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The Silvercore Podcast explores the mindset and skills that build capable people. Host Travis Bader speaks with hunters, adventurers, soldiers, athletes, craftsmen, and founders about competence, integrity, and the pursuit of mastery, in the wild and in daily life. Hit follow and step into conversations that sharpen your edge.
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ca.
She is the first Canadian to paddle
across America from Oregon to Florida,
a feat that took seven months as
well as a 675 kilometer track across
the great divide with a broken foot.
She was also the first to paddle a
tandem sea kayak down the Colorado
river through the grand Canyon.
She's passionate about connecting
others with nature and uses her
skills as a photographer to inspire.
Welcome to the Silvercore
podcast, Jillian Brown.
Jillian Brown: Thank you for having me.
I'm very excited for this.
Travis Bader: So am I, you know what,
there's so much information that I've
been looking through from past podcasts
that you've done from, uh, newspaper
articles and looking at some of the
expeditions and adventures you've done.
When you talk about inspiring
people, I'm inspired.
It's really, really cool.
Jillian Brown: Well, thank you.
Yeah.
I appreciate that.
And I'm
Travis Bader: glad you're able to get
yourself settled in nice and town.
Now your, uh, VRBO may not have worked
out quite as you'd wanted it to.
Jillian Brown: And thanks
for bringing that one up.
Yeah, it was a day and a half yesterday.
Travis Bader: Oh man.
Yeah.
We're going to get together last
night and you, uh, give a message up.
No, we're moving.
Can't, do you want to tell the story why?
Jillian Brown: So we've started
using Airbnb and VRBOs and it's been
a really, really neat experience.
So far, nothing's been
too terrible with it.
Um, and we've connected with some
incredible people by doing this
as well, the hosts and things.
And, um, Yeah, so we got a place
out in the countryside so that I
could still do my morning routines
out in nature and do my walk and
have it quiet and, um, get there.
This place was a, um, marijuana grow up.
It's all like the marijuana is not
there other than what's growing in the
fields, but it's clearly a grow up.
And so we.
Decided not to stay there.
Travis Bader: You know, it's
funny cause I put the address
into Google and what do you see?
A police car out front.
They had over 2 million worth
of crops that were seized out
of that one location alone.
And man, it was like 200 and
almost 300, 000 worth of equipment.
So they had a pretty decent scale
operation working out of there.
And apparently they
still got stuff growing.
Jillian Brown: Well, yeah, it's still
the same owners that have it, which
is what, That was really like kind of
annoying for us was we don't want to
contribute like any of our money to
people who have done something illegal
essentially like this and are now using
that property because just because
the government and yeah, shut it down.
They're now making bank off
of it on other people and the
place was dirty and stuff too.
It was cool to add like a Spanish
villa in the countryside of Delta
like, Ooh, this will be fun with it.
Special karaoke room.
This will be entertaining.
Karaoke
Travis Bader: room.
Was it actually a karaoke room?
Because you said there's a
soundproof room in there.
Did they put like a 12 karaoke set
in the middle of a soundproof room?
Jillian Brown: Um, well, yeah,
the room was all soundproof.
It, it was a very odd.
like access to it.
Very much the place looked like it
was an old like burlesque or boudoir
place, um, where the ladies would
be standing up top in the loft and
there's a old timey piano, which
there actually was an old timey piano.
Um, yeah, and then this karaoke room.
With the soundproofing.
And it was pretty set up.
I mean, there was surround
sound in there and a big screen.
And, uh, yeah, the guy, we didn't
touch anything when we went in
after we just kind of walked through
and saw everything like, okay,
let's, let's find somewhere else.
That's
Travis Bader: funny.
Yeah.
So it's not like, it's not like
they just had a soundproof room
that they didn't want to deal with.
Threw a little karaoke set inside there.
Jillian Brown: No, I think it was meant
for, I don't know what, but it seemed
like a very specific room before that.
Travis Bader: I don't get people.
Why would you VRBO out
your location like that?
That doesn't make sense.
Jillian Brown: I don't know.
And you have to legally live in the
residence that your Airbnb or VBO.
VRBO now in BC, at least, if not all
across Canada, but in BC and there's
clearly nobody that's living there.
They're just renting it out.
And so there was a whole lot of things
wrong with it, but now we're in a
really nice place out in Steveston.
Yeah.
Um, yeah.
And it's beautiful.
I got for a great walk this morning and
lots of birds and there's a park there.
Travis Bader: So life's
an adventure for you, hey?
Jillian Brown: That's for sure.
Is it
Travis Bader: always like that for you?
Yeah.
Jillian Brown: Yeah.
Somehow it kind of
always ends up that way.
Right when life starts to feel like
anybody else's kind of normal life.
I know everyone has trials and
tribulations going on behind the
scenes, but for the most part, people
live a certain type of lifestyle.
And whenever that's kind of started
for me, something kind of happened.
happens, like, for example, on
track with Ryan to kind of start
a new life, my ex fiance, and then
he gets in his accident and the
world is completely upended for us.
Tell me
Travis Bader: about this.
Jillian Brown: Um, so it's coming
up on two years actually this
week from his accident and he
was moving my place in Squamish.
Um, and.
He was bringing his motorcycle up.
It was the first trip up of things.
We were gonna celebrate like new life out
here together and I was just ahead of him
in the Jeep and he was on his motorcycle
and he crashed on the Sea to Sky Highway
and I figured he had stopped for gas maybe
stopped for a bite to eat or something.
That's why he was a couple hours Late, I
didn't really think anything of it until
my phone rang Um Yeah, and it was, I've
described it before in a piece of writing,
it was like straight out of a movie.
The phone call of saying your partner's
been in a car accident or in an accident.
Hold tight, but maybe
pack an overnight bag.
And you know that that like uncertainty
of the person who's calling is not good.
So you're like, well, do I, if I hold
tight, am I waiting for a knock at
the door for somebody to tell me?
I've lost him, um, or should
I just start going now, just
to be there no matter what?
Um, yeah, it was, it,
it felt like, A movie.
And so I packed up and headed down
and he was in a coma for 15 days.
Um, and uh, yeah.
And then he was in the hospital for
a number of months for treatment.
Um, and now since then I've
become his full time caregiver.
Um, which is great.
has completely changed our life,
but in so many good ways as well.
It's, there was a lot of hard time
relearning and we're still relearning,
um, everything, especially of course
for him relearning now with all of
his injuries, um, being partially
paralyzed, um, one arm and he's fully
paralyzed, the other partially in
head, head injuries, things like that.
Um, so navigating that side of life.
Um, but also being his caregiver, I get
to spend every day with him all the time.
That's fantastic.
Yeah, so that's amazing.
But I'm just starting to try to, um,
get back into some of my other, other,
um, passions, like my photography and
things, which got put on hold, of course.
Travis Bader: Yes.
For
Jillian Brown: the past couple of years.
And now we're in a good, good spot,
um, both mentally and I think,
Physically, um, to potentially
be going back out and taking on
photography work again and adventures.
Travis Bader: Yeah.
That, that mental, that mental
aspect of all that, when your life
gets thrown absolutely upside down,
that resilience and ability to be
adaptable really comes into play.
And I got to imagine that from
a lifestyle of Exploration and
expeditions, there's a high level of
adaptability that, that you've learned.
Were you able to apply that?
Did you use that and apply that
to how you're dealing with this?
Jillian Brown: Oh yeah.
In terms of the adapting and resiliency,
um, when that happened, um, I have
already in the past few years.
Uh, of going through other life
challenges, um, found the tools that
have worked for me to navigate, um,
mental health and, and PTSD and,
and just life stresses in general.
So that's part of that morning
routine of being out in nature.
I do my best to every day wash my
face in a river or a lake or some sort
of water source in nature as well.
Um, and then.
I always do a bunch of exercise,
um, throughout the day, both in the
morning and generally later, um,
just to move all the energy that I
find I struggle with that builds up.
Um, not just like energy of
like, I gotta run around, but
like the mental energy, um.
Travis Bader: Interesting.
Jillian Brown: And, um, so at that time
I, I definitely, even though I was having
to drive from Squamish down to Vancouver
Hospital every day, but for about a
week I was also having to move Ryan from
Caltus Lake, which is two hours, two
and a half hours away from Squamish.
I was dealing with going, driving from
Squamish, stopping at the hospital,
then from there driving down to
Caltus Lake, loading up the vehicle.
driving back to Squamish and then doing
that twice a day to try to get him moved
out because he had booked all of his
moving vehicles like a trailer and all
those things and I didn't have his phone.
The police had it from the accident.
So I couldn't call and get
those things to help me move.
I just had my vehicle.
Um, and then a couple of
Ryan's friends came and helped
as well, which was amazing.
Um, and were there for me too.
Um, there were other things that.
that went on.
I found I was doing well.
I had my routine down, um,
with both going and seeing him,
but also, um, just everything.
But then there was a couple
other things that went on at
the same time, and that just.
Built up and I found that my tools
weren't enough to deal with all of it
Well, while Ryan was in the hospital, I
found out the same day as his accident
that my best friend took his own life
and And then I got rear ended and it was
all within Ryan's Being in a coma period.
So within this two week span,
um, I had lost like my two people
essentially because I couldn't talk
to Ryan about Kieran is my friend.
I couldn't talk to Ryan about him
and then Kieran I couldn't talk to
you about Ryan and I had other people
and my family's always been there.
But um, yeah I was getting to be too
much to the point then I got rear ended
like this is too much and then the The
dryer broke and it was like smaller and
smaller things that were totally not
big deals like the rear ending it was
very little damage like the bumper got
knocked off not a big deal and there
was way bigger things going on and then
the dryer breaking who cares just call
somebody to repair it but I that was
when I had a total meltdown and um When I
got to the hospital that day, I accepted
help in talking to the social workers
and community, actually letting it out.
I've never been one to, um,
I don't generally talk about
my emotions in that way.
Um, when I'm in a negative headspace.
Why?
So, um, I'm sure we'll touch on it, but I
went to, um, I was, I went to a therapist
when I was a teenager one, a little bit,
um, because I dealt with depression as
an athlete, I got injured, injuries,
and I couldn't do things that I loved,
so I struggled with some depression, so
I went and saw one, and they said the
same sort of thing that most do, where
it's, well, do the things you love.
Because that'll make you happy.
And I'm like, I can't
do the things I love.
Like, this is why I'm here.
Tell me what I'm supposed to do.
Oh, just do those things.
I'm like, you don't get it.
And I was like, ripped up.
I mean, I'm a teenager, too.
I'm like, ripping up the
paperwork that she's giving me.
And I'm like, I'm not
gonna read this shit.
Like, I hate reading, too.
Oh, that was like, legit.
I was so angry.
And then, so I stopped going.
And then I just started doing the
things I loved, and that was okay.
Isn't that interesting
how that works, huh?
And it totally, but I had to be the one.
And it's always like that.
You have to be the one to
take control of the situation.
Um, you're the only one that can
save yourself when it comes to
your mental mentality and emotions.
100 percent.
Um, and as a teen, that
was hard to figure out.
Um, And I reconnected with that later
on in life when I found myself homeless,
and I thought of the same sort of thing.
I ended up going to, um, a
therapist, because I thought
about suicide in that situation.
Went to a therapist, and, um, I felt the
same way as I did when I was a teenager.
I felt, I walked out of there
feeling very judged, almost.
And they weren't.
There's nothing they were doing
that was wrong, it's their job.
But the mental state that I was in
was not an accepting state of somebody
telling me What to do, and just do
this thing, like it's just that easy.
Like, that's not, you don't understand.
Well, it, yeah, but there's also the
side of walking into a therapist's
office and they have their great,
beautiful family photo on their desk.
And they're wincing when you're
telling them of what you've
been through in some way.
And you're seeing those reactions.
Well, that's why I don't share,
because I don't want to see other
people uncomfortable or in pain.
Because often I've already dealt
with that pain and overcome it.
So I'm okay to necessarily talk about
these things and go into details, but
to see somebody else now essentially
going through what I've already
overcome, that's what I don't like.
Travis Bader: Isn't it, you
know, I've got a poorly thought
out, ill thought out premise.
I got something that I'm working on in
my head and slowly turning around, but.
Uh, the amount of, um, mental health
issues that are social related in
nature and how you mentioned that,
uh, concern over how the therapist may
be, uh, processing or looking at that.
And it's how other people around us,
our expectations, and I guess our
thoughts on judgment by society, uh, and.
How that impacts our own mental health.
And I see that so prevalent, like with
social media and everyone's, you know,
they see comparison is a thief of joy
and they're comparing themselves to all
these happy people out there on social
media, doing all these cool things.
And you're like, Oh, but, but look at
me, I'm broken and I'm not feeling great.
You talking about PTSD and we've have
warrior classes like Samurais and Spartans
and even modern warriors that will give
you a Come back and are praised by society
for the great things that they're doing.
And despite the fact that they've
seen horrific things and done really
arduous things that others probably
wouldn't want to do, um, there's
a societal acceptance behind it.
Uh, different from, let's say, uh,
the Vietnam vet coming back from
war and everyone's calling them baby
killers and society's against them.
And the, uh, prevalence
of mental health and PTSD.
In situations where society just isn't
on side, or maybe the person doesn't
feel that society is on side with them.
I got to wonder how big of a role that
plays in every individual's mental health.
And if we're able to kind of
separate that, I don't know.
There's a book.
I haven't read it.
Cause I'm like you, I'm
like you as a teenager.
But I
Jillian Brown: still am not a big reader.
Travis Bader: Man, I'll go
through the end chapter.
And can I get, do I think I got the
main points, but I think it's called
the subtle art of not giving a fuck.
So I haven't read it, but I, the
title of it tells me a fair bit.
And I think if people can reach that point
of, I just don't care what society thinks.
And I'm able to, um, Do
what I feel is right for me.
Like you said, you had to find doctors
only to say, no, you're not fixing me.
I'm fixing me.
Right.
But that shift, like you
said, it has to come from you.
And I think that's where a lot of people
stumble is because they're still stuck
in this perception of how everybody
else, they think they're judging them
or how their lives, they think they are.
Um, Like I say, not, not the most well
thought out, but it's, it's getting there.
I'll, at one point I'll put pen to
paper and I'll actually, uh, put
this together a little further.
Jillian Brown: Well, I completely
agree with you though, what you're
saying with like dealing with
feeling like others are judging.
And especially the fact that we're in this
world where our lives, hopefully everyone
can see my quotations, but our lives are
Displayed for everyone to see everywhere,
Travis Bader: like on
Jillian Brown: Facebook, on Instagram,
social media, wherever you look.
But I use quotation marks because
that's the life that you want
people to perceive you live.
Mm hmm.
Nobody wants people to perceive your your
life as miserable and terrible, but if
you are that person that's showcasing
that is that now a cry for help or a
cry for attention and then there's the
judgment of look at I just said that
I just made a Rash judgment that those
people are in one of two categories,
essentially, who are doing that.
So that's a judgment in itself.
Just that like, oh, they're
either, it's a cry for help.
That's a judgment, like, but, or
they're looking for attention.
Travis Bader: Or, or a third, they've,
they've mentally become whatever it is.
They think they are.
I am my PTSD.
I am my depression, right?
It's not like a person that says,
oh, I cut my arm or I broke my arm.
I am my broken arm.
No.
Everyone looks at them and they
say, no, you broke your arm.
Jillian Brown: Yeah.
Travis Bader: You're
dealing with a broken arm.
And at some point you'll get better
depending on the break, you might always
have a little bit of a reminiscent
reminder there, but you'll get better.
Sometimes people that get on that want to
dwell in the negative on the social media,
it's because they haven't figured out
that they aren't, they aren't whatever it
is that they're ascribing to themselves.
Or maybe they are, as long as
they're ascribing that to themselves.
But if they can realize that
they can change that, I think
that's where the power comes in.
Jillian Brown: Yeah.
Yeah.
So a big part of why I go on
expeditions and spend so much time
out in nature is because that nature,
nature is completely unjudging.
And for me, as much as I worry about
others judging me and what I'm putting
out there for, for different reasons,
um, things that I, I'm confident in
like my photography and my writing.
I honestly don't care if anyone likes it
because I like it and I'm proud of it.
So I'm okay with sharing it.
Same with like I, I generally
do a flex in the morning.
Well, I've worked really hard
and I still work really hard.
And for me, um, flexing or like even
looking at myself is I judge myself
so harshly that Doing that makes me
proud of myself that I am overcoming
an obstacle of just flexing and
putting it out there, like, to show
myself that I'm proud of myself.
It's not to get comments or anything.
It's simply, this is my social media
anyways, so why can't I just put
whatever I want on my social media?
For me, I'm the only one that, like, I
only care that I enjoy my social media.
Yeah.
That's it.
Um, but I do these expeditions
because it's completely unjudging.
Like, a lot of the time I don't
have cell service, if I go up north,
um, there's, there's no service.
Mm hmm.
So it's just you, and you, you can't
judge yourself harshly because you
have to trust that you have the
abilities, especially if you're solo.
So if you're judging yourself all
the time, then that's gonna, Make
you second guess everything, which
is then going to put you at risk.
You have to go in wholeheartedly,
faithful that you have the abilities to
overcome whatever you're planning to go
out and do in life in general, really.
But especially when you're going out
in nature like this, doing something
extreme and risky, um, where you can't
just pick up your phone and call mom
to come pick you up in five minutes.
Um, well,
Travis Bader: you mentioned
mental energy earlier and he's.
You know, we differentiated that
from being active and what's going
on in the head, just churning around
when the cell phone's off, when
you're out in nature, things quiet,
what happens to that mental energy?
Jillian Brown: Oh, see, if I'm out
paddling for the whole day, I, I
don't have any feeling of having
to go do exercises or anything,
and it has nothing to do with the
fact that I'm paddling all day.
It's, yeah, that, that energy is already
essentially, like, flowing through.
There's not anything.
The, the fresh air, it, it
alleviates stress and energy.
I mean, it's a proven fact.
That's why they're, they just
started to give doctors permission
to prescribe national park passes.
Travis Bader: Right.
Jillian Brown: For mental health,
Travis Bader: that's in the States, right?
Jillian Brown: In Canada, too.
Is
Travis Bader: it in Canada?
Yeah.
Jillian Brown: Yeah.
Good luck finding a doctor
who has done it yet.
I'm going to fight with it, but
yeah, they're, they can do that.
And this is what I've always said.
And I'm sure many others who have gone
through the process of battling their
own demons and overcoming, they probably
feel the same way that why are doctors
not prescribing natural things like.
Go outside for a walk or get a gym pass.
Like, why are they not
prescribing those things?
And then after, say, six months, if the
person is still struggling, maybe there
is some sort of medication that they
do need because mental health injuries,
PTSD injuries, things like that, they
do cause chemical imbalances in people
depending on how they absorb the trauma.
They can, they can need medication.
I'm in no way saying don't take
medication, but there's other
things to go through first.
What is your diet like?
What are, what's your
environment like at your house?
Is it a hoarder's house?
Like, that's gonna make
your mental state horrific.
Yeah.
Like, there's so many things like that.
Um, yeah.
Travis Bader: But that's hard.
That's not easy.
Prescribing a pill is easy.
Jillian Brown: Yeah.
Well, it makes money.
The other things do not make money.
It makes money.
Travis Bader: Uh, it means that
you're going to be coming back.
Um, and there's also that
liability standpoint.
Like what if a doctor is like, oh,
go, go to a park and the person does
something to themselves or has, has a
really bad incident and they're like,
well, you should have prescribed them.
Right.
That should have been one of the options.
I think so often people
look for those easy options.
But I've yet to see anything
worthwhile in my life that's come easy.
And I don't disagree with you or
medication is an important tool
that can be used, but I think it
should be used, uh, holistically.
I just don't think we have the
resources in Canada to do that.
Properly allocated to monitor an
individual, uh, and provide them with
the proper care that they need to
ensure that they're getting proper
diet, exercise, um, social support,
sleep, um, goal setting structures.
And medication all in the same, uh, realm,
but they can moderate, I had 50 milligrams
this morning, and how are you feeling?
And move from there.
Jillian Brown: Yeah.
But that's also the thing of
choice, and the only way, if
you chose to go to a doctor for.
a bellyache while you chose
to go and get answers.
Like, are you going to a therapist as
a choice that you want to get better,
or are you going as an expectation
they're going to make you better?
Because even if they tell you or
prescribe you medication, it's still
your choice to take that medication.
That doctor's not there.
Throwing it down, putting it
down your throat each day.
You're choosing, okay, that doctor
told me that that medication is
going to help me in some way.
Well, if the doctor told you going
for a 10 minute walk that day is
going to help you, if you choose not
to do it, what's to say you're still
going to choose to take the pill?
That's mentally your choice.
Struggle that you have to overcome
at that point is, okay, the pill's
easy, so I can just take it.
Well, easy, isn't going to make you
better when you're overcoming demons.
Travis Bader: Never,
Jillian Brown: never, never.
And that's the easy out.
And that's why people are still
getting all the medications
and still taking their lives.
Travis Bader: Brought
up an interesting point.
You said it's you that'll fix you.
And.
You know, I, I did a podcast as the date
that we're recording this, it hasn't come
out yet, but by the time this comes out,
it should be out, uh, with an individual.
And he says, you know, I've got
an issue with this whole, uh,
PTSD and, uh, medical industry.
He says, yeah, there's PTSD, but
there's also a multi billion dollar
industry that's been created around
this to perpetuate, uh, Whether
it's medications or talk docs or
whatever it is that can be sold and
see a person on a reoccurring basis.
Right.
Um, there is the idea as well,
that some of these things don't
require a long time to fix.
They may in some people require
a long time to finally get there,
but when that click is made.
When that switch is turned, when you
realize that you have the power to be able
to go out and walk or enjoy nature, make
these small steps and look at it as the
macro, not I'm feeling really bad today.
It's not working well.
What's the trend
yesterday is feeling good.
And today I'm feeling bad tomorrow.
I'm feeling good.
And that bad.
Each day, it's going up a little bit.
If you look at it more in the macro,
it's a trend and you keep applying these
practices and principles, um, generally
the outcome is going to be beneficial.
And when you say that you, you fix
yourself, if you go, so friend of mine.
Mike, he was diagnosed with diabetes.
Doc says, you're going to
have to take medication.
And we're going to have to monitor this.
He's like, I don't want to take meds.
This is, well, you know,
you should, you got it.
It's all part of it.
And you're going to be on it
for the rest of your life.
Um, diet and exercise can help.
He's like, what if I just
do diet and exercise?
We come back and we do another
examination the next number of months.
So, okay, I can't force you.
Right.
But this is what I tell
you, you got to do.
So he goes, he does his diet and exercise.
He's really diligent about it.
He goes back, he has checked out.
Doctor says, you don't
have diabetes anymore.
Jillian Brown: Wow.
Travis Bader: Right.
Uh, my wife, uh, last
September broke her ankle.
Uh, doctor says, you know, Usually
we can screw the bone back in,
but you've powderized it, right?
We're going to have to fuse your foot.
Uh, you've broken several, your
heel bones, your foot, your ankle,
ligament damage, all the rest.
And so big time surgery, fuse
a foot, all the rest, but, uh,
you'll be able to hobble around.
She's like, I, I don't know.
Let's put off the
surgery for a little bit.
I'm going to see how healing goes and
I'm going to keep, um, working this out.
Well, sure enough, now we're at a point.
Doctor says, I don't
think you need surgery.
I think that we can find doctors and
they might say something and we can buy
into it fully and go down that path.
But when you say that we fix
ourselves, maybe it's okay
to get a couple of opinions.
And maybe if we're having issues,
it's not just the doctors that we hang
around, but also our social circles and
our friends and the people that were
around, find the people that are solving
the problems that you look to solve.
If you're always negative, find
the people that can bring greater
positivity into your life.
And there's an unwritten social
contract that you too have to produce
that same positivity back for them.
You can't be just a
leech draining on them.
Because I do think that there
are, for a lot of these things,
there can be a quick fix.
It just might take a long time to find it.
I don't know if that makes sense.
Yeah.
Jillian Brown: Yeah.
Travis Bader: I think
Jillian Brown: from what you
just said there, I would say
the number one thing that.
cause of any mental health
issue is environment, the
environment that you're within.
If it's a traumatic environment, so
abuse, well, obviously that's your
environment that you're surrounded in.
It's a negative household.
You're walking on
eggshells, things like that.
If you're, obviously, if you're in the
military and you're stationed somewhere
where there's bombs going off while you're
sleeping, you may not even be in combat.
Well, your environment is putting
your nervous system, um, In, in a
traumatic state, even just sleeping,
all of that, um, I fully think
that it's complete environment.
Like I said before,
hoarding, just your house.
If your house, you're living
in a hoarder's house, um,
that's That's your environment.
It's a negative environment.
All of those sorts of things
clutter just in general.
Um, and then, yeah, technically
social media is your environment.
If you're choosing to go and just be
on social media, that's what you're
surrounding yourself and looking at.
You could put the TV on.
I'm not knocking TV or social
media in the regards of What are
you looking at on those platforms?
Are you going and looking at NatGeo
and reading stories about, um,
different new medications they're
finding through the work with frogs
and the Amazon or things like that?
Like cool, really
interesting facts and stuff.
Getting an education side of things.
Or are you just going and looking at
Taylor Swift's next album and seeing
her, she's lost weight and she's
wearing a political statement dress
or something like, are you, I'm just
saying like, are you choosing to go and
surround, make that your environment?
And now you're of course putting
yourself in a mental state of
like, well I should look that way.
like that.
I should believe that.
Um, for me, um, when I mentioned
briefly that I was homeless, well, I
left it an abusive relationship and
there were aspects of that environment.
Um, I was in it for five and a half years
and there were aspects that were positive.
We had a dog sled company and every
day I would go down to the dogs to
feed them and water them and clean up.
And I would nuzzle my face in their, their
fur and their neck and give them big hugs.
And, I would be thankful it was me there
and not somebody else because somehow
I knew I was going to get through it.
That was the positive and
that was what got me through.
There was some positive
context to that environment.
That's part of why I
was there for so long.
And when I left, um, I
had to leave everything.
I had to leave the dogs, everything
behind and, um, ended up homeless.
But, I was homeless in a tent in nature,
so my environment shifted and in ways
I felt it was negative because I was
scared and I was alone and I had left
everything, um, and yeah, I'm homeless and
I'm worried about judgment of my family.
How are they going to think
all of those sides of it?
I was in nature, which was
a very healthy environment.
So um.
After getting through that side of things,
um, like, having suicidal thoughts while
I was there, but I never had suicidal
thoughts when I was in that relationship.
Um, and that's what scared me and why
I went to the therapist at that time.
Why do you think that is?
Um, so, the, for a month, After, I
was still dealing with the person, um,
in some way trying to contact me, so
I was still living in a lot of fear.
So I was still in fight,
flight, freeze, um, aspect.
So I hadn't decompressed yet.
And after that all subsided, I, um,
basically I was able to now feel
every emotion, every Everything, like
literally everything from the past five
and a half years that I had held in.
So it was like imploding and exploding
all of it with it, like inside me.
Travis Bader: And that's what I was asking
when you're in nature and everything
quiets down, what happens to that mind?
And I'm, I take it, this is.
Jillian Brown: Yeah.
What happened.
Yeah.
So then all of a sudden.
It was, I was going through every,
everything possible and yeah, went, went
on a walk with my dog to a river and
I contemplated suicide in the river.
And I immediately turned back, tied my
dog out to a tree and went to a therapist
because I'm like, I don't understand this.
And again, I walked in, it
was the only time I went to a
therapist since I was a teenager.
Um, and yeah.
Um, I felt I judged and all I was told
was sounds like you have PTSD and I was
diagnosed with PTSD, but I wasn't told
even what those four letters stood for.
Travis Bader: Well, you have
your own definition of PTSD.
Yes,
Jillian Brown: but I was sent out
and she didn't ask like if I was
safe and like there was nothing and
I saw her beautiful family photo
and I'm like, well, that's nice.
She gets to go home to her house
and I'm going back to a tent and
yeah, I never went back, but.
it pushed me to, like I said, heal myself.
Like, I'm gonna have to
get through this on my own.
And because I had changed my environment
to somewhere that I felt I could
do that, because I had grown up in
nature as well, and it was always a
safe place for me, but it's always
a healing spot for anyone, really.
I, I, I started just walking every day
with my dog for hours and hours hiking
around and I'd let her off her leash and
I would just follow her and I realized
that I was healing and moving past
things because I was not focusing on
the past and what I was had been through
and I wasn't worrying about the future.
I was living in that moment
wondering, where are we going next?
I wonder what Roxy dog is following.
Are we going to see an animal?
And, and then I just started to do
some exercises out there as well.
Um,
Travis Bader: and.
Like what kind of exercises?
Oh,
Jillian Brown: I would do
like squats and things.
Like physical exercises.
Yeah, physical exercises.
Yeah.
Squats and pushups.
I'd grab rocks and lift them, all sorts
of stuff, but I would do it in nature.
Um.
And it was only up till a couple years
ago that I actually got real weights.
It was like logs and all these things.
I literally had a log in the back of my
vehicle that I would drive around with.
It was my special weight log.
Um, but um, yeah.
And, and that changed environment
to be homeless in nature was the
best home I could have ever had.
Been in to heal and get
through all of that.
Isn't
Travis Bader: it crazy how just
getting out and walking can
change your mental perspective?
Jillian Brown: Yeah.
Travis Bader: There's so many people
that I've talked to in the past,
oh, I've got to talk this through.
I've got to, I got to think about it.
I've got to, maybe
there's some medication.
Well, you know, I've,
I've heard about diet.
Uh, I don't know anybody who's gotten
themselves mentally well, sitting on
the couch Thinking themselves better.
However, getting out for just
a simple walk can allow some of
that decompression to happen.
And you know, that's why I ask, like,
when you're out in the wilderness and
everything's quiet, the cell phone's off.
Yeah.
Go for a walk, leave
the cell phone behind.
And you can find the thoughts
can start racing on through,
but that's a mental processing.
And it's so powerful.
Jillian Brown: Right?
And part of the thing for me in the
mornings, which I've done since that
day of contemplating suicide, is every
day I stop at a water source, and I.
wash my face in it.
And it's been since that day.
So that was 2016 till now 2024.
And every day possible, I
have done that since then.
I have washed my face in water and at
times I was doing like fully immersed
in, in ice, like glacier water as well.
And a big part of that is
because it stops those thoughts.
It is a total reset.
There's a lot of studies that show
that even just splashing cold tap
water on your face, it's like a
reset for your nervous system.
And for me, that's a big thing
because my mind will race and race
and race while I'm out for that walk
and it'll race in negative ways.
It'll race through anything that I
potentially had on my mind the past couple
days and to the point where sometimes
I have to actually stop and write it
out just because I'm like, I can't,
I have to like get this off my mind.
But as soon as I wash
my face in that river.
The rest of my walk, I'm not thinking
about really anything other than
probably my dog or throwing a stick.
I don't remember.
But I remember before that,
what I was thinking about.
Travis Bader: Interesting.
What happens if you miss that routine?
Jillian Brown: Um,
Travis Bader: ask Ryan,
Jillian Brown: um, um,
I can get away with it.
Um, like I'll still wash my face
with cold water or just from a tap.
Um, I can get away with
it at times depending on.
that is the reason for it.
What's going on in my life at that time.
Um, but it's so ingrained in
me and it's so important for me
because none of us truly get over,
I don't think, these, these demons
and things, they're always there.
And for me, I just, As much as it's
been a long time and I have these
tools and I share and stuff, I
still feel like it's still so fresh.
Travis Bader: Mmm.
Jillian Brown: That, like,
some of those moments still
feel like they were yesterday.
Travis Bader: Mm hmm.
Jillian Brown: So, um, I definitely build
up that energy really, really quick.
Also, I just have a lot of
like, go, go, go energy.
So if I can't get out and go for like
an hour, hour and a half walk and
then do some exercises and hopefully
do that routine again in the day,
then I'm also like, I gotta go.
What can I do?
Travis Bader: Yeah.
And you're right.
It never goes away, but the way
that we perceive it can change.
The way that we look at it,
the perspective can change.
You have those instances where somebody
looks at something and they're like,
well, here's another way to look at it.
Have you thought of this?
And, Oh, hold on.
You're right.
It's like, Oh, I don't
want to be running away.
I'm a fighter.
I'm not going to run
away from my problems.
Are you running away from your problems?
Or are you running towards
something that's more desirable?
Oh yeah, yeah.
Maybe I am.
Okay, here we go.
Right.
And that little perspective shift for
that mind shift can change everything.
It's still there.
You're still doing the same thing.
It's still running through.
Do you do anything to help
change that perspective?
Are there ways that you find
that it's been helpful for you
to help change the perspective?
Or do you find yourself ruminating on the
same thing over and over again, kind of
stuck in a, like, how do I get over this?
Jillian Brown: I, I totally agree
with you that it's all about shifting
your perspective on a situation.
And it's, It's so hard to,
for one, tell somebody that.
Travis Bader: No one wants to hear it.
Jillian Brown: Yeah.
It's so difficult.
And there are definitely aspects that
there's no way I'm, like, there's no way
I can look at that situation and be like,
find the positive in him doing this to
me, or, like, there's not a positive.
There's not.
But.
That something else like the dogs.
That was my positive.
I'm not focusing that.
I'm not leaving that
aspect out of that time.
That was a positive.
But, um, the, for me, a big way that
I have shifted is, um, I still have
all those, those stories, and like I
was saying, I don't like seeing people
feeling uncomfortable, uncomfortable by
me sharing, um, traumatic events or hard
things to talk about, having those hard
conversations, um, for me, the shift
of perspective on it is If I share my
story and what I've been through and my
tools, maybe it'll help somebody else.
Travis Bader: I think you
nailed it on the head.
Jillian Brown: That's why I do these
things, like podcasts, why I public speak.
It's why I take photos.
Like, I want to document
people's journeys and feelings.
Nature's journeys in hopes that either
I could protect somewhere or protect
somebody or something may change in
a person, it may impact them, um,
and it may shift their perspective on
potentially how they're looking at a
river and its need to stay clean or
shift their perspective on themselves.
Like, I'm out paddling while I'm seeing
this photo and the story of paddling.
Um, Maybe I need to shift my
perspective and go out paddling
because clearly that person is enjoying
that and I'm not enjoying what I'm
doing, shifting those perspectives.
Um, but yeah, a big part of why I
share my negativity or the things
I, sorry, the things that I've
gone through that are negative is
because it may help somebody else.
Travis Bader: It's funny
how you say there's nothing
positive that came out of that.
And then you go on to talk about
the positive that came out of it.
Well,
Jillian Brown: there's still a lot.
But there's parts in it that
there's no way I could shift that,
that thing into like positive.
But yes, by sharing like that I was in an
abusive relationship, by saying that, then
yeah, I can see like, oh, it's positive.
I know that there's one person out there.
She found me and told me.
So just that in itself, I may be able
to help one more other than just her.
Travis Bader: And that's it.
And that's a perspective
shift right there.
Yeah, that's true.
The fact that you are now provided
the background and the street cred,
so to speak, and the authority, you
can actually reach other people.
And the fact that you're still, you're
looking at tools, you found tools that
work For you, you're exploring new tools
and you're able to share that those it's
not necessarily something positive for us.
And I think that's a very powerful thing.
I think that's the place where a
lot of people, uh, have difficulty.
It's like you're in the
airplane, oxygen mass comes down.
Oh, I got to take care of me
so I can take care of others.
And this.
In that situation, it makes
sense, but that mentality of,
Oh, I got to take care of me.
So make sure I get myself sorted first.
From a mental health standpoint, very
often that can be the worst advice
because you just spiral into yourself
over and over again, trying to Try
to figure out what's wrong with me.
It's like, it's like looking at what's
that saying, you know, you get bit by
a snake and you try and chase down that
snake and figure out why the snake bit
you and tell the snake that, you know,
you didn't deserve that, or else you
can just realize, Hey, you know what?
I've been bit by a snake.
I got some poison.
Let's deal with it.
And so I can get on with it.
Right.
Um, the act of being of service
to others can help you immensely.
And what you're doing.
That difficult times that you
had, the areas where you see no
positive outcome from it actually
has a positive aspect that you're
able to use that to help others.
So I, I think that's a very
strong perspective, Jeff.
Jillian Brown: That's,
that's definitely true.
I guess I, yeah, I hadn't, uh, looked
at it in this conversation like
that, but yes, it's totally true.
Like I, from doing all those things,
I wouldn't have, and, um, being
through all those things, I wouldn't
have ended up working at a camp like
for PTSD and helping others, um,
with it and, and sharing all of my
tools that I've learned, um, and, and
taking them out in nature to do that.
Um, yeah, and putting people in
uncomfortable situations out there that
they find uncomfortable and potentially
by them seeing how comfortable I am.
It allows them to feel more comfortable
there, but teaching them the tools to,
to find that, um, find that comfort
there and find their tools, whether
they utilize the ones that I share
or they find their own that work for
them, um, yeah, that's, I wouldn't be
there if it hadn't been through going
through those negative experiences,
Travis Bader: so.
That discomfort builds resiliency.
And I think that's another
aspect that, um, is lacking
when we look for that quick fix.
What, what pill can I take so I can sit
on the couch and comfortably take a pill?
And I've talked to the doctor so many
times and you know, the uncomfortable
part is sit in my car and drive in
there and driving back, but I don't
have to do that because I can do
it through zoom now or whatever it
might be when you're out in nature.
It can push you and it can test you
and you've pushed yourself and you've
tested yourself in nature and there's
an inherent resilience that's built
from that, that I think, um, even more
than just being outside and listening
to the rainfall and the birds chirp and,
um, the act of moving through nature.
It can be, the discomfort could
be that you're getting cold.
It could be that you're getting wet, that
your legs are getting tired, or it could
be that you're going through, uh, the
Colorado river on a two person sea kayak.
Is it?
I mean, each one of these things is
going to build a different level of,
um, resilience for the individual.
Jillian Brown: The one thing with
what you just said is that it makes me
think of is when we reconnect to that
way of life, that's the way humans.
You got it!
So, it's no wonder that we're
so stressed out in our everyday
when we're doing the mundane.
Yes, routine is important, but so is
change and experiencing new things.
Mm hmm.
And exploring and learning, um.
And we, so much of us don't do that.
It's just the everyday mundane routine.
Seeing new places.
That's, we're meant to.
We're supposed to see new places.
We're supposed to see new things.
We're supposed to taste new
foods, like all of these things.
Life is not supposed to be easy for us.
And yeah, everyone listening is probably
like, well, my life's not, not that easy.
Everyone, everyone has that struggle.
We all have things that
make our lives not easy.
But when you look at how we're
supposed to be, like cavemen and.
But before we had civilizations
really, that's technically
how we're supposed to be.
And their life was certainly not easy.
That's why they, they were just resilient.
They got through everything.
Yeah.
They died really early, but
that was because like some
saber tooth tiger ate them.
That's right.
Or they didn't
Travis Bader: wash their hands, I guess.
Jillian Brown: But they were
extra resilient to that.
Travis Bader: Yeah.
Well, and that, well, that difficulty is
going to be relative and, but that's okay.
I mean, People compare so often.
Well, why should I be upset?
This person has got it so much worse.
Well, just realize that this is
our natural response to it based on
our life experiences, our level of
resiliency, whatever it might be.
And we will get through it.
And if we frame this right, that gives
us that extra little step up the,
uh, up the staircase of resilience.
And then it makes us
tougher for the next thing.
I think we were talking
about this earlier.
My daughter was mentioning some
of her friends who have anxiety.
And I'm like, I asked you, I'm like,
When you were growing up, did anyone
like talk about having anxiety as kids?
And no, not, I'd never heard about
any of this, but you see it over
the mental health issues and the
anxiety and children is prevalent.
And maybe that's due to the
amount of information that we
have coming at us really quickly.
I think a part of it is that we've
created such safe environments.
Like I asked my kids about school and
I'm like, they gotta be lying to me.
School can't be like that.
Are you sure these people aren't.
Picking on this person over here or,
and I think our society and our schools
have done a really good job of making
things, um, setting boundaries for
people of what's acceptable and what
isn't, what's safe and what isn't,
so you can't be racist and sexist
and, uh, mean and discriminatory
and all these different things.
Uh, it, It hasn't produced those
resiliency tools that would accompany
that adversity that people would
experience when we're younger.
So I think kudos for creating a
better sort of system and environment.
But maybe we should look at how do
we create that resilience in the
kids as well through some sort of,
uh, preferably shared adversity so
people can, uh, relate to each other.
Jillian Brown: Yeah.
We're supposed to have disagreements.
Yes.
We're not all supposed to get along.
We're not all supposed to be friends.
I remember when I was in grade
five, this, this girl and I, I,
for some reason, I don't remember,
but I didn't want to be her friend.
I didn't like her.
There was something about her that I, I I
just didn't want to be a friend of hers.
My teacher would keep us inside at
recess to try to make us be friends.
And, uh, uh, like, like, I must be
really cool, but I don't think so
that this girl is that desperate.
But, um, um, I remember just
thinking, like, how is this going
to make me fri Why, why am I
having to be friends with someone?
Like you're trying to
force me to like somebody.
That's not going to make me like them.
You're taking away my time with
my actual friends to do this.
But, um, yeah, there, there were
obviously that we moved past that.
And funny enough, she's actually
come out and visited me and
we've stayed in touch and
Travis Bader: good job, teacher.
Jillian Brown: So funny.
Cause they're just like circled back
that I have not seen probably anyone
from grade five, but I've seen her.
Cause you have a shared adversity.
I don't know.
Um, but yeah, we're supposed to.
Not all like each other
like that's normal.
That's why there were different
tribes in the same region.
That's why there were
fights and things like that.
Yes, we don't like fights, but
that creates resiliency and it
creates rules and stamina and
boundaries, personal boundaries.
Yes, you said that there are
boundaries and things are safe
these days, but there's also.
Everyone's right all the time in school.
You can be a cat in school.
Travis Bader: Oh, I've heard that one.
Yeah.
You're
Jillian Brown: allowed to be a cat.
Like, no, you can't be
a cat like these things.
Um, I'm not going to get on that topic
cause we're going to have so many haters.
Travis Bader: Like you should
be able to say you're ridiculous
if you want to do that.
You're on your own doing your thing.
I'll respect your right to
do your thing, but come on.
I mean, like we're a group here.
Why don't we kind of get together, do
this together, go home, be a cat, come
back here and let's work as a team.
You have a
Jillian Brown: great imagination.
Right now we're learning, save the
imagination time for recess time or play
time or free time, whatever you call it.
But right now we are focused
on learning something.
That's like, it's a very
simple conversation.
We didn't have, I, I always was a dog
when I was playing outside as a kid, but
I couldn't be a dog in the classroom.
Like that's, that's ridiculous.
That's it.
You're canceled.
Yeah.
But I'm just saying, no, those
teachers are canceled cause they
wouldn't let me in the classroom.
Um, but.
But I think that's a big
part of, of the, of it.
Like you're, yes, it, it, you'd look at
it and be like, well, then there shouldn't
be that much anxiety because they can be,
they have freedom to do all those things.
Yeah.
But then there's the kids that
don't know what they want to be.
So then there's even more
anxiety because all these other
kids are like, well, I'm a dog.
I'm a, I'm this, I'm that,
whatever, what it is.
Well, then the person who
doesn't know they're going to be
anxious, anxious, extra anxious.
And they're a kid.
Um, I think, I don't, I don't know how
to, how to say it like having winners
and losers, I get, it creates resiliency.
It creates understanding of how to
know how to, how to be okay with not
being perfect and not being number
one and not being top of the class
because you're not always going to
be top of the class through life.
But if you're all told you're all top
of the class, then when you're done
with class, well, you're screwed.
You're gonna have a big reality check
like you go into high school and high
school you have exams and stuff Well,
you're gonna fail like you if you fail an
exam, well, you're gonna you're gonna be
told you fail There are national exams.
There's not everybody passes.
There's no way you can't say cuz I'm
a dog I still pass like you've seen
Travis Bader: idiocracy The movie?
Jillian Brown: I have at some point,
but I don't remember it fully.
Travis Bader: Basically it's humankind
gets less intelligent as time goes on and
their primal urges are all, everyone's
listened to, you can do whatever you
want and society basically all collapses
and it's, uh, Um, it's a comedy by
Mike Judd's, it's not supposed to be a
roadmap for where we're going, but, um,
but boundaries, people need boundaries.
And by saying no, and this is
where you rank on this scale.
Hey, if I rank zero on a scale of one
to 10 on my mathematical abilities,
um, Doesn't mean I'm stupid.
It means I get a zero on that scale
for whatever that testing group is.
It's like Mansa.
I've done very well on Mensa, um, on all
of those tests, doesn't mean I'm smart.
It means like I like puzzles and games and
I can, and I can work my way through it.
Right.
That depends on the, uh, the system,
but those, those, those, those.
Boundaries, kids crave
them, adults crave them.
If you have employees and you say,
ah, you know, go do whatever you want.
They will push those boundaries and
they'll look to where their limits are.
And if you don't push back,
eventually they'll become dissatisfied
in one way, shape, or form.
Kids will become disgruntled, upset,
feel unloved, um, coworkers will
feel, well, I guess I can do whatever.
Maybe I run the show around here, right?
We need these boundaries to, uh,
uh, To know how to be able to
interact with each other socially.
And when we start removing them and
everybody's opinion is just as valid.
Um, I think that's where a lot
of these issues are coming in.
And I see the pendulum swinging back
to like this whole canceled culture
thing, you said something wrong,
that's racist or that's sexist.
And the person's like Jimmy
Carr, a comedian in the UK.
I love it.
He says, next time I get canceled for
whatever I say, I'm going to stand up
and say, I'm sorry, and they're going
to say, He's just saying the words.
He doesn't mean it.
He's like, ah, you get it.
I'm a comedian.
I can say words that I don't mean it.
Right.
Jillian Brown: Yeah.
Travis Bader: Um, I, I think that, uh,
having a society where we can disagree
with each other respectfully and not
everyone's on the same page, massive.
Jillian Brown: Yeah.
Yeah.
You have to, I mean, look at like
Vancouver is what the most diverse.
City in the entire world, debatably.
Is it?
I don't know.
Culturally.
Well, how are we all
living in a city together?
Because we're accepting of everybody's
different beliefs and stuff.
But is anybody sitting, you
have to sit down and under,
like, go and understand people.
That's how we grow, too.
And how we learn.
Like, I absolutely love debating.
Growing up, my brother's
very stuck in his ways.
Like, he's, he's, this is
the way, it's right or wrong.
He's been like that since we were kids.
For me, I could care less if I'm right.
I, for one, want to have a conversation to
learn, um, and, uh, so I would just start
a topic, and I, because I would know it
would go into a debate, and I would just
love it because, you know, I love it.
I would learn from him,
too, and I would learn.
He's like steering the plot.
Well, yeah, I mean, that
was really why I loved it.
But I would also learn other opinions
and other views on the world.
And I learned so much through that.
I've, still to this day, I've learned,
I learn so much through my brother
when we get together because of that.
Because his, what he shares and knows
is so vastly different than what I know.
Travis Bader: And it's no less valid
or important, but it's good to see
that other perspective because you can
comport yourself accordingly as you
move forward with, with a different, uh,
set of guiding principles perhaps, or.
Jillian Brown: Exactly.
There's also with the, going back to
the fact that your daughter brought up
that her friends have anxiety, this is
a funny one, cause a lot It's hard to,
I'm, I'm having trouble navigating how
to, how to bring, how to talk about it,
but um, it's great that mental health is
so talked about now, and it's a lot more
accepting, but I think a lot of it through
social media and that side of things, it's
almost Glorified it so a lot of kids in
particular and youth think that that is
what they're going through when they're
really just kids And they just need to
go outside more or whatever like you all
kids have energy not all kids have ADD
and ADHD Well, all kids have cell phones.
Well, that's why like That's like
but I think that's a big part of it.
Not like There are definitely kids
and people who have ADD, ADHD,
anxiety, all of these things.
Again, I'm not saying anyone doesn't,
but I think a big part of the fact
that it's so popular to talk about,
but also not, but it's not in certain
realms and in certain context, but
When it comes to youth and schools and
things, nowadays in social media, it's,
yeah, become like almost pop culture
to talk about how I have anxiety.
I have two stepdaughters, and I watch
some of their videos that they're
watching on YouTube and stuff, and
they're watching Kids Channel YouTube.
And there's literally skits about,
like, a kid having anxiety, but
it's been made into a comedy.
Yeah.
So then the kid comes back and
she's like, I'm so depressed.
Like, she's a nine year old, but
this was going on before that.
Like, the past three years.
She's, she'll just quote it.
Like, no, you're not.
But she'll act like what
she saw because she's a kid.
Sure.
That's how we became resilient
because we acted like what we saw,
which was our hardworking parents who
were outdoors and we were forced to
go outdoors with them and work too.
Travis Bader: That's right.
Jillian Brown: That's, that's such a huge
part of it, I think, as well as the whole
fact that because of it's so talked about
and so popular, the Pharmacare and doctors
can really utilize that to make money.
Travis Bader: Well, if you're a hammer,
everything looks like a nail, right?
And if, if, okay, so neurodivergent, we're
going to call everyone neurodivergent now.
What level of the spectrum
are you neurodivergent on?
And well, maybe we're normal and
maybe this is a normal, natural
psychophysiological response to
stressors that we've encountered based
on our life experience and based on
our, our social structure because.
You and I can experience the exact
same thing and mentally experience
it in two very different ways
based on our, on our background.
And for, it was like, when we
were talking about STAS, right?
It's like STAS, you know, PTSD,
like, you know, flashbacks, dreams,
memories, recurring thoughts,
like, is that something you have?
He's like, oh yeah.
Not really like in a, like I'm upset
about it, but more like a nostalgic way.
Like, man, it'd be great to be
back there with the lads out there
and meant we're doing a good job.
And so he keeps coming back to his mind.
He's going through events, his,
uh, ex British special forces
events of, uh, highly kinetic
encounters as he called them.
Right.
Um, and he looks back on it
with nostalgia, like, man,
I was doing a real good job.
We were all cohesive as
a team and other people.
Based on their background and
resilience and whatever it might
be, might look back at that and say,
Oh, that was, that was terrible.
How do I get over this?
I just, I keep having those memories
and the sounds of the back of my head.
That, that piece of resilient, and
that's, you know, where you and I, I
met was that talk I was asked to give.
Basically I had a, about a 45, half
hour at a 45 minute talk that I
had to condense into 11 minutes.
Jillian Brown: It happens
to the best of us.
I completely understand.
Travis Bader: Speed through
this thing as quick as I could.
Actually, I threw it up on YouTube and.
I wasn't going to, but, um,
co workers suggested I should.
Yeah.
But, um, you know, talking about, uh,
the resilience, uh, that the outdoors
can bring and the lessons that you
learn and you're mentioning like,
man, I'm going to get upset here.
It sounds like you're glorifying
unsafe practices about rafting
down rivers without a life jacket.
Yeah, it, that for me has been a massive
thing in my life is just pushing myself
in the outdoors in whatever way I can.
And that sometimes it's mountaineering.
Sometimes it's just walking around
Ladner where I live here, but, uh,
um, it's been a huge, uh, piece of
my own sort of mental health piece.
For you, you've taken that
and you've turned it into
some pretty cool expeditions.
Can you tell me, so I was into rafting and
you got into kayaking and, um, paddling
across the continental United States.
You want to talk about that one
a little bit, cause I'm curious.
I want to hear more about that.
I specifically didn't go far into
the details of that because I
wanted to hear it fresh from you.
Jillian Brown: Okay.
I will happily share.
Um, I'll, I'll.
Say something about prior to that
about the Grand Canyon and before that.
So this all came to light doing
these expeditions after the
whole homelessness and finding my
tools and those sorts of things.
And a big thing that I learned going
through all of that was that nothing
is placed in front of us that we
don't have the strength to overcome.
As long as we believe in ourselves enough.
That's what I came to believe.
I
Travis Bader: 100 percent agree.
Jillian Brown: And, and that
encompasses believing that we can find
the knowledge and the skills and the
athleticism to accomplish those things.
Every mountain anyone can go up.
it's just that people summit those
mountains by training prior to and
setting their mind to it and believing
that they can go up that mountain.
Anyone can do that.
The mountain is no
different for each person.
So after kind of coming to that
realization, I started to say yes to
almost anything that, you It fell in
front of me, and it opened up this
incredible world of expeditions.
The Grand Canyon was not my plan.
I was out on an expedition documenting
killer whales and paddling with killer
whales, and the guide was this gentleman,
Jamie Sharpe, and he threw out this
harebrained idea of taking a tandem
sea kayak down the Colorado River, and
I was like, that sounds super cool.
I'd totally go along, and he's like,
well, I have a partner already, but
that's cool that you're interested.
Well, a week out.
He calls me and he's like, yeah, so my
partner can't, is, is backing out there.
They got cold feet.
You expressed some interest
a little while ago.
Would you like to come?
And I was driving down to go and
paddle the ferry route at the time.
So I'm like, I'm going to
have to call you back, Jamie.
Like I'm going and paddling right now.
And as I'm putting my boat in the water,
I text him back being like, I'm in.
It was like half an hour later.
And so that's how that one came to light.
But.
The same thing goes for the America one, a
month out from doing this trip, um, I got
a call from, from the one gentleman saying
that the three other teammates had backed
out and they needed somebody and they
needed somebody who could document and
paddle and the sponsors that everyone was
already on board, like all the funding.
Um, and they all trusted that I
could get the job done as well.
So they all backed my
skills, which was incredible.
Just like Jamie did with trusting me
to accomplish this world first goal.
He trusted that I would be Going to be
the partner to be able to do that with
him and so I said yes, so a month out I
said yes to the original plan of 210 days
with a stranger paddling across America
and Ultimately I ended up solo on it.
Tell me about that and
Yeah after a day after a hundred days
together I came to realize a few things,
um, I had been lied to why those three
people weren't on the trip anymore.
And it was truly because they
couldn't get along with that person.
And essentially, there was
no more room for his ego and
another person in the boat.
And that's why he went through a
number of other people after me.
But I lasted 100 days and I moved into
a kayak and I was going to continue
to do my job and document him and his
journey and we, I was like, we'll just
tell the sponsors that I'm getting a new
perspective on it from a different boat.
It'll be easy.
And we were invited to stay at somebody's
house for a night for a fresh meal,
shower, and I took the guy up on that.
The family up on the offer, and him
and the other paddlers, there was a few
other boats with us at the time, didn't,
and the next day I woke up to a text
message saying, um, like, basically,
good luck, if you want to keep going,
go on your own, I, I believe that
you'll be able to do it, which was,
that was nice, but, He took everything.
He had all the gear, all the
like, I had my basic gear.
I had my like clothes
and stuff and a tent.
Okay.
But he had all of the GPS, all the radios,
all the solar panels, all the batteries.
Mm.
And, and left.
And I didn't even have a map.
Um, so I had to, you know, Ask a stranger
who I had met, um, we call them river
angels, um, to print out maps of the
Mississippi River for me from the library
and he printed them out and I kept going
till Baton Rouge is actually where I
ended, um, Louisiana, after 150 days.
Wow.
Um, so I went from Astoria, Oregon,
Up the Columbia River to the Snake
River, up the Snake River to Lewiston,
Idaho, and from there portaged from
Lewiston, Idaho over the Continental
Divide, um, to Helena, Montana.
But it broke my foot on
the second day of that.
So I actually, on the
Travis Bader: portage,
Jillian Brown: yes, on the
portage, carrying too much
Travis Bader: weight.
Yep.
Yeah.
Jillian Brown: Yeah.
Stress fracture.
Fifth menopausal.
Um, I don't know.
I was like, I'm not
going and paying money.
You're going and dealing with x rays.
I know what I did.
I've done it before and it's very obvious.
Um, and so I kept going until I
couldn't get my boots on anymore,
which was 16 days of, I was, had a
backpack on and then I had the canoe
strapped to my backpack on a cart and
I was pulling it and he was walking.
Um, And so I was like a little pack mule
with my camera gear and everything too.
Travis Bader: Wow.
Jillian Brown: Yeah.
How much weight?
Like, well, the canoe alone's 90 pounds.
And then I had my camera gears,
at least 40 pounds, um, and
then all the food and tents.
40 pounds
Travis Bader: of camera gear.
Jillian Brown: Yeah.
Travis Bader: Wow.
Jillian Brown: That's why I trained like
all the time, especially right now of
trying to like get back into that scene.
Um, yeah, people don't think about
that when it comes to photography and
outdoor photography, like adventure
photography, they're all praising the
athlete and they're giving sponsorships
to the athlete and the athlete gear.
Well, who's capturing the
photos of the athlete?
Cause somebody's up there with
them doing that for the most part.
Yes.
There are people who set up their
own GoPros and stuff, but for
the most part, I don't There's a
photographer there with all the same
Travis Bader: gear, plus
40 pounds of camera gear.
Jillian Brown: Exactly.
The photographer, but also the
photographer has to be able to
run ahead and get photos, fall
behind and then catch back up.
Travis Bader: Yep.
Jillian Brown: People don't
think about those things.
Yeah, yeah.
People don't think about those things.
Travis Bader: I think about those things.
Yeah.
Grylls go out and do his stuff,
like, but the cameraman's right
beside him doing the same thing.
Jillian Brown: Exactly.
It's like
Travis Bader: that clip of the guy
running down the side of the track
field in these, you see that one?
Yeah.
And he's got this massive camera on his
shoulder and he's going faster than the
guys are coming up to the finish line.
That was, you know, that's a guy
you should be praising right there.
Jillian Brown: Right?
Yes.
It's fun that his video, that
video has gone completely viral.
Travis Bader: Yeah.
Jillian Brown: Um.
So from Helena, Montana, um, I got
on the Miss, the Missouri River, and
the Missouri River to the Mississippi
River, and then the Mississippi
River down to Baton Rouge, Louisiana,
which is where I ended up finishing.
The goal was, um, Miami, Florida,
and taking the intercoastal
waterway along the Gulf of Mexico.
But because I didn't have radios,
GPS, those sorts of things,
um, I didn't feel safe, is the
hardest thing to, to know when to.
You feel like it's
quitting, but when to stop.
And you can always go back at,
like I've said about Mount, the
mountains there for anyone to climb.
Well, that river Gulf Mexico is there.
I can go back when I feel safe,
when I have the knowledge and do
it properly and do it in a way
that I'm going to enjoy it as well.
Travis Bader: That is a hard thing.
Am I quitting or am I
making a pragmatic decision?
Jillian Brown: I, I
vanished off social media.
When the, I had so many people following
like sponsors, partners, magazines, all
of these things that I was working with.
And I felt like I was
letting everyone down,
Travis Bader: calling it
Jillian Brown: quits there.
And um, I hadn't really, I hadn't
shared what had gone on either.
People saw that I was all of a
sudden in a kayak and by myself.
So I had all of that weight on me too.
Um, and, um, and I'm not one to like to
speak negatively about another person.
In a way, like, you'll hear me say
that I was in an abusive relationship,
and if you knew me, you could
know which person, who that was.
But I'm not gonna go saying the person's
first and last name or anything and
being like, this is where they live.
And, and, like, Smiting their
character in some way because
maybe that person changed.
Maybe it was just me I don't know,
but everybody also has their own
story of events that have gone on too
Travis Bader: Yeah, what and what
value does it bring you to go
over that over and over again?
Jillian Brown: Well, yeah, it
doesn't doesn't make me any a
better person by saying negative
things about another person.
Yeah but I, at that time, it was really
negatively impacting me to the point I was
actually started doing my exercise routine
again while I'm paddling across America.
I was doing squats and sit ups and
push ups every day because I had
built up that energy and just paddling
and being out in nature wasn't,
wasn't doing it for me anymore.
I was in such a bad head space
at that point that I tried to
use my tools some more to help.
Travis Bader: Did that
suicidal ideation return?
Nope.
Jillian Brown: Nope.
The only time I've ever had that.
experience was that that one time there.
And, uh, yeah, when I, I've never
ever had any thoughts like that.
That's why it was so scary and why I did
something that I was so, that was so not
me to go and talk to somebody about it.
Um, Because I've never, ever
experienced a feeling like that
or a thought like that before.
Travis Bader: So if the, um, negative
thoughts are returning to you, despite
being out in nature, despite being
physically exerting yourself, kayaking,
canoeing, uh, and you find yourself
in a situation where you got to start
getting back into your exercise regime,
um, It would suggest to me that maybe
exercise isn't the ultimate answer,
and there's another piece of the puzzle
in there that needs to be addressed.
Jillian Brown: Well, there's always, like,
the best thing you can do What anyone
can do is learn as many tools to help
yourself as possible, like go into like,
it would be like going into Home Depot
and learning as many tools as possible
because you want to build your own home.
If you only go in and learn how to use
the hammer, good luck building that home,
that's going to be really difficult.
But if you learn how to use as many
tools as possible, then you may
only need the hammer, but at some
point you're going to need a saw.
So you go back and get the saw.
You know how to use it.
It's in your tool belt.
You're going to use it.
And at that time, I knew, okay, well,
I'm not doing fitness in that way, like
a fitness routine that's like regimented.
I can bring that tool back in.
That's an easy one for me to
start incorporating again.
I stopped writing.
At that time, like, writing for me is a
big thing that's, again, people perceive
social media for everyone is, is that it's
to show off and it's for everyone else.
Well, my social media, my writing,
my photos, I do that for me.
I write every single morning
and I write about a photo or a
story or whatever I'm feeling.
And that's what I post.
That's my, like, journaling that day.
Travis Bader: Very cool.
Jillian Brown: And, um.
Travis Bader: And that's
a routine though, too.
Jillian Brown: Yeah, it's one of my tools.
Travis Bader: Yes.
Jillian Brown: Um, I don't like
to, to write out, like, I went
through this, and like, the, like,
abuse and that's what's on my mind.
I don't like to write that out,
but I'll write out something
about a photo or a story or, um.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Yeah, something, if I'm struggling,
I'll look into a word that's on my
mind, like perseverance, and I'll
write about perseverance in a way
that relates to a photo in some way.
But while I was out there, I
stopped journaling, and I couldn't
get myself to go back to it.
Um.
So that might have been something
if I had started journaling again,
maybe that would have helped,
but there was a lot of factors.
I had poison oak all over.
I had bug bites all over.
Hurricane Michael.
Hit five days after I stopped so there
was also that in the back of my mind
like there was a few factors that were
Weighing on it that weren't making
the situation better And then also
Travis Bader: as it should
Jillian Brown: ultimately there
are things like family and friends
and home some like Places you know,
um, that help your mental health.
That being out on an expedition
like that, you just can't overcome
that when you're out there.
And you have to look at it and
realize, like, I'm not, this is,
This is not good for me anymore.
Mm hmm.
There's going to be points where you're
out on an expedition where you, uh,
eventually you get injured and you have
to press the, the emergency button.
There's no way around it.
You have to.
Travis Bader: Mm hmm.
You've
Jillian Brown: broken your leg.
You have to press the button.
Sometimes you're just at that point
mentally where you have to go home.
Travis Bader: You know what?
One of the things that really kind
of Duck with me, I did a podcast with
the, um, one of the co founders of an
app called metal, um, which is British
term metal, M E T T L E for like
mentally strong, spiritually strong.
So, uh, he, Neil Smith and Bear Grylls got
together and put this app together and,
uh, Talks about mindfulness and meditation
and a bunch of different tools, just
in little bits as specifically designed
for men's mental fitness and talking
about, um, having somebody to, to talk
to friends and family, like you say.
And the comments that came up
afterwards, a number of people that
would say, I don't have anyone to talk.
I don't have any friends that I
can confide this kind of like,
I'll hang around with people.
There's, who can I talk to about this?
Right.
Over and over and over again,
which is, um, which is interesting.
I thought.
Jillian Brown: You know what?
When it comes to that, on
that trip, I mentioned that I
went silent on social media.
I was posting every day, as long
as I had service, like, All of it.
And I'm actually redoing that right now.
I've never shared all my journal
entries and all the photos
and I just started again.
And um, because I never touched upon it.
And um, when I went silent, the amount
of comments and messages that I got from
complete strangers was overwhelming.
And I was so scared.
Like I said, that people would judge me.
People would think I was a failure.
Like I was looking all negative.
Mhmm.
And every single message
was, are you okay?
Where are you?
Oh, we miss your stories.
I hope you're okay.
Everything like that.
Everything under the sun.
And that was really big in helping me.
I started to, just writing them saying,
yeah, I'm okay, actually really helped.
But seeing how much support it was, and
then when I did ultimately share that
I had called it quits, just saying,
or like stopped there, I everyone.
It was, what you achieved is incredible.
And I hadn't looked at it that way.
I was like, I didn't
achieve what I set out to.
They're like, look at
what you did do though.
That was all I was ever met with.
Sponsors, everybody, like family.
It was incredible.
Um, to the point that I had a follower.
This is, this is what shocks me
because I don't think my life's
like that special or anything.
And people were so devoted or are
still potentially so devoted to
somebody on social media or my work.
A follower saw my story about how I had
poison oak and all these bug bites and
stuff and I actually posted a video like
I was sharing the good the bad everything.
About an expedition the
truth about an expedition.
I don't want it to be glorified I want
you to know that it isn't all easy.
It's hard and that's part of it And I
shared that this follower is a doctor
and she's like you need to go to a
hospital And if you can't go to a
hospital, I'm sending you medication
I'm like, I don't think you can do that.
And she's like in America.
I make the rules like She literally sent
me a prescription to the closest pharmacy
and And a river angel picked it up for
me and brought it to me so that I would
have this medication to treat these
like infected wounds I had all over.
Travis Bader: You've used that term
a couple of times, river angels.
Jillian Brown: Yeah.
Travis Bader: And in the same, even
though the doctor wasn't on the side of
the river there with you, um, I guess
they could be viewed as a river angel.
These people who are writing
in saying, are you okay?
Like what's going on?
They could be viewed in the same way.
And for people who say.
I don't have anybody.
I can't talk about these
things with anybody.
Um, maybe, maybe when you said
earlier that we've, anyone can have
some of that mountain, we might have
to choose a different route or use
different tools to get up there.
Maybe it takes a team of Sherpas
to drag us up there, right?
But we have the ability to have
interpersonal skills or develop them
to a point where we can convince
some Sherpas or whatever it might be.
Right.
Um, maybe.
These people, you don't feel
they have anything there.
Aren't looking at the right areas.
Jillian Brown: There's the choice,
choice thing, not to, again, I don't
know everybody's situation, but if you're
saying that there's no one for you to
talk to, well, it sounds like you're
also choosing not to talk to anyone.
There's all you can, there's a ton
of, phone call in places that you're
anonymous and you can call and just talk.
It can be as simple as that, if that's
all you, if that's what you feel you need
to do, just to get it off your chest.
You can go, I've had the most
incredible conversations with strangers.
Mm hmm.
Going, and actually, I, I was able
to leave that abusive relationship,
and, because of a stranger.
Travis Bader: I
Jillian Brown: sat down at a bar
in Squamish, I was, I was living
in Golden, in that relationship,
in Golden, British Columbia.
So it's like nine hours
away from Squamish.
And I was back there for work, for
photography work, and I wasn't sleeping.
I hadn't slept in years,
essentially, at this point.
So I went into a local bar, and I sat
down at the bar, and this hockey puck slid
across The bar towards me, like if the
name on that, if he scores, then you'll
win a free pint, but you probably won't
because he's already scored two goals.
This is the start of the conversation.
It's so vivid to me and I look over and
there's a younger guy sitting beside
me and then another gentleman on the
other side, who's the one that slid it.
And I started having this conversation
with them and these two guys, a
gentleman and his niece that are the.
that are there.
They take me in like family for
the time that I'm in Squamish.
Like, they invite me out to go to
dinners, like with them and their family.
They have me over.
They tell me I could stay
on their couch if I want.
Like, they didn't know me at all.
And at that time, I didn't
feel like I had anyone.
Yes, my family has always
been, been there for me.
They live in a different part of Canada.
Again, I didn't want to put, I never
wanted to put stress on my family.
Your choice, but yes.
It was totally my choice.
Exactly.
Um, they always would have been
there for me and been understanding
and done whatever they could,
but it was my choice never to
involve with them or talk to them.
And anyways, this one gentleman,
he, he stayed in touch with me and,
um, and, on my drive back to Golden.
I, I would get in trouble for
any, anything on my phone.
My phone was always searched and I had
phone calls and texts from clients like
that were like just a phone number.
There was no name and it would be
a phone number and it would say
like, Oh, I'm running five minutes
late or where are we meeting?
And I looked at it like, well,
I'm going to get in trouble.
For this, even if it's obviously, it's a
client, I'm gonna get in trouble for this,
but I can't just delete all this because
then it's gonna look, then I'm gonna get
in trouble for this things being deleted.
So I'm looking at my phone and pulled
over on the side of the road and the first
name that came up was this gentleman on
my phone for a text conversation and I
clicked it and I called him and pretty
much without saying anything, he figured
out what was going on And he, I left a
week later, that relationship, and that
gentleman answered the phone every single
time I called, and texted me, and he
set up a like, escape plan, essentially.
He had done some work over
in Afghanistan with kids.
Hmm.
And.
In doing that, he had to go through
some safety procedures of escape plans
and things like that, um, and so he
kind of went through that process with
me, and he knew people in the area, so
he actually contacted people and said
I could go stay there, things like
that, um, but he was there for me.
the whole time, this stranger
that didn't know me at all.
Um, and I always say
that he saved my life.
And he's always like,
no, you save your own.
You chose, I didn't go and
drag you out of that situation.
You chose to, for one,
call me and talk to me.
But you chose to leave.
And he was the first
person I saw after I left.
Really?
Yeah, he was over at
his best friend's place.
And he's like, just come
here and gave me a big hug.
And he said, I'm so proud of you.
I'll never forget that.
Wow.
Yeah.
And he's still a good friend.
Yeah.
Um, but yeah, like just the fact that a
stranger kind of acknowledged my existence
at all, I attribute to saving my life.
And I, that's why I will always
invite conversations to you.
And if I see somebody not doing
so great at a bar and people
are like, well, they're just,
they've been drinking all day.
Is that really?
Maybe a reason why.
Is that really it?
And I've gone and like asked,
eh, is it like, you okay?
They're sitting by themselves.
Yeah.
And I've had random people start
crying and we've gone outside and
sat on a park bench and like share
their, what they've gone through.
Like, yeah, you just needed
somebody to be able to cry to you.
Like you just needed that.
I didn't do anything.
I don't even know your name.
But if, if it can go both
ways where we can all be that.
Willing to just listen to somebody, but
be that vulnerable to share with anyone.
Travis Bader: I like that.
We really should normalize.
Are you okay?
I mean, not to the point where
you're like, are you okay?
Are you okay?
Are you okay?
Come on, give me a break.
Right.
But, uh, being open and at least cause
you know, you ask a guy, are you okay?
Oh yeah, yeah.
Yeah, no.
And it's always going
to be the answer, right?
Especially in Canada.
Yeah.
No.
What does that mean?
Um, normalize.
Are you okay?
And as well.
Understand that no matter what you're
going through, there's going to be other
people out there who might be able to
offer a different perspective on it.
So maybe.
Maybe you talk to somebody and
they totally brush you off.
Maybe the next person you talk to,
and they're the, uh, they've got the
perspective that's going to work for
you, whether that's a professional
or somebody you meet at the bar.
Is there anything else we
should be chatting about?
We've chatted about a whole bunch
of different things on here.
What's your next trip?
Do you have another,
an adventure lined up?
Jillian Brown: Um, well I have a, uh,
I have an expedition that we're working
on funding for that's down in the United
States again, um, that's a paddling
expedition, um, but the main concept,
actually there's two concepts towards it.
We're making a documentary, um, and
it's about the importance of clean
waterways, and we'll be paddling this
river system that has the biggest
drainage, um, for, for people.
northeast United States, um, from
Fort Wayne, Indiana to Lake Erie.
So it's like 28 counties drain
into the, the Maumee River.
Um, so we'll be paddling that and
documenting the ecology, the ecosystems.
We'll be doing some education and
water sampling along the way, but a
big part of, My portion of it, and what
I'll be sharing, is the importance of
clean waterways and nature, clean, um,
ecosystems for us physically and mentally.
Mmm.
Um.
People are talking about that.
And having, yeah, having those,
those safe spaces to go and yeah.
Wash your face in some clean water.
I definitely, this morning,
walked to certain, a certain
spot around here to wash my face.
Because we're right beside
Vancouver and we're in Delta and
Richmond and all of that area.
So, I wasn't about to use
certain water to wash my face.
But I did find some clean ocean water.
So, I felt that was acceptable.
So, for me, that was really important.
And.
Yeah, and that brings clean air to
Travis Bader: mm hmm
Jillian Brown: less polluted air, which is
of course gonna affect us physically and
mentally Anyways, that's on the horizon.
We're still trying to work
on some funding for it.
How do you get funding
Travis Bader: for something like this?
Jillian Brown: There's A lot of ways.
So we already, we have PBS Ohio on board.
Um, so they were helping,
they've helped us write grants.
So there's grant opportunities.
So you can apply for those.
And there's government grants or there's
specific platforms like the Explorers
Club, um, um, Or the Royal Canadian
Geographic Society, things like that.
A
Travis Bader: friend of mine just
became a member of the Explorers Club.
I just, I just learned about
that a couple of days ago.
That's awesome.
Florian Wagner.
He's in New York, cause I guess
they had their induction for new,
so I, I'm just learning about
what this Explorers Club is.
Jillian Brown: Super cool.
Yeah.
To get into them, you have to be invited.
Both the Royal Canadian Geographic Society
and the Explorers Club, uh, um, a member
of the Explorers Club has to have invited
you to be able, you can't just sign up.
Um, but, but there's things like that.
And then there's, of course,
like, Clean Waters Org, like.
organization, um, that offer
grants and MEC offers grants.
But then you can get sponsorships too, um,
which are just a different form of grant,
kind of, is an easy way to, to put in.
You can get investors and things as well.
To expeditions.
It's really it's that's the work.
Yeah.
Like people look at the amount of
comments that you get as I'm sure
you get these two through your
social media is I love your life.
I wish I had your life.
And I'm like, this is like
10 percent of my life.
There's like, yeah, I like it.
But 90 like 90 percent of what I do
is sitting in front of a computer.
Or going around and pitching myself,
essentially, which I'm terrible at
doing, but trying to get funding.
And that's, that's such hard work.
It's so frustrating, too.
Because you're like, this idea
is so amazing, this project is so
important, but nobody believes in it.
Or maybe they do, but why won't they help?
Like, yeah, it's that.
That's, that's the next part.
Kind of big expedition thing.
I'm also doing a paddling race in the
Amazon next year with, um, a friend of
mine, um, Canadian female team doing it.
Yeah, that'll be fun.
Um, so right now this year it'll be,
unless anyone hears me on here, sees me
on here and hires me for some gigs for
photography or writing or documentation.
I'm totally open to it.
Travis Bader: We'll put a link in the bio.
Jillian Brown: Yeah.
Um, it'll be the standard summer.
We, we do our best to go out to our
family cottage where I grew up, um,
in Northwestern Ontario and we'll
get to do lots of time outdoors
and paddling and seeing turtles
and frogs and all the wildlife.
Travis Bader: I love it.
Jillian Brown: Yeah.
Travis Bader: Well, we'll put some
links of those in the description.
So people will know how to contact
you, follow you on social media,
see the work that you're doing.
And if there are people out there who
want to be sponsors and see some of
these adventures, Through to fruition.
I'm sure they'll know how to get
ahold of you through social media.
Jillian, thank you so much for
being on the Silvercore podcast.
I really enjoyed this conversation.
Jillian Brown: Thank you.
It was great.
I'll come back anytime.
Travis Bader: Oh, you'll be
back.