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An exclusive, limited-time podcast series by Victoria Nielsen on mastering the art of breaking cycles, inspired by teachings in the Akashic Awakening Program.
Victoria Nielsen [00:00:01]:
Welcome to Cycle Breakers, a special limited podcast series by Victoria Nielsen designed to support you in your journey of breaking cycles and creating a new path for yourself, your family and humanity. In honor of Akashic Awakening, my group program for women who want to rewrite negative narratives and get in touch with their own energy again. You ready? Let's dive on in.
Victoria [00:00:23]:
Hi, loves. Welcome to another episode of your special edition podcast series, Cycle Breakers. I want to talk about resistance today as part of the cycle breaking and spiritual awakening process. Because this man is something that I think trips everybody up, myself included, right? Because when we are the first of our generation of our lineage to be doing things differently, it takes so much energy to not fall apart and to fight feeling the things that are arising within you. Because it's not easy, right? It's. It's hard. It feels like you're climbing an uphill battle every single day when you are opening to this new way of being and when you're trying to be the way shower and the leader for those in your family, those in your life. But when we exert this tremendous energy to not fall apart, we resist our grief, our heartbreak, whatever negativity is arising within us.
Victoria [00:01:28]:
We deny the need to change. Until all of a sudden, that choice no longer feels like ours. It feels like it's being forced upon us. It's being thrust upon us by the universe. And then it's really easy to get into a state of anger and frustration and denial because we are like, oh, we didn't want this to happen. It's happening to us, not for us. But it all comes back to how we identify ourselves and how we identify the situation. Because so many of us come into things with expectations, right? And with resistance, whether or not we actually realize it.
Victoria [00:02:10]:
And the resistance that we're facing comes from us. It's not coming from the outside world. It's coming from us in our worldview and how we think things should go or how they should feel, or the baggage, right, that we're carrying into these circumstances. The way that we have been taught to look at the world by our elders and by those around us. And, you know, I taught a Kundalini Kriya this morning for openness, and it really showed me how expectation can be the root of resistance, right?
Speaker C [00:02:47]:
You.
Victoria [00:02:47]:
You think nothing's going to change, or you have this negative mindset, and of course you're going to run up against a wal. Of course you're gonna run up against a block. And it's so much harder to open ourselves when we're in that state because we think we already know the outcome. We think it's already going to be bad. And so we're bracing ourselves for impact instead of softening and opening ourselves to receive. Because things most likely will be better than we ever thought possible, easier than we ever thought possible when we can rid ourselves of some of those expectations, right? Or of that dogma. You know, I think a lot about my children in this respect when, you know, I really don't like saying the phrase like because I told you so because or because I say so. That's something that my mom used on me a lot and I hated it.
Victoria [00:03:40]:
I always wanted an explanation. And, you know, I think in child rearing in particular, we come up against that because it's how it's always been done, or we want them to show us deference and we are the ultimate authority. But if we can just allow ourselves to open a little bit and not put our expectations on the situation, things become so much easier. You know, when we decide that it's not going to be a big deal, then it's not a big deal. When we decide that this thing that we're so worked up about isn't going to affect us, then it doesn't. And I'm not saying that it's easy to shift this mindset, but I think when you come into all of this with vulnerability, realizing that that's our greatest strength, if we are always broken, then we can never break. And I think that's so beautiful because it's not a failure. It's actually the whole point is to be vulnerable and broken open in a way that you can receive exactly what you need in that moment.
Victoria [00:04:53]:
Because everything is happening for your liberation. And it is only you that can choose more love in those moments. And so all of the things that feel like they're building up, can you let that dam open a little bit? Can you allow yourself to actually feel whatever is rising in inside of you, even if it's uncomfortable? Because, you know, that I think, is the key to moving through these cycle breaks and these awakenings with a bit more ease is that we release the expectations of what it's going to look like and we release the burdens that we're carrying that we have to do this all alone. You. You know, we hear all the time how hard it is to be a first generation cycle breaker. We hear how hard it is to be moving through a spiritual awakening, but does it have to be that way? Or is it just that we have programmed ourselves to think it is because everyone else is having such a hard time, because everyone else is resisting, is holding on to the old parts of their life that are no longer serving them. And they're being brought kicking and screaming into this awakening that is happening for their highest good. And, you know, it's.
Victoria [00:06:07]:
It's almost like you're. You got to be along for the ride. And, yes, you're steering the ship, but at times you have to know when to let go and trust that you're being held and you're being supported on this journey because you are a thousand percent. You are always being supported by the universe. You are always being guided in the direction that you're meant to go. And if you can keep that openness, then you can keep yourself in a more neutral place. You can allow for any of the possibilities to open up. And, you know, that's what's causing us a lot of stress and friction most of the time.
Victoria [00:06:49]:
It's us. It's us being in resistance to what's happening around us. It's us being in resistance to our feelings. It's us being in resistance to and repeating the patterns that have been told to us, right, of how kids should act or how we should behave. And, you know, as we begin this deprogramming and this delayering and this uncovering, I ask you to be the curious observer of your life. And when these things begin to arise, can you get curious and say, well, what is this feeling? Why am I feeling like this? What's going on? You know, I was. I was sitting down to even put together, like, the sales page for this program, and I was feeling so much resistance, and it was like, well, what is that about? Like, I. I know that this is good.
Victoria [00:07:43]:
I know that this is going to be amazing. I. I know exactly what I want to teach people. Like, why am I having such a hard time with this? And I shook my entire body and started playing my sound bowls. And before I knew it, I started sobbing. I was crying so hard, and it came out of nowhere. But I allowed my body the. The space to tell me what it wanted to tell me.
Victoria [00:08:10]:
Because this anxiousness that I was feeling, this resistance that I was feeling was something coming up in my body, in my energetic field that needed to be moved and worked through for me to be able to feel the peace that was cultivating for me, to be able to feel that everything is. Is working out the way that it should. And if I had continued to ignore that feeling, I would have sat here in this stuckness. I would have Sat here and looped right in that. That constant like, oh, my God, I like analysis paralysis almost. Because you're so overwhelmed with what's happening, because you're trying to intellectualize what's happening and you're not allowing yourself to feel what is happening in. And all of us have that opportunity to be vulnerable with ourselves. You know, what.
Victoria [00:09:05]:
What is happening currently in your life that you can see as an opportunity to expand, that you can see as an opportunity to release what's not serving you. Because all these things that we're avoiding, we're then avoiding the whole point, right, of being here, of everything. Because, you know, instead of us being in the empowered driver's seat, making choices to figure out who we are, we instead sit back and then all of a sudden we get sideswiped and our self identity shatters. And. And that's when we're thrown into the chaos and tumultuousness of spiritual awakenings and breaking cycles because we are allowing ourselves to be shifted by the world around us instead of coming at it from a more compassionate place, but also just a more open place to let anything that wants to come through come through. Because nothing lasts forever, right? So this feeling of uncomfortableness isn't going to be there until the end of time. It's going to be there until you deal with it. But then when you deal with it, you're going to move through it and you're going to move beyond it.
Victoria [00:10:21]:
And we can work ourselves up so much. The fear in our minds, right, of how bad it's going to feel or how bad it's going to be. That's all your ego. Your ego is building everything up. Because your ego is the one that doesn't feel safe. Your ego is the one that doesn't want you to move on to something bigger and better and different. And that's its job, right? Is to keep you, you know, quote unquote safe. But sometimes keeping you safe means keeping you small and means keeping you in your comfortableness and in the box that you've made for yourself.
Victoria [00:10:59]:
And then you start chafing against the box, right? Because, you know, you want to be somewhere beyond it. You want to do something bigger, something better, something more expansive. But you're not allowing yourself to let the box expand. It is always your choice. And so I'm gonna tell you a.
Speaker C [00:11:20]:
Story here as an example of my own life and how this happened to me. I was chafing against the box. I still work in corporate America, but at the time, that was all I knew and what I thought I would always be doing. But I was chafing against the box because I knew I was meant for more and I was begging my supervis to give me a raise. I had major, like, pick me, pick me energy because I didn't see myself. I wanted everyone else to see me. And it made me angry, it made me resentful, it made me really like start to numb myself and tune out.
Victoria [00:12:00]:
The world because I was like, well.
Speaker C [00:12:02]:
This can't be everything. Like, this sucks if this is what life is. And then I had a super rude awakening when I had a miscarriage. And it sent me on a journey of self discovery and doubt down this path of evolution that started in 2019. And when I think about it, I'm recording this right now at the very end of 2024. And I have healed and moved through lifetimes in that amount of time. And it's because I've allowed myself to move through the resistance that I face at every stage. At every stage.
Speaker C [00:12:34]:
Before your next expansion, you're going to come up against the most resistance that you may have ever felt. Because it's the last bit of the.
Victoria [00:12:42]:
Ego, the last bit of the shadow.
Speaker C [00:12:43]:
The last bit of the wounding coming up to clear for good and to really, like, ask you to go for it. The universe wants you to go for what you want.
Victoria [00:12:55]:
You have free will.
Speaker C [00:12:56]:
It can only go so far. But you have to be the one to take the leap. You have to be the one to take the step and then the universe will meet you more than halfway. But it needs to know that you want to do the work and that you're willing to go there because it can't intervene. You have free will on this earth and you have to choose. And again, you can choose again in any moment. And that's why this work is so important to me. Because I have seen firsthand how much you can transform in your own life when you are willing to go there.
Speaker C [00:13:26]:
I'm a completely different version of myself. If you knew me five years ago, that girl is like dead and gone. And this version of me is the most me that I have ever been. In any moment and every moment into the future, I'm gonna become even more me than I am now. And that's always the goal for me. And if you're here, that's my hope and prayer for you too. That you can become the boldest, biggest, most expressed version of yourself. And that doesn't always mean being loud and crazy, right? It just means being so you that you Couldn't be anybody else.
Speaker C [00:14:01]:
And if you're here, you're ready and it's okay. If you're scared, do it scared. Actually, fear is a really beautiful thing. When fear comes up, it's showing you that you're on the right path. And I'm not saying, like, fear, like, oh, my God, you're afraid for your life, but fear for the possibility of what could change. And again, we're afraid of the unknown. And so because the unknown is scary, we don't want to go there. We'd rather stay somewhere safe and somewhere comfortable.
Speaker C [00:14:27]:
But that one step into the unknown could be the breadcrumb that brings you to the next job, to the next opportunity, to the next relationship, to the next whatever it is. But without taking that leap, you're never going to get there. And I have also seen in my own life not only the transformational power of this work for me, but the ripple effect that it has on those around me. My mom and grandmother both had zero interest in, like, the spiritual space and any of that. And I did, too. To be honest. If you again, it talked to me five years ago and said that I was going to be like a spiritual person, I would have laughed in your face. But now my mom, like, comes to my retreats, she comes to my workshops, she comes to my events.
Speaker C [00:15:10]:
The last time I was home, my grandmother had me read her oracle cards for her. Like, people in your immediate vicinity get curious because you start to glow. You start to, you know, start to have this spark about you, and they're magnetized to it. They want it, too. So you're not only doing this just for you, you're doing this for those around you as well, and for the collective. You know, some people are meant to heal the world and some people are meant to heal themselves, and both are equally beautiful and both are equally needed. So if you are here on the cycle breaking journey with me, I'm so excited. We've got some really juicy podcasts planned for the coming weeks.
Speaker C [00:15:48]:
And all of this again is in honor of my group signature program, Akashic Awakening, where you will learn to heal and access your Akashic records. We will use tools like Kundalini Yoga to move lifetimes of energy up and of the body. And we're gonna make this awakening process a bit more easeful. We're gonna do it in community, we're gonna do it together, and we're gonna have a really good time.
Victoria [00:16:08]:
Okay.
Speaker C [00:16:09]:
This work, even though it can be hard and heavy, doesn't have to keep you down all the time. There can be moments of lightness, there can be moments of brevity. And that's the beauty of this work and of doing it in community together. That you can laugh among the tears and know that you're not alone in the cycles that you're breaking and in the resistance that you're feeling and in anything that you so I hope you will join me for Akashic Awakening. We start mid January. The doors are officially open if you are listening to this podcast. So run, don't walk to sign up. And thanks for being here with me.
Victoria [00:16:48]:
Be good to one another. I love.