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Cold plunge thought here's an

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area where i'm not very good when it

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comes to fixing things around the house i'm just

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terrible terrible for some

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reason i just can't do it a washing

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machine broke this last week and it's actually

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been broken for a week and a half called around

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around to get some help ordered apart it turns

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out it was the total wrong part and the

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thing that's so frustrating is that it's

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not even that i can't fix the washing machine it's that the stress of this thing

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being broken and me not being able to fix it and not knowing how to and not

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knowing who to go to for help is,

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it's like this weight on my shoulders that I just have to deal with for however

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long that thing is broken.

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And this happens all the time. Every time there's something that's broken,

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this is just one of my major weaknesses.

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And it drives me crazy. and

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I feel like I'm a failure I feel

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like I can't do the kinds of

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things that I should be able to do and I'm

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really smart and I can do a lot of other really great things but this one area

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just always gets me and even when I like take my time do PQ reps have patience

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with myself get somebody to help me.

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I still am just not very good at it and

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I think I'm finally coming to the realization that it's okay that I'm not good

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at it and I just need to do things like call a handyman and have a handyman

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just come and fix all those things and I tell myself I can't do that because it's expensive,

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but when we bought a new washer and didn't have to worry about that anymore

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the weight off my my shoulders was incredible and it just felt so good.

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I don't know why I put those things off like I do and why I make it so hard

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for myself, but I'm going to try to be better.