WEBVTT NOTE This file was generated by Descript 00:00:00.049 --> 00:00:01.239 Alison: Enough having fun. 00:00:01.259 --> 00:00:02.179 It's time to work. 00:00:02.409 --> 00:00:04.449 Matt: Enough fun time. 00:00:07.689 --> 00:00:08.409 Hi, Alison. 00:00:09.882 --> 00:00:10.542 Hi Alison. 00:00:10.802 --> 00:00:11.632 Alison: So abrupt! 00:00:11.842 --> 00:00:12.512 Hi Matt. 00:00:13.192 --> 00:00:13.882 Is this it? 00:00:14.032 --> 00:00:14.872 Are we doing it? 00:00:15.202 --> 00:00:15.682 Matt: This is it. 00:00:15.682 --> 00:00:16.372 We're recording. 00:00:16.732 --> 00:00:17.342 We're back. 00:00:17.472 --> 00:00:18.562 Alison: We're back for season two? 00:00:22.353 --> 00:00:27.693 Uh, does that make this ADHd20: Season Two Electric Boogaloo? 00:00:27.903 --> 00:00:29.193 Matt: Oh, yes, it does. 00:00:29.403 --> 00:00:31.173 Alison: Remember when I was like, Hey Matt, I think we 00:00:31.173 --> 00:00:32.613 should take like a season break. 00:00:32.857 --> 00:00:34.507 We were like, that's so long. 00:00:34.507 --> 00:00:35.797 It's so far away. 00:00:36.273 --> 00:00:39.003 I don't know what happened to November and December. 00:00:39.013 --> 00:00:40.113 It like gone. 00:00:40.113 --> 00:00:42.437 Like, where, where, how, why. 00:00:42.797 --> 00:00:47.687 Yesterday, Fitz, there's our, there's our first Fitz, uh, mention of the season. 00:00:49.032 --> 00:00:49.522 Matt: I know. 00:00:49.667 --> 00:00:55.607 Alison: 37 seconds in, uh, Fitz referenced something from a game session from 00:00:55.607 --> 00:00:58.037 September and I was like, absolutely not. 00:00:58.037 --> 00:00:58.937 That happened last week. 00:00:59.567 --> 00:01:04.187 So I don't know what happened to the back quarter of 2022, but here we are. 00:01:04.187 --> 00:01:04.997 2023. 00:01:05.132 --> 00:01:07.444 Matt: So, so fast. 00:01:07.521 --> 00:01:09.901 The whole holiday season was a buh-buh-buh-blur. 00:01:09.921 --> 00:01:11.571 And I know what it is for most people. 00:01:11.571 --> 00:01:13.551 I know that it is for everybody, but still. 00:01:13.926 --> 00:01:17.029 Some just comes at you like a punch in the face. 00:01:17.399 --> 00:01:18.509 Um, but it was fun. 00:01:18.599 --> 00:01:18.989 It was good. 00:01:18.989 --> 00:01:20.159 It was a necessary break. 00:01:20.259 --> 00:01:24.429 I, I, I know how your holiday went because we've talked about it, because 00:01:24.489 --> 00:01:26.049 we talk to each other almost every day. 00:01:26.049 --> 00:01:30.784 So, we're, you know, we can just kind of like say we had good holidays. 00:01:31.484 --> 00:01:32.074 Alison: We did! 00:01:32.204 --> 00:01:33.849 Matt: Some point, even surprisingly good. 00:01:34.389 --> 00:01:36.279 Um, always exhausting, but… 00:01:36.489 --> 00:01:37.099 Alison: Mm-hmm. 00:01:37.779 --> 00:01:38.709 Matt: Surprisingly good. 00:01:39.529 --> 00:01:40.709 Alison: Surprisingly good. 00:01:40.709 --> 00:01:45.100 Uh, certain parts were emotionally exhausting for sure, but also to see 00:01:45.100 --> 00:01:48.100 people I don't get to see all the time to spend multiple days in the 00:01:48.540 --> 00:01:52.630 presence of others that, you know, is only a once or twice a year feat. 00:01:53.320 --> 00:01:56.710 Um, I did joke with you and, and Evan as we were doing the initial 00:01:56.710 --> 00:02:00.097 catch up, that my Christmas was boring for maybe the first time ever. 00:02:00.097 --> 00:02:05.497 And that's not, that's not a slight, that's praise if I've ever given it. 00:02:05.497 --> 00:02:08.017 That, that I've become so comfortable with my family that 00:02:08.017 --> 00:02:09.097 we could just be in each other's 00:02:09.427 --> 00:02:09.917 Matt: Yeah. 00:02:10.147 --> 00:02:13.057 Alison: Without any argument, drama, or otherwise. 00:02:13.057 --> 00:02:16.297 And just do things like, I read a book, I started American Gods. 00:02:16.807 --> 00:02:18.877 I watched, I did. 00:02:18.877 --> 00:02:21.819 I really, really did like a, a, a physical book. 00:02:21.819 --> 00:02:24.440 This wasn't something that I, on a whim downloaded from 00:02:24.445 --> 00:02:26.259 the library app from my iPad. 00:02:26.349 --> 00:02:30.309 This is something I carried with me with the purpose and intent of reading. 00:02:30.789 --> 00:02:32.439 Um, I still have a long way to go. 00:02:32.444 --> 00:02:35.439 It's not, you know, a short book, but enjoyable for sure. 00:02:35.444 --> 00:02:35.829 So, yeah, it… 00:02:35.829 --> 00:02:36.519 Matt: Mm. 00:02:36.669 --> 00:02:37.479 Oh my goodness. 00:02:37.509 --> 00:02:38.319 Very interesting. 00:02:38.823 --> 00:02:43.353 So I'm super psyched because for Christmas my brother gave me the new 00:02:43.833 --> 00:02:52.463 updated rebooted Dragonlance campaign, world adventure or what have you. 00:02:52.973 --> 00:02:55.459 And I haven't finished reading it yet, but it just 00:02:55.489 --> 00:03:01.133 Alison: Uh, could I just, could I just let my newbie show for a second, for like 00:03:01.133 --> 00:03:06.503 the first month or so when everybody was getting ready for the, I don't know, is 00:03:06.503 --> 00:03:09.283 it release or re-release of Dragonlance? 00:03:09.353 --> 00:03:10.733 I, I, that's how new I am. 00:03:11.123 --> 00:03:16.023 I really thought that all of you were saying Dragon Lands, L-A-N-D-S. 00:03:16.493 --> 00:03:17.093 It wasn't 00:03:17.918 --> 00:03:18.338 Matt: That makes… 00:03:18.383 --> 00:03:22.578 Alison: Until I saw it like, available on D&D Beyond. 00:03:22.748 --> 00:03:24.278 Oh, it's 00:03:24.278 --> 00:03:25.788 Matt: Dragon Lance. 00:03:27.878 --> 00:03:28.478 Lance. 00:03:29.198 --> 00:03:30.368 Alison: Is important. 00:03:30.368 --> 00:03:30.878 Everybody. 00:03:31.208 --> 00:03:31.538 Matt: Yeah. 00:03:31.624 --> 00:03:36.604 It's funny, it's still unique as a setting, a campaign setting, I 00:03:36.609 --> 00:03:40.594 think, to what is currently out there, which we, you know, we've got 00:03:40.994 --> 00:03:44.084 Faerun, which is sort of the default. 00:03:44.362 --> 00:03:44.972 Alison: Mm-hmm. 00:03:44.972 --> 00:03:47.697 Matt: 5e Dungeons and Dragons World. 00:03:48.177 --> 00:03:53.397 Um, then you've got, Barovia, so you know, Curse of Strahd and all 00:03:53.397 --> 00:03:55.257 that, which is very, very different. 00:03:55.262 --> 00:04:02.750 And then you've started playing in the new reboot of Spelljammers, um, which is fun. 00:04:03.050 --> 00:04:06.830 And Exandria of course, but like, yeah. 00:04:06.860 --> 00:04:07.280 Alison: yep. 00:04:07.451 --> 00:04:09.641 Uh, interestingly enough about that, the Spelljammer. 00:04:09.881 --> 00:04:14.861 We started in Faerun as kind of our blast off point, and then 00:04:14.861 --> 00:04:17.081 now, now we are space pirates. 00:04:17.141 --> 00:04:23.611 Uh, so I think one of the last D 100 roles I got of season one, was what's 00:04:23.611 --> 00:04:25.201 the next character that you'll build? 00:04:25.561 --> 00:04:27.151 And I have since built that character. 00:04:27.211 --> 00:04:32.330 I am now playing, uh, an echo night, and I'm mad at myself for 00:04:32.330 --> 00:04:34.100 sleeping on fighter all this time. 00:04:34.130 --> 00:04:35.330 You heard it here first. 00:04:35.570 --> 00:04:39.220 Alison can have fun, not as a caster. 00:04:39.265 --> 00:04:39.875 Matt: Mm-hmm. 00:04:40.160 --> 00:04:42.350 Alison: So that's cool. 00:04:42.410 --> 00:04:44.660 That's a big change since last we spoke. 00:04:44.705 --> 00:04:48.755 Matt: I believe I've said it before on this podcast that the fighter 00:04:49.115 --> 00:04:51.455 is one of the more underrated 00:04:51.550 --> 00:04:52.160 Alison: Mm-hmm. 00:04:52.260 --> 00:04:53.660 Matt: classes of 5e. 00:04:54.345 --> 00:04:58.305 I think there are some that have been made not as fun, and I think Fighter 00:04:58.305 --> 00:05:00.612 was definitely made to be super fun. 00:05:00.702 --> 00:05:03.072 For like one of the originals, like the original. 00:05:03.442 --> 00:05:03.562 Original. 00:05:03.567 --> 00:05:03.762 So. 00:05:04.427 --> 00:05:08.027 Alison: Before we get too deep into all of the nerd topics 00:05:08.027 --> 00:05:09.497 we have, should we roll on our 00:05:09.542 --> 00:05:14.332 Matt: I was gonna say, speaking of the roll, ADHd100 table 00:05:14.357 --> 00:05:15.317 Alison: It's time. 00:05:15.322 --> 00:05:18.887 Our first rolls of 2023, Season Two. 00:05:19.172 --> 00:05:19.292 Matt: A 00:05:19.547 --> 00:05:21.257 Alison: They see me rolling. 00:05:21.317 --> 00:05:22.497 They hatin'. 00:05:22.884 --> 00:05:24.084 Actually, I'm not hating, I'm loving. 00:05:24.249 --> 00:05:25.119 Matt: Oh, yeah. 00:05:25.149 --> 00:05:26.019 Oh, yeah. 00:05:28.269 --> 00:05:28.569 Okay. 00:05:29.439 --> 00:05:30.669 Who wants to go first? 00:05:31.314 --> 00:05:31.704 Alison: You go. 00:05:31.704 --> 00:05:32.544 You tell me your question. 00:05:32.544 --> 00:05:33.534 Or your number. 00:05:33.740 --> 00:05:34.790 Matt: I rolled a 65. 00:05:35.005 --> 00:05:37.765 Alison: I'm like desperately trying to not look at the screen and see my question. 00:05:37.765 --> 00:05:39.295 I'd like it to be a surprise. 00:05:39.505 --> 00:05:45.569 Uh, if you could live in any fantasy location, where would you choose? 00:05:46.549 --> 00:05:48.739 Matt: It's, that's amazing that we were just talking about. 00:05:48.739 --> 00:05:53.779 I'm, I'm assuming it's kind of based on fantasy location as like, 00:05:53.779 --> 00:05:56.509 do you want to keep it to 5e? 00:05:56.639 --> 00:05:59.999 Alison: You could go live in like the Shire and be a Hobbit. 00:06:00.004 --> 00:06:03.329 If, if that's what Yeah, like any, anything. 00:06:04.034 --> 00:06:07.034 In our current version of reality, we don't know what really exists 00:06:07.034 --> 00:06:07.994 out there in the multiverse. 00:06:07.994 --> 00:06:12.054 So talk to us about where you'd go, what you'd do, who you'd see, what you'd know. 00:06:12.149 --> 00:06:12.719 Matt: Dang. 00:06:12.809 --> 00:06:13.349 Um, 00:06:13.718 --> 00:06:23.230 So it, it would definitely be in the Eberron ish, uh, Arcane milieu. 00:06:24.080 --> 00:06:31.142 Arcane you know, The Netflix show based on a really, whatever video 00:06:31.142 --> 00:06:38.072 game, but a gorgeous freaking show, uh, that I, that I've watched twice. 00:06:38.312 --> 00:06:45.133 Uh, just that combination of magic and technology is so, so, sexy. 00:06:45.463 --> 00:06:47.438 Uh, so sexy, so ding, ding, 00:06:47.648 --> 00:06:50.478 Alison: Ding dang Sexy! 00:06:50.778 --> 00:06:54.553 Matt: That combination of magic and technology is so ding dang, sexy to 00:06:54.553 --> 00:06:56.626 me that, um, that's what I would do. 00:06:56.726 --> 00:07:00.446 I think like a, a techno magic world is where I want. 00:07:00.461 --> 00:07:00.731 Alison: I see 00:07:01.026 --> 00:07:01.636 Matt: Mm-hmm. 00:07:02.711 --> 00:07:04.991 Alison: I I approve of your very personal answer. 00:07:05.201 --> 00:07:05.381 What? 00:07:05.381 --> 00:07:05.531 What? 00:07:05.531 --> 00:07:05.831 Come on, 00:07:06.326 --> 00:07:06.596 Matt: Yeah. 00:07:07.076 --> 00:07:08.246 Okay, great. 00:07:08.726 --> 00:07:09.236 How about you? 00:07:09.386 --> 00:07:09.916 What'd you roll? 00:07:10.901 --> 00:07:12.371 Alison: Uh, 26. 00:07:12.831 --> 00:07:13.431 Matt: Oh wow. 00:07:13.881 --> 00:07:21.051 If you could trade an existing personality trait or quirk for a different one, what's 00:07:21.051 --> 00:07:23.811 getting tossed and what's coming in? 00:07:24.118 --> 00:07:24.468 Alison: Mm. 00:07:25.178 --> 00:07:25.668 Damn. 00:07:26.098 --> 00:07:26.588 Matt: I know 00:07:26.658 --> 00:07:28.128 Alison: This must be a Fitz question. 00:07:28.758 --> 00:07:29.658 Um. 00:07:30.408 --> 00:07:36.048 I could, there are so many facets of my personality that like shouldn't be part 00:07:36.048 --> 00:07:38.358 of my personality that I have made, right. 00:07:38.358 --> 00:07:44.208 Like loving pineapple or glitter or, Dungeons and Dragons. 00:07:46.608 --> 00:07:47.508 Matt: Right? 00:07:47.838 --> 00:07:48.378 Yeah. 00:07:49.188 --> 00:07:52.968 Alison: Um, so I'll, I'll toss those out and kind of go 00:07:52.968 --> 00:07:54.468 to core Alison for a second. 00:07:54.498 --> 00:07:54.618 I, I 00:07:54.678 --> 00:07:56.748 Matt: Let's just go core, hardcore, Alison. 00:07:57.228 --> 00:07:57.948 Hardcore. 00:07:58.104 --> 00:08:01.104 Alison: I'm assuming it doesn't have to be like a one for one, right? 00:08:01.104 --> 00:08:06.894 Like, it's not that I would toss being messy for being tidy, but like 00:08:06.894 --> 00:08:10.254 I could just pick anything that's not something I'm totally settled with. 00:08:10.254 --> 00:08:10.644 Right? 00:08:11.064 --> 00:08:11.334 Matt: Yeah. 00:08:11.514 --> 00:08:16.104 Alison: So I think, I think I'm not a very patient person. 00:08:16.134 --> 00:08:20.319 I think that I get, you know, a little wigged out when things aren't moving at 00:08:20.319 --> 00:08:23.769 the pace that I would like, you know, so that maybe, maybe we could zoom out 00:08:23.769 --> 00:08:25.479 even more the control aspect of it. 00:08:25.479 --> 00:08:29.519 I want to control the cadence and pace of it all, but we'll boil that into patience. 00:08:29.813 --> 00:08:31.356 So I'll, kick that out. 00:08:31.613 --> 00:08:39.286 And I would like to be more, not totally, not totally, but more minimalist. 00:08:39.386 --> 00:08:41.566 I, I have too much stuff. 00:08:41.626 --> 00:08:43.246 I have too much stuff in my head. 00:08:43.246 --> 00:08:46.276 I have too much stuff in my life, and I think that I would 00:08:46.276 --> 00:08:46.496 Matt: Amen, sis. 00:08:46.496 --> 00:08:53.096 Alison: like to not feel the need to have all of that, uh, and just be, 00:08:53.446 --> 00:08:58.966 you know, like see surfaces and like, not feel the need to buy everything 00:08:58.966 --> 00:09:00.436 when I go to the grocery store. 00:09:00.646 --> 00:09:01.096 You know? 00:09:01.126 --> 00:09:02.326 That must be nice. 00:09:02.356 --> 00:09:03.166 What's that like? 00:09:03.496 --> 00:09:04.486 Matt: I don't know. 00:09:04.636 --> 00:09:05.206 I don't know. 00:09:05.211 --> 00:09:11.536 I will say this though, that after a multi-year, uh, hipster focus on 00:09:11.566 --> 00:09:18.226 minimalism, that the, that the YouTube sphere has kind of been dallying with, 00:09:18.372 --> 00:09:21.882 we're now seeing a return to Maximalism. 00:09:23.307 --> 00:09:23.657 Alison: No. 00:09:24.102 --> 00:09:28.729 Matt: So just when we wanna be minimalists, everyone's like, 00:09:28.734 --> 00:09:31.339 go Baroque and I Oh, that. 00:09:31.519 --> 00:09:31.879 Well, that. 00:09:31.879 --> 00:09:32.329 works. 00:09:32.329 --> 00:09:32.959 Go baroque. 00:09:33.904 --> 00:09:36.964 Alison: How hipster of us to be fighting against that grain. 00:09:37.009 --> 00:09:37.729 Matt: Yeah. 00:09:38.269 --> 00:09:39.109 You know it. 00:09:39.829 --> 00:09:40.489 That's true. 00:09:40.714 --> 00:09:41.374 Alison: I want less. 00:09:41.374 --> 00:09:42.574 I want less to do. 00:09:42.574 --> 00:09:43.864 I want less to think about. 00:09:43.864 --> 00:09:45.034 I want less to manage. 00:09:45.034 --> 00:09:48.634 I want, there are certain areas of my life in which I certainly 00:09:48.634 --> 00:09:50.974 want abundance, but stuff, 00:09:51.409 --> 00:09:52.019 Matt: Mm-hmm. 00:09:52.444 --> 00:09:53.014 Alison: Stuff. 00:09:53.014 --> 00:09:56.254 And even like, I mean I, I think one thing I have done a really good job 00:09:56.254 --> 00:10:00.034 of in the last year is, clearing my calendar and not feeling the need to fill 00:10:00.034 --> 00:10:02.614 every second of every day with stuff. 00:10:02.704 --> 00:10:06.904 So I would like that to see that translate now into my physical realm. 00:10:07.819 --> 00:10:08.329 Matt: I hear you. 00:10:08.809 --> 00:10:09.379 I hear you. 00:10:09.469 --> 00:10:13.639 We had a, we had a chat last week about, we kind of eased into the 00:10:13.639 --> 00:10:19.069 new year and the new work world, and we were like, wow, that's so nice. 00:10:20.039 --> 00:10:23.129 I think we should try to hold onto that as long as we can. 00:10:23.339 --> 00:10:23.829 Alison: Yeah. 00:10:24.019 --> 00:10:25.479 What other kind topics do you like? 00:10:25.479 --> 00:10:27.019 Matt: What other kind of topics do you like? 00:10:27.496 --> 00:10:31.946 Well, we had a fear, which is understandable, that, we, we might 00:10:31.946 --> 00:10:38.086 be rolling on this D 100 table and we might eventually hit, you know, a, a 00:10:38.091 --> 00:10:41.971 point where we have, we don't wanna repeat a question, but our, you know, 00:10:41.971 --> 00:10:47.302 object impermanent memories, mean that we could very easily just answer the 00:10:47.302 --> 00:10:48.922 same question twice and not know it. 00:10:49.327 --> 00:10:54.583 But luckily for us, we now have an official lore keeper, 00:10:55.096 --> 00:10:56.096 Alison: Yes, we do. 00:10:56.536 --> 00:10:59.196 Matt: Uh, whose name is Fitz. 00:11:00.876 --> 00:11:04.406 And, what the bleeeeep is a lore keeper? 00:11:04.591 --> 00:11:05.761 Alison: Well, Matt, 00:11:08.639 --> 00:11:10.739 Matt: That wasn't quite as smooth as I was hoping it was gonna be. 00:11:14.249 --> 00:11:15.809 We'll edit it Yeah. 00:11:16.069 --> 00:11:16.619 Alison. 00:11:17.109 --> 00:11:17.959 Oh, we won't. 00:11:17.979 --> 00:11:18.669 Alison. 00:11:18.899 --> 00:11:19.759 Alison. 00:11:19.789 --> 00:11:20.539 Hey Alison. 00:11:20.699 --> 00:11:23.324 What the is a lore keeper? 00:11:23.848 --> 00:11:30.038 Alison: I would love to tell you Matt, um, this is actually it's, 00:11:30.038 --> 00:11:35.018 this is a funny conversation coming off the, the heels of talking about 00:11:35.018 --> 00:11:40.748 our sometimes lack of organization and accumulation of too much stuff. 00:11:41.498 --> 00:11:46.358 So, you know, in the, in the role playing game world, a lore keeper is someone 00:11:46.358 --> 00:11:53.258 who is either forced at sword point by their own party or just has a natural 00:11:53.258 --> 00:11:57.638 knack, for organizing thoughts and notes. 00:11:57.638 --> 00:12:00.968 Because as at least the two of us can attest to many of these 00:12:00.968 --> 00:12:02.468 campaigns go on for years. 00:12:02.473 --> 00:12:06.398 So how are you gonna remember the stuff that's happening now, you 00:12:06.398 --> 00:12:09.998 know, with the stuff that happened last week, last month, last year? 00:12:09.998 --> 00:12:15.548 And so a lore keeper tends to step in and hold the keys to the history files of him 00:12:15.548 --> 00:12:17.528 in any given campaign or database, right? 00:12:17.968 --> 00:12:20.565 And we're learning that we aren't gonna do it. 00:12:20.795 --> 00:12:24.555 So we had to ask one of our best friends to come do it for us. 00:12:25.061 --> 00:12:28.647 And so Fitz and I did some traveling together over Christmas and we 00:12:28.647 --> 00:12:32.527 were talking about my gotta pause. 00:12:32.527 --> 00:12:34.017 Gotta pause for effect. 00:12:34.232 --> 00:12:34.722 Matt: Okay. 00:12:34.722 --> 00:12:34.962 I'll stop. 00:12:34.962 --> 00:12:35.412 I'll stop. 00:12:35.412 --> 00:12:35.572 Okay. 00:12:35.572 --> 00:12:36.312 Alison: Don't you dare. 00:12:36.883 --> 00:12:40.663 We were talking about how, yeah, we need to start for a couple of reasons. 00:12:40.663 --> 00:12:43.003 One, so we don't repeat questions like a bunch of boobs. 00:12:43.003 --> 00:12:43.173 Matt: Yeah. 00:12:44.073 --> 00:12:47.563 Alison: But two, because there are other questions waiting in the wings and they 00:12:47.568 --> 00:12:50.733 deserve spot on the ADHD 100, table too. 00:12:51.133 --> 00:12:55.153 Um, and I was like, I, I guess, I guess I gotta go back through and like listen to 00:12:55.153 --> 00:12:59.773 our old episodes and do write-ups and take notes and mark things off on the table. 00:12:59.778 --> 00:13:02.023 And Fitz was like, oh, can I do that? 00:13:02.503 --> 00:13:06.643 I mean, she is our number one fan, so, you know, it, it felt like a natural fit. 00:13:06.748 --> 00:13:07.318 Matt: proclaimed. 00:13:07.318 --> 00:13:08.098 Yes, for sure. 00:13:09.018 --> 00:13:10.109 Alison: Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. 00:13:10.114 --> 00:13:10.918 Her words, not mine. 00:13:11.308 --> 00:13:12.748 Uh, so yeah, so we said, great. 00:13:12.753 --> 00:13:13.798 You wanna be our lore keeper. 00:13:13.798 --> 00:13:15.178 And so it's official now. 00:13:15.238 --> 00:13:15.688 It is. 00:13:15.688 --> 00:13:16.083 It is. 00:13:16.083 --> 00:13:17.443 Podcast official. 00:13:17.443 --> 00:13:18.073 Matt: So great. 00:13:18.448 --> 00:13:22.348 It's funny because I was just on, just taking a walk because the sun just came 00:13:22.348 --> 00:13:24.898 out in Chicago after like 50,000 days. 00:13:25.378 --> 00:13:31.005 And I was talking to Lindsay about just thing things, , and we, I was talking 00:13:31.081 --> 00:13:35.300 about neuro, uh, divergent brains, right? 00:13:35.650 --> 00:13:36.820 Alison: Neuro spicy. 00:13:37.000 --> 00:13:38.380 Neuro spicy Brains. 00:13:38.620 --> 00:13:39.070 Matt: That's right. 00:13:39.310 --> 00:13:39.790 That's right. 00:13:40.240 --> 00:13:45.520 There's a new, there's a new description of what's happening to our brains, y'all. 00:13:46.450 --> 00:13:49.420 Uh, I need to give credit where credit's due. 00:13:49.606 --> 00:13:53.734 Our friend Sarah Mason Walden has the new word, uh, for 2023 00:13:53.794 --> 00:13:58.877 to describe those with a neuro divergent brain, neurodiverse brain. 00:13:59.147 --> 00:14:01.067 And that is neuro spicy. 00:14:02.717 --> 00:14:03.827 It's here to stay. 00:14:04.007 --> 00:14:08.207 So, my wife and I were on a walk talking about neuro spicy brains. 00:14:17.627 --> 00:14:18.947 That is amazing. 00:14:19.247 --> 00:14:21.107 I haven't used it in the world. 00:14:21.317 --> 00:14:22.827 I haven't used it in IRL. 00:14:23.357 --> 00:14:24.857 Uh, that's pretty funny. 00:14:26.297 --> 00:14:26.897 That's great. 00:14:26.957 --> 00:14:27.377 Okay. 00:14:27.407 --> 00:14:28.037 Neuro spicy. 00:14:28.547 --> 00:14:31.517 We were talking about neuro spicy brains and somehow it. 00:14:32.597 --> 00:14:38.610 The difference between how Fitz, uh, you know, is, is the lore keeper and how I 00:14:38.610 --> 00:14:45.900 have to actually go to Fitz's lore keeping in order for me to do my job as a game 00:14:45.900 --> 00:14:49.110 master because I am not as organized. 00:14:49.200 --> 00:14:53.130 And so I will say, I will say things off the top of my head, not make a 00:14:53.130 --> 00:14:56.070 note of it, like a major non-player character that we're gonna run 00:14:56.075 --> 00:14:58.230 into no idea what their name was. 00:14:58.530 --> 00:15:02.950 Thank the sweet Lord above for Fitz. 00:15:03.020 --> 00:15:07.520 But what I was saying was that in both of our neuro spicy brains, 00:15:07.790 --> 00:15:11.570 hers, OCD, mine, ADHD, there are some interesting similarities. 00:15:11.620 --> 00:15:17.000 So maybe, maybe this year we have the lore keeper on the podcast to explain 00:15:17.000 --> 00:15:18.470 those similarities and differences. 00:15:18.475 --> 00:15:22.294 That's, that is a goal that I think should happen. 00:15:23.038 --> 00:15:23.668 So yes. 00:15:23.728 --> 00:15:24.238 Yay. 00:15:24.238 --> 00:15:25.998 For lore keeping and Fitz. 00:15:26.102 --> 00:15:26.582 Welcome. 00:15:27.204 --> 00:15:30.024 Alison: I mean, it's always been official, but now it's just official with a title. 00:15:30.024 --> 00:15:30.564 Matt: Yeah, exactly. 00:15:30.654 --> 00:15:32.154 So what are we talking about today? 00:15:32.204 --> 00:15:35.774 This is the time, January 10 that we were recording this. 00:15:36.074 --> 00:15:40.018 People are still kind of in the, the thick of their, resoluting 00:15:40.348 --> 00:15:44.398 and goal planning and stuff. 00:15:44.489 --> 00:15:49.439 So we figured maybe we should give this episode kind of that bent of like 00:15:49.679 --> 00:15:52.829 New Year, always same old bullshit. 00:15:53.009 --> 00:15:57.899 It has like, you know, every new thing, a new year, a new month, a new week has 00:15:57.899 --> 00:16:02.309 the possibility of this little bit of dopamine that kind of makes you excited. 00:16:02.639 --> 00:16:03.989 Well, I have another chance. 00:16:03.989 --> 00:16:05.459 Anything can happen today, right? 00:16:05.459 --> 00:16:06.899 Or anything could happen this year. 00:16:07.259 --> 00:16:10.499 And so I know that everyone kind of is reeling from that. 00:16:10.679 --> 00:16:11.999 It's a joke, of course. 00:16:12.749 --> 00:16:15.899 You know, when you make a resolution and you can't keep up with it, then you beat 00:16:15.899 --> 00:16:19.739 yourself up a few months later and we're we're saying we don't want to do that. 00:16:19.739 --> 00:16:21.599 So what do we, what do we do? 00:16:21.774 --> 00:16:25.524 Alison: Let me tell you the fundamental problem that I have with resolutions, 00:16:25.529 --> 00:16:29.244 and even before I went full woo at the end of last year, I've always, I've, 00:16:29.244 --> 00:16:33.879 I ha I've been, I've been full, woo um, I come up with a word and that is 00:16:33.879 --> 00:16:38.589 just kind of my, my beacon throughout to like, is this how I'm feeling? 00:16:39.159 --> 00:16:43.028 My problem fundamentally with resolutions is that they do what 00:16:43.033 --> 00:16:47.108 I don't like, which is they focus on where you're lacking, right? 00:16:47.658 --> 00:16:49.663 Correct me if I'm wrong, and weigh in here. 00:16:50.338 --> 00:16:55.048 Always feel like, oh, I wanna get outta debt, or I want to lose 20 pounds. 00:16:55.048 --> 00:16:59.554 Or I, they're always these things we find wrong with ourselves, and 00:16:59.554 --> 00:17:03.784 I just want myself and everybody I'm around to reframe that. 00:17:03.784 --> 00:17:07.444 So it's okay to wanna get healthier, and it's okay to have a plan to build up 00:17:07.624 --> 00:17:09.874 your finances to a place of abundance. 00:17:10.144 --> 00:17:12.484 But let's do that by focusing on what we want. 00:17:12.484 --> 00:17:15.064 I want to be able to run a 10 minute mile. 00:17:15.544 --> 00:17:19.834 I want to have $10,000 at all times in my savings account. 00:17:20.224 --> 00:17:24.874 I want to have a thousand people consistently listening to my podcast. 00:17:25.054 --> 00:17:27.844 Whatever it is, I want to focus on the thing. 00:17:28.054 --> 00:17:30.064 See, and I said that, and your sweet little eyes just lit 00:17:30.884 --> 00:17:31.254 Matt: Yeah! 00:17:32.099 --> 00:17:34.619 Alison: So we, you and I were talking and I was like, well, I got a word. 00:17:34.709 --> 00:17:36.269 I always have a word of the year. 00:17:36.569 --> 00:17:39.384 Uh, I think in the past I've tried to choose words that didn't 00:17:39.624 --> 00:17:42.174 align with me, like discipline. 00:17:42.674 --> 00:17:44.904 Eh, I'm never gonna be a disciplined person. 00:17:44.904 --> 00:17:47.604 You know, like, let's just, let's just throw that out. 00:17:47.645 --> 00:17:51.065 I can maybe a better, you know, discipline is what I lack, maybe what 00:17:51.065 --> 00:17:53.615 I'm looking for is sustainability. 00:17:53.615 --> 00:17:57.935 Like it doesn't have to look the same every day, but is it sustainable 00:17:57.935 --> 00:17:59.795 as opposed to being disciplined? 00:18:00.455 --> 00:18:04.415 Um, so I came up with this word that I realized was one of my, core 00:18:04.415 --> 00:18:07.175 values last year, and I decided I'm gonna apply it to this year. 00:18:07.180 --> 00:18:08.105 And that word is magic. 00:18:08.765 --> 00:18:13.895 Um, I find it not at all strange that, uh, we had, you know, Tey on at 00:18:13.900 --> 00:18:17.595 some point halfway through last year, and we talked about why I like D&D 00:18:17.615 --> 00:18:21.335 and the, the characters that I play, and it always centers around magic. 00:18:21.755 --> 00:18:25.655 And every single thing that I've been lit up by in the past few years, it's because 00:18:25.655 --> 00:18:30.065 there's been some like spark that feels bigger than myself and other worldly 00:18:30.065 --> 00:18:31.505 and like, I didn't get to control it. 00:18:31.595 --> 00:18:32.915 Uh, that feels magic to me. 00:18:33.335 --> 00:18:36.785 So, you know, in the sense of that, I'd want to find the things 00:18:36.790 --> 00:18:41.285 that make me light up and go, ha, that's magic, um, in all that I do. 00:18:41.315 --> 00:18:44.135 So that's my word of 2023. 00:18:44.585 --> 00:18:47.765 Matt, what say you, you have a different, you don't say words, you 00:18:48.110 --> 00:18:48.530 Matt: Yeah. 00:18:48.535 --> 00:18:53.195 I, I like the, I do really like words too, and I feel like I'm inspired to 00:18:53.195 --> 00:18:57.927 come up with some words similarly, but I also like the concept of themes. 00:18:57.927 --> 00:19:00.597 And again, these are not things that we've invented, the internet 00:19:00.597 --> 00:19:03.807 can show you some people who can explain all of this so much better. 00:19:03.807 --> 00:19:08.877 But for me, theme is fun because it's like word, maybe they're almost 00:19:08.877 --> 00:19:13.727 interchangeable, except for me, the theme is something that can even change halfway. 00:19:13.927 --> 00:19:14.487 Right? 00:19:14.937 --> 00:19:19.377 Like it's, it could be a quarterly thing, it could be, it could be a monthly thing, 00:19:19.407 --> 00:19:21.567 but it it, it could be a yearly thing. 00:19:21.597 --> 00:19:23.847 So I could have really big ones. 00:19:23.852 --> 00:19:30.507 Like one thing that I have this year is play more the, the year of playing more. 00:19:31.017 --> 00:19:32.007 That's kind of open. 00:19:32.097 --> 00:19:32.667 Alison: You know what, 00:19:32.967 --> 00:19:33.297 Matt: Yes. 00:19:33.747 --> 00:19:35.157 Alison: Do you know what my word was last year? 00:19:35.667 --> 00:19:36.147 Matt: Play. 00:19:37.047 --> 00:19:37.687 Was it? 00:19:38.257 --> 00:19:41.787 Aw, I thought it was ease last year. 00:19:41.954 --> 00:19:43.604 Alison: Oh, last year was ease so the year before that then was 00:19:43.784 --> 00:19:44.174 Matt: Okay. 00:19:44.334 --> 00:19:44.894 Right. 00:19:45.044 --> 00:19:47.414 Alison: Play, play, has been, I think it was, it was, yeah. 00:19:47.774 --> 00:19:48.734 Magic, ease, play. 00:19:48.734 --> 00:19:50.264 It was synchronicity, I think the year before 00:19:50.474 --> 00:19:51.614 Matt: Those are such good ones. 00:19:51.858 --> 00:19:56.298 So, yeah, for, for that, I, I really, I don't know, themes, 00:19:56.298 --> 00:19:57.588 themes feel good to me. 00:19:58.311 --> 00:20:01.521 Similarly in, in the way that I'm not tearing myself down. 00:20:01.731 --> 00:20:07.794 But another theme that I did come up with is, more confidence. 00:20:07.854 --> 00:20:12.421 Not that I don't have confidence, but know, just kind of egging myself on. 00:20:12.451 --> 00:20:15.771 It's not coming from a place of lack, it's that I've discovered, 00:20:15.776 --> 00:20:17.845 oh, I don't really give an f. 00:20:18.147 --> 00:20:22.197 I'm learning that, oh, I don't need to be nervous about things. 00:20:22.836 --> 00:20:25.026 At the end of last year, I, yeah, there were some things that I kind 00:20:25.026 --> 00:20:30.786 of just like reached out and did and was like, oh, that's totally easy. 00:20:30.786 --> 00:20:33.240 It wasn't, wasn't as hard as I thought it was. 00:20:33.510 --> 00:20:37.842 Um, and, And so for me, like more, is it confidence? 00:20:37.847 --> 00:20:41.467 More, get it more, go more. 00:20:41.527 --> 00:20:42.487 What does Evan say? 00:20:42.587 --> 00:20:45.257 Shoot the shoot, shoot your shoot. 00:20:45.295 --> 00:20:45.805 Get it. 00:20:45.865 --> 00:20:49.375 It's not even get or done because I, I don't wanna stress out about 00:20:49.375 --> 00:20:52.315 getting things done this year the way that I did last time. 00:20:52.315 --> 00:20:55.075 I want to just, just do. 00:20:55.236 --> 00:20:57.525 Sounds like a Nike commercial. 00:20:58.780 --> 00:20:59.670 Alison: Just do it. 00:21:01.905 --> 00:21:02.415 Matt: Yeah. 00:21:02.485 --> 00:21:04.645 So I, those are, those are two of mines. 00:21:04.645 --> 00:21:08.434 And then I, I do want to respect, I specifically said I wanted 00:21:08.434 --> 00:21:10.054 to respect billable hours. 00:21:10.114 --> 00:21:12.964 I wanna respect client work more. 00:21:13.120 --> 00:21:16.714 I think what I'm saying there is just find that balance, right? 00:21:16.714 --> 00:21:23.403 Like take the balance, find it, because I, I want to, I want to invite it, right? 00:21:23.623 --> 00:21:31.333 Part of my stress of 2022 was that I was sometimes doing too much 00:21:31.483 --> 00:21:34.703 client work and not enough play, and that's just the way it works. 00:21:34.703 --> 00:21:37.860 But if, if I just invite it in, then there will be more. 00:21:37.860 --> 00:21:40.617 Therefore I might, you know, I could do less because we're a 00:21:40.622 --> 00:21:42.207 team and we can help each other. 00:21:42.267 --> 00:21:44.487 So those are some things that I was thinking about. 00:21:44.803 --> 00:21:47.533 Alison: I think, uh, it's, I haven't named it officially as one of my 00:21:47.533 --> 00:21:50.893 words, so maybe we'll tie this into the theme bucket, and it goes along with 00:21:50.893 --> 00:21:54.703 that is the notion of sustainability. 00:21:54.980 --> 00:21:59.180 We had a lot of high, high peaks and low, low valleys last year, and the highs feel 00:21:59.180 --> 00:22:03.545 great, but man, the psychic damage that we collectively took on those valleys, And 00:22:03.805 --> 00:22:09.052 I just, you know, I can't help but wonder if there is a way to, sustain so that way 00:22:09.052 --> 00:22:16.585 we can just keep going for longer instead of getting so caught up in all of this. 00:22:16.585 --> 00:22:20.455 And I agree with you, like we have a business, we have to give ourselves to 00:22:20.455 --> 00:22:24.415 it and, and work to make it flourish and make it exactly what we want it to be and 00:22:24.415 --> 00:22:26.995 invite in exactly what we're yearning for. 00:22:27.280 --> 00:22:31.870 But we have to find that balance too and say, okay, like I, I'm now 00:22:31.870 --> 00:22:33.880 grinding, you know, and that's not good. 00:22:33.885 --> 00:22:36.250 Like, metal on metals is not gonna get us anywhere. 00:22:36.730 --> 00:22:38.680 Uh, so now I need to, I need to rest. 00:22:38.680 --> 00:22:43.658 And I think one of the things that I learned more so in past, past year 00:22:43.663 --> 00:22:47.408 than any other year before is this notion that like, we as humans don't 00:22:47.413 --> 00:22:49.688 have to earn our rest or our fun. 00:22:50.783 --> 00:22:55.523 And I think that there are so many people out there apologetic about peace, 00:22:55.553 --> 00:22:59.897 apologetic about joy, and I just, I don't wanna do that anymore, you guys. 00:23:00.317 --> 00:23:07.120 I wanna like a little toddler just running unabashedly into the fun and 00:23:07.120 --> 00:23:09.780 then taking a nap and not apologizing. 00:23:10.355 --> 00:23:10.915 Matt: Right. 00:23:11.120 --> 00:23:12.730 Alison: for either of those two 00:23:13.105 --> 00:23:13.595 Matt: Yeah. 00:23:13.840 --> 00:23:19.210 Alison: Um, so I think, I think magic coupled with sustain sustainable 00:23:19.210 --> 00:23:23.530 sustainability, something around that notion will be, will be a theme for 00:23:23.755 --> 00:23:24.175 Matt: Magic. 00:23:24.175 --> 00:23:24.985 Sustainability. 00:23:25.045 --> 00:23:28.615 And I'll have one more, which I think will lead us to our next topic. 00:23:28.705 --> 00:23:33.974 Uh, it was, it was one of my, my goals last year, to build 00:23:33.974 --> 00:23:36.014 a community or find community. 00:23:36.044 --> 00:23:36.374 Right? 00:23:36.626 --> 00:23:40.316 Because I felt like I was losing one in some ways. 00:23:40.547 --> 00:23:41.807 And I wanted a new one. 00:23:41.837 --> 00:23:42.707 I wanted my own. 00:23:42.737 --> 00:23:43.757 I wanted one closer. 00:23:43.757 --> 00:23:46.420 And, so that is a big word for me this year. 00:23:46.420 --> 00:23:47.050 Community. 00:23:47.290 --> 00:23:50.390 And I think at the very start of this year, we just kind 00:23:50.390 --> 00:23:52.864 of like sounded the call. 00:23:52.864 --> 00:23:53.584 Alison: Nerd Horn. 00:23:54.836 --> 00:23:58.799 Matt: Okay, that sounds weird. 00:24:00.419 --> 00:24:01.949 What does the nerd horn sound like? 00:24:09.599 --> 00:24:09.989 Or this. 00:24:12.691 --> 00:24:15.751 Is that the nerd horn or maybe is it both at the same time? 00:24:15.931 --> 00:24:17.191 I don't know the nerd. 00:24:17.221 --> 00:24:18.811 We, we sounded the nerd horn. 00:24:18.811 --> 00:24:19.711 I'm gonna go with that. 00:24:20.041 --> 00:24:21.661 I'm gonna "yes and" your nerd horn. 00:24:21.961 --> 00:24:27.051 And I'm gonna say we sounded it and people came and we went from like 00:24:27.051 --> 00:24:33.444 zero to 60 for our Discord, which it's just such a fun place to be. 00:24:33.444 --> 00:24:37.434 Like I, I do actually have to fight myself. 00:24:37.434 --> 00:24:40.524 I need to kind of relax a little bit when I spend too much time in there. 00:24:40.524 --> 00:24:45.354 Cause I wanna just hang out with people and talk about nerdy things like 00:24:45.354 --> 00:24:50.944 TV and books and everybody it is so interesting, they have such interesting 00:24:50.949 --> 00:24:53.334 things to say and it's really fun. 00:24:53.334 --> 00:25:00.533 So, um, this is a, an unapologetic, nerd horn toot. 00:25:03.020 --> 00:25:04.890 Alison: Oh, absolutely not. 00:25:10.070 --> 00:25:12.340 Matt: Oh, whoops. 00:25:12.380 --> 00:25:13.600 Alison: I hate that so 00:25:13.850 --> 00:25:17.900 Matt: Yeah, that's, that's, a, that's a, not even a working title. 00:25:17.905 --> 00:25:20.360 That's a not happening title. 00:25:20.600 --> 00:25:21.560 Anyway, so 00:25:21.627 --> 00:25:26.597 I'm saying right now, however, that we have a hopping discord, which I'm 00:25:26.597 --> 00:25:30.977 gonna pump that up because it's so fun and it is, um, full of people 00:25:31.007 --> 00:25:32.447 that we both know and don't know. 00:25:32.717 --> 00:25:33.857 And that's what I want. 00:25:33.857 --> 00:25:35.027 I want that this year. 00:25:35.027 --> 00:25:43.062 I want to meet new people and, and hang out with older friends and learn 00:25:43.062 --> 00:25:47.082 new things about, like already in this one week that we've been at Discord, 00:25:47.082 --> 00:25:50.532 I learned so much about all these people that I've known for years. 00:25:50.712 --> 00:25:52.302 I'm like, you do what for a living? 00:25:52.572 --> 00:25:53.382 What the hell? 00:25:53.472 --> 00:25:53.892 What? 00:25:54.312 --> 00:25:55.332 So I love that. 00:25:55.752 --> 00:25:56.262 I love it. 00:25:56.442 --> 00:25:58.992 And that's my word. 00:25:59.622 --> 00:26:00.312 Word. 00:26:00.527 --> 00:26:00.737 Alison: Yep. 00:26:00.767 --> 00:26:04.487 We love, well, and, I wanna toot our own nerd horn for a second. 00:26:09.838 --> 00:26:10.078 Matt: Okay. 00:26:10.283 --> 00:26:11.473 Alison: Oh no. 00:26:12.448 --> 00:26:12.808 Matt: Yeah. 00:26:13.498 --> 00:26:13.658 Oh, yes. 00:26:15.823 --> 00:26:19.533 Alison: You know, we, give ourselves a lot of shit for the thing. 00:26:19.593 --> 00:26:21.963 Again, that place of lack, the things that we don't get done. 00:26:21.963 --> 00:26:26.743 And I think that we are especially prone to do it as people with ADHD 00:26:26.763 --> 00:26:32.253 because the universe has told us for so long, you're lazy, you're unmotivated. 00:26:32.253 --> 00:26:35.913 Like all of these things that now that we are evolved beings who know that it's 00:26:35.913 --> 00:26:39.873 not that we're lazy or unmotivated, our brain is literally working differently. 00:26:40.383 --> 00:26:43.593 And I don't like the overuse of literally, but we have to use it. 00:26:43.593 --> 00:26:44.073 There it is. 00:26:44.283 --> 00:26:45.833 We are spicy mofos. 00:26:45.833 --> 00:26:46.073 Okay. 00:26:46.653 --> 00:26:50.253 So I wanna focus more on the things that we get done in instead of the things 00:26:50.253 --> 00:26:51.933 that we don't in that very same spirit. 00:26:52.113 --> 00:26:55.383 And I love that we just came out of the gate swinging this year. 00:26:55.413 --> 00:26:56.283 We were like, you know what? 00:26:56.288 --> 00:27:00.483 It's time we are, we are ready for our Nerd Herd or our Revenge of Nerds, 00:27:00.483 --> 00:27:03.223 or the Nerd Alert or all of these different, we're workshopping it 00:27:03.243 --> 00:27:04.683 Matt: We're working, we're working on it. 00:27:04.837 --> 00:27:05.047 Alison: Okay. 00:27:05.417 --> 00:27:08.537 Whatever we're gonna be called collectively, we just did it. 00:27:08.630 --> 00:27:11.870 And we've stopped worrying about if it was ready or if it was good 00:27:11.870 --> 00:27:13.370 enough or if it was organized. 00:27:13.640 --> 00:27:18.080 And in fact, I think that's been part of the delight of the first week of it 00:27:18.290 --> 00:27:22.970 has been giving the community some, some stakes in it, some level of ownership. 00:27:22.970 --> 00:27:26.480 Some I don't want them to do the work for us, but I do wanna know. 00:27:27.140 --> 00:27:29.870 Truly, what kind of topics do you like? 00:27:29.870 --> 00:27:31.100 What do you wanna see here? 00:27:31.100 --> 00:27:36.170 What's, what's your definition of a thriving really tremendously fun community 00:27:36.170 --> 00:27:37.520 and they're giving it to us, man. 00:27:37.760 --> 00:27:41.270 I set up a channel called Suggestion Box, and I instantly, I didn't even 00:27:41.275 --> 00:27:42.740 have to tell people to go fill it. 00:27:42.740 --> 00:27:46.190 They were, they were in there with their ideas and ready. 00:27:46.220 --> 00:27:48.350 And then every new channel that I set up, somebody has 00:27:48.350 --> 00:27:49.610 something to contribute to it. 00:27:49.610 --> 00:27:53.420 And I just think it's so lovely to find community was one of my core 00:27:53.420 --> 00:27:56.720 values that came out in the core values exercise that I did last year. 00:27:57.410 --> 00:28:01.637 And so to watch it play out IRL man, it's so fun. 00:28:01.967 --> 00:28:02.837 I love it so much. 00:28:02.837 --> 00:28:06.977 So thank you guys for being a part of it and keep, keep flowing in. 00:28:07.007 --> 00:28:08.717 We, we, we, we want more. 00:28:08.952 --> 00:28:10.572 Matt: More, more. 00:28:10.782 --> 00:28:15.432 And, and I'm gonna, I'm gonna say thank you, Alison, because I think that a big 00:28:15.432 --> 00:28:24.492 part of this, this new confidence and this new, we just gotta do it for me, in last 00:28:24.492 --> 00:28:29.622 year, which was not my favorite year of my life, uh, there were some great things and 00:28:29.622 --> 00:28:35.412 some okay things, but this podcast was by far one of the best things of 2022 for me. 00:28:35.742 --> 00:28:39.732 It's the example of the thing that we just do because we wanted to do, 00:28:39.732 --> 00:28:41.322 and we have things to talk about. 00:28:41.322 --> 00:28:46.752 And, and so yeah, that's, this podcast kind of is, gave me the 00:28:46.752 --> 00:28:51.882 confidence to say, okay, let's go. 00:28:52.071 --> 00:28:52.491 So, yay. 00:28:52.521 --> 00:28:53.031 Good job. 00:28:53.363 --> 00:28:54.173 I'm shaking your hand. 00:28:54.353 --> 00:28:55.223 Shake, shake, shake. 00:28:55.577 --> 00:28:55.847 Yeah. 00:28:55.847 --> 00:28:57.077 What else, what else we got? 00:28:57.082 --> 00:29:00.707 I mean, that's a pretty good, that's a pretty good intro to, to the year. 00:29:00.707 --> 00:29:01.397 What else you got? 00:29:02.522 --> 00:29:05.642 Alison: I know that the New Year for a lot of people always brings this, like, 00:29:05.762 --> 00:29:08.012 this hope and this renewed optimism. 00:29:08.012 --> 00:29:11.192 You know, and I know that we've all made jokes, especially since 00:29:11.192 --> 00:29:13.472 2020 of like, nobody say anything. 00:29:13.472 --> 00:29:14.402 We're whispering. 00:29:14.772 --> 00:29:17.892 We're, we're not being loud, we're not saying things like, this is our year. 00:29:18.852 --> 00:29:19.902 And I, I get that. 00:29:19.902 --> 00:29:21.622 I get, I get why we're all scared. 00:29:21.622 --> 00:29:21.882 Matt: Yeah. 00:29:21.882 --> 00:29:23.412 Alison: Why we're all hesitant to do that. 00:29:23.592 --> 00:29:26.502 And, and the other thing that I now get is that there's nothing magical 00:29:26.502 --> 00:29:31.332 about the first day or the first week or the, like, we can, we can turn over. 00:29:31.932 --> 00:29:32.592 Clean slate. 00:29:32.622 --> 00:29:34.572 Any, any old ding dang time we want. 00:29:34.807 --> 00:29:36.037 Matt: Yes, exactly. 00:29:36.157 --> 00:29:37.027 That's the thing. 00:29:37.327 --> 00:29:38.797 That is exactly the thing. 00:29:38.836 --> 00:29:43.486 Alison: But I also won't, I won't stop myself or anybody else from feeling some 00:29:43.491 --> 00:29:48.856 renewed sense of optimism, whether it's driven by the calendar or just the vibe. 00:29:49.266 --> 00:29:54.556 Um, and so, so far, so far, 2023, you passing the vibe check. 00:29:54.731 --> 00:29:56.201 Matt: Here's, yes. 00:29:56.771 --> 00:29:57.881 Here's the thing. 00:29:58.391 --> 00:30:02.621 I feel like the last few years, a couple of them, maybe three 00:30:03.341 --> 00:30:06.371 things have happened to us more. 00:30:07.216 --> 00:30:07.486 Alison: Mm-hmm. 00:30:07.841 --> 00:30:13.580 Matt: Some bad luck, some sad, experiences, some pandemics, right? 00:30:13.580 --> 00:30:22.620 Like things have been happening to us that add to that the stress of moving forward. 00:30:22.920 --> 00:30:27.660 And I think maybe the difference that I feel this year, at the beginning 00:30:27.665 --> 00:30:31.650 of this year, that I didn't really feel as much last year, uh, that I 00:30:31.655 --> 00:30:34.170 almost haven't felt in since 2020. 00:30:35.240 --> 00:30:35.910 Oh, the irony. 00:30:35.910 --> 00:30:40.140 But like, look at all the stuff I learned about ADHD just last year. 00:30:40.380 --> 00:30:45.000 Like more in one year than I have in 50 years easily. 00:30:45.090 --> 00:30:47.040 And, and what did I learn? 00:30:47.207 --> 00:30:47.927 My brain is different. 00:30:47.927 --> 00:30:48.917 It's going to act different. 00:30:48.917 --> 00:30:50.237 It's going to be different. 00:30:50.597 --> 00:30:51.857 I have the choice. 00:30:51.857 --> 00:30:54.047 I have choices, right? 00:30:54.197 --> 00:30:58.487 I, there's some things I can't change, but I certainly can make choices. 00:30:58.647 --> 00:31:01.527 How do I learn something now that I have this information in my brain? 00:31:01.707 --> 00:31:05.607 How do I, how do I learn it in a way that I can learn it, right? 00:31:05.607 --> 00:31:11.517 How do I overcome the difficulty of, of this or distraction or focus or whatever. 00:31:11.727 --> 00:31:17.427 So what if we just say, Bring it on, whatever it could be. 00:31:17.477 --> 00:31:19.097 Let's not let it distract this. 00:31:19.097 --> 00:31:25.864 Like we can, we can still hold little gems of, of things like this podcast 00:31:25.864 --> 00:31:32.488 or, or our community burgeoning, or friendship or, or playing D&D 00:31:32.508 --> 00:31:34.704 together in person or blank, blank. 00:31:34.704 --> 00:31:36.024 All the wonderful things. 00:31:36.029 --> 00:31:39.534 Like, that's, that's a word in itself. 00:31:39.534 --> 00:31:43.649 Just the the hopefulness, the but, but more than hopefulness. 00:31:43.654 --> 00:31:46.139 It's kind of like don't take your eyes off the prize. 00:31:46.389 --> 00:31:47.319 So you've got these words. 00:31:47.319 --> 00:31:48.129 I've got themes. 00:31:48.459 --> 00:31:53.259 Don't take our eyes off of those prizes because they're prizes 00:31:53.264 --> 00:31:54.279 that we're giving each other. 00:31:54.459 --> 00:31:54.669 Wow. 00:31:54.674 --> 00:31:56.199 I'm sounding woohoo right now. 00:31:56.529 --> 00:31:56.799 Love it. 00:31:57.224 --> 00:31:58.424 Alison: You are so woo. 00:31:58.484 --> 00:31:58.664 I 00:31:58.689 --> 00:31:59.109 Matt: woo. 00:31:59.249 --> 00:31:59.669 woo. 00:31:59.669 --> 00:32:00.559 Alison: I will leave you with my parting thought 00:32:00.579 --> 00:32:01.189 Matt: Please. 00:32:02.324 --> 00:32:05.054 Alison: This was, this was a thought that I had at some, and I don't remember 00:32:05.054 --> 00:32:08.744 exactly where in the year, but when, when I, when things started to turn around 00:32:08.744 --> 00:32:12.434 and change for me, and I started to feel more in control of myself, my emotions, 00:32:12.434 --> 00:32:16.874 my environment, beginning to understand that exactly what you just said, like, 00:32:16.874 --> 00:32:18.194 I can't control the ocean, right? 00:32:18.194 --> 00:32:19.364 Like, ocean's gotta ocean. 00:32:19.364 --> 00:32:22.124 It's gonna send me waves, it's gonna send me wind, and there's gonna be 00:32:22.124 --> 00:32:23.894 beautiful placid days as well, right? 00:32:24.464 --> 00:32:27.734 But when you turn the corner and realize that things don't happen 00:32:27.734 --> 00:32:30.134 to you, they happen for you. 00:32:30.621 --> 00:32:31.971 That's where all the magic is, man. 00:32:32.031 --> 00:32:33.621 Like, that's where the shit gets real. 00:32:34.041 --> 00:32:36.326 And I think that that's the like, collective 00:32:36.326 --> 00:32:36.416 Matt: Right. 00:32:36.416 --> 00:32:39.231 Alison: Collective corner that we've all turned is we're like, you know 00:32:39.231 --> 00:32:42.701 what stuff's gonna happen and we're gonna, we're gonna see what happens. 00:32:42.701 --> 00:32:44.891 We're gonna, we're gonna weather it together and we're gonna, you 00:32:44.891 --> 00:32:48.641 know, get out on the deck and pull out a deck of cards and, and play 00:32:48.641 --> 00:32:50.621 a game until the storm passes. 00:32:50.636 --> 00:32:51.246 Matt: Mm-hmm. 00:32:52.451 --> 00:32:55.451 Alison: So, you know that I think the, one of those themes that kept coming up 00:32:55.451 --> 00:32:59.708 in 2020 was, we're all in the same storm, but we're not all in the same boat. 00:33:00.118 --> 00:33:00.658 Matt: Uhhuh. 00:33:01.218 --> 00:33:04.128 Alison: That was, that's something that people said a lot that You 00:33:04.128 --> 00:33:07.488 know, some people are in yachts and others are in like little rickety 00:33:07.488 --> 00:33:10.758 canoes, you know, and we're all in a hurricane, which is very true. 00:33:10.961 --> 00:33:13.991 But damn, I'm proud of not only the boat I've built, but 00:33:14.021 --> 00:33:15.581 like who it's full of right 00:33:15.816 --> 00:33:18.036 Matt: Yeah, I am too, man. 00:33:18.036 --> 00:33:20.736 I am so proud of the, of the people in your boat. 00:33:21.456 --> 00:33:24.816 You just, man, you kicked a bunch of people out. 00:33:26.286 --> 00:33:29.346 You you murdered a lot of people. 00:33:29.501 --> 00:33:30.191 Alison: I did, 00:33:30.306 --> 00:33:31.356 Matt: You drowned. 00:33:31.451 --> 00:33:32.171 Alison: ruthless 00:33:32.406 --> 00:33:33.846 Matt: caused the drowning 00:33:33.851 --> 00:33:34.056 of 00:33:34.061 --> 00:33:34.296 many 00:33:34.781 --> 00:33:35.411 Alison: Wait a minute. 00:33:35.461 --> 00:33:38.701 Before this podcast gets taken out of context, I did not murder any people. 00:33:38.701 --> 00:33:39.811 I murdered friendships. 00:33:39.841 --> 00:33:45.451 Okay, Yeah. 00:33:45.451 --> 00:33:46.621 Let's let that get out. 00:33:46.621 --> 00:33:48.361 Alison Kendrick murdered people. 00:33:52.901 --> 00:33:56.261 Matt: That's the way we're gonna end in 2023, uh, in season two. 00:33:57.161 --> 00:33:57.701 Okay. 00:33:57.706 --> 00:33:58.421 We got weird. 00:33:58.781 --> 00:34:00.041 It's time to stop. 00:34:00.101 --> 00:34:02.001 Uh, I, I love you very much, Alison. 00:34:02.021 --> 00:34:03.341 I'm very excited to be back. 00:34:03.371 --> 00:34:04.481 I'm glad we are recording this. 00:34:05.186 --> 00:34:06.506 Uh, good job. 00:34:06.991 --> 00:34:08.251 Alison: I love you right back. 00:34:08.251 --> 00:34:10.651 Thanks for, thanks for letting me on your podcast, Matt. 00:34:12.216 --> 00:34:15.086 Matt: Thank you for, thank you for being on my podcast. 00:34:15.601 --> 00:34:17.251 Alison: Some, some threads have to carry. 00:34:17.516 --> 00:34:17.996 Matt: That's fine. 00:34:18.866 --> 00:34:20.466 Threads carry. 00:34:20.846 --> 00:34:21.626 Um, all right. 00:34:21.631 --> 00:34:22.616 Until next week.