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Periodically, the podcast that covers all things periods and chemistry!
Each week, over this series of six episodes, we here at the University of Oxford will be taking a deep-dive into just how periods have affected us in tutorials, exams, labs and just generally studying at undergrad. We want to talk about how periods can sometimes just get in the bloody way!
Periodically is funded by the Royal Society of Chemistry Equality and Diversity fund.
Periodically is back for season two.
We are still going to be talking
to you about all things periods and
chemistry, but this time we have a twist.
This year, we are very grateful
to welcome guests onto the
podcast from all over the UK.
In our next six episodes, our guests will
be talking to us about their experiences
with menstrual and reproductive health,
where we take a deep dive into topics
ranging from endometriosis, pregnancy
and the menopause to name a few.
Our guests represent a wide range of
experiences, and are at different points
in their career and we hope this will
shed light on the impact that menstruation
can have at all points in our lives.
We still continue our quest to find
out and talk about how menstruation can
sometimes just get in the bloody way.
This year, we'd like to thank the
RSC Inclusion and Diversity Fund,
the University of Oxford Chemistry
Department and the EPSRC funded
OxICFM CDT for supporting the podcast.
Hi and welcome back to a new
episode of Periodically Season Two.
Your hosts today are me, Charlie, and...
Manami.
We have another fantastic
guest with us today, who we
are very excited to introduce.
Sat across from us today
is the inspiring Dr.
Jenny Burnham, who is currently
a chemistry teaching specialist
at the University of Sheffield.
So Jenny, if you would
like to introduce yourself?
Hi, I'm a chemist.
I've been a teaching specialist
at the University of Sheffield
for quite a long time.
Nineteen years, that
sounds like a long time.
I've done a PhD, I've got two postdocs and
they asked me to have a fascinating fact.
So I firmly believe that boron is
the best element in the periodic
table by quite a long way.
I would argue that I have a
different favourite element,
but Boron is pretty good!
Boron is best!
So yeah, in today's episode, Jenny
will be sharing with us her personal
experiences with menstrual and
reproductive health and how they've
impacted her and her career, particularly
her experiences with infertility and
miscarriage, as just a quick trigger
warning for the rest of the episode.
In academia, the average appointment of
assistant professors is at age around
37, and this is often the first permanent
contract, but sometimes not even that.
Therefore, thinking about having
a family can be delayed for some
people, especially women in academia.
On top of this, reproductive health
can also be very complicated.
In recognised pregnancies, there is
a 15 percent risk of miscarriage,
which unfortunately increases with
age, along with other complications.
All these factors can make family planning
process harder and more complicated.
Often the expectations of academics
in early years require the ability
to travel, work long hours,
and work short term contracts.
Particularly with travel to conferences
and changing institutions, which
is sometimes a requirement of
particular grants, can make things
harder if you either have children
or you're planning to have children.
We hope that this episode will shed
some light on the challenges that
researching and working in chemistry
and academia in general can have
on those who want to have both a
successful academic career and a family.
Jenny, thank you for joining us
on the podcast today and making
the trip down to record with us.
To start with, would you like to point out
the first time you realised that menstrual
health was impacting your life and career?
So it kind of creeps up
on you, the life choices.
My chemistry career, I finished my
PhD in Bristol and it took me to St
Andrews, Germany and Oxford, after we
all left Bristol and my now husband
was based in Sheffield and long
distance did not work well for us.
So I had the choice of settling
down with him or a chemistry career.
So that wasn't a choice for me.
I wanted to settle down with him,
so I took the first job in chemistry
that came up in the Sheffield area.
It could have been a graduate job
at the civil service because they've
got offices in Sheffield, or it could
have been a post at Health and Safety
Laboratory, which at its time was based in
Sheffield, it's now moved out to Buxton.
But as it was, it was a teaching
assistant post in the Department of
Chemistry at the University of Sheffield
and I've been there ever since!
It was by accident, and when
you're planning a career, that
sounds rubbish, that you're, how
did you end up where you were?
Well, it was kind of an accident,
but it's worked out really well
and that's not very helpful for a
young person looking forward, but
that's why I ended up where I was.
I was 29 when I moved to Sheffield,
so I was getting old and I wanted
security to start a family and
I wanted to start a family.
So, for me and my upbringing, it's
traditional, so you need a secure
job and you need to be living with
your partner and then you need to
get married and then you do children.
That's not everyone, but that
was the way, my mind worked.
So we got married when I was 31 and
then children did not come immediately.
So, I love teaching undergraduate
students, students are awesome.
Working with them is so much fun.
I learn so much from my students.
However, my undergraduate students
are not the cleanest in the lab, for
perfectly understandable reasons.
They are learning, so this is new to them
and they're quite young, so they're sort
of 19, 20 year olds and so going back to
when I started, it was in the mid 2000s.
So laboratory and chemical containment
was not what we would expect in 2024.
So for me, pregnancy and that oozy
black stuff and the other chemicals that
were sort of, you could smell in the
lab, they were completely incompatible
and so working in the labs was not
an option whilst I was pregnant.
So I've had three pregnancies since I have
been in Sheffield and my work identity has
been really closely tied to teaching in
the second year inorganic lab, that's me.
But for three pregnancies, that's
three academic years of work,
my work at work was different.
So I wasn't doing lots of lab
teaching, I was doing lots of not lab
teaching, marking and running the lab
course from outside of the lab door.
So I've been very lucky, and fortunate
timing's just worked with my pregnancies
to be able to arrange that just
happens within the normal workload
planning cycles of the academic
year, it's just how it's worked.
So devastatingly for me, the first
of these pregnancies resulted in a
miscarriage and what was worse is that my
miscarriage happened fairly early on in
the pregnancy and it was in the summer.
So the academic work for the next
year had been assigned but I wasn't
pregnant anymore and it was very
obvious that there was a mismatch and
it didn't help and it's just weird.
I'm really sorry that this is
something that you went through.
I think that there's a lot of stuff that
we're not really thinking about, in terms
of, you know, as you said, you'd actually
planned to be pregnant and then when that
comes around and you actually end up where
you're in this situation kind of limbo,
I guess, of assigned work that you're
expected to do and then is actually, you
know, something that you could do more of,
that you wanted to go back into the lab
maybe, and go a bit more back to normal,
but that's already been sorted out.
I guess that must have been
really hard to go through.
Going on from this, is there anything
that you think that either the
society or the workplace could have
done to make the experience that you
had easier and hopefully for other
people that might go through it.
We need to talk about
miscarriage more when it happens.
It's quite common.
You can look up the stats.
I think it's one in three
pregnancies end up in miscarriage.
They're nodding, so yes.
It needs to be normal, it needs
to be not a taboo subject.
So I felt very ashamed that I'd lost
my baby and no one should feel ashamed
if they lose a baby, it happens, it's
common, it happened to me and the more
you talk about it, the more you find
out, oh, well, it's happened to someone
else too and therein we find support
for, oh yeah, it happened to me too.
It's really shit, isn't it?
I also think that higher education
need to support pregnancy earlier
on in the academic career.
I was 33 when I miscarried.
It was a bit of a surprise.
I was in the hospital and I
saw on the notes there was F33.
I was like, Oh, I'm 33 years old.
It was a bit of a surprise,
I'd not been keeping track.
Risk of miscarriages is lowest
for under 30s and it rises
pretty rapidly after that.
So it should be normal for chemistry
academics, male and female, to start
their families earlier than I did.
Those would be two things.
Being able and being normal to
start earlier, you're less likely
to miscarry and just talking about
miscarriage in society normalises it.
It's not that secret thing that happened.
I think that with the point you brought
up about kind of addressing this earlier
is something that I as someone who's
going to be 27 soon and not quite sure
my like people in my family have started
to have babies and stuff like that, not
sure I do yet, but I would really like
to know that if I wanted to carry on
with a career in chemistry academia, how
that would be kind of compatible with me
perhaps wanting to start a family and that
is just something that unless we talked
about, I've had really good experience
because I've been able to talk to people
like you and ask for your advice, but
it's not something that is kind of talked
about enough and I think sometimes people
almost want to shy away from it because
they're like, oh, it's maybe a bit complex
or actually, you know, we, kind of want
these people just to keep working and
working and if we don't tell them about
it, then maybe they might not need the
help that we should be giving them.
I don't know if the onus is on some
kind of institutions to try and start
thinking actively about this and then
also if they try again and make it a
bit more of a environment where this
is, you know, comfortable to talk about
and more normalized then people are
going to feel more comfortable, people
are going to be happier at work, you
know, they're gonna, yeah, probably
be a lot happier in the long term, if
you give them some support early on.
One of the things that I found mind
blowing, the way you keep in context,
so this is context, one of the first
tutorial groups that I taught when I
first arrived at Sheffield, so bearing
in mind I was 29 and so the students
would have been 10 years younger than me.
I have since found out that one of those,
one of those students has got a child
that is the same age as one of my kids.
This guy, he finished university,
he went and got a professional
job, settled down, had a family.
Ten years ahead of me in the whole
family thing, that's mind blowing for me.
Wow.
Yeah, there's a lot to consider and it's
really interesting hearing you say that.
your side of it because, you know, we're
going to be experiencing this at some
point and yeah, what you said about
miscarriages needing to be a less taboo
topic is so true and we just don't learn
about it enough and it really needs to
be brought up more and mentioned and
yeah, something I find interesting which
Jenny brought up is how experiences
with reproductive and mental health
are correlating with points in which we
lose a lot of female talent in academia.
Jenny, do you have any thoughts
on why we see the first drop
around the transition from postdoc
to an early careers researcher?
We're not stupid, we're quite clever
and quite bright because we have
the potential to be awesome thinkers
because that's what an academic is.
So there's a fabulous report, it's called
the RSC Breaking the Barriers report.
It's excellent, somewhat
shocking read about where female
talent in academia is lost.
It's published a few years ago, it's
pre pandemic so it dates it, but the
messages in it still hold true today.
You'll read it anyway, yep, yep.
Parenthood and the challenges associated
with care of children underpin
all of the top factors obstructing
progression of women in academia.
There's the unattractiveness
of short term contracts.
I wanted stability, I didn't want
to be hopping around looking for a
new job every six to nine months,
long working hours, how many people
spend 10 hours a day in the lab?
Well, that doesn't work if the school
hours are shorter than that, balancing
of responsibilities, you can't just
go home and work on a paper because
you've got Other things to be doing
when they're really small, you've got
bedtime and you've got the cooking and
the cleaning and it just doesn't work.
You need to be able to balance them
and that's a challenge and it just
makes the job of being an academic
harder and there's societal challenges.
I'm very fortunate, my husband is
awesome, but for many people there's
gender inequality just as a societal
norm, the man works full time and is
out of the house and the woman picks up
most of the administration to do with
the child and the taking the days off
when child is ill and so there's the cost
of child care which is getting higher
and the fact that government subsidy,
so political warning, governments,
they're all blooming men, aren't they?
Paid for childcare places are
only paid for in school term time.
Yay!
30 weeks of the year, like there's 52
weeks in the year gentlemen and then
there's the availability of childcare
and also where the childcare is.
I made a mistake, we had a fabulous
childminder and she retired and
there was a gap between convenient
childminders where we lived.
So I put my daughter into nursery and
it was a nursery on my way to work.
Great, I'll drop off my daughter
on my way to work, go to work,
pick her up on the way home.
It was all fine until I
became really quite poorly.
I got an infection and I couldn't
drive and all I wanted to do was sleep.
So I had the choice of stay home and look
after a toddler or go to work somehow
with the toddler because actually work
was the less option and so the mistake
in there is the fact that because of
geographically where the nursery was, my
husband couldn't drop her off within the
drop off time and get to work on time and
he couldn't pick her up at the end of the
day for the same reasons, so it hadn't
even occurred to me until it happened.
So there we are, we are not stupid.
In the UK system, you've mentioned it,
Charlie, you come to the end of your
PhD, we come to the end relatively
early, we're still sort of In our 20s.
In some societies where everything
takes a bit longer, undergraduate
courses are longer and then you do
a longer master's and then you, PhD
is longer, it's more normal to see
pregnant PhD students in the lab.
That's just the way it is, but we don't
do that in the UK and so that's a thing
that some people in your position are
faced with the, Oh, I've got the choice.
It's either I do a career
or I have a family.
You should be able to do both, but it's
not something that you see very often.
So it's not something
that you think about.
The delights of being a chemistry
academic, proper teaching and research
academic, is you don't walk straight
from your PhD into a lectureship.
I did meet someone, she was a
biologist, and she did do that.
Oh wow.
I know, look at your reaction, oh wow!
So, we're expected to do two postdocs.
It's frowned upon to do postdocs in your
same institution, you're expected to go
somewhere else and if you look at the
geography of the UK, you don't get a lot
of high quality research institutions
all clustered in the same place, unless
you're in the, what's it, the central belt
in Scotland and you can sort of commute
between Glasgow and Edinburgh, or you're
in the London area and then you've still
got commuting time, so that's really hard.
So you're expected to move institutions
which means you're expected to travel.
It's okay when you're moving one
person, but if you're moving a couple,
it's harder and if you're moving a
couple with kids, it's harder again.
So, you know, we're not stupid, I'll
come back to that, we're not stupid.
You can see this coming, so people
step off the career ladder from that.
We're also expected to travel for work.
I'm really happy I've come down to
Oxford today, it's really exciting,
I've been able to do that because
someone else is looking after my kids.
If you think about the normal
course of being an academic, they
go off and they give seminars.
So that's a day's travel and
seminars typically in the afternoon.
So you're getting back relatively...
well after 3:30, you're getting back,
so after school pickup time, or you're
traveling overnight because the place
that you're going to is harder and
then you're traveling for conferences
and you're traveling for PhD vivas and
all of this is related to your normal
course of research work, but that travel
element, that sort of nipping off for
a day here or there, becomes really
challenging when you have to factor in
the logistics of I've got a small child
to look after, or a medium sized grumpy
child that I need to ensure it has
something related to a not chocolate diet.
Add in the institutions in the UK are
geographically widespread, it's unlikely
you're going to be living, well maybe
you will, but it's possible you're not
going to be living in a city or a large
town with easy access to grandparents.
So where's that overnight
stay coming from?
And it's not impossible, it
just adds to the complexity.
So what does I call it?
I call it the challenges of
balancing responsibilities.
This is the challenge of
balancing the responsibility.
Who does the drop off and pick up?
Who does the care when the work is
lasting more than the normal day?
So, support networks are essential
when you have a child and moving away
from work takes you away from that.
I work part time.
This was a choice I made
when I became a mum.
It's what the mum does.
We had a conversation, actually,
me and my husband, do you want
to work part time or shall I?
And he was like, ooh,
maybe you should, Jenny.
Okay.
Yep, I'm quite happy to work part time.
Just thought I'd raise it.
I like working part time and it's
made being a mum much easier and
my kids, it means I can help my
kids do after school activities.
So they've learned to swim in the after
school swimming programme and do other
clubs and activities and I have been
able to spend time with them and working
part time has really helped balance the
demands of running a house and a family
and working in a quite intense job.
I think that's really important to go
from how you're talking about the RSC
Breaking Barriers Report where, you know,
they kind of pinpoint these issues that
I guess minority groups and particularly
women are facing within progressing in
chemistry academia and it to be so much
centered around the possibility of wanting
to have a family and to start a family
and then also to, you know, maintain that
and continue with your progression on and
I think all the points that you talked
about were things that are so massive
and as you say we're not stupid we can
see these coming and that seems to be
why we're like oh actually if I do want
to have a kid in like a couple of years
time then maybe I need to do a postdoc
in the UK as opposed to a postdoc in
Europe but then it's like but the research
that I want to do is better in Europe
and not maybe somewhere near to where my
mum and dad live or something like that.
I think that's like something that is
really resonating especially at the moment
with me and the fact that you say you
know these support networks are essential
and a lot of the time people's support
networks not always but they do come from
family and being close to them is really
important and sometimes really essential
to be able to, as you say be able to say,
Oh, can you come and just look at the kids
cause I'm late from work today and yeah,
I think when you said that you had the
opportunity to work part time, I think
is something that is really great and
it's a great option to be able to have.
But I think that's something that also
we don't know that is an option a lot
of the time and I think that's really
good to point out, you know, that we can
ask our institutions that I would like
to work part time and this is why, and
I will continue to do all the things
that I want to do, but I'm also going to
look after my family at the same time.
So yeah, thanks for highlighting all that.
It was really, interesting.
So I guess it's kind of the drop off
that we see in this leaky pipeline,
kind of between postdoc and going
on to be an early career researcher.
But we've also seen that there's a
big drop off kind of a bit further
along that pipeline, which is getting
women into senior management roles.
So things that are like heads of
department or, you know, those
senior leadership situations,
we see another drop off.
So do you have any thoughts on why
this one is also happening as well?
Because we might be able to address
the first one, but now we also need
to make sure that, you know, we have
the longevity of these careers for
these women that do actually even
make it past the first drop off point.
When the Breaking the Barriers report
was written, I looked it up, nine percent
of professors were women and things have
improved, but not by much and across the
UK, they look at their gender pay gap
and we have gender pay parity up until
child bearing age and at that point
things split and men continue and the
gender pay gap widens at that point.
For me, I know you're saying
part time work sounds great.
Part time work is a problem
for me and my career.
I like part time work but I am
coming to realise I've been working
part time for 13 years now and I'm
coming to realise that it's perhaps
damaged my career to the extent that
I will never make the next step.
So I am senior lecturer level
associate professor, I think
that could be as far as I get.
I'm going to give a health warning
here, the problems are much worse
for mums who take a career break when
their children are born and I can see
the logic because we're not stupid.
It's like, why on earth would I carry
on working when all of my money and a
bit more is going to pay the childcare?
So in the immediate term, financially,
it's sensible, but you step
off the career path completely.
If you choose to go back on, you get back
on at the same point that you left it,
but maybe five years have passed or even
worse you've managed to work up the grade
a little bit and you step off and you
get another postdoc job but they put you
back at the lowest end of the grade so
you actually end up worse off and so in
the long term if you stop work, you never
make up that difference, whereas maybe if
you don't spend quite as long time working
part time, or if you've got enlightened
management, then they can support you
to grow your career proportionally
and that's what I'm realising now
has not been able to happen for me.
So there's another thing, menopause.
We talk about the change
going through the change.
But menopause is now.
talked about more in the media and the
idea of the perimenopause, rather than
just the change, which makes it sound
like a snap because it's not like that.
Perimenopause is not instant,
it lasts for about 10 years.
It sneaks up on you, so you don't
realise it started until the symptoms
become noticeable that you're like,
Oh no, I've actually got a problem.
Yeah and it starts sometime in the
mid forties, mid to late forties.
I'm 49 now, that's a big number, my
symptoms of perimenopause have included
crippling anxiety, disturbed sleep,
overheating at night, and they're all
linked, it's like a vicious circle,
so women get grumpy, they get angry,
they find things hard, and it creeps
up on you until you realise, okay,
I've had got a problem, but things
have already become hard before that.
Ironically, because of the timescales
of academia, the perimenopause, late
forties, is likely to happen just ah!
About the time you're trying to get
your career back on track after having
dealt with the I'm having a kid late
in my life and when you're feeling
just rubbish and tired, the last thing
you can really find the energy to
do is to leap into a campaign for I
need to do that and that and this and
you must give me that opportunity.
I'm just tired and so it's
not great for the career.
There's another point where whilst
people can stay in academia, they
don't make the leap to the greatness,
which is the professorial level,
which, you know, it's metrics, it's
numbers, we like numbers, we're physical
scientists, and we can count very well.
Why are the numbers low?
Well, the reasons are manifold.
We're still there, women, but
we're just not quite there.
Yeah, it sounds like you kind of have,
not problem after problem, but once
you kind of get over the having a baby
and then the childcare and then you
get the perimenopause and then the
menopause and then it just kind of,
you don't get a break, do you, from...
It all sounds really bad, doesn't it?
It does!
I've got two awesome kids.
They can be grumpy, but
they can be amazing.
I work in a lovely department
with amazing colleagues, I love my
students, I could step out and do
a different job, but I don't want
to because my job is so rewarding.
So there are benefits, like
financially, I'm not the professor
yet, but there are good bits.
Yeah, it's good to hear that there
are the positives as well, because
it can sound like, quite a lot.
You're focusing on the bad bits.
Yeah, there are good bits.
Thank you Jenny for making that point.
With both of these situations in
mind, regarding for trying a baby
and then the menopause, are there
any reasonable adjustments that you
would like to see more in academia
or just in the workplace generally?
Adjustments.
That sounds like evolution
slowly, natural selection.
I don't want evolution, I want revolution.
For a truly equitable workplace in
academia, we need to accommodate
every person, regardless,
at all stages of their life.
There are lots of good sounding words
floating about, reasonable adjustments
and yet those at the top remain the same.
My EDI campaigning friend calls the
male pale and stale, which I love.
So good.
I enjoy that!
Yes, so I want a universal design for
academia that includes security in
employment or in career track from
the start, associated with freedom of
movement, more jobs available in more
institutions, so you're not waiting
for the one job in the one place, or
so that families can move easier and
that families don't have to be, man
and woman and two kids, families come
in all shapes and sizes these days,
but a universal design that allows for
that flexibility will benefit everyone.
We need visible diversity and visible
diverse success, because then the people
in your positions will go, Oh yeah,
so and so's, I'll just chat to them
about it, or you don't even think about
what the choices are because you've
got the examples of them and okay.
You're not breaking the barriers, you're
just doing something that's normal.
We need good mentoring and
good encouragement for all.
I love my students.
I'm a facilitative teacher, my students
are awesome and I try to enable
their awesomeness and that works for
colleagues as well and that should be
what line management does, everyone
should be encouraged and challenged
to not step off the treadmill.
How can you actually get this to work?
So we need supportive careers
and fair allocation of the time
consuming administrative roles.
When you work part time, you find
that the things that everyone
does take up more of your time.
So if you have to sit in a meeting
and listen to your head of department
talk, I don't get to do 0.6 of that,
I still have to do the whole lot, but
that's a bigger chunk of my working day.
Allocation needs to be aware of that
and we need investment in and reward
for quality and potential and not
just the quality that's built on an
amazing track record and I know what to
write because I'm awesome and I've got
ninety four research grants and five
hundred papers to my name, so I talk
the talk, but the quality is actually
that's a really good idea, it's not
expressed very well and maybe we need
to interrogate it a bit more, but that's
an initiative worth funding, even though
the words using to describe show a
lack of expertise in the writing of it.
So, yeah, universal design.
I'm a woman, part time, that should be
irrelevant, I'm a white woman part time,
I could be a full time black man and we
should be able to do the same things.
I totally agree with having the visible
diversity because even as a student
we kind of think, oh that we have a
female lecturer and we shouldn't be
feeling like that, it shouldn't be
an excitement because it's so rare.
I think, as you said, it does
need a revolution, I am very much
in favour of this revolution.
I think what is trying hard is that
like, it almost feels like it's a kind
of etching away process at the moment
and it's always the people that have
had, I guess, the unequal experience
that are etching away and putting in
extra effort and extra work to try and
make it happen because they want to see
something that's comfortable for them,
and they know that will help other people.
But at the same time, we need people that
maybe who haven't had this experience
to try and think outside the box,
think about your friends, your family,
your colleagues, who might be having
this experience and really try to put
that into when you make decisions as
well, are you thinking about everyone?
And hopefully that will mean that, you
know, this takes the self advocacy out
of those people that are already having
to do a lot more work in order to try
and make it comfortable for themselves.
But it also means that you will start
making decisions that will be even more
rewarding to your colleagues, they will
respect you and they will feel like you're
in a very comfortable institution where
change can happen, which I think is really
nice and I do agree that this, revolution,
it will come, it's definitely got to come,
because, I want to carry on with this
job, so it's gonna happen at some point.
But yeah, just to take it back to
a slightly earlier point, when you
mentioned that you were trying for a
family, I just wanted to ask how was your
menstrual health impacted in this time?
Because I think that's something
that, yeah, we don't also don't
really know much about and be
great to hear from you on that.
So I got married, came off the
pill, baby didn't come instantly.
There's issues with that, but
I came off the pill, right?
So pill birth control, it's
what it's there for, we use it
for many things, birth control
is only one aspect of the pill.
So, You come off the pill, and
then you're hit with hormones!
Hello!
Periods!
All of the rubbish things that the
pill's sort of evened out, or the
birth controller's evened out, and
you haven't noticed whilst you've
been on it and they come back in
full force, so that's a thing.
Coming off the pill does
not mean instant pregnancy.
You hear the stories, Oh, I came off
the pill and then I was pregnant.
You read in romance novel,
Oh, I was on the pill and I'm
pregnant, how did that happen?
So, you know, that's not
how it happened for me.
So after six months, I went to my doctor
who looked slightly embarrassed and said,
well, amenorrhea is normal for periods
of six months and maybe a year after
you come off the pill and amenorrhea
means no periods, so that's normal
and then when my periods restarted,
I didn't get instantly pregnant.
So I'm quite old at that point and maybe
I wouldn't have got instantly pregnant at
19 coming off the pill, but I wasn't 19.
I was older than that and there's a
monthly anticipation, am I pregnant?
Disappointment, oh no, I'm not,
cycle and emotionally, that
really takes its toll and you're
thinking each month, am I pregnant?
No, I'm not.
Am I pregnant?
No, I'm not and I'm getting older, and
this has gone on for some months now
and I'm getting older and you're getting
more anxious, and anxiety isn't good
for pregnancy either, so it's not great.
That was a consequence of me waiting
and the decisions, well, it's just how
it happened, but here we go and another
thing they don't tell you after you've
had your baby and periods come back,
one of the things they don't tell you
is that they come back with a vengeance.
They come back and they're much heavier
and more painful and you can kind of
work that out biologically, it kind of
makes sense and so I wanted baby number
two, so I didn't go back on the pill and
so I was putting up with this and the
worst is a full day in the teaching lab.
So we do full days, three and a half
hour with an hour for lunch, another
three and a half hour and there's
the discomfort, just generally not
feeling great, the lower back ache when
you're on your feet, it's bad enough
anyway, oh lab stools are amazing.
And then there's the dashing to
the loo to change the protection
and hoping that it hasn't leaked.
Spare clothes at work are a must.
So yes, that's one of the
things I don't tell you.
Surprise!
Yay!
Well, you know, women, we
just get on with it, don't we?
Thank you for sharing these points
because, you know, it's really good
for us to hear and you just don't get
taught these things and we really should
because it really impacts your life
and a lot of people are going to go
through this and people listening to
this podcast hopefully will know that
if things like this happen to them,
it's normal and we spoke about the
experience of going on the pill and the
trial period and how troubles come with
trying to find the right pill for you.
But we never even considered coming
off and you know, the fact that it can
take quite a long time, usually around
three months for your symptoms and
your menstrual cycle to come back and
you just don't even think about that,
I guess, sometimes and a lot of us, go
on the pill when we're teenagers and
then go on it for a prolonged period
of time and then when you come off the
pill, your body's completely changed.
It's not the same as when you
were 18 and you went on the pill.
So you can't even predict what's
going to happen when you come off.
So I think, yeah, it's very hard to adjust
to all of these changes and it's really
good to hear the experience of someone who
has been through the opposite end of the
pill experience to what we spoke about.
I think, yeah, as Manami said, it's
something that, where I was like, oh
my gosh, we finally found a pill that
works for us and then when you think,
oh, I actually might need to come off
this, it might be that because you want
to start having a baby or the pill that
did work is actually not working at all
for you anymore and then you're like,
oh, yeah, because I actually came off
the pill, and then it took, I think,
over a year for my cycle to get back to
normal and like, luckily for me, that
was just because I came off it because
of some mental health considerations.
But I was like, this is going crazy and
when I went on the pill, I was 16, 17.
So I was just there like, did I
even have normal periods before?
Like, am I just weird?
Like, what's going on?
And then it did start to settle down.
So I think that, yeah, this
opposite consideration of coming
off is great to hear and yeah, good
to know as well for the future.
Finally, I'd just like to ask you, Jenny,
if you've got any advice for those of
us thinking about going into teaching
at universities and perhaps how we
can tackle this with our reproductive
health and particularly with some of the
issues that you'd shared with us today.
My advice is to work the system.
The system's different, I could tell
you how it has been for me and at
Sheffield it will be different now
to when it was when I had my kids.
But know what the system is and find out
how you can work it to your advantage.
What is the funding?
Ask for it, what are the options?
If something happens unexpectedly, great!
How can you deal with it?
So what systems are in place?
And if they're not in place,
well, they probably should be.
So systemically, who can help you do it?
You don't have to necessarily
do it for yourself.
Another thing is you need
good support networks.
So if you're having children, you need the
child care support, you need the support
of the other family members, maybe you
have a dog, who's going to walk the dog?
You know, you need to know what
your support networks are and
you need more support networks,
the more your life diversifies.
So, as a parent, you need parent support
networks, dads need dad networks, just
like mums need mums networks and you
need them outside of your work as well
as within your work and you need people
who can just drop everything and collect
your child from wherever it is because
the train's been cancelled or the road is
flooded or something else has happened.
So the support networks
are really important.
In terms of academia, you look around
and you find women tend to collaborate in
research and my feeling is that because
women stereotypically, work well with
other people, if you collaborate and you
take a break, six weeks for an American
style maternity and then you're back
in, or minimum maternity, the research
doesn't stop if you're collaborating,
because your collaborators are sort of
continuing it and you can step back in.
So collaboration, you get good
research out of it, like strategically,
it's good because then you step in
and you don't have to start your
research career all over again.
So I recommend collaboration.
Find your allies and identify those
people who are not allies and beware
of women because those people who've
struggled may well think, well, I
did it, so buck up, get on with it.
So there will be people who are maybe
not allies and that may change, that
person may change from being a not
ally to being an ally, just through a
conversation and then I've written on
my notes, plan, plan, plan and I thought
about this after I wrote my notes and I
was like, no, don't plan, just go with it.
If you plan, you end up at 33 in
hospital with a miscarriage going,
how did I get to 33 in hospital with
a miscarriage, what's going on here?
Do what works at the time and I
would like everyone to be happy
in the choice that they've made.
There is no one right way of doing
things, except that there are many
right ways of doing or many good ways
of doing things and just go with it.
We put loads of pressure on people to make
the right choices, so that's my advice.
Thank you so much, Jenny, for sharing
your experience and talking to us
about quite personal experiences.
We've learned so much and it was such a
pleasure to have you and have a lovely
chat with you and I think the real
take home message is that reproductive
health is impacting us in all different
times in our lives and if we talk
about it more, then hopefully we can
better understand menstruation and the
reproductive health leading to a world
where those with periods and menstruation
can not be held back in their careers.
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