well hello All You Beautiful
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People you know what time it
is ladies and gents Guys and Dolls and
everyone in
between gather around get you something
real nice to sip on and comfy to slip
on cuz it's time for smut Club here's
your hosts Chelsea and
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Hannah we love a double tap good work
thank
you why was I so proud of my class today
know but you really were I'm really
proud of you I'm happy for you thank you
you're welcome what a great little
affirmation yeah what way know I needed
it I I don't know what it was for even
but it's it's nice to see people win you
know especially when I'm the one winning
that was basically like the quiet part
you didn't say at the end of that
statement well we could have left it
quiet that's not what we do
here no Chelsea you don't understand the
point of our podcast we're 50 plus
episodes in you're not new here oh my
God hey hey guys welcome to smut Club if
you are new here or if you're not new
here welcome regardless of your status
I'm Hannah and I'm I'm Chelsea I'm sorry
we're really
uh the way we are today I don't know
what the energy is I was like what is
this energy I don't know this is the
trying our best energy that is it well
cuz I think there's something to be said
like we started this podcast because we
love it and have fun doing it and
because we would be talking to each
other about books at nauseum anyway so
yep just seemed like an an obvious
trajectory um yeah and we have full-time
jobs and other lives and children and
pets and you know sometimes when we show
up we're like we're here we read the
book yeah looks like we made it so looks
like we made it yeah I was actually
going to sing it first and then I was
like I would have loved that cuz I think
I've told the story about going to
college for kids over the summer it was
like one of our like summer program
options and then my parents would always
uh have me go to like the after program
because they worked as well um and so
like there it was just a free-for-all of
like Elementary age children running
around right and someone and this was
back like I would bring my CDs and they
had a little karaoke boom box with
remember the karaoke boom box I would
bring my Shania Twain
album like all these kids are like
playing dodgeball and I'm sitting in the
corner with the boom
box singing Shia Twain
karaoke with the passion of someone who
like their their man left them and took
the dog but I'm just like seven singing
my heart out and I W like I can't
imagine what the adults in that room
thought looking back on it kids are wild
like kids are unhinged in a different
way he's the best they really are they
really are well I told my husband I was
like our son is I've been calling him
the master of my n
Mayhem because whenever I look over like
he's just doing ridiculous [ __ ] that
like it's not harmful right but like um
his
little Cheerio cup like the little kids
like the stereotypical kind of like the
swirl top to keep the Cheerios in and
bers just kind of jam their hand in
there I went to pick it up to put
Cheerios in it there was like an action
figure in there nice and I was like last
time I saw this I just filled it with
Cheerios it is now empty of Cheerios and
has an action fate like
what he put his spoon in like a maze
that I couldn't get out and I'm like how
are you doing this that's awesome good
work you don't have the motor skills
good work for no I love it he does have
the motor skills clearly you're
underestimating him underestimating him
I was going to let you have it I wasn't
going to say [ __ ] well I heard it and
then I couldn't unhear it and was like
well that's fair okay so once again
welcome to smut Club um this is the
podcast where we review romance novels
of uh varying
qualities and Hannah actually chose the
book for today what is today's book
today's book is the scarred Wolf by
Charlene heart heart Nady
heart what what was that it's h a r t n
a d y heart heart
NY heart oh oh I get it she's like oh no
but well honestly before we got into the
last name when you said the scarred wolf
and yes I we hear it we know it's a
thing
um I paused for a second was like how
many people do you think started reading
that book thinking it was the scared
wolf
and we like this is not the book I
thought it was that's not it no no charl
Charlene is not she's not bringing
scared energy there's very little fear
from this wolf he's got a lot happening
I literally know nothing about this book
so I stumbled upon one of her other
series that's about Dragon shifters and
was just kind of like reading through
some of her other stuff and Came Upon
This one and I so the premise is a
little bit different and I was like you
know what we're going to do that because
my other
options as previously discussed before
we started this morning was a motorcycle
club romance that I can't figure out how
to outline because there are so many
Side characters and um a book called
come for bigfoot that I am unwilling I'm
un I'm unwilling I'm like full stop all
right but like okay come for Bigfoot
come for bigfoot so Hannah I do want to
remind you we reviewed a book called The
Haunted
vagina allow me to explain I yeah allow
me to
explain so this
book three girls are going on a camping
trip high school girls going on a
camping trip come for bigfoot you say
this book not come for bigfoot yes is
three girls going on a camping trip with
some guys from school and one of their
dads they go out into the woods our main
chick just immediately bangs dad just
immediately bangs Dad we love a
confident Queen there's a lot happening
there good for her I'm glad she's happy
um but then the next day he's like
please quit looking at me like that
she's like like what he says a [ __ ] in
heat and as soon as I read that I was
like I no the dad said the dad said that
to the girl that he banged the night
before I was like no I don't I and then
it just gets progressively worse and we
we get into a lot of issues with with
beastiality and other things okay so
like there is an actual Bigfoot There's
an actual Bigfoot and just fun fact if
you want to read this book um Bigfoot's
name is Leonard it caught me off guard
and so I don't want you to be shocked in
the way that I was shocked by the fact
that Bigfoot's name is Leonard
what name would you have chosen I don't
know I guess it it didn't occur to me
that there were multiple where they
would need names well we find out at the
end of this first part that there are
multiples because the girls try to
escape and then they are caught by
multiple bigfoots and then
separated and that's the end of the
first
one so do all of the men on the camping
trip die do do the bfot just like take
the girls and then it's literally the
girls are hanging out the guys are
gathering firewood and then they wake up
in a
basement
so I feel like we could review no okay
no no I would have to leave out certain
things because like I'm not I'm just not
going to say those words and be recorded
we would have to leave out so much that
like it wouldn't we would lose the plot
you know I respect that thank you no I I
understand that and also when you were
saying like all of the side characters
in the MC book y I feel like that is a
little bit of a pet peeve of mine like I
don't mind when you're reading a book
and you're like oh the side characters
were interesting if a book about them
dropped in the future I would add it to
my list but that feels so different than
when like you're like reading a book and
you're like oh they are world build for
the like 20 Other Side characters and I
can't keep everyone straight nor do I
want to yeah it's too much yeah you're
like oh this is not what I was looking
for I just wanted story sprinkles of
everybody's history and it's hard to
know what's important for this book and
what maybe is coming in a later book
it's just a lot to keep track of well
okay we may have talked about this
before um Suzanne Wright uhhuh um who
we've reviewed a couple of her par
normal books but she started doing
contemporary romance um which I
thoroughly enjoyed
but I read several books out of order
cuz I didn't realize there was an order
so I read one book and was like man
there are a lot of Side characters that
they're referencing like I'm supposed to
know who they are and then I realized
it's because the parents of the couple
in the book I was reading each had their
own so that's where all of those side
characters had been developed
was like like the the main dude his
parents had a book The like I'm like oh
this
is this is more yeah than
I like had put together it's a tangled
web honestly maybe even only one of the
it's been a while since I've read it
even if it was only it was just like so
much World building within it that it
yeah it lost it a little bit for me
because I I could not keep all of the
side characters straight and that's like
one of the things with
her other books that I've read I did
enjoy the side characters and the books
that they got after but in this one
there are like two Side characters like
there's not it's like your main folks
the
villain a best friend and that's it like
there's not and so I mean come for
bigfoot didn't sound like it had that
many characters
listen frankly nope I'm leaving it okay
like that you're like hey Chelsea if you
want to the book you can [ __ ] read it
okay you read it I almost put I almost
put it in my car to be like you we I
don't know if we should burn this or
Sage it it's not mine so I can't burn it
but yeah I was maybe check with the
person who were they gifting it to you
or letting you borrow it I don't do they
want it back I'm going to give it
back you're like if I bring that book if
I leave that book in my house I will
have to burn so much Sage yes oh it'll
never be the same but like that's so
that's one of the things that I sort of
didn't like about this book was that it
there wasn't more like richness in it
but we're going to get into
itar we'll get there we'll get there so
we open with Jackson he is witnessing
his mother's murder oh he is very young
he's covered in blood he's screaming
it's really bad and he sees his dad
partially shifted attacking his mom um
they are wolves wolf
shifters and his dad turns and like
attacks him and like he has big open
wounds on his chest like did his dad go
feral well so then he wakes up and he's
covered in sweat and he is really angry
that he can't remember what happened
because that did happen but it wasn't
his dad he knows it wasn't his dad but
he doesn't no like he can't actually
remember so he has these nightmares in
which his dad is killing his mom and
hurting him but it was it wasn't his dad
so it's just a nightmare but all that
really did happen so um he then a little
while later he's in a clearing with his
dad and his uncle and the dad is the
alpha and he's telling Jackson that he
has to kill um the last Living member of
the family that killed his mom so they
know that the moon family killed his mom
and
so this is the last of the line Jackson
has to go kill that
person just to avenge yes to avenge mom
and they also killed the the previous
Alpha and that's how his dad became
Alpha um and so his dad who did not kill
his mom his dad who did not kill his mom
dad the alpha when his mom was murdered
does that matter no he came into the
alpha after after she was murdered so
sorry I may have accidentally put more
vodka in my tea than I realized and I'm
already realizing I was like oh I don't
have these characters straight I feel it
perpetually I love it a strong Breeze
gives me a
blush vodka definitely does same um so
you know Jackson is trying to refuse or
delay because the this is a a pre- wolf
is what they call it so shifters come
into their wolf at age 25 so this wolf
is a human is like as weak as a human
and he's like I'm not going to just like
go around like that that's [ __ ] up
like I'm not doing that yeah I'm not
going to like kill an
innocent relatively right right well he
is convinced this person is evil but
he's still is like that's against my
honor to take out someone intentionally
take someone out who's weaker than me
like that's really messed up I respect
yeah Jackson in certain ways is very
likable with that stuff so his dad is
like not having any of it so his uncle
finally steps in and says listen I
developed this drug uncle is the Healer
for the pack okay he said I developed
this drug you can give the pre wolf that
will prevent them from ever shifting so
it's not going to kill them in fact it
will probably be more torturous for them
because they will never access their
wolf but they will you won't kill them
and so um oh that'd be weird to just
like still have your wolf but never be
able to access it yeah like it's in
there but you can't shift you can't
communicate you don't get access to the
the power so okay the uncle is disabled
he he walks with a limp um and is Dad's
twin and should have been Alpha but
because he was born with a disability um
he stepped aside so his brother could
take the role and Jackson and the uncle
are very close cuz after his mom died
his dad kind of kind of did go a little
bit feral and just could not be there
for him and so his uncle really filled
that role so uncle is keeping the peace
and offering an
alternative um and and so
basically they have already killed the
two wolves that killed his mom they
already killed her pre killed them
previously um and so now they're going
to go after the child who was not there
um and is an adult now but um well that
feels unfair it's pretty [ __ ] up yeah
and the the concern is I don't remember
if they say it in this beginning part
but the concern is that they were two
very powerful Alphas um that killed his
mom and normally two Alphas would not be
allowed to mate like two Alphas that
powerful would not be allowed to mate
because they could make a double Alpha
and we don't know what that means
exactly but everybody's real freaked out
about it like we don't want that um
thank you for telling me that we don't
know what that means cuz as soon as you
said double Alpha I felt you saw it I
felt it I was like what's a double Alpha
you're like I don't [ __ ] know Chelsea
so um Jackson feels better about it he
finally agrees like okay let's do this
so then I forgot we're from Dual points
of view so then we we come to Everly she
works in a care home like a Memory Care
assisted living facility um she's a a
good one yes okay well sort of so she is
talking down a dementia patient she's
very kind very thoughtful um she winds
up getting scratched up pretty badly um
and she gets a phone call as she's going
to clean herself up after that she's in
serious debt um she used the money from
her parents' life insurance to get to
buy an apartment MH um but she makes
very very little money working as a
nurse in this care home and so it
doesn't cover her daily living expenses
even though she doesn't have to pay rent
um and so she's like freaking out and
then when she finally looks down to like
clean up her cut it's like pink instead
of open healing itself already yeah and
so um she's like um maybe I am an insane
person like that's the only answer so
she doesn't know who her parents are in
that capacity no idea so she is thinking
that because she was on the phone with
these debt collectors and like owes them
a [ __ ] ton of money by a certain point
that she was just distracted and like
yeah like oh I guess I didn't get
scratched up as bad as I thought I did
right she like talks herself down
basically um she rationalizes it she
does she does so then we go back to
Jackson and he is um stalking Everly and
he's like shocked that she's a woman
first of all he was like was not
expecting a She Wolf but that's fine
like whatever and also let me guess
wasn't expecting her to be smoking hot
yeah you're you got it so um he is he's
reminding him CU he sees her going to
work in this nursing home and like
interacting with people and she seems
really kind and he's like she doesn't
seem like the evil villain that she's
been made out to be but he's like
obviously she's like stealing from these
old people that's what she's doing like
she's running a scam like that's the
only answer um and it is fasc
how we all rationalize our mental
gymnastics dude yes yes and especially
in a lot of romance novels like you'll
like it'll take three sentences and they
will change their entire trajectory yeah
and you're like that what yeah how do we
get from a to be yeah we we really feel
good about
that that will not hold up in a court of
law Jackson doesn't give a [ __ ] cuz he's
like so mad and he feels all this
pressure to like prove himself to the
pack so even though it doesn't feel
right he is like willfully ignoring all
of his instincts how long ago was his
mom murdered I mean uh 25 years ago I
didn't say 25 mhm 25 years ago oh mhm
lowkey that's longer than I was
expecting yeah very long time so he's
about 28 and Everly is about to be 25 so
he's like she's just biting her time
until she comes into her power and then
she's like really going to [ __ ] stuff up
um so uh the power she doesn't know
about right okay so he decides he he's
like uh he smells her she smells amazing
like on the wind or whatever and he's
like she's trying to play me and it's
like she doesn't know you're
there what the [ __ ] are you talking
about Jackson the world does not revolve
around you my guy no he's very very
egocentric he cannot see outside de it
so he decides to follow her while she's
going for a run and he's going to like
jog past and inject her with the drug um
while they're out so um the uncle warned
him that the drug would trigger a
seizure and so he needed to be really
careful not to be noticed by any humans
and stuff so um he's trying to stay
focused on the plan but obviously she's
super SP super hot and her scent is
spicy
and so he starts calling her evil Spice
in his
mind which he does through out he like
changes the
spice I I like at one point he'll call
her
paprika
[Laughter]
no that would have been
better I liked that
better no
like witch Spice Girl name right he just
I would preferred he just call her cumin
at
some not
nutmeg I see no issue with it like hey
Cayenne what it
[Laughter]
do just saying a um can we also talk
about how like [ __ ] girl fashion is
1,000%
back and I'm like oh I was not prepared
for that no so we've been watching uh
one of the newer Seasons of Love Island
yeah and I looked at my husband and I
was like is this a theme night and he's
like I think that's just their clothes
Chelsea and I'm like oh see I really I
really thought each of the girls was
going for a different sp sp girl and
he's like nope that's just their
outfit
we don't understand Jen Z to be clear
obviously obviously I was trying to say
use Riz in a sentence recently and my
husband looked at me and was like not
like
that nope that's not how you use that
word no
no I was like you know there is some
jenz sayings that I have down which I
also I'm like I'm [ __ ] like I'm 32
you're
not like we're not that out of touch not
decrepit or anything no I I was
literally texting with my cousin
yesterday and was like listen I consider
myself a relatively techsavvy person but
I also feel that each day that passes
there's like another new thing that I'm
like nope not learning that yeah and I
was like and next thing you know I'm
going to be my parents who use voice to
text for all text messages for Google
searches while we are in public like we
will be standing in line at the grocery
store and they are like voiced to te I'm
like no stop stop just what are you
doing just like sh like please just like
you have to hold it a centimeter from
your mouth and Shout to be to like be
heard over the peripheral noise is this
really the best way to do this no and
yet I feel myself getting closer to that
I'm tiptoeing well so yesterday I like
sat down at work and I was like like oh
my God my back really hurts I'm like
what did I do I unloaded the dryer
before I left for work yesterday and I
was like ow
LS my back really hurt on Thursday but
it's because I tried a new workout on
Wednesday and I hadn't paid attent like
where it was it was a really deceptive
workout cuz it was like you're going to
do one kettle bell swing take a breath
you're going to do two B two kettle bell
swings take two breaths you do this up
to like 20 oh Hannah that is 210 kettle
bell swings I was going to say that's a
lot of kettle bell swings when you add
it all up well I like made it to like
the 10 and I was like we got this and
like when I made it to round 12 I was
like this is I'm feeling a shift but
I've committed at this point I finished
when I start yes and then I thought I'd
been using the 15lb kettle bell but I
was using the 25 lb kettle bell the
whole time no wonder your back hurtt
like I like picked my son up out of his
crib and I was like oh my God my hip
flexors I was like I I can't do the
stairs you sit on your butt and like
scoot up I've done that I managed to
make it up but it was
a it was actually when I had to take my
son back up to his crib for his nap a
little bit later I was like I'm you can
crawl I was like I can't carry you kid
I'm sorry you can make it buddy didn't
math right and now I'm too
sore yeah at least you did
something to
like I unloaded the dryer all I'm going
to say is I have taken things out of the
dryer and just like you just breathe
wrong yes and yeah and you're like I
don't know what I did yep but and I
think that's why cuz you're not like
whenever you're picking up a laundry
basket out of the Dryer no one's like
lift with your legs that like right like
when you're working that's a good point
when you're working out you're focused
on your form but when you're taking
stuff out of the dryer you're just
taking stuff out your it's not that
heavy it's fine yeah and then that's
what it is and then mistakes are made
right try better form next
time this is our PSA for the episode
please be intentional when unloading
your dryer and pay attention to the
weight you're using when doing kettle
bell
swings you're welcome yeah okay where we
live to serve so he is following evil
spice oh not paprika yes right he's
following evil spice so and is noticing
she's hot and not and he's planning on
injecting her but knows that she'll have
a seizure so he has to be mindful yes
okay so just as he's about to get to her
she falls like trips over nothing and um
he trips over her and drops the
syringe and so she's like oh my God I'm
so sorry like that I don't know what
happened and he's like I know what
happened like all wolves when they're
close to shifting for the first time get
really clumsy as like their wolves and
their humans start to like come together
um but he's real pissed about it so he's
a dick that's why I'm going to blame my
like what I'm going to blame my
clumsiness on in the future is my my
impending shift I'm about to shift for
the first time sorry can't help it
it's just a thing you you get
it you know how it goes about to shift
you understand um and so um but he's
real he's really pissed about it yeah
like he's really mad that he missed his
opportunity and that he dropped the
syringe because he's like [ __ ] like it's
under a bush or something he's like I
got to come back for that but I can't go
get it now so it's the whole thing and
so he is like actively reminding himself
not to fall for her like cute little
innocent act because she's like oh my
God I'm so sorry I'm so sorry he's like
maybe [ __ ] figure out your feet bud
and like takes off see the funny thing
is I had really thought that like I was
like oh this is going to be a meat cute
instead no it's not cute like I was
fully prepared for that to be the
trajectory like oh it ends up being a
meat cute and they have this sweet
moment no there's no sweetness there's
no sweetness and then Everly is really
pissed about it so she's back at her a
partner or her a partner her a
partner I haven't really been drinking
that much but I'm struggling so hard
with words I don't know why it's because
I'm close to my
[Laughter]
shift oh why didn't you say so sooner
yeah thank you so um she's back at her
apartment and she's really pissed she's
feeling very emotional because um she
she is realizing she's probably going to
have to sell her apartment and downsize
because of all of her debt um and she
loves this place like it's been her
consistency since her parents died she's
mad about the run in with Jackson I'm
about to be an [ __ ] and I respect
that everyone's financial situation is
different go ahead I know she is not a
good nurse if she can't afford her bills
and she has like minimal overhead
expenses m
like so that was one of the things that
bothered me about this book because
nurses generally make pretty decent
money yes right if she was an MA or
something I might understand a little
bit but like they say repeatedly that
she's a nurse and so it's very confusing
that she can't afford to feed herself
and pay her utility bill like yeah I
don't get it um and she doesn't even
have a car payment because she drives
her mom's old car
so it's just like one of those things
but also I'm like why would you buy an
apartment oh I guess that's the other
part of it is like the taxes on the
apartment but cuz they mentioned that at
one point but
like you are you are a very poor Steward
of your money yes like of the the money
your parents left you like
really but that's
that's we will suspend belief for many
things including including her financial
situation no I love that we're both like
no it's cuz we think a lot of nurses
right we do every nurse I know is great
and like is wonderful yeah like they
might not be driving a Rolls-Royce but
I'm like they they lead very comfortable
lives yes
yes so yeah ever just is is a bad nurse
is my take yeah she's a bad nurse cuz
she's about to
shift so her bestie comes over and is
talking to her she offers her
loan Everly refuses but then she's like
well what about what if you take a
roommate this place has a second bedroom
that has its own bathroom that could be
the perfect solution and so they come up
with a plan that she's going to hang the
sign at her gym um so that that way she
can call the gym for references it'll be
like somebody
she's kind of thinking they'll live a
healthier lifestyle and not be like
sloppy if they go to the gym I was like
that's being super generous to Jim Bros
but okay yeah I'm like I really think it
depends on what gym you remember at like
if we're going to Golds maybe be careful
no offense but
like you know I don't know if the random
Planet Fitness where I can't name a
single person there is really mm-m
I'm like that cuz it's not necessarily
and I could be wrong here but like it's
not giving the energy of like a crossfit
box where like like it is your community
and you know all of the people like it's
like oh she works out there yeah I go
like once a month I'm sure it's a great
workout you know yeah she's like I use
the treadmill like yeah so um I but I I
applaud the it is some thought until
like I don't want to I don't want to
post it on references
right so um the next day Jackson is
really pissed at himself for not
following her the night before um but he
needed space to like get his head right
cuz he was really thrown off by their
whole interaction and he's thinking she
probably went out the night before like
she probably went to party blah blah
blah which she didn't she hung out at
home with her best friend and so he's
shocked to see her come out before 700
a.m. he's like what but I assumed she
would be sleeping until noon but like
here she
is um so she goes to the gym and he is
watching from afar sees her hang the
sign um and after she leaves in her work
uniform he goes in and bribes the gym
manager to let him pay cash for a single
month membership and the guy's like I'll
handle everything personally if anybody
gives you any trouble like have them
call me like I'll vouch for you like he
gives the kid
it's like a 22-year-old kid he gives him
like a significant amount of money to
like do what he's asking um and then he
um takes down Everly's sign cuz he
realizes it's a perfect opportunity to
get close to her in private so that he
doesn't have to worry about humans
seeing her have a seizure he's like well
great
perfect okay but the injection is not
going to kill her and she'll still need
a roommate he could have left the sign
I might be missing the point
here maybe a little bit but that's okay
but I mean the point all I'm saying is
it'll just stop her from shifting it
won't kill her it won't kill her right
she will still be in a
financially so he's fully intending to
move in like not just going to see it
he's fully intending to move
that feels like so much effort for a man
who was going to run past her and shoot
her up with a needle and now he's like
let me do a whole roommate interview and
background check y let me compile
references why not just schedule an
initial interview and inject her then
yeah there are a lot of issues with this
story like the general plot is actually
really interesting and pretty cool but
then some of the details you're like why
nope yeah yeah so like I'm like buddy
let me help you ruin her life right I
was like just take a tour of the
apartment and inject her there why are
we being complicated leave her on the
floor yeah no one will know right and
then she can just do the next roommate
interview right but now she won't
because you took down her sign it's rude
um that's my biggest issue with Jackson
far it's the next level Petty for you so
um Everly is getting to work she gets a
call from some guy about the apartment
she's super shocked that it happened so
fast and she's kind of like thrown off
about it but she does get the info for
his references and says that she'll call
back later to set up a time to do a
tour so she calls her best friend um who
says that she's out of town because
bestie was going to be there with her so
she didn't have a stranger in the
apartment so she suggests meeting him
somewhere neutral um and like getting to
know him a little bit before scheduling
the tour for the next day I got to say
that is a great call I once had a my
cousin and I were roommates in Nashville
my cousin was getting married and moving
out I was doing roommate interviews and
a dude came over and I could not get him
out of my house fast enough and was so
unsettled and like my like my cousin was
like how'd that interview go I was like
I never want to be around that person
again I have to move yeah and to the
point where my cousin like do I need to
come back and like sleep at the
apartment tonight and I'm like no like I
think I'm I think I'm good but
like no a neutral location yep let's
meet him first check his references and
then we'll decide if we're going to go
through the whole rig some could go back
and tell [ __ ] like 24y old Chelsey
right maybe I'm have someone with you
yes yeah PSA that's that's our other PSA
for today and the bestie whose name is
Diana is like the the true hero in the
whole thing she's the only voice of
reason and she's the only one that makes
any sense she's like hey maybe get a
roommate hey maybe meet them in a safe
space yeah hey I'll be there with you
like let's do this together I got you
babe we all deserve a best friend like
that we do we all deserve a Diana so um
all the references came back great so
the next morning she meets Jackson at
the gym juice bar she figures it's an
area they're both familiar with plenty
of people around great great makes sense
so there are a bunch of Meat Heads
making a ton of noise um and all the
women in the the gym are like ogling
them and she's just getting like kind of
increasingly irritated by the whole
scene um and then finally the guy
getting the most attention comes over to
her um and she recognizes him as The
[ __ ] from the park that that yelled
at her um and she's noticing like he's
extremely hot but also extremely rude to
her still and um he is super genuine and
kind with the girl who's working the
juice bar like when he orders his
smoothie or whatever and as soon as he
like turns to look at her he's like Dead
face like hatred pouring off of him you
want me as a roomate or not right well
it's like Jackson you are the worst at
this like he supposedly Works in um
security and has done missions for the
pack and for various people who've hired
them in the past and I'm like no you
haven't buddy you can't get through a
five minute conversation with a girl
that you need to move in with without
being an [ __ ] you're terrible you
don't need to move in with I'm sorry you
don't he literally could have put it cuz
it can either be injected or ingested he
could have put it in her smoothie at the
Club at the gym nobody would have
known I'm so annoyed I know I know I
know I know I know okay so he's still
being an [ __ ] to her even though he
mm 1850 a month just let me move the
[ __ ] in basically yes so he tells her
that he's here for work he doesn't know
how long he's going to be here but he's
willing to pay more since it will be a
shortened lease and like whatever
whatever but he also says um that he
doesn't have time for quote
Dianes and um so she needs to like keep
her hands to herself and she's
like
um she gets Jackson she gets real mad
real mad dare you dare I say big mad I I
I think you should dare I think you
should I I will dare then so she then
tells him the apartment isn't available
and just storms out but she's like super
proud of herself like I nailed that walk
away like hell yeah she didn't did she
she didn't she gets to her car and
realizes she left her bag with her phone
and her keys and her wallet yep at the
at the table yep she's like well I'm not
going back in there
so she like I'm just going to stand by
my car I guess cuz she still has like a
little bit of like a a self-satisfied
moment because he looked so shocked when
he she told him off and she's like hell
yeah I'm not ruining that by going back
in there I'll just wait by my car I've
done worse things she's like
whatever she's like how long how long
will he be there I can Outlast him it's
fine she's like gym closes at 9: no I
don't really know but like that's what I
imagine so um Jackson is beating himself
up hard for being a dumbass he finally
realizes he [ __ ] it yeah um and uh she
shut down really hard on him she had
been trying to be kind and like sweet
and stuff um and then when she shut down
he started calling her icy
spice icy spicy is how I really wanted
to say
it I don't know what icy spicy is like a
winter mint perhaps
that's what I want him to really start
calling her winter mint
yes so
anyway hey
coriander not coriander that's good um
how do you know so many spices just off
the cuff like that they all start with C
except for
paprika cumin K Cor
Chipotle Chipotle
adobo oh my God okay um because I'm that
basic white girl that got all of the
like matching glass jars and so I have
all of the alphabetical right labels to
put on each individual
jar okay that makes sense I'm and so as
I've been trying to name them I've been
imagining my well now Rack in my head
all the ones I'm thinking of to be clear
are like Chinese five spice
exactly like no no I'm like taco
seasoning just really isn't a great
nickname hey Ranch powder how you doing
hey
so um he is trying to get himself under
control cuz he just feels so much rage
sitting across from his enemy and like
this person who is a threat to his pack
even though she doesn't know that
they're enemies he's like I know and
like well
and okay hear me he lost his mother in a
very very traumatic way and was injured
at the same time was injured at the same
time right
um given the age he was when that
happened it does feel like a lot of the
rage that he's internalized has been
like the
pack rage and like the like I'm like
good sir like this this girl it happened
25 years ago and she's 25 she wasn't
even yeah she wasn't even born yet when
this happened where is this visceral
anger towards this innocent person
coming from because like that wasn't
like it's not like he's been harboring
this against Everly for 25 years yeah
it's been against the moon family and
her name isn't even Moon anymore I
forgot to mention that it's Everly
Miller and so he is I think what it is
is it's his father's rage he's like so
disconnected from his dad cuz his dad
shut down so hard after the death of his
mate that like their anger towards this
family is the only connection that
Jackson really has with his dad yeah so
I think that that's a big part of it but
he's also just super confused because
nothing is making sense about her like
why does she want a roommate why is she
working as a nurse why does she seem
like so sweet and innocent like none of
this tracks at all um why does she seem
so normal for someone who's supposed to
be such a coldblooded killer threat to
our back what do you what do you think
she should be behaving like like is she
supposed to be like walking around
murdering people and taking candy from
babies like all I'm saying is even KGB
operatives had to work normal jobs
you've seen the Americans you understand
like
what kgp
op literally because I was talking to my
husband about the Americans yesterday
cuz he's never seen it
oh well he started rewatching
Blacklist is that what it's called yeah
yeah um I think and like is her husband
desp like in the first season and so I
was like oh have you ever watched the
Americans and he's like no I was like I
think you'd really like it you should
add it to your
list so yes he he believes that she is
on the level of some kind of
well-trained KGB assassin for how well
she is acting and so he tries to call to
apologize and then realizes that he
still has her bag so he grabs it to go
take it to her and he's like I will be
Charming like I will be Charming like
get it
together so he a whole like brne brown
motivational in the mirror he's like you
will be kind yes you will be witty yes
you will not punch her in the face like
you will be just lovely it feels like it
should be a low bar right and yet but
for him he's still tripping over it he
tries to explain to her that like listen
um I'm just I've been really busy and
I've been really frustrated um with all
of the attention I've been getting like
you saw the women in the the gym like
it's hard for me to move through the
world and like all this sh and all I
could think was
like the arrogance though I'm sorry I'm
sorry
Hannah pause you're saying this fool
went I'm so sorry I was such an [ __ ]
just too many women want me and I've
been so stressed about it
yeah and what kills me is that Everly is
like you know I kind of understand that
like if men were on top of me like that
all the time I'd get really frustrated
too which is like it men and women have
different experiences I think you know
so
okay she's like so sweet and empathetic
about it she's like oh my God I don't
get that kind of attention really but if
I did oh man yeah I'd be really
frustrated
too like I'm just
imagining one I wouldn't I could not
keep a straight face in that but like if
a client like if a like ever told me a
story like that I B
let's let's maybe have a conversation
about our grandos
right like what like hey oh I hadn't
recognize these narcissistic patterns
and traits before and here they are well
then it would be like Chelsea listen it
can never work between us like as soon
as you start to confront
it could never
work I understand the Allure that I hold
but it is it is wild that the those
clients exist they do they really do
they do it is insane yeah and it's so
weird to navigate it is really hard to
be like um like I don't want to say
thank you no thank you because no I
don't want to thank any part of it Oh
you mean this this random person that
I've only ever known via a zoom meeting
link oh
like but you know I'm like oh yeah this
is not this isn't that this is not that
but bless Everly for being such a
sweetheart and being like you know she's
so sweet yeah thank thanks for
explaining it I I Now understand yep my
gosh so she agrees to start over and
they're going to meet up for coffee the
next day and when he gets to the coffee
shop um bestie is there and um he's
trying to be patient about it but he's
just really experiencing so much
pressure from his dad like his dad's
calling him a lot um and so he's just
trying to like get this [ __ ] over with
so he turns on the charm for bestie um
and they all agree to go back to the
apartment um and he's like this is this
is very private that's great no one will
know when I drug her so except her best
friend well bestie is about to leave cuz
that's the whole thing yeah she wasn't
going to go to the apartment with them
just met at the coffee shop with them
well she went and was there when he did
the tour and then when they agreed that
he could move in and she left I see so
he offers way more money um again
because it's going to be shortterm and
um
so yeah does he work where is he getting
all of these funds from so the the pack
that he's a part of owns a security
company and there's like a couple of
other businesses that they own but he
primarily Works security okay so um
Jackson also then leaves and he is
moving in like the next day
so Everly is really panicking about this
whole thing having somebody in her space
um but he's very standoffish and she
can't really put her finger on it but
she's like she feels very tense and like
her hackles are up every time she's
around him um but she tries to push all
that away and just focus on getting him
settled so um he calls her into his
bathroom to explain the shower because
it's like a complicated shower head or
whatever and um she again trips over
nothing and winds up knocking his
toiletry bag down and a bunch of vials
and syringes pour out and she's like ah
the Roid Rage would explain it wouldn't
it she's like that definitely makes
sense um and then she go
oh it's steroids yeah I feel better now
yeah she's like I won't take it
personally then I know what we're up
against okay um so he's again a dick and
just tells her to get out
um so she then is talking to her best
friend they're making plans for Everly's
birthday which is coming up and um she
is just reminding herself that Jackson
is a means to an end like him being
there paying rent it they don't have to
be friends they don't even have to
interact like they just have to exist in
the same space um and so Jackson over
the next few days he's like trying to
find a routine getting into a rhythm and
he hasn't had another opportunity to
inject Everly because she leaves for
work early in the morning she comes home
late in the evening like they're just he
keeps missing
her so he's in the shower trying to come
up with a plan and his bathroom door
just burst open and there's Everly and
um she is shocked but obviously also
checking him out and um that has him
getting hard and he is just really mad
about that pause I'm missing something
why did she just bust open the bathroom
door we're going to find out in a second
okay so she's apologizing and like
stumbling over her words um she forgot
that she had left something in that
bathroom and she had her earbuds in
because she was coming back from a run
so he's usually out of the house at that
time of day so she just assumed he
wouldn't be there and she's not used to
living with anybody and so she just
didn't think about it and just walked
into the
bathroom that is her
explanation okay that's fine keep going
she says it's fine it's not fine so
um
yeah he is hoping that this will
actually present another opportunity for
him to inject her I'm sorry where is he
hiding a syringe while he's in the
shower he put pants on now um nope he
sends her
out and then he puts pants on and takes
a vial and he's like okay um I prefer to
think he had to hide it between his butt
cheeks and the
shower I'm comfortable with that
narrative um for all the other things
I've had to suspend belief for in this
book I can we can hold on to that this
is where it is um so he's like let's
have a glass of wine we're going to
celebrate being roommates let's just
hang out for a little bit um Let's
Pretend This Never Happened it's really
okay and so she's like that's cool thank
you and he puts the drug in her wine and
is planning to inject her once she gets
knocked out from the first dose because
it's more in in wow it's more effective
injected okay um and so he doesn't want
to take any
chances so
um he takes it over to her and he's like
just thinking about her and he's like
God she is really clumsy spice because
she keeps tripping over things and then
he's like but she's also beautiful spice
oh gosh and then he's like shut up idiot
like we have a job to do so he starts
like getting really down on himself
about all of that but he's like let's
just do a toast she's going to drink it
I can get out of here this will all be
over it's going to be okay so he toasts
her but she somehow breaks both of the
glasses on the toast and cuts herself
and um he's like what the [ __ ] like
you've got to be [ __ ] kidding me
right now
like he's really strugg he would be a
horrible spy because he is a horrible
spy he is a horrible spy he's doing a
terrible job so she's bleeding pretty
badly cuz she's got a cut on her thumb
and she goes to like put it in her mouth
and he's like don't do that and she's
like what what he's like there might be
glass in
it and then he's like why did I stop her
like if she got any bit of that drug it
would have been good why did I do that
and so he's just really really irritated
with himself um and she is like mumbling
to herself about not understanding why
she's so clumsy and like what what's
going on and he's
like she knows why she's so clumsy she's
getting close to her first shift like
she knows everybody
knows um so then he is cleaning her up
and winds up licking her blood for some
reason and does is like he starts
freaking out cuz he like feels a pole to
her um and oh because it's his mate yeah
what I know but he doesn't put put that
situation together um he's like nope
don't like that it's because she's
probably a double Alpha and is way too
powerful I got to get out of
here so whatever I really freaking out
um and um yeah I would be freaked out as
well if I cut myself and someone my
roommate licked up my blood the blood
off my finger yeah that would be awkward
wouldn't it um she's like I know she
feels this like crazy attraction for him
but like obviously he's a douchebag so
she's just like all over the place
um and
um she he has her his back to her he's
like trying to put space between them
but he doesn't leave the room and she um
apologizes again for breaking the glass
and says that one of her patients died
that day and um she's just having a
really difficult time like she was just
distracted by the death of one of her
patients she had her earbuds in she's
really really sorry she's sorry she
broke the glass like all she does
throughout this whole book is just
apologize really um and
so um
girl she's having a really difficult
time she's actually very sweet um and
then he um starts being really rude to
her again after being really sweet and
cleaning her up and she's like okay so
sweet and gentle one minute and then MH
massive douchebag the next like I'm not
I hate it here um
so she calls her best friend and they
she goes out with best friend MH so then
Jackson the next day he didn't sleep at
all really because he's so upset about
the whole thing and he hears Everly in
the kitchen so um he needs to just go do
this like he like he just he's like if I
don't inject her now I'll never do it
he's like I'm serious about it now um
and so he comes out and um in her little
Hello Kitty pajamas and he's like what
kind of wolf shifting double Alpha wears
Hello Kitty pajamas the [ __ ] someone who
doesn't know they're a shifter yeah
someone who has no earthly idea so she
asked about the scars on his
chest um and because he walked out
shirtless uhhuh yeah and he's like I I
don't like to talk about it and like
shuts her down completely um and when
her phone rings it's a perfect
opportunity
um to to dose her smoothie that she was
making but he just can't bring himself
to do it and he's like what the [ __ ] is
wrong with me and he's like very upset
so um he knows that he's missing
something because her emotions are too
sincere but like she's a moon so even
though she's calling herself something
else he knows who she is like he he
knows that she's evil
so um
yeah he's like he's he's a disaster so
he's like feels he's betrayed everyone
he loves he's betrayed his mother's
memory he's betraying his pack like all
this [ __ ] because he can't dose this
girl so
um he calls his uncle after Everly
leaves for work he calls his uncle um
and he's like I don't think she knows
she's a wolf like I don't think she
knows anything about any of this like
she is truly innocent like I can't do
this and his uncle tells him that um he
gets it that Jackson is a really good
man but if he doesn't do it to restrict
her wolf before she shifts for the first
time then he's going to have to kill her
because when her wolf takes over she's
going to be absolutely bloodthirsty and
uncontrollable just like her parents and
so like he if he doesn't he's going to
save her life by dosing her is what
Uncle tells
her um H
yeah so he's like I get it but it still
his uncle is emotionally manipulating
him he's not okay even a little bit just
okay just just had to ask yeah he should
be he really should be um because I
think you I think you probably know so
this story is interesting in some ways
and in others is
like I know exactly where we're going I
got it I get it okay so anyway is at
work she's doing her thing um and her
boss is like abusing one of the patients
like pulling on her hair and stuff and
Everly starts to feel something in her
chest that doesn't feel right
um and she starts to realize that her
boss has been abusing this particular
patient for a long time because she sees
like older bruises when the boss leaves
the room and so um the boss and tells
her that she's being written up for
questioning her um with the patient and
so um the the boss goes to to write her
up and Everly won't back down but she
really does not feel right like she
feels something is really wrong and
she's like I can smell her anger and her
fear and that she had oatmeal for
breakfast like the [ __ ] she's like I
don't I am in fact an insane person
she's like I'm an insane person
I have old factory hallucinations
hallucinations yes she's like am I
having a stroke or a hallucination who
knows I did a crisis assessment Once on
This like high school kid who said he
was having old factory hallucinations
and I it was the most interesting I was
like I don't what was he smelling
that's the thing it was very
vague um he's like I smell something
yeah
smelly like literally is how it felt
like the assessment went yeah uh cuz I
feel like he was also like yeah
sometimes I feel like a hand holding my
wrist
down can can you move your wrist when
that happens I don't
know okay I'm this is this is not a
great crisis assessment I don't know how
to help you here like I really want to
but all of these answers are so vague
and so just
like you know I never thought to try
I've been I've been smelling
things like like markers like what Like
Glue right you're like okay so when you
smelled the smells was it after you had
intentionally huffed some other like
WD40 like
like yeah it was the the it truly
sounded like a kid who'd done drugs for
the first time and he was like hands are
weird you
know he's like I I noticed that I can
like see colors
like yeah and I'm like okay so
like w does that make you want to hurt
yourself or hurt anyone else or what are
we doing here like how do we what's our
response to this and he's like I don't
know it's just weird right and I'm like
I don't I don't think we need a hospital
for this no maybe maybe some water and a
nap you know like maybe maybe get a
banana in you just some fresh
fruit get a little son you'll be fine
you just needed some potassium that was
the whole
problem avocados have more potassium
than bananas fun fact what yeah that is
a fun fact because I can't eat bananas
they give me nightmares I don't know why
I I don't know huh I don't know why
Hanah we've been friends for 3 years I
really feel like you've been burying the
lead here yeah I can eat banana bread
fine but a banana will give me a
nightmare yeah and they're truly bizarre
so the most bizarre one that I've ever
had after eating a
banana because every few years I'm like
I bet I could though like that's
ridiculous right like that's ridiculous
and so I'll have one and then I deeply
regret it but the most bizarre one was
that I was at the daycare where I used
to work okay and um Sarah Palin was
there and of course she was teaching my
class of um four-year-olds how to ski
shoot
and in the playground obviously and the
funny thing is I know exactly what
outfit she's
wearing it's the only one she really
wears it's the only one it's the only
outfit she has when she's not on a press
circuit yes yes it's the one you know
the one the vest it's the vest it's the
[ __ ] best it's the vest but her hair
is still the same up yeah in the glasses
yes so that that's happening and all of
a sudden there is a tornado coming and
so I am panicking trying to get all the
kids into the building right I don't
know where Sarah went um she was gone so
then did she become the wicked witch is
that where this no like maybe she was
the tornado who knows but and her feed
rolled back under the
house once I took her
shoes the same pair of hiking boots that
she wears every time red glittery ruby
red hiking
boots Sarah they're very practical so
got a great tread on them you
know so one of the kids takes off and so
I chase the kid cuz I'm freaking out
like this kid can't die on my watch
right so I like scoop her up and toss
her in the door and then they close the
door and they leave leave me out there
and I'm just standing there and there's
tornado coming I'm like what do I do now
and a very large man with very long
locks comes and just gives me a hug and
we just we just said the serenity prayer
and then I assume we died because the
tornado came and then I woke
up that's what happens when I eat
bananas okay so like
I feel like you could have a very
successful YouTube or Tik Tok Channel
just called like banana nightmares or
something banana night the the only time
you post is when you eat a banana and
you're just like telling the story of
the banana dream the next day you know
maybe I
will I I mean they're they're
something fascinating yeah they are
they're okay anyway but
where where were well Jackson's having a
nightmare oh okay Jackson is having a
nightmare so we're cutting to Jackson
afteron uh Everly realized the patient
was being abused didn't feel good in her
chest was getting written up all that
stuff right so he is we're also flashing
back in time he hears her on the phone
hears her leaving to go to work um he's
her making birthday plans and it's like
oh [ __ ] she's going to shift
today um today
I done [ __ ] up it's not just like
around the birthday it's on the bir he's
like so I done [ __ ] up so um he
follows her
um and
um
so we left Everly at work right here's
her she leaves she comes back and then
she decides to go for a run Jackson
decides to follow her
so um she is going really fast while
she's on this run and he's like M yeah
she's about to shift this is faster than
human speed she's shifting in a park
full of humans good love it great so um
and at this point Jackson well his uncle
obviously told him you need to kill her
or you need to give her the injection
before she shifts or you'll have to kill
her Jackson is like very aware she does
not know what's like she just is thinks
she is a human who is now going to break
the Olympic right like trial time she's
breaking records yeah yes yes uh okay so
he is very aware of the issue and it's
like oh [ __ ] she's about to shift she
does not know what's about to happen we
are in public she could hurt a lot of
could hurt a lot of people I I'm
guessing it's a I need to help fix this
I'm hoping that yes so he takes off she
shifts in the woods so she had veered
off the path into some trees shifted um
and um she starts making this like
rumbling noise and his wolf answers and
he's like what the [ __ ] are you doing
buddy like that's weird um but he pins
her so that she can't get to the humans
um cuz there's like a playground right
there so he like pins her so that she
can't and he has a danger no
okay and gets her he gets her into a
choke hold and he's like I could I could
just go ahead and finish it like I could
just go ahead and kill her but then he
just can't um and um this is really his
last chance because she's vulnerable
from her first shift but she shifts back
as he's like choking her and um she's
crying and he's
like
well [ __ ] so he goes over and steals a
blanket from some somebody who's not
looking to like wrap her up because
she's now
naked um and uh I appreciate that her
clothes did not spontaneously return
they did not I feel like there was a
book I read where they were trying to
exp they could shift with their clothes
because of like the magic that they used
while other people shifted and were
naked because of like how they shift so
half of the people would shift and like
return clothed and I'm like no commit or
don't I don't think you can be wearing
denim and then turn into a bird and then
suddenly be wearing denim again in your
human form yeah that's difficult for me
to process unless that little bird is
wearing denim pants I don't want it oh
my God I would like to see that drawing
paranormal books would be so much more
fun if
everyone an wearing tiny clothes likea
just a little bird wearing tiny pants
Suzanne Ray if you could assist me with
this Suzanne listen and Charlene I just
don't know how to say your last name
Charlene heart heart
heart we're so
sorry we're trying to disrespect but I
said something about SKC New York the
other day and so now I'm like harn I
don't know that sounds wrong I don't
know it's like all of the random lakes
in
Florida yes okobi Oki fi that's a swamp
anyway so um he wraps her up in a
blanket he's like I got to get her back
to the car yes and so she is absolutely
flipping the [ __ ] out like AB like of
course she is flipping the [ __ ] out as
anyone would so Jackson is carrying her
to the car and all she can remember is
running one one minute and then like
naked on the ground with Jackson on top
of her the next her the next yeah she's
like um the [ __ ] um and he's like just
stay calm just stay calm like just be
cool be cool I will help you get out of
public right don't be suspicious like
just be cool so they get stopped by an
old woman and yet them going across the
field going don't be suspicious don't be
suspicious in while she's naked in a
blanket right right and he's cradling
her to his chest she's crying her
eyeballs out yeah it's going to look a
bit sus no matter how how much you tell
her don't be Jackson is going to be
arrested like it doesn't happen but this
old woman is like oh my gosh is she okay
and he's like diabetic emergency and um
great cover yep and the doesn't explain
why she's naked but great cover well
she's like all wrapped up in the blanket
so you can't see her but still okay
she's not wearing any shoes but whatever
so the old woman has a little dog with
her and the dog is like barking and
growling at Everly and so Everly growls
back because she can't stop it and
Jackson just yells I think she's
convulsing and like runs
away which I thought was hilarious
um like oh no like got to get her out of
here it's the diabetes we got to
go what we run fast we can diabat
this yeah um so they make it back to the
apartment and Jackson will not speak
okay um and she is extremely horny and
is like sniffing all up on him and she's
standing there naked and confused and
scared and um she has no idea what's
going on and so she can smell that he's
turned on too and finally he tells her
that she's a wolf and that he's been
following her in case she changed and
because she would be a danger to the
humans and um we kind of buried the lead
there Jackson left out a little bit of
it and I've been following you for your
own safety and the safety of the
humans I'm good and for the safety of
others I've kept the syringe in my
pocket have you heard that um Tick Tock
sound where this girl is singing she's
no longer a danger to herself or others
no I'll find it my sister sent it to me
it's very funny yes somebody made a cake
and the sound
is playing behind it and it just says no
longer a danger to myself or others and
they're like lighting a candle
incredible I'll find it but anyway so um
she
is she finally steps back because she is
realizing that he knew all along so like
it breaks through all of her horniness
and fear that like he knew that she was
going to shift and he must know much
more about her than he has led her to
believe and he's not telling her so
she's just like okay I'm just going to
go shower [ __ ] this
so um but being an [ __ ] because he's
just so hot she was like that makes
sense this one she can connect all the
dots on yeah yeah yeah okay sorry keep
going yeah so no Jackson is also
freaking out and he is like Baby Spice
turned into Scary Spice
[ __ ] a dude and um she's definitely a
double Alpha and way more powerful than
they realized and so um so as they
speculated but also let me like she's a
double Alpha she's more powerful but
like considering they been like she'll
be like if they're a double Alpha be
bloodthirsty and crazy with one breath
she'll kill us all and you're like what
well so the the thing seems to be
because it comes up in later books in
this series that follow other people is
that um there are not really any double
Alphas because as soon as they are
recognized they are killed immediately
so like nobody knows what kind of power
a double Alpha has they're just killing
all of them for fear of the unknown yeah
so it's like an urban legend at this
point that's a shitty approach yeah it's
pretty awful it's pretty awful um so he
is freaking out Jackson's freaking out
he's like I am failing in a spectacular
fashion but she smells so
good so um his phone your scented mate
buddy yep yep MH MH but he can't get
there that even with the smell even with
the smell he's not getting there I feel
like half of the Paranormal wolf shifter
books like as soon as they smell them
they're like you're minding you're no
one else's and if anyone ever [ __ ]
looks at you I'll slice their throat
like that is a bit of an overreaction
and this man smells her and it's like
well that's Pleasant anyway back to what
I was watching anyway let me answer this
call for my dad like that's literally
what happens so then the next so later
in the day Everly wakes up she realizes
she basically slept the entire day um
and she gets out of bed and finds
Jackson dressed up for a night out and
she's like the [ __ ] are you doing and
he's like well you're going out with
your friend I'm going with you she's
like
you're not invited where's your invite
my guy and he's like you don't
understand like you're still in your
first shift it's a full moon like we
need to be really careful here I'm just
coming as protection I promise like I'm
not going to ruin this night for
you um so uh her best friend shows up
they all go out um
and he's like oh my God she's so
beautiful is the whole thing so they out
to dinner and they have actually a
really nice time like a really lovely
time all together um is it just the
three of them okay and Everly keeps
reminding her herself that Jackson is a
liar like he is he is a liar he's hiding
things from her so no matter how hot he
is or how good he smells like she's not
we're not getting into that good for you
girl hold those boundaries yeah my my
guards say she needs to keep her guard
up even though he's a smoke show
so um I don't know
so um my husband and I just started the
new season of Love is Blind yes and
there's a girl and she is tiny and cute
and adorable and beautiful um but ended
up in a love triangle and she definitely
um assumed the clothes and should not
have and he went for the other girl and
she's just like telling him off in the
pots and is like you're going to need
your epip pen when you see how hot I am
like I don't think she said hot like
when you're going to you're when you see
what you missed out on like just one of
the you're going to choke when you see
and I'm like but not even like you're
going to need an epip pin you're going
to need your epip pin this [ __ ] knows
he has allergies and is using it to
insult him which I thought was [ __ ]
hilarious that is amazing you're going
to need your epip PIN when you see me
and everything you missed out on I'm
like good for
her just really yeah like I looked at
him like when you choke and see this
smoke show was like kind of
like you're going to choke on them words
son yep I get it we'll be very curious
because we have just made it through the
Pod so I have no idea what happens in
the rest of the season that's very
exciting please renew your net going
have to getf I'm going to have to get
Netflix again I will a coworker texts me
at 6:30 in the morning go Chelsea it's
the best season in year
that okay I'm like the [ __ ] are you
doing at 6:30 what a strong open but
also maybe go back to bed yeah whatever
Hanah what are you doing at 6:30 in the
morning I would bet reading because how
well are you going to hit 300 books a
year I am reading because I can't sleep
but I'm also not texting you about love
is blind or anything else at 6:30 in the
morning you can I could I won't I'm not
good at ping before nine no yeah no in
my general approach to texting I am
unfortunately that person that I'm like
I'm either going to
respond within 5 minutes or five weeks
and I apologize and then at some point
it just gets we we too much time has
passed it is weirder for me to respond
now well what I feel weird about is that
when I don't sleep sometimes I'll be
like oh my God I wonder how so and so is
doing didn't she have that thing and
then I want to text people to be like
hey I'm thinking about you what's going
on with that thing but it's 3:00 in the
morning so I'm not going to do that so
sometimes I will schedule a text for the
next morning at like 9:30 so that it's
not like oh I was thinking about you at
3:00 a.m. like um when I was pregnant
and had like horrible insomnia and I
like it wasn't even where I was like
laying there reading in the middle of
the night I just like [ __ ] it I may as
well get through my work inbox and so at
like 3:00 a.m. I'd go into my office and
sit down at my desk and start responding
to emails and I was like I'm going to
look like a crazy person so I would
delay them I would schedule all of the
emails to be within normal business
hours all of those were written at 3:00
a.m. I love that you get it yeah but
then by the time I fell back asleep I
like had a little bit more like
flexibility in the morning cuz I'm like
oh I've responded to my whole inbox
there's like nothing immediately needed
from me I can ease in yes yeah I can
ease into it kind of worked great okay
I'm sorry they're they're having a good
time great time a great okay not a good
a great time great time and um Jackson
is wrestling with the fact that even
though her parents killed his mother
that she has done nothing wrong like she
is lovely and he's supposed to kill her
so after dinner they decide to go to a
bar and he realizes that this is really
bad because Everly is putting out mating
pheromones from her first shift and so
um
they wind up almost getting into a fight
with a group of men and he like whisks
her out and um they start going at it in
the cab on the way home she like mounts
him essentially and he um decides that
he's just going to finger her because he
can't have her he's like so I'm not
it'll be totally fine if I just get her
off with my hands
um it feels like the loopholes in the
southern Christian Church
100% oh no I'm like oh God's
loophole you mean the butthole yes the
uh gar funcle and o is that who yes [ __ ]
me in the ass cuz I love Jesus yes yeah
yeah mhm great sketch yeah for the
record it is very good it's so funny yes
um and when you grew up in the southern
Conservative Christian Church it hit H
it does hit different harder than you
expect it hits different I still have a
highman none of it counted like Okie
do I knew a girl who was leaving to go
on the mission field for a year and the
night before she left she was like we
had anal that way I'm still a virgin on
the mission field I'm like I really I
don't know if the Hyman is the most
important I feel like we're focusing on
the wrong part yeah yeah yeah if the if
the highman is the the connection to
God no I hated that
sentence okay all right good good good
yeah so
anyway um he freaks out as he's like
getting her off and like shoves her away
and he like this is a really bad idea
and she wants answers and he like he
can't give them and there's all this
tension and he's like I don't know what
the [ __ ] I'm doing so um she asks like
okay so if you're not going to [ __ ] me
why didn't you let me go home with
somebody else because I would have like
and he's like yeah that's why and um
he's like well it's not too late you
could go back out and pick somebody up
stop it Jackson no yep yep yep yep yep
yep and like he would be if if she tried
to leave yeah to go [ __ ] someone else
well and her response is cool thank you
for that go pack your [ __ ] get out by
the time I get back you should be gone
yeah your rent money is not yep worth
this [ __ ] and he's like what and
he's like but but women think I'm God's
Gift she's kicking me
out and then he's like of course she's
kicking you out you're a [ __ ]
idiot and just like follow her inside
like a sad little puppy so Everly is so
incredibly angry she can't even like
form thoughts but she's also super horny
which apparently is part of the first
shift and so she wants to both beat the
[ __ ] out of Jackson and climb him like a
tree so
um she just keeps telling him you need
to get the [ __ ] out you need to get the
[ __ ] out I need to go for a run so um
he's like you can't leave and she's like
why why you told me to go pick somebody
up why can't I leave and he still won't
answer her and so she's like really good
really good talk leave your key under
the mat I'm
out so Jackson's dad calls again they
felt Everly shift because she's so
powerful and so he is quote big mad that
Jackson hasn't killed her yet well he
hasn't yeah he's he's been a terrible
assassin he's doing a very terrible job
on multiple levels so um he realizes
that he can't do it but he can't tell
his dad that because then dad is just
going to send somebody else he's like so
he's feeling very protective he's really
confused so he he leaves but he doesn't
he's just he really hasn't he's very
he's very stupid oh my God yeah he's
very stupid like I just want to like
clap in Jackson's face and be like get
there faster figure it the [ __ ] out bro
so he he doesn't get in his car to leave
he goes for a walk and then he starts to
hear screams and he's like there it is
and he takes off and Everly has shifted
in wolf form in the middle of downtown
and people are flipping the [ __ ] out um
so
he I'm also like okay Jackson if you
were that worried and you knew that this
was the inevitable outcome follow yes
for as much as you were following her
kind of the worst yeah in a lot of ways
like I really want to root for Jackson
but I'm like Jackson you are doing
yourself no favors none not a single one
so um she hears him talking like he runs
up and she hears him and runs at him and
people start screaming like you got to
move you got to run like and he just
doesn't move and starts petting her like
a dog and just kind of talking to her
like she puts his her paws up on his
shoulders and he's like hey honey like
you're okay everything's okay and he's
like it's just a dog like while he's
like walking her away he is the worst
he's so
bad and so they get her into some trees
and she shifts again and he has his
duffel bag because he had packed his
clothes so he like pulls out something
for her to put
on and um he walks her home and more
freaking out and Jackson finally starts
answering some of her questions um all
all W wolves reach their Prime at 25
um and it's harder for her because she
doesn't have a pack he tells her that
her parents were exiled um when he was a
child he doesn't lie exactly he just
says that he was very young when it
happened so even though he knows the
whole story he's kind of like I was very
young when she asks what happened um so
that he doesn't answer um also like
there's clearly something where he
doesn't remember all of what happened
right which I interpreted as
like the standard Trope of
he'll have the memory at some point and
unlock the oh this is what actually
happened right and her parents were
exiled he does know that that's why and
then they were killed only about 5 years
ago so they moved around constantly to
like oh be on the RO I missed that well
I didn't bring it up because we didn't
really know it so Everly is now putting
together that that's why her parents
were running her whole life that's why
they never settled anywhere was because
they were afraid they were going to be
found and then they were in fact found
so when she used the life insurance
money it wasn't money that had been
sitting there since she was born it was
like she got that within the last five
years yeah got it yes yeah so um he
tells her that all new wolves all they
want is to feed or [ __ ] and that he's
going to help her and she's like hey you
right she's like why you've been a
colossal douchebag from the moment I met
you like why um valid response so you're
you're just going to be nice to me now
to get in my pants this is really cool I
love this journey for both of us like
get the [ __ ] away from me um and he's
like I'm just trying to keep things safe
I'm just going to help you get through
this like I don't have any ulterior
motive and she's like sure um except
killing you or right loving you forever
right which will it be so um what what
if it end what if the whole book ended
with him just killing
her that would be refreshing I don't
know if I could forgive you for that
even though you didn't write it if you
led me on this whole journey and he just
[ __ ] kills
every I don't I don't know if I could
trust you again who will Who will know
we I've never trusted Rebecca yaros
after she killed someone yeah and I like
like with like Kindle like first of the
month like books or however first of the
month like their Bone
Thugs no oh my god oh great song You
excellent um I've downloaded other books
by that author and every time I go to
read them I go I can't risk it again the
tra response the Betrayal the drama
response oh my God okay sorry so so they
[ __ ] yeah that's where we are what yeah
would we call this their solidifying
[ __ ] no no we would not like it's hard
and dirty and fast and it's like
literally clearly just to like keep her
wolf together at Bay
yeah um so she bites him as she comes
but or tries to but he like pulls her
hard away from him um and flips her over
so that she can't bite him again cuz she
doesn't realize she doesn't know okay so
um so she can feel that he's about to
pull out of her and she like clamps down
on some internal muscles and won't let
him and um there was a girl on
Temptation Island who said she had that
skill and I thought about it a lot where
she said she she goes I I can clench so
hard a man can't get
out what I
is that supposed to be like a an
attractive thing like a good thing no
it's not right I'm like oh I didn't
realize you lived in the Omega verse
right right right I've locked it yeah he
nodded inside me and it locked and now
we're in this position for at least 30
minutes right oh my God oh my God all I
could think was like that's very
different from a pop and lock but not I
guess not that different it's different
it's not that different
sorry I'm so
sorry not not that but yeah did no some
just a little there's some
differences it's a VIN diagram it's a
VIN diagram oh my God okay where were we
oh my God we need to land This Plane
this is going forever okay so he's like
I can't come inside you cuz you'll get
pregnant she's like I'm on birth control
don't worry about it and he's like um
I'm sorry you shifted do you think your
birth control works on a wolf uhhuh
exactly it it would never on a wolf yeah
[ __ ] he just said it with so much
attitude it just got me I was hoping we
could move faster we will now I will not
bring it up again we're 50 EP we yes you
will not in this episode this
episode you're like I know we're 50
episodes in but not anymore on this one
not in this episode just the next book
where a character is named or they are a
wol I said it worse okay so um she's
like I'll get the morning after pill
don't worry about it he's like you don't
Cal get it so he cleans her up um she
feels really nice like being cuddled up
with him but she's like this is just sex
we're just getting through my first
shift it's just sex so then he puts her
in the bed and leaves and she's like
good that's good that's a good reminder
not to not to have any feelings MH um
Jackson sits up all night waiting for
her to come like pawing at his door and
she never does and he's like pouting
about it
so you mean this [ __ ] in
heat exactly so um [ __ ] Jack he's
like she tried to bite me and he's like
that could have been her trying to kill
me but I don't think so I think I think
it was meeting behavior um which she
wouldn't understand and he's like if
she's pregnant my dad will kill the baby
if Everly even lives enough to have it
like this is really bad um and so
um uh
he she's really anxious he finally gets
goes out of the room the next morning
she's really anxious um about
controlling her wolf and he gives her
some very sweet like stuff about it and
um she's like holding herself back and
he realizes
like she's gaining control quicker than
he thought but also that she's putting
up a lot of walls towards him and he's
like I should be glad about that why am
I being a bit I he is he's a [ __ ]
Jackson is a [ __ ] he's a [ __ ] and um
he's telling himself that like this is
just easy [ __ ] like don't worry about
it like that's the conversation he's
having with himself he's disgusting so
then
um he he's like teasing her like they're
having like a cute moment and he's like
he's all over the place so then anyway
what he's all over the place he's all
over the place he can't get himself
together okay so Everly is
um at work she's having a good time and
then she there's another runin with her
boss who is very obviously abusing a
patient and so um she starts to feel
herself shift and she's trying really
hard to gain control and she like calls
out in her brain um for Jackson she's
like I need help through their bond
correct so Jackson's camped out outside
her office he shows up Saves the Day
pulls her out everything's great um he e
drops on the boss and basically they are
going to say that Everly is the one
that's been abusing the
patients um that's what like the plan
the boss has come up with um so they go
to um need to pin the blame on other
people if you just like don't do it
don't abuse the patience right which
would be the ideal um but that's not
where we are like aam's Razer so so
Jackson is very very sweet he's like
we're going to get through this
everything's going to be okay and um she
starts to wonder why her parents never
told her that she's a wolf like how
could they just let this happen to her
cuz she's so confused well and
especially like they passed away when
she was 20 right they had plenty of time
they had some
time
so Jackson says it's probably for her
protection okay um and they start
sharing a really sweet moment where he's
talks about how his mom died and his
uncle is really the only one who stepped
up to care for him and stuff um I'm sure
he is and she reminds herself that like
this is not a thing and so she doesn't
ask any followup she's like we're not
connecting mhm so
um then she falls
asleep she's full of questions he
answers some of them um but not
revealing how tied their history really
is um and he takes her out to run as a
wolf like takes her into the woods they
have a really sweet moment um and still
doesn't realize their mates nope n oh my
God so they're um they're having a great
great time they bang this is a
solidifying [ __ ] when they're out in the
woods um and she is um she realizes that
he has her pin so she can't bite him cuz
he still hasn't explained that biting
him is mating behavior so she's like she
realizes it um so she bites his lip
instead of biting his neck um and her
wolf immediately like claims him as soon
as she tastes his blood um and so then
when they're back at the apartment
Jackson's flipping the [ __ ] out because
it's too late like The Mating bond has
already started so even though he hasn't
claimed her back she has claimed him and
so it's like a whole thing well and I
feel like at least in every like
Paranormal shifter book I've ever like
the that Bond naturally progresses right
unless you so like okay she claimed you
you didn't have to claim her for it to
to start yeah yeah so he tells her like
we cannot exchange blood during sex we
cannot do that and um he tries to
explain mating and she's like we'll just
get divorced bro like it's not that big
of a deal and he's like no no like it's
like a
chemical
marriage like I don't know another word
to like you know this is it like there
is no going back from this um and then
my notes say then somehow they're
[ __ ]
again laws so um she asks if all wolves
are like this while while they're
[ __ ] like if all wolves are this big
and this intense and everything and um
he flips out he's like you will never
find out like you will never know that's
it and so yes he's he's clearly not
claiming her yeah clearly not never so
she um wakes up in bed with him she
wants to ask about his scars again um
and finally he says that he was attacked
when he was three um and she cries for
him and just says like I really hope you
got whoever did it like I really hope
that you got whoever did it and he says
yes but refuses to discuss it further so
she doesn't realize like his pack killed
her parents yeah and so that
like yeah they got them right whoops so
um she's horny
again uh but then um she has an email
from work saying she's suspended it's a
whole thing so they go see her best
friend who's the attorney to like deal
with it so Jackson is struggling to
function in general because of all this
and he is growling at any man that gets
anywhere near her um and he's very
distracted by the is that like like I
feel like some books like oh until the
bond is like fully imp place they're
like more possessive more territorial
that's what it seems like but he doesn't
even seem to really ful understand that
the bond has started like he's still in
denial hoping that like they've avoided
it somehow so because he's really stupid
he really so um his dad called and
basically told him that um to come home
that he's sending someone else and that
he is a terrible disappointment to
everyone so um not wrong her bestie puts
a a pi on the whole situation with her
boss tells her not to worry about it um
and Jackson is really distracted like
they're they they're going to lunch
they're walking around town and he's
super duper distracted watching the
street and stuff and
um they when they're getting back to the
apartment parking garage Jackson is
fixated on getting her inside he's like
rushing her inside and
um then he hears someone coming up
behind him but it's too late like he he
missed it and they shoot him in the back
um and his last thought is that he he
failed to protect her um as he feels
himself like dying um so Everly is
struggling against four men she just saw
Jackson be murdered and um she is she
seriously [ __ ] one of them up like real
bad to the point where he is dead and um
she feels some kind of like heat come
from her when she's fighting him and
then um as she's trying to fight the
others they finally inject her with
something and she blacks out what was
the heat we don't know we just know she
felt it this one's dead who knows okay
so um she stops struggling eventually
because she realizes that she has
nothing to fight for because Jackson is
dead and she can't feel her wolf after
they injected her so then she wakes up
in a trunk and they are
um yeah they're they're talking about
how she's a double Alpha she was glowing
she didn't know that when she was
fighting them she was glowing and stuff
and so um I also burn when I glow yeah
yeah it is a common problem yeah so um
oh it's just cuz she was
glowing so so um she finally starts to
feel her fingers and stuff and um the
car stops the trunk opens and she looks
into Jackson's eyes and she's like what
the [ __ ] and then that's the end of the
chapter and then Jackson wakes up in the
garage paramedics are working on him
there are cops everywhere everybody's
trying to talk to him so he did die but
because he's a wolf and because the
silver they used silver bullets because
the silver didn't stay in his system his
body started to repair itself um and
he's coming to terms with the fact that
his father okay them killing him like
his father had to AOC that um yeah like
get Everly at all cost we don't care
about casualties even if the casualty is
my son and he's like yelling for Everly
he's like asking them where's the woman
what happened to the woman and they're
like we're still trying to figure out
this guy who appears to have been mauled
by a an animal and struck by lightning
that one's super confusing and the cops
and the paramedics are like joking
around and he's like okay [ __ ] you guys
so he just gets up and they're like no
you can't like you're going to die and
he's like have a great day everybody
[ __ ] off and like gets in the car and
drives away he's like imagine how Wild
that would be to be the param I know I
was okay time of death
11:57 time of awake and driving away 122
yeah 12:02 you're like he just like told
me to [ __ ] off what we'll continue to
monitor like
what but like that's the energy where
they're all just like flabbergasted
about it but he catches her scent he
knows where they're going so we're back
to Everly um she's being carried through
the woods and she's still pretending to
be incapacitated even though she can
move um because she realizes that it's
Jackson's dad like they're almost
identical but he has a little bit of
silver in his hair and so um he
orchestrated all of it he keeps calling
her Moon which she has never heard that
name before and goes on and on about how
her parents killed his mate
so the 10 men that he has with him are
all family of his mate um and they've
come to watch her die so just as I'm
sorry this is some misplaced rage yeah
she didn't do [ __ ] she wasn't even born
the [ __ ] she wasn't even born and all of
them like they've built out this whole
narrative that she's like this Evil
Genius who's going to kill and hurt all
of them all like she doesn't even know
she literally never would have crossed
paths with them if they hadn't inserted
themselves into her path
literally so um they are coming at her
like his dad starts to come at her and
just as she's about to get up she hears
Jackson's voice um and he tries to
reason with his dad he's trying to talk
him down and then Dad Reveals that they
killed her
parents and um says he should have known
that Jackson would be too weak to kill
her and so all of this is brand new
information to Everly she had no idea
Jackson was sent there to kill her no
idea that his P killed her family so she
starts glowing again and when his dad
comes at her she hits him with a flash
of white light and he like bounces
back so like doesn't kill him doesn't
kill him okay she she on purpose does
not kill him because he's Jackson's dad
so Jackson tries to come to her um but
she speaks into his mind again and says
that he is a betrayer and she never
wants to see him again so she takes off
and steals his car she was like did I
not tell you to leave the key under the
[ __ ] mat a while ago basically yeah
we should have done that the first time
yes so she takes off um into the woods
steals his car cuz he left the keys in
the ignition 24 hours later she's
clearing cleaning her apartment um
trying to get Jackson's scent out of it
um and her best friend has been calling
um and bestie says that she's on her way
over and Everly uh goes to take another
shower but then her uh doorbell goes off
and she's like oh Diana must have come
like straight over but nope it's
Jackson's Uncle the twin to his dad um
and he's leaning on a cane and he's like
I I need to talk to you like there's you
don't have the whole story you need the
rest of this
information so then we go back to
Jackson he's super distraught um his
father still hasn't woken up and he like
really overwhelmed that Everly hates him
okay so the blast knocked his dad out
not just like pushed him back
like but like did take him to okay yeah
so um she has some kind of lightning
power he's like trying to process
through all of this and um so he leaves
his dad to go find his uncle to talk
about it cuz that's like his person so
he goes to his his uncle's cabin and um
he's not there but his work room is
standing open which it never is so he
like walks into it and he sees that his
mother's amulet that's been missing
since her murder is is there and so his
memor you so proud of me for not asking
five minutes in I knew that you wanted
to I knew that you wanted to and I am
really proud of you I really tried you
did so good you did so good what this is
brand new information the uncle the
uncle I didn't see this coming the uncle
you guys the uncle did
it um and so that's when Jackson's
memories become clear and he realizes it
was his uncle um and then he gets a
really bad feeling because he sees
Everly a dress written on a sheet of
paper on the desk and he's like well
[ __ ] so Everly we're back to Everly she
is burning with pain apparently as soon
as she let the uncle in he jabbed her
with a needle um and he tells her that
He adjusted the dose sh so she won't
recover as quickly as she did before um
he takes her phone to text Jackson to
tell
um to tell him to come over uhhuh um and
he um she has no idea what's going on
she's like I I just she tries to warn
Jackson with her mind but she can't
reach him um and she loses Consciousness
so Jackson shows up and finds his uncle
there with a blade to Everly's throat
she's unconscious um uncle does the
villain monologue he killed his mom he
killed the old pack alpha he's been been
manipulating Jackson's dad all these
years
um and to what end because he was
supposed to be Alpha technically he was
older and stronger but because he was
born with a twisted hip they gave it to
his brother and he's been resentful for
his whole life so his whole thing was
like he wanted to be the one in power so
he [ __ ] up his his brother's life and
weakened him and manipulated manipulated
him and all that y okay um so um he's
like but I'm gonna be a a hero for
killing Everly cuz I'm going to tell all
of them that she killed you in a fit of
rage and I Came Upon it and killed her
so that'll be fun and I will be the
ultimate hero
yay um so um Jackson's like just let me
take her like we can live in Exile
you'll never see us again like just let
me take her um and the uncle's just like
not going to agree to that he's not but
Jackson does see that Everly's fingers
are starting to move and so he hears in
his mind now and so they attack and she
basically disintegrates his uncle with
her lightning like he's like a pile of
Ash
um I guess that's like the double Alpha
power yes and as all of that's going on
the uncle stabs Jackson in the heart and
so he is for Real dying this time he
hadn't even fully recovered from his
previous
injury but she somehow heals him like is
holding him and heals
him and um she tells him that she needs
him to leave that um she can't get over
the role he played in her parents murder
and that he tried to kill her and um she
just needs him to go and which feels
like the
most realistic in the most reason yeah
the most reasonable I'm sure they're
going to have a happy ever after but
like I do feel like in my heart this is
the appropriate ending for the book yeah
because he his thought is like I love
her and I would do anything for her and
I guess that includes leaving her and so
he honors her request okay and
leaves so
um 7 weeks later um Bessie and Everly
are hanging out Everly is now the
director of the nursing home everything
came out that the the boss actually
happened to be like a um angel of Mercy
and was like killing old people and had
like gone through several nursing homes
so apparently the nursing home just did
not do a background check so Everly is
now the director she's been fired from
the last four nursing homes because of
um inexplicable deaths maybe maybe we
shouldn't hire her maybe we don't hire
her you know um
so Everly is pregnant but she refuses to
contact Jackson so she's navigating a
new job a pregnancy um but she she will
not contact him wow that really happened
fast but bestie is saying like hey you
need to call him like he deserves to
know this um but Everly is just really
sad um and she can't let go of her
parents murder so um someone rings the
bell and it's Jackson's dad
hey so bestie takes off like a like a
true Rider die she's like this is not
something I should be a part of you guys
have a good one and
leaves so um see I don't know I feel
like my besy energy would be yeah I'm
just going to go into the other room
yeah I'm not leaving and then I would
crack the door 100% I'd be like dumping
out my VOD katonic and putting a glass
to the door I'm like oh I'm sorry oh no
sorry I you talk a little louder I would
chug it and
then I was like I'm sorry that's a waste
full apologies to everyone
um so her his dad is like
listen Jackson is not living without you
he needs you like he really needs you um
and he pleads Jackson's case and says
that um as his father he used Jackson's
love and loyalty against him and she
should not punish him for Dad's actions
like please don't punish Jackson for my
actions
um and he wants dad wants Jackson to
lead with Everly he's like clearly I am
unfit like you you should I mean that's
great Insight yes um and he can smell
that she's pregnant so at one point like
his nostrils flare and his eyes are like
oh [ __ ] and he's like listen he will be
a great partner and a really good father
you should give him a chance I do love
my son I know I told people that they
could kill him but yeah in retrospect
deep down so much love my son is a catch
and you would be lucky to have him right
I didn't feel as lucky which is why I
tried to murder my son but you you my
girl I also tried to murder you but
we'll leave that in the past so she's
like I'll think about it get out of my
house like what's the visitation policy
going to be for my grandchild right I
thought about that you're like you tried
to murder me bro it's never a rest so
we're back to Jackson he's really
struggling he's moved back into like the
pack Barracks um because he's just going
through the motions like he truly feels
awful and he wakes up hearing Everly
call for him in his mind through their
connection mhm and so he races to her
apartment and he finds her naked in the
living room and she explains that his
dad said some things that made sense
nope yep stop Hannah I know I knew this
is going to make you so mad St I knew
this was going to make you so mad I knew
it was going to make you so mad I'm
sorry I'm not mad Hannah you will be oh
my thought was really I'm sorry you're
naked and he shows up and you're like I
talk to your father let me spread my leg
and you're like the [ __ ] leave my dad
out of this I'm sorry what am I going to
get mad about I was really I hadn't even
made it there because she's like listen
I talked to your dad he's right we're
meant to be and he goes to her and
realizes she's pregnant he's overwhelmed
falls to his knees and then starts
fingering her solidifying [ __ ] with
mating nibbles that is the
end well fingering her won't hurt the
baby you're right about that so then the
epilogue oh God Everly is now the pack
alpha Jackson calls her his Queen she's
still the dtor of the nursing home
they're expecting twins any day now um
have they made it
yeah lots of love and
affirmation so happily ever after so
really this whole book is about just
like a failed assassin yeah so what I
thought would make you mad because we've
had conversations about this in the past
where it's like she you know he really
[ __ ] up and then she's just like you
know what I forgive you
he was an active part in killing her
parents and trying to kill her and she's
just like you know what I get it yeah
know I I was just really focused on like
the when he gets to the house she's
naked naked ready and willing like she
has made her mind up and made and she's
just like you
know your dad made a lot of a lot of
good points yeah my Pro con list he had
a lot to the proon true true yeah so um
I can Overlook how would you like to get
in it like yeah not even how how would
you like to
like she just spread them yeah I didn't
read the book but I'm I'm sure that I
she said I'm down to clown and he said
sounds great he said did you know that
Hannah's husband loves
MEP did I tell you or did you see he
posted a picture of Gizmo and Sophie no
but he made Hannah's pets for my dogs he
made them the insane canine posy and
said Gizmo was violent giz and Sophie
was Sophie too dope is that going to be
a holiday card it should be so he
actually said the words to me he was
like I know we don't really do holiday
cards but if I ever did one this would
be it I was like okay I hope my family's
holiday cards make your husband feel
like any holiday card is possible I'm
sure they do he has said that's pretty
good I feel like that's high praise for
now that is actually yeah he doesn't get
hyped often no I have a friend um I've
known for like 10 plus years now and one
of our favorite things each year is her
husband's reaction to our holiday cart
like she'll like send me
videos and so it was super funny because
we did the Winnie the Pooh one when I
was pregnant cuz I was Pooh bear um and
she was like Chelsea I think we broke
bear which is her husband's nickname um
and I was like what the [ __ ] you mean we
broke bear bear like bear is unbreakable
right and she's like he looked at the
card and went H that's pretty cute and
then just kept going she's like I didn't
know what to do she's like we broke
them not a giggle from bear bear giggled
at my holiday card and she's like
normally so like they've kept when I
right before I met my husband and I've
probably told the story before I sent a
holiday I had a friend who was a
photographer she did photos of my cat
and ey and I sent holiday cards of just
my cat and ey with the tagline we're
feline the holiday spirit love
it
um meoi Christmas and happy new year was
like under like I was like I'm going
full in on the cap you committed I I
really did yeah they've kept that
on their fridge for years and she's like
Chelsea was the best thing he saw it and
he just literally
went and put it down and walked out of
the
room so getting a
giggle it's like the same as Matt being
like not bad yeah this pretty good
pretty good yeah like I'm like oh that
is a huge compliment it is thank you
okay what's our rating scale for this
book I have no [ __ ] idea old people
lightning
I don't know amulets amulets sure
steroids syringes there were a lot of
those how many syringes is this out of
oh I don't like that it does feel
accurate even if I don't like it like I
didn't like it um no let's let's let's
just do um let's just do amulets that
feels safer than
syringes right you can do amulets I'll
do amulet I'm I'm staying
fair enough that's that's fair um
so I liked the idea of this book I did
not like this book
so I'm feeling like a how many amulets
are is this out of it's going to be out
of five okay I think two two and a
half I see too I feel like in your
retelling of this book I felt the
potential of it while also being like
like the [ __ ] well and that's why I
started outlining it in the first place
was because when I started it I was like
this is going to be good and then by the
end I was like
oh we missed it well it's outlined right
I was like well yeah no I feel like two
two and a half two two out of five yeah
syringes
is and they can even be
full or would we prefer empty I thought
full was better cuz no one had been
injected but your face made me think
that maybe I'm like what's in it I guess
this antidote that makes you forget your
wolf or whatever yeah yeah okay how many
syringes what what does the syringe have
in it what's in it yeah we need that all
right two out of five amulets we're
still figuring out what's in the
syringes so we can't give a credible
answer regardless two out of five I will
say I have enjoyed her other books more
okay um than this one
but um but y' let us know what what you
think how many amulets how many syringes
what's in the syringe let us know like
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