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well hello All You Beautiful

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People you know what time it

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is ladies and gents Guys and Dolls and

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everyone in

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between gather around get you something

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real nice to sip on and comfy to slip

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on cuz it's time for smut Club here's

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your hosts ch

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Hannah hey everybody and welcome to smut

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club I'm Hannah and I am Chelsea and

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this is the podcast where we are two

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licensed mental health therapists who

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enjoy day drinking and reviewing romance

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novels of varying caliber sometimes we

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drink phto box and we're not sponsored

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by them but it would would still be a

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lot cooler if we were mhm it's never

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going to not be cool

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until we are sponsored you

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know I do know but I heard it I heard

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how I said it well puted yeah you know

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me big words girl thriving over here

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um but today wait what are what are you

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drinking did you go red or pink red I

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think I asked you and then I did not

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listen and I'm so sorry I feel like we

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do that to each other every now and then

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like a few weeks ago or months ago I

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don't know I asked you what book you

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were reviewing and you told me like six

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times and I just like willfully chose to

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just not process the information you

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gave me but I feel like there are times

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in my life when that happens I was like

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I'll definitely remember it this time

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yes and then the next time I'm like

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apparently my brain just really did not

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feel the need to like I have locked it

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in eye contact I have it it's there it's

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gone yep yep okay well all that said I

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leftover peppermint schops and my coffee

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from the deer monster claws yes

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um which it's a bummer for you that it

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gave you heartburn because quite frankly

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this this coffee is delightful God I

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don't know if it was the combo of the

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schnaps the Bailey and the kala or if it

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was just the schnaps but buddy

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does peppermint tend to do that often no

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so it makes me think it was something

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about the the combo the combination of

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the hard liquor with the cream base yeah

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was a lot touche to process and I also

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just want us to note Vance only made us

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half he did half Z I'd have died you

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wouldn't have driven home tell you that

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much should go to the ER with an ulcer

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not because of too much alcohol alol but

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that situation I've never seen someone's

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body hate peppermint white Russ that

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much oh it was so much it was so

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much yeah that's why I'm back on the

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wine and I left the schnaps at your

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house yeah so I'm drinking red today

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partially in a nod to our book today

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which is priest by Sierra Simone Oh

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Sierra yeah I'm honestly surprised it's

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taken us this long

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to like get to a Sierra Simone review

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too cuz we I feel like she's a name that

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like comes up often I've read often but

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today's the day perfect yeah oh now I

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will say I actually haven't read priest

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that is one that like has been on my

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list forever and I know it's like picked

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decide if I am just going to leave it to

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decided that I have decid not that what

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I did though was have you ever watched

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the show Dairy

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girls um I've seen the trailer for it I

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have not actually watched it okay there

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is a priest in that show that is

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universally hated and it's very funny

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and he's known for having incredible

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hair and in the first episode that he is

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introduced in he's this young guy with

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girls are saying that they witnessed a

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miracle a a statue

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crying and so the priest is there to

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investigate and he is like um this is

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this is a major moment girls like we are

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going to to uncover the answer

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to the age-old question is God real and

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in his eyes and he goes I mean is he or

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have you just wasted your life Peter and

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the girls are all sitting there and

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they're like uh father like you doing

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okay over there yeah so it turns out the

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girls faked the miracle and so spoilers

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yeah he decides oh we knew it was faked

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from the beginning okay that's the whole

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episode is them covering up the faking

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of this miracle and so they he decides

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to leave the priesthood because they

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faked this miracle because he is very

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attracted to his hairdresser so then in

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the next episode where you see him he's

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back and one of the girls in a room full

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of other people is like he says you may

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know I'm back from sabatical and she

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says is that cuz the [ __ ] hair dresser

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left

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you in front of everybody a and he's

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just like well so that's that is the

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person I'm

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imagining just universally hated and

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universally hated with great hair but so

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why is he universally hated is it okay

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so so there's a nun in there her name is

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Sister Michael okay she is genuinely my

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favorite character she's so incredibly

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dry and like um there's one episode

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where some girl is really sick and one

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of the other girls is the the nun is

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saying like there's only one thing left

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to do and she's like pray for her sister

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and she goes [ __ ] no what would that

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do and just her reaction to the priest

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every time is like for [ __ ] sake okay

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priest so because he's so painfully

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naive almost in how Earnest he is but

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then also it doesn't feel genuine at the

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same time and so it's this is important

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in context for what we're the the priest

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we're imagining walking highly recommend

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if you have not seen Dairy girls highly

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just it's just Irish humor and so

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painfully dry which is it for me so this

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book is completely from the priest's

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point of view oh okay yeah yes which is

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a very rare thing I feel like in Romance

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to have just the male Point male point

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of view I would agree yeah and normally

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when it switches and so I was like okay

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cool like this will be kind of a

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different thing but now I'm realizing

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it's not the male point of view it's

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just the switching of it that like keeps

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fresh so like you know what I'm saying

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switch to the female Maine but it's more

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like when she's telling him about things

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so in the prologue we

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learn this priest is introducing himself

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he says he's 29 years old his name is

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Tyler and several months ago he broke

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his vow of celibacy and this is his

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confession and like that's the the

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prologue so he is in reconciliation

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which is confession and he is on his

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side of the the booth um and there's

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only one guy that ever really comes

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consistently um and so he's you know

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about to wrap it up cuz the guy finally

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left and he's like thank [ __ ] I I can

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get out of this tiny box and he's just

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about to get up when somebody else sits

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down and there's this really husky voice

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on the other side um and she say she's

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not Catholic but she saw the Church from

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um and I'm sorry I know you just kind of

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how how far back was this that this just

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happened it just says several months ago

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several months ago okay yeah um so um we

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this but it it gets so messy so fast I

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don't know if it

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matters so um she is like I just need

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somebody to talk to and um I just need

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to know that everything is going to be

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okay and he tells her that it really

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might not be okay but that is okay like

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she's going to learn to adjust um and

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she's going to learn how to keep living

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and um he's he wants to know like why is

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she he like what does she want to

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confess and she says that she's not sure

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if she should tell him because it's

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carnal and she winds up kind of like

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rushing out after thanking him for just

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listen listening to her from the

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beginning um and he but like it was it

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it seems as though it was like kind of

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vague the whole time yeah she's like I

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did something bad but I don't feel bad

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about it and that's what makes me think

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I'm bad and like all that kind of stuff

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so um he tries not to think about her

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again she's gone but the next week she

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comes back and

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um he he really just wants to hold her

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cuz she just sounds so like sad and lost

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and he's thinking about how in other

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parishes he's been in he's been a priest

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for 3 years in other parishes he's been

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in they don't have like the confessional

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booths really anymore it's a room and

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like you can hold somebody's hand or

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like give them a pat on the back or

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something and he's like I cannot wait

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until we've saved enough to like

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renovate this place or whatever so

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that's what he's thinking the whole time

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and then so she her name is Poppy and

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she is trying to explain that um she

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used to do bad things for work but she

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doesn't feel bad about it so before you

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move any further at all I just need you

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to know that while you're imagining

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Dairy girls priest this whole

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time my toddler lives breathes and dies

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the trolls franchise with with Princess

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poppy So when you say poppy that

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unfortunately it's going to be a little

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pink troll doll forced by Anna Kendrick

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like

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Mar that's so

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good oh no I was like oh no it had to be

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poppy of course it did yes of I I am now

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also going to imagine a little pink

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troll doll and that's going to make this

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even

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better so she says she's starting a new

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life and a new job and she's moved but

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she just doesn't feel right she doesn't

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feel like she

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fits and Tyler is really trying to f

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Focus um on her words and that she's

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struggling and that she's having a hard

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time Tyler doesn't sound like a priest

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name it sounds like a middle school

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youth pastor name I know that also was

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very difficult I was like oh no we

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couldn't give him like a a Mark or a

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give him a gospel name [ __ ] hell you

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could have gone obscure you could could

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have gone Old Testament you could have

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like gone Elijah or Elisha like sure you

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have options

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but but we went with Tyler we went with

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Tyler that's a choice and we committed

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to it the whole way

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through so what's really difficult is

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when people call him father Tyler like

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that sounds like a last name that I

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would be more comfortable with but

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somehow it's worse in my head I'm like

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you know big daddy

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Tyler Papa

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te so they step out of the booth at the

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same time and immediately all he can

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think about is shoving his dick in her

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mouth that is like first thought wrong

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thought like stuck in it and he realizes

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in three years after he took his vows he

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has never once really struggled to

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remain celibate um that's called an

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intrusive thought 100% And that's okay

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intrusive thoughts happen we don't have

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to act on them yep that's what you have

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to learn about intrusive thoughts

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Tyler hasn't learned

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that sorry it was the eye contact for me

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I did make really firm eye cont with

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very like Tyler hasn't learned that I'm

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like oh damn he really hasn't

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so he is thinking back to before he took

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his vows when he was kind of a Playboy

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and could really have anybody he wanted

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um but he's trying to focus on like like

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not violating do we learn his origin

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story we do okay so he's trying sort of

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we she he's trying not to like objectify

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her because he realizes that she is a

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person who needs help she is like one of

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God's children and he should be focused

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on his role as a priest and like a a

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counselor more so than getting

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it

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so like maybe this dick isn't what she

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came to the church looking for yeah so

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he decides that the next time she comes

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in he is going to tell her that he can't

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take her confession and recommend

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another priest um so that way like you

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know she will still get the support that

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she needs and he can be mindful of his

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vows and boundaries and everything which

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is very commendable and respectable very

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thoughtful um but from the eye contact

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you gave me a few minutes ago oh the the

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slow shaking of your

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head so he is out for a jog he's

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listening to Britney Spears and she like

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poppy like arrives next to him

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apparently also out for a run in a teeny

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tiny sports bra

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and um he gets a little weird like he's

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like I got to get away from her like oh

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my God she's so hot he's like I can't

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like back away remember next time she

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comes to the church you're going to tell

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her you can't take her confession

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anymore like trying to coach himself

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through it and she's like he also

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realizes she like touches his chest at

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one point and is like smiling at him and

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like laughing at him and he realizes

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like

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oh she's treating me like a gay bestie

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because I'm a priest and I'm safe like I

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need to chill the [ __ ] out he's like oh

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[ __ ] like chill out well cuz when you

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the way you initially said like she put

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her hand on his chest I was like oh like

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she was flirting with him and then

353
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you're like like a gay bestie and I'm

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like I see it now yeah yeah he's like

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damn it so um he's like I know I'm a

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priest but I hate that I'm friendzoned

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literally so she is then like starts to

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read that he's really uncomfortable and

359
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she starts apologizing she's like I am

360
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so sorry I didn't mean to make you

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uncomfortable or anything like I I'm I'm

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so so sorry and he's like nope I'm

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really glad that you're here um and

364
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exploring religion and if it's not for

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you that's okay I know you're looking

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for your place like even if it's not

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with the church like I will help you

368
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find it um and

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she she said that maybe she'll keep

370
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exploring because he's hot like with a

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wink and again he's like yeah I get it

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he's like damn it um but she's like

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laughing and joking about it and he's

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like

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damn

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it so um he has posted online that he

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has office hours and she's like is it

378
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okay if I come to those and he's like

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see you in 30

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minutes and then he's like I am [ __ ]

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like what am I

382
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doing because she had more she wanted to

383
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confess because she wants to explore

384
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religion more and stuff okay so

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um I'm like good sir you could shut it

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down he could have he didn't

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so

388
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um oh no that wasn't the 30 minutes

389
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sorry he said yes come to the next open

390
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Office hours whenever it is um and so

391
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then he decides to go home on his one

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day off a week to see his family he has

393
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three brothers everybody's there for

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family

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dinner um does his family live local or

396
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is it it's like an hour away this is

397
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matter this is in

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Missouri okay yeah I can't remember the

399
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exact towns but St Louis is involved in

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Kansas city is involved I think so um

401
00:18:09,640 --> 00:18:13,799
you know under represented cities in the

402
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smut Community sure shout out to the

403
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Midwest I suppose um

404
00:18:17,080 --> 00:18:25,039
so uh they his brothers Raz him for

405
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being celibate and stuff um and one of

406
00:18:25,039 --> 00:18:30,039
them is talking about going to this like

407
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extremely exclusive strip club that's

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like invite only and like you don't even

409
00:18:31,880 --> 00:18:36,280
get to know the name and like all this

410
00:18:33,760 --> 00:18:38,039
other [ __ ] and he's like I wonder if

411
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maybe po poppy worked somewhere like

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that like maybe that's what she was

413
00:18:39,760 --> 00:18:43,799
talking about when she said she had a

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job doing bad stuff but he's like now's

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not the time stay focused because he

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became a priest because of his little

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sister um and we don't get the details

418
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at this point but he decides he's going

419
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to help poppy since nobody helped his

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sister and so he is like adamant that he

421
00:19:00,559 --> 00:19:08,039
is going to be there for her so we're

422
00:19:02,720 --> 00:19:11,240
projecting mhm okay um and so the next

423
00:19:08,039 --> 00:19:13,000
time he's out for a run he runs into her

424
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again and this is when he says 30

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minutes so she shows up and he is like

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gameface ready to be empathetic ready to

427
00:19:20,120 --> 00:19:26,240
be supportive like I am here for you on

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00:19:23,320 --> 00:19:27,360
your spiritual journey professionally

429
00:19:26,240 --> 00:19:31,679
very much

430
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so so so um she shares her backstory she

431
00:19:31,679 --> 00:19:35,919
came from a ton of money graduated ivy

432
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league all this stuff and then when she

433
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finished her MBA she realized like she

434
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was trapped and she hated it and she

435
00:19:40,280 --> 00:19:45,360
didn't really want any part of it and so

436
00:19:42,600 --> 00:19:47,480
she just left and she didn't touch her

437
00:19:45,360 --> 00:19:50,840
trust fund and she didn't speak to her

438
00:19:47,480 --> 00:19:54,039
parents again and it's been like 3 years

439
00:19:50,840 --> 00:19:54,039
um like when they escaped the

440
00:19:54,679 --> 00:20:00,559
Bergens yes exactly like that okay

441
00:19:58,400 --> 00:20:04,200
that's that'll be my last trolls

442
00:20:00,559 --> 00:20:07,200
joke it probably won't

443
00:20:04,200 --> 00:20:11,400
be and I look forward to

444
00:20:07,200 --> 00:20:14,520
it I look forward to the the [ __ ] eating

445
00:20:11,400 --> 00:20:16,559
grin you get right before you say it and

446
00:20:14,520 --> 00:20:18,960
then the looking down in shame that you

447
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do right

448
00:20:18,960 --> 00:20:26,280
after it's good to be known it's good to

449
00:20:21,760 --> 00:20:28,919
be seen yep I'm here for you so um Tyler

450
00:20:26,280 --> 00:20:30,400
then shares that his parents um weren't

451
00:20:28,919 --> 00:20:34,360
supportive of him becoming a priest at

452
00:20:30,400 --> 00:20:36,200
all and um trying to like connect with

453
00:20:34,360 --> 00:20:38,960
her and explains that his sister was

454
00:20:36,200 --> 00:20:41,799
abused by their priest growing up and

455
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she left all the details along with all

456
00:20:41,799 --> 00:20:45,679
the names of the other victims in her

457
00:20:43,679 --> 00:20:49,960
suicide note and he's the one that found

458
00:20:45,679 --> 00:20:52,320
her body um and so his family really

459
00:20:49,960 --> 00:20:54,760
shunned the church after that completely

460
00:20:52,320 --> 00:20:57,159
and the church shun to the family like

461
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they were they were angry with his

462
00:20:57,159 --> 00:21:04,440
sister more so than they were the priest

463
00:21:00,360 --> 00:21:08,080
at that point and so

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um poppy explains she just started

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driving like they're doing a lot of

466
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connecting and like back and forth at

467
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this point so she explains that she got

468
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in her car and just started driving and

469
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wound up in Kansas City where she was

470
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recruited for a a strip club um she

471
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liked working there um and she goes into

472
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a lot of detail about touching herself

473
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in front of

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00:21:29,080 --> 00:21:34,480
customers um and how all she really

475
00:21:32,240 --> 00:21:35,799
wanted then and all she really wants now

476
00:21:34,480 --> 00:21:39,360
is to be

477
00:21:35,799 --> 00:21:42,799
[ __ ] exact words mouth ass [ __ ]

478
00:21:39,360 --> 00:21:44,320
doesn't even matter like what bold words

479
00:21:42,799 --> 00:21:48,360
to say to a

480
00:21:44,320 --> 00:21:50,840
priest in his office hours I know and

481
00:21:48,360 --> 00:21:53,799
he's about to die he's like gripping the

482
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chair the arm chair like I'm going to

483
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die here but thankfully her phone goes

484
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off like right at that moment

485
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and so she has to leave for some reason

486
00:22:01,679 --> 00:22:08,000
and immediately jerks off all over his

487
00:22:05,320 --> 00:22:10,600
desk and there's like like a portrait of

488
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St Augustine on the wall and he's like

489
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don't judge me

490
00:22:12,679 --> 00:22:17,120
like shut up Augie you don't

491
00:22:17,880 --> 00:22:25,039
know so again he feels really bad that

492
00:22:21,159 --> 00:22:28,000
he has basically like violated her trust

493
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um by having these feelings towards her

494
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and acting on them um and

495
00:22:32,360 --> 00:22:41,039
so few days later he runs into her at a

496
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coffee shop she um helps him with

497
00:22:41,039 --> 00:22:44,640
spreadsheet stuff for fundraising for

498
00:22:43,159 --> 00:22:47,600
the church and everything cuz she has

499
00:22:44,640 --> 00:22:49,720
her MBA and he's terrible at it so he's

500
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help she's helping him with that stuff

501
00:22:49,720 --> 00:22:53,320
and for some reason I don't really

502
00:22:51,919 --> 00:22:56,200
remember how it comes up but she

503
00:22:53,320 --> 00:22:59,039
mentions that um no one has ever really

504
00:22:56,200 --> 00:23:00,799
loved her and uh like

505
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that's the that's part of the issue I

506
00:23:00,799 --> 00:23:07,600
took with this book I would be

507
00:23:03,840 --> 00:23:10,679
like what like this is not conversation

508
00:23:07,600 --> 00:23:14,039
for a coffee shop while you're working

509
00:23:10,679 --> 00:23:16,840
on spreadsheets also I like that she's

510
00:23:14,039 --> 00:23:19,760
just like a full-fledged volunteer for

511
00:23:16,840 --> 00:23:22,360
this church that she doesn't even belong

512
00:23:19,760 --> 00:23:26,840
to belong to or necessarily like believe

513
00:23:22,360 --> 00:23:28,600
in their God yeah she's just like here

514
00:23:26,840 --> 00:23:30,200
to help

515
00:23:28,600 --> 00:23:31,799
like she just likes the priest with the

516
00:23:30,200 --> 00:23:34,080
good hair then I was like wait does he

517
00:23:31,799 --> 00:23:35,440
have good hair or is that I think yes

518
00:23:34,080 --> 00:23:37,640
but we don't actually really know what

519
00:23:35,440 --> 00:23:41,880
he looks like because it's all from all

520
00:23:37,640 --> 00:23:43,120
from his point of view yeah so um so she

521
00:23:41,880 --> 00:23:45,240
actually did mention when she was

522
00:23:43,120 --> 00:23:48,559
talking to him how much she loved

523
00:23:45,240 --> 00:23:50,559
volunteering and how she would go to um

524
00:23:48,559 --> 00:23:52,960
like I think she mentioned going to

525
00:23:50,559 --> 00:23:55,600
Haiti after the earthquake to help there

526
00:23:52,960 --> 00:23:59,679
and like she has a heart for service and

527
00:23:55,600 --> 00:24:01,679
so she wants to engage with that more

528
00:23:59,679 --> 00:24:06,159
um and he when she mentions not being

529
00:24:01,679 --> 00:24:10,480
loved um he like grabs her hand and um

530
00:24:06,159 --> 00:24:13,360
has this like fantasy of tying her up

531
00:24:10,480 --> 00:24:14,960
like imagine putting a a rope around her

532
00:24:13,360 --> 00:24:17,720
wrist while he's holding her hand in

533
00:24:14,960 --> 00:24:19,000
this coffee shop and he's like I am a

534
00:24:17,720 --> 00:24:24,440
bad bad

535
00:24:19,000 --> 00:24:26,159
man um and so she they walk out together

536
00:24:24,440 --> 00:24:28,480
and it turns out she lives on the same

537
00:24:26,159 --> 00:24:31,520
street as the church and he's like of

538
00:24:28,480 --> 00:24:33,600
course she does great love that I can

539
00:24:31,520 --> 00:24:36,840
see her house from my [ __ ] room

540
00:24:33,600 --> 00:24:41,760
awesome like oh

541
00:24:36,840 --> 00:24:44,559
no um so she um mentioned something

542
00:24:41,760 --> 00:24:49,799
about she decided to move to this small

543
00:24:44,559 --> 00:24:52,559
town after Sterling found her but she

544
00:24:49,799 --> 00:24:57,520
doesn't follow up with that and he

545
00:24:52,559 --> 00:25:00,120
doesn't ask and so then she just says um

546
00:24:57,520 --> 00:25:02,159
I'll see you like next week at your

547
00:25:00,120 --> 00:25:04,399
office hours or whatever so the next

548
00:25:02,159 --> 00:25:06,559
Monday he's working up to tell her that

549
00:25:04,399 --> 00:25:08,799
he'll help her find someone else to talk

550
00:25:06,559 --> 00:25:10,679
to but of course immediately he's like

551
00:25:08,799 --> 00:25:13,679
never mind like as soon as she's in

552
00:25:10,679 --> 00:25:17,120
front of him he's like

553
00:25:13,679 --> 00:25:19,080
okay like okay I feel like at this point

554
00:25:17,120 --> 00:25:23,440
I'm like getting a little frustrated

555
00:25:19,080 --> 00:25:28,360
with him that's how I felt the whole

556
00:25:23,440 --> 00:25:31,480
time oh good yeah okay yeah which is why

557
00:25:28,360 --> 00:25:34,200
I'm imagining this like deeply hated

558
00:25:31,480 --> 00:25:38,480
priest that I find amusing because it

559
00:25:34,200 --> 00:25:40,679
helps me it helps me so poppy then tells

560
00:25:38,480 --> 00:25:42,440
him the next time they meet that she had

561
00:25:40,679 --> 00:25:43,559
been in love with a man named Sterling

562
00:25:42,440 --> 00:25:45,360
and she thought they were going to get

563
00:25:43,559 --> 00:25:48,240
married they'd been on and off for a

564
00:25:45,360 --> 00:25:51,840
while but then she got his wedding

565
00:25:48,240 --> 00:25:54,679
invitation in the mail and that's part

566
00:25:51,840 --> 00:25:57,880
of kind of why she took off and he

567
00:25:54,679 --> 00:26:00,799
showed up at the strip club a month ago

568
00:25:57,880 --> 00:26:02,360
and told her that um he never could have

569
00:26:00,799 --> 00:26:04,840
married her because she's not wife

570
00:26:02,360 --> 00:26:05,720
material she's a [ __ ] and she likes it

571
00:26:04,840 --> 00:26:09,520
too

572
00:26:05,720 --> 00:26:12,000
much um and he couldn't take her to like

573
00:26:09,520 --> 00:26:15,039
because she likes it too much yeah isn't

574
00:26:12,000 --> 00:26:17,559
that a good thing a selling shouldn't

575
00:26:15,039 --> 00:26:20,360
you want her to be into it but he's like

576
00:26:17,559 --> 00:26:21,799
I can't take you to like company dinners

577
00:26:20,360 --> 00:26:25,679
and things like that everybody's going

578
00:26:21,799 --> 00:26:29,960
to want to [ __ ] you and it's like okay

579
00:26:25,679 --> 00:26:32,760
ew also [ __ ] that guy that you're not

580
00:26:29,960 --> 00:26:35,240
letting them [ __ ] you right like someone

581
00:26:32,760 --> 00:26:36,880
thinking you're attractive I can't date

582
00:26:35,240 --> 00:26:39,559
you anymore because you're too

583
00:26:36,880 --> 00:26:42,320
attractive other people will want you

584
00:26:39,559 --> 00:26:45,360
yeah so I married someone else that I

585
00:26:42,320 --> 00:26:47,840
can take to the holiday party to hang

586
00:26:45,360 --> 00:26:50,440
out with my coworker Tammy from

587
00:26:47,840 --> 00:26:52,880
accounting the [ __ ] so all I can think

588
00:26:50,440 --> 00:26:54,760
about is that time that some dude hit on

589
00:26:52,880 --> 00:26:58,080
you and you told Vance and he high-fived

590
00:26:54,760 --> 00:26:58,919
you yeah that was lovely that was so

591
00:26:58,080 --> 00:27:02,600
good

592
00:26:58,919 --> 00:27:04,480
yeah well let's let's not forget I was 5

593
00:27:02,600 --> 00:27:06,919
months you were super pregnant yeah I

594
00:27:04,480 --> 00:27:10,159
was 5 months pregnant in a

595
00:27:06,919 --> 00:27:12,080
swimsuit just trying my best out there

596
00:27:10,159 --> 00:27:15,720
and you were doing your best apparently

597
00:27:12,080 --> 00:27:18,679
apparently yeah trying and achieving

598
00:27:15,720 --> 00:27:21,640
listen free drinks are free

599
00:27:18,679 --> 00:27:25,279
drinks yes they are

600
00:27:21,640 --> 00:27:28,360
and like I make more than I made when I

601
00:27:25,279 --> 00:27:31,120
was 20 but I'll still always take a free

602
00:27:28,360 --> 00:27:35,000
drink if it's offered like that uh that

603
00:27:31,120 --> 00:27:38,840
girly girl song that's on um been on Tik

604
00:27:35,000 --> 00:27:41,080
Tok recently that's like um I don't need

605
00:27:38,840 --> 00:27:44,360
money from a man I have my own but I

606
00:27:41,080 --> 00:27:46,880
will take money from a man like yes go

607
00:27:44,360 --> 00:27:50,120
ahead and give me some money that sounds

608
00:27:46,880 --> 00:27:53,799
great 1,000% I was like absolutely and

609
00:27:50,120 --> 00:27:57,880
my husband will let you buy me drink yes

610
00:27:53,799 --> 00:27:57,880
cuz we share a bank account

611
00:27:58,560 --> 00:28:04,600
[Laughter]

612
00:28:01,840 --> 00:28:10,000
honestly in this economy you do what you

613
00:28:04,600 --> 00:28:11,240
got to do um so Sterling tells her that

614
00:28:10,000 --> 00:28:14,360
he's been looking for her for three

615
00:28:11,240 --> 00:28:18,480
years because she belongs to him um wait

616
00:28:14,360 --> 00:28:20,679
what yep and he tells her all about how

617
00:28:18,480 --> 00:28:22,640
what her life would be like if she would

618
00:28:20,679 --> 00:28:24,240
just finally agree to be his mistress

619
00:28:22,640 --> 00:28:28,760
because that's all she's ever going to

620
00:28:24,240 --> 00:28:34,519
be good for anyway and so I don't like

621
00:28:28,760 --> 00:28:36,840
him no he's pretty terrible um and he

622
00:28:34,519 --> 00:28:40,360
continues to tell her all of this while

623
00:28:36,840 --> 00:28:42,080
they [ __ ] in this strip club and she

624
00:28:40,360 --> 00:28:43,559
knew he was married and she knew it was

625
00:28:42,080 --> 00:28:46,960
wrong and she did it

626
00:28:43,559 --> 00:28:49,159
anyway and Tyler is losing his mind

627
00:28:46,960 --> 00:28:52,080
listening to this story and he wants to

628
00:28:49,159 --> 00:28:54,360
commit murder but he's also Wicked

629
00:28:52,080 --> 00:28:56,320
turned on at the same

630
00:28:54,360 --> 00:28:58,600
time um

631
00:28:56,320 --> 00:29:00,760
so she says like

632
00:28:58,600 --> 00:29:04,480
I'll go kill him as soon as you give me

633
00:29:00,760 --> 00:29:07,760
a few minutes right give me a moment so

634
00:29:04,480 --> 00:29:07,760
she you have a pillow by any

635
00:29:08,840 --> 00:29:16,880
chance sorry what were you going say a

636
00:29:12,159 --> 00:29:21,240
pillow so um she says that Sterling was

637
00:29:16,880 --> 00:29:24,960
right she is a [ __ ] and even

638
00:29:21,240 --> 00:29:28,880
now and she like like stops talking and

639
00:29:24,960 --> 00:29:30,960
she moves to leave and before before he

640
00:29:28,880 --> 00:29:32,600
even realizes what he's doing he is out

641
00:29:30,960 --> 00:29:34,559
of his side of the booth and like in

642
00:29:32,600 --> 00:29:37,360
front of her kind of blocking her way

643
00:29:34,559 --> 00:29:39,960
demanding that she explain herself and

644
00:29:37,360 --> 00:29:41,720
like finish her sentence and backs her

645
00:29:39,960 --> 00:29:44,840
up into the

646
00:29:41,720 --> 00:29:50,120
piano um and tells her to turn around

647
00:29:44,840 --> 00:29:53,360
and he realizes she is not wearing

648
00:29:50,120 --> 00:29:55,360
underwear and are they in they're in his

649
00:29:53,360 --> 00:29:57,760
office hours they're in a restaurant

650
00:29:55,360 --> 00:30:00,600
where they were in the um confessional

651
00:29:57,760 --> 00:30:03,640
that time it's all random places in the

652
00:30:00,600 --> 00:30:06,320
church mostly that they bang

653
00:30:03,640 --> 00:30:09,600
actually no that's well you said the

654
00:30:06,320 --> 00:30:12,399
booth and then you said the piano oh

655
00:30:09,600 --> 00:30:14,200
sorry and I was like logistically I just

656
00:30:12,399 --> 00:30:16,960
have a couple question like the booth at

657
00:30:14,200 --> 00:30:18,559
the coffee shop yes I was like I was

658
00:30:16,960 --> 00:30:19,960
like well maybe he has a piano in his

659
00:30:18,559 --> 00:30:22,640
office but why would he have a booth in

660
00:30:19,960 --> 00:30:25,600
his office this makes we're tracking now

661
00:30:22,640 --> 00:30:29,120
tring just in the main sanctuary yes

662
00:30:25,600 --> 00:30:34,000
logistically so um

663
00:30:29,120 --> 00:30:35,720
so he spanks her um wait what because

664
00:30:34,000 --> 00:30:38,039
she's not wearing any underwear and she

665
00:30:35,720 --> 00:30:41,399
did it on purpose and she had been

666
00:30:38,039 --> 00:30:45,440
touching herself while confessing and he

667
00:30:41,399 --> 00:30:48,679
eats her out and then immediately feels

668
00:30:45,440 --> 00:30:50,760
super guilty yeah that face is correct

669
00:30:48,679 --> 00:30:56,039
that face is correct that went from 6:00

670
00:30:50,760 --> 00:30:58,240
to midnight real fast yep yep wait so

671
00:30:56,039 --> 00:31:01,080
she was masturbating while she was

672
00:30:58,240 --> 00:31:04,720
confessing yep did he know when that was

673
00:31:01,080 --> 00:31:06,279
happening it was just she so when he

674
00:31:04,720 --> 00:31:09,200
realized she wasn't wearing underwear he

675
00:31:06,279 --> 00:31:11,679
was like why did you do that you came

676
00:31:09,200 --> 00:31:14,320
here with no panties on purpose tell me

677
00:31:11,679 --> 00:31:16,000
why were you touching yourself she's

678
00:31:14,320 --> 00:31:20,519
like

679
00:31:16,000 --> 00:31:24,480
yeah maybe could have been I don't

680
00:31:20,519 --> 00:31:28,519
know so um he immediately is like what

681
00:31:24,480 --> 00:31:33,159
the [ __ ] have I done because this Parish

682
00:31:28,519 --> 00:31:35,200
the former priest had been um terrible

683
00:31:33,159 --> 00:31:36,720
um and so he has done a lot to like

684
00:31:35,200 --> 00:31:39,039
repair the relationship with the

685
00:31:36,720 --> 00:31:41,519
community and he's like cool cool cool I

686
00:31:39,039 --> 00:31:45,120
just bent somebody over the piano and

687
00:31:41,519 --> 00:31:47,440
ate them out in the sanctuary where

688
00:31:45,120 --> 00:31:49,440
anyone could have walked in like what

689
00:31:47,440 --> 00:31:51,399
the [ __ ] is wrong with me maybe wipe it

690
00:31:49,440 --> 00:31:54,279
down before glattus gets there for music

691
00:31:51,399 --> 00:31:58,440
practice right Myrtle will not be

692
00:31:54,279 --> 00:32:01,679
impressed and so um after

693
00:31:58,440 --> 00:32:03,440
she comes he tries to like back away but

694
00:32:01,679 --> 00:32:06,840
she starts feeling him up and telling

695
00:32:03,440 --> 00:32:08,600
him like what a good man he is and this

696
00:32:06,840 --> 00:32:10,799
is the other part of this book that I

697
00:32:08,600 --> 00:32:14,039
struggled with so

698
00:32:10,799 --> 00:32:15,919
immensely um they just like rub all over

699
00:32:14,039 --> 00:32:20,840
each other to

700
00:32:15,919 --> 00:32:23,760
completion and he's like doesn't count

701
00:32:20,840 --> 00:32:25,880
no penetration so it doesn't count as

702
00:32:23,760 --> 00:32:29,840
breaking my vals okay when you say rub

703
00:32:25,880 --> 00:32:29,840
all over each other I mean

704
00:32:30,200 --> 00:32:36,760
like [ __ ] on dick without

705
00:32:34,440 --> 00:32:40,960
penetration okay just some nice dry

706
00:32:36,760 --> 00:32:42,639
humping it didn't sound like it was dry

707
00:32:40,960 --> 00:32:44,639
sounded like there was a situation well

708
00:32:42,639 --> 00:32:47,840
there was fabric to absorb absorb the

709
00:32:44,639 --> 00:32:49,600
moisture oh no no no no it was skin to

710
00:32:47,840 --> 00:32:51,639
skin cuz she wasn't wearing any

711
00:32:49,600 --> 00:32:53,559
underwear she pulled her skirt up and he

712
00:32:51,639 --> 00:32:55,200
pulled his pants down oh I missed the

713
00:32:53,559 --> 00:32:57,080
pants I didn't I don't think I mentioned

714
00:32:55,200 --> 00:32:58,320
the pants I don't think it's in my notes

715
00:32:57,080 --> 00:33:01,000
but that will continue continue to live

716
00:32:58,320 --> 00:33:03,679
rent free for me because I'm like Jesus

717
00:33:01,000 --> 00:33:05,000
wept well no still not as bad as altered

718
00:33:03,679 --> 00:33:07,320
by fire when they accidentally killed

719
00:33:05,000 --> 00:33:09,960
the N I know right I did think that

720
00:33:07,320 --> 00:33:12,200
through this too I like put the prayer

721
00:33:09,960 --> 00:33:13,440
candle up her ass could have been worse

722
00:33:12,200 --> 00:33:16,399
could have killed a

723
00:33:13,440 --> 00:33:18,760
nun which also incidentally happens in

724
00:33:16,399 --> 00:33:18,760
Dairy

725
00:33:21,679 --> 00:33:26,519
girls

726
00:33:23,519 --> 00:33:30,799
so so they

727
00:33:26,519 --> 00:33:34,440
just just some old school high school

728
00:33:30,799 --> 00:33:38,559
youth group yes as long as there's no

729
00:33:34,440 --> 00:33:41,440
penetration it doesn't count yep and so

730
00:33:38,559 --> 00:33:43,679
they don't even speak to each other she

731
00:33:41,440 --> 00:33:48,639
just gets up and

732
00:33:43,679 --> 00:33:53,200
leaves that's it so then Millie who is

733
00:33:48,639 --> 00:33:55,559
Tyler's very old parishioner shows up um

734
00:33:53,200 --> 00:33:58,519
to his house she very often comes to the

735
00:33:55,559 --> 00:34:01,080
parish and like will bring food and

736
00:33:58,519 --> 00:34:04,240
things like that and she immediately

737
00:34:01,080 --> 00:34:06,159
knows that something is wrong um and she

738
00:34:04,240 --> 00:34:07,799
knows it probably has to do with poppy

739
00:34:06,159 --> 00:34:11,560
because she had seen them in the coffee

740
00:34:07,799 --> 00:34:14,359
shop and seen how like close they looked

741
00:34:11,560 --> 00:34:16,079
mhm but she's really sweet about it and

742
00:34:14,359 --> 00:34:18,679
she tells him that there is nothing

743
00:34:16,079 --> 00:34:21,359
wrong with being a man and having

744
00:34:18,679 --> 00:34:23,079
feelings and like whatever and Tyler's

745
00:34:21,359 --> 00:34:25,320
like nope I was about to say good for

746
00:34:23,079 --> 00:34:27,359
you Millie but before I say that is that

747
00:34:25,320 --> 00:34:28,280
the right response yeah Millie is very

748
00:34:27,359 --> 00:34:30,639
kind

749
00:34:28,280 --> 00:34:32,119
listen there's a lot of left turns in

750
00:34:30,639 --> 00:34:34,560
this book so I felt like I was about to

751
00:34:32,119 --> 00:34:37,639
be oh you know Millie way to go I really

752
00:34:34,560 --> 00:34:39,800
rooted for most everybody except for

753
00:34:37,639 --> 00:34:44,000
Tyler and Poppy I was like you guys

754
00:34:39,800 --> 00:34:46,200
[ __ ] suck like oh my God I can't

755
00:34:44,000 --> 00:34:50,919
[ __ ] stand it

756
00:34:46,200 --> 00:34:54,280
so um he is now like deciding he's going

757
00:34:50,919 --> 00:34:59,000
to double down on his

758
00:34:54,280 --> 00:35:00,920
um uh his vows he knows he may a mistake

759
00:34:59,000 --> 00:35:04,040
can't happen again he's leading men's

760
00:35:00,920 --> 00:35:07,320
bible study that night and it happens to

761
00:35:04,040 --> 00:35:11,160
be on sexuality and of course and so

762
00:35:07,320 --> 00:35:14,400
then he is doing okay until he gets to

763
00:35:11,160 --> 00:35:17,560
um that one verse in Romans that ends

764
00:35:14,400 --> 00:35:19,640
with um what a Wretched Man I am and

765
00:35:17,560 --> 00:35:21,839
that becomes like his Mantra like over

766
00:35:19,640 --> 00:35:23,520
and over like what a Wretched Man I am

767
00:35:21,839 --> 00:35:25,520
like every time he thinks of anything

768
00:35:23,520 --> 00:35:27,280
what a Wretched Man I am he's

769
00:35:25,520 --> 00:35:31,839
insufferable just like go to [ __ ]

770
00:35:27,280 --> 00:35:34,560
therapy man thank you um

771
00:35:31,839 --> 00:35:37,560
so he now feels like he took advantage

772
00:35:34,560 --> 00:35:39,800
of her because she was vulnerable and

773
00:35:37,560 --> 00:35:41,640
looking for help and like he couldn't

774
00:35:39,800 --> 00:35:42,960
keep himself together and he's a

775
00:35:41,640 --> 00:35:45,760
terrible

776
00:35:42,960 --> 00:35:48,320
person

777
00:35:45,760 --> 00:35:51,319
so go ahead well no cuz I feel like

778
00:35:48,320 --> 00:35:53,079
we're just like sure believe it okay I

779
00:35:51,319 --> 00:35:55,400
don't even give a [ __ ] of you I'm not

780
00:35:53,079 --> 00:35:57,640
going to be like no you're so incredible

781
00:35:55,400 --> 00:35:59,920
I'm just like you are an active partic

782
00:35:57,640 --> 00:36:03,920
participant in your current unhappiness

783
00:35:59,920 --> 00:36:07,640
and yes take [ __ ] accountability bro

784
00:36:03,920 --> 00:36:10,720
yes don't just like [ __ ] and like go

785
00:36:07,640 --> 00:36:13,200
wo is me saying wo is me is not true

786
00:36:10,720 --> 00:36:15,680
accountability yeah

787
00:36:13,200 --> 00:36:17,520
and there's the other character that I

788
00:36:15,680 --> 00:36:20,720
very much rooted for in this basically

789
00:36:17,520 --> 00:36:23,400
tells him that is like we'll get there

790
00:36:20,720 --> 00:36:25,079
so Tyler goes for another run

791
00:36:23,400 --> 00:36:29,040
essentially to punish himself and he

792
00:36:25,079 --> 00:36:31,599
winds up at um the Tabernacle in the

793
00:36:29,040 --> 00:36:36,680
sanctuary um

794
00:36:31,599 --> 00:36:40,240
and I forgot how much of like how much

795
00:36:36,680 --> 00:36:44,839
artifacts are involved in Catholicism in

796
00:36:40,240 --> 00:36:46,800
the sacraments yeah and I was like

797
00:36:44,839 --> 00:36:49,119
Tabernacle oh yeah there's one of those

798
00:36:46,800 --> 00:36:51,400
in every Catholic Church I'm not going

799
00:36:49,119 --> 00:36:56,520
to lie you said the word Tabernacle and

800
00:36:51,400 --> 00:36:59,319
I also paused and went yeah huh oh yeah

801
00:36:56,520 --> 00:37:03,440
yeah like I literally like wait a minute

802
00:36:59,319 --> 00:37:05,280
oh like that makes sense so he winds up

803
00:37:03,440 --> 00:37:07,280
at the Tabernacle which is at the front

804
00:37:05,280 --> 00:37:09,520
of the church for our listeners who are

805
00:37:07,280 --> 00:37:12,000
not uh Catholic or don't know anything

806
00:37:09,520 --> 00:37:17,480
about Catholicism bless

807
00:37:12,000 --> 00:37:17,480
you and you know go with God or whatever

808
00:37:19,640 --> 00:37:27,760
so so so

809
00:37:22,920 --> 00:37:27,760
okay you know in Star Wars

810
00:37:28,359 --> 00:37:32,319
where it's like May the force be with

811
00:37:30,560 --> 00:37:35,079
you right

812
00:37:32,319 --> 00:37:37,560
mhm I didn't know I went to Catholic

813
00:37:35,079 --> 00:37:38,640
church with a friend and I didn't know

814
00:37:37,560 --> 00:37:42,079
that they

815
00:37:38,640 --> 00:37:45,200
say may peace be with you and also with

816
00:37:42,079 --> 00:37:47,480
you with you right I didn't like fully

817
00:37:45,200 --> 00:37:50,000
track that and

818
00:37:47,480 --> 00:37:52,119
then so I had a really hard time after

819
00:37:50,000 --> 00:37:54,000
that when people would say May the force

820
00:37:52,119 --> 00:37:57,160
be with you I just wanted to say and

821
00:37:54,000 --> 00:37:58,319
also with you which is not Hann I did I

822
00:37:57,160 --> 00:38:02,119
did

823
00:37:58,319 --> 00:38:05,839
I would I have no I know it's not a

824
00:38:02,119 --> 00:38:08,440
unique experience but like half of this

825
00:38:05,839 --> 00:38:11,599
book I was like is this my own religious

826
00:38:08,440 --> 00:38:14,160
issues that I'm reacting to or is this

827
00:38:11,599 --> 00:38:18,400
the book itself and I think it is a VIN

828
00:38:14,160 --> 00:38:18,400
diagram that's a circle

829
00:38:19,400 --> 00:38:26,280
so well right because I I do feel

830
00:38:22,960 --> 00:38:29,319
like obviously altered by fire was it

831
00:38:26,280 --> 00:38:31,000
was different wild nobody had taken vows

832
00:38:29,319 --> 00:38:32,839
in that there was another book that I

833
00:38:31,000 --> 00:38:34,760
read where a priest had taken vows and

834
00:38:32,839 --> 00:38:37,319
at one point he used the prayer beads as

835
00:38:34,760 --> 00:38:39,560
anal beads like you did specifically ask

836
00:38:37,319 --> 00:38:41,920
me if that was going to happen no that

837
00:38:39,560 --> 00:38:44,920
yeah because because it stood out to me

838
00:38:41,920 --> 00:38:47,319
right in a it sounds like not a good

839
00:38:44,920 --> 00:38:50,079
idea well but also just in that way

840
00:38:47,319 --> 00:38:54,359
where like reading books that have these

841
00:38:50,079 --> 00:38:56,200
like religious components to it mhm I I

842
00:38:54,359 --> 00:38:59,079
do agree that like there's some of like

843
00:38:56,200 --> 00:39:02,800
hey I know part of this is me reacting

844
00:38:59,079 --> 00:39:06,119
from my own experiences mhm and also you

845
00:39:02,800 --> 00:39:09,800
did just [ __ ] her with the the prayer

846
00:39:06,119 --> 00:39:12,119
beads or like yeah you know you you did

847
00:39:09,800 --> 00:39:14,720
still do it and you are a little

848
00:39:12,119 --> 00:39:19,400
insufferable so maybe yeah so I'm giving

849
00:39:14,720 --> 00:39:22,240
you less credit cuz I don't like you so

850
00:39:19,400 --> 00:39:24,040
so he's at the Tabernacle on his knees

851
00:39:22,240 --> 00:39:26,839
sobbing his eyes out because he just

852
00:39:24,040 --> 00:39:29,560
feels so bad about everything and

853
00:39:26,839 --> 00:39:31,760
begging to be forgiven and then he just

854
00:39:29,560 --> 00:39:35,200
has this overwhelming sense of like

855
00:39:31,760 --> 00:39:36,880
peace and he feels god with him and this

856
00:39:35,200 --> 00:39:40,440
happens multiple times in the book where

857
00:39:36,880 --> 00:39:43,839
he's like God is here and I'm like is he

858
00:39:40,440 --> 00:39:43,839
or did the air conditioner turn

859
00:39:44,160 --> 00:39:50,480
on cuz he's like I felt to chill you

860
00:39:48,240 --> 00:39:53,480
just ran like 12 miles and you're

861
00:39:50,480 --> 00:39:57,480
covered in sweat I think it's cuz you're

862
00:39:53,480 --> 00:39:57,480
anemic right

863
00:39:58,599 --> 00:40:03,800
so I'm not getting less annoyed with it

864
00:40:02,520 --> 00:40:05,240
go I know I know that's why I was

865
00:40:03,800 --> 00:40:07,000
worried about doing this and why I had

866
00:40:05,240 --> 00:40:09,359
to come up with a strategy so I didn't

867
00:40:07,000 --> 00:40:13,720
absolutely outright [ __ ] on him the

868
00:40:09,359 --> 00:40:16,560
whole time so the next few days are very

869
00:40:13,720 --> 00:40:20,079
uneventful but Friday poppy shows up to

870
00:40:16,560 --> 00:40:22,640
mass and he does fine until he touches

871
00:40:20,079 --> 00:40:24,160
her to give her the blessing because if

872
00:40:22,640 --> 00:40:25,839
you are not confirmed Catholic you

873
00:40:24,160 --> 00:40:29,280
cannot take communion in a Catholic

874
00:40:25,839 --> 00:40:31,480
church but you can can be a part of it

875
00:40:29,280 --> 00:40:33,200
by receiving a blessing from the priest

876
00:40:31,480 --> 00:40:35,800
instead of receiving the

877
00:40:33,200 --> 00:40:38,119
sacrament and so to be blessed the

878
00:40:35,800 --> 00:40:39,440
priest essentially like holds the top of

879
00:40:38,119 --> 00:40:42,200
your head and makes the sign of the

880
00:40:39,440 --> 00:40:44,839
cross on your forehead and he just feels

881
00:40:42,200 --> 00:40:47,400
this like overwhelming connection to her

882
00:40:44,839 --> 00:40:50,280
and after Mass she stays behind so they

883
00:40:47,400 --> 00:40:51,839
can talk and they they talk about

884
00:40:50,280 --> 00:40:53,359
religion and he's like God she's so

885
00:40:51,839 --> 00:40:56,040
smart and I really like the way her

886
00:40:53,359 --> 00:40:57,920
brain works and she says she'd really

887
00:40:56,040 --> 00:40:59,520
like to volunteer cuz she wants to know

888
00:40:57,920 --> 00:41:01,680
more about the church and she would like

889
00:40:59,520 --> 00:41:03,839
to be involved so she volunteers for the

890
00:41:01,680 --> 00:41:07,319
pancake breakfast the next

891
00:41:03,839 --> 00:41:10,280
day um and he then starts to realize

892
00:41:07,319 --> 00:41:13,480
like this is not just she's super hot

893
00:41:10,280 --> 00:41:16,200
like I I am developing feelings for her

894
00:41:13,480 --> 00:41:19,440
like this is worse somehow yeah I don't

895
00:41:16,200 --> 00:41:22,119
just I don't just want to bend her over

896
00:41:19,440 --> 00:41:24,520
the church piano right I want to know

897
00:41:22,119 --> 00:41:26,280
more about her I want to know her heart

898
00:41:24,520 --> 00:41:27,920
I want to penetrate her heart as much as

899
00:41:26,280 --> 00:41:31,920
I want to penetrate the rest

900
00:41:27,920 --> 00:41:34,640
yikes yes but it did still feel ACC like

901
00:41:31,920 --> 00:41:38,040
yikes like I don't love it but I also

902
00:41:34,640 --> 00:41:41,040
can't not wrong so the breakfast goes

903
00:41:38,040 --> 00:41:43,960
great Tyler feels great he's like this

904
00:41:41,040 --> 00:41:46,319
is wonderful and then he and Poppy wind

905
00:41:43,960 --> 00:41:49,240
up being the last two

906
00:41:46,319 --> 00:41:52,119
there um and

907
00:41:49,240 --> 00:41:55,520
then they wind up somehow talking about

908
00:41:52,119 --> 00:41:57,720
if anyone especially a woman can be

909
00:41:55,520 --> 00:42:00,160
truly good

910
00:41:57,720 --> 00:42:03,599
it's like this weird philosophical thing

911
00:42:00,160 --> 00:42:07,760
of like whatever Eve yeah and he's like

912
00:42:03,599 --> 00:42:13,280
Forget About Eve like humans or humans

913
00:42:07,760 --> 00:42:15,720
whatever um and she he he's like you are

914
00:42:13,280 --> 00:42:18,119
incredible and you are loved by God no

915
00:42:15,720 --> 00:42:20,079
matter what blah blah blah and so then

916
00:42:18,119 --> 00:42:22,119
she finally tells him that Sterling

917
00:42:20,079 --> 00:42:24,599
called her and left a message because

918
00:42:22,119 --> 00:42:28,359
she left Kansas City after he found her

919
00:42:24,599 --> 00:42:30,720
in an effort to again get away from him

920
00:42:28,359 --> 00:42:33,920
and he said that he is coming for her

921
00:42:30,720 --> 00:42:35,800
again and she's like I'm not doing this

922
00:42:33,920 --> 00:42:37,760
again like I'm not going with him I'm

923
00:42:35,800 --> 00:42:40,319
not saying yes Sterling bro where the

924
00:42:37,760 --> 00:42:42,400
[ __ ] does your wife think you are yeah

925
00:42:40,319 --> 00:42:44,960
it so it's very clear that like his wife

926
00:42:42,400 --> 00:42:48,800
is a business Arrangement this is we're

927
00:42:44,960 --> 00:42:51,599
talking like the social register level

928
00:42:48,800 --> 00:42:53,400
of like social class of like your family

929
00:42:51,599 --> 00:42:55,480
is listed in the very special book do

930
00:42:53,400 --> 00:42:57,559
you know what I'm talking about like

931
00:42:55,480 --> 00:42:59,720
that's the social level where talking

932
00:42:57,559 --> 00:43:02,280
about and so it was a business

933
00:42:59,720 --> 00:43:04,079
Arrangement essentially his marriage and

934
00:43:02,280 --> 00:43:06,200
his he's like my wife knows what's up

935
00:43:04,079 --> 00:43:09,240
she didn't give a [ __ ] she didn't love

936
00:43:06,200 --> 00:43:11,920
me either my wife doesn't love me I

937
00:43:09,240 --> 00:43:15,400
don't love her I'll never love you but

938
00:43:11,920 --> 00:43:18,400
you do belong to me you [ __ ]

939
00:43:15,400 --> 00:43:21,800
yeah okay yep

940
00:43:18,400 --> 00:43:25,559
yeah so um

941
00:43:21,800 --> 00:43:29,319
resign so

942
00:43:25,559 --> 00:43:30,839
um so Tyler tells her like I really

943
00:43:29,319 --> 00:43:35,079
don't like this like I'm worried he

944
00:43:30,839 --> 00:43:36,880
could be dangerous like you know men are

945
00:43:35,079 --> 00:43:40,920
always dangerous when they want what

946
00:43:36,880 --> 00:43:43,280
they can't have and she's like like you

947
00:43:40,920 --> 00:43:45,839
their father and like walks out like

948
00:43:43,280 --> 00:43:47,640
she's really pissed at him for like the

949
00:43:45,839 --> 00:43:49,960
way that he's talking to her which again

950
00:43:47,640 --> 00:43:51,520
I don't really understand okay that

951
00:43:49,960 --> 00:43:53,640
makes me feel better cuz I'm like I feel

952
00:43:51,520 --> 00:43:55,800
like I missed something I guess it's

953
00:43:53,640 --> 00:43:57,319
because she says like I'm not going to

954
00:43:55,800 --> 00:43:59,119
talk to him like I'm not going to do

955
00:43:57,319 --> 00:44:02,640
this again and he's like are you sure

956
00:43:59,119 --> 00:44:04,720
like be careful like I don't know and

957
00:44:02,640 --> 00:44:06,800
she's like I know my own mind like I'm

958
00:44:04,720 --> 00:44:10,079
not going to do it again but also like

959
00:44:06,800 --> 00:44:13,760
you have no right to be concerned about

960
00:44:10,079 --> 00:44:15,920
it if I do anyway kind of so then she

961
00:44:13,760 --> 00:44:20,200
shows up at his house at 3:00

962
00:44:15,920 --> 00:44:24,599
a.m. um with scotch in the rain and her

963
00:44:20,200 --> 00:44:29,680
pajamas to apologize for freaking

964
00:44:24,599 --> 00:44:34,280
out and he's like well love that she

965
00:44:29,680 --> 00:44:37,040
like fight flight or freeze flight yeah

966
00:44:34,280 --> 00:44:40,559
But like followed by

967
00:44:37,040 --> 00:44:43,400
Fawn right but I'm like with a very

968
00:44:40,559 --> 00:44:46,280
small like distress tolerance threshold

969
00:44:43,400 --> 00:44:49,880
there it's like a strong Breeze can make

970
00:44:46,280 --> 00:44:51,720
her flee yeah I'm like no you don't just

971
00:44:49,880 --> 00:44:53,920
like get to be this

972
00:44:51,720 --> 00:44:58,319
reactive but she

973
00:44:53,920 --> 00:45:00,480
will because then she goes in and and

974
00:44:58,319 --> 00:45:03,079
he's like well I have to let her in it's

975
00:45:00,480 --> 00:45:06,119
raining it's dark she's cold I should

976
00:45:03,079 --> 00:45:09,720
hear her out and the whole time I'm like

977
00:45:06,119 --> 00:45:11,280
you are painfully full of [ __ ] yep from

978
00:45:09,720 --> 00:45:13,119
the jump and I think that's what

979
00:45:11,280 --> 00:45:16,119
irritates me like just be honest about

980
00:45:13,119 --> 00:45:17,720
it yes like just be straight up well

981
00:45:16,119 --> 00:45:20,079
especially cuz when you do that like oh

982
00:45:17,720 --> 00:45:21,720
I just like couldn't help it I'm so weak

983
00:45:20,079 --> 00:45:25,960
no you did what the [ __ ] you wanted to

984
00:45:21,720 --> 00:45:27,839
do right you made choices that led to

985
00:45:25,960 --> 00:45:31,040
this bigger choice that now has bigger

986
00:45:27,839 --> 00:45:32,839
consequences like you [ __ ] did

987
00:45:31,040 --> 00:45:35,800
that

988
00:45:32,839 --> 00:45:39,920
anyway I got fired up about that because

989
00:45:35,800 --> 00:45:41,960
he really irritates me so bad I get it

990
00:45:39,920 --> 00:45:44,559
well I like I felt myself getting

991
00:45:41,960 --> 00:45:46,040
irritated earlier and I didn't even read

992
00:45:44,559 --> 00:45:47,640
it that's why you were like I haven't

993
00:45:46,040 --> 00:45:50,640
read it yet but maybe I will and I

994
00:45:47,640 --> 00:45:52,400
wanted to be like no you won't you'll be

995
00:45:50,640 --> 00:45:56,319
too annoyed

996
00:45:52,400 --> 00:45:58,040
yeah um so he apolog like they

997
00:45:56,319 --> 00:45:59,480
apologized to each other and she gets

998
00:45:58,040 --> 00:46:02,760
kind of mad that he thinks he took

999
00:45:59,480 --> 00:46:06,000
advantage of her um and starts to walk

1000
00:46:02,760 --> 00:46:09,319
out and then he grabs her she goes to

1001
00:46:06,000 --> 00:46:13,160
apologize for being reactive and walking

1002
00:46:09,319 --> 00:46:16,000
out yeah and then reacts and walks out

1003
00:46:13,160 --> 00:46:18,040
yeah and so as she's Le she's no better

1004
00:46:16,000 --> 00:46:20,960
than him like to be clear like she's

1005
00:46:18,040 --> 00:46:22,960
just as irritating so as she starts to

1006
00:46:20,960 --> 00:46:25,319
leave he grabs her and he's like just

1007
00:46:22,960 --> 00:46:28,040
one more time and then he puts her on

1008
00:46:25,319 --> 00:46:29,160
her knees and tells him tells her to

1009
00:46:28,040 --> 00:46:32,280
suck him

1010
00:46:29,160 --> 00:46:35,319
off he's like one more

1011
00:46:32,280 --> 00:46:41,000
time and she is just like okay she's

1012
00:46:35,319 --> 00:46:43,760
very into it um and then after she sucks

1013
00:46:41,000 --> 00:46:45,040
his dick for a while he tells her to go

1014
00:46:43,760 --> 00:46:48,559
get on the kitchen

1015
00:46:45,040 --> 00:46:48,559
counter um and

1016
00:46:49,200 --> 00:46:56,079
then he goes in like an inch and then

1017
00:46:52,920 --> 00:46:58,520
Jacks himself off and still is like it

1018
00:46:56,079 --> 00:47:01,559
doesn't count

1019
00:46:58,520 --> 00:47:03,319
like just the head of his dick is in and

1020
00:47:01,559 --> 00:47:05,640
when I tell you all I could think about

1021
00:47:03,319 --> 00:47:08,160
was [ __ ]

1022
00:47:05,640 --> 00:47:10,559
Mormons I was like is this the opposite

1023
00:47:08,160 --> 00:47:16,240
of soaking is this a different kind of

1024
00:47:10,559 --> 00:47:16,240
soaking I don't know who can say not

1025
00:47:17,400 --> 00:47:23,800
me um there was a group of guys I was

1026
00:47:20,720 --> 00:47:27,000
friends with in grad school were all

1027
00:47:23,800 --> 00:47:29,480
roommates and like they were like a

1028
00:47:27,000 --> 00:47:32,359
great group of guys like every Thursday

1029
00:47:29,480 --> 00:47:34,720
night was like open party at their house

1030
00:47:32,359 --> 00:47:37,720
and when I say party I mean like

1031
00:47:34,720 --> 00:47:40,079
pingpong and like like yeah just a good

1032
00:47:37,720 --> 00:47:42,040
place to hang out yes very very much so

1033
00:47:40,079 --> 00:47:44,760
but we'll always remember one of their

1034
00:47:42,040 --> 00:47:46,680
house rules was the tip doesn't count

1035
00:47:44,760 --> 00:47:50,280
unless you want it

1036
00:47:46,680 --> 00:47:53,400
to that's very good he didn't want it to

1037
00:47:50,280 --> 00:47:56,319
count but I'm like the the tip does

1038
00:47:53,400 --> 00:47:58,720
count it does even if you don't want it

1039
00:47:56,319 --> 00:48:00,520
to

1040
00:47:58,720 --> 00:48:02,880
yeah you're like no no no it's not like

1041
00:48:00,520 --> 00:48:05,040
you have to penetrate three Ines for it

1042
00:48:02,880 --> 00:48:09,480
to

1043
00:48:05,040 --> 00:48:12,920
count but like the bargaining I think is

1044
00:48:09,480 --> 00:48:17,400
so fresh cuz the bargaining feels

1045
00:48:12,920 --> 00:48:19,200
like like Purity culture bargaining and

1046
00:48:17,400 --> 00:48:22,200
I think for you and I and our

1047
00:48:19,200 --> 00:48:25,359
upbringings like that greats us in a

1048
00:48:22,200 --> 00:48:30,319
very particular way yeah it's extra icky

1049
00:48:25,359 --> 00:48:33,359
for me and so she like begs him not to

1050
00:48:30,319 --> 00:48:35,520
pull out she wants him to come inside

1051
00:48:33,359 --> 00:48:38,720
her she's on birth control whatever but

1052
00:48:35,520 --> 00:48:40,000
that's like one of her like I don't you

1053
00:48:38,720 --> 00:48:42,920
I don't think you can really call that a

1054
00:48:40,000 --> 00:48:46,880
kink she's just super into it um and so

1055
00:48:42,920 --> 00:48:50,040
he does and then she says um that she

1056
00:48:46,880 --> 00:48:51,599
will see him at Mass tomorrow and they

1057
00:48:50,040 --> 00:48:55,599
will start

1058
00:48:51,599 --> 00:48:57,359
over sure cuz that's how that works all

1059
00:48:55,599 --> 00:49:00,359
right clean

1060
00:48:57,359 --> 00:49:00,359
late

1061
00:49:02,359 --> 00:49:10,400
yep reset the scoreboard all right

1062
00:49:07,119 --> 00:49:13,000
I like a couple whenever we La whenever

1063
00:49:10,400 --> 00:49:14,880
we reviewed seeing double or whatever it

1064
00:49:13,000 --> 00:49:18,880
was called and I was just getting

1065
00:49:14,880 --> 00:49:22,799
visibly more frustrated as we went yeah

1066
00:49:18,880 --> 00:49:27,079
I feel like that's you right now yeah

1067
00:49:22,799 --> 00:49:28,960
because then I think about um I believe

1068
00:49:27,079 --> 00:49:31,319
it was on Supernatural That's like I

1069
00:49:28,960 --> 00:49:33,040
guess a thing now for me I haven't

1070
00:49:31,319 --> 00:49:36,640
watched that show in years but there's

1071
00:49:33,040 --> 00:49:39,079
at one point Dean goes to like this

1072
00:49:36,640 --> 00:49:40,880
thing to be a born again virgin so he

1073
00:49:39,079 --> 00:49:44,280
can like become a virgin again and

1074
00:49:40,880 --> 00:49:47,960
that's what I think of I'm like okay

1075
00:49:44,280 --> 00:49:51,040
sure whatever so yeah there's a pill for

1076
00:49:47,960 --> 00:49:55,280
that Tyler gets a call from his boss the

1077
00:49:51,040 --> 00:49:58,640
bishop and there's a pill for

1078
00:49:55,280 --> 00:49:58,640
that sorry

1079
00:49:59,839 --> 00:50:06,640
okay so Tyler's on the phone with his

1080
00:50:02,400 --> 00:50:09,359
boss I'm just struggling so bad and

1081
00:50:06,640 --> 00:50:10,720
Tyler as he's talking to his boss the

1082
00:50:09,359 --> 00:50:12,880
bishop who is somebody he really

1083
00:50:10,720 --> 00:50:15,400
respects he's realized that he has

1084
00:50:12,880 --> 00:50:17,520
destroyed his own faith in himself and

1085
00:50:15,400 --> 00:50:20,160
he needs to go to

1086
00:50:17,520 --> 00:50:24,040
confession so

1087
00:50:20,160 --> 00:50:27,240
um he and Poppy are continuing to kind

1088
00:50:24,040 --> 00:50:29,319
of get closer to explore their faith

1089
00:50:27,240 --> 00:50:31,359
literally though because they're like

1090
00:50:29,319 --> 00:50:33,319
talking about fundraising events and

1091
00:50:31,359 --> 00:50:35,720
like she's asking questions about

1092
00:50:33,319 --> 00:50:38,480
scripture and asking for help to learn

1093
00:50:35,720 --> 00:50:42,319
to pray and like all this other

1094
00:50:38,480 --> 00:50:43,200
stuff so when I was in college my

1095
00:50:42,319 --> 00:50:46,839
college

1096
00:50:43,200 --> 00:50:49,760
boyfriend we' met in like a Church

1097
00:50:46,839 --> 00:50:52,680
College Bible study group sort of thing

1098
00:50:49,760 --> 00:50:54,599
and he had recently had a breakup from

1099
00:50:52,680 --> 00:50:57,359
like a long-term

1100
00:50:54,599 --> 00:50:59,160
girlfriend uh and it was it came down to

1101
00:50:57,359 --> 00:51:01,680
religion he'd grown up in the the

1102
00:50:59,160 --> 00:51:03,400
Christian church he had stepped away

1103
00:51:01,680 --> 00:51:04,880
that's when they started dating he then

1104
00:51:03,400 --> 00:51:08,119
returned to the Christian church and was

1105
00:51:04,880 --> 00:51:10,839
like oh can't can't date her anymore we

1106
00:51:08,119 --> 00:51:12,839
can't be unequally yolked you get it so

1107
00:51:10,839 --> 00:51:17,160
then he go so then he goes hey CH how

1108
00:51:12,839 --> 00:51:19,880
you doing right um but then like

1109
00:51:17,160 --> 00:51:22,559
probably two months somewhere like early

1110
00:51:19,880 --> 00:51:24,160
on into US dating we're he calls me one

1111
00:51:22,559 --> 00:51:27,079
day and he's like I don't even remember

1112
00:51:24,160 --> 00:51:30,799
this girl's name but he was like Hey so

1113
00:51:27,079 --> 00:51:35,599
uh she has started going to church

1114
00:51:30,799 --> 00:51:38,559
and uh is a is a is a Christian now and

1115
00:51:35,599 --> 00:51:41,920
she's asked me to spend some time with

1116
00:51:38,559 --> 00:51:43,760
her um like showing her how to pray like

1117
00:51:41,920 --> 00:51:44,720
answering her questions about scripture

1118
00:51:43,760 --> 00:51:49,160
and I was

1119
00:51:44,720 --> 00:51:51,799
like I need you to to hear back

1120
00:51:49,160 --> 00:51:54,680
everything you just said to

1121
00:51:51,799 --> 00:51:56,680
me let's think I'm like it it could all

1122
00:51:54,680 --> 00:51:59,079
very much be true but I'm like it seems

1123
00:51:56,680 --> 00:52:02,680
little like

1124
00:51:59,079 --> 00:52:06,119
maybe she's trying to get

1125
00:52:02,680 --> 00:52:09,799
it no shame girl yeah more power to you

1126
00:52:06,119 --> 00:52:11,960
yeah um but maybe don't say my boyfriend

1127
00:52:09,799 --> 00:52:13,680
I now believe that Jesus cross died on

1128
00:52:11,960 --> 00:52:16,440
the cross for my sins and rose again 3

1129
00:52:13,680 --> 00:52:19,000
days later as a way to get dick down I

1130
00:52:16,440 --> 00:52:21,799
don't know if that there are other

1131
00:52:19,000 --> 00:52:24,440
options there're so much easier ways

1132
00:52:21,799 --> 00:52:28,520
plot twist that's not my

1133
00:52:24,440 --> 00:52:28,520
husband a call back

1134
00:52:28,599 --> 00:52:34,720
so um as poppy is asking before so

1135
00:52:32,280 --> 00:52:37,000
Tyler's Confessor the person who

1136
00:52:34,720 --> 00:52:40,319
receives his confession is in a

1137
00:52:37,000 --> 00:52:42,119
different town right so it's something

1138
00:52:40,319 --> 00:52:44,559
he kind of has to schedule so he hasn't

1139
00:52:42,119 --> 00:52:47,280
been yet but when poppy asks for help

1140
00:52:44,559 --> 00:52:50,040
learning to pray Tyler tells her to come

1141
00:52:47,280 --> 00:52:53,839
to the sanctuary that night and when he

1142
00:52:50,040 --> 00:52:57,599
comes in he sees her crying at the

1143
00:52:53,839 --> 00:52:59,880
altar and he realizes direct quote God

1144
00:52:57,599 --> 00:53:03,599
is talking to

1145
00:52:59,880 --> 00:53:07,559
Poppy maybe she's just upset

1146
00:53:03,599 --> 00:53:09,280
dude maybe it is God what do I know so

1147
00:53:07,559 --> 00:53:11,040
he doesn't want to interrupt but then he

1148
00:53:09,280 --> 00:53:13,359
feels like he's part of the moment with

1149
00:53:11,040 --> 00:53:16,520
her and so they wind up making out and

1150
00:53:13,359 --> 00:53:20,079
it is a quote religious experience and

1151
00:53:16,520 --> 00:53:25,440
they feel God so she's like is it always

1152
00:53:20,079 --> 00:53:27,520
like this um and he's like no not always

1153
00:53:25,440 --> 00:53:30,160
like sometimes you feel God and

1154
00:53:27,520 --> 00:53:31,599
sometimes you don't like yeah sometimes

1155
00:53:30,160 --> 00:53:33,559
your partner gets you there and

1156
00:53:31,599 --> 00:53:35,720
sometimes they don't it's just a thing

1157
00:53:33,559 --> 00:53:37,760
you know like you have to communicate no

1158
00:53:35,720 --> 00:53:39,640
one bats a thousand you have to

1159
00:53:37,760 --> 00:53:42,720
communicate

1160
00:53:39,640 --> 00:53:46,960
openly with open communication you can

1161
00:53:42,720 --> 00:53:46,960
feel God more

1162
00:53:48,160 --> 00:53:52,720
regularly you can have more satisfying

1163
00:53:51,160 --> 00:53:55,440
religious experiences when you

1164
00:53:52,720 --> 00:53:59,720
communicate with your partner I'm so

1165
00:53:55,440 --> 00:54:02,559
sorry I'm so sorry sorry oh my God

1166
00:53:59,720 --> 00:54:06,559
so sweet suffering

1167
00:54:02,559 --> 00:54:08,680
Jesus he walks her home he really is and

1168
00:54:06,559 --> 00:54:11,319
they confess to each other that like

1169
00:54:08,680 --> 00:54:14,559
they want to be together like they're

1170
00:54:11,319 --> 00:54:16,280
tired of this game that they're playing

1171
00:54:14,559 --> 00:54:19,040
and so she says she's going out of town

1172
00:54:16,280 --> 00:54:21,240
for a few days so he fingers her in the

1173
00:54:19,040 --> 00:54:23,799
backyard to hold her over till they can

1174
00:54:21,240 --> 00:54:27,839
get together again as one does they have

1175
00:54:23,799 --> 00:54:30,119
phone sex poppy shows up at the church

1176
00:54:27,839 --> 00:54:32,680
lots of spanking and degradation and

1177
00:54:30,119 --> 00:54:34,760
like you like that whatever um they do

1178
00:54:32,680 --> 00:54:36,920
remember to lock the sanctuary doors

1179
00:54:34,760 --> 00:54:38,240
this time this is like on the altar at

1180
00:54:36,920 --> 00:54:43,200
the front of the

1181
00:54:38,240 --> 00:54:46,079
sanctuary he ties her up um with I can't

1182
00:54:43,200 --> 00:54:47,880
remember the name of it and even if I

1183
00:54:46,079 --> 00:54:48,960
did I probably wouldn't try to say it

1184
00:54:47,880 --> 00:54:52,200
because I wouldn't pronounce it

1185
00:54:48,960 --> 00:54:54,559
correctly but it's the the like rope

1186
00:54:52,200 --> 00:54:57,040
that is tied around a priest's robes

1187
00:54:54,559 --> 00:55:00,960
when they do mask yes

1188
00:54:57,040 --> 00:55:00,960
he uses that to tie her up

1189
00:55:01,400 --> 00:55:06,960
which when a priest puts on like the

1190
00:55:03,960 --> 00:55:09,559
different parts of his whole situation

1191
00:55:06,960 --> 00:55:11,280
before Mass there are like prayers and

1192
00:55:09,559 --> 00:55:14,480
invocations that they do as they put

1193
00:55:11,280 --> 00:55:17,400
them on and the one for that is

1194
00:55:14,480 --> 00:55:20,559
Purity and he ties her up with

1195
00:55:17,400 --> 00:55:27,520
it over the altar so he can [ __ ]

1196
00:55:20,559 --> 00:55:29,960
her so um he gets consent at this point

1197
00:55:27,520 --> 00:55:32,200
I need more to surprise me cuz I'm like

1198
00:55:29,960 --> 00:55:36,720
I like this none of it will I don't

1199
00:55:32,200 --> 00:55:39,280
think well I'm like okay this is what I

1200
00:55:36,720 --> 00:55:43,200
expect you know I expect him to use the

1201
00:55:39,280 --> 00:55:45,960
Purity rope yep to tie to the altar yep

1202
00:55:43,200 --> 00:55:47,920
he makes her choke on his dick he lays

1203
00:55:45,960 --> 00:55:50,440
her out and finally [ __ ] her like

1204
00:55:47,920 --> 00:55:52,280
really really hard and then there's

1205
00:55:50,440 --> 00:55:54,359
after care where he's like taking care

1206
00:55:52,280 --> 00:55:57,119
of her so apparently he was like in the

1207
00:55:54,359 --> 00:55:59,319
BDSM scene before he became a priest and

1208
00:55:57,119 --> 00:56:01,280
so like he's aware of like what he needs

1209
00:55:59,319 --> 00:56:03,319
to do so there's good after care and

1210
00:56:01,280 --> 00:56:05,599
then there's more [ __ ] and then they

1211
00:56:03,319 --> 00:56:08,280
almost declare love but he kind of stops

1212
00:56:05,599 --> 00:56:11,880
her cuz he's not ready for that um and

1213
00:56:08,280 --> 00:56:14,000
then is after care the one redeeming

1214
00:56:11,880 --> 00:56:16,480
part of Tyler that doesn't frustrate me

1215
00:56:14,000 --> 00:56:18,160
in this book yes like he does a good job

1216
00:56:16,480 --> 00:56:19,880
of like taking care of her afterwards

1217
00:56:18,160 --> 00:56:21,880
and making sure that she's okay and like

1218
00:56:19,880 --> 00:56:23,520
she's drinking water and you know she's

1219
00:56:21,880 --> 00:56:25,760
eating and

1220
00:56:23,520 --> 00:56:28,039
everything so then they talk after

1221
00:56:25,760 --> 00:56:30,799
sneaking back into his house he shares

1222
00:56:28,039 --> 00:56:33,799
more about like his sister and the pain

1223
00:56:30,799 --> 00:56:38,520
of losing her

1224
00:56:33,799 --> 00:56:40,440
um and she shares more about Sterling

1225
00:56:38,520 --> 00:56:43,079
and Tyler is really jealous that

1226
00:56:40,440 --> 00:56:44,599
Sterling can pursue her and he can't

1227
00:56:43,079 --> 00:56:46,280
that's his takeaway and I'm like you're

1228
00:56:44,599 --> 00:56:48,559
a punk ass

1229
00:56:46,280 --> 00:56:53,359
[ __ ]

1230
00:56:48,559 --> 00:56:57,039
sorry she is naked in your bed bro

1231
00:56:53,359 --> 00:57:00,440
like whatever I don't know that

1232
00:56:57,039 --> 00:57:02,359
feels like obviously not quite the same

1233
00:57:00,440 --> 00:57:05,039
but when people are like oh my gosh this

1234
00:57:02,359 --> 00:57:08,400
person like hit on my my husband or like

1235
00:57:05,039 --> 00:57:11,440
hit on my you have a legally B you won

1236
00:57:08,400 --> 00:57:14,319
like yeah it what are you jealous of

1237
00:57:11,440 --> 00:57:16,599
yeah like at this point respectfully you

1238
00:57:14,319 --> 00:57:18,559
kind of just need to look in within

1239
00:57:16,599 --> 00:57:21,160
yourself as to why this is triggering

1240
00:57:18,559 --> 00:57:23,319
something in you because like nothing

1241
00:57:21,160 --> 00:57:25,359
outside of this should really be evoking

1242
00:57:23,319 --> 00:57:27,720
this response in you the man is [ __ ]

1243
00:57:25,359 --> 00:57:30,640
stalking her and you're like I wish I

1244
00:57:27,720 --> 00:57:32,960
could stalk her yeah she's naked in your

1245
00:57:30,640 --> 00:57:35,359
bed what more do you want like you've

1246
00:57:32,960 --> 00:57:37,079
literally come like three times now

1247
00:57:35,359 --> 00:57:40,280
shouldn't you be more

1248
00:57:37,079 --> 00:57:43,559
relaxed oh my God

1249
00:57:40,280 --> 00:57:47,200
so she starts to say like what are we

1250
00:57:43,559 --> 00:57:49,359
going to do like valid question and he's

1251
00:57:47,200 --> 00:57:51,720
like I'm not ready to go there and so he

1252
00:57:49,359 --> 00:57:54,559
eats her out to like distract her from

1253
00:57:51,720 --> 00:57:58,119
that conversation which becomes relevant

1254
00:57:54,559 --> 00:58:01,440
later so um poppy is gone the next

1255
00:57:58,119 --> 00:58:03,280
morning and Tyler is like freaking out

1256
00:58:01,440 --> 00:58:05,160
because he's like oh my god did she get

1257
00:58:03,280 --> 00:58:07,319
what she wanted from me and now it's

1258
00:58:05,160 --> 00:58:11,079
over did I throw everything away for

1259
00:58:07,319 --> 00:58:13,880
nothing and he like spirals for no

1260
00:58:11,079 --> 00:58:16,400
reason I'm like every time you just gave

1261
00:58:13,880 --> 00:58:18,319
a new Tyler fact I'm just like what a

1262
00:58:16,400 --> 00:58:20,160
[ __ ] I feel like my tone is getting

1263
00:58:18,319 --> 00:58:26,720
more and more

1264
00:58:20,160 --> 00:58:30,680
agitated so my strategy is falling apart

1265
00:58:26,720 --> 00:58:32,480
come on Peter okay so um poppy still

1266
00:58:30,680 --> 00:58:34,160
shows to the pancake breakfast but she

1267
00:58:32,480 --> 00:58:38,280
like really avoids him

1268
00:58:34,160 --> 00:58:42,200
completely um and when they do finally

1269
00:58:38,280 --> 00:58:44,920
talk poppy tells Tyler that she's just

1270
00:58:42,200 --> 00:58:48,079
so guilty and

1271
00:58:44,920 --> 00:58:50,760
overwhelmed that she did this to him

1272
00:58:48,079 --> 00:58:52,520
that like she could be ruining his life

1273
00:58:50,760 --> 00:58:54,760
and his career and all of his principles

1274
00:58:52,520 --> 00:58:57,119
and she just feels really

1275
00:58:54,760 --> 00:59:02,119
awful and

1276
00:58:57,119 --> 00:59:04,079
um he doesn't know what to say and so he

1277
00:59:02,119 --> 00:59:05,760
just starts confession he's like how

1278
00:59:04,079 --> 00:59:07,599
long has it been since your last

1279
00:59:05,760 --> 00:59:09,720
confession cuz he doesn't know what to

1280
00:59:07,599 --> 00:59:11,280
do and I'm like okay again you're a punk

1281
00:59:09,720 --> 00:59:14,839
ass

1282
00:59:11,280 --> 00:59:17,319
[ __ ] um so then she tells him that she

1283
00:59:14,839 --> 00:59:21,440
has been fantasizing about anal he takes

1284
00:59:17,319 --> 00:59:25,680
her to his office and he uses holy

1285
00:59:21,440 --> 00:59:25,680
oil as lube

1286
00:59:26,720 --> 00:59:31,400
fine he's and he goes into so much

1287
00:59:29,400 --> 00:59:33,680
detail too about like this was blessed

1288
00:59:31,400 --> 00:59:36,039
by the bishop last year on such and such

1289
00:59:33,680 --> 00:59:38,880
Saints Day or whatever the [ __ ] and I'm

1290
00:59:36,039 --> 00:59:41,520
like mhm I don't think any of that

1291
00:59:38,880 --> 00:59:42,839
matters when you're rubbing it around

1292
00:59:41,520 --> 00:59:44,400
her brown

1293
00:59:42,839 --> 00:59:48,240
eye

1294
00:59:44,400 --> 00:59:50,720
hey so um there's more good after care

1295
00:59:48,240 --> 00:59:53,280
all that's really great and then he

1296
00:59:50,720 --> 00:59:56,559
gives poppy his sister's

1297
00:59:53,280 --> 01:00:00,520
rosary and declares his love

1298
00:59:56,559 --> 01:00:04,119
but he will not let her say it back

1299
01:00:00,520 --> 01:00:07,280
so Tyler finally [ __ ] makes it to

1300
01:00:04,119 --> 01:00:08,839
confession and he gets there and the

1301
01:00:07,280 --> 01:00:12,520
priest is a really good friend of his

1302
01:00:08,839 --> 01:00:15,280
from Seminary and he immediately is like

1303
01:00:12,520 --> 01:00:17,280
go home like before Tyler can even say

1304
01:00:15,280 --> 01:00:22,039
anything he's like go

1305
01:00:17,280 --> 01:00:23,799
away and um he's like I know that you

1306
01:00:22,039 --> 01:00:26,400
broke your vows and I know that you're

1307
01:00:23,799 --> 01:00:28,400
not going to stop because this guy is

1308
01:00:26,400 --> 01:00:30,559
supposedly like super spiritual and

1309
01:00:28,400 --> 01:00:34,640
really does like talk to God all the

1310
01:00:30,559 --> 01:00:34,640
time it's not an just an East blowing

1311
01:00:34,799 --> 01:00:41,599
wind

1312
01:00:37,280 --> 01:00:43,920
correct um and um he's like come back

1313
01:00:41,599 --> 01:00:47,440
when you are actually ready to

1314
01:00:43,920 --> 01:00:49,200
repent I'm not going to tell anybody but

1315
01:00:47,440 --> 01:00:51,039
I will not receive your confession just

1316
01:00:49,200 --> 01:00:55,240
to do this with you again in a couple of

1317
01:00:51,039 --> 01:00:57,720
weeks good luck so then there respect

1318
01:00:55,240 --> 01:01:00,599
respect on this man all see I liked him

1319
01:00:57,720 --> 01:01:03,520
I like him I like Millie yeah I'm

1320
01:01:00,599 --> 01:01:06,720
rooting for the real ones out here yes

1321
01:01:03,520 --> 01:01:09,680
so then um my notes just say immediately

1322
01:01:06,720 --> 01:01:09,680
after that more

1323
01:01:10,720 --> 01:01:18,000
anal I was clearly over it at this point

1324
01:01:14,760 --> 01:01:21,160
so poppy tells Tyler that she really

1325
01:01:18,000 --> 01:01:22,960
can't do this much longer that um she

1326
01:01:21,160 --> 01:01:26,079
doesn't want to ruin his life but she

1327
01:01:22,960 --> 01:01:28,640
wants to actually be able to be with him

1328
01:01:26,079 --> 01:01:31,039
and he doesn't really respond and so she

1329
01:01:28,640 --> 01:01:32,720
asks him to leave and when he gets home

1330
01:01:31,039 --> 01:01:36,960
Millie is in his kitchen and it's the

1331
01:01:32,720 --> 01:01:39,799
middle of the night and um she explains

1332
01:01:36,960 --> 01:01:41,880
she knows about poppy that he is not as

1333
01:01:39,799 --> 01:01:44,880
subtle as he thinks she he is like

1334
01:01:41,880 --> 01:01:47,960
sneaking back from her house um Millie

1335
01:01:44,880 --> 01:01:49,799
has seen him repeatedly but he's a good

1336
01:01:47,960 --> 01:01:51,279
man and a good priest and she just wants

1337
01:01:49,799 --> 01:01:52,920
him to be careful she's not going to

1338
01:01:51,279 --> 01:01:56,400
tell anybody she just wants him to be

1339
01:01:52,920 --> 01:02:00,400
careful so he's a mess

1340
01:01:56,400 --> 01:02:04,599
and after mask after

1341
01:02:00,400 --> 01:02:07,559
mask after MK who should be there but

1342
01:02:04,599 --> 01:02:10,440
Sterling and he is there with pictures

1343
01:02:07,559 --> 01:02:13,200
of him and Poppy kissing he doesn't have

1344
01:02:10,440 --> 01:02:18,319
any like anything more explicit but even

1345
01:02:13,200 --> 01:02:20,279
that is enough um to really ruin him and

1346
01:02:18,319 --> 01:02:22,039
um he says that he's just scoping out

1347
01:02:20,279 --> 01:02:22,960
the competition but that Poppy will be

1348
01:02:22,039 --> 01:02:27,760
his in the

1349
01:02:22,960 --> 01:02:29,760
end um and so people aren't

1350
01:02:27,760 --> 01:02:33,520
property well I

1351
01:02:29,760 --> 01:02:35,960
know Sterling has not received that

1352
01:02:33,520 --> 01:02:38,640
message quite frankly I feel like even

1353
01:02:35,960 --> 01:02:41,359
if Sterling had received that message

1354
01:02:38,640 --> 01:02:44,200
he'd go this isn't applicable to me and

1355
01:02:41,359 --> 01:02:47,640
my life choices yeah he would put it in

1356
01:02:44,200 --> 01:02:52,400
the filing cabinet that's the garbage

1357
01:02:47,640 --> 01:02:54,119
can if you sorry okay so Tyler's

1358
01:02:52,400 --> 01:02:56,480
freaking out he tries to call Poppy she

1359
01:02:54,119 --> 01:03:00,039
doesn't answer um he he goes to her

1360
01:02:56,480 --> 01:03:01,880
house her car is there but she's not and

1361
01:03:00,039 --> 01:03:04,400
so later he then gets a text from

1362
01:03:01,880 --> 01:03:07,240
Sterling and it's a photo of poppy in a

1363
01:03:04,400 --> 01:03:09,640
car and Tyler continues to freak out and

1364
01:03:07,240 --> 01:03:11,520
be really angry that she is leaving him

1365
01:03:09,640 --> 01:03:15,359
for someone else which

1366
01:03:11,520 --> 01:03:17,960
again nobody said that dude

1367
01:03:15,359 --> 01:03:21,559
like just took a hop skip and a jump all

1368
01:03:17,960 --> 01:03:23,680
the way to the end I feel like Tyler is

1369
01:03:21,559 --> 01:03:27,039
the embodiment of that Meme that's like

1370
01:03:23,680 --> 01:03:30,799
not me jumping to conclusion

1371
01:03:27,039 --> 01:03:33,440
like a GYN in a full split sort of

1372
01:03:30,799 --> 01:03:35,160
energy yes but then he's like am I even

1373
01:03:33,440 --> 01:03:37,559
allowed to be

1374
01:03:35,160 --> 01:03:39,559
angry I shouldn't have been doing any of

1375
01:03:37,559 --> 01:03:42,680
this in the first place so he gets super

1376
01:03:39,559 --> 01:03:47,079
drunk and decides that he should work

1377
01:03:42,680 --> 01:03:50,000
out while drunk poppy shows up the next

1378
01:03:47,079 --> 01:03:53,319
day um and he just tells her you're not

1379
01:03:50,000 --> 01:03:56,960
allowed to talk and puts her on her

1380
01:03:53,319 --> 01:03:59,799
knees and jerks off all over her um and

1381
01:03:56,960 --> 01:04:02,440
he because he realizes he should not

1382
01:03:59,799 --> 01:04:05,400
[ __ ] her when he's like this like that's

1383
01:04:02,440 --> 01:04:07,520
the the best that he can do at that

1384
01:04:05,400 --> 01:04:11,440
point because he doesn't want to hurt

1385
01:04:07,520 --> 01:04:14,599
her I guess just a

1386
01:04:11,440 --> 01:04:16,880
greater cuz that's not hurtful so she

1387
01:04:14,599 --> 01:04:20,839
takes care of him like quite

1388
01:04:16,880 --> 01:04:24,200
frankly that was maybe worse to me yeah

1389
01:04:20,839 --> 01:04:26,680
right and I can't say that to for I I

1390
01:04:24,200 --> 01:04:30,559
can't say that to everyone but I'm like

1391
01:04:26,680 --> 01:04:31,480
I it's not good yeah you're too angry to

1392
01:04:30,559 --> 01:04:35,119
[ __ ]

1393
01:04:31,480 --> 01:04:37,000
me because you're afraid you'll hurt me

1394
01:04:35,119 --> 01:04:38,119
oh okay sorry just just making sure I'm

1395
01:04:37,000 --> 01:04:40,839
processing and tracking all this

1396
01:04:38,119 --> 01:04:43,240
correctly yeah so she actually winds up

1397
01:04:40,839 --> 01:04:45,920
taking care of him and like gets him in

1398
01:04:43,240 --> 01:04:47,599
bed um and she says they'll talk when

1399
01:04:45,920 --> 01:04:50,440
when he wakes

1400
01:04:47,599 --> 01:04:54,079
up so

1401
01:04:50,440 --> 01:04:56,000
um she tells him when he finally gets up

1402
01:04:54,079 --> 01:04:59,440
that they're going on a date get dressed

1403
01:04:56,000 --> 01:05:02,279
we're going out so they go to Kansas

1404
01:04:59,440 --> 01:05:04,960
City but she won't tell him where

1405
01:05:02,279 --> 01:05:08,200
they're going she explains that she did

1406
01:05:04,960 --> 01:05:11,319
spend time with Sterling um

1407
01:05:08,200 --> 01:05:13,520
but she wouldn't go with him nothing

1408
01:05:11,319 --> 01:05:17,760
happened with him she continues to tell

1409
01:05:13,520 --> 01:05:22,440
him no um but Tyler doesn't think that

1410
01:05:17,760 --> 01:05:24,160
Sterling is really done with it um but

1411
01:05:22,440 --> 01:05:26,680
she winds up taking him to the strip

1412
01:05:24,160 --> 01:05:30,680
club where she used to work in a private

1413
01:05:26,680 --> 01:05:33,160
room they role play um so she wants him

1414
01:05:30,680 --> 01:05:38,480
to fully let go and this is again where

1415
01:05:33,160 --> 01:05:43,359
I was like I get it you've read the

1416
01:05:38,480 --> 01:05:45,640
Bible because it's all Herod talk with

1417
01:05:43,359 --> 01:05:48,640
like the you know herod's dancers or

1418
01:05:45,640 --> 01:05:51,000
whatever and talk about Esther as she

1419
01:05:48,640 --> 01:05:53,440
like sacrificed her body for her people

1420
01:05:51,000 --> 01:05:56,799
or whatever the

1421
01:05:53,440 --> 01:05:57,960
[ __ ] so um he puts her on a leash and

1422
01:05:56,799 --> 01:06:01,319
[ __ ]

1423
01:05:57,960 --> 01:06:04,319
her before coming all over her face my

1424
01:06:01,319 --> 01:06:09,039
notes say another religious

1425
01:06:04,319 --> 01:06:11,720
experience and in his mind he's like

1426
01:06:09,039 --> 01:06:14,039
this is marriage we're married

1427
01:06:11,720 --> 01:06:15,880
now

1428
01:06:14,039 --> 01:06:18,839
what

1429
01:06:15,880 --> 01:06:21,920
wait it's like the delusional way his

1430
01:06:18,839 --> 01:06:27,559
brain is trying to make it okay to be

1431
01:06:21,920 --> 01:06:27,559
like we're married now like what

1432
01:06:28,319 --> 01:06:34,480
by whose standard are you married now

1433
01:06:32,079 --> 01:06:38,599
and if you say it's because we felt God

1434
01:06:34,480 --> 01:06:42,000
while we were making out that is not an

1435
01:06:38,599 --> 01:06:44,200
acceptable answer I'm like you can also

1436
01:06:42,000 --> 01:06:47,200
feel God from eating a very special kind

1437
01:06:44,200 --> 01:06:51,079
of brownie like that's not you know what

1438
01:06:47,200 --> 01:06:55,880
I'm saying like it's cool man chill out

1439
01:06:51,079 --> 01:06:59,760
he has no cool so not in like a fun

1440
01:06:55,880 --> 01:07:02,279
retriever Energy Way NOP

1441
01:06:59,760 --> 01:07:04,520
mm so the next day he has already

1442
01:07:02,279 --> 01:07:07,440
decided that this is the last Mass he's

1443
01:07:04,520 --> 01:07:09,760
ever going to do and he's going to marry

1444
01:07:07,440 --> 01:07:13,200
poppy he leaves a voicemail for the

1445
01:07:09,760 --> 01:07:16,480
bishop um with his resignation and then

1446
01:07:13,200 --> 01:07:19,119
he goes to propose to Poppy finally

1447
01:07:16,480 --> 01:07:21,279
feeling like this is it like that

1448
01:07:19,119 --> 01:07:23,839
religious experience at the strip club

1449
01:07:21,279 --> 01:07:25,640
was my message from God that like being

1450
01:07:23,839 --> 01:07:26,839
with poppy isn't wrong this is what

1451
01:07:25,640 --> 01:07:28,480
we're supposed to be doing this is what

1452
01:07:26,839 --> 01:07:32,559
God wants for

1453
01:07:28,480 --> 01:07:34,359
me so um she had been at Mass he's

1454
01:07:32,559 --> 01:07:38,319
really excited to see her but when he

1455
01:07:34,359 --> 01:07:43,000
gets there Sterling is there and he sees

1456
01:07:38,319 --> 01:07:45,839
her or he sees them kissing and he is

1457
01:07:43,000 --> 01:07:48,760
utterly destroyed and just starts

1458
01:07:45,839 --> 01:07:52,440
driving away um he doesn't have his

1459
01:07:48,760 --> 01:07:54,760
phone with him um he's just gone until

1460
01:07:52,440 --> 01:07:56,680
he shows up at his confessor's house who

1461
01:07:54,760 --> 01:07:59,880
is also his friend

1462
01:07:56,680 --> 01:08:02,760
um he confesses everything tells and his

1463
01:07:59,880 --> 01:08:06,400
friend is like okay your Penance is to

1464
01:08:02,760 --> 01:08:10,079
spend one day with God and Tyler's like

1465
01:08:06,400 --> 01:08:11,680
nope needs to be more than that like how

1466
01:08:10,079 --> 01:08:14,319
many [ __ ] hail marries do you have to

1467
01:08:11,680 --> 01:08:16,719
do to make up for what I've done like

1468
01:08:14,319 --> 01:08:18,759
come on dude he's like nope one day in

1469
01:08:16,719 --> 01:08:21,080
contemplation with God because that's

1470
01:08:18,759 --> 01:08:22,719
what you need right what you want is to

1471
01:08:21,080 --> 01:08:25,600
punish yourself what you need is to

1472
01:08:22,719 --> 01:08:30,080
reconnect with your faith

1473
01:08:25,600 --> 01:08:32,480
so um Tyler stays with his friend um and

1474
01:08:30,080 --> 01:08:34,319
he also comes to the conclusion he wants

1475
01:08:32,480 --> 01:08:37,600
to remain in the priesthood if he can't

1476
01:08:34,319 --> 01:08:40,199
be with poppy he truly was just leaving

1477
01:08:37,600 --> 01:08:42,080
to be with her he actually loves being a

1478
01:08:40,199 --> 01:08:45,120
priest and like being able to help other

1479
01:08:42,080 --> 01:08:49,080
people so then the phone rangs at like 2

1480
01:08:45,120 --> 01:08:51,920
a.m. and it is the bishop photos of him

1481
01:08:49,080 --> 01:08:53,759
and poy were released online and he

1482
01:08:51,920 --> 01:08:56,319
needs to

1483
01:08:53,759 --> 01:08:58,159
resign Tyler says though that he wants

1484
01:08:56,319 --> 01:09:01,799
to stay even though that would mean

1485
01:08:58,159 --> 01:09:03,719
moving to a new Parish um and that is if

1486
01:09:01,799 --> 01:09:07,080
the Cardinal who is above the bishop

1487
01:09:03,719 --> 01:09:09,159
will approve they'll talk more later so

1488
01:09:07,080 --> 01:09:11,560
then when he is in his like Penance

1489
01:09:09,159 --> 01:09:14,000
contemplation with God he realizes that

1490
01:09:11,560 --> 01:09:16,000
he shouldn't leave the church for poppy

1491
01:09:14,000 --> 01:09:19,279
that he needs to make the decision for

1492
01:09:16,000 --> 01:09:22,480
himself and he wants the freedom to help

1493
01:09:19,279 --> 01:09:24,480
other people in whatever way he feels is

1494
01:09:22,480 --> 01:09:27,679
Right rather than having it dictated by

1495
01:09:24,480 --> 01:09:30,920
the church so he quits he moves in with

1496
01:09:27,679 --> 01:09:33,400
his brother everybody's actually super

1497
01:09:30,920 --> 01:09:36,000
supportive he actually becomes a major

1498
01:09:33,400 --> 01:09:39,159
internet meme because of the the photos

1499
01:09:36,000 --> 01:09:42,040
that were listed or released online um

1500
01:09:39,159 --> 01:09:43,719
he's got a fan club um it's been a

1501
01:09:42,040 --> 01:09:46,159
couple of months and he has heard

1502
01:09:43,719 --> 01:09:50,040
nothing from poppy so the last time he

1503
01:09:46,159 --> 01:09:52,120
saw her was at mass and then when she

1504
01:09:50,040 --> 01:09:55,480
was kissing Sterling in her house that's

1505
01:09:52,120 --> 01:09:57,560
the last he saw of her

1506
01:09:55,480 --> 01:10:01,360
did she reach out to him and he didn't

1507
01:09:57,560 --> 01:10:03,280
reply at all or just like okay nope he

1508
01:10:01,360 --> 01:10:04,800
went back to her house after he had

1509
01:10:03,280 --> 01:10:06,719
disappeared for a couple of days with

1510
01:10:04,800 --> 01:10:08,800
his friend he went back to her house and

1511
01:10:06,719 --> 01:10:12,520
it was completely empty she's moved and

1512
01:10:08,800 --> 01:10:15,400
he hasn't figured out how to reach her

1513
01:10:12,520 --> 01:10:18,960
okay um so he assumes that she took

1514
01:10:15,400 --> 01:10:22,400
Sterling up and she's gone um so he

1515
01:10:18,960 --> 01:10:25,480
decides to go to the club for closure um

1516
01:10:22,400 --> 01:10:28,640
because she was still working for them

1517
01:10:25,480 --> 01:10:30,320
as like a an accountant essentially and

1518
01:10:28,640 --> 01:10:33,000
he's like if anybody will be able to get

1519
01:10:30,320 --> 01:10:38,000
a message to her it's them yeah um but

1520
01:10:33,000 --> 01:10:39,840
when he gets there um she has quit there

1521
01:10:38,000 --> 01:10:42,280
nobody knows where she is or what's

1522
01:10:39,840 --> 01:10:44,520
going on with her but she did leave his

1523
01:10:42,280 --> 01:10:48,239
sister's Rosary for

1524
01:10:44,520 --> 01:10:50,920
him um and so he needs to accept that

1525
01:10:48,239 --> 01:10:54,000
like he loved her more than she loved

1526
01:10:50,920 --> 01:10:58,800
him and he can't keep doing this anymore

1527
01:10:54,000 --> 01:11:04,719
mhm so he goes to Kenya for seven

1528
01:10:58,800 --> 01:11:04,719
months yep okay to dig Wells or

1529
01:11:05,760 --> 01:11:11,440
whatever I really hope they had

1530
01:11:08,520 --> 01:11:13,640
a partnering organization over there

1531
01:11:11,440 --> 01:11:15,600
because Tyler does give the energy of a

1532
01:11:13,640 --> 01:11:17,840
man who just like [ __ ] gets off a

1533
01:11:15,600 --> 01:11:22,040
plane in Kenya and it's like I'm here to

1534
01:11:17,840 --> 01:11:22,040
help I feel God more in this

1535
01:11:23,120 --> 01:11:28,239
heat oh no

1536
01:11:26,040 --> 01:11:34,040
oh God

1537
01:11:28,239 --> 01:11:36,199
okay nope okay so um he also has decided

1538
01:11:34,040 --> 01:11:39,639
he's going to go back to school for his

1539
01:11:36,199 --> 01:11:42,080
PhD he still has dreams about poppy um

1540
01:11:39,639 --> 01:11:44,480
and he decides that when he gets back

1541
01:11:42,080 --> 01:11:46,639
he's going to go find her and give her

1542
01:11:44,480 --> 01:11:49,120
the rosary back because it was a gift it

1543
01:11:46,639 --> 01:11:51,719
wasn't about that but he really feels

1544
01:11:49,120 --> 01:11:54,199
like it would be good for both of them

1545
01:11:51,719 --> 01:11:57,159
to have closure even though she really

1546
01:11:54,199 --> 01:12:00,719
hurt him he understands now that

1547
01:11:57,159 --> 01:12:02,639
like it was right for him to leave on

1548
01:12:00,719 --> 01:12:04,960
his own and like he needed this time for

1549
01:12:02,639 --> 01:12:08,920
growth and stuff

1550
01:12:04,960 --> 01:12:12,719
clearly so um he searches for months

1551
01:12:08,920 --> 01:12:15,480
once he gets back um and he can't find

1552
01:12:12,719 --> 01:12:17,120
her anywhere but right before he is

1553
01:12:15,480 --> 01:12:19,840
supposed to be going back to school he

1554
01:12:17,120 --> 01:12:21,120
finally goes to see Sterling he's like I

1555
01:12:19,840 --> 01:12:24,480
don't know where poppy is but I know

1556
01:12:21,120 --> 01:12:27,600
where Sterling is um cuz he's like you

1557
01:12:24,480 --> 01:12:31,560
know in high up in business so whatever

1558
01:12:27,600 --> 01:12:34,360
major business guy in in the midwest so

1559
01:12:31,560 --> 01:12:37,440
he gets there and Sterling is like how

1560
01:12:34,360 --> 01:12:41,600
is she and he's

1561
01:12:37,440 --> 01:12:45,800
like nope that's my line my guy I

1562
01:12:41,600 --> 01:12:49,840
what so she wasn't with him this whole

1563
01:12:45,800 --> 01:12:54,000
time she left both of them and neither

1564
01:12:49,840 --> 01:12:56,080
knew um and apparently after Tyler saw

1565
01:12:54,000 --> 01:12:59,480
them kissing Poppy had punched Sterling

1566
01:12:56,080 --> 01:13:01,960
in the mouth um and kicked him out which

1567
01:12:59,480 --> 01:13:04,280
is why he released the pictures of the

1568
01:13:01,960 --> 01:13:08,080
two of them because he was bitter about

1569
01:13:04,280 --> 01:13:10,360
it and um even still even though she he

1570
01:13:08,080 --> 01:13:12,520
hasn't spok spoken to her and it's been

1571
01:13:10,360 --> 01:13:14,159
like 10 months at this point even though

1572
01:13:12,520 --> 01:13:18,159
he hasn't spoken to her he knows where

1573
01:13:14,159 --> 01:13:19,639
she is um and so he gives him an address

1574
01:13:18,159 --> 01:13:22,600
for a dance

1575
01:13:19,639 --> 01:13:26,800
studio and it turns out she has opened

1576
01:13:22,600 --> 01:13:29,199
like a a free dance studio in like a

1577
01:13:26,800 --> 01:13:33,560
really rough area in New York to like

1578
01:13:29,199 --> 01:13:35,600
help local kids and stuff so he she

1579
01:13:33,560 --> 01:13:38,360
isn't in the studio but he sees a church

1580
01:13:35,600 --> 01:13:43,880
nearby and so he just goes there on

1581
01:13:38,360 --> 01:13:45,639
Instinct um and there she is um poppy

1582
01:13:43,880 --> 01:13:47,120
explains like she's crying and

1583
01:13:45,639 --> 01:13:53,480
apologizing what was she doing in the

1584
01:13:47,120 --> 01:13:53,480
new church she was praying sure she was

1585
01:13:55,280 --> 01:14:00,400
I just have Madonna stuck in my

1586
01:13:57,440 --> 01:14:05,360
head which again is a different

1587
01:14:00,400 --> 01:14:07,639
challenge um so poppy said that she knew

1588
01:14:05,360 --> 01:14:10,800
that he'd see her kiss Sterling and she

1589
01:14:07,639 --> 01:14:13,960
wanted him to hate her so that he could

1590
01:14:10,800 --> 01:14:16,880
move on because

1591
01:14:13,960 --> 01:14:19,199
repeatedly she tried to tell him how

1592
01:14:16,880 --> 01:14:21,560
guilty she was for what they were doing

1593
01:14:19,199 --> 01:14:23,000
and how she was hurting him and how she

1594
01:14:21,560 --> 01:14:25,360
could see it was tearing him apart what

1595
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they were doing and he refused used to

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01:14:25,360 --> 01:14:29,280
listen to her every time and she was

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like if this was the only way I was

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going to get you to leave me and like

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01:14:32,840 --> 01:14:37,239
maybe be able to salvage your career as

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a priest like that's what I was going to

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do which again doesn't make any sense

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01:14:41,560 --> 01:14:49,120
but poppy did what she

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01:14:44,199 --> 01:14:51,639
did so then he feels guilty that um he

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01:14:49,120 --> 01:14:54,360
didn't listen oh my [ __ ] gosh so then

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01:14:51,639 --> 01:14:56,080
they both apologize and then he proposes

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01:14:54,360 --> 01:14:59,159
to her and in the church and then they

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01:14:56,080 --> 01:15:01,000
[ __ ] in the church

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01:14:59,159 --> 01:15:03,920
that and

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01:15:01,000 --> 01:15:06,840
then epilog would you like to hear my

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notes oh no they're [ __ ] in a church

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01:15:06,840 --> 01:15:11,800
again this time it's on their wedding

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day the

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end

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woo huh

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01:15:29,600 --> 01:15:32,600
wow

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01:15:34,480 --> 01:15:40,440
huh I'm going have to sit with that one

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01:15:37,360 --> 01:15:42,199
for a minute and by that I mean sit with

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01:15:40,440 --> 01:15:45,040
our review of it I don't mean sit down

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01:15:42,199 --> 01:15:47,960
and read it because I think I wouldn't

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01:15:45,040 --> 01:15:51,920
recommend it would be too

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01:15:47,960 --> 01:15:54,719
frustrated yeah yeah and I think part of

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01:15:51,920 --> 01:15:57,159
it is like I processed all this like

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01:15:54,719 --> 01:16:01,080
weird Purity culture stuff a long time

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01:15:57,159 --> 01:16:01,080
ago and so reading it is

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01:16:01,159 --> 01:16:04,159
like

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01:16:04,440 --> 01:16:11,920
yes but also I really don't like the

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01:16:07,760 --> 01:16:16,360
like push and pull stuff I'm like [ __ ]

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01:16:11,920 --> 01:16:18,280
or get off the pot like you know yes I

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01:16:16,360 --> 01:16:21,080
which is a personal preference I think

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01:16:18,280 --> 01:16:24,000
the push and pull there are sometimes

1631
01:16:21,080 --> 01:16:26,280
where I don't mind it but I do think

1632
01:16:24,000 --> 01:16:29,280
when you're like mix mixing in religious

1633
01:16:26,280 --> 01:16:29,280
bargaining it

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01:16:29,320 --> 01:16:39,880
feels less fun to me personally mhm

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01:16:35,760 --> 01:16:42,600
um prayer beads altars Purity ropes

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01:16:39,880 --> 01:16:42,600
what's our rating

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01:16:43,760 --> 01:16:47,679
system himnos

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01:16:47,960 --> 01:16:54,400
pianos not a tabernacle pianos are are

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01:16:51,600 --> 01:16:59,520
pretty big they're pretty big they're

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01:16:54,400 --> 01:17:04,360
888 piano keys 88 okay yeah so out of 88

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01:16:59,520 --> 01:17:04,360
piano keys that he [ __ ] her

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01:17:05,120 --> 01:17:10,719
on what out of 88 is our final

1643
01:17:16,200 --> 01:17:19,279
[Music]

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01:17:21,080 --> 01:17:25,440
store [ __ ]

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01:17:23,480 --> 01:17:27,080
man okay

1646
01:17:25,440 --> 01:17:30,719
oh like

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01:17:27,080 --> 01:17:32,370
25 okay I'm trying to be really nice I

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01:17:30,719 --> 01:17:34,440
really hated it so

1649
01:17:32,370 --> 01:17:36,800
[Laughter]

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01:17:34,440 --> 01:17:39,400
much and that's okay you're allowed to

1651
01:17:36,800 --> 01:17:40,480
hate it I am allowed to hate it what I

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01:17:39,400 --> 01:17:43,000
did

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01:17:40,480 --> 01:17:47,600
appreciate

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01:17:43,000 --> 01:17:50,440
was like uh it was clear that there was

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01:17:47,600 --> 01:17:53,199
some understanding of like the actual

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01:17:50,440 --> 01:17:55,880
BDSM lifestyle in it that I didn't fully

1657
01:17:53,199 --> 01:17:58,120
touch on but like he took good care of

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01:17:55,880 --> 01:18:01,639
her he was clear about

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01:17:58,120 --> 01:18:03,360
consent he made sure that she was safe

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01:18:01,639 --> 01:18:06,840
like those things were good I

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01:18:03,360 --> 01:18:10,159
appreciated that I really liked Millie I

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01:18:06,840 --> 01:18:12,040
didn't get how like absolutely sassy she

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01:18:10,159 --> 01:18:13,639
was but it was very

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01:18:12,040 --> 01:18:17,920
enjoyable

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01:18:13,639 --> 01:18:22,440
um you know but also

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01:18:17,920 --> 01:18:26,440
like there was really no plot like the

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01:18:22,440 --> 01:18:31,400
relationship being a secret was the plot

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01:18:26,440 --> 01:18:34,360
yeah the push and pull of yeah their

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01:18:31,400 --> 01:18:36,159
relationship won't we mhm and you're

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01:18:34,360 --> 01:18:38,040
like well clearly the book's about y'all

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01:18:36,159 --> 01:18:42,360
so I have a feeling you probably will

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01:18:38,040 --> 01:18:45,239
right yeah yeah yeah um because even

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01:18:42,360 --> 01:18:47,320
Sterling in the end was not a bad

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01:18:45,239 --> 01:18:50,360
guy he was

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01:18:47,320 --> 01:18:53,000
like I mean he was but he also wasn't

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01:18:50,360 --> 01:18:55,400
Tyler went to see him and he was

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01:18:53,000 --> 01:18:57,480
like Sterling was like can understand

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01:18:55,400 --> 01:19:01,040
that she's her own

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01:18:57,480 --> 01:19:03,840
person she said no I've let her go he's

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01:19:01,040 --> 01:19:05,960
like I mean I followed her until I knew

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01:19:03,840 --> 01:19:09,400
where she was but I did Chase her for

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01:19:05,960 --> 01:19:11,760
several years but I haven't I haven't

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01:19:09,400 --> 01:19:14,679
had a pi on her in about 6

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01:19:11,760 --> 01:19:18,159
months

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01:19:14,679 --> 01:19:20,920
progress yeah what a weird metric we're

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01:19:18,159 --> 01:19:22,440
using for which characters are good in

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01:19:20,920 --> 01:19:25,159
this book because you're like well

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01:19:22,440 --> 01:19:27,360
comparatively I guess none of them are

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01:19:25,159 --> 01:19:29,360
it's Millie and Julian who is the

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01:19:27,360 --> 01:19:31,840
Confessor those are the only two that

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01:19:29,360 --> 01:19:36,120
I'm like y'all are all

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01:19:31,840 --> 01:19:40,040
right into it so 25 out of 88 piano keys

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01:19:36,120 --> 01:19:43,159
yep is our final offer mhm let us know

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01:19:40,040 --> 01:19:46,800
how many piano keys you would choose cuz

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01:19:43,159 --> 01:19:49,719
I I do feel like this is a book that's

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01:19:46,800 --> 01:19:51,239
like picked up a lot of momentum because

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01:19:49,719 --> 01:19:52,360
people have very different experiences

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01:19:51,239 --> 01:19:53,400
so I feel like some people like have

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01:19:52,360 --> 01:19:55,600
really loved it and I feel like there

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01:19:53,400 --> 01:19:58,960
are some people who landmor the you and

1701
01:19:55,600 --> 01:20:01,000
I camp where we're like huh they were

1702
01:19:58,960 --> 01:20:02,760
insufferable and it probably touched on

1703
01:20:01,000 --> 01:20:05,040
our personal [ __ ] a little too much to

1704
01:20:02,760 --> 01:20:07,719
like want to put up with how sufferable

1705
01:20:05,040 --> 01:20:10,679
they are well and like I could see for

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01:20:07,719 --> 01:20:14,480
somebody else that it could be kind of

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01:20:10,679 --> 01:20:17,639
like empowering to read or like

1708
01:20:14,480 --> 01:20:21,679
cathartic to read in some way but like

1709
01:20:17,639 --> 01:20:23,360
that was definitely not my experience

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01:20:21,679 --> 01:20:27,600
so

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01:20:23,360 --> 01:20:30,480
yeah yeah the holy oil I was like okay

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01:20:27,600 --> 01:20:32,520
because at some point it just felt like

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01:20:30,480 --> 01:20:36,239
the religious artifacts were being

1714
01:20:32,520 --> 01:20:38,480
involved strictly for like a shock value

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01:20:36,239 --> 01:20:40,760
and it it didn't actually add to the

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01:20:38,480 --> 01:20:44,520
story and I was

1717
01:20:40,760 --> 01:20:46,880
like okay unless the prayer candle in

1718
01:20:44,520 --> 01:20:51,320
your ass kills a

1719
01:20:46,880 --> 01:20:54,960
nun I don't want it not into it all

1720
01:20:51,320 --> 01:20:57,440
right 25 out of 88 let us know how many

1721
01:20:54,960 --> 01:21:00,760
you would rate it don't forget to like

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01:20:57,440 --> 01:21:04,360
subscribe share with your friends um

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01:21:00,760 --> 01:21:06,120
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01:21:04,360 --> 01:21:08,280
also send us your recommendations we

1725
01:21:06,120 --> 01:21:12,719
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01:21:08,280 --> 01:21:12,719
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1727
01:21:13,679 --> 01:21:17,840
on thank you for coming on this journey

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01:21:16,120 --> 01:21:20,880
as well cuz I feel

1729
01:21:17,840 --> 01:21:24,199
like it was

1730
01:21:20,880 --> 01:21:26,480
one it was indeed a journey see youall

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01:21:24,199 --> 01:21:28,880
next time mut [ __ ] bye SM

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01:21:26,480 --> 01:21:32,320
puppies well that's it for this week's

1733
01:21:28,880 --> 01:21:35,560
mut [ __ ] we hope it was good for you

1734
01:21:32,320 --> 01:21:37,880
cuz it sure was great for us if you're

1735
01:21:35,560 --> 01:21:39,679
digging what we're doing it would mean a

1736
01:21:37,880 --> 01:21:41,400
lot if you'd take a minute to rate and

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01:21:39,679 --> 01:21:44,920
review the show wherever you're

1738
01:21:41,400 --> 01:21:49,040
listening right now maybe tell that sexy

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01:21:44,920 --> 01:21:51,960
someone to lend us an ear we love you we

1740
01:21:49,040 --> 01:21:55,530
appreciate you and we'll see you next

1741
01:21:51,960 --> 01:22:00,720
week stay spoty

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01:21:55,530 --> 01:22:00,720
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