Hello.
All of my fellow mystics.
And weirdos.
And witches.
This is the she who is seeking podcast.
And it's where I explore themes like spaciousness, dreams, fear
and pleasure with curiosity.
But this is the upside down.
So.
..This week, we're reflecting upon the changes made to history.
Freedom of choice and how we can manage to live in a country
that seems to not value women.
Or femmes.
Or those with the ability to get pregnant among other undervalued groups.
And what do I think I know.
And perhaps more importantly, what am I missing?
And do you have to be a mystic, Witch or weirdo?
No, of course not.
But I imagine it will appeal to you more if you're open, curious
and not afraid of those words.
And this episode may make you mad.
But who am I kidding?
We're all mad here.
And this isn't our typical episode.
Thank goodness.
The research I did for it was intense and upsetting.
But I am your host and guide Meena Melissa Leigh and I want
to welcome you into our parlor.
So grab a lovely cup of tea.
And today.
We are going to.
Explore.
This new territory that we're in.
It's true that this is my place.
These fields and Hills
and Glens and sagebrush.
But under all those leaves.
are snake holes.
Could be fang and slither sleeping.
Do I get to walk there too?
Is my walking stick to bash or warn?
I want to tread freely steps unmeasured.
If it were me and I liked the sun so much.
I'd climb and slither to the tallest peak.
But we all like it here.
It's all whore hound and yellow mustard flowers.
I'll share with you this dappled light.
Birdsong ,Bee hums, peppercorns and breezes.
We're also lucky to breathe free here.
Except for when we're not.
Except for when we need to be more worried about the laws that govern the land.
Because they're being stripped away.
Except for when there are rumblings of Clarence Thomas wanting to revisit the
laws that protect same sex relationships and gay marriage and birth control.
And I'm really crushed that there are people who want to
take rights away from others.
That they themselves have.
Calling into question- LGBTQ relationships is in my opinion, an act of hate.
Love is love.
And trying to take that ability away from other people.
Is damaging and hateful.
And today as this episode drops, it's the 4th of July.
Oh, The irony.
This explosive fanfare of imaginary freedom.
It is so sad to me.
Because I want to love this country that I live in really badly.
I mean who wouldn't.
And yet, if this was a relationship, and you told the gist to your friend.
About what has been going on with you guys?
Your friend would say, um, this is an abusive bullying that's happening here.
There seems to be some toxic gas lighting too.
Like how they say it's to protect lives, but it's fine with them.
If you lose YOUR life.
Rude.
And I'm being a little light and flippant sounding because unfiltered
rage is stressful to bear witness to.
And this honestly, isn't my typical topic.
It isn't what I felt comfortable talking about, but my brain is still glitching
from what's happening in the world.
And if you're hearing this in the future, we're about a week and a half
out from the overturning of Roe vs.
Wade.
By the Supreme court of the United States.
And we're still reeling after the government has declared that
states can make their own rulings.
And those rulings said, women in 26 states are not bodily autonomous.
Women and girls and folks who can get pregnant.
And this is a trigger warning for sexual predation and rape.
And I didn't put it at the top of the show because all of the talk about this topic
includes this alarming fact among others.
Which is there are states that have no exception.
For incest.
Meaning, if a child is raped by their father.
That child would be forced to endure the pain and anguish
of birthing their sibling.
And how anyone passing a law, who claims to care about children?
Could think that that is okay?
Is beyond me.
Right now I have chills and I am really trying not to cry.
And.
Ectopic pregnancy that can not result in the birth of a baby.
It's impossible.
There's been zero.
That have ever been born.
From ectopic pregnancy.
But it can result in the death of the mother.
And there are states where there is no exception for that either.
Meaning.
A hundred percent of the time.
There's no baby born.
And quick treatment for an ectopic pregnancy is vital
to protect the mother's life.
Because the egg that's implanted in that fallopian tube is going
to burst and there can be severe internal bleeding and maternal death.
And yet.
There's no exception to save the mother's life.
How can states that have made this decision possibly
claim to care about life?
Particularly women's lives.
And I know that a lot of states are not claiming that they're being upfront and
saying that it is only this unborn baby.
That is important.
and not the lives of women and children and people who are already alive.
It's leaving me with no words.
It's very.
It's beyond horrible.
And it's not about protecting the lives of children.
If they really wanted to protect the lives of children.
Then there would be better gun control.
Childcare universal health care.
Free or low cost health insurance for all.
Secure housing, food security, and on and on.
And I absolutely know that, you know, this.
And I feel certain that there is no one who would be listening to this podcast.
That doesn't know this, and yet I cannot say nothing.
None of us can.
There's just too much to lose and there's too much at stake.
The freedoms that we have fought for are very fragile for marginalized groups.
And this is making me realize that even more.
And it's all a farce, this separation of church and state.
Give me a.
Break.
It is laughable.
How any of them can claim that with this straight face is beyond me.
And.
I just want to take a minute.
To take a breath.
Let's all just do that.
Shall we?
Okay.
So we are in freeze.
But we are also planning.
We are in despair.
But our rage shakes mountains.
Point us where we need to go.
My sisters and I shall sync up like magnets.
So, what do we do?
This period that we are in is a tough one, because it's essentially
about managing the situation.
And staying connected and being able to act quickly when opportunities rise.
For.
The ability to remedy this terrible injustice.
And I am sending love and bodily autonomy for all of us.
I meditated quite a bit on the healing that needs to be done.
And this is what I came up with.
Globally.
As far as wars, environmental issues, land theft.
The pain and suffering of those with food insecurity and housing shortages.
Healing Countrywide.
The pain, betrayal, and anger.
That is flowing like a virus.
We many of us at least feels such a deep sense of betrayal and collusion.
The two major sides seem to think that the other side is absolutely bonkers.
And there seems to be zero solution on the horizon.
We need a healing bestowed upon us.
That is so deep.
And penetrating.
That it would be akin to a flood.
Something to wash away and sooth generations of mistrust,
exploitation and abuse.
Class-wise the healing we need is deeper and more pervasive than the Countrywide.
It's all the same, but.
It's more in the bones.
Those most abused or the least trusting, and with good reason.
The country has made it clear that only the highest echelons are valued.
Those with means will always get exactly what they need when they need it.
Rising to power on the backs of the underpaid, overworked and undervalued.
They'll always have healthcare.
And access to safe and secret abortions.
While those have limited means are forced to resort to dangerous procedures.
Community-wise.
This is the healing that says.
I see you.
I see even more deeply the pain you endure.
And this healing requires us to stand by those who are in need.
Who are disrespected.
And who feel undervalued.
As far as the healing for household and families.
There will be times when those under the same roof or in
the same bloodline disagree.
And, it's going to cause division and pain.
And I think we need to try to have conversations and hopefully
find some common ground.
Because.
We have more experience and history with them.
So maybe we can use this as a training ground to learn how to speak with
them and then bring this knowledge, to be able to speak with others.
And healing for self.
I will speak about the healing for my personal self, my issues.
Which is the need for compassion for myself.
Because I am pissed.
Pissed because they don't have the answers.
And cause I can't fix this right now.
Also on another note, I know that I may make people mad or frustrated.
Hopefully not.
You dear listener.
But that's the thing.
There's a lot of us out there with differing opinions.
And differing emotions.
That backup our personal stance.
There's even people with whom I agree.
And vice versa on these issues.
The issues of bodily autonomy, et cetera.
And yet they may not agree with my desire to appeal to people's humanity.
People that are not sharing the same views.
And it isn't that things were great before.
But that I do think that things have gotten way worse and more
polarized over the last few years.
And I'd like to see that lose momentum.
It's something that you can definitely see on social media, for instance.
Where we tend to follow and be followed by people who have
similar opinions to our own.
And while I have unfollowed people that are stressful to me and crazy making.
I worry that we seem to be less and less willing to reach across the aisle.
And even that like sounds gross in my mouth saying it, but.
It's like the only illustration I could think of.
Because it's late.
But I worry.
That we just are maybe losing our desire to want to do that.
And maybe I'm naive, but I really do try to lead my life
from a place of non-dualism and.
From a heart of love.
And I am not perfect at it.
And sometimes I am tempted to just put that down and be ragingly
pissed off and unyielding.
I see others in this state and it looks comforting and delicious to just
be like really fucking pissed off.
But I can't see how that leads anywhere.
Long-term other than another civil war.
Um, like kind of getting close, maybe.
Hopefully not, but it's feeling like that right now.
There's definitely a power pulsating we want to have power to live and
to see that potential realized.
It is necessary.
To feel safe.
But when we are so divided.
What makes us feel protected?
Wow.
I think to be in a place where our life can be expressed.
And marginalized groups are brought in and valued equally.
And as a person who wants to do her very best, the places in which I can let
in more good feels so vast right now.
More doing and more doing good.
More being open to the solutions.
More advocating for those who either can't advocate for themselves.
Or whose voices need to be amplified.
Being fluid and nimble and ready to activate like a sleeper agent.
If possibilities, present themselves to facilitate change.
It is a raw and tender place to operate from.
But I'm going to keep doing my best.
And like I said, this is more from a place of feeling my feelings
and what I'm seeing others feel.
So I wanted to offer a little bit of.
Resources to you.
First of all, I'd like to say as a witchy folk, urbalism plant lover.
You would think I would be all over herbal remedies as a first line of defense,
but in doing research, I landed on.
Perhaps uplifting.
Prescriptions of myth.
Mifeprisone I think that's how you say it.
And Misprostol, you can tell, I don't take my drugs.
Usually, I mean,
Welbutrin.
An Adderall, if I'm honest.
But like, not those things, I don't know how to say those, but
you know what I'm talking about.
And.
It looks like those are safer and a more sure-fire option.
So these medications are known to be safer than Tylenol.
And 95% effective.
'cause I was thinking if you were to do a home remedy and you weren't
sure if it was totally effective.
Or if.
You know, Sometimes there's miscarriages that need like a DNC.
It just seems like the abortion pill may be a way to go.
So I have included resources to help you find the abortion pill plan C,
which maybe available to you by mail.
And lots of other resources in the show notes.
And yes, I realized that it may be correct to get your hands on.
Or to pay for them, but there are some resources in the show notes that
do have options for financial aid.
And there are quite a few people donating funds to keep this option
open for as many people as possible.
Even if you don't imagine needing the information yourself.
I would suggest listening to the podcast medicine stories by Amber Magnolia
Hill and it would be episode 73 and 74.
Where she talks to her guests samantha is the Purim.
And they go over herbs and.
They talk about, womb sovereignty and.
There's just a lot of really good information in there
between the two episodes.
So.
I think you were just trying to get more familiar.
With such things that is a really good place to start.
And she also.
Suggest there's another entire podcast called self managed abortion podcast.
And I haven't listened to that, but it may be of interest to you.
I was torn about including more information on holistic remedies here.
And decided that since it's such a personal choice, that means quite a bit
of personal research, I would include the links in the show notes to those
episodes, and within her show notes, there is a lot of other resources that
could steer you in the right direction.
I've included a little primer in the show notes that I felt was
very useful and I didn't want to regurgitate all that information
because it's well written and concise.
So I just included it.
And I suggest you take a look at it.
it's definitely worth reading even if you don't think you're going to need
access to any of this information.
It's just a good learning resource.
I just want to say thank you for bearing with me as I am in this pain.
And I know that you're I'm sure also in your own pain right now.
And this is the she who is seeking podcast.
Just feels funny to say, which is the love child of me.
Meena Melissa Leigh.
And all the views and ideas and thoughts regarding the topics in this episode
are pretty widespread and standard.
Usually I say.
That they're my own thoughts, but this week, I think a
lot of us are in agreement.
And dreaming the same nightmare.
The music is the beautiful songs.
Snake river by siren in the sea.
And please remember it is up to you to make good choices
about your life and your health.
And there are people all over in safe states who are setting up resources
for those who need safe abortions.
And I am so rooting for you and.
I'm advocating for you and that you create a life that you love.
And that you live it every day.
You may want to copy and save the resources.
In case you or someone, you know, needs them.
So you don't have to track it down.
Um, or.
It might be handy to save it in case this episode gets
Transcribing...
taken down.
I mean, I don't think that's going to happen, but.
I don't know if it gets more Handmaid's tale up in here.
You never know.
So if you have any thoughts, come find me over on Instagram at Who's seeking.
or@shewhoisseekingdottransistor.fm.
Go in peace and power and Blessed be.
And also, I'm sorry if.
Talking about the Handmaid's tale is triggering.
It is for me, but it's also what's on my mind.
It's what, I'm the most fearful of.
Not to mention like all of the, like, Witch hunting Interweaving between
these things Oh, it's just a mess.
okay love you bye I will link to those resources, make sure you check them out.
And I hope they're helpful.