Cold plunge thought here's an
area where i'm not very good when it
comes to fixing things around the house i'm just
terrible terrible for some
reason i just can't do it a washing
machine broke this last week and it's actually
been broken for a week and a half called around
around to get some help ordered apart it turns
out it was the total wrong part and the
thing that's so frustrating is that it's
not even that i can't fix the washing machine it's that the stress of this thing
being broken and me not being able to fix it and not knowing how to and not
knowing who to go to for help is,
it's like this weight on my shoulders that I just have to deal with for however
long that thing is broken.
And this happens all the time. Every time there's something that's broken,
this is just one of my major weaknesses.
And it drives me crazy. and
I feel like I'm a failure I feel
like I can't do the kinds of
things that I should be able to do and I'm
really smart and I can do a lot of other really great things but this one area
just always gets me and even when I like take my time do PQ reps have patience
with myself get somebody to help me.
I still am just not very good at it and
I think I'm finally coming to the realization that it's okay that I'm not good
at it and I just need to do things like call a handyman and have a handyman
just come and fix all those things and I tell myself I can't do that because it's expensive,
but when we bought a new washer and didn't have to worry about that anymore
the weight off my my shoulders was incredible and it just felt so good.
I don't know why I put those things off like I do and why I make it so hard
for myself, but I'm going to try to be better.