Grief and Coffee

Toni and Hettie explore the quiet, everyday moments where grief lingers, often unnoticed by the outside world but deeply felt within. Through honest reflection and heartfelt conversation, they share how small rituals, like a simple cup of coffee, can become anchors in the healing process. This episode is a gentle reminder that even in the midst of grief, there is space for connection, comfort, and continuing forward, one moment at a time. 

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Because my initial response is a feeling of being so overwhelmed, so much that I cannot see a way out.

And so that's my initial response is I just want to sit there, lay on the floor, cover up high down to a chair because I see no way out.

And that, even to this day happens to me, but I've learned that, okay, you can do that for a second, or just a moment, but you have to pick yourself up and you have to keep going.

And so I have to small step things, just little steps, even if I have to talk to myself, Tony, put your feet on the floor. Tony, stand up. Tony, walk to the kitchen.

And so I have to do that to get myself out of it. And then once I get going again, I'm okay.

But I'm angry because I always go to that first.

Wow. And I don't want to.

Welcome to Two Dancing Widows, the podcast where hosts Tony and Heady explore life after loss and the strength we find in each other's stories.

In this episode, grief and coffee, we sit in a space that feels familiar to so many, a quiet moment, a warm cup in hand, and the weight of grief that shows up whether invited or not.

Tony and Heady reflect on how grief doesn't always arrive in big waves. Sometimes it's subtle, lingering in everyday routines, in conversations, in silence.

This episode is about those moments. The ones where life keeps moving, but your heart is still catching up. It's about finding comfort, connection, and even a bit of peace in the small rituals that carry us through.

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In the twilight glow, where memories blend, two souls reminisce on life's winding been.

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Hi everybody, we're back. It's the two dancing widows. We have a lovely spring day today in Chicago area, which you know is a little unusual.

And we are expecting to have good weather this week, but there is no promise for next week. But anyway, let's get started. Our conversation today is called grief and coffee. And it is about the little things that you didn't plan for that trip you up.

What do you think, Tony? I think it's a great topic. I first I wondered what was grief and coffee. I'm not sure what they had to do with one another. But maybe it's the time that you take out to sit down and reflect.

And when your mind starts wandering in your evaluating how you're feeling. And sometimes it sneaks up on you that you're not doing so great.

Well, that's true. And actually the reason that I came up with that title is because you know how everybody establishes routines when you're married, you have a mate or even when you just have a roommate in your in college anywhere that you go if you have a job.

Everybody has a routine within the context of that job. And my husband and I used to get our coffee. In fact, he was sleep. Well, I made the coffee because he liked to smell coffee.

And it helped him to sleep. So I would make the coffee, take him up a cup and put it back his bed. He was sleep. I would come downstairs, go outside and you know just sit at the deck or sit on the porch or patio.

And my journal or whatever and pretty soon he was show up with his coffee and toe. And typically he'd have to newspaper with them and he'd sit down and start reading it.

Well, the other day I did that I made the coffee. I got my journal, my pens, my pencils. And I should say my coloring books, which is the newest thing that my kids have decided to give to me. I can't imagine why, but they think it's some type of therapy.

At any rate, I went outside and I put the coffee down and I started thinking and drawing and all of a sudden I just was overwhelmed with grief. It was just so unexpected in that quiet moment.

I'm going to do a commercial break, Keri, before I respond. And that's the coloring coloring is very therapeutic for me.

I love the physical, but the coloring books and the beautiful colored pens, but I also do it anywhere I am when I'm feeling a little anxious. I do it on my computer.

And honestly, it relieves the stress for me.

Let me just say this. Okay, y'all know that we rarely agree on anything. And this is the truth.

I am not a full blown artist, but I do consider myself a bit of an artist. I paint, I draw and I don't use coloring books. I don't need guidelines because honestly, if I had to stay within the lines, I don't think I could.

That's what it is. But that to those triggers for the grief. Yeah, there are those times that you just find yourself doing something.

And before you know it, you've been triggered. That's the thing. So how do we, can we keep those things from happening?

I don't even know and I don't know if it's healthier. What, but I just was suddenly, I felt all this remorse regret.

The thing about it is typically when I've had episodes of grief, I've kind of known what they were about, but I didn't this time.

And so I picked my coffee back up, I came back in a house, I put it into the microwave, it 90 seconds, waited, took it back out and tried to start again.

And within five minutes, I just was again overwhelmed with grief. And I don't know, I just would like to know when life trips you up like that, how do you get back in touch with yourself?

I mean, I know grief is healthy. I know that we need to grieve. But so unexpected. I mean, I've come down the road some, this is going past five years now.

And yet and still, I find myself still grieving a life that was I wonder sometimes if my grief has more to do with the life I planned that hasn't happened.

And you see no way for that plan to live to happen now.

Yeah, I could see that I was doing a survey with my not a survey, my granddaughter asked if she could interview me for a project she's doing for one of her psych classes.

And I said, OK, depending on the questions will be, it'll depend on whether I answer honestly, but I'll give you an answer.

So one of the questions was, how do you know that you are the same person you always were?

And then it talked about in response to how you handle things in your life. What lets you know that you you haven't grown. Most of the times people say what lets you know that you've grown and you've gotten better and handling things.

But this was how do you know that you really are the same?

Just a little bit being stuck that you're doing.

Yeah, that and I guess the question says that maybe we are all stuck in some ways because I respond if we think about it is your response ever the same as has always been.

So I had to think about that and I told her honestly, I'm embarrassed to say, but yes, because my initial response is a feeling of being so overwhelmed.

So so much that I cannot see a way out.

And so that's my initial response is I just I just want to sit there lay on the floor cover up high down to a chair because I see no way out.

And that even to this day happens to me, but I've learned that, OK, you can do that for a second or just a moment, but you have to pick yourself up and you have to keep going.

And so I have to small step things just little steps, even if I have to talk to myself, Tony, put your feet on the floor.

Tony stand up. Tony walk to the kitchen.

And so I have to do that to get myself out of it. And then once I get going again, I'm OK. But I'm angry because I always go to that first.

Wow. And I don't want to.

I don't know. You know, I try to think about if time has taught me anything. I try to think about has have things changed that used to matter.

Why don't they matter as much anymore? Were they insignificant at the time, but relevant in the context of the life I was living at that time.

But there is just so much as I get older that just doesn't matter to me anymore. I mean, even in conversations sometimes I'm talking to people and they're talking about things in life that are important.

And it feels so unimportant to me. And I don't ever want to say that to a person because I don't want to cut them off or have them fill as though I don't care.

Because I care deeply, but I would like to care in a more genuine way because it does it feels it does not feel authentic to sit there and listen to things that just have no meaning to me whatsoever except that people deserve to be heard.

And I think about myself. Well, I mean, I could sit there and complain about having lost my husband lost, you know, people close to me, my daughter and all of this. And it might not matter to them at all, but they would still listen to me.

So out of deference and respect for whoever is talking, I sit there and listen, but I try to every day practice gratitude. I try to make it a practice too.

You know, as we say our prayers that we say something that we're grateful for. And honestly, there are just some mornings when I just, I know I always like to say if the Lord wants me up, I'll get me out.

But there are some days when I really don't feel like getting out and I really don't feel like being grateful for waking up.

I know me too. And I think sometimes I, when you talked about when you're listening to people or you're participating in things and you're really, really not there, you feel almost separated physically from from what's going on, but you can't show that.

So you pretend to participate, but you really not fully there.

Yeah, it's been absent. Yeah, you are like being sitting with a book that is as a beautiful cover, but it's content lacking.

Yes. Now, when you talked about gratitude, that is one of the things that helps me tremendously when I'm really down to is that I actually physically have to get a piece of paper or my journal or whatever's handy and write down every little thing.

Like you said, well, I just woke up. That's the only thing I can say today. That's good. And that helps me. But then I start going to the little things. I've been down to the fact that I can walk to the bathroom.

I have a clean house. I am a car. I can put gas in. I mean, it's just silly little things. But those things didn't meet back out of the hole of being so down.

And that helps me a lot to do the gratitude list or the gratitude journal.

I think that it could definitely help if you are the person that are subject to depression, which I don't think that I've ever been a person that's subject to depression.

Although anybody can be depressed or have a little bit of depression, but I've always just tried to look for something new to do some new opportunity, some way to get myself up and get myself going.

I think that some of this though just has to do with getting older and becoming more mellow.

And I think the absence of a loved one that you thought would be there that you guys would get older together.

We talked about this. I think I'm one of our very first dates. He hadn't forget my husband looked at me. He looked at me and said, what do you think we'll be doing 50 years from now?

And you know, being so caustic like I am, I said, oh, probably dead. And we both laughed and he says, well, maybe you think we'll be sitting in a rock and chair.

And I thought, oh, that's a great idea. That's exactly what we will do. And so over the years, we always see each other about who's going to get to the rock and chair first.

And you know, we didn't have, we did actually have a rock and chair on our porch where we had a swing too. So I'd say, well, I'll sit in the swing. You can sit in the rock and chair, old man.

And you know, just our little inside Joe, but there has to be a way to build resilience where grief doesn't take you out of the game if you know what I mean.

Absolutely. Absolutely. I just came back from attending our sororities, regional conference and shout out to the Indianapolis chapter. They did a fabulous job.

Did you tell them about our podcast? No, I did. Oh, because I don't tell you why. Because I did not participate the way I usually do. You know, I'm one that I'm going to all the meetings and workshops, everything.

I'm going to don't let it be a party. I'm the first one there and having a good time dancing. I did not do that this time. And I went with my daughter and I have good friends there.

But they would say Tony, we're coming down. Let's go. I'm I said I'm in the bed. There are you sit. No, but I'm cozy and I'm comfortable and they could not believe that I actually was not getting up and getting out.

I did go attend some things, but I never missed anything before. And I'll tell you how I really knew something was going on with me is I bought my daughter a bracelet at the vendor only because very difficult to find something she really loves.

And I saw her eye in this bracelet and I knew she really liked it. So I waited for her to leave and I snuck back around and and the lady quickly boxed it up for me because we were hoping she wouldn't catch us.

That is the only thing that I bought not a one other thing. And if you know me, my car usually can't close for all the packages from the vendors and that was nothing else. It was just I didn't have the energy for it.

Was it the energy or was it the mental energy that you require to get yourself up and out and were you feeling some kind of way about just where you are in life right then. So I really really now that I home because I just that's not me. That's the first time that ever happened at that particular type of event to me. And I thought, well, I wonder what's really going on.

Well, you know, and I will say this because I know that you have a lot going on. Sometimes when we're faced with all these decisions because one of your decisions is after your fall, you're thinking of leaving your home.

And this is a home that you've been in like what 40 years 46 years 46 years and I mean, you love your neighbors. You love your home. And I love it too.

And but it has stairs and it also has a few little tricky quirky areas that could be not as safe for you that makes that make maneuvering around not as safe. And as we've done podcasts in the past on how to be safe as a senior that weighs on you as well.

So that's weighing on you. The work that you have to do to get it ready to sell the you were talking about decluttering, but then you're running across all these old memories like you found your first.

Was it your commission Rosary that you got or it was my communion prayer book. Rare book. You talk to my chatty sometimes telling people I have things.

100 years and what's really bad out but you like antique so yes, I am becoming one. But I will tell you and I just will be honest about it.

We talked about my cousin coming to help me declutter and we would have been wrestling on the floor because I kept that prayer book and those kinds of things mean a lot to me.

And I know she'd say you haven't seen that prayer book and all these years always know it's there, but I didn't know it was there, but I know that I know it's there. I need to keep you separate.

I can't I just figure it's a little prayer book and I want to see it. But we just did a podcast on reconnecting is that like reconnecting with some old.

Yes, that's a good now. Not that much fun. But it is free. It is.

It's to your past. What would you say this and you just said I don't know if it would be that much fun. I don't know if reconnecting with an old lover would even be fun.

It's not like you can do a rough and tumble and fall out of bed and jump in the bed and you might fall out of bed.

I mean, I don't know that we have that prowess anymore to go, you know, jumping on someone's back and carrying around a house and legs up in the air, knees old up and greasy and all that kind of stuff.

I don't know. It doesn't even sound killing does it? So remember when we talked about reconnecting. Yes, you have to reconnect where you are now.

Oh, so you reconnect as an old woman to an old man. But who wants an old man that in himself fun again, right?

I tell you what I think these old men are so on my nerves. I was thinking just today earlier today is mankind even worth it.

And when I met and when I thought man time, I didn't mean it in a general way of men, women and people. I meant man specifically.

I am so sick of these old men trying to think that they are young and trying to do all this stuff that they used to do or be who they used to be.

It doesn't even look appealing anymore. And I just thought about our people aging gracefully.

I mean, I remember looking at, you know, maybe men in church and my granddad and my uncle sitting out on a porch and laughing and joking back and forth even about all your young.

So you won't get this a way to you do. But they seem to age gracefully. And nowadays I find not even just old men, but more so with old men.

Women have a little bit of a time, but it seems like men specifically are not aging well. And that's adding to my grief as well. So when I sit down and I have my coffee, I mean, and I find myself, you know, in the throws and grief.

I wonder if sometimes it's just not about just one person or one time if it's not just about the general population and where we are right now.

I mean, we've got a war going on with gas prices going up. You know, I did. I was thinking this morning when I was listening to them saying that ground beef is up a whole dollar of pal.

And this is up $2.36 from where it was two months ago that airfares have gone up over 10 or 15%. And I find myself thinking, well, okay, that's all right. Doesn't bother me.

But then I thought it does bother me. Well, on one hand, I thought it affects me in a good way because that means I can maybe jump on a point and go somewhere. It won't be overcrowded.

But then on the other hand, I thought it's depressing because people aren't impressed all around.

I think all those things you described and even to the old men who are, you know, trying to make it the best they can, I think the word fear is that the root of all of that.

We're afraid as we grow older that we're going to lose our side, our ability to walk our our teeth, our hair, our coolness if you're a guy.

And so we're they're afraid we're afraid of that people are afraid of what's going on in the world will be able to survive it.

And it's a real thing and surviving old eggs is the real thing.

Wow. Oh, I know it's a funny thing to you really do have to laugh. I was at the at the store while at a little boutique with the friend of ours a couple of weeks ago.

And we were in the store and I had tried on something. And when I came out, I want to hurt to see. And so I was calling her and calling her and she was standing probably for fee for me.

And the lady at the cashier she looked at me. People beyond her turned around and looked at me. Everybody looked at me except for her.

So I called her again and then it dawned on me. Oh, she just got those new hearing aids. So I had to walk up and physically touch her.

And then she's like, oh, you know, I started her and I had I called her name maybe four or five times. So I don't know. You know, when I think about just going out on a patio and listening and thinking and grieving, I feel specifically that it is about the loss of companionship.

But it seems like it's so much more and I can't just always put my finger on what is it all about? I mean, I certainly don't feel sorry for myself or anything. I am living pretty much the same life I lived before.

But and I still have relatively good health and I would like to knock on wood for that because I should knock on wood for that because it's not guaranteed. Nothing in life is guaranteed. You just had a story about a friend of ours who is in our book club, talking about another book club. And what happened there?

Yes. And the lady, she has to wait right at the table with book club. So yeah. So there are things that were concerned about as we age. And I think we're all that's all part of what we carry with us. And I think those are triggers for the grief.

But it seems like it should also be a trigger for living life fully. And as full as most robust, you know, ability to do so that has to be big, that has to be robust, that we have to put everything we've got into having a good time and not waste this time on these little non consequential sorts of things.

But that has to be so intentional, Eddie. And that's what I have to work with myself on being very intentional, intentional about being full of joy, about being happy of trying new things and taking new opportunities.

But you have to really struggle and work on that because the energy, the fear will come in and keep you from doing that. One of the questions on my grand orders interview last night was, okay, tell me a few of your goals. And I laughed. And she said, what's wrong, Grammy? And I said, at my age, I don't know that I have goals.

I have goals. I'll work out tomorrow morning. Yes. Oh God. I said, honey, I have no goals anymore. Let me think about that. There's a point. Yes, yes, yes, absolutely. So I had to really struggle with that. I said, turn off the reporter. I need the moment to think about what goals are they really goals that we have now? I don't know.

It was funny because you know, Michelle Obama wrote this book about becoming. And so I had to think when I'm around that title, are we still becoming that? And she says that you're always becoming.

You're always becoming. Yes. And I that kind of made me feel better when I when I heard that, she says we always become.

But it's not what you're becoming. Right. Coming old. That's right. Coming fragile. Yes. We're becoming non-communicative. We're becoming, you know, we can't remember things. We can't, you know, jump and then go around like we used to. So, but we're becoming.

So I guess what you have to turn that around and make sure you say it in a positive way because it's so easy to go down that trail of the negative things where we come.

Okay. Well, you're probably on a, you've been called before. So go absolutely put it in a positive way. I'm becoming wiser. I like that one.

I am becoming kinder. Oh, I wouldn't agree with that. You're becoming can't take a rest. Oh, you're okay. That they give that to all people. But we're not. We're becoming kinder.

We're becoming more loving and giving and we're becoming.

We're becoming slower. No, we're becoming adventurous. We have a fabulous trip. We do have a trip planned out. Yes. We do. We're going to have fun in the sun and have a good time.

We really are. We really are. But, you know, I think you can still slow down and not that doesn't mean that you have to shrink from life. Maybe you actually take more time to observe life more seriously.

That you take a time to really enjoy just the beauty of natural things. You know, grass growing. That is turning green. That is still amazing to me.

And that's living in the moment. Yes. Yeah. Absolutely. And that trees on me right now is like cherry blossom time. Yes. And they were talking about how all of these people when I say they, I mean the TV people were talking about how it's not just here in the United States.

And I know this is true. I've been there in Japan where it's cherry blossom time and everybody comes out to see the cherry blossoms. And DC has been turns out to come.

There's a lot of cherry blossom. They're beautiful. I'll tell you last more has them. I've seen them. I've been going down the streets. Really pretty. Yes.

Cherry blossom. It just seems like some maybe we're becoming more aware of the beauty around us. And we're becoming women who can relax enough now to not to enjoy it. That we don't always have to be doing something that we can just relax and enjoy.

Enjoy the quiet moments. Yes. Enjoy the coffee. And but I still haven't figured out yet. Why do I have to read my coffee just to find my step and to keep in step with life. Sometimes I feel like I'm going backwards rather than going forward.

Yes. I think when you when you love someone, you are always going to have triggers. You're always going to agree with them. And you're always going to miss them. And sometimes you'll feel overwhelmed with loneliness.

But that's the because you had the beauty of that kind of relationship.

Yes, I think so. And you know, and I think another thing is figuring out a way to let go of is too late because we tell ourselves sometimes, oh, I've gotten older is too late to do this is too late to begin again is too late to start again. Oh, it's too late to go and have this.

You know, I'm always curious when people talk about not wanting to have a bucket list. I think a bucket list is just the way of saying I'm still alive and there are things and goals that I still have.

So when your granddaughter was asking you about your goals, that would have been a great time to think about that list of things that you have. Then you really have they have become more urgent in a way.

They have, but I also am one of those people you were just describing I fight that constantly. Oh, I sure would like to do that. Maybe if I had done that when I was 50 or maybe if I got into that when I was 30.

And I also do that to myself. It's too late for me now. Who does that or starts that at this age. So I have to fight that constantly.

I always enjoy reading about people like some of the best writers never did right until they were in their 60s or 70s.

There are people that have you know decided to take the trip and jump. What about that 92 year woman that jumped out of an airplane as she wanted to do that and she did it for her 90th birthday and she did it a couple years later.

I admire people who still think about just grabbing as much gusto as they can out of this one life, which is the only life that we are certain that we will ever have.

And while people talk about the afterlife, it may be and I do hang on and I do believe that there could be, but it's not this life.

It's not the tangible life where you can reach out and touch your loved ones where you can hug them and when you can kiss them.

And I think that's the thing about missing people and grieving. You know, our loved ones is that we can no longer touch them. Now think about my brother who died. Oh my God, 50 years ago now because he was over 50 years ago.

He was 21. I was 19. I said, I can't picture him old.

It just as it won't come. I've tried to picture him old. I don't know what he would be doing or what that would be like.

I think about even my husband who was older, but even older because he was so pretty vital walking exercise and out of time, lifting weights.

I can't picture him not being able to do any of those things short of the time when he just couldn't a few weeks before I lost him.

You know, I think of my daughter who didn't have kids and said she didn't want kids and then you know, some days she said she did who was 44.

But one of my dear friends had her first child at 48 and her second one at 51 and those kids are grown now and graduated with school and married and going on with life.

And so, you know, I wondered if she would have changed her mind. There's so much to think about when you lose people and there's no going back.

No, but I like what you said. I really hooked on that. You just said something that will, I'll have probably write in my journal about and then you said not in this life.

Everything can't be in this life and that that gives me a little bit of comfort of yes, that's what I would like, but that's not for me in this life.

And that's what we have to accept.

Are you, I don't know, thinking that we're going to be actually in touch in the next life?

I hope so. You know, I believe in reincarnation.

And what level do we come back as an end? No, no, no.

Coming back as an Empress.

Well, maybe. Well, I do have some thoughts about that.

And then you think you have some thoughts about a lot of things.

And one of the things I think is, you know, in one religion, one far Eastern religion, where you are reincarnated again and again until you reach the point of perfection, like a 360 degrees thing.

You know, as we know, the continuous circle that goes around until it hooks up to itself.

So, and then the theory behind it is something like if you did not have the tolerance for, you know, like say, especially these people, that you have to come back and suffer the indignities that those people suffer until you know what it feels like and you can accept that and no longer be scornful towards it.

If you did not, if you expected everybody to, you know, whatever, just be all the same race or you didn't believe that or you didn't have empathy for people who lost children or babies at a certain time.

You would come back and you would suffer those indignities once again until that happened.

I think about people like this man who calls himself president. I don't know what I think he's a dirt digger quite frankly and a great actor.

He's one of those people. You know, he is. He's one of those people. Have you ever heard of a sins eater?

No. Oh yeah, sins eater. So, these are people that were really poor back in Renaissance time.

And, you know, because people feast and have a celebration of life at the depth of people, especially wealthy people.

So, they believe that if you ate all the food, the more food you ate, the more you gorge, that the more stuff that you could take with you into the afterlife,

and that you had to eat well to help that person get into the afterlife. So, they would hire people that they would call sins eaters.

And these people will come and they would eat all the food, but they would be stuffing it into their pockets so they could take it home to their families who didn't have anything.

I mean, because we're talking not like fried fish like we have today. We're talking fresh fish, we're talking breads, baked goods, fruits, things like that that they would be able to tuck into their bags.

And they would go out in mind as if they'd eat all this food on my goodness. So, they were helping this person get rid of all their worldly food around them and all that other kind of thing and that they were helping them to get to have a little bit sooner.

So, the more that you ate, the more it would help them to elevate about these things. I don't know. It's a weird thing.

And somebody told me, oh, that's not true. That was just an all-movie. Well, it was a movie about the sins eaters.

And so, I thought, as a kid, when I sat at this, I want to be the...

No, no, I didn't want to be the sins eater.

But I think this man, this truck man, I think he's a sins eater. I think he carries all the sins of everybody and it's why he has no empathy for anybody because he himself is filled with sins.

Not only his sins, the sins of his fathers and the sins of others. And so, that may not be a property topic.

But I really think that this man is something wrong with him. And I think it's because he carries all these sins and guilt.

And he thinks he's happy, but he's not. Because if he was happy, he wouldn't say and do the things that he does to others. He would not be as cruel as he is.

So, as we close out this episode, I should feel very safe then for the new life I will have one day because being polyanna as all of my friends call me, I've been pretty kind and nice.

You are kind, that's why.

And so, I can't make me that impressed.

Well, I'll eat the food around you if they put it out to help elevate you having a lot of faster.

I'll eat it.

I thank you.

Well, that was a silly ending and unexpected. But as you all know, we go off skips sometimes because we do, we have such a good time and we're just so happy whenever people tune in and listen.

We hope you're having a good time too.

So, with that, what do you think you're going to do next time?

I think I am going to...

I don't know. You know, I got to put on your dancing shoes.

Oh, okay, I'm going to put on my dancing shoes and I owe my dancing shoes a visit because I did not put them on this weekend.

And so, I am not at all, but I'm going to put them on intentionally and dance out.

Well, until next time.

Until next time.

Until next time.