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Everyone has a creative artist inside, and this is a part of us that needs to be fed.
I am here through this podcast to acknowledge your artist and let you work through the difficult process of creation and self-expression.
You'll find here: personal development, techniques, business management, communication, self-improvement notes for all the type of artists out there. Either you are a Pro, or you are at the beginning of your artist exploration.
Good morning, Good afternoon or good evening, depending where you are in the world. And welcome to notes for artists. This is the artistic actress. It's Maritaine, and that's the first episode, I guess, and I hope of a long series. And I'm here, to create space for all of the artists, all of the types of artists.
Maritè:This is not just about acting just because I am an actress, and it's not just about anything that concern really the art field. You know, people involved in the art field. This is really for everybody. This podcast is been, desire that I've that I've been having for a long time because I as an artist, I know that in the work of healing and in the work that I do as a coach in personal development, but also in the work that I do as an acting coach and the work that I do as an actress, I know that there is so much more to integrate, so much more to specify, so much more to give specifically to the artist that I really felt the need of creating, like, this little nest that is basically for everybody because there is an artist within everyone in the world. And this part of the self really needs to be fed and needs to be considered and needs to be seen.
Maritè:Now there are people who are making this that side, that part of themselves a profession. And so we have professional singers. We have professional actors. We have professional painters, writers, cookers, and so many much more photographers, video makers, directors. The list is very long.
Maritè:But there are also people who are not making their art and their creativity a profession and still need support and really still need to listen to those things that I'm gonna share with you today, because neglecting your artist is really dangerous in the long run exactly as it is really dangerous when we pressure our artist. So I really wanna introduce this podcast by saying that most of my work as a coach, as a writer, and as a speaker is the reconnection to the self, is the discovery of personal authenticity and truth, and it's all about self discovery and self expression and finding the unique way to become the person that we are supposed to be and live the life we are supposed to live in this world without leaving the external conditioning, changing our purpose, and changing our personality, which is something that most of the time people don't even recognize in themselves. And it's really curious that I'm, starting now this episode because I was just speaking to my father last night about this transition that I'm going through in this moment. And this transition is so sweet and cute because I'm getting to know myself after years of working on my personal development, on my healing, on my trauma as much as years of working on my artist or my actress specifically.
Maritè:And this is coming now for some reason, and it's just such an unfolding process of letting go of the ego who wants to stay attached to the past version of me, the past desires of the past version of me and finally letting this go to embrace much amplified and an expanded version of myself. And I was telling him how much I didn't know that I was this way. How much I am surprised by myself and accepting that so many things that I thought I liked, I thought I love, I thought I wanted to be, so many things that I used to do as habits, they really don't belong to me. And surrendering to the truth of who I am, it's not easy, and it's not easy for anybody. And that's why I'm here.
Maritè:I'm here to share my experience, my knowledge, and hopefully to support you, artists, in your artistic way, in your artistic path, and in your, journey as a human being. Because there are so many things that we can do to support our artist. And one of the first thing and I would say the most important thing that we can really do to support our artist is to create a separation between you as a human being, as an individual, as a person, and your artist. I care about this point, and this is gonna be the title of the first episode of notes for artist, separation between your artist and your person. Because in my experience, and I'm seeing this with so many clients, I got to work with a lot of artists, or I got to chat with a lot of artist.
Maritè:I got to confront myself with a lot of artist. And what I see is how much they suffer for this prison, for being for putting themselves into this prison, which is the prison of the ego who wants them to become this ideal artist. There is a such a directorial way of treating their artist based on external ideas of what doesn't mean to be a successful artist. And putting on the artist is such a pressure of achieving and doing and being as a personality that it's just so far away from the truth of that artist. And it's just really coming from a lot of unprocessed, traumatized, needs of the human being, persona.
Maritè:So to make these a little bit more clear, I what I mean by that is that it's just so common for people who haven't done the work on themselves, who haven't done the work on trauma, who haven't done any type of personal development or healing work. To use the artist as an escape to do that internal work, that it's up to Grammys to really let your artist express, be free to express, be free to play, be free to do whatever they wanna do. And so when we do put so much pressure on the artist, the artist is gonna suffer because the artist is gonna feel this responsibility to make the person happy, satisfied through achievements. And I think that there's nothing more dangerous in art in a room for expression to do anything for the achievement. So anything that as artist, even the pro even anybody who is a pro in their field, in their art field, I know they have to really separate themselves from the artist.
Maritè:They really have to understand that, especially the pro, especially the pro. They they get to know, like, this is work, and I'm gonna use my artist to work. But then when the work is done, I come back to my persona. I come back to my life. I come back to my individual.
Maritè:So I'm curious to know who's who's listening this, podcast. What do you do in your life? Are you an artist? What type of artist are you? Are you into art?
Maritè:Are you into cinema? Are you into writing? Are you into handcrafts? Are you into cooking? Are you into painting?
Maritè:I don't know. They come there are so many other, alternatives. There are so many artists. There are so many people who create. Let's talk about art in term in terms of creation.
Maritè:So what do you create? What do you like to create? What your artist likes to do? And if you're not familiar with your artist or you are looking to find this powerful side that you have no matter what, even if you are, you know, a Wall Street type of guy, you have an artist side. There is a part of you who is creative and who needs to create.
Maritè:Okay? So let's start, define your art. What is it that you like to express? How do you like to express yourself? And maybe it's not just one thing.
Maritè:Maybe it's more than one thing. And maybe it's a weird thing. It doesn't have to be classical or standard. You don't have to be a guitarist. You don't have to be a pianist.
Maritè:You don't have to be an actress or an actor. You don't have to be a comedian or a writer or a poet. You can do the most the weirdest thing in the world and still being an artist because you are creating something so special and unique. And like you I would like you to really connect to this part of you, to this side of you and really thinking, visualizing, closing your eyes. Please do not if you are driving, but let's do this visualization together.
Maritè:Like, closing your eyes and start visualizing your artist. So when you are in your craft, when you are in this freedom of creation, how do you look like? How do you dress? How do you smile? Do you smile?
Maritè:How do you think? What's your intention when you do the things you do? What are the people you are surrounded by if you are surrounded by people? Because maybe you love to create in the silence of your studio, and you don't want anybody next to you. Or maybe you do that, and you always love to be in communities, art communities, group communities.
Maritè:So really see yourself. And be creative. And don't control your unconscious, impulse intuition. Doesn't have to make any sense. Your artist is your artist.
Maritè:You can have colored, hair. You can dress a little bit weirdo or whatever. It can be totally standard. And just to see themselves being in the space, in the space where they create, where they love to be. Maybe it's on stage.
Maritè:Maybe it's in front of a camera. Maybe it's in a studio. Maybe it's on the street. Maybe it's in in a room on the table, in a private room. Just visualize it.
Maritè:Visualize this artist that exists within you, and see them doing all of the things they do. What are they doing? Or are what are they creating? What they want to create? And stay with this image and see themselves as an extension of you, a separate part of you, something that somebody that lives within you, but you can easily separate from you.
Maritè:It's just a part of you. It's a side of you. I really see their why. Really see their why. Why do they do what they do?
Maritè:Why? What's the trigger? What's the cause? What's the reason? They do what they do.
Maritè:Where does this come from? What where where does this necessity come from? The why of an artist is incredibly powerful, and it's important to define that why. And just give yourself time if you need a little bit more a little bit more time to really find in your body this why, the why of your artist, the reason why you need to connect to this part of you. And if you are not an artist, if you don't do this frequently, you are just curious to discover you are used to start asking yourself Just to start asking yourself, what would you like to create and why you would like to create?
Maritè:Maybe a new idea popped up with no reason, with no sense. It was just an idea. It was just a feeling. I feel I wanna paint. I feel I wanna buy, those markers and start just relaxing in the evening and coloring, painting and coloring by myself.
Maritè:But just try to see what is it that you would like, that you feel prone to do, and why. I'm gonna sip my tea. Okay. So you can open your eyes now or open your eyes when you feel like you can pose me and keep doing the visualization and remind you yourself, like, visualization are extremely powerful, and that's a big part of my work. And you have no idea what you you you can literally change your state of being just by visualizing something and really staying with the image and the feelings of a memory, of a place, of something new.
Maritè:And that's how we can attract, a different reality to us. It's by really entering in the body of somebody who already has the desire that we want. So if you want to separate our artist from our self as person, we need to visualize them. We need to get to know them. We need to explore them.
Maritè:We need to separate them from ourselves. Okay? Let me know what you're thinking about it. Now I'm gonna tell you why. Why?
Maritè:I I highly suggest artists to separate their artists from themselves. So and I'm gonna tell you a couple of stories to make you understand this principle that, that I I oh my gosh. I really understood very late. Okay. So I never separated in my past my artist from myself since where I was in college at the university.
Maritè:I was at the university, and I wanted to be an actress, but my family wanted me to got a degree in law, which I did. And I'm so proud of that, by the way, because it's been such a such an incredible path, you know, becoming, graduating in law. But I was suffering because I didn't want to be a lawyer. I wanted to be an actress. And so I would watch a lot of movies and do a lot of, you know, acting kind of things and not really getting into classes yet.
Maritè:I started to take classes almost at the end of my university, path, but I really was into that. And then I think that being an art an artist is not about taking classes. It's really about playing. And so if you get to play in your house, you get to, learn all of the lines of a movie and play by yourself and dress up. And, you know, this is this is actually acting.
Maritè:You are creating. You are interpreting. You are playing. So I have so much fun doing those things. I think that I've started to do all of those things since I was 3, probably 4 years old.
Maritè:I really like to play. I really liked it to become somebody else. I really liked to engage to the process of transformation in the body, in the voice. The thing that I mean that I didn't know and that sucked me up so many times was I'm not my artist. Like, this is something I like to do.
Maritè:But who I am, it's separated from my actions. And the result of not working on myself, the result of, not making this separation, it's been that once I really decided to got into art and specifically into acting, and it's been very intense, the the training that I did, first in Italy and then in New York, I totally forgot about my identity, my person. I I think that I never really known who I was, and I really had this incredible huge need of being accepted and seen for who I really was because of this confusion about who I am. I don't know who I am. I just know that I have this pain inside of me, and I need to be accepted.
Maritè:I need to take everything out. All of the things that in my house, I couldn't express in the way I wanted. All of my emotional needs or all of my creative needs, all of my weird sides that has been cut off all the time. I just need to express them, and I need people to see them, and I need people to accept them, and I need people to recognize them. And that was the main reason I really was so I I was willing to become an actress for this reason.
Maritè:And there was also this pain inside and this pain was supported by a certain level of revenge. Revenge against life, revenge against injustice that I couldn't that I haven't done what I wanted when I was a child. I was really following unconsciously an external conditioning. I was pleasing all of this time. I was shock shocked.
Maritè:I was in a in a constant, trauma response. My trauma response was like, I need to please my mom. I need to please my dad. Because if I don't do that, they're gonna abandon me. They're gonna be disappointed by me.
Maritè:I gotta survive, and I learned to perform. And by performing since a very young age, also because I was such a particular kid, I had those curly big, huge, curly blonde hair and big brown eyes, and I love to receiving receiving attentions. And so the way I realized the best way to receive attentions was by performing. And my mom, she's a performer herself. So I learned from her to perform.
Maritè:And I realized if I wanna be seen and if I want to be recognized, I have to perform. And so I started to really become a very playful and joyful kid, making people laugh and playing with others and, really playing a part a role all of the time in this just really disconnected to my real truth and my real self. And I'm when I arrived to like, when that people pleasing became chronic, and I am a people pleasing in recovery. When this became chronic, I I started working on my drama. I realized, oh my god.
Maritè:So I don't know if I really wanted to be an actress or if I only became an became an actress and starting starting starting acting. It was my trauma of having having not been seen and accepted for who I was was so big that that was just the only reason why. And I felt that that was a huge part of my ego who wanted me to be an actress and be seen and be accepted and be recognized, but not the only part. But there was a big, big, big one. So I started working, on myself.
Maritè:I started understanding my body, understanding my responses, understanding my trauma, understanding how human being works, because I really didn't know before. And and so I started looking at my choices and at this chronic expectations on my actress on a total of different way. And I also have to say that the this was really necessary at one point because when you do the work on acting on such a deep level as I did it, and I left everything and I moved to New York, and I was just acting every day. And the method is very intense. The studio I was working is very intense.
Maritè:So you can get really lost. You can really get lost in the work, which is beautiful. But if you don't have strong foundation about who you are, that can lead you to depression. It can lead you to feeling really, really lost. Because the thing about art that we want to remind ourselves and about creativity in general is that it's a side and it's a space that we need to create.
Maritè:But creation, it's not fulfillment. Those are 2 different things. Creation is expression and it's freedom. It's not therapy. It can be therapeutical, but if you invest all of your life without working on yourself, pretending your artist is going to save you as a person.
Maritè:You're killing your artist. You are killing your creative, side and you don't want that. You don't want that for yourself because you are kind of BS yourself and you know, you don't want that for them because your artist doesn't deserve that. And I see so many people doing this. So many people not knowing anything about how do they work, what happened to them?
Maritè:What is it, their trauma? What is it? Their body responses where this is all coming from, all of this pain, all of this need of expression, not working on themselves, not taking care of, of their mind, of their mental health or their bodies or their or of their health. And really relying on the artist in a way that, okay, my artist is gonna save me now. I'm gonna become a 1,000,000, a $1,000,000 actor, and I'm gonna be famous and I'm gonna be happy.
Maritè:Okay. It doesn't work this way. It doesn't work this way. Creativity is not about fulfillment. Creativity is not about healing.
Maritè:They can walk together. They can be one an instrument for each other. But your artist is just a part of you who wants to express, period. And the more I'm working on myself, the more I'm healing, the more I'm understanding, the more I'm separating my artist from who I am, my life, my relationships, my family, my sexual life, the love, the sense of worthiness, the sense of I'm enough has nothing to do with my artist. I don't go and play to prove that I'm good enough.
Maritè:And I used to be that person. I used to be the person who would judge every single performance compared to every single other actor or actress. Feel very intimidated by somebody good at doing what I love to do. And there was competitiveness. There was jealousy.
Maritè:There was fear. There was judgment. There was criticism. And all of that didn't have anything to do with my actress. It was just about my inner child and my ego.
Maritè:And so if you don't work on your ego, your artist is gonna suffer because artist, the more are into their ego, the more they suffer. The less they are acting and playing and creating from the ego, the more they're gonna be incredibly free and happy. And success is gonna come because when you don't bring all of those things into your shoulders, over your shoulders, success is gonna come. And you can see how much is this. Is it different when you work with an artist, maybe another one who is free from all of those prisons of the ego.
Maritè:So we need to do this separation. We really need to start doing this separation, and we need to create space for our artist. Our artist is going to connect to the inner child. I'm not saying that this is not gonna happen. Of course, it's gonna happen.
Maritè:Your artist is going to feel, launched and charged and excited about doing what they do because of your inner child needs. But at one point, when you do and you make this separation, art, creation, it's not gonna be anymore about you. It's gonna be really about what you want to create and that's healthy. And that is the, the journey you want to walk. And this is gonna bring you to community to support, to excitement, and to being in a painless free journey with your art.
Maritè:If you use your art expecting to feel worthy because your artist is gonna achieve something for you. It's gonna take off your shoulders, your sense of inadequacy, your sense of frustration and your sense of bitterness and resentment and self hatred. I wanna just remind you that's not your artist job. That's your job. You want to learn how to care about your artist, start doing the job on yourself.
Maritè:You wanna take care about your talent and qualities. And as an artist, stop doing that. Stop stressing and putting on your artist shoulders. All of those responsibilities start taking care of your physical, emotional, mental, and energetic body and health. And in this process of separation, which is gonna take some time, and we're just gonna literally getting you into a process of loss.
Maritè:Cause you're gonna lose that version and that idea that you had, that you have probably still about your artist that you held for a long time. So when we are creating a new image about ourselves, The thing is always, we gotta be ready to let go of the old one and letting go of the old one. It's not easy because the ego doesn't want to let that go. The ego wants to get attached to that. You were supposed to be at a Hollywood actress, you know, married Tein and winning an Oscar and all of those bullshit.
Maritè:And you're going to let go of that. I mean, you're maybe going to win an Oscar. I'm not saying that this is not your desire. It can absolutely be your desire, but this desire has to come from a place of freedom, from a place of choice, from a place of awareness, from a place of intention. It doesn't have to come from a place of punishment, of revenge, of self hatred, of ego, of pressure, of proving your worth through achievements or comparing yourself to the world, to the world.
Maritè:This has to come from a place where you're really intentionally aware of your artist. Who is this guy? Who is this girl? What do she wants? What do they want to do?
Maritè:Why they wanna create? And you can totally transform your inner child needs into fuel for the work. But the past suggest to be, okay. I wanna be accepted. So you know what?
Maritè:I'm gonna teach people how to accept themselves and I'm gonna do it through acting. I'm gonna do it through acting by becoming a very wild row, unpredictable type of actress who never judge herself, who's really impulsive and natural and spontaneous and and playing in a way that really filter how much do I love myself and how much do I accept myself and how much do I accept every single human being. That's actually what acting told me, to accept me, to accept my weight, to accept my age, to accept my accent, to accept all of the things that I didn't like about me. And just making them I'm shaming them and making them this is my this is me. This is my actress.
Maritè:This is my character, and that's okay. I'm gonna play with this. I'm not gonna judge this. So in the way I play it, there is a lot of I approve of me. I approve of myself.
Maritè:There's a big message that comes from the work that I have done on myself. It was the freedom of showing up for who I really am in my depth and with all of my imperfections, with all of my shadows and in all of my being so imperfect. And so acting is a stage that gives me the possibility of expressing my imperfections and the imperfections of all of the human beings. How cool. But I am going on stage with my need of being seen.
Maritè:You gotta see me. You gotta close me. You gotta like me. That's dangerous. That's painful.
Maritè:That's not art. That's not art. And so my invitation is start connecting to your artist. Start asking them questions. Start exploring what they like.
Maritè:What do they like? To dress, to move, to talk, to be, to do, and make this separation. And when you're ready, look deep inside of yourself and try to try to see if if you can by separating your ego needs and desires by your artist needs and desires. If you can see who you really want to become as an artist, as a creative, because you don't have necessarily to become the Oscar winner, actor, or the awarded writer. Maybe that's not what you really need.
Maritè:And, again, especially recently, I've been speaking and sharing with a lot of people of my world or the acting world, the desire of simply the awareness of like, I don't like this. I don't like the way I'm doing this. This is not my actress. This is not my artist. I'm so conditioned by the external pressure that I have to do this thing in this way.
Maritè:I don't really want it. K. And maybe you want it and that's okay. But what if you want something different? What if your artist wants to be expressed in a different way, in a different language, in a different country, maybe in a different place?
Maritè:That's been a big, big realization for me. I knew that I didn't like the metrics. I didn't like to be in the industry, like Italian industry. That's not that's never been my desire. I was I was really resisting that.
Maritè:And that's the reason why I never got in touch with, agents. Or the way I did it was already a way that was repelling them and rejecting them. So that's why I didn't get into them. And I love to make arts my own way. And I have a lot of dreams about it, and I have a lot of desires, and I have a lot of goals, which I am everyday more clear about.
Maritè:And I know that in this lifetime, until I'm alive, I will go for them. And that has this is not gonna have anything to do with my self proving, my worth, and proving that I'm a good, I'm good enough and all of this thing. This is just to do with the, with the pleasure and the freedom of creating the things that I want to create, the things that I like to create without judgment and without comparing and just following through and seeing where this is gonna bring me, seeing where this is gonna bring you, how many occasions, how many opportunities without being directorial or giving myself restrictions or imposing the metric system over me if I don't feel that I fit in that system. That's all good. So start to do some ego work.
Maritè:If you don't know about ego work, you can check my other podcast. It's called notes from a stranger, by the artistic actions, my test lattello. And you can just check my work in general because all of my work is based on ego work. All of the work on becoming yourself, transforming yourself has a lot to do with our ego limitations, restrictions, and, impose imposures. And so it's it's good to start getting into that, understanding that a little bit more.
Maritè:And another thing is, create space for your artist. Even it sounds so crazy. Even if you are in your eighties in this moment and you're, like, listening to myself and you never had got in touch to your creative side, do and follow your gut, follow your vision, to follow your intuition. You wanna go and get that colors, that markers in that store. Go get them and go color color your things.
Maritè:You know? Start, like, writing on a piece of paper. Start doing morning pages. Start stimulate your creativity. And don't undervalue the power of that because this is really life changing.
Maritè:If you approach creative work with no expectations and just for the joy of doing what you were doing and following your intuition, following your unconscious, this is gonna be a special unique gift. And I bet that you're gonna find answers and directions and ways that you've never even thought about it in your past. So ego work, start working on you. I have a program which is called becoming yourself. It's all about reconnecting to your truth, reconnecting to your authenticity, healing your trauma, meeting all of the side of your persona.
Maritè:So definitely your artist, but also all of the other types of sides and energy that we hold, all of our shadows. There's a lot of shadow work. And, the last part of the program, it's called becoming. So the first part is called healing. The second part is called unfolding, and the third part is called becoming, and it's a all self image work.
Maritè:So it's a it's really character work, the same that I do in acting a little bit more, you know, sophisticated because there are a lot of elements coming from personal design development and mindset work. And you can start building your persona, your new persona, your new self image, your new in the future self. And this is a work that we have really to reflect on and connect to because this person actually lives already within yourself. It's just that you need to discover this one a little bit like I was mentioning at the beginning of the podcast. I'm discovering myself after years of working on me.
Maritè:And I'm discovering like, oh, really? I don't like the spotlight. I like to be a little bit out of the spotlight. Oh, really? I don't really wanna be famous.
Maritè:I don't care. I don't give a shit. I want a bracow in the eyes to, for my value, for the value of the work that I offer or the value of the things that I share for the value of my experience. So it's not about me and my beauty, which is okay. Because, I mean, it's okay.
Maritè:I don't have anything against the beauty of anybody, but in this case, it's like, I really love my mind. I really love my freedom. That's what I wanna share. That's what I wanna be known for. And I think that as a first episode, it's a good one.
Maritè:It's very intense. We have touched many things. So this is the first episode of, notes for artists. If you have anything you wanna share with me, do it. Connect to me.
Maritè:Message me at info@maritesalatielo.commaritesalatiel0.commaritesal latiel0. I'm gonna get back to you and, check also other the other podcast that I have, notes from a stranger and the holistic actress show where I interview people all around the globe, and many of them are in the creative field, acting, art, or many, many, many others. So check that check that out. There's there are a lot of resources you can find, on my on my platforms. Follow me on Instagram.
Maritè:I am the holistic actress, Magda Satiele. And if you're interested to do any work with me, either is working on your healing or your personal development or new actor on on the becoming yourself on the human design. I'm passionate, and I teach and I do reading some human design, which is another incredible powerful tool to of self discovery. Connect to me. Okay?
Maritè:If you liked this podcast, rate it, give me a star, follow it, And I think it's okay. So far, so good. I'll see you soon.