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We’ve been told the feminine is “rising," but the truth is, she must first descend—into her roots, her womb, her shadow, her softness. This descent is not collapse. It is reclamation. This 7-part podcast training from Monarch Mystery School is guiding women into the depths of their power, pleasure, and purpose.
Hey, guys, and welcome to another episode of The Dark Feminine Diaries by Monarch Mystery School.Daphne here.And Victoria.So today, we're gonna be talking to you about the trinity, but newsflash, not the one they taught you to worship.This is not Father, Son, and Holy Spirit territory, ladies.We're talking about the maiden, mother, and crone.Dun, dun, dun.So yes, we are rewriting the trinity here today.Um, so today, we're gonna really talk about, you know, that maiden persona, that sexy, youthful, pleasure-filled s- uh, feminine energy, and how we should be tapping into that, as well as balancing it out with our motherhood, nourishing, beautiful, blooming energy, and the wisdom of our crone within.Yes, 'cause we carry all 3 of them in us at any given time, and often, many of the women that I have worked with, and myself included, tend to be stuck in one of these energies, and you may not be in even a healed version of that energy.So we wanted to talk through how these energies could be showing up in your life in both healed and kind of shadow versions, because the more that you get in touch with these 3 energies within yourself, the more that you're gonna be fully embodied, not only in your truth, but in your wisdom, in your playfulness, in your bliss, because so many of us are cutting ourselves off from parts of the trinity.So for me in particular, I know I was living in wounded mother and wounded maiden for a long time, and that can look different for everyone, but for me in particular, that wounded maiden is really that inner teenager that never grew up.IMy parents divorced very young.I had to grow up early.I was very angry for a lot of my life, and not realizing that that wounded maiden, yes, she has, she kind of has too many ideas, she's ungrounded, but also, she is always looking for love outside of herself.She is always looking for things outside of her, because she doesn't trust herself.She doesn't trust her own wisdom.She doesn't trust her own intuition.And that can lead to wounded mother so, so easily, right?Because you already don't trust, and then you have all this shit that the world tells you you should be and do and say and act like a mother, and now you're like, "Well, who the fuck am I and what do I do?"Yes, yes, yes.And you know, I, I, I love that you're sharing that, because my wounded maiden looked a little bit different, but with all the same wounds, right?So the 3D version of my wounded maiden was that I came from a very sheltered upbringing, right?I wasn't asked to grow up early.I was kept under the skirt and I grew up late.But the reality is that my energy up until that point was performative.I was seeking for love outside of myself by being the good girl.How good could I be?Was I ever gonna be good enough to be deserving of the love, of the external validation that I always seeked?And when I went to college and wild out and, and all of that, and then became a mother, all of that then became like, "Wow, I'm never enough."Mm-hmm.I wasn't able to perform enough.In my particular case, you know, my wounded maiden actually led me to, um, my body breaking down under the pressure of my own wooden maid- wounded maiden and performative energy.I literally developed an autoimmune disease and, you know, became bedridden in my 20s.And so that wounded mother actually felt like a sav- a saving for me, right?Becoming the wounded mother was a saving for me, um, on a soul level, but it then came with, "I'm still not enough.Now I'm the martyr."Yeah, exactly.Now I'm the victim.Now, now it's the, "Woe is me," you know, "Why does this keep happening to me?"That, we, we call it that pretend confusion.Yes."I wasn't enough then, I'm not enough now."It's pretend confusion that somehow something outside, outside of yourself is supposed to validate you more than you.And I think that it's notIt's, it's pretend confusion, but it's also, it's taught confusion.Oh, absolutely.And that wounded maiden, I didn't realize I was carrying that until I'd already been a mom for, you know- Yeah.almost 5 years.And so there are so many of us that are carrying, and that, that's that inner child work.That's listening to that little girl inside of you and taking the time to discover what it is she actually wants, and I think the thing I wanna come back to is that performative nature, because that, to me, has been on my mind so much lately, especially, you know, young girls these days, I, I mean, you're making TikToks, you're performing for the internet.How much of that is them performing because they enjoy it or because they have learned that that's how they get attention?Yeah.That's how they get attention from the male gaze- Yeah.and even beyond the male gaze, the female gaze.Yes!Because, okay- It's not cool.maybe you're not performing for a boy.You're sure as fuck performing for that girl next to you.You wanna look cool.Yeah.You want her to like you.And that, to me, is just as bad, and that is wounded maiden.I don't think that gets talked about enough, that like, when we look at that other girl, that is wounded maiden energy.Absolutely.Yes.Yeah.And that manifests like competition.Yes.Yes.It manifests like, like strange competition in places where competition does not belong.Need to be.Right, right, like, 'cause, 'cause I just wanna say, like, I am not, likeI'm gonna go personally here.I am not a give a prize to everyone.I am all about competitive nature and like, the cream rises to the top, but that is not the same as the cattiness and the gossip culture that the wounded feminine and the wounded maiden really manifest as in the 3D, and it manifests as that, like, whino mommy culture where you're drinking wine while you whine about life.That's the wounded feminine become the wounded mother.Yep.Yep.And then we don't have any examples, or I don't think we have any examples of healed crone, except for actually someone said to me the other day, uh, Pamela Anderson these days is now, like- Okay.healed crone.So sorry, I was saying we don't have any examples of healed crone.We have plenty of fucking examples of wounded crone.Yeah.HealedBut someone mentioned that Pamela Anderson is a good example of healed crone and I was like, "You know what?Actually, I could see it.I could see it," because she's not wearing makeup, she's not performing for men- Right.She's tapping into her own wisdom, you know?Sure.Um- I mean, I- I- I think that there's a lot of, um, less sexy examples.So But I kind of like that example because you saw her, right, as the ultimate, like male gaze- Yeah.female gaze, and kind of- kind of swung the other way, or has at least been more embodied, I think, in it than maybe she was before.I, you know, I'm- I'm not gonna poke holes in Pamela Anderson.I love that she's-showing up the way that she did.Poke holes.Poke holes.I do wonder- I do wonder if it's just another performance because- Hm, okay.in today's land of super everything, she's not super enough.I hate to say it, but you know, while I'm just- there's too many folks- No, but so do you think that's why she swung the other way?and too many fighting withinWell, there's just like, you know, in the Kim Kardashian culture, she didn't have that.She was the- the foundation of that culture, right?That like hyper performative, hyper performative, you know, to the point where we're- we're adjusting our bodies to perform, um, you know, and that's- and that's I think part of it is the fact that those are, to your point when you're talking about examples and- and social, you know, people to look up to, um, there's not a lot of examples of- of healed anything.And so- and so what we do is- Fair.we just proliferate all of this, right?And then- and then we make the mistake of- of going the other direction, right?The new mask is like I meditate and therefore I'm healed.Oh, it's- it's the love and light.Thank you for saying that because I really- I don't think w- I explained it very well in the first episode, but the reason this is Dark Feminine and not just The Feminine Diaries, is because you have to traverse the underworld.You have to do the shadow work.You have to hold up the mirror and look at yourself.And I think a lot of today's feminine spirituality is bypassing.Correct.And it's saying, "Oh, if you love yourself enough, if you bring enough-" Yep." light to it," when actually you need the fucking darkness.The shadow is a beautiful thing to show you where you have room to grow.Yes.And I mean, at- at the end of the day, you know, I use this line all the time, our job on this Earth is to find the gold in the shit, right?The shit- Mm-hmm.isn't here to be shit, right?The shit is here to show you how to get back to the light, but when we all inevitably deal with the BS of life, which brings us into the darkness and makes us face those unhealed part of ourselves, which we all have, right?In fact, the goal is not fucking love and light.The goal is remembering that when you're in the shit, inevitably, because that's just how it goes-that you remember you are not the shit.Yeah.Because we are loo- they're so desperate to look for approval and that performance and like, "Is our mask okay?Is our mask enough?Is it pretty enough?Is it trendy enough," right, that we forget that then we adopt that- Mm-hmm.instead of saying, "Well, but like what about the parts of me that don't fit into that mask?Like and why do I have to hide myself?"Yep.I don't feel all love and light.And I think that t- comes back to, you know, really the cycle, right?Because our menstrual cycle, like it's hard to feel all love and light whenYou're in your luteal phase and you hate the world.And youYeah, like when you're literally living in the underworld and you're bl- literally bleeding.Like- You're wounded.You are literally wounded.And- and by the way, can we just in that- acknowledge that this is a quarter of your life?Just, I mean, for some of us even more, I mean, but I'm- I'm a seven dayer.So- Oh, really?Oh, I'm only like 5ish.Okay, all right.So you, you got, you know, a little less, you know, it's fine.But a quarter of my life, I, I am with wound.Fuck, when you think about it like that, likeAnd yet, like, I'm supposed to, like, tap dance and be like, "This isn't happening, love and light, love and light."No wonder we're all so fucking angry.We're all so constrained and, and, you know, we need all of it, right?We need space to be that mother that, like, you know, stays up at night with her child and, like, the most nurturing thing that you're doing is sitting in the darkness with your child, nourishing them, right?Like, when you think about that, like, that's the underbelly of the feminine, right, that, like, in the 3D.It's, it's a, it's a silly, superficial example, but it's the way that, like, not all nourishing, not all of the elements of maiden, mother or crone are all love and light, but they make the love and light piece so much brighter, right, if you're willing to accept all of it.Absolutely.And I was thinking too about where wild woman fits in there.So- Yeah.if you follow kind of the menstrual cycle, maiden is that, that inner spring, you know, she's excited, she's got a lot going on, that's kind of when you wanna do a lot of your task-oriented things in your life.That mother energy comes, like, when you're ovulating, when you literally can become a mother, you know- Right.once a month.But when you enter into that luteal phase, that is your wild woman right before crone, and she's really often misunderstood, and I actually think if you're living your life to, you know, the, the true energy of maiden, mother, crone, wild woman is always there.I don't believe wild woman only comes once a month.She can be tapped into easier- Mm-hmm.during your luteal phase, so if that energy is foreign to you- Mm-hmm.that kind of Kali, like, burn it down to make it better, that's wild woman.She can be showing up in her wounded energy when you get into, like, vindictive energy, so, like- Like-vindictive mom, like, kind of vindictive maiden.You know, vindictive mom can be like, "You know, I'm not gonna do that for you because I'm already pissed off."Um, and vindictive maiden can be like, "I'm gonna go slash your tires 'cause I'm pissed at you," you know?Yeah.Um, and I- And vindic- wait, wait, and victi- vindictive crone blames the mother and the maiden.Yes!Yes.Uh, she's, she's jaded, she's jaded as fuck, she hates the world.She doesn't wanna pass on her knowledge, because she's like, "You bitches aren't gonna listen anyway, so fuck you."LikeRight.You know?'Cause she assumes that her cycle is everyone else's cycle.Right?That it's not gonna be broken, it's not, that, that there is no shift, and, and I think that's what we're here to do, is- Oh, absolutely.to in- to, to shake it out, to shake out the truth, and not to be like, "This is the way, your natural order," th- but just, if you're aware of it, naturally awareness brings a desire to overcome, right, to not be caged by.So many of us are caged by these ideas and these, um, these frameworks that we were born into, and, and they're not who we are, and we know it.And we know it because that rub that we feel, right, that st- that thing that we call stress, that thing that we believe is the opposite of bliss, that's your life, that's your soul, that's your body saying, "Hey, there's a wounding in one of your elements here."Right?Like, this isn't, again, we are descending with the feminine because when you look within, it's not that performative energy.All of the information you're looking for exists in here, so when you honor this and you show up in that, it's not a mask, it's like a glowing light bulb.Mm-hmm.It's like you're just emanating out what you have inside, as opposed to, like, painting over the light bulb with, like, metallic paint and being like, "This is what I am."Well, if that's what you are, then what's inside?And what are you working so hard on?Yeah, like, what, what is- Like, that's the other thing, like, when you really think about the way that you're performing, then you're like, so then why do you exist, if your job is to be like that?What?Why does the earth need a duplicate?Yeah.Why, why does the earth need 2 versions of a man, one that is the, I don't wanna say correct version, but the, um, ver- Fully anatomically embodied version.There you go.I'm like, what am I saying here?You know?And then our version, which is, I think an, um, an artifice of- Yeah.And we will never be, y'all can come for me, I, we will never be equal to men in their own energy.Oh my god, wait, wait, where, where is it, where is it?Hold on.Women who seek to be equal with men lack ambition.Right?You, your job is not to be something that already exists.No.You have to be something no one's ever fucking seen, and to be- Mm-hmm.And that's terrifying, that's terrifying.We get it.I get it.But that's actually your job.Yup.Not to be a watered-down version of someone else, but to be wholly and completely yourself, and if you are a woman, if you are someone who identifies as feminine, then it is to be in your feminine energy.It is not to be, uh, a, a facsimile of male energy.That's a fun word, facis- facsimile.Am I saying that right?I don't know.I, uh, I, I love that word.Um, I often don't use it 'cause I don't know how to say it.Well, we'll see if I say it the right way.Yeah.Well, we'll find out, we'll google that shit later.UmSomeone that's listening, let me know.Thanks.Yeah.Well, so I wanna talk a little bit about sensuality.Mm-hmm.And I wanna talk about how, how that kundalini energy is likeSo, I think it's, it's gotten a misnomer in that, like, people f- still think that sensuality is somehow, like, we're getting sexy and we're making money from getting sexy.Like, this is not, this is not another OnlyFans method, all right?That's not what we're doing here at all.But, like, the idea that if you don't accept all of yourself then you can't use the tool of who you are energetically, right?And therefore, you're always gonna fall short of your potential if you don't actually know what the fuck your potential is.And I believe that kundalini energy is what really awakens that potential within us, because it is energy of creation that we as women are specifically designed to not only harness, but expand and utilize.I mean, when you think about the fact that we're anatomically made to cre- recreate life, right, reproduce life, incubate life, well, that's the same energy that incubates anything.Abundance of anything.And remember, abundance just means more.So, more of anything you want in this world, you're actually designed to make.So, I mean, I love the way that we are sharing today all of these kundalini energetic tools that we use, you know, to, to awaken that sensuality.Mm-hmm.Yeah, because the kundalini that's coiled at the base of our spine, it's at everyone's d- the base of everyone's spine, you know, male or female.Correct.But that energy, when it's moving in a micro orbit, specifically up out of the crown of the head, down and back around, that's when your life force energy is at its highest.Yep.That's when your life force energy is at its peak, and that's when you're sending those ripples out into the universe.That's when your aura enters a room before you do.That's when you are, like, turned up and turned on by life.And I feel like we, we should probably have, like, a whole separate episode about, like, kundalini awakenings and, like, the sensuality and the sexuality that can come with that.And because it will blow your mind what can be awakened at the base of the spine- Yeah.when it actually'Cause I think, like, I mean, I've been doing kundalini for a while now.I thought it was very different.When someone explained to me the kundalini awakening, I was like, "Oh, I'm gonna feel this rushing of energy up the spine and out of the head," and yes, for some people, that may be the case.For others, when your kundalini awakens, you're just fucking turned on.Yes.You know?Yeah.Yes.For some of you, it's gonnaI mean, I remember the first time for me, it was like my entire nervous system, like, lit up.It was like the first time that I, tha- that it, like, realized it was there- Yeah.um, you know?And then, and then the simultaneous, you know, turning on, like, feeling lit from within, but it's, it's deeper than just being turned on- Yeah.because it's not, it's not just localized in your sex organs.It's like, it's full body orgasmic bliss.And this is, when we talk about living in bliss, like, dare I say it, I'm not always dialed up to that level.But I'm going to tell you, like, in all actuality, that I have spent days, even weeks at a time feeling so lit in my body that I literally have been like, "Am I awake?""Is this, is this reallyAm I still human?"And I know that sounds nuts, but, like, that is what an awakened kundalini energy can do in your body.When you are fully doing what your heart knows it needs to, following yourself from within, fully descended and rising from that rooted place, which is that root of the spine, right?No pun intended.It's literally rooting into that purpose.Holy shit.Like, fuck the Garden of Eden.It's in your pussy.it is.And, like, I'm thinking about, like, my, my kundalini trainings.I, my guru that I worked with always had us start with the sacral chakra.Every single kundalini meditation he did started with us doing Sufi grinds, and that was very intentionally because of the proteins and the peptides and the intuition that literally- Yep.resides in your gut.Like- Yep.physically and emotionally and spiritually.It's all there in the womb space.Yep.And that energy, using that energy of creation that you have, that you cycle through naturally as a woman every 28 days, that birth and, and death cycle and rebirth again, that is the energy that you can harness in your everyday life to literally do anything that you want.Yeah.You wanna start a business?You want to get your dream job?You wanna have kids?Like, whatever that dream is, it is possible through the energy of your womb space, and aligning yourself with that energy every month so that you're working with it.Also, I suggest, you know, look at the astrology as well because as above, so below, but you're gonna find such, uh, such a mirror in your life to your womb and to your jaw.If you have a tight jaw, if you're carrying tension in that space, you're most likely gonna have rough periods, cramping, maybe some endometriosis, things like that.To your point earlier, those are all signs from your body.Those are all feminine signs from your body that you're alchemizing something from this last month, and that you're moving through it into this next stage of whoever you are.How fucking cool that our bodies naturally help us alchemize.We're fucking magic.We are.Like, the, the magic of our pussies, the magic of our wombs, like, cannot be overstated.No, it cannot be overstated.Cannot.And I just, ISo 2 things that came in.So, the orange piece, how interesting is it thatI'm sorry, that orange piece.I jumped right in.So, the sacral chakra, the color is orange.Daphne just speaks in colors, by the way.Oh, sorry.So, orange sacral chakra.Yeah.I just speak in color auras.Um, okay, so the ora- the, uh, sacral chakra is orange, and when you think about Buddhist monks, what color do they wear?Mm-hmm.They wear orange because they harness, and their meditations are literally to tap into the energy of creation.They're not tapping into the root of the spine.They're tapping into the Kundalini energy of creation, that spark of life.It's literally the spark of life.Um, and we awaken from there because from there, what do we do to rise up?Think about it.We have to descend.We have to descend from that spark of creation down into the root, the purpose of our life, right?And then shoot up, and then back over again, right?And when we're talking about that energy rising up, that Kundalini energy rising up, and we talked about our jaws.So, our jaws mimic the energy of our hips.Our jaws are blue, and our jaws, if you think about, we're speaking.We're speaking from what?From the truth of our creation.We're not speaking the performance.We're not speaking to be mirrored back.We're speaking from the womb.We're literally s- like, made to live like that.That's why, you know, whenever I'm, I'm teaching a yoga class, like I'm always, like, trying to get people to stack their shoulders over their hips because that naturally aligns your jaw back to where it needs to be, so you can speak from your pussy.That's what we want you to do.That's the dark feminine mystery that you're talking from, I don't, I don't know.Are you, where are they talking from?Are you talking from your boobs?LikeYou're not talking from the dark feminine mystery of creation that you were born with.Now, why, why can I not unsee like, a face and teeth, and like, now I'm a little terrified, but also like, amazed.Isn't that the, the cover of the Vagina Monologues?Isn't that the cover?Maybe.Wasn't that it?Wasn't it like, a mouth pussy?I don't know.Maybe I made that up.If I made that up, oh my God, we're gonna draw it.Okay, we're gonna draw it anyways.It's gonna be amazing.I know, we're totally gonna draw it anyways.This is why we got, we wanted you guys to be a fly on the wall because we just have these conversations and partly, yes, it comes from us and our learned experience, but I also think we're partly channeling shit from the universe as we're, we're speaking because we are divine vessels.So, we're talking from our pussies here to you guys as part of this series.And I, I almost just wanna end it there.I don't know that we can top that for the rest of this episode.What the fuck else did we wanna say?Um, I don't, I don't know.I, I would like to invite each and every one of you listeners to use this energy to manifest your most insanely delicious life beyond the bedroom.Yes.Oh my God, beyond the bed- like, beyond the bedroom.That's, that's another episode coming, guys.The power of using, like, your orgasms beyond the bedroom.Yeah.They are so powerful.It- I'm gonna do a, I'm gonna do a whole thing on, uh, orgasmic manifestations.Let's do it.Orgasming your way to a million dollars.Let's do it.You know I really wanted to, uh, do this like, experiment with myself where I orgasmed every day for 30 days to see, like, what would happen.Yes.And I, I think I got to like, day 15, and I- Oh, okay.like, just stopped for some reason.Now I don't really remember what happened.It, I was going good there for a while.I think I wanna start that again.Maybe we, maybe we should do it.Oh my God, maybe that's the, thatMaybe that's a free challenge we offer.Do this.The 30-day-gasm.3gasm.third, thirdright.The million dollar pussy.All right, I think we're gonna sign off on this episode, but if you're not intrigued about what we're gonna talk about next, I, IThen maybe you're not our person and I'm sorry that we've scared you for life.But if you're like, "What will they say next?"Please tune in to our next episode of the Dark Feminine Diaries.We love you guys.Peace out.Bye.