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The New Mom Podcast is a Christian motherhood podcast for women navigating pregnancy, postpartum, and early motherhood.
Whether you're a first-time mom, expecting, or in the middle of sleepless nights, this show offers real, honest conversations about motherhood, marriage, identity, and faith. We talk about birth stories, postpartum recovery, relationships, mental health, and trusting God through every stage of motherhood. If you're looking for encouragement, practical advice, and a reminder that you're not alone—this podcast is for you.
Our prayer is that New Mom leaves you feeling seen, strengthened, and a little more equipped for the beautiful calling of motherhood!
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Hello, and welcome back to New Mom. I'm your host, Carrie Alexander. And ladies, if it sounds a little bit different this week, that's because it is. I'm absolutely not home right now, and I did not have an intro prerecorded for this. Connor and I are traveling in LA right now, and we actually left Archie for the first time overnight.
Speaker 1:It's been a few nights, and it's hard to believe. Moms that have done it, you know. It's hard on the heart, but it's good for the marriage. So we're excited to do it. But I wanted to get this episode out to you anyway, so I apologize that the intro is a little bit informal and voice memo style, but this conversation with Ansley Gordon is such a cool god story.
Speaker 1:She is a mom of two. She has two daughters, and I don't know if you guys know what a Crash C section is. I did not until I heard this story, and neither did Ansley until she was told at her thirty seven week appointment that she was gonna have to have a Crash C section on the spot in order to save her daughter's life. This is such a god story. I don't want anyone to hear that and be like, next.
Speaker 1:I don't wanna listen. That's scary. Honestly, ladies, it is such a beautiful story. And the way that god was with them in every single detail from the moment that she got to the appointment, it being the exact right timing for her daughter's heartbeat, all the way through her daughter defying the odds in recovery, God was in the details of this story. And honestly, it encouraged my heart, and I pray it does the same for you.
Speaker 1:So without further ado here is my conversation with actress, writer, producer, mother Ansley Gordon. Ansley thank you so much for being on. Welcome to New Mom.
Speaker 2:Thank you for having me. I'm so excited to chat. Sorry. It's chaos. You know what
Speaker 1:it's like
Speaker 2:being in New Mom.
Speaker 1:I so know what it's like. So my sister is living with us right now, and she has been back in LA because we're in Nashville. She's been back in LA for the last month, and she's coming home today and I she's cleaner than me. And I just looked around the house because, you know, I have a toddler and I was like Yep. Oh, we're gonna need to be cleaning after you and I have this conversation because she can't be coming home to this.
Speaker 1:But, yeah, I totally get it. Also, you're my first mom on Zoom that is like, who's holding a baby. And so I like that so much. Yeah. Yeah.
Speaker 1:You're my first, like, virtual baby situation. It's so precious. So if you hear any, like, coos and you're listening, guys, it's just it's just a baby.
Speaker 2:Just a baby. She might yeah. She might go up in a carrier here in a second.
Speaker 1:Oh my gosh. I love it. Well, before we dive into too much, give us a little, like, bio about yourself. I'd love to know, like, you know, how long you and your husband have been married, your your, you know, your motherhood journey. I know you have two little ones.
Speaker 1:Like, just give us a little rundown, yeah, of who you are.
Speaker 2:Sure. Hi. So I am Ansley. I am a screenwriter and actress. I've recently moved into producing.
Speaker 2:I'm in Los Angeles. I work mostly in TV movies, so I do a lot of Hallmark. I do, I just had my first Netflix movie come out. I have I can't say anything yet, but I have another really fun streamer Christmas movie coming out this year. Done a couple for Hulu.
Speaker 2:Yeah. So what was the question? I'm super sleep deprived. Oh, perfect. Fine.
Speaker 1:Yeah. No. That's perfect. That's who you are professionally. I love that.
Speaker 1:And by the way, oh my gosh, so many of my listeners, like, we're just like, my mom, my mother-in-law, like, everybody just loves the Christmas movie life. So I'm sure there's so many girls right now that are like, what? I need to look her up. I need to see all of these love Christmas movies. Like, can't
Speaker 2:get enough. Such a fun deal. Ask, like, what do you do? I'm like, your grandma has definitely seen something I've either written or been in. That's, tagline.
Speaker 2:But my husband and I met, like, right after I moved here. So I was 22 and I saw him walking down the street, bright red hair. It's like, you can't miss him. And I said to my sister on the phone, if this is what men look like in LA, I'm gonna be fine. And because my windows were down, he heard me say it.
Speaker 2:And my sister was like, does he look like? And I said, oh, he's a hot redhead. And my and he turns around and he goes, thanks. And kept walking because I was at a stop sign. And I was like, oh my gosh.
Speaker 2:So I ended up parking, and I was going to an acting class. And I showed up to the acting class, and the door was locked. And I couldn't figure out how to get in. I didn't like, I was trying to find instructions, and I knocked on the door, and it was a clear door with a stairwell that went up. It was in Hollywood.
Speaker 2:And who turns around and comes down the stairs? Brian. My yes. Yep. And so he let me in, and he was like, I'm Brian.
Speaker 2:I was like, you're hot.
Speaker 1:That is such a meet cute. Are you kidding me?
Speaker 2:It gets better. So we met that that class. He had just booked a movie. He was going to London to go film, and I had just booked a Lifetime show. And so I was about to film.
Speaker 2:So we're, like, riding high on our, like Oh,
Speaker 1:we're employed.
Speaker 2:And then he leaves. That was October 2014. He left to go film. I joined the acting class. He was gone for, like, months.
Speaker 2:It became my acting class. I'm showing up, like, yoga pants on, hair up, no makeup. Like, I'm there to work out, you know? And he comes back randomly one day. He comes back from filming.
Speaker 2:And I remembered him, and he didn't remember me. And and so I was talking to him about all of these things, like, oh, how's your manager? How's your roommates? Whatever. And he was like, do we know each other?
Speaker 2:And I was like, yeah. We met here. And he thought that was gonna deter me that, like, he didn't remember me. And it didn't it didn't bother me at all. And so Really?
Speaker 1:Yeah. You go so confident. You're like, doesn't matter?
Speaker 2:I don't I mean, I don't I like to think back on it and I'm like, that was a little crazy, but also like I was 22, you know?
Speaker 1:Yeah. That's true.
Speaker 2:So he walked me to my car. He went home. He had two roommates at the time and they like game planned how he was gonna ask me out. And because he hadn't dated in a while. And so the next class, he shows up.
Speaker 2:We're sitting in our, like, regular seats, and he asked me how my week was. I said, it was good. How was yours? He was like, it was good. And I said, Franklin and company is doing a, like, rare beer tasting for German beer.
Speaker 2:Do you wanna go? And he was like, I was gonna ask you out. I I was gonna walk you to your car, and I was gonna ask you out. And I had my phone open. I was like, totally.
Speaker 2:For sure. You can ask me out, but, like, I need to buy these tickets. There's only, like, a couple left, and I would really like to go try this German beer. So, like, do you wanna go? And that's how we started dating.
Speaker 1:That is so cute. I didn't know that your husband was an actor too. I love this because my husband and I are actors and it's like, you know, it's it's a unique dynamic. Well, I mean, it's for it's all we know. Right?
Speaker 1:Like, I'm sure you guys feel the same way. But I think that when you get in the real world and you meet a lot of other couples, it's like, oh, you're both doing this. Like, it's a, you know, it's a whole it's a whole grind. I love that. Yeah.
Speaker 1:Because we Well,
Speaker 2:he's a civilian now.
Speaker 1:Okay. A civilian. Love it. Love it. Is he still in the industry at all?
Speaker 1:Or is he doing different stuff?
Speaker 2:He works in, like, sports marketing.
Speaker 1:Mhmm. So Gotcha.
Speaker 2:I'm gonna strap you to it.
Speaker 1:This is amazing. By the way, while you're strapping her on, I was gonna say, for those that are listening, we have never met in person, but we're social media friends. That's why I'm like, I'm learning things about you, which I'm just loving. Like, I feel like I got to have so many of my friends on at the beginning and I still sprinkle in friends and people I've known for a while, but it's so fun. Having a podcast is a blast because it's like, I feel like I just get to make new mom friends all the time and like hear these amazing god stories and
Speaker 2:it's like Yeah.
Speaker 1:It's it's so much fun. So just basically get to have coffees with people all the time.
Speaker 2:You know? Love it so much. And like
Speaker 1:It is so fun.
Speaker 2:When I saw your show, I was like, this is something I would love to, like, be a part of. And I haven't shared Rosie's birth story. And something just like a god or how whatever a poll felt like this is the, like, platform I wanna share this on. So I'm
Speaker 1:so honored.
Speaker 2:That was how this started.
Speaker 1:Thank you. Yeah. No. Was. You reach out to me.
Speaker 1:I'm I'm so appreciative of that. Thank you. I received that because it's just Yeah. I know that our stories, they're sacred to us, like you said, but it is so cool to share
Speaker 2:our
Speaker 1:testimonies and hopefully encourage other moms that are walking through that. I am excited to hear her birth story though. So I guess okay. Before we get into her birth story Yeah. Because I really wanna hear that.
Speaker 1:I did not know till you and I started talking before we started recording. I did not know that you guys were affected by the LA fires last year. Yeah. Would you mind, like, sharing a little bit about that? Because you were pregnant at the time.
Speaker 1:Well, no. You wouldn't have been pregnant. You had you had your first.
Speaker 2:Yeah. I had a she had just so it was my birthday. And I think she had just turned six months or five months. She had just turned six months. She had just turned six months and we were going to take her hiking at Eaton Canyon because that was like our favorite spot we used to go like every weekend and something like God is all over this story.
Speaker 2:So that morning or the day before I had said to my husband, could you take the day off work like for my birthday and we'll go do like something fun and, like, go take Bee to Eaton and, like, show her it to her. And it's such a special place to us. And he was like, yeah. Sure. So he took the day off.
Speaker 2:And then that morning, the Palisade fire broke out, and I had a hair appointment. I hadn't gotten my haircut in, like, six months. And this is, like, all I wanted for my birthday was to cut off my to cut my hair.
Speaker 1:Gotta have that fresh hair.
Speaker 2:Gotta get it. Because, you know, like, the postpartum I mean, I'm going through it right now. The postpartum hair loss, and it's just everywhere. And, like, you're stepping on it, and it's, like, in the diaper. And I'm like, I just can't do this.
Speaker 2:I need to just go get it trimmed.
Speaker 1:Yes. I feel you on every level.
Speaker 2:Mhmm. Terrible. So I was like, this is the one thing I wanna do. And I had booked with my friend's stylist in, like, Santa Monica. Like, it would have been a really tough drive.
Speaker 2:So that morning, I was like, I'm gonna cancel. So I canceled my hair appointment, and I was like, let's just stay near home. And then the Palisade fire broke out, and and my husband's family is deceased. There a lot of his family members are deceased. And so I was like, let's just pack the car with their stuff.
Speaker 2:Like, just in case. Like, let's just put the stuff in the car just in case. Also, we have a five or six month old. We need to have stuff packed if because we live North Pasadena, like, right here in Pasadena. Foothill Community, if we need to go, we need to be able to, like, get out.
Speaker 2:So we packed the car with the pack and play, with, like, his family photos, with with, like, the family heirlooms and stuff just in case. And then that night, we were in bed watching Wicked, and we saw like, I got up to get water, and from our kitchen window, I saw the the fire break out.
Speaker 1:Oh my gosh.
Speaker 2:And so I grabbed my, like, earthquake kit, and I pulled out my my radio. I turned on, like, the local radio, and they hadn't started reporting on it yet.
Speaker 1:Oh my gosh. You caught it at, like, the beginning.
Speaker 2:Literally right when it happened. So because we like I said, we could see it from our house. And so I was like, let's get ready to go. Like, let's get ready to go. So we grabbed everything as quickly as we could, and then we couldn't find one of our cats.
Speaker 2:We have two cats. And the winds I don't know. Were you in LA at the time of this?
Speaker 1:I was I was pregnant and in Burbank area.
Speaker 2:Oh my gosh. It
Speaker 1:was very scary.
Speaker 2:The wind like, the trees were sideways. Like, it was blowing
Speaker 1:It was so crazy.
Speaker 2:It was crazy. Was like a hurricane. Like Yes. It was crazy. Mhmm.
Speaker 2:It was crazy. So we're searching for our cats. We we can't find one of them, and I'm like, do we leave her? And Brian's like, we're not leaving Juniper. Like, we're not leaving Juniper.
Speaker 2:So we tear apart our house looking for her, and this is where God comes in because if we had gotten her right when we wanted to, we would have had a problem. So we finally found her. We get everything in the car. We're like holding onto the front door and Brian says if this is the last time you go home like are you okay with losing everything that's in this house? And I was like, yep.
Speaker 2:Yep.
Speaker 1:Okay. So wait. How did you feel in that moment? Because I was having that thought. So we were in Burbank.
Speaker 1:Yeah. We were, and we had just finished Archie's nursery. He wasn't here yet, but I was pregnant. And we we ended up going down south, but we weren't in a danger zone. But we were just in between the two fires and I was pregnant and so the smoke was really Yep.
Speaker 1:And I remember having that thought as someone who it was so unlikely that anything would have happened and there was like a little brush fire near us one of those nights. But I remember looking back and being really emotional as a pregnant girl being like, my nursery, my my gifts, like my all the our our wedding photos, like, okay. I guess we're just gonna go. Now that was, like, not even thinking a fire was coming. How did you, like, feel in that moment as a mom and stuff?
Speaker 1:Like, was it sentimental or were you just, like, ready? So
Speaker 2:I was dealing with really bad postpartum depression and anxiety. So, like, I think it was I was in such fight or flight mode. But I do remember, like, it was so chaotic and there was one still moment of me, like, looking at our living room and, like, taking it all in and then being like, yep. Okay. Let's go.
Speaker 2:And I just felt this, like, sense of peace. And we got in the car, and we were driving, and we got we were, like, trying to get out, but, like, the winds everything's blowing. Stuff's, like, going. Sorry. Sorry.
Speaker 2:Stuff's, like, blowing all around. It was crazy. And so we got we were getting on the was it the two ten or the one ten? I think it was the 01:10 and like the beginning of the 01:10 in North Pasadena and so we were getting on and right in front of us was a an SUV and a tree fell and the SUV slammed on their brakes so the tree wouldn't fall on them and my husband cut over just in time and got around and in front of them was another tree that had fallen and there was a car stuck behind it. If that had been us, like, if we had found Juniper or hadn't found, you know, Juniper's, like, delay
Speaker 1:If you found her early. Yeah.
Speaker 2:That could have been us.
Speaker 1:Oh my gosh.
Speaker 2:Yep. So we went down to my uncle's in San Diego, near San Diego, and we stayed we stayed with him for the night and then we ended up getting an Airbnb and just never went home. So our house was four blocks from the fire line. It didn't burn down, but we were our windows weren't sealed, so our house was full of smoke and ash and the insurance adjuster came in and was like, yeah, you have to throw away all your baby stuff. Like, all your baby stuff.
Speaker 2:And then I had a window in my closet, so all of my clothes were damaged. And I didn't fit in most of them anyway. And so I was like, just get anything that's not sentimental. Let's just get rid of it. Sorry if you hear B in the background.
Speaker 2:She's with the baby.
Speaker 1:No worries.
Speaker 2:Was like, let's just get rid of it. I'm not gonna pay to, like, do restorative dry cleaning. I'm like an H and M sweater. You know what I mean? Yeah.
Speaker 2:So it just tossed, like, almost everything. I kept, like, my wedding dress, my grandma's dresses, and, like, my mother in law's scarves, like, that kind of stuff and paid for restorative dry cleaning on that, but it was it was crazy. Well, we landed in, our dream house. Like, we're like I said, we're down in the South Bay. We can see the ocean from our living room.
Speaker 1:It's amazing. But
Speaker 2:the process of getting here, we ended up staying with a friend for, like, two months in their house while we tried to figure out, like
Speaker 1:I mean, that's a lot with a baby.
Speaker 2:It was so and and the depression. Like, I felt so unsafe. I've never felt more unsafe in my life. Like, it was just I didn't trust anything, and I felt really, like, disconnected from, like, myself, from my faith, from everything.
Speaker 1:Oh, girl. What do you feel like what do you feel like the Lord taught you in that? Like, have do you have takeaways, like, now as a mom, like, with your second baby and stuff? Like, I don't know. I just imagine so many moms that were moms when they were watching so many women lose their houses and feel unsafe, like you just said.
Speaker 2:Yeah.
Speaker 1:I mean, I was just pregnant and I was terrified. Okay. I'm just curious, like, do you see that has that changed the way you are as a mom? Has that made you rely on the Lord more? Like, how is that what has he done there?
Speaker 2:Yeah. So I that's a great question because I think that I was in a place where, like, I needed a reset, and I learned through explosion. I do not learn through, like, subtle things. And so this our how that house had been was built in 1921, and there was lead paint, and the windows were cracking. We didn't own it.
Speaker 2:We were renting. And we put in offers on three houses in Altadena, and two of them burned down. And the last one, we like went for it. We were like, we put top of our bid like as our top of our budget. We bid multiple times and that if we had gotten that, we would have been in just such a bad position.
Speaker 2:Yeah. And and people are like, somebody was looking out for you. I'm like, yeah.
Speaker 1:I know. Yeah. The Lord was. That is his protection. Wow.
Speaker 1:Yeah. That's amazing.
Speaker 2:And I think our house that we were renting, I felt really, like, safe in before I had a baby. But, like, there were so many issues with it. Like I said, the peeling paint on the windows, that was lead paint. And then the floors, they were the original hardwood floors. So, like, they dipped in certain places, I didn't feel super safe with her crawling on it.
Speaker 2:But I just wasn't like, I couldn't get myself out and it took this, like, total overhaul to give me, like, my dream life. Like, genuinely, when I'm living when I'm praying at night, I'm like, thank you for I don't have any like, I there's nothing I can ask for other than, like, peace and things for other people. But, like, this light like, thank you for giving me my dream life.
Speaker 1:It's amazing.
Speaker 2:Never would have had that if that hadn't have happened, you know?
Speaker 1:Well, I just think it's such a good lesson for so many of us that are walking through storms right now like that had to feel like the most I mean, maybe a fire is a better term than a storm at, you know. Yeah. But when we're going through fires in life with the Lord, whether it's physical or it's just, you know, emotional, spiritual, it it's like when you're in the thick of it, it's hard to see how it could ever be for your good. And I think it's so crazy and beautiful that just a year and a half or so later, that you're already able to see and pretty quickly it sounds like that you're like, Lord, you actually not that he used that fire for that reason, but, like, he redeems, he restores, and sometimes he uses those hard things to do like, he makes beauty from ashes, literally. It's just a really cool testimony.
Speaker 1:Wow. I'm so inspired by
Speaker 2:gets crazier. It gets crazier. So that was January. We moved into this house in April. And at that point, like, postpartum depression and anxiety was just out of control.
Speaker 2:And my husband left for a big shoot for a month last July. And I went to Florida with my family, and it was just like chaos, and I just felt like so not myself. And then we got home, and I hadn't seen him in six weeks, and I got pregnant. And it was almost instant that, like, the hormones and everything brought me back to myself. And I was so terrified to do two under two.
Speaker 2:I was so terrified to that, like, I didn't this was not my plan. This was not, like, what I what I wanted. And I just heard this voice inside of me saying, trust me. And I was like, but I don't want to.
Speaker 1:I'm like, that's really hard to do sometimes. I don't
Speaker 2:think this is this is right. And I had I I had prayed for a sign that I was like, I need a sign that this is what I am like, where I'm supposed to be. And my husband looked at me one day and when I early pregnancy with her and said, welcome back. I really missed you. And I was like, okay.
Speaker 2:Got it. Got it. Got it. Heard it loud and clear. Okay.
Speaker 2:So this so I credit her with saving my life because my postpartum depression and anxiety was that bad. Like, it was and I didn't know how to ask for it. I didn't or ask for help. I didn't know, like, I just didn't know. Like, I just didn't know.
Speaker 2:Then being out of it, I was like, oh, yeah. It was terrible. Get pregnant with My pregnancy was horrible. Like, I don't know how you are if you're a goddess as a pregnant woman. I am not.
Speaker 1:God bless you. I would say I had a I had a pretty smooth pregnancy. I had some bad, like, pelvic pressure. He dropped really early, so I couldn't walk But, at the like, first trimester, very normal average sickness, and then, like, it was just uncomfortable at the end. But I would say I had a very smooth pregnancy.
Speaker 1:So
Speaker 2:Oh, yeah. No.
Speaker 1:I'm One eight. Bring it on. What do you
Speaker 2:I am projectile vomiting. I am oh, it was it was terrible. It was that with both girls? Hers was worse.
Speaker 1:Okay.
Speaker 2:With my first daughter, it definitely the exhaustion would be was worse, but with Rosie, like, the just not like, I just couldn't get under under control. And the only time I felt better was if I was eating, so I gained, like, 65 pounds because I'm just eating carbs all the time.
Speaker 1:Oh, absolutely. I cannot not even imagine. I had normal level of nausea and and vomiting and stuff. And I was like, I can only eat, like, Annie's mac and cheese and, like a donut. I don't know.
Speaker 1:Nothing nothing sounds good. Like women, we know this. It's like survival mode when you're Yep. When you're nauseous. Because you have to.
Speaker 1:If you don't gain the weight, it your baby's not okay.
Speaker 2:Yep. Yep. So speaking of weight gain, so after her anatomy scan, was in the fifteenth percentile. She was perfect. Okay, so now we're moving into the craziest story of my life.
Speaker 2:So the anatomy scan, she was perfect. Then MFM doctor was like, Let's just bring you back for an extra scan just in case. So went back in and she had dropped to the seventh percentile. So she was like, Okay, we're going to monitor you and do non stress tests every week until either she comes back up or you'll have, we'll have her come at thirty seven weeks. So, at that point, I was really stressed and I'm like, oh no, like, something's wrong with my baby.
Speaker 2:She, is she not, like, I had breastfed B for the first five months of this pregnancy because was only twelve months. So I was feeling like maybe I did something wrong. But then the next scan, she came up to the twenty first percentile. So they had said, okay, she's good. Let's stop with the weekly scans and we'll just keep your NSTs on for the, like, thirty six, thirty seven, thirty eight, thirty nine weeks.
Speaker 2:And so I went through the rest of my pregnancy. She was normal. I wrote, produced, and co starred in the movies with Whitney Levitt from Secret Lives of Mormon Wives. Pregnant? Well, I was, like, seven.
Speaker 2:You go.
Speaker 1:That's a dream of actresses to be like, I
Speaker 2:can do both. That's amazing. It was crazy. It was it was really hard.
Speaker 1:I bet.
Speaker 2:It was hard. And then went to the Movie Guide Awards and won the Epiphany Prize for a Christmas Christmas prayer. Like, I gave birth, like, three weeks after that. It was crazy. It was it was a lot, but it was also amazing.
Speaker 2:And so I had my thirty six week NST. She was normal. Everything was perfect. And my OB had thought about canceling the NSTs for the rest of the time because she was like, it's she doesn't need them. But something in her told her to keep them on.
Speaker 2:And so I showed up to my thirty seven week appointment. I checked in at 09:55. I peed in the cup. I gave them a thing. I'm talking to the nurse.
Speaker 2:I sit down. They hook up. They hook me up to the thing and her heart rate was in the eighties. Yes. Wow.
Speaker 2:And and the nurse was like, can you roll over? Like, let's just check. So, I did and I was on a deadline. I had four movies as a screenwriter that were, like, either in development or in preproduction. And one of them was a Hallmark movie that was about to start I don't if it's been announced yet.
Speaker 2:It's a fall Hallmark movie. It'll be out this fall. That was about to go. And so I was like I had notes. And so I just, like, had my laptop out, I was like, yeah.
Speaker 2:Sure. I can roll over. I'm not thinking anything is wrong. And this nurse starts, like, panicking a little bit. And so she's like, can you roll to the other side?
Speaker 2:Let's have you eat something. And her heart rate just kept going down. And I don't know. I, like, didn't register it. Like, I just didn't.
Speaker 2:And she was like, okay. I'm gonna take you over to labor and delivery. I was like, what? She's like, yeah. I'm gonna get a wheelchair.
Speaker 2:We're gonna go. I was like, okay. And this is in the office next to my OB, like, across the breezeway from Cedars. So I she goes and gets a wheelchair. I'm like, do I really need this?
Speaker 2:She was like, yeah.
Speaker 1:And so I get in
Speaker 2:the wheelchair. I'm still am not, like, thinking anything is
Speaker 1:Okay. Wait. How many weeks are you?
Speaker 2:Thirty seven. I was thirty seven in Okay. Yeah. So get in the wheelchair. She drops me off by the elevator.
Speaker 2:She runs to go tell my OB this is going on. My OB is doing a procedure. She can't pop out right then. She takes me in the elevator, drives or is, like, rolling me across, and I said, am I having a baby right now? And she said, maybe.
Speaker 1:Oh my gosh. We live in the
Speaker 2:South Bay. I was at Cedars. That's an hour drive. Yeah. I called my husband, and I was like, hey.
Speaker 2:They're having her heart rate's low. They're gonna go check me. I'll keep you posted. And he was like, okay. Yeah.
Speaker 2:Call me back. So we get into triage. They did you deliver at Cedars?
Speaker 1:I didn't. I was at Providence in Burbank.
Speaker 2:Okay. Okay.
Speaker 1:I'm sure
Speaker 2:it's very similar. So we get into triage. All these people rush in. Somebody comes in with an ultrasound machine. Somebody, like, puts a thing in my arm to to get vitals.
Speaker 2:My OB runs in. They have the NST thing on me. Her heart rate's now in the sixties. Her my OB was like, nope. We're going right now.
Speaker 2:They pulled the line out of me. Blood went everywhere. It was crazy. Blood went everywhere. They, like, start wheeling the bed out of the room.
Speaker 2:And there's a nurse, a sweet male nurse who I was like, this is crazy. I have not had a male nurse before in labor and delivery. Let's go. So he's like, when was the last time you ate? When was the last time you felt something?
Speaker 2:What valuables do you have? And I'm like, I just checked in for my regular appointment. Like, what you like, what? So I called my husband, I was like, I'm having a Crash C section right now. I'm literally crawling onto the table.
Speaker 2:I'm in my bra. Like, I just took my pants off. They operated on me in my bra. Called my was on the phone with my husband. I was like, I'm having a Crash C section.
Speaker 2:If this doesn't work out, I love you. Call my parents. And I hung up. Hospital bag was not packed. I'm telling you, I had been working the whole time.
Speaker 2:He had been working the whole time. Everything with B's delivery was, like, perfect. So we were like, it's
Speaker 1:would be been great. Yeah.
Speaker 2:Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So I'm on the Operating Table. The room is, like, filled with people.
Speaker 2:There's two angel nurses on either side of me. They are like, okay. We're gonna give you anesthesia right now, and we're gonna get her out of you. My OB is like I can see her in the corner doing, like, arms up in her sterile things. And I'm like, I just can't see this.
Speaker 2:I just can't see it. Like, I can't and I, like, let go, and that was a let go and let God moment. Was like Yeah. Whatever's supposed to happen is gonna happen. And, like, I squeezed the nurse's hand.
Speaker 2:They were giving me oxygen and anesthesia at the same time. Knocked me out. I woke up. I didn't know where I was. I didn't know, like, who I like, I didn't nothing.
Speaker 2:I didn't know if I had a baby. Like, I didn't crazy. So I had checked in for my regular appointment at 09:55. They pulled her out of me at 10:26.
Speaker 1:Oh my gosh. Ten thirty one minute. Thirty one
Speaker 2:Thirty one minutes. Rolling up
Speaker 1:to your appointment till you have your daughter.
Speaker 2:Yep. Had no idea anything was going on.
Speaker 1:So is your husband just rushing there? Like, what was
Speaker 2:So five minutes after I called him to say, like, hey. I don't this is happening. Five minutes later, the hospital called him, said, your wife and daughter are out of surgery. We don't have any updates on anything other than the fact that they are both alive. Oh my gosh.
Speaker 2:Brian had just gotten in the car. Like, he wasn't even out of our neighborhood. And he's like, what do you mean? Like, they're out So because it was a Crash C section, they didn't have time to give me an epidural. So I woke up with no pain meds.
Speaker 2:Like, nothing. Oh my gosh. Okay.
Speaker 1:Woah. I'm first of all, I've never heard of a Crash C section.
Speaker 2:Me neither. Okay. And I hope you never meet Yeah.
Speaker 1:I thought you saying ladies that are listening. Yeah. You're it's not gonna happen.
Speaker 2:But it's it's life saving you know?
Speaker 1:Yeah. I mean honestly I was just gonna say think I didn't know this was possible. Like it's incredible that it can be Yep.
Speaker 2:So my OB thought that she was dead when she pulled her out. She had an Apgar score of one. They rushed her up to the NICU. They started cold therapy to take any pressure away from her brain. We wouldn't know for 72 what she would be.
Speaker 2:Would she be totally fine? Would she have cerebral palsy? Would she be a vegetable? We wouldn't know for seventy two hours. So I woke up.
Speaker 2:The NICU fellow came in and was explaining to me that she had HIE, hypoxic ischemic encephalopathy. I'm a screenwriter. Which basically means she had oxygen supply cut off. And they tested my cord blood and they tested my placenta. No no abnormalities.
Speaker 2:They have no idea how this happened, why this happened. 100% a god thing. That that I was at that appointment at that time. My OB hadn't canceled the NST. I didn't hit traffic.
Speaker 2:It's LA. People hit traffic. Right?
Speaker 1:Mhmm. It's a complete miracle.
Speaker 2:Yep. And my OB had said five more minutes, and she would have been a stillborn. Two more minutes, and she would have been brain dead. We got I got out of, the, like, wake up recovery room and they took me to the room in labor and deliver, like your your recovery room. And I have a heart condition.
Speaker 2:So I was on telemetry and I had like my own nurse and then there was a baby nurse and that was the same thing with my first daughter, Bee. But like there was a baby for the baby nurse. So this time I didn't have a baby. And like every time a nurse meets you, like knock on the door. Congratulations mama and then they walk in and then there's no bassinet and you're like thank you thank you so that that first nurse her name was Nikki I could cry.
Speaker 2:Nikki was an angel. And there were so many things that lined up with, like, for god to be like, I'm with you. I'm giving you like a little sign. I'm gonna show you the name of the nurse that took over from Nikki because I saw this and was like, there's no way. So when I woke up, the nurse had a necklace on and it was a rose.
Speaker 2:And I was like, okay, that's cool. And then the nurse who took over from Nikki, can
Speaker 1:I find it? Because I took
Speaker 2:a picture because I wanted to remember. Her name was Rosie. I can't find the picture but written on the board was Rosie.
Speaker 1:Wow.
Speaker 2:And I was like, okay, okay, so I'm gonna just, yeah. So the process started of seventy two hours of us not being able to hold her us not being able to touch her us not being able to like do anything and then at the same time I am trying to like I'm on morphine. I was
Speaker 1:gonna say your pain level had to be pretty bad.
Speaker 2:It was unlike anything I've ever experienced. So they wanted to take the catheter out after twenty four hours and get me walking to the bathroom. And I was like, y'all, I cannot. Like, I cannot. And I don't know.
Speaker 2:Sorry if this is t t m two TMI. Feel free to cut this out. But after birth with Bea, that first postpartum poop
Speaker 1:Oh my gosh.
Speaker 2:Nobody told me.
Speaker 1:No one warns you. Honestly, we have not talked about that on this podcast, but no one warns you. It's crazy.
Speaker 2:Then Miracle axe. It. Take it for longer than you think you need Yeah. Take it for a long time. So that was what I was the most afraid of with Mhmm.
Speaker 2:Rosie that I was like, that postpartum poop is gonna be terrible. No. C section with no medication. That's terrible.
Speaker 1:So You were fearing that, and then you're like, oh, okay. Different different kind of pain.
Speaker 2:Yeah. So they were like, okay. We have to get the catheter out. We have to get you walking to the bathroom. We have to.
Speaker 2:And they were like, you can go up and you can see your daughter if you want to. And I just couldn't. Like, I couldn't. I couldn't. I was like, I can't go up there and have her like me not be able to touch her.
Speaker 2:And my milk had come in at that point. I am a milk factory. I can feed all the babies in the village. And so my husband was just running up the vials of colostrum. And so the nerd Nikki was like, we're getting you out of bed.
Speaker 2:We're gonna do it. Whatever it takes, we're gonna do it. And she sat on the or stood on the side of the bed, and I I broke this woman's skin with my nails trying to, like, get out of bed. It was like being cauterized. It was so much pain.
Speaker 2:And it was in that, like, experience that they started talking about, like, what her prognosis was gonna be. And it was pretty bleak. And I just didn't ever feel like that was gonna be our story. That was the first, like that should have been the scariest moment of my life, and it's the it was the closest I've ever felt to God that I just felt so held, and I felt so like, yes, they're saying these things, but this isn't for us. Like, this is not our story.
Speaker 2:This is not. And so my dad is very vocal in his faith and he was, you know, praying over the phone. They flew out that night and they were with B at our house. And because I'm from Florida and we were in LA. So they came out and that first night I like don't really remember and then I got off telemetry they were like you're good you can move to a regular room.
Speaker 2:So I went to the regular room and the neurologist for her came in and was like, we don't know. We'll let you know when we know. But it it could be okay. And so we went through the next, at that point, forty eight hours of just not knowing what's gonna happen. But like I like I said, I just never felt like we weren't leaving with a perfectly healthy baby.
Speaker 2:I don't know how to explain it. I've never been held like that before. That everybody is telling me it's probably going like, be prepared for at least a baby with, like, mental disabilities, like, something. And I was like, no. Like, God's got us.
Speaker 2:Like, that's not gonna be our story. And my husband was very, he was the one getting all the information in the NICU and he was very like, whatever it is, we can handle it, we can whatever. And I was like, it's not going to be anything. We're living with a healthy baby. And I feel like I sounded like a crazy person, but I just knew.
Speaker 2:Like, I just knew. And I think coming out of the postpartum depression with Bea and, like, immediately going into this pregnancy and having a little bit of, like, rough things that we weren't sure with her growing, but then also having so many dreams come true, like winning a movie award and making this movie that I produced and wrote. And so it just felt like this is the beginning of something, not the end of something.
Speaker 1:Yeah.
Speaker 2:I don't know how to explain it. And so we got through the forty eight hours. I went up and saw her, and she's hooked up on all the little things. And it I just I looked at her and was like, I don't know if I can do this. Like, I don't know if I can do this.
Speaker 2:And I was laying in the hospital bed after that, and I was praying, and I said, like, please, God, like, me be the mom that she needs. And I heard this voice say you already are. And it was like the most profound moment of my life. Because I was like, okay, I can rise to the occasion. I can do this for this this little kid.
Speaker 2:And we got through the forty eight hours. Her brain is perfect.
Speaker 1:Praise God. Amazing.
Speaker 2:And so there's different stages of HIE. There's mild, moderate, and severe, and she was in between moderate and severe. More than fifty percent of those babies walk out with something, like even if it's just behavioral, like ADHD or something. And then there's a smaller percentage that end up being okay. And she is one of them brain scans normal, like totally.
Speaker 2:So we had to see, she sees now a neurologist, but she got downgraded. She doesn't have to go every month and she's perfect. Hitting all her milestones, all the things. Her MRI is totally clear.
Speaker 1:Praise God. That is a crazy, crazy story. Sorry. Go ahead.
Speaker 2:But it's the, like, there are so many things that shouldn't have happened. Right? Like, I I was five minutes early to my appointment. Mhmm. I didn't hit any traffic.
Speaker 2:That nurse caught it right away, ran me right over. Like, I happened to have an appointment on that day at that time, like, not that afternoon, you know? Like Mhmm. There were so many things of God intervening.
Speaker 1:Yeah. The Lord had her.
Speaker 2:Had her. And I have chills. And the fact that, like, at the beginning of this pregnancy, I was so afraid. And I was so, like, I can't be a mom to two under two. I can't do that.
Speaker 2:Like, I can't I'm not strong at like, I'm not this isn't something I can do. And then the, like, how held we all were and have been. Like, it has just been the most faith reaffirming thing in my life. Like
Speaker 1:That's so amazing to hear.
Speaker 2:Yeah.
Speaker 1:Yeah. It's like, it's the peace that surpasses understanding. Yes. You guys. Yeah.
Speaker 1:The fact that as a mom, I can't even imagine the level of fear you could feel when they're saying that, you know, after
Speaker 2:you've trouble that. Felt any of
Speaker 1:it. That's like, god.
Speaker 2:Only god. Yeah. And, like, I have chills. Every nurse that came in my my, like, recovery experience with B was not great. Like, the nurses were not great.
Speaker 2:I didn't feel great, like, taken care of. I felt better when I went home. And this period, because we were there because it was a Crash C section, I had to stay a little bit longer. Mhmm. She was in the NICU for six days.
Speaker 2:So we were in the hospital together for, like, pretty much the whole time. And the nurses were just attentive and kind and every we didn't have problems with any of them. And, like
Speaker 1:That's such an answered prayer in itself. I prayed over nurses before because that was something I kind of feared. And like, I've Yeah. I saw that come through for me so much. I my nurse ended up being a believer and was like, are you listening to worship music?
Speaker 1:She's like, I love the Lord too. And she was the one that delivered Archie. And like, there were just there were just so many beautiful things like that. But I I love I love hearing that. I wanna know I wanna know, like, how was your postpartum in comparison to with
Speaker 2:This is amazing. Like, is I think I don't know how to explain it. I don't know if the hormones are different. I don't know. So I had so I was talking to a mutual friend of ours Lauren Swickard.
Speaker 2:Yeah. About this. Excuse me. I love her too. She's amazing.
Speaker 2:So I was talking to her about this and it was early in the hospital in this period where I was like, okay, I had accepted this was going to be our life. I had already heard God say you already are like the mom that I'm going to be. And I had said, show me how good it can get. Show me how good it can get. And that was, like, my mantra over and over.
Speaker 2:And, like, I'm not asking for anything specific. I'm not trying to control an outcome. I trust whatever the plan is, but just show me how good it can get. And that's exactly what it's been. Like, her and Bee get along great.
Speaker 2:I healed pretty well. I mean, listen, it was crazy. And my OB did such a good job stitching me up, but, like, because she didn't have time to, like, shave anything or, like, what are and she went so fat. It's not straight. And so, like and, like, we've talked a little bit about this.
Speaker 2:Like, my body's different because of that. And I've just felt like I I don't feel like I need to bounce back the way that I did with Bee. I don't feel with Bee, I felt like I needed to do everything and be everything and fix everything and all the things. And with Rosie, it's just not that. Like, I can be slow and it's perfect.
Speaker 1:I love hearing this because I definitely with my first, like, I only have one. Yeah. I I struggled the first the first few months. And really, what what I would consider now, like, the first year almost because he's 14 and I've noticed the last couple months I've really come out of what I'm just noticing was like, oh actually kinda like it resonated when you said and it wasn't until you came out of it that you were like, actually that was pretty rough.
Speaker 2:Yeah.
Speaker 1:I don't think that I had necessarily postpartum depression but I definitely had some anxiety that was pretty bad. And my husband said that to me recently too. He said, hey, you seem like you're enjoying motherhood like way more way more. And I I loved it. I did.
Speaker 1:Yeah. But I was struggling and I don't think I you totally realize till the clouds part sometime. And so I just I'm so encouraged by that story, and I hope other moms are too because it's like Yeah. We can feel like, oh, no. If we struggled this much with the first, how could we ever have another?
Speaker 1:How would you know what I mean? It's gonna be all downhill, and it's, like, totally negative. But that's not true for you. And I I oh my gosh. I'm so encouraged to hear that.
Speaker 2:Absolutely. And it can be from all like, it doesn't have to be the way that it was the first time. And my first daughter I didn't know about this. Have you heard of MSP or MSPI or CMPA? Cow's milk cow's milk protein allergy or milk soy protein intolerance.
Speaker 2:So it's basically your foods are made up of proteins, and proteins pass through the breast milk. And if your baby can't digest a specific protein, it causes allergic prolactin colitis. I have learned so many things.
Speaker 1:No. This is fancy. It's very
Speaker 2:fancy language. I'm I don't know if I'm saying if I'm saying that right. But basically, it, like, affects their colon and how they poop, and they don't have normal, like, yellow seedy buttery poop. They have, like, green mucusy poop, or they will have bloody poop, or they will have and it's very scary. And with b, it was terrible.
Speaker 2:And so I cut everything out of my diet. I didn't just cut out dairy and soy. I cut out wheat pro or, rice, corn, eggs. I cut out everything. So I to try to give her, like, the breastfeeding experience because she loved it so much.
Speaker 2:And I had a lot of fear around formula because there was recalls and, like, the way I raised, and it was like, I have to do this thing, and we never figured it out. We never figured out what the trigger was, but when she was turned a year old, it went away and she was fine. And there's an eighty percent recurrence in babies after that because it's a gene in them. And so I was prepared for Rosie to have it too. Doesn't have it.
Speaker 2:And it may go. Such a big difference to be able to, like, nourish your body because breastfeeding is so hard on your body. Is. And, like, with this time, because she was a NICU baby, she took a bottle before she took the boob.
Speaker 1:Mhmm.
Speaker 2:And I had said, I love breastfeeding. I think I told you this. I am the patron saint of breastfeeding. I will breastfeed your baby and my baby. I will breastfeed everybody's baby.
Speaker 2:And with b, I didn't wanna stop breastfeeding even though I was pregnant. Like, I loved it. And so this was a transition of saying like, okay. Well, if she doesn't ever take the boob, that's okay. Like, that is okay.
Speaker 2:And I feel like because there was so much surrender in it when she did start breastfeeding, there's like no pressure and there's no
Speaker 1:like It's joy.
Speaker 2:Yeah. And I love it. And it's not a burden and it's not like just everything is different with her than it was with Bea. And I had that was a prayer that I had when I realized this we were doing this. Like, we were having another baby.
Speaker 2:Mhmm. Because I had said, I want everything to be different. Like, I want everything to be different. And and I had told my husband, I was like, hold me accountable to this. Like, I need to go on Zoloft because my hormones are out of whack and we're not okay and I'm not myself, I want to do everything differently.
Speaker 2:Like there's no shame in it if we need to pump because I never took my pump out of the box with Bee and with Rosie I was pumping right away. So it was a it was a totally different experience that had all of the things I was afraid of. A C section, bottles, you know, and it's been a much better experience. Like, I'm not trying to control everything. I'm not trying to, like, do it all perfectly and like, there's no gold star in motherhood.
Speaker 1:Yeah. I mean, say that. Yeah. That's that's so encouraging to hear because I know yeah. I just know so many moms are are gonna like receive that the way I'm receiving it, which is just it's honestly just it feels like so refreshing, like just such a like a weight lifted
Speaker 2:off Yes. When you hear That's how I've explained this is like like it's like my whole
Speaker 1:body. I'm like, I can already like feel this when we have another baby, like Lord willing. Think it's just it's a relief and I'm so thankful for this conversation today because I've just been praying a lot about when we do have another baby and what that looks like and because I'm starting to come out of the first one and I'm feeling like myself or I'm feeling like, oh, I'm enjoying it so much. Didn't realize how hard that was. And it can give you fear about the next one.
Speaker 1:And so I've really been taking that to the Lord and been like, okay, God, but my story doesn't have to be the same with each baby. And I'm getting to talk to so many wise women like you and so many people that are a little bit ahead of me that are able to speak that life of like, okay, the things that you've learned with the first one and then also it's gonna be totally different experience anyway. Like, you can take an exhale with the next one. It doesn't have to be that. So that's so good.
Speaker 1:Gosh. I've just enjoyed this so much. I could just keep talking. I The last question that I wanna ask is, what would be and it could just be random or it could be specifically from your experience, but what would be your best piece of advice for a new mom who's welcoming their first baby?
Speaker 2:Accept the help. Whatever it looks like, accept the help. I did not with Bee, and I tried to do everything, and it almost killed me. And with Rosie, maybe you don't wash the dishes the way that I want the dishes washed, But the dishes get washed. You know what I mean?
Speaker 1:Yes. That's so good.
Speaker 2:That's so real.
Speaker 1:That's so real, Ansley. I love that. I love that.
Speaker 2:I wanna just say, if this story was at all scary because I consumed a lot of content of, like, an of of embolism or, like, you know, like, things that can go wrong during birth.
Speaker 1:I was very afraid. Horror stories or whatever. Yeah.
Speaker 2:Yeah. This is not a birth horror story. Like, this has a fantastic end. And the takeaway that I I hope women have is that it works out. Like, you you are held.
Speaker 2:You are protected. I do feel like this God wants this baby here, and she's gonna do something really big. God loves this baby. God loves me. He's not gonna let me down.
Speaker 2:Nothing is going to be harmful or that's not for good. You know?
Speaker 1:Yeah. Yeah.
Speaker 2:So if anything of this story was scary, one, go to your checkups.
Speaker 1:Yes. That's true.
Speaker 2:Don't don't don't apply checkups. Yeah. Two, it works out and God's got you. Like, God's got you. Amen.
Speaker 2:He can use these moments that feel absolutely terrifying to totally do a one eighty in your life. Like, my life a year and a half ago or yeah. A year and a half ago in Pasadena with one baby with postpartum depression to now in the South Bay with two babies with literally living my dream life. Literally went through fire and hell to get here, but I wouldn't have the life that I have now that I do feel is far more in alignment with what God wanted for me. So I just don't want anybody to be scared.
Speaker 1:No. I appreciate you saying that. I think that's so important. Because I know when I was pregnant, I avoided a lot of actually, I might I might preface the beginning of the episode with that little, teaser of it because I don't want moms to fear because it's such a miracle story and it's so important to hear. And I think I'm less scared.
Speaker 1:So when I was pregnant the first time, I was pretty scared to hear anything. I was like, don't want anything in there that's not perfect. And and then I think just the more you become a mom, you realize the whole thing is surrender. Like you said, God holds all of it anyway. And so it's actually really helpful, think, to hear different stories because then you can be less scared.
Speaker 1:And, you know, if any woman who's going through this ever has to have a Crash C section, which we pray that you don't. If you do, I pray that Ansley story comes to mind and that it's like, you know what? Her story ended up being beautiful and amazing and her daughter's thriving and like, I just pray that it would be an encouragement over people like you said. So good. Yeah.
Speaker 2:I think it's also I'm so sorry to keep going.
Speaker 1:No. I love it.
Speaker 2:I like through line. Can I go back and tell a story that's another god thing really quick? Please. Please. Okay.
Speaker 2:So I got pregnant in July 2023. My husband and I have been trying to get pregnant for a year. We were having all kinds of struggles. I got pregnant. I we lived in Pasadena.
Speaker 2:I didn't have an OB there. My my gyno didn't deliver. So I asked a friend for a referral to hers, went to this OB, didn't really love her, but was like, okay, I'm gonna just stick with it. I ended up having a miscarriage. The baby was not developing and I had to have a DNC because I had a miscarriage.
Speaker 2:It was a horrible experience. It was a mess. But going back to this being God. So I was with this OB. She prescribed me an antibiotic for the miscarriage that I was allergic to.
Speaker 2:And the only way that I found out was I asked the who you do pick your prescriptions up from? The pharmacist. Pharmacist. Yes. I asked the pharmacist, is there anything I should know?
Speaker 2:And he asked me or she asked me what my allergies were, and I told her, and she was like, oh, you should call your OB. You're allergic to this antibiotic. And I was like, oh, that's really weird. So called her, didn't hear anything back. The portal just, like, deleted the prescription and a new one went in.
Speaker 2:So I went and picked up the other one. And then I went in for my appointment to, like, see if the embryo was growing or dead because they did a scan, and then they had me come in a week later. And the OB didn't mention that she had given me a prescription that I was allergic to, but had her iPad out, like, recording. I don't know if the lawyer was on the phone or something. And she was so, like, brash and was like, okay.
Speaker 2:You have two options. We can do the pills that will get rid of the baby, or we can do a DNC, I don't really wanna do that because that's a higher probability of us causing an error or something. So we're just gonna do the pills, and then you'll be, like, good to go. And I was given no instructions, and she gave me four rounds of this medication. And I went in to go pick it up, and the pharmacist was like, hey.
Speaker 2:I just wanna flag. This is the highest legal dose of this medication. Do were you given any instructions? Is there another prescription for pain meds? Is there anything?
Speaker 2:Was like, no. Like, this she literally just gave me this, like, with nothing like, no instructions, nothing. And it just didn't feel right. And so I didn't take it. I had a dead embryo inside of me.
Speaker 2:I had I was on the clock before this, like, went septic. And this was a baby we really wanted. Right? Mhmm. So I started calling around and was like, who who can do a DNC to get this out of me, like, this week because I don't feel comfortable taking these pills with no prescription.
Speaker 2:I don't trust this this doctor now. And so I ended up at Cedars in, like, their general surgery department, and I had them do the DNC awake. I didn't go under anesthesia because I wanted to be part of it. I was like, I wanna be part of the end of the this was a baby I wanted so badly. Mhmm.
Speaker 2:So did that process, and the surgeon who did it, beautiful lady, and I said, do you have anybody, like, an OB that you could refer me to because I wanna get pregnant again, and I don't like that OB. And she said, yes. This there's this OB. And I trained her. I really like her.
Speaker 2:So I found out one month to the day after that that I was pregnant. I didn't have a period. I was pregnant. And so I called I had written down this OB's name, and I called her office and was like, I was referred by this surgeon. I'm pregnant.
Speaker 2:I am having, like, anxiety because I just had a really traumatic, like, miscarriage situation. And she said the woman on the phone was like, she's not really taking patients, but let me, like, bring it up to her. She brought me into her practice, and that is the woman that saved baby number two's life.
Speaker 1:Oh my gosh. So if
Speaker 2:that had not happened and I had stayed with that OB to deliver my first baby, I probably wouldn't have found Mhmm. This other OB that would have saved this baby's life. Isn't that The invisible
Speaker 1:strings that the Lord your story is like you said, God is all over. I think when you messaged me, you said you're like all
Speaker 2:over these babies. Yeah.
Speaker 1:Yeah. Oh my gosh. Thank you so much for sharing this. I like I literally think moms are just gonna be so encouraged and reminded they're so covered. Like, God just is in all the details.
Speaker 1:He's in all the details. And to slow down and look,
Speaker 2:like and let yourself see see how loved you are. Like, and see how much you matter. You know?
Speaker 1:So true. Okay. Shout out your movies real quick. Okay.
Speaker 2:So on Hallmark on August 15, I have Ozzy at Heart coming out, which I literally was in production on while I was in the hospital with her. I'm gonna post, like, a production draft of me, like, doing it in the
Speaker 1:hospital with her. Love it.
Speaker 2:What are other ones that have been really you always on Netflix. If you're into Christmas in July, I just had one come out last weekend, a very what was it? Christmas under the mistletoe on Hallmark. Those are all the ones that have been announced.
Speaker 1:Love. Love. Love. That that's great. That's a great place to start.
Speaker 1:Well, Ansley, this was just so wonderful and so encouraging. I really appreciate like, I'm very honored that you you wanted to share it on New Mom, I know it's gonna impact so many women. Absolutely.