The Nature of Longing: Why Restlessness Isn't a Problem to Solve

In this episode, I explore why we feel restless and incomplete even after achieving our goals or finding spiritual practices that seem to work. I argue that our perpetual longing isn't a sign of failure or proof we're on the wrong path but rather the fundamental nature of consciousness itself, constantly reaching and questioning. The real insight is recognising that seeking is the finding, that the journey itself is home, and learning to treat our restlessness as fuel rather than a problem to solve.

What is Soulcruzer?

The Soulcruzer podcast...narrative alchemy in audio form. Call it an audioblog, call it threshold work, call it confessional mysticism.

One day I'm working through tarot as spiritual technology. The next, I'm exploring Nietzsche's eternal return as lived practice, chaos magick techniques, or games as containers for transformation. Depth psychology meets the esoteric. Ancient wisdom meets the AI age. Theory becomes practice.

This is what narrative alchemy sounds like from the inside: raw, real, unpolished. Experiments in treating stories as code and consciousness as hackable.

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