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Ray Catania: And I'm
like, no guys, I'm fine.

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I'm, I'm absolutely fine.

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I feel great.

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In fact, did anybody
see the light?

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Did anybody hear the voice?

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And they start looking at me
and start thinking, well, you

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know, is this guy on drugs?

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What is he talking about?

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So I shut that up right away
before I wound up in the

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wrong hospital where the
one where you can't get out.

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Rod Bland: My guest today
is Ray Catania, an author,

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a metaphysical teacher,
and he's a near death

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experience survivor.

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Ray, welcome and thanks for
coming on the show today.

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Ray Catania: Rod, I
can't thank you enough.

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I am honored and grateful
to be here today with you.

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Thank you.

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Rod Bland: Oh,
you're most welcome.

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So, I'd like to start with
some background of what your

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life was like growing up, and
then can you tell us about

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your near death experience?

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Ray Catania: Sure.

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If we go back to the
beginning, uh, my childhood,

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unfortunately, wasn't,
um, you know, perfect.

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It was, a home that
was let's say angry.

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A lot.

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And there was a lot of
anger as well as arguments

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and things of that nature.

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Um, sometimes it would put
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would try to hide and get
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were transpiring actually.

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And when I did that, um, I
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at a time, sometimes as long
as five or six hours where I

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would just, um, you know, kind
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I don't know that at the time,
of course, but I'm just kind

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of staring at the blank wall.

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And when you do this seven
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day, you can start to see the
energy that makes up the wall.

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And this will come
into play later.

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Um, as I get older, I sort
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you will, when it comes to
my own safety and I acted

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out in a, in a self sabotage
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from chaos and coming from
chaos, that's what I learned.

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And when you learn that,
You repeat it, right?

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So I'm repeating what I see
now as, as I'm getting older,

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if there's no chaos around
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which is strange in that,
in those moments, that was

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perfectly normal for me.

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So I would do things to
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where I could lose my life.

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Um, and I would up the ante
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see how far I could push it.

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And it was at the age of 20
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There was a fire in my home.

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I was still living at
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The kitchen was directly
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And what had happened was
is the stove was leaking

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gas and the gas was
leaking up into my room.

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So I was inhaling
the fumes of the gas.

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We don't really know how many
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And in the morning, my
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on the stove and I guess
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uh, mini fire explosion.

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It was nothing that was really
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There was a very small
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said he put out right away.

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That wasn't what affected me.

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What affected me was
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Uh, for, for hours.

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And I was breathing
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So the fire trucks and the
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I hear all this commotion
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And this is when I noticed
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because I cannot move my legs.

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I couldn't get my
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It almost felt like my head
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it just wasn't going to move.

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And I couldn't yell.

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So I know that I've got
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I know there's something
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I don't know what it is.

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Furthermore, I don't know
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So one of the parts that
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And what I did was I
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bed and I pulled myself to
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And each time I would pull,
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and then I would Go back,
I would pass out and then

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they would make more noise
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me up again and jolt me and
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got to get out of this bed.

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I'd pull myself a
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then I would pass out.

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The third time I knew if
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bed, I was going to die.

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So I pulled with everything
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the bed and I began, I fell
out of the bed face first.

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But before I hit that
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ever hitting that floor.

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I never felt pain.

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I never felt the, the
impact because by that

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time I was already out of
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down at it from the corner
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looking at my lifeless body.

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Colors were more vivid.

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It, the room was completely,
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And there was this tremendous
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um, that was shining on me.

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This light contained in it an
energy that I cannot explain

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to you, but I can tell you it
was so euphoric that I never

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wanted to leave that light.

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There was no pain, there
was no suffering, there

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was nothing but euphoria.

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At the end of the light was
a being, I don't know male or

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female, I'm not, I, I don't
know, uh, they said it's okay

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to come into the light, right?

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It's okay, come
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And so I did.

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And each time I got a
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more euphoria, I felt more
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I felt fully encompassed.

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In love, as strange
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And at this moment, I'm
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happening in the room.

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My father comes in and he
scoops me up from the floor

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and now he's screaming
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You get upstairs.

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My son, my son, get upstairs.

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And he's distraught.

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Now we didn't have a
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say the least, however.

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In that moment, I saw another
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what I always wanted from him.

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I probably one of the
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me was the time when I
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And I think that that is
what made me ask the being

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if I could go back.

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Rod Bland: Hmm.

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Ray Catania: And I said, I
can't leave my dad like that.

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I can't leave my
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The next thing I knew I awoke.

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I was not in that
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I was on the living room floor
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had all their equipment and
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And I came out of it and I was
like, guys, what, whoa, what

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are you, what are you doing?

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What are you doing?

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And, and they're talking
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the ambulance up here.

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We got to get this guy in.

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We got to, and I'm
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I'm, I'm absolutely fine.

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I feel great.

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In fact, did anybody
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Did anybody hear the voice?

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And they start looking at me
and start thinking, well, you

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know, is this guy on drugs?

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What is he talking about?

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So I shut that up right away
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wrong hospital where the
one where you can't get out.

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So I just let them
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Um, Oh, it was, I was more
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I had urinated all over myself
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you do when you die and I was
more embarrassed about that

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than anything else and I'm
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light and the voice and I'm
like, guys, really, I'm good.

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I'm good.

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And they're like,
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And they took me away.

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So, and I try to tell
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She was clearly in
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I come from a Christian
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against that because of
the things that transpired.

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And I chose that I was
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And that's what I
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Um, so I proceed to
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that's not what happened.

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That's not what
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That nothing like
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Now, when the book came
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conversation with her in which
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it happened, but it actually
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the way to the hospital that
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Um, now I understand, I
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if Your child died on
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traumatic enough to put
yourself in a state of denial.

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There's parts of my tra
traumas that I don't remember.

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There are certain
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blanked out, if you will.

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I just can't recall them.

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And I'm sure those were the
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was one of those for her.

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But, um, it was just last
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the age of 82 when she said,
yeah, I, I do remember that.

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It was the scariest
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So.

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wHen I returned from the
hospital, the feeling goes

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from euphoria to like a bomb
goes off inside your body

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because all the little aches
and pains that you have that

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you kind of discard your
brain just pushes them aside.

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Maybe you broke something
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heal properly and now you
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it, you know, acts up when it
rains or something like that.

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Well, all those little
pains are magnified by 10.

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And it feels literally like
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it's the most painful thing.

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And all I wanted to do
is go back to the light.

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I never had that relationship.

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My father, I was looking for.

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Now I have the pain.

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Now I have the
emotional distress.

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All my traumas are back.

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What the heck did
I choose this for?

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I want to do over.

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I want to go back
to the light.

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So at the age of 20 not
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thing for a 20 year old.

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Um, so I would put
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precarious situations where
I could potentially die.

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And every single time I was
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die, there was the being who
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that particular situation.

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Instance, I started working
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I didn't fear death.

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One time there was a shootout
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the bar and I was hoping that
nobody remembered I was there.

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And the being says, side
door, side door, side

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door, side door, side door.

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I can't get to the side door.

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They're going to see
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door, but I've learned
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So I go out the side
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ran down the corridor
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And I went out the
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And my car was parked
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And in all the years I
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parked my car there.

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I don't know what made me park
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There was another time
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And I was swimming in the
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pulling me back, pulling
me back, pulling me back.

241
00:12:19,609 --> 00:12:20,499
And I couldn't get out.

242
00:12:22,029 --> 00:12:24,399
And I, and I'm trying to wave
to the lifeguard and he's not

243
00:12:24,399 --> 00:12:26,689
seeing me cause he's looking
completely the other way.

244
00:12:26,929 --> 00:12:30,279
And I'm about to go under
and I'm thinking, this is it.

245
00:12:31,209 --> 00:12:31,749
This is it.

246
00:12:32,619 --> 00:12:33,599
I'm starting to panic.

247
00:12:33,599 --> 00:12:34,719
My heart starts to beat.

248
00:12:36,399 --> 00:12:44,489
The being, calm down, take
your time, swim on an angle

249
00:12:45,759 --> 00:12:48,039
and take as much time as
you need to get to shore.

250
00:12:50,159 --> 00:12:51,749
It's the undertow
that took me out.

251
00:12:52,029 --> 00:12:53,379
I would never have known.

252
00:12:54,099 --> 00:12:55,989
To swim on an angle
and that's how you're

253
00:12:55,989 --> 00:12:56,939
supposed to get back.

254
00:12:56,999 --> 00:12:58,639
But apparently
that is correct.

255
00:12:59,284 --> 00:13:00,074
And that's what I did.

256
00:13:00,074 --> 00:13:03,364
I just relaxed and it took
me a long time to swim to

257
00:13:03,364 --> 00:13:11,664
shore, but I got there alive
again, um, I've probably

258
00:13:11,664 --> 00:13:14,994
had eight or nine of those
instances where this being

259
00:13:15,004 --> 00:13:16,144
has been there for me.

260
00:13:19,744 --> 00:13:22,684
so I learned just to listen
to them or her or they,

261
00:13:23,604 --> 00:13:27,344
um, they've never presented
themselves in a physical body.

262
00:13:27,934 --> 00:13:33,894
I believe them to be a spirit
guide, um, above fourth realm.

263
00:13:33,894 --> 00:13:35,774
If we, if we're going to
call this one the third,

264
00:13:35,774 --> 00:13:37,764
because most people do,
I'll go along with that.

265
00:13:38,004 --> 00:13:39,024
Here's the third realm.

266
00:13:39,024 --> 00:13:39,914
The next one's fourth.

267
00:13:39,914 --> 00:13:41,354
I believe they're at
the next level, which

268
00:13:41,354 --> 00:13:41,954
would be the fifth.

269
00:13:42,514 --> 00:13:44,774
And that's, I think, where
your spirit guides come from.

270
00:13:45,914 --> 00:13:49,664
They have a shape of more
of like an orb and it's

271
00:13:49,684 --> 00:13:51,284
just a circle of energy.

272
00:13:51,284 --> 00:13:53,514
Not quite a circle, but
more of like an orb.

273
00:13:53,514 --> 00:13:55,544
And I'll tell you more
about how I know that later.

274
00:13:56,634 --> 00:14:04,134
So basically I'm going through
this life, not caring if I

275
00:14:04,144 --> 00:14:06,904
die, not worrying about if I
get, I just want to get back

276
00:14:06,904 --> 00:14:09,204
to that light, but I'm not
going to take my own life

277
00:14:09,554 --> 00:14:14,404
because You know, when you
do come back, you have this

278
00:14:14,434 --> 00:14:19,084
liberating feeling where
many of the things that

279
00:14:19,084 --> 00:14:22,514
you worried about before
just become so benign.

280
00:14:23,804 --> 00:14:27,004
They don't really make that
much of a difference anymore.

281
00:14:27,014 --> 00:14:28,304
You don't really care.

282
00:14:28,304 --> 00:14:30,084
You learn to not care.

283
00:14:31,374 --> 00:14:34,194
And, It was a couple of
years later that I moved

284
00:14:34,194 --> 00:14:36,324
out and I was getting
my first apartment.

285
00:14:36,434 --> 00:14:37,894
And I remember I was
all psyched and it's

286
00:14:37,954 --> 00:14:38,544
going to be great.

287
00:14:38,544 --> 00:14:39,434
We're going to have parties.

288
00:14:39,434 --> 00:14:41,494
We're going to have chicks and
this is going to be awesome.

289
00:14:42,174 --> 00:14:46,254
And what happens is I could
see energy before, but now

290
00:14:46,254 --> 00:14:47,974
I cross over, come back.

291
00:14:48,224 --> 00:14:50,574
Well, they came back with me.

292
00:14:51,284 --> 00:14:54,094
And when I came home to that
apartment, that apartment was

293
00:14:54,094 --> 00:14:55,314
already filled with people.

294
00:14:56,374 --> 00:14:57,854
I don't see them with my eyes.

295
00:14:57,854 --> 00:15:00,274
I don't hear with
my ears because then

296
00:15:00,274 --> 00:15:01,334
I'd be schizophrenic.

297
00:15:01,394 --> 00:15:02,274
It's all here.

298
00:15:02,454 --> 00:15:05,914
It's third eye, but this
room is filled and I

299
00:15:05,914 --> 00:15:08,624
can see the lines going
across the white walls.

300
00:15:08,974 --> 00:15:11,384
I could see the little
movements out of the corner

301
00:15:11,384 --> 00:15:18,364
of my eye and I can feel
them pushing my insides.

302
00:15:20,094 --> 00:15:22,254
Well, needless to say,
I could not sleep.

303
00:15:23,224 --> 00:15:26,079
I had the worst case
of insomnia That I've

304
00:15:26,079 --> 00:15:27,149
ever had in my life.

305
00:15:27,649 --> 00:15:30,559
So I turned to drugs and
alcohol like any other

306
00:15:30,559 --> 00:15:37,069
smart 22 year old would
do and really abused

307
00:15:37,299 --> 00:15:39,949
any product I could that
would put me to sleep.

308
00:15:40,149 --> 00:15:42,249
And so I did not hear
and see them anymore.

309
00:15:43,119 --> 00:15:45,879
Told no one because no
one's going to believe me.

310
00:15:46,949 --> 00:15:48,499
Nobody believed me
about the near death.

311
00:15:48,499 --> 00:15:49,719
No one's going to
believe me about this.

312
00:15:51,019 --> 00:15:53,589
In just one time I was on
the phone with one of my

313
00:15:53,589 --> 00:15:56,289
friends and I said, Hey, I
think my house is haunted.

314
00:15:56,769 --> 00:15:57,139
Click.

315
00:15:58,384 --> 00:15:59,034
I called him back.

316
00:15:59,034 --> 00:16:00,164
I said, why'd you
hang up on me?

317
00:16:00,164 --> 00:16:01,404
He goes, I didn't
hang up on you.

318
00:16:01,774 --> 00:16:03,524
I said, okay, well, I
don't know what happened.

319
00:16:03,534 --> 00:16:04,894
We're on a landline now.

320
00:16:04,904 --> 00:16:06,374
This is back in the
days of landlines.

321
00:16:06,794 --> 00:16:09,944
And I said, Well, uh, what
I was saying was, I think

322
00:16:09,944 --> 00:16:11,294
my place is haunted, Klik.

323
00:16:13,194 --> 00:16:17,584
So they would mess with
anything they could that was

324
00:16:17,594 --> 00:16:22,294
electric in that house to
maintain my focus on them.

325
00:16:23,564 --> 00:16:25,004
I think I'm losing my mind.

326
00:16:25,234 --> 00:16:27,804
I'm trying to hold on to
these atheistic beliefs.

327
00:16:27,804 --> 00:16:28,354
You know why?

328
00:16:28,384 --> 00:16:29,294
Because they're easier.

329
00:16:30,169 --> 00:16:31,709
I don't have to
process this stuff.

330
00:16:31,759 --> 00:16:33,259
I don't have to overthink it.

331
00:16:33,749 --> 00:16:36,719
Uh, I can just put it in
a box and put it away.

332
00:16:37,119 --> 00:16:39,989
So what I do with my NDE,
since no one believed

333
00:16:40,009 --> 00:16:42,629
me anyway, I said, well,
the light that came

334
00:16:42,659 --> 00:16:44,679
through the white light
was probably the sun.

335
00:16:44,729 --> 00:16:47,139
I probably fell on the
floor on a sunny day.

336
00:16:47,379 --> 00:16:48,889
The light came
through the window.

337
00:16:49,229 --> 00:16:51,879
I was stoned out of my
mind from breathing in the

338
00:16:51,919 --> 00:16:53,869
gas for hours and hours.

339
00:16:53,909 --> 00:16:56,149
And that's, I hallucinated
and I chalked it up

340
00:16:56,149 --> 00:16:58,179
to that, it away.

341
00:16:59,469 --> 00:17:01,849
But now this insomnia, these.

342
00:17:02,629 --> 00:17:04,979
Beings is getting a
little harder to deny.

343
00:17:05,589 --> 00:17:08,939
I've left that place in
10 months thinking I'm

344
00:17:08,939 --> 00:17:09,869
going to get another place.

345
00:17:09,909 --> 00:17:10,679
It's going to be different.

346
00:17:10,679 --> 00:17:11,379
It's going to be great.

347
00:17:11,489 --> 00:17:12,869
We're going to have
parties and we're going

348
00:17:12,869 --> 00:17:15,049
to have chicks and it's
going to be phenomenal.

349
00:17:15,399 --> 00:17:16,429
And I move into that place.

350
00:17:16,429 --> 00:17:18,139
And don't you know, the
exact same thing happens.

351
00:17:19,019 --> 00:17:21,389
It's not the place
that is haunted.

352
00:17:21,849 --> 00:17:22,479
It's Ray.

353
00:17:22,699 --> 00:17:23,379
Ray's haunted.

354
00:17:23,609 --> 00:17:24,999
I could go to Siberia.

355
00:17:25,169 --> 00:17:26,109
They're going to come with me.

356
00:17:27,029 --> 00:17:27,989
I don't know what
to do with this.

357
00:17:29,239 --> 00:17:30,289
I don't know what
to do with this.

358
00:17:30,289 --> 00:17:31,359
Nobody else can see it.

359
00:17:31,359 --> 00:17:32,329
Nobody else can hear it.

360
00:17:32,349 --> 00:17:33,209
I'm the only one.

361
00:17:33,209 --> 00:17:34,369
I must be out of my mind.

362
00:17:34,549 --> 00:17:37,409
More drugs, more alcohol,
more drugs, more alcohol.

363
00:17:38,289 --> 00:17:41,049
That's the only way I can
turn it off because I don't

364
00:17:41,199 --> 00:17:42,239
know how to deal with it yet.

365
00:17:44,829 --> 00:17:47,689
So as I approach
the age of 30.

366
00:17:49,339 --> 00:17:50,979
I get married and
I have two kids.

367
00:17:51,839 --> 00:17:54,859
Now I have a reason for
living and it's not me.

368
00:17:54,919 --> 00:17:55,629
It's them.

369
00:17:56,259 --> 00:17:58,179
I have these two tiny
humans that are counting

370
00:17:58,179 --> 00:18:00,849
on me to carry them through
the rest of their life.

371
00:18:01,609 --> 00:18:03,679
So I checked
myself into rehab.

372
00:18:04,679 --> 00:18:08,119
Um, I, I drive, I drove
myself to rehab literally

373
00:18:08,119 --> 00:18:10,349
and just gave them my keys
and said, don't let me out.

374
00:18:11,569 --> 00:18:13,199
Um, I went back to college.

375
00:18:13,599 --> 00:18:14,729
I got my degree.

376
00:18:15,079 --> 00:18:18,229
I got a good job, quote
unquote, in New York City.

377
00:18:18,739 --> 00:18:21,219
Um, after that I got
an even better job.

378
00:18:21,219 --> 00:18:22,869
I worked my way up
the ladder again.

379
00:18:23,099 --> 00:18:27,619
And I had sort of a
relationship where it was

380
00:18:27,639 --> 00:18:30,179
like, okay, I'm not going
to mess with you guys.

381
00:18:30,449 --> 00:18:33,369
You guys don't mess with me
and let's just all get along.

382
00:18:33,979 --> 00:18:36,344
And that was fine for a while.

383
00:18:38,624 --> 00:18:42,274
So I got divorced maybe three
years into the relationship.

384
00:18:42,304 --> 00:18:43,284
It wasn't very long.

385
00:18:43,284 --> 00:18:47,874
The kids were very young
and, um, it was a long

386
00:18:47,874 --> 00:18:49,214
time before I dated again.

387
00:18:49,604 --> 00:18:55,564
It's a very long time, but it
was about in my late forties.

388
00:18:55,644 --> 00:18:58,174
I'm at the top of my
game in my career.

389
00:18:59,109 --> 00:19:02,039
Um, aside from the fact
that I have these beings

390
00:19:02,049 --> 00:19:04,089
that pop up every now and
they're not as intrusive

391
00:19:04,089 --> 00:19:05,769
now, they know I'm not
going to talk to them maybe.

392
00:19:05,769 --> 00:19:08,879
So they're, they're just
not as intrusive or I

393
00:19:08,879 --> 00:19:09,849
learned to live with them.

394
00:19:09,879 --> 00:19:15,099
I don't know which, but I
decide that I'm going to join

395
00:19:15,099 --> 00:19:19,069
one of those internet sites
where you meet a partner.

396
00:19:20,519 --> 00:19:23,229
And I'm viewing the different
sites, choosing which

397
00:19:23,229 --> 00:19:24,489
one I'm going to join.

398
00:19:24,719 --> 00:19:28,469
And when you do that, uh,
they show you some examples

399
00:19:28,509 --> 00:19:30,579
of the women that are on
the sites that are in your

400
00:19:30,589 --> 00:19:33,229
area to try to get the
guy to spend the money.

401
00:19:33,229 --> 00:19:33,539
Right.

402
00:19:34,669 --> 00:19:37,469
And so I'm clicking around
and I I'm on this one

403
00:19:37,499 --> 00:19:39,359
site and there she is.

404
00:19:39,359 --> 00:19:41,139
I mean, she just popped
up and I was like, Oh

405
00:19:41,139 --> 00:19:43,059
my God, that's my wife.

406
00:19:43,949 --> 00:19:44,799
That's my next wife.

407
00:19:46,199 --> 00:19:48,889
So I joined the site
and I sent one email to

408
00:19:48,889 --> 00:19:50,339
her one and one only.

409
00:19:50,339 --> 00:19:52,069
And I told her, I
said, hi, I'm Ray.

410
00:19:52,079 --> 00:19:53,004
You're my wife.

411
00:19:53,164 --> 00:19:55,184
You don't know it yet,
but this is how it is.

412
00:19:55,854 --> 00:19:57,674
And luckily she
found that funny.

413
00:19:57,674 --> 00:19:59,164
I said it in a
more comical way.

414
00:19:59,164 --> 00:20:02,814
Of course, she replied, LOL,
you're out of your mind.

415
00:20:02,824 --> 00:20:03,814
I was like, yeah, I know.

416
00:20:04,244 --> 00:20:07,894
Um, but we started dating
and currently we're married.

417
00:20:07,894 --> 00:20:11,264
We live in this house and,
um, it's a pretty, pretty good

418
00:20:11,264 --> 00:20:17,044
story, but it's when I meet
her that things take a change.

419
00:20:17,944 --> 00:20:23,004
And it was probably
third or fourth week.

420
00:20:23,504 --> 00:20:26,444
Into our dating when we
just begin getting serious.

421
00:20:26,444 --> 00:20:30,114
And she says to me, what
are your spiritual beliefs?

422
00:20:30,604 --> 00:20:34,854
And I said, I don't think
I have any, I have no idea.

423
00:20:35,854 --> 00:20:37,824
And she says, Hmm,
that's interesting.

424
00:20:38,994 --> 00:20:41,074
She says, you know what,
for your birthday this

425
00:20:41,074 --> 00:20:43,644
year, I'm going to buy
you a spiritual clearing.

426
00:20:44,224 --> 00:20:46,214
And I'm like, okay, great.

427
00:20:46,574 --> 00:20:48,154
Uh, we're going to have cake.

428
00:20:48,934 --> 00:20:49,214
I hope.

429
00:20:49,804 --> 00:20:51,624
Because I don't know what
a spiritual clearing is.

430
00:20:51,624 --> 00:20:54,144
I don't know what sort of
thing this is or what it

431
00:20:54,144 --> 00:20:55,574
entails at this moment.

432
00:20:56,504 --> 00:20:58,064
She's like, listen, you
don't have to show up.

433
00:20:58,064 --> 00:20:59,374
You don't have to do anything.

434
00:20:59,624 --> 00:21:01,854
She's going to call you, tell
you when she's going to do it.

435
00:21:02,114 --> 00:21:04,134
Just don't book any
important appointments

436
00:21:04,134 --> 00:21:05,564
on that particular day.

437
00:21:06,414 --> 00:21:08,874
and don't make any
big life changes.

438
00:21:08,944 --> 00:21:09,714
That's what they told me.

439
00:21:09,744 --> 00:21:10,844
I said, okay, I'll do it.

440
00:21:11,704 --> 00:21:14,594
So I'm at work and the lady
calls me and she says, okay,

441
00:21:14,594 --> 00:21:15,554
I'm going to get started.

442
00:21:15,554 --> 00:21:16,754
I'm like, okay, great.

443
00:21:16,794 --> 00:21:17,844
Don't book any appointments.

444
00:21:17,844 --> 00:21:19,254
Don't do any life
changing things.

445
00:21:19,264 --> 00:21:21,104
It was like, I'll
try to avoid that.

446
00:21:21,114 --> 00:21:21,964
Thanks a lot.

447
00:21:22,014 --> 00:21:24,124
Click cake.

448
00:21:26,094 --> 00:21:32,434
So She does the clearing and
sure enough afterwards as she

449
00:21:32,434 --> 00:21:36,754
warned me, I started to feel a
little woozy and I mean woozy

450
00:21:36,764 --> 00:21:41,074
like to the bathroom woozy,
like almost like I felt like I

451
00:21:41,154 --> 00:21:44,114
had a drink, but I haven't had
a drink in almost two decades

452
00:21:45,284 --> 00:21:49,094
and I'm like a little wobbly
and I said, um, I left work

453
00:21:50,144 --> 00:21:51,894
and I said, I got a headache.

454
00:21:51,894 --> 00:21:53,564
I'm just going to go
home and lay down and

455
00:21:53,564 --> 00:21:54,524
this is on a Friday.

456
00:21:55,394 --> 00:21:57,914
So Friday it begins
and here's what begins.

457
00:21:58,214 --> 00:21:59,994
This man comes to me.

458
00:22:00,899 --> 00:22:04,539
This is unlike any of, this is
not floating energy anymore.

459
00:22:04,549 --> 00:22:09,669
This is an actual man
that I see here, not here.

460
00:22:10,759 --> 00:22:15,379
And he comes to me with
a message and he says, I

461
00:22:15,459 --> 00:22:17,699
effed up, I made a mistake.

462
00:22:18,059 --> 00:22:19,439
You can help her.

463
00:22:19,899 --> 00:22:20,599
I cannot.

464
00:22:23,049 --> 00:22:23,989
Don't know who he is.

465
00:22:24,789 --> 00:22:26,349
Don't know who the
message is for.

466
00:22:26,539 --> 00:22:27,849
I have absolutely no idea.

467
00:22:29,589 --> 00:22:32,999
He proceeds to repeat
that message probably

468
00:22:33,009 --> 00:22:36,189
every hour on the hour
on Friday into Saturday.

469
00:22:38,899 --> 00:22:39,939
It's every half hour.

470
00:22:40,779 --> 00:22:44,249
And by Sunday, I
can't function.

471
00:22:45,169 --> 00:22:47,279
It's every just a
couple of minutes.

472
00:22:47,559 --> 00:22:50,279
I don't know exactly what it
was, but I could not function.

473
00:22:50,279 --> 00:22:51,299
I could not drive.

474
00:22:51,749 --> 00:22:55,259
I couldn't do much of anything
without seeing him right

475
00:22:55,259 --> 00:22:56,839
there over and over again.

476
00:22:56,859 --> 00:23:05,089
So I'm, I remember the moment
I'm in a store paying for my

477
00:23:05,089 --> 00:23:06,399
goods, paying for my stuff.

478
00:23:06,399 --> 00:23:08,229
And I took out my card and
I don't know what I did.

479
00:23:08,239 --> 00:23:10,169
Maybe I just
froze or whatever.

480
00:23:10,739 --> 00:23:13,009
And the woman behind
the counter says, sir,

481
00:23:13,049 --> 00:23:14,509
are, are you okay?

482
00:23:15,309 --> 00:23:16,809
And I said, definitely not.

483
00:23:17,789 --> 00:23:18,879
I am not okay.

484
00:23:20,509 --> 00:23:24,909
And I went out to my car and I
sat in there for a moment and

485
00:23:24,909 --> 00:23:27,899
I said, okay, so this insanity
that I've been fighting

486
00:23:27,899 --> 00:23:29,879
off my whole life is here.

487
00:23:31,079 --> 00:23:32,829
This is the, this
is it for me.

488
00:23:33,559 --> 00:23:36,029
So I started thinking about
getting my affairs in order.

489
00:23:36,984 --> 00:23:40,244
I had a will drawn up at
a DNR because I'm going

490
00:23:40,244 --> 00:23:42,794
back to the light and
my brother had all that.

491
00:23:42,794 --> 00:23:44,674
So I just wanted to call
him and make sure he had

492
00:23:44,674 --> 00:23:48,334
the stuff, you know, and
because I'm preparing for

493
00:23:48,334 --> 00:23:49,994
the end, I want to make
sure my children are taken

494
00:23:49,994 --> 00:23:51,784
care of everything else.

495
00:23:52,854 --> 00:23:56,914
Now I have this woman I love
and I have to tell her, I

496
00:23:56,924 --> 00:23:59,604
guess here's the kicker.

497
00:24:00,574 --> 00:24:04,364
She is by trade, a
doctor of psychology

498
00:24:04,404 --> 00:24:05,334
and neuropsychology.

499
00:24:05,434 --> 00:24:07,704
By trade.

500
00:24:08,644 --> 00:24:10,004
That's her day job.

501
00:24:12,434 --> 00:24:14,504
I'm going to tell this
woman I hear people.

502
00:24:14,504 --> 00:24:15,734
I see people.

503
00:24:16,144 --> 00:24:17,624
She's going to just
run for the hills.

504
00:24:17,834 --> 00:24:20,744
Well, I'm crazy anyway, so
I may as well just tell her.

505
00:24:21,204 --> 00:24:23,464
So, she can get on with
her life and maybe she

506
00:24:23,464 --> 00:24:25,474
can recommend somebody
to me that can help me.

507
00:24:26,914 --> 00:24:29,084
So, I figure that that's the
way it's going to happen.

508
00:24:29,974 --> 00:24:33,404
And I begin to tell her
the story and I say,

509
00:24:33,404 --> 00:24:35,824
this man, he's just, he's
there, he's in front of me.

510
00:24:35,944 --> 00:24:37,084
It's like right here.

511
00:24:37,324 --> 00:24:38,594
I can't not see him.

512
00:24:39,134 --> 00:24:41,584
And he says the same message
and I give her the message

513
00:24:42,394 --> 00:24:45,554
and I, and I said, he's a
big stocky guy and he's got

514
00:24:45,554 --> 00:24:48,854
a mustache and a beard thick
and he's got thick black hair.

515
00:24:50,644 --> 00:24:53,864
And she says, Oh, well,
that's probably my dad, silly.

516
00:24:55,524 --> 00:24:56,444
And I was like, what
are you talking about?

517
00:24:57,164 --> 00:24:59,784
She goes, well, I've been
to mediums and my dad comes

518
00:24:59,784 --> 00:25:02,084
through and he's like,
they've all told me he's very,

519
00:25:02,084 --> 00:25:03,454
very strong and powerful.

520
00:25:04,204 --> 00:25:05,274
And I'm like, what's a medium?

521
00:25:06,024 --> 00:25:07,234
What are you even
talking about?

522
00:25:07,834 --> 00:25:09,904
She goes, listen, you're
probably a psychic medium

523
00:25:10,004 --> 00:25:10,894
and you don't even know it.

524
00:25:11,534 --> 00:25:13,064
I used to make
fun of that stuff.

525
00:25:14,314 --> 00:25:16,594
I would, I would be the first
one to crack a joke if you

526
00:25:16,594 --> 00:25:17,904
told me that that was real.

527
00:25:18,804 --> 00:25:24,194
And I'm like, that's not the
response I was expecting.

528
00:25:24,644 --> 00:25:26,934
I thought it was going to
be, here's a number to Dr.

529
00:25:26,934 --> 00:25:28,934
So and so, never
call me again.

530
00:25:29,549 --> 00:25:31,689
That's what I was
expecting, not what I got.

531
00:25:33,589 --> 00:25:37,089
And I said to her, I said,
but the picture on the mantle,

532
00:25:37,119 --> 00:25:38,459
isn't that your father?

533
00:25:38,519 --> 00:25:39,329
And she said, yeah.

534
00:25:39,859 --> 00:25:41,239
I said, well, that
doesn't look like him.

535
00:25:41,239 --> 00:25:44,539
This guy I said was big
husky, had the beard, had

536
00:25:44,539 --> 00:25:46,199
the mustache, had the hair.

537
00:25:46,809 --> 00:25:49,559
And she's like, well, the
picture you're looking at

538
00:25:49,569 --> 00:25:53,079
was from 20 years ago or
20 years before his death.

539
00:25:53,249 --> 00:25:55,129
So that's even longer
than 20 years ago.

540
00:25:55,519 --> 00:25:57,389
She goes, here's what he
looks like on a day to day.

541
00:25:57,389 --> 00:25:58,429
And she shows me the picture.

542
00:25:58,429 --> 00:26:00,009
And I'm like, oh my
God, you know that guy?

543
00:26:01,479 --> 00:26:02,479
She goes, that's my dad.

544
00:26:05,009 --> 00:26:07,939
And in that moment, I
don't know what I felt.

545
00:26:07,959 --> 00:26:11,149
I felt all these different
emotions in a way.

546
00:26:11,149 --> 00:26:11,829
It was good.

547
00:26:11,839 --> 00:26:14,959
I was relieved that I'm
not insane, but at the

548
00:26:14,969 --> 00:26:19,219
same time, then what am I,
what is happening to me?

549
00:26:20,359 --> 00:26:22,749
And it, and I feel like
I'm way back in that

550
00:26:22,759 --> 00:26:27,269
apartment when I was lost
and distraught and turned to

551
00:26:27,269 --> 00:26:29,389
drugs and alcohol because I
didn't know what else to do.

552
00:26:31,269 --> 00:26:35,399
So she says, let me, there's
a medium coming to town

553
00:26:35,469 --> 00:26:37,039
and her name is so and so.

554
00:26:37,039 --> 00:26:39,149
She's very, very well known.

555
00:26:39,589 --> 00:26:42,899
Um, let's make a couple
of appointments with her.

556
00:26:42,899 --> 00:26:45,859
You can sit with her and
you could tell her how you

557
00:26:45,859 --> 00:26:48,679
see things, how you feel
things, and you guys can

558
00:26:48,679 --> 00:26:49,689
just kind of chit chat.

559
00:26:49,959 --> 00:26:51,239
And I'm like, yeah, let's go.

560
00:26:51,269 --> 00:26:51,749
That's good.

561
00:26:51,749 --> 00:26:51,804
That's good.

562
00:26:52,694 --> 00:26:55,334
I'm thinking if I make it that
long, but here's the thing.

563
00:26:55,634 --> 00:26:59,414
As soon as I give her
the message, it's gone.

564
00:26:59,424 --> 00:27:00,274
He's gone.

565
00:27:01,264 --> 00:27:02,834
Because that's what
I was supposed to do.

566
00:27:02,904 --> 00:27:04,734
I was supposed to
deliver the message.

567
00:27:04,974 --> 00:27:05,794
I did not know that.

568
00:27:06,604 --> 00:27:10,584
But as soon as I did, he's
gone and I feel great.

569
00:27:11,744 --> 00:27:15,934
I'm back to this like
mini high vibration,

570
00:27:16,014 --> 00:27:17,014
euphoria feeling.

571
00:27:18,504 --> 00:27:21,759
So I get more messages,
however, and I give them

572
00:27:21,759 --> 00:27:24,619
to her and she always seems
to know who they're for.

573
00:27:25,009 --> 00:27:26,569
And she, she knows the people.

574
00:27:28,379 --> 00:27:30,969
And I remember this one
time because I'm still

575
00:27:30,979 --> 00:27:32,449
not buying this yet.

576
00:27:32,739 --> 00:27:33,209
Okay.

577
00:27:33,299 --> 00:27:36,169
I'm just still not believing
it a hundred percent.

578
00:27:37,339 --> 00:27:38,959
And this guy came to
me and he gave me a lot

579
00:27:38,959 --> 00:27:42,409
of personal information
about, um, his death and

580
00:27:42,529 --> 00:27:45,069
it, and it was supposed to
be delivered to his wife.

581
00:27:45,939 --> 00:27:47,759
And I gave it to
her to deliver.

582
00:27:48,119 --> 00:27:50,969
But at the end of the message,
he said this to me, he said,

583
00:27:52,404 --> 00:27:53,774
Remember the silly shoes.

584
00:27:56,224 --> 00:27:57,114
I don't know what that means.

585
00:27:57,604 --> 00:27:59,454
I don't know what any of
the message means actually.

586
00:27:59,454 --> 00:28:01,824
And I give this to her and
she has dinner with the woman

587
00:28:02,164 --> 00:28:05,774
and I said, whatever you do,
honey, don't tell her it's me.

588
00:28:05,894 --> 00:28:08,484
I don't want anybody to
know I'm this psychic thing,

589
00:28:08,494 --> 00:28:09,444
whatever you called it.

590
00:28:09,494 --> 00:28:11,434
I'm, I don't want the
neighbors finding out.

591
00:28:11,674 --> 00:28:13,744
There's no way they're
going to think I'm nuts.

592
00:28:13,944 --> 00:28:15,034
Everybody's going
to think I'm nuts.

593
00:28:15,524 --> 00:28:16,864
Just, just say you heard it.

594
00:28:16,864 --> 00:28:18,634
You, you talk to
somebody or something.

595
00:28:18,644 --> 00:28:19,374
She says, I will, I will.

596
00:28:20,384 --> 00:28:21,854
And I said, by the way,
if she says anything

597
00:28:21,854 --> 00:28:24,284
about silly shoes where
she understands what that

598
00:28:24,284 --> 00:28:26,384
means, I'll be a believer.

599
00:28:27,404 --> 00:28:30,164
So she takes the message,
delivers the message.

600
00:28:30,834 --> 00:28:34,924
Next day I see her and
she says, Oh my God,

601
00:28:34,924 --> 00:28:37,334
Ray, you don't know what
you did for that woman.

602
00:28:37,854 --> 00:28:40,194
She needed to know
that information.

603
00:28:40,654 --> 00:28:42,134
She needed that closure.

604
00:28:43,554 --> 00:28:45,194
And I was like, okay, great.

605
00:28:45,234 --> 00:28:46,254
What about the silly shoes?

606
00:28:46,814 --> 00:28:48,114
Because that's all
I wanted to know.

607
00:28:48,814 --> 00:28:51,094
And she goes, Oh, the
shoes that was hysterical.

608
00:28:51,094 --> 00:28:54,364
She said that was their
first date and he wore

609
00:28:54,364 --> 00:28:56,024
the most ridiculous shoes.

610
00:28:56,284 --> 00:28:59,074
And that was a running joke
through their entire marriage.

611
00:28:59,904 --> 00:29:03,874
And now I'm just, now
I got to believe this.

612
00:29:04,104 --> 00:29:06,224
I told her I would believe
it if he said anything

613
00:29:06,224 --> 00:29:07,054
about the silly shoes.

614
00:29:09,604 --> 00:29:14,394
So we go to see the medium
and I sit with her and

615
00:29:14,394 --> 00:29:16,144
I said, hi, I'm Ray.

616
00:29:17,004 --> 00:29:21,144
She said, she looks at me and
she goes, Oh, you're that Ray.

617
00:29:21,864 --> 00:29:23,314
And I was like, Oh, what Ray?

618
00:29:23,904 --> 00:29:25,274
She goes, just tell
me what's going on.

619
00:29:25,274 --> 00:29:25,674
Right.

620
00:29:26,314 --> 00:29:27,804
And I said, well,
I'm losing my mind.

621
00:29:27,984 --> 00:29:28,604
I'm crazy.

622
00:29:28,604 --> 00:29:29,554
I see things.

623
00:29:29,554 --> 00:29:29,924
I see.

624
00:29:30,074 --> 00:29:34,014
People, they sometimes talk to
me and I see things on a, what

625
00:29:34,014 --> 00:29:35,214
looks like a movie screen.

626
00:29:35,214 --> 00:29:37,014
And, and she's like,
tell me about that.

627
00:29:37,064 --> 00:29:37,854
How does it start?

628
00:29:37,854 --> 00:29:38,764
How does it begin?

629
00:29:38,764 --> 00:29:39,624
What happens first?

630
00:29:39,624 --> 00:29:42,014
And I proceed to tell her
about the vibrations and this

631
00:29:42,094 --> 00:29:45,434
and this and this leading
up to the, the screen.

632
00:29:46,424 --> 00:29:49,514
And she said, she stops me
and she goes, that's exactly

633
00:29:49,514 --> 00:29:51,064
the way I see them too.

634
00:29:52,394 --> 00:29:53,654
That's how we all see them.

635
00:29:54,964 --> 00:29:57,294
And I was like, okay.

636
00:29:58,794 --> 00:30:02,324
And again, a little relief,
not much because I still don't

637
00:30:02,334 --> 00:30:03,164
know what to do with this.

638
00:30:05,279 --> 00:30:07,819
And I tell her about two other
types of premonitions that I

639
00:30:07,829 --> 00:30:10,289
have and she says, this one's
clairvoyance and this one is

640
00:30:10,289 --> 00:30:11,349
this and that one is that.

641
00:30:11,889 --> 00:30:14,839
And she's like, that's
really rare that one

642
00:30:14,839 --> 00:30:16,359
guy has all of these.

643
00:30:17,609 --> 00:30:19,459
And I'm like, you know,
I don't even know.

644
00:30:19,459 --> 00:30:20,439
She goes, women, yes.

645
00:30:20,519 --> 00:30:21,279
Men, no.

646
00:30:21,399 --> 00:30:23,569
And I was like, I kind of
get that because my wife can

647
00:30:23,569 --> 00:30:25,319
do 46 things at one time.

648
00:30:25,589 --> 00:30:28,249
I can do two, you know, I
could chew gum and walk.

649
00:30:28,309 --> 00:30:28,749
I'm good.

650
00:30:29,749 --> 00:30:31,209
Um, so.

651
00:30:31,209 --> 00:30:31,279
Cool.

652
00:30:33,079 --> 00:30:38,789
She's telling me you're,
you're the real deal and this

653
00:30:38,789 --> 00:30:41,499
is not necessarily what I want
to hear, but it's better than

654
00:30:41,539 --> 00:30:45,799
I'm nuts, I guess, so I wanted
to exchange numbers with

655
00:30:45,799 --> 00:30:47,839
her and she acted, you know,
she's like, Oh, I don't know

656
00:30:47,839 --> 00:30:48,959
where my business card is.

657
00:30:48,999 --> 00:30:50,809
And so I just, you
know, kind of left my

658
00:30:50,819 --> 00:30:51,749
tail between my legs.

659
00:30:52,309 --> 00:30:54,049
My wife goes in next and
she comes out and she

660
00:30:54,049 --> 00:30:54,879
goes, are you excited?

661
00:30:54,879 --> 00:30:55,569
Are you excited?

662
00:30:55,859 --> 00:30:57,119
And I say, excited for what?

663
00:30:57,569 --> 00:30:59,669
And she goes, she's
going to work with you.

664
00:30:59,679 --> 00:31:01,109
You're going to be her mentee.

665
00:31:01,179 --> 00:31:03,389
She's going to be your
mentor for the next year.

666
00:31:03,799 --> 00:31:06,219
And I'm like, she didn't, she
didn't want my phone number.

667
00:31:06,429 --> 00:31:08,439
And she says, yeah, well,
she doesn't take students

668
00:31:08,439 --> 00:31:10,699
anymore, but she's making
an exception for you.

669
00:31:11,909 --> 00:31:13,979
And she saved my
life because she.

670
00:31:14,239 --> 00:31:18,689
Proceeded to tell me her
story about how her parents

671
00:31:18,789 --> 00:31:21,609
did not believe her and
her parents put her in

672
00:31:21,609 --> 00:31:22,479
a mental institution.

673
00:31:23,374 --> 00:31:24,734
thinking she was
schizophrenic.

674
00:31:25,024 --> 00:31:27,334
So she's been fighting
this, trying to explain

675
00:31:27,334 --> 00:31:29,674
that she's not crazy
for most of her life.

676
00:31:29,934 --> 00:31:31,754
She totally knew where
I was coming from.

677
00:31:34,184 --> 00:31:39,734
And she taught me a lot
about how to control this.

678
00:31:40,304 --> 00:31:42,274
And there were moments
when I said, you got to

679
00:31:42,274 --> 00:31:44,394
tell me how to make the
stop, make it go away.

680
00:31:44,454 --> 00:31:45,804
I don't want this anymore.

681
00:31:46,014 --> 00:31:47,014
This is not a gift.

682
00:31:47,014 --> 00:31:48,634
This is absolutely ridiculous.

683
00:31:49,094 --> 00:31:50,544
I don't make it stop.

684
00:31:50,544 --> 00:31:51,464
Just make it stop.

685
00:31:51,464 --> 00:31:52,994
And she goes, give
it two more weeks.

686
00:31:53,024 --> 00:31:54,784
And if you still decide
you want it to stop.

687
00:31:55,104 --> 00:31:55,964
I'll help you do that.

688
00:31:56,494 --> 00:31:59,014
I don't even know if there was
a real way to make it stop.

689
00:31:59,044 --> 00:32:00,374
She just wanted
me to calm down.

690
00:32:01,724 --> 00:32:04,914
So I worked with her for
a year and she did, as we

691
00:32:04,914 --> 00:32:07,784
progressed, really made
me feel more confident.

692
00:32:08,454 --> 00:32:11,264
Um, she did help me turn
it off and turn it on.

693
00:32:11,844 --> 00:32:17,474
And she taught me how to
meet my spirit guide, the

694
00:32:17,494 --> 00:32:20,004
guide who spoke to me,
the one who saved my life

695
00:32:20,024 --> 00:32:21,264
over and over and over.

696
00:32:22,279 --> 00:32:25,429
And that was an
amazing moment.

697
00:32:25,889 --> 00:32:34,694
I mean, meeting him, her,
they, whatever, was like, The,

698
00:32:34,764 --> 00:32:36,014
one of the greatest moments.

699
00:32:36,174 --> 00:32:39,374
It was like, you know, uh,
meeting Elvis or something.

700
00:32:39,384 --> 00:32:42,674
It was just, I, I just
wanted to, to hug him,

701
00:32:43,254 --> 00:32:44,484
saved my life so many times.

702
00:32:44,484 --> 00:32:46,424
I want to, why,
why did you do it?

703
00:32:46,684 --> 00:32:48,214
I'm, I'm not special.

704
00:32:48,584 --> 00:32:52,014
I'm, I've never done
anything good for anybody.

705
00:32:53,134 --> 00:32:53,664
Why?

706
00:32:54,844 --> 00:32:56,834
And he hands me a piece
of paper, not a piece of

707
00:32:56,834 --> 00:32:58,654
paper, a pad, And a pen.

708
00:33:01,554 --> 00:33:04,284
And I, I guess I got to
write it, write a book.

709
00:33:04,904 --> 00:33:06,164
He's telling me I
got to write a book.

710
00:33:08,674 --> 00:33:11,084
And this is how the first
book comes to be the

711
00:33:11,084 --> 00:33:12,354
atheist in the afterlife.

712
00:33:12,714 --> 00:33:14,634
And it's a story of
me going from atheism

713
00:33:15,144 --> 00:33:16,124
to being a believer.

714
00:33:17,304 --> 00:33:27,974
And it's that relationship
led me to the next mentor

715
00:33:28,174 --> 00:33:31,074
in my life and the way
we found each other.

716
00:33:31,819 --> 00:33:34,919
is another crazy story because
it was my birthday weekend.

717
00:33:34,919 --> 00:33:37,939
It's one year after
the year that I had

718
00:33:37,939 --> 00:33:39,069
met my first mentor.

719
00:33:39,329 --> 00:33:43,039
Um, We go away every year for
my birthday and we do this all

720
00:33:43,039 --> 00:33:45,689
the time now because something
crazy always happens.

721
00:33:46,669 --> 00:33:51,159
And we went away and, um,
while we were away, she took

722
00:33:51,159 --> 00:33:57,689
out a picture of her dad that
the medium drew of her dad

723
00:33:57,729 --> 00:33:59,219
because he's a spirit artist.

724
00:33:59,219 --> 00:34:02,309
I looked at the photo
and I was like, Oh my

725
00:34:02,339 --> 00:34:04,729
God, that's exactly
the way I see your dad.

726
00:34:04,739 --> 00:34:06,689
Just like with that shirt on.

727
00:34:07,154 --> 00:34:09,684
It was like a
distinctive shirt for

728
00:34:09,684 --> 00:34:12,724
that era when he died.

729
00:34:14,244 --> 00:34:17,474
So there's no mistaking
that shirt, the beard,

730
00:34:17,484 --> 00:34:19,504
the mustache, the
hair, the whole thing.

731
00:34:19,904 --> 00:34:21,724
And I was like,
who is this guy?

732
00:34:21,744 --> 00:34:23,194
I have to meet this guy.

733
00:34:23,919 --> 00:34:27,359
And so we looked him up on
the internet and it turns

734
00:34:27,359 --> 00:34:29,679
out he's a pretty big deal.

735
00:34:30,259 --> 00:34:33,249
And he's the guy who teaches a
lot of the people that you may

736
00:34:33,249 --> 00:34:36,099
see on television, although
he's never been on TV himself.

737
00:34:36,529 --> 00:34:37,929
He has no desire to be.

738
00:34:38,319 --> 00:34:40,589
He is the teacher
of the teachers.

739
00:34:40,909 --> 00:34:42,819
And I'm like, he's never,
you know, this, I don't

740
00:34:42,819 --> 00:34:44,629
know what's going to
happen here, but we get to

741
00:34:44,629 --> 00:34:45,849
his website and it says.

742
00:34:45,919 --> 00:34:51,579
Now taking applications
for a two year mentorship

743
00:34:51,599 --> 00:34:53,459
program with Medium Joe.

744
00:34:55,329 --> 00:35:00,169
The deadline to apply
is February 15th.

745
00:35:01,229 --> 00:35:02,369
That's my birthday.

746
00:35:04,229 --> 00:35:05,409
She says, are you
going to do it?

747
00:35:05,409 --> 00:35:06,629
I said, am I going to do it?

748
00:35:06,819 --> 00:35:09,789
I said, if there's, if any
of this stuff is real, that's

749
00:35:09,789 --> 00:35:11,579
a universal intervention.

750
00:35:11,639 --> 00:35:13,749
I think now I'm talking
like everybody else.

751
00:35:14,964 --> 00:35:16,474
And she says, great,
this is great.

752
00:35:16,634 --> 00:35:19,574
So I submit my application
and it doesn't stop there.

753
00:35:19,574 --> 00:35:21,344
They send you back another
application and you

754
00:35:21,344 --> 00:35:23,494
fill that out and then a
bigger application comes

755
00:35:23,494 --> 00:35:24,534
and you send that back.

756
00:35:25,014 --> 00:35:28,604
And it's a long drawn out
process because, and there's

757
00:35:28,604 --> 00:35:29,514
an interview as well.

758
00:35:29,524 --> 00:35:31,684
They want to know undeniably.

759
00:35:32,249 --> 00:35:34,639
That you are the real
deal or you cannot get in.

760
00:35:35,039 --> 00:35:38,509
This program costs thousands
of dollars to get into.

761
00:35:39,429 --> 00:35:42,959
And I figured after a
while when I didn't hear

762
00:35:42,959 --> 00:35:45,219
from them that I just
wasn't the real deal.

763
00:35:45,409 --> 00:35:47,849
And this is, you know,
I'm going back to denial.

764
00:35:47,849 --> 00:35:48,939
This is all in my head.

765
00:35:49,639 --> 00:35:55,599
And um, but I sent an email
to his assistant and she

766
00:35:55,599 --> 00:35:58,319
said, listen, bear with,
bear with Joe because there's

767
00:35:58,319 --> 00:36:00,089
hundreds of applications.

768
00:36:01,219 --> 00:36:01,979
I was like, wow.

769
00:36:02,279 --> 00:36:02,719
Okay.

770
00:36:03,469 --> 00:36:04,099
And I did.

771
00:36:05,309 --> 00:36:08,309
And I remember the moment
I got the email that said,

772
00:36:08,309 --> 00:36:10,219
congratulations here.

773
00:36:10,289 --> 00:36:13,369
Here's the, though, the
integrity of this man.

774
00:36:14,329 --> 00:36:15,769
So you get an idea of him.

775
00:36:16,669 --> 00:36:19,299
He had hundreds of
applications and this program

776
00:36:19,299 --> 00:36:20,989
costs thousands of dollars.

777
00:36:21,579 --> 00:36:23,589
And when I showed up to
my first day of class,

778
00:36:24,259 --> 00:36:25,889
I was the 11th person.

779
00:36:26,679 --> 00:36:27,569
There was 11 of us.

780
00:36:27,569 --> 00:36:30,009
I don't know if I was number
11, there was 11 of us.

781
00:36:31,669 --> 00:36:32,599
That's all that made it.

782
00:36:33,094 --> 00:36:37,074
He could have taken everyone's
money and really made a nice

783
00:36:37,544 --> 00:36:39,034
chunk of change for himself.

784
00:36:39,694 --> 00:36:40,064
Didn't.

785
00:36:40,974 --> 00:36:43,084
11 of us were there.

786
00:36:44,944 --> 00:36:47,094
And I was the least
experienced of all.

787
00:36:47,724 --> 00:36:49,144
I, I didn't know the verbiage.

788
00:36:49,184 --> 00:36:51,284
I didn't know what
anybody was talking about.

789
00:36:51,594 --> 00:36:56,714
I was just some guy with a
natural ability that didn't

790
00:36:56,714 --> 00:36:58,134
go over well with classmates.

791
00:36:58,829 --> 00:37:05,179
but you know, um, it did
with him and he's, I've been

792
00:37:05,179 --> 00:37:06,329
with him for four years now.

793
00:37:06,329 --> 00:37:07,519
It's a two year
program, right?

794
00:37:07,519 --> 00:37:09,779
I've been with him four
years, took me 10 years

795
00:37:09,779 --> 00:37:10,709
to graduate college.

796
00:37:10,709 --> 00:37:12,249
So I'm like right
on track with that.

797
00:37:12,919 --> 00:37:16,629
And, um, you know,
he's taught me so much.

798
00:37:16,959 --> 00:37:20,709
I mean, he's taken me to
a level of spirituality,

799
00:37:20,719 --> 00:37:23,859
not just mediumship,
but I mean everything.

800
00:37:23,869 --> 00:37:25,959
He's like, Ray, you've
been fighting your entire

801
00:37:25,959 --> 00:37:27,609
life for everything.

802
00:37:28,109 --> 00:37:29,909
Have you ever thought
about not fighting?

803
00:37:29,909 --> 00:37:31,659
And I said, well, then
how will I get anything?

804
00:37:32,284 --> 00:37:34,894
He goes, you're always
fighting upstream.

805
00:37:34,894 --> 00:37:36,634
You're always trying
to swim upstream.

806
00:37:36,634 --> 00:37:40,054
He goes, if the stream's
coming down, the fish

807
00:37:40,054 --> 00:37:41,194
are coming towards you.

808
00:37:41,444 --> 00:37:43,804
Just pick out the
ones you want and let

809
00:37:43,804 --> 00:37:44,794
the other ones pass.

810
00:37:45,764 --> 00:37:47,114
You don't have to move.

811
00:37:50,344 --> 00:37:53,274
And I was like, wow,
maybe I don't have to

812
00:37:53,274 --> 00:37:54,804
fight for everything.

813
00:37:55,884 --> 00:38:01,754
And then he taught me how to
manifest using nothing more

814
00:38:02,614 --> 00:38:06,914
than this, and I remember
the first time I tried it

815
00:38:07,424 --> 00:38:09,024
at first, I didn't try it.

816
00:38:09,034 --> 00:38:09,854
Here's what happened.

817
00:38:09,904 --> 00:38:12,394
I was stuck in between
a rock and a hard place.

818
00:38:13,884 --> 00:38:16,314
I was short 10 grand
for my kid's college.

819
00:38:16,314 --> 00:38:18,754
He had to, he was going
away to school, living

820
00:38:18,764 --> 00:38:20,084
on campus, campus.

821
00:38:20,494 --> 00:38:24,569
Somehow I made a mathematical
error of exactly 10, 000.

822
00:38:25,959 --> 00:38:29,749
So I'm embarrassed with
the school and I, there's

823
00:38:29,759 --> 00:38:32,449
no way I can tell my son
that he can't show up to

824
00:38:32,449 --> 00:38:33,819
school in a couple of days.

825
00:38:34,309 --> 00:38:35,589
I just need to find 10 grand.

826
00:38:36,819 --> 00:38:40,829
So I said, maybe this
thing will work and you're

827
00:38:40,829 --> 00:38:42,749
supposed to do it in the
morning and in the evening.

828
00:38:42,749 --> 00:38:46,299
And there's a process that
we do and I explain all of

829
00:38:46,299 --> 00:38:48,969
how to do this in, in, I
think it's in both books.

830
00:38:48,969 --> 00:38:50,389
It's definitely in
the second book.

831
00:38:50,909 --> 00:38:54,819
Um, and I w I was doing
it six times a day though.

832
00:38:54,849 --> 00:38:56,119
I wasn't doing it twice a day.

833
00:38:56,149 --> 00:38:56,949
I couldn't mess around.

834
00:38:56,989 --> 00:38:58,129
I needed to this money.

835
00:38:58,434 --> 00:39:01,304
So after six times, my
mail comes very late.

836
00:39:01,304 --> 00:39:02,324
It comes at five o'clock.

837
00:39:02,324 --> 00:39:05,334
And I remember that my son
had given me the mail and

838
00:39:05,334 --> 00:39:08,434
I looked through briefly
and I see that I have a

839
00:39:08,434 --> 00:39:10,554
letter from my accountant
and it's a big letter.

840
00:39:10,554 --> 00:39:12,824
It's like an envelope
because I had just filed

841
00:39:12,824 --> 00:39:14,624
my taxes and I always owe.

842
00:39:15,384 --> 00:39:18,024
And I'm like, you, you, you
don't understand universe.

843
00:39:18,084 --> 00:39:20,684
Listen, I need money.

844
00:39:21,264 --> 00:39:22,474
I don't need this.

845
00:39:23,464 --> 00:39:25,864
And I throw it aside
and I get back to it.

846
00:39:26,334 --> 00:39:27,784
And I'm like, I need 10, 000.

847
00:39:27,784 --> 00:39:29,464
We are co creators.

848
00:39:29,644 --> 00:39:32,544
I know this, you, we're
going to work together.

849
00:39:32,694 --> 00:39:33,624
I need 10, 000.

850
00:39:33,674 --> 00:39:35,334
I need 10, 000 now.

851
00:39:35,884 --> 00:39:40,044
And you know, I wasn't asking,
I was like, I need this now.

852
00:39:41,844 --> 00:39:43,054
Next day, nothing.

853
00:39:43,124 --> 00:39:46,604
Again, nightfall comes
around and I decide to

854
00:39:46,604 --> 00:39:49,504
go through the mail and I
opened this envelope that

855
00:39:49,504 --> 00:39:50,434
was from the accountant.

856
00:39:51,504 --> 00:39:53,264
My accountant does it
the same way every year.

857
00:39:53,264 --> 00:39:55,334
The first letter is thank
you for your business.

858
00:39:55,404 --> 00:39:56,794
You owe me this much money.

859
00:39:57,144 --> 00:39:57,684
Okay.

860
00:39:58,654 --> 00:39:59,854
Next one comes out.

861
00:40:00,234 --> 00:40:03,424
It says you have overpaid
the federal government

862
00:40:03,424 --> 00:40:06,234
by 8, 200 and something,
something dollars and

863
00:40:06,234 --> 00:40:07,194
something, something cents.

864
00:40:09,499 --> 00:40:10,759
And I read it four times.

865
00:40:10,759 --> 00:40:11,819
You overpaid.

866
00:40:11,829 --> 00:40:16,809
That means I get a refund
of 8, 200 and change.

867
00:40:17,979 --> 00:40:20,709
And I put the letter down
and I took out the return,

868
00:40:20,709 --> 00:40:24,129
and another letter comes out
and it says, you've overpaid

869
00:40:24,129 --> 00:40:27,849
the state of New Jersey 1,200
and something, something

870
00:40:27,854 --> 00:40:29,289
dollars and something cents.

871
00:40:29,409 --> 00:40:33,589
That's exactly $10,000,
just a few dollars over.

872
00:40:34,139 --> 00:40:38,109
And I wept like a child,
I dropped to my knees.

873
00:40:38,319 --> 00:40:39,879
It was there the first day.

874
00:40:40,889 --> 00:40:43,529
It was there after the
fifth or sixth time

875
00:40:43,529 --> 00:40:44,459
that I had done this.

876
00:40:47,329 --> 00:40:51,269
And I, I, I'm a believer.

877
00:40:51,899 --> 00:40:52,659
to say the least.

878
00:40:54,169 --> 00:41:00,049
And so the first book, you
know, is how I got to that

879
00:41:00,049 --> 00:41:04,809
position, how I, how I went
from atheism to spiritualism.

880
00:41:04,989 --> 00:41:08,649
And then the second book picks
up where I meet my second

881
00:41:08,649 --> 00:41:13,319
mentor and he takes me to
higher and higher levels.

882
00:41:13,909 --> 00:41:17,749
And as I'm using these
Techniques that he's teaching

883
00:41:17,749 --> 00:41:22,409
me because I'm a skeptic
and I am a diehard skeptic.

884
00:41:22,899 --> 00:41:25,349
I have to understand
the science that's

885
00:41:25,349 --> 00:41:27,049
behind the process.

886
00:41:28,069 --> 00:41:31,719
So I go back to school for
metaphysics, which is where we

887
00:41:31,719 --> 00:41:34,449
take science and spirituality
and we bring them together.

888
00:41:34,989 --> 00:41:36,369
And I also studied physics.

889
00:41:36,969 --> 00:41:39,849
I studied Einstein,
Niels Bohr, Tesla,

890
00:41:40,199 --> 00:41:41,439
Hubble, you name it.

891
00:41:41,729 --> 00:41:42,559
I studied them all.

892
00:41:43,694 --> 00:41:49,594
And I started to figure out
what was behind the curtain.

893
00:41:49,594 --> 00:41:51,174
What makes this work?

894
00:41:51,694 --> 00:41:54,054
So I think about it and
I bring it about, well,

895
00:41:54,054 --> 00:41:55,194
how does that happen?

896
00:41:56,284 --> 00:41:59,394
And I started to put
these things together

897
00:42:00,504 --> 00:42:03,094
and it works because the
universe speaks vibration.

898
00:42:03,104 --> 00:42:05,624
It does not speak Spanish,
English, French, or any other

899
00:42:05,624 --> 00:42:06,634
language that you speak.

900
00:42:06,644 --> 00:42:07,994
It speaks vibration.

901
00:42:08,484 --> 00:42:10,504
So when you think
of thought, you must

902
00:42:10,504 --> 00:42:11,774
visualize that thought.

903
00:42:13,694 --> 00:42:16,914
Say it in a positive tense
that that is what you want.

904
00:42:17,789 --> 00:42:21,739
Never say, I don't want to be
in debt because the visual is

905
00:42:21,809 --> 00:42:26,349
I and debt, so you're getting
more debt because that's

906
00:42:26,349 --> 00:42:27,179
what you're sending out.

907
00:42:27,239 --> 00:42:28,419
It doesn't speak English.

908
00:42:28,429 --> 00:42:33,779
Remember, I want an abundance
of money where I need 10, 000.

909
00:42:33,779 --> 00:42:35,979
You say it that
way repeatedly.

910
00:42:36,159 --> 00:42:40,359
You envision the 10, 000
and you send that signal

911
00:42:40,359 --> 00:42:43,119
out on that vibration.

912
00:42:44,489 --> 00:42:48,239
The earth resonant
frequency is 7.

913
00:42:48,239 --> 00:42:48,549
83 Hertz.

914
00:42:49,234 --> 00:42:51,884
We try to get as close to
that frequency as we can

915
00:42:51,884 --> 00:42:55,384
get because the earth lives
harmoniously in the universe.

916
00:42:55,634 --> 00:42:58,534
If we get there, we're
harmonious with the

917
00:42:58,544 --> 00:43:01,154
earth that is harmonious
with the universe.

918
00:43:01,324 --> 00:43:04,794
Now you ask, that's when
you ask, that's when you

919
00:43:04,804 --> 00:43:07,484
send your out your signal
and you try to stay in

920
00:43:07,484 --> 00:43:09,884
your resonant frequency
for as long as you can.

921
00:43:11,174 --> 00:43:12,304
And if you can do that.

922
00:43:13,324 --> 00:43:15,524
You're going to, you're
going to get what it is

923
00:43:15,544 --> 00:43:16,574
that you're asking for.

924
00:43:18,094 --> 00:43:19,204
It works like a cell phone.

925
00:43:19,214 --> 00:43:22,414
If I dial my cell phone
and I dial your number,

926
00:43:22,814 --> 00:43:23,884
why do you pick it up?

927
00:43:23,884 --> 00:43:24,384
It rings.

928
00:43:24,384 --> 00:43:25,134
Why does it ring?

929
00:43:25,134 --> 00:43:28,274
Because my frequency
aligns with your frequency

930
00:43:28,534 --> 00:43:31,424
and your phone rings and
then we can communicate

931
00:43:31,454 --> 00:43:32,644
over that frequency.

932
00:43:33,384 --> 00:43:35,634
It's exactly like a
satellite dish and a radio.

933
00:43:35,634 --> 00:43:38,694
You tune it into the right
frequency and guess what?

934
00:43:38,704 --> 00:43:39,764
You get to hear the song.

935
00:43:40,034 --> 00:43:43,384
If it's off just a smidgen,
you're getting static.

936
00:43:44,249 --> 00:43:45,609
So you got to be on point.

937
00:43:46,679 --> 00:43:48,899
And when you master the
technique, you're going

938
00:43:48,899 --> 00:43:49,989
to keep getting stuff.

939
00:43:50,339 --> 00:43:52,349
It's just going to keep,
I did it four more times.

940
00:43:52,659 --> 00:43:54,019
I was like, let me go for 24.

941
00:43:54,029 --> 00:43:55,289
Let me do whatever it was.

942
00:43:55,459 --> 00:43:56,319
I didn't abuse it.

943
00:43:56,539 --> 00:43:57,279
I really didn't.

944
00:43:57,819 --> 00:44:00,229
I did it when I needed
money in an exact amount.

945
00:44:00,279 --> 00:44:01,729
I always ask for
the exact amount.

946
00:44:01,729 --> 00:44:02,679
And I got the amount.

947
00:44:03,159 --> 00:44:04,709
This story is in the book too.

948
00:44:04,729 --> 00:44:05,779
This is in the second book.

949
00:44:06,989 --> 00:44:12,294
So I continued learning about
science and spirituality

950
00:44:12,304 --> 00:44:16,094
and how I could put them
together and I evolved.

951
00:44:16,184 --> 00:44:19,664
While I was writing the
second book, I had my

952
00:44:19,694 --> 00:44:21,474
spiritual awakening.

953
00:44:21,474 --> 00:44:23,264
Now, I believe people
have many awakenings.

954
00:44:23,334 --> 00:44:27,584
I had it when I I met her,
my wife, and I met her father

955
00:44:28,034 --> 00:44:30,694
and, you know, there were
many, many awakenings, but

956
00:44:30,704 --> 00:44:35,034
the biggest one was while I
was writing that second book.

957
00:44:35,944 --> 00:44:41,194
And it was when I learned how
to lose negative emotions.

958
00:44:41,754 --> 00:44:48,054
For me, my go to emotion
was anger, was always

959
00:44:48,054 --> 00:44:49,084
anger for everything.

960
00:44:50,384 --> 00:44:51,924
So if I was sad, I was angry.

961
00:44:52,014 --> 00:44:53,074
If I was this, I was angry.

962
00:44:53,084 --> 00:44:56,724
Any negative emotion was
instantly transmuted to anger

963
00:44:56,724 --> 00:44:58,074
because that's what I knew.

964
00:44:58,484 --> 00:44:59,284
I knew chaos.

965
00:44:59,284 --> 00:44:59,974
I knew anger.

966
00:45:01,254 --> 00:45:02,554
And I knew I had
to get rid of that.

967
00:45:03,724 --> 00:45:06,944
And I started practicing
techniques to get rid of that.

968
00:45:07,784 --> 00:45:10,084
I started using, uh,
techniques both from my

969
00:45:10,084 --> 00:45:12,524
mentor, but also Eckhart
Tolle, who suggests that

970
00:45:12,524 --> 00:45:17,614
you take yourself Out of the
situation you're in and you

971
00:45:17,614 --> 00:45:20,474
look at yourself from the
third person as though you're

972
00:45:20,474 --> 00:45:23,824
a director of your own life,
starring in your own movie

973
00:45:24,044 --> 00:45:26,304
and you tell yourself what
you want yourself to do.

974
00:45:26,824 --> 00:45:29,344
And I did it over and
over and over and over.

975
00:45:29,534 --> 00:45:32,254
Even if I made the mistake,
I would go back and say, this

976
00:45:32,274 --> 00:45:33,524
is the way I meant to do it.

977
00:45:33,544 --> 00:45:35,024
And I would visualize it.

978
00:45:35,064 --> 00:45:36,444
This is how I meant to do it.

979
00:45:36,674 --> 00:45:37,944
This is how I meant to do it.

980
00:45:39,784 --> 00:45:42,614
So one day something
transpires where

981
00:45:42,634 --> 00:45:43,804
I should be livid.

982
00:45:44,509 --> 00:45:45,809
And I should have blew my top.

983
00:45:46,719 --> 00:45:48,119
Nothing happened at all.

984
00:45:50,509 --> 00:45:54,029
I was driving my car and
it was an expensive car.

985
00:45:54,029 --> 00:45:54,859
I just got it.

986
00:45:55,109 --> 00:45:56,309
And I thought that
was a big deal.

987
00:45:56,319 --> 00:46:00,219
I don't think it's a big deal
anymore, but when I bought it,

988
00:46:00,219 --> 00:46:03,259
I thought it was, I thought
it was a status, a symbol

989
00:46:03,269 --> 00:46:04,329
stat, you know, whatever.

990
00:46:05,889 --> 00:46:09,099
It was silly to even think
that way in hindsight, but I

991
00:46:09,099 --> 00:46:13,669
drove it into a deer and it
was a snowy night and I was

992
00:46:13,689 --> 00:46:16,169
upset with myself that I had
done something so stupid.

993
00:46:17,579 --> 00:46:18,849
I didn't feel the anger.

994
00:46:19,709 --> 00:46:20,749
I felt nothing.

995
00:46:20,799 --> 00:46:22,529
I felt compassion
for the deer.

996
00:46:23,074 --> 00:46:24,524
Who the hell am I?

997
00:46:25,424 --> 00:46:26,674
What have I turned into?

998
00:46:28,494 --> 00:46:31,914
It's great, but I don't
recognize myself anymore.

999
00:46:32,774 --> 00:46:34,024
So I get out of the car.

1000
00:46:34,594 --> 00:46:35,834
I don't even check the car.

1001
00:46:36,144 --> 00:46:39,474
I check the deer and
the deer gets up and

1002
00:46:39,474 --> 00:46:40,184
we look at each other.

1003
00:46:40,184 --> 00:46:41,934
I was never that close
to a deer in my life.

1004
00:46:42,004 --> 00:46:43,364
I mean, we were
like nose to nose.

1005
00:46:43,989 --> 00:46:45,539
And she walks off
and she's fine.

1006
00:46:46,169 --> 00:46:47,619
And I look at
myself and I'm fine.

1007
00:46:47,839 --> 00:46:50,799
And I look at the car and it's
trashed, but it's just a car.

1008
00:46:52,229 --> 00:46:54,539
In that moment, I
realized that's nothing.

1009
00:46:56,299 --> 00:46:57,289
I'm okay.

1010
00:46:57,629 --> 00:46:58,919
The deer is okay.

1011
00:46:59,669 --> 00:47:00,929
It's just a car.

1012
00:47:02,989 --> 00:47:06,249
And that changed my
whole perception of life.

1013
00:47:06,879 --> 00:47:09,809
That anger, it, it
doesn't come out anymore.

1014
00:47:10,379 --> 00:47:13,439
That was the biggest
awakening moment for me.

1015
00:47:13,739 --> 00:47:16,859
So I had to go back and I
rewrote the book and I had

1016
00:47:16,859 --> 00:47:19,729
to put all the steps in
that led up to having this

1017
00:47:19,729 --> 00:47:22,379
awakening so that I could
share this with other people.

1018
00:47:22,999 --> 00:47:24,329
That wasn't my goal.

1019
00:47:24,359 --> 00:47:27,279
I walked away from my high
paying job at the top of

1020
00:47:27,289 --> 00:47:29,379
my game, just walked off.

1021
00:47:29,769 --> 00:47:31,609
I said, I can't, this
is not for me anymore.

1022
00:47:32,329 --> 00:47:34,069
I'm, I can't do this.

1023
00:47:35,794 --> 00:47:37,474
I am being called to
help other people.

1024
00:47:37,654 --> 00:47:38,664
I have to write books.

1025
00:47:38,704 --> 00:47:39,504
You're out of your mind.

1026
00:47:39,524 --> 00:47:40,374
I know that already.

1027
00:47:41,144 --> 00:47:42,044
I know I'm out of my mind.

1028
00:47:42,084 --> 00:47:42,654
Don't worry about it.

1029
00:47:42,704 --> 00:47:43,214
I got this.

1030
00:47:44,284 --> 00:47:45,864
My boss said, I did
not see that coming.

1031
00:47:45,934 --> 00:47:48,704
I said, neither did
I, but no offense.

1032
00:47:48,704 --> 00:47:49,184
I got to go.

1033
00:47:50,324 --> 00:47:52,944
So I wrote both books.

1034
00:47:53,664 --> 00:47:56,719
I have a coaching practice
that is successful and

1035
00:47:56,719 --> 00:47:57,684
I'm grateful for that.

1036
00:47:57,974 --> 00:48:00,844
The books are doing well
and I'm grateful for that.

1037
00:48:01,534 --> 00:48:03,754
Um, and there will
be a third book.

1038
00:48:04,879 --> 00:48:08,509
Because I have so much more
craziness to share, um,

1039
00:48:08,949 --> 00:48:11,399
and in the books, I always
try to put the story of my,

1040
00:48:12,119 --> 00:48:15,369
what really transpires in
my life, how it equates to

1041
00:48:15,399 --> 00:48:18,839
a spiritual technique and
then what's under the hood.

1042
00:48:19,229 --> 00:48:20,349
What makes that so?

1043
00:48:20,429 --> 00:48:21,979
Because I don't, I
don't expect anybody

1044
00:48:21,979 --> 00:48:22,759
to believe any of this.

1045
00:48:23,389 --> 00:48:24,219
I didn't believe it.

1046
00:48:24,949 --> 00:48:26,789
I didn't believe it
until I figured it out.

1047
00:48:27,329 --> 00:48:31,709
So how the second
book came about.

1048
00:48:32,189 --> 00:48:33,929
You're still alive
now, act like it.

1049
00:48:34,789 --> 00:48:39,919
The title is, first of
all, live every day as

1050
00:48:39,919 --> 00:48:40,709
though it's your last.

1051
00:48:41,299 --> 00:48:45,209
Some of the things I've done
now and implemented is I never

1052
00:48:45,209 --> 00:48:47,839
let any of our children leave
the house without, I tell

1053
00:48:47,839 --> 00:48:52,859
them I love them, um, my wife,
my kids, and anybody who I

1054
00:48:52,859 --> 00:48:54,789
feel that way about because
I don't know if there's

1055
00:48:54,789 --> 00:48:57,499
going to be a tomorrow, but
I'm okay if there's not a

1056
00:48:57,499 --> 00:49:01,459
tomorrow, but I don't want
to be one of those beings.

1057
00:49:02,229 --> 00:49:06,339
That comes to find a medium
and has to say, I regret not

1058
00:49:06,339 --> 00:49:10,309
saying this when I was alive
because I know what it's

1059
00:49:10,309 --> 00:49:14,139
like to be on that side and
I don't want to be that one.

1060
00:49:14,309 --> 00:49:17,979
So I say it every day
and I just try to spread

1061
00:49:18,049 --> 00:49:21,139
that love to them and
anybody else who wants it.

1062
00:49:22,919 --> 00:49:24,359
I don't know who the
hell I am anymore,

1063
00:49:27,689 --> 00:49:29,139
but it feels really good.

1064
00:49:29,909 --> 00:49:31,959
It feels good to lose
those negative emotions.

1065
00:49:32,859 --> 00:49:33,929
And they don't come and

1066
00:49:34,099 --> 00:49:37,809
I remember I almost ran a
stop sign and, and I stopped

1067
00:49:37,809 --> 00:49:40,509
at the last second and this
guy, you know, he, I almost

1068
00:49:40,509 --> 00:49:43,139
hit him and he got so mad and
he was yelling and yelling

1069
00:49:43,139 --> 00:49:46,459
and mother effing me up
and down and almost got out

1070
00:49:46,459 --> 00:49:47,509
of the car and everything.

1071
00:49:47,509 --> 00:49:48,909
And I just started laughing.

1072
00:49:49,269 --> 00:49:51,969
I was like, Oh my God, I
used to be just like you.

1073
00:49:53,819 --> 00:49:54,729
Here's my card.

1074
00:49:58,149 --> 00:50:01,209
Um, and now I just see the
world in a different light,

1075
00:50:01,259 --> 00:50:03,739
how it's just so simple.

1076
00:50:04,624 --> 00:50:11,264
And, you know, we all come
from this one source to

1077
00:50:11,274 --> 00:50:15,514
harm another, you're harming
yourself since we are all one.

1078
00:50:15,774 --> 00:50:16,854
That is a true statement.

1079
00:50:16,944 --> 00:50:19,644
I know it's thrown around a
lot, but it really is true.

1080
00:50:19,644 --> 00:50:25,834
We all come from this one
energetic source and the

1081
00:50:25,834 --> 00:50:29,074
realization of that and
the realization of being

1082
00:50:29,074 --> 00:50:30,744
able to lose the negative.

1083
00:50:31,374 --> 00:50:36,154
Uh, qualities that I had
and having these moments

1084
00:50:36,784 --> 00:50:40,134
it's just completely
changed everything for me.

1085
00:50:40,174 --> 00:50:43,034
And now I want to give that to
as many other people as I can.

1086
00:50:43,789 --> 00:50:45,739
Rod Bland: you
mentioned about the 7.

1087
00:50:45,739 --> 00:50:47,379
83 hertz.

1088
00:50:47,379 --> 00:50:49,879
Is that the Schumann
frequency that you're

1089
00:50:49,879 --> 00:50:51,649
talking about I don't Okay.

1090
00:50:52,189 --> 00:50:57,319
And, um, you said getting into
sort of vibration with that.

1091
00:50:57,319 --> 00:51:00,729
Could you briefly explain
to people how go about that?

1092
00:51:02,129 --> 00:51:04,909
Ray Catania: So, uh, it's
usually the very first,

1093
00:51:04,979 --> 00:51:07,109
uh, sign that I know
that I'm getting a visit

1094
00:51:07,519 --> 00:51:09,989
and the vibration could
be very low and deep,

1095
00:51:10,279 --> 00:51:14,359
or it can be very high and
tingly, and I know if it's low

1096
00:51:14,359 --> 00:51:16,689
and deep, that it's something
that's going to be serious.

1097
00:51:17,184 --> 00:51:19,844
or negative or bad or
something that needs to

1098
00:51:19,894 --> 00:51:21,284
be dealt with immediately.

1099
00:51:21,604 --> 00:51:25,614
And the high tingly ones
are more, uh, lighthearted

1100
00:51:26,284 --> 00:51:29,274
in, in, so to speak happier.

1101
00:51:29,444 --> 00:51:32,184
Um, now I'll tell
you, I got caught.

1102
00:51:32,704 --> 00:51:35,844
A lot of mediums get caught
in this trap where we react

1103
00:51:35,854 --> 00:51:38,164
to the negative ones all the
time and we never go take

1104
00:51:38,164 --> 00:51:40,264
the positive ones in because
we're like, well, this could

1105
00:51:40,274 --> 00:51:41,464
be something really serious.

1106
00:51:41,464 --> 00:51:43,764
What if this is like, You
know, has to do with my

1107
00:51:43,764 --> 00:51:45,394
family or this or that.

1108
00:51:45,444 --> 00:51:47,934
And I, you know, you
get that and it usually

1109
00:51:47,934 --> 00:51:49,524
isn't, but it could be.

1110
00:51:50,114 --> 00:51:53,464
And you let the nice ones
pass you by because, well,

1111
00:51:53,544 --> 00:51:55,624
you know, that's what we do.

1112
00:51:56,444 --> 00:52:00,034
Um, which is why, you
know, the news is negative.

1113
00:52:00,034 --> 00:52:00,824
Everything's negative.

1114
00:52:00,824 --> 00:52:02,454
We watch negative
things on TV.

1115
00:52:02,454 --> 00:52:04,594
If the news was all
positive, nobody would

1116
00:52:04,594 --> 00:52:05,984
watch it anymore, which is.

1117
00:52:06,599 --> 00:52:09,149
Not right, but
it's the way it is.

1118
00:52:09,619 --> 00:52:12,509
So I learned to accept the
good ones and the bad ones.

1119
00:52:12,509 --> 00:52:13,549
So the lows are bad.

1120
00:52:13,559 --> 00:52:17,749
The highs are good and
interact with them, um,

1121
00:52:17,769 --> 00:52:18,899
to the best of my ability.

1122
00:52:18,989 --> 00:52:21,319
Now I had to leave mediumship.

1123
00:52:22,509 --> 00:52:25,189
I could not do it as a
profession because it

1124
00:52:25,189 --> 00:52:27,259
was too taxing on me.

1125
00:52:28,179 --> 00:52:29,679
I had just found happiness.

1126
00:52:29,679 --> 00:52:33,299
I had just learned how
to be happy after the

1127
00:52:33,419 --> 00:52:35,389
first 50 years of my life.

1128
00:52:35,489 --> 00:52:42,079
being, you know, anything
but happy, not really

1129
00:52:42,079 --> 00:52:44,149
understanding where
happiness came from.

1130
00:52:44,529 --> 00:52:47,179
Thinking it came from material
things or thinking that it

1131
00:52:47,179 --> 00:52:49,329
came from drugs and alcohol
or thinking that it came

1132
00:52:49,329 --> 00:52:53,849
from something that's just
so minuscule to realizing

1133
00:52:53,849 --> 00:52:56,069
and opening up for the
first time and understanding

1134
00:52:56,069 --> 00:52:57,279
where happiness comes from.

1135
00:52:57,589 --> 00:52:58,989
I find it very hard.

1136
00:52:59,909 --> 00:53:03,349
For me, and this is why I
respect mediums so much,

1137
00:53:03,689 --> 00:53:06,189
it's hard to take that
information that's given

1138
00:53:06,189 --> 00:53:09,139
to you because you have to
co mingle your energy with

1139
00:53:09,139 --> 00:53:12,699
theirs to get the message
and deliver it to the sitter.

1140
00:53:13,359 --> 00:53:17,719
And what happens is at
this point is that stays

1141
00:53:17,719 --> 00:53:19,989
with me and resonates
with me for a few hours.

1142
00:53:20,779 --> 00:53:24,379
And whatever that emotion
is, whether it's sadness or

1143
00:53:24,379 --> 00:53:28,419
whether it's, um, regret or
guilt or what have you, that

1144
00:53:28,489 --> 00:53:30,149
sits with me for a long time.

1145
00:53:30,679 --> 00:53:33,009
And I have to isolate
myself from my family.

1146
00:53:33,009 --> 00:53:36,049
Sometimes it's even anger and
I have to stay away and I just

1147
00:53:36,049 --> 00:53:37,259
have to wait for it to end.

1148
00:53:37,679 --> 00:53:39,239
And I just found happiness.

1149
00:53:39,529 --> 00:53:42,659
So maybe I'll go back to that
one day, but for me right now,

1150
00:53:42,659 --> 00:53:46,449
it's more about helping people
find their own spirituality

1151
00:53:46,689 --> 00:53:48,129
and have their own awakening.

1152
00:53:48,639 --> 00:53:51,529
And that's really more about
where my focus is today.

1153
00:53:52,309 --> 00:53:53,709
Rod Bland: So you've,
you've gone through quite an

1154
00:53:53,709 --> 00:53:56,559
evolution, especially sort
of fighting these constant

1155
00:53:56,559 --> 00:53:59,859
messages that you were getting
from the other side it seems.

1156
00:54:00,259 --> 00:54:02,419
What advice would you
have if you could give

1157
00:54:02,419 --> 00:54:05,339
advice to 25 year old Ray,
knowing what you know now?

1158
00:54:05,939 --> 00:54:07,059
Ray Catania: You
know, what's ironic.

1159
00:54:07,079 --> 00:54:10,179
I work with a lot of 25 year
olds, their parents send

1160
00:54:10,179 --> 00:54:12,959
them to me because they're
in that college age where

1161
00:54:12,959 --> 00:54:15,829
they're confused about what
they're going to do next.

1162
00:54:16,329 --> 00:54:19,049
And it, it really
overloads them quite a bit.

1163
00:54:19,669 --> 00:54:21,589
And what I tell them is.

1164
00:54:21,829 --> 00:54:23,729
It doesn't make any
damn bit of difference.

1165
00:54:24,639 --> 00:54:26,449
It really doesn't
because whatever you do

1166
00:54:26,449 --> 00:54:28,399
today, you're going to
reinvent yourself again.

1167
00:54:28,399 --> 00:54:30,299
You're going to reinvent
yourself again, and it's

1168
00:54:30,309 --> 00:54:31,679
meant to be done that way.

1169
00:54:33,079 --> 00:54:35,119
So you can become anything.

1170
00:54:35,119 --> 00:54:38,819
Just don't become nothing
because whatever you become,

1171
00:54:39,789 --> 00:54:44,349
if you do the techniques,
if you believe you,

1172
00:54:44,399 --> 00:54:47,259
something will come from
that, a door will open that

1173
00:54:47,259 --> 00:54:49,549
will bring you into the
next phase of your life.

1174
00:54:49,759 --> 00:54:52,269
And a door will open that'll
bring you into the next phase

1175
00:54:52,269 --> 00:54:55,379
of your life and whatever
it is, that's what's right.

1176
00:54:55,874 --> 00:54:58,754
If it feels good and you
love it and you enjoy

1177
00:54:58,754 --> 00:55:00,274
it, that's where you go.

1178
00:55:01,124 --> 00:55:03,464
Don't make your determinations
based on what you were

1179
00:55:03,464 --> 00:55:04,874
told happiness is.

1180
00:55:05,094 --> 00:55:06,154
It's not money.

1181
00:55:06,764 --> 00:55:07,974
I've been rich and poor.

1182
00:55:09,124 --> 00:55:10,364
It doesn't make
any difference.

1183
00:55:10,364 --> 00:55:13,854
You could be just as miserable
in both boats, promise.

1184
00:55:14,994 --> 00:55:19,384
So go with what you, your gut,
what your insides tell you.

1185
00:55:19,624 --> 00:55:20,864
That's where you go.

1186
00:55:21,124 --> 00:55:22,624
Just don't do nothing.

1187
00:55:23,254 --> 00:55:24,084
Take the step.

1188
00:55:24,449 --> 00:55:26,189
It'll lead to the
next step, to the next

1189
00:55:26,189 --> 00:55:27,299
step, to the next step.

1190
00:55:28,249 --> 00:55:31,519
And inertia is the
only bad thing.

1191
00:55:31,799 --> 00:55:32,849
You're still alive.

1192
00:55:32,879 --> 00:55:33,769
Now act like it.

1193
00:55:34,849 --> 00:55:38,199
So I see a lot of 25s
and I like, I like having

1194
00:55:38,199 --> 00:55:39,169
them as my clients.

1195
00:55:40,009 --> 00:55:42,409
Rod Bland: If people want
to get touch with you, Ray,

1196
00:55:42,439 --> 00:55:45,249
like if they have questions
for you, what's the best

1197
00:55:45,249 --> 00:55:47,889
way to, for them to do
that and just, just give

1198
00:55:47,889 --> 00:55:49,439
us a summary of everything
you've got going on.

1199
00:55:49,439 --> 00:55:50,839
I know you've mentioned
your books and anything

1200
00:55:50,839 --> 00:55:52,059
else that you have as well.

1201
00:55:52,444 --> 00:55:52,734
Ray Catania: Sure.

1202
00:55:53,024 --> 00:55:54,794
Uh, at RayCatania.

1203
00:55:54,814 --> 00:55:55,314
com.

1204
00:55:55,464 --> 00:55:57,574
That is, I'm going to roll
out a new website, but you

1205
00:55:57,574 --> 00:55:58,694
can still go there now.

1206
00:55:58,734 --> 00:56:01,234
And there's a couple of
ways to contact me on there.

1207
00:56:01,764 --> 00:56:04,624
And if you're interested
in coaching with me, um, or

1208
00:56:04,624 --> 00:56:07,264
just, you have a question, you
can go through that website

1209
00:56:07,264 --> 00:56:08,294
and get in touch with me.

1210
00:56:08,654 --> 00:56:11,174
The information about
the books are up there.

1211
00:56:11,444 --> 00:56:14,044
Um, you can buy
them on Amazon.

1212
00:56:14,044 --> 00:56:15,694
You can buy them
Barnes and Noble.

1213
00:56:15,724 --> 00:56:18,544
They're actually sold in
62 countries I understand

1214
00:56:18,544 --> 00:56:20,254
right now in all formats.

1215
00:56:20,804 --> 00:56:23,044
Um, the second book
isn't audible yet, but

1216
00:56:23,064 --> 00:56:25,944
every other format is
available in both books.

1217
00:56:26,444 --> 00:56:28,554
And um, I would be
honored and grateful

1218
00:56:28,554 --> 00:56:29,644
if anyone purchased it.

1219
00:56:29,644 --> 00:56:30,334
So thank you.

1220
00:56:30,844 --> 00:56:34,414
And, um, and, uh, yeah,
that's, uh, I'm looking

1221
00:56:34,414 --> 00:56:37,864
forward to rolling out the
new website and speaking

1222
00:56:37,864 --> 00:56:41,714
to more people and helping
whoever I can because I, I,

1223
00:56:41,934 --> 00:56:45,444
what I have right now, what I
know I've, I've got to, I've

1224
00:56:45,704 --> 00:56:47,084
got to give it to somebody.

1225
00:56:47,144 --> 00:56:48,504
I have to give it to people.

1226
00:56:50,404 --> 00:56:52,264
I know that's, I know
that's my calling.

1227
00:56:53,389 --> 00:56:55,369
Rod Bland: And have you
got any final message

1228
00:56:55,369 --> 00:56:56,549
that you want to leave
with people before we

1229
00:56:56,559 --> 00:56:57,639
wrap up the conversation?

1230
00:56:59,574 --> 00:57:01,184
Ray Catania: Um,
final message.

1231
00:57:01,184 --> 00:57:02,374
Remember, we're all one.

1232
00:57:02,984 --> 00:57:06,044
Remember that because,
you know, when you go

1233
00:57:06,044 --> 00:57:07,334
back to the other side

1234
00:57:07,384 --> 00:57:11,144
you're going to realize
that we are all connected

1235
00:57:11,144 --> 00:57:15,314
through this energetic
life force and, you know,

1236
00:57:16,404 --> 00:57:19,634
do something positive
for someone every day.

1237
00:57:19,644 --> 00:57:22,464
Also do something positive
for yourself every day.

1238
00:57:23,054 --> 00:57:24,744
So self care is important.

1239
00:57:25,174 --> 00:57:27,354
Take care of yourself,
do one selfish thing for

1240
00:57:27,354 --> 00:57:30,634
yourself every day and then
do one thing for someone

1241
00:57:30,644 --> 00:57:32,364
else every single day.

1242
00:57:32,874 --> 00:57:35,154
And remember that
harming anybody else,

1243
00:57:35,264 --> 00:57:38,164
you're harming yourself
because we're all one.

1244
00:57:39,124 --> 00:57:40,534
We're all one.

1245
00:57:41,409 --> 00:57:42,729
Rod Bland: I like
that as a task list.

1246
00:57:42,749 --> 00:57:45,189
One selfish thing, one
thing for someone else,

1247
00:57:45,399 --> 00:57:47,909
tick both those and
you're good for the day.

1248
00:57:48,499 --> 00:57:49,359
It's a good message.

1249
00:57:49,969 --> 00:57:51,929
Ray, it's been my pleasure to
have you on the show today.

1250
00:57:51,929 --> 00:57:53,399
I really appreciate
you taking the time.

1251
00:57:54,354 --> 00:57:55,624
Ray Catania: I can't
thank you enough Rod.

1252
00:57:55,624 --> 00:57:56,524
Thank you so much.

1253
00:57:56,614 --> 00:57:57,234
My pleasure.