You're Not Afraid of Life, You're Afraid of Death

Beth shows up for episode one with no script and one question nobody wants to sit with: what is death actually? She walks you through the fear underneath every addiction, introduces the three-sided coin of consciousness that survives the body, and makes the case that entropy is chaos — and death is the opposite.

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Beth: 00:00

Quantum Bombs. Welcome to Quantum Bombs where we talk about metaphysics, freedom, and the human condition. Three big old random words that makes a sandwich. What do they have to do with each other? Metaphysics to me guys is two of the big questions.

Beth: 00:17

The fundamental questions, where did you come from and where are you going? It's easier to wrap your head around it saying it that way rather than saying, what is reality? Because when I ask you that, no one it's way too vague. But if you just focus on that, where did you come from and where are you going? Freedom is just my libertarian way of saying, let's talk about culture, geopolitics, the news.

Beth: 00:41

But also freedom is the fundamental state that you would that you are as a soul and that I would argue that you need here. You know, you have your two main emotions of fear and love, but you really don't get to flourish in that love unless you have freedom. And then the third is the human condition. It's really looking at the first two, evaluating it, but understanding that the human condition isn't your natural state of being. We're actually here in a condition that we're not, it's not, it's not home to us.

Beth: 01:12

And that really human, the human condition is, it's not boring, but it's actually quite predictable. I mean, if you look at psychology, sociology, anthropology throughout time, humans are pretty predictable. And if you just and also if you extended that out, you can kind of get an idea for what our creator is. God most likely has a really good sense of humor because humans, we all have this, we all act and think the same. You know, we all have the same types.

Beth: 01:41

There's only so many ways that humor works. There's only so many ways things are done. And if you look through history and going back to politics and all of these questions, the human condition is gonna apply to that. It helps us understand why we virtue signal. Why are we so dang tribal?

Beth: 01:56

And just a fun look at or a different look. A much needed nuanced healthier look at our very fun crazy world that we're in. And today's topic, it's quite easy for me how I fell on it, But I was actually doing that. Let me try telling AI like you hear people use AI as therapists. And I was like, let me just dump on it what I've done for the last fifteen years of my career.

Beth: 02:19

And down to what I'm working on in this very instant. And one of those verbal talks, know, where you could talk to the AI and tell it everything it needs to know in like two minutes. I did a dump and it was like, oh, you just suffer from analysis paralysis and you should just pick your biggest topic and just talk about it unscripted. So that's what I'm doing. Thankfully for me, I do know my life's purpose and goal, at least right now where I believe it's at.

Beth: 02:41

And it has been, had already written on my website like two, three years prior, which is my purpose in life is to help people not be scared of death and dying and to have a better understanding that, you know, death isn't the end and that also as humans that to not feel so alone. And, just to talk about that with you guys. So the first thing I wanted to talk about on death and dying is really what makes it unique, what makes it, I don't know, just what the heck is it and why it's important. And the first cool thing I like to think about with death is that it's the only, literally the only one thing we have in common with each other. And I think a good way for my mind to like wrap around that is if you think about some of the most powerful people in the world.

Beth: 03:26

If you're in a room with them in an oh poop situation, they're quickly humanized. It's a very easy bridge for me at least when I when I meet people. Like I I once made a little short reel on everybody poops and just basically like, don't don't sweat it when you're with any any type of situation interview, etcetera, on a date or with very high powered people because at the end of the day, they still have the same human instincts to that they're fearing death at the end of the day without even knowing it. And they're trying to get through life. But the minute someone is having like a health issue or an oh poop situation, we are all kind of fundamentally the same.

Beth: 04:05

The other thing with death is that one of the things that differentiates us from animals is that we're aware of it. All other animals and things on the planet, they have a drive and an instinct to survive and to to live on, but they don't really have the awareness of this impending change that is ahead of all for all of us, the same way humans do. So at what age did you realize you're gonna die? I think this is why I'm well, I know it's why I'm doing it. I was, like everybody young and I started attending like probably my first funeral.

Beth: 04:43

And I remember being like severely depressed. Probably wasn't anybody even tremendously close to me, but just that idea of like the finality of it, it really I mean, I remember it really stuck with me and it was a depression that I didn't know how to address or, you know, because I was I was thinking about it, like thinking about it. And, I'm also probably programmed to think about it more than other people. What I mean, program meaning like it's in my personality, it's in my makeup type. It is something that I do think about These existential questions is who I am.

Beth: 05:16

One other property of death that I really love now that I'm into metaphysics and physics is the surreal aspect that it's our also our first, like paradoxical conundrum in your brain about the infinity or the finality of it. It's your first time that like a lot of people you could derp through life, but with death, it's like the one thing you can't derp around. And you could real it's infinite. It's it's one of those things that like your brain starts playing with and it can't really, really pinpoint. It's a bit slippery.

Beth: 05:50

Okay. So one of the thing your takeaway from this my blabbering today I wanted to go over was really just the body problem and, regarding death. And so they say that psychologists say almost every other fear is tied to the fear of death. So basically, you may have heard that before. Most of our fears are all surrounding death.

Beth: 06:11

And another similar thing on that same nuance is all forms of addiction are an attempt to avoid the reality that we are going to die. I think that one's pretty interesting if you just play that out, like whether you're addicted to vaping, whether you're addicted to pornography, drinking, or even eating sugar, maybe even working out. It's all just trying it's all escapism, I guess. And you're trying to escape what? Right?

Beth: 06:39

Escape that, you know, I think this is why most people would rather shock themselves than sit alone with themselves in a room and let their their thoughts slow down into nothing. Because once you let your thoughts slow down, you're able to kind of address this realism of, you know, I am and what are we doing here. So the body problem, how do we solve this fear, you know, this thing that we can't escape? And it's really just take to take away the fear of death, it begins with body identification. The problem is as humans, we naturally identify with the body.

Beth: 07:15

We come to earth and we're given these five senses and it's very natural. Your everything is coming through these five senses in the body apparatus to say, I am this physical entity. I mean, if you didn't think so, you would be one the one that's considered crazy. So, you know, my notes say we forget that we're two separate things. Well, in a way we do.

Beth: 07:38

And the belief system that we came here from somewhere else, yes, you forgot that you are two separate things. But for most of us, we just we don't even know that we're two separate things. So I'm gonna help you. If your one thing that you could take away from my blabbering today is what are the two separate things? So obviously, your body is one of them.

Beth: 07:55

And the other one, I'm gonna give you a three sided coin and I'm doing that so you could remember it. And so you can maybe start grappling with more of the understanding of it. Because if I just told you, you are your consciousness and you are your body, it already sounds woo and it you're gonna glaze over and you're like, whatever. And the main problem with that is because consciousness, when you look at it from a fundamental standpoint from scientists or physics, they still don't know what it is. Just like we don't know what matter is.

Beth: 08:23

But if you boil them both down, they both turn into energy. But that's a topic for another day. Okay. So the three sided coin. Yes, you've got this confusing word.

Beth: 08:31

You know, it's like your consciousness that goes on forever. A great way to remember what it is is three things. It is your awareness. The I am. I'm existing.

Beth: 08:46

The awareness. Existing. So the second one is existence. It is existence. The I am existing.

Beth: 08:54

So you've got awareness, existence, and your soul. And everybody's heard that buzzword before, but this really kind of helps you even understand the soul better. So your soul and your existence and your awareness are three things that can never be cut up divided. They are literally the same thing and they are eternal. They are, they go on infinitely.

Beth: 09:16

They cannot physically, metaphysically, spiritually, nothing. They can never be destroyed nor split or chopped off into two twin flames. That's just a, like, a sexy metaphysical thing that girls wanna talk about when they're really in love with a dude or something. Okay. These are this is one point of individuated consciousness that came out from the larger consciousness system.

Beth: 09:39

You are made in God's image. That is what that means. It just more of a physical, metaphysical way to say it, which is you've got this fundamental field, which is a larger consciousness body that existed. He, it, spirit existed before created space time before anything was manifest. It was just that and then manifested out is this matrix, a field of thought with different points of being and you are one of those souls.

Beth: 10:13

And that soul is also your awareness and your existence. It's all the same thing. So it's separate from the body. The body apparatus, the brain itself is only like a receiver. It's like shooting a signal to a radio.

Beth: 10:25

The radio is like our brain, but the the radio isn't the consciousness. The radio is just the receiver that spits it out. But the signal exists always. It's just coming from somewhere. So, yeah, if you could see those two things separately.

Beth: 10:40

And this is why if we wanna get scientific, which it doesn't make any difference to me if I sell you on the idea of meditation or not, but it's just something to look at, which is most people don't realize that meditation from its scientific stance, thousands of years from pan tall pan horrible names. Pan pan pan. Oh my gosh, I'm just gonna spell it on the screen. Pantel. This is one of my quirks.

Beth: 11:08

I stumble with certain words. Sorry, everybody. Pantology. The eightfold path of yoga. Most people don't realize that yoga is really a study of how to stop the breath and stop the heart from pumping.

Beth: 11:25

When you sit in meditation long enough, you'll realize, oh, wow, when's the last time I sent my body a breath? Did I breathe in the last twenty minutes? And you'll all of a sudden realize your consciousness and viewpoint from how you see things. Of course, your eyes are closed, but is actually not even in the body. You might be far away from it, up above it, flying away from it.

Beth: 11:47

And you begin to realize I exist outside of the body. I'm completely fine. In fact, usually when you start to have these thoughts of worry, like when's the last time I breathed? Is my body stiff down there? That kind of brings your awareness more back into the body.

Beth: 12:01

So the biggest joke on humankind while we're here is that that we are the body, but we're really not. We are a part of a fundamental field that is reaching out through all of the ether both outside of space time, which is heaven or the astral world, and inside of space time, which is here on earth. Your consciousness is just being projected through this physical body that we made a pact that will be a part of for, you know, less than a hundred years and on on this go about. And, that's that. You are never going to your little idea of me and I am and this little nest.

Beth: 12:39

God gave you your own finesse that makes you different from everybody else. Your nest, like my Bethness, your nest is never going to fail or cease to go away. Even as you graduate into heaven and into closer and closer to God and merging back with one, your nest will actually never leave. So if anything, if you could understand that your consciousness transcends space time. It transcend beyond everything that we know as physical.

Beth: 13:09

And the apparatus it does that through is the fundamental field, the matrix, the ether, the all that is the larger consciousness system that goes from space time to Hilbert space. Hilbert space is just a kind of a fancy physics word for outside of what we don't know outside of the edges of the expanding space time. But you're only stuck in this body cage while you're here in space time. The second you step out of space time, you're back into the field and you're actually able to access all that is all at once and everything. Meaning you're part of a field that your right hand can talk to your left hand on other sides of outside of space time, meaning you could be light years away and still kind of know what's going on.

Beth: 13:51

This is why they say in heaven, you could speak to each other instantly without having to use words and how, how, how old school is that? Because when you're home in heaven or in the astral world, whatever you'd like to call it, you do have the ability to talk to one another instantaneously, probably, you know, through this fundamental field of air ether that we don't talk about. It's funny. We talk about it in ancient esoteric theology and religion. And we kind of talk about it in physics, but we give it words like, well, it's actually funny, depending upon, I have my buckets of physics, physicist, 80 to 90% of the physicists talk about it as if it's as a materialist, whether it's dark energy or dark matter and you know, the zero point energy field, the vacuum, you know, they've got different levels of degrees of how they describe it.

Beth: 14:45

And then you've got your physicists that I listen to quite a bit and they're idealist. And they can actually explain to you those same states. The thing is, is that everybody's talking about the same thing and no one really wants to get on this to acknowledge that. Like this is, it's not that hard of spectrum. It's not that I don't see it as that.

Beth: 15:05

It's a big claim for me to put out there, but I basically feel like the theory of everything's out there and it's staring us in the face. And I look forward to going over with you some people that really have got it together and really have got their understanding of it well published, well put together and kind of easy to understand. And it's so easy. I've actually put it into sleep stories. I didn't mean to plug my sleep channel on my first episode, but are already going to.

Beth: 15:29

If you want to hear one of the cool stories that talk about it, I've got a series dedicated to physics called the show is called Adventures in Dreamland. And I have a sleep study playlist that I talk a lot about physics. It's my voice. I put you to sleep telling you all about the theory of everything. Wow.

Beth: 15:47

Well, there was my first commercial on my preliminary show to kind of paint a picture of exactly how wide the topic of death and dying really is. Even though we kind of act like we all, oh, yeah. You know, we have this understanding of someone, you know, going forever and rest in peace, which drives me crazy. Don't get me started on the rest in peace thing. Don't get me started.

Beth: 16:06

That's like the silliest thing to say. I catch myself wanting to write it to others too online because I just want what I'm trying to say is condolences and respect. Honor is given. But I definitely disagree with, like, the rest in peace. And I'm like, where did that even come from?

Beth: 16:21

And there actually is theology and beliefs behind why we say rest in peace. But for me, my own personal perspective and opinion is it couldn't be any further from from the truth for that soul. They're not resting. They're they're they're partying. I mean, they're going back to the one.

Beth: 16:37

They're going into heaven. Life's just beginning. They're going, wow, what a ride. Let me have my own judgment day now. But, to put this into perspective of how different we are on regards to just how different and vast we see death and dying is the longevity and wellness influencer world, the space for biohacking.

Beth: 17:00

You've may have heard or follow Brian Johnson. I myself have watched his videos. I enjoy it. I'm into my own health and and biohacking. Oh, yes.

Beth: 17:08

And I'm definitely into staying young and beautiful. But his core ideology, I I guess after watching it is kind of the exact opposite of what I'm preaching, like the complete opposite. So he has a very catchy campaign. It's don't die. He has a don't die.

Beth: 17:26

He has don't die parties. And he's basically trying to defy entropy, which is kind of ironic and funny because for those of us that are believers, for those of us that know God and and think about God and talk to God every day and blah blah blah, you know, I'm not trying to paint myself as some angel here, but but for those that are in this spiritual community, it's something that we are actually looking forward to, and and trying to commune with in the real and now. And then you have the opposite spectrum of that where there's people that, you know, are more science based and more material based. And they're just like, we're gonna work with this physical stuff, and we're gonna make it last forever because death is so scary. We're gonna defy entropy.

Beth: 18:07

But what I want the point I'm trying to make and what I wanna capitalize in all caps is that death is not entropy. And I know what you're thinking like, maybe she doesn't know the definition of entropy. Well, there are a few, you know, and they go into thermal dynamics and things like that. But for me, in my brain, entropy is chaos. And death is actually realigning with unification.

Beth: 18:29

It's realigning with the one. There's even a saying that, like, when you're in alignment, when you're in a state of flow, it's a handshake with mortality. For example, when you when you're when you're in a flow state, what is that guys? What puts you in a flow state? Good game of pickleball?

Beth: 18:44

Like, for example, like alignment when you're in the vortex as Abraham Hicks would say, it's for me, it's oh, man, I love me a good spreadsheet. It's when I'm filling out my Excel spreadsheet, and it looks so good. And I have, like, all the calculations and everything's perfect. I can pivot tables and all kinds of stuff. You know, flow states is when you're playing tennis, when you're singing, when you're playing the guitar, people even argue it's when you're having sex.

Beth: 19:05

It's it's these things, shooting a three pointer, like the the flick of the wrist, the sound of the net, things that you don't have to think about, things that come natural to you, things that your body is happy performing and doing. It's it's it's actually when you're in a state of neutrality. That's your handshake with mortality because you're producing and you're leaving something behind. It's almost as if you know that you're just here to be really. And when you're being, you're in alignment and you're doing and leaving things.

Beth: 19:33

And so being in alignment, being in a flow state, it is a spiritual state. It is a it is very interesting state that I think we could talk about and philosophize and make all sound fancy later. But that is exactly what you're enabling yourself to do by transitioning. So there is no death. That body dies.

Beth: 19:52

Yes, the organic matter. But you're the joke on us is that we call it death. We act like it's the end, but yet there is no actual real death. You it's just a transition slash death experience. There is the saying, from joy I come, from joy I am, from joy I go.

Beth: 20:09

There I'm messing up the quote. It's a saying it's rough, and it's probably even maybe even a biblical thing. But you have to understand that we are coming from joy and we're returning back to joy. And for the people that sit with people and their dying days, or I'm sorry, at their dying moments. And by the way, of those five senses, the last to go for someone dying is their hearing.

Beth: 20:33

So that's why when you are with someone, I love you. Go hold to the light. Go to love. It's okay to leave. We're okay.

Beth: 20:39

I'm gonna be fine. These things actually really are fundamental and they matter and the people can hear you. And a lot of people will say that the people that do actually sit there in the room with people is an extreme amount of joy and peace rushes over them when that when that soul actually does leave this horrible physical encasement. And I'm sure if you've listened to the near death experiences, NDEs, you've heard people describe what it feels like to shake this dang bodysuit. The joy that that soul is now experiencing getting out of that encasement, getting out of that.

Beth: 21:20

It's really just like having shackles around our ankles, I presume. They're now free soul and heaven aligned more in their natural state. The person that sits with them actually usually will get some of that joy and peace passed on to them. I'm hesitant to say the words happy because obviously the ones that are left behind, the people that are left behind, we're the ones that need the prayer. We're the ones that are gonna properly mourn and go through states of grief beyond imagine, you know, depending upon who the person is that's dying in your life.

Beth: 21:51

I think grief and and and missing someone and man, it's, it is the probably the most beautiful and hard part about the human condition is is losing a loved one, whether it's a romantic partner, a child, a parent, etcetera. Even a boyfriend, girlfriend, you know, you really can't put a measure of the type of relationship and what people mean to one another, but I wanna stay on track. So does so entropy is chaos. Chaos is what's here on earth. Death is when you're more aligned and in your most natural state there in heaven and the astral world.

Beth: 22:27

But I do believe chaos projects itself. So entropy does exist both in heaven as well. And I think I think that's quite paradoxical, but it's not just limited here to space time. I wanted to put that out there. I believe that entropy is an ongoing battle.

Beth: 22:41

God made this really beautiful, this the the devil and the the push and pull of Maya and the the the good and the bad and the dark and the light, that actually continues on for quite a bit on our soul journey. I personally believe our soul journey is not done when we're in heaven. We're still working our way up. And, yeah. So the entropy still follows us around everywhere.

Beth: 23:03

Entropy to me is anything going away from love, going into chaos. You could call it the devil. You could call Maya, the delusion of being separate from the creator. I mean, there's all kinds of ways to take a stab at it. But entropy in fact, Brian Johnson trying to defy entropy by the very definition of thinking you can beat it is almost taking a step towards entropy on, some type of philosophical level of what my brain's tracking it.

Beth: 23:30

But that's enough. That's just a touch into it. I definitely look forward to dividing up these little topics into smaller topics so we can dive deeper into them. But obviously death, dying, entropy, the understanding of reality, infinity, and all of it is just a dang sexy topic, and it does matter. So I'm happy that we are here to talk about it.

Beth: 23:49

I don't know if you've noticed, but YouTube doesn't even send you the people's shows that you subscribe to only if they it basically follows your watch behavior. Have you noticed? I have definitely noticed. It's kind of annoying because I don't see the people I subscribe to, and I've got to go physically find them. So please engage with this show so you'll see some stuff I have coming out.

Beth: 24:07

You kind of have an idea of what it's gonna be about. I'm gonna dip my toes into some politics unlike before I've never have, but that's what I came here to do on this earth. Oh, that brought me to the most important topic actually. Not my most, but one of my favorite things that I do wanna say is, death is our biggest motivator. And the way that it motivate well, obviously it motivates you because it puts a ticking time clock on everything.

Beth: 24:32

But my most freeing thing that I keep telling myself in regards to getting out there and doing everything that I wanna do is no one will remember me two hundred years after I die. No one will remember anybody. Like think about what you'd have to do in history for people to still remember you in twenty twenty two hundred, you know, like, so basically go be the just be what you want to be, take the risks, do the idiotic thing. Humans are so weird already. Like, I mean, this is one of my motivating factors on getting out here and talking to you about some random topic about death and dying and literally blabbing to you is I remind myself that girls put themselves on OnlyFans.

Beth: 25:14

So I'm not there. Right? Like, I'm not doing that. And in the end at the end, and so much worse, like I also tell myself people put themselves on videos where they're watching other people do things and they just watch. So I can't, you know, I'm gonna make an idiot of myself, so is everyone else.

Beth: 25:32

And, there is truly no getting it wrong. And I mean that in the most highest philosophical sense ever. And I've shared, I can't even share that, like take that to the nth degree, but I truly believe that there is no getting this earth journey wrong whatsoever. More on that to come. Have a good one.

Beth: 25:55

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