03,833 --> 03:15:05,833 manic and bleed out 3252 03:15:05,833 --> 03:15:07,791 everybody else the stress 3253 03:15:07,791 --> 03:15:08,625 that I'm feeling." 3254 03:15:09,666 --> 03:15:16,458 Maybe January 4th is a good day to do it. 3255 03:15:18,458 --> 03:15:21,833 That was an interesting 3256 03:15:21,833 --> 03:15:23,458 conversation if nothing else. 3257 03:15:23,791 --> 03:15:25,083 I feel like I've offended you. 3258 03:15:25,083 --> 03:15:26,541 I can just see it in your face. 3259 03:15:26,541 --> 03:15:28,208 You're like, "You look like 3260 03:15:28,208 --> 03:15:29,375 a deer in the headlights." 3261 03:15:29,708 --> 03:15:31,958 I feel like I've let you down. 3262 03:15:33,583 --> 03:15:34,625 I'm surprised that this 3263 03:15:34,625 --> 03:15:37,166 is a revelation to you. 3264 03:15:37,583 --> 03:15:41,166 We've been together for almost 21 years 3265 03:15:41,166 --> 03:15:43,291 and I've done three 3266 03:15:43,291 --> 03:15:45,250 resolutions, one of which 3267 03:15:45,250 --> 03:15:47,791 was flossing and I've only missed a 3268 03:15:47,791 --> 03:15:48,750 handful of days in the 3269 03:15:48,750 --> 03:15:50,291 last year since I made the 3270 03:15:50,291 --> 03:15:50,416 resolution. 3271 03:15:50,416 --> 03:15:52,375 It's not like it's big things, but it's 3272 03:15:52,375 --> 03:15:53,291 not the resolution thing. 3273 03:15:54,000 --> 03:15:56,000 It's more or less just always on a 3274 03:15:56,000 --> 03:15:57,000 constant growth of 3275 03:15:57,000 --> 03:15:58,166 becoming a better person. 3276 03:16:00,041 --> 03:16:02,833 I'm not suggesting you're not wanting to 3277 03:16:02,833 --> 03:16:03,833 become a better person. 3278 03:16:03,833 --> 03:16:04,833 I'm not suggesting you think you're 3279 03:16:04,833 --> 03:16:05,958 perfect already or whatnot. 3280 03:16:07,291 --> 03:16:10,083 The puzzle pieces are falling together a 3281 03:16:10,083 --> 03:16:11,000 little bit more for me to 3282 03:16:11,000 --> 03:16:12,125 see a clearer picture of 3283 03:16:12,125 --> 03:16:16,875 why some of the things that we've 3284 03:16:16,875 --> 03:16:18,500 discussed throughout our entire 3285 03:16:18,500 --> 03:16:23,041 relationship have been 3286 03:16:23,041 --> 03:16:23,666 slow moving. 3287 03:16:23,958 --> 03:16:28,833 I'm trying to be delicate on how to say 3288 03:16:28,833 --> 03:16:29,666 certain things that I'm 3289 03:16:29,666 --> 03:16:30,333 not trying to be offensive 3290 03:16:30,333 --> 03:16:35,916 in anything, but I think it just painted 3291 03:16:35,916 --> 03:16:38,166 a fuller picture for me 3292 03:16:38,166 --> 03:16:39,208 today, which is interesting. 3293 03:16:40,291 --> 03:16:41,875 Not that I didn't know those things, but 3294 03:16:41,875 --> 03:16:43,000 it painted a ... I think 3295 03:16:43,000 --> 03:16:44,000 it was more of an epiphany 3296 03:16:44,000 --> 03:16:48,041 to me of like, "Oh, that's interesting." 3297 03:16:50,250 --> 03:16:50,916 It's a little bit more 3298 03:16:50,916 --> 03:16:52,458 why this or why that. 3299 03:16:53,666 --> 03:16:58,666 I think it's what I've come to find in 3300 03:16:58,666 --> 03:16:59,750 this conversation is I 3301 03:16:59,750 --> 03:17:02,208 think it's a lot deeper 3302 03:17:04,000 --> 03:17:05,458 of a conversation that has to be had to 3303 03:17:05,458 --> 03:17:09,291 get to those real 3304 03:17:09,291 --> 03:17:15,083 moments of self-improvement 3305 03:17:15,083 --> 03:17:17,666 discussions with you. 3306 03:17:19,125 --> 03:17:19,500 You know what I mean? 3307 03:17:19,791 --> 03:17:21,083 That comes from much, 3308 03:17:21,083 --> 03:17:24,083 much deeper space in you. 3309 03:17:24,375 --> 03:17:26,500 That's way behind the feathers. 3310 03:17:26,500 --> 03:17:27,958 That gets close to the little Megan, 3311 03:17:29,208 --> 03:17:30,750 whereas self-improvement 3312 03:17:30,750 --> 03:17:32,166 for me is not as close to 3313 03:17:32,166 --> 03:17:37,125 little Sean as other topics might be. 3314 03:17:37,125 --> 03:17:38,708 I think that's where my epiphany was. 3315 03:17:39,125 --> 03:17:39,416 Interesting. 3316 03:17:40,000 --> 03:17:40,625 That makes sense. 3317 03:17:41,000 --> 03:17:42,083 Yeah, I think so. 3318 03:17:44,458 --> 03:17:44,916 I don't know. 3319 03:17:44,916 --> 03:17:46,375 I am super curious though. 3320 03:17:48,541 --> 03:17:50,416 Who was more like you versus 3321 03:17:50,416 --> 03:17:52,750 me on the resolution thing? 3322 03:17:53,000 --> 03:17:54,000 I am curious to be 3323 03:17:54,000 --> 03:17:55,083 like ... Oh, out there? 3324 03:17:55,375 --> 03:17:56,500 Out there in general. 3325 03:17:57,416 --> 03:17:59,166 I'm going to have to do 3326 03:17:59,166 --> 03:18:00,666 some scouting on the ... 3327 03:18:01,333 --> 03:18:04,500 Well, just be open on it. 3328 03:18:04,500 --> 03:18:05,833 I'm not a huge resolution guy. 3329 03:18:05,833 --> 03:18:06,791 I just like the beginning of New Year. 3330 03:18:06,791 --> 03:18:08,125 It's always a new fresh start. 3331 03:18:08,958 --> 03:18:10,166 It just feels that way. 3332 03:18:11,041 --> 03:18:13,166 I just try to be a 3333 03:18:13,166 --> 03:18:14,125 better person this year. 3334 03:18:14,541 --> 03:18:17,750 It's never like, "Here's my list of New 3335 03:18:17,750 --> 03:18:18,625 Year's resolutions and 3336 03:18:18,625 --> 03:18:19,500 I'm going to do every one 3337 03:18:19,500 --> 03:18:19,833 of them." 3338 03:18:20,125 --> 03:18:21,166 I've never liked that. 3339 03:18:21,833 --> 03:18:23,375 It's just like, it's a fresh start. 3340 03:18:23,375 --> 03:18:24,000 It's a new year. 3341 03:18:24,458 --> 03:18:25,791 The opportunities are 3342 03:18:25,791 --> 03:18:26,791 endless to some degree. 3343 03:18:27,208 --> 03:18:29,083 I'm not trying to be naive about that. 3344 03:18:29,583 --> 03:18:30,166 You know what I mean? 3345 03:18:30,166 --> 03:18:31,791 It's just like, it's going to be ... Why 3346 03:18:31,791 --> 03:18:32,625 can't this be the 3347 03:18:32,625 --> 03:18:35,083 best year is how I feel. 3348 03:18:35,333 --> 03:18:38,500 Whereas I think you're just steady Eddie. 3349 03:18:39,125 --> 03:18:40,333 We just turned another date. 3350 03:18:40,333 --> 03:18:41,000 It's no big deal. 3351 03:18:41,000 --> 03:18:41,666 It's a new calendar. 3352 03:18:42,250 --> 03:18:42,666 Steady Eddie. 3353 03:18:42,958 --> 03:18:43,541 Steady Eddie. 3354 03:18:44,375 --> 03:18:45,375 No, this could be the 3355 03:18:45,375 --> 03:18:46,458 best year of our lives. 3356 03:18:48,750 --> 03:18:49,833 That's a different way to look at it. 3357 03:18:52,083 --> 03:18:53,666 I'm like, "Let's just hope 3358 03:18:53,666 --> 03:18:54,625 it's better than last year." 3359 03:18:55,666 --> 03:18:56,333 Well, coming off last 3360 03:18:56,333 --> 03:18:57,041 year, it's got to be. 3361 03:18:58,166 --> 03:18:59,708 We've had a couple of years in there 3362 03:18:59,708 --> 03:19:00,958 where you're like, "Oh, 3363 03:19:00,958 --> 03:19:02,625 that was a rough year. 3364 03:19:02,625 --> 03:19:04,083 Oh, that one was a great year." 3365 03:19:04,666 --> 03:19:06,208 Sometimes you do have those where you 3366 03:19:06,208 --> 03:19:06,750 look back and you're 3367 03:19:06,750 --> 03:19:08,750 like, "That one, 2015." 3368 03:19:09,583 --> 03:19:11,416 I don't know if 2015 was a great year. 3369 03:19:13,416 --> 03:19:15,666 It's like, you do have those, some that 3370 03:19:15,666 --> 03:19:17,250 are awesome and some that are ... 3371 03:19:17,250 --> 03:19:18,500 Yeah, but as you look back at your life, 3372 03:19:18,500 --> 03:19:18,791 you're like, "Oh, 3373 03:19:18,791 --> 03:19:19,666 those good and bad years." 3374 03:19:20,333 --> 03:19:20,875 Absolutely. 3375 03:19:21,250 --> 03:19:24,000 It's just a frame of 3376 03:19:24,000 --> 03:19:25,458 reference of like, "You know what? 3377 03:19:26,500 --> 03:19:27,958 Hopefully this will be a great year." 3378 03:19:28,833 --> 03:19:29,250 You know what I mean? 3379 03:19:30,416 --> 03:19:31,791 If you want to, we 3380 03:19:31,791 --> 03:19:35,958 could go to a calendar year. 3381 03:19:35,958 --> 03:19:37,250 Instead of a calendar year, we could do a 3382 03:19:37,250 --> 03:19:38,416 fiscal year in for you 3383 03:19:38,416 --> 03:19:39,041 if that made you feel 3384 03:19:39,041 --> 03:19:39,458 better. 3385 03:19:41,000 --> 03:19:43,875 April 1st, April Fool's Day. 3386 03:19:43,875 --> 03:19:45,250 That feels very apropos. 3387 03:19:47,500 --> 03:19:48,375 Oh my gosh. 3388 03:19:48,708 --> 03:19:50,083 In that year for us, 3389 03:19:50,083 --> 03:19:50,666 it would be incredible. 3390 03:19:51,041 --> 03:19:52,041 It would be amazing. 3391 03:19:52,041 --> 03:19:53,916 It's a fiscal year, not a calendar year. 3392 03:19:54,208 --> 03:19:54,833 It's a fiscal year. Oh my gosh. 3393 03:19:55,583 --> 03:19:56,541 We have people watching this 3394 03:19:56,541 --> 03:19:58,000 going, "What is a fiscal year?" 3395 03:19:58,000 --> 03:19:58,458 No, they don't. 3396 03:19:58,791 --> 03:19:59,875 We have a smart audience. 3397 03:20:01,791 --> 03:20:03,416 A lot of finance people out there. 3398 03:20:04,000 --> 03:20:04,916 What is a fiscal year? 3399 03:20:06,208 --> 03:20:06,625 That's right. 3400 03:20:06,625 --> 03:20:07,458 We're a fiscal year. 3401 03:20:07,791 --> 03:20:09,083 Doing fiscal New Year's resolutions. 3402 03:20:10,208 --> 03:20:11,416 That would be hilarious. 3403 03:20:13,083 --> 03:20:14,541 I think mine's more of just that 3404 03:20:14,541 --> 03:20:15,958 continuous journey, whether 3405 03:20:15,958 --> 03:20:19,666 it's on 1-1 or whether it's 3406 03:20:19,666 --> 03:20:20,666 on 8-6. 3407 03:20:21,000 --> 03:20:22,208 I picked a random date. 3408 03:20:22,666 --> 03:20:23,583 I don't know that it is 3409 03:20:23,583 --> 03:20:24,916 even after this discussion. 3410 03:20:25,916 --> 03:20:27,125 I think you're just kind of, "You are 3411 03:20:27,125 --> 03:20:28,500 what you are," is how 3412 03:20:28,500 --> 03:20:30,166 it kind of came to me. 3413 03:20:30,791 --> 03:20:31,708 Yeah, no. 3414 03:20:32,291 --> 03:20:34,708 That's not how I see it at all. 3415 03:20:36,541 --> 03:20:40,125 It really is just getting better every 3416 03:20:40,125 --> 03:20:42,625 day, better than I was yesterday. 3417 03:20:43,833 --> 03:20:45,541 I think that's more my mentality. 3418 03:20:47,208 --> 03:20:49,708 Life hands me things as it does everybody 3419 03:20:49,708 --> 03:20:53,000 that naturally helps 3420 03:20:53,000 --> 03:20:54,041 me work on things that 3421 03:20:54,041 --> 03:20:55,083 I'm not very good at. 3422 03:20:59,708 --> 03:21:02,875 You don't believe me at all. 3423 03:21:03,916 --> 03:21:06,083 I don't know what to say to it. 3424 03:21:06,958 --> 03:21:08,041 Let's stop recording and we 3425 03:21:08,041 --> 03:21:09,041 can continue the conversation. 3426 03:21:09,708 --> 03:21:10,333 This is interesting. 3427 03:21:12,916 --> 03:21:14,291 We're starting to get 3428 03:21:14,291 --> 03:21:15,791 long, so let's wrap. 3429 03:21:16,625 --> 03:21:17,250 Got it. 3430 03:21:17,250 --> 03:21:18,583 Unless you wanted to say something else. 3431 03:21:19,000 --> 03:21:19,208 No. 3432 03:21:19,625 --> 03:21:19,916 You sure? 3433 03:21:20,291 --> 03:21:22,083 Yeah, I think I've dug myself quite the 3434 03:21:22,083 --> 03:21:23,333 hole here, so I don't 3435 03:21:23,333 --> 03:21:24,333 know that I can say anything 3436 03:21:24,333 --> 03:21:24,750 else. 3437 03:21:24,750 --> 03:21:26,000 We don't have flashing lights or anything 3438 03:21:26,000 --> 03:21:26,791 this time, so we're 3439 03:21:26,791 --> 03:21:28,500 going to have to re-record 3440 03:21:28,500 --> 03:21:29,250 another one. 3441 03:21:29,250 --> 03:21:30,250 We'll put this one on ice. 3442 03:21:31,541 --> 03:21:32,750 We'll put the other one out. 3443 03:21:33,166 --> 03:21:33,958 We'll put the other one out 3444 03:21:33,958 --> 03:21:35,041 when we're sitting in Sadie. 3445 03:21:35,458 --> 03:21:35,666 Yeah. 3446 03:21:37,583 --> 03:21:40,041 Well, then should we think of a word to 3447 03:21:40,041 --> 03:21:41,875 sum up with the last week? 3448 03:21:43,000 --> 03:21:43,208 Yeah. 3449 03:21:45,208 --> 03:21:45,666 We should. 3450 03:21:48,250 --> 03:21:48,458 Pressure. 3451 03:21:50,041 --> 03:21:51,250 All right, ready? 3452 03:21:51,750 --> 03:21:51,958 Yeah. 3453 03:21:52,125 --> 03:21:54,625 One, two, three. 3454 03:21:55,875 --> 03:21:56,083 Prepare. 3455 03:21:56,291 --> 03:21:56,708 There you go. 3456 03:21:57,291 --> 03:21:59,291 Oh, I love yours. 3457 03:22:01,208 --> 03:22:02,541 Okay, you have to 3458 03:22:02,541 --> 03:22:03,625 explain why we picked Lego. 3459 03:22:04,000 --> 03:22:05,125 Well, we did a lot of Legos. 3460 03:22:05,125 --> 03:22:07,333 I was going to say I had two, but your 3461 03:22:07,333 --> 03:22:09,208 prepare is really where mine was. 3462 03:22:09,208 --> 03:22:12,958 This is like we had fun doing Legos. 3463 03:22:12,958 --> 03:22:14,333 We had fun over the holidays. 3464 03:22:14,625 --> 03:22:16,416 Over New Year's was great relaxation. 3465 03:22:16,750 --> 03:22:17,500 It went fast. 3466 03:22:18,500 --> 03:22:18,666 Always. 3467 03:22:18,833 --> 03:22:20,833 All that was fun, but beneath that 3468 03:22:20,833 --> 03:22:22,000 surface, that pressure 3469 03:22:22,000 --> 03:22:23,458 that I was talking about, it's 3470 03:22:23,458 --> 03:22:24,041 been building. 3471 03:22:24,416 --> 03:22:24,750 Mm-hmm. 3472 03:22:25,000 --> 03:22:27,000 And come next week, I mean, we're back on 3473 03:22:27,000 --> 03:22:28,000 it, you know, because 3474 03:22:28,000 --> 03:22:28,958 that's the thing with 3475 03:22:28,958 --> 03:22:29,708 vacations, right? 3476 03:22:29,708 --> 03:22:30,250 They're fantastic. 3477 03:22:30,916 --> 03:22:31,625 I'm back. 3478 03:22:31,625 --> 03:22:32,666 Back to reality. 3479 03:22:33,000 --> 03:22:33,416 I know. 3480 03:22:33,416 --> 03:22:33,958 I know. 3481 03:22:33,958 --> 03:22:34,625 We should just retire. 3482 03:22:35,166 --> 03:22:36,250 Let's just do that. 3483 03:22:36,875 --> 03:22:37,666 We're announcing here. 3484 03:22:38,000 --> 03:22:38,208 Yeah. 3485 03:22:38,750 --> 03:22:40,083 Got an announcement to make. 3486 03:22:40,750 --> 03:22:40,958 Mm. 3487 03:22:41,291 --> 03:22:41,500 Yeah. 3488 03:22:42,291 --> 03:22:43,875 That goes to the string pillars. 3489 03:22:44,083 --> 03:22:44,291 The lines. 3490 03:22:44,333 --> 03:22:44,541 Yeah. 3491 03:22:45,125 --> 03:22:45,500 Exactly right. 3492 03:22:46,625 --> 03:22:49,625 No, because even though we, I mean, we do 3493 03:22:49,625 --> 03:22:51,041 fun things, but it's 3494 03:22:51,041 --> 03:22:53,458 still a very relaxing 3495 03:22:53,583 --> 03:22:54,208 time, right? 3496 03:22:54,500 --> 03:22:55,500 We do Legos. 3497 03:22:55,500 --> 03:22:56,541 Like, for me, that's super 3498 03:22:56,541 --> 03:22:58,458 relaxing to do Legos, puzzles. 3499 03:22:58,833 --> 03:23:00,541 It's all that same thing, right? 3500 03:23:02,833 --> 03:23:07,250 But I need that time to prepare for just 3501 03:23:07,250 --> 03:23:09,208 running at a full-out 3502 03:23:09,208 --> 03:23:11,083 sprint for the next, you know, 3503 03:23:11,916 --> 03:23:12,625 five, six months. 3504 03:23:13,125 --> 03:23:13,333 Yeah. 3505 03:23:15,041 --> 03:23:18,166 And so not only is it like the new year 3506 03:23:18,166 --> 03:23:19,791 and preparing, it's that, 3507 03:23:20,125 --> 03:23:22,416 okay, I need to mentally, 3508 03:23:22,625 --> 03:23:25,666 like, recharge my battery so that I'm 3509 03:23:25,666 --> 03:23:28,458 ready to go for the next however long. 3510 03:23:28,708 --> 03:23:30,125 I don't think you got it this time. 3511 03:23:31,500 --> 03:23:32,250 I don't feel like you, I 3512 03:23:32,250 --> 03:23:34,333 don't feel like you let it down. 3513 03:23:34,333 --> 03:23:35,208 We can't get too into that. 3514 03:23:35,208 --> 03:23:36,791 We're so long as it is, but I don't, I 3515 03:23:36,791 --> 03:23:37,416 don't feel like you had 3516 03:23:37,416 --> 03:23:38,416 that let down this time. 3517 03:23:38,875 --> 03:23:40,541 Like that decompression. 3518 03:23:40,916 --> 03:23:42,875 Oh, I think I did. 3519 03:23:42,875 --> 03:23:43,208 Did you? 3520 03:23:43,208 --> 03:23:43,708 Yeah. 3521 03:23:43,708 --> 03:23:43,916 Okay. 3522 03:23:44,291 --> 03:23:44,500 Yeah. 3523 03:23:45,416 --> 03:23:47,000 So I'm pretty sure I did. 3524 03:23:47,458 --> 03:23:48,833 I'm pretty sure I did. 3525 03:23:49,375 --> 03:23:50,625 You'll check in with yourself later. 3526 03:23:50,625 --> 03:23:52,250 I'll ask myself later. 3527 03:23:52,625 --> 03:23:53,041 Oh no. 3528 03:23:53,416 --> 03:23:54,333 I was sleeping till like 3529 03:23:54,333 --> 03:23:56,416 eight, eight 30 in the morning. 3530 03:23:56,750 --> 03:23:58,083 Like, no, I think I'm okay. 3531 03:23:58,916 --> 03:23:59,833 We're good. 3532 03:23:59,833 --> 03:24:00,833 I think I'm nice and chill. 3533 03:24:01,291 --> 03:24:01,750 Good, good, good. 3534 03:24:02,083 --> 03:24:03,458 So yeah. 3535 03:24:04,166 --> 03:24:04,375 Awesome. 3536 03:24:04,958 --> 03:24:06,500 Well, wrap it up. 3537 03:24:06,750 --> 03:24:07,875 We will wrap it up. 3538 03:24:08,083 --> 03:24:08,666 You want to sign off? 3539 03:24:09,041 --> 03:24:09,750 You can sign off. 3540 03:24:10,000 --> 03:24:10,833 You're a better sign off. 3541 03:24:11,291 --> 03:24:12,500 I really, I don't have a sign off. 3542 03:24:12,500 --> 03:24:12,916 That's I was going to 3543 03:24:12,916 --> 03:24:13,666 wait and see what you did. 3544 03:24:14,583 --> 03:24:16,541 Well I have to stick with my chow chow. 3545 03:24:17,000 --> 03:24:18,625 I know, but we knew I don't have like a, 3546 03:24:19,208 --> 03:24:20,125 we'll see on the flip 3547 03:24:20,125 --> 03:24:22,583 side and until then, chow 3548 03:24:23,916 --> 03:24:24,791 and I say, see it, right? 3549 03:24:25,916 --> 03:24:27,625 We'll see on the flip side. 3550 03:24:28,166 --> 03:24:28,375 Yeah. 3551 03:24:28,583 --> 03:24:30,000 We don't have a, that's the sign off. 3552 03:24:30,000 --> 03:24:30,500 I'm talking about that. 3553 03:24:30,500 --> 03:24:31,125 We don't have that. 3554 03:24:31,125 --> 03:24:31,708 We don't have. 3555 03:24:31,708 --> 03:24:32,000 Yeah. 3556 03:24:32,000 --> 03:24:32,500 And have it. 3557 03:24:32,875 --> 03:24:33,083 Never. 3558 03:24:33,708 --> 03:24:33,916 Yeah. 3559 03:24:34,125 --> 03:24:35,000 It's kind of our calling card. 3560 03:24:35,000 --> 03:24:35,916 It's just really bad. 3561 03:24:36,833 --> 03:24:39,916 There's just like, you should have, you 3562 03:24:39,916 --> 03:24:40,750 had just beaters out. 3563 03:24:41,041 --> 03:24:44,208 Or we just go to the striped colors. 3564 03:24:45,041 --> 03:24:47,625 All right. 3565 03:24:47,625 --> 03:24:48,291 I think that's it. 3566 03:24:48,666 --> 03:24:49,041 All right. 3567 03:24:49,541 --> 03:24:50,208 Let's see. 3568 03:24:50,500 --> 03:24:50,666 Yeah. 3569 03:24:51,750 --> 03:24:51,875 All right.