This is day. 3230. You are protecting capacity.
I asked the question today. Why did that person make me so mad?
They did not really do anything egregious or irksome, but I was upset and seething after my interaction with them. What is going on? I thought
If you were like me, I have a few social gifts that I've learned to lean on over the years the problem. Is that social interaction? Where is me out causes me to want to retreat into solitude.
I've often thought that I was an introvert who was forced into being an extrovert against my will.
However, it occurred to me today that the reason this feeling of irritation when working with someone happens to me is not that I'm being forced into social interaction that I would rather avoid. The reason is that I'm protecting my capacity.
If your brain has learned that interactions with people frequently resulted in emotional work obligations frustration or cognitive exertion and may begin anticipating those costs.
You start avoiding meetings conversations phone calls social commitment. You also may just get downright mean when someone tries to add you to their list.
Not necessarily because you dislike the people involved because you already know how much energy the interaction might or will require.
This can become particularly noticeable during periods of sustained stress or burnout the distinction matters because ordinary social fatigue calls for boundaries and Recovery while persistent dread irritability or withdrawal that is unusual for you may deserve a lot closer attention.
What I think I learned from today is that I am at at or near my capacity and that is the real source of frustration and not some complete fatigue of working with others.
Please please whatever you do. Do not tell my wife that I'm admitting this.
But yes, I think I realized that I am now doing too much.