Combative Calm

3 mental breakdowns in 5 years. 2 years of chronic burnout so deep that exhaustion became my baseline. Sixty to eighty hour work weeks, saying yes to everything, running a community of a thousand people, traveling the world, and slowly running completely empty.

In this episode, Sarai gets brutally honest about what no capacity actually looks like from the inside, what it took to finally stop, and what she discovered when she ran away to a cabin in Montana and went completely radio silent.
You will walk away understanding what capacity actually is, why yours might be depleted, and what your window of tolerance has to do with why the small shit keeps feeling so impossibly big.
This is not a pep talk. This is the real story and the science behind it.
Capacity Club opens April 6th. First live call April 15th. saraispeer.com/capacity-club

What is Combative Calm?

This isn’t your sugary, sweet, diabetes-inducing healing podcast.
This is Combative Calm—where nervous system regulation meets rage rituals, somatic releases, and spicy affirmations laced with f-bombs to unfck your trauma responses.

Hosted by Sarai Speer—a trauma-informed yoga + meditation teacher, somatic healer, and high-energy bitch who tells it like it is—this show delivers real tools, not toxic positivity.

It’s trauma-informed, nervous system-rooted healing for the emotionally constipated, burnout-curious, high-functioning humans who are done pretending they’re fine.

It’s time to regulate your shit.