Hope in Real Life with Jason Gore

In this powerful episode, we dive deep into the story of an ex-adult film star, Joshua Broome, who faced the pressure of conforming to the world and the crushing weight of depression and made a decision to take his own life. Despite fame and money, he struggled with emptiness, pain, and conviction—But his journey didn't end there. Join us as we talk about how Josh found true freedom, healing, and a renewed sense of purpose. This raw and inspiring conversation will leave you thinking about the power of redemption and the hope that can be found even in the darkest of places.

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After I say no, you know, I've been out

of the industry for, for two years.

She gets really quiet and very,

you know, she's contemplating.

And then all of a sudden, you know, like a,

like a teacher does.

She got very serious, very stern, and planted her feet,

and she had something to say.

And what she said changed the rest of my life.

She looked at me and said, you're not defined

by the worst thing you've ever done.

Mm-Hmm. And you're not defined

by the greatest thing you'll ever do.

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Well, what is going on? Hope in Real Life family.

We have got an incredible episode for you today.

Uh, we talk about bringing hope

to the everyday moments of our lives.

This episode is for anybody out there

who feels like, man me.

Finding hope, uh, is a bit hopeless, is a bit

beyond my reach because of some decisions

that I've made in my life, or the things that I've done man,

are probably too far gone.

And if that's you, this is an episode for you.

I'm here with my good friend, Josh Broom.

Josh, welcome to the show.

Hey, man, it's always good to hang out with you. Yeah.

Um, so long term Term friend,

we'll get into that in a minute.

But Josh is a husband, father, speaker, author

of his most recent book,

seven Lies That Will Ruin Your Life.

Uh, but before we get into all that, uh, Josh,

why don't you just tell us a little

bit about yourself, about your family?

Yeah. So we live in Dallas, Texas, and, uh, my wife, hope

and I have been married for eight years,

and we've got four boys.

So, uh, 6-year-old, 4-year-old.

Uh, Judah just turned three this past weekend,

and Abel is seven months old and he is a monster.

And we're just, just waiting on that, that NLI deal for him

to be a offensive lineman.

You told me before the show, so just number one, your boy,

four boys, that in and of itself,

and so your wife Hope is with them right now,

but then strong names, man.

I mean, cannon, Lincoln, Judah, Abel, I mean strong names.

But Abel, your seven month old Yeah.

Is 24 pounds and already heavier than your 3-year-old.

Yeah, he's, he's actually, it's, they,

they wear the same diapers.

They wear the same size. That's, which is actually good.

Yeah. But, uh, yeah, he's a monster.

I mean, being the youngest of four boys, that'll be good

for him to be able to defend himself a little bit

Earlier. Yeah. And his name

is Abel, so, I mean, he's, you know,

he's gotta he's gotta watch his back. Yep.

Uh, and uh, how long have you been married?

Eight years. Eight

Years. And,

um, man,

and I, you know, I know hope, um, you got the better end of

that deal, but, you know, obviously, uh, great.

What, what, what's she up to right now?

Yeah, I mean, she's just, uh, honestly, like,

we're in the middle of things that we, uh,

like almost didn't have the guts to pray for.

Yeah. So like her, us having the opportunity to be in,

you know, a community where we do life with some people that

love Jesus, and she gets to stay at home with the kids

and, you know, it's like a stay at home mom.

You know, I, I tell people all the time, it's like,

you know, does your wife work?

I'm like, yeah, she has the most difficult

job Exactly right.

I've ever seen,

because like when we're both there, it's a lot.

Um, but yeah, I mean, she, she, uh, so

historically she was an elementary teacher for nine years,

so she actually loves writing curriculum

and she actually helps out, uh, writing curriculum for like,

other cohorts of, uh, of like moms

and dads that do homeschooling.

But she homeschools the dudes and she takes care of them,

and she, and she loves it.

And, you know, I I travel and preach almost every week,

and I, I love it when they get to come with me.

I'm super pumped. So I'm actually, uh, I'm in, uh,

Colorado Springs in a few weeks,

and Canyon's gonna come with me.

So it's the first time it's just like me and him. Yeah.

Um, going. So it's gonna be awesome. That's

Awesome. Hey, so listen,

you've got an amazing story, uh, of

what God's done in your life.

And so let's get into this right off the top.

Can you just give us an overview just of

where you have been in your life, where you were,

and then what it was that brought you to where you are now?

Yeah. So I grew up in a small town in South Carolina,

and my mom was 15 when she got pregnant with me,

16 when she had me.

And I, I shared that it was a small town

because, um, my father also lived in that town

and he was the same age and they weren't in a relationship.

So when I was born, um, I, I don't know all the, you know,

the nuance of the story,

but, um, they essentially went their separate ways.

And I saw this man that was my father,

but he never played the role of father in my life.

And that was confusing when I was young.

And eventually it was frustrating.

And, you know, just trying to figure out

how do I overcome this?

And most people have this high achiever personality.

So, um, that can be a good thing if it causes you to,

you know, you know, work with excellence

or have great work ethic.

But if you're looking at life through a broken lens

and you have that personality, it can cause you to think,

well, if I do enough, maybe I will feel

as if I'm enough.

If I, if I, you know, if I get the applause, the, you know,

the, if I, if I get the accomplishments, if I, you know,

get enough pats on the back

and, you know, accolades around my name,

and I get enough good jobs

and you're awesome, then maybe that would mitigate

what I really wanted was to hear, son, I'm proud of you.

Yeah. And, you know, that's,

that's what I was searching for.

So that looked like me becoming a good

student, which was a good thing.

But I was trying to become a good student so

that I felt like I was good enough, tried

to become the best athlete.

And, you know, I was doing all these things

and I was successful at all these things,

but I was doing them for the wrong reason

because I was so, I was trying so desperately

to mitigate a gap that I had, a deficit

that I had in my life, in my heart.

And, you know, that, that carried me into,

so I started modeling and acting when I was like

13, 14 years old.

Um, went to Francis Marian University for a few years,

studied theater, and then I dropped out my second semester,

my sophomore year, moved to Hollywood.

And I thought like, okay,

if I put myself in closer proximity to the industry I wanted

to be in, then that would make sense.

Didn't, don't, I remember from your story,

like at one point you saying you, you had plans,

you were gonna be the next Brad Pitt.

Oh, yeah. That was the plan. Yeah. That was plan.

You know, it was like, it was, it was either become Kobe

Bryant or, or Brad Pitt.

Bad news. One of those is

definitely not gonna work out for you.

Yeah, yeah. For me, it's gonna be neither.

Ain't nobody gonna confuse me with Brad Pitt. So

Yeah, man.

Um, but yeah, I, I was, uh, I moved out there

and, you know, that it, it was interesting

because, uh, I was pursuing acting

and modeling was kind of a secondary thing.

And like that was kind of what was keeping me afloat.

I was getting a decent amount of modeling jobs,

but not a ton of opportunities to act.

And along the way, um, you know, I, I think it's important

to kinda stop and, and rewind.

So when I was 13 years old, I saw pornography

for the first time, and my cousin showed it

to me at his house.

And it's important

because, you know, you, you know this as a father, part

of being a father,

and part of being a parent is you are a protector

and a provider, and there's guidelines in guardrails

that we need to put in our children's lives.

Right. And I didn't have neither,

I didn't have a biblical worldview,

or I didn't understand, you know, even what,

what does a healthy dynamic of a relationship look like?

'cause I never in my life saw my mom with, uh, a person,

and it was healthy in any way.

I, I never saw that.

So when I saw pornography, you know, Romans 12,

two talks about you're either being conformed by the world

or you're being transformed by the renewing of your mind.

The world was giving me an education of this is

what intimacy is,

and maybe this person that was desiring to be loved.

I thought, well, maybe if I, you know, act out

what I see in those pages, maybe I'll feel an emotion

that I don't feel now.

And that led to me being very promiscuous into, you know,

my, my teens and in college.

And then now I'm living in, in Hollywood.

And you know, this is now, I'm 22 years old.

I'm in Hollywood. I've been out there for a while.

And then three girls come up to me

and I think they're gonna invite me to,

you know, work on a project.

'cause they asked me if I was interested in acting.

And they were like, very quickly, they were like, no,

we were, were head hunters.

Um, essentially,

and they are looking to get me into the porn industry.

They asked, do you want to do pornography?

And, um, because I, because of the way that I had lived and

because I had seen it, um, I knew it was a bad idea.

My mom instilled, you know, some good morals within me.

Um, you know, being a good southern boy.

And, you know, I, I knew that my mom would, you know, crack,

crack me in the head if I would.

That's right. Done something like that.

But at the end of the day,

I didn't have a good reason to say no.

And when you don't have a good reason to say no,

you're more inclined to say yes.

And I, I said yes to something I ought to have said no to.

And if I'm honest, I didn't count the cost.

I thought, well, if I do one, like

what will be the big deal?

And I did it. And then, you know, it, it, it got, you know,

somewhat popular and I got popular enough.

You know, if, and the thing about living in a small town,

it only takes one person to know one thing about your life,

for everyone to know everything about your life.

And all of a sudden, you know, that made its way to my mom.

And I'm having this humiliating conversation with my mom.

'cause she's asking me if I, and how far,

How far is that after you're,

because you said you're 22, how far

after that first film was it?

Pretty much right away. Okay. So it was, um, weeks. Okay.

Like, it was about two weeks after I did that. Um, so yeah.

So I, I had that conversation with her

and, you know, at that point in my life, you know,

really tracking,

because at the end of the day, like all

of our problems are identity problems.

And, you know, if, if, if you dig even deeper,

they're, they're worship problems.

Yeah. Like, who, yeah. Who you believe Jesus to be and, and,

and who you give your worship to.

Um, that kind of

determines the way in which you live your life.

And for me, my identity was, I was my mother's son.

That was the thing that I was most proud of.

That was the thing that I was most sure of.

And then when I hurt the only person that never hurt me,

that did something in me,

and the feelings of inadequacy that I already had,

it was almost like I proved to myself

that I was exactly who I thought I was.

Hmm. And when that happened, you know, I, I think it's,

it's often when people experience trauma, they,

they justify things that, you know, externally,

you know, from the outside looking in.

Like that wouldn't make any sense to someone else,

but it makes sense in your head.

I thought, well, I disqualified myself from being her son,

so I'm gonna do her a favor.

And even though my mom continued to pursue me, I

stopped answering the phone.

I stopped returning her text

because I thought, what good could I provide

her and her life?

How could, how could I be a son to her after what I've done?

And then I just stayed in that industry,

and I stayed in that industry for a little over six years.

And I thought, well, if I'm here,

I might as well make the best of it.

And then I start telling myself this lie, well,

if I make enough money, if I have enough success,

if I do enough, you know, X, y

and z, it would equate

to me feeling differently about myself.

And I thought, okay, well, you know,

I grew up not having money.

And I thought, well, if I eclipse a million dollars earned,

that would equate to me not feeling inadequate.

I feel like I was somebody

because something about

an additional comma in my bank account would

mitigate the deficit I had emotionally.

And, you know, it didn't work. And yeah.

Josh, can I just, I just wanna highlight for a minute all

of this in what the way you're saying it,

and it keeps going back to,

'cause you said, all of our problems are really identity

problems and all of this,

I just think it's worth recognizing for you.

So much of it went back to, and I didn't have a dad around

or somebody to say, I'm proud of you son.

And so there's this constant sense of inadequacy Yeah.

That you're looking to be filled somewhere.

And yeah, I think it's good just to recognize that

as individuals, you know.

Um, but I think it's also good just for us to recognize,

man, all of us have got young men

and young women around us that they might not have

that person in their life as well.

And man, anytime we get an opportunity to speak value

and worth into somebody just

because of who they simply are, man,

you have no idea the impact that

that could have on their life later.

Yeah. I mean, I, I would say that a a thousand percent

because I mean, you look at the data, it's like, you know,

a a lot of the conversations I have is around, you know,

building sexual integrity or rebuilding sexual integrity.

But fatherlessness is something I talk about a lot.

And if you look at all the world's, like major contributors

to, you know, what we would call problems,

fatherlessness is the best predictor of, you know, someone,

um, you know, being in a relationship where there's abuse,

you know, leading a, a life

that you end up getting arrested, you know, um, like all,

all these things like abortion crime, like, you name it,

it's like something that is, is, uh,

typical within a conversation

that's problematic in this world,

fatherlessness is generally a predictor

of brokenness in their life in some way.

Um, so yeah, like find, like, find someone

to, to pour into you.

And if you're that person that you know is, is hanging

around at the coffee shop

and you see someone, uh, with a notebook

and they're looking around, it's like, man, uh,

the the thing that you've been praying for to pour into,

they need that so badly

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So you said you, you're involved in the adult film ministry.

Um, yeah. You stand here today, not, yeah. Not involved.

So at some point there was a change,

and you might want to add some more to that story.

And so if you want to go back to it, feel free. Yeah.

But at some point I'd love to hear like, when did,

when did something snap?

Like when did you know you needed God?

And, and what was that turnaround like for you?

Yeah. So I'll, I'll, I'll, I'll tell this quickly

'cause I know I can be long-winded.

Um, but, so in

2012, I won an award that essentially was like, you're,

you're the most, you know, successful in the industry.

Like, you know, it was the male male

performer of the year or whatever.

Um, and I thought if I won that award, like

that would solidify like, okay, um, the studios

and the people who are in the industry voted

that I was, you know, the best.

And I thought if I was chosen, um, that would

solidify something in me.

And when I won that award,

and it didn't make me feel like I thought it would,

the anxiety that I had was amplified.

The depression that I already had was deepened.

And I made a very clear plan to take my life.

And the day that I was gonna take my life,

I even needed permission from someone to do that.

So I walked into a bank, um, I had a check.

Generally I would avoid an interaction with a person

because I didn't wanna hand the check that had a memo

that was clear that I was being compensated, um,

for doing something I wasn't proud of.

But on this day, that's exactly what I wanted.

And I walked in, slid the check across the counter,

and I looked her in the eyes,

and I waited for her to say something antagonistic,

to shake her head to do something,

to give me permission to harm myself.

And instead she said nothing.

And then as I was about to walk away,

the transaction was over.

She looked at me and said, Joshua, are you okay, Joshua?

How can I help you? And she saw that I was, you know, I was,

I was, I was clammy, I was sweaty, I was afraid.

And very much like Act 16 moment, you know, the, the,

the jailer, you know, the,

after the earthquake, the, the jailer grabs a sword,

and he knew he had one job to, to keep people in themselves.

And when the earthquake happened, the,

the jail cells opened up.

And corporal, you know,

punishment was the norm in that Roman culture.

And he grabbed the sword and he was gonna take his life.

And Paul simply said, don't harm yourself. I'm right here.

Yeah. And in, in the same way she saying my name,

it snapped me out of that.

And it was because in that industry, you don't go

by your real name, you go by a pseudonym.

And I pushed out everyone in my life.

So I hadn't heard my real name in over a year.

And when she said that, I ran to my mom, I, I went running

and crying, and I called my mom.

And after she chewed me out, uh, she, she said everything.

I didn't think she would. She said, I love you,

you always be my son.

Please come home. You're,

you're worth so much more than this.

And I did.

Um, but what I brought with me was the, the mo the,

the mental and emotional trauma that came with that.

So I, I was like, okay.

I got a job working in the health

and fitness space, started working at One CrossFit gym.

Um, ended up getting a job, uh, full-time at another one.

Before that, I was working at a grocery

store and a CrossFit gym.

Uh, and then I was working at this CrossFit gym,

and he got a great mentor.

Um, I think a mutual friend of ours, Jason Davidson, he, uh,

leads the Thor program at Fort Bragg.

Used to be a strength conditioning coach

for the Carolina Hurricanes, but just like the guy.

So it just like, kind of same thing.

Get the best mentor, get the right credentials.

And I thought if I put enough good dirt at my bad dirt,

even though I can't change, maybe I can minimize

or alter the way in which I'm perceived.

I can manage the way that someone perceives me.

And maybe if I have enough accolades on my name,

even though the reality of who I am, maybe

that will outweigh the things I've done.

And that's the way I was living my life.

And then in Walk, this girl

that was the prettiest girl I've ever seen,

and she could walk on her hands and do all the things,

and I asked her on a date,

and she said no a few times. And eventually,

I just wanna point out if you can walk on your hands Yeah.

And do all the things, like, for some people

that's a higher priority than others.

Like for me, I've never thought if my wife could walk on her

hands, but for you it was like the top of the list. So

Yeah. Yeah.

She, she was, you know, she was a lifetime gymnast.

Yeah. She was a, uh, she had like Iowa Hawkeye, everything.

She cheered at Iowa. And, um, we,

we ended up going on a run.

And on that run, I felt, uh, a feeling

that I had experienced in a long

time, and it was conviction.

And I was like, Hey, um, I, I, I feel a need

to tell you who I am,

because if you, if you knew you wouldn't be here,

and I, I was like, Hey, you know, I pretty much blacked out.

It's like, here's a five minute monologue

of every bad thing I've ever done.

And, you know, she very quickly was like, Hey, uh,

are are you still doing this stuff?

I was like, no, I've been outta the industry

for two years at this point.

And, uh, this is actually on Easter,

nine years ago when this conversation's taking place.

And, um, she,

after I say no, you know, I've been out

of the industry for, for two years.

She gets really quiet and very,

you know, she's contemplating.

And then all of a sudden, you know, like a,

like a teacher does, she got very serious, very stern,

and planted her feet.

And she had something to say.

And what she said changed the rest of my life.

She looked at me and said, you're not defined

by the worst thing you've ever done.

Mm-Hmm. And you're not defined

by the greatest thing you'll ever do

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Out. I knew

about God,

but I certainly didn't have a relationship with, with him.

And, you know, very, like Colossians four, six, you know,

her, her speech was, uh, seasoned with sought and gracious.

And she knew how she also responded to me.

And, uh, the way that she responded with both truth

and grace, it, it captivated me and,

and created some curiosity in me.

And then we, you know, we, we text and hung out that week.

And then, um, there was a church that she was attending,

but, um, there were several people at the gym that went

to this church that had a Saturday night service.

Hmm. And, um, called Hope, hope Community Church. And

I know that church.

Yeah. And, uh, I, I went there

and I, I, like, I have no business being here,

but wherever this pretty girl goes, I, I'm gonna follow.

And, um, I, I walk in there and I, I heard the gospel

and it leveled me.

And I, I'll, you know,

it's like I've probably preached the sermon

that was preached to me.

Um, you know, I I, I added some things and, and and whatnot.

But, um, it was second Samuel chapter nine

and talking about my peth

and just when, uh, David offers him, you know, the, his,

his grandfather's land and the seat of this table

and invite miss to his kingdom.

But second Samuel, chapter nine, verse eight, when he says,

essentially, don't you know who I am refers

to himself as a dead dog?

I was like, yeah, that's me.

And then the next thing I heard was Hebrews 12 two talking

about it was joy set before him that he endured the cross.

And something about that just crushed me.

'cause I realized that the God of the universe

with love in his heart went to the cross, not

because I deserved it, because he loved me.

Hmm. And when I realized that there was a father in heaven

that loved me so much that he sent his son to the cross

who willingly suffered

and died for me,

it opened my heart in a way that only the Holy Spirit could.

Yeah. And I surrendered my life to Jesus.

And, um, you know, that stood up with, uh, snot

and tears in my eyes.

And, uh, and, and a few days went by

and then, uh, I show up at Hope

and I'm like, Hey, can I talk to somebody?

And I walk into to Gary Vet's office,

and I'm like, I think I told him I

wanted to build a boat or something.

I told him something crazy. It's like, I was like,

I feel like God wants to need me to build a boat.

And, um, it's funny

'cause I, I've actually had several dreams about that.

But, um, I shared with him, you know, what had happened.

And he introduced me to Andrew Yates

and Andrew Yates sat down with the Bible

and he was like, Hey, um, you know, I,

I don't really have time, uh, to, to do this.

He, he, he shares this with me on the back end.

But like, um, instead of just saying, Hey, here's a Bible,

read the book of John, get plugged into a small group,

he sat down and he taught me how to read the Bible.

And he taught me how to study the Bible.

And he gave me time that he didn't have.

And he discipled me. And it, it changed my life.

And in the same way that Jesus saved my life, the,

the Bible transformed my life.

I love the, you know, ex you know, compare it to the,

the Israelites, uh, coming out of Egypt while you know,

Moses, you know, God used Moses to lead them out of Egypt.

Yep. The law got Egypt out of them.

And in the same way as I started to compare

and contrast what God said was best for me, and, and I,

and I, I knew what I thought and how I felt

and what I believed before.

And they just collided in his love and his grace.

It eroded things from my life.

And, um, eventually ended up going to, to Liberty

and got a degree in Christian ministries

and ended up on a few, uh, church staffs

and did some cool stuff.

And, um, and then the, the video that we, uh, that,

that we filmed, so, uh, that Tyler filmed in like,

I don't know, like 2014, 2000.

Yeah. Somewhere. I mean, you're coming up on a

round. Is that a decade?

Yeah, a decade ago.

'cause because we, 'cause we made the video

so long that we couldn't use it.

Yeah. Um, and then he didn't really know what to do with it.

And then he, he, he, uh, released it during COVID. Yeah.

And that video came out.

And what came outta that was Tucker Carlson called me.

I flew out to Portland, Maine and spent a few days with him,

and he interviewed me live on Fox.

And he asked me, how do you go from being a porn

star to teaching the Bible?

And I was like, oh, let me tell you.

And the answer was the gospel. Yeah.

And I walked him through the gospel, uh, live on Fox

to 4.2 million people.

And my life has been different ever since.

But it's like, I love that God allowed me to be in the dark,

to heal, to learn, to grow, to be formed, so

that I would have an answer for the hope that I have.

Yeah. And you know, that's, you know, I,

I love sharing my story

because man, it, it doesn't matter how, you know,

how far gone you feel like you are, what you've done,

what's happened to you.

It's so easy to disqualify yourself from your dreams

and your hopes and your desires.

But, you know, we, we serve a God of Ephesians three 20.

He stands ready to do exceedingly,

abundantly more than you can ever hope or imagine.

And I'll share with you this,

and I'll stop talking for a second.

Um, I, I wrote down on a piece of paper the day

that I was gonna take my life reasons I want to die.

I will never be a father.

I wanted to become the thing I never had.

I want, I'll never become a husband.

And I, I knew the difference.

Maybe I could find someone to get pregnant

or maybe I could find someone to, to, you know,

do a wedding ceremony with,

but I knew what I never saw my mom have.

And I wanted to become that to someone.

I wanted to love someone that way.

And the last thing I wrote was, I'll never contribute

to the world that leads to positive change.

And you know, God is more gracious

and he wants more

for you than you would have the guts to dream of.

Yeah. And that's not the prosperity gospel.

That's who he is. That

Is who he is, man. And

I love how you, again, this whole thing of identity and,

and trying to please and trying to be good enough,

and then you came face to face with

what I wish we could somehow find a way to put in front

of the entire world is that regardless of what you've done,

regardless of what you've been, there is a God

that loves you just because he created you.

Yeah. And, uh, and not only that,

but he's willing to go to great links

and go all in, uh, to make a way for you

to be back in a relationship with him,

hope and real life family.

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