On this episode, OnBlack hosts recap their first semester and why they would not do it again.
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What is On Black.?
A WKNC commentary podcast about living and evolving while Black, hosted by Alexis Grant, Jeanine Ikekhua and Hamsata Mazou.
Alexis Grant 0:00
Hi, I'm Alexis.
Hamsata Mazou 0:02
Jeanine Ikekhua 0:02
Alexis Grant 0:03
And you're listening to WKNC 88.1 FM HD 1 radio, thanks for listening.
Hi, guys, welcome back, today is finals. Well, today. This week is finals week.
Jeanine Ikekhua 0:26
They've been started, some people got finals on the fifth.
Alexis Grant 0:28
Yeah. Yeah, I know some people who are done with their finals. So everyone's under a lot of stress, weight. People are realizing they're failing things, ditto, you know sometimes you got to cut your losses and just not go to that final. I'm just saying preach.
Jeanine Ikekhua 0:50
I'm saying don't preach. My friend told me yesterday, my coworker, that apparently like at UNC Chapel Hill, you can apparently take an incomplete for one of your classes during the semester, or like a couple of classes. And then if you make up with the work within six months of school ending, you can change your grade, and he was just like, me and my friend took an incomplete and then I just have to finish our final project within six months.
Hamsata Mazou 1:17
Jeanine Ikekhua 1:18
That's what I said, six months? And then he can get A in his class. And I was just like, well, I can't remember if it was six months or six weeks, but I think it was six.
Hamsata Mazou 1:25
regardless, that's more than a week, and that's a lot of time.
Jeanine Ikekhua 1:28
Imagine having six weeks of no school to finish that project. And you can still get A.
Alexis Grant 1:33
And you know how strict like, bro.
Hamsata Mazou 1:36
I mean, is there a limit to those or is it?
Jeanine Ikekhua 1:38
I don't think there's a limit, but even if I could do that for one class, that would be so helpful.
Alexis Grant 1:41
I'm saying, I can do that for one class.
Hamsata Mazou 1:44
NC State better keep their ears open for this one.
Jeanine Ikekhua 1:47
They would never, which is so weird because we're all under the UNC system.
Alexis Grant 1:52
Yeah, they function so different. I feel like.
Hamsata Mazou 1:53
But like, I feel like cuz like the UNC schools have like, their own like UNC system thing going on, and then like the other schools have like a sub, like NC, like.
Jeanine Ikekhua 2:04
Oh, I thought we were all, like we're all under, cause we're all public schools right? Minus Duke, duke is private.
Hamsata Mazou 2:11
Yeah, but like the ones that specifically have like, UNC in front of them, then.
Oh yeah, that's a different.
Alexis Grant 2:17
That's like a sub different.
Jeanine Ikekhua 2:18
Oh, I thought we were all like, UNC, NC state, Duke like we're all.
Alexis Grant 2:22
No, it's like UNC and they have like UNC Charlotte and UNC da da da.
Jeanine Ikekhua 2:26
That's what I'm saying. Like I thought like all those UNC's plus NC State, plus, were all the UNC system.
Hamsata Mazou 2:32
I mean, if we are, we're under the North Carolina system, but UNC system, they're their own little thing.
Jeanine Ikekhua 2:38
Oh, nevermind. I've been telling people yeah, we are under the UNC System, like, where you go, UNC Chapel hill?
Alexis Grant 2:45
Oh. Okay. Yeah,
Jeanine Ikekhua 2:50
I'm not from here. So give me some.
Hamsata Mazou 2:51
Yeah, that's totally fair. Because I didn't know the whole little. You have to say UNC Charlotte. If you're talking about Charlotte. And if you're talking about Chapel Hill, you could say just UNC and people would know.
Jeanine Ikekhua 3:00
I don't know, I didn't.
Alexis Grant 3:01
See I knew about that. Just because the state school that's by me, I know. It's like UT. But then if you go to UTC that's different, which is like University of Tennessee Chattanooga versus University of Tennessee, Knoxville.
Jeanine Ikekhua 3:14
Where did Chattanooga come from?
Hamsata Mazou 3:16
I think it's the town name. That's.
Alexis Grant 3:17
Yeah, it's a city or city, yeah.
Jeanine Ikekhua 3:18
Is it named after an indigenous tribe?.
Alexis Grant 3:20
I'm not sure. It's possible.
Jeanine Ikekhua 3:23
That's very off topic.
Alexis Grant 3:28
Um, this semester brought about a lot of realizations for me. I just kind of slowed down with like, and I've been saying this but like, I'm actually taking steps to where like, I need to slow down how much stuff I'm doing because I've officially like, hit over the edge.
Jeanine Ikekhua 3:47
Yeah, you too. Because look at her.
Alexis Grant 3:49
Jeanine Ikekhua 3:50
She looks like she's going through hell.
Alexis Grant 3:51
You remember we were, me and Hamsata were talking about this the other day, you remember when she was begging so bad like to be like us? Like be busy. Busy, busy. Busy.
Jeanine Ikekhua 3:57
Yeah, she told me that I was like, so you hate what you did, right?
Hamsata Mazou 4:02
I mean, I can confidently say anything I've ever asked for, I've gotten
Jeanine Ikekhua 4:06
I mean, at least you got to experience it.
Alexis Grant 4:08
Yeah. And now you don't want to anymore?
Hamsata Mazou 4:10
I don't. So I'm asking. Can I be less busy and still be able to maintain my grades? That's all I ask for. I like the stuff I do, though. It's just like the academic balance is what's really hindering me. Oh, yeah. Except for like, one.
Jeanine Ikekhua 4:27
I was about to say, I'm looking at you, we here. We should be here too, Lexi. You know what we talked about?
Alexis Grant 4:34
Hamsata Mazou 4:38
Lexi, I can only handle so much tears and realizations in a lifetime back to back. We could revisit this.
Alexis Grant 4:47
Hamsata Mazou 4:47
When it's closer.
Alexis Grant 4:49
Hamsata Mazou 4:49
Alexis Grant 4:50
I'm so sorry.
Jeanine Ikekhua 4:53
Y'all, this is gonna be a chaotic episode, I can feel it in my heart.
Alexis Grant 4:57
But oh, how was this? Yeah, realizations. slowing down. I've been, how do I put this? Like I would say I'm a nice person and I have a lot of patience when it comes to people. My patience has run up for a lot of stuff, just because, it's mostly because I'm burned out like I don't have the energy to be as patient with some of people's decisions. And it's not like I'm like, all of a sudden they're a bad person or anything like that. It's just, I can't deal with the BS you're providing anymore the like, stupidity you're providing anymore.
Jeanine Ikekhua 5:36
Stupidity took me out.
Alexis Grant 5:37
I just don't have the patience for it anymore. And like, it's not like there's beef or anything. It's just like, I have to remove myself away from you. Because my fuse has been shortened. Yeah.
Jeanine Ikekhua 5:57
We'll talk afterwards.
Alexis Grant 6:00
I'm weak. Yeah, it's not just one person, it's like, it's multiple people that I've just had to like back away from because I'm just like, I don't have the energy that I normally do to give you to, like, go through, be your rock. I just can't be some people's rock anymore. That's, that's the way to put it.
Hamsata Mazou 6:18
Because you love being a rock.
Alexis Grant 6:20
Hamsata Mazou 6:22
No, I didn't mean that as a bad thing. No, I'm just saying that's, that's Lexi for you. Like, I feel like that's an identity shift as well. You know.
Jeanine Ikekhua 6:30
for the life of your sake, your life's sake, for your mental health. The amount of times that you've been like, Guys, I was up with my friend and, like, I understand things happen. But ain't no way a friend having a crisis every single day.
Alexis Grant 6:46
Bro. It shouldn't be. Do you know how many?
Jeanine Ikekhua 6:50
Maybe that's the problem. Maybe that's the problem. A crisis every day like, Jesus Christ
Alexis Grant 6:58
yeah. And it's crazy because I went to middle school for a little bit, a little bit of high school. And then I was able to like, again, like, dwindle down my numbers. So like, I only have like, I would say, like eight people I really talk to when I go back home. So you know, that's not too much. But then I came here, overcompensated, because I didn't know anybody. So I met everybody. And then.
Jeanine Ikekhua 7:20
that makes sense.
Alexis Grant 7:21
Now I'm in a position where it's like, I'm not separating myself from you, because I don't like you. But it's just like, either, we haven't gotten close enough to where I can, I can keep you because it's really like, I, can I or can't I now? It's not even like if I want to or not. It's like survival now. Like, I just can't sustain what we've started.
Jeanine Ikekhua 7:42
No, I feel you. I said, like I told, I made one more friend this semester. And I told everybody, like, I'm so sorry. But if I met you after this point in my life, we just not gonna be friends. I just I don't, there is no space. Like.
Hamsata Mazou 7:56
I feel like you said that last semester. But I'm gonna rock with you.
Jeanine Ikekhua 8:01
No no, the friend that I made this semester, we started last semester.
Hamsata Mazou 8:04
Oh, okay okay.
Jeanine Ikekhua 8:05
We've been going like, we've been, I kind of knew she was gonna be a friend. Like we've been developing into the stage, everybody else that I meet, like, when I go to the UK. Now, I'm not sure they listen to us. And it's like, oh, she doesn't want to be my friend. She doesn't stop. But everybody that I meet in the UK, I'm so sorry. But like, temporary friendships. I just like, I just don't have the time. I feel like you're supposed to be on study abroad, like.
Hamsata Mazou 8:32
Even if it's gonna be a friendship, it's gonna be long distance and just know that like, communication is not going to be like the most, the forefront of your mind. Right? Exactly. You know, like, you can know your bond was what it was at. And hopefully, if you guys can both maintain those bonds later on, revisit each other in person, you know.
Jeanine Ikekhua 8:50
Hamsata Mazou 8:50
Jeanine Ikekhua 8:51
Yeah, I'll see you when I see you. I'm sorry.
Hamsata Mazou 8:54
Like, whenever you see each other, you plan, most likely, if it's trying to be a friendship, if not just to see you when you see you.
Alexis Grant 9:03
I don't think that's. I feel like you're gonna meet at least like one person or find like a little group that you're really going to be like, Wow, I want, I don't know if, okay, if I was in your position, I'd probably be, but this is also just how I tend to function. I'll go out of my way to make like at least a couple lifelong friends to where I can come back to UK and like, stay with them, see them. Like, I like having friends spread out.
Jeanine Ikekhua 9:27
See, because I already have that in the UK. Like, I don't really feel the need to do it. Because remember, like a lot of my friends migrated. Like, I'm probably like one of the three that came to the US, everybody else went to the UK to go to school. So I already know a couple people there if I wanted to make friends. It's just a matter of do I want to?
Alexis Grant 9:48
Yeah, are they gonna be in the same area that you are, like close enough to visit?
Jeanine Ikekhua 9:52
Two of them that I went to school with will be, but I'm not gonna reach out to them because I feel like hey, I'm in the UK. Now you want to talk? and it's like, you could have messaged me, because they have messaged me, I just chose not to respond. Not because I don't like them. Just because.
Alexis Grant 10:07
You don't have the energy or time to put into something that's that.
Jeanine Ikekhua 10:10
Yeah. I'm so sorry. Like, Hey, how are you doing? How was your day? Like, what in the basic like,
Hamsata Mazou 10:17
I respond to those messages,
Jeanine Ikekhua 10:19
see, and that's why you're better than me. I'm not like, hey, like, how are you doing? How just like, you want a paragraph? like it's too much.
Hamsata Mazou 10:25
Oh, I don't do paragraphs, I'll be like, I'm good. You know, I don't go in depth because I'm like, I don't owe you that. I'm just like, I'm this, I'm not. And then I'll give you like, a really brief summary if, like, needed for conversation, or make sense. But yeah, that's it.
Alexis Grant 10:41
But yeah, what is your recap?
Hamsata Mazou 10:42
My recap of the semester,
Jeanine Ikekhua 10:45
you've been stressed?
Alexis Grant 10:47
Hamsata Mazou 10:48
Alexis Grant 10:49
And I can see it in how she like, like her energy when she comes into a room has been very different this semester, compared to last year.
Jeanine Ikekhua 10:57
Yeah, but I don't know. It's not growing up. That's not what it is. You've always been grown. I think you're just stressed.
Alexis Grant 11:04
Jeanine Ikekhua 11:04
Let me not, you tell us. I'm sorry. Please go ahead, please go ahead.
Hamsata Mazou 11:09
I'm just taking in my doctor notes. Okay. Yeah, been tired, been stressed. I just, I've grown a lot more anxious with school specifically, like with test taking. been like, kind of hard to get equipped to, with already taking a test. And then feeling like the anxiety with it. It's definitely like, Oh, I'm stressed out for a test, or I kind of feel scared. But when your body is physically, like showing symptoms, it's like a lot different. And it makes you, I don't know, for me it makes me feel like I'm even more incapable of doing it. Because like my body's reacting, it's no longer just my mind. But overall, yeah, I just want to do less, study more and thrive. That's just my comeback list right there. Because, yeah, I just feel like I overextended myself. But I really feel like it wasn't I don't know, I feel like I knew what I was getting myself into. However, I felt like other variables played off to be more of an impact than needed. And like you know what I mean, like, there was no reason why certain things played out the way they did. And not like, I'm a very like, realistic person. I like to be realistic about things. I'm like, Okay, if I do this, this and this, you know, how is this going to like play off and stuff like that? So like, some things just ended up being more and then I will say like, a few things also ended up being more that could have been more, I just didn't expect it, you know. I will say, Oh, I like under expected a little bit. But I feel like plus the things that didn't need to be that became, that really made a huge conflict within my like time management. And yeah, I was drowned. I was drowning this semester.
Jeanine Ikekhua 13:02
Alexis Grant 13:06
Tell em Jeanine
Hamsata Mazou 13:10
I would sing with you, but literally all I know is drowning.
Alexis Grant 13:13
Oh, I'm weak. I agree with the anxiety thing though. Like my anxiety has spiked so like, just unprecedented amount this semester when it comes, especially like you said to like schoolwork stuff and stuff that I had, like, previous fears that were linked to anxiety that I'd gotten over in the past or had gotten better with in the past have gotten worse again. I'm so just looking at Jeanine's jacket right now.
Jeanine Ikekhua 13:46
You can go look at the jacket if you want to, Nubian message released their 30th issue, 30 flirty and thriving. The jacket is also on there if you want to look through the article
Hamsata Mazou 13:55
I read the article, the entire little theme is dB, usually I like, read the people I know and call it a day. But today I said, this is different.
Jeanine Ikekhua 14:04
You did good.
Hamsata Mazou 14:07
And I thought it was really cute. So you guys should read it and support Nubian, I really liked their issue. Their pictures are so cute.
Alexis Grant 14:20
Hamsata Mazou 14:22
To be fair, it was just a really pretty vibe though.
Jeanine Ikekhua 14:26
It really was.
Alexis Grant 14:26
Jeanine Ikekhua 14:27
Because y'all were there
Alexis Grant 14:27
Yeah, I was there, they were having the time of their life taking those photos.
Hamsata Mazou 14:32
Yeah, I hope you guys did, like I'm glad you guys did. It looks like really fun and I hope you guys enjoyed it.
Jeanine Ikekhua 14:37
No, I do, I adore Nubian. I just don't like the 2 AM's.
Alexis Grant 14:41
One of the major things that came back up this semester that I had gotten better with is my fear with authority and more specifically, authority within the education system. So with that, it's really hard for me to communicate with my professors or advisors or people who have control, which I just realized this, I was emailing my advisor for the first time in a while. And as I was typing the email, I came to the realization that my anxieties and fears were talking to, like, people who are my professors or advisors, like in the education system, I think it comes from the fact that they have so much control on where my life can lead, like they have so much control on like, what path I end up taking, because they have control of like, my grades and stuff like that.
Jeanine Ikekhua 15:34
Do you know how crazy that is? Like I was thinking about that the other day too, especially like with essays, like I understand that there's a rubric for essays. But if the man does not like your paper, like.
Alexis Grant 15:45
the man doesn't like your paper, like.
Jeanine Ikekhua 15:47
the man like, if they don't like your paper, they don't like your paper, like, they're, they can come up with something and be like, This is exactly why, why, why. You can be like, well, that doesn't make any sense. But if they make it sound good to anybody who asks, and honestly, like, I have never heard of somebody going to be like, I really don't like that. Please talk to this man, like, I've just never heard of that. You just take it for what it is. If they don't like it, they don't like it. And then you get a whatever, a D, a F or whatever it is, and then you have to take it again next year. And then that takes time out of your time that you could be doing something else and it.
Alexis Grant 16:19
Messes up your GPA, like especially on your, like just, I don't want to spike a new fear in you, Hamsata. You looking at.
Hamsata Mazou 16:25
No no, it's not a fear, it's not a fear, it's just like, I've never thought about it that way. And I still don't believe that to be true. For me. I personally had like the opposite perspective of, if I write a good paper, I'm getting a good grade. And every time I know I've written a good paper, I've gotten a good grade. But also I don't take essay heavy courses. So I guess the people who I have had graded my essays that I have written in the past, I don't know if because they were like intro week classes, or not as like, deep into like a writing, I don't know, type of major that didn't have an effect on me. But I don't know, most of my classes are like tests, you know, that's very like. Like there's, it's right or wrong, right wrong.
Alexis Grant 17:06
But mine is not just, it's just all of the professor's. Just the fact that they can literally sit there if they want, and put an A or F and that there is going to completely change the classes I end up taking next semester, how I rearranged my summer, like messes up my GPA, like just the fact that they have that much control. And then same with the advisors, like they have the control whether to CODA me or not, that's gonna determine if I can get into like, if I end up getting the degree that I want or not like I came here for a certain degree, but their decision can just be like, you can't get that degree. And then I'm stuck. The fact that they have that much control, I've realized I think that's where my anxiety comes from. I'm so fearful of a negative outcome that I just don't interact at all, but it's hurting me more than it's helping me because every time I've really reached out, like the professors and the advisors and stuff, they've been on my side, like they've helped me out. So I don't know why I'm still so fearful because it's always worked out for the better, but it's just like my own personal anxieties of like, they're just gonna be like F U.
Hamsata Mazou 18:06
No, yeah, I was gonna say, I hear you, I understand you. And I support you. No, that's it. I just. Yeah.
Alexis Grant 18:17
So what lessons you feel like y'all got this semester that you can carry on? Like, what did you discover this semester that's going to propel you to be better next, next in the life? Oh. Oh, so Jeanine's pinky flipping us off.
Jeanine Ikekhua 18:35
Don't say it like that. They're gonna think I'm doing okay. Uh, what was I gonna say. I'm so sorry. I can't, give me a finger. Wait, no. What is the word when it's like, it's not okay. Can you not do it?
Hamsata Mazou 18:55
Flick people off? Probably not.
Alexis Grant 18:58
I mean, I don't flick off either. I don't curse.
Jeanine Ikekhua 19:03
Alexis Grant 19:03
Hamsata Mazou 19:04
I do the pinky thing too, when I'm. Yeah. Yeah. Get rekt
Jeanine Ikekhua 19:10
No, I use my pinky because I'm so sorry, but never in my life. Never in my life have I ever been too tired to be depressed. Like.
Alexis Grant 19:20
never? hold on, I gotta process. Never in my life have I been? I've never been too tired to. Okay, I caught up. I'm caught up. Keep going.
Jeanine Ikekhua 19:30
Do you see what I'm saying?
Alexis Grant 19:31
Yeah, yeah. It was just oh, I Oh, yeah, it just really, yeah, I get what you're saying.
Jeanine Ikekhua 19:36
Hamsata Mazou 19:37
It's because I can't relate. I'm just like, statement in my head. Okay. Jeanine, like.
Jeanine Ikekhua 19:42
What you're going through?
Alexis Grant 19:44
Like you're too tired even be sad about your situation you're in
Jeanine Ikekhua 19:47
It's kinda like, not the exact same thing. But it's like I'm just so drained and so exhausted. It's like, oh, I'm sad. I'll be sad tomorrow. Like I just I don't have the time, being sad, like I don't have the time to process, it's like okay cry a little but let's move because I just don't have the time to process it. I'm just so tired every single day like, I woke up to get here and I absolutely love y'all like I love on black but like, why does this feel like a chore now? Like before it was like, Oh, come and like, oh, yeah.
Hamsata Mazou 20:19
Because we are so busy.
Jeanine Ikekhua 20:23
I'm just drained, busy, drained, stemming from busy like, I'm just really, there's so much going on. There's a lot of things going on. And it's so funny because I was like, I'm gonna scale back this semester. Why did I think that? Why did I think that, like.
Alexis Grant 20:36
I actually am. I can't do this again. I refuse to do this again. Oh, refuse it. I literally refuse to like.
Jeanine Ikekhua 20:43
I rebuke it. That's a lot, like we do a lot. Before it was like, oh, no, it's not that bad- no, y'all. I'm finna pass out.
Alexis Grant 20:52
Like losing my mind.
Jeanine Ikekhua 20:54
Like, I'm not gonna like, once school ends.
Alexis Grant 20:58
It's a, it's a new Jeanine.
Jeanine Ikekhua 21:00
New Janine, I'm hibernating. I am hibernating. Like, when I tell you I'm staying, and I dare my mom to be like, so you just gonna lay in the bed? Yeah. I am.
Hamsata Mazou 21:11
My mom said come home to lay in the bed and do nothing. I was like, period. You think I can come grab a little two week job or something? She was like, be for real, who gonna hire you for two weeks? Like they don't got to know. She was like, Hamsata. You know how many jobs I've secured that are supposed to be long term. But I'm like, Yeah, I, if they don't ask if I'm going to college, I don't like to expose that.
Jeanine Ikekhua 21:36
I'm dead, do what works for you.
Hamsata Mazou 21:39
To get a good job. Long term is what they want.
Alexis Grant 21:43
Yeah. I don't know. I just, I'm saying, that part.
Jeanine Ikekhua 21:48
I'm just highlighting every, every way physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually. Okay, maybe not spiritually. I still got God on my side. At least I think so. What's it called just everything. I just feel like it took so much out of me. And I'm tired. Like, I don't have any more else to give. But I gotta finish these exams. I gotta pack. I gotta home, go home. Like I have so many. I have something every single day up until the moment that I leave. And even when I go home, I got stuff that I got to start preparing for it too. And it's just like, being alive. It's just like, a lot right now. Sometimes you just don't catch a break. And that's what it feels like right now. And I just, I really need a break like, I'm ready to fight and tussle with myself like it's getting that bad.
Alexis Grant 22:31
That. If I could beat myself to a pummel. Okay. Okay, okay. Okay. Okay.
Jeanine Ikekhua 22:38
I'm not trying to beat to a pummel.
Alexis Grant 22:39
Because, like, I can face myself, just slap myself around a little bit. Be like, Don't ever do this. Yeah, I think I'd feel better. And I think I'd really get the message.
Jeanine Ikekhua 22:53
See now, I would just laugh at myself. Just be like, how how, how, how do you let this happen again, like, how did we get here? I don't, I don't know. I just, I didn't have the energy to do any. Like, I just, tired. In every way possible. I'm tired.
Alexis Grant 23:11
I think my main thing is I refuse to stand in my way anymore.
Jeanine Ikekhua 23:15
What do you mean?
Alexis Grant 23:16
Like, based, like the decisions I'm making. A lot of the time I feel like I make for short term goals or short term reasons. And I realized that I've done it for so long that I've, like, messed up some of my long term goals. And it's just because I don't keep them at the forefront of my mind. So I even, I had changed my lock screen. And my lock screen says like, like, don't be the reason, don't be.
Jeanine Ikekhua 23:48
Just get it.
Alexis Grant 23:49
Yeah, I'm trying to remember it says, Don't stand in your own way. That's literally all that's on my lock screen.
Jeanine Ikekhua 23:54
Y'all know, I'm blind. I can't even see.
Alexis Grant 23:55
Because like, I gotta like, I have to just constantly remind myself, I'm weak. But I just have to constantly remind myself that because if I don't, I literally will just focus so much on the short term because my brain is so fried. I can't think past a certain date anymore. You know what I mean? So I have to constantly remind myself like, you need to start making more decisions that are better for you. Even like, not long, long term, medium term, just things that are better for you for three months in advance instead of two days.
The two days, three days took me out, me out today.
Because like I just can't handle like, ah that's all I got. That's all I got. What about you? How are you going to the new year? What's your resolutions?
Hamsata Mazou 24:46
Oh, I said that earlier. I don't remember what it was? Oh, wasn't like resolutions but like, I mean, it was, but like unofficial resolutions about like.
Alexis Grant 24:59
What's your Official New Year's resolution?
Hamsata Mazou 25:02
official, I don't really like to do official resolution, I just.
Alexis Grant 25:06
Something. Something that you're like I'm working, this is something I'm really, like, working on,
Hamsata Mazou 25:11
I definitely, well, I guess I've never really sat down and see which ones I really want to prioritize yet. So these are kind of still up in the air. But I really do want to work on time management. I know, for me, that's my biggest thing. Like, okay, you're in all these things, but how are you going to manage your time properly to like, you know, get it done, because I realized, I don't operate like everybody else. And I'm trying to, but it's not working, because I can't do it. And I mean, I understand like, some people, they can go like, do like maybe x amount of days of like, hard work or something like that, and not be exhausted. And then they have their one break or something like that. And some people they can, like, do the work all in one day type of thing. And then they're good at something like that, you know, you kind of just got to find your own rhythm or whatever. And I think I've kind of just leaned into like patterns I've seen people do and work because I know they work. I'm like, Okay, let me try this structure on me. And it's not working, because it's not for me. And I just realized, like, one thing I really realized is like, my body's big on rest. I mean, I knew I like to sleep because I still be late to anything for sleep. But it's to the point where I won't be able to operate or function properly, because my brain is just so clouded. I just need that rest to operate as a person. So it's just like, Okay, if you know, this is a need for you. How are you going to like, you know, schedule out and operate your day so that you get what you need and still be able to function and do other things you may need to complete for the day. That was like one insight I noticed about myself.
Jeanine Ikekhua 26:40
Hamsata Mazou 26:42
Because I feel like a lot of people, especially with this day and age, they just don't focus on their sleep. Just rely on caffeine. Some people.
Jeanine Ikekhua 26:53
See, I think because I can't rely on caffeine.
Alexis Grant 26:57
Is why you're so anal about your sleep.
Hamsata Mazou 27:01
Yeah, and like that term, by yourself.
Jeanine Ikekhua 27:03
Like, not even that. I just, I think I have to be extra cautious about my time because like, I can't get like, you know if you get that surge of like energy. I just can't because I don't drink caffeine or like I just don't drink caffeinated drink. So there's no sugar high, there's no high or anything. Like, I just have to go, using what I already have in my system. And y'all, that is draining, I stayed up until 6am in the library with Hamsata, bro.
Alexis Grant 27:34
Bro, they have the funniest tiktoks.
Jeanine Ikekhua 27:36
When it hit a certain time, I wanted to beat Hamsata up. And it wasn't because Hamsata did anything, it was because we were up so late trying to get this work done. And I was so upset I had to be up, and my brain wanted to like, like it was like ready to like trigger mode like, oh, like I was getting ready to spaz on Hamsata and she did nothing wrong. I'm just like that tired. So one thing I realize is that if I don't get enough sleep, I get very moody. Like I already wear my expressions on my face. But like I get even more moody like everything. You can breathe and I want to fight you. Like it's that bad. And I feel like for the sake of the people around me. I gotta get more sleep because I can wreak havoc if I'm not in the mood. But I shouldn't because that is so evil. So I have to sleep because then when other people are like, why are you acting like that? I'd be like, now I want to fight you even more, and it just like ruins my day, ruins their day like it's just not fun. So for mood purposes, I'd have to get sleep. Still don't get it though.
Alexis Grant 28:40
Off topic question for you.
Jeanine Ikekhua 28:43
Alexis Grant 28:44
You might want to be a little scared. Um.
Jeanine Ikekhua 28:47
okay now I'm not scared because ain't no. Ain't no person finna tell me how to- I'll stop. Go ahead.
Alexis Grant 28:52
With you going to the UK. What are you doing with your relationship?
Jeanine Ikekhua 28:59
I want to fight you now. I genuinely want to fight you now. Um I'm keeping it, that's my G we solid.
Alexis Grant 29:09
Jeanine Ikekhua 29:10
Yeah, he's he's gonna be living his best life in America. I will be living my best life in the UK.
Alexis Grant 29:15
And then you come back.
Jeanine Ikekhua 29:16
Yeah, we already, I can tell y'all now because by the time it comes out, it would have already happened. I have been recording all our memories since Octo- I've been recording all of our memories every single day everything that we did every single day for the past like three months. So he has something to read every single day that I'm gone. At least like for the actual time I'm in school, and then I have like pictures for the rest of the time. So I've thought about it. Um, we feel like we're giving gifts to each other to kind of remember each other. Just. What the heck am I doing telling my business?
Alexis Grant 29:58
Chap is crazy. I was just curious, because it just crossed my mind while we were speaking.
Jeanine Ikekhua 30:04
I'm going to be so selfish when I'm in the UK. Not to the point of like, F y'all, and everybody in America, but like, like to the point of like, if you call because you really want to talk to me, and it's not an emergency, and I'm doing self reflection, I am on the beach with people that I just met and we're relaxing, you aren't going to get a call back because I'm never going to have this opportunity again, like, I'm just not, especially like in the time in college. Like, that's what it is, like, in the time in college. What I've been through sophomore year, what I've been through this past semester, like, it's nothing too crazy. But it's crazy enough to the point of like, if I don't take an actual break.
Alexis Grant 30:52
I want you to take your break. I want you to, I'm glad you're, I'm really I'm so excited for you. Like I'm so excited for you. Because I'm the type of person I, I do enjoy living through other people, I'm gonna be real. I feel like I get way more life experiences that way, like, so if you go to a place and you take like enough pictures and videos, I'm gonna be like, Wow, I got it. I've done it. Like, we experience. As long as somebody can experience it. I'm happy. Like, I just love seeing other people, like have nice experiences, too, that it's enough to satisfy my own desires.
Jeanine Ikekhua 31:27
You were gonna say something?
Hamsata Mazou 31:28
No, I wasn't.
Jeanine Ikekhua 31:30
Okay, nevermind, I was tripping. What I was gonna say, I really wish Instagram would, I wish you could have multiple close friends like.
Alexis Grant 31:39
Jeanine Ikekhua 31:40
Because they're people were like, I'm so tied to you on a day to day basis. Not because I want to, but because we do the same things. Where it's like if I remove you from your, my close friends, like, you're gonna have an attitude, and I'm gonna have to deal with that. So I don't want to. So I just like I want to close friends to the people where it's like, we're cool. We're chilled. I want to have y'all in there. More names. Oh.
Alexis Grant 32:05
Make a spam.
Jeanine Ikekhua 32:07
See, I don't want to spam though. Maybe I should. Maybe I should. But I just like like, a quick story post. I feel like that's Oh, spam stories.
Alexis Grant 32:16
Yeah, I have a friend that all they do. Like they have like three posts on their spam, but that's really there for their stories.
Jeanine Ikekhua 32:23
Let me do that. Okay, I will do that. I'll probably do that. Because there's some people on my close friends where it's like, we chill or we vibing. But.
Alexis Grant 32:34
But them being on there sometimes prevents you from posting certain things.
Jeanine Ikekhua 32:37
Yeah. Cause I just be like, I interact with you so much. Whereas like, if you see this, you might feel some- Hamsata shaking her head like she's about to pop off.
Hamsata Mazou 32:50
Oh, no, I'm just listening. 'm sorry. I don't want my reactions to like stop you from your points but I'm just like taking in and reacting, but like.
Jeanine Ikekhua 32:58
No, no, you're good.
Hamsata Mazou 32:59
physically not words. Because I'm trying not to like interrupt people. That's a habit of mine. Yeah.
Jeanine Ikekhua 33:06
Oh, yeah. I just um, yeah, it's just like I interact with you so much. If I take you off, if I post something. I know you're gonna bring it to like my actual like, in person life. Which I understand like, oh Jeanine. You posted that. Like I get it, but like you ain't cool enough to see that.
Alexis Grant 33:29
You tell em, that's real
Jeanine Ikekhua 33:31
Like you're cool enough to be on there and be chill, but you weren't cool enough to see certain things, like I don't want to post my stuff and then you bring it to a meeting where we have with like a bunch of other people because like, a club or something and then you're like haha, Jeanine you posted that, and I'm looking at you like.
Hamsata Mazou 33:51
For some reason, one, this persona gives very like, immature and then two it's just like.
Jeanine Ikekhua 33:58
They're not immature. But.
Alexis Grant 34:01
I'm about to say, anybody who does that to me is immature
Jeanine Ikekhua 34:03
they're not immature.
Hamsata Mazou 34:05
I feel like in the way you said it, like the way you're representing it. I'm not saying like your representation is accurate to said person. I don't even know if this was a specific person, I thought you're just saying like people in general.
Jeanine Ikekhua 34:14
Yeah, people in general.
Hamsata Mazou 34:15
But yeah, I was just gonna say like, that feels very much because I feel like you could still say something without saying something like, oh, remember that? And you just go like, and it's like a laugh and it's discrete but it's been said and it's between you and that person.
Jeanine Ikekhua 34:26
Yeah, they're just very childish.
Hamsata Mazou 34:27
And I feel like you don't have to elaborate it and make it a whole you know, everybody knows type thing, but Sorry, continue.
Jeanine Ikekhua 34:33
No, I was just gonna say like it's the childishness combined with that attitude combined with the, hmm, see what she doing, combined with the bring it back to people. Like I understand that, like we all have like this big group of interconnected, and like I completely get that. But if I post something on my story.
Hamsata Mazou 34:33
Jeanine, just take them off your story.
Alexis Grant 34:54
I'm in the same, I'm in the same boat as people that I see constantly. And I'm really cool with I have conversations with constantly, but it's like, because here's the thing for 95% of the stuff I post, it's fine that they're in there. It's just that little 5%.
Hamsata Mazou 35:07
Oh okay. I don't know, I don't have that issue. Like if I sometimes go through my close friends, I'm like, I'm not really close to that person anymore, just take them off.
Jeanine Ikekhua 35:17
But the thing is, like, I can't go into specifics. I don't, I don't. When I say like, they are too deeply involved in my life, not by choice. The situation was by choice. This specific person was not by choice, but like they're too deeply involved in my life where like, I do not want to come back and you have attitude. Like, I just like, why do we be having friendship? Conversations on this podcast? Recorded? This just shows you.
Alexis Grant 35:46
Jeanine Ikekhua 35:47
how much we don't have time to actually be friends.
Hamsata Mazou 35:52
I pointed that out. Yeah. Before, but we still-
Alexis Grant 35:57
Hamsata Mazou 35:57
because I wanted to add something
Alexis Grant 35:59
You add something. You tell em.
Jeanine Ikekhua 36:03
Oh, sorry. I don't know where that came. Sorry, go ahead. No, you killed her.
Alexis Grant 36:13
You killed her.
Jeanine Ikekhua 36:15
Sorry. Just gotta finish. Go ahead.
Hamsata Mazou 36:20
Bear with me guys, I did forget what I was gonna add.
Alexis Grant 36:23
What was it related to?
Hamsata Mazou 36:24
It's okay, it's okay
Alexis Grant 36:25
the last thing we talked about or previous stuff?
Jeanine Ikekhua 36:27
oh, close friends.
Hamsata Mazou 36:29
Close friends. I kind of feel like I already said my part. It was just like, Yeah, I don't really have that much connection. I do value that most of my friends are like, separate from each other. So like, there's no inner connection with somebody and somebody else. And I feel like I don't really hang around a lot of people that I'm like, are my friends, friends, I just hang out with people. But I would never consider you to be like, Oh, we're friends. Like you got to be consistent. We got to at least do a one on one. No, it was about something in the past before.
Jeanine Ikekhua 37:05
Alexis Grant 37:07
That far back?
Hamsata Mazou 37:10
Scrap it. That's the end.
Jeanine Ikekhua 37:12
I'm dead. Rate your semester.
Alexis Grant 37:15
Jeanine Ikekhua 37:16
Hamsata, go. Acutally no, I should have known to come to you last. Lexi, go.
Alexis Grant 37:27
The actual semester.
Hamsata Mazou 37:30
Can we do categories?
Jeanine Ikekhua 37:31
Hamsata Mazou 37:32
And then from the categories, we could do an overall score.
Alexis Grant 37:35
Yeah. Okay. Academically, in the things that, like ensued on to me, like, a three out of 10.
Jeanine Ikekhua 37:45
Yeah, sounds about right. For me.
Alexis Grant 37:46
Yeah. And then socially. Maybe eight.
Jeanine Ikekhua 37:58
I'm telling whenever it gets to me.
Alexis Grant 37:59
Okay. Over, that's where I overall I'm like, hmm, but I feel like I could have still had a eight social and had a better academic score. And it's not necessarily that my social life messed up my academics. Obviously, there's some trade off I could have. But the academic by itself was just really just like, on me, so I don't know, I feel like overall, compared to what it could have been, or what I feel like it could have been, still like a four and a half.
Hamsata Mazou 38:29
Alexis Grant 38:30
Yeah. What were you gonna say?
Hamsata Mazou 38:33
it doesn't matter. I'm kind of ready.
Jeanine Ikekhua 38:34
Hamsata Mazou 38:35
Okay. So academics, I give mine a four. Um, for me, I'm going to add an additional topic. My, it'll be extracurriculars, I give that also a four, and then social. Like a six. I really just felt like I don't know, time has just been losing me. I just be doing work catching up on my rest, and boom, it's a new day.
Jeanine Ikekhua 39:11
I'll be like, wait, it's Saturday already?
Hamsata Mazou 39:13
And then people are like, Oh, I haven't seen you in a while. Oh, my gosh, we don't hang out like as often and stuff like that. And I'll be like, I haven't hung out with anyone. So I hope you don't take that as a personal offense. Like it's really not you. It's me, like,
Jeanine Ikekhua 39:27
I'm the problem.
Hamsata Mazou 39:29
I don't even say I'm the problem. Life's the problem.
Jeanine Ikekhua 39:32
Hamsata Mazou 39:34
Life's not taking me in your direction, apparently or anybody's direction, so.
Jeanine Ikekhua 39:39
Okay, that was kind of harsh. But it's true. Um, academically if I get an A on this paper, a six, if I, I'm not even putting down my future, a six academically, a six. Socially I give it a nine. And the reason why I give it a nine is I love my sisters, my little sissy wissys, my sissy wissys. I love my line sisters. They're so adorable. We went to a party for the first, not the first time, we went to a party together this semester, like a couple weeks ago, I actually had a good time. Like I strolled, but I was mad.
Alexis Grant 40:35
Jeanine, don't look at me like this, I've only seen you at a party, like one or two times.
Jeanine Ikekhua 40:39
Yeah, I feel like, I show at back to school jam, but I look upset when I'm strolling. But, um.
Alexis Grant 40:43
Bruh, I don't care. But I just party with you. I don't get to see you at parties. I'm so upset.
Jeanine Ikekhua 40:52
This entire semester, actually in front of people, three times.
Alexis Grant 40:55
and I missed this time, and I was actually there, like bruh.
Hamsata Mazou 41:00
It's okay Lexi, you still got senior year to look forward to
Jeanine Ikekhua 41:04
That is so true.
Hamsata Mazou 41:04
Jeanine Ikekhua 41:05
And I'm gonna start struggling more because the one thing I'm excited about going to UK, this is so off topic, but I'm excited about going to the UK is like, I'm gonna actually have time to be able to pick up things. Like it's not gonna be like, I'm so busy, I can't do anything. I'm just focused on what I have to do. It's going to be like, Ah, I can actually do what I want to do now. Like, I have time to pick up trades, I am actually able to be like, I have so much free time. Let's learn how to do this. Let's learn how to do that. Like, let's actually improve something that you actually wanted to do. Like, I just feel like that's gonna be nice. One of my things is that I want to learn all the strolls like, y'all when I come back.
Alexis Grant 41:42
A strolling queen.
Jeanine Ikekhua 41:43
Yes, like I really.
Alexis Grant 41:44
I'm so excited.
Jeanine Ikekhua 41:46
I know like three strolls now like ingrained in my head, but I want to learn nasty song, like I need to learn nasty song.
Alexis Grant 41:54
Yeah, you do need to learn nasty song.
Jeanine Ikekhua 41:59
Yeah, but I need to know how to stroll, but it was fun because we strolled, the stroll wasn't that good because I had a cup in my hand. I'm so upset about that. But the stroll was okay. It was actually nice. Like, just being, my sisters made it for me, just being around my sisters. Like they did it for me. Very sweet. Everybody's just been nice. Like, I feel like I've done a lot more with people. Like I've tried to incorporate people more, even though I'm not gonna, I don't know how that's gonna go next year.
Alexis Grant 42:26
But I'm glad it was a nine.
Jeanine Ikekhua 42:27
Yeah, that's, that's. Yeah, yeah, what was the other category?
Alexis Grant 42:31
You already did academic and then Hamsata did extracurriculars? If you want to do that.
Jeanine Ikekhua 42:36
I'm gonna do extracurricular, mentally. Mentally, one. Yeah, extracurricular, I give that, I give it a four. Because I see what it could have been. I wish I had just dropped something, I feel was doing certain things because it's like, I'm already this deep in it. Like, I feel kind of disrespectful, leaving at this point, even though like, I really don't want to deal with y'all at this point. So yeah, but next semester, like, I'm cutting it down to two things. I'm so sorry. Okay. Two things maybe like one or the thing. But my main things if you not K O, and if you're not Nubian.
Hamsata Mazou 43:15
And if not on black. Of course.
Alexis Grant 43:16
Yeah. I was gonna say, on black.
Jeanine Ikekhua 43:18
Yeah and if you're not on black, of course.
Hamsata Mazou 43:21
So there's a, maybe four of them. Because what was the maybe that you had when you had the two?
Jeanine Ikekhua 43:25
I don't know. I'm trying to think. As of right now, if you're not K O, especially if you're not K O, you're not Nubian, if you not on black, I don't know what to tell you. You are not going to see me. And if you're not work, that's what it was. If you're not work.
Hamsata Mazou 43:42
Alexis Grant 43:43
Hamsata Mazou 43:44
Epi epi done. I would just like to say, I didn't speak a lot, but I was reacting a lot. In some silence.
Jeanine Ikekhua 43:51
That's why I keep stopping to be like do you have something to say?
Hamsata Mazou 43:53
I do. I did. But like, I forget. So by the time you're done, and whatever I wanted to insert, it's like, either no longer the proper time, or I forgot. It's A or B.
I mean, that's valid. I mean, I feel it's a reflection of the semester. This episode was not as lively, like, I feel like we tried, but,-
I didn't try to be lively. I'm tired.
Jeanine Ikekhua 44:15
I tried a little bit because like, I have it there, but it's an ugh. So, yeah, basically a reflection of our semester. It's been rough.
Alexis Grant 44:23
Hamsata Mazou 44:24
I would just like to say overall, like, lots of students, like I don't know what this semester was,-
Jeanine Ikekhua 44:31
Hamsata Mazou 44:31
-this semester was just different. And I really just don't appreciate professors like who weren't understanding of like the climate and the time that we are in currently, as a university and as students of this university, and it's just been a lot like I don't know, it's because full effects of like the pandemic has been, like really released and it's been in full effect mode. I don't know if there's because of like, the suicides and everything. I just don't know what it is. Obviously, things had to happen before the suicides. I feel like that just added, like more tention and stuff. But it was already there for things to be done.
Jeanine Ikekhua 45:09
I feel like, no. Yeah, I feel like it's always been there because like the nature of college and the atmosphere that we have here, it's just very draining, very toxic to the individuals. But the fact that it took like, how many people to die?
Alexis Grant 45:24
Jeanine Ikekhua 45:24
And then it was like, I think it's bad guys. Yeah, you think? Like, it's been bad for a while now. I just I don't know. I just, I don't know. I honestly don't know what to do to make the college experience more like, livable, if that makes sense. I don't know.
Hamsata Mazou 45:44
Jeanine Ikekhua 45:45
Because I feel like it falls on the individual professors because like, some professors are nice.
Hamsata Mazou 45:49
Yeah, some are. And some aren't. Like I definitely agree, I have my mix.
Jeanine Ikekhua 45:52
Some aren't like some old dude. Like some like, Ooh, I was sick. You talking about some, "Can you go get a doctor's note just to confirm that you're sick?"
Hamsata Mazou 46:00
Jeanine Ikekhua 46:01
Do you want me to cough blood on the paper? Is that what you want from me to be able, I just feel like the process-
Alexis Grant 46:11
They do that so people don't lie as much.
Jeanine Ikekhua 46:13
Okay, but I just feel like, oh, no, go ahead.
Hamsata Mazou 46:16
Oh, I was gonna say, I agree. But my professor, the assignment that was due that week, like it was the exam that I got excused and the assignment is also due that week, and she saw said doctor's note and was like, "Yeah, I can't extend it off past like the two day policy that I have," which was still during the week I was sick, so I don't get-
Jeanine Ikekhua 46:33
Hamsata Mazou 46:34
-what difference that made. But I digress.
Jeanine Ikekhua 46:39
I would have passed out in front of her. To the floor.
Hamsata Mazou 46:42
And it's not like, I've asked extensions on this, these types of assignments before because I accidentally missed the first one. And I was just like, okay, she's thinking she's missed the past. But like, let's be realistic of my grade right now, you know, how much my grade this holds. Could we not be a little bit more l-? But, their rules are their rules? Try not to fake them again.
Jeanine Ikekhua 47:03
Their rules are not good. The rules or not okay, their rules, I'm sorry, I'm about to go into a little bit of a rant just like-
Alexis Grant 47:09
That's so funny.
Hamsata Mazou 47:10
I feel like we keep, like, ending.
Jeanine Ikekhua 47:11
Ending and then I'm back. Just because like, there's just like, you just brought up something for me. I just feel like the way some teachers have their schedules. Why did we have three big final papers due back to back to back to back? That is insane to me. And then they will do like, on the fifth or the sixth? Who is having such big assignments due then, like any school ending in like, isn't, it not the 15th or something, like can we have more days of it spread out? Some teachers really piss me off, like, the fact that you need a note from me if I'm sick. If I got to the point where I drafted you an email saying I'm sick. At that point, let me stay at home like I could have Corona, y'all don't know.
Hamsata Mazou 47:55
Right. I feel like they should like have somebody in like each department who looks over the syllabuses. And it's just like, okay, they do to make sure they're like reasonable. And they're like, yeah, these are reasonable.
Jeanine Ikekhua 48:09
Hamsata Mazou 48:10
Oh, okay, nevermind, I guess they not doing job right.
Alexis Grant 48:13
Wow, they don't have the, I wouldn't say any of the syllabi, syllabus, syllabi, right.
Jeanine Ikekhua 48:18
I don't even know, whatever it is.
Alexis Grant 48:19
I wouldn't say any of them I've read have actually been unreasonable. I would just say,-
Hamsata Mazou 48:27
I don't mean like individually, I mean, collaboratively. So like this class. It's like, I'm thinking department wise as well. Because usually, if you're in said college, you're taking said classes, intermingling with each other. Do you know what I mean? So I feel like if they had somebody to look at it and be like, you know-
Jeanine Ikekhua 48:43
I see what you're saying.
Hamsata Mazou 48:42
-as a collective, students schedules when they take it, you know, whatever mix they get, the probability of it being like, you know.
Jeanine Ikekhua 48:46
I don't think they would do that.
Alexis Grant 48:51
That's way too much for a college though. Realistically, that's way too much for a college and that's, that's one of those situations where like, because of how many different like, you have to think of how many different schedules there can possibly be. There's no way that-
Hamsata Mazou 49:07
I'm not saying like 100%. Like I'm just saying like a percentage, maybe it could be like 35%. You know what I mean?
Jeanine Ikekhua 49:13
Y'all are losing the life out of me. What are y'all talking about?
Forget my idea, forget my idea, forget my idea.
Alexis Grant 49:19
No I get what you're saying but I'm just saying like-
Hamsata Mazou 49:23
DON'T! Shut yourself down. Let me stop.
Alexis Grant 49:25
But I'm saying like, I know what you're saying, like the departments like come, like the, within the department like speak with each other and stuff like that. But I'm saying if that department makes a decision, but I'm, have classes for four different departments. Their individual decisions don't actually end up working for me at all because it's four completely different things still.
Jeanine Ikekhua 49:45
I'm gonna just say this. I don't think they want to and I don't think they care.
Alexis Grant 49:47
But I don't think they can because even, I know, because I'm thinking more from an aca-, like a, even a teacher's standpoint, just because I know like what my mom goes through in the education system, even doing that for like high schools when they're collaborating. That junk is so difficult, there's way less, like, stuff you have to go over even for high school. So I know on a college le-, like, unless you're a small private school, it's just not ever going to be a thing.
Jeanine Ikekhua 50:12
That's what I'm saying. Like, I just don't know, like, what to do like, I just don't know, what can like be specifically done. That will help as many people as possible. We can't help everybody.
Alexis Grant 50:23
I think more breaks. And I think-
Jeanine Ikekhua 50:26
But then they say that, but like, that goes back to changing the structure of like the actual physical system, because they can only have so many days without breaks. And I'm just like, who decided that? Like, who said that.
Hamsata Mazou 50:40
I think that's like a thing though. Like do colleges have th-, I don't know if they do.
Jeanine Ikekhua 50:43
They have to, I think it's mitigated by the-
Hamsata Mazou 50:46
They have to have a certain amount of like, days in school year. Because I know high schools have that but I don't know if colleges do.
Jeanine Ikekhua 50:50
They, NC State does because I remember like, they took, they took our reading day or something because of like, they had to give us the mental health day. And they can only have so many days.
Hamsata Mazou 51:00
Because we usually have three reading days, right?
Jeanine Ikekhua 51:01
Hamsata Mazou 51:02
I knew I wasn't tripping. I was talking to somebody about this. And they're like, No, we've always had two. I was like I could have sworn we had three.
Alexis Grant 51:09
And that one day made a difference. It feel so condensed this semester.
Hamsata Mazou 51:12
It really, it really does. I was just like, I could have swore, because also I don't remember anything. So I'm just like-
I don't know if I was like, you know, tripping or not. So I was just like.
Jeanine Ikekhua 51:30
No you weren't tripping. That Monday that they were like go to class. What was the point?
Alexis Grant 51:35
Bro I didn't even go to class. Couldn't even do it.
Jeanine Ikekhua 51:39
I didn't either. My teacher was smart enough to be like, Y'all don't have class.
Alexis Grant 51:43
Yeah. I couldn't even.
Hamsata Mazou 51:44
Nah, my professor definitely had class and guess who didn't go? Me, that one right there. It was my only class on Monday too. So to be fair, what was I really gonna lose? One class?
Alexis Grant 51:57
But yeah, that's a recap. Re-, Um, how was y'all's semester?
Jeanine Ikekhua 52:04
Alexis Grant 52:04
No, the audience. Oh, boy, how was y'all's semester? How would y'all rate it?
Hamsata Mazou 52:09
To be fair Jeanine I had the same thought, but internally, and then I was like, What is logical reason for Alexis to do this? And I was like, audience and then I stopped myself from reacting.
Jeanine Ikekhua 52:19
Yeah I'm not going to do that.
Alexis Grant 52:20
What y'all bringing to the n-, what lessons are you guys bringing into the next semester? How are you gonna better yourself? All those things, you can talk to us about it, on the Instagram On Black, top podcast.
Hamsata Mazou 52:34
On Black, well podcast,
Alexis Grant 52:37
Hamsata Mazou 52:37
Alexis Grant 52:38
Yeah. Yeah, we'll-
-see y'all next time. Bye, everybody.
Hamsata Mazou 52:41
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