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Hannah Hello everybody and welcome to SM
club I'm Hannah and I'm
Chelsea and this is the podcast where we
occasionally daydrink sometimes not and
we talk about the Trashy romance novels
that we
read less trashy yeah sometimes
sometimes they're classy romance how we
made it to classy not today
I mean you're like literally not at all
let's set expectations up front I I
wouldn't call it that yeah what what
book are we reviewing today today it's
called Sacrifice by Addison Jane it is a
motorcycle club romance o our first MC
so our last episode was our first Omega
verse and this is our first MC look at
us MC making big moves into new
universes I love that for us yeah it's a
sign of
growth what are we growing
into it doesn't matter it doesn't we're
just continuing to grow we're not being
stagnant we're pushing ourselves we
aren't we read these books anyway we
just haven't outlined them
yet so this wait did you say Addison
Jane or James Jane because I'm pretty
sure there's an Addison James that I've
read as well just feels like a yeah this
is Addison Jane got it yeah two first
seemes um so I have been wanting to do a
motorcycle club for a while but the
issue is that they have so many Side
characters and so much other stuff going
on that it's really really difficult to
get a good outline well cuz I feel like
we've talked about this before every MC
book I've read it is like setting up the
universe for the rest of the books
within their Motorcycle Club and it's so
much yeah and I'm like I am having to
learn like 50 people's names in this
first book yeah this isn't fun so this
one I thought would be good to do
because it's less like that it's less
about the club um the club obviously is
important but it's it's more about the
relationship than it is about the club
itself which is helpful um so in the
prologue we open with Hawk which is our
main guy oh that's funny two episodes in
a row with a hawk with a hawk does yours
have an e on the end of it no oh okay
yeah so mine was a little fancier with
the E I just said it wasn't
classy did I stutter
Chelsea I thought I said the
expectations of this book
appropriately Hawk with no e talk with
no e okay so I won't make that mistake
again
so when I started this
book I'm just going to get into it so
you can experience it the way I
experienced it Hawk is being dragged to
the front of a church by his dad how old
is
he
14 okay uh
is I think it's not super clear he's a
kid though yeah and um in front of an
entire congregation the church is full
all the pews are full his dad is
dragging him to the front and my notes
say some kind of cult situation he's the
14th child of
37 and his dad has seven
wives oh so we learn this from Hawk's
internal dialogue as his dad is like
hauling him in front of their whole
Community to the front of the
church is there anyone in their
Community outside of his siblings I've
been to churches that cannot seat that
many people so it appears to be a large
community got it yeah yeah but God damn
and the whole congregation is just
watching him be dragged to the pulpit
and there's this huge box that's like
covered by a
sheet and the prophet tells him that he
has to be punished for questioning their
teachings this might be a is the prophet
his dad or is the prophet a separate
person the prophet's a separate person
so his dad is like delivering him to the
prophet for punishment for punishment
and
um Hawk realizes his younger brother who
is younger by a negligible amount they
might as well be twins kind of deal
betrayed him because Hawk had been
questioning the church's teachings and
was talking to his brother about it and
his brother turned around and told the
elders so they reveal that the box is
full of snakes full of like very
poisonous
snakes and the test is that they
intentionally make the snakes bite you
and if you die then you were a sinner
and irredeemable but if you live
then God Has Smiled upon you or whatever
why does this feel like it's bringing up
Church [ __ ] for me in a way that I like
wasn't like when you told me you're like
I'm going to like outline this like MC
cult book I was like okay sounds good
and now I'm like oh wow we're really
getting into um it's dark yeah yeah it's
dark because Hawk Hawk has seen this
happen before this is not a thing that
happens all the time but it happens
regularly enough that he has seen it
before and he has never seen someone
survive it so like like the whole church
just watches people die when they step
out of line and the prophet is unhappy
and then they're like well I guess since
they died they had it coming yep
basically God just didn't like that one
so Hawk is like okay how I like no
emotionally going into it is the whole
book this dark no okay mm I was like
it's fine either way I just need to know
what we're stepping into so it like
you'll see but no it it does get lighter
um but and then darker as motorcycle
romances often do yes but um he is kind
of resigning himself to the fact that
he's going to die all these men are
bigger than him holding him down he
knows that like this is it and as he
gets bitten the doors of the church like
fly
open and um a bunch of men in leather
vests show up and one of them picks him
up and Carries him out of the church as
he is like dying he's like feels like
he's on fire because he's already been
bitten so that's the end of the
prologue what a start I know wow I was
like I didn't know that this motorcycle
romance was going to bring about
religious trauma triggers for me but
here we are or our listeners and we
apologize sorry I'm so sorry we didn't
know it was going to bring stuff up for
us either so it's we're just going to be
on a journey all together all together
yeah so now we're in chapter one and
Hawk is getting home from Sunday lunch
with his Club um his cousin always Cooks
um and uh his uncle Bishop is the one
who rescued him and took him in after
the whole incident with the church and
we find out later I'm just going to go
ahead and give it cuz it was really
confusing Bishop is his biological Uncle
so Bishop also grew up in the cult and
ran away when he was a teenager but
always stayed kind of
nearby for his nieces and nephews and
someone warned him what was happening
and so he showed up to rescue Hawk thank
you for connecting those dots before I
tried to connect them myself and failed
you're welcome okay so actual Uncle yes
and he essentially raised him after that
so um Hawk is the vice president of the
club um and they are currently opening a
sports bar they're very much into like
expanding their business interests and
making sure that the club is stable and
doing well financially it also seems
like real businesses yes they are legit
they are like legit okay yeah they're
legit um so his cousin tells him um like
there's some guys out back that are
making me kind of uncomfortable so this
is a standing Sunday lunch that the
whole club comes to okay and his cousin
cie is a a real sweetheart and she's
like something something's not right
with these guys um and it turns out that
they are the new security for the bar
like they're the bouncers that his uncle
has hired for the
bar and his uncle is like listen he's
going to be real easy to manage cuz he
is [ __ ] stupid so like he's huge and
he's intimidating but he's not all that
smart so like wait who's not all that
the the new muscle for the bar the
bouncer all all of the new the bouncers
how many are there three I think but one
is really the only one that matters okay
um and so um
he's like Hawk's like you know what this
is not my problem like I'm just leaving
it alone right as long as he stays away
from my cousin and doesn't like hurt
anybody it's not my problem okay and he
starts kind of walking away and then a
prospect which for anybody who's not
read a motorcycle romance prospects are
like the pledges of the club for like a
year or so to prove themselves paying
their dues to try and get full
membership exactly so a prospect comes
out and he's like hey uh Hawk you might
want to come out front my friend like
there's trouble and Hawk's like what now
like I literally I'm just trying to mind
my own business like what now so now we
switch to Missy's point of
view so Missy is real pissed like
righteously pissed off off and she is
fully aware that marching up to a bunch
of bikers is a very bad idea but she's
like I am doing it anyway because that's
how angry I
am and she sees the guy that she's
looking for and she tells him to stay
away from her family and if he ever
comes near them again she will [ __ ] him
up and then she pulls out a bat and
beats the [ __ ] out of him like to the
ground
um like takes out his knee like off the
rip and all the bikers pull guns on
her and um she knows she's like okay so
um message has been delivered it's time
for me to go she's like I've done what I
needed to do okay sorry I just want to
make sure I'm fully
so how old is Hawk now how many years
has this been it's like 20 I think so
he's like in his early 30s oh okay he's
not 20 where it's been 6 years it has
been 20 where he is now in his like
early 30s his cousin is cie yes cie said
that the new security people made her
feel a little weird and he was like he
seems like an idiot but we'll we'll be
fine but then as that's happening
someone also comes and gets Hawk and is
like you need to get your ass out front
and we switch to Missy who is out front
and why Hawk needs to get there because
she's beating
one of the motorcycle club members with
a bat telling him to stay the [ __ ] away
from her family correct and now everyone
has pulled guns on her and she's like
okay so like now's a good time for me to
leave so I've done what I needed to do
want to overstand my welcome yes you get
it you're tracking okay um because
that's that was the energy of this book
from the start where I was like what
because so much just happens and then
the context is filled in later and so
it's a lot to keep track of
it is um but still less somehow than
most other other motorcycle romances
that I've read so um she's like okay um
so now you know do not come near my
daughter again I've enjoyed this time
we've had together have a great day or
don't and like starts to
leave um because apparently the guy that
she beat up beat the [ __ ] out of her
ex while her her four-year-old daughter
was there like in front of her dad he
like this motorcycle club member showed
up and beat the [ __ ] out of him and
she's like frankly I don't care why my
ex is a piece of [ __ ] yeah he had it
coming don't do it in front of my kid
right she's like I'm absolutely sure
that he deserved it yeah but my daughter
didn't need to see that that's not
acceptable totally fair yeah totally
fair um so uh she goes to leave
when another guy shows up and says to
take the guy who's now rolling around on
the ground in pain like drag him away um
and um the guy is super hot it's Hawk
he's super hot and she's
like try not to focus on that cuz she's
like I literally just beat up a member
of his Club I need to go like how old is
she um I think she's like 20 2
24 oh yeah so substant substantially
younger than ha he is so it's not super
clear how many years have passed since
this whole incident happened but he is
at least in his late 20s so they have I
would say between five and 10 years
difference I was more thinking of her
being a mother of a four-year-old at 22
and more of like that like oh okay MH so
that's the other thing about this B is
there are little moments where it's like
oh that's going to come back and it
never does you know that that saying um
I can't remember the quote who said it
but it's like if a gun shows up in act
one it will go off by act three that is
not true for this
book like the gun never goes
off well now I know you're like as I'm
emotionally preparing for all of it and
you're like it's just not going to
happen Chelsea right it's fine and so
yeah anyway so um he starts following
her down the
driveway um and saying that he will
reinforce the message that absolutely
that should not have happened that you
know they don't do stuff like that in
front of women and children like he will
make sure that that's
understood
um and she says well good because if it
happens again I won't be bringing a bat
next time like I'm not [ __ ] around
right now and um he calls her baby and
promises that um so what percent of the
way through the book are we where the
first baby showed up like halfway
through the second chapter really like
real quick 2% of the way through the
book that might be it might be a record
a record yeah um and he's like listen
baby if he pulls [ __ ] like that again
he'll be lunch for the fishes and she
says um if you call me baby again the
fish will also have dinner and gets in
her car and drives
away that is Miss's energy she's not
here for it she's not interested I'm a
fan of Missy at this point Miss's
like I don't care that you're good-look
I have larger things in my life that I'm
concerned about and worried about like
this is not worth it I have [ __ ] to do
and you aren't on the list like get out
of my
face bold move calling someone baby the
yes although I guess to his credit did
she ever say her name was Missy no he
has no idea who she is he had to call
her something sure could could have been
a lot worse than baby that's also
true that is also true even though she
just beat the [ __ ] out of someone it
could have been a lot worse than baby
it's also true um so we flash back to
Hawk he is collecting a debt for the
third time so their motorcycle club is
not fully legit but they are mostly
legit and one of the ways they make
money is by buying debt from other
people and then collecting it but not
from like
major obviously Banks or anything but
from
local businesses they will buy debt I've
never heard of a debt collector in that
capacity before mhm mhm fascinating
business model do you still get a
discount
are you buying it for pennies on the
dollar I don't really know I have a lot
of questions I don't they did not go
into the business model but what does
happen they don't they don't seem to I'm
already getting the energy they are not
concerned about most of my questions
they're not they're not they're they
have other things they're worried about
like trying to get this guy to [ __ ]
pay for the third time and the guy um is
like you can have my girlfriend though
like I don't have any cash but you can
have my girlfriend and Hawk is so done
he just shoots the guy a lot and is like
I've had enough like
nope so that's the end of that hog say I
don't collect women and children
[ __ ] as he just like leaves with
holes yeah basically I have a moral
compass there's a
line and I think we just learned what
hawks is and H and I have different
lines yeah yeah and you
know I'm not going to comment on Hawk's
line it is his right um everyone is
allowed to have their own true north
correct yeah yes so the guy that got the
[ __ ] beat out of him by Missy is with
him and he's limping um and um his name
is Drew and he says that Missy has grown
up a lot and Hawk is like
I got a name like
yes and Drew goes on and on explaining
that like her ex is a piece of [ __ ] and
she would work like two or three jobs at
a time even while she was pregnant while
he just cheated on her all over
town and um he's like a big talker cuz
he just keeps going and says that she
currently uh is a stripper at a club
called The Rush
um so very convenient for Hawk who
wanted to just had a lot of questions
and Intrigue about his girl Missy very
much and Drew's just like unprompted
here you go buddy here's everything you
ever needed to know including her social
security number sh allow me to share and
my notes literally say Hawk now has
plans for the
evening
so so we're back to miss she is flipping
out because her baby daddy she's pretty
sure stole her daughter's epip pen and
sold it um and she needs to replace it
but she is short on the money for it um
her
daughter um Katie is allergic to eggs
and it's really really bad and so she
has to have an epip pen like at all
times and um her daughter is currently
sleeping in the dressing room of the
club um as she talks to her best friend
about the
situation and bestie whose name is Jim
wants Missy to ask the other girls for
money she's like just ask everybody for
like a cool 20 or whatever and you can
cover it like I know it's expensive but
we want to be able to help you and Missy
just won't do it and she knows she's
going to have to ask her boss for money
um which generally means she's going to
have to give him a blowy or something to
like get the money that she needs but
her kid is the priority so she's like
I'll just do I I'll do what I have to do
at this point like if it's a [ __ ] for
an epip pin it's a [ __ ] for an epip
pin and that's what I have to do 100%
which is tragic it's horrible but also
like the reality for a lot of people you
know so she is especially with like the
current UHC situation
dude that is
wild [ __ ] insane and that the fact
that it's like not getting more coverage
I know that's the part that's blowing my
mind I'm like the number of
disfranchised people who cannot afford
life and like a post that I saw was even
commenting that they were like yeah I
run like essentially a halfway house
like a recovery house that is Insurance
run and they're like I'm not getting
paid rent MH like and I'm paying
mortgages on they owned like 20 plus
houses yep and like that hadn't even
dawned on me mm it is and there like no
one is talking about it I mean some
people are but like not nearly as much
as you would anticipate people talking
about it yeah I
mean I could get on an entire Soap Box
about the state of our healthc care in
the United States and I won't but yes
you're correct it's all a hot shitty
mess and I sincer really doubt that the
rush is giving missy good benefits so
she's doing what she can you
know I
mean they're not doing a 3% 401K match
no I don't I I don't think so I don't
think they are probably at the fuzzy
hole
though at the strip club called
beef um so
when she gets to the office there are
men in there and they're from the MC and
she's like oh [ __ ] maybe they changed
their mind
about like oops um but Hawk is
introduced and
um she's like basically ignoring all the
men in the room and focused on her boss
and asking him for a a a what is it an
advance or whatever
um and Hawk as she's asking interrupts
and he's like I'll hire you and one
other for a party that we're paying or
that we're throwing next week I'll pay
you up front um and she's
like
deal it does not seem like a hard sell
for her in this season and that feels
like a very easy yeah in for him and he
offers her like double what she needed
and so she's like good deal thank you um
and he's also thinking he got a good
deal everybody's winning win-wins all
around um and so
um he uh is very much like uh
domineering and like giving her orders
about like this is what you're going to
do and this is what it's going to be and
this blah blah blah um and she usually
doesn't like it when men speak to her
that way but she's into it bossy she's
into it and it freaks her out a little
bit she's
like um and um so he pays her up front
and like that is huge for her like that
makes a huge difference for her so she's
already feeling a lot less stress about
everything um so the next day Hawk is at
the park and his twin sister who is
still in the cult meets up with him
there every other week so they have like
a standing date because they can't
really talk um but they meet up every
single every other week um to check in
with each other you really feel like
someone would have caught on if it's
supposed to be well it seems like they
know it it seems like the cult is aware
of what she's doing okay but it's not
it's more like we're just not going to
acknowledge it kind of
thing um so she is pregnant again
with twins this time so she already has
I think three or four kids I mean it's a
lot it's a lot happening and the cult
believes that their savior will be born
with a cross birth mark so they are
popping out as many kids as possible
trying to find the
one and Hawk is really concerned because
the cult believes that twins are born
cursed like they bad luck because one
gets all the sin and one gets all the
goodness so Grace got all the goodness
and he got all the sin
mhm and um Grace is his sister and she's
like listen I know that you will protect
them if they need it like I know who to
call if something goes wrong they're
going to be okay it's like she lives in
the cult but she knows but understands
her reality yes okay yeah at this point
she's unwilling to leave her
children um and she does care very much
about her husband even though it's a it
was an arranged marriage situation she
cares about him and she loves her kids
and so she's like I'm I'm going to be
where I am and I've accepted that so as
they're talking they hear a man like
screaming at somebody just like
obscenities and just like super
aggressive sorry we're we're still at
the strip club right no we're at the
park where he was meeting his sister yep
sorry I I was like I missed something
and I felt like it was on me and it
was you're right a lot we switched we
switched entirely and I'm still stuck at
the strip club and him and Missy are
talking even though we've had a full ass
conversation about Grace at this point I
am
thriving there are a lot of scene
changes in fairness to you there are a
lot of scene changes I felt that way um
when we just reviewed I think not like
there are so many characters and you're
like trying to like keep everyone's
perspective that you're just like oh my
gosh where did we just end up yes and it
also always throws me when you can like
change perspect like change to three
different people's points of view and
still be in the same scene yes I think
that can be a little trippy especially
when like trying to outline or review a
book yeah I just read this one is still
just on me well a little
but also I just read a book where they
did this thing where like you had one
perspective the whole way through the
scene and then you started the next
chapter and it was a different
perspective but the same scene and so
you were like back in time again and it
was like
ah like I don't I don't know what's
happening yeah and I feel like some
people do that where they're just like
oh clarifying whatever little like
whatever moment and then moving on yes
yeah it's always a little trippy though
it is trippy all right so now there's
shouting and screaming shouting and
screaming at the park okay and when they
look over it's a guy getting in Missy's
face like Missy is at the playground
with her daughter and this guy is like
standing over her screaming saying that
he's going to take Katie away from
her um and like if you ever try this
[ __ ] again or whatever we have no idea
what any of that means but um hot Go's
[ __ ] bananas and pulls the guy away
from her and then he realizes that it is
her baby
daddy so um Missy gets between them and
is like Hawk you got to stop my daughter
is here you have to stop right um there
are children present we are at a public
playground right now simmer yes so um
the uh Baby Daddy finally leaves after
Hawk makes several threats and then
Katie is introduced to Hawk and she's
super cute like she has in little
pigtails and like she's just very very
cute and Grace comes over to play with
Katie while Hawk and Missy talk and
Missy is in tears saying that this
happens all the time where like Katie's
dad just becomes very verbally abusive
towards her um and he Hawk like pulls
her into a hug and they have a little
moment um but she pulls back and very
obviously like turns away from him to
check on Katie like it's very obvious
that Hawk is cute she enjoys his company
but ultimately like her daughter is way
far and above more important obviously
than this dude it should be right than
this dude and he he actually like kind
of likes that that she is not so like
vapid and like fixated on like a man you
know mhm
um so she like wow she cared about her
kid more than my dick priorities what a
beautiful angel amazing you're like
feels like the bar might be a little low
you know what's amazing though this
might be the first time we've had a bar
set so low for a
woman you
know usually it's the
man
a we are we are making all kinds of
growth and progress today oh my God I
love this for us the bar was so low for
a woman congrats to
us
equality um
so we flash forward to the
weekend and Missy is working the party
for the club they're celebrating the
opening of the new
bar so there's a lot of mix of people
there there's a lot of the members but
also employees and other people that
they've invited to this party and she is
only responsible for serving drinks and
she is loving she's not dancing she's
not dancing she's just serving drinks
with her best friend gem well honestly
the funny thing is I was literally just
sitting here thinking like I feel like
Hawk is surprisingly chill having the
girles into dance for the other dudes in
the club so they are dancing but they're
not stripping so like they're basically
serving drinks and hyping the crowd and
that's all they're doing oh right what a
breeze Easy Money the easiest of money
yeah yeah um you're like cool you're a
shot girl
basically um so um everybody has been
really great super respectful like she
was a little bit nervous about being
around an MC obviously also when that
the last time she was there she she beat
the [ __ ] out of somebody beat someone
yeah yeah like I get where maybe you're
like oop okay driveing back wonder how
this is going to
go I'll leave my bat in the
car um so
um uh like I said jeem is with her
everybody's super respectful of her as
well like it's a very like positive
energy and as the night goes on Hawk is
very obviously watching her and he makes
some moves and tells her to meet him
later she's like I'm working and he's
like you're going to meet me later thank
you and um he continues to insist on
calling her baby um and he says we knew
that wasn't going anywhere I think like
in our hearts if we were honest with
ourselves we knew knew so she asks like
why do you keep calling me that and he
says because nobody puts you in a corner
and
so so she starts calling him
swayy oh gosh ironically and he doesn't
appreciate it so she continues to do
it
um so she leaves him I don't even know
what I would say if my husband ever
called me baby and said it was cuz
nobody put me in the
corner
like I don't know why that's striking me
so hard I would be like are you going to
do the
lift
because that's the only reason Ryan
Gosling and Crazy Stupid Love where she
like what's your move I do the
lift yes take him home I make him a
drink I fit Dirty Dancing into the
conversation I do the do the
lift literally the only reason to say
any comment about somebody putting me in
a corner but
anyway um so unless you're also quoting
panic at the
disc we just ran a whole gamut we really
of Pop Culture you're welcome yeah
that's why the people show up obviously
um give the people what they
want slightly not fully fleshed out pop
culture
references I am curious sometimes about
how many people catch all of them and
how many are like I I don't and then we
go so fast to the next one that they're
like oh I got that one and like you know
yeah I feel the same
uh like as you know Golden Girls very
near and dear to my heart but it's so
funny CU I've loved the show since I was
literally an elementary school and there
are so many jokes you don't catch when
you were in elementary school with a
show like that but what was also funny
is I was watching it just had it on in
the background when my parents were in
town and my dad started laughing at a
joke and he's like do you get why that
joke was funny and I was like I don't
even know who that was and it was this
like very specific political sit
situation from like
1990 that I was like yeah like NE didn't
even dawn on me like heard the laugh
track and just kind of like moved on and
my dad like do you get why that was
funny I was like
nope watched the show for 30
years still have no idea why that joke
was funny I can still get joy from the
show and not get every joke yes 1,000%
yes of course I mean the exact same way
they fit adult jokes into like kids
movies the first time I realized
watching cars that they flashed their
headlights yep I was Ill
prepared I was like oh cars is edgier
than I thought
edgier yeah Shrek is another one that
had a lot more
like dirty jokes in it that I was ready
for yeah the number of kids things that
we could just rewatch and be like wow
missed that joke oh and then the number
of adult things we could also watch that
well no wonder I missed that joke right
good thing I missed that joke yeah
probably better that I didn't get
it yes my innocence was somewhat
protected up until that point um but
anyway so she leaves Hawk Missy leaves
Hawk and goes out to continue working
the party does she agree to meet him
later or is he just continuing to tell
her she will she's continuing to tell
her that she will and she knows that
she's going to but don't think she like
tells him she's like yeah right so um
there's this guy out there that's being
like a real douchebag to her and he's
the only one that's given her trouble
all night and he's is it the one she
beat up no oh okay he's actually quite
sweet to her he's like my bad Missy you
were right I'm really sorry I shouldn't
have done that in front of your daughter
yeah why don't I get you a drink yeah
he's like I really should have waited
until Katie was back with you and then I
should have
be so H say 2020 I'm so sorry I'll do
better next time never happen again um
but apparently like and she goes into
this like later but um apparently the
guy she beat up and her ex were super
tight friends she has no idea what
happened she has no idea why they fell
out and we never know but apparently
they were like Diehard besties and then
Drew just beat the [ __ ] out of him one
day and they were no longer friends wait
what I didn't even put it in my notes
cuz it wasn't relevant to the story but
that's like does Drew have his own book
in the future I don't know I don't know
CU I do wonder if some of the questions
would get answered in future books you I
don't know okay and we'll get to why I
don't know because there's a reason why
I'm really like I don't know that it
will ever will'll ever get answer um but
so she this guy who's being a dick
smacks her ass hard like not like a a
gentle like baseball Pat but like hits
her hard um and she tries to ignore it
she's been working in strip clubs for a
long time she's like I know how to
handle this so she tries to ignore it
but he grabs at her again and starts
blowing smoke in her face cuz he's
smoking and um she pops off at the mouth
a little bit basically telling him off
and um he goes to grab like between her
legs and burns her with a cigarette cuz
he does it with the hand that is holding
a
smoke Burns her bad and a whole struggle
ensues and Hawk shows up with some of
the other guys and at this point no one
realizes that she's been burned right
her wrist is very clearly [ __ ] up from
where he grabbed her really hard um but
they don't realize the full extent of no
they don't realize that she's actually
like genuinely really hurt and so they
one of the other guys like holds her
back and Hawk just beats the [ __ ] out of
this guy um and Missy is freaking out
and um so we sh Hawk's perspective he is
livid and this is the guy that had
creeped out cie his cousin it's that guy
the dude who's supposed to be the
bouncer bartender uhhuh who's supposed
to be keeping everyone safe
uhuh well that's a a I I don't think he
understands the job assignment he
doesn't get it he doesn't get it so Hawk
fires him and rightfully so um the guy
is like starts laughing and Missy is
clearly panicking because this man is
unhinged and like Hawks firing him
because of her and she's like holy [ __ ]
like I did not mean to do all that like
oh [ __ ] you didn't Missy she didn't this
is the consequence of his own actions
and choices he needs to take
accountability and ownership for his
behavior his portion of this this is not
on you mhm so um
Bishop who is the president and Hawk's
biological Uncle shows up and he's like
what the [ __ ] is happening like what is
going on right now and
um the I had actually just been
wondering where Bishop the head of all
of this was he just showed up that yeah
I was like showed up like literally 5
minutes ago I was like I I really feels
like like Bishop I was like whatever
what's his nuts should be here I did not
remember that his name was Bishop was
going to be impressed if you had cuz I
forgot about him until I just saw his
name in my notes well when his name was
Bishop earlier I assumed he was still
part of the
cult like it felt like he showed up to
the church like I was like okay I see
where we're going with it so he has a
hat
like yeah I was like yeah and then
you're like and he left I'm like oh
that's really not where I he's the
president of the motorcycle club I was
like but his name is
Bishop I was not prepared we're just
keeping you on your toes really so
Bishop has finally shown up in this
scenario and the guy is still like
laughing that Hawk would try to fire
him and um the bishop and Hawk kind of
like connect eyes and um confirming that
Hawk is in fact firing this guy like I'm
doubling down on this decision and the
guy loses his [ __ ] when they tell him
like you are for real fired okay so the
guy was laughing because he's like you
don't even have the authority to do this
sort of energy then Bishop showed up and
the guy was like haha look I'm about to
keep my job and then Hawk and Bishop
made some eye contact and then Bishop's
like oh no this is for real bro you're
out and then the guy was like oh [ __ ]
I'm actually fired yeah and he's like I
loved it it was really good and so the
the guy is like we have a [ __ ]
contract you can't do this so Hawk the
everloving [ __ ] out of him I thought he
already did that he hit him a little bit
but then he like really got him and he
sends Missy inside to his room like he
hands her off to one of the brothers and
is like please take her like up to my
room obviously she's not okay but they
still don't realize that she is really
hurt so um the uh this the dumbass goes
off again calling Missy a [ __ ] he's
like so you're going to fire me over
some [ __ ] you're in violation of
contract blah blah blah blah blah so
Hawk shoots him in the hand he's like
that's the one you touched her with
right get off my
property and that's the end of
that so the guy leaves like his buddies
the guy doesn't want to leave but his
buddies like pick him up and like
like own that you've lost bro like you
are not going to come back from this
next one's going in your head bro like I
don't feel good about this we should
leave so Bishop tells B move to
physically assault someone and then tell
another person you're in violation of
contract
right like but what about our contract
what I thought I could like sexually
assault whoever I
wanted a contract that wasn't clearly
written
I don't recall that in the conduct
Clause you aren't holding up your end of
this bargain we have a signed agreement
I'm like wait what the
[ __ ] yeah mhm okay he's an idiot yeah so
um Bishop is like so it is now your
responsibility to find new security for
the bar before it opens next week and
then he asks Hawk he's like
so you realize like she's your girl now
right and Hawk's
like um Bishop's like just just go check
on her like just go did Hawk not realize
that or he knew that he was into her and
definitely like wanted to bang her he
just shot a man in the intrigued by her
but I don't think he fully connected
like had her sent to his room at the
club yeah that is a statement in itself
it is which Bishop picked up on and Hawk
was like
oh you realize you just made some
declarations right and Hawk is like had
no idea man I see it now now that you
mention it so we're back to Missy she is
really not doing well she is in a lot of
pain and she knows that she needs to
clean the burns on her leg um but taking
her shorts off is really gonna suck so
she's like trying to psych herself up
so haot comes in and he sees the burn
and so he calls the like medic nurse the
do they have yeah to come check on her
and um he gets her into a bath in like
lukewarm water and he just holds her
while she cries um and she is really
frustrated that she keeps crying around
him she's like this is not a thing that
I do and I hate it I don't like it
um but he takes really sweet care of her
the doc shows up and gets her all
patched up um and uh Hawk then takes her
home to her home yeah and um Missy
reminds herself that this is all just
adrenaline at this point um he's not
actually like taking care of her he
doesn't owe her anything he just feels
bad that he hired her for this and she
got hurt and he's just making sure that
she's okay there's nothing like going on
cuz she's feeling very vulnerable so his
Bishop has finally been like hey Hawk
you realized the Declarations you just
made right and Hawk's like [ __ ] I guess
I did just make some declarations Miss's
like nah there are no declarations this
is all adrenaline 100% um so we're back
to Hawk and he wakes up to somebody
banging on the door and Missy is as
sleep on his chest so she thought that
he was going to leave like just drop her
off at home and he never had any
intention of doing that so she fell
asleep on his chest and he the night
made sure she was okay mhm so he answers
the door to find Katie with some old
woman who had apparently been watching
her the night before and um the old lady
clearly does not want to leave Katie
with him um but Katie recognizes him
from the park and is super excited to
see him and the old lady makes several
threats and old lady have a name I don't
remember it's like Ms something one of
those yeah um and she's like I'll be
checking in later I will ruin your life
like listen I love how protective
everyone is of Katie yes she is the
priority for literally
everyone um which becomes even more
apparent later um but he gets breakfast
for Katie and she's just super cute and
really chatty um and she asks why Missy
is still asleep and he's like
uh I don't know the rules of what you're
supposed to tell a child she worked late
that is the answer Hawk it's not
hard but he's never been around a child
this low hanging fruit he has never been
around a child and he's like ah oh [ __ ]
me like why is Mommy still sleeping well
because someone sexually assaulted her
last night and burned her with a
cigarette she had a long night she's
she's resting and will be up in the like
he's like he's like
um he she hurt her leg and so she's
resting and it's like um Bert crer stand
up when he's talking about
Santa and Jesus
yes oh Jesus's brother
Santa yeah gives a present every year to
the people who didn't kill his
brother however it like play but
like he's like yeah and then like the
Jews like it was this whole and his wife
was in like what the [ __ ] this is how
you're describing Santa to the kids like
that's what it feels like right now like
it could have been that it could have
been so simple why do mommy asleep oh
Jesus's brother Santa you're like no it
didn't we didn't have to go that deep
need to to be there but then
like so the kid immediately is asks if
her dad did it she's like did daddy hurt
mommy oh damn and so um that's not great
Hawk like starts to panic a little bit
but then Katie goes on to say that he's
never physically hurt her but he makes
her cry a lot and um she is super cute
and she's like and finds her very
endearing wants to keep her safe very
much so um but she says that she tells
her daddy not to be mean to her and her
mommy but he doesn't listen and Hawk is
like I am [ __ ] like well that's it for
me like well like gu I may as well make
myself a set of keys to this place
basically he's like I'm never leaving
like damn it um so uh Bishop calls him
and says he's coming by to drop off some
contracts and we don't know what these
contracts are but Hawk knows that it's
probably going to piss Missy off but
he's just going to do it
anyway we don't know what that means
so Missy wakes up in a panic cuz she
realizes it's after 11:00 and the sitter
was supposed to drop Katie off at
7 and she's like oh Jesus Christ I would
do the exact
same so she's having a lot of trouble
standing um when Hawk suddenly storms in
and picks her up and he's like what are
you doing and she was like
um what what are you doing
like what um and he's like
she's like I can't believe that you you
stayed here
like what wait she didn't realized he
stayed there she fell asleep on his
chest well they also gave her some pain
meds apparently cuz she was really hurt
so like I think she was like out of it
um but Hawk's like quit comparing me to
other men and she's like what is
happening she's like I'm not comparing
you to anyone I woke up 4 hours after my
daughter was supposed to get back where
is my kid and why are you here and
injured and want to know where my
daughter is don't compare me to other
men yeah it I wasn't he he can't read a
room he he he can't read a room yeah at
any he's really not having great
understanding of social cues he doesn't
have good Insight no to his credit
though he was raised in the cult where I
imagine that's a good point a cult and
then a motorcycle club so there's
like you know standard social norms
maybe we not his
thing yeah yeah that's a good point I'm
going to give him credit for that
because I need I need to give him credit
for that yeah because I'm if I don't
give him credit for that I'm just like
what the
[ __ ] which again don't compare me to
other men I'm really not I'm just trying
to get it where's my kid where's my kid
I just want to know what's happening so
then he kisses the hell out of her of um
but then she starts to reciprocate and
he stops her and he says that um he
really wants more of her but her
daughter has been waiting for her and
like she needs to go check on her and
eat something you know taking good care
of her so Missy comes out and Katie is
playing Go Fish with two massive bikers
and having a great time um they keep
pretending to be really upset that she's
beating them and it's just very cute and
super endearing that these massive men
are like dang it
like very cute Hawk's like don't worry
Katie's perfectly
safe with some bikers was like trying to
think like biker name that sound really
like she's with Scar and Terror like
yeah for some reason I was going to say
Tony one had the scary name one was just
the dude in the
club with
Drew and switchblade yeah with Drew a
Nash over there
exactly yeah but that is super cute it
was a very cute moment so
um Missy like doesn't know what to do
with herself cuz she realizes that Hawk
has taken care of everything like the
kid is fed everybody's fine she's a
single mom who is always used to having
to do everything and being like Oh wait
every everyone has their needs met
everything has been taken care of
exactly and she goes to try to call her
boss and hawk is like hey I already
called your boss um um and said that you
won't be in because of your injury and
she starts to panic about she's like
okay so I only have this much and I need
this much and how am I going to do that
and
d and um Hawk is like are you done
panicking now have you have you gone
through that um we want to hire you at
the new bar at the new sports bar you
did a great job at the party um and we
would like to hire you to help us manage
the new
bar um and that's what the contracts
were like he just decided they were
going to hire her and just went ahead
and called the strip club and was like
Missy is not coming back like well okay
I was just being like Oh giving Hawk all
this credit and then you said that he
called her job and quit on her behalf
well he said she wouldn't be in for the
rest of the week but he was like in his
head hoping yeah okay I feel better
about that yeah all the
contracts he's like here's your employee
agreement [ __ ] hey there is a
non-compete there is a non-compete I
don't actually know they didn't go into
for the other sports bar down the road
she would just go back to to stripping
probably what was it called rush rush
the rush I was about to call it the
fuzzy hole and I was like that's really
not the name it's just I almost called
it the flush the FL that's different
it's different yeah different energy at
that club um so um she is feeling much
more hopeful that this is like her way
out of the way she's been living um but
she says that she needs to think about
it she's like doing a little hard to get
moment so then she's at the park in the
bat in cages and she's thinking about
the day that her dad threw her out of
the house um he is a politician and
couldn't stand the idea of a teen
pregnancy in his family um and her mom
okay but I will pause though and say
that is our answer we did cuz I was like
okay so she's like a very very young mom
so we do get an answer to the context
and how we all like just kind of that
backstory cuz I feel like when you hear
you're like oh she's like a 22-year-old
mom of a
4-year-old this makes some stuff
happened I'm glad that we have this I
know there are probably more
questions there really
are but um her dad basically said I
can't have a teen pregnancy in my
home it's not great for my campaign
exactly mom was basically drunk all the
time and didn't stand up for her and so
that was it like she was on the street
basically on her own um and that's why
she was working two or three jobs and
having to live with with this [ __ ]
piece of [ __ ] baby daddy because she
didn't have any other
options so um she's thinking about all
of this while she's in the batting cages
at the park and she comes out and she
finds Hawk's sister Grace there and
Grace tells her that um she thinks Missy
is really good for Hawk um and she's
glad that he is opening himself up to
love and Missy is like
um he's my new boss what are you talking
about love is a big word but okay like
we've kissed once she's like I'm not
going to argue with this Little House on
the Prairie moment here I'm just going
to let that ride she's pregnant we're
not going to take this away from her
we're just going to let her have it
she's worried about her brother she's
like uhhuh like okay I'm just so excited
my brother has found you you're so good
for him you're like I've known your
brother for 3 Days he's opening himself
up to love and I'm so excited it's like
H worst wing woman sister ever but once
again to her credit she did grow up in a
cult and is still in one and is still in
one and is very pregnant with twins
she's doing her best and probably like
doesn't realize that what she's saying
is not uh helping Hawk as she thinks it
might be it's not so Katie uh it comes
running over from the pr playground
without her shirt on and jeem is like
chasing her apparently she like got some
water on it and like pulled it off and
started running around the
park and um Grace like locks up
and Missy notices that she's looking at
a bunch of guys in like khakis and weird
pastel button-down shirts across the
street and um they're like very young
guys and Grace just like takes off all
of a sudden and gets into a van with
them and Sh Missy is like what the [ __ ]
is happening like Miss's like I'm
literally just trying to raise my
daughter she's like I'm trying to mind
my own
business what
what so
um yeah so Katie is excited about going
to get special ice cream cuz she C can't
have eggs and eggs is in most ice cream
so that's a very central theme of all of
this of like making sure that Katie is
safe making sure that you know Katie
doesn't get into anything she shouldn't
have so then 4 days
later Missy goes to the clubhouse and
Hawk has been checking on her by like
text and stuff but they haven't been
alone he's like stopped by the house and
like dropped off food but it's been very
much like just making sure that she's
okay and um he which I also appreciate
it's very sweet yeah it's very like hey
I'm not trying to overstep I just care
about you want to make sure you have
what you need mhm definitely um and she
is really excited to see him and so he
is outside cleaning his
bike and um
um when she gets to him like there's a
bunch of Brothers outside and um he
tells her that it's just just unprompted
she like walks up to him and he's
like hello it's time for me to make you
come like wait what I don't think that's
the exact line but that is 100% the
energy where he's just like it's time
for me to make you come
hello are you ready to
orgasm basically and he's like get on
the bike that he's been cleaning
right um okay so instead remember on
once scrubs yeah yeah when uh Elliot had
never orgasmed before yes and yes uh-huh
and she was like okay next time you do
your laundry yeah like on the washing
machine yeah that's wait for the spin
cycle yes that's what it made me think
okay it's time for you to come get on my
motorcycle I was like oh the vibrations
of the bike yes so instead of behind him
he puts her on facing
him um no stop and turns the bike
on and they make out and then he takes
his dick out and just gets inside her
under her dress all his brothers are
like all around them also working on
their
bikes so that's
happening also why would you turn the
bike on it's going to heat the pipes so
he was very particular about where to
put her
legs so she would appreciate the
clarification said she wouldn't give
birn I was
[Applause]
I was like what the actual why' you're
in the bike tell me you've definitely
ridden a motorcycle before without
telling me you've definitely ridden a
motorcycle
before no I've had a fear of God in Me
about like burning my leg on a pipe yes
yes she's in a little sundress too she's
not dressed to be riding really but she
she's to be riding
something so wow bold mve very bold so
he like in her ear I don't know if I
aspire to but in my head I'm like I
aspire to that level of sexual
confidence and I don't actually know if
I do but there's I'm like
wow just the thought of like as you said
getting your dick in someone under their
dress on a running motorcycle surrounded
by all of your closest Family
yeah is a
choice it is a choice voice one that
Missy is very into she is very much
enjoying this moment and he like they're
not moving like to be clear he's just
inside her with the motorcycle yes he's
soaking he's soaking with a motorcycle
he's soaking on a motor I'm sorry you go
to
BYU drive a motorcycle you don't even
have to get a third to shake the bed oh
my God God soaking
backing just on a
motorcycle on spin cycle so many
Ops oh no oh my face
hurts so they're just soaking on a
motorcycle surrounded by his friends
okay yep and so he like leans in and
Whispers in her ear that like anyone
watching would think that you're mine um
um do you want that I know you want that
like all that kind of stuff is happening
she ignores all of that and it's like
are we going to do something about the
situation that we're in or are we going
to continue to soak yeah so he rolls the
motorcycle into the garage and kicks
everybody else out he's like everybody
out so so he does have his limits yeah
and all the guys are like laughing but
they go out and like close the doors
behind them and um he then finally
orders her off the bike he eats her out
against a wall until she comes and then
um she
like she's having this moment where like
she wants to trust him and like wants to
let him just kind of have his way and
like take care of her and stuff but she
feels very conflicted about it um you
mean the woman who's had to be like
entirely self-sufficient since the age
of 18 yeah yeah so um she is very
quickly distracted from those thoughts
of not trusting this situation um when
he then [ __ ] her on the workbench in
the
garage and um lots of Demands for her to
say his name or he's going to stop um
and then one of those yes one of those
at least it wasn't up mine like but it
was like mine mine mine mine I want to
hear my name when you come like that
sort of thing yeah yeah yeah um so they
both do come and then feel like there
was also probably a you grip me so tight
probably that that's the energy it's
giving yeah yeah mhm you better say my
name when I spill inside
you can you feel me painting your walls
like think about is how you almost did
Singaporean anime as a voice over with
that weird growly voice you just did I
don't think that's the voice they wanted
me to do when they asked me to do
Singaporean anime sure it wasn't but
that's the first thing I thought of oh
my face
hurts I also want to know I got asked to
do that when I was like 17 like I was
like is that weird like it wasn't at the
time like looking back on it I was like
what the [ __ ] was I doing as a
17-year-old being I'm going to be a
voiceover actor for Singaporean anime
yeah still would have been so cool would
have been so cool yeah I wonder how
they're doing I should check on them I
hope they're well um but anyway they
both come um we love when everyone gets
an
orgasm so then um they are like getting
themselves back together after and Missy
she's wearing a sundress how much is
there to get back together well there
was pulling down of the top of it and
you know I forgot that everyone left
yeah yeah so clothing got more shifted
than when they were just soaking on the
bike
correct so um Missy remembers to tell
Hawk that he saw Grace um and she
doesn't outright ask why does your
sister look like an extra on sahlan and
Tall but she kind of is asking that and
Hawk explains that she lives in a
compound called the valley wait what did
Sarah Plain and Tall do you remember
that no oh my God but is it Sarah P it
was Glenn
Close Glen Close played Sarah PL and
tall I don't remember that oh odd oh I
feel like I'm missing such a huge pop
culture reference well you're probably
not I am probably in the minority of
people who remember this brief moment in
Glen Clo's career when she played Sarah
PL and Tall but I was almost named after
one of the characters Anna was the
daughter my mom was going to name me
Anna but then the morning that she went
into labor she read the story of Samuel
and his mom was Hannah and so she named
me Hannah instead of Anna
I mean if we remove the hes right it's
basically the same but so Sarah clean
and tall is this okay pause before you
even explain what I thought you said
Sarah P and tall and I was like I
thought it was like an SNL
sketch and I was like you know maybe
some people might feel like Sarah
Palin's family looks like they dress
like they're in a cult I don't know
feels like a very three pointed
reference no Sarah Plain and
Tall and it was a book that was turned
into like a miniseries I guess that Glen
Close was in and I think Christopher
Walkin was in it I'm GNA have to look
that [ __ ] up well I'm going to say if
you had Glen Close you probably had a
very well-known male actor as well I'm
almost positive that it was Christopher
walin but basically like this widower
has two kids and a farm and he puts out
an ad that he needs help like taking
care of his kids and so this woman Sarah
writes to him and says hi I'm Sarah like
I'm interested I'm plain and very tall
um I would be willing to come help
whatever and so it's like their story of
her coming out to take care of his kids
and help with the
farm I have no memory of this actually
like I've never seen it I'm going to
have to look it up so I can confirm but
I am
like
87% sure that it's Glen Close and
Christopher
wkan I we'll confirm
later yeah we'll confirm later but
anyway S I have like 15 more thoughts on
this half of them are probably about
Sarah
Palin so we'll just move on M mhm we can
move on yeah so Hawk is explaining his
sister being an a
cult um oh okay so like she cuz I guess
I really hadn't considered that that
like Missy doesn't know his history she
doesn't really know anything about him
that there's like a whole nearby cult
that's very prominent all she knows is
he has this one twin sister who dresses
funny and talks kind of funny but that's
all she knows so he goes on to explain
that
like the the compound where Grace lives
has a lot of beliefs about women that
they're very much property that they're
only there to like pump out babies all
that kind of standard patriarchical
[ __ ] and um Missy asks why he's not
there too like if Missy is there why
isn't he there and he explain Grace is
there yes if Grace is there I was like I
was like I think you I was like I meant
Grace I thought you meant Grace but I
was like on the very slim chance you
didn't I was like hold on is this book
about to take a very large pivot that I
did not anticipate no okay it was Grace
yes it was Grace so um and he explains
he has like scars on his arm that are
covered by tattoos um and they're from
his punishment they're from the snake
bites um and so he explains that you
know Bishop saved him and she says that
she understands scars and shows him her
c-section scar and tell tells him that
she almost died and so did Katie when
she was in labor and no one was there to
help her like baby daddy wasn't there
her parents weren't there she was
completely alone in the
hospital um and Hawk feels this like
strong protective urge but also a lot of
Pride that she's so strong and that she
had been through so much um man I had a
friend I thought it was the most
endearing thing I'd ever heard she was
having a c-section her husband came to
the hospital he did not bring any of the
necessary [ __ ] to bring to the hospital
he did bring a pair of
binoculars in case they made him stand
far
away which I thought was the sweetest
thing I'd ever heard well also I can
imagine that if Vance brought a pair of
binoculars to the hospital when I was in
labor I would have been so pissed if I
didn't have anything I need a phone
charger and leggings what the [ __ ] I'm
like I needed the stroller fan with the
little like wire arms that I could put
on the side of the hospital bed cuz I
needed the air while I was pushing more
than I needed [ __ ] binoculars but I
thought it was the most endearing thing
I had ever heard in my entire life
that's very cute yeah that's super cute
oh my gosh at least somebody showed up
for her right no that was my thought I
was like I was like man what a blessing
to like even if you're annoyed with your
husband he showed up with binoculars
because he was that excited and wanted
to make sure he didn't miss anything
like I can't imagine yeah completely
alone and she talks about like how
grateful she is for the nurses who were
super supportive and helpful to her and
Hawk feels like this this pride and this
desire to protect but also this like he
feels honored that he is going to be the
one moving forward that like she has let
him take care of her even a little bit
and he wants to continue that so um he
then asks if she came by just to use his
body he's like why did you actually show
up here was it just for the dick because
we never we never asked why never after
all of that we never asked why she
showed up so then um she just showed up
and he was like it's time for me to make
you come yeah like she didn't even get
to like have a greeting it was just like
get on this dick and that was it right
so so she's like well also I'm taking
the job and I'm I'm on my way to quit
the strip club right now oh so she was
stopping by to tell him she was
accepting the position yeah yeah um so
it's all very cute as she is leaving to
go to the club and he again realizes
that he is super [ __ ] he's like well
I'm a goner that's it for me I'm done
right um so then Missy is at the club
she's saying goodbye to all the girls
and she's just kind of having fun
hanging out with them for a little bit
what was the turnaround time on the
paycheck here I don't know like cuz I
was really thinking this through cuz I'm
like okay well if the bar isn't opening
when are they going to start paying her
at the at minimum she's not going to get
her first paycheck for probably two
weeks so they did hire her to come in
and help finish setting up
the bar okay but I'll say that even most
pay structures like yeah she still is
going to be in it yeah yeah so I'm like
okay how long do you need to stay
stripping until your next we're
concerned about your finances Missy
Katie needs to be protected she needs
her EpiPen
yes that was actually where my I'm like
okay what are we doing to make sure
we're setting ourselves up for financial
success for our daughter
here so so she's having fun at the club
and um she gets called outside by one of
the B bouncers and Hawk's sister Grace
is there oh and um she's like she
doesn't explain anything she's just like
we need to get to Hawk right now we got
to go right now and Missy is like okay
get in the car like just get in like
let's go talk about it be about it let's
let's strap our seat belts and go she's
like I'll find out when we get there
clearly this is urgent so Grace is
trying to explain that she has to tell
Hawk what's happening she's clearly
panicking she's like Hawk has to know
like I have to tell Hawk and C like
Missy is like okay all right I'll drive
you it's fine yeah take a deep breath we
got this so before we figure out
anything the car is hit head on at a red
light like they are fully stopped at a
red light and somebody intentionally
hits them and Men start pulling Grace
from the car
and Missy is coming too as Grace is
being pulled from the
car and um she fights the best that she
can while Grace is screaming at her to
run she's like you got to run you got to
run um she Nails one of the guys in the
eye and then takes off like her car is
still sort of running and so she just
takes off for the club house cuz they're
pretty close but all she can think about
is that Grace is almost 9 months
pregnant with twins and these men could
be doing anything to her and she's like
freaking out oh that is a deeply
terrifying situation yeah she's freaking
the [ __ ] out but she knows that she
can't do anything so she needs to get to
Hawk so she I pause though I like I
actually really appreciate that like
someone who like knows their boundaries
and like kind of knows their scope and
it's like I don't have the necessary
skills to do anything to protect this
woman and I'm not going to stand here
and like try and like be the
hero
conion right she's like I'm bleeding
from the head like there's not a lot I
can do here yes so she is just doing her
best to stay awake at this point so she
knows you're right like she knows her
limits in this moment and so she takes
off to get to
Hawk so he's working in the garage when
he hears a car horn like we're back to
Hawk and he's like what the [ __ ] is that
and he sees M's car is pushed up against
the Gate of the clubhouse and two trucks
are like coming in at her and so he gets
to the gate with his brothers they chase
the trucks off with guns and um Missy is
clearly dazed and she's trying to tell
him like what happened and your sister
and all of the things they took Grace
like you have to help Grace um and this
book really goes from 6:00 to midnight
it really does so quickly it really does
and it just continues like once it
starts it doesn't stop with like
the so she just keeps saying over and
over I got away I got away I got away
and he's like you did you're okay you're
okay um and so he is freaking out he's
very concerned about his sister rightly
so but Missy is very hurt and she is his
priority in this moment he's like I have
to take care of
her so Missy gets the all clear from the
doctor and she's feeling very guilty
respectfully I have to say should that
situation have happened should my like
should my husband well when we were not
married right but like that's who I'm
I'm like if I had been in a car with his
sister who was 9 months pregnant with
twins and he was like you're my priority
right now I'd probably be like I [ __ ]
shouldn't be right have you thought
about your twin sister yeah like I'm
clearly okay enough like we can Circle
back to me but right now I'm not the
priority well so part of it is that he
realizes that it's the cult that took
her okay and they will not hurt her
because of the babies like the babies
are too valuable because they need their
savior so they're not going to hurt her
okay so he like is aware of that he
knows that she's not okay valid he but
he also knows like her physical safety
at this moment is not in jeopardy
because of the pregnancy right meanwhile
Missy is actively bleeding from the head
so like you know touche I I can I can
walk back my words a little bit well no
like I see where you're coming from with
it of like but that does also make sense
that he like recognizes that like with
the setup and structure of the cult that
his sister well like it was very scary
and they were hit also why would they
hit her if she was pregnant well so it's
a whole thing oh okay sorry I'm no it's
okay it's okay because she so Miss's
feeling really guilty um that she didn't
do more and Hawk is reassuring her he's
like listen I know who took her because
she's like we have to find her like what
could this be and this is where he's
like I already know right I already know
that it was the valley um and uh that's
when he explains the ritual with the
snakes like he didn't tell her before
but he explained the whole thing
now and he tells her to rest he's going
to go pick up Katie from school I'm
going to take care of everything like
you're going to be okay so his plan
Hawk's plan was to wait to see if Grace
showed up at their Meetup cuz it was
only like one or two days away uhhuh so
he was
thinking maybe they didn't like her
hanging out with a
stripper somebody over reacted right
like maybe it was something like that so
he's trying not to panic and he's like
I'm just going to see if she shows up to
our
meet so it's a couple of days later and
Hawk's Dad shows up at the clubhouse
demanding to know what he did to
Grace and
um I know I know I
know just the Gentle Way I know Chelsea
I know I know exactly what you a couple
days later okay sorry go on it's fine
it's fine a day or two
whatever so um he Hawk's dad says that
Grace was moved into what they call a
prayer house and no one will tell him
why what is a what is a prayer house so
apparently it is a place where they send
people who have lost their way
so that they can reconnect with
God not that they've drifted so far that
they need to be bitten by snakes but far
enough the intervention depending on how
this goes right snakes might be the next
step intervention is needed okay we're
going to put you in this house until you
either repent or get bitten by a snake
correct so um Hawk and Bishop chased out
off eventually um
and Haw had thought again that he was
going to wait but now he
realizes he can't wait he's like if
she's in a prayer house I don't know
what's happening to her her husband
isn't there to protect her like like
that's bad like it's real bad
now so um so it's not just isolation it
could be substantially worse than that
right um so he thought it would be safer
for her and for his brothers to wait MH
but now realizing that is not the case
and so he is coming in hot he and Bishop
roll up to the town where the cult
operates and the cult sends what is
essentially three teenagers with
automatic weapons to tell them to leave
and um they do not they just sit on
their bikes and wait and his brother who
was the one who betrayed him shows up
Isaac of course his name ISAC yep if it
wasn't it'd be Elijah how the [ __ ] is
his name Hawk Hawk is not a Biblical
name so that's not his actual name but
his actual name is not biblical either I
don't remember what it was feels like
they were really leaning into the
biblical of it all Grace is the only one
who called him the name but it was like
tayor or something like it was not
biblical and In fairness to his dad he
had 37 children so maybe he
like ran out I
mean maybe he was like down to to
Methuselah there's a lot of chapters in
The Bible all of them are named after a
different person so I really like
Matthew Mark I mean I recognize some are
not right like you're not going to name
your kid Galatians I mean you might but
you I don't I'm not here to judge I
wouldn't but you might name your child
Samuel like right like yeah I recognize
not all books of the Bible are named
after characters in The Bible so don't
at me about that but
but I do feel like there are enough
biblical names I know someone what like
whatever like the um Hebrew word is for
like that literally means like girl like
little girl that is used in scripture
they named their daughter that like what
it's escaping me I don't remember but
that word right I'm like I feel like
there are so many options for bi
biblical names that if you're going to
lean that hard you can find 37 if you
try hard and believe in yourself right I
mean Ruth
Esther we can go fully Old Testament
Mary right like we can
go Hannah like we can go full we can go
all the way you know Rachel yeah
Rebecca we have so many great options
available to us we need to stop we'll
just keep going
anyway yeah I would lose that at some
point like I'm like you're going to win
if we're like okay I don't know that to
be true
I was like Rebecca really was probably
the final one I was thinking of that is
literally my sister's name as is Mary
Diana oh that's a good
one yeah I once so Jezebel you probably
wouldn't name your kid that but it is a
name in the Bible have you seen the girl
on Tik Tok that does parody videos and
she calls herself jezzy
Beth she like hey girls it's jzy bath
and I'm like I'm obsessed with you my
God she's incredible
yeah um all of all of the biblical names
I had a friend in grad school ironically
my friend's name was algra not a
Biblical name but whenever she was like
you know how they say she had weak
eyes she like in scripture was it Leah
who had the weak eyes I think
so my friend would do a Leah impression
and like cross her
eyes it was one of the fun like in the
time when I was like in
seminary it was Peak
comedy oh clearly it's still is cuz I
like almost I see that yeah I'll have to
find a photo and send it to you cuz I
remember taking a photo and being like
algra do your weak eyes and she's like
okay and I snapped a photo cuz it was
that good that just makes me think of my
dog who is soft eyed Sophie soft oh we
also forgot about Eve I'm sorry oh Eve
Lilith sorry
anyway the laugh with
it
sorry soft DED so yeah she's blind for
anybody who doesn't know my dog Sophie
is mostly blind so we call her sof eyed
Sophie well so I have a friend back in
Nashville that at one point was running
a bunny rescue I don't know if she still
is but at one point she was and she had
two bunny bunnies at one point one was
named clous Von bun bun I got to babysit
him once it was such a delight he
blended into my rug cuz my my rug was
like black and white checkered pattern
and I I loved CLA Von bun bun she then
got a second bunny who I think the name
was olive and Olive was blind and so
then clouse kind of
became the guide bunny for Olive okay
that's adorable yeah it was a whole
thing but it was like super cute that's
adorable yeah it was a whole bunny
rescue I don't know if it still exists
but if it did we'll link it here so our
listeners in Tennessee can support the
bunny rescue and if you don't live in
Tennessee but feel strongly about
bunnies we got options we have options
options where so where are we at this
point but
anyway I got us very lost so Hawk and
Bishop are in the town confronting Isaac
oh yes Isaac just shut up we got on our
whole thing Biblical name because of
[ __ ] Isaac y so en are probably
Brothers as well sorry keep going e so
Isaac says that Grace is safe and happy
she's just reconnecting to God and Isaac
no one [ __ ] believes you not a single
[ __ ] person just reconnecting to God
what does that mean as soon as someone
says you don't need to worry about them
they're just reconnecting to God you
immediately need to go you need to call
the FBI yes like things are not okay
that needs to be reported like no no no
um um so Hawk is like okay well all that
better be true because I will [ __ ] you
up if you hurt my sister right um so
we're back to Missy she is setting up
the
bar um she's still trying to work and
like you know cuz they don't know what's
going on she's just trying to stay
focused also really just pausing for a
second
mhm I need to let me math let me pull my
calculator because 37
[ __ ] kid like and he has seven wives
yeah each of them has had at least 5.28
children y they each have at least five
yep and then obviously a couple have at
least oh oh my God it's too
many seven wives each of whom have at
least five
children so every time I read seven
wives all I could think of was Seven
Brides for Seven Brothers which is not
the same not at all it's not the same
it's not the same um I thought of I
growing up uh one of the books that my
parents would like read little like
stories to us from was called apples
snakes and belly AES do you remember
that book no um it's like in retrospect
I think like
Christian nursery rhyme sort of but
there was like a whole like rhyme story
about um Solomon having to kiss each of
his wives good night
is it Solomon that I'm thinking of I
could yes it is I'm pretty sure Solomon
had a whole herum yeah and like the
whole thing about how we had had to kiss
all of his lives good night which is
also kind of a racy bedtime story for
kids now that I think about it yeah I
heard a thing the other day um I was
watching some video and somebody was
explaining that Solomon in the
Evangelical Christian tradition is like
the wisest of all Kings and all this but
in the original Hebrew translation when
they call him wise it's super sarcastic
and he was actually a [ __ ] idiot I
don't know if that's
true huh but I hope it is well honest
that's hilarious there have been some
moments where I'm like we're really
giving this bro a lot of credit we're
doing so much for him so that would that
would connect some right missing dots
that whole paradigm shift for me I had
yeah whole paradigm shift I just
remember being in school and taking a
class on
Ecclesiastes written by what a party
right my professor was like
okay here's the summary of
Ecclesiastes life
short yeah you get married you raise
some kids you move to Sarasota and
[Laughter]
die I was like well that's an
interesting take on
Ecclesiastes I realized this is very
Nation only for people who know anything
about never mind it yep mhm I was going
to say for for those of you who also
have religious trauma we're so glad
you're on this journey with us for those
of you who don't have religious trauma
and don't know what the [ __ ] we're
talking about don't look it up yeah just
keep living your life recommend yeah so
they were having the conversation with
Isaac and Isaac was like she's just like
reacquainting herself with the lordine
yeah she's totally fine yeah so we're
back to Missy okay she's setting up the
bar getting ready for open um Hawk comes
in and he's super upset cuz he's
straight from his brother right and they
have a real heart to heart and he shares
the guilt that he feels about his sister
in general um cuz he even though it
wasn't on purpose he left her there
um and that's his twin and just there's
a lot going on
there and um she gives him a little bit
of SASS and a little bit of support and
he declares that he's just never going
to let her go um which is Bold
and jeem the bestie comes in who is also
working at the bar now um and absolutely
destroys the moment by telling them not
to Chris in the bar when literally
everyone is right here she's like can
you not [ __ ] on the bar we're all like
right
here and Missy is like you're just
jealous you don't get to have sex on the
bar and Jem's like who says I haven't
already and then walks out and Gem is
just my favorite I was literally just
thinking Gem's like hey guys please
don't [ __ ] on the bar like we're trying
to get our health code clearance right
now it's really not going to bode well
trying to stock the bar and you not
you're just jealous cuz you can't I
already have [ __ ] just don't do it
right
now wait at least until close please um
so then is that what they're into though
like this like it like an exhibitionism
kind of like lean judg All God's
Children sure that's never called out
but it does feel it does seem like we
are a little leaning that way yeah okay
so then um it's Sunday lunch at the club
um Missy gets to know everybody she's
having a really good time and she's
starting to be really overwhelmed by how
awesome everything is because she's so
not used to it and how sweet Hawk is
with Katie um well and I can imagine
like she has literally been on her own
for 4 years being a single parent
managing also navigating her abusive ex
yes and that's like she's process ing
that and kind of like goes away in her
head and is thinking about all the hard
times before of like having to drop out
of high school cuz she hadn't quite
graduated yet and um not being able to
go to college like she planned and
running out of formula because her ex
took all her money and like all these
different things and um she realizes
that she's not going to live like that
anymore this is her new family she feels
really connected to them um like the
guys have all clearly embra her daughter
and want to like love her and make sure
she's safe and taken care of they've
protected Missy as well like it's all
very like supportive and kind and lovely
well just that moment of like oh I don't
have to struggle the way I've been
strugg like yes man what a weight off
her shoulders huge relief huge relief um
and so that night
um uh with Hawk she like very playfully
puts some ice down his shirt while he's
making drinks which of course leads to
temperature play um and
he there's a lot of [ __ ] happening
and we love that for them lots of be a
good girls happening and
um So eventually he comes on her tits
and then she like licks it off of her
hand or whatever and he says you
shouldn't have done that I hope you're
ready to get [ __ ] again because I was
really going to let you rest and it's
just that's the energy the whole time
okay so there's all this sweetness and
kindness and support but then there's
also a lot of that
happening life's about balance
um so it is sorry keep going um so then
um Hawk is on a mission to find his
sister as well that's all that's running
as well so he finds the locations of all
of the Cults Properties by basically
threatening an attorney um who handles
all their
stuff and he makes plans to find his
sister he's like okay so we know these
are all the locations of all their
properties we're going to have to split
up we're going to have to systematically
search
whatever so then Miss's working the bar
it's now fully open everything's going
great three guys that ask for ice water
and specifically ask for her to serve it
um and she thinks maybe they know her
from the strip club because that's
happened before where guys have like
remembered her and requested her
whatever but she just gets really but
then they're all wearing khaki pants and
collared shirts yeah she gets real weird
Vibes um and and not in the way that the
at the start of the book was giving
weird Vibes no one of them says he just
wanted to feel her
energy she's like what the [ __ ] is
happening and one of them like grabs at
her and she punches him in the face like
she's just like nope nobody will be
touching me nobody will be touching me
thank you and um security shows up
whatever Bishop calls Hawk to let him
know what's going on
and um well I love that they did find
new security they did find new we love
that for them yes they did find new
security um so Hawk is home with Katie
watching her and getting her ready for
her birthday um and cie the cousin is
there as well and she gets real freaked
out all of a sudden because she sees
someone out in the yard and um Hawk is
like okay I have to find a way to keep
Katie contained in the house and not
freaking out and so he's like hey Katie
the floor is lava make sure you stay
stay with cie and so he goes out to
check it all out oh so Callie's there
too yes cie the cousin yes is there okay
yes but that's convenient it is helpful
yes um and um as he's like checking the
perimeter of the house he's thinking
about how he wants to make it's his
house more of a home so that Katie and
Missy would want to move in and um he's
like I really think maybe she was seeing
things maybe there was a reflection but
then he finds a footprint in the flower
bed by the window and he's like [ __ ] me
like that's real bad yep that's not what
I was hoping would happen here uh-uh so
then Bishop calls that's when he gets
the call that somebody attacked Missy
and so he's like well that's all quite a
coincidence
isn't
it um so Missy finishes her shift she's
really not all that worried about this
situation so at this point are they
thinking it was like a coordinated
planned attack or are they legitimately
like oh that's kind of a coincidence
they're like that's weird there's no
such thing as coincidences well and
Missy doesn't realize like these are
cult people she's not familiar with them
the only one she's ever interacted with
is Grace Grace and then the three people
that or the the people that Grace got in
the van with that she saw right but you
know touche she didn't grow up in it
she's not it's not on her radar to be
aware right of it okay so she's like
they were weird but like that's it so um
Missy realizes as her shift is wrapping
up that she hasn't been back to her
apartment like all week um Hawk had
gotten a bed for Katie and like set up a
room for her and had been picking up
Missy after every shift and like getting
Katie from school and stuff and she's
like trying to reconcile that she has
people now like that she has people who
care about her and want to help her oh
my heart I know like people she can
count on she's like that's really weird
but Hawk has been very
like not subtle about just like just
just come on in but she hasn't noticed
like even though he's not subtle she
like not picking it up because she's so
not used to it yeah which is sad um but
it is Katie's weekend with her dad and
he is an absolute douchebag calling Hawk
a criminal um and all this other stuff
and she's just like listen I'm not going
to do this with you this is your time
with Katie please just enjoy your time
with Katie like I'm not doing this yeah
just like be a dad this none of this is
relevant just be present for your
daughter yeah it's none of your business
it's none of your business so Missy then
goes to work at the bar and um Hawk says
he has a present for her and she's like
o okay and it's epipens it's one for
every place that Katie spends time so
one for each of the houses one for each
of the cars like so so
sweet um and Missy is super overwhelmed
by how like thoughtful and kind that is
and she's like how can I ever repay you
for this and he's like just move into my
house he's like that's literally all I
want at this point and just like be with
me yeah and he's like listen if you're
worried about it I'll pay for your
apartment for your little for a little
while until you're comfortable like
fully living with me like just please
just just stay with me
and um yeah we don't you didn't even
need to give up your lease I'll pay for
that too yeah buddy just be with me like
he loves her and this kid so much he's
just like all in and so Missy is
like I'm I will move in with you like
calm down a little bit and also great
gesture you didn't have to buy my
daughter 15 EP pins for me to move in
with you I would have done it for no EP
pins right right but this doesn't hurt
hurt because this is very helpful and
convenient I love this journey yes yes
so um she's like listen I'm just going
to run by the apartment after my shift
to get some stuff um and Hawk is like
that sounds great I will see you at home
like really excited about
it so she gets to her apartment um and
there is a man there with a ski mask on
demanding to know where Katie is what
yeah so he like comes at her um comes at
Missy and she can't get to the door or
her phone so she's starting to freak out
so she makes it to the kitchen she keeps
him talking and the guy says that Katie
is the chosen one and they will come for
her does Katie have a cross-shaped birth
mark so literally no idea at this point
like Missy is like what the [ __ ] a
chosen one like what like get out of my
apartment freaking out
yes so she gets to a butcher knife and
just takes this guy the [ __ ] out so like
big fight and Sue she's really hurt but
she takes the guy down and she finally
gets to her phone and Hawk answers he's
like hey baby you almost home and she's
like I killed someone and he's just like
I'm coming my notes say a true ride or
die yes like that's it okay so not quite
the same and a little a little bit more
morbid of a situation if I'm being
completely honest a little bit more
morbid different but also like still
more so like Vance had only been married
for like 5 months and I was at work and
my mom had texted me Vance my sister and
my brother-in-law that my dad had had a
heart attack and had to be LifeLight and
bless my mom's heart so like where my
parents live is in the middle of nowhere
there are there's a major town um they
live like right on like the North
Carolina Tennessee order there's a major
town 45 minutes east of them in North
Carolina and there's a major town 45
minutes west of them essentially in
Tennessee my mom had been in North
Carolina in that major town for this
like speaker convention I don't [ __ ]
know my dad got LIF flighted they live
in Tennessee he got
LifeLight to the Tennessee hospital M so
my mom text all of us um that like he
had to be hospitalized and had was was
taken to the hospital and my mind just
went completely blank on why I started
this story it was morbid and he's a true
Rider die and she called and said I just
killed someone and he said I'm coming
yeah the funny thing is I had a full
reason why I started this story and I
don't anymore I was trying to give it to
you no you really were something about
Vance you were only married for 5 months
oh no it was the phone call oh and how
he was like yeah baby what's up so Vance
hadn't seen these phone calls or these
this text come through and I leave work
early and I decide that I'm going to go
home because like my co-workers were
like what do you need I was like I need
to not be [ __ ] here they're like
you're right go home and like so sweet
so supportive but Vance calls me on the
way home hey baby what's up how's your
day not great oh oh what's up did you
read the text messages my mom sent you
no what's going on like it was like
legitimately like that phone like hey
like yeah
hey honey you almost home just had a
great workout on the way back to the
house what do you
need it was like literally that's like
obviously not that situation as far as I
had not killed someone but like just the
weirdest sensation of like knowing your
life is like potentially falling apart
fully shifting and talking hey what's up
oh my God can't wait to take this call
right and you're like no no come with me
on this journey yes like
yes it was it was that and like I was
like did did you get my mom's text no
what's
up well guess I'm going to be the one to
break the news yeah it was like that
yeah yeah so not saying I killed someone
get know but similar energy yeah yeah it
is a very disconcerting kind of phone
call to have yeah yeah baby having a
great day what's going on like well yeah
everything's could be about to change
um and so Hawk immediately shifts
obviously and he's like yep on my way
got you got this yep he shows up with
his brothers Missy is covered in blood
and really busted up this poor girl has
been busted up from the moment that she
meets him she is like busted up um
unfortunately probably busted up from
the time she got kicked out of her house
yeah she's been struggling for real um
but it is his brother Isaac that is down
the floor yeah it's his brother Isaac
from the CT I honestly wasn't I I did
not was a big gasp so it really was I
was not prepared for that to be Isaac
yes yeah it was
Isaac so
um she's like trying to explain to Hawk
like what he was saying to her and she's
like something about Katie's the chosen
one and hawk like hold up hold up hold
up does she have a birthmark and she's
like yeah she has a weird little cross
thing on her
sternum Grace had seen it at the park
that day when Katie had taken her shirt
off and was running around all
crazy and
um she was taken Grace they are putting
together Grace was taken because she was
trying to warn them that they needed to
hide Katie because the cult was coming
for her
so um Hawk is going into like full
protection mode yes and Katie's dad
won't answer the phone like they're
calling him over and over and over again
and he won't answer so they are not
calling the cops Missy is like am I
going to go to prison and they're like
baby girl shh like never speak of it
we'll take care of it go get your kid we
got
it so uh
they get to baby daddy's house and no
one will answer the door so no one's
answering the phone no one will answer
in the door God and The Neighbor comes
out and he says that he heard yelling
and that someone took off in a car um at
some point and he doesn't know if Katie
was with the person who got in the
car so they bust down the door and haot
goes in and um baby daddy is dead he's
been shot and they can't find Katie
anywhere so the cops show up and one
volunteers to take Missy back to the
station to get photos of Missy for an
amber alert and like to put stuff out
and um Hawk is like great idea because
he doesn't want her to see MH anything
right and yet I feel like this isn't
it's a terrible idea yeah it's a bad
idea let's not separate
yeah because it turns out he's a member
of the cult
and um he tells her that she made one
chosen one she can make another and she
realizes that means they don't have
Katie and she's like well thank [ __ ] for
that like where is Katie but at least
they don't have her yeah especially
where is Katie if Katie's biological
father is dead and had been the one with
her and someone took the baby right so
where is she so Missy is praying to baby
daddy to be like I know that like you
loved our daughter for what a [ __ ]
you were you loved our daughter like
please protect her like wherever you are
please take care of her so Hawk is
pissed at the cops because they keep
talking to the MC members and asking the
same questions over and over and they're
still just like more like interrogating
them and he's like we aren't getting to
where we actually need to get you are
wasting time investigating my brothers
right now where is Katie like why are
you doing this so um all of us love her
we've played Go Fish yeah yeah stop we
have a
connection so he is about to take off
and like go to the police station to
meet up with Missy when he hears Katie
calling out to him and he's like what
the [ __ ] he's like everybody shut the
[ __ ] up like everybody shut up and um it
turns out that her dad there was like a
um a old wooden box to like keep wood in
uhhuh and he had like put her in there
and told her to hide yeah he told her to
hide and be
quiet and so she had hidden and been
silent and while Hawk was pacing and
yelling about the cops she heard him and
started yelling for him yeah and so they
finally get her out father for something
I know I know at least he like protected
her so they finally get her out and she
tells the cops everything that she heard
and Hawk is super protective and the
guys are right there like the cops try
to take Katie from him and the guys are
like yeah we're not doing that um and so
the cops suddenly say he's like cuz
Katie is asking for Missy and question
and you may have said this earlier and I
may have missed it I thought they
weren't going to who who called the cops
who involved the neighbor the neighbor
called the cops okay sorry you probably
said that I miss no I didn't it they
heard a commotion but also with a dead
body like that they knew they had to
call the cops because Katie was gone and
they have baby daddy is dead right and
they all have a connection to him so
like hiding him would have been bad
anyway the neighbor that was kind of my
thought was I was like so the MC show
shows up and like Missy's like who's
calling the cops and they're like don't
do that quite yet but now the cops are
there so yes okay yeah um so the cops
never find out about
Isaac they didn't call the cops for
Isaac the MC cleaned up the apartment
and that body but not baby daddy
okay sorry all of it together there's a
lot of locations there's a lot of
locations and dead bodies um so
um the cops then tell Hawk that Missy
never made it to the station the cop
that
we he's not answering the radio they
don't know what's going on and he's like
obviously the cult took her and he
overhears the cops say an address in Ann
Arbor like they tracked the car they're
in Michigan by the way um so there's
some random address in Ian
Arbor so he gets jeem the bestie to come
get Katie um and is like well looks like
I'm going to get my woman and like all
his brothers take off so Miss's taken to
a house and the men tell her grace is
there and if she fights or runs they
will kill Grace and that's how they're
like controlling Missy at this point so
um she's locked in a room Grace is
really okay but she's freaking out and
she's like I swear I didn't tell them
anything those boys I was with that day
saw her I was trying to warn you she's
like really like guilty that all this
happened which obviously Missy is not
blaming her for not at all um but then
Grace's water breaks oh [ __ ] what what
is this book I know I know so um Missy
is like screaming for help and they
finally come and they tell her um that
she is going to make another chosen one
and they like haul her up and they're
like getting ready to like tie her down
and [ __ ] understand how birth marks work
no they don't or how like they don't
we're going to tie you down in 9 months
and the hopes that this second child has
a cross-shaped birth mark so I will tell
you I have a birth mark on the back of
my knee mhm that is red and it has like
three
lines and when I went to visit my
grandmother in her assisted living home
many years ago when I was a child this
old lady saw it and started screaming
her head off and said it was the mark of
the devil and apparent L if I had been
born like in the 16 or 1700s I probably
would have been killed because of this
birth mark what yeah yeah cuz I looked
it up later and apparently like it is
the belief that like if you have a red
birth mark that's shaped like that that
it's like the devil's handprint I was
like super I love that well okay that is
fascinating not where I thought we were
going cuz so when I had my son when I
had Ford Ford had had stork bites he had
one on the tip of his nose and he has a
little one just under his right eyebrow
and then he has one between his eyebrows
and I was like oh yeah this happens um
then I also noticed he has like almost a
square shaped red birth mark at the back
of his head and he has like a little
like normal like brown birth mark on the
bottom of his foot but for the ones on
his head they are all red my dad has an
identical Square birth mark on the back
of his head and several of my family
members have had that ex identical stork
bite like and I know stor bites are like
pretty common but like the exact
locations of like weird yeah so when you
said that like you had that I thought
you were going to say like you like your
like Grandmother Had a matching one and
I was like oh I was and then I was like
having this whole existential moment was
like holy [ __ ] are the shapes of birth
marks gen like genetic and I neverbe
they are maybe I don't know cuz I also
had a mole that looked like a um a
bullseye like it was dark and then light
and then dark in the middle huh super
cool but they were like hey this could
be cancer so I don't have it anymore but
I was like oh my God that's exactly what
they looked at for witches for like a
nipple to feed your your familiar or
whatever and then I have this [ __ ]
birth I I would have been dead you would
have with a swiftness oh my God I would
have been dead you would not have
survived I would not have survived Sal
and not even because like were you over
Salem when you worked for like was was
wasn't Salem one of your regions that
was in my region but like not even
because people are like I am the
descendants of the witches that you
failed to kill not any of that literally
just because of my weird [ __ ] birth
marks you're like I'm just trying to
live my life and have some birth marks
I'm not trying to like Manifest this
energy or call these Spirits I'm just
trying to live y'all not trying to have
a familiar I I like cats but like I like
cats but not like that I mean like I
don't want to [ __ ] a cat and it seems
like y are almost at that level with
your there's a lot there yeah I'm not
into
it but anyway
sorry okay where yeah so she gets hauled
up in front of the prophet and um The
Prophet's like 80 and it's a whole hot
shitty mess and he's a douchebag and
she's like well I did kill that guy you
sent for me and they all start to freak
out cuz they they didn't know that Isaac
was dead right one of them said we
haven't heard from Isaac and she's like
oh Isaac's dead cuz I killed him like
yeah so um then the Men start saying
that they don't think that she is pure
enough for the
Prophet The Prophet is the one to
impress
yeah it's lots of ick um and so um he
says well this is easy just bring the
snakes and we'll test her the [ __ ]
snakes the [ __ ] snakes bro so then
just as they're bringing the snakes out
someone starts yelling that the bikers
are
here and all the men except the prophet
run like everybody like cuts and run
they're like when we're done and so the
prophet says that if he's going to die
he's taking Missy with him and he lights
the room on fire so
then Hawk is a man on a
mission and they find Grace and she
tells him that Missy is here she's okay
like and he's starting to realize like
he loves Missy like this is really bad
like he needs her back and he's freaking
out Grace goes to the hospital they find
Missy behind a wall of fire with the
prophet and so um Bishop gets everybody
else out of the house Hawk gets Missy um
he knocks the Propet over and this whole
thing he gets Missy out of window and on
his way out he releases all the snakes
and just listens to the prophet die
scream and um he tells Missy they have
Katie Grace is safe everything is
okay and it's all lots of relief all
around right so then two weeks later
Missy and Katie are at the baby daddy's
funeral and she feels nothing but
gratitude that he Protected Their baby
in the end like she doesn't have any
bitterness towards him she's just really
grateful that he was quick enough and
put Katie Safety First yeah um Hawk is
waiting for them outside um Katie has
been struggling with a lot of nightmares
and she often wants Hawk like she
reaches for Hawk to feel
safe and um it's all very sweet he's
very very sweet with her and then Hawk
takes them to the hospital to check in
with Grace um she named one of her twins
after Missy um but she is planning to go
back to the valley so even though they
killed the prophet the the cult is not
over yeah the cult still exists for sure
like that's still her life so when Missy
and Katie or when Missy and grace are
alone she asks why why would you stay
like not judging just honestly like why
would you do that and Grace says that
she loves her husband and that he's a
good father um but also she knows that
if the valley doesn't make some some
major changes now that the prophet has
died um that she will leave that she
can't raise her daughters in this
mhm um but also that she will give up
her freedom for her children so like if
she can't also get her kids out she will
stay so um gra I entirely understand
yeah yeah absolutely um so then Grace's
husband show shows up and so they all
take off because they don't want any
conflict they don't want to make things
harder on Grace yeah so then it's two
months later um Hawk finds Missy in the
stor room of the bar and sees a bandage
like on her hip and he goes immediate
caveman thinking that she's hurt um and
she actually got a swayy tattoo
and she says if we ever break up I I can
just tell people I'm a big fan and then
he [ __ ] her from behind lots of
Declarations of
Love um and then he also gives her the
paperwork to get her GED um if she wants
to because he knows that that was
something that had been important to her
before and he said it's whatever makes
you happy if you want to work in the bar
forever work in the bar forever but if
you want to go back to school like I'm
here for you
so then a year later it is Katie's first
day of kindergarten and Missy is like
yelling up the stairs for her and she's
not answering and so she like hauls up
the stairs and she hears Katie telling
Hawk that she's really scared to go to
school um and Hawk is very sweet and
reassures her that everything is going
to be fine you have plenty of family
like we're not worried about it it's
okay if those kids don't like you like
it's not like everybody's going to love
you you he's like who gives a [ __ ] like
kids are stupid um which is very on
brand so um then as they're getting
ready to leave they hear motorcycles
coming down the street and he sends
Katie out to see who's here right and he
tells Missy that um he wanted everyone
to know who they'd be messing with if
they [ __ ] with his kid and the whole
club showed up to take take her to her
first day of kindergarten so that she
would feel safe and okay um and it's so
cute and he said um the whole club
wanted to be there it's not like he made
them show up they wanted to come um
because that's her family and family
should be there for all of her big
firsts um and it's lots more
Declarations of love and just happiness
all around and that's the
end it's a journey yeah I find that
that's true of all motorcycle romances
true where I'm like okay and then I'm
like wait a minute I feel like the only
person whose like motorcycle club
romances haven't seemed like
completely out of left field to me have
been like Kristen Ashley MC romances
where I'm like oh that's because like
she every Kristen Ashley book is the
same main character yeah we're just
changing their job you know and so I
think that's why that one we can call
them the leader of an MC we can call
them a private eye for all like care
they're still the same Alpha former Navy
SEAL it doesn't matter
1,000%
yeah so this is
a that that was a journey yeah I feel
like a lot of these are very much like
early o soap operas yes where it's like
and then there's an identical twin and
it's like she didn't really die and it's
like okay all right I signed up for this
you're like I'm sorry I watched her get
cremated but sure I'll suspend belief
that she's back now it's fine she just
resolved her contract dispute with
producers so now she's
back like how are we going to walk
ourselves out of this
one yeah Drake Romero was that his name
what was the what was Joey's name on
friends oh I think it was Drake
something it was Drake
something it might not be Romero I don't
remember no I think it's not Romero but
I'll have this is going to bother me now
I'll figure it out in the future it's
not relevant what's our ratings scale
snakes snakes yeah
snakes Okay how many snakes is this out
of
um I'm going to
say like
seven cuz that's the Lord's
number sure we can do seven I'll go
like four out of seven that's what seven
yeah because the thing is like stuff
like her parents and all of this like
angsty [ __ ] with her parents never comes
back stuff with like Hawk's dad who
showed up for that one minute and then
was gone never comes back and never gets
resolved so there's a lot of this stuff
that's
like yeah but also the story was
interesting and Hawk was very sweet and
Katie was very cute and like it was a
fun read yeah yeah and I really
appreciated Missy's tenacity yeah that
is another thing I liked that it wasn't
like she was so independent that she
would not allow help and like made her
life harder yes but she wasn't so
helpless that she was like a hot shitty
mess the whole time just waiting for a
man mhm it was like this weird happy
medium that you don't usually see yeah
where she's like I can take care of
myself and if something can like come in
that is adding to my life I will
consider it but like my life is not easy
yeah but I'm also not going to like
shift on a moment's notice exactly for
some random dick exactly yes yeah yeah
which I appreciate so I would say a
comfortable four out of seven snakes
four out of seven snakes yeah yeah it
motorcycle romances are hard because
again and and like also the the um uh
security guy never came back he got shot
in the hand and then was like cool with
it he never came back I was waiting for
him to show up and like [ __ ] things up
yeah like he was going to try and attack
Missy again or something that would make
sense honestly that's like when you said
it was Isaac and her like I didn't know
I was like it could be so many people
like it it was probably just a random
person from The Cult right like it like
I was like it could have been the dude
who got shot in the hand for groping her
it could have been any number of people
could have been any number yeah so yeah
that's another thing that like I feel
like there were some missed
opportunities with it but like it was
still
enjoyable um well and also on the flip
side I think we've equally read those
books where they like they do try and
make sure that no stone is left unturned
and they give all of that like we we get
clarification on the dude who got shot
in the hand we get clarification on the
dad like we get clarification all of it
but at the end of it you're like [ __ ]
a it was 600 pages and I did not care
that much I was waiting for Robert to be
like the the security guy to be like
secretly a part of the cult or something
like I was waiting for something yes um
but that's okay cuz again it was still
enjoyable it was still very sweet and
like and not overly complicated yes it
was a warm fuzzy read um so I'm
comfortable with a four out of seven
definitely let us know your thoughts if
you read it yes let us know what you
would rate it how many snakes what kind
of snake is our rating system cuz that's
a whole other conversation Copperhead
yeah that is an option yeah yeah I would
go Copperhead feels more intimidated
than like a little garden snake sure
yeah I wouldn't go water moccasin cuz
I'm genuinely terrified of those this
book didn't seem scary enough to justify
water moccasin no yeah so I would agree
yeah four out of seven choose your own
snake
adventure heo and oh yeah that honestly
that worked on more levels than I had
even anticipated I did I didn't give
myself enough credit damn yeah way to go
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