1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:02,250 Ready to go? No. Are 2 00:00:02,250 --> 00:00:02,875 we gonna do it anyways? 3 00:00:03,875 --> 00:00:04,083 Yes. 4 00:00:06,208 --> 00:00:08,750 (Laughter) 5 00:00:10,208 --> 00:00:10,875 Hi,Alison. 6 00:00:11,625 --> 00:00:15,875 Hi, Matt. Ooh, that felt right. That's 7 00:00:15,875 --> 00:00:17,208 right. That's right. 8 00:00:18,541 --> 00:00:20,291 Oh, man, it's 2020, 9 00:00:20,291 --> 00:00:24,666 motherfriiiing. Five, everyone. 10 00:00:25,750 --> 00:00:26,375 Five of lives. 11 00:00:27,125 --> 00:00:30,458 We love the world as we know it And I'm 12 00:00:30,458 --> 00:00:31,666 glad I've got good friends 13 00:00:32,708 --> 00:00:33,125 That's true. 14 00:00:33,500 --> 00:00:36,333 That's true. You know, that is so 15 00:00:36,333 --> 00:00:40,041 freaking true. If nothing else. Look, 16 00:00:41,083 --> 00:00:42,666 number one, if nothing else, 17 00:00:43,791 --> 00:00:46,208 if you don't have good friends, you all 18 00:00:46,208 --> 00:00:48,958 make it. Treat yourself. This year. Treat 19 00:00:48,958 --> 00:00:51,291 yourself. Get some good 20 00:00:51,291 --> 00:00:54,166 friends. Get some good-ass friends. 21 00:00:56,416 --> 00:00:59,958 But it is a brand-new season. 22 00:01:01,708 --> 00:01:02,750 Season four. 23 00:01:03,708 --> 00:01:06,500 How did we do this? How did two people-- 24 00:01:06,875 --> 00:01:10,458 We are closing in on 50 episodes. Boing. 25 00:01:11,083 --> 00:01:14,250 I think we were at either 46 or 47 with 26 00:01:14,250 --> 00:01:16,750 the end of last season. 27 00:01:16,750 --> 00:01:17,666 Even the light, 2024. 28 00:01:18,416 --> 00:01:20,416 Even the light, yeah, we made it into the 29 00:01:20,416 --> 00:01:23,250 high 40s, so we will be celebrating our 30 00:01:23,250 --> 00:01:24,791 50th episode in here, and we're gonna get 31 00:01:24,791 --> 00:01:29,875 a few more. 50 episodes of what, Matt? 32 00:01:30,750 --> 00:01:35,291 Well, 50 episodes ofADHd20 which is a 33 00:01:35,291 --> 00:01:37,625 podcast that finds the 34 00:01:37,625 --> 00:01:40,000 intersection between ADHD. 35 00:01:41,041 --> 00:01:43,666 And TTRPGs. That's right,Alison 36 00:01:43,958 --> 00:01:45,500 Yeah. That's exactly what it does. Two 37 00:01:45,500 --> 00:01:48,416 people who have ADHD. Yeah. Getting 38 00:01:48,416 --> 00:01:51,541 something done. Getting something done. 39 00:01:51,958 --> 00:01:52,708 Getting something done. 40 00:01:53,375 --> 00:01:55,000 Hands if you're in 41 00:01:55,000 --> 00:01:56,166 cities if you will. 42 00:01:56,166 --> 00:01:57,750 Yeah, it's body doubling. 43 00:01:57,750 --> 00:01:59,375 This is our sit-in 44 00:01:59,583 --> 00:02:01,125 Yes, it's our therapy. 45 00:02:01,125 --> 00:02:04,250 It's our it's our work session 46 00:02:04,500 --> 00:02:07,208 Matt and I are I'm gonna use this term 47 00:02:07,208 --> 00:02:17,458 very loosely adults With ADHD 48 00:02:19,041 --> 00:02:21,916 Who were diagnosed as adults so if this 49 00:02:21,916 --> 00:02:24,083 is the first episode that you're ever 50 00:02:24,083 --> 00:02:26,291 listening to welcome, we're glad you're 51 00:02:26,291 --> 00:02:29,875 here Yes, and so it's kind of a a self 52 00:02:29,875 --> 00:02:32,875 exploration journey for each of us that 53 00:02:32,875 --> 00:02:34,041 we invite you to go on 54 00:02:34,250 --> 00:02:36,458 With us and for yourself. Yeah 55 00:02:37,458 --> 00:02:38,375 Yes. Wow. 56 00:02:38,375 --> 00:02:41,750 Well said exactly And that journey is 57 00:02:41,750 --> 00:02:44,500 continuing this year in 2025 We have a 58 00:02:44,500 --> 00:02:46,666 lot of dreams a lot of goals and as you 59 00:02:46,666 --> 00:02:48,041 know I'm just gonna start off at the 60 00:02:48,041 --> 00:02:50,125 beginning as you know, if you also have 61 00:02:50,125 --> 00:02:54,416 ADHD It's quite possible that you you're 62 00:02:54,416 --> 00:02:57,958 immediately scoffing by saying goals and 63 00:02:57,958 --> 00:03:01,291 No, freaking way and 64 00:03:01,291 --> 00:03:02,875 you could be right because 65 00:03:03,958 --> 00:03:07,166 We have the best intentions But we don't 66 00:03:07,166 --> 00:03:08,875 call them resolutions. We don't call them 67 00:03:08,875 --> 00:03:11,333 resolutions. That's the that's the thing 68 00:03:11,333 --> 00:03:15,083 man So we're already a step ahead in my 69 00:03:15,083 --> 00:03:18,250 book We like to call them themes 70 00:03:19,291 --> 00:03:22,750 And what is our theme for 2025 that we 71 00:03:22,750 --> 00:03:25,583 agreed upon last episode aka 72 00:03:26,125 --> 00:03:28,375 mama Mastery, 73 00:03:28,375 --> 00:03:32,541 that's right We're gonna master some shit 74 00:03:32,541 --> 00:03:34,875 Master some shit this year 75 00:03:34,875 --> 00:03:37,208 past going to have included magic 76 00:03:38,250 --> 00:03:41,750 More yes last year and I think that's how 77 00:03:41,750 --> 00:03:43,291 we landed on mastery just to kind of 78 00:03:43,291 --> 00:03:46,000 catch you up real quick as we Last year 79 00:03:46,000 --> 00:03:48,041 tried a lot of different things in that 80 00:03:48,041 --> 00:03:50,458 theme of more We were just drinking from 81 00:03:50,458 --> 00:03:53,708 the fire hose for most of 2024 The things 82 00:03:53,708 --> 00:03:55,041 that you've heard us talk about in the 83 00:03:55,041 --> 00:03:56,916 past that we have struggled with we are 84 00:03:56,916 --> 00:03:59,541 you know Ready to take steps forward and 85 00:03:59,541 --> 00:04:02,416 get better at the things that you know We 86 00:04:02,416 --> 00:04:04,458 already know that we love we want to 87 00:04:04,458 --> 00:04:07,500 become Top of our you know top of the 88 00:04:07,500 --> 00:04:10,041 class Yes top tier talent in 89 00:04:10,041 --> 00:04:12,125 the way we're we're probably going to 90 00:04:12,125 --> 00:04:15,291 revisit some things that we already have 91 00:04:15,291 --> 00:04:17,166 dealt with Because guess what we're still 92 00:04:17,166 --> 00:04:21,333 doing But I promise that we won't use the 93 00:04:21,333 --> 00:04:23,625 exact same words when we 94 00:04:23,625 --> 00:04:24,708 talk about these things 95 00:04:24,708 --> 00:04:28,375 well try not to We did 96 00:04:30,375 --> 00:04:32,666 Is a lot of times we forget what we said 97 00:04:32,666 --> 00:04:34,500 out loud and what was just rattling 98 00:04:34,500 --> 00:04:35,958 around in the echoes of our own brain 99 00:04:35,958 --> 00:04:38,833 space and so Sorry about 100 00:04:38,833 --> 00:04:39,958 it if we repeat ourselves 101 00:04:40,083 --> 00:04:43,750 So somehow and I don't know how We kind 102 00:04:43,750 --> 00:04:45,250 of pigeonholed ourselves 103 00:04:45,250 --> 00:04:49,666 into talking about only ADHD and 104 00:04:50,791 --> 00:04:53,458 TTRPGs right and we want to branch out a 105 00:04:53,458 --> 00:04:56,000 little bit We want to talk about for some 106 00:04:56,000 --> 00:04:59,125 things all things all the things near all 107 00:04:59,125 --> 00:05:01,625 the Neurodivergent things yep, certainly 108 00:05:01,625 --> 00:05:05,458 all the all the things about perhaps 109 00:05:05,458 --> 00:05:08,625 silent disabilities and loud disabilities 110 00:05:10,083 --> 00:05:13,458 Interruptive Yeah, no disruptive 111 00:05:14,583 --> 00:05:16,416 Well, there's just so many interesting 112 00:05:16,416 --> 00:05:19,833 people yeah that have come into our lives 113 00:05:20,500 --> 00:05:23,666 in the last four years and Those people 114 00:05:23,666 --> 00:05:27,375 may or may not have ADHD and that does 115 00:05:27,375 --> 00:05:29,416 not mean that they shouldn't be on this 116 00:05:29,416 --> 00:05:31,708 podcast talking to us so hopefully more 117 00:05:31,708 --> 00:05:34,583 guests and There's all manner of other 118 00:05:34,583 --> 00:05:38,041 things beyond TTRPGs. I guess I mean, I 119 00:05:38,041 --> 00:05:39,583 don't know what they are yet, but but 120 00:05:39,583 --> 00:05:40,458 there's probably something 121 00:05:41,916 --> 00:05:45,291 For us it's it's it always comes back to 122 00:05:45,291 --> 00:05:47,416 what we are learning here, right? Like 123 00:05:47,416 --> 00:05:48,958 what are what are we learning? Are we 124 00:05:48,958 --> 00:05:51,208 learning about the game? Are we learning 125 00:05:51,208 --> 00:05:53,208 about our brains? Are we learning and so 126 00:05:53,208 --> 00:05:54,833 there's lots of people in the world that 127 00:05:54,833 --> 00:05:56,583 can help us with these things continue to 128 00:05:56,583 --> 00:05:59,125 help and then yes Ak we we 129 00:05:59,125 --> 00:06:00,750 we're gonna try something today 130 00:06:02,291 --> 00:06:02,708 Just 131 00:06:10,250 --> 00:06:14,500 Gonna try something today that is An 132 00:06:14,500 --> 00:06:17,500 immediate kind of step out. I Kind of 133 00:06:17,500 --> 00:06:20,916 surprised a K balance again minutes ago 134 00:06:21,500 --> 00:06:24,875 with this to see Whether it could be a 135 00:06:24,875 --> 00:06:27,000 fun thing But those of you who have who 136 00:06:27,000 --> 00:06:30,166 have watched since episode 1 ofADHd20 you 137 00:06:30,166 --> 00:06:33,583 you would be able to follow Allison's 138 00:06:34,166 --> 00:06:37,625 incredible path of self 139 00:06:39,416 --> 00:06:42,083 Improvement and self reflection and self 140 00:06:42,916 --> 00:06:45,333 Understanding and so on and so forth and 141 00:06:45,333 --> 00:06:47,833 a lot of that we've made fun of by using 142 00:06:47,833 --> 00:06:51,208 the words woo-woo But I think that we are 143 00:06:51,208 --> 00:06:52,750 taking that word back. 144 00:06:52,750 --> 00:06:55,916 Oh, I Is not 145 00:06:55,916 --> 00:06:59,250 it is not derogatory and anyway and in 146 00:06:59,250 --> 00:07:02,041 fact, we're gonna try to lean into it a 147 00:07:02,041 --> 00:07:03,416 little bit this year 148 00:07:04,625 --> 00:07:07,458 Woo and every Meaning 149 00:07:07,458 --> 00:07:08,791 of that word possible. 150 00:07:08,791 --> 00:07:13,333 Yes in 2025 Yes, and it for those who are 151 00:07:13,333 --> 00:07:15,583 are are hearing this and or watching this 152 00:07:15,583 --> 00:07:18,000 and saying oh man No, that's it. Yeah 153 00:07:18,000 --> 00:07:21,166 turning off. Don't do it because The 154 00:07:21,166 --> 00:07:23,541 thing in my toolkit is is is not as 155 00:07:23,541 --> 00:07:25,916 woo-woo. It's true if that really bugs 156 00:07:25,916 --> 00:07:28,166 you but it shouldn't 157 00:07:28,166 --> 00:07:30,750 Yeah Or know that there was a time when 158 00:07:30,750 --> 00:07:32,916 somebody would say Woo-woo shit to me 159 00:07:32,916 --> 00:07:34,500 that I would turn them off and look sure 160 00:07:34,500 --> 00:07:37,958 now. Yeah, I can change I can go look at 161 00:07:37,958 --> 00:07:41,750 me now or do because I think that's 162 00:07:41,750 --> 00:07:43,708 another part of the woo-woo toolkit as 163 00:07:43,916 --> 00:07:45,333 Reckon like not everything is for 164 00:07:45,333 --> 00:07:48,250 everybody right and so I'm done fighting 165 00:07:49,458 --> 00:07:51,791 Like yeah, if it doesn't interest you if 166 00:07:51,791 --> 00:07:53,666 it interests you I love having you here 167 00:07:53,666 --> 00:07:56,125 and if it doesn't interest you I respect 168 00:07:56,125 --> 00:07:58,041 that Yeah, and hope that you still 169 00:07:58,041 --> 00:08:00,833 respect me and to Matt's point. There are 170 00:08:00,833 --> 00:08:02,750 other very non woo-woo things that will 171 00:08:02,750 --> 00:08:06,583 surface Mm-hmm, but now right now I 172 00:08:06,583 --> 00:08:07,500 respect youAlison 173 00:08:07,500 --> 00:08:10,083 I respect you Matthew. Thank you 174 00:08:11,750 --> 00:08:13,416 Glad we got that light inside me. 175 00:08:13,416 --> 00:08:16,708 What's that honors the light inside me? 176 00:08:16,708 --> 00:08:19,541 I thought you said insight me like you 177 00:08:19,541 --> 00:08:20,333 wanted me to roll an 178 00:08:20,333 --> 00:08:26,416 insight check Well, that 179 00:08:26,416 --> 00:08:28,041 is a fun thing that we could try if we 180 00:08:28,041 --> 00:08:32,000 ever need to We have an entire channel 181 00:08:32,000 --> 00:08:34,333 called the pocket dimension where we we 182 00:08:34,333 --> 00:08:37,000 talk about every single thing TTRPG So 183 00:08:37,000 --> 00:08:39,625 there is absolutely no way You're gonna 184 00:08:39,625 --> 00:08:42,291 get away with hearing this podcast where 185 00:08:42,291 --> 00:08:44,333 we're not gonna mention some kind of 186 00:08:44,333 --> 00:08:47,291 tabletop role-playing game Yeah, maybe we 187 00:08:47,291 --> 00:08:49,250 need to start inciting each other. Oh, I 188 00:08:49,250 --> 00:08:51,083 got a four. I have no idea 189 00:08:51,083 --> 00:08:54,500 whether yeah, I got 18 Okay 190 00:08:55,500 --> 00:08:56,625 Do you respect me? I 191 00:08:56,625 --> 00:08:57,833 think I do really do. 192 00:08:57,833 --> 00:08:59,375 I really really think you do. I believe 193 00:08:59,375 --> 00:09:02,250 you fully even without that role That 194 00:09:02,250 --> 00:09:03,958 would have been a moment and in TTRPG 195 00:09:03,958 --> 00:09:05,625 world when like the GM would say like I'm 196 00:09:05,625 --> 00:09:07,875 just gonna give you this for free Yeah, 197 00:09:07,875 --> 00:09:11,375 that's good. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. See 198 00:09:11,375 --> 00:09:13,166 we can we can relate everything to 199 00:09:13,791 --> 00:09:15,875 Neurodivergence and or TTRPG is without 200 00:09:15,875 --> 00:09:19,791 even working at it at this point. Yes So 201 00:09:19,791 --> 00:09:21,791 yes, so something is going to take a 202 00:09:21,791 --> 00:09:24,791 backseat a little bit this year We might 203 00:09:24,791 --> 00:09:27,708 see less of the ADHD 100 table. 204 00:09:27,708 --> 00:09:29,916 We might Mm-hmm. 205 00:09:29,916 --> 00:09:31,791 Hey, we've gotten to know each other 206 00:09:31,791 --> 00:09:34,833 incredibly well and have hopefully let 207 00:09:34,833 --> 00:09:37,708 y'all get to know us Well as well. Well, 208 00:09:37,708 --> 00:09:40,291 well, well We're not we're not killing it 209 00:09:40,291 --> 00:09:42,333 completely but we're gonna save it this 210 00:09:42,333 --> 00:09:44,958 season For guests because it's a great 211 00:09:44,958 --> 00:09:48,458 way to get to know you. So tell us how 212 00:09:48,458 --> 00:09:51,208 that feels, you know, well listen We're 213 00:09:51,208 --> 00:09:54,333 malleable we try and be at least yes, so 214 00:09:54,333 --> 00:09:56,000 if that doesn't sit right in your soul, I 215 00:09:56,000 --> 00:09:58,625 want to know about it Yeah, but yeah, 216 00:09:58,625 --> 00:10:00,458 we're gonna do instead whatever. Well, I 217 00:10:00,458 --> 00:10:03,000 want you to because it's your idea Oh, so 218 00:10:03,000 --> 00:10:03,958 I'm not gonna sit here and take credit 219 00:10:03,958 --> 00:10:05,166 for that. You're gonna tell 220 00:10:05,166 --> 00:10:05,958 us what we're gonna do it. 221 00:10:06,083 --> 00:10:09,500 Yes Okay in a case whoo-woo journey. She 222 00:10:09,500 --> 00:10:15,750 has found a Really beautiful focusing 223 00:10:16,500 --> 00:10:21,333 tool Weird right weird, right in the form 224 00:10:21,333 --> 00:10:24,500 of an ancient sort of divination 225 00:10:26,041 --> 00:10:27,375 Am I am I saying this 226 00:10:27,375 --> 00:10:28,666 right like a divination 227 00:10:30,041 --> 00:10:32,125 Practice yeah practice practice. Thank 228 00:10:32,125 --> 00:10:34,416 you. That's even better called the tarot 229 00:10:35,000 --> 00:10:38,958 and I Think tarot is really hot right now 230 00:10:39,458 --> 00:10:43,000 so the other month I was in a bar and We 231 00:10:43,000 --> 00:10:44,250 were having a drink and then somebody 232 00:10:44,250 --> 00:10:46,416 walked up and said hey We're doing tarot 233 00:10:46,416 --> 00:10:48,500 card ratings in the back and I said great 234 00:10:48,500 --> 00:10:50,625 that we did did you go get a tarot card 235 00:10:50,625 --> 00:10:51,625 right? I did of course 236 00:10:52,708 --> 00:10:55,333 So it's really hot right now and it I 237 00:10:55,333 --> 00:10:57,291 don't think anybody believes that we can 238 00:10:57,291 --> 00:11:00,625 predict the future But it is like many 239 00:11:00,625 --> 00:11:03,916 many things journaling meditation Prayer 240 00:11:03,916 --> 00:11:07,541 pretty much any spiritual practice you 241 00:11:07,875 --> 00:11:11,208 The purpose is to get to know yourself is 242 00:11:11,208 --> 00:11:13,666 to get yourself out of the day to day 243 00:11:14,000 --> 00:11:16,500 Right like is to focus on 244 00:11:17,041 --> 00:11:19,500 Something and have that something 245 00:11:20,541 --> 00:11:22,458 Be just enough out of the 246 00:11:22,458 --> 00:11:24,791 norm that kind of washes over you 247 00:11:24,791 --> 00:11:26,791 exactly and because what all of these are 248 00:11:26,791 --> 00:11:30,041 is as a call to presence so tarot is not 249 00:11:30,041 --> 00:11:34,208 about Seeing the future right a there's I 250 00:11:34,208 --> 00:11:35,583 mean I believe in kind of like a 251 00:11:35,583 --> 00:11:37,958 limitless timeline approach to time 252 00:11:37,958 --> 00:11:39,625 wibbly wobbly time you I mean us 253 00:11:39,625 --> 00:11:42,250 personally Yeah, we're too and also time 254 00:11:42,250 --> 00:11:44,583 is weird soup and also Free wills at 255 00:11:44,583 --> 00:11:46,833 play, baby. So like I can't discern the 256 00:11:46,833 --> 00:11:49,208 future I'd you know, like we can talk 257 00:11:49,208 --> 00:11:51,083 about like what steps are most probable 258 00:11:51,083 --> 00:11:53,375 that I or anybody else will take But 259 00:11:53,375 --> 00:11:56,125 there's always outside factors Weighing 260 00:11:56,125 --> 00:11:58,833 in on that so I can leave the house with 261 00:11:58,833 --> 00:12:02,291 the intent of arriving on time but I am 262 00:12:02,291 --> 00:12:04,125 at the mercy of the other drivers on the 263 00:12:04,125 --> 00:12:06,500 road and the Animal that tries to cross 264 00:12:06,500 --> 00:12:08,666 the street and you know anything else 265 00:12:08,666 --> 00:12:10,416 that can do that Just 266 00:12:10,416 --> 00:12:12,416 say real quick. Sorry to interrupt may I 267 00:12:12,416 --> 00:12:14,625 say right? It just means so much to me to 268 00:12:14,625 --> 00:12:16,375 have a friend that believes in free will 269 00:12:16,375 --> 00:12:20,583 Dude do people know 270 00:12:20,583 --> 00:12:22,500 this is news to me. Yeah. 271 00:12:22,500 --> 00:12:25,166 Yeah I've known people who swear that 272 00:12:25,166 --> 00:12:27,791 there's no such thing as as free will and 273 00:12:28,250 --> 00:12:31,541 Look if that's if that's your thing Yay 274 00:12:31,541 --> 00:12:36,791 for you. I just I Love free will I love 275 00:12:36,791 --> 00:12:40,000 it. I love the concept of it If it all 276 00:12:40,000 --> 00:12:41,500 ends up being science and chemicals, 277 00:12:41,708 --> 00:12:43,416 that's also okay. But 278 00:12:43,416 --> 00:12:45,708 until then I Love it. 279 00:12:45,708 --> 00:12:48,000 I so here's the thing and you know, this 280 00:12:48,000 --> 00:12:50,375 is knowing my wound as I absolutely 281 00:12:50,375 --> 00:12:52,708 believe in things like fate and destiny 282 00:12:52,750 --> 00:12:54,916 And like I believe we have soulmates. I 283 00:12:54,916 --> 00:12:56,333 believe we have lots of soulmates I do 284 00:12:56,333 --> 00:12:57,875 not believe in a singular soulmate. I'm 285 00:12:57,875 --> 00:13:00,083 into that and again that is impacted by 286 00:13:00,083 --> 00:13:02,208 free will So you might be predestined to 287 00:13:02,208 --> 00:13:04,375 be with somebody to spend this mortal 288 00:13:04,375 --> 00:13:06,833 life, you know in someone's arms And then 289 00:13:06,833 --> 00:13:08,958 their free will might be like me. Yeah 290 00:13:09,375 --> 00:13:10,541 But then guess what the universe is gonna 291 00:13:10,541 --> 00:13:12,375 show up for you in other ways and like 292 00:13:12,375 --> 00:13:14,750 there will be others So it like so like 293 00:13:14,750 --> 00:13:17,833 nothing is ever an ending I don't think 294 00:13:17,833 --> 00:13:19,333 it's just the beginning of something else 295 00:13:19,333 --> 00:13:22,375 and life catches us off guard life caught 296 00:13:22,375 --> 00:13:26,625 both of us very off-guard a lot Last year 297 00:13:26,625 --> 00:13:30,708 it did over and over and over and Is 298 00:13:30,708 --> 00:13:32,541 already doing that again this year. My 299 00:13:32,541 --> 00:13:34,333 life right now does not look how I 300 00:13:34,333 --> 00:13:36,458 thought it was Unfolding. 301 00:13:36,666 --> 00:13:37,583 Mm-hmm. And that's okay. 302 00:13:37,958 --> 00:13:40,500 My favorite. My favorite golf does is not 303 00:13:40,500 --> 00:13:42,250 named the same thing 304 00:13:42,250 --> 00:13:43,250 that it was last year 305 00:13:46,416 --> 00:13:48,833 I'm gonna exercise my free will on that 306 00:13:48,833 --> 00:13:55,958 much like the Associated Press Look 307 00:13:55,958 --> 00:13:59,333 there's just one and man am I bummed 308 00:13:59,333 --> 00:14:00,875 I thought you said golf at first and I 309 00:14:00,875 --> 00:14:02,083 was like do I even know him? 310 00:14:05,000 --> 00:14:06,541 You guys clocked that those of you 311 00:14:06,541 --> 00:14:07,916 watching this and not just listening but 312 00:14:07,916 --> 00:14:12,000 I was having like a little crisis The 313 00:14:12,000 --> 00:14:14,500 word golf before you as a favorite golf 314 00:14:14,500 --> 00:14:17,875 Types of golf. I mean there's putt putt 315 00:14:17,875 --> 00:14:19,500 and yep normal. So I guess that's two 316 00:14:19,500 --> 00:14:22,166 types of golf. There's I guess disc 317 00:14:22,166 --> 00:14:27,416 pickle pickle ball golf pickle Celebrity 318 00:14:27,416 --> 00:14:29,791 golf 319 00:14:29,791 --> 00:14:33,041 celebrity golf Mm-hmm. Yeah. 320 00:14:34,125 --> 00:14:36,666 No, so so taro like any other tool that 321 00:14:36,666 --> 00:14:40,791 one might choose. I am never using Taro 322 00:14:40,791 --> 00:14:44,625 to see the future. Yeah I use it as a 323 00:14:44,625 --> 00:14:46,333 what I mostly say is I use it as a 324 00:14:46,333 --> 00:14:48,291 discernment tool It's great if you're any 325 00:14:48,291 --> 00:14:51,708 like decision-making deadlock Yeah, and 326 00:14:51,708 --> 00:14:53,208 that's what like my whole journey has 327 00:14:53,208 --> 00:14:56,375 been about is that like if you're stuck 328 00:14:56,375 --> 00:14:58,791 thinking Constantly about either the past 329 00:14:58,791 --> 00:15:01,291 or the future. Yeah, that is putting a 330 00:15:01,291 --> 00:15:05,416 lot on your nervous system And so taro 331 00:15:05,416 --> 00:15:07,833 and other tools get you into the present 332 00:15:07,833 --> 00:15:09,916 moment. What am I experiencing right now? 333 00:15:09,958 --> 00:15:12,500 Yeah, what do I have the power to? 334 00:15:13,500 --> 00:15:15,041 Manipulate or change right? 335 00:15:16,125 --> 00:15:17,083 That's what there is for 336 00:15:17,083 --> 00:15:21,083 yes And I I think do have a wide variety 337 00:15:21,083 --> 00:15:24,583 of tools in your toolkit is is important 338 00:15:24,791 --> 00:15:27,375 So I I personally think that it should be 339 00:15:27,375 --> 00:15:29,750 a spiritual one in your tool. Yeah and I 340 00:15:29,750 --> 00:15:31,791 think honestly especially if you have 341 00:15:31,791 --> 00:15:34,625 ADHD and you and you're you live with 342 00:15:34,625 --> 00:15:37,750 this and you know Some things are easier 343 00:15:37,750 --> 00:15:40,000 for other people than they are for you 344 00:15:40,000 --> 00:15:44,750 and and it gets you down It brings you it 345 00:15:44,750 --> 00:15:47,666 brings you down to have a toolkit that 346 00:15:47,666 --> 00:15:50,375 has something to help you with 347 00:15:51,458 --> 00:15:53,916 spirituality and and and feeling better 348 00:15:53,916 --> 00:15:57,375 about yourself is something like a Task 349 00:15:57,375 --> 00:15:59,875 system a system a productivity system 350 00:15:59,875 --> 00:16:03,000 that you can lean into and when it's 351 00:16:03,000 --> 00:16:06,916 tough a exercise probably or 352 00:16:06,916 --> 00:16:08,958 or at least something that is 353 00:16:10,000 --> 00:16:11,958 That will get you up get you out 354 00:16:13,291 --> 00:16:16,083 Whether that's going to the gym or 355 00:16:16,125 --> 00:16:19,250 Thursday night trivia, you know, whatever 356 00:16:19,250 --> 00:16:21,916 it is It's out and about and that's also 357 00:16:21,916 --> 00:16:24,208 a you need a social system And that's why 358 00:16:24,208 --> 00:16:27,750 we play D&D and yeah dagger heart and all 359 00:16:27,750 --> 00:16:30,166 of the games that you love. These are all 360 00:16:30,166 --> 00:16:33,416 tools for us yeah, and so that's kind of 361 00:16:33,416 --> 00:16:34,958 what today is about 362 00:16:34,958 --> 00:16:36,625 but I'm psyched because 363 00:16:37,875 --> 00:16:39,958 You want to we're gonna read some cards 364 00:16:39,958 --> 00:16:41,833 for this year We're 365 00:16:41,833 --> 00:16:43,125 gonna read some freakin car 366 00:16:43,125 --> 00:16:46,291 very apparent to everybody watching and 367 00:16:46,291 --> 00:16:47,875 listening this was all Matt's idea 368 00:16:49,833 --> 00:16:53,250 What yes, it was it was it was my idea 369 00:16:53,250 --> 00:16:56,000 because I've just seen look I've said it 370 00:16:56,000 --> 00:16:58,166 before I'll say it again Your growth as a 371 00:16:58,166 --> 00:17:00,166 human being is inspiring 372 00:17:01,500 --> 00:17:05,500 Pronounced it's it's it's all hard work 373 00:17:05,500 --> 00:17:08,958 and and I I have to attribute both this 374 00:17:08,958 --> 00:17:11,250 podcast you and me they're biasing but 375 00:17:11,250 --> 00:17:14,083 also your You know this thing that you 376 00:17:14,083 --> 00:17:15,958 found this woo-woo, you know, and and 377 00:17:15,958 --> 00:17:16,666 you've always been a 378 00:17:16,666 --> 00:17:17,750 spiritual person, right? 379 00:17:18,833 --> 00:17:22,708 And So this is this is just this is not 380 00:17:22,708 --> 00:17:25,041 really any different for you It's just a 381 00:17:25,041 --> 00:17:28,375 different mechanism right that fits in To 382 00:17:28,375 --> 00:17:31,291 everything and I said gosh darn it it it 383 00:17:31,291 --> 00:17:36,250 should fit in to Audie HD 20 is what I 384 00:17:36,250 --> 00:17:39,750 think so and and The tarot deck that 385 00:17:39,750 --> 00:17:41,250 you'll be using for these readings 386 00:17:41,250 --> 00:17:43,083 is D&D tarot 387 00:17:44,583 --> 00:17:45,125 And 388 00:17:45,125 --> 00:17:47,666 I really want one because 389 00:17:47,666 --> 00:17:52,291 I feel super left out I'm 390 00:17:52,291 --> 00:17:55,458 gonna take care of that you will have one 391 00:17:55,458 --> 00:17:57,500 my birthday in June you're gonna have one 392 00:17:57,500 --> 00:18:00,708 by by this time next week I'm gonna go to 393 00:18:00,708 --> 00:18:02,458 the early stage here part of me now is 394 00:18:02,458 --> 00:18:04,000 you know, like can we just like pause 395 00:18:04,000 --> 00:18:05,458 real quick? So I can go send it to you. 396 00:18:05,458 --> 00:18:07,666 I'll wait till we're done recording I 397 00:18:07,666 --> 00:18:09,666 actually fits also has this deck that I 398 00:18:09,666 --> 00:18:12,958 also bought for her So and when we're 399 00:18:12,958 --> 00:18:14,208 together in person fits 400 00:18:14,208 --> 00:18:17,083 our our lore keeper Oh, man 401 00:18:30,333 --> 00:18:32,583 This year I also my toolkit I'm gonna 402 00:18:32,583 --> 00:18:34,000 have to work out still have 403 00:18:34,000 --> 00:18:35,416 this darn thing broken anyway 404 00:18:36,208 --> 00:18:40,083 It's our Lord keeper is we whenever we're 405 00:18:40,083 --> 00:18:41,833 together in person fits pulls a card. I 406 00:18:41,833 --> 00:18:44,208 believe every day. I don't even do that 407 00:18:44,625 --> 00:18:46,375 She's beating me there. But like when 408 00:18:46,375 --> 00:18:47,666 we're together, especially we like to 409 00:18:47,666 --> 00:18:49,666 pull cards We did a really cool little 410 00:18:49,666 --> 00:18:52,041 like at that midnight on New Year's Eve 411 00:18:52,041 --> 00:18:54,000 We were together with our friend drew and 412 00:18:54,000 --> 00:18:56,333 we were like pulling cards for the year 413 00:18:56,333 --> 00:18:58,583 at midnight It was really cool and really 414 00:18:58,583 --> 00:19:00,750 like fun way to usher it in. So yeah, 415 00:19:00,750 --> 00:19:04,708 whatever it is Get yourself some kind of 416 00:19:04,708 --> 00:19:07,916 physical token to like ground you in the 417 00:19:07,916 --> 00:19:09,541 present moment because I think that's 418 00:19:09,541 --> 00:19:12,208 really what my I Used to make so many 419 00:19:12,208 --> 00:19:13,833 just I wasn't even making decisions. I 420 00:19:13,833 --> 00:19:16,041 was just so ruled by my broken nervous 421 00:19:16,041 --> 00:19:18,666 system Yeah that everything felt broken 422 00:19:18,666 --> 00:19:21,166 and hard And it was when I started to 423 00:19:21,166 --> 00:19:23,750 kind of like tie these like grounding 424 00:19:24,666 --> 00:19:27,041 Things which like but like and it doesn't 425 00:19:27,041 --> 00:19:28,500 have to be I mean meditation I think it's 426 00:19:28,500 --> 00:19:30,375 great but meditations about like feeling 427 00:19:30,375 --> 00:19:32,333 the mat beneath you and like paying 428 00:19:32,333 --> 00:19:33,625 attention to your breath So there are 429 00:19:33,625 --> 00:19:35,250 very physical components of meditation 430 00:19:35,250 --> 00:19:38,208 for sure You know, so it can be 431 00:19:38,583 --> 00:19:39,708 divination rods and 432 00:19:39,708 --> 00:19:41,000 pendulums and crystals 433 00:19:42,625 --> 00:19:44,375 Something as simple as journaling I think 434 00:19:44,375 --> 00:19:46,500 you mentioned like yes and 435 00:19:46,500 --> 00:19:48,500 paper You know or for keyboard 436 00:19:49,541 --> 00:19:51,583 Tablets so we're gonna we're gonna start 437 00:19:51,583 --> 00:19:54,125 pulling a card this this Episode's a 438 00:19:54,125 --> 00:19:55,208 little wonky and all over the place 439 00:19:55,208 --> 00:19:56,458 because it's the first one and we're okay 440 00:19:56,458 --> 00:19:59,041 with that But I think we will start 441 00:19:59,041 --> 00:20:11,875 future episodes for this We will start 442 00:20:11,875 --> 00:20:14,958 the The episodes of the season pulling a 443 00:20:14,958 --> 00:20:16,541 card kind of like for the week the 444 00:20:16,541 --> 00:20:18,208 episode for Matt and I but I also today 445 00:20:18,291 --> 00:20:19,583 We're gonna do a little special thing 446 00:20:19,583 --> 00:20:20,666 where I'm gonna pull a card each for me 447 00:20:20,666 --> 00:20:22,958 and Matt But first of all, I'm gonna pull 448 00:20:22,958 --> 00:20:23,875 a card for the episode 449 00:20:23,875 --> 00:20:25,291 the episode card if you will 450 00:20:26,500 --> 00:20:30,458 and So this is just kind of like I like 451 00:20:30,458 --> 00:20:32,333 to use you know A good thing when you're 452 00:20:32,333 --> 00:20:33,458 starting like what should I be focusing 453 00:20:33,458 --> 00:20:34,166 on like what are my 454 00:20:34,166 --> 00:20:35,208 guides want me to know? 455 00:20:35,625 --> 00:20:36,000 Mm-hmm. 456 00:20:36,000 --> 00:20:37,250 I believe that we have this like 457 00:20:37,250 --> 00:20:40,250 entourage around us all our spirit guides 458 00:20:40,250 --> 00:20:43,916 our team then that is kind of Headed up 459 00:20:43,916 --> 00:20:46,750 by the the HB I see your higher self 460 00:20:49,041 --> 00:20:51,125 Told I'm going full. Whoa you guys. Hey, 461 00:20:51,125 --> 00:20:54,750 man and so You know a lot your spirit 462 00:20:54,750 --> 00:20:56,000 guys are out there when you learn to pay 463 00:20:56,000 --> 00:20:57,416 attention to them and listen to them They 464 00:20:57,416 --> 00:20:59,375 have a lot to say but man most of us just 465 00:20:59,375 --> 00:21:00,500 choose to walk around this life with 466 00:21:00,500 --> 00:21:03,666 blinders on And so a lot of times I'll 467 00:21:03,666 --> 00:21:04,791 ask the question like what did my guys 468 00:21:04,791 --> 00:21:07,541 want me to know right now? Matt tell me 469 00:21:07,541 --> 00:21:09,541 when just to whenever feels good 470 00:21:14,583 --> 00:21:15,666 When okay 471 00:21:16,958 --> 00:21:19,541 Interesting we use okay. So what's really 472 00:21:19,541 --> 00:21:21,541 special about this D&D tarot deck that my 473 00:21:21,541 --> 00:21:23,625 good friend Megan who is also one of our 474 00:21:23,625 --> 00:21:26,416 listeners Gifted to me and I think it's a 475 00:21:26,416 --> 00:21:28,458 very very beautiful deck. It has like a 476 00:21:28,458 --> 00:21:30,416 good like feeling It's like a you know, 477 00:21:30,416 --> 00:21:33,875 kind of textured linen II card. Yeah And 478 00:21:33,875 --> 00:21:36,166 but so instead of the the way that tarot 479 00:21:36,166 --> 00:21:38,083 is built is you have the the first 22 480 00:21:38,083 --> 00:21:39,750 cards or the major arcana And then you 481 00:21:39,750 --> 00:21:40,625 have what are called minor 482 00:21:40,625 --> 00:21:42,500 arcana, which are four suits 483 00:21:43,500 --> 00:21:46,958 And a numbers of each so the four suits 484 00:21:46,958 --> 00:21:48,708 are let's see if I can do this without 485 00:21:48,708 --> 00:21:51,500 looking our cups Pinnacles swords and 486 00:21:51,500 --> 00:21:54,708 wands right in the D&D tarot deck those 487 00:21:54,708 --> 00:21:57,333 four Suits are replaced by wisdom 488 00:21:57,333 --> 00:21:58,916 intelligence strength and charisma. 489 00:21:58,916 --> 00:22:02,791 That's fun And so one thing about tarot 490 00:22:02,791 --> 00:22:04,208 is it's a little the practice is a little 491 00:22:04,208 --> 00:22:05,500 different for everybody So the way that 492 00:22:05,500 --> 00:22:06,791 you read tarot may be different from the 493 00:22:06,791 --> 00:22:09,291 way that I read tarot and that's okay Um 494 00:22:10,083 --> 00:22:12,125 So the way that I read tarot I've kind of 495 00:22:12,125 --> 00:22:15,416 telegraphed Each of these suits into 496 00:22:15,416 --> 00:22:18,500 these these traits. So I call strength 497 00:22:18,500 --> 00:22:21,041 wands. I call intelligence swords I call 498 00:22:21,041 --> 00:22:24,583 wisdom coins and I call charisma cups. Oh 499 00:22:25,625 --> 00:22:28,250 Bringing you you get to choose that in 500 00:22:28,250 --> 00:22:30,833 the D&D deck you get to make those you 501 00:22:30,916 --> 00:22:34,125 Like and so if you Google it, so I break 502 00:22:34,125 --> 00:22:36,833 from conventional wisdom here Okay, Fitz 503 00:22:36,833 --> 00:22:38,250 and I do not agree on this by the way and 504 00:22:38,250 --> 00:22:40,375 again That's okay Cuz it's important for 505 00:22:40,375 --> 00:22:41,666 me to have a practice that I understand 506 00:22:41,666 --> 00:22:43,458 that fits well with my soul and fits to 507 00:22:43,458 --> 00:22:46,083 have the same Fresh the way that most of 508 00:22:46,083 --> 00:22:47,708 the internet has telegraphed these is 509 00:22:47,708 --> 00:22:49,875 that charisma? I'm sorry that wisdom is 510 00:22:49,875 --> 00:22:53,250 cups and charisma is coins But I've been 511 00:22:53,250 --> 00:22:55,333 flipped that because that's what works in 512 00:22:55,333 --> 00:22:57,500 my head so cups is all about like your 513 00:22:57,500 --> 00:22:59,250 intuition creativity feelings and 514 00:22:59,250 --> 00:23:03,250 emotions, yeah, and Coins is all about 515 00:23:03,250 --> 00:23:05,416 finances work and like the material world 516 00:23:05,583 --> 00:23:08,916 Which is why for me wisdom ties to that a 517 00:23:08,916 --> 00:23:11,083 little bit better Okay, because your 518 00:23:11,083 --> 00:23:12,541 wisdom is the thing that's kind of like 519 00:23:12,541 --> 00:23:16,291 piloting you through all of this Whereas 520 00:23:16,291 --> 00:23:19,166 your intuition and your creativity for me 521 00:23:19,166 --> 00:23:22,250 is tied to charisma Now what's really 522 00:23:22,250 --> 00:23:24,333 interesting about this though is I tend 523 00:23:24,333 --> 00:23:27,333 to play high charisma characters Yes, it 524 00:23:27,333 --> 00:23:30,125 tends to play high wisdom characters 525 00:23:30,500 --> 00:23:33,458 interesting and so it's what like again 526 00:23:33,958 --> 00:23:36,875 Make it work for you like hack the system 527 00:23:36,875 --> 00:23:40,250 to put it in some at words like You do 528 00:23:40,250 --> 00:23:43,000 get to choose Wands are all about like 529 00:23:43,000 --> 00:23:46,250 energy and passion It's kind of the fiery 530 00:23:46,458 --> 00:23:48,708 Which is why I think that's a good like 531 00:23:48,708 --> 00:23:50,666 strength because we can be talking about 532 00:23:50,666 --> 00:23:52,041 like physical strength and strength of 533 00:23:52,041 --> 00:23:55,500 mind And then intelligence which is 534 00:23:55,500 --> 00:23:58,333 swords is about first of all that's air, 535 00:23:58,333 --> 00:24:00,500 but it's also like thoughts It's about 536 00:24:00,500 --> 00:24:02,333 words and actions and things like that. 537 00:24:02,333 --> 00:24:03,375 And I think that that is 538 00:24:03,375 --> 00:24:05,583 and that's swords swords 539 00:24:06,666 --> 00:24:11,708 Yeah cups is water Wands are fire And 540 00:24:11,708 --> 00:24:15,750 coins are earth Cool and swords are air 541 00:24:18,083 --> 00:24:25,208 The sword So anyways, I Here's the card 542 00:24:25,208 --> 00:24:28,833 the card that I pulled for us for this 543 00:24:28,833 --> 00:24:31,125 episode is like the theme of the episode 544 00:24:31,458 --> 00:24:34,125 Okay, this is creepy Matt. See the cards 545 00:24:34,125 --> 00:24:35,125 tell the story just like 546 00:24:35,125 --> 00:24:36,458 the dice tell the story. Okay 547 00:24:37,500 --> 00:24:39,041 So the first thing that you look at when 548 00:24:39,041 --> 00:24:40,500 you're reading so we got the eight of 549 00:24:40,500 --> 00:24:41,625 wisdom, right? Which 550 00:24:41,625 --> 00:24:43,708 for me is eight of coins 551 00:24:44,916 --> 00:24:46,875 Each of the numbers means something 552 00:24:46,875 --> 00:24:48,791 different you have ace through ten and 553 00:24:48,791 --> 00:24:51,375 then you have the Knights and pages and 554 00:24:51,375 --> 00:24:53,833 kings and queens So each of those numbers 555 00:24:53,833 --> 00:24:56,000 means something as does the Knight the 556 00:24:56,000 --> 00:24:57,791 page the king and the queen eights are 557 00:24:57,791 --> 00:25:01,833 about mastery No, I'm not kidding like 558 00:25:01,833 --> 00:25:03,833 you can go Google that 559 00:25:06,583 --> 00:25:08,500 That's weird that's weird 560 00:25:10,125 --> 00:25:12,833 That's really really weird a Great 561 00:25:12,833 --> 00:25:15,375 wonderful way Wow But that's what I'm 562 00:25:15,375 --> 00:25:16,833 telling you is like I think that like 563 00:25:16,833 --> 00:25:18,750 spirit is all around us like driving 564 00:25:18,750 --> 00:25:20,500 things and you know Like so it makes 565 00:25:20,500 --> 00:25:22,625 sense for me like when I get these cards 566 00:25:22,666 --> 00:25:24,625 There was a period not long ago where I 567 00:25:24,625 --> 00:25:26,041 just kept pulling the same card over and 568 00:25:26,041 --> 00:25:28,833 over again Like what are of a 78 card 569 00:25:28,833 --> 00:25:30,833 deck? Why would I keep pulling the same 570 00:25:30,833 --> 00:25:32,166 card over and there's nothing different 571 00:25:32,166 --> 00:25:34,500 about the cards weight or it's not Bent 572 00:25:34,500 --> 00:25:36,791 on the edges like I have no idea when I'm 573 00:25:36,916 --> 00:25:38,083 Shuffling and feeling and I'm getting 574 00:25:38,083 --> 00:25:39,458 that card and I kept turning that card 575 00:25:39,458 --> 00:25:40,666 and that's usually like the universe 576 00:25:40,666 --> 00:25:42,166 trying to get your attention Right. Yeah, 577 00:25:42,166 --> 00:25:44,708 so eights are about mastery about action 578 00:25:44,708 --> 00:25:45,458 and about accomplishment 579 00:25:46,625 --> 00:25:50,166 Okay Wisdom is about finances about work 580 00:25:50,166 --> 00:25:52,583 about material possession and my reading 581 00:25:52,583 --> 00:25:55,625 of it So I think that this is and I mean 582 00:25:55,625 --> 00:25:58,416 I love the art of the card So when I read 583 00:25:58,416 --> 00:26:00,416 Tarot the best thing to do is like if 584 00:26:00,416 --> 00:26:02,500 you're interested in this like Find a 585 00:26:02,500 --> 00:26:05,500 deck that speaks to you like find a store 586 00:26:05,500 --> 00:26:07,500 that you can go like that has like sample 587 00:26:07,500 --> 00:26:09,750 decks open that you can like Feel in 588 00:26:09,750 --> 00:26:11,666 touch and find artwork that speaks to you 589 00:26:11,666 --> 00:26:13,500 and I because the art is what's gonna 590 00:26:13,500 --> 00:26:16,125 kind of like lead you Yeah And so what we 591 00:26:16,125 --> 00:26:18,625 have going on and with this guy is he's 592 00:26:18,625 --> 00:26:20,291 planting something in the ground and you 593 00:26:20,291 --> 00:26:22,333 can like depending on your perspective Is 594 00:26:22,333 --> 00:26:25,083 he stuck or is he planting is he growing 595 00:26:25,083 --> 00:26:27,208 like and this is where that like mastery 596 00:26:27,208 --> 00:26:29,000 and accomplishment comes up, right? 597 00:26:29,666 --> 00:26:31,708 Because he is now like leveling up and 598 00:26:31,708 --> 00:26:35,125 we've got a bright sunshine Around him 599 00:26:35,125 --> 00:26:36,416 what this says to me. This is somebody 600 00:26:36,416 --> 00:26:38,333 who is reaping what he has sewed and in 601 00:26:38,333 --> 00:26:41,000 this case himself or themself, right? 602 00:26:41,458 --> 00:26:45,166 Wow he's Growing he is he's 603 00:26:45,166 --> 00:26:47,541 yeah, and so the better you come to know 604 00:26:47,541 --> 00:26:49,625 yourself Which is what like we started 605 00:26:49,625 --> 00:26:52,916 out this this this episode is like this 606 00:26:52,916 --> 00:26:54,833 is how Matt and I have like come home to 607 00:26:54,833 --> 00:26:57,666 ourselves Have come to know ourselves 608 00:26:57,666 --> 00:27:00,041 more deeply and in doing so that really 609 00:27:00,041 --> 00:27:02,666 has been what the spiritual practice has 610 00:27:02,666 --> 00:27:04,958 been about has been about like Learning 611 00:27:04,958 --> 00:27:07,666 to love myself, but like truly becoming 612 00:27:07,666 --> 00:27:09,541 my own friend becoming my own advocate 613 00:27:09,541 --> 00:27:12,333 becoming my own pal And so I just think 614 00:27:12,333 --> 00:27:14,208 that it's incredibly interesting that as 615 00:27:14,208 --> 00:27:15,625 we talk about, you know typically 616 00:27:15,625 --> 00:27:17,458 speaking at the top of a year at the top 617 00:27:17,458 --> 00:27:20,541 of the season you're We to use the dirty 618 00:27:20,541 --> 00:27:22,250 words will set the goals will make the 619 00:27:22,250 --> 00:27:24,375 resolutions Right and this is kind of 620 00:27:24,375 --> 00:27:25,708 reminding us that the more that we can 621 00:27:25,708 --> 00:27:30,333 stay grounded physically as he is In the 622 00:27:30,333 --> 00:27:32,583 world around us grounded in our community 623 00:27:32,583 --> 00:27:35,041 grounded in what is working focusing on 624 00:27:35,041 --> 00:27:36,083 that instead of the lack 625 00:27:37,125 --> 00:27:40,666 And then mastering that rising attaining 626 00:27:40,666 --> 00:27:41,791 fulfilling all of 627 00:27:41,791 --> 00:27:43,833 those different things man 628 00:27:45,083 --> 00:27:48,125 So yeah So we won't go this deep in depth 629 00:27:48,125 --> 00:27:50,458 every every episode ofADHd20 the season 630 00:27:50,458 --> 00:27:51,458 is not gonna be like a full 631 00:27:51,458 --> 00:27:52,666 Ontario guard reading Right. 632 00:27:52,666 --> 00:27:53,541 No, don't worry 633 00:27:53,541 --> 00:27:54,958 everybody if you're worried 634 00:27:54,958 --> 00:27:56,833 if you're worried We just thought it 635 00:27:56,833 --> 00:27:59,541 would be fun for this one, but this is 636 00:27:59,541 --> 00:28:01,583 like what I'll do So I always pull on 637 00:28:01,583 --> 00:28:03,166 Sundays just kind of like look ahead at 638 00:28:03,166 --> 00:28:07,333 my week. I Do pull when I'm experiencing 639 00:28:07,333 --> 00:28:10,500 something good or bad Like I said, I use 640 00:28:10,500 --> 00:28:12,625 it as a decision-making tool. So a lot of 641 00:28:12,625 --> 00:28:15,000 times it'll be like What does path a look 642 00:28:15,000 --> 00:28:16,333 like? What is the most like because 643 00:28:16,333 --> 00:28:17,500 again, I can't tell the future But like 644 00:28:17,500 --> 00:28:19,750 what is the most likely outcome of path a 645 00:28:19,750 --> 00:28:21,916 what is the most likely outcome of path 646 00:28:21,916 --> 00:28:22,708 B? Can you help me 647 00:28:22,708 --> 00:28:25,166 decide and things like that? 648 00:28:25,500 --> 00:28:28,958 Oh Can I also say for those of you who might 649 00:28:28,958 --> 00:28:30,500 be listening to this right now and saying 650 00:28:30,500 --> 00:28:36,041 man My favorite freaking podcast is just 651 00:28:36,041 --> 00:28:39,708 going to the dogs. Let me just say 652 00:28:41,041 --> 00:28:43,916 That what you just said is 653 00:28:45,333 --> 00:28:48,500 Absolutely applicable to rolling dice, 654 00:28:48,500 --> 00:28:52,000 which is fate rolling randomness it is 655 00:28:52,000 --> 00:28:55,083 absolutely like It is absolutely 656 00:28:55,083 --> 00:28:59,208 applicable then to ADHD It's self where 657 00:28:59,208 --> 00:29:03,208 we do not have the greatest ability to 658 00:29:03,208 --> 00:29:07,458 choose What is next in the priority list? 659 00:29:07,458 --> 00:29:09,791 We don't have that and what do I do when 660 00:29:09,791 --> 00:29:12,458 I get stuck? Well soon and I'm gonna have 661 00:29:12,458 --> 00:29:15,083 a tarot deck, but but yeah, I roll 662 00:29:15,083 --> 00:29:17,833 freaking dice I signed things to a list I 663 00:29:17,833 --> 00:29:19,833 number them and I and I say hey look 664 00:29:19,833 --> 00:29:22,708 let's go man. Okay, I'll do that next 665 00:29:22,750 --> 00:29:25,375 Yeah, this is this is what we're talking 666 00:29:25,375 --> 00:29:27,500 about This is why I wanted to do this 667 00:29:27,500 --> 00:29:29,916 because yeah, I knew that this is what 668 00:29:29,916 --> 00:29:33,000 you do It's it's about it's not just whoa 669 00:29:33,000 --> 00:29:35,250 whoa It's like it's it's helping with 670 00:29:35,250 --> 00:29:38,333 decision making which is crazy hard for 671 00:29:38,333 --> 00:29:39,875 us. Yeah, please continue Thank you. 672 00:29:39,875 --> 00:29:41,500 Well and to that I mean yeah, I even do 673 00:29:41,500 --> 00:29:43,708 this with friends now You know where we 674 00:29:43,708 --> 00:29:45,166 can't decide where we're gonna eat and 675 00:29:45,166 --> 00:29:46,750 we've narrowed it down to two options 676 00:29:46,750 --> 00:29:49,166 I'll say great evens are Mexican odds are 677 00:29:49,166 --> 00:29:51,166 sushi and we roll a dice and then that 678 00:29:51,166 --> 00:29:53,125 way like there's no like I didn't get my 679 00:29:53,125 --> 00:29:55,333 way. There's no executive dysfunction 680 00:29:55,333 --> 00:29:57,125 analysis paralysis my 681 00:29:57,125 --> 00:30:00,000 coach Who everybody knows Britney Smith? 682 00:30:00,000 --> 00:30:04,125 She calls it a willpower juice and That 683 00:30:04,125 --> 00:30:07,250 we we not only have less of it in her 684 00:30:07,250 --> 00:30:09,708 brains. Yeah We also use 685 00:30:09,708 --> 00:30:13,375 it up far quicker And so 686 00:30:13,375 --> 00:30:15,625 we have like one of those big Boba straws 687 00:30:15,625 --> 00:30:18,000 that we're drinking our Our story when 688 00:30:18,000 --> 00:30:19,541 everybody else has like the tiny like 689 00:30:19,541 --> 00:30:20,583 standard issue straw. 690 00:30:20,583 --> 00:30:22,291 We just got a brain full of 691 00:30:22,291 --> 00:30:25,000 tapioca. Yeah Yeah, we're just oh 692 00:30:26,291 --> 00:30:27,791 And that's that's that's 693 00:30:27,791 --> 00:30:29,541 our willpower that's good. 694 00:30:29,541 --> 00:30:30,500 Did you take go-go juice? 695 00:30:31,458 --> 00:30:33,875 I Said willpower juice, but I'll go juice 696 00:30:33,875 --> 00:30:34,875 better. I like go-go 697 00:30:34,875 --> 00:30:37,250 juice better. Boba Boba go go 698 00:30:39,750 --> 00:30:43,916 Tpp tpp t are amazing. Yeah, I love that 699 00:30:44,541 --> 00:30:46,583 Drinking going through life drinking 700 00:30:46,583 --> 00:30:47,958 drinking our willpower 701 00:30:47,958 --> 00:30:51,625 juice through a boba straw Oh 702 00:30:53,583 --> 00:30:56,125 That is so good. Okay, so this is just 703 00:30:56,125 --> 00:30:58,708 for episode one season for not gonna do 704 00:30:58,708 --> 00:31:00,083 this every single time But I also wanted 705 00:31:00,083 --> 00:31:02,916 to pull a card each for me and Matt. 706 00:31:02,916 --> 00:31:06,000 Okay, so tell me when when 707 00:31:07,916 --> 00:31:10,958 Okay And then this one's 708 00:31:10,958 --> 00:31:13,458 gonna be for me feels good 709 00:31:15,791 --> 00:31:24,000 Holy Holy smokey's Okay So you my little 710 00:31:24,000 --> 00:31:25,666 friend this is kind of we'll call this 711 00:31:25,666 --> 00:31:27,041 your theme It doesn't have to be for the 712 00:31:27,041 --> 00:31:28,166 whole year can be for whatever amount of 713 00:31:28,166 --> 00:31:30,208 time feels good to you You got the nine 714 00:31:30,208 --> 00:31:33,791 of intelligence Okay So we've 715 00:31:33,791 --> 00:31:34,750 got we've got some tentacles 716 00:31:38,000 --> 00:31:39,541 We've got a mind flayer 717 00:31:41,208 --> 00:31:42,125 Back here 718 00:31:43,458 --> 00:31:46,250 Are they do they care good? Look look 719 00:31:46,250 --> 00:31:48,500 look at this is you this is not you this 720 00:31:48,500 --> 00:31:50,666 is you no, no Yes, yes. Okay. So for 721 00:31:50,666 --> 00:31:51,833 those of you still consuming 722 00:31:51,833 --> 00:31:54,500 this podcast in an audio format 723 00:31:55,750 --> 00:31:58,083 What we have going on in this nine of 724 00:31:58,083 --> 00:32:00,000 intelligence, which would be the nine of 725 00:32:00,000 --> 00:32:03,958 swords in standard tarot Is we've got 726 00:32:03,958 --> 00:32:06,458 what looks like not just the mind flayer 727 00:32:06,458 --> 00:32:09,291 But a whole mess of horrors going on in 728 00:32:09,291 --> 00:32:11,666 the background of this cards And in the 729 00:32:11,666 --> 00:32:13,666 foreground we have somebody who is like 730 00:32:14,625 --> 00:32:17,000 Meditating super hard, but they look 731 00:32:17,000 --> 00:32:19,375 super relaxed Like you can tell like it 732 00:32:19,375 --> 00:32:21,166 look in that facial expression like no 733 00:32:21,166 --> 00:32:23,458 straining going on what's that's a dr. 734 00:32:23,833 --> 00:32:24,708 Strange chill 735 00:32:24,791 --> 00:32:28,583 Yeah, exactly So nines are about if we 736 00:32:28,583 --> 00:32:30,500 think about like 10 10 is kind of like 737 00:32:30,500 --> 00:32:32,500 completion of the cycle, right? So like 738 00:32:32,500 --> 00:32:34,750 eight and nine lead up to that 10 is when 739 00:32:34,750 --> 00:32:36,291 we complete the cycle But nine is when we 740 00:32:36,291 --> 00:32:39,416 like attain the thing we desire the thing 741 00:32:39,416 --> 00:32:41,416 that we want Swords are about like our 742 00:32:41,416 --> 00:32:42,875 thoughts and our actions as words. So 743 00:32:42,875 --> 00:32:44,333 this is somebody who is truly learning 744 00:32:44,333 --> 00:32:47,958 how to master Like all of the swirling 745 00:32:47,958 --> 00:32:51,291 head trash that goes on and not just head 746 00:32:51,291 --> 00:32:53,000 trash But like what's going on in the 747 00:32:53,000 --> 00:32:54,625 world around them and is 748 00:32:54,625 --> 00:32:57,625 able to say like I see you Okay 749 00:32:59,458 --> 00:33:01,041 And just kind of like keep breathing 750 00:33:01,041 --> 00:33:05,166 through that Which I think is a beautiful 751 00:33:05,166 --> 00:33:08,416 like I Need that I need that car, right? 752 00:33:08,416 --> 00:33:10,083 You are becoming that card map. I don't 753 00:33:10,083 --> 00:33:12,000 need it. You are that I think it's an 754 00:33:12,000 --> 00:33:15,458 interesting thing to like Look at through 755 00:33:15,458 --> 00:33:19,458 the lens of our ADHD, right? It's like 756 00:33:19,458 --> 00:33:21,583 all of the tools that you're putting in 757 00:33:21,583 --> 00:33:24,958 your toolkit are truly teaching you how 758 00:33:24,958 --> 00:33:27,625 to Like shut out all the distractions 759 00:33:27,625 --> 00:33:29,958 because a lot of it is just noise and you 760 00:33:29,958 --> 00:33:32,166 only like you are the one who gets to 761 00:33:32,166 --> 00:33:34,208 like decide what you're 762 00:33:34,208 --> 00:33:37,208 gonna allow in How cool is that? 763 00:33:37,458 --> 00:33:40,000 I know that you know me and because we 764 00:33:40,000 --> 00:33:43,708 work together and on to to full-time 765 00:33:43,708 --> 00:33:48,125 jobs, but I don't know whether You know 766 00:33:48,125 --> 00:33:52,125 exactly How true that card is right this 767 00:33:52,125 --> 00:33:55,333 minute? It really like genuine is super 768 00:33:55,333 --> 00:33:58,875 tough for me because I was struggling to 769 00:33:58,875 --> 00:34:01,583 to build that toolkit Which is always 770 00:34:01,583 --> 00:34:03,416 maybe not a bad place, but it's a 771 00:34:03,416 --> 00:34:06,083 complicated place because it it it 772 00:34:06,083 --> 00:34:09,750 becomes my hyper focus to adjust the 773 00:34:09,750 --> 00:34:12,333 tools if I if I feel that they're not 774 00:34:12,333 --> 00:34:16,000 working and to either refined some or get 775 00:34:16,000 --> 00:34:17,958 back to some or whatever but 776 00:34:19,000 --> 00:34:21,958 It usually means and I'm it's it's an 777 00:34:21,958 --> 00:34:25,708 unproductive time for me. It's a It's a 778 00:34:25,708 --> 00:34:28,916 winter time. It's a it's a darker time 779 00:34:28,916 --> 00:34:32,791 and especially especially with the world 780 00:34:32,791 --> 00:34:37,291 is now and Trying to shut that out but 781 00:34:37,291 --> 00:34:41,041 not shut it out but be of but not not in 782 00:34:41,041 --> 00:34:43,416 in some ways Wow, that's 783 00:34:43,416 --> 00:34:45,291 really cool. I love it. 784 00:34:45,291 --> 00:34:47,166 And I see you as being kind of a high 785 00:34:47,166 --> 00:34:49,750 intelligence Like you are very thoughtful 786 00:34:49,750 --> 00:34:52,000 one of the most thoughtful people that I 787 00:34:52,000 --> 00:34:56,541 know you understand like the weight of 788 00:34:56,791 --> 00:35:00,041 Words, you know and like if swords are 789 00:35:00,041 --> 00:35:01,958 about thoughts and actions right like 790 00:35:01,958 --> 00:35:03,708 marrying those two things together you 791 00:35:03,708 --> 00:35:05,208 more than a lot of people 792 00:35:05,208 --> 00:35:06,958 that I know understand like 793 00:35:08,208 --> 00:35:09,958 The weight of both of those things and 794 00:35:09,958 --> 00:35:12,625 how your actions and thoughts and words 795 00:35:12,625 --> 00:35:15,166 and you know Impact other people and so 796 00:35:15,166 --> 00:35:18,791 you're very mindful of it Which is a 797 00:35:18,791 --> 00:35:21,083 beautiful way to be but then we can't be 798 00:35:21,083 --> 00:35:22,708 so mindful of other people's space that 799 00:35:22,708 --> 00:35:23,583 we don't make space for 800 00:35:23,583 --> 00:35:26,125 ourselves Amen, that's 801 00:35:26,125 --> 00:35:28,083 that is that is my challenge. So that is 802 00:35:28,083 --> 00:35:30,958 that is what I've yep So 803 00:35:30,958 --> 00:35:35,250 that was your card and then my card I got 804 00:35:35,250 --> 00:35:39,000 the night of charisma I I am like a 805 00:35:39,000 --> 00:35:41,000 magnet for cups and traditional and 806 00:35:41,000 --> 00:35:44,208 charisma and and D&D tarot Like it's it's 807 00:35:44,208 --> 00:35:47,083 uncanny how often I pull that suit and it 808 00:35:47,083 --> 00:35:48,583 like and it's interesting especially for 809 00:35:48,583 --> 00:35:51,833 me because cups water I'm a cancer like 810 00:35:51,833 --> 00:35:54,875 ultimate water sign. I am Highly 811 00:35:54,875 --> 00:35:57,500 emotional. I am very much fueled by my 812 00:35:57,500 --> 00:36:00,833 feelings, but I also like I'm Very quick 813 00:36:00,833 --> 00:36:03,708 to like snap into my shell And not want 814 00:36:03,708 --> 00:36:05,875 to leave it either. But anyways, so I 815 00:36:05,875 --> 00:36:07,583 love that. I'm always forever pulling the 816 00:36:07,583 --> 00:36:10,458 cup suit intuition feelings emotions 817 00:36:11,250 --> 00:36:14,916 Knights are a Younger more adolescent 818 00:36:14,916 --> 00:36:16,333 like if you think we've got like Knights 819 00:36:16,333 --> 00:36:18,041 and Kings and we have pages and Queens 820 00:36:18,041 --> 00:36:20,083 like yeah The Knights and the pages tend 821 00:36:20,083 --> 00:36:23,458 to represent a more youthful Adolescent 822 00:36:23,458 --> 00:36:25,250 energy for better or for worse like 823 00:36:25,250 --> 00:36:26,916 sometimes it's good to have young energy 824 00:36:26,916 --> 00:36:28,708 and things to drive things forward 825 00:36:29,458 --> 00:36:31,375 Whereas the Kings and the Queens tend to 826 00:36:31,375 --> 00:36:32,708 be more stuck in their ways 827 00:36:33,708 --> 00:36:35,958 But that also comes with its set of 828 00:36:35,958 --> 00:36:37,541 downsides because they can pop off more 829 00:36:37,541 --> 00:36:39,500 easily So maybe they are not you know as 830 00:36:39,500 --> 00:36:41,291 grounded as they can and should be which 831 00:36:41,291 --> 00:36:43,875 is Very much me, but I love this card 832 00:36:43,875 --> 00:36:45,250 specifically in this deck is of how 833 00:36:45,250 --> 00:36:49,708 freaking weird it is We have a we have a 834 00:36:49,708 --> 00:36:53,208 construct We have a clank to put it into 835 00:36:53,208 --> 00:36:56,250 dagger heart term. Yes Is what we have 836 00:36:56,250 --> 00:36:57,833 here. So we have this like eyeball 837 00:36:58,166 --> 00:37:00,541 Mechanization machine thing with some 838 00:37:00,541 --> 00:37:03,791 like spectral wings Going on behind it 839 00:37:03,791 --> 00:37:04,916 like dipping it. What is that like a 840 00:37:04,916 --> 00:37:06,000 honeypot? Like what's 841 00:37:06,000 --> 00:37:06,500 going on down there? 842 00:37:07,125 --> 00:37:09,500 Is it a honeypot? Is it molten lava? 843 00:37:09,958 --> 00:37:11,875 Is it molten lava? They're like part of 844 00:37:11,875 --> 00:37:13,833 their stand is made up of books, you 845 00:37:13,833 --> 00:37:16,000 know, so we have this kind of like high 846 00:37:16,000 --> 00:37:18,500 fantasy We've got all of these like are 847 00:37:18,500 --> 00:37:20,750 they wine bottles or are they potions? 848 00:37:21,583 --> 00:37:25,125 You know, we got gear going on. It's like 849 00:37:25,125 --> 00:37:28,625 an imaginative, you know dreamscape or 850 00:37:28,625 --> 00:37:30,916 hellscape depending on the day and I 851 00:37:30,916 --> 00:37:32,375 think that like what this card is saying 852 00:37:32,375 --> 00:37:34,041 for me more than anything else is just 853 00:37:34,083 --> 00:37:36,250 I'll let my freak flag fly like stop 854 00:37:36,250 --> 00:37:37,500 trying to button it up for other people's 855 00:37:37,500 --> 00:37:40,500 comfort like stops trying to you know Be 856 00:37:40,500 --> 00:37:43,250 a normie and just accept the fact 857 00:37:43,791 --> 00:37:46,250 wait when When when 858 00:37:46,250 --> 00:37:47,625 have you been a normie? 859 00:37:47,625 --> 00:37:50,125 I've never I I care to an obnoxious 860 00:37:50,125 --> 00:37:52,166 degree what other people think I've never 861 00:37:52,166 --> 00:37:53,791 tried to be a normie But I have 862 00:37:53,791 --> 00:37:55,541 definitely spent a lot of like time 863 00:37:55,541 --> 00:37:57,666 trying to be like palatable and fit in 864 00:37:57,875 --> 00:37:59,958 Mmm, and the thing is is that nobody 865 00:37:59,958 --> 00:38:02,916 likes everybody like Mmm, and everybody 866 00:38:02,916 --> 00:38:05,541 doesn't like somebody and so like they're 867 00:38:05,541 --> 00:38:07,000 gonna be people out there who just simply 868 00:38:07,000 --> 00:38:10,916 aren't gonna like me. Um, and Standing a 869 00:38:10,916 --> 00:38:13,000 little bit, you know worrying less about 870 00:38:13,000 --> 00:38:14,708 what other people think of me as part of 871 00:38:14,708 --> 00:38:17,708 my decision-making process. Mm-hmm 872 00:38:18,791 --> 00:38:20,166 It's hard to read cards for yourself and 873 00:38:20,166 --> 00:38:21,583 it's even harder to read cards for 874 00:38:21,583 --> 00:38:24,208 yourself publicly publicly So if you have 875 00:38:24,208 --> 00:38:24,958 anything you would like to 876 00:38:24,958 --> 00:38:27,625 add I'll shut up now feel free 877 00:38:28,583 --> 00:38:33,000 No, I mean I think as you know, I get I 878 00:38:33,000 --> 00:38:34,500 don't know if I could really I can't 879 00:38:34,500 --> 00:38:36,333 really go into it But I I feel like 880 00:38:36,333 --> 00:38:40,000 that's pretty appropriate Right now, 881 00:38:40,000 --> 00:38:44,708 yeah, yeah, so That I prove those are 882 00:38:44,708 --> 00:38:46,833 some tools in my toolkit. I we in our 883 00:38:46,833 --> 00:38:49,166 beautiful discord a little shameless plug 884 00:38:49,166 --> 00:38:51,125 here We have a channel called a case we 885 00:38:51,125 --> 00:38:54,041 we will corner And I will happily pull 886 00:38:54,041 --> 00:38:55,375 cards for anybody anytime 887 00:38:56,583 --> 00:38:59,000 So if you have a question you just slide 888 00:38:59,000 --> 00:39:01,000 on in there and you ask me and we will 889 00:39:01,000 --> 00:39:03,958 see man We'll see what the card say you 890 00:39:03,958 --> 00:39:07,500 have you you just latched on to this so 891 00:39:07,500 --> 00:39:08,916 quickly like I didn't 892 00:39:08,916 --> 00:39:11,833 though Oh, I had decks of cards for years 893 00:39:11,833 --> 00:39:14,958 that I never picked up That collected 894 00:39:14,958 --> 00:39:17,333 dust on a shelf that I knew I wanted like 895 00:39:17,333 --> 00:39:20,000 I felt a pull towards and I knew I wanted 896 00:39:20,000 --> 00:39:22,916 to read tarot But it was a like I kept 897 00:39:22,916 --> 00:39:25,291 burying it deeper and deeper and didn't 898 00:39:25,291 --> 00:39:27,000 pick it up and didn't practice it cuz if 899 00:39:27,000 --> 00:39:28,500 at first I was like it's memorization. 900 00:39:28,500 --> 00:39:31,166 Yeah, I don't want to memorize things 901 00:39:32,916 --> 00:39:36,166 Well, it's it's so funny because it's It 902 00:39:36,166 --> 00:39:38,291 is like being a game master and that you 903 00:39:38,291 --> 00:39:41,500 have to you have to know the rules enough 904 00:39:41,500 --> 00:39:46,208 to To learn when you can break them To 905 00:39:46,208 --> 00:39:47,708 learn when you can break them and and 906 00:39:47,708 --> 00:39:50,125 also to to make to get to the point where 907 00:39:50,125 --> 00:39:54,541 you you can be Natural and you can speak 908 00:39:54,541 --> 00:39:56,500 and you can make yeah, you can make 909 00:39:56,500 --> 00:40:00,166 decisions that you have. Yeah Yeah, that 910 00:40:00,166 --> 00:40:01,458 fit the people that 911 00:40:01,458 --> 00:40:03,375 you're talking to Playing with 912 00:40:03,375 --> 00:40:05,708 yeah, and I used to do that 913 00:40:07,083 --> 00:40:09,750 About all things spiritually. I like I've 914 00:40:09,750 --> 00:40:13,125 been into spiritual things. I Mean really 915 00:40:13,125 --> 00:40:16,791 since college like yeah Interested in 916 00:40:16,791 --> 00:40:20,125 aware of but I I thought I didn't realize 917 00:40:20,125 --> 00:40:22,291 how much we can be our own channels for 918 00:40:22,291 --> 00:40:27,000 the divine whoo Everybody has get these 919 00:40:27,000 --> 00:40:29,791 gifts There's it like it is how much you 920 00:40:29,791 --> 00:40:31,625 want to tap into them and like I learn 921 00:40:31,625 --> 00:40:33,833 them and master them but it was years 922 00:40:33,833 --> 00:40:36,125 between me like showing an interest and 923 00:40:36,125 --> 00:40:40,541 like Dibble dabbling and actually doing 924 00:40:40,541 --> 00:40:42,166 something about it in true ADHD 925 00:40:42,750 --> 00:40:46,125 Yeah, and in beautiful ADHD fashion full 926 00:40:46,125 --> 00:40:49,625 ADHD fashion. Yeah I'm on 927 00:40:49,625 --> 00:40:52,916 board man. I am I am 200% on board 928 00:40:53,708 --> 00:40:55,208 Whoo, whoo. Yeah, we're not 929 00:40:55,208 --> 00:40:56,666 having a case we will corner 930 00:40:59,000 --> 00:41:00,791 Well on that in a case 931 00:41:01,958 --> 00:41:02,791 Fun land. 932 00:41:02,791 --> 00:41:08,500 Yeah, I mean look toolkits again. I I 933 00:41:08,500 --> 00:41:13,166 urge you you being Anyone who's listening 934 00:41:13,166 --> 00:41:16,875 I urge you to hear whatAlison is saying 935 00:41:16,875 --> 00:41:20,333 and say oh, yeah That's like blank for 936 00:41:20,333 --> 00:41:23,125 me. Mm-hmm, whether you're practicing it 937 00:41:23,125 --> 00:41:25,083 now or whether you have 938 00:41:25,083 --> 00:41:27,791 practiced it in the past. Yeah, I 939 00:41:28,916 --> 00:41:31,625 Feel like I have powers when I do blank 940 00:41:32,708 --> 00:41:34,416 Mm-hmm you there's something I promise 941 00:41:34,416 --> 00:41:37,166 you I promise you I I don't 942 00:41:37,166 --> 00:41:39,791 care you could be the most 943 00:41:41,708 --> 00:41:44,916 Self-negative violent person towards 944 00:41:44,916 --> 00:41:48,000 yourself But there is something in your 945 00:41:48,000 --> 00:41:52,083 life Maybe it was when you were 10. Maybe 946 00:41:52,083 --> 00:41:53,875 it was Dungeons and Dragons. I don't know 947 00:41:53,875 --> 00:41:58,208 but whatever that thing is Life is tough 948 00:41:58,208 --> 00:42:02,208 right now for a lot of folks Why not find 949 00:42:02,208 --> 00:42:04,125 the things that make you feel like you 950 00:42:04,125 --> 00:42:06,208 have magical powers? period 951 00:42:07,708 --> 00:42:09,958 Without shame without any of that stuff 952 00:42:10,333 --> 00:42:14,000 Well, yeah, I think that was where it was 953 00:42:14,000 --> 00:42:18,708 somewhere around 2020 That I really like 954 00:42:18,708 --> 00:42:20,625 took off with all of like the spiritual 955 00:42:20,625 --> 00:42:24,833 stuff. Mm-hmm Because yeah, there's a lot 956 00:42:24,833 --> 00:42:26,125 out there that's toxic positive 957 00:42:26,125 --> 00:42:28,416 positivity And so what spirituality is 958 00:42:28,416 --> 00:42:30,916 not is it is not encouraging you to not 959 00:42:30,916 --> 00:42:33,791 feel your feelings What is the big 960 00:42:33,791 --> 00:42:35,166 spiritual thing that we all love to say 961 00:42:35,166 --> 00:42:36,833 is like where your focus goes your energy 962 00:42:36,833 --> 00:42:38,541 flows? Pay attention to what you're 963 00:42:38,541 --> 00:42:40,625 focusing on This is why social media can 964 00:42:40,625 --> 00:42:42,000 be incredibly dangerous because it's 965 00:42:42,000 --> 00:42:44,083 constantly like putting these things In 966 00:42:44,083 --> 00:42:45,833 front of our faces that are bad and it's 967 00:42:45,833 --> 00:42:47,375 doom and it's gloom and it's terrible and 968 00:42:47,375 --> 00:42:50,041 it's awful I'm not saying that like there 969 00:42:50,041 --> 00:42:52,500 are atrocities happening every second in 970 00:42:52,500 --> 00:42:55,208 our world right now and I am by no means 971 00:42:55,583 --> 00:42:59,041 saying like don't pay attention But if 972 00:42:59,041 --> 00:43:00,750 that's all you're giving your focus to 973 00:43:00,750 --> 00:43:02,625 what this practice has been about for me 974 00:43:02,625 --> 00:43:04,375 is like paying attention to my own words 975 00:43:04,708 --> 00:43:06,458 So when some it's as simple as when 976 00:43:06,458 --> 00:43:08,166 somebody asks you how are you doing? 977 00:43:09,333 --> 00:43:11,083 If my answer is always I'm so stressed. 978 00:43:11,083 --> 00:43:12,958 I'm so tired and that was always my 979 00:43:12,958 --> 00:43:15,333 answer Yeah for many many many many years 980 00:43:15,333 --> 00:43:19,208 if you said I also hey So much going on 981 00:43:19,208 --> 00:43:20,583 yeah, and even if you don't necessarily 982 00:43:20,583 --> 00:43:22,083 mean it that negatively it's like oh my 983 00:43:22,083 --> 00:43:23,458 god I've got so much going on but the 984 00:43:23,458 --> 00:43:25,250 more you tell yourself you tell that 985 00:43:25,250 --> 00:43:28,625 story Yeah, like the busier you feel so 986 00:43:28,625 --> 00:43:30,416 one thing I did at the beginning of my 987 00:43:30,416 --> 00:43:32,291 spiritual practice is I abolished the 988 00:43:32,291 --> 00:43:35,625 word Busy from my vocabulary. I was no 989 00:43:35,625 --> 00:43:37,708 longer allowed to tell myself or anybody 990 00:43:37,708 --> 00:43:40,375 else that I was busy Because busy had 991 00:43:40,375 --> 00:43:41,250 taken on such a negative 992 00:43:41,250 --> 00:43:42,666 connotation in my life, right? 993 00:43:43,875 --> 00:43:45,791 We talk about this a lot in terms of like 994 00:43:45,791 --> 00:43:47,916 the justice the injustices that we feel 995 00:43:47,916 --> 00:43:50,875 as neurospicy types And how we might feel 996 00:43:50,875 --> 00:43:52,375 them a little bit harder with our brains. 997 00:43:52,375 --> 00:43:55,791 Yeah, so like Paying attention to words 998 00:43:55,791 --> 00:43:58,500 like that of like busy busy work. Why am 999 00:43:58,500 --> 00:44:01,083 I doing this? I'm grinding. It's hard. It 1000 00:44:01,083 --> 00:44:04,041 hurts I'm stressed like mm-hmm. So 1001 00:44:04,041 --> 00:44:07,541 instead like It's not a fake it till you 1002 00:44:07,541 --> 00:44:09,250 make it it's not a toxic positive Ben, 1003 00:44:09,250 --> 00:44:11,833 but it's like Instead of saying busy my 1004 00:44:11,833 --> 00:44:14,375 days are full You know like finding those 1005 00:44:14,375 --> 00:44:17,083 like little micro tweaks that we can make 1006 00:44:17,083 --> 00:44:20,416 daily and then eventually you've you stop 1007 00:44:20,416 --> 00:44:22,916 needing to say I'm busy you start saying 1008 00:44:22,916 --> 00:44:24,291 I have a lot going on. That's really 1009 00:44:24,291 --> 00:44:25,041 exciting. Can I tell 1010 00:44:25,041 --> 00:44:27,250 you about it? Yeah right 1011 00:44:28,625 --> 00:44:31,250 So Starting there starting with the I'm 1012 00:44:31,250 --> 00:44:32,333 not telling you to ignore your feelings 1013 00:44:32,333 --> 00:44:34,041 when you're sad Please feel sad when 1014 00:44:34,041 --> 00:44:36,500 you're angry is feeling a no problem. No 1015 00:44:36,500 --> 00:44:38,666 problems there, but it stopped dwelling 1016 00:44:38,666 --> 00:44:41,250 in the anger Don't be angry for weeks and 1017 00:44:41,250 --> 00:44:42,333 weeks and weeks and weeks and weeks and 1018 00:44:42,333 --> 00:44:43,166 weeks on that Don't let 1019 00:44:43,166 --> 00:44:45,916 it be beat you if you can yeah, like 1020 00:44:45,916 --> 00:44:48,708 don't let it don't let it if you can if 1021 00:44:48,708 --> 00:44:51,000 you can yeah you know 1022 00:44:52,375 --> 00:44:54,500 Life is like life can be hard. It can be 1023 00:44:54,500 --> 00:44:58,166 sad. It can be Frustrating it can be 1024 00:44:58,166 --> 00:45:00,833 unfair. It can be all kinds of things But 1025 00:45:00,833 --> 00:45:03,291 but yeah, you're right you have tiny 1026 00:45:03,291 --> 00:45:05,500 changes that you could yeah make 1027 00:45:05,500 --> 00:45:07,541 I gotta put my focus on what feels good 1028 00:45:07,541 --> 00:45:09,250 And what feels really good is creating 1029 00:45:09,250 --> 00:45:13,333 weird Shit with you guys. Yeah playing 1030 00:45:13,333 --> 00:45:15,416 video or video games. Yes, and also 1031 00:45:16,083 --> 00:45:19,625 Tabletop role-playing games. Yeah Reading 1032 00:45:19,625 --> 00:45:22,458 tarot going on walks, you know playing 1033 00:45:22,458 --> 00:45:25,000 music bingo and Thursday nights Yes 1034 00:45:27,500 --> 00:45:29,791 Yeah, and I'm excited about this year 1035 00:45:29,791 --> 00:45:32,208 Matt if mastery is the word like when you 1036 00:45:32,208 --> 00:45:33,958 think when I think of master Like let's 1037 00:45:33,958 --> 00:45:35,458 take back that word I know it also has 1038 00:45:35,458 --> 00:45:37,041 some negative connotations that we're 1039 00:45:37,041 --> 00:45:38,916 aware of But I also think of like a 1040 00:45:38,916 --> 00:45:41,583 master carpenter who is at the top of 1041 00:45:41,583 --> 00:45:43,875 their game the one that like everybody 1042 00:45:43,875 --> 00:45:46,916 wants to study with and learn from and 1043 00:45:46,916 --> 00:45:49,125 like all of those people who are at the 1044 00:45:49,125 --> 00:45:51,750 top of their game have a toolkit and like 1045 00:45:52,208 --> 00:45:54,958 How cool is it that like bit by bit 1046 00:45:54,958 --> 00:45:56,625 episode by episode you and I are gonna 1047 00:45:56,625 --> 00:45:59,000 build our own tool kits We're gonna 1048 00:45:59,000 --> 00:46:01,500 hopefully help and inspire y'all to build 1049 00:46:01,500 --> 00:46:02,958 yours and like we're gonna 1050 00:46:02,958 --> 00:46:04,250 come out of this year like 1051 00:46:05,375 --> 00:46:08,458 different changed like Leveled up we 1052 00:46:08,458 --> 00:46:11,500 can't help it. It's just going to happen. 1053 00:46:11,500 --> 00:46:13,375 I mean that we're gonna force happens 1054 00:46:13,375 --> 00:46:16,208 period. Yeah No, we're going to force you 1055 00:46:16,208 --> 00:46:16,958 we're gonna come into 1056 00:46:16,958 --> 00:46:20,291 your living room This 1057 00:46:20,291 --> 00:46:22,166 has to be a journey that you want to 1058 00:46:22,166 --> 00:46:24,916 partake in but like and and hopefully 1059 00:46:24,916 --> 00:46:26,208 it'll be a dialogue where we can hear 1060 00:46:26,208 --> 00:46:27,583 what? Are in y'all's tool kits 1061 00:46:28,666 --> 00:46:31,125 That's super important to me this year if 1062 00:46:31,125 --> 00:46:34,041 if possible because I become inspired by 1063 00:46:34,041 --> 00:46:35,625 hearing about other people's tool kits 1064 00:46:36,666 --> 00:46:39,875 And also, I love talking and thinking 1065 00:46:39,875 --> 00:46:42,875 about them. Mm-hmm. It actually helps me 1066 00:46:43,416 --> 00:46:46,125 to hear other people's stories and other 1067 00:46:46,125 --> 00:46:48,708 people's Findings and other people's 1068 00:46:48,708 --> 00:46:50,541 challenges. Sometimes you might save me 1069 00:46:50,541 --> 00:46:54,250 time and I because this is our podcast I 1070 00:46:54,250 --> 00:46:57,166 kind of feel like I trust y'all more than 1071 00:46:58,041 --> 00:47:01,708 Just the blanket internet That 1072 00:47:01,708 --> 00:47:03,583 happened in our discord where somebody 1073 00:47:03,583 --> 00:47:04,916 was like, oh, but you could go pull up, 1074 00:47:04,916 --> 00:47:06,333 you know Google reviews I was like, I 1075 00:47:06,333 --> 00:47:08,333 trust anything said in our discord a 1076 00:47:08,333 --> 00:47:10,541 million percent more Oh my god, that I 1077 00:47:10,541 --> 00:47:12,708 trust some five-star review on some 1078 00:47:12,708 --> 00:47:14,541 website If y'all are gonna take the time 1079 00:47:14,541 --> 00:47:16,166 to tell me about it. I'm a thousand 1080 00:47:16,166 --> 00:47:17,625 percent gonna listen to you I'm 1081 00:47:17,625 --> 00:47:20,625 going to I mean we we just had a live 1082 00:47:20,625 --> 00:47:23,291 stream today and It's Valentine's Day as 1083 00:47:23,291 --> 00:47:24,875 we're recording this and we asked people 1084 00:47:24,875 --> 00:47:26,666 for their Valentine's things that they 1085 00:47:26,666 --> 00:47:28,958 would send Their Valentine's which is 1086 00:47:28,958 --> 00:47:30,458 really just favorite people favorite 1087 00:47:30,458 --> 00:47:33,250 podcasts games things that we have never 1088 00:47:33,250 --> 00:47:35,458 heard of and I immediately wrote all of 1089 00:47:35,458 --> 00:47:37,791 them down I've got a whole ton of lists 1090 00:47:37,791 --> 00:47:40,625 now filled with New things that I have to 1091 00:47:40,625 --> 00:47:43,583 check out and that's And I know they're 1092 00:47:43,583 --> 00:47:45,291 gonna be good and they're in their own 1093 00:47:45,291 --> 00:47:46,375 way because I I trust 1094 00:47:46,375 --> 00:47:47,833 the people's that And 1095 00:47:47,833 --> 00:47:50,166 then that also feeds back into this topic 1096 00:47:50,166 --> 00:47:51,708 of like look at all these people focusing 1097 00:47:51,708 --> 00:47:54,541 on the things they love. Mm-hmm That's 1098 00:47:54,541 --> 00:47:57,166 the whole game you guys if Things are 1099 00:47:57,166 --> 00:47:58,666 gonna come into your view that you're not 1100 00:47:58,666 --> 00:48:02,208 gonna say cool What do I love? 1101 00:48:03,000 --> 00:48:03,416 Yeah 1102 00:48:05,166 --> 00:48:09,500 So well you may not I love you 1103 00:48:10,875 --> 00:48:12,958 Let's make it creepy as we 1104 00:48:19,375 --> 00:48:21,958 We're glad we have permission 1105 00:48:21,958 --> 00:48:25,750 toolkits mastery 1106 00:48:27,708 --> 00:48:31,875 More guests more episodes more episodes 1107 00:48:32,208 --> 00:48:35,166 Uh, these are all the things that are 1108 00:48:35,166 --> 00:48:37,958 happening in 20 25 for 1109 00:48:39,208 --> 00:48:39,916 20 1110 00:48:39,916 --> 00:48:46,250 Well, happy episode one thanks for coming 1111 00:48:46,250 --> 00:48:47,458 on our podcast thank you 1112 00:48:48,583 --> 00:48:48,791 Podcast. 1113 00:48:48,791 --> 00:48:52,500 Thank you. That's what you know, that 1114 00:48:52,500 --> 00:48:54,583 that is a good new way to end this. Yeah 1115 00:48:54,833 --> 00:48:56,666 Thank you all for coming on our podcast. 1116 00:48:56,666 --> 00:48:58,750 Yeah, it doesn't make a lick of sense, 1117 00:48:58,750 --> 00:49:00,583 but you're right here, but we know 1118 00:49:18,083 --> 00:49:20,458 even forADHd20 is a creation from the 1119 00:49:20,458 --> 00:49:23,000 pocket dimension a multiverse where we 1120 00:49:23,000 --> 00:49:26,666 explore Neurospice rolling dice and so 1121 00:49:26,666 --> 00:49:29,000 much more come chat with us in our 1122 00:49:29,000 --> 00:49:31,416 discord server open to all the join link 1123 00:49:31,416 --> 00:49:32,458 is in our Show notes 1124 00:49:32,458 --> 00:49:35,083 ready to level up your support check out 1125 00:49:35,083 --> 00:49:37,166 the pocket dimensions patreon where you 1126 00:49:37,166 --> 00:49:39,291 can get access to bonus content Be the 1127 00:49:39,291 --> 00:49:41,875 first to hear new episodes and even play 1128 00:49:42,375 --> 00:49:43,958 TTRPGs with us and our friends 1129 00:49:43,958 --> 00:49:46,041 the best way you can help us though It's 1130 00:49:46,041 --> 00:49:48,791 just a share the gift ofADHd20 with the 1131 00:49:48,791 --> 00:49:50,458 people that you think will like it. 1132 00:49:50,458 --> 00:49:53,000 We love that you're here Thank you for 1133 00:49:53,000 --> 00:49:55,000 entering the pocket dimension