1 00:00:00,050 --> 00:00:01,519 So my name's Jason Janas. 2 00:00:01,537 --> 00:00:04,163 I'm going to be 53 this April. 3 00:00:04,173 --> 00:00:07,563 My near-death experience happened in 2020. 4 00:00:07,618 --> 00:00:08,248 I was Catholic. 5 00:00:08,748 --> 00:00:10,878 My whole life went through the sacraments, went 6 00:00:10,878 --> 00:00:12,698 through the whole thing. 7 00:00:12,756 --> 00:00:14,766 A firm believer in the Bible back then. 8 00:00:14,766 --> 00:00:18,036 A firm believer in heaven and hell, God and the 9 00:00:18,036 --> 00:00:19,556 devil and all of that. 10 00:00:19,674 --> 00:00:23,234 From a very early age going through the sacraments and 11 00:00:23,234 --> 00:00:25,424 going to church, I just felt like something wasn't 12 00:00:25,424 --> 00:00:26,501 right, something was wrong. 13 00:00:26,501 --> 00:00:27,864 It never sat right with me. 14 00:00:27,894 --> 00:00:29,874 I always felt like I wasn't good enough. 15 00:00:29,879 --> 00:00:32,000 I was like, why is God waiting up there just to 16 00:00:32,005 --> 00:00:34,160 send me to hell because I keep messing up. 17 00:00:34,410 --> 00:00:36,720 Reading the Bible, especially the Old Testament, there's 18 00:00:36,720 --> 00:00:37,740 nothing good in it, really. 19 00:00:37,740 --> 00:00:40,980 It's mean, it's vindictive, it's just, scary. 20 00:00:41,030 --> 00:00:42,930 And I'm like, I'm just not gonna go anymore. 21 00:00:42,930 --> 00:00:45,230 So as a young kid, I just quit going to church. 22 00:00:45,255 --> 00:00:46,485 I just saw no point in it. 23 00:00:46,545 --> 00:00:48,835 I'm like, if I'm gonna burn in hell, then, I 24 00:00:48,835 --> 00:00:49,915 guess that's where I go. 25 00:00:49,915 --> 00:00:50,335 I don't know. 26 00:00:50,335 --> 00:00:52,905 Then why did you even bring me down here was my questions. 27 00:00:52,955 --> 00:00:56,226 I grew up in a very abusive household, so I don't want 28 00:00:56,226 --> 00:00:58,296 to go into it too much, but it wasn't that great. 29 00:00:58,326 --> 00:01:01,366 So, I always think as things like that go down, it's like, 30 00:01:01,416 --> 00:01:02,586 why do you hate me so much? 31 00:01:02,596 --> 00:01:03,496 Why aren't you helping me? 32 00:01:03,496 --> 00:01:05,986 If you're all of this love and all of this, then why 33 00:01:05,986 --> 00:01:06,646 aren't you helping me? 34 00:01:06,646 --> 00:01:07,846 Why am I getting beat? 35 00:01:07,876 --> 00:01:11,166 Why am I having to protect my sister from this stuff? 36 00:01:11,216 --> 00:01:13,796 And so I quit having a relationship with God. 37 00:01:13,826 --> 00:01:17,636 So this is like 1978, probably 79. 38 00:01:17,726 --> 00:01:19,016 I was like eight or nine. 39 00:01:19,516 --> 00:01:21,646 So I quit going to church, quit having a relationship, 40 00:01:21,646 --> 00:01:22,396 quit talking to him. 41 00:01:22,396 --> 00:01:24,026 Never prayed, never did anything. 42 00:01:24,299 --> 00:01:28,359 So now, I kind of went through life as a very angry man, 43 00:01:28,409 --> 00:01:29,909 teenager and all that stuff, 44 00:01:29,909 --> 00:01:33,719 and still never prayed, never went to church, never 45 00:01:33,809 --> 00:01:34,949 had a relationship with him. 46 00:01:34,949 --> 00:01:37,709 Just kind of abandoned him and, and Jesus. 47 00:01:38,209 --> 00:01:39,469 So now we're gonna fast forward. 48 00:01:39,469 --> 00:01:41,877 Now it's April 2nd 2020. 49 00:01:42,377 --> 00:01:43,457 Pandemic starts. 50 00:01:43,957 --> 00:01:45,277 I was feeling kind of tired that day. 51 00:01:45,277 --> 00:01:47,557 I came home from work, sat down, started eating dinner. 52 00:01:47,737 --> 00:01:49,027 I started coughing up blood. 53 00:01:49,527 --> 00:01:51,597 It got real hard to breathe to the point of where it 54 00:01:51,597 --> 00:01:53,127 was almost nonexistent. 55 00:01:53,127 --> 00:01:55,662 And I had made a frantic phone call to someone cuz I 56 00:01:55,662 --> 00:01:56,802 didn't know what else to do. 57 00:01:57,302 --> 00:02:00,163 The next thing, I know, I wake up in, in the I C U, 58 00:02:00,193 --> 00:02:03,293 I've got a tube in my throat, my hands and feet 59 00:02:03,293 --> 00:02:04,343 are strapped to the bed. 60 00:02:04,553 --> 00:02:06,743 IV in my neck, stuff in my nose. 61 00:02:07,243 --> 00:02:09,613 Doctors and nurses, who you are, what's going on? 62 00:02:09,613 --> 00:02:10,273 And I'm like... 63 00:02:10,773 --> 00:02:15,453 but from the time I awoke, I had turned to the left, up in 64 00:02:15,453 --> 00:02:16,893 the left and I had a big room. 65 00:02:16,893 --> 00:02:18,003 My IC room was big. 66 00:02:18,003 --> 00:02:21,213 I mean, way off to the left was a nice, like waiting area. 67 00:02:21,243 --> 00:02:22,653 Lots of chairs and stuff like that. 68 00:02:22,653 --> 00:02:25,008 But up in the corner of there, was a tv. 69 00:02:25,233 --> 00:02:27,003 Someone was standing there, someone was there. 70 00:02:27,353 --> 00:02:28,103 As clear as day. 71 00:02:28,103 --> 00:02:30,023 I couldn't physically see it, but I could feel it. 72 00:02:30,473 --> 00:02:31,913 Like just breathing air. 73 00:02:32,413 --> 00:02:34,483 So I'm just staring at this.. 74 00:02:34,603 --> 00:02:35,473 at the tv. 75 00:02:35,803 --> 00:02:38,593 I couldn't talk, I had no idea what was going on. 76 00:02:38,730 --> 00:02:41,575 And I was in that ICU room for a month and that entire 77 00:02:41,575 --> 00:02:44,475 time, up on the left, that presence was there. 78 00:02:44,715 --> 00:02:47,125 Unmistakable, and I was just drawn to it. 79 00:02:47,125 --> 00:02:49,450 I just wanted to get as close as I could to it. 80 00:02:49,605 --> 00:02:50,935 And, it had never left. 81 00:02:50,950 --> 00:02:52,960 It never moved, it never did anything. 82 00:02:53,110 --> 00:02:54,700 It just stayed right there. 83 00:02:55,200 --> 00:02:58,600 So lo and behold, I get better, and at the end of the 84 00:02:58,605 --> 00:03:00,480 month I'm off the ventilator. 85 00:03:00,581 --> 00:03:02,805 The IVs out, can breathe on my own. 86 00:03:02,855 --> 00:03:04,965 They had stopped the blood flow. 87 00:03:04,965 --> 00:03:08,248 COVID had caused tumors to, to rupture in my lungs, 88 00:03:08,248 --> 00:03:10,708 so I was, I just basically drowned in my own blood. 89 00:03:11,098 --> 00:03:12,688 They pumped out 12 cups of blood. 90 00:03:13,188 --> 00:03:16,518 But the entire time, so I'm still staring at the tv. 91 00:03:16,938 --> 00:03:17,718 I'm lethargic. 92 00:03:17,718 --> 00:03:19,398 I lost 75 pounds. 93 00:03:19,467 --> 00:03:21,477 No one happened to be in the room at that time. 94 00:03:21,477 --> 00:03:24,167 It had to be, well, I'd say a spring day, 95 00:03:24,167 --> 00:03:26,047 so it was, maybe 4:30. 96 00:03:26,067 --> 00:03:28,227 Beautiful, beautiful, sunny day out. 97 00:03:28,727 --> 00:03:30,997 And I just cried out to God. 98 00:03:31,027 --> 00:03:32,887 I mean, I was, I was talking to the tv. 99 00:03:32,887 --> 00:03:35,677 I must have looked like I was nuts, but got on my elbows 100 00:03:35,677 --> 00:03:36,907 and I was trying to talk. 101 00:03:36,907 --> 00:03:38,887 I couldn't, so I was begging him not to die. 102 00:03:39,137 --> 00:03:39,857 Very emotional. 103 00:03:40,157 --> 00:03:42,543 I am sobbing uncontrollably. 104 00:03:42,833 --> 00:03:46,333 I mean, when you come that close to death and actually 105 00:03:46,567 --> 00:03:49,459 do, it puts your life into a big perspective. 106 00:03:49,479 --> 00:03:52,779 How insignificant and how quickly your life can change 107 00:03:52,779 --> 00:03:54,459 within a matter of minutes. 108 00:03:54,709 --> 00:03:57,234 From being okay to physically dying. 109 00:03:57,734 --> 00:03:58,574 So I called out to him. 110 00:03:58,664 --> 00:04:02,804 And now I hadn't called out to God in over 42 years. 111 00:04:03,304 --> 00:04:04,594 And I called out to him. 112 00:04:04,684 --> 00:04:05,674 Please don't let me die. 113 00:04:05,674 --> 00:04:07,744 Please, please don't let me die. 114 00:04:08,104 --> 00:04:09,514 Emotional, I'm crying. 115 00:04:09,814 --> 00:04:11,434 I'm sorry for abandoning you. 116 00:04:11,434 --> 00:04:13,534 I'm sorry for abandoning Jesus. 117 00:04:13,584 --> 00:04:14,574 Please forgive me. 118 00:04:14,574 --> 00:04:16,434 I love you both with all my heart. 119 00:04:16,530 --> 00:04:18,600 I said, please don't take my daughters away from me. 120 00:04:18,605 --> 00:04:20,940 Please let me see my kids, please. 121 00:04:21,190 --> 00:04:23,580 I love them with all my heart. 122 00:04:23,595 --> 00:04:25,248 And I kept going 123 00:04:25,248 --> 00:04:27,198 and there was somebody special in my life that I said, 124 00:04:27,198 --> 00:04:28,458 please don't take her from me. 125 00:04:28,458 --> 00:04:30,498 I wanna hold her hand, I wanna hug her. 126 00:04:30,498 --> 00:04:32,478 I want, I want a life with her. 127 00:04:32,978 --> 00:04:36,698 And it was in that moment that everything stopped. 128 00:04:37,198 --> 00:04:39,908 Now, if you can imagine, just the thought coming 129 00:04:39,908 --> 00:04:42,188 into your head about turning on a light switch. 130 00:04:42,688 --> 00:04:44,368 Before you could even get done with that. 131 00:04:44,428 --> 00:04:46,438 I could see everything around me. 132 00:04:46,468 --> 00:04:47,548 There was no more pain. 133 00:04:47,548 --> 00:04:48,468 I was out of my body. 134 00:04:48,798 --> 00:04:52,138 I could see the trees soul, the grasses soul, 135 00:04:52,158 --> 00:04:55,468 the colors that I was seeing did not exist. 136 00:04:55,528 --> 00:04:56,638 They simply don't exist. 137 00:04:56,638 --> 00:04:58,078 They were the most beautiful colors. 138 00:04:58,438 --> 00:05:01,258 I could see every blade of grass moving independently. 139 00:05:01,258 --> 00:05:04,639 Like I could see the veins in the grass. 140 00:05:04,669 --> 00:05:06,869 I could see everything around the ICU room 141 00:05:07,119 --> 00:05:08,389 instantly behind me. 142 00:05:08,889 --> 00:05:10,029 And that all took place 143 00:05:10,029 --> 00:05:13,914 before you could think of turning on the light switch. 144 00:05:13,914 --> 00:05:15,324 That's how quickly it happened. 145 00:05:15,324 --> 00:05:17,454 So when I describe that moment to you, that's 146 00:05:17,454 --> 00:05:18,504 how quickly it happened. 147 00:05:19,004 --> 00:05:22,114 And I, as I'm out of my body and I'm still 148 00:05:22,114 --> 00:05:23,014 staring at the tv, 149 00:05:23,014 --> 00:05:23,914 I'm young again. 150 00:05:24,174 --> 00:05:28,224 I mean, I felt like I was maybe 18, 20, 21 years 151 00:05:28,229 --> 00:05:30,134 old and invigorated, 152 00:05:30,134 --> 00:05:33,214 like somebody had plugged me into the universe's 153 00:05:33,214 --> 00:05:36,392 battery and I I was like, no pain existed. 154 00:05:36,662 --> 00:05:40,592 And I was enveloped in this unconditional love and light. 155 00:05:41,092 --> 00:05:43,582 And when I say unconditional, there's simply no words 156 00:05:43,582 --> 00:05:45,832 to describe the love that flowed through me. 157 00:05:45,832 --> 00:05:47,992 It was like being placed in the middle of a 158 00:05:47,992 --> 00:05:50,812 deep river, sort of the water moving around you. 159 00:05:50,992 --> 00:05:54,022 This water, this love flowed through every 160 00:05:54,022 --> 00:05:55,222 part of my being. 161 00:05:55,722 --> 00:05:56,412 Unconditionally. 162 00:05:56,412 --> 00:05:57,822 It was as warm as the sun. 163 00:05:58,132 --> 00:06:02,862 And in that moment I spoke and I, well, it was a 164 00:06:02,862 --> 00:06:04,932 thought and I said, I'm home. 165 00:06:05,432 --> 00:06:08,847 And a place it seemed so familiar, I was 166 00:06:08,847 --> 00:06:11,097 there before many, many times and I knew it. 167 00:06:11,097 --> 00:06:12,087 I, I said, I'm home. 168 00:06:12,587 --> 00:06:16,652 And as I'm looking at the, at the grass and the trees 169 00:06:16,652 --> 00:06:19,142 and, and everything I said, again, it was a thought. 170 00:06:19,142 --> 00:06:20,642 I said, what a beautiful day to die. 171 00:06:20,892 --> 00:06:23,862 Like once again that I, that I had done it before. 172 00:06:24,362 --> 00:06:25,892 And it was all so familiar. 173 00:06:25,897 --> 00:06:26,672 It was home. 174 00:06:27,062 --> 00:06:31,382 I was literally home and I was just there above 175 00:06:31,382 --> 00:06:32,732 my body, just enjoying 176 00:06:32,732 --> 00:06:33,782 and I know who was in front of me. 177 00:06:33,782 --> 00:06:34,892 It was father, it was God. 178 00:06:35,392 --> 00:06:37,222 I was embraced. 179 00:06:37,432 --> 00:06:41,327 As he was holding me, I began to feel unworthy 180 00:06:41,827 --> 00:06:43,987 and because of the, the choices that I 181 00:06:43,987 --> 00:06:45,067 had made in my life 182 00:06:45,067 --> 00:06:47,737 and the things that I've said and done to, to other 183 00:06:47,737 --> 00:06:49,447 people, and, all of that. 184 00:06:49,452 --> 00:06:51,337 I wasn't really a, a nice person. 185 00:06:51,451 --> 00:06:55,191 I felt guilty and ashamed that I shouldn't have been there. 186 00:06:55,691 --> 00:06:58,691 And the more unworthy I felt, the more love 187 00:06:58,691 --> 00:06:59,831 that was given to me. 188 00:06:59,911 --> 00:07:02,541 And the more, the more ashamed I felt, 189 00:07:02,541 --> 00:07:03,861 the more love he gave me. 190 00:07:04,361 --> 00:07:06,881 And it just, I was just embraced and held 191 00:07:07,001 --> 00:07:08,351 in, in God's arms. 192 00:07:08,351 --> 00:07:10,201 And I was like, okay. 193 00:07:10,241 --> 00:07:12,971 I knew then that I, that I had done nothing wrong. 194 00:07:13,451 --> 00:07:13,841 Nothing. 195 00:07:14,341 --> 00:07:15,811 And in that moment then, then 196 00:07:15,811 --> 00:07:16,771 Jesus showed up. 197 00:07:16,771 --> 00:07:19,831 So I'm now, I was, my stare was to the left and then it 198 00:07:19,861 --> 00:07:22,711 went just straight in front of me, like 12 o'clock. 199 00:07:23,131 --> 00:07:25,381 And I felt his presence show up. 200 00:07:25,881 --> 00:07:27,621 And it was more love. 201 00:07:27,791 --> 00:07:31,271 There was so much love and the only way to describe it in a 202 00:07:31,271 --> 00:07:33,131 human form would be stifling. 203 00:07:33,401 --> 00:07:35,471 Like somebody cover up your mouth and cover up your nose. 204 00:07:35,471 --> 00:07:35,711 Right. 205 00:07:35,711 --> 00:07:40,448 It was so much love, and I was just engulfed and embraced 206 00:07:40,448 --> 00:07:42,518 in unconditional love. 207 00:07:42,668 --> 00:07:46,028 And it was simply the most profound and beautiful 208 00:07:46,033 --> 00:07:50,221 experience I had ever experienced here because, 209 00:07:50,631 --> 00:07:55,830 my NDE was more of a even though I did die, that's 210 00:07:55,830 --> 00:07:57,060 not when my NDE occurred. 211 00:07:57,090 --> 00:07:59,593 Mine was more like a oh, what do you want to call it? 212 00:07:59,593 --> 00:08:00,703 Divine intervention. 213 00:08:01,003 --> 00:08:03,233 Like I was calling out to God, I was like, 214 00:08:03,263 --> 00:08:05,603 please God, please, please don't let me die. 215 00:08:05,903 --> 00:08:07,193 And he answered the door. 216 00:08:07,443 --> 00:08:10,563 He answered the door and let me come home 217 00:08:10,953 --> 00:08:11,793 and said, I'm here. 218 00:08:11,853 --> 00:08:12,843 I am, I'm here. 219 00:08:13,343 --> 00:08:16,303 And that moment has profoundly changed my life. 220 00:08:16,620 --> 00:08:17,940 I don't even want to say it, but I'm gonna say it. 221 00:08:17,987 --> 00:08:21,269 I left Christianity because everything I thought that 222 00:08:21,269 --> 00:08:24,449 Christianity was, was proven wrong in that moment. 223 00:08:24,869 --> 00:08:26,879 God doesn't care about your religion, religion 224 00:08:26,884 --> 00:08:31,499 to God and to, let's say heaven or home or Jesus is 225 00:08:31,589 --> 00:08:32,879 meaningless and pointless. 226 00:08:32,879 --> 00:08:33,599 He doesn't care. 227 00:08:33,629 --> 00:08:35,359 God wants a relationship with you. 228 00:08:35,579 --> 00:08:36,239 Talk to him. 229 00:08:36,659 --> 00:08:38,349 He doesn't need you on your hands and knees praying. 230 00:08:38,369 --> 00:08:41,434 He doesn't need you doing anything other than having 231 00:08:41,434 --> 00:08:43,774 a simple conversation like you and I are right now. 232 00:08:44,104 --> 00:08:44,554 That's it. 233 00:08:44,854 --> 00:08:45,994 That's all that matters to him. 234 00:08:46,015 --> 00:08:47,272 That there is no right or wrong. 235 00:08:47,272 --> 00:08:48,232 There is no good or bad. 236 00:08:48,232 --> 00:08:49,402 This is simply a dream. 237 00:08:49,592 --> 00:08:50,552 This is the matrix. 238 00:08:50,552 --> 00:08:53,582 We chose our life, we chose our parents. 239 00:08:53,587 --> 00:08:55,862 We chose the things that we want to accomplish 240 00:08:55,892 --> 00:08:57,892 in this, on this earth. 241 00:08:57,892 --> 00:09:00,022 Whether it's being married, having children, getting 242 00:09:00,027 --> 00:09:02,332 a house, getting a college education, whatever. 243 00:09:02,682 --> 00:09:04,542 Now we said, well, where does free will fit in? 244 00:09:04,872 --> 00:09:07,302 Free will fits in on how you want to get to those 245 00:09:07,302 --> 00:09:08,412 points in your life. 246 00:09:08,632 --> 00:09:10,782 When you wanna go off do you wanna do it right away 247 00:09:10,782 --> 00:09:12,372 and be the good little boy and girl and go there? 248 00:09:12,377 --> 00:09:14,622 Or do you wanna go for a half a month and then, 249 00:09:14,672 --> 00:09:15,812 zig-zag back and forth. 250 00:09:15,812 --> 00:09:18,182 But eventually you're gonna get your degree, eventually 251 00:09:18,182 --> 00:09:18,932 you're gonna get married. 252 00:09:18,932 --> 00:09:20,312 Eventually you're gonna buy the house, right? 253 00:09:20,342 --> 00:09:22,592 So how you get there, that's your choice. 254 00:09:22,622 --> 00:09:25,172 How you interact with everybody, it's your choice. 255 00:09:25,452 --> 00:09:27,443 And you've just, you've created your life. 256 00:09:27,443 --> 00:09:29,183 So when somebody says, no, it's God's will, 257 00:09:29,183 --> 00:09:30,053 it's not God's will. 258 00:09:30,553 --> 00:09:32,233 He's just allowing you to live your life 259 00:09:32,233 --> 00:09:33,253 the way you chose it. 260 00:09:33,703 --> 00:09:36,233 And when I was shown that, when I was given 261 00:09:36,233 --> 00:09:39,413 that information, it just proved everything that I 262 00:09:39,413 --> 00:09:41,913 ever thought to believe in this world wrong. 263 00:09:42,393 --> 00:09:44,313 It was like, I did nothing wrong. 264 00:09:44,623 --> 00:09:47,233 When I came back, it was like, I want you to talk about me. 265 00:09:47,233 --> 00:09:51,583 I want you to let everybody know that I'm here, that 266 00:09:51,588 --> 00:09:53,983 you're all okay, that you are loved, you are 267 00:09:53,983 --> 00:09:55,153 seen, you are heard. 268 00:09:55,393 --> 00:09:56,383 I hear all of you. 269 00:09:56,763 --> 00:09:58,983 You are not alone ever in your life. 270 00:09:58,983 --> 00:10:01,713 No matter what you are going through, how horrific 271 00:10:01,713 --> 00:10:04,583 or how happy or whatever, father is going through 272 00:10:04,583 --> 00:10:05,723 it right there with you. 273 00:10:06,053 --> 00:10:07,543 You are not ever alone. 274 00:10:08,220 --> 00:10:11,083 And that, that has become so comforting to me. 275 00:10:11,333 --> 00:10:14,633 That I have begun and I truly have begun to live 276 00:10:14,638 --> 00:10:17,183 without fear, because fear does not exist. 277 00:10:17,513 --> 00:10:18,803 You create the fear. 278 00:10:18,993 --> 00:10:21,903 If you wanna live in whatever accident happened to you or 279 00:10:21,903 --> 00:10:23,838 whatever, you went through, and you wanna live in that 280 00:10:23,838 --> 00:10:26,088 fear and become depressed and all, that's your choice. 281 00:10:26,088 --> 00:10:27,048 That's your free will. 282 00:10:27,168 --> 00:10:28,188 But it doesn't exist. 283 00:10:28,188 --> 00:10:29,088 It's only up here. 284 00:10:29,358 --> 00:10:32,643 God is love and anything that is not of that pushes you 285 00:10:32,643 --> 00:10:33,843 further away from Father. 286 00:10:33,843 --> 00:10:35,583 And he's gonna allow that to happen because 287 00:10:35,583 --> 00:10:36,423 it's your free will. 288 00:10:36,923 --> 00:10:41,443 So I've truly begun to live my life the way 289 00:10:41,443 --> 00:10:42,853 it's meant to to be. 290 00:10:42,913 --> 00:10:44,413 He wants you to live your life. 291 00:10:44,418 --> 00:10:45,873 Live it, okay? 292 00:10:46,373 --> 00:10:47,903 Tomorrow is not guaranteed. 293 00:10:48,403 --> 00:10:50,773 So, you will have regrets. 294 00:10:51,273 --> 00:10:52,113 And that's on you. 295 00:10:52,113 --> 00:10:53,103 That's not on Father. 296 00:10:53,103 --> 00:10:54,033 That's not on God. 297 00:10:54,533 --> 00:10:55,433 Live your life. 298 00:10:55,523 --> 00:10:56,513 Don't live it out of fear. 299 00:10:56,513 --> 00:10:57,983 If you want to go do something, go do it. 300 00:10:58,253 --> 00:10:59,873 No right or wrong, no good or bad. 301 00:11:00,123 --> 00:11:02,283 And now I've begun to live my life that way, and I 302 00:11:02,288 --> 00:11:06,518 realize that I have no longer become materialistic. 303 00:11:06,518 --> 00:11:08,528 I have no love of money, no need of it. 304 00:11:08,621 --> 00:11:10,111 Anything materialistic, I really don't 305 00:11:10,111 --> 00:11:11,011 care about anymore. 306 00:11:11,011 --> 00:11:13,711 I sold most of my stuff in my house or my apartment. 307 00:11:14,071 --> 00:11:15,121 I just don't want it. 308 00:11:15,121 --> 00:11:16,231 I have no need for it. 309 00:11:16,261 --> 00:11:19,951 I live very, very simply because as I said earlier, 310 00:11:20,041 --> 00:11:21,331 that none of this is real. 311 00:11:21,331 --> 00:11:22,531 This is the matrix. 312 00:11:22,876 --> 00:11:23,776 This is the dream. 313 00:11:23,986 --> 00:11:27,846 We are, we are all still at home with God, with 314 00:11:27,846 --> 00:11:28,956 Father, with Jesus. 315 00:11:28,956 --> 00:11:32,226 This is simply an avatar that we're in, that your 316 00:11:32,226 --> 00:11:35,946 parents created and you now inhabit this avatar. 317 00:11:36,336 --> 00:11:40,596 And I had no love of my body at all when I left it, none. 318 00:11:40,626 --> 00:11:42,216 I had, didn't care about it. 319 00:11:42,506 --> 00:11:45,406 I didn't care about anything because at that moment, 320 00:11:45,406 --> 00:11:48,786 like I said, when everything happened to me, I knew also 321 00:11:48,786 --> 00:11:51,786 that everything was exactly what was supposed to be 322 00:11:51,786 --> 00:11:53,466 taking place in this world. 323 00:11:53,836 --> 00:11:55,776 Where my children, where were my grandchildren were, 324 00:11:55,936 --> 00:11:57,616 where Covid was taking place. 325 00:11:57,616 --> 00:12:00,066 Everything that was going on was meant to be 326 00:12:00,066 --> 00:12:01,536 going on at that moment. 327 00:12:01,536 --> 00:12:04,496 We were all right where we needed to be, and it was 328 00:12:04,501 --> 00:12:05,636 such a comforting thought. 329 00:12:05,686 --> 00:12:07,556 And I live my life now. 330 00:12:07,796 --> 00:12:09,326 There's nothing to get me angry. 331 00:12:09,326 --> 00:12:12,026 There's nothing to get me upset or worry about because, 332 00:12:12,286 --> 00:12:14,686 when you wake up and realize that it's just a 333 00:12:14,686 --> 00:12:18,456 dream, it's just easy to get along in life because 334 00:12:18,456 --> 00:12:20,736 when you're going to work that none of this is real. 335 00:12:20,766 --> 00:12:23,866 This is just, just a game. 336 00:12:23,916 --> 00:12:27,066 And it's just, I've learned to play the game now, so, 337 00:12:27,566 --> 00:12:29,776 when I talk about my NDE, the biggest thing I want 338 00:12:29,776 --> 00:12:33,281 people to come away with is that one, you're never alone. 339 00:12:33,781 --> 00:12:35,791 Don't for one minute think that you are alone just 340 00:12:35,791 --> 00:12:37,891 because you're alone in the house or, or whatever. 341 00:12:38,081 --> 00:12:40,571 You are surrounded by unconditional love, 342 00:12:40,631 --> 00:12:41,561 and you are love. 343 00:12:41,651 --> 00:12:42,401 You are love. 344 00:12:42,401 --> 00:12:43,901 You are light, and you are energy. 345 00:12:44,401 --> 00:12:45,391 That is all you are. 346 00:12:45,721 --> 00:12:48,481 You are created from God, therefore you are a God. 347 00:12:48,981 --> 00:12:51,951 So when Jesus said that in the Bible, in 348 00:12:51,956 --> 00:12:53,116 Proverbs, I do believe. 349 00:12:53,231 --> 00:12:56,731 And when Jesus said, I and the Father are one, that means 350 00:12:56,731 --> 00:12:57,901 you and the father are one. 351 00:12:57,901 --> 00:12:59,791 If you and the Father are one, what is Father? 352 00:13:00,121 --> 00:13:00,541 God. 353 00:13:00,811 --> 00:13:02,971 Well, God created a miniature God. 354 00:13:02,971 --> 00:13:04,711 You are not the God, but you are a God. 355 00:13:05,211 --> 00:13:10,651 So it's just an amazing realization that I've come to. 356 00:13:10,769 --> 00:13:12,839 I've had another out of body experience. 357 00:13:12,906 --> 00:13:14,526 Going on, it was last year. 358 00:13:14,578 --> 00:13:16,208 I was coming outta bed and I was kind of 359 00:13:16,208 --> 00:13:17,258 emotional that day. 360 00:13:17,758 --> 00:13:19,348 And I was like, why did you leave me? 361 00:13:19,598 --> 00:13:22,118 And now here me complaining about having the most 362 00:13:22,118 --> 00:13:24,488 wonderful thing in my life and now I'm complaining about it. 363 00:13:24,488 --> 00:13:27,468 So I said: Hey, why did you keep me in the hospital? 364 00:13:27,473 --> 00:13:28,698 Why couldn't I really come home? 365 00:13:28,698 --> 00:13:31,903 Everybody gets to go home and you, you, I floating 366 00:13:31,908 --> 00:13:33,393 here on the, in the top of the ceiling here. 367 00:13:33,393 --> 00:13:35,033 And I, I'm like, why couldn't I go? 368 00:13:35,533 --> 00:13:36,523 So I come from my bed. 369 00:13:36,523 --> 00:13:38,413 I was doing a couple things, and I laid down on the couch 370 00:13:38,413 --> 00:13:40,873 and I was instantly pulled out of my body instantly. 371 00:13:40,873 --> 00:13:42,313 I mean, I entered the void. 372 00:13:42,813 --> 00:13:44,493 And when they mean the void, it is utterly 373 00:13:44,613 --> 00:13:47,433 void of anything, light, sound, anything. 374 00:13:47,853 --> 00:13:51,423 And I began to travel through this completely pitch dark 375 00:13:51,428 --> 00:13:53,903 tunnel at a very fast speed. 376 00:13:53,903 --> 00:13:55,659 I would say almost at the speed of light. 377 00:13:55,727 --> 00:13:58,067 And I kept just traveling through it, and I'm talking 378 00:13:58,067 --> 00:13:59,087 off in the distance. 379 00:13:59,117 --> 00:14:01,847 Again, I don't know, there was no sense of time in the 380 00:14:01,847 --> 00:14:03,317 first NDE in the hospital. 381 00:14:03,527 --> 00:14:04,757 And again, no sense of time. 382 00:14:04,757 --> 00:14:07,047 I, I don't know if I was in there for 30 seconds 383 00:14:07,047 --> 00:14:08,547 or 30 hours, don't know. 384 00:14:09,047 --> 00:14:11,617 But often the distance was like the tip of a 385 00:14:11,617 --> 00:14:15,367 pin of light in just this utter void of black. 386 00:14:15,867 --> 00:14:18,777 And then light began to come through the tunnel, and I felt 387 00:14:18,777 --> 00:14:20,097 the unconditional love again. 388 00:14:20,097 --> 00:14:22,547 And then it dawned on me, I'm going home. 389 00:14:23,047 --> 00:14:25,557 I was like, he's, he's listening to me. 390 00:14:25,907 --> 00:14:27,107 I was just so happy. 391 00:14:27,137 --> 00:14:30,037 The love was flowing through me again, and the 392 00:14:30,037 --> 00:14:32,347 light kept getting closer and closer until it just 393 00:14:32,437 --> 00:14:33,937 encompassed everything. 394 00:14:34,297 --> 00:14:37,327 And it's the most beautiful white, it's pure, just 395 00:14:37,332 --> 00:14:39,787 unfiltered, beautiful white. 396 00:14:40,287 --> 00:14:43,567 And I mean, I got so close to it that, I mean my nose hairs 397 00:14:43,567 --> 00:14:44,887 were just about to touch it. 398 00:14:45,387 --> 00:14:49,437 And then I was back into my body and I'm like, I 399 00:14:49,437 --> 00:14:51,237 got a big smile on my face. 400 00:14:51,737 --> 00:14:54,782 And again, it was just validation that, Father. 401 00:14:55,102 --> 00:14:56,152 God, he's listening. 402 00:14:56,182 --> 00:14:57,052 He hears you. 403 00:14:57,302 --> 00:14:59,612 Everything you say to him, he's hearing and 404 00:14:59,612 --> 00:15:00,572 feeling and seeing. 405 00:15:01,072 --> 00:15:03,862 Had I crossed into that light, had I crossed that threshold, 406 00:15:03,982 --> 00:15:05,122 this body would've died. 407 00:15:05,542 --> 00:15:06,232 I was home. 408 00:15:06,292 --> 00:15:07,522 There's no coming back. 409 00:15:08,082 --> 00:15:10,641 I'm still, I still have things to do here. 410 00:15:10,669 --> 00:15:12,439 I know what they are now cuz I'm doing it with 411 00:15:12,439 --> 00:15:13,549 you and everybody else. 412 00:15:13,549 --> 00:15:15,589 And I'm in the process of writing a book, but 413 00:15:16,089 --> 00:15:16,719 we're getting there. 414 00:15:16,749 --> 00:15:18,129 It's, it's complex. 415 00:15:18,261 --> 00:15:20,950 And then this last November I had a visitor at work, 416 00:15:21,220 --> 00:15:23,565 and this last Saturday I had the same visitor. 417 00:15:23,565 --> 00:15:25,935 So I'm at work, it's 5:30 in the morning. 418 00:15:26,185 --> 00:15:27,115 Nobody's there yet. 419 00:15:27,615 --> 00:15:29,715 And I'm doing something, out of nowhere, 420 00:15:30,105 --> 00:15:32,115 this person appears. 421 00:15:32,515 --> 00:15:34,015 I mean literally out of nowhere cuz it 422 00:15:34,015 --> 00:15:35,149 was a long corridor. 423 00:15:35,629 --> 00:15:37,609 And I was in the section with two locked doors. 424 00:15:38,149 --> 00:15:39,789 I grabbed stuff and he was standing there. 425 00:15:39,789 --> 00:15:40,679 I was taken back. 426 00:15:40,679 --> 00:15:42,539 I'm like where did you come from? 427 00:15:42,759 --> 00:15:44,889 , I'm thinking in my head is like, where did you come from? 428 00:15:45,389 --> 00:15:46,709 There's no one here yet. 429 00:15:47,209 --> 00:15:49,129 He said, well, I'm just here to clean, you know, I need to 430 00:15:49,129 --> 00:15:50,299 go in the bathroom clean off. 431 00:15:50,299 --> 00:15:53,109 And so I go in the bathroom and I follow him and 432 00:15:53,609 --> 00:15:54,719 he's just smiling. 433 00:15:55,139 --> 00:15:57,359 I mean like just smiling like you are right now. 434 00:15:57,364 --> 00:16:00,559 He's just smiling and he had this like glow around him. 435 00:16:00,564 --> 00:16:01,639 He was just so happy. 436 00:16:01,639 --> 00:16:03,999 And I started to feel this. 437 00:16:03,999 --> 00:16:06,519 We were connecting, so I was feeling a lot of love from. 438 00:16:07,019 --> 00:16:09,829 Because I've become an empath so I can really 439 00:16:09,829 --> 00:16:11,359 feel people's souls now. 440 00:16:11,859 --> 00:16:13,419 And I was really feeling a lot of love. 441 00:16:13,419 --> 00:16:15,639 So we just started talking and I started talking about my 442 00:16:16,029 --> 00:16:17,409 NDE and about father and love. 443 00:16:17,909 --> 00:16:20,609 And he just put his head back and just smiled. 444 00:16:20,659 --> 00:16:22,339 This went on for 20 minutes or so. 445 00:16:22,839 --> 00:16:24,259 And, he says, well.. 446 00:16:24,759 --> 00:16:25,799 He goes, Jason right?, 447 00:16:26,069 --> 00:16:28,509 I didn't meet, I didn't give him in my name. 448 00:16:28,849 --> 00:16:29,629 And I said yes. 449 00:16:29,629 --> 00:16:31,519 And he put his hand out, and he shook my hand. 450 00:16:31,519 --> 00:16:33,019 He says, Jason, it was a pleasure to meet 451 00:16:33,019 --> 00:16:34,369 you and his strength. 452 00:16:34,869 --> 00:16:36,879 I'm telling you, when he squeezed my hand, he 453 00:16:36,884 --> 00:16:38,859 could have pulverized it and turned it into dust. 454 00:16:38,864 --> 00:16:41,319 I mean, it was non-human. 455 00:16:41,329 --> 00:16:42,799 The strength was unbelievable. 456 00:16:43,299 --> 00:16:44,979 And he started to walk away and he stopped and he 457 00:16:44,979 --> 00:16:45,999 looked over his shoulder. 458 00:16:46,499 --> 00:16:48,889 He says, Jason, I'll see you again soon. 459 00:16:49,389 --> 00:16:50,649 I, I didn't know what to think. 460 00:16:50,649 --> 00:16:52,059 I didn't, I was stunned. 461 00:16:52,419 --> 00:16:53,799 So I grabbed my stuff and I went to, cause 462 00:16:53,804 --> 00:16:54,609 I didn't get his name. 463 00:16:54,789 --> 00:16:56,199 So I went to go out, get out the door. 464 00:16:56,199 --> 00:16:58,679 He walked, hey, he was out the door maybe three seconds. 465 00:16:58,679 --> 00:16:59,549 So I walked out the door. 466 00:16:59,699 --> 00:17:00,449 No one. 467 00:17:00,949 --> 00:17:04,609 Gone, no smell, no sound, no sight, nothing, just gone. 468 00:17:04,819 --> 00:17:07,659 And I'm like, I, I need to go sit down. 469 00:17:07,659 --> 00:17:09,749 This is really bizarre. 470 00:17:09,899 --> 00:17:12,689 And so I went and sat down for like an hour and I'm like, 471 00:17:13,079 --> 00:17:14,629 I was trying to process it. 472 00:17:14,929 --> 00:17:18,789 He knew everything about me and I knew nothing about him. 473 00:17:19,289 --> 00:17:21,389 So I, I'm, I'm sitting there processing for a 474 00:17:21,389 --> 00:17:23,699 couple weeks and then I realized, I saw, and I was 475 00:17:23,699 --> 00:17:26,069 just going through some NDEs and someone had showed 476 00:17:26,069 --> 00:17:28,719 a picture of Archangel Michael, and that was him. 477 00:17:29,059 --> 00:17:30,429 His, his whole face, everything. 478 00:17:30,429 --> 00:17:32,229 He didn't have the long hair and stuff like that. 479 00:17:32,229 --> 00:17:33,369 It was just short, brown. 480 00:17:33,609 --> 00:17:35,079 Brown hair, beard, short hair. 481 00:17:35,349 --> 00:17:36,729 But that's exactly who it was. 482 00:17:36,819 --> 00:17:39,509 And I was like, what is Archangel Michael 483 00:17:40,009 --> 00:17:40,969 talking to me for? 484 00:17:40,974 --> 00:17:42,739 I mean, what's go, what's going on? 485 00:17:43,239 --> 00:17:45,729 So now fast forward, that was last November. 486 00:17:45,729 --> 00:17:48,189 So now this last Saturday I was out with my girlfriend. 487 00:17:48,689 --> 00:17:51,499 We had come out of a sushi place and there was maybe a 488 00:17:51,499 --> 00:17:52,879 half a dozen cars out there, 489 00:17:53,119 --> 00:17:56,002 but right next to my Jeep was this homeless guy. 490 00:17:56,482 --> 00:17:59,002 He had a cane and just wearing a ratty coat, 491 00:17:59,002 --> 00:18:00,652 ratty baseball cap. 492 00:18:01,152 --> 00:18:03,162 Same style beard, but red hair. 493 00:18:03,162 --> 00:18:04,392 So it was red beard, red hair. 494 00:18:04,722 --> 00:18:06,882 And again, again, it didn't dawn on me. 495 00:18:06,887 --> 00:18:07,902 And he goes, hi. 496 00:18:08,402 --> 00:18:10,102 And he was smiling again. 497 00:18:10,102 --> 00:18:11,422 He says, can we talk? 498 00:18:11,752 --> 00:18:13,812 And I'm like, okay, sure. 499 00:18:13,892 --> 00:18:17,542 And we just started talking and he said some things to my 500 00:18:17,542 --> 00:18:20,092 girlfriend that terrified her. 501 00:18:20,132 --> 00:18:22,402 She's like, there's no way he could have known 502 00:18:22,402 --> 00:18:23,482 these things, none. 503 00:18:23,877 --> 00:18:24,687 And she's like, I wanna go. 504 00:18:24,747 --> 00:18:25,017 Can I? 505 00:18:25,167 --> 00:18:26,217 Yeah, go sit in the car. 506 00:18:26,277 --> 00:18:28,952 She took off, ran and sat in the car, locked the door. 507 00:18:29,192 --> 00:18:31,702 So I'm sitting out there talking to him and he's 508 00:18:31,702 --> 00:18:35,942 just saying things to me, very personal things that 509 00:18:36,122 --> 00:18:37,442 no one else could know. 510 00:18:37,942 --> 00:18:41,493 And he, he mentioned, he goes, really it's 511 00:18:41,493 --> 00:18:42,363 all about the love. 512 00:18:42,363 --> 00:18:45,633 And he, he gave me a fist bump and his skin was so cold. 513 00:18:46,023 --> 00:18:48,423 Like there wasn't, it was just cold, clammy. 514 00:18:48,473 --> 00:18:50,443 It's just, so I was like, man, it's really weird. 515 00:18:50,443 --> 00:18:53,053 And I said, I said, yeah, really, it is about the love. 516 00:18:53,058 --> 00:18:54,223 We are to love one another. 517 00:18:54,223 --> 00:18:55,718 And I said, I had an N D E. 518 00:18:55,718 --> 00:18:57,248 And he goes, I know you did. 519 00:18:57,748 --> 00:18:59,458 And I'm like, okay. 520 00:18:59,958 --> 00:19:00,438 All right. 521 00:19:00,838 --> 00:19:01,718 Something's going on. 522 00:19:01,988 --> 00:19:04,118 And he says, you mind giving me a, you know, 523 00:19:04,225 --> 00:19:05,185 walking down here? 524 00:19:05,185 --> 00:19:06,295 And I, I said, sure. 525 00:19:06,795 --> 00:19:09,436 And I told her I was gonna go take him for 526 00:19:09,441 --> 00:19:10,366 a walk and help him. 527 00:19:10,746 --> 00:19:11,356 He stood up. 528 00:19:11,356 --> 00:19:12,106 No problem. 529 00:19:12,446 --> 00:19:14,756 And for a bum you would think, he'd be all dirty, ratty. 530 00:19:14,761 --> 00:19:15,956 His shoes were brand new. 531 00:19:15,986 --> 00:19:16,736 They weren't dirty. 532 00:19:16,736 --> 00:19:17,906 His pants weren't dirty. 533 00:19:18,146 --> 00:19:18,956 Coat wasn't dirty. 534 00:19:19,146 --> 00:19:20,196 And he's starting to walk. 535 00:19:20,196 --> 00:19:21,216 He doesn't need the cane. 536 00:19:21,576 --> 00:19:24,336 So we're walking and he, he was saying some things 537 00:19:24,336 --> 00:19:25,786 that were going to happen. 538 00:19:26,099 --> 00:19:29,519 And he says, money is coming your way, basically. 539 00:19:30,019 --> 00:19:32,609 And he said, it was a lot of money. 540 00:19:32,614 --> 00:19:33,749 And I'm like, wow. 541 00:19:34,339 --> 00:19:36,319 And he says, oh, I forgot you're Jason, right? 542 00:19:36,819 --> 00:19:37,329 And I was like. 543 00:19:37,623 --> 00:19:40,902 And it still didn't dawn on me who he was. 544 00:19:40,932 --> 00:19:43,622 And I, I was like, yeah. 545 00:19:44,122 --> 00:19:44,297 Yeah. 546 00:19:44,797 --> 00:19:47,227 And he says, so are you willing to relocate? 547 00:19:47,727 --> 00:19:49,007 And I'm like, to where? 548 00:19:49,507 --> 00:19:51,217 I mean, where do you want me to go? 549 00:19:51,607 --> 00:19:54,817 And he says, like Sacramento or something like that, 550 00:19:55,117 --> 00:19:55,717 somewhere out there. 551 00:19:55,722 --> 00:19:57,367 And I go, sure, yeah. 552 00:19:57,607 --> 00:19:59,047 And he goes, beautiful. 553 00:19:59,547 --> 00:20:01,137 We get in there, we're starting to walk in, 554 00:20:01,137 --> 00:20:01,707 get in the restaurant. 555 00:20:01,957 --> 00:20:03,227 He goes: you'll hear from me soon. 556 00:20:03,527 --> 00:20:06,647 And I then, as I was driving while I got him in there, 557 00:20:06,647 --> 00:20:07,727 he shook my hand again. 558 00:20:07,727 --> 00:20:10,127 He says, Jason, it was nice to see you again. 559 00:20:10,397 --> 00:20:12,437 I'm not thinking in the way he's talking because 560 00:20:12,437 --> 00:20:15,407 I'm still in shock about what's taken place. 561 00:20:15,412 --> 00:20:16,837 And I left him. 562 00:20:16,837 --> 00:20:19,392 I put my hand on his, on his shoulder and I said, 563 00:20:19,392 --> 00:20:21,547 it's been a pleasure, please take care of yourself. 564 00:20:21,797 --> 00:20:22,727 And he said, I'll see you soon. 565 00:20:23,227 --> 00:20:24,847 And I'm walking out and driving away and I'm like, 566 00:20:24,847 --> 00:20:26,287 really tired all of a sudden. 567 00:20:26,787 --> 00:20:29,502 And I'm like, that was just, that's weird. 568 00:20:29,502 --> 00:20:32,172 Nobody, there's no way he could have known these things. 569 00:20:32,562 --> 00:20:34,922 So we're driving back and she, my girlfriend, was 570 00:20:34,922 --> 00:20:36,892 like, what was that about? 571 00:20:37,392 --> 00:20:39,132 And I just looked to her and I said, that 572 00:20:39,137 --> 00:20:40,242 was Arch Angel Michael. 573 00:20:40,742 --> 00:20:42,092 I said, and that's the second time. 574 00:20:42,342 --> 00:20:43,572 I showed her a picture of him. 575 00:20:43,572 --> 00:20:45,942 She goes, I knew it wasn't a bum. 576 00:20:46,032 --> 00:20:47,862 How could he know those things about me? 577 00:20:48,162 --> 00:20:49,272 I said, come on now. 578 00:20:49,422 --> 00:20:52,322 I said, that's, that's the way it rolls. 579 00:20:52,322 --> 00:20:55,242 And it's, but why us, and why you so much? 580 00:20:55,242 --> 00:20:57,312 And I said, something big's going down. 581 00:20:57,312 --> 00:20:59,327 And I told her, that there was changes coming, 582 00:20:59,327 --> 00:21:00,407 that I can feel it. 583 00:21:00,707 --> 00:21:01,918 I said, I just can't place it. 584 00:21:01,918 --> 00:21:03,778 I said, one of 'em, I was gonna find a really good, 585 00:21:03,808 --> 00:21:04,858 healthy relationship. 586 00:21:04,858 --> 00:21:05,278 That's you. 587 00:21:05,668 --> 00:21:09,458 That money is coming, and clearly significant amounts 588 00:21:09,458 --> 00:21:12,248 of it are coming now and that we're gonna have a, a 589 00:21:12,248 --> 00:21:13,748 nice home and and family. 590 00:21:13,748 --> 00:21:14,588 And he, because he said, 591 00:21:14,838 --> 00:21:17,213 he said, financially, we're really struggling, aren't we? 592 00:21:17,273 --> 00:21:18,803 And I said, I am. 593 00:21:19,303 --> 00:21:20,853 And he says, Okay. 594 00:21:20,853 --> 00:21:21,603 Not for long. 595 00:21:21,853 --> 00:21:24,973 I was just, it was so bizarre because we had just walked 596 00:21:24,973 --> 00:21:25,993 in to go get some sushi. 597 00:21:25,993 --> 00:21:28,833 We may be in there for 40, 45 minutes and out 598 00:21:28,833 --> 00:21:31,313 of all the cars could have sat by any place. 599 00:21:31,313 --> 00:21:34,163 But he was right next to my car, knowing I'm in there 600 00:21:34,163 --> 00:21:35,183 waiting for me to come out. 601 00:21:35,438 --> 00:21:36,488 It just freaked her out. 602 00:21:36,848 --> 00:21:40,198 So all of these things are happening right now to me 603 00:21:40,678 --> 00:21:44,978 and being in a wakened state and having that third eye 604 00:21:45,008 --> 00:21:48,533 open and can feel things and it's just, I just 605 00:21:48,533 --> 00:21:49,463 live life differently. 606 00:21:49,463 --> 00:21:52,403 So that event in that hospital profoundly changed my life. 607 00:21:52,803 --> 00:21:54,423 I know who we are, I know what we are now. 608 00:21:54,423 --> 00:21:57,273 I know what's important, what's not important, and 609 00:21:57,693 --> 00:21:59,493 the only thing that really matters and the only thing 610 00:21:59,493 --> 00:22:02,488 that is gonna continue throughout time is love. 611 00:22:02,968 --> 00:22:04,918 Love is what makes the universe grow. 612 00:22:05,068 --> 00:22:06,838 All of our love, we are all the same. 613 00:22:06,838 --> 00:22:07,858 We are all one. 614 00:22:07,858 --> 00:22:10,198 There's nobody on this earth, past or present 615 00:22:10,698 --> 00:22:12,138 that was not the same. 616 00:22:12,198 --> 00:22:14,178 We are all tied together. 617 00:22:14,208 --> 00:22:16,578 If you can imagine like a spiderweb, just one 618 00:22:16,578 --> 00:22:19,068 little strand, all of us are connected that way. 619 00:22:19,068 --> 00:22:19,908 We are all one. 620 00:22:20,328 --> 00:22:23,208 No one is better than anybody else, and that's that. 621 00:22:23,238 --> 00:22:25,818 And the only thing that matters on this earth is love. 622 00:22:26,318 --> 00:22:26,738 That's it. 623 00:22:27,238 --> 00:22:28,078 That's what we are. 624 00:22:28,578 --> 00:22:31,373 And, we all came here to experience and 625 00:22:31,643 --> 00:22:33,023 do different things. 626 00:22:33,523 --> 00:22:34,063 That's it. 627 00:22:34,063 --> 00:22:35,833 This, we just came to the playground. 628 00:22:35,838 --> 00:22:36,883 The earth is a school. 629 00:22:37,133 --> 00:22:38,933 When we come here, all we know is love. 630 00:22:38,933 --> 00:22:41,633 We don't know what getting slapped, punched, getting 631 00:22:41,633 --> 00:22:44,563 shot, getting whatever it is that you want to experience. 632 00:22:44,593 --> 00:22:44,983 Okay? 633 00:22:45,193 --> 00:22:47,653 So when we come here, we come here with that prefaces. 634 00:22:47,903 --> 00:22:49,583 So we come to father with our plan. 635 00:22:49,683 --> 00:22:51,748 I'm gonna try this, this is, and he might even 636 00:22:51,748 --> 00:22:53,258 say, that's gonna be hard. 637 00:22:53,678 --> 00:22:54,938 I know I can do it. 638 00:22:55,438 --> 00:22:57,808 Now we come here and then we get the umbilical cord 639 00:22:57,808 --> 00:23:01,248 cut off, and now we're like, I didn't deserve that. 640 00:23:01,458 --> 00:23:03,048 Why did, why did that happen to me? 641 00:23:03,318 --> 00:23:05,928 Well, it happened to you because that's what you chose. 642 00:23:06,228 --> 00:23:07,938 It's like you going into a grocery store. 643 00:23:08,058 --> 00:23:08,388 Right. 644 00:23:08,888 --> 00:23:10,958 And how many people do you talk to in the grocery store 645 00:23:10,958 --> 00:23:11,888 when you're out shopping? 646 00:23:12,388 --> 00:23:12,898 Nobody. 647 00:23:13,048 --> 00:23:14,488 Except you might talk to the cashier. 648 00:23:14,493 --> 00:23:14,758 Right? 649 00:23:14,968 --> 00:23:17,668 Are you striking up any real in-depth conversations? 650 00:23:18,168 --> 00:23:18,403 Why? 651 00:23:18,763 --> 00:23:20,863 Your timelines aren't meant to cross. 652 00:23:20,953 --> 00:23:22,993 They're not meant to be in your life. 653 00:23:23,263 --> 00:23:26,023 The people that are in your life are meant to be there. 654 00:23:26,023 --> 00:23:29,113 You chose and they chose for your timelines 655 00:23:29,118 --> 00:23:30,283 to merge and cross. 656 00:23:30,523 --> 00:23:31,153 That's it. 657 00:23:31,653 --> 00:23:34,943 Other than that, they're not meant to be in your life. 658 00:23:35,273 --> 00:23:37,973 So when I say to people, well, I didn't deserve this. 659 00:23:37,973 --> 00:23:40,133 Well, you deserve had nothing to do with it. 660 00:23:40,133 --> 00:23:41,273 It's just what you chose? 661 00:23:41,573 --> 00:23:43,463 So, and I wouldn't choose that. 662 00:23:43,463 --> 00:23:45,923 Well, you're, you're thinking with a linear 663 00:23:45,923 --> 00:23:47,333 mind and a physical mind. 664 00:23:47,383 --> 00:23:49,483 When you choose these things, you've asked your 665 00:23:49,483 --> 00:23:52,573 friends to do these, you've asked soulmates to do these 666 00:23:52,633 --> 00:23:55,393 things to you or be rough to you, be mean to you. 667 00:23:55,693 --> 00:23:57,703 There's always been somebody in your life that has 668 00:23:57,703 --> 00:24:00,673 just been hard on you, that just won't let up. 669 00:24:00,733 --> 00:24:01,903 It's because you ask them to. 670 00:24:02,153 --> 00:24:04,313 Everything that you go through here, whether 671 00:24:04,313 --> 00:24:07,663 it's challenging or not so challenging is for a reason. 672 00:24:07,663 --> 00:24:08,323 It's a lesson. 673 00:24:08,353 --> 00:24:10,833 There's a lesson that you have to learn out of that. 674 00:24:10,833 --> 00:24:13,563 And if you don't face that lesson, it's gonna keep 675 00:24:13,563 --> 00:24:16,143 getting harder and harder and harder and harder. 676 00:24:16,293 --> 00:24:19,533 Until you meet that challenge and you face it and you do it. 677 00:24:19,563 --> 00:24:22,613 No matter what the outcome is, it's gonna be there. 678 00:24:22,643 --> 00:24:24,983 And if you don't finish it in this life, then when you come 679 00:24:24,983 --> 00:24:27,113 into the next life, you will. 680 00:24:27,613 --> 00:24:31,323 Because all your timelines are playing out all at once right 681 00:24:31,323 --> 00:24:34,743 now in multiple universes, in multiple time dimensions. 682 00:24:35,273 --> 00:24:37,943 Past lives, your life right now and your future 683 00:24:37,943 --> 00:24:41,153 lives are all playing out simultaneously right now. 684 00:24:41,423 --> 00:24:44,183 So you're in different universes, different galaxies, 685 00:24:44,183 --> 00:24:47,393 different time dimensions, and you're all living your 686 00:24:47,393 --> 00:24:49,523 lives right now, all at once. 687 00:24:50,023 --> 00:24:54,068 So it's, it's really a beautiful thing. 688 00:24:54,518 --> 00:24:57,518 As I tell people, we're in the biggest love story ever. 689 00:24:57,518 --> 00:24:58,748 We just don't remember it. 690 00:24:59,188 --> 00:25:01,618 And we choose to forget when we come down here is God 691 00:25:01,623 --> 00:25:03,028 not taking it away from us. 692 00:25:03,328 --> 00:25:07,358 We choose to forget it because if we didn't, 693 00:25:07,388 --> 00:25:10,178 we would look at what we gotta face and go, oh, no way. 694 00:25:10,238 --> 00:25:11,018 No way. 695 00:25:11,168 --> 00:25:11,468 Nope. 696 00:25:11,468 --> 00:25:13,168 That ain't gonna happen, . No. 697 00:25:13,448 --> 00:25:16,278 So we choose to forget, so we can go through 698 00:25:16,278 --> 00:25:19,188 these experiences because that's how we grow. 699 00:25:19,188 --> 00:25:22,451 That's how our soul, our spirit grows through 700 00:25:22,451 --> 00:25:23,531 these experiences. 701 00:25:23,531 --> 00:25:27,121 And that's eventually what we're trying to do is become 702 00:25:27,121 --> 00:25:29,821 an ascended master like Jesus did when he was here, 703 00:25:30,321 --> 00:25:31,551 or Yeshua I should say. 704 00:25:31,556 --> 00:25:33,891 When Yeshua was here, he became an ascended master 705 00:25:33,891 --> 00:25:36,891 so he could heal people, he could, raise the dead. 706 00:25:37,011 --> 00:25:38,591 All these things we can do too. 707 00:25:38,861 --> 00:25:41,361 We just can't do it right now because we haven't reached 708 00:25:41,391 --> 00:25:43,521 that ascended master stage. 709 00:25:43,571 --> 00:25:45,551 And all my knowledge that I gained when I 710 00:25:45,761 --> 00:25:47,981 transitioned out of my body, God didn't gimme that. 711 00:25:47,981 --> 00:25:51,401 I merged with my true self, who I am back at home. 712 00:25:51,401 --> 00:25:53,561 I just merged with who I was and I knew 713 00:25:53,566 --> 00:25:54,641 instantly where I was. 714 00:25:54,646 --> 00:25:55,151 I'm home. 715 00:25:55,651 --> 00:25:59,531 So yeah, there's just so much to go through and , it 716 00:25:59,531 --> 00:26:01,751 just seems like there's just not enough time. 717 00:26:02,251 --> 00:26:05,171 To ever get through it all because, we're all growing, 718 00:26:05,531 --> 00:26:08,791 we're all learning, we're all doing what we need to do. 719 00:26:08,791 --> 00:26:12,307 And then, when we fulfill our contract, well, you go home. 720 00:26:12,417 --> 00:26:14,637 And it's simply the most beautiful transition 721 00:26:14,642 --> 00:26:16,314 you will ever see. 722 00:26:16,614 --> 00:26:19,284 But you're just not around that to tell anybody about it. 723 00:26:19,464 --> 00:26:21,474 And your loved ones are always close by. 724 00:26:21,654 --> 00:26:23,274 They're just in a different dimension. 725 00:26:23,544 --> 00:26:26,364 We can't see or hear them because we're not meant to. 726 00:26:26,414 --> 00:26:29,304 Once we gain that knowledge and, transition to the 727 00:26:29,304 --> 00:26:31,884 other side, everything is right there and available. 728 00:26:31,884 --> 00:26:34,214 So, yeah, it's a beautiful thing. 729 00:26:34,424 --> 00:26:35,174 Beautiful thing.